*Linda’s Recent Rants

I told Josh that if he ever attends a Kyryx  meeting (I can’t spell it.  Supposedly it is a GOD-GROUP that teaches prisoners how to be better people…)  with my brother,  he should  be assured that DAVID’S  god is not MY GOD.

5:23 pm



Hope I don’t have to starve to death before he grants me a SINGLE CONVERSATION!!!!

2:39 pm


You’re a fraud.  I’m on a hunger strike.  FYI

2:25 pm


My father and my mother and my brother and my sister and everybody else who used to ‘care’ about me have refused to discuss the IMPLOSION OF CIVILIZATION.    They will NOT TALK TO ME .  I stop eating now.

2:15 pm

TEXT TO DAD, MOM, and DAVID the liar:

I know you and you know I do.  What do we do with your fake life?  Now is FAR BETTER than later to come clean.  There is a limited opportunity before somebody spills the beans.  Also, I AM VERY OFFENDED THAT YOU TAKE MY LORD’S NAME IN VAIN.  You’re nothing like him.

2:01 pm


“My blood  runs cold…my memories  have  just been sold.  My angel’s  in the centerfold.”

Before the days of selfies and sexting…men thought their women should be discrete…


J. Geils band

God Bless America!  (Are you ‘Christians’ happy?)

12:13 pm


You still go to church?  That’s pretty nauseating.

11:52 am

MUSIC BREAK, this one goes out to Jesus’ ‘church’

Ring Them Bells

“Aint’ no use jivin’.  Ain’t no use jokin’.  Everything is broken”

Everything Is Broken

11:43 am


And you’re certainly a fake brother.   You knew I was being raped without me even telling you.  You’ll go to hell if you do not defend truth.  Jesus is truth.  Nice knowing you.

11:37 am


I work for you and your children every waking minute and you won’t even talk to me…because you defend a liar.  Guess you’re a fake father too.

11:28 am


I knew Mom and Dad were fake Christians but I believed you were real.  My bad.

11:19 am

“‘War on Terror’ is Really Just Theatre”

Trevor Aaronson

“US government officials call this the “war on terror.” It’s really just theatre–a national security theatre with mentally ill men like Sammy Osmakac, unwitting actors in a carefully-choreographed production brought to you by the FBI.”-Investigative journalist Trevor Aronson

10:07 am

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10:05 am

Dr. Mercola: Death by Medicine

 This video presented by Mercola.com allows you to discover how conventional medicine has emerged as the leading cause of death and injury in the United States.

4:49 am

If the old doors signal: ‘I’m getting pulled back to my past’ – lock them.

Be firm, stand your ground. You are not responsible for other people’s need for keeping you in your past. We are responsible for not being dragged there.

They toss and turn and have the feel in the nervous system that they describe as similar to an electric current running up and down their legs.

The opening of doors is, as mentioned, very subtle. Subtle is good, since the God-Force speaks that way through the density. On occasion it certainly speaks with high impact, but the vibe is: invitation based.

People are finding each other now at a very high frequency level.
It’s like: ‘I feel at home in your eyes – can you love me?’

Nothing that goes on right now on that level or in the field of infinite possibilities is random. It is: Meant to be.

...Love is also: Giving other people a crisis so they can move on  and find their relationships on whatever level where they feel safe. And they certainly aren’t safe if we think they restrain us. We will riot at some given time and so will they.

Read more here:   http://sorendreier.com/getting-the-doorway-influx-2015/


4:46 am

OK, we got a couple grandkids.  Their mother follows Jesus, the Christ, who does not think as humans do.  Their Christian grandparents presume to teach, but have never met Jesus, the Christ.  Their Christian grandparents do not even care, that their own descendants do not believe.  What’s wrong with this picture?


4:41 am

“What’s important is that we DO engage in ALARMING ACTIVITIES, because these are alarming times.”

(Alex Jones)


4:24 am

I’m sore all over and it feels great.  Tubing uses muscles I haven’t used for two years as I typed.  My parents are presented a great opportunity.  Theirs is an opportunity coveted by Christian grandparents world-wide.  They can easily turn their grandchildren to Christ.  Josh said, “Your dad won’t confess.  Get a life.”  Well that would be nice, but Planet Earth is not conducive to life-finding just now, and since my dad STOLE the one I had, I must continue pressuring him to be the man he claims. (Also so I can assist other targeted individuals to live.)   He could be a far better man than that, and God has provided the means.  All he has to do is to face me.  With witnesses.  And then, for his grandchildren and former son-in-law, God will be real once again.  I know he’s man enough to do the right thing.  My children will not go to hell because of his fears.  HE LOST A BET and  I know he’ll pay up.  For his grandchildren.

Jehovah’s Witnesses would love an opportunity to convert people with a single visit!

30 Bugs You Can Eat When  the SHTF!

Globally, beetles are one of the most consumed insects are with 31 percent of the population chowing down on these six-legged bugs on a regular basis. Despite the icky-sounding name, dung beetles (pictured above) are often eaten fried and are quite tasty.

Learn more here:   http://beforeitsnews.com/self-sufficiency/2015/07/30-bugs-you-can-eat-when-shtf-2491720.html



9:39 am

One day some human will cook for me…and clean up too!  I know this because I have done it for many hundreds of people, and what goes around comes around.


2:34 pm

My dad’s a schmuck.  I loved him so much!  He’s a liar and a fraud and I followed him right to the point where he almost killed me.  He’s a loser and a lowlife.  He’s a fake and a pretentious uneducated poseur.  He’s sorry and sorrowful.  He could be a Christian if he wished.  Instead he PRETENDS to be a Christian so people will feed his greatly-disturbed vanity.  I wanted to be like him when I was a little girl.  “God forgive me.”  I can’t believe I respected him so much I signed over my house.  I REALLY can’t believe I feared him.


2:25 pm

Dear Dad, I do not think you would be over-burdened if you wanted to change the world.  I do not think any more would be required of you than that of your regular schedule.  You could watch TV, you could go shopping. All you have to do is tell the truth just one single time…and you could be on the right side of history!  You could help THOSE WOMEN WHO ARE RAPED BY MICROWAVE WEAPONS… without ever admitting you had a hand in their assaults.  It’s an easy-out, and GOD KNOWS YOU, my beloved father, Robert Goldthorpe; you like nothing better than an easy-out.  (In-and-out.  Asia.  $)

2:12 pm


When Dad first called me crazy, I sought to be right.  Now I seek to be persuasive.

2:00 pm

My government gives money to scientists.

My scientists have cracked the code.

My government will not permit my scientists to tell me what they’ve learned.

My scientists, meaning the rare ones who desire to report forthrightly, ARE BEING MURDERED.

My government is a piece of shit.


1:04 pm

What might I extrapolate from my parents’ unwillingness to discuss with me matters of SUPREME importance? Are they kind-hearted parents determined to do right for their offspring?  Of course not.  Are they educators and Sunday School patrons who care that children learn truth?   Although each has played the role, whenever a chosen ‘student’ got out of line, their attention dissolved.  Are they righteous, God-fearing evangelists who care that others might go to hell?  If that were so, they’d pray with me about their concerns rather than talk about my foibles to strangers, would they not?  Do they actually DO any of the things they say are valuable to do?  Well, they show slides to people of their world travels, and they direct the choir and run the church-Halloween parties. (I know.  I don’t get it either how God’s people can party with the devil.)  Do they ACTUALLY believe I’m mentally deficient?  Their behavior belies that possibility.  They KNOW I’M RIGHT and they can’t EVER admit they were wrong.  So sad.  Lots of stubborn people in hell.


12:27 pm

Everybody is looking for a deliverer.  Jews say he’s coming soon, and so do Muslims. Some even predict his appearing in 2015.  Yeshua ha mashiach is the true savior, and I aim to serve only him, but  God has many names and many folds of sheep that we do not always recognize. “God” also denominates dark entities who are worshiped for their astounding power.  I serve a god of love.   Belligerent religions desire salvation by some vengeful messiah who does not share the attributes of the one; they’re unlike Jesus.  It’s always been difficult to determine who is unrighteous and who actually cares for humanity, but when holograms and bluebeams counterfeit miracles we’re seriously stymied.  My GOD can perform miracles without the assistance of technology.  So can representatives of the dark side.  Jews, Muslims and ‘Christians’ are sniffing the air, and seeing visions.  Everybody knows something’s up.  (Except my family. They’re instead at the mall.)   The world is changing fast, and representatives of differing faiths who can all wield wonders, will be televised.  We must not respond to their names, nor to the names of their affiliations, but to their demonstrated  characteristics, and to their love of mankind, or lack thereof.  Warm fuzzies are not love.  Love is hard and base.  Love is demanding and demonstrative of truth and trust.  If a Muslim loves truth, he is my brother.  He is also unlikely to fall for the ‘Muslim messiah’ who comes bearing ‘deliverance’ of a bodily mien and promises of bodily joys.  A true deliverer will recognize that life is eternal, and that others are just as important as those who choose to follow him.  He will lay down his life for others.  Oh wait.  I guess he already did that.


10:43 am

July 5, in the Year of our Lord, two thousand fifteen. My father nullified my personhood six years ago.   I have been without family and denied a hearing since 2009.  I have made many gifts for family members that received no acknowledgement.  I have written volumes and even mailed some of my words to them via USPS.  No response.   It’s a good thing I’m learning to live without them because it looks like they aren’t going to be where I INTEND to live…in Heaven. My family has proven to be a gutless gaggle of Robert-pleasers and they “love and make” lies.  I confess that I’m still appalled though, that they go to church.  Perhaps my offense is groundless, because the church is rotten within, and my people evince the same worsening putrefaction. We’re known by the company we keep and most-times I keep no company but Jesus’.  I could do much worse.


Revelation 22:14-15

14 Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city.

15 For without are dogs, and sorcerers, and whoremongers, and murderers, and idolaters, and whosoever loveth and maketh a lie.


7:30 am

Activists are necessarily political dissidents.  Everybody else is an immobilist.  Immobility is the opposite of activism.  Immobility does not dissent, but endures.  Immobility is self-reinforcing although ultimately defeatist.  “Upward mobility” is a contrived goal, for those who do not actually move.  The ‘upwardly mobile’ do not dissent, as long as they sense imaginary motion in their bank accounts.  Their failure to move is enforced by numbers on a sheet of paper and it keeps them consumed by fraudulent progress.  “Upward” begs definition.  The term has been coopted by those who would have us believe that money and status wait at the top.  (They know better.  They’ll go to Mars after they’ve destroyed the world thanks to the apathy of the immobile.)  A large bank account is not high-living.  A large bank account is deceptive and may be consumed at any time by those who did not earn the money.  They’ve done it to us before, thanks to the non-activists.  Immoble rich people eventually die, and to the elite their expiration is no more important than the death of an orphan in Mozambique.  The numbers on paper are consumed by taxes and fees for fancy coffins.  Gone.

For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?

6:40 am

How can I not always be grateful for my life?  God birthed ME into the home of a psychopath, permitted me to be tortured for truth, so he could now raise me up to promote HIM.  What a mighty God I serve!  “Thank you, Wonderful Jesus, for finding me worthy to speak TRUTH.  Thank you that one day I will no longer speak alone. Thank you for destroying human ‘government’ and replacing it with brotherly love.  Thank you for ALL THE MANY people who will soon see the Kingdom,  and that they will prefer it to the deathcamp-compound.  Thank you for loving us who are so very unlovable.  Thank you for your promises, and for giving me the desires of my heart.  Number 1 is you.  This puny world with its radioactive environment is the best hope for so many.  Please, reveal yourself and your perfect world, so we will no longer foolishly choose bondage.  Thank you.  Amen.”

6:28 am

Did Pentagon expert leak Jade Helm psyop objectives?

6:15 am


God’s message to those living in the Western world.  Sometimes he’s surprisingly ironic:

 I’d Like to Teach the World to Sing (In Perfect Harmony) 


I first became offended at my government because of their unwillingness to follow the rule of law.  I thought that laws = justice.  Later I observed my government enforcing laws foolishly, and maliciously.  Now I know that laws are political contrivances used to keep those subservient  who might influence the collectivism and elitist rule. I recognize that different laws exist for different people under the same circumstances, and I know that power corrupts.  I also know my Supreme Court is blackmailed, rather than ideologically motivated.  Every person of influence if blackmailed, if not by the NSA then by his own heart and memory.  We’re very limited in the actions we can take EVEN under non-official circumstances ,  but when  we’re in positions that influence others, even if our entire world hinges on withholding a single fact… it is an unspeakable crime to consider our own lives first, no matter how tenuous might be our position of status.  This is a no-brainer.  This is morality and it cannot be codified.

Laws are the declarations by which one human forces his will on another.  It matters not how many black robes and scholarly volumes separate the controlled from the controller, laws are simply that.  I submitted my will long ago to Jesus, the Christ.  I’m grateful that there have been few times where his words of instruction contradicted ‘legal’ edicts.  I suspect that will not much longer be the case, and I hope that fellow JESUS-FOLLOWERS will have my back, if and when I am instructed to break a ‘law’.  I do not plan to harm anybody physically, but sometimes God has required that of his servants.  I do not plan anything at all!  I know that God is taking over human government and by whatever means necessary.  I know I want that to happen with all my heart.  I am devotedly non-violent but satan’s followers are not, and they will be defeated.  I believe that when evil-doers die, it will be obviously the result of benevolent will and human-promoting volition.  I think that God’s people will not face consequences at the hand of human satan-worshipers.  God’s people will bow the knee to no man.  Selah.

5:03 am

Fourth of July is a difficult time for true patriots.  Fourth of July is when the flag flies over mailboxes and golf-carts. People wear red, white, and blue like Packers-Backers wear cheesehats at a football game.  Glitter and fireworks and lots of junk food.  America is one big party and everybody joins in.  It’s like watching a Godless church during ‘communion.’  Ritual is not reality, clothes do not make the man, and America does not merit celebration.  America REQUIRES WARRIORS.
I used to be sentimental about everything.  I am no longer even nostalgic.  I’ve spent so many holidays alone since my dad destroyed all my relationships,  that the syrupy-factors of human celebrations have long since dried up.  I don’t even wish at Christmas, to be among people, if those people are pretending to care about things that they also pretend are very important.  I dislike what I see at holidays, I dislike that expectations are elevated and that disappointments are part of the mix.  I dislike the artificiality of American holidays.  I dislike the artificiality of the American church, government, media, families.  If it’s not real adoration we feel, and we are only trumpeting the memes prescribed by others, then count me out.  I love America with a passion that causes me to rise up, not against those who belittle her, but against those who defile her from within.  Those same persons demand that I wave a flag and celebrate UNENDING WARS.  I plan to love America for loftier and more genuine reasons.  I plan to continue stepping on toes with truthful observations, and I’ll continue begging God to make us better, and worthy of praise.


Ray Charles, America the Beautiful

4:23 am


2:04 pm

My young friend’s on-again-off-again boyfriend  is here hiding out until the boat leaves, then he’s supposed to sneak aboard.  He has schnapps, as usual.  He played me a song, “I’m surprised you don’t know it, it’s a Christian band.”  (Yeah, right.  Like I’d know anything.)  It began with marching boots and remained militant-sounding, not too bad actually.  I then played him a video featuring JFK, Aaron Russo, Adam Kokesh, Eisenhower, that guy from long ago at Berkley who wanted us to put our bodies on the ‘leevers’…etc.  It was a call to war.  Josh face-palmed repeatedly.  (But not until the film ended, God bless him.)   He said that my recruitment efforts, and any strategy I might assume, will not possibly win…unless my God is real.  I said, “He’s REAL.  I find 4-leaf clovers every day.”  He said, “Four leaf clovers and bubbles.”  (Every time I squirt dish soap I dance with a bubble for a while.  Sometimes into adjoining rooms.)  He said, “When a 4-leaf clover and a bubble can protect you from machine-gun-fire,  come talk to me.”   Those trifles are evidence of a great force that has kept me safe through much worse assaults than gun-fire.  I will continue trying to recruit.  “May the force be with you, and encourage you to help save the people of America.”

12:48 pm

Josh and I are going on a boat!  All these years on the lake and no boat.  This is a good day.

July 4: US military & police: Impose martial law on all Americans, or arrest .01% criminal psychopath ‘leaders.’ Your call

Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/july-4-us-military-police-impose-martial-law-on-all-americans-or-arrest-01-criminal-psychopath-leaders-your-call/#SCu0dhsuyKMq5LHB.99

10:20 am

My family’s currently favorite salsa, and it’s pretty simple:
Put 3 or 4 arbol chilies into a blender with garlic and about a cup of water.  (I use 5 or 6 because we like some heat.)  Pulverize and pour over chopped cabbage, onions and some tomato.  Add sugar, salt, pepper, cumin, lime juice  and maybe a little olive oil if you cannot afford more than one AVOCADO, which gets manually smashed into the salsa later.  This is amazing with crema, which is easily made by combining sour cream with heavy cream and some salt, and allowing it to sit for some hours.  One day, my recipes will be valuable.  Everything I ever did will be valuable, if I do not fail now.  How could I fail?  I know well enough not to trust myself!

Total Emergency Alert: Elite Now Evacuating

“Now we see what they’re running from.”  “I’m not happy to be vindicated.”

“What’s important is that we DO engage in ALARMING ACTIVITIES, because these are alarming times.”

9:00 am

My immediate family features three first-borns.  George, Isaac and I all vibrate with palpable-responsibility for lesser beings, and we all seek to be recognized for our responsible behavior.  Josh is a free agent, having developed within the love and consideration of responsible roommates.  Josh makes his own decisions, within an environment of freedom and respect.  (Although not always within an environment providing healthy options.) He has never smoked weed, although his formative years were inundated by the marijuana culture.  He will one day buy ‘American Spirit’ tobacco and smoke it in a long wooden pipe.   He will not permit his mother to purchase the tobacco, or to even be present when he does.  He is STEADFAST.  He is PURE.  My father does not recognize the jewel in his pouch.  Josh carries weapons and tools for every circumstance.  My father is INSANE.  If one seeks to grow rich and to overcome perceived enemies…without considering available resources…he’s insane.


8:43 am

I’ve become a morning person; I always thought that would be cool.  The secret to being a morning person is to have enough discipline to go to bed early.  I go to bed while it’s still light.  (I have my ISP to thank for that.)  The men in my family rise early, as indoctrinated.  Our grandfather was an entrepreneur, and postured a tough act to follow.  In the thirties he ran a mobile grocery business:  “Jim’s Store at Your Door.”  He was grandiose and self-centered.  He was flirtatious and fun.  He was my favorite grandparent for a time, but I was not his favorite.  Towards the end of his life, after my grandma died I spent much time with him.  He would get teary-eyed when I arrived, and once said, “I’ve never enjoyed you like this.”   That was pleasant to hear, in a sense.  But it also demonstrated the driving force of his busy life:  HIM.
My grandpa was never satisfied with things as they rolled from their assembly lines.  He once bought a brand new full-size van and cut the back off so it could pull a fifth-wheel trailer.  (These designs are now available from dealers.)  He DESTROYED that van, as he installed innovative mechanisms to perform innocuous duties like…   delivering  paper towels to the driver.  A real man-of-means, his car was Cadillac and his children promoted his self-worth.  How could my dad be different?
My dad was the middle child and pudgy to boot.  His sister took off for the West Coast as fast as she was permitted to sign her own papers.  Dad had to find something to do after he knocked up the principal’s daughter as a divorced Korean-vet with no means of support.  He couldn’t kow-tow to the old man anymore if he meant to preserve his identity.  So he became a pirate.  I don’t blame him a bit.  But pirating has been outlawed in this new world.  He deserves to retire from decades of self-promotion and empire-building.  He deserves to let ME make some decisions for the family.  Cars, to me, are tools.  Status symbols do not entice me.  I’m dependable and considerate.  He should grow up finally.  His dad is gone but at least he had one.

8:01 am

It’s MY fault that America is on the verge of utter destruction.  It’s MY fault and the fault of my Christian brethren. God said that if we would depart from our INDIVIDUAL SINS…he would heal our nation.  We did not repent with sufficient genuine remorse.  We could have been as effective as the LGBT and had the White House bedecked last week in Christian motif, but we did not.  All hail the perseverance and determination of the perverts.  For now.  We are still given a short opportunity to clean up our acts.  We are still somewhat cognizant and we could still request God’s assistance with our necessary prayers.  Next week, who knows?


7:46 am

I first heard of ‘misogyny’ when I worked with a dear lesbian.  Later, a dear man said that Paul’s words in the Bible were misogynistic.  (How can a man who dislikes misogyny not get along with women?  It might be the women’s fault I think.)  I never considered, never did, that my own life had been scarred by anti-woman sentiment and activity.  As a child, and to my embarrassment for a long time afterward, I just assumed that I would be offered the same economic and social opportunities as my brother. HAH!  Dad wouldn’t even introduce me to men he was talking to when I was at the same table!  For a long time I just figured that my ideas were not good enough to merit parental attention.  HAH!  Dad doesn’t let David have any ideas either!  But, David is rich and secure within the ‘family’ business.  David doesn’t push his thoughts on anybody very much but I doubt that it would make much difference.  He’s a rich peon.  I am a free agent.  David’s lord-and-master owes me much. David’s life will change and he will learn as I did, late in life…the definition of misogyny.  Wikipedia probably has a photo of our family on the page.


6:55 am

I used to believe it was some weakness in myself that caused me to cringe at the thought of accepting a ride with my father.  I thought I was wimpy to resent being not-permitted to stop for a pee or for any other of my own necessities that did not influence my father personally.  I told myself to grow up.  Then I did.  (A little)  Submitting to the control of a witch is not good, it’s not Godly.  When I started to refuse his nefarious ‘favors’ I became stronger and life made more sense.  I really hope my mom can experience freedom from his control-bullshit, and my siblings too.  Life is much nicer when one is accountable for one’s own decisions and doesn’t have to interpret thoughts and intentions through the veil of… is this gonna piss off Robert.

6:46 am

I never know how to pray, and the topics are myriad.  So much pain, so many lies.  “Thank you for the promise that you will guide us to pray as we must…by your Spirit.  Thank you so much for the gift of tongues whereby I pray YOUR WILL and not my own.  (As if I could even recognize my own at this point.)   Thank you that you have prepared us perfectly and documented the route we must take.  Sorta documented.  Thank you for the Holy Spirit who can perfectly decipher your maps.  Amen.”


6:33 am

HEY GUYS!  Does this look normal to you?

“Signs in the sun, moon and stars”

Breaking Video: Crazy HAARP Weather Explosion In Mid Air

Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/breaking-video-crazy-haarp-weather-explosion-in-mid-air/#dbZzry4cooZ6IcJJ.99

6:30 am

I think integration is the true sign of a healthy mind, and I think a healthy mind is rare.   Most folks I know compartmentalize their various topics-of-note, and they assume varying stances that are not necessarily congruent.  How is it possible for my parents to denigrate dirty-talk among their significants, and yet laugh at foul jokes on TV?  MPD.  My parents, and most Americans suffer from Multiple Personality Disorder.  (It’s not their fault.  The PTB intend for us to be fragmented, societally and INTERNALLY.)  It is not healthy to view a certain discussion one way in one situation, and then view it differently in another.  They define their ‘beliefs’ according to circumstance.  Doesn’t that nullify the definition of ‘belief’?  Doesn’t that bring into question every other of their ‘beliefs’?  “God have mercy on my mentally ill parents.”


6:08 am

When I was studying the Bible, I was taught that some music originates in the soul of man, some from divine inspiration and some from ungodly sources.  I no longer believe that exactly, or if it’s true it’s unimportant. The Spirit of God is EVERYWHERE and he can choose to illuminate any music he wishes.  (I will probably always refer to the Spirit as ‘him’ until he tells me not to.)  All music is spiritual I think, and music that we may consider hokey and uninformed may reflect an origin of minimal human awareness, but it is spiritual to the music-maker. Also, the Spirit can speak through ANYTHING and sometimes he chooses to express his will, to an individual at some specific time, through  things our human minds believe to be inferior sources.  Vigilance. We’re called to mental vigilance in every matter. But, our minds are intended to be servants of our spirits, and we only attend music in which we hear the Spirit.  (And those opportunities are very surprising sometimes.)  I’m looking forward to sharing music with others who view it as I.


5:53 am

MUSIC BREAK–to America

Shall We Gather At the River [Live]

5:24 am


6:07 pm

I keep hearing tones in my head, like male-chorus harmony, or a bassoon.  I’m trying to hear it more clearly. The electronic toys can make one’s hearing extremely acute. They can enable the human ear to distinguish variations formerly undetectable. I’m normally tone-deaf (a fact the goons withheld no guffaw in recognizing…) so when I was enabled to recognize small variations it was a lot of fun.   (Seriously people, they CAN AND DO experiment on unwitting…at least for a while…unconsenting  US citizens.)  (Also, Goonland, you can tell that bitch who was asking about my dish-washing habits what she can do with her joy-stick.)  (Maybe she already does.  Her co-workers probably make her private life real interesting.)  (You guys are perverts and you KNOW we should not suffer a pervert to live.)  (That’s why they gotta pass laws permitting perversion.)  (I was NEVER GONNA BE A FEMINIST or even an ‘humanist’ but somebody has to stand up for decency among females and humans!)  AND, I heard few female voices among those assaulting MY OWN PERSONAL Brain-space!  Some of you jack-offs are as bad as my father!
A maybe-important detail I forgot to mention is the fact that REMOTE-ELECTRONIC TORTURE has been EXPRESSLY PERMITTED by the Netherlands.  (I do not have the reference; I learned about  it in Belgium)

5:51 pm

I had conversation today, with a real live Libertarian, my young friend’s mom.  It was like HEAVEN to talk to a person who has done her homework. She too, has been called crazy for her investigation into the conspiracies that run our lives.  She’s disabled and unable to get on disability, and she cried.  No tears about the pain she suffers (she used to be a beauty queen) and none about the financial smack-down she’s endured,  she cried  my own cri de coeur:  she said, “I feel like I’ve disappointed Jesus.”  I relieved her concern, I said, “You’re not big enough to disappoint God.”  Then I prayed for her a lot and even sang in tongues.  It was the most spiritual freedom I’ve experienced for a long time.

When I first knew I was under surveillance, I continued to sing and dance and worship Jesus in defiance of peeping toms.  I permitted physical manifestations to move my body, and I prayed all the time.  I’ve been under surveillance for a long time and my worship has eroded.  My visitations with Jesus have lessened.  My light is growing dim.  But, my young friend’s mom said I should start a church and I told her I am recruiting.  She knows about advanced technology and mentioned that there are some good hackers and wouldn’t it be wonderful if they changed our world.  I told her they are doing that.  At least one is.

 I told my new friend that I’m glad she’s my neighbor because things are going to get tough.  I told her the last shall be first, and I told her about the FEAR-VIBRATION-INDUCING-THEATRE military exercises in Flint, Port Huron and Battle Creek.  I told her about Jade Helm and she understood right away the implications of artificial intelligence that can kill.  It was a very nice visit.  She’s been in the manifest presence of Jesus, I could tell right away.  She said she is a warrior for him.  That’s how you can tell.


3:44 pm

Coercive control shares general elements with other capture or course-of-conduct crimes such as kidnapping, stalking, and harassment, including the facts that it is ongoing and its perpetrators use various means to hurt, humiliate, intimidate, exploit, isolate, and dominate their victims. Like hostages, victims of coercive control are frequently deprived of money, food, access to communication or transportation, and other survival resources even as they are cut off from family, friends, and other supports through the process ofisolation.

The answer is coercive control, a strategy that remains officially invisible despite the fact that it has been in plain sight at least since the earliest shelter residents told us in no uncertain terms that violence wasnt the worst part. Cognitive psychologists in the late 1970s and 1980s tried to capture what these women were experiencing by comparing it to coercive persuasion, brainwashing, and other tactics used with hostages, prisoners of war, kidnap victims, and by pimps with prostitutes.

Read more at:   http://www.thelizlibrary.org/liz/coercive-control.html

3:25 pm

Dear Family,

I hurt for you all because you also have suffered abuse by our father and it looks from here that ALL YOUR RELATIONSHIPS WITH HIM are still abusive …  IN EVERY CHARACTERISTIC ASSERTED .  Please call me up.  I pray for you all.  906-291-1376.  We need to LOVE one another so we can show Dad what love really is so maybe he will not be DAMNED FOREVER.

Emotional/psychological abuse is any judgement, in ANY interpersonal relationship, from any source that humiliates, undermines, paralyses, makes you fearful, controls you or harms you.

  • Emotional and psychological abusers are controllers that ALWAYS run the show – think of them as dictators with an iron fist!
  • They create an omnipotent but FALSE façade as it concerns themselves where they are always portrayed as having a pristine, moralistic, and flawless lifestyle.
    • They DEMAND that their authority is ALWAYS respected, but they don’t model or reciprocate with ANY type of respect! What they really want is obedience!
    • They do not live by their own professed teachings, values, rules, standards, or even laws – better yet they live by double standards.
    • They instigate situations between people or triangulate, isolate, or divide and conquer. Then ask for your loyalty and respect as a factor in keeping their secret concerns about the person they are overtaking and isolating to hide their real motives and made up or false truths to put wedges in between people. This keeps the spotlight off of them and opposition between everyone around them.
    • There are lots more items at the article.

More at:   https://afternarcissisticabuse.wordpress.com/2015/07/03/broadening-the-perspective-of-narcissistic-abuse-by-including-it-right-alongside-every-other-abuse-lets-call-it-what-it-is-emotional-and-psychological-abuse-that-can-occur-in-any-life-situat/

  • They are always right, they are always the expert that knows best PERIOD.
  • The manipulative power they exert over you is always presented “for YOUR own good” as if it is valuable information to help you prosper and grow to be better than what you are – as in a person in need of their help. They just assume the role of superiority over people!

  • You are never a viable person with feelings, a voice, a presence, or allowed to have any positive validation or worth. You are ASSIGNED a submissive role and you must NEVER step out of that role!


3:02 pm

Have you made a great show of your honesty and how upstanding you are, when you have stolen from others, not necessarily cash and valuables, but what about their freedom, their well-being, their reputation, their right to a stress-free existence, their sense of hope, their sense of self? Aren’t you a real urban terrorist, the fascist control freak?

Do you recall listening to a group of people denouncing or criticizing a person you have never met? Or perhaps you did know the person. Do you remember accepting what they said without question? Do you remember how you would not allow your mind to consider any evidence for the defense, or any mitigating circumstances? Do you remember assassinating that person in your mind ‘guilty as charged’, without ever considering their side of the story? Or, without ever questioning if what was being said was accurate and true.

Perhaps you did know the truth and you could have stood for that person as a witness in their defense, but you chose to remain silent while the Nazi within you loaded them on the train to Auschwitz without mercy. Do you remember any of that?

Did you pretend to help people, while secretly undermining them?

Something truly supernatural is happening around us and it is getting stronger everyday. As the morph drops in everyone will eventually see it, it will mirror who they are back to them and as people see that, the world as we know it will wobble. Soon you will either have to become a fully paid-up member of the Nazis and go down that road, or you will walk away saddened by it all.

Up the road, you will find others who also walked away. There in the heartland, in the company of others, you will find rest and safety and you will live your life silently according to your ideals, not those of the Dark Sun and the elitism of Babylon.

Read more at:   http://sorendreier.com/wilde-eventually-a-door-opens/


11:07 am

Text to DAD DAVID MOM………..

Addressed to my gilded brother of shallow thought:

Why do you presume to deserve a life more than I?   You should think about it before you must answer under oath.

10:59 am


(This is how I feel in ‘church’. )      “Bob’s Country Bunker”

cri de coeur

 “Gimme Some Lovin”


10:50 am

There is a spiritual plan unfolding for your life and that plan is part of a greater plan for all humanity. What side of the coin you fall, light or dark, only you can say. But we are all in church all of the time, sometimes behaving badly, sometimes behaving respectfully. Our spiritual bank statement is just about to plop through the letterbox.

There is a hidden world of transdimensional devils talking secretly to the mind of man that greatly influences how things go. I feel so sad for spiritual seekers, those who feel crushed by events. If only they knew how the odds were stacked against them; how the forces for darkness influenced people to make sure they failed.

-Learn more:   http://sorendreier.com/wilde-eventually-a-door-opens/

10:43 am

My dad may think he serves no master.  (I may be wrong about that.)  Still, he KNOWS he does not serve  Jesus, the Christ.  He serves with tenacity, and will not stand down although his evil deeds will destroy him eternally and harm others consistently.  I was repeatedly molested as a child, and my parents would not respond to my complaints.  (Maybe those events were intentional?)  I know he did sacrifice his firstborn to Molech in a very real sense, by neglecting my needs on behalf of wealth and status.  But did he know what he was doing?   (I am still working on my lawsuit interrogatories… )


10:30 am

Satanic Child Abuse

Jeff Rense & Jay Parker

9:32 am

Even as in Gideon’s day, when the majority saw that just 300 were chasing hundreds of thousands and decided that victory was possible, so too will we see that today.

The “300” (not a literal number) are those who run now to the beat of another drum. They are immune to fear, immune to hopeless reports, immune to reasonable caution, immune to influential religious voices of doubt; they are “all in” on a Pollyanna narrative that sees things entirely different than anyone else.

These “300” are driven by crazy, radical hope. They have committed to seeing either the greatest victorious days in their lives or being crushed in their “foolish” attempt to make that happen. These “300” who are “all in” are running with God’s great renaissance narrative for today.

The invitation is for many to follow this crazy trumpet sound – and if you could see what they see – you wouldn’t hesitate, but you would arise and exterminate the fear.

See more at:   http://www.elijahlist.com/words/display_word.html?ID=14908

8:49 am

Do you know that since destroying the bee population with poisons, scientists are now attempting to enable plant pollination by introducing synthetic bees?   Bug-drones are expected to repair the damage that has been done to our necessary ecosystem by previous intrusions.  This is ludicrous.  This is the Tower of Babel all over again.  This is satan, declaring that he will be as the most high.  Not that the Most High has any problem with that ambition.  He’d like us all to be like him, and he provided the way.  But, any attempts not ‘his way’ are disasters.  CERN demonstrates the same Godless efforts to become all-knowing and eternal.  This time ’round, God is letting us reap what we’ve sown.  He’s forcing the bulbs of our intentions and our motivations.  It is the principle of ‘leaven’. Whatever we put into ourselves will now be greatly magnified and exaggerated to the point where its nature is overwhelming.  If we’ve ingested the Beast’s values, that will soon become very obvious.  If we’ve dined with Jesus, our relationship with him will become the only thing that matters.  This contrast will reveal to all, what is the only thing that matters.  After a while, the only people remaining will be like God.


8:11 am

Text to my Brother, my Father, my Mother and George:

I’m praying for the Blood of Jesus to protect you and for his Spirit of Truth to overtake Michigan.  Won’t you join me?

7:50 am

Text to my Brother, my Father, and my Mother…gee I wish somebody could teach me how to make a macro or something so I don’t have to type the same things over and over and over and over and over and over and over…:

Delaying the inevitable is helping you how?

7:38 am

Do you know that the Bible contains a coded joke aimed at Shakespeare?  It was unrecognizable until Shakespeare lived his life.  Do you know that until an event has occurred, the Bible’s precognition is not accessible to most of even heartfelt believers?  Without the Holy Spirit making the connections between ancient text and Faux News, we cannot see the future.  (Except those guys who run CERN maybe.)  We recognize that the Bible was spot-on, when we review it in light of physical circumstances that have manifested since it was codified.  Then we can read familiar passages and see that the Bible was perfect.  I find myself astonished at thoughtless comments I’ve heard and made, that later prove to have been prescient.  I do not take my words lightly anymore.  I am creating reality?  So is everybody, I guess.  Let’s get it right.


7:21 am

As a person who has been extremely denigrated, I can understand the human desire to impress other people.  I do not understand though, why so many try to impress with what they “have” rather than with what they “are.”  I was not a well-dressed child, although I carried the reputation of a rich kid.  My cousins wore fur and sequins to school. They are fine people and I long to be the same, and  the clothes did not make a difference.  Persons without homes or income are raising the dead in Mozambique.  Other places too.  If I had a choice, and I believe I do, I would much prefer to be remembered as a DEATH-DESTROYER than as a guy who demonstrated his ‘value’ by putting  gaudy do-dads on “his” property.  (“The Earth is the Lord’s, and the fullness thereof.”)

6:59 am

I went to my parents’ house just now, to tape a four-leaf clover to my mom’s car window. Their driveway is like approaching a carnival.  It’s tacky.  Ostentation tops-out at vulgar, and my parents are on their way to the top.  Those creepy ‘Peaceful People’ dummies stare out from the woods, and trees closer to the driveway are dressed with 2-foot-wide,  bright red fake hibiscus blooms.  (I didn’t examine one but it looked like RHINESTONES as the flower centers.)  The house is adorned and surrounded with yellow flowers although Dad said he didn’t have any flowers when I requested some for the public bridge near the house.  He put up the planters himself,  and I regularly water the flowers, but this year we have none. The gazebo on Dad’s fancy deck is sporting new awnings, and they look nice with the flowers, but they’re terribly commercial.  The entire PLACE is commercial!  It’s all show and no genuine hospitality or warmth.  I can’t think of a thing my parents have ever purchased that I would buy.  Except food and soap and stuff.  I wonder if they get a special scented soap now.  Maybe it smells like ‘rich’.

6:21 am


For in this day and in this hour I shall do a work of great magnitude in My Church for all the world to see and no more shall the scoffers scoff or the mockers mock; for they shall see clearly the revelation of My sons and daughters in the earth. Did not those who were filled with My Spirit at Pentecost, turn the world upside down? Indeed, My Spirit shall be poured forth in such a manner as to uproot “all” the walls and foundations which have “harboured” the lies of the Evil One and led My people astray; and all those who truly love Me shall marvel at all these things and they shall “wonder” how they could ever have been held captive by darkness for so long; and they shall turn, and through the anointing which abides within them, they shall be vessels of the greatest attack and assault upon the strongholds of the Evil One that the earth has ever seen. Thus shall My ministry be fulfilled, as My spotless and unblemished Church rises to meet Me in the Heavens.

* I require a ferocious [violent] faith of My people in this final hour!

“violent” – proceeding from or marked by great [in this case, spiritual] force ; the exhibiting of a fierce and intense passion [fervor]; characterized by intensity of any kind

Read more at:  http://jtlmin.com/DAILY%20FBN%202015/07%20July%202015/WPFBN0703.pdf


6:09 am

We, the people, are the foundation of a vast human pyramid, at the top of which comfortably rests a world elite that manipulates the human population and world events to broaden and maintain their power. The main agents of this global cartel are the banking elite, the military industrial complex, the medical establishment, the mainstream media, the entertainment industrial complex, and the hundreds of corrupt and co-opted world governments that act as henchmen and watchdogs for the unelected world rulers.

Over our heads they hang the constant specter of war, financial collapse, terrorism and pandemic disease, and to keep us from reacting to their deeds they enlist evermore advanced forms of mind control, biological control and social engineering.

Government plays the roles of spy, censor and thought police, thus robbing the psyche of the freedom of the exploration of thought. Religion seeks to homogenize spiritual experience and externalize divinity.

They recruit us to enforce this prison of the mind on ourselves, and are creating a rising class of those who willingly support them in their efforts. The rest of us are merely subjects of their tyranny, whether we acknowledge it or not, and until a major cultural upheaval occurs, there is little chance of liberating the human race. Thus we must for now focus on liberating the individual and freeing human consciousness.

Read more at:   http://www.wakingtimes.com/2015/07/02/closing-the-doors-of-perception/

5:56 am

Government In Final Drive To Ban Freedoms

Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/government-in-final-drive-to-ban-freedoms/#juayvwiuze7Cz5Qw.99


7:03 pm

I ran into a Republican today, a former chairman from a neighboring county, and he asked if I were still involved with politics.  I said I do a political website, but that he might not like it since I’m now an anarchist.  He didn’t exhibit the expected outrage.  I said, “I am a Christian.  What choice do I have?”  He said, “The government is taking lots of our liberties.”  I said, “Just like Ron Paul said decades ago.”  He took the name of the website but I don’t know that he’ll like it.  I don’t care.  I just pray that he’ll pay attention to current events, if not on my site then some other.  This is the most important thing we’ve seen in our lives.  For those who survive, there will be many more important things.  But as humans on Earth right now, this is it.

6:13 pm

But if the watchman see the sword come, and blow not the trumpet, and the people be not warned; if the sword come, and take any person from among them, he is taken away in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at the watchman’s hand.

6:05 pm

How long, ye simple ones, will ye love simplicity? and the scorners delight in their scorning, and fools hate knowledge?

Using the same tactics used by “gay” rights activists, pedophiles have begun to seek similar status arguing their desire for children is a sexual orientation no different than heterosexual or homosexuals.

That was FAST: Yesterday it was gay marriage; Now look who wants “equal rights”

B4U-Act calls pedophiles “minor-attracted people.” The organization’s website states its purpose is to, “help mental health professionals learn more about attraction to minors and to consider the effects of stereotyping, stigma and fear.”

Read more at:   http://allenbwest.com/2015/06/that-was-fast-yesterday-it-was-gay-marriage-now-look-who-wants-equal-rights/


4:33 pm

So the pedophiles want us to codify their right to rape babies.  No people in the history of humanity have particularly cared that babies are raped, with the occasional exception of their own.  How about we try it like this: Let’s imagine that the pedophiles are really currency-philes and they want to rape our money.  (We’ll presume that dollars will be irreparably damaged by the rapes.  That’s how it works with children.)  I don’t even need to conclude my example;  If children were money… all persons would protest.  Since they are MORE valuable than money, if we do not stop this evil, we are deranged.  We are also condemned.


10:49 am

Wouldn’t it be sad if ROBERT GOLDTHORPE went down in history as the biggest Benedict Arnold the human race ever produced?  Because he couldn’t apologize for 1) filing a false police report, 2) abducting his daughter’s children and 3) initiating a smear campaign?  When he has information that could potentially change the conduct of US intelligence services and related psychopaths and stop them from stealing the souls of innocent people?  Glad I’m not that proud and stubborn.


10:34 am

Jesus’ second coming is not like I was taught, with the rapture disappearing people.  People might disappear, that’s likely, but Jesus won’t be taking too many just yet.  He’s coming for a “spotless” people.  A church “without spot or wrinkle”, so he has to make some people like that,  before he can come.  We are eliminated of blemishes when filled with the Spirit.  He isn’t coming ‘for’ his people until he comes ‘in’ his people.  If we have no desire to be filled with him and to become like him, we won’t.  So lukewarm Christians are here for the duration along with the rest of us.  Good thing God is still changing people, and there is still time.  The only POSSIBLE REFUGE in the soon-coming turmoil…what a wimpy word…is to be UTTERLY SOLD OUT TO THE CREATION OF A RIGHTEOUS PLANET, as evinced by becoming a more righteous self. 

“Thy Kingdom come, on Earth as it is in Heaven.”


9:36 am

Righteous people are running from the Terminator.  (It’s in the Bible.)  Soul-rapers are sucking up our consciousness,  and selling it along with our metadata.  (Also in the Bible.)  The earth itself is so traumatized that the survival of humanity is imminently threatened.  (“Except those days be shortened” …we’re extinct.)   Technology is performing signs and wonders, as predicted in the Bible.  CERN  is opening doorways to alternative realities, and releasing unknown beings into our world. Evildoers are waxing worse and worse. Men are lovers of themselves and get hot watching the pictures.  Children are violated by those who claim Godly authority over them, and the crowd continues to commemorate the perverts.  The necessity for a cashless society has been established, and the ingestible ‘Mark of the Beast’ is available to facilitate commerce for those who will not survive the purge. (Spiritually.)  The ‘developed’ countries have abandoned ‘mutually-assured-destruction’ detente, and first-strike nuclear attacks are an enticing penis-extender for any psychopath who gets his feelings hurt.  (Now there’s a paradox.)  We’re doomed.  “Come quickly, Lord Jesus.”

9:09 am

“There’s a dividing line being drawn in the sand now, and for those of you who wanna lay down…you might as well be riding for the enemy… because you’re doing nothing but help them with your blindness.  Your silence is consent…”

LEAKED! TPP Will Establish International Court Allowing Corporations to Sue States, Taxpayers

8:48 am

“When you don’t care anymore…this is what happens.”


8:37 am

I woke George near five because the prison called looking for somebody to fill a shift.  Immediately.  He refused and said he didn’t want to make it easier for them to be stupid.  I said something to the effect of, “I wish you’d make it REALLY HARD for the government to be stupid.”  He asked (facetiously)  if I meant for him to bomb Lansing.  He asked, “What do you WANT ME TO DO?”  I wish I knew.  I said somebody should tell us all what to do. He suggested hackers.  Everybody knows they have the power to put an end to all this corruption and deceit.  (And electronic torture.)  I told him I’ve been trying to recruit them.  Somebody, somewhere knows what to do.  “Oh Captain, my Captain!”  Where’s Ron Paul when you need him?


8:02 am

I think the NSA et al could destroy a lot of minds with a single trick.  Some of the things I’ve seen could really put a person over the edge.  I was not surprised to see items move around on their own, because I believed in spiritual entities who can also manipulate the physical realm.  But I STILL got shook, and I’d like to know how some of my weird experiences were accomplished.  One time I was sitting outdoors at my table and a leather belt had been left slung across it.  As I typed all alone in the darkness,  the belt spontaneously moved about two feet across the table and fell to the floor slamming the buckle pretty loud.  I was being SERIOUSLY gaslighted at the time and I remember running into the house to tell George.  Was that demons or directed energy?  Are they any different for all practical purposes?  I’d like to know if a bizarre firefly was 1) a drone, 2) a real firefly getting poked with microwaves, or 3) a firefly in a tiny-little brain-harness;  I understand all three are possible.  It was really cool that he landed perfectly centered on my cigarette pack and flashed at even intervals for a couple hours straight.  Did somebody chip Connie?

7:46 am

I think this website will be very important in a time when books are multi-media events available at the speed of thought, and presented as such.  It has compiled a VAST amount of information about the revolution in a short amount of time.  God bless Snowden.  It is extraordinarily convoluted, but maintains several themes.  I feel like I’m playing pachinko when I work.  All the little info-balls fall down from above and land in random places.  I guess that’s also how the Bible looks, in 2D.   I forget to be grateful for all these many hours on my butt as the house grows grungier.  Someday my prince will come.  I am seeing him at a distance.  I am VERY impatient but also I am very blessed.


7:34 am


“Father, father, we don’t need to escalate.”

“War is not the answer; only love can conquer hate.”

“We’ve got to find a way to bring some understanding here today…”

“Talk to me…so you can see..what’s going on!”

The late, great Marvin Gaye.


What’s Going On

7:27 am

How do black girls often become so free and confident with their bodies?  They can be as fat as a pig but still be gorgeous. And they strut to show they know it.  Black girls can wear enormous earrings and bright colors without people thinking they’re dressed up for Halloween.  I’d like to mind-meld with a really ugly black girl who can dance.  She probably wouldn’t go for it though.  Around here, I get comments because I wear skirts.  I’ve been TOLD to wear jeans.  Wouldn’t it be fun to live somewhere else?  As someone else?  With someone else?


7:05 am

“We’ve warned about it for the longest time !  Everybody’s wanted to keep sleeping on it!
People are gonna come back and say, ‘How come no one ever told us about this?”
So if you’re hearing this when it’s too late…it’s your own fault.
…because some of us have been out here diligently…on a daily basis…trying to get this truth out there while the sheep keep on sleeping.
– –
So if anybody gets caught up in this storm, it’s no one else’s fault but your own.
For turning the other cheek.  And we’ve been out here screaming bloody murder, about what’s happening.”

(The astonishingly diligent DAHBOO7)

6:24 am

Baptist missionaries affiliated with my father’s church  raped young girls and made them confess to ‘adultery’.  The victims’ websites are heartbreaking, they’re still seeking justice.


What more obvious and in your face example can you have than dirty, perverted old, and young, men disguised as “conduits to god” sexually abusing young people? It’s so common it’s become a joke.

Where’s the joke in that? Where the hell is common sense justice and stopping these perverse maniacs from preying on innocent children?

Paedophelia and the Brutal Cover Up – Psychopathy At Large

It’s the bizarro world of muzzle and kill the good people and let the devils run amok.

We’re also talking satanic ritual abuse, supposedly human creatures actually performing sexual and torturous blood sacrificial rituals on innocent children, as well as others.  Routine rape and other forms of physical abuse are merely lower level forms, yet just as horrific, of these same demonic abuses.

That this phenomenon that has gone on for centuries and continues full throttle into today’s world is something the world is apparently not prepared to accept – and therefore complicit in – is only sealing humanity’s own fate if it doesn’t wake up and decide to stand up against it.

See more at:   http://www.zengardner.com/paedophelia-brutal-cover-psychopathy-large/


3:52 pm

I went for a ride to pray.  I haven’t done since the roads thawed,  but it used to be my sustenance.  I drove into the woods about fifteen miles without seeing another car.  On the way back I didn’t see one either.  That’s one of the many things I’ll miss when I’m not around here so much.  I know I’m annoying, and I dislike annoying people but I also dislike watching people being driven over a cliff, and that’s the current situation.  I caught George,  a bit after I overheard him and Isaac discussing me, and I said, “You’ve got to give me this much.  If I knew, truly knew, especially since I’ve been researching for two years nonstop… that the shit was approaching the fan, and I did not do what I could to alert people…I would be most evil.”  I know he agreed with that because he said ‘yes’ a couple times along with the head-nod.  I’m pacified for now but it bothers me that I took the comments about myself personally.  I should NEVER do that if I’m about God’s business.   God plans for big things and I’m a very small person.  (In one sense at least.)  I pray that he will enlarge my heart so that I do not care about my own situation, and determine what I can do to help others with my records.  Somebody’s got to have some direction for me.


1:18 pm

What my nearest think of me makes not a whit of difference, not that I could identify a whit.  (Or a wit, probably.) There is NO WAY that God arranged for ALL THAT PERFECT evidence, and not intend to use it.  Waiting is the hardest part.





1:05 pm

I also told George that our old Christian friends who I spoke to the other day were also VERY AWARE OF JADE HELM.  Not a flicker of interest.  “God, please have mercy on George.”

To save some time, “JADE” is a software application the military is now using that allocates manpower and equipment on-the-fly based on prior experience, prior events, and the capability of being able to “predict criminal activity.” It is an artificial intelligence application that learns which tactics and personnel were most successful in different scenarios.  That is the “JADE” part of Jade Helm.  JADE is taking the helm (lead) in this exercise, and according to the information in my previous post, for now the plan is to encompass the most dense pockets of veterans based on location information obtained by Peter Thiel and then turned over to the CIA during Bilderberg.

How Jade Helm and the Pentagon’s Biological Technology Office Are Linked

Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/how-jade-helm-and-the-pentagons-biological-technology-office-are-linked/#q27Sq6EmjSd4tzf7.99


12:46 pm

After overhearing George discussing with Isaac, my continual demands for an audience, I started telling him about some current events.  He rolled his eyes and reminded me of the earlier times I expected the world to end.  I quoted (sort of)

2 Peter 3:3-4

King James Version (KJV)

Knowing this first, that there shall come in the last days scoffers, walking after their own lusts,

And saying, Where is the promise of his coming? for since the fathers fell asleep, all things continue as they were from the beginning of the creation.

I said, “Can you not maybe see yourself in those verses?  Maybe I cried wolf a few times but if you won’t look at the evidence do not tell me that now is not different.”  “If I’m out here fighting the good fight and you’re not willing to help then at least don’t stand in my way.”  He nodded.  And bought me cigarettes.


Message to Isaac:

I was raped.  Nobody cares.  That’s my starting point.

Others are raped.  I DO CARE.  I kept good records and can help them.

What’s not to understand?  (Or to gossip about?)

(A man could be part of the solution, instead of maintaining the problem.)

12:40 pm

Text to my brother and my mom:

My sons think I could be a liar but you know I’m not.  I know you’ll do the right thing.  I love you.


“I know you’ll fix the damage you did.  You’re my dad and I’ve always loved you.”



11:59 am

I overheard a conversation between Isaac and George…about me.  I have been entirely upfront about everything I’ve ever said about them. Twenty-thousand articles and they think I’m wrong…but will not look at evidence.   IF ONE OF THEM STOOD UP AND CARED ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED TO OUR FAMILY AND WHAT IS HAPPENING TO AMERICA I WOULD NOT HAVE TO CONTINUE THIS ONSLAUGHT OF WORDS.  I’d like that a lot more than they would.  I wish SOMEBODY would look at my evidence and instruct me.

11:32 am


Anti-government extremists were listed more than any other by far: 73.8%. Al Qaeda-inspired extremists came in a distant second, at 39.3%.

“Law enforcement agencies in the United States consider anti-government violent extremists, not radicalized Muslims, to be the most severe threat of political violence that they face,” the survey’s authors, Charles Kurzman and David Schanzer, wrote in their report (pdf).

Read more at:   http://www.blacklistednews.com/Survey_of_382_U.S._Law_Enforcement_Agencies_Shows_Far_Greater_Concern_about_Anti-Government_Extremists_than_about_Islamic_Terrorists/44843/0/38/38/Y/M.html


11:18 am

Are we as good as the best thing we’ve done…or the last thing?  I’d sleep better to know it was the former.  An ostracized-tortured person is hyper-vigilant.  I’m grateful that my government keeps track of my efforts to be consistently profound…and truthful.  I’d like to relax and it’s been a long time.  A long heart-felt conversation with my dad is what I need.  He’s my dad and he’ll give me what I need.  Jesus has him.


11:01 am

My family is reaching out it seems, in their recent decisions to treat my son as a human being.  Since they all find it too difficult apparently, to dial 906-291-1376, the fact that they’re spending time with Josh is a joy.  It is the only joy yet of our reconciliation, but soon they’ll all join me for dinner at my new condo in Toronto.  I’ll make lots of things with no vegetables so my sister can eat too.

10:32 am

What I’ve done is astonishing.  It’s flattering that people who know me best are not astonished, but there are others who have watched astonishing things and have not noticed.  (Perhaps they are missing much more?)  My dad spread the word.  He said that when I ran for Congress I was ‘acting out’.  (That’s a highly-educated term for a lowly-educated man.)  I had no desire to display myself, in fact that was the hardest part.  Nevertheless, I DID RUN FOR CONGRESS.  A number of citizens found me credible enough to endorse my efforts.  Actually, the finest people I ever knew supported me.  I am honored to have known such principled and motivated light-workers.  If I had not ‘acted out’ I wouldn’t have met them.  Principled people don’t hang out at the Baptist church and that fact alone should have alerted me to my father’s duplicity; after all, he signs their checks.

Leaving Robert-World was the best thing that ever happened for my spiritual advancement…but also for my always-wavering faith in humanity.  The Baptists teach that every human is bad.  The Baptists teach that Baptist people have been made good.  (They also mention the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus often, but they always denigrate those similarly-blood-washed/and/bought masses who attend funerals at different franchises.)  I am so grateful that God permitted/required me to see the snakes’nest that is American government.  I am so grateful that he introduced me to kindred spirits who love truth and are not afraid to let their voices be heard.

 I am so grateful that soon we will all be productive light-workers, and there will be no enemy in the camp.  There may be ‘dirty libs’ around, but we’ll all be pretty liberal. Temperance is a personal issue with congregational consequences.   Marriage will be an affair of the hearts-involved, and none other.  “Really-Fun-Productivity” will replace “Keeping Up With the Kardashians” and cable will be free.  The open-pollinated pastures will feed us all.  “Seeking a friend for the end of the world.”  (And also for the beginning of a far better one.)

“Dear Lord, tell me what to believe.  Under every circumstances, enable me to follow you.”

My gmail address line said “CA”.  That’s Canada, right?


Something WONDERFUL could happen to me today!

8:43 am

Josh didn’t come home for dinner last night, and I was in bed by the time he got here.  Apparently he dined with his grandparents, my sister and a cousin.  That’s nice for him.  And he went shooting with my brother the day before.  That’s nice too.


7:49 am

George grew the best marijuana I’ve seen, before or since.  He enjoyed growing  it more than anything I’ve seen, before or since, and he was the best.  (‘The Shit That Killed Elvis’ is a legend.)  He changed nutrients at specific times; he tested ph and carbon dioxide.  He kept meticulous records.  In a free world, he could grow as much as he wanted and sell it to whomever he chose and it wouldn’t matter that his state job no longer provides retirement benefits.  (He still has never used marijuana, to my knowledge.  He’d bring a bud cupped in his hand and rhapsodize about its fragrance.)  There’s no such thing as a free market when it comes to our health decisions.  My grandma had cancer and wanted laetrile but it was illegal.  I think she nibbled on apricot pits and hoped for the best.  Oxygen therapies were in common use a hundred years ago, I saw an add for ozone treatment in a local newspaper reprint, but we’re told to fear ozone although entire cities use it to disinfect drinking water.  Didn’t Royal Rife tell us how to cure nearly anything at all?  And the ‘blue-bloods’ have known about antibacterial properties of silver since they started dropping do-dads in their milk vessels.  (It turned them blue but the milk didn’t sour.)  So strong is the Rothschild-AMA-pharmaceutical lobby, we’re not even permitted to KNOW ABOUT alternative therapies.  We’re ridiculous to keep buying poisons from those who won’t permit us anything else!


7:28 am

When I first became involved with marijuana again, when I became a Republican, after decades of abstinence, I had no idea how normal cannabis use had become.  A liberal friend predicted the easy passage of the pitiful Michigan medical cannabis law, but I was a bit surprised.  Several years ago, my organic-farmer-purebred girlfriend was busted, with her small children held on the porch, for selling cannabis baked goods to elderly people with legitimate ailments.  Agents raided her farm with black helicopters and dark suv’s.  Now isn’t that stupid and a vile waste of resources?  One signature later, and it’s perfectly legal to administer her superior assistance.  Cannabis components KILL CANCER CELLS and provide tremendous relief of seizures and CP symptoms and they make people focus better and communicate more easily.  Patents have been filed for cannabis products, so they can’t tell us it has ‘no medicinal value’ and should be a Schedule 1- controlled substance on par with heroin.  But, we wouldn’t buy as much Prozac if the truth got out.


7:08 am

Maybe in order to survive the apocalypse, we all must be taken to the point where we have nothing to depend on. No love.  Maybe that’s the only point where God’s absolute sufficiency can be studied.  I hope that’s not the case; I hope that my loveless experience may educate others absolving their need to suffer.  It is suffering, to live without human love.  It is also blissful at times,  but I’m looking forward to reentering the land of the living.  My dad will open the way.  I think I trust him again.  God must be giving me more love.  I came from the store yesterday and told Josh, “I think those girls like me.  They hug me and call me pet names.  I think EVERYBODY likes me who my dad didn’t tell I was crazy.”  He said, “That’s what I’ve been trying to tell you.  And there’s a GREAT BIG WORLD full of people who never talked to your dad.”  How do I get there?


6:57 am

I think at this point it might be in order to mong a little fear.  Normally, causing people to fear is not Godly…but the Watchman on the Wall is a pertinent Biblical figure.  Dear not-insignificant-others, the forces of darkness are closing in.  Is there a real man among you?  Somebody should tell me what to do.