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2/24/15

3:41 pm

I did it.  I replaced myself with persons better than I.   Hoo-rah.

Free at Last- Martin Luther King, Jr

(I still don’t have anywhere to go and no money to get there, but freedom feels nice.)

3:27 pm

My sons will change the world because I gave them to Jesus.  (When they were tiny.  They are now men.)

3:22 pm

I told Isaac that if he’d let Josh come out to Colorado I’d do what I could to help bankroll it.  He said he already sent Josh an itinerary and knows where he can get a job making campers for 11 dollars an hour.  I’m glad we’re on the same wavelength.  I said that Josh and I are too isolated and we need to be around people who care about the things we care about.  He said, “You live in the most isolated place in the country.”  I said, “We are far more isolated than that, because we were ostracized by my family.”  (I also thanked him for talking to Josh on the phone so much.)  Wouldn’t that be GREAT if Josh could live where other people listen to  electronic swing music and study antique weaponry?    Isaac has his tribe, took him long enough.  He’s dealing with realtors about getting a new house in a few months.  He holds meetings, on “Freedom Friday” and this week they’re talking about spiritual manifestations.  He asked me about some shaman-book I red; I don’t remember.  He’ll have plenty of material anyway.  xoxo  ❤

 

 

11:05 am

Michigan’s Serena Shim Exposed Turkish Govt Helping ISIS …SHE IS NOW DEAD ….and the Media Silent

“Mystery of American journalist killed in car crash in Turkey… just days after she claimed intelligence services had threatened her over her coverage of siege of Kobane”
Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/michigans-serenashim-exposed-turkish-govt-helping-isis-she-is-now-dead-and-the-media-silent/#0BPDrJKLc6r5Z4C2.99
Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/michigans-serenashim-exposed-turkish-govt-helping-isis-she-is-now-dead-and-the-media-silent/#0BPDrJKLc6r5Z4C2.99

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9:50 am

 

My brother doesn’t return his phone calls.  Two friends of mine have business dealings with him.  Both have performed requested services for him.  Both were contacted by him for business purposes.  Both are poor and depend on their day-to-day dealings just to eat.  My brother doesn’t call back.  Never does.  The Prophet had a deal with him amounting to several thousand dollars.  Not much for David, but it’s a big life-style difference to the prophet.  Where’s David?  At the ball game I expect.  Rich guys think they know pressure but they don’t have a clue.  I suppose they will when the going gets tough because the tough will get going to look for supplies…at the rich guys’ houses.

9:17 am

“Sniper theology considers all American wars to be just and all American snipers to be justified.

Sniper theology views all U.S. soldiers as heroes, but especially snipers.

Sniper theology leads Americans to display bumper stickers reading “God Bless Our Troops, Especially Our Snipers.

Sniper theology glorifies long-distance murder, as long it is committed by American snipers.

Sniper theology thinks American snipers committing evil are defending us from evil.

Sniper theology considers it the duty of American snipers to kill whomever the current occupant of the White House says to kill.

Sniper theology believes that the more people American snipers kill the better the sniper.

Sniper theology pleads falsely that American snipers kill in self-defense even though they are the invaders and occupiers.

Sniper theology ignores what American snipers say about killing because they enjoy it.

Sniper theology considers the killing of women and children by American snipers to be necessary.

Sniper theology condemns as cowardly the killing of U.S. soldiers by snipers from other countries.

Sniper theology denies that American snipers who get killed reap what they sow.

Sniper theology feels that foreigners who resist U.S. invasions and occupations deserve to be killed by American snipers.

Sniper theology denies that American snipers are merely government-costumed killers.

Sniper theology supposes that Jesus will tell American snipers: “Well done, thou good and faithful servant for dispatching another jihadist to the lake of fire.”

Sniper theology violates the First Commandment when it encourages the hero worship of American snipers.

Sniper theology says that the Sixth Commandment prohibition against killing doesn’t apply to American snipers.

Sniper theology has an unholy desire to legitimize American snipers killing in unjust wars.

Sniper theology accepts without reservation whomever the U.S. government designates as “the enemy.”

Sniper theology applauds movies about American snipers even though they are laced with gore and profanity.

Sniper theology deems it a great thing when Christian young people “surrender” to join the U.S. military to become a sniper.

Sniper theology thinks that American snipers who kill in U.S. wars of aggression are heroes instead of murderers.

Cursed be sniper theology. This unholy, anti-biblical heresy is pervasive in too many American churches. Stamp it out wherever and whenever you can.”

 

More at:   http://www.lewrockwell.com/2015/02/laurence-m-vance/thou-shalt-murder/

“I have identified them as Christian armchair warriors, Christian Coalition moralists, evangelical warvangelicals, Catholic just war theorists, reich-wing Christian nationalists, theocon Values Voters, imperial Christians, Red-State Christian fascists, bloodthirsty Christian conservatives, and God and country Christian bumpkins.”

 

But what really caught my eye was his “balanced biblical view” of snipers:

Given the popularity of the movie, the question is raised as to whether or not Christians should celebrate snipers. That is, should we approve not merely of faithful military service in general but also the brutal specialization of killing humans one deliberate and well-aimed shot at a time?  In short, my answer is Yes. In my view, a balanced biblical view calls us to praise snipers for their courageous and skillful service in defending us from evil.

Phillips then worked through his answer in five points:

  1. As we praise and thank our faithful warriors, let us look forward to the day when there will be no snipers, just as there will be no terrorist armies.
  2. The New Testament clearly states a Christian’s duty to “be subject to the governing authorities.”
  3. We should also note Jesus’ own care in fulfilling his duties to the secular authorities.
  4. Those concerned about the praising of snipers do, however, raise concerns that we should consider.
  5. As we praise and thank our faithful warriors, let us look forward to the day when there will be no snipers, just as there will be no terrorist armies.

 

(eek.  I wonder how much money he makes.  At least he doesn’t like that people get assassinated and is grateful to pay others to do the shooting for him.)

 

Paul Craig Roberts – Governments And Media Lying To People As Elites Enslave Humanity

6:07

George liked the sourdough bread so much he drew smiley faces on the note I left him about the chicken wings and celery.  One of the faces has square glasses so it’s supposed to be him I’m sure.  Sometimes he seems so pleased with me.  It’s really hard to imagine.

Electronic surveillance/torture as a remedy for chronic puritanism.

God’s people are supposed to be wise as serpents, harmless as doves.  I know few Christians with those characteristics in the right familiars.  God’s children are stupid and they hurt themselves.  How much more stupid, to permit them to hurt us?  We have to overcome our tendency to prescribe others’ behavior…at all.  1) We are doing violence to those we seek to control, and blood-sucking, and 2) we’re wrong all the time anyway, because we do not understand our victims’ motivations and we project our OWN BIASES onto them and assume we know why they do things and we assume those reasons are base.  For shame.  I’d like to overcome this so we can work together.  The bad guys want us 1) malleable, 2) trans-human, or 3) GONE.  Let’s LOVE OUR BROTHER and permit him the freedom we desire for ourselves.  (Man alive.  Still only on the Golden Rule…)
I was an extreme prude; I’ve owned up to it on the record.  When I first ran for office, in 2006, I didn’t watch TV and I hadn’t left my house after dark for ten years.  I’d backslide, and watch a movie I deemed unclean, and host my ritual book-burnings in the back yard as I repented stirring the ashes in my habitual sackcloth.  My children would see demons in the rising smoke. I was gonna do right if it killed me!   I made those tykes drop their drawers and lie still so I could switch them.  If they moved they got an extra stroke.  I thought I was serving God by REQUIRING them to behave as I wished.  (Also I prayed for them a WHOLE lot so God got us past that point.)
People who are being internally/eternally/inexplicably TORTURED do what they must to survive.  This torture might originate with the NSA toys,  or your father’s voice screeching from the past.  We’re ALL being tortured, except those who were able to turn it off by REJECTING LOVE.  If you don’t give a shit, it won’t hurt.  Mind over matter.  If you don’t mind, it don’t matter.  BUT, alas and alack…we  AIN’T MADE OF MATTER.  I never thought I had a right to desire happiness, until I was desperately pathologically unhappy.  As I fought from the rape-a-day mindset, I clawed toward peace, as a goal.  The Prince of Peace was leading the way up, so surely I was permitted to desire that.  BUT, as I attained each newer level ( levels like “non-annoyance” and “whatever” and “it doesn’t matter” and “this isn’t real”)  I realized there’s not a lid on the kettle.  I could go for the gold!  I COULD, without being sinful and evil and selfish…WANT TO BE HAPPY!  I could desire fun, and rest from my labor,  and HAPPINESS!  Then, I began to want it for everybody else.  If we all wanted one another to be well and happy, the world would change faster and fewer of us would have to die.  I’d like a friend who wants to see me happy, wouldn’t you?  Nobody gets any love!  Nobody gets ANY encouragement,  and if we have a problem EVERYBODY else will point it out to us.  Nobody needs to underscore these shortcomings of ours, nobody needs to rub our noses in whatever  FACT THAT WE KNOW VERY WELL and SUFFER  EVERY SINGLE MOMENT.  Somebody ELSE will tell us our body is not nice;  or they’ll say our passion is unimportant.  They criticize our attempts for betterment and crush If we denigrate others and destroy their confidence…it doesn’t make us BETTER!   It just makes us nasty.  Hasn’t any  of us noticed, that when you’re using others’ backs as your ladder, you’re gonna see them again on the way down.   “Yertle the Turtle, oh Marvelous Me.”  Nice work, species.  Don’t let the goblins get you.
“When Yertle the Turtle-man fell on his ass,
The neighbors all whispered, ‘I thought he had class’…
They smile when they see him, they nod and they grin.
I don’t find it humorous…I once was him…”
(I wrote that about my dad a couple years ago.  It’s longer; maybe I’ll look it up.)

 

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2/23/15

7:26 pm

I did it; I don’t know why I do.  I took them a loaf of bread and on the paper bag I wrote:  “No yeast!  All sourdough!  (It took a week.)  God bless you with joy and truth.”  Then I signed “Linda” in the fine penmanship I was given three years ago, spontaneously, and they knew all about it.  I can even write now with my left hand. Three years ago I couldn’t pick my nose with my left hand without putting out an eye.  It changed about the time Dad took my house I think.  Every time he pulls something God gives me a miracle.
I slept so well last night!  And I know I will again.  I bought myself a new pillow, it was a rare impulse purchase, when I was forced to go to Wal-mart with a friend who will be off parole in one month.  The pillow is great, cheap but very sufficient, and I swiped the big down comforter from the former master-bedroom so I was warm all night. God is very good to me.

 

6:33 pm

I am in possession of two fabulous loaves of San Francisco sourdough bread leavened by only the native fungus cells freely floating in my dirty kitchen.  It’s like a miracle.  I may never clean house again.  I’d like to take one to my parents but they get so weird when I take them food.  They never even thanked me for the Christmas pizza or anything.  (I didn’t deliver it myself so they didn’t kick me off their property that time.)   I’ve been taking them food for YEARS.

 

5:19 pm

The wings are in the oven and the sauce is made.  We’ll use store-bought blue cheese dressing because George doesn’t care and Josh is gone for a few days.

1)  My government is killing journalists and dissidents.
2)  I, and people I love, are  documented dissenters.
3)  My father knows where I should go to take my exemplary evidence so other people do not die.
4)  My father is unwilling because he has a guilty conscience.
5)  I have done all I can to absolve him of guilt on my behalf, so he can help my friends and me.
6)  He needs encouragement to do so. (It would seem.)

 

 

 

4:31 pm

Also from the chicken wing page.  6/5/14:

“The Arrogance of the Richfolk”
I know that truly rich folk will chuckle at my use of the term.  I beg their indulgence and choose my label only to compare the local haves and have-nots.  I’ve never known any truly rich folk.  My acquaintance is with nouveau riche, encumbered  by gaudy overconsumption, punitive manners and sound-bite morality.  They take pride in their glitter and slurp lobster in front of the TV.  They presume to deserve their rotating mountains of junk and cite reasons for the poverty of others.  They’re certain that others are not as smart as they, nor as virtuous. These folksy-rich deem poverty an earned condition.  Their ignorance  (and lack of good taste…) is comical. Derision from such folk is welcome to those who prefer substance to sequins.  “Thank you God, that I have never been rich. When I am, please enable me to see everybody else through your eyes, and to distribute what is in reality, YOUR MONEY, as you wish.”

4:25 pm

This is on my journal page with the recipe for Buffalo wings, 6/6/14:

(Bump to the top.)

I melted down last night, at Josh’s feet, before taking George to the emergency room.  I said I wanted somebody to love me and he said that Isaac does.  He said he did too but it was somewhat coerced.  When my boys know how badly I wanted to fix things for them they will have a hard time loving my father.  I wasn’t accusing my dad of anything at that point, only requesting help for neglected people.  He knows that and God does too.  When the goons told me my dad paid for me to be violated I argued with them and said he was good,  and naive.  They laughed at me, and my father’s behavior has verified all I was told.  I was naive and trusted my dad.  Trust is a necessary component of love.  I believed he loved me too.

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4:12 pm

 

My friend is hooked up to a machine that automatically bends and unbends his new knee. Forever.  Or until he can take no more.  I got the chicken wings all cut up and celery washed so I guess I’ll see what happened while I was gone, as the sourdough rises.

I wanna love my dad so bad but he’s a liar and every time nobody’s looking he does bad things to me and confesses other bad things he did!  “God, I know you’re watching this but I’m getting impatient.  NOBODY in my family will talk to me and they KNOW he lies all the time.  Please give me peace.  Amen.”

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11:56 am

Text to Dad:

 

“I’m taking food to a guy who had a knee replacement and my coolant light is on again.  You should buy me a good car and you know it.  Have a great day.”

10:51 am

Holistic Christian families now criminalized in America; parents having to flee with children

“The old adage “let’s just agree to disagree” is no longer a relevant concept when it comes to your personal medical views. It seems that the new American normal is for the government to literally mandate that you and your children consume junk foods and pharmaceuticals and get vaccinated, or else face harsh punishment, as evidenced by a string of recent state interventions against families who made medical decisions that differ from what’s popular in the mainstream.”

Learn more:http://www.naturalnews.com/048722_medical_abuse_government_kidnapping_parental_rights.html#ixzz3SaFd2J3l

Learn more:http://www.naturalnews.com/048722_medical_abuse_government_kidnapping_parental_rights.html#ixzz3SaFnm4gg

 

8:47 am

Oscar Wilde wrote,   “Selfishness is not living your life as you wish. It is asking others to live their life as you wish.”

7:41 am

It’s down to 57 degrees, but the fire was going well when I put wood on it in the darkness hours ago.  I’m making San Francisco sourdough bread from the starter I’ve been babying for a week.  Then I’ll try the black bread recipe I found.  I can never get pumpernickel black enough so I’m eager to see if this works.  You toast bread until it’s black and grind it up into the new dough.   We’re having chicken wings tonight.

6:33 am

60 degrees in the house this morning.  Better than yesterday.  God forgive my father and brother who I have asked repeatedly for suggestions…  David said, “You order wood.  How hard is it?”

6:09 am

EUCACH Director: Dr. Rauni Kilde radiated for four days with DEW. Remotely assassinated by NSA?

“In an Oct. 30, 2014 interview Melanie Vritschan, public relations director of EUCACH, stated, “We have evidence now that NSA is behind the Transhumanist Agenda to implant and robotize humanity.” Ms. Vritschan was referring to the overall control of the advanced remote directed energy weapons, and remote neural control weapons of the category that apparently may have assassinated Dr. Rauni Kilde.”

 

Magnus Olsson:  After the Brussels conference in November…”What Rauni did, that nobody else actually was able to do, is to bring up the subject on a military medical congress…the year 2000.  And this military medicine congress, the topic was named as ‘?-electric tele-communication and cybernetics…This was about behavior modification.  Already at the year 2000.  Behavior modification is one of the goals with this technology.  Satellites, HAARP systems, and so on and so on…you can change and alter the mental processes and emotions remotely.”

 

 

See more at:   http://newsinsideout.com/2015/02/eucach-director-dr-rauni-kilde-radiated-four-days-dew-remotely-assassinated-nsa/

 

2/22/15

5:13 pm

MUSIC BREAK

Girls Just Want To Have Fun (Official Video)

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Speaking in Tongues Medical Study proves Holy Spirit praying

“I don’t think faith has anything to be afraid of with science.  Science validates faith.”

 

Isaiah 28:11  “For with stammering lips and another tongue will he speak to this people.”

 

(Also TONGUES-PRAY-ERS hear from God better than Catholics.  I figured as much but I wasn’t going to say so.)

3:46 am

OK if I’m gonna cosplay as Elijah, can Keith Alexander be my Jezebel?  He’s into LARP.  Wink.

3:37 am

Babylon is FALLEN!  “Ding dong, the witch is dead!”  “Jesus, I love you so much and I believed you when you said this would be fun but then I didn’t believe you and you know all about that.  WOW.  WOW. You are King of Kings and Lord of Lords!  These lips have said those words and these neurons have vibrated along.  BUT…you are really, really the king of everything and I am so grateful you chose me to enter the belly of the beast so that you could shine within the darkness.  I am so grateful my dad sent me to hell so he won’t have to go there.  I am so grateful for your AMAZING BLOOD!  WOW.  The aliens want it and the Rothschilds are scared of it and to  the devils it’s kryptonyte.   But, try telling that to the American spies.  Go figure.  Thank you SO MUCH FOR LOVING ME.  Amen.”

 

 

3:23 am

He said, ‘Imagine that bears come from where there is always snow and imagine that if bears come from where there is always snow they are white. What color would the bears be at the North Pole?’ and they would respond something like, ‘I’ve only seen brown bears. If an old man came from the North Pole and told me I might believe him.’
How can I laugh louder on the cosmic whiteboard?  How to ascend higher realms of sarcasm in my derogatory amusement as I view my jailer?  As I view the NSA perverts?  As I view the castrated church?  As I view my family?  I have participated in activities that contributed to my torture and continued incarceration.  I used to vote.  I vaccinated my firstborn, at first.  (They grab that baby out of your arms so fast and start sucking blood… women go to jail in tears, if they refuse.)  Mandatory vaccination of adults is being discussed, by those who inoculate-for-dollars.  If they were to take DRAINO off the grocery store shelf… and hold you at gunpoint… while they funneled it down your baby’s throat..would you even comment?  Would you clear your throat?  “Who ya gonna call?”  Ghost Busters went bust.  1)  We’re on our own and we’re being held hostage by psychopaths who are MORE AFRAID THAN WE ARE, 2) the window of sanity is frosting over,  frosty-fast, by design and due to our NEGLECT, and 3) THERE IS HOPE!   (Read the Bible, go talk to somebody who LOVES PEOPLE.  DO NOT GO TO A PASTOR.  PASTORS ARE SOLD OUT AND COMPROMISED.  The guy with the answers will not be the guy you expect.  [That’s been my observation.] Seek your answers from the Spirit who “leads us into all truth.”  “Prophecy is the testimony of Jesus.”)

We’re gonna be stars!  This is the biggest movie ever made!  This is every question of every heart through the ages… gaining satisfaction!  This is TRUTH!  This is the singularity, and he’s the ONE.  We’re all going here one way or another.  Personally, I never trusted myself to get where I always wanted to be:  Love.  I knew I didn’t have what it takes to follow him through fire.  And I wanted to.  Because I wanted him.  So I got a tattoo.  (Jesus suggested it.)  It’s over my heart, presumably, and it reminds me of the embroidery on the chest of Raggedy Ann.  I figured if they were beheading Christians, and I didn’t feel like a Christian the day my number came up…maybe I could  lie.  But now I can’t…I already sealed the deal.  So I laugh!  I hold you torturers and murderers in derision.  I would wax witty, I’d sure like to do so.  It’s not worth the effort to think about.  Nice knowin’ ya.

Keith Alexander.  Full dress blues.

 

 

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2/21/15

8:40 am

The teams in this war do not wear uniforms.  (I said “teams.”  I was picturing football, not war.  They resonate the same to me.)  The teams are camouflaged and you must always be cautious,  for friendly fire. The teams are NOT ascertainable by appearance, OR BY AFFILIATION.  Not everybody from Green Bay is a Cheesehead. Thank God.  We’re encouraged to CHOOSE a team though, according to those nebulous/false criteria.  We must choose DEMOCRAT or REPUBLICAN, although neither has a stake in this battle.  We pick between religions, although we’ve been indoctrinated ourselves, or we wouldn’t compare ours with theirs.  Small thought reveals the other many dichotomies and their perceived goals and efforts.  (It’s all a show; none of it is real.) We PICK sides in what some of us even recognize to be an epochal extinction-level event on the immediate sonar, but we do so without identifying the factions.  We think this battle is about other people, but it is not.  People are not the enemy.  Any people you think may be your enemies are… ACTUALLY PRISONERS OF WAR!  Our enemy is LIES!  Those people have been captured by the LIE!  (And so have you, if you think they’re your enemies.)  “We battle not against flesh and blood.”  This is the final battle between good and evil.  Some atheists, and even some scientists,  are very good.  Some Baptist pedophiles are the lowest of the lowest of the lowest evil.  Are you able to put them on the right team roster?   It would do us well to recognize things as they are, so they may sooner become what they will be.  The battle has been won for us.  When we recognize that fact, we add the “Jesus done it” tense to our lexicon and the world changes and everybody gets happy.  This war will be won on the TV by 1) love, 2) love, and 3) love.  Because that’s how it went down in real life.

 

5:59 am

Can you believe a FATHER would do this to his own CHILDREN?   What a pussy.

Prince Charles ‘Sold Out’ William and Harry To The Tabloids

“The young princes were said to have been stunned and angered when they discovered that one of their father’s advisers had deliberately placed personal and negative stories about them in the newspapers.”

“The first violation of the boys’ privacy came when they were aged 16 and 13, just 10 months after the death of their mother, Princess Diana.”

 

Read more at:   http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2015/02/19/prince-charles-sold-out-william-and-harry-to-the-tabloids.html

 

4:50 am

I’ve been moved lately, with thoughts of the natural necessity for our faith and our politics to be mutually consistent.  First of all, and I shouldn’t need to say this:  we must be congruent… as individuals.  We must walk-the-walk and we all know it. (Hypocrites pinned with the pepper-spray of truth… on TV even!  EXPOSED.)   How much more so, as a community, we must seek fair-dealing!   And expect no less!   And offer only and always fair-dealing,  and truthfulness and personal responsibility.  This is because communities impact others, and our personal prejudices and liberties affect others than ourselves.  We are responsible for our communities.  We must not submit our communities and/or our souls to ungodly “consensus.”  If Christians aren’t  concerned with political influences over their own immortal souls…they haven’t even gotten to Faith-step-1.   RELIGION IS POLITICS ON THE MOST PRIVATE LEVEL.  Politics is:  How DO I DEAL WITH MY FELLOW MAN.  Religion is:  How do I deal with an almighty God who loves the other guy just as much as he does me, and how to I deal with my fellow man. Even when he is a bastard-muslim-democrat-spick…crazy…raghead…Jew…TERRORIST…   Name your own favorite…HATEFUL, poison, cursing-everybody  BULLSHIT!  “Do unto others as you would have them do onto you.”  (I’VE BEEN TRYING TO TEACH THIS CONCEPT TO MY PARENTS FOR THREE YEARS.  I think they’re  brain-damaged.)  I’d really love to move on, but the Golden Rule has not taken hold of my community just yet.  “Line upon line, line upon line.  Precept upon precept, precept upon precept.”  That’s how the Holy Ghost teaches, but  we MUST MOVE ALONG WITH HIM.
If our faith doesn’t influence our interactions with others it doesn’t really exist, does it?  You cannot serve God and Rush Limbaugh at the same time.  You can’t love the Prince of Peace and vote for Dick Cheney.  Or a Bush.  Not anymore.  (Not that voting matters, but I know God always has an accurate tally.)

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2/20/15

11:27 am

‘Home is the place where, when you have to go there,
They have to take you in.’  (Robert Frost.  “The Death of the Hired Man.”)

 

MUSIC BREAK

(Not me singing…)

“It’s me, it’s me, it’s me oh, Lord.  Standin’ in the need of prayer.

It’s me, it’s me, it’s me oh, Lord.  Standin’ in the need of prayer.

Not my father or my mother but it’s me oh, Lord.  Standin’ in the need of prayer.

Not my father or my mother but it’s me oh, Lord.  Standin’ in the need of prayer.”

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11:06 am

 

I’d like to work with a man.  I’d like to do smart things with a smart man who got hot for smart things.  I’d like to share my passion for correcting obvious deficiencies in my world with somebody who also longs to provide freedom for all.  But, I dream.  At this point I would be extremely grateful for any like-minded kin.  We’re on the road to forever.  I can’t see who’s steering this buggy but if I could I’d pitch in.

 

 

 

10:59 am

I lied.  I said that “living well is a good revenge…becoming well is the best.”  Becoming well is sufficient…but when you become well and recognize that you’ve been right all along?  Far better.

 

10:57 am

I’ve outgrown my pariah cell but alas, my father has not progressed beyond his entry-level job as Lord-High-Executioner.  He will.  One way or another.  A good start would be that ad in the Newberry News.  It should begin, I’m now thinking:  “I lied about my daughter.  All persons of good will within Luce county should listen to her, as I should have listened for decades.”  He could ad lib from there.

 

10:47 am

My dad’s house is a “no spin zone.”  (It says so on the doormat.)  I guess that makes sense:

 

Now Fox News host Bill O’Reilly is forced to deny accusations that he ‘pulled a Brian Williams’ and exaggerated his war stories

“The article trawls through decades-old interviews in which O’Reilly said he had reported from ‘active war zones’, including the Falklands conflict – even though no American journalist was witness to the fighting during the 10-week war between the UK and Argentina in spring 1982.”

“The magazine also claims that O’Reilly elaborated on the destruction he saw in one El Salvadoran town he visited during that fighting there in the early 80s.”

  • New report in left-leaning Mother Jones magazine accuses the Fox News host of elaborating on his war reporting experience 
  • O’Reilly, 65, worked as a reporter for CBS News in the 1980s, covering the Falkland Islands War and a civil war in El Salvador
  • In an interview with Daily Mail Online, O’Reilly flatly denied lying about his reporting on both conflicts 
  • ‘The report is a politically motivated smear job by a guy who has a long history of doing this,’ O’Reilly claimed

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10:25 am

What we must remember every day of our lives is that nothing happens by accident.  We must be vigilant, and consider the source of any input.  We must learn from everything.  We’ll need to depend on others.  The natural choice would seem to be family, but if family has demonstrated willingness to sacrifice its dependents in other situations, it would not seem prudent to trust them when the going gets gruesome.  Find somebody you can trust and be trustworthy.  (So far the second part seems easier.)  They say now,  that we can tone our bodies by thought alone.  I’m picturing myself with long blond hair and a huge barbell over my head.  I’m doing squats. That should cover everything I figure.

 

Will the Police State Protect You When a Drunk Pillhead Tries to Break into Your Tent at 3 am?

“This video is a rant of sorts filmed half an hour after we confronted someone who had drunkenly tried to break into our tent (and subsequently, our car) at Garner State Park in the middle of the previous night at 3 am. Authorities, however pointless, got involved.”

 

Read more at:   http://truthstreammedia.com/will-the-police-state-protect-you-when-a-drunk-pillhead-tries-to-break-into-your-tent-at-3-am/

8:33 am

Doesn’t it bother you that you’ve become just what they wanted?  Aren’t you irked that they told you what they were going to do beforehand, and then they did it right on your head?   Isn’t it embarrassing that your habits were predicted and are prescribed?   Don’t you just hate it that your life is nothing but repetitions of learned responses to false stimuli?  

8:16 am

“Diet, injections, and injunctions will combine, from a very early age, to produce the sort of character and the sort of beliefs that the authorities consider desirable, and any serious criticism of the powers that be will become psychologically impossible.

Even if all are miserable, all will believe themselves happy, because the government will tell them that they are so.” – Bertrand Russell, The Impact of Science on Society, 1952

 

2/19/15

3:01 pm

I just made a buche de noel from tiramisu with bitterweet chocolate ganache for Thursday night supper for one person.  Yes, please.  Authorities, you may approach without a search warrant and call me crazy.  Hope you’re hungry.

2:04 pm

 

 

 

The most rational person I ever knew in my life, before Adam, was Berta.  She was extraordinary.  Eldest girl of a dozen…she raised them all.  She was determined to NEVER have children.  She loved a man and sacrificed his baby to his marriage to another girl.  Whenever he had a vacation, he spent it with Berta.  That wife must have been about thirty pounds lighter than she should have been.  One time in my life I had money.  One time, I had options and I wanted to travel.  I asked EVERYBODY I KNEW to go on an adventure with me.  No takers.  Marcel came, we were sleeping together and he loved me.  My mom used to say, “Look at his eyes!  He loves you so much.”  (How the fuck was I supposed to know?  I guess my mom saw love one time at least before joining her substance to that (negative value.  I think I’m learning math.)  psychopath who attempted to destroy the lives of both women he was committed to protect and defend.  Pttghchgh.  (The last sound a pubic hair makes before hitting the ground.)  I loved Berta the first day I met her, also like Adam.  I started my new job as a co-ed under-grad in the local “big town” working the midnight shift with a dose of amphetemine in my determination…I was cleaning out the hot chocolate machine at about 4 am, after the Kanooks had gone back to their Blue Laws and strip clubs.  She leaned her ENORMOUS tits over my work and asked, ” …w…workin’ real hard?  …are ya?”  Bitch.  I could have borne her children right that minute.  When we got off at seven we drove to the straights, where we both had history.  We took the ferry to Mackinac Island and didn’t purchase EVEN A SINGLE THING.  God, I love that woman to this day, even after she rejected my experiences in the Holy Spirit.  She thought I might be going crazy.  (Didn’t everyone?)  She’s very wise.  I will love spending time with her again.  “God bless her with truth and freedom   Amen.”

LOOK!  That’s what I’m talking about.  I just wrote a love letter from my heart and I didn’t think of a word.  SOMEBODY is regularly accessing my memories and my FEELINGS about my memories and either 1) TWISTING THE FUCK OUT OF THEM, or 2) oozing.  I swear, when you guys see what’s being done to us you will have so many questions.  If you survive.

(My cousin Tom is pretty rational too.  Also Jeanie.)

 

1:33 pm

The court historians have deliberately suppressed information, because the information points to the conspiratorial origins of the event. It is crucial for establishment historians to be able to dismiss such investigations as conspiracy history, as if conspiracies did not exist in history, and as if they did not control events in the past.

 

The heart of revisionist history is this: the textbook version of the story is wrong.

“It may be wrong for simply technical reasons. Maybe certain documents have been suppressed, or lost, or ignored. Maybe the event is far more complex than the textbooks indicate. But in some matters, especially those regarding banking, war, and government spending, the textbook story has been deliberately written by court historians.”

 

Read more at:   http://www.lewrockwell.com/2015/02/gary-north/how-to-teach-revisionist-history/

Gary North, more here:   http://www.lewrockwell.com/2015/02/gary-north/how-to-teach-revisionist-history/

 

 

9:17 am

 

Gotta love seeing a girl stick up for her lying father.

‘He’s a truthful man’: Allison Williams comes to the defense of beleaguered news anchor father Brian who’s serving a six month NBC ban for lying about his time in Iraq

  • Girls star Allison Williams has spoken out to defend her disgraced father Brian for the first time since he was suspended by NBC for six months
  • She described him as ‘an honest man, a truthful man,’ at an event in New York City on Wednesday evening
  • She said the experience had brought her family closer together as they rallied round their beleaguered father
  • ‘I can’t wait until he’s back on TV and I know many of you guys feel that way,’ she said to applause from the audience

“My dad has always been there for us a 100 percent of the time… so to be here for him is the least we can do,’ she said.”

 

There’s passionate love.  The “least we can do.”

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Girls star Allison Williams has spoken out to defend her disgraced father Brian for the first time since he was suspended by NBC for six months for making false claims about his time in Iraq in 2003

8:51 am

The only thing I can see that’s standing in the way of the MANIFESTATION of the TRUE CHURCH of GOD…is the fake church.  Others have been fighting her battles.  For shame.  We’re the warrior bride of Christ and dare not criticize our mercenaries.

8:37 am

We mouthy ones have been running interference for y’all.  You can see where it got us.  We’re the canary in your coal mine and we’re gasping for breath.  We’re knocking on your door and begging admittance.  Where else should we go?  Will you stand in the gap for us?  Is there a refuge in the house of God?  “How our hearts burned, later, in the camps…”  (Solzhenitsyn)  If we all do the right thing then it will be the WRONGDOERS who are afraid and pursued.  STAND UP PLEASE!  LET US IN!  You need to hear our stories to be prepared.  We were TORTURED for a purpose of GOOD for ALL of us.  Allow us to fulfill our destiny.  OK?  HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF I DISAPPEARED?  Just wondering.

 

 

 

2/19/15

4:40 am

By maintaining pressure on our father figure I’ve done the right thing for all of us.  It is not OK that his machinations will lead us all into hell.  That’s how it stands, I think.  We must choose between 1) our lives, which have been defined and are perpetually influenced by our past and current obeisance to a psychopath, or 2) following truth.  It’s really pretty simple.  Until the mind-rapers get into the mix.  Then, how do we recognize truth?  We better start sorting reality pretty soon.

4:21 am

“Once you’ve confirmed that this person is a sociopath, the most direct approach is the best way to deal with them. They don’t respond well to passive-aggressive sleights. They either won’t recognize it at all, or they’ll view it as a weakness. You have to confront them, and call them on their lies and inconsistencies. Otherwise they’ll just keep walking all over you.”
“How to Spot the Sociopath in Your Midst”
…psychopaths hold no loyalties whatsoever. It doesn’t matter if they’re a member of your family, or someone you’ve known for years. If they think it’s in their best interest to hurt you, and they think they can get away with it, that’s exactly what they’ll do.”

 

“Pay attention to what they say and claim to believe, and see if they walk the walk. Remember their opinions and see if they change depending on who they’re talking to. And look for extremes in their behavior. It’s not unusual for a sociopath to seem introverted and quiet, only to suddenly shift gears, and become the most loud and affable person you’ve ever met.”

“Because their outward personality is a blank slate, they’ll often talk in a somewhat monotone voice before they get to know you better (then they’ll know how they should talk to you), and they’ll usually leave a lengthy pause before answering any of your questions.”

“What they’re doing is trying to gauge your personality, while they think of the “best” way to respond to you. You have to remember that since they can’t really relate to most people, they treat human interaction like you might use a computer. Everything is a simple input/output to them. “If I say this in a certain way, I’m going to get a specific response.”

 

Read more here:   http://beforeitsnews.com/survival/2015/02/how-to-spot-the-sociopath-in-your-midst-2559946.html

 

3:44 am

“Great expectation= great faith.”

I expect I will be requested to become president…but I’ll hold out for a real  job.

MUSIC BREAK

Rodgers & Hammerstein’s Cinderella– Impossible (1965)

 

 

2/18/15

7:00 pm

CIA, Mind Control, mk-ultra, How The Nazis Won The War

Sen. Frank Church:  “The United States has perfected a technological capability.  At the same time that capability could at any time be turned around on the American people.  There would be no place to hide.  The technological capacity that the intelligence community has given the government could enable it to impose total tyranny.”  (1975, Church Committee investigated intelligence agencies’ activities re: Americans)

 

Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/cia-mind-control-mk-ultra-how-the-nazis-won-the-war/#BsKPByaGYyFx01Dl.99

3:28 pm

Einstein Quote

2:09 pm

“The little food I see means more to me than all the food I can’t.”  (George.  Pretending to be Connie.)

1:59 pm

MUSIC BREAK

I understand that Alice Cooper plays golf with his pastor.

Alice Cooper-No More Mr Nice Guy Lyrics

10:08 am

Gray Walking: The Art of Transforming Militarism into Humanism

“One answer is to transform the militaristic mindset into a humanistic mindset. And gray-walkers are doing exactly that by blurring the lines between moral and amoral and working between the cracks of black & white, republican & democrat, socialism and capitalism, democracy & plutocracy. They subsume all polarities, mixing it all up in a bag of “fuck you I won’t do what you tell me!” and then pouring it out over the devastation that is the human psyche in order to fill in the cracks with a healthier way of seeing things: with a sense of interdependent humor. They are the ones lighting the beacons of hope towards the end of transforming militaristic mindsets into humanistic ones.”

 

“Ferguson riots, Bundy Ranch showdowns, Occupy clashes? These events don’t concern Gray walkers. They are merely side effects of everything that is rotten about the current system…”

 

“They are on the horizon working diligently to blur the fake lines the state draws in the sand in order to separate people. They are adamant about revealing deception. They are circumspect with power, especially their own, choosing to get power over power instead of hoarding it, and they are ruthless about mocking anyone who attempts to hoard it.”

 

Read more at:   http://www.wakingtimes.com/2015/02/11/gray-walking-art-transforming-militarism-humanism/

 

 

9:42 am

There’s a red mark on the stone wall underneath my bedroom window.  I didn’t see any red any other place on the house.  I might be tempted to think about that if God had not told me I am the safest woman in Michigan.

 

6:17 am

Morning prayer:

“Please focus my mind, Lord, secure it on you and on your plan and on your words.  The world is SO DISTRACTING and when somebody’s in my face it doesn’t matter that it’s an illusion for benefit of demonstration… because it FEELS REAL.  Flood my mind with your blood and flood my mouth with the words of your presence.  Let me BE the CHANGE I seek, and for which I’ve cried. Let me BE your hands and your feet and your Facebook presence (metaphorically…) and let me not be seen for myself at all.  Lower and slower, because I want to be as close to you for as long as I can throughout all eternity and I’ll do whatever to secure that position in your affection.  Please send more fire.  My father refuses to tell my sons the truth and it burns within me.  Does it burn in him?  I haven’t seen evidence that he burns like I do.  Allow me to see my father, and everything else, through your eyes.  Do not let me disappoint you?  OK?  ‘We are more than conquerors.’ Thank you for letting us know ahead of time, otherwise we might get scared.  Will you change this world already?  Please, Jesus, it belongs to you and I’ll do whatever you want to help get it into the fold of reality.  I’m so VERY IMPATIENT and I get all wrapped up in my own puny drama here with this lying-father-whom-you-love-as-much-as-you-love-me.  I’m not jealous.  I am astonished that he doesn’t care.  Amen.”
Confidence is a great gift and it is necessary to gain wisdom.  That’s because we find God in our mouths and if you have no confidence you never open your mouth.
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4:59 am

I think I’d like Jon Stewart’s old job, if I had some really good writers.  That’s probably the kind of thing somebody will do, who speaks for God.  (Until the media change or are eliminated entirely.)  I expect we’ll see God’s servants popping up in lots of unlikely places.  He’s positioned everybody perfectly and I can’t wait to see who I’ll be working with.  (I’d like to know what I’m to do, for that matter.)  Josh and I both need to be around people who care about the things we do.  We get impatient with each other although we both try to be really cordial and to honestly listen.  I get queasy when he talks death and war, I can’t help it.  He doesn’t like my topics either but I think we respect each other, recognizing attention to detail and genuine inquiry.  Whatever.  I am exactly where I belong at exactly the right time and I am just exactly chubby enough.  I’d like to be a thin non-smoker with an income, but my life’s not about me.  Josh is cursing at his computer, it’s 5 am.  Makes me want to light up a cigarette in his living room.  But, instead I’ll take it outside.

 

4:39 am

Another day, another opportunity for somebody to speak truth into my family, or from within my family or whatever God plans to do…maybe today.

“It’s a sad and stupid thing to have to proclaim yourself a revolutionary just to be a decent man.” –David Harris

 

 

2/17/15

7:21 pm

Josh loved the phyllo, but thought he’d like it better in a dessert.  I told him about my best phyllo dessert, with cooked apples and an apple rum sauce.  He thought he’d prefer custard and expected something more exotic than my spinach filling.  I’m gratified and motivated.  He came home from work with a Valentine gift from my mother.  She gave him a heart-shaped box of bite-size Snickers bar and fifty dollars in a card.  (I asked them to get him a passport five times.  “I’m not gonna do that, Lin.”)   Thus, on February 17 he feels guilty that he did not give her a gift, so I put some spanakopita with a Peruvian lily in a foil pan.  He said that  made him feel guilty for not giving ME a valentine gift so he asked if I cared and I assured him I don’t.  He made a card for them.  He took it up to their house and they weren’t home so he left it all in the garage.  He said he’s keeping the card from them.  We talked about cursive writing.  He’d like to love his grandparents very much.  I’d like that too.  I made Josh unhappy because I ran out of energy for a conversation about killing people, and about war.  He gets very disappointed in me, and ridicules my calls for revolution.  He thinks I’m a wimp.  He’s going to be very proud of me pretty soon.

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6:41 pm

What Will Happen In 2015? Shocking News For America! (PROPHECY WARNING)
Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/what-will-happen-in-2015-shocking-news-for-america-prophecy-warning/#qjOyiE4d2Q8TP3iC.99

4:59 pm

Radio no longer means what I think it does, does it?  Spanakopita tonight.  I don’t think I’ve ever baked phyllo for this younger son, so I’m pleased about tonight’s menu.  He’ll be pleased too, and we’ll talk about baklava.  I was a very good mother.  Until God decided I should become a 1) political candidate, 2) bag lady, 3) rape victim, and 4) activist with a substantial reservoir of experience and heart-felt determination to succeed at removing covert harassment and the NSA from the surface of my planet.  I also have confidence.  The goon gave me confidence and it has proven to be the gift that keeps on giving.  Giving confidence is like teaching a poor man to fish.  You know, if you give him a fish he’s ok for now.  If you teach him to fish he will be ok forever… and  maybe he could teach others how to fish as well.  Confidence was handed to me when I least expected it.  I expect a lot more things now.  I also expect  I’ll catch a whole bunch of fish.

 

 

 

4:42 pm

“I wanna go on record and say that I love my family and I would never commit suicide.”  Wow.  That’s way better than a durable power of attorney.  An alternative-news radio guy just gave his (Christian) testimony in case he gets killed.  It was pretty powerful.  Here’s mine:  “I would NEVER commit suicide.  I would NEVER commit murder or even slap anybody.  I am UTTERLY NON-VIOLENT and I just gave a bag of fresh granola to the clerk at the store because I do not have any friends to give it to.  This is my testimony and it will NEVER be my testament.”   I swear, the worse the news gets the happier I become.  I’ve been smiling all day.  I do not like the fact that this evil and corruption are running my world but AT LEAST NOW PEOPLE ARE TALKING ABOUT IT.  Things are really looking up!  I smiled all day.  I used to smile all day, then torture took away my smile.  Now, my smile will do away with torture.  (Eventually.)  We will learn to love one another or we’ll all die in a radioactive fireball or some semblance thereof.  I pick Curtain number 1.  I am going to live in a world of justice and peace.  I will experience love and I will never grow old and I will soon cry my LAST TEAR EVER.  I will not be alone in Nirvana, because other human consciousnesses will also be there,  and some already are.  Did you know that Sadhu Sundar Singh was translated?  In the forties or fifties I think.  I bought an old book about him on Ebay and it had a real- live photograph of him stuck in the pages.  He walked with Jesus ( as I plan to do…) and one day he strolled into the Himalayas and he never came back.  There exists great Christian history from India.  We are not permitted to hear it in the American “church.”  Americans get squeamish about miracles.

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12:56 pm

LIFE & FUTURE OF HUMANITY – Will the Elite Take Full Control

“Your life’s being programmed for you.  You’re having your free will taken.  And a lot of people that have already had their will partially taken?  They are slaves.  They are zombies.  They’re not people.  And the globalists have these weird metaphysical rules.  They’ve gotta get you to turn your soul over, and to turn your free will over…and then…then they can kill you.”  (Alex Jones)  (Gasp)
(The globalists didn’t write the rules but they darn well better obey them.)

9:57 am

Question for the Goon:

Maybe this is unnecessary to ask, since it’s so obvious, but:  DO YOU SEE GOD IN MY BRAIN?

 

8:00 am

Hackers are the true priests, not doctors.  Appeals to hackers can accomplish anything from covert destruction of enemies…all the way to giving us orgasms from outer space.  What do the doctors offer us?  Absolution for desiring to feel better than we do?  I’m self-medicating,  but if I got a prescription from an AUTHORITY FIGURE who even tells my boss when I can skip school…then I’d feel much better.  They’re selling indulgences just as brazenly as the enemies of Martin Luther.  The hackers can hear your prayers; you must pay to speak to a doctor.  The hackers keep no business hours, and they speak for the gods of this age, and of this earth.  They will choose to speak for the God of all eternity and distant galaxies which hackers hope one day to visit.  They know where the power lies and they’ll do the right thing.  (At least that’s my take on it.)  (Also, they don’t take kickbacks from salacious pharmaceutical companies in return for bending over before salacious pharmaceutical cartels that enact  politically-motivated genocide.  “Buy truth, and sell it not.”
“Freedom in the house!”  That’s what Heidi Baker said from the pulpit the night I had a vision of the Capital dome, and God asked me if I were willing to bring his “bride out of government.”   He said, “They don’t know who they are.”  I was on the same wave-length with Heidi that night, and felt very confirmed in my normally solo faith. It was rowdy, and the worship was loud, but it was not pure.  People were dancing all around me and I was on my knees with my face on a fold-up chair.  I cried and cried.  Heidi was on the platform wailing, “Don’t leave us like this Jesus!” Then I stopped crying and stood up.  Heidi said, “Thank you,” and she stood up too.  Freedom is the eventual destination of every truth-seeker.  (“The Truth will set you free.”)   Believing lies puts us in bondage, that’s pretty evident.  Once we accept slight perversion it’s harder and harder to go back.  Lies are the gateway drug to all manner of self-harm.  But, Truth is coming so a quantum jump is available to all.  We will see “Spirit…on all flesh.”  What that flesh chooses to do with yon golden ticket is up to them.  We will see miracles and become either believers, or fully-informed  rejecters.  Time is coming to a close pretty soon.  I for one, will be glad to see it go.  Beyond time is freedom.

 

7:09 am

MUSIC BREAK/Morning Prayer

Yell Fire

by Michael Franti and Spearhead with Lyrics

6:49 am

“It is us.  We are going to take care of each other   We are going to build the society we want to live in.”

Voluntarism= anarchy with a goal:  ‘Everybody Happy’

How to Change Your Life for Good – The Eyeopener

6:31 am

THE CLERGY-RESPONSE TEAMS TRUST GOVERNMENT AT THEIR PERIL:

Government Coming Down Harder On Kent Hovind

“He considered the ministry to be tax exempt and had taken a vow of poverty.  He considered the people who worked there to be missionaries and paid them in cash without filing payroll tax returns.  In his criminal prosecution, the greatest number of counts was for something called “structuring” – systematically keeping cash deposits and withdrawals below $10,000 to avoid currency reporting requirements.”

 

I think Dr. Hovind spoke at Lakefield when my sons were small.  I used to have all of his videos.

Read more at:   http://www.forbes.com/sites/peterjreilly/2014/10/29/government-coming-down-harder-on-kent-hovind/

 

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From Dr. Hovind’s blog:

First, thank you so much for checking in on my dad. He has now been in prison for more than 8 years. During this time God has used him to lead over 500 men to Christ, allowed him to read over 1500 books, and to author several books on various topics.

For the past several years, we have been expecting to see Dad home around February of 2015. We are praying that he will still be released in February. However, on October 24, 2014, the government handed down an indictment from a Grand Jury granting permission to prosecute both Kent Hovind and another gentleman for mail fraud. Dad is being represented by a public defender who said that these charges are unique in that typically mail fraud is used when someone defrauds another individual out of money. In this case, there was no money defrauded.

 

More at:   http://www.kenthovindblog.com/

 

4:21 am

WE never picture the apostles or church fathers having fun.  We picture them as serious all the time,  and we project our own death-fears upon their experiences of flesh-mortification.  We’re wrong;  they had fun.  They wanted to be around Jesus because he was magic and he was fun.  You never know what to expect with him.  It’s always wonderful and it’s always new.  Everybody wants fun and wonderful and new.  You just can’t get it at Wal-mart.  Religious people are the berries.  They all think they have the best product but NOBODY CAN SHOW YOU WHY!  They are not happy; should I choose their road?  Religion is like sex.  I wouldn’t ever wanna sleep with somebody I wouldn’t wanna be.  I don’t go to church anymore.  Or have sex.
The matrix isn’t like a house of cards; I used to picture it that way.  I figured that pulling one out would topple the rest. I now believe it’s more like an enormous mesh of pixie sticks.  I see God dismantling the abusive police state and false religion and corrupt science and “weapons of mass instruction”… by pulling out one stick at a time.  The structure might never have to fall, it might just naturally disintegrate, piece by piece. Wouldn’t that be great?  I saw myself skipping up the road the other day, just past the bridge.  They brought Beau Bergdhal home, they should let me go home too.  I want to be alone, and I will never stop fighting covert mind control until I know I can pray uninterrupted.  This is not a whim.  This is my commitment, and I’d like others to be able to hear God as well.  I wish to share my mind only with people with whom I wish to share my mind.   I believe I’m getting everything I ever wanted.  Jesus picked up the tab.
I’ve been working with the goon pretty much since the book came out.  When I knew I was being cyber-stalked I suggested  that he could maybe teach me something about computers, and I have learned some things.  I don’t know if the extended attention is because I’m interesting or because my dad tried to kill me, but I am grateful for the experience.  And for having my life back.  And for confidence.
It’s hard to assume short-term pain even if we know it will benefit us in the long-run.  We know if we eat our veggies, we’ll feel better for our whole lives…but we eat Doritos instead.  Doctors can force us to do unpleasant things to promote physical change, but nobody talks about lancing emotional pain…it hurts for a while, but it sure takes the pressure off.   (Parents used to teach those lessons.  I watched both of my parents hide their latest impulse-purchase from the other one!)  Tolerating delayed gratification is an adult attribute.  Some of us take a long time to grow up.  Let’s get a wiggle-on.  Even if Dad had not tried to kill me…he has demonstrated murderous intent simply by abandoning and ignoring me.  His intent was that I somehow be made to stop complaining about TORTURE.  Get real.  Anybody who refuses to speak for me is going to answer for it.  I do not say this from self-interest, actually I’m pretty detached from human opinion;  I’m going to the MOON!  I say this in love.  Bite the bullet.  While you still can.  Amen.  Selah.

 

2/16/15

7:40 pm

Goon Question

When I cut and paste something, why does ‘bold’ and ‘italics’ sometimes show up on the copy and other times not?
Why does the line-spacing on Evernote not stick when I put it on WordPress?  Why does WordPress scrunch the lines together?  Does a link get stuck to my finger, or do you have to put it back on?
OK, you read my thoughts without an interface at least part of the time.  I want to know how much of the set-ups are electronic, this is really bugging me.  Like when I get a song in my head, and it kinda fits some thought pattern and I’ll look it up, when I go to a page to see it, there is something planted there that is EXACTLY what I want to use although I never even got to the place I intended to go in the first place. There are a lot of verbs in that sentence and my willful-me is not responsible for all of them. My curious-me would like to hear from some  prepositions.  Also it applies to real-life as well as the virtual.  And physical too.  I have a zillion questions and I hope Big Brother will share his knowledge with me.  I’ve been real agreeable about this augmented reality bit and I think I would like to look into somebody’s eyes.
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7:35 pm

MUSIC BREAK

Little Lulu : Swingin On A Star (1944)

 

7:21 pm

Obama Won’t Wait for CISPA, Signs Own Orwellian Cybersecurity Executive Order

“The president signed an executive order Saturday after a speech at a ‘Cyber Security Summit’ at Stanford University, while many were distracted with Valentine’s Day. The ever-hated CISPA legislation has stalled in Congress thanks to public outcry, but Obama has decided to act on his own.”

 

THIS IS NOT THE ACT OF A PRESIDENT.  THIS IS THE ACT OF A DICTATOR.  OR RATHER, THIS IS THE ACT OF A DICTATORS TOADIE.  WE’RE MAD AS HELL AND WE’RE NOT GONNA TAKE IT ANYMORE!  (Please God, make it so, and forgive us for taking so long to get mad!)

 

Read more at:   http://www.activistpost.com/2015/02/obama-wont-wait-for-cispa-signs-own.html

 

7:10 pm

I think Ron Paul said this just for me.  We’re going to be good friends because I’m on his team.

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5:12 pm

Another thing that will be strange is that  when I am “utterly completely vindicated” people still won’t be my friends, if they’re afraid of me now.  They’re gonna be more afraid than ever.

 

4:45 pm

 

And Elijah came unto all the people, and said, How long halt ye between two opinions? if the Lord be God, follow him: but if Baal, then follow him…and… the people answered him not a word.  1 Kings 18:21

I know just how Elijah  feels.  But I can’t call fire down from Heaven,  I’ve been trying for years.  (Not yet, anyway.)

 

4:31 pm

It’s strange to ponder the things we’ll see.  We’ll watch many surprising congruent effects, when Truth is fully come.  And on the way.  Every day. From here on out.  One local strangeness will be:  as I am vindicated, my father will be recognized as somewhat deranged.  Wait, that isn’t accurate…I’m not being honest.  (If you’re not part of the solution, you’re part of the problem.)   I will  not HINDER  TRUTH ‘S  RETURN   to the home planet.  To this end I will always “tell 1) the TRUTH, 2) The whole Truth (to the extent that I recognize it, and to the extent that I am instructed and/or permitted by TRUTH, himself…), and 3) Nothing But The Truth.”  (I already dealt with the “so help me God” part earlier.)   Regarding the changes my father will soon experience,  I should have written, “He will be seen for the fraudulent Machiavellian fear-based narcissist that he is.”

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I pray that God will divert the timeline we’re  siting/sighting/citing  and give my dad the gift of repentance and GREAT COURAGE.  I pray that my family will partner with me to become all that we were meant to be, when God dropped all that Gold in this  tiny thorpe.  I pray that God will take me lower and slower, so that when I have a discernible audience, I will laugh like a child and enjoy their company.  I pray that I’ll be the best time ever.  I pray that I’ll be as much fun as Jesus, himself.  This is gonna be a very cool ride, I’m thinking.  I pray that I never miss a whisper, and always point people to him and not to myself.  (That’s hard to do when goons are watching.  The secret is not to look at yourself.  Especially not in the shower.)   We can choose where to place our attention.  We should consider the consequences of intellectual laziness.  (Christians REALLY have no excuse, because God said that if we ask for wisdom he’ll give it.  Liberally.)

 

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11:44 am

MUSIC BREAK

Les Paul & Mary Ford Show: World Is Waiting For The Sunrise

11:37 am

 Won’t be long before they get the Baptist pedophiles…and those who cover for them…

Alan Dershowitz

2/16/15

11:34 am

ANOTHER ONE BITES THE DUST!!

Rabbi Meir Kluwgant, Australia’s most senior rabbi, resigns after damning testimony at royal commission

“Rabbi Kluwgant gave evidence on Friday, and was forced to admit he had sent a text message to a newspaper editor calling the father of an abuse victim a “lunatic” who neglected his children.”

 

“The message referred to Zephaniah Waks, father of Yeshivah community whistleblower Manny Waks.”

 

“The text message from Rabbi Kluwgant to a newspaper editor read “Zephaniah Waks is killing us. Zephaniah is attacking Chabad. He is a lunatic on the fringe, guilty of neglecting his own children. Where was he when all this happened?”

 

Read more at:   http://mobile.abc.net.au/news/2015-02-16/rabbi-resigns-as-head-of-rabbinical-organsiation/6119458

 

11:12 am

Bump to the TOP, from June,  2013, when this site was new:

I TOLD THEM!
          I just remembered something God said a long time ago.  He said, “You don’t have to do it.”  I forgot!  He’s doing it.  We will be vindicated and truth will reign!   10 stories in a row on Drudge about all the people watching us on the internet!  I TOLD THEM WE WERE BEING WATCHED!  The headline was, “Internet from Hell”.  (Shit, if one guy in a garret can do the stuff I’ve seen, the goons can do anything.  They should pour my coffee.)
          Why watch me?  I don’t commit crimes!  I use my turning signal even in the middle of the night.  I drive in the right lane even when Marv says I’d get better gas mileage in the left one. Why me?  Maybe something like this: I annoy people.   (It is now a criminal offense to “annoy” a police officer in New York.)   I annoy everyone I know.  I annoy those I don’t know.  (Isaac says everybody likes me…until they get to know me.)  I am an undesirable.  Undesirability is the “why”.  Unfortunately, to the cause of truth, “undesirability” is a fluid concept.  Evaluations of desirability are sin, and will be punished with death.  Or, they can be abolished from the rulebooks and from the hearts of each man.  Your choice.
          OK, I am deemed undesirable by witness of people who have either 1) more money than I, or 2) more chutzpah than they got the foundation for.  My own father says I am not fit to live in this society as a contributive participant.  He thinks the government should give me money to sit still and keep my mouth shut.  My dad has mishandled his affairs and wants a bail-out.  Some “conservative”.  (I annoy my DAD really bad.)
          The stun-guns are a different thing.  It is wrong to induce victims to hear and feel and do things at the whim of others.  ALL the rulebooks prohibit this type of behavior.  My rulebook predicted it.  The Bible says that in the final hours of this planetary life,  this “pre-evolutionary-leap-time”…men will make merchandise of people, buying and selling their very souls.  Some souls cannot be bought. (Some will overcome, those who are pregnant with God’s purpose.  They got that way from spending intimate time with him.)  Stun guns are done.  Those involved will be tried.  Intentional ignorance will be dealt with severely.
          Creepy people are also on the undesirable-list.  This will change abruptly, when everybody sees and hears what the creepy people currently watch and listen to.  Newcomers will be turned inside-out, just creeping themselves out.  This will not be funny, even to those of us who expect it.  We will be very busy because all the formerly non-creepy people will be running to us with questions.  We will always have the right answers, if we seek them from Jesus.
          The new kingdom is Jesus.  His character and will are law.  People will be very happy about this, and begin to believe one another again.  It will start slowly, but there will be a tipping point and those who do not embrace love and truth will not last.  They will cease to exist in our world.  We will finally learn the definition of love.
          Responsibility, and its pains, will be lifted from every shoulder.  As a result, we will become more productive, because love is a far better motivator.  We will share, so personal gain will not motivate us.  With the top human fears conquered, we will never be sad.  We will all know we can never lose life or love.  We will create.  We’ll be like Him.
          “Thank you for allowing me to experience the low place.  Thank you for preparing me perfectly, all alone.  Do not allow me to speak even one word that doesn’t originate in you.  Thank you for guiding me through the darkness and do not allow me to look, even now, to the left or to the right, but directly at you.  I am yours.  Keep me low.  Do not allow me even one thought for myself, because you know best.  I am yours.  Send the fire.”
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11:03 am

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8:07 am

TEXT TO MY FATHER, and to all:

“I know you’re scared.  There’s only one way out.  Let’s choose to be everything God wants us to be.  Let’s get this over with.”

6:14  am

PROPHECY

“Prepare your hearts, My children, for your lives are about to change forever. I will raise you up on new platforms to teach and preach to My other children, that all may be made ready for the end of time, the soon coming return of My precious Son, Jesus. Your hearts must be truly to please Me, and not yourself, for when this begins, you shall receive offers and invitations that are not wholly My will for you.”

“Even now some of My children are starting to see the signs I am moving you into the limelight. Flow with Me, My children. Let Me make the moves, for I alone know the way, and where You are called to be at any given time.”

“This will be the year of the platform for My people. This is the year I will raise up a platform for those called to My purposes. I have given some of you a voice, now I will reveal where I desire you to use it. (I saw some writing, some speaking, some singing.)”

“The level I raise each of My children to this year depends on how faithful you have shown yourselves to be – in My Word, in My Kingdom work, in your duties as Christians in the earth. I will not promote those who have not shown themselves to be honest, diligent, faithful, and Christ-like in their dealings.”

“For those who have refused to answer My call, what you have shall be taken from you and given to one more deserving.”

Read more at:   http://www.stevequayle.com/index.php?s=294&d=438

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5:52 am

* Perfect obedience [love] will bring forth the “necessary” confrontation. For perfect love will always both expose and confront fear – first in oneself and then in the hearts of all those who cross their path!

* Perfect obedience to My Will brings “confrontation”.

“confrontation” – standing face to face with; the provocation of conflict as a means of effecting change [also, a crisis or conflict so caused]

Before a body of believers [both individually and corporately] can move to that next step of “glory” [and, thus, a deeper entrance into the fullness of “Kingdom living” and the authority of Christ that abides within it] EVERY ground of fear [and pride] must be confronted.

 

Read more at:  http://jtlmin.com/DAILY%20FBN%202015/02%20February%202015/WPFBN0216.pdf

 

 

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5:06 am

“This is a Spirit that you have identified that is sweeping the Christian Community!
I am seeing this same thing in close community situations and families.This is Biblical of, “brother against brother”, families turning on family members, those that say they are of the Faith; but are not.Now, this is a “Spirit”.
“This is the FUD Factor. Fear, Uncertainty, Doubt…so be safe and turn on someone.
Turn against others so, “YOU FEEL SAFER”.

 

 

2/15/15

6:45 pm

The Targeted Individuals who Know they are being gang stalked, are the tip of the Iceberg

“A major difficulty that targeted indviduals have is identifying what is happening to them. Over the years I made several attempts to uncover why it appeared my reputation was being trashed everywhere I went and people who did not know me knew about things that had happened to me that I hadn’t talked to anyone about.

 

“I only discovered “gangstalking” this year after bizarre behaviour from a relative caused me to contact Wikipedia Reference Desk to see if anyone had an explanation for the outrageous behaviour.”

 

See more at:   https://taknbsorbemwon5.wordpress.com/category/gaslighting/

Gang Stalking – A Con Artist Cult

“Last year I discovered that the lifetime of harassment and set-backs I have experienced over my life, spanning at least 35 years is mainly down to one thing – being made a Targeted Individual of gang stalkers since I attended Ulster University in the 1970s.”

“By spreading the slander that I am some kind of criminal, and pretending the exercise is about supporting National Security, they have been able to approach people, infiltrate their lives, and over the course of time strip them of their legally, earned assets, and then send them out to perform the same con trick on others, after the  style of money making cults.”

Tell the Truth and Shame the Devil

“As a Target, the lies spread about you are spread by people who know for a fact that their lies are not true.As a result of those lies you are cut off socially. On the one hand by the people directly dealing with you who are gagged. And secondarily  all those who have heard the rumour that you are a paedophile, a terrorist, a dangerous mental case, quite naturally wish to keep their distance.

 

Read more here:   https://taknbsorbemwon5.wordpress.com/2014/01/22/tell-the-truth-and-shame-the-devil/[/embed]

“The beauty of  lies as a weapon is that they cost nothing, and are infinitely versatile. You only have to identify the prejudices of the recipient and tailor your lie accordingly. And you can have even more fun spreading different, contradictory lies to different sets of people.”

“The problem with lies, for the victim, is everybody else knows, but he/she doesn’t. They are the only one that is not spoken to.  People who have been lied to about you, don’t come up to you and say – hey (insert name here) told me you are a spy/terrorist/prostitute/paedophile – let’s have it from the horses mouth -is that true/ what do you say? ”

 

Read more here:  https://taknbsorbemwon5.wordpress.com/2014/04/18/spies-lies-and-loads-of-horlicks/

 

5:18 pm

 

9:59 am

 

I made cinnamon rolls for the guys; they’re in the oven.  I’m eating romaine and tomatoes with leftover cod and balsamic viniagrette.  With oregano.  And garlic.  22 below zero this morning, I’m actually thinking about getting Connie some booties; I never thought to think such a thing.  She limps after just a few minutes, and this morning was unwilling to come up the stairs to the door.  It was warmer inside, so maybe she learned something.

9:00 am

To the goon:  What’s with the “transhumanist” page?  You’d have to be a machine to read it!    I REALLY dislike the margins.  Maybe you could teach me to format sometime?

8:58 am

Also.  What right does my father have to denigrate the value of my accomplishments?  I ran for Congress two times.  I published a book.  My un-schooled children are smarter and kinder than their compatriots.  He has not only stolen years from my life, all my relationships and earning potential…but he’s also stolen my in-spite-of-him accomplishments!  He is very evil, at this point.  He stole my entire life!  I am not anybody special but NEITHER IS HE.  “More fire please God.”

 

 

7:27 am

HOW A NATURAL MOVEMENT IS STARTED

“Being a first follower is an underappreciated form of leadership.”

 

5:55 am

Bump to the top:

DEBRA LOWE
http://daughtersofz.typepad.com/
daughterofz@ymail.com

2/28/14



I am giving to you the “great escape” into your promised land here on earth. For some of My children it has been a wilderness experience, where you have been living from one miracle to another. Yes, you have found Me to be your provider, and your preserver there in the wilderness. Now you will experience Me in a greater capacity as both a provider and preserver, and much more. I will be unparalleled in My attention to the smallest details in bringing about My great plan for you. Your wilderness experience has caused you to develop patience as you waited on Me.

Now stand and be amazed, just when you thought it was all over for you, the sun will arise in its brightness! It will shine on the steps that you will take, they will lead you higher and higher until the day that you come home to be with Me. Your light has come. So, then from this moment on because you have committed yourself to living wholly for Me, you will ascend to the heights that I planned from your beginning! This will increase in you My joy, and you will know real joy, unspeakable and full of glory! Glory, glory that will open up to you My ways of being and doing right. The cares of this world will lose its grip from your heart and you will keep climber higher until you are found complete in Me.

I Am covering you with My shield of favor, all will begin to look and see, some will only see that you are lifted high, others who have developed their spiritual sight will see My uniqueness all over you. This is how I will give you the great escape from the old ways and the old paths into Mine. I Am arising upon you, My humble and obedient child, your due time has come. It will seem like a dream to you at times, it will be surreal! I have kept My best for this generation, those that will stand for Me in the darkest days known and will burn brighter. Those who draw closer to Me will lean more upon My hand and will hear with clarity My voice, therein following My wisdom and getting more understanding as they go on their way to enjoy the promises that I have laid up for them now. ”

“Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you”. (Is. 60:1)
“When the Lord brought back the captives [who returned] to Zion, we were like those whodream [it seemed so unreal].” (Ps. 126:1)
“Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:” (1 Peter 5:6)

 

 

5:19 am

MUSIC BREAK

 

When the Ship Comes In

“And the Sun will respect every face on the deck…the hour that the ship comes in.”

5:02 am

Note:   It didn’t start out at  three and a half million.  It was raised a few times when Dad was particularly egregious.  I did let him know when it went up.  I kept records.

4:53 am

I met with a guy a couple months ago, about being on his radio show.  Then I dropped the ball because DADDY STARTED BAD-MOUTHING ME AGAIN.  (To George.  It’s in my journal.)  Now, DO I HAVE TO SPEND FOREVER PREACHING TO THE CHOIR?  (“Dear God, that’s funny so MANY ways.”)  Or, may I please TELL SOME TRUTH TO THE MASSES?  Family, this has to end.  You have acted like children and I forgive you.  Now, get Dad to tell the truth and I’ll be on my way.  Soon, please?

What would it be like to have everything you need?  How would it feel to know that if you got a run in your pantyhose…you could just get another pair?  I often pondered these questions as I watched my siblings and my parents.  How would it feel to be warm all the time?  Do their bedroom thermometers ever register in the 50’s? My family is an alien race, and they’re racist.  Not recognizing the diverse marching orders handed out to the rest of us, they assume affluence is a badge of honor, a right, and must be carefully guarded.  God have mercy on their souls which seem to be, 1) obtuse, 2) staggering under the weight of false-entitlement, and 3) selfish.  Also, they 1) lied about me and cast me out of the family, 2) talked me down to the neighborhood, and 3) stole a lot of things from me that are translatable to CASH VALUE.  3.5 million.  That’s what I heard from the God who KEPT ME FROM DYING!  It’s pretty hard to believe that I may one day not have to stoke the outside stove every five hours for 8 months of the year.  But, God has given me hundreds of four-leaf clovers…even on demand.  Let’s see what he’s got.

 

 

4:08 am

Morning Prayer

 

2/14/15

6:43 pm

I love a script with two honorable guys who hate each other.  Does it ever get more sarcastic than that?  They’re bound to say the truth but it irks them to say it where it needs to be said.  I also love people who raise others’ children.  I would have been willing to raise another’s child, before I encountered so many obstacles to raising my own. Foster parents must feel much as I do now;  lots of conviction but minimized influence.  I told Josh how I was feeling and I felt bad for doing so,  but then he started telling me stories and inviting me into his room to watch the dog.  I don’t know how to act.  I am grateful though, for one benefit of my father’s denigration.  I know now that I was a very fine mother. Another effect of his intervention has been the cessation of my mothering.  I’m finished.  I don’t suppose many mothers receive that definitive realization.  I have two roommates, but I’m no longer responsible for either of them.  I am responsible TO them.  When it is time for me to leave, I will leave with no unfinished business.

 

4:05 pm

Can you imagine what it feels like to be an EXTRAORDINARILY diligent woman, whose  BRILLIANT son is the most… SPOILED PERSON SHE EVER MET…because the menfolk called her names?  I’m really pissed.  Those MEN, those men that  I BEGGED FOR HELP (…or at least to stop DEFAMING ME long enough TO GET SOME THINGS IN ORDER…) are responsible for some really serious shit.  There’s no teamwork when Grandpa gave you a slave.

12:04 pm

“There is no need for you to be concerned about what you say on Twitter, Facebook, on the phone or in print, that ship has already sailed. You already have a Threat Matrix Score and that score could eventually hold very significant consequences for you and your family.”

“The President’s intention to transfer intelligence information on American citizens from the NSA to the DHS is both ominous and the purpose is self-evident. My sources simply serve to reinforce the obvious intent.”

“The Red List is a modern-day interpretation of Nixon “Enemies list”. However, what is happening today is much more nefarious. The “Red List” is a “dissident removal list” and it will be conducted with extreme prejudice.”

“The people who have referred to such lists and those brave enough to expose them, as “fear-mongers”, may soon change their tune.”
Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/dhs-is-positioning-to-secretly-arrest-american-dissidents-in-preparation-for-world-war-iii/#A15k7ljHCi6Crxkx.99
Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/dhs-is-positioning-to-secretly-arrest-american-dissidents-in-preparation-for-world-war-iii/#A15k7ljHCi6Crxkx.99

 

 

7:48 am

Regarding converts, my Uncle Herb used to say (Because he knew I’d never had a convert, he also told me that souls are a blessing.  They are not an indicator of how well we obey.) “First they get mad.  Then they get sad.  Then they get happy.”  My goal:  Everybody happy.

 

Questions for my goon ❤  (Stockholm Syndrome):

How do  you turn that “like” button blue?  How long, maybe a year since I’ve seen that?  I recognize that I’ve been taken through many steps of behavior modification,  and they’ve conditioned me to respond to increasingly finer things.  I also recognize that I have been conditioned right backwards-out-of… aspects of trauma-based mind control.  I am grateful. Am I to be the test case?  I recognize that I’ve had more than my fair share of attention.  I’d like to know when I was targeted, and by whom.  Is that very much to ask?  I’ve provided entertainment for generations of dorks.  Eh?  I’d like also, to see the NSA implode.  If I could assist in any manner, the hackers who will accomplish this, I’d be pleased to help. If people could see the GOOD that this brain-science could do, maybe they’d stand up for themselves?  “It is the goodness of God that brings men to repentance.”  The best teacher doesn’t make you feel stupid.  The best teacher teases you and makes you want to know more.  Like Jesus does.

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7:39 am

I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance.
Redemption, “the Mission”  de Niro  1986

 

7:17 am

False Christians are WAY worse than regular atheists.  Decidedly so.  Either God is in charge, or we are.  Non-denominational  atheists get it.
I melted down a pan of really fatty bacon; bacon grease is going to be my secret ingredient for the best-tasting macaroni and cheese in the competition.  I’ll also use butter, chicken base, milk, cayenne pepper, ground brown Canadian mustard seed, onion powder and paprika.  Sharp cheddar.  I also made a bowl of crumpet batter for Josh to fool around with when he gets up.

 

 

6:23 am

I’ve been trying to think about the questions I will ask my father when an honest tribunal is held.  I haven’t even gotten an outline.  I think I’d like to start with the time he admitted he was intentionally trying to destroy my family, and my children’s confidence in me.  He shook his head and whined, “Your boys still love you…”  WE MADE A BET.  I’ve decided to believe GOD IS OMNIPOTENT, and since I GIVE HIM MY LIFE EVERY DAY…I am exactly where I’m supposed to be, doing exactly what I’m supposed to be doing, in exactly the right environment of isolation and deprivation.  It’s his life.  I’ll be here when he’s ready for me.

 

5:36 am

Bump to the top, from October 2011.  Right after my dad red the book.  He talked to me then, and replaced the deck I fell through two times although I am the lightest person in the house.  And he brought me gifts.  Then he figured out I didn’t understand what he’d done and he tried to have me locked up and took my home.  We had a bet.  He lost.

“The atheist has no ground to seek.  There is no cover.  It’s apparent.  He has no pictography for success.  He can’t visualize “win”.  Even if he “wins” he’ll never know if his victory is secure.  He won’t live to see it.  Pity.  Pain.  Why bother?  If I drew my final breath this moment, I’d still win.  There’s minimal pleasure in that knowledge.  Does Jesus feel like this when he considers atheists?  He loves them so much.”

 

5:26 am

Happy Valentine’s Day!

Million Mask March in London

5:14 am

I’m praying for my dad this morning.

It’s terrible that young people are sexually victimized.  It’s also terrible that those entrusted with their welfare also victimize people.  What is obscenely terrible, is the frequency with which an authority figure entrusted with assisting a particular victim…also assaults that same victim.  EVERY DAY I read about cops raping a victim.  So often.  Once you’ve been raped you’re fair game for further violation.  I could write a book.

 

2/13/15

4:45 pm

Both George and Josh get off work at six.  We’ll have calzones for supper.  I made the filling from spinach, cudighi, mushrooms and cottage cheese.  Asiago cheese and basil.  I made a tomato dipping sauce with thyme, oregano, rosemary and basil.  Garlic.  Red pepper flakes.  I baked a pan of  banana bread with dried cranberries because George likes it a lot and this morning I made cookies for Josh.

Patriot Act 2: Obama Executive Order Will Promote Sharing Of Confidential Information With Corporations

“In the aftermath of the Snowden whistleblowing scandal which has now all but been forgotten, there was a brief period when it seemed the growth of the US spying apparatus would be halted if not put into reverse. Those days are long forgotten and later today Obama is expected to to sign an executive order “that aims to make it easier for the government to share classified cyberthreat information with companies.”

 

Ho Hum.  Another executive order.  But people will still believe we’re a democratic republic.  They’ll probably even vote.  Hope that helps them to sleep better.

 

Read more at:   http://www.zerohedge.com/news/2015-02-13/patriot-act-2-obama-executive-order-will-promote-sharing-confidential-information-co?page=2

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10:38 am

Professional Liars:  a Counterculture

I can’t imagine the lives of those who lie for a living.  It‘s much easier for me to empathize with those who lie for advantage, and sometimes behave honorably.  I grew up with a psychopath.  Often, he did what came naturally…attend church and portray his false self as Christian, for advantage, but nobody watches him all the time.   His life is easier than those of actors for instance, because his provided opportunity to let his hair down.  So to speak.  He has very little hair and I do not discredit him by believing him incapable of lying 100% of the time.  He just doesn’t have to because the church is also fraudulent and incapable of recognizing liars.

Questions for the goon:

Within a sentence, how far back can a reference go?  Like if I’m twisting a metaphor, may (I suppose “may” is a better question than “can” since “experts” tell us how to write and simultaneously assure us we cannot.)  I refer to an object, rather than the original subject?  If the points are within an independent clause, I suppose that’s always ok.  But, sometimes if I refer to the wrong part of speech, my words mean different things at once. Sometimes I think it‘s cute, but then a voice says, “Please.  Consider for whom you write.  Would they get it?”  When I think “no”, I put on the brakes and then I get bored and then I get lonely and then I go buy a beer and bake  far too many desserts.  I’d REALLY REALLY REALLY like to talk to somebody about politics and about what is happening to MILLIONS of people on this planet.  I have no acquaintance who “gets it.”  Except the Prophet.  God bless him.  His son was rushed by ambulance last night with appendicitis and I haven’t heard any news.  Please pray for them.  Pray for me, even as yet no kindred spirit has supped at my table.  Not since my parents lied about me.  I am very lonely and I’m having a hard time sitting still.  God most certainly has something more interesting for me to do than to fold clothes.  If I had something interesting to do, I could do it 14 hours a day,  and also find mucho tiempo for clothes-folding.  Doesn’t anybody have any ideas for me?

Everything I write turns into a job application.  I gave my dad a resume on the day I washed his feet.  Moron.  God forgive me.  Knowing that my father has held me down,  and intentionally sabotaged my family (Notes:  Summer, 2012, admission) is a very liberating place.  Just because one psychopath thought my ideas were lousy, does not make them so.  It only means that a psychopath insinuated my station in life,  and his hubris will be adjusted.

But, I was writing about lying for a living.  The life-blood of entire families is devoted to deceiving the rest of us.  I can’t imagine how it would be for a 13 year-old to turn on his computer and see pictures of himself with different names beneath.  I can’t imagine how he files his memories of different psycho-dramas his family has perpetrated on their fellow humans.  If Angelina Jolie’s entire life is observed and recorded,  at least she has the same name in each life she inhabits.  (I assume.)  The governments are highly-funded movie producers,  and we buy the popcorn and drink the kool-aid.  I’m glad my children are not liars.  It‘s too bad their theater is precariously balanced on falsehood; but they’re both great at improv.  We  will not live in a world of lies, because there will be no more lies pretty soon.  Without them, lots of people will just curl up and die.   Families and entire counter-cultures.

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Here is what the BBC had to say about Noah Pozner’s photo:

“Meanwhile, another picture has been circulating online of victims of the Peshawar massacre – but the montage of images includes the photo of a young boy, Noah Pozner, who died in the Sandy Hook massacre in the United States in 2012.”


Read more at http://www.liveleak.com/view?i=501_1423778836#DZYABXvKaYPk6Bca.99

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7:16 am

James 2:13 For judgment is without mercy to the one who has shown no mercy.

9/11 DEFENDANT SODOMIZED AT CIA ‘BLACK SITE’ STILL SUFFERS INJURIES, LAWYER SAYS

A lawyer for a man accused of helping to plot the 9/11 attacks said today his captive Saudi client was rectally abused while in CIA custody, “and continues to bleed now, at least eight years later.”

 

Read more at:  

 

 

6:44 am

I have almond macaroons in the oven for Josh’s lunch, which I already packed.  He’s having a baked chicken thigh and spinach with butter beans, all dressed with lemon juice, olive oil, garlic and rosemary. A small piece of ham.  I put in some of the roasted cauliflower he requested yesterday, it’s glazed with tahini and honey. Butternut squash.  I’m going to make sandwich cookies, with Nutella between two macaroons.  I think he’ll like it. He loves variety.

 

6:26 am

“Love is attention.”  (Isaac Miller)

I can’t believe how God set up this final battle.  I expected it to be trickier.  These are the facts:  1)  He said “the kingdoms of this world will become the kingdoms of God and of his Christ”, 2) we’ve permitted psychopaths to DESTROY the environment and our free will…and we are biological organisms requiring both in order to survive…, 3)  the psychopaths invented machines that can differentiate between us and them, 4) obviously, they don’t want us to ever get our hands on said machines, so they cranked up the volume,  5) God is exposing them IN SPITE OF THEMSELVES, 6) the psychopaths don’t like that so we’re being mind-controlled more heartily every day, and 7) We have a limited window of opportunity wherein we MUST CHOOSE TO EITHER A) ALLOW THEM TO MELT OUR BRAINS, OR B) RUN AFTER TRUTH WITH WHAT PUNY STRENGTH REMAINS.  (Failure to choose defaults to brain-melting.)  Pretty basic stuff.  I pick TRUTH!  I don’t wanna perish in a puddle of brain-putty.  “TRUTH, come get me!”   “Just as I am without one plea, but that thy blood was shed for me.  And that, thou BIDDEST ME COME TO THEE..oh Lamb, of God I come.  I come.”

5:15 am

Rituals make me squeamish.  Rituals are props, at best, but most times they comprise the entire performance. Rituals are initiated by SELF, which makes them prima facie rebellious, but they’re also palliative, and posit perceived  protection from potential problems.  Rituals are banked like Federal Reserve notes; you can’t overdraw your checking account if you’ve done enough “Hails Mary”.  Rituals are insidious, they masquerade as habits of conscience, when they are really projections of self-justification and license!  Rituals are rebellion and refusal to hear the voice of God [or whomever we claim to obey]!  Rituals are commercial, and we are comforted that others know our piety and/or lack thereof.  Rituals are not honest.  Rituals are not righteous. Rituals are Hollywood.  Rituals still work, however.  Demons don’t care about why we perform rituals.  They just recognize an opening and squeeze through right into our hearts.  Hard to dislodge those brigands.  Rituals can’t eliminate the demons.  Rituals can’t even threaten them, and they laugh at rituals.  They do not laugh  however, not ever, at a simple human soul in communion with GOD ALMIGHTY.  They know better.  They’re much smarter than humans.

 

4:50 am

Email from “Targeted-Individual” friend in Europe. I met Dr. Kilde in Belgium. Her sister attended Suomi College in Michigan. My mom went there too.

Dr. Rauni-Leena Luukanen-Kilde dead, probably murdered

Monday, 09 February 2015
Yesterday medical Dr. Rauni-Leena Luukanen-Kilde died in her homeland Finland by severe cancer all over her body, her Finnish cousin told White TV today. White TVs Dr. Henning Witte talked to Rauni about ten days ago on telephone in Finland, not knowing it was the last time. She complained about that she suddenly got cancer as a result of beaming technology, mind control scalar waves. Her complications got so severe, that she was forced to leave her home in Norway to a hospital in Finland, where her caring cousin is living.
Rauni Kilde complained over the rude manner of the Norwegian ambulance and that they refused her choice of Norwegian hospital, and over the doctor at the wrong hospital, which wanted to give her morphine against her will. She was allergic against morphine, which she told the doctor. She said to her friend Elisabeth Nyström Barringer, that she was afraid, that the Norwegian hospital would kill her, and that she was better in the Finnish hospital and out of danger for her life.
During the last week it was not possible to talk to Rauni any longer and the doctors indicated death.
Here one of her last emails to a friend sent 14th January 2015:
Thank you XXX, I was badly attacked 17-18.dec with psychotronic weapons layng at the floor with EXTREME pains until after midnight. I had to call an ambulance 19th to go to hospital, where malpractice started from first minute, male dr. hit my right kidney so hard, that my urine was bloody the next day, for three days female dr. did not touch me AT ALL. I had said, it all comes from beaming-she said, noone will believe you-I said insiders do. Even my heart was not listened to…she stood 2-3 meters away from me all three days until I said. Iwant to go home and did I have a serious illness now which they have caused with radiation and it was now activated. After some bedrest I got assistance to travel with wheelchair to Finland, where I will have all tests red one Finland is not a NATO country having to follow US orders and it is right now much better for me, to be here and go to hospital here. In addition my old cat dissappeared and at nightI got a flash vision they hit and smashed her skull with some wooden blanck…
Even if they tried to eliminate me-by giving 2 times an injection I was allergic to I WILL SURVIVE says my automatic writing even to be able to perform later.
But it takes time, I am totally out of energy still, mostly in bed all days..
Please DONOT sperad the word, but if you know any healers I would appreciate to get their help, because I try to get better ONLY with altrnative methods and if it would succeed it would be a medical miracle showing the power of thought and healing. Geetings to YYYYYY, too Love and light Rauni
Dr. Rauni-Leena Luukanen-Kilde was very well known all over the world for her enlightening on the topics reincarnation, ufos and mind control. She thougt, that we must not fear death, because there is no real death, only that the astral body and the soul leave the human body. She knew, because she had out of body experiences.
She was a very courageous woman and suffered from many attempts to her life and harassment of all kinds, especially electronic harassment. The dark forces did not like her eye-opening work for humanity.

 

 

 

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4:02 am

 

RABBI ACCUSED OF SECRETLY VIDEOTAPING MORE THAN 150 WOMEN

“A rabbi accused of secretly videotaping nude women at a Jewish ritual bath recorded more than 150 women, prosecutors said during a meeting with victims, the first specifics they have given on the scope of the man’s recording.”

 

See more at:   http://hosted.ap.org/dynamic/stories/U/US_RABBI_ARRESTED?SITE=AP&SECTION=HOME&TEMPLATE=DEFAULT&CTIME=2015-02-12-16-46-34

 

This rabbi is my father.  This rabbi is those Baptist missionaries my father supports, those men who take others’ money to spread the gospel… then rape little girls and force them to confess to adultery.  This rabbi is George Bush and Jimmy   Savile.  This rabbi is  Warren Jeffs.  This rabbi is the NSA.  (Actually, the NSA is more like Bill Cosby than the Rabbi.  This rabbi can only DREAM of dis-empersonizing people like that.)  It should be unnecessary to say this,  but:  OTHER PEOPLE DO NOT EXIST FOR OUR ENJOYMENT.   However,  the more power a person has, the more he depends on others to provide his jollies.  The royals and elites and priests KILL CHILDREN!  (Look it up.  Do not be stupid much longer.)  They kill children for fun, abortion kills children for Satan and our hands are stained with blood we’ve refused to defend.

People seem to think that spying is about security; it is only ostensibly so.  Surveillance is about PEOPLE WITH MORE POWER THAN US…GETTING THEIR ROCKS OFF AT OUR EXPENSE.  Although they manufacture purported motivations, it’s a farce.  To ANYBODY WITH POWER, humanity is one great big peep-show. Everybody wants to get his rocks off; we know we lack something and we go for the gusto.  The  Wal-mart-minefield of made-in-China perversion-options increases with each payraise.  Shit, if you get rich enough, you can do whatever you want to anybody!  Perverts at the peak of our panty-sniffing populace plunder their pick of the goyim.  We are chattels, and we are viewed as such by each succeedingly “higher” level.  When I was being raped, it was obvious that my violations were in nurturance of some dark soul.

Through perverted impulses and “requests” I learned many things.  My evidence will be valuable in a true court of true justice.  I RECORDED  those things, along with my objection to the corrosive notions and vulgar vocabulary… and the “pictures” and the MANIPULATION… (and the feedback.)  I screamed my fingers off about how FOREIGN it was for me to think vulgar words.  (My children were not permitted to say “fart.”)   I know what I’m talking about…and I recorded it.  I recorded things I heard… and also my surprise at their INTRUSION INTO MY SANCTIFIED MIND.   My affidavit asks, “Why does it always have to be from behind?”  I accused the haunting of “liking to look at parts of my body.”  (That’s because they can see through your eyes, then they comment about things.)  (IF YOU ARE CONSCIOUS, and you TRY  VERY HARD TO NOT JUDGE OTHERS…you KNOW that you would not normally notice or comment on those things.)  Before the “haunting”, 1) I did not think about sex except with my then-husband, 2) I did not use words like “cock” or “cunt”, 3) I did not have SPONTANEOUS ORGASMS, and  4) I did not believe in Santa Claus.

The world is a giant sex-cult, I’ve written about it numerous times.  Look up the symbology of all the accoutrements of the holidays we celebrate…they’re all sex-oriented.  People are ALL dissatisfied and seek to self-medicate.  The common prescription  is,  to 1) live a life of self-indulgence and its corresponding defilement with no pain of conscience, 2) suck  NECESSARY, SUSTAINING  innocence from others,  and 3) keep the others quiet about it all.  We were not intended to suck the life-blood of others to provide what is missing within ourselves.  We are intended to be so full of the Spirit of God that we 1) GIVE OUR LIFE BLOOD for one another, 2) are enabled to have healthy relationships, that 3) fill the emptiness we all feel.

Don’t believe in mind control?  I can prove it.  Don’t care?  Nice knowin’ ya.

 

Signed, Linda Goldthorpe  2/13/15   4:04 am  (References upon request.)

 

2/12/15

9:33 am

“The Lord says, listen for My voice. I speak to you in various ways. I speak in dreams, I speak in visions, I speak in nature, I speak through your circumstances, I even speak to you in your trials. As you go to sleep at night with expectation, you will be more receptive to hear from Me in your dreams. As you quiet your mind and posture yourself in an attitude of prayer, you will learn how to hear and become more sensitive to My voice when you pray. As you prepare yourself by conforming to My ways, renewing your mind and attending to My words you will become more attuned to My voice. When you free your mind from the cares of this world you will begin to hear with more clarity. As you read My word and meditate upon it, you will begin to discern My plans for you. As you lift your voice to Me in praise and worship, you will begin to hear Me in the song, and you will begin to rise above your circumstances and rest in My presence.”
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“As you go about your day, listen for My voice in your traveling. I will speak to you on your jobs, and even as you are shopping. Seek Me with expectation throughout your day knowing that I will speak to you. Learn how to recognize My voice through other people. Learn to recognize My voice for solutions to your problems. Learn to recognize My voice in all the affairs of your life. I will give you the answers to the questions and concerns that you have. My voice releases authority. My voice brings direction. My voice brings instruction. My voice brings transformation. My voice brings healing. My voice brings deliverance. Allow Me to remove anything that may be hindering you from hearing My voice. Stay sensitive to My voice of correction. As you continually submit and surrender totally to Me, you will be able to hear with more clarity. Know that it is My desire to speak to you as My bride in covenant with Me says the Lord.”

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John 14:17 The Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in you.

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John 16:13 However, when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak; and He will tell you things to come.

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John 16:27 My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.

1 Corinthians 6:19 Do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own?

Read more from 2/11/15, here:   http://ft111.com/tavolacci.htm

 

5:47 am

Give the gift of adrenaline!

The ride of their lives! Female stunt driver plays ‘dumb blonde’ with blind dates before leaving them speechless with her rally tricks

  • Ford recruited a professional female driver to take several unsuspecting men on blind dates at a coffee shop in Dallas, Texas, before offering them a lift home in her 2015 Mustang GT
  • Secret cameras show her playing a ‘dumb blonde’, before she gets out into an empty car parking lot and shows what she can do
  • A look of deep concentration suddenly washed over her
  • The men are lost for words as they’re flung back in their seats at speeds of up to 195mph

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2949586/The-ride-lives-Female-stunt-driver-plays-dumb-blonde-blind-dates-leaving-speechless-rally-tricks.html#ixzz3RWfOdSvH
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Getting into the spirit: 'Oh yeah baby That's what I'm talking about!' one of her passengers exclaims

 

Wings & Slicks Stunt-Driving School…Toronto, Ontario

See here:   http://www.wingsandslicks.com/

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4:27 am

They don’t make skies like they used to.

4:01 am

CIA chiefs face arrest over horrific evidence of bloody ‘video-game’ sorties by drone pilots

“A damning dossier assembled from exhaustive research into  the strikes’ targets sets out in heartbreaking detail the deaths of teachers, students and Pakistani policemen. It also describes how bereaved relatives are forced to gather their loved ones’ dismembered body parts in the aftermath of strikes.”

 

Might ANYBODY have the balls to arrest the CIA?

 

– See more at: http://xrepublic.tv/node/696#sthash.MHyz6a5A.dpuf

3:16 am

Bump to the top,  from  10/21/14,

10/21/14
9:52 am
I want to be with my fellow freedom-lovers!  I want to dance in the streets and stomp grapes.  I want to laugh as I watch the kingdoms of the world self-destruct!  I want to raise the dead for Jesus and demolish every unjustified conflict.  I want to BE his presence everywhere I go, and I want to go everywhere.  I want to believe everything he says (I don’t yet, even after all this time…) and I want to watch my lover be glorified by all inhabitants of the earth, even those we don’t believe can talk, along with lots of spirit beings, whom we will then more easily ascertain.  I’m longing for the revelation of the Lord, Jesus the Christ.  This is an amazing time to be living.  We’ve been very blessed, and when those who recognize that blessing are drawn together, everybody else will see the blessing too.  It’s a fine time to be a servant of the Most High God!

2/11/15

6:27 am

BIG OPENER!

 

2/10/15

7:55 pm

Family:  If you think you’re just gonna sit this one out you are mistaken.

Family:  If you think you’re just gonna sit this one out you are mistaken.  I could help you deal with what you will come to understand.  My number is:  906-291-1376.

 

–6:47 pm

MUSIC BREAK

“If you think that time will change your ways, don’t wait too long.”

 

6:39 pm

God tricked me into loving the goons.  (He’s like that, when one prays for divine love.)  He also tricked the goons, because what they perceived to be my weakness was actually a point of transcendent faith.  They did me great service, and it’s time for them to repent.  (And PAST TIME for them to adjust the settings on their mood-distributor.)  (And to stop RAPING PEOPLE!!!!)

 

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6:22 pm

The goons don’t know what to do with true love.  They can’t figure it out and it’s funny to watch them try.  They can read your mind, right, so they got an idea of what might tempt you.  (Then you start seeing it everywhere.  You’ll catch on.)  (I don’t know if I’m talking about demons or the NSA, so please forgive me if I misplace a pronoun.)  They can RETRIEVE your memories, and new pictures might take place there!  (The girl I met from France, I pray for her, she does not recognize her own memories from the contrived ones.  At first, distinction is possible for some of us.  I was blessed to be very introspective already.)   I learn things, like, you know when people stop liking me?  It’s always when I tell them to put their money where there mouth is.  And where their hearts ought to be.  That’s not judgment, that’s recollection and five years on my ass waiting for my dad to tell the truth!   Here’s the real deal:  PEOPLE DIE EVERY DAY BECAUSE NOT ENOUGH OF US WILL STAND UP TO A FEW PSYCHOPATHS!  (Jesus came to set the captives free.  Did he not mean us?  Are not we his body on earth?  Shall we not prevail for Jesus and the beloved humanity for which he died?)  I am doing the very best I can to stand up to the one psychopath in my windshield.  I am standing alone, and I have stood alone for a very long time.  Do not let me fall. Will you let my trimtab release it’s sway on the rudder of justice?  If I let go, where to next?  Can you say?   SPEAK UP.  I swear before God almighty, this might be your last opportunity to do so.  (I also had a dream from the very same God who said that my family would come to rest just BEFORE THEY HIT A ROCK.  I had no idea the rock would be so massively unique.)

Oh yeah, love, that’s where I started.  OK, with Adam and me the goons had a great set-up, classic even.  But, they couldn’t make something sordid out of genuine love.  (I have GREAT STORIES! They tried everything to make me go twerking after an inappropriate man at an inappropriate time.  I’m looking forward to hearing Mr. Inappropriate’s  side of the equation.)  I just loved him so much I couldn’t imagine him to be the EVIL THINGS THE GOONS PRESENTED.  (You will not believe what they come up with!  Yeah, you will, but, how about this:  I met the most beautiful man I ever saw when I was campaigning.  It must have been the second time-round, because I was alone.  Anyway, some podunk, I went to umpteen podunks, some speech, this guy was perfection, I musta banked the picture in my head, as we do…and then his photo started showing up on dating sites that flashed ads on Facebook!  Facebook once showed me a NEIGHBOR’S CAR with a nasty PERSONAL-TO-ME  license plate…and later that same car (with a regular license plate)  parked behind me when I took Josh to drivers’ training!  They can write a song just for you and play it on the radio in your car.  I am not even kidding.)  (They learn about you, and if you’re not moved by physical beauty the games get harder.)   Then, they tried to make me hate him. (That might seem an easier task, considering his betrayal.  But, actually  I was proud of him, that he would sacrifice our relationship for principle.  Pissed, though.)  Anyway, this is a REALLY GOOD STORY and I swear that if a woman with dreadlocks handed me 75 dollars I’d go find out the rest of it.  But, I’m still sitting here typing.

I’m praying that the blood of Jesus be applied to every person who ever heard my voice.  I’m praying for every person who ever voted for me, I’d like them to be proud.  I’m praying for more fire and capacity for fire and more fire and then more again.  I have been sidelined by lies and I do not believe my penalty has been just.  “More fire, please.  Demonstrate the EVIL that our GOVERNMENTS do to PEOPLE WHO WANT PEACE.  Thank you.  Use my life.  And Adam’s.  And my sons’.  And my parents’.  And my siblings’ and their offsprings’ and the first district of Michigan’s.  Amen.”  And Lakefield Baptist Church.  (!)

 

 

 

12:21 pm

Humanity is doomed, without global repentance and correction, and both are on the docket.  If you will not be part of the answer, there’s no logical way you could remain to be part of the problem.

9:39 am

 

Truth about everybody and everything is now available.   We’re responsible for it; so maybe we should all do some FOIA requests.  Josh says I’m not an anarchist;  he says I’m a theocratic monarchist.  That’s what we’re all gonna be.  “Every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord…”  We’re already trans-human whether we like it or not.  That must be a step on the road to “transformed human.”  Which is in the direction of  “transcendent human.”  Or, trans-human can lead to a machine existence where we view others as raw material.  We’re evolving one way or another.  We can CHOOSE which direction we go.
I’d like to see Isaac get involved with politics again; now is the time when people of love and truth can make a difference, not within the traditional monoliths, but in new forms of cooperation.  He’ll like what happens when the true church  takes legs.  I broke my fast last night, Josh even let me hold his hands and pray before I did.  I ate so much:  two plates of scalloped potatoes and ham, seasoned with dill, marjoram and French thyme.  Lots of pickled beets and two servings of my favorite dessert.  I drank a beer.  We watched “Road to El Dorado” and I told him that Goldthorpe means the same thing.  “El Dorado” means “city of gold.”  So does Goldthorpe.  A town actually, not really a city I think.

 

8:24 am

That’s why we still have internet, right?  They need it to completely dupe us.  When they pull the big one,  they’re counting on us to spread the lie.  Which we will happily do…as soon as Facebook tells us it’s true.  Then our “friends” will know it’s true but it won’t be true.  They already know how we will react, they know everything about us so they know what to expect.  To the fake Christians they will send the “clergy response teams” who will assure their sheep that government knows best. [Read:  “Government is god.”]   The preppers will bolt their doors and the oath-keepers will lock and load.  The toadies will toady-up, and be surprised to learn they will be included in the cull.  The rich men will begin to spend their hoarded wealth, slightly less confident in their ability to maintain what has been an astonishingly good run.  The VERY rich will thumb their rolodexes, and richer men will thumb their noses.  Right to the top.  The tippy-top tyrants know just what it takes to make each of us compliant.  Except for one tiny demographic:  the true believer.  Everybody else has some human group on which they depend to maintain their insane bigotry.  Big Data can predict their behavior and Facebook knows their faces.  They’re just gonna do what they’re programmed to do. However, the true believer, the Spirit-led, unashamed, unintimidated TRUE BELIEVER… has NO IDEA WHAT HE MIGHT DO…so he’s not susceptible to pre-crime-screening.  THEY CAN’T EVEN READ HIS MIND!  This is a super-power. This is “living-in-the-moment” to the nth degree.  (What does that even mean?)   Transparency is a super-power too.  So is math, I think.

 

7:03 am

Have you ever heard of “Project Bluebeam”?   People were writing about it many years ago.  Will our masters stage a false alien invasion?  Or a false messiah?

James Corbett, reporting:

How to Fake an Alien Invasion

MUSIC BREAK

Bee Gees – You Should Be Dancing

5:13 am

If you guys think football and 401(k)’s are more important than this stuff, then I totally understand.  I hope your grandkids will.

 

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Think about it:
 
In addition to sadist overlords  and impending WWIII, we also have fracking poisons seeping through the ground and causing earthquakes, Fukushima has destroyed life in the Pacific Ocean and is still leaking every minute.  We are subject to (“might be subject to?”  That must be so much  worse…) covert MIND-CONTROL because we had the misfortune to BREATHE NANO-PARTICLES which communicate with sensors aloft. JOURNALISTS are in American prisons for telling us the truth!  Congress is considering a bill to make it ILLEGAL TO CHARGE A POLITICIAN WITH CORRUPTION! Babies and even teenagers are removed from their homes for reasons of RELIGIOUS FAITH and FORCED TO INGEST POISONS.  The government agencies are permitted  to TAKE OUR STUFF FOR NO REASON AND WE HAVE NO RECOURSE.  They are permitted, by the NDAA, to …DISAPPEAR…  anybody they wish.  For as long as they wish.  And nobody will ever know where Crazy Joe went.  One doesn’t require any prophetic insight to recognize that HUMANITY IS TOTALLY SCREWED.  Maybe Crazy Joe was right?
 
I would like to do what tiny part I might to address this CATASTROPHIC future.
I would really like an ally, preferably a Christian but even if not, I’d like a comrade with the fortitude to follow TRUTH to wherever it ends up.  

 

 

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“There now exists incontrovertible evidence confirming that members of the world’s most powerful and wealthy ruling class have for decades been regularly engaging in predatory violent and sexual acts involving the most brutal and perverse crimes including ritualistic torture underage children and even murder.”
“Yet these sophisticated child sex trafficking syndicates have never been exposed as they are now. Unfolding shocking developments on both sides of the Atlantic have finally been exposing pedophile scandals not only committed in the US and UK but apparently all around the world including Portugal, Chile, Mexico and Belgium.”
“At the same time as these criminal shockwaves are politically rocking the global elite, they are accompanied by unprecedented frenzied activity at the highest echelons of global finance involving dozens of murders and suicides of high profile figures within the central banking cabal, an incredible amount of covert movement of gold and silver, spiraling rock bottom oil prices on the impending eve of the US dollar and petrodollar collapse dumping it as the standard international reserve currency. Also unprecedented now is the David and Goliath story of bankrupt European Union member Greece defying the longtime predatory debt practice of thievery that’s been the economic paradigm of Western oligarchy.”
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“For a full year ever since the West has been frantically trying to prod and bait nuclear powered Russia into world war.”

MORE AT: http://www.veteranstoday.com/2015/02/07/power-pedophilia-and-the-us-government/

2/9/15

4:06 pm

Just thinking of conversations with my dad over the years.

3:56 pm

 

OMG, a hunger strike!  I haven’t felt led to starve myself to death-or-justice, but if God put that notion into my head I suppose I’d just roll with it.  I’d start with a letter to the editor, announcing my intentions, unless and until my father…”sob”…would deign to speak with me…

3:50 pm

 

11:00 am

So far today I have made:   French toast (from homemade bread) with fried ham, and I packed a lunch of vegetable beef soup (leftover) and some toasted pita chips I made this morning from leftover pita, and seasoned with olive oil and Greek seasonings.  I made a pot of lentil soup from the ham bone, and cut all the ham off the bone.  First.  I made “Financiers” this morning, little almond cakes that I baked in jumbo muffin cups, because I don’t own the fluted silicone baking dishes and I wanted to have a treat for Josh’s lunch.  I made dough for Italian bread and have begun a pan of ham gravy.  Which I will eat.  Whenever I eat again.  With french fries and cheese curds.  I also made a creamy citrus dessert, kind of like a cross between a trifle and a refrigerator cake.  My favorite.—
3:38 pm
I did four loads of laundry, stoked the fire a couple times, went to Curtis to buy whipping cream and spinach for the Spanikopita I’m making tomorrow.  (I gave up on the week-of-soup idea.  I already have three soups in the house.)  I’m making really good herbed scalloped potatoes.  I really like cream sauces with pickled beets.  Josh wants to try borscht so I’m doing that next.  I found marscarpone in Newberry and I try to support cultural progress, so I picked some up and will do tiramisu again, with the ganache, but not rolled into a Yule log.  Perhaps I’ll add some Dulce de Leche and we’ll have a real multi-cultural cardiac.

 

8:36 am

THE SINGULARITY IS ALREADY HERE – ITS NAME IS BIG DATA

It means that I don’t need your name and address, much less your social security number, to know who you ARE. With a trivial amount of transactional data I can figure out where you live, what you do, who you associate with, what you buy and what you sell. I don’t need to steal this data, and frankly I wouldn’t know what to do with your social security number even if I had it … it would just slow down my analysis.”

 

“It seems like everyone and his brother today are wringing their hands about AI and some impending “Singularity”, a moment of future doom where non-human intelligence achieves some human-esque sentience and decides in Matrix-like fashion to turn us into batteries or some such. Please. The Singularity is already here. Its name is Big Data.”

 

“Now this may sound really sappy, but if men like Edward Thomas – who saw clearly and experienced keenly how modernity and mass society were agents of loss in their world – could still find it within themselves to sacrifice eeverything to fight what they considered to be the good fight … well, how can we who are similarly positioned today not make a minute sacrifice to do the same?”

 

The intersection of roads reason and spirit.  The hackers know what they must do.  Godspeed.

 

Read more at:  http://www.blacklistednews.com/The_Singularity_Is_Already_Here_-_It%27s_Name_Is_Big_Data/41659/0/38/38/Y/M.html

3:18 am

“Most Targeted Individuals report that friends and even family members begin treating the target differently, as though mentally ill or dangerous. Some of these family members have reported to the Examiner that they were secretly contacted by law enforcement, threatened to keep the contact secret, and told lies about their loved one.”

 

“Surveillance Issues provides information about advanced satellite surveillance and “harassment” technologies that covert government agencies and organized crime syndicates are using on innocent people to neutralize them, suppression through mental torment and physical injury. “

 

“On December 30th, (2008)  Court decided in Walbert’s favor, issuing a first-of-its-kind order of protection, banning Redford from using “electronic means” to injure Walbert. That Order has been violated – including by police Walbert told the Examiner.

“Nothing to date has changed at all – not to say that they are not investigating. There just has been no change at all in this harassment despite this order of protection.”

 

Read more here:   http://www.examiner.com/article/secretly-forced-brain-implants-pt-1-explosive-court-case

 

 

 

2/9/15

2:34 am

Great news!  I knew I was grateful for all the attention but it’s really nice to know they like me for the right reasons.

“Silenced: War on Whistleblowers”–new film about Targeted Individuals

“This war, covertly waged against Americans of highest ethical standards for decades, has become more overt in terms of high profile targets. The new widely acclaimed film Silenced, as shocking and important as it is, shows only the tip of the iceberg of the covert war, complete with military-grade weapons assaulting thousands of innocent Targeted Individuals daily.”

 

“…private investigator William Taylor has served dozens of Targeted Individuals, including high profile people. Taylor told Deborah Dupré when investigating secretly forced brain implanted Targeted Individual James Walbert,  “Only the best Americans are being targeted.”

“Hundreds of emails and testimonies sent to Dupré by lesser known targets being persecuted show it is only their unique courage and character keeping them alive. They are not only persecuted in their communities by government paid operatives, including some neighbors, but also, they are stalked 24/7, in itself torturous.”

“TIs, “America’s best,” are suffering 24/7, never knowing what will hit them next, never receiving local or national advocacy or defense from human rights groups. They are left as sitting ducks, easy prey for covert operatives to taunt or eventually kill, as a cat with a captured mouse.”

 

See more here:   http://beforeitsnews.com/alternative/2015/02/targeted-individuals-nightmare-silenced-the-war-on-whistleblowers-tip-of-iceberg-3104886.html

SILENCED - A new documentary from Oscar nominee James Spione's video poster

2/8/15

6:00 pm

My evidence is perfect, I’m seeing.  I was being watched, and I also recorded every thing I did.  “Out of the mouths of two or three witnesses is a matter established.”  Today was my most peaceful day for a long time.  I prayed most of the day.  It usually happens that way after I get upset or overwhelmed.  It’s like demonstration or something.  I have just had to go through spells of extreme unease, but that’s almost over.  It’s a very good time to be me.

Jeffrey Epstein accuser: video exists of underage sex with powerful men

 

“Dismissed as a liar and a fantasist by Epstein allies, Roberts filed with her affidavit on Friday previously undisclosed receipts for a flight from New York to Thailand in September 2002 and a stay costing several thousand dollars at the Royal Princess hotel in Chiang Mai. All the bills appeared to have been paid for by “J Epstein”.

“Roberts was contacted and interviewed by FBI agents at the US consulate in Sydney soon after first going public with allegations against Epstein and Andrew in a 2011 interview with the Mail on Sunday. However, she wrote, “they seemed like they were being blocked from doing what they wanted to do – which I thought was to arrest Epstein and his powerful friends for all of their illegal sexual crimes.”

 

 

Gotta like a girl who creeps track of her evidence.

Read here:  http://www.theguardian.com/uk-news/2015/feb/07/jeffrey-epstein-accuser-video-footage-sex-powerful-men

 

 

 

4:13 pm

 

"Don't be a conspiracy theorist"

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12:27 pm

Truth is not belief

Truth is what is real

Truth can be discovered because it is always factual, not theoretical

Facts can be weaponized, used to promote a lie.

Make sure you have the true facts, not ones manipulated by an agenda

Vaccines, False Gods, and You

“No belief, scientific, religious, or medical, no matter how much you believe it, changes or even affects the truth.  Beliefs are statements ABOUT the truth. Truth is what’s prior to belief.  If it is the territory, belief is the map.”

 

Read at:   http://www.zengardner.com/vaccines-false-gods/

10:08 am

 

I’m fasting again.  I have GOT to hear from God!

I’ve been predicting for years that a civil war would explode in the churches.  Those who follow man-made doctrines cannot long tolerate those who are led by the Spirit of God.
“Lord, thank you for taking me lower yesterday, when I became discouraged about my sons. Thank you that Josh listened.  I ask you again to take me lower and slower.  Enlarge my heart so I can love more, especially those who refuse my overtures of reconciliation and truth.  Enable me to hear your voice perfectly, and to make no mistakes, to believe all truth, and to not believe any lie. Thank you for the preparations made for my destiny.  Please give me patience.  I’m eager to see what you do with our amazing evidence.  Please BURN UP LIES ABOUT COVERT TORTURE!  Please expose truth.  Take my life and burn it up for you.  Amen.”
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Through Debra Lowe:
“You will not only be a hearer, but a doer shall you be known as, and men and women shall come because now the church has arisen. My true church, yes, there will come a separation from those who have been false, that have been planted in the house. Yes a separation between the tare and the wheat and the wheat shall grow stronger still, for the doing shall set you apart from those that will not and a great anointing shall rest upon you like never before.”
“Yes, I will give to many who have asked for righteousness, I will give to them that desire to be right, to do right, to walk right, to live right and not only the desire but to fulfill that desire will come upon My people like never before this year. And a special anointing shall rest upon those who are seers, remember I have said in My word that I would not do anything unless I would first reveal it to My servants the prophets. Great grace shall rest upon them and
fresh understanding and insight making hard things seem simple and I will use simple things to cause breakthrough for My people.”
“Understand there must be a humbling of oneself like never before, recognizing that there is nothing that you could do on your own, but it is because of My grace that shall abide upon you, and your consistent obedience to My Word, shall you do the marvelous and awesome deeds that shall be done. For it is time for them to be done, it is needy for them to be done and My people shall come to the forefront and they shall do the many marvelous works for the Kingdom.
“They will not be weary any longer, those who have had their wings broken, those who have been crushed and hurt, they shall be renewed and strengthened. Those who have been abused, and those who have been misused, oppressed, and depressed this year, they shall shake off that slumber and the weightiness of those things and they shall begin to soar, yes soar like eagles to their God. Soaring with great gifts, great callings, and great anointings resting upon them and they shall no longer be hindered but the great grace that comes upon them shall cause them to accomplish those great things says the Lord.”
Read more, for 2/6/15, from Debra Lowe, here:   http://ft111.com/lowe.htm

 

 

 

 

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2/7/15

8:42 pm

Well, maybe TOMORROW I’ll get sprung!

–Josh’s words tell me something else, too.  He recognizes how people will react when they begin to understand the pervasiveness of the control matrix.  I am perfectly prepared to help some people come to grips with problems they’ve maybe suffered for years.  But of course, Isaac “can’t support…” that kind of effort.  He thinks the whole tribe will be well and rational when they come to his door.  He’ll want me around before long.

Isn’t it amazing that Dad is still talking about me behind my back…and he won’t talk to me?

8:12 pm

 

Josh summed it up, he often does:  “My problem is this, Mom, if what you say is true…the implications are so terrible that there’s no human way out.  Without God, we’re sunk.”  My dad faces the same dilemma.  Everybody does.  That’s why we’re here now, to face this very dilemma, that everybody faces, right now.  Josh said, in a way, that if I’m right, he’ll believe in God.  That’s a relief.  He also said he doesn’t like the self-sacrifice aspect of my faith.  I told him I still believe I gave my life away for a purpose.  There’s another relief.

 

7:34 pm

 

I cried tonight and I haven’t cried for a long time.  Josh let me talk a bit.  I told him I don’t need to convince anybody of anything, truth will come out.  It’s just that sometimes I have to talk or I’ll explode.  He said, “I can understand that.”  I told him how I’m just now allowing myself to feel hurt at a husband who wouldn’t look into my (recognized) violations.  “They” were trying to set up something with Adam; he’s important and I imagine I was just very convenient as I ignorantly went about my home-school project of RUNNING FOR CONGRESS.  Instead of looking into the “haunting” and its masquerade as “Adam”…my “husband” just went and offered me to the guy.  It was like, “Just do her one time and she’ll be alright again.”  That hurts my feelings.  I didn’t know how much.  I haven’t been well enough to consider many things.  This is progress.

 

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6:52 pm

EMAIL:

The day Isaac Miller says to a suffering woman “I can’t support…”  is the day he’s been listening to my father.

It’s not like I suffered REPEATED RAPES for the purpose of being a torment to others.  On the contrary, I believe my experiences could HELP others.  But not until somebody helps me.

 

6:30 pm

Background for Josh:
I first learned that Grandpa and Grandma were responsible for my difficulties on that day I threw my computer out of the car window.  You remember that day, I was ready to move all of us into the woods somewhere.  That was the day I first knew we were under COMPLETE surveillance.  I had been cyber-stalked for years, I even mentioned it in the book.  As I said, I would this minute, swear to EVERY WORD IN THAT BOOK AND EVERY WORD IN THE JOURNALS THAT ADAM GOT AND EVERY WORD IN EVERY BOOK IN THIS HOUSE.  My terminology changed, as my research yielded fruit.  I assumed the surveillance was because of the marijuana, and made changes accordingly.  Then your grandpa showed me the truth.

 

 

6:21 pm

I said, “Josh, wouldn’t it be best to get to the bottom of this?” and he agreed.  I asked that if I organized a list of questions for my dad, would he be my witness?  He asked, “Do you know he’d tell the truth?”  I said, “No, but time would show if he was telling the truth or not.  Also, he might.  He told me a little bit about what Trish did and what Margaret did.”  I said at least we’d have a record.  He said he’d be my witness.

 

 

Wouldn’t the best thing be for us to get to the bottom of this?

 

 

6:12 pm

 

Josh says that for as long as I’ve been dealing with the rapes, he’s been dealing with them too.  He’d like me to just leave.  Or shut up.  Or maybe die.  Then he could have some peace.  I not only DEAL with the rapes, but I REMEMBER them and suffer from PANIC ATTACKS from POST-TRAUMATIC-STRESS-DISORDER…but I should die for his convenience.  My father’s legacy is deeply rooted.  It will be cut off.  Goldthorpes WILL care about one another.  It will be that way.

 

5:52 PM

 

I WAS REPEATEDLY RAPED.  I WILL LOOK INTO THE FACE OF THE PERSON THAT DID IT.  WHETHER MY SONS, OR MY EX-HUSBAND OR MY SPERM-DONER WANT ME TO OR NOT.

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5:46 pm

 

I WAS REPEATEDLY RAPED.  I WILL LOOK INTO THE FACE OF THE PERSON THAT DID IT.  WHETHER MY SONS, OR MY EX-HUSBAND OR MY SPERM-DONER WANT ME TO OR NOT.

5:37 pm

 

Isaac would like me to be fully well and to engage in productive activity that I value.  He does not like my definitions of those things.  Maybe he should give me an order blank, so I know which “wellness” I may choose.  Maybe he could pass on the one my dad uses.

 

5:30 pm

 

God wouldn’t have told me in 2007 to “withstand” if he didn’t intend to make me able to do so.

5:15 pm

 

Somebody, tell Dad:  “Do you think that if you buy Isaac off ( which I doubt) that I will stand down?  You taught me how to live without love or respect.  Can you do it?”

 

5:05 pm

Isaac,

Would we be (not) having this discussion today if Grandpa had not TAKEN YOU FROM YOUR HOME AND CALLED THE COPS ON YOUR COMPETENT MOTHER?  Do not choose his side, if you claim to care about truth.

 

 

4:31 pm

 

 

 

“Isaac,

Do I lie very much?  Do I mean for any other person to suffer?  Do I want very much?  I’d like some propane and some women’s clothing.  Do I like money?  What POSSIBLE motive could I have to expend a vendetta against my dad?  Does he have ANYTHING that I could possibly want?  Except love?”

 

4:23 pm

“Isaac, your heart knows I’m right but your mind doesn’t like it.  You also know which to follow.”

 

4:17 pm

 

To my love:

 

“Isaac.  I know you do not like the conflict between me and my father.  I don’t like it either, and I wish it to be resolved.  Refusing to engage is not helpful.  I know he says things to you that he also says to other estrogen-deficient relatives.  Please, do not impede my progress, or his.”

4:07 PM

 

i sure wish my parents would give my sons permission to trust me.

4;04 PM

 

I said, “Isaac, Isaac, this one I CARE ABOUT.  I never cared about the campaigns and you wished I did!  Not only do I CARE ABOUT VICTIMS OF COVERT HARASSMENT but maybe I could make a buck?  This is it.”  He said, “Well, I can’t support…”  He sounded like my dad and my brother.  I’m very disappointed.

 

3:52 pm

I think that’s one evidence of love, you can’t stay mad if you love the bastard.
I rented a movie, it has a “brief suggestive comment”.  I wonder how many tax-suckers were employed in order to warn me?
My business card design would require only CUT-AND-PASTE.  It is cut-and-paste and you lift the book cover (which I DREW…) and you paste it onto a somebody-else-designed-it- business-card-format.  I could almost do it myself.
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3:27 pm

 

Isaac is unwilling to make me a simple business card because he gets a thousand dollars for a business card design now.  He says he has a series of business cards for me, from years of effort.  I hung up on him and I never do that.  My dad does.

 

2:57 pm

I think I experience more in a single day of isolation than y’all get from a month of football games and Fox news.  “Living well is a good revenge.  Becoming well is the best.”  (Goldhorpe.  As it stands.)

 

2:45 pm

God says I’ll never have to defend my story…and I guess that’s becoming more obvious every day.

 

 

2:27 pm

 

From Belgium:

 

your boys look good and serieus.
How old are they ?
Are they  spirituell ?

Linda Goldthorpe

They are spiritual, both had many experiences when they were young.  Then my dad told them I was crazy.  (You know how that goes when you’re targeted.)  They’re 23 and 18.  The eldest just told me last month that he is a Christian!  (I tried not to act too pleased.)  His goal is to establish a community of honest, loving, supportive people who are also not poor.  The younger changes his religion every week and I don’t worry a bit because he’s honest and just.  You know?

2:20 pm

 

EMAIL:  (I asked that others read it to him.  I’m hesitant to use big words.)
“DAD-
You wanna call me crazy again?  Let’s rumble.  We’ll take simultaneous MMPI evaluations.  We’ll have our brains scanned by fancy doctors and they’ll know 1) if I was TRAUMATIZED, and 2) if you can feel empathy when you look at a picture of a tiny kitten under the wheels of a great big plow-truck.  We’ll have blood tests, and yours will not be blue.  We’ll undergo heart exams, I’ll put Chris in charge, and I’m sure you’ll approve.  Her picture is on the wall in your office.  We’ll undergo handwriting analysis and we’ll sing into a jar.  ANYTHING YOU WANT.  Want somebody to rape me again?  Sure thing.  I’ll take it.  Let’s see who’s got the stuff.  (Sorry.  You and I already know.)  Let’s let OTHERS SEE who’s got the stuff.  Are you man enough?”

 

 

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2:02 pm

I really dislike watching Josh emulate a man who doesn’t desire anything more than what’s he’s got. I am IN PRISON.  I am in this prison because I love a person more than myself.  I am the only conscious influence on a very singular young man, and although my influence has been TREMENDOUSLY REDUCED because my dad told this fine young man that I am defective because Daddy needs to cover a LOT OF CRIMES, I still attempt to uphold an example of responsibility and reliability and consistency.  I teach as well as my damaged reputation permits.  God knows my heart.  God is the judge.  Thank God.

11:09 am

 

Read the following headline.  Please.  I am an activist and I was nearly assassinated.   Please think about this.

JUDGE: FBI CAN KEEP SECRET DOCUMENTS PERTAINING TO ASSASSINATION PLOT AGAINST OCCUPY ACTIVISTS

” federal judge has refused to force the FBI to hand over more information about an alleged assassination plot against Occupy Houston activists, reports Courthouse News.”

 

Read more here:  http://www.blacklistednews.com/Judge%3A_FBI_can_keep_secret_documents_pertaining_to_assassination_plot_against_Occupy_activists/41599/0/38/38/Y/M.html

 

 

10:13 am

 

I love you guys so much!  Your stupidity breaks my heart.

Ezekiel 33:But if the watchman see the sword come, and blow not the trumpet, and the people be not warned; if the sword come, and take any person from among them, he is taken away in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at the watchman’s hand.

MUSIC BREAK:

The Police – Every breath you take lyrics

 

10:01 am

 

I’m going to do an experiment.  I’m going to serve nothing but soup for seven days and see if either man notices.  I bet I can save a hundred dollars.  I’m starting with a good ham bone, we’re having baked ham tonight.  (With diced sweet potatoes that I will roast with olive oil and serve with a sauce made of horseradish, apricot preserves and sour cream.  That jar of apricot preserves is burning a hole in my pocket.)  So, tomorrow I’ll make pea soup with the ham bone and lots of cabbage.  I’d do Mexican bean soup one day, with crispy tortilla strips and they won’t even notice it’s veggie.  Today I’m making vegetable beef soup, so we’ll serve it again next week.  I’ll make a chili-mac thing with ground venison,  and chicken soup with homemade noodles one day, and spinach dumplings the next.  (I’ll have to get more spinach.)  That’s six.  My best soup.  I love cream of mushroom but the men would never mistake that for a meal.  Potato with bacon.  This will be fun.

 

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9:12 am

9:10 am

 

If only my dad could have squirted out a boy when he knocked up my mom;  his life would have been different.  Maybe sometimes he thinks it would have been better, but… he would have believed that he could/must  EARN love!  It’s good for him that I am a girl and that Grandpa loved Jeanie so much, and that Dad’s life has so clearly demonstrated “conditional positive regard” both coming and going.  He was the chubby middle kid with a flashy-father.   My dad KNEW …that he’d been indoctrinated with a wrong definition of love.  He knows that now.  I do not blame him for rejecting the false love that had been his only example of what we all require and must proffer.  However, he is now responsible for the knowledge.  (“This shit just writes itself.”  Shakespeare.)

8:59 am

 

I just moved my dad to the “Truth-Tellers” page.  This is the quote I used:  (He used to say this all the time.  Then he did everything he could to prevent me from acting on it.):

 

“Today is the first day of the rest of your life” (Robert Goldthorpe)

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8:45 am

MUSIC BREAK:

Patto – the Man

 

I love this song.  I always try to count it but the accents mess me up.  I’d love to talk about music with somebody.  Also I like the vibes; my grandma played the vibes.  And she was the man to me, in a number of ways.

 

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8:39 am

Maybe today will be the best day of my life!  Maybe today something amazing will happen to break me out of prison.  Maybe today God will soften my father’s heart, and he will come to me with an apology and a big fat check.  Maybe my family members will call me  today, and say, “Linda, we’d like to be your friends and enjoy good conversation and gourmet meals with you.”  Maybe today, I’ll receive a hundred thousand dollars…and I’ll order propane.  Maybe today, some whistleblower will have the guts to speak out about covert harassment of innocent citizens and political activists. Maybe today God will make me a size eight and I can decide which second-hand clothes to discard. Maybe today I’ll cook the best meal I ever cooked, I already did pretty well:  Josh had a ham and cheese omelette for breakfast and I sent him to work with souvlaki and  tzatziki and homemade pita and fresh tomatoes and onions and crumbled feta cheese in a separate baggie. He took the last almond cookie, which Heaven only knows why I made, because any cookie baked in a waffle iron should be poured into it from a batter-bowl, not cut out with a template after chilling the dough and rolling it and wot-not.  It was dumb to try the recipe and the waffle-iron bit was a failure, but the cookies tasted really good when I baked them in the oven.  George fixed the oven, so I can now turn it off without visiting the breaker-board in the laundry room downstairs.  That’s a blessing.  Today might bring many more.

 

 

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5:52 am

 

“I was politically persecuted in the US after running for California state assembly as a Libertarian.  I wound up doing ten months in federal prison.” 

 

Roger Ver on Being Denied a US Visa

“I was politically persecuted in the US after running for California state assembly as a Libertarian.  I wound up doing ten months in federal prison.” 

“They physically refused to even look at my evidence and then claimed that I hadn’t provided any evidence, which just is INCREDIBLY JUVENILE.”

 

Roger Ver, the bitcoin entrepreneur and evangelist behind RogerVer.com, joins us once again today to discuss his recent ordeal being turned down for a US visa…despite having been born in the US. We talk about the tactics the embassy staff used to deny him his visa, how and why Roger renounced his US citizenship in the first place, the tax implication of renouncing citizenship, and why nationalism and imaginary lines on the map still exist in the 21st century. We also discuss his upcoming appearance (along with James) atAnarchapulco.

 

“They physically refused to even look at my evidence and then claimed that I hadn’t provided any evidence, which just is INCREDIBLY JUVENILE.”

Listen to interview with James Corbett here:   https://www.corbettreport.com/interview-998-roger-ver-on-being-denied-a-us-visa/

 

 

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5:23 am

Isn’t this a very interesting photo?

 

 

 

 

 

2/6/15

9:09 pm

 

Josh didn’t know that “didn’t” had two syllables.  The Urban Dictionary has an entry for “di’nt” and Josh thought that was what he had always heard.  He should know also the arcane rendition.  He reads hard books; I know because  I’ve struggled with a couple he’s suggested for me.  Light reading shouldn’t require a dictionary.  (For me anyway.)   I almost replaced “light reading” with “novels.”  For years I equated the two.  But, I remember when fiction stirred my higher self.  I know it can be done.  If my life wasn’t so gosh-darned interesting maybe I’d make something up.
Josh made a video introducing himself ( and Northern Michigan) to Isaac’s tribe.  The snow and gray trees and clouds and muck and windshield-wipers and wood-smoke make it look like a black-and-white film.  Then, you see a splash of red.  (Cue music:  Josh could define the genre from which he chose his soundtrack, and recount its history.  To me, the music sounded like footage from a 1957 National Geographic segment filmed in an Arctic village.  It was perfect.)  He filmed my birthday, even the second-hand stores we visited.  Everything was gray and white.  The sky was blue and he recorded my gratitude for the absence of chemtrails.  All white and gray, the splashes of red were stunning. The sign on my father’s hardware store is very red,  and the yoke on his toy moose out front. An American flag, bleeding against icy white.  Josh doesn’t like it when I laugh before the punchline but sometimes I can see what’s coming, just by the set-up. That doesn’t make me appreciate his work any less.
Josh didn’t know where I was all day, apparently George didn’t remember that I was taking the prophet to his physical therapy  session.

 

8:21 am

 

When I was a little girl, if I finished my milk my grandma would spank me.  (Yeah.  Get that.)  We’d have to extend our bottoms and she would chant a curse over us:  “One, two, three, four, five, six, seven.  All good children go to Heaven.  All bad children suffer great loss.  One, two, three, four, five, six, seven.”  (Our posture was a pantomime of “bad children.”  Thus, the curse.  Pantomime is sufficient communication with the spirits.  Ask Katy Perry.)   I often wonder what kind of crap she pulled on my dad that he became so evil.

We were spanked    twenty-eight  times for every time we did as we were told.

My grandma was the closest thing I ever saw to love, until I saw a love that was so concerned about another’s well-being, that it was willing to be ignored.  That’s the real deal, right?  If we can HELP without claiming credit for our altruism…that’s the real deal.  We must all become the real deal to fix Planet Earth.  (And to not be lonely.)

 

8:15 am

I’m organizing all these great questions for when I get to talk to a hacker face-to-face.  Like this:

 

Where can I listen to music?  I hate to waste bandwidth watching a youtube of some dumb song I’m wanting to hear.  Ever since Spotify and Pandora BLEW UP IN MY FACE during that time I was being led around by false intelligence  (Read:  AI) I have been unable to self-medicate with the oldies.  Please assist?

(March 2012.  References available on request.)

 

8:06 am

“Too many people are only willing to defend rights that are personally important to them. It’s selfish ignorance, and it’s exactly why totalitarian governments are able to get away with trampling on people. Freedom does not mean freedom just for the things I think I should be able to do. Freedom is for all of us. If people will not speak up for other people’s rights, there will come a day when they will lose their own.” — Tony Lawrence (apl@world.std.com) 12/28/95

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3QyBvD000

 

8:01 am

 

 

Email to Isaac (re: my new business cards):

 

“Maybe put on the back:  ‘No Insurance accepted.  Meals Provided.'”

 

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7:51 am

 

UPDATE FROM MY SISTER-MISSIONARY IN BELGIUM:

“Thank you for the prayers : The specialist told me today i have tumor in my left eye – cansel.  3 attacks in my head 2014 , and other crimes …””I just want to finish my claims till MondayOn Monday i have new dare with one professor in one hospital he will make one checking more . I dont let make operation but when important i will acept rediation in the eye that the tumor is not growing and with God helps going away .I feel tired about the world and people.In Love ,P.S.  It is not so good to see my ex partner , he is not him self , but so you wrote  :  god bless him    his lfe    and his children “

 

 

7:30 am

In order to resist and confront the forces arrayed against him and to achieve a higher freedom, man must begin with repentance and spiritual reformation. His soul must be cleansed of sloth and apathy, as well as the other enslaving vices that leave him open to fear, manipulation, and despair; or as Ernst Jünger put it, one “must be free in order to become free.” The German adventurer further said that for the spiritually free man, “this world filled with oppression and oppressive agents,” will only “serve to make his freedom visible in all its splendor.”

The great Russian thinker Nicolas Berdyaev, who himself openly defied the murderous Bolsheviks who overran his homeland, taught that the “victory over slavery is a spiritual act,” and that “social and spiritual liberation ought to go hand in hand.” Repentance and spiritual resistance are the first, and most important, steps in confronting the powers of our age.

 

SOUL HACKERS

Read more here:   http://souloftheeast.org/2014/12/31/soul-hackers/

 

 

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7:24 am

EMAIL:

 

Hey Isaac, I’d pay you if

you designed and ordered me a basic business card with the website and the book.  My phone number and all.  I think I’m going to write some more letters.

“Spirit-led counseling for Individuals Targeted by Covert Harassment”

And give me a JD on the end of my name.  Maybe a BS-Psychology too, although I know it’s redundant.

 

 

5:47 am

Alchemical Banksters

Such deviants always end up as their own worst enemy, for pride detaches man from reality, which can only be perceived in the truth. Pride causes man to adopt a delusory sense of the world and his own relation to it, thereby bringing about a praxis divorced from the rules of nature, logic and classical wisdom. Banking man, homo economicus, with his abyssal rapacity, will condemn his own descendants to dwell in the virtual A.I. prison grid he has constructed.

 

“In contrast to common notions, the banking sector is in no way left to “market forces,” but is completely gamed, and the same plan is evident in the A.I. reconnaissance program known as the “Internet” and “Facebook.” It becomes evident in flash trading and wash trading, which is preparing us for a cashless global currency. The alchemy of A.I. is the alchemy of finance, as both are geared towards the reductionist quantification of all things. Humans are thus natural resources being trans-mutated into data resources, just as currency is becoming a digital ¡°resource.¡±”

 

JC Collins over at Philosophy of Metrics comments, citing the insightful and recommended film, Margin Call:

This is why the solution has to come from within, as every system will simply corrupt again. Philosophers and great thinkers have warned us continuously for thousands of years. The manifestation of inner dysfunction and imbalance will always be represented physically as dysfunction and imbalances in the systems man develops.

Read more at:  http://www.redicecreations.com/article.php?id=32631

 

 

5:05 am

“Someone or someones are very involved in unconstitutional, domestic spying and the entrained plasma orbs carried on electromagnetic beams can be used for mind control programming.”

“The satellites download holographic mind control movies, pictures, sounds, and sensations to people through this technology. The Air Force has stated in “Air Force 2025? that their goal is to develop virtual and augmented reality mind control. Depending on the how the computer is programmed or depending on the mood or intent of the person interfacing with the technology, you can be probed, bothered, gaslighted, frightened, manipulated, electronically raped, or tortured. It scans your brain frequencies and deciphers your thoughts. The satellites track you by mapping your bioenergetic signature [body biometrics] and constantly scanning an area to find you.”

 

The True Purpose of Chemtrails?

 

Read more at:   http://www.redicecreations.com/article.php?id=32667

 

“The state is a group of individuals with a monopoly on the legal use of violence.”

“Countries are the fences around farms, designed to keep you, the citizen, in place.”  “Countries are regions where the POWER of particular political rulers holds sway.”  “When you say, ‘I am an American’, what you are really saying is ‘I am ruled by the American government.'”  “Countries are places where a tiny minority can use force to make you obey…”

The Slippery Genius of Language

(This is really exceptional.)

 

3:54 am

One way you can recognize spiritual reality, is by  the enemy’s attempts to remove it from your consciousness.  You’ll think, “Wow. I just thought of this really awesome thing and now I can’t remember it.”  That’s them.  (Demons?  NSA?  Does it make any difference?)  If you ask the Lord to return it to your mind he will.  He wants us to ask for his leading in all matters.  He said so.  He also wants us to contend for truth.  He also said that.

 

3:31 am

I may be going off-line here.  Somebody made the text on my editing screens really tiny and I can’t change it back.

 

Mind-control can mean more than controlling-the-mind.  It can also mean controlled-BY-the-mind.  If you’re “mind-controlled” from the outside… or from the inside, you’re still eating from the Tree of Knowledge.  It is still devoid of life-giving SPIRIT.  “There is a way that seemeth right to a man but the end thereof are the ways of death.”    (Proverbs 14:12, Proverbs 16:25)

 

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2:54 am

 

I think God is finally teaching me some math!  “You can’t have a ratio with just two points.”  All you can determine from two points is…distance.  And we’ve been taught wrongly about distance:  The shortest distance between two points is actually…however long it takes to get from A to B.  (It’s like pricing.  Your gizmo is only worth what somebody else is willing to pay.)  In order to evaluate ANYTHING AT ALL, you need a third point.  Human relationships will become very different when both parties refer to a third point, an arbiter.  There can be no conflict when both parties take their concerns to God and obey his guidance.  No competition, no false flattery, no manipulation.  I’m looking forward to it.

 

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2:28 am

Referendum:

“Linda, I think it’s terrible what Dad did to you.  I am not convinced that you are not deluded about mind-control but I recognize that you have our best interests at heart…because you are convinced.  I’d like to add my name to this ongoing petition that Dad provide the things he stole from you.  I hereby encourage him to help you all he can, in your pursuit of truth, and thank you for caring about my children.  I do not understand your mind, but I recognize your heart.”
SIGN HERE:_________________.

 

2:07 pm

If this time were not so critical, I would laugh at my family.  They are the most mind-controlled people I ever saw!  And they’re fucking proud of it!

There are two ways we can run our lives:  1) by molding our efforts and joys according to what others think and/or want us to think, or 2) by thinking for ourselves and seeking alternative information.  We can “think for ourselves” in two ways:  1) by evaluating new information according to our (decidedly limited) on-board data-bank with its obvious limitations of a) QUANTITY, b) quality of intelligence, c) processing ability, and d) CLEAR WARNINGS NOT TO  DEPEND ON  OUR MINDS BUT TO LISTEN TO GOD INSTEAD.  Inversely, we can run our lives by our gut.  Human guts have historically 1) ended conflict, 2) initiated conflict, 3) provided opportunities not recognized by the inherently-limited-human mind, and 4) been RESPECTED for GENERATIONS by cultures that do not WATCH TV.

 

 

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Cynthia McKinney
“We have an entire department in the Pentagon for ‘perception management’.”

Courageous activist former Congresswoman Cynthia McKinney on AIPAC’s stranglehold on America and conscious activism inside and outside the system. Brilliant.

AIPAC Controls the US Government – Cynthia McKinney

See more at:   http://www.zengardner.com/aipac-controls-us-government-cynthia-mckinney/

 

2/5/15

12:02 pm

HOW A NATURAL MOVEMENT IS STARTED

“Being a first follower is an underappreciated form of leadership.”

 

10:56 am

“You cannot reason someone out of something they were not reasoned into.” – Jonathan Swift

10:15 am

“Maybe my fellow pilots will read or hear about this, and decide to come forward as well”.

“Finally, a military pilot steps forward and completely blows the lid off the unlawful and exceedingly destructive Global Chemtrail Program. What follows is a video which puts forth a true story about a courageous pilot who has broken ranks with his chemtrailing peers. In so doing he has risked his life and the life of his family.”

 

THANK YOU LORD!  Courage IS CONTAGIOUS!

 

Read and watch here:   http://www.zengardner.com/chemtrail-pilot-exposes-global-geoengineering-program/

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8:21 am

Is your doctor involved with organized crime?  It just got easier to find out:

Doctors’ Kickbacks from Pharmaceutical Companies–Doctors were paid for more than 200,000 trips by companies in the last five months of the year.

“The federal government unveiled data Tuesday detailing 4.4 million payments made to doctors and teaching hospitals by pharmaceutical and medical device companies.”

“The launch of the so-called Open Payments website, mandated under a provision of the Affordable Care Act, was far from glitch-free: Some users encountered long delays and sometimes error messages trying to access its seven data tables. Also, the site didn’t provide consumers with an easy-to-use lookup tool, a single place to search for a doctor’s name and see all results across data files.”

– See more at: http://healthimpactnews.com/2014/doctors-earn-3-5-billion-in-kickbacks-from-pharmaceutical-companies/#sthash.DLBkmF9B.dpuf

4:44 am

 

I talk a lot about the rising tide of madness that continues to manifest in socio-political affairs. If you can’t see it by now in the world around you, you are most likely an example of it.  (Les Visible)

4:30 am

Pulling the plug is an utterly non-violent act.  It’s just a consequence; it’s like a time-out. It’s the right thing to do when babies have tantrums and hurt one another.  You take away their weapons; and you separate the babies.  If the drones just one day didn’t shoot anybody?  The assassin’s forbearance is not a crime.  Let us view crime correctly.  Our truth-tellers are in prison.  We must set them free.  I don’t think that can happen unless those who control the flow of truth, decide to OPEN UP THE FAUCETS ALL THE WAY.  To those who COULD speak truth and can’t decide if it’s worth the risk:  Consider the alternative.  Our governments have 1) destroyed the planet, 2) destroyed our prosperity and free will, and 3) set us on the road to nuclear war.  Speak now, or forever hold your peace.

 

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4:03 am

I know what we have to do, and other people know it too.  It’s preposterous but it’s necessary.

Sister Act- I Will Follow Him

I’ve got to admit, I find my family a bit embarrassing.  They won’t stand up for family or anybody else or even themselves.  Poor people fight just to wear clean clothes!  God said it’s harder for a rich man to go to Heaven than for a “camel to go through the eye of a needle.”  I’ve been told that the “eye of the needle” was a rock formation, en route to Jerusalem.  In order to pass, a camel had to crawl through on its knees.  I suppose the pack on his back had to be relatively small as well.

3:42 am

I remember “Mark, from Michigan.”  The revolutionaries of decades past had a much more difficult time spreading news than even the basic     couch potato now…if anybody has hacking skills there is no limit.   I suppose if Mark got out 600 copies of a VHS it was a very good effort.  We can change the world.  We can change the world with a few keystrokes, if they be well-chosen.   And timed right.  FOR HEAVEN’S SAKE…why are my babysitter-goons TEACHInG remedial data-processing when they could instruct me   (and presumably other TI’s…) how to CHANGE THE WORLD?  Is this Stockholm Syndrome, or is this human reality?  We’re on the same side.  None of us wants to 1) die, 2), die, or 3) die.  It’s simple.  The tipping point is merely 10 percent and we’ve got new reality.  10% is a very realistic immediate goal, given our skills and equipment.  Somebody has to say when to pull the plug and the curtain falls open.  We see those motherfuckers as the frightened control-freaks they are, we pick up the pieces and our children see Zion.  It’s a no-brainer.

 

3:31 am

Civil War II and the Coming Breakup of America

“While some of the 260+ command level officers fired by Obama are privately informing many of us in the media about the current state of affairs, they are not on the record.  Other than self-preservation, the major reason why these former military commanders are not on the record is because some of them are involved in planning a guerrilla war against the occupation forces commanded by this administration under the auspices of DHS.”

 

“When the American people engage in a guerrilla war in the upcoming years, the people have less than a 40% chance of success.”

 

“History will someday show that Civil War II began with the Benghazi affair. In the fall of 2012, it is now clear that President Obama survived an attempted bloodless military coup. My sources accurately told me at the time, that Obama was fully aware of the fact that key elements of the military want him gone as the President. In response, Obama had secretly embedded his CIA operatives into various military command structures around the world by placing these operatives into executive command positions in order to help them prevent just such a military coup and these embedded forces have indeed served him well in the aftermath of Benghazi.”

 

“The ties between murdered U.S. Ambassador Chris Stevens and jihadist Syrian rebels, now morphing into ISIS, are becoming more clear as it is now known that Chris Stevens was an arms dealer for the CIA. ”

 

“As Stevens was begging for help after the attack had begun, General Ham had activated a special forces team within minutes of learning that the embassy, which was really a CIA safe house, that was under attack. When General Ham received his “stand down” orders from Obama, he still continued with his plans to go ahead with the rescue and was arrested within minutes of contravening the order by his second in command, CIA plant, Colonel Rodriquez. Admiral Gaouette, the commander of Carrier Strike Group Three, was preparing to provide intelligence…”

 

“In legal parlance, Obama, Panetta and Clinton are, at minimum, accomplices to murder. At maximum these three rogue government officials are co-conspirators to first degree murder and now they have sacked two senior command military leaders to cover their complicity in an act of treason.”

 

Read more here:   http://beforeitsnews.com/war-and-conflict/2015/02/civil-war-ii-and-the-coming-breakup-of-america-2455650.html

3:26 am

“You don’t  understand it, my feeling for you…you’d be honest with me, if only you knew.”

3:02 am

 

 

Dear family, I love you all very much but your reticence makes you… PART OF THE PROBLEM!  Do you not see, that with so many truth-lovers creating reality, there will come a point,  where you must get out of the way?  You either stand down voluntarily, and TALK TO ME LIKE HUMAN PEOPLE…or you will be plucked as tares and the naturally resulting fires of rebellion will roll over your selfish hides.  It’s really simple.  906-291-1376.  (References available on request.  906-291-1376)  “Repent!  For the Kingdom is at hand!”

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DJ in the Morning, dedicating this one to my old man:

“Bring it to me”

Sam Cooke Bring It On Home to Me lyrics

2:47 am

I feel like Robin Williams in that Viet Nam movie:  “GOOD MORNING GOLDTHORPE-NAM!!!”  (More like “Goldthorpe-stan”)

They’re playing us like a foosball game.  They put us on a skewer, paint us all alike, then they drag us back and forth across the field…and WE REALLY THINK WE’RE DOING SOMETHING!  We’re like the little soccer guys in foosball.  We’re really silly-looking from above, but man,  at least we made the team.  Lemme lay it down:  1) government has lied to us since Eden’s first civic council meeting and we’re the culmination of generations of bullshit, 2) the BULLSHIT has hit the fan, 3) “There will be blood tonight.”  (Princess Bride), 4) you will be convicted on one of the sides of conflict.  This is a statistical GIVEN,  and 5) you may not have much longer to choose your outfit.  It may be too late already, but the Bible says “except that time be shortened NOBODY WOULD SURVIVE THIS”  so I think you could still pick the right side.  (References available on request.  906-291-1376.  Personally, I’m not looking forward to civil war.  However, I’ve been watching it for a while already and I’ll do whatever I must do.)  (As long as it doesn’t include physical altercation.)  (Or bombs.  No bombs.)

 

 

2/4/15

4:30 pm

“Condemnation without investigation is the highest form of ignorance.” – Albert Einstein

3:13 pm

Read this article.  But for the grace of God, there go I.  My parents turned me in to the psychopathic authorities because they did not like my 1) prayer life, or 2) my politics.  They are pirates.  They are recruiters for the dark side.  Somebody in my family gave Josh a movie for Christmas about 9/11.  They SPEND MONEY on PROPAGANDA designed to HIDE THE TRUTH. The PTB are laughing all the way to the bank.  We are PAYING FOR and PROSELYTIZING our OWN MATRIX OF LIES!    I hope my family doesn’t follow George W. Bush into Hell.

This Man Faces Life in Prison for … Rapping

“Until recently, Mr. Duncan spent eight months in jail on “gang conspiracy” charges arising from several shootings in San Diego from May 2013 to February 2014. Prosecutors admit he wasn’t at the scene of the crimes, and they have no evidence linking him to the shootings. Mr. Duncan, who has no criminal record, also says he had no knowledge of the crimes. But the district attorney charged him all the same because he raps about shootings.”

 

“That’s not only absurd; it’s a blatant violation of the First Amendment.”

 

Read more at:   http://www.huffingtonpost.com/davidloy/brandon-duncan-tiny-doo_b_6606040.html

7:27 am

There exists a limited quantity of reality bandwidth.  It is presently held by liars because little chunks of reality have been chipped apart and sold to those wishing to sell a product.  We can put reality back together, by refusing to accept a lie (ie. mind control) about any tiny corner currently controlled by lies.  Or advertising.  Or corrupt science.  Or overbearing government.  Or religious dogma.  Or a psychopath.  Wherever we see occupied territory (the only way we will recognize it is if we have TRUTH…) we must plant our flag.  We should commit to ourselves and our fellow freedom-fighters:  We WILL NEVER TOLERATE LIES on that ground again. We will not submit again, to the falsehood from which we’ve been freed.   This is the blueprint for retaking our own minds, and for reestablishing our sovereignty as a race.  We can become truth-lovers and freedom-provocateurs…or we can fear those who did.

 

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6:42 am

YEAH! If they get to do it, we all get to do it. (It’s only a matter of time.)

No one knows what happened to NSA staffers who snooped on their lovers

We are veering toward the precipice of absolute truth.  We can live in fear, or we can accept full disclosure as our only option.  The truth will set us free.

– See more at: http://xrepublic.tv/node/12138#sthash.2mRy1X4D.dpuf

 

“In a letter sent Monday to the attorney general, Sen. Chuck Grassley (R-Iowa) described how he initially asked the Department of Justice (DOJ) to explain what it was doing to address the 12 publicly-known instances of this inappropriate use of NSA surveillance capability. However, the DOJ has stayed mum.”

 

– See more at: http://xrepublic.tv/node/12138#sthash.2mRy1X4D.dpuf

 

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6:12 am

Studies suggest that the more reality TV people watch—and I would posit that it’s all reality TV—the more difficult it becomes to distinguish between what is real and what is carefully crafted farce. Unfortunately, Americans have a voracious appetite for TV entertainment. On average, Americans spend five hours a day watching television.

Concerning reality TV, journalist Chris Weller explains:

Producers have become so good at their job of constructing a cohesive narrative, one that imitates life – albeit, dramatically so – that the narrative ends up compelling life to imitate it. This is an important distinction…. drama doesn’t emerge accidentally. It’s intentional. But not everyone knows that.

 

How Reality TV Is Teaching Us to Accept the American Police State

Read here:  http://www.lewrockwell.com/2015/02/john-w-whitehead/teaching-us-to-accept-the-police-state/

5:54 am

I think Isaac would like it if some of his tribe-mates were also physical relatives.  He’s letting me curate the auto-feed of content to his site.  He’s going to come to Michigan to set up this branch with some positive-conscious people he knows.  People are beginning to come together in organized spiritual pursuits and I’m eager to know my kin.  The church is taking legs and it’s not going to look anything like we expected.  Truth-followers are meeting up, finally.

MUSIC BREAK

Moonlight

 

5:39 am

It is a good start towards “utterly complete vindication” that my sons are brilliant.  For a home-schooling mom, that means a lot, but not as much as one might assume.  The only thing I did different than school…was to let them think.  I wonder how many brilliant-wannabes are squelched by indoctrination and criticism?  The matrix doesn’t like thinkers; that’s becoming obvious.  The NDAA could really be called the “Render them thoughtless” act.  You don’t get magnificent men by cutting them down all the time.  Magnificence requires confidence.

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5:19 am

I guess just before my dad ran away from me yesterday, he invited Josh to go watch his cousin play basketball.  That’s very nice, Josh loves seeing his cousins, but he didn’t want to go.  Maybe Dad could take them to a museum sometime?  Josh likes them a lot more than sports.

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“Plays, farces, spectacles, gladiators, strange beasts, medals, pictures, and other such opiates, these were for ancient peoples the bait toward slavery, the price of their liberty, the instruments of tyranny. By these practices and enticements the ancient dictators so successfully lulled their subjects under the yoke, that the stupefied peoples, fascinated by the pastimes and vain pleasures flashed before their eyes, learned subservience as naively, but not so creditably, as little children learn to read by looking at bright picture books.”—Etienne de La Boétie, “The Discourse on Voluntary Servitude: How Do Tyrants Secure Cooperation?” (1548)

 

5:00 am

True prosperity is a vibrant environment and an abundance of health, happiness, love, and relationships. As more people come to perceive material goods as the form of self-identification in this culture, we slip farther and farther away from the experience of true prosperity.

“We are programmed to believe that as individuals we are in competition with everyone and everything around us, including our neighbors and even mother nature. Us vs. them to the extreme. This flatly denies the truth that life on this planet is infinitely inter-connected. Without clean air, clean water, healthy soil, and a vibrant global sense of community we cannot survive here.”

 

“The social order is not what it seems, for it is entirely predicated on conformity, obedience and acquiescence which are enforced by fear of violence. History teaches us again and again that the law is just as often as not used as an instrument of oppression, social control and plunder, and any so-called authority in this regard is false, hypocritical, and unjust.”

“When the law itself does not follow the law, there is no law, there is no order, and there is no justice. The pomp and trappings of authority are merely a concealment of the truth that the current world order is predicated on control, not consent.”

The 6 Grand Illusions That Keep Us Enslaved to the Matrix

Learn more at:   http://www.wakingtimes.com/2015/02/02/6-grand-illusions-keep-us-enslaved-matrix/

2/3/15

7:20 pm

This is Isaac’s recruitment page.  We’re both recruiting.  He’s less offensive.

“Join the Tribe”

“We are looking for positive, motivated people who are passionate about their personal development and helping the world. We are offering you an invitation to be a part of our movement and take advantage of our network of entrepreneurs and game-changers. Our Tribe is growing across the country and sending out ripple effects of hope through the old world establishment. This is a revolution of ideas, we are changing people’s lives by sharing empowering information in a fun and accessible way.”

7:09 pm

“Utterly complete vindication” would naturally mean vindication in every area of my God-run life.  Of course.  I think it also means, that not only have I been right, I will continue to be right and can maybe trust myself a bit.  When you give your mind to God you have to let go of it.  Maybe.

I rented a movie but it’s pretty lame.  (I watched FOUR MOVIES!  I’m getting so healthy I can’t believe it.  But I expected it.)  I’d rather pray.  That’s never boring, but sometimes you have to wait a lot.

 

 

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6:41 pm

I’m still praying for more fire; now I’m praying for three specific points of conflagration and truth:   Me, my dad, and Adam.  Although I haven’t spoken to Adam for many years I believe him to be the 1) smartest, 2) most principled, and 3) most courageous man in the world.  (Besides, God said he was an angel and I should trust him.)  He owns the other side of this story… the story that  COULD CHANGE HUMANITY FOR THE BETTER.  And it should, really, shouldn’t it?  We went through it all for a reason and the evidence is amazing… and I’m betting that Adam has some idea about what to do with it.  (I trust him because he’s a better loser than my dad.  Otherwise, I wouldn’t be betting again.)

PS- I nominate Adam for Secretary of State.

 

6:23 pm

“During the fiscal year that ended on September 30, 2014, U.S. Special Operations forces (SOF) deployed to 133 countries — roughly 70% of the nations on the planet — according to Lieutenant Colonel Robert Bockholt, a public affairs officer with U.S. Special Operations Command (SOCOM).”

THE GOLDEN AGE OF BLACK OPS – IN FISCAL 2015 U.S. SPECIAL FORCES HAVE ALREADY DEPLOYED TO 105 NATIONS

“As someone who spends much of his time trying to understand the world around him, I’m always astounded to be floored by something I read. While regular readers of this site are well aware of how aggressively and irresponsibly the U.S. empire deploys military assets abroad, I think some of the following information will still shock you.”

 

Read more at:  http://www.blacklistednews.com/The_Golden_Age_of_Black_Ops_%E2%80%93_In_Fiscal_2015_U.S._Special_Forces_Have_Already_Deployed_to_105_Nations/41451/0/38/38/Y/M.html

 

5:16 pm

 

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5:15 pm

Listen to this, Isaac wrote this:

“Our Mission”

 

“In a generation dominated by average expectations and economic stagnancy, we are leading a movement focused on self-education. We will push the boundaries of what is considered possible for all generations in four main aspects of a person’s life: mentally, physically, socially, and financially.”

That’s a very fine mission statement.  He’s been working very hard for many years; I’m glad he’s seeing some fruit for his labor.  My sons are brilliant.  Thank you, God.

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5:10 pm

“Don’t you like how cats get their claws stuck in your clothes then act like you’re responsible?”  (Joshua Miller)

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4:14 pm

Weeks and months go by surprisingly fast in prison, but the days are interminably slow. I am yet in prison, by false witness.  It seems to me, that my family owes me one of two things.  Either I was wrongly accused and deserve recompense, or I was [whatever my dad said about me] and I’ve done hard time.  How long is my sentence?  When have I paid my debt to society…for praying and attempting to lawfully influence my government?  I deserve a clean record. And a pair of shoes and a bus ticket.  Them’s the rules.  In Michigan, ex-cons even get food stamps!  One way or another, I am owed a fresh start.  If I’m not permitted into the bosom of my “family” I should know it, and I should be offered an alternative.  3.5 million alternatives, I think.
I never really had anybody at my back, I had husbands who didn’t have my back.

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3:33 pm

I had to get out of the house so I went to see Josh at work to see if he would watch a movie with me tonight if I picked one up at the store and if so, what would he like to watch.  My dad was there…and he turned tail the minute he saw me.

11:34 am

George worked a double so he probably won’t load the wheelbarrow with wood before he goes to work again.  I will keep the fire going but I’m not going to load the wheelbarrow.  I will not be irresponsible; this is requiring responsibility from another.  I may suggest that Josh check the fire tonight, but I won’t mention the wheelbarrow.  It may be a difficult night and I should remember to wear my shoes that don’t slip.  I had to stop washing dishes because I woke George up.  I think I’ll go sleep for a bit.

 

11:19 am

BABYSITTER!  Please don’t mess with the margins all the time like that!  C’mon.

10:59 am

News from Belgium, my dad’s information (and the goons’…) could help her too:

“I hope something is going change pretty soon and this in good way – because i would like to find and to get back my trust …People , so i wrote in my claims – are pathological egoists -. They prefer as big community to support and to collaborate with the muders of childern and adults , they are them self victims of cruel crimes but they keep silence about all and do so dark things against my work for humanity and me – against god and Jesus -i am very angry about it and very week in my heart about all .Yesterday i met my ex partner- Guy . For some MInutes.In Love,”
 I wrote:
“Oh, I hope that was a good thing, to see  your man.  I am so grateful for you, that you gave up so much to fight for the thing I fight for.  God bless you.  And him.  And his children.  Something is going to break, and you will dress me in a silk sari and we’ll relax.  For once.  Love to you. L”

10:34 am

 

I’m making Japanese pork cutlets tonight.  Probably some kind of noodles; I don’t feel like getting out the rice steamer.  Sauteed cabbage; Josh doesn’t really like it that way but I have to use up some cabbage and the cutlet sauce will help him slurp it down.   Japanese sauces are the easiest I know, but how do I know if they’re real?  How do I know my recipes are not americanized perversions?  They taste great.

Schizophrenia-onset is never at fifty years old.  (Especially for a subject who has heard voices AND KEPT HER NOSE CLEAN for fifty years.)  Alternately, one does not become a psychopath overnight.  (Although evidence exists for some genetic predisposition.)  What I’m observing, is “Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, and sorry I could not travel both and be one traveler, long I stood…and looked down one as far as I could to where it bent in the undergrowth.  Then took the other, as just as fair, and  having perhaps a better claim, because  it was grassy and wanted wear, though as for that, the passage there had worn them really about the same.”  (Robert Frost.  I recited it at Class Night when I was a senior.  Before my dad told everybody I was crazy because I am a Christian and he is not.)  I chose to follow Jesus, and Jesus chose to indulge my whimsy.  My father chose to follow his libido, and we have taken different roads.  There’s a rock up ahead.

“I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.”
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8:08 am

High-Tech Helmet Lets You Hear Your Own Thoughts, Sort Of

“The ‘Experience Helmet’ is a new, high-tech wearable device that allows people to hear electronic representations of their thoughts. It uses Electroencephalography (EEG) technology to translate brain activity into data.”

“This basically means that the helmet can read your thoughts, convert it into sound, and play it back to you!”

 

This basically means that SOMEBODY can read your thoughts, convert them into WHATEVER FORMAT they want, and play it back to ANYBODY.  Now they made it into a toy.  Great.

 

Read more here:   http://www.odditycentral.com/technology/high-tech-helmet-lets-you-hear-your-own-thoughts-sort-of.html

 

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7:44 am

Psychopaths show different brain structure AND BRAIN FUNCTION.  I think somebody should get my dad an MRI.  Wouldn’t it be terrible if we neglected a simple test… covered by health insurance… and he never knew his diagnosis (or prognosis) … and he went to hell?  That’s malpractice.

“Not all psychopaths are thoroughly unrepentant killers, and not all psychopaths have every single characteristic of psychopathy. Some researchers maintain that psychopathy is best seen as a spectrum disorder.”

“Previous studies had shown a difference in brain structure. Now we can see a difference in brain function,” Sheilagh Hodgins, Professor of Psychiatry at Université de Montréal and one of the study’s authors, told The Daily Beast. The researchers looked at MRIs of psychopaths adjusting their behavior as the consequences for a task switched from positive to negative. “We deliberately made the task so simple that all they had to do is push one button or another,” said Hodgins. “Even on this very, very simple task we see very dramatic differences.”

 

“Psychopaths are more or less callous, unempathetic, glib, grandiose, manipulative, dishonest, promiscuous, and unable to recognize negative emotions in other people.”

 

Read more here:   http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2015/02/02/why-you-can-t-punish-a-psychopath-according-to-science.html

 

7:36 am

The Dark Age of Virtual Reality-Based Torture Is Approaching Fast

“Even current technology is enough to create “presence,” the experiential nougat of immersion that makes the sensory input seem real. As the technology improves, virtual experiences will come to feel totally authentic. Under the right circumstances it might be impossible to tell the difference or even to look away. Even today’s rather crudely rendered scenarios can affect viewers in profound ways.”

 

“VR is viscerally potent—that’s why it’s been used for reducing pain or treatingphobias and combat trauma, though it could be just as powerful in doing the opposite. Virtualized trauma would leave no marks, and like 1984’s Room 101, could confront victims with exactly the worst thing imaginable.”

 

Gee, I wonder who they’re experimenting on?

 

Read more at:   http://motherboard.vice.com/read/how-virtual-reality-could-be-used-for-torture?trk_source=homepage-lede

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4:13 am

“CIA is the organized crime branch of the United States–everything it does is illegal.”

Cops the CIA drugs and the Mafia Doug Valentine

Duh.  Of COURSE I was taught wrong about love.  I should have seen it long before I did.  I KNOW I was taught wrongly about God…and God is love.  I was taught wrong things about truth; I was taught to choose truth pragmatic-ly, after running the options through my mind-controlled organ of continual disrepute and stringent censure by God Himself.  I was taught that EVERYTHING I believe, must make sense to my limited mind!  That is not supernatural faith and it is not God and those who claim to teach God should probably check their notes.
4:07 am
Josh has to go to work early.  I’m making biscuits and gravy.  I’d like him to enjoy waking up and to enjoy going to work and to enjoy everything.

 

3:17 am

I’m feeling violated by internet. I don’t like seeing pop-ups of nearly naked women and reading headlines about sex toys and I really don’t want to know about all the new movies; but all that crap is forced on us.  I waste so much gray-matter on vile pop-culture… just from seeing the headlines as I read other things.  I’m feeling violated, and this is strange, since my computer has been attacking me regularly since at least 2009 and that really doesn’t get me into much of a lather.  I’m not nearly as offended when somebody (or somebody’s algorhythm) jerks me around.  Apparently, that stuff has purpose.  What I see now, is intentional corruption of entire populations just for the hell of it.  My grandma never heard of cigars until her president also taught her about oral sex.  I didn’t think she’d survive that fall.
One mind-control-factor has been my biggest focus…and this necessarily, due to the overwhelmingly, unbelievably bizarre implications of remote mind control through electronic and/or spiritual and/or psychic and/or SOME other MEANS WE HAVEN’T FOUND OUT ABOUT YET.   But, I tend to minimize the mind control successes of more traditional methodologies, and their effects on myself.  I don’t like what I see, IT IS STINKING AWFUL… and if you guys stopped to think about it you might realize how much EVIL you have come to accept…just by watching it day after day after day after day…

 

Before I was repeatedly raped I was pretty prude, you can ask any of my male friends. (Or my dad.  I learned about sex from his porn when I was little and begged him to keep it away from my nieces.)  They’ve all hit on me, except Adam and the prophet.  And George, I guess he’s my friend now.  As I’ve learned more about love, I’ve recognized that George probably never loved me.  This thought occurred to me a few months ago when he said, “I still care about you.”  I laughed.  He doesn’t care what I do or what I think about.  He hasn’t cared to know what I’ve written since 2009 and I used to ask him to read my journals all the time because I was telling another man how much I loved him and I thought George might be interested.  No.  So I thought about my own attempts to love him.  I admired him very much, and I recognized his moral superiority, and I wished to be like that.  (He wished for the same thing.)  I believe now, that love is a spontaneous heart-condition that cannot be maneuvered into precise objectives.  The Baptists didn’t talk about that possibility.  Also, love is wanting the BEST for the OBJECT of love.  Not for the lover.  It’s about the lovee.  Or it isn’t love.
Sex is joining your spirit to another being, not just your body.  I’ve never heard of condoms for that but if I do I’ll let you know.  I’m learning new things all the time.

 

 

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2/2/15

5:56 pm

 

Did you ever watch Norman Finkelstein debate Alan Dershowitz?  It’s like beauty and the beast.  You could turn the volume down to nothing, and still recognize the moral state of those two guys.  Try it.  I watched a Finkelstein lecture once,  where he stopped to sing a song. It was charming, and I listened more closely after his human-moment.  (I’m sure glad I’ve never witnessed any of Dershowitz’s human-moments.  Ick.)   Finkelstein is unable to  get tenure at a university within these United States.  This is a tragedy, and indicative of the mind-washing that masquerades as “higher learning.”  I owe tremendous student-loans for no such a thing. What I absorbed was not “high”…nor was it “learning.”  I adopted survival tactics.

1:56 pm

 

You know, they’re now saying that people don’t become diabetic because they’re fat; they become fat because they’re diabetic.  And the PTB are intentionally making us diabetic with high-fructose corn syrup, aspartame, and polymers.  They’re INTENTIONALLY destroying our health.  Doesn’t anybody have a problem with that?  “Pink slime.”  They stick our meat-products into recognizable shapes with “pink-slime.”  I don’t really want to eat anything advertised on TV.  I would like to eat organic, non-GMO food and I’d sign up for a stint at Josh’s work-camp to make real food a reality for more people.  What am I doing here typing?  I could be a force for good, rather than a nexus of conflict.  If ANYBODY would lend me a hand!
I’m going to see the prophet today.  I’m taking a spinach casserole and cream cheese brownies.  (Josh wanted me to make them again.)  The prophet will permit me to talk about Jesus and he will teach me some things.  I’ll be calm after we pray together.  You Baptist-folk would really like spending time with somebody who hears from God.  It 1) makes sense of your experiences, 2) encourages you to seek God more heartily, and 3) makes you feel accepted and well.  We, who are Christians, are accepted and well.  “There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.”  (Romans 8:1)    That’s ME!  Even if I’m wrong ONE HUNDRED PERCENT OF THE TIME, I still desire to follow God’s Spirit.  God judges by the heart.  So does the NSA.  Let’s get some righteous folks in control of those machines of judgment.

 

5:46 am

“It’s one thing to excel on the fields of play; win titles, make the deciding score or… triumph in the world of business or the arts. To influence others to be better than they might have been and to be a part of some fundamental change in the human heart is to be valued far above any of these other things. You can’t always tell what your impact on life might have been and this is especially hard to see when you are in crisis periods or when you have fallen miserably away from your primary intention and… it happens. It surely does. True humility is one of the most underrated assets that a person can possess and one only acquires it by contact with something infinitely greater than oneself.”

Les Visible, more at:   http://www.visibleorigami.com/2015/02/a-little-super-sunday-sermon-of.html

 

4:50 am

 

“Without privacy…we can’t have civilization.  Think about it.”

“Terrorism is people who are dissatisfied to the point of laying down their lives.”

“What we need is people who are capable of communicating.”

 

“Being a hacker, I could not help myself.”  John McAfee

 

I’d like to go to an anarchist convention in Acapulco.  A Canadian investor is running it and he’s a hoot.  The event is only a couple weeks away and I can’t afford it.  Plane fare from anywhere near here to anywhere near there is between 800 and 4,000 dollars.  I don’t know how to navigate this ticket-buying-technology.  I wish Isaac would go.  I’d like to take Josh. Luke Rudkowski will be teaching a seminar on independent journalism.  (I’d like to learn about his FINANCIAL independence, if nothing else.)  John McAfee won’t be speaking, since Homeland Security has deemed hackers to be a threat to national security.   They oughta know.  Parenting classes!  They’re having classes to teach people to be positive CONSCIOUS parents.  That’s been a goal of mine.  I think I may belong with these people.  Wish I had my money that my dad owes me.

MUSIC BREAK

I think I might like to make love while listening to this song sometime.  I’ve never actually been with a man who liked music.

 

 

 

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2/1/15

1:07 pm

There was a time I didn’t feel it.  I didn’t feel lonely, for a time.  It ruined me for every moment ever since.  I really cannot feel OK if I do not feel the way that felt.  I am ruined.  Every second feels second-rate, ever color is dingy gray.  I must get entirely into the spirit; there is no incentive to stay here.  Boredom is “lack of meaning.”  I used to think boredom was a sin, but instead  it’s a real motivator.  If you can’t find meaning where you’re at you’ve gotta move along.

12:53 pm

“Dear Lord, please take Josh and me somewhere where I can pray and he can LARP.  Eventually, when I’m all prayed up, I’d like to LARP too.”

12:51 pm

Maybe if I take a nap now, when I wake up the panic attack will be over.

Ever see that Star-Trek episode with the Traveler?  I feel like I’m phasing out.  I’m becoming transparent.  “Take me lower and slower, Lord.  Increase my capacity for spiritual truth.”  The air is very thin where liars thrive.  I can’t breathe much.

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12:48 pm

“Dear Lord, thank you for Josh.  Thank you that he talks to me!  What would I  be without his wisdom and love for Truth?  Thank you, and bless him beyond measure.”

 

12:42 pm

 

I said, “George, if I scoop out the litter box will you drop off  the garbage on your way to work?”  He said, “I’ll try to remember.  I had a bag of garbage in my car for three days last week.”   Josh wanted Swedish pancakes, after all the fuss I made about my incredible accidental caramel, so I made the batter and he manned the grill.  He noticed my erratic breathing, and asked if I were OK.  I said, “Thank you for asking.  NO!  NO! I’m not OK!  I used to pray with your father until Grandpa lied about me and now I don’t have anybody to pray with or to worship Jesus with!”  He said, “What you’re experiencing is the common state of all mankind.  Do you think I would not prefer to be LARPing with others, somewhere else?  You’re absolutely normal and we all feel it.”  I laughed, when he used Isaac as an example of how far we must roam to find a kindred spirit.  (I told him I wrote exactly the same message, mere hours ago.)
I am blessed beyond measure: a couple years ago God asked, “Haven’t I given you a loving heart companion?  Does he not persist?  Commune with the spirit, for I enjoy your harmony.”  Now, what is that to mean, but that I should be grateful for the goon in my head, and deem myself less lonely than everybody else?  Dear God in Heaven!  How can you stand it?

 

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11:59 am

Get on the right side of history!  Just do it, do it, do it!  Do not choose to hit that big rock I saw in a vision years ago…our whole family was headed towards a great big rock and Jesus stopped the truck right before it made impact.  (I guess I should settle down:  “Jesus stopped the truck right before it made impact.”  “Thank you, Lord. May I please quit hyperventilating and wash dishes now?”)  Begin with me.  You, family, know I am nothing like my dad has said I was.  Settle in your hearts right now:  I will support truth and refuse to embrace lies and/or liars.  This will help me a lot, and it will help y’all.

 

11:39 am

I long to pray with another Christian!  I long to worship with somebody who loves Jesus and also longs to know him better!  I’m starving!  I don’t know anybody around here who worships. I live among unbelievers. I know there are believers in Toronto, and in West Virginia.  Some in California and Alabama.  I’d really like to pray with them.

 

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11:13 am

 

Nigel O’Mara – It’s Time For Justice For The Victims Of Child Abuse

Richie:  “Nigel.  How do survivors of abuse reconcile?  How do they come to terms with the disgusting cover-up?”    Nigel:  “Well first of all you have to start coping with the fact that you’ve been abused, you’ve been raped, before you even start thinking about problems that you have from being ignored when you do come forward, and not being believed when you do come forward.”

 

 

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10:32 am

10:49 am

There is no repose in this house of lies and mistrust!  There is no sanctuary here for the maligned and misused!  I don’t belong here.  After 240,000 miles, my car is objecting when it’s below zero.  I gave that car to God when I had to run for Congress; George is being sued for the credit card bill.  I hope God gives me a car and a destination pretty soon.

EMAIL:
“Judge Webre, I know I’m a pain in the in-box but please read this one.  Thx.
Dear Family,
When you decide to speak to me Judge Webre will be so impressed that he’ll invite me to be on his TV show.  Then I will have  lots of people to talk to and I won’t bother you anymore.”

 

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10:02 am

“Speak[ing] the truth in love”:  Truth at ALL cost to self…and at optimal cost to others.  (Optimal being God’s business.)  We would be ill-advised to “protect” a person about whom truth is being revealed. When we speak truth in obedience to God, it is always in perfect love and HE ALONE is responsible for the fall-out.
I have been writing the same story for six years:  the story of ME.  I’m bored to exhaustion…writing about ME.  I’d like to apply my much-exercised diligence to loftier topics.  Maybe I could delve more deeply into some of the political landmines and write about them?  Maybe I could write for an alternative news-site even.  I’d like to study TEFL (TESL) and with certification to teach English, I could get a job anywhere in the world!  I’d like to finish this project with my father.  I honestly think I have, but I haven’t been freed to move on.  I’ve seen visions of the church exploding and my father’s business exploding and this house on fire.  I hope it doesn’t come to all that.  I’m lurking.  I’m lurking in my own life and waiting.  I’ve been waiting for years.

 

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9:19 am

I listened to Josh talking to Isaac on the phone last night.  He was suggesting work-camps for the homeless, from which they could come and go as they pleased, and help produce organic food.  He and I suffer from the same lack:  We need somebody to talk to about things we care about.  Isaac went a long way to find such people, and he has, to a point.  (He says they’re very politically liberal and involved in self-hatred due to their pale skins.)  The time of torture is a pustule on my progeny and it needs to be lanced.  Isaac and Josh cannot talk about it because it’s too painful.  George still looks like a deer in the headlights and I am beyond the pain.  I choose to distribute healing to my family.  Truth will set them free.

 

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8:52 am

BUMP TO THE TOP, FROM:

5/24/14
8:41 am
I know some very important truth.  I’ve been trying to get attention to this issue for years  and I can’t think of much else I could do.  I’ve written letters and and articles and  poems.  I made phone calls to support groups. I put flyers under windshield wipers and nailed my controversy to the churchhouse door.  I spray-painted words on the snow in front of my dad’s office.  I dyed my hair red and started drinking beer!  (People are talking about how I drink a lot and stood on my head.  My mom  was screaming, accusing me of being drunk  so I stood on my head to prove I wasn’t.  I get too dramatic…)  My life is full of paradoxes and I can certainly understand that my behaviors might appear to contradict.  I can’t hope to explain doctrinal distinctions to people who do not even believe God can talk to us.  (There’s a REAL contradiction:  the same God who raises dead bodies …can’t communicate with living ones!)  “A paradox is truth standing on its head trying to attract attention.”
I was being immobilized every day, vomiting, unable to move.  (My blog includes articles describing the effects of microwave weaponry, and my journals document identical experiences.  Except itchy eyeballs.)   Then I was hacked by a moral atheist and given some important truth and I no longer threw up!  I was my usual hyper-active self!  I wanted to fix everything, especially the family who had languished while I was incapacitated.  So I went to my father for help.  Instead of receiving assistance,  I was followed, hunted, set-up, reviled, reported, encouraged to behave in a crazy manner, ridiculed, threatened and my concerns for my children were ignored.
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My Christian parents did not respond to a single letter I wrote, did not return phone calls or emails for more than two years. They did not express sympathy for my family although they knew we were suffering.  Lies isolated me from all family.  My father still has not asked what I accuse him of doing.  He has never asked.  Nobody has asked to see my evidence of organized gangstalking and electronic torture.  Yet, I’ve been cursed and maligned.  Herein, another paradox.
My truth is very important for everybody, but it’s incomplete.  Truth is Jesus and Jesus is a body with many members.  Without everybody’s input, we don’t see him completely.  I’ve sought answers for about five years, since the torture began.  Every time I’m given another piece of the puzzle, I’m astonished and grateful at how well God prepared me and guided me.  My mom recently gave me a bit of truth, about a friend.  Several years ago God told me to discontinue communication with my dear friend, or we would hate each other.  I do not choose to hate anybody and God has seen to it that I don’t.  So far.  (“Lord do not allow me to rise up and do not let me make even one mistake.  Please help your people, we must  get the world out of our heads, and get our faith out of the world.  Amen.”)

 

8:35 am

We have to learn to tolerate the notion that two conflicting premises can be true.  This is discipline, and it’s necessary for learning new truth.  As we progress to truth within a given discipline, our databank of other paradigms must necessarily conflict,  with the new knowledge in a related file.  I think freedom will mean, in part, that we will accept new truth solely by spiritual revelation, and remain unaware of any distortion; no dissonance, neither cognitive nor emotional.  We’ll just be peaceful and wait until more new ideas fill in the gaps of our old understanding.  It will be great to live that way.  It will be very innocent and childlike.  We’ll see magic every day.  (Magic being the occurrence of something,  that one believes to be impossible.)

 

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8:04 am

“… we have stunning examples of ‘inhumane’: these are human beings who will see people suffering, know that they are causing the suffering, know that they could easily relieve the suffering, but choose not to.”

“Pain is part of the ‘come to earth’ package. We are here getting experienced, polished and refined… all to manifest the Divine within. Will expanded consciousness really bring understanding and peace? Yes it will. You know it will. Keep on.”

 

See more here:   http://talk2momz.com/2015/01/31/oh-what-a-fool-believes/

 

 

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7:31 am

This spying thing; even if you’ve got nothing to hide, they can make stuff up.  And then they can make that stuff true, with a paper trail and everything!  I’d love to tell the stories to somebody about how I was jerked around and led on wild goose chases and how God always got me home again spot-free.  It’s a really good story and I’m about to explode.  You’ll know what I’m talking about before long, I kid you not.  If you have half a conscience left they’re going to put you under the microscope for all the world to see.  This is the final battle between good and evil and I’m waiting for reinforcements here in Serenity Valley.  Do not abandon the mission!  Let’s take this land!

 

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7:04 am

Josh says I’ll never foment a revolution from my seat, but I beg to differ.  Even if my recruitment attempts have gone unfulfilled, I’ve helped delineate the parties.  I propose that in this most crucial time of human evolution, we must contend for the Golden Rule and “everybody happy.”  Failing to join up with me is obviously choosing the wrong side of history.  This is very obvious, without scripture references, to even the most disadvantaged schoolkid.  My father trangressed the Golden Rule, if nothing else.  He said, “You have a place to live.  You’re fine.” …after he took my home, my earning potential, my family, my friends, my confidence.  I daresay, if someone treated him that way he’d be a mite offended.  A line has been drawn.  Stand up.  Or do not.  It’s your future you’re establishing.  “Be not deceived, God is not mocked.  Whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.”  I’m joyfully anticipating the harvest.

“He who sows in tears shall reap in joy.”

 

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6:29 am

MUSIC BREAK

United We Stand – Brotherhood of Man

 

 

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6:13 am

They say that the most important movie ever made is “They Live”, and I’d put it right up there with “Matrix” and can’t think of any better, but I watched another important movie last night.  (I haven’t been calm enough to watch movies for a number of years.  The last time I went to a theater we saw “Avitar.”)  “The Incredible Burt Wonderstone” is a very important movie.  I don’t have any idea what it means, but I see truth on many levels.  It contains truth for society and psychopaths.  Truth glows, I can see it in the layers of pancake makeup on Steve Carell.

6:11 am

Some Christian could give me the gift of sobriety, here’s how it works:  I sit alone for many hours working on the website and writing, and as morning progresses, I get antsy.  I must go to the store. (For years I hadn’t enough money to go, unless I walked.  My store/church burned down.)  I MUST buy a beer and I feel better on the drive home, after I TALKED TO A HUMAN.  (I talk to the other mammals far too much; I even apologize to them.)  I feel better on the drive home, even without drinking the beer, which I do of course, and I do not even like it…  Did you ever watch “Conspiracy Theory”?  Mel Gibson, it’s a really good movie and 99 percent of the “conspiracies” mentioned are historical situations with evidence supporting the supposed-bullshit.  Anyway, that will be determined shortly, but Mel Gibson’s character, a mind-controlled potential assassin, HAD to buy a copy of “Catcher in the Rye.”  Then he felt better.  I think of him on my drive home from the store WHERE I SHARED COMMENTS ABOUT THE WEATHER WITH A STRANGER WHO SOLD ME BEER.  Would somebody please talk to me?  906-291-1376.  906-586-4629.

 

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5:54 am

The pressure on me is so intense I feel I might shoot out of here just like my dad spit”fuck” at me that time I accused him of maintaining and needing my family to be fucked-up to cover his ass.  You never saw that guy move so fast or spit so far or swear so easily.  He’s guilty as fuck, and nobody gives a shit, and I’m about to explode.  I do my mental/spiritual exercises.  I am rational and consistent and I am still WOUND UP PRETTY TIGHT.  One time, a couple weeks ago, I thought I’d explode and I talked to George.  I thanked him for the favor, and he seemed to listen.  My heart stopped racing and I quit hyper-ventilating.  I thanked him for the rest of the day for listening.  SOMEBODY MUST LISTEN TO ME.  I really, really need a friend or some little family.  You hypocritical people who have demanded that I get help!  God forgive your lying souls and blackened tongues.

 

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5:34 am

Comforting words for the morning:   “Be not deceived, God is not mocked.  Whatsoever a man soweth, that will he also reap.”

I slept in until nearly five!  Josh and I watched a couple funny movies last night.  I’m actually enjoying our tiny living space, it’s like camping.  George fixed the chimney last night when he got home, it had been plugged all day.

“The most merciful thing in the world… is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents… The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but someday the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality… That we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the deadly light into the peace and safety of a new dark age.”
~ H. P. Lovecraft

Or, third option, we can run TO the LIGHT, rather than away from it…

 

 

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1/31/15

3:13 pm

I had a panic attack.  I’d been happy for days.  I went to take a nap after George woke up, and I got up after he went to work and that’s when it hit me.  I think I feel condemnation; I think that’s what puts me into the blackness.  I can recite all the things I know to be true, but I still feel wrong. I ask for more of God’s Spirit of truth, so my feelings will match reality.   I can’t believe that no person on Earth will talk to me about what I’ve been through.  I don’t feel self-pity anymore, but I feel VERY WRONG about the lack of compassion.  It’s surreal, oppressive and wrong.  I don’t belong here.  Something has to give.  God says he’s never late so I don’t think that something will be me.  Josh will be home from work pretty soon and he’ll talk to me.  People are not meant to live in isolation.  My dad forced it on me and I will soon be free.  I’ll breathe and giggle with others who love and serve the world’s occupants.  I can’t wait to cook for people who care about things.  I can’t wait to listen to them talk.

The lilies are opening up, and the colors are beautiful.  I know God has a plan for my life.  I expect my dad’s still cursing me or I would be happy all the time.  I pray that God will bless him with compassion.  It will hurt at first but the pain is worth it because it makes us more like Jesus.  Jesus would really like us to care about others’ pain.  That’s a no-brainer.

 

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11:44 am

“Those who start wars, never fight them. Those who fight wars, never like them.”

“And those who write laws, can recite them.   And those of us who just fight laws…we live and die them.”

MUSIC BREAK

Michael Franti & Spearhead : Time To Go Home

10:46 am

MUSIC BREAK

(I’m now laughing like a child.  Is anybody following this?  God gives me the most amazingly ironic material…)

(I love the part where the guy with the Bobby Sherman haircut  directs the drummer through  a difficult straight-a-way of half notes…)

 

10:42 am

In researching the MK ULTRA programs and their various offshoots, I came across an interesting connection to the coming SmartGrid. Under Dr. Ewan Cameron, a prison tracking device known as the Schwitzgebel Machine was utilized to monitor inmates locations, heart rate and other personal details that were reciprocally transmitted to the good doctors. What comes to the fore is the similarity with the development of the Smartphone and its new capabilities for monitoring heart rate, health, etc., as well as basically anything else. Is there a connection between mind control and the coming A.I. takeover? While this may sound like the ultimate paranoiac tin foliage, I suspect more at work here.

“On the contrary, much of the technological progress we have seen in the last few decades is not the result of independent, competing ideas, but is rather the strategically timed and intentional release of the military industrial tech complex, given to an idiot public for the purpose of long term enslavement and depopulation.”

 

Read more at:  http://www.blacklistednews.com/The_Dark_Nexus_of_Mind_Control_and_Artificial_Intelligence/41370/0/38/38/Y/M.html

 

 

10:11 am

I love this man.  He makes me feel demure.

Speak Now Or Forever Hold Your Peace With Backstabbers

“A point of no return.  We can’t be cool no more…”

“The best kind of relationship is authentic.”

“If you was hot or cold, I could work witch ya.  It’s that lukewarmness that gets me!  Hell no, I won’t be lukewarm!”   “Some of you got a bunch of family members, you need to stop having something to do with those SOB’s.  I done cut a whole bunch of mine out; I don’t give a damn, you see, people want you to be concerned about what they think about you.  That’s how you people get enslaved, allowing others to enslave you.  Do they got a Heaven and Hell?  Did they die for your sins on the cross?  I don’t understand why you concerned about them,because God sees the inner man.”

“You got to realize, that family members can be your worst enemies.  They can do things to you that other people can’t.”  “Sometimes your family members get you frickin’ killed.  Then they be tryin’ to act like they’re so innocent.”  (In response):  “Was it true?  Was it true?  Show me something where I was lying…”

 

BEST SERMON IN MONTHS…

Read more athttp://investmentwatchblog.com/speak-now-or-forever-hold-your-peace-with-backstabbers/#03MLFK77l772xGVz.99

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8:55 am

Life In The Spirit World Surrounded By Spirits

“And I mean spirits of all kinds — tree spirits, human spirits, E.T. spirits, plant spirits, animal spirits, insect spirits, bird spirits, reptile spirits, and so forth. The fundamental reality is that we are spiritual beings animating physical bodies — and when and if the body dies, for whatever reason, we always find ourselves in a spiritual realm, surrounded by spirits, because we are spirit ourselves. That is just the way it is, like it or not, believe it or not, accept it or not.”

 

“A lot of what ails humanity boils down to a simple refusal to grow up and think and act as mature, responsible, autonomous human beings.”

“I have one message for those who are deep in the sh*t hole of the USSA military and spy agencies: resign your positions. Walk away and devote your life to world peace.”

 

More at:   http://eventhorizonchronicle.blogspot.com/2015/01/life-in-spirit-world-surrounded-by.html

8:30 am

We need to reinforce mind-states that are conducive to positive behaviors.  We can agree on positive behaviors, it‘s easy.  (The foundation is that the behavior does not interfere with anybody else…then we go up from there.)  Once we know that being cordial is a positive, and we can easily recognize, with last year’s technology, the necessary mind-state to behave “cordially”, we just produce that state.  Set the vibration.  That’s what they’re doing only in reverse.  Does any techie-hacker-cowboy have the balls to reset the ray gun?  Where are the men?

8:01 am

I have been spied upon.  I have been stalked, cyber-stalked, gang-stalked, gaslighted.  I have been tormented in so many ways that no longer matter.  When it happens to you, remember this number:   906-291-1376.

Here are some sordid scenarios. Your ex-girlfriend can see every time you swipe right while using Tinder. Your former husband is secretly listening to and recording your late-night Skype sessions with your new boyfriend. Some random slippery-dick is jacking off to the naked photos in your private photo library.—– For millions of people, it’s not hypothetical.

“I’m not talking about the NSA (though that too); I’m talking about software fine-tuned for comprehensive stalking—”spyware”—that is readily available to any insecure spouse, overzealous boss, overbearing parent, crazy stalker or garden-variety creep with a credit card.”

“Literally millions of people, according to the sales figures provided by these spyware companies, are going about their days not knowing that somewhere, some turdknockers are scouring their photo libraries and contacts and WhatsApp messages, looking for digital misdeeds.”

 

My dad is a turd-knocker.

 

Read more at:   http://sorendreier.com/why-are-these-popular-spying-apps-not-illegal/

 

6:39 am

I can’t imagine the degree of hubris existing that would make BAPTISTS and especially, the pedophile-protecting ABWE believe they will not be exposed.  There will be fireworks.

“Epstein’s good friend and associate, prominent criminal lawyer, Alan Dershowitz, is accused of fiddling with not only Epstein’s pedophile case, but with many others according to reports, as well as taking advantage of some of Epstein’s under-aged female subjects. If true, this is 360º corruption on the part of Dershowitz.”

 

New Pedophile Scandal and Cover-up Rocks Australia’s Jewish Community

 

Read more at:   http://21stcenturywire.com/2015/01/29/new-pedophile-scandal-and-cover-up-rocks-australias-jewish-community/

6:25 am

Wow.  I got the whole Judas-crucifixion-resurrection-baptism-in-the-Holy-Ghost timeline all bass-ackwards.   I guess it’s all accurate just the same, being that time is nothing more than the conductor putting his foot to the tracks for  just a moment.  Slowing down a bit.  For the latecomers, that they might jump onboard, because this train ain’t stopping.

6:15 am

Judas saw the same risen JESUS that the other disciples saw.  His problem was one of attention.  He paid more attention to the Matrix and its illusory benefits.  The other guys were scared!  They locked themselves upstairs after Jesus was murdered by Godless government…until a miracle happened.  The Holy Spirit came to them, and they were no longer afraid.  THEY RAN OUTSIDE AND TOLD EVERYBODY…each listener heard the TRUTH in his own language.  (That’s what I REALLY, REALLY want to know from my rapist/babysitter/remote-neural-monitoring-monitor:  “WHAT DO YOU SEE ON THE GAME-SCREEN WHEN I’M OVERWHELMED BY THE SPIRIT AND SING IN TONGUES?”)  Those who received the Baptism of the Holy Ghost became utterly different creatures than those who were frightened by a few Roman soldiers.  That happened to me.  In 2001.  I lost 150 pounds.  I lost arthritis.  “Glory to glory” he’s changing me.  My notes will be invaluable for that reason alone.  Even if nobody is watching now, when I shine like the STAR who is my beloved JESUS, the Christ?  Somebody is going to want to know how I got here.  It will be a lot of fun to have friends again.    (Note:  I have gained some of that 150 pounds back and I occasionally whine about it.  God assures me that I am exactly the right size, and in exactly the right place, and positioned exactly perfectly…for what he wants me to do.)

6:21 am

Correction:  I ASSUME I’ve gained weight.  I haven’t weighed myself for fifteen years.  I feel chubby and I’d like to live in a city for a while so I can walk more.

 

5:43 am

I realized something very wonderful yesterday:  My brother has a VERY GOOD HEART.  When he paid for me to go to Belgium, I figured he just knew the truth and was doing what a rich guy who knows the truth would naturally do.  NO!  NO!  If he had understood, he would certainly have talked to me before now…about REMOTE HARASSMENT.  He sent me to Belgium…JUST TO BE NICE!  “Thank you Lord for such a nice brother!  Bless him with TRUTH!  Amen.”

 

 

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5:26 am

14 Vintage Movie Theatre Etiquette Posters from 1912 (5)

5:07 am

WE BECOME WHAT WE WORSHIP.  I CAN’T WAIT!

Salute: George Schultz, 94, and Madeleine Albright, 77, both rose to their feet to applaud Henry Kissinger as the protesters were removed

 

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1/30/15

7:51 pm

Barr added: ‘But there’s nothing more powerful than, ”I am sorry.”’

‘I have hopes for this great comic. I do. I have hopes that he would just make it clean, and make it, you know, make it right, and I do think he could do that,’ she said.

When asked what it would take to ‘make it right’, Barr said: ‘There’s so many ways. He’s got a billion bucks.’

‘Cosby scandal surprises nobody, every woman in Hollywood knows somebody’: Roseanne Barr speaks out about sexual assault allegations

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5:15 pm

I stuffed artichokes with bread crumbs, Italian herbs, Asiago cheese, virgin olive oil and salt and pepper and garlic.  I also roasted butternut squash for risotto, and a loaf of rye bread is in the oven.  I brined chicken pieces which I will bake with spices, yet to be determined, and I boiled a corned beef brisket.  Josh can have a Reuben sandwich, or chicken with risotto.  (Both the chicken and the corned beef were marked down because they were past date, so I cooked them both.)   Isaac sent me flowers, Peruvian lilies, still buds.  I got them yesterday and they’re beginning to open, 100 lily buds.
The card said:  “Love you Mom!  Hope you are having a truly blessed and wonderful birthday. Take these 100 lilies as a sign of your imminent blessings.  God is welcoming you into the Kingdom.  Love and light to you and the family!  -Isaac”    
“Living well is a good revenge.  BECOMING WELL is the best.”  (Goldthorpe, Linda J.)
MUSIC BREAK
I know this is pussy-music, but I have no leader.  When I do, I will mature really fast.

 

 

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1:21 pm

We went grocery shopping.  A guy whose mother came from Rome gave me a recipe for stuffed artichokes.  Josh should try stuffed artichokes.  We need to expand our borders.
Post-grocery-shopping prayer.  I loved on a couple of people in the grocery store,  and they liked it.  A childhood friend who is facing a second surgery for a painful condition, and an old gal from the neighborhood.  I LOVE to see these people.  I have very limited opportunity to spread love and good will.  If I were among a larger population, and with a modest nest egg, I could help this planet EVEN if I did not have the “soon to be REALLY FAMOUS” evidence of psychopathic mind control and remotely induced RAPE!  “Thank you, Lord for these blessings.”
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“Where are my allies?  Dear Lord, who are my allies?  I am commanded to love the “brethren” and to prefer them above those apostate.  Who is my brother?  Who is my mother?  OH, RIGHT!  You already told us that.  ‘My brethren are they that do the will of my father.’  (Jesus, the Christ)   The will of the father is that we all be friendly and get along.  I see lots of people doing that.  Some of them are homosexuals and some are Muslims.  I was raised by bigoted Baptists.  They judge by physical manifestations and not according to the Spirit.   Lord, please help me out.  How do I know whom to trust?  Where are my assistants and my supervisors?  I get my marching orders from you, but I know I’m supposed to fit into the program somewhere.  My natural family, with the exceptions of my smart sons and foolish roommate are not allied with me.  They say nasty things about me when I am not around and they refuse to talk to me.  They believed a psychopath who told them I am mentally deficient.  (Yeah.  I laughed too.)    But, I don’t have anybody to talk to and I have nobody to tell me what to do next.  (Maybe if I took time to figure out that BULLSHIT on my WordPress-spellcheck,  I’d know what I’m dealing with.)   I know that  faith is what provides egress from the Matrix of MANIPULATED MIND GAMES…but “I grow fatigued.”  (Ricardo Mantalban, oh my god.  Star Trek.  “Khan.”)    WHAT DO I DO NOW THAT I WON THIS THING AND MY DAD WON’T PAY UP?  (I mean, ‘Now that YOU, you won this thing.  I know that was a long time ago,  but you and I differ in our familiarity with time.  I’m getting with the program.’)   Please 1) enlarge my heart, 2) fill it with DIVINE LOVE FOR MURDERERS AND LIARS, and 3) give me my heart’s desire.  Also, 1) cleanse my eyes, ears, nose, mouth, hands, heart, feet, soul, etc…with your shed blood, and 2) do not allow me to look to the left or to the right but only at [“for”.  I should have written “looking FOR your beautiful face!   You said I’d see your face “soon”… in 2007!  This is 2015 and that span is not “soon” to an earth-dweller!]  your beautiful face.  May I please gaze into your eyes?  Soon?  (My definition of soon) and also, 3) keep me following perfectly, your pre-planned steps for my A) freedom, B) provision, C) vindication, and D) destiny, and E) perfect and continual communion with you…and with others who love you as I do.”  Amen.
My birthday was so great.  In the car George laughed and told Josh a story:  “When your grandma was taking classes and she needed to write a paper she would always have your mom do the research.  I’m proud of you Son.  You’re a good researcher like your mom.”
(Josh got annoyed at the footnotes in his thrift-store gun-book.  They didn’t translate the Latin or anything.  George explained that the internet had not existed in 1964.  Josh still thought the author should have taken the time to look it up.  ‘He was at the freakin’ library already.’)

 

 

1/29/15

8:49 pm

To Jesus:

8:38 pm

FAMILY:  Do you like this world bequeathed to us by GEORGE BUSH and his ilk?

I swear upon all I know to be holy and true…JESUS does not.

France detains child for ‘backing’ Charlie Hebdo attack

GIVE ME A BREAK!  This child is not deemed competent to even buy a pack of cigarettes…

“Police have detained and questioned an eight-year-old boy from the south of France who reportedly claimed to support the men who attacked the satirical weekly Charlie Hebdo, drawing criticism from rights group who say authorities have gone overboard.”

 

More at:   http://wakeupfromyourslumber.com/france-detains-child-for-backing-charlie-hebdo-attack/

 

8:25 pm

MUSIC BREAK

My FAVORITE worship song of all time.  Sometimes I sing it to Jesus…sometimes I hear it.

(He loves me.  Good thing, he was all I had!)

8:15

 

MY NEWS PAGE NOW HAS 14, 364 POSTS OF ARTICLES THAT CONFIRM MY CONTENTIONS ON MANY ISSUES.  IF ANYBODY WANTS TO CALL ME A LIAR, OR PERCHANCE “CRAZY”, MY PHONE NUMBERS ARE:  906-291-1376, OR 906-586-4629.  THANK YOU FOR YOUR ATTENTION.

 

?:32 pm

Thought Provoking Quotes to Get You Motivated (35)

3:23 pm

Baked cod tonight.  We had fried food two days in a row.  Boiled potatoes and a green salad.

“Unjust laws exist: shall we be content to obey them, or shall we endeavor to amend them, and obey them until we have succeeded, or shall we transgress them at once? Men generally, under such a government as this, think that they ought to wait until they have persuaded the majority to alter them. They think that, if they should resist, the remedy would be worse than the evil. But it is the fault of the government itself that the remedy is worse than the evil. It makes it worse. Why is it not more apt to anticipate and provide for reform? Why does it not cherish its wise minority? Why does it cry and resist before it is hurt? Why does it not encourage its citizens to be on the alert to point out its faults, and do better than it would have them? Why does it always crucify Christ, and excommunicate Copernicus and Luther, and pronounce Washington and Franklin rebels? […]
A minority is powerless while it conforms to the majority; it is not even a minority then; but it is irresistible when it clogs by its whole weight. If the alternative is to keep all just men in prison, or give up war and slavery, the State will not hesitate which to choose. […]
Under a government which imprisons any unjustly, the true place for a just man is also in prison.”    –Henry David Thoreau

1:31 pm

MUSIC BREAK

“Just as you’re weakenin’ fate sends the deacon in..”

9:45 am

6 Insights From Princeton Engineering Dean Turned Psychic Phenomena Expert

“Any one with a healthy sense for evidence, a sense not methodically blunted by the sectarianism of ‘science,’ ought now, it seems to me, to feel that exalted sensibilities and memories, veridical phantasms, haunted houses, trances with supernormal faculty, and even experimental thought-transference, are natural kinds of (phenomena) which ought, just like other natural events, to be followed up with scientific curiosity.”

 

“The Bible, like most other basic theological texts, treats psychic process as a central ingredient, in a tone so matter-of-fact that one is inclined to believe that people of those times accepted such events rather routinely.”  (Robert G. Jahn)

 

Read more at:   http://www.theepochtimes.com/n3/805450-6-insights-of-princeton-engineering-dean-who-became-a-psychic-phenomena-expert/

Dr. Jahn’s  1982  paper,  “The Persistent Paradox of Psychic Phenomena: An Engineering Perspective” is here:   http://www.princeton.edu/~pear/pdfs/1982-persistant-paradox-psychic-phenomena.pdf

 

 

6:18 am

I got birthday blessings from Belgium.  (None from Michigan though.)

“Thank you for your true words full with light;
i know you are older …
I have very difficult time since i am writing my claims – violence of EU law and human rights against children and citizens – organized crimes and frauds against me  , for EU justice.
 Among other things , the godless creatures make serious injuries in my left eye). I will finish soon my claims and bring it personally to Luxembourg to speak with the justice members .
In Jesu ,

P.S. I hope you meet your love so you wish and i pray for you that you receive all what you wish in your so big heart.”

5:51 am

I’m working on a list of questions for when I face the goon who helps me do this website.  Here’s one of them:

What is “browser hijacking?”  Is that what happens when I see the gray page beneath the screen I’m working on?  Why can I only slide to the gray page once in awhile?  Is it like a filter, because the gray page is always just one page behind what I’m doing; how do I know what is being posted? Who approves my work?   How do I know anything is being posted? (Well, people read stuff so I guess I know something is out there…)  Is “browser hijacking” what happened to me that first time in 2012 when I spent thirty hours being led to EVERY SINGLE WEBSITE OF EVERY SINGLE PERSON I KNOW…even when 1) I had never typed their names, even once, 2) I had no knowledge of their favorite pages, and 3) the computer flew through password-requirements?

 

5:39 am

“Vampires gather ’round me, angle in to take a bite.  They wanna drink my blood of courage, and take away my fight. No, no, no, they can’t do that, for one truth I learned in life.  If you wanna scare away the vampires, you simply guide them into the light.”

“I pray for guidance and protection; it keeps my boat watertight.  And I know if I just keep on believing, every little things all gonna be alright.  And when I wake up in the mornin’,  I hope I see you in the light.”

 

3:48 am

Morning Prayer (constant prayer, actually):

 

 

1/28/15

5:44 pm

We’re having Buffalo wings, onion rings and cabbage-corn salad with orange dressing with cilantro.

Listen to this guy.  THIS IS AMERICA!  When I see an American flag on the church it takes my breath away.  Do Baptists actually believe Jesus APPROVES of THIS?

Former US drone operator tells IN THE NOW he is sorry

“Drone operators are dropping like flies.”  “Drone operators are basically executioners.”

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3Q9tAyZOc

2:36 pm

HEY, George got a landline telephone!

Our home number is:  (906) 586-4629

11:45 am

NONE of the scum that rises to the top of the septic lagoon that currently serves as modern American politics is going to “save the Republic” or give a crap about the Constitution because ALL OF THEM are sold out puppets to the banks and megacorporations — WITHOUT exception.

“The system is not flawed or kind of corrupt.  It is BROKEN.  Your vote means you assent to it.”
No candidate will make a difference…Rand Paul hangs out with George P. Bush and Karl Rove  and  likes promotes TPP!!!

 

Ted Cruz’s wife is a CFR member!

Watch this video if you plan to vote.

Read more athttp://investmentwatchblog.com/none-of-the-scum-that-rises-to-the-top-of-the-septic-lagoon-that-currently-serves-as-modern-american-politics-is-going-to-save-the-republic-or-give-a-crap-about-the-constitution-because-all-of-the/#i9ALoZdq8VSvVbS1.99

5:29 am

“He who is not angry when there is just cause for anger is immoral. Why? Because anger looks to the good of justice. And if you can live amid injustice without anger, you are immoral as well as unjust.”     Aquinas

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5:02 am

Land of the freeloader, and home of the braggart…

According to the debt clocks available online, the Russian national debt as a percentage of Russian GDP is 11 percent. The American national debt as a percentage of US GDP is 105 percent, about ten times higher. My coauthors, Dave Kranzler, John Williams, and I have shown that when measured correctly, the US debt as a percent of GDP is much higher than the official figure.

The Russian national debt per capita is $1,645. The US national debt per capita is
$56,952.

The size of Russia’s national debt is $235 billion, less than one quarter of a trillion. The size of the US national debt is $18 trillion, 76.6 times larger than the Russian debt.

(Dr. Paul Craig Roberts, Read more at:   http://www.presstv.com/Detail/2015/01/27/394951/Russia-in-the-cross-hairs-)

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4:24 am

I found just what I was looking for at Habitat for Humanity.  I’m finally going to organize my spices!  I got an over-the-door shoe rack, and Josh said he can help me bend the little stirrups forward, and if we put a piece of luan or plexi-glass on each tier, and secure it to the door, I can put my spices in alphabetical order.  That will cut my cooking time by half.  Josh bought a book about historical guns, and he and George discussed them on the way home from Manistique.  I was enjoying it until they began to talk about how various armaments destroy the human body.  I kept thinking about Iraq, and the depleted uranium ammunition that  George Bush caused our military to use.  If an Iraqi survives an American-wounding, his children may still be born with horrible defects.  His children’s children may suffer from radioactivity.  His COUNTRY is POLLUTED by the radioactive bullets and will be polluted for generations.  RADIOACTIVE BULLETS!  Can anything be more psychopathic than that?

 

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3:57 am

Yesterday was a really great day.  For one thing, my latest attempt at purchasing a black wool coat was serendipitous;  I would not have kept the coat, it made me look really pudgy, but I asked Josh to try it on.  He was instantly transformed into Horatio Hornblower and loved the rows of silver buttons on the sleeves and the double-breasted military style.  Perfection… with his tri-corne and ponytail.  He also loves his new boots;  they’re tall, black leather, and have a rollover cuff at the top. OMG.  He’s beautiful.  I’ll press the coat today and try to alter the darts a bit.  What a great surprise.  He and I put waterproofer on our new boots as we watched part of “Wag the Dog” which I found at a thrift store yesterday and have wanted to re-watch for years.  (Last time I saw it was before I had learned very much about very much.  It’s a lot funnier now.)

3:26 am

A  good example of the “leaven” principle I talked about yesterday is George.  I cannot think of any character flaw in that man.  He’s kind, generous and good-hearted.  He doesn’t indulge any immoral thoughts or  behavior.  We were fine (I was not fine, I was being tortured, but WE were fine…) until he believed a single lie.  He used to call me a “virtuous” woman, even when I did things that sparked my father’s disapproval.  George knew my reasons and he believed me…until my dad told him a lie.  We used to pray together every day, sometimes for hours…until my dad said I was not what George knew me to be.  I don’t hold it against him; my dad is an extremely skillful liar.  But, believing a single lie has changed his life very much.  He was still awake when I got up today; he washed all the dishes.  That makes me feel bad since it’s a massive project for him and I could have knocked them out in ten minutes.  His heart is very good.  Good heart is the standard, for a good hereafter.  Good heart is not sufficient for the here and now, since lies still exist here and now.  Lies puff up into destruction.  God told us it works that way.

 

 

 

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1/27/15

8:14 pm

I’m not proud of the following, I got mad because when Josh took the shop-vac out of the living room where it’s been for days it fell open and spilled glass all over and George wouldn’t help him.  I should not get mad at George.  I was wrong, but God said to be completely honest about my life and this is what I wrote:

George said he would make me fish and chips for my birthday so I reminded him five times to get fish out of the freezer before we went to get Josh’s passport.  He made hamburgers.  I cut the potatoes and the onions and got the pan going and the grease hot and the ketchup and mustard and pickles out.  When he was done eating I did those things in reverse.  He’s incapable of answering a question, not because he’s dishonest but because…who knows?  He can’t say yes or no.  I don’t know if he’s thinking around it but he gives me every variable and finally I get wind of his notion and suggest either “yes” or “no.”  We cannot communicate, and he doesn’t think it’s necessary, and he’s stupid about EVERYTHING.  FIVE ELECTRIC SPACE HEATERS ARE RUNNING ALL THE TIME.  If this house doesn’t burn down I’ll be so very surprised.
I’m praying AGAIN that God will change me.  I got very annoyed at George and I was unkind.  I’ve asked God to forgive me but I feel bad; I don’t want to hurt George’s feelings.   I would give almost anything not to have to live with him and I’d give even more if Josh didn’t.  I sent my dad a text:  “You left us with a man who makes bad decisions and you’ve enjoyed it.  God knows.”
George couldn’t even figure out that he should get a fire extinguisher when we had a chimney fire last year!  My dad knows all about it. He knows everything about what goes on here because I’ve told him everything for years expecting him to act like a father.  My former babysitter, the one I FOUND UNDRESSED WITH HIM ON THE COUCH YEARS AGO, told me he bugged his own office, way back when.   He also knows all about everything because he’s a voyeur/spy who looks up girls’ skirts and watches everybody’s everything.  He’s a pervert and he has enjoyed everything he’s seen happen to me and to my family.  He better stand back because he’s gonna see something big pretty soon.  I hate living with George and I pray for God to give me more love and patience.  I pray for that every single day… almost every hour of every day.  I pray for more of God’s spirit so I can be loving and encouraging to George and Josh.  My father knows I do this. My father is toast.  He’s evil.  He’s evil, evil, evil.  My father is a very evil person.  I hope my mom can get away from him because she isn’t much either but maybe she has a chance.

 

7:28 pm

I kept the hand-crocheted dishcloths.  Is that wrong?

5:12 pm
I have had the best birthday I’ve had for years!
6:38 pm
It WAS my best birthday.  My parents sent me a gift.  Cookies and cocoa.  I don’t eat sugar and just baked three dozen cookies yesterday; I bake every day.  Flowers.  Sweet.  The card said “Linda Miller.”  I crossed out the “Miller” and wrote “Goldthorpe” before I dropped the mess off on their doorstep.  Do you suppose they’ll ever grow up?  THEY HAVE REFUSED TO TALK TO ME FOR YEARS.  I pity them.  I had the BEST birthday ever.  The church sign says “God loves all of us.  No exceptions.”  (I know, I didn’t vomit but I felt like it.)
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10:59 am

Do you suppose the “grandfather clause” will apply to   MY TINFOIL HAT?

Federal Bill Would Make Owning Body Armor a Crime Punishable by 10 Years in Prison

“Representative Mike Honda (D-CA) has introduced a bill for consideration of the new Congress which would prohibit the ownership of certain types of body armor for civilians.”

 

Read more at:   http://12160.info/profiles/blogs/alert-federal-bill-h-r-378-would-make-owning-body-armor-a-crime-p?xg_source=activity

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7:58 am

I am the healthiest 55 year-old woman I ever saw!  And the calmest!  Thank you Lord.  For my birthday I’d like George to go to bed before I get up.  (It feels really weird the regular way.)

7:47 am

Today, I am FINALLY getting Josh a passport!  Most of my life-insurance-money is gone, but it has provided additional  LIFE  for him and me.  We’ve gone a couple places, gotten some things we’d needed…coats, boots, stuff like that.  Guess I’m not going anywhere with my story until God gives me my money.  He’s never late.  I’m glad Josh will have a passport, if for no other reason than to permit him to dream.  Our current  quasi-life is among men who prohibit dreaming.

7:36 am

MUSIC BREAK

7:34 am

My dad’s a real tough guy, isn’t he?  For YEARS I’ve been requesting an audience about my issues.  He can withstand every kind of pressure brought to bear!  He’s not moved by pity or compassion or cajoling entreaties.  No challenge can persuade him to defend his actions.  Shame rolls right off his back.  Concerns about legal ramifications will not induce him to speak.  His professed faith influences him not at all.  Debts mean nothing.  Responsibility for past behavior is ignored.  Requests for basic information go unheeded.  He’s a wall of stone!   Is that a trait a human should indulge?  I guess we’re going to find out. “Be sure your sin will find you out.”  We’re finding out about spying and gang-stalking and ubiquitous mind-control without his input.  Hope he’s ready for this.  When God told me my family would respect me I felt bad because they aren’t going to respect him anymore.  I wonder if his stonewalling has prepared him for what could have been a much easier process.  Maybe he’ll call me today.  It’s my birthday.

6:21 am

How All Of Society Is Under Mind Control ► Dr. Patrick Flanagan w/ Jeff Rense

“They took one of my inventions and put it under secrecy for years, because some of the technologies I’ve developed can be used for mind control; they can also be used for the greatest good that the human being has ever seen.”

 

(Voice-to-skull, Neurophone, was patented in 1958)

 

3:54 am

“The current ongoing shepherding of great swathes of human beings into mind controlled pens of fear and passivity, is the precursor of a time in which any independent thought process will be treated as a serious threat to the ‘normality’ of a subdued and static status quo.”

“Thus, to implicate the offender as a threat to the establishment, all that is needed is evidence that certain neurons situated in the area of the neocortex associated with ‘free thinking’, were actively engaged over ‘x’ period of time – and that this was sufficiently ‘abnormal’ for the individual to be singled out for special attention.”

“Under the designation ‘Remote Neural Monitoring’ we can already have our brains scanned and not even know it.”

 

Read more at:   http://www.wakingtimes.com/2015/01/26/thinking-criminal-act/

 

 

1/26/15

5:17 pm

Thought Provoking Quotes to Get You Motivated (10)

10:44 am

Luke 12:53

The father shall be divided against the son, and the son against the father; the mother against the daughter, and the daughter against the mother; the mother in law against her daughter in law, and the daughter in law against her mother in law.

Matthew 10:35-36 

For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law. And a man’s foes shall be they of his own household.

While Rand seeks donors, his father talks secession

“The contrasting scenes this weekend illuminate the odd situation of the Pauls as the 2016 campaign season begins. They are a father and son tied together — but running in opposite directions.”

“Both, for instance, have concerns about National Security Agency surveillance. But the son has called for reforming the agency’s practices, while the father wants to kill the NSA. Both Pauls are skeptical of overseas wars. But the father wants to pull all U.S. forces out of the Middle East, while the son has supported using U.S. warplanes to strike at the Islamic State, believing the group is a threat to American installations in the region.”

 

“Asked by a reporter whether he was worried about making trouble for his son’s presidential campaign by talking about secession here, Ron Paul deflected the blame to the press: “If we had decent reporters, there would never be any problems. You think you could ever meet one? Have a heart, buddy.”

 

“Rand Paul’s solution is Rand Paul”

 

“Both Pauls have said that if Rand Paul runs for president, his father will not campaign with him.”

(Walter Block is an idiot if he thinks principles should take a backseat to a relative’s career.)

Read more at:  http://www.washingtonpost.com/politics/daddy-issues-are-ron-pauls-hard-core-stands-a-problem-for-sons-presidential-bid/2015/01/25/e23b1cdc-a4a9-11e4-a7c2-03d37af98440_story.html

6:42 am

Don’t believe in chemtrails and weather-wars yet? This is a Disney film from 1959.

They even sell weather “futures.”  It’s a protection racket.

 

5:36 am

I think, therefore I’m dangerous.

According to US psychiatrists, only the sheeple are sane.

Every time a new issue of the DSM appears, the number of mental disorders grows – and this growth is exponential. A century ago there were essentially 7 disorders, 80 years ago there were 59, 50 years ago there were 130, and by 2010 there were 374 (77 of which were “found” in just seven years). A prominent critic of this over-diagnosing (and the associated over-medication trend) is psychologist Dr. Paula Caplan. Here is an interview with her:
Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/i-think-therefore-im-dangerous/#fMUqDl0pPORyMIaQ.99

3:12 am

MORNING MUSIC

 

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1/25/15

3:17 pm

11:17 am

Do Some People Sense the Unseen?

“But it’s no metaphor—neural scans show that the brains of people with synesthesia light up in distinctive ways corresponding to the sensory overlap they report.”

 

“… if we haven’t had a particular experience, we aren’t inclined to give it much credence. As Nietzsche observed (and this could apply to highly sensitive people today), “Those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.” That is undeniably tough to do if you find the “dance” extraordinarily sensitive people do to be offbeat or weird.”

 

As one person wrote to the editors of Newsweek: “I am psychic … It is not something I have gone looking for. I have suppressed and denied it … and I have argued about it endlessly, but only with myself … I am convinced that there is a silent group of psychics in our culture, ridiculed and confused, lacking reproducible data and waiting to come into the spotlight.”

 

Read more here:   http://www.theepochtimes.com/n3/1219616-do-some-people-sense-the-unseen-part-3/

10:31 am

The technology already exists to implant and erase memories in the brain, and to use one person’s mind to control another person’s actions.

“We were playing with memory like a yo-yo,”  neuroscientist, University of California — Roberto Malinow

Cool, Yet Creepy, Mind-Control and Mind-Controlled Technology

Does melding your mind with machines excite or scare you?

See more at:  http://www.theepochtimes.com/n3/1217415-cool-yet-creepy-mind-control-and-mind-controlled-technology/

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9:54 am

I just took from the oven a cheese-cinnamon mock-danish coffeecake and did some laundry.  Sure wish I could turn off the oven without having to deal with the breaker.

8:39 am

This looks like the medal my friend in Belgium gave me!  Except the medal has a sword in the angel’s right hand and the wreath is in her left hand, and my angel is looking down at the wreath.  This picture is from China, the International Ice and Snow Festival.  (My angel’s wings don’t look so creepy either.  More natural.)

See more at:   http://news.distractify.com/pinar/31st-international-ice-and-snow-festival/

 

7:14 am

“It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.” – E.E. Cummings

7:10 am

Barrett Brown, Kathy Kelly, and Bonny Mahoney are the kind of people who are imprisoned in America. It is not the perjurers and liars, the torturers, war criminals and mass murderers. It is the good people who peacefully protest the crimes of those who control the US government and its policies.

Democracy and Free Speech: Law Has Been Murdered

 

Dr. Paul Craig Roberts

“The government brings false charges against you or they bring charges that are not illegal under law as understood.  However, prosecutors invent new interpretations of laws and judges and juries accept legislation-by-prosecutor-to-fit-the-made-up-case. ”

“Kathy Kelly and Bonny Mahoney were sentenced to prison for stepping cross the perimeters of Air Force bases in peaceful protests against murder-by-drone.  There was no real reason for charges to be brought against them or for a judge to sentence them to prison except to continue to make it crystal clear that the US government tolerates no dissent.”

 

Read more at:   http://www.globalresearch.ca/democracy-and-free-speech-law-has-been-murdered/5426645

 

3:49 am

Abject denial…in the face of absolute truth.  The time is long past that my readers can question my veracity, and they’ve got some really hard things to face.  Good.  At least when they’re face-to-face with the boogie-man they won’t be caught from behind.  “Know thy enemy.”  The enemy of our souls is embodied by our psychopathic leaders, and he means us all ill.  I know some things that could prepare people.  If they’d rather not prepare, at least their blood will not be on my hands.
I pray that God will not quickly turn them over to lies, because he’s going to do that sometime.
Rejecting truth is rejecting the Truth with all that implies, including guaranteed continuous deception sent from God himself:  I Thessalonians 2:10(b)-11   “Because they received not the love of the truth, that they might be saved. And for this cause God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie.”
That’s a nice thing about truth:  we can have no “opinion” about it.  We either accept it or reject it.

 

 

1/24/15

5:20 pm

The walk of shame takes its toll.  Do you suppose my dad ever considered that people who are wrongly accused might commit suicide?  Dumb question.

Target employee with Asperger’s Syndrome committed suicide ‘after humiliation of being wrongly accused of stealing and paraded through the store in handcuffs’

 

  • Graham Gentles of Pasadena, California, committed suicide three days after he was accused of stealing at the Target where he worked
  • Graham was ‘paraded’ around the store in handcuffs as punishment for stealing even though he was never charged and nothing was found
  • He suffered ‘severe emotional distress’ as a result of the situation, which was made worse by his Asperger’s Syndrome says his mother Virginia
  • Virginia has now filed a lawsuit against target for not just her son’s death but also to end the company’s ‘walk of shame’ practice 

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2924517/Target-employee-Asperger-s-Syndrome-committed-suicide-humiliation-wrongly-accused-stealing-paraded-store-handcuffs.html#ixzz3PmNBkiyL
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4:07 pm

Josh is home and the stir-fry is great.  MUSIC BREAK, dedicated to my former family:

3:04 pm

Pork slivers are marinating.  I’ve cut broccoli and cauliflower and onions and carrots for the stir-fry I will prepare whenever Josh wants it.

My poor mother, she’s lived with a psychopath since she was a teenager.  He controls everything in her life, and I’m sure his continual negativity has stunted her spiritual growth.  I may have contributed to her need to be right all the time and to tell everybody else how to live.  She always said, “Everything you think is all over your face” and made sure I knew she disliked my unintended candor.   I probably gave my mom fits of disapproval over the years, because I just honestly do not approve her.  I disapprove of her demands for status and her showiness.  I disapprove of how she sings songs in church that SHE LIKES rather than praying about the selection beforehand.  (It’s supposed to be God’s show, right?)  I dislike how she belittles those she believes to be morally inferior to her…like unwed moms.  (Who wouldn’t disapprove of such blatant hypocrisy?)  I disapprove of her religion which is judgmental and unwelcoming.  I dislike her sororities and her clubs and her organizations and her Bible studies.  (Maybe I wouldn’t dislike the Bible studies if an honest women led them.)   (Mom uses Beth Moore’s curricula.  Beth Moore is a very shallow thinker, and although I believe she had an experience with God, and I applaud her for wanting to share it, she’s unable to lead anybody further than she has delved.  Isn’t that necessarily the case?)
So, anyway, “To Mom, I’m sorry you’ve never liked my face.  Well, not too sorry because I believe my experiences with God have been far more instructive than your own, and I love you very much and would be a deficient sister-in-Christ if I didn’t disapprove of your charlatanism.  I’d like you to live in joy and peace.  I love you.   (I will pray for you to have joy and peace, and I have.  I will pray with more intensity when you tell the truth about what you and Dad did to my family.)  (I know it’s scary, but it’s the right thing to do.)”
References available on request, yada, yada, yada.

 

 

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7:26 am

Speak of the devil…I was posting my psychopath observations and my dad showed up to plow the driveway.  I brought him a piece of pumpkin cake.  I used orange rind oil in the frosting.  I made a cheese omelette for Josh.  I would make one for my dad too, if I knew when he was coming.

6:53 am

 

There seems to be an epidemic of psychopathy, lots of people are talking about psychopaths and wondering where they all came from.  I believe it represents a Biblical principle:  “Leaven.” Whatever we harbor inside us will expand like yeast in bread dough.  We become what we worship. If we’ve filled ourselves with good things, good things will reproduce and overtake us.  On the other hand, those who malinger in malevolence will produce much more malice.  I believe (and many prophets have predicted, and now report…) that this natural process of sowing and reaping will be/is being accelerated, because time is short.  “In the last days perilous times shall come…men shall be lovers of themselves.”  That sums up the psychopath.  “Not my fault.  I didn’t do it.”   No moral constraint. Looking for constant stimulation. Contextual morality, lack of responsibility.

I never started out with anything to prove, except that my faith in Jesus is sincere. My truth-quest has proven many things just the same.  I’ve had some dots connected;  I know I’ll be well when the t’s are crossed too.  Learning about my father’s character disorder  was liberating.  You might expect, that it could be rough to learn that one has spent one’s entire life attempting to please a psychopath.  For me, it was like a breath of fresh air; I don’t feel that my life was wasted, although if I did not have eternal life I suspect I would. Dad really did make me crazy:  I was a pathological people-pleaser with no hope of success!!  I was robbed of life and freedom by a psychopath and God is in charge of everything.  This is a good place to be.
Psychopaths torture others for fun.  The ultimate, inevitable nexus for psychopaths is exactly the push-button violations we see!  If technology did not exist to torture and tease unknowing targets…psychopaths would have to invent it.  It’s just rational.  The buzz decreases and a pervert descends into murkier entertainment.  It’s harder and harder to get off.  With  no conscience? There’s no bottom to the barrel.
So maybe we’re going to see Jesus transform a psychopath.  Or, maybe he’s not god enough?  Nobody else can do it.  If he pulls this off, lots of goons will be really impressed.  (They’ll be able to tell if my dad’s brain changes, by remote neural monitoring.)

 

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5:09 am

MUSIC BREAK

Gilad Atzmon talks about jazz and truth and the search for beauty.

The Whistle Blower, Gilad Atzmon & The OHE (EPK)

“Jazz is the ability to reinvent yourself, every night, every tune.”

“Whistle-blowers tell the truth.”

 

 

4:05 am

Jeff Rense & Mike Cross – The Makings Of A Psychopath

“Freedom From Conscience:  Deliverance From Evil”

A fictional account of psychopathy by Michael Cross.

3:06 am

 

1/23/15

7:24 pm

1)  I was raped when I was a little girl.  I told my mom.  She didn’t give a shit.
2)  I was raped as an adult.  My mom doesn’t give a shit.
3)  My father is a reprobate.
4)  Psalm 27:10  “When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.”
(References available on request.)

 

5:09 pm

‘My sons never forgave me’: Bernie Madoff says the pain he inflicted on his victims is ‘nothing’ compared to the pain of losing his children

  • Madoff sent NBC an email from prison in a bid to clear his sons’ names
  • He said he struggles knowing that they never forgave him
  • His son Mark, 46, killed himself in 2010 on the second anniversary of his father’s arrest for the massive Ponzi scheme
  • Andrew Madoff, 48, died last September after a long battle with cancer
  • The men, who both worked for their father’s company, were not charged in the scheme but questions remain over what they knew 

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2923981/Bernie-Madoff-says-knowing-pain-inflicted-Ponzi-scheme-victims-compared-pain-losing-sons.html#ixzz3PgTNjcsf
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4:26 pm

 

MUSIC BREAK

(Pretend it’s not me singing…)

“We are one in the Spirit, we are one in the Lord, we are one in the Spirit, we are one in the Lord, and we pray that our unity will one day be restored, and they’ll know we are Christians by our love, by our love!  Yes they’ll know we are Christians by our love.”

4:18 pm

 

3:14 pm

I can understand why my sons do not wish to look into my issue.  I have ceased expecting George to care about anything at all, although when he was my husband, it bothered me that he did not care.  I require care.  I require assistance.  I require truth.  I will have it, one way or another.  I have NOTHING to lose.  (Also, I always try to tell the truth and that fact should assure some security in what is coming.  TRUTH is coming here.)

 

3:07 pm

Goldthorpes look a lot like the “royal”  family.  Especially Prince Andrew.  Many similarities.  My uncle Jimmy especially.  We’re having roast pork tonight; I cut a whole loin into three shapes.  I have a bag of sliver-slices for a stir-fry tomorrow, and I froze a bag of slices I will fry into Japanese cutlets next week.  I made a pumpkin cake, I’ll frost it with cream cheese icing, and I have a pan of vegetables ready to roast, with rosemary and olive oil.  I may put apricot glaze on the pork  but I haven’t decided yet.  You know what’s really important, I think?  When my mom screamed, “We didn’t have anybody rape you” she never said, as mothers should say, “You’ve been violated?  Let’s get to the bottom of this.”  She never expresses concern for anything except continuity of her status and the status of her lying husband.  She’s a fraud.  She red my book in 2011.  She still hasn’t asked a single question.  But, she’s really defensive, isn’t she?

 

 

2:23 pm

Long story short: rape blows, dudes. I totally do not recommend it. But after I pressed charges and took my experience to court, it became painfully obvious why the vast majority of women don’t.

“If it were my job to assess its credibility, I’d be pretty skeptical. According to pop culture, I should have been a blubbering mess, screaming “that motherfucker raped me!” and sobbing hysterically like Sally Field in a Lifetime movie — but in reality, the way I reacted was much more accurate.”

 

“This also explains why the last time I ever shed a tear over what R did to me was December of 2009, on the witness stand during the trial. A single tear, the last part of me lost to that bastard. But what feels like strength now almost worked against me then, because I did not seem as sympathetic to the jury as I could have. Yes, the jury’s job is to look over the facts, but sympathy is a big part of rape cases.”

 

 

#6. You Might Have to Hang Out With Your Rapist and His Family for Months  (Or generations.)

8 Ways the Legal System Screws Rape Victims (Like Me)

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11:31 am

HEY, another psychopath like my dad!

Yankees manager Brian Cashman ‘hacked his mistress’ emails, threatened her mother and tried to have her committed when she threatened to go public’

  • Louise Meanwell, 39, claims Brian Cashman hacked her emails 28 times after she ‘found out he had another mistress’ and she threatened to go public
  • Cashman ‘found her mother’s number in her emails, made threatening calls’
  • He ‘warned Caroline Meanwell to stop Louise or she would be committed’
  • Cashman, who was then married, has accused Louise Meanwell of stalking

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2923597/Yankees-manager-Brian-Cashman-spied-mistress-emails-threatened-mother-tried-committed-threatened-public.html#ixzz3Pf9yQCIe
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9:05 am

Josh had fried eggs and biscuits with sausage gravy this morning.

I think this blog represents a really fine body of work.  I can say that without pride because I know how little of it I’m responsible for.   I remember when I was small, and my dad was only cutting his liar-teeth; he promised a cousin he’d make a chocolate cake for her wedding.  My mom slaved for hours producing a chocolate-cherry delight…and everybody at the wedding kept asking my dad if he had made it.  His answer was instructive, he said, “I was responsible for it.”  He’s come a long way since the days he tried to make his answers somewhat truthful.

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8:10 am

Here’s the disease my mom and dad helped invent.  Hope they get a kick-back from the relevant pharmaceutical company:

“If You Question Authority, You Are Mentally Ill”, Report Finds

As TheMindUnleashed.org informs us, the definition of this new mental illness essentially amounts to declaring any non-conformity and questioning of authority as a form of insanity. According to the manual, ODD is defined as:

[…] an “ongoing pattern of disobedient, hostile and defiant behavior,” symptoms include questioning authority, negativity, defiance, argumentativeness, and being easily annoyed.

 

(This is reassuring; I’m always positive and hardly ever get annoyed…)

 

Read more at:   http://www.zerohedge.com/news/2015-01-21/if-you-question-authority-you-are-mentally-ill-report-finds

7:48 am

We’re going to see a change in humanity, one way or another.  Humankind as we’ve believed it to exist,  is approaching extinction.  We will become, individually and corporately, either spiritual beings…or trans-human, post-human, monsters of no conscience or compassion.  Our new selves will be either motivated by love and highest-destiny-purpose for every living being…or we will fold in on ourselves (individually and corporately)  in tangible fear.  The good news is:  we get to choose.

7:13 am

Lying is to do violence to another soul, right? To take by force of will, any portion of another person’s life and reality is an eternally violent act.  There will be no more lying in either the Kingdom of God…or the dystopian trans-humanist police state.  We’re continually monitored; it’s only a matter of time until the spotlight shines on us.  (There will be no more inter-personal lying, but psychopaths will be slower to catch on, and those are they who run the systems of the human habi-trail; they will continue to lie for a time.)

7:09 am

Psychopath vs. Empath: the War Between Truth and Deception

“When competition becomes primary and cooperation secondary, then we know we have failed as a species. Collectively, among every human, vanity leads to segregation and competition, competition leads to fear and greed, greed leads to deceit and immorality and deceit and immorality is the breeding ground for illness waging war on each other and our earth.”

A society based upon fear, apathy and hatred sets up a system which is fundamentally incapable of producing health and happiness and thereby represses human development. And here we are: living in a world where human development is being repressed, at the detriment of our individual health and the health of the ecosystem. However, our escape from this unhealthy pattern lies not only in rebellion, but also in the cultivation of a personal freedom and a relinquishing of all forms of anesthesia and self-deception.”

Like R.D. Laing said,  “We are effectively destroying ourselves by violence masquerading as love.”

 

More at:   http://www.wakingtimes.com/2015/01/22/psychopath-vs-empath-war-truth-deception/

6:41 am

Why Rich People Don’t Care About You

“What we’ve been finding across dozens of studies and thousands of participants across this country is that as a person’s levels of wealth increase, their feelings of compassion and empathy go down, and their feelings of entitlement, of deservingness, and their ideology of self-interest increases,” Paul Piff, an Assistant Professor of Psychology and Social Behavior at the University of California, Irvine, announced in a 2013 TEDx talk.

 

See more at:  http://www.realclearscience.com/blog/2015/01/why_rich_people_dont_care_about_you.html

 

6:32 am

My first husband’s birthday.  God bless him, if he’s still alive.

BUMPER MUSIC

“Don’t you cry, and don’t you die.  And don’t you burn…
Like a thief in the night, he’ll replace wrong with right…
when he returns.”
“Surrender your crown, on this blood-stained ground…take off your mask.
He sees your deeds, he knows your needs…even before you ask.”
“Of every earthly plan, that be known to man..he is unconcerned.
He’s got plans of his own, to set up his throne…when he returns.”

When He Returns

Dylan.

 

 

1/22/15

There is a vast difference between maximizing profits…and maximizing benefits.  That idea of helping others may sound anti-capitalism.  It maybe sounds as though  I’m criticizing the greed that is inherent in commerce; this is not the case.  Maximizing “benefits” in no way excludes those who control the means of production.  

6:23 pm

“Whenever someone hungry comes in – they can just grab a post it off the wall to pay for their meal. Mason’s restaurant feeds around 40 homeless people every day.”

Wow.  My dad has restaurants.  He could feed people.  He won’t even feed his own family.

6:14 pm

 

6:06 pm

MUSIC BREAK

Bob Marley Get Up Stand Up

6:04 pm

I’ve dreamed for years that I wanted to take a shower or a bath…and I couldn’t do it.

This is a sauna.  (Not: sa-nah.  But:  sa-oo-nah.  Finns pronounce every letter.)

This is  an unusually fine sauna.

 

sauna4

sauna2

4:53 pm

BUMP TO THE TOP, from:

10/18/14
8:26 am
We must note every possible detail of every moment.  We must record them for times when outsiders attempt to change our memories or our reality.  We should record things so we can check our memory.  (If you’re not ever going to help me fight, at least protect yourself as long as you can.)  Eventually, you MUST move into the Spirit to keep ahead of the monsters.  You will have an opportunity to move into what seems science fiction, into the actual natural, supernatural.  This is where we are supposed to live, and where the survivors will.  “It’s a new army.  We’re all adjusting.”  (Sgt. Bilko, Dan Akroyd)

 

4:25 pm

ALL that the Father establishes in the midst of His people is eternal in nature
– and what this basically means is that everyone who is connected NOW in the
Glorious [remnant] Church to carry out the true work of the Kingdom will rule and reign “together” with Jesus in the Millennial Kingdom.

“… it is to be
“maintained” supernaturally by the love of God abiding within the faithful heart –
FOREVER. ”

 

“It is certain that ALL of our movements are of the utmost importance from
here on in. Therefore, let us be found pursuing the Will of God with ALL of our
heart KNOWING [having a revelation of the fact] that the things that are now
shall soon be no longer – to the greatest glory of God!”

 

More at:  http://jtlmin.com/DAILY%20FBN%202015/01%20January%202015/WPFBN0122.pdf

 

11:17 am

Law is meant to protect the inalienable rights of people. But the Patriot Act acts. It does not protect human rights. It is not real patriotism. It imposes the will of institutional government upon people, at the expense of the rights inherent to our humanity.

“The First Amendment in the U.S.A. Bill of Rights is the original patriot act. The First Amendment is the formula for true patriotism; a prescription to non-violently oppose monopolistic isms, and isms of all sorts. It is the way in which change is conducted without hostile confrontation. In this way, the First Amendment is the very definition of patriotism.”

 

“The First Amendment, the patriotic formula for the United States, was deciphered, enacted and scribed by our nation’s original patriots. Those patriots understood at a fundamental level that, to be a patriot, one must question, communicate, speak out, stop and act.”

 

 

Read more here:   http://www.zengardner.com/the-first-amendment-the-real-patriot-act/

 

11:05 am

MUSIC BREAK

Dean Martin and The Mills Brothers – “You’re Nobody ‘Til Somebody Loves You”

 

“You’ll know who is who by that trademark. Look for the sincere, sacrificial love. It’s what the family of humankind is all about.”  Zen Gardner

 

8:22 am

Those that wake up, and there are more by the hour, gain control of their minds and lives. Those who don’t are blindly walking into a mass grave.

“We cannot be ignorant of our current condition. It’s dire, any way you look at it. Whatever our understanding of this imposed madness, we seem destined to face serious immediate consequences and we need to be on our toes as we inform others of the reality encircling our species. Trying to identify the source of this control system is important but not essential to our survival. Dismantling whatever we can, mostly in the hearts of men, is our mission.”

 

Read more at:   http://www.zengardner.com/the-silence-and-the-storm/

 

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7:39 am

 

Wouldn’t it be really funny if after Jesus reveals truth and establishes his throne…what if… What if there were more homosexuals remaining than Baptists?  I’d love to emcee the floor show at that point.

 

 

 

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7:22 am

I never even thanked my dad for getting my car fixed.  (I did try to give almond cake to the mechanic.)  My father should buy me a new car and he knows it VERY WELL.  I’ll miss him, when he explodes in a puff of lying-induced eternal consequence.

7:16 am

MUSIC BREAK

Simon & Garfunkel – Why Don’t You Write Me

(906-291-1376)

6:55 am

The culling of the herd.  Everybody sees it coming but we’re called all kinds of names if we mention it:  “Racist.”  “Anti-free-speech.”  “Homo-phobe.”  “Conspiracy-theorist.”  (Lots of people attempt to put people in boxes.  That would mean they’re “bigots.”)  The facts are documented.  The United States has veered toward very dark waters.  “The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.”  (Edmund Burke)  But and alas, these potent “good men” sometimes refuse the call of goodness.  That means they can’t  maintain their status.  Whatever “goodness” they possessed  (obviously insufficient anyway)  dissipates as these “good” men sit idle. Necessarily, there is a point where “good men” cease to be “good men” and become something entirely different.  “If you’re not part of the solution, you’re part of the problem.”  Lots of “good men” will be eliminated from the mix.  We’re moving on with or without them.

 

 

6:16 am

We really are a bunch of extraordinary women.  My mom is the toughest woman I know; she’ll have a tooth pulled without novocaine.  We are smart and tough and resilient.  We are led around by men who display our accomplishments to suit their purposes.  (They get a lot of juice out of our graduate degrees.)    In private they bind our feet.  Then they laugh together, that they are superior.  This world is really turning upside-down, I can see it coming.

 

6:00 am

My sister is a famous cardiologist.  She can describe the condition of a patient’s heart just by looking at a computer.  I respect her more than nearly anybody I know.  (I told her as much in a letter a couple years ago.  I never heard back.)  My sister is the second-best driver in the family.  (My mom is third.  The men-folk take corners too tightly and don’t even notice when their brakes have died.)  Before my sister had a drivers’ license, she had a serious job, and rode her bike 18 miles one way to earn money for a purchase she had determined to be important.  Did my dad say, “Honey, that’s a long way.  I’m proud of you for being such a hard worker and for choosing goals and doing what it takes to make them happen.  How about I give you a ride to work”?  No.  She rode her bike.  She was regularly beaten up by a man but she just kept moving toward her goal.  If my sister is not up to speed on neuroscience developments, it would take her but 15 minutes to recognize that technology can induce an orgasm from outer space.  She may consider, that if I had been subjected to such seductions, I may have encountered some interesting situations and my records might be important to those who have not yet been RAPED.  Just saying.

 

 

 

1/21/15

7:12 pm

OK, Jurassic Park was boring.  This isn’t:

Holocaust revisionist history…facts turn up all the time.  This woman is very brave.  It’s against German law to “minimize” the holocaust.

Ursula Haverbeck on The Greatest Problem of Our Time w/ Permanent Subtitles

6:31 pm

I’m watching Jurassic Park.  Within the past week I’ve  watched “Back to the Future,”  a couple episodes of “Heroes,” and the pilot episode of “Firefly.”  This is incredible for me.  I felt bad the other day, because I had no cake to take to a friend.  Josh said, “You don’t have to be the cake-fairy.”  Freedom.  He was right.  Tonight I told him that I also do not have to be the laundry fairy.  I feel so tough I can hardly believe it.  I do  believe I’m exiting hyper-vigilance-mode  altogether. That’s a classic symptom of trauma.  God said I’ll have my modesty back.  That’s a tough one.  I imagine that I will also have freedom from all the other ongoing effects of repeated sexual assault and slander-induced isolation.  I’ll maybe write a textbook, when I am well.  Maybe it’s already written.

 

4:02 pm

In February it will have been six years since I started recording my life.  I recorded it all, and the only crazy thing I did in six years was to obsessively record all the normal things I did.  (The practice has proven profitable; I am convinced I’m pretty cool.)   It’s time to get this over with…and it’s time for me to live an authentic life.  I’ve portrayed a caricature and spread ’em for all the world to see.  If nobody wishes to see, then they should stop talking me down.  My father’s obstinence is exhausting.   He owes me 1) a home, 2) a whole lot of money I might now have if he hadn’t a) caused me to be tortured, b) caused me to lose my bar license, c) caused me to be divorced, d) caused me to lose any marketability from recognition as a former congressional candidate, e) caused me to lose respectability, and  f) caused me to lose confidence, and 3) TRUTH.  He owes my children and ex-husband a lot of similar things for related reasons.  Josh takes a shower then goes into the kitchen to wash his hands.  He started doing that when I was being RAPED and he was told I was EVIL and he believed that his family was POLLUTED and he also STOPPED BELIEVING IN GOD.  I expect that when he is told the details of HIS MOTHER’S VIOLATIONS, he will no longer consider her a pervert, and probably will no longer find it necessary to wash so much.  IT IS TIME FOR TRUTH.

 

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11:32 am

600 strains of an aerosolized thought control vaccine already tested on humans; deployed via air, food and water

“According to the document you’re about to see, for the last eight years, government scientists have actively engineered viral vaccines designed to alter thoughts and beliefs by infecting the brain and suppressing genetic expression of neurological cells. Dispersal of these vaccines has been tested via high-altitude aerosolized sprays, highway vehicles, the water supply and even the food system.”

Learn more:http://www.naturalnews.com/048347_aerosolized_vaccines_behavioral_modification_obedience.html#ixzz3PTQppWxw

 

 

“Perhaps we’re already five years into a massive war against human consciousness that’s being waged every day at every level, from the droning idiots on the cable news networks to the brain-destroying medications dosed out to nearly every person who steps foot in a doctor’s office. Combine aerosolized, weaponized vaccines with the mind-numbing effects of fluoride, TV sitcoms, chemical food additives and mass media social engineering and you end up with a nation of sleepwalking zombies who are only capable of obedience, not independent thought.”

Learn more:http://www.naturalnews.com/048347_aerosolized_vaccines_behavioral_modification_obedience.html#ixzz3PTQDtP4O

Learn more:http://www.naturalnews.com/048347_aerosolized_vaccines_behavioral_modification_obedience.html#ixzz3PTQPARgH

“The use of FunVax could see an immediate effect within the target zones… the results of mass inoculation should be proportionate to the rate of infection. Behavioral indicators … decrease in armed resistance… increase in communications that express discontent with religion or God.”

Learn more:http://www.naturalnews.com/048347_aerosolized_vaccines_behavioral_modification_obedience.html#ixzz3PTRoc3sh

 

 

10:41 am

I’m making breakfast pizza for Josh, I love that guy so much.  Homemade sausage gravy AND bacon pieces, scrambled eggs and lots of cheese.  Hopefully, I can save enough gravy to serve him with biscuits tomorrow.  I’m not  baking every day anymore.  To turn the oven off I have to go to the basement then when I’m there I must put in a load of laundry and lug a basket upstairs so I can look at it until I stop typing long enough to fold it.  Sometimes that takes weeks.  Josh is washing his work clothes the night before, and always takes care of his own bedding.  Things are looking up. George dusted a table in the dining room so he could place his cherished TV there.  Josh says there is only one edible variety of barnacle.  He explained to me why people don’t like mushrooms. He said that mushrooms 1) are neither vegetable or animal, 2) grow in the dark, and 3)  have gills. OK.  I could maybe get it.  He forced himself to like mushrooms for their health benefits. I hope he gets somewhere that he may grow in the light.  Josh and I need to escape this world of no expectations.  It’s hard to expect anything of yourself, when nobody else thinks you’re even worth asking.

8:25 am

“As nightfall does not come at once, neither does oppression. In both instances, there is a twilight when everything remains seemingly unchanged. And it is in such twilight that we all must be most aware of change in the air – however slight – lest we become unwitting victims of the darkness.” ― Supreme Court Justice William O. Douglas

 

6:13 am

I am calling you to bear down and birth forth a company of people who I have called together before the foundation of the earth to do a mighty work in the end times. They are My end time watchman prophets. They were the cast asides, the ones many ignored and rejected because they felt they just didn’t fit in anywhere. They were considered as a peculiar people, but I have given them eyes to see past the natural; yes, they are My seers.

They have ears to hear only My voice. They will not listen to a stranger. They have an end time message to proclaim with such intensity that it will change history. They are willing to love not their life unto death and march toward the enemy with such ferocity and truth that will pull down the strongholds over the land.

Yes, I am calling My watchman prophets, and I have given them a voice and a trumpet to sound the alarm. When they say, “march!” a company of fierce ones will file out in My spirit to take the land. For haven’t I said that my kingdom will come and My will be done on earth as it is in heaven?

From Yolanda Ballard, 1/20/15, more at:   http://ft111.com/ballard.htm

 

4:15 am

GOOD MORNING!    GOD IS CHANGING THE WORLD AND I GET TO BE PART OF IT!  HALLELUJAH!  “DON’T LET ME DO ANYTHING STUPID GOD!  THANK YOU!  MORE, MORE MORE…!”

What an insular, self-satisfied family I was born to!   Their employees make them lots of money and are quietly ridiculed that they do not sacrifice more personal dignity by putting “Goldthorpe” first in every interaction.  When I picture my brother and father, I see them bumping shoulders with broad smiles on their faces.  When approached by an outsider, (I know, because I am such) they lower their voices, and raise the pitch.  They smile more broadly.  When the interloper-slash-potential-FRIEND moves on…they smile and bump shoulders again.  I don’t think this is right.  I don’t think this is healthy for the happy-rich-guys or for the persons whose humping permits their glory ride.  My family is in a unique position.   They have:  1) enough money to influence something, 2) connections to those who could REALLY influence something, 3) a history of selfishness at a very crucial point  in human history, and 4)  (“Dear Lord, let this be true…”) a desire to not be bastards.  My dad does not CHOOSE to be a bastard, he is brain-damaged and has no choice.  My brother would CHOOSE to be a very nice, sensible person.  Too bad he must spend so much time with our dad.

 

 

 

 

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1/20/15

5:36 pm

I JUST THOUGHT OF “UTTERLY COMPLETE VINDICATION” FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY!  I have been happy for three days in a row!  I even busted glass all over the house today trying to clean the refrigerator and I’m still happy!  I made a great pizza with ham, pepperoni, onions and huge chunks  of mushrooms!  I’m going to bed soon!  I had TONS of miracles today.  After work, Josh went outside in his wool overcoat that the antique dealer told us made him look like a “Prussian count,” and wearing the Soviet hat I bought him in Toronto, and with the dog  (that he now loves…) in tow, to make an introduction video to Isaac’s tribe.  He’s been talking about going to Colorado for a spell. ALSO, he’s cleaning the hall bathroom, now that there are three people using it.  Very nice.

I bet I could learn Algebra pretty soon.  I can slow down enough maybe, to remember order of operations and formulas.  I’m poisoning my family, by baking sugary things for them, right?  What a dilemma.  I love to see them smile.  (OK, maybe I also thought of “utterly complete vindication” this morning.  Waking up is hard when I realize I’m in the same Robert-residual LIFE.)

 

1:31 pm

Perhaps we must, for a time, have people in authority over others.  It isn’t any intellectual stretch to recognize that these “authorities”… must not be people prone to deviant behavior themselves.  It isn’t possible to build a righteous society when those entrusted to control other people…can’t control themselves.  We’re actually still dealing with cops who rape, steal, pilfer, lie, HIDE, kill, terrorize people and hurt animals.  These things are not permitted in  the new society, and we all know it. We can no longer tolerate cops (or judges or presidents or preachers or fathers or teachers or cub-masters…)   who care more about GETTING THEIR ROCKS OFF IN WHATEVER MANNER THEY’VE COME TO ENJOY…than they care about other persons and HUMANITY.  I don’t think I need to footnote this point.  Silly us, we permit LIARS, MURDERERS and RAPISTS to tell us what to do.  That being the case, we shouldn’t be surprised at the state we’re in.  That being the case, we know how to get out.

 

1:17 pm

“It’s just so rational,” Kerry Bate, the director of Salt Lake County’s housing authority, told Mic. “We really should’ve figured it out a long time ago, but we had some mental blocks in the way.”

Instead of Criminalizing Homelessness, Utah Is Doing the Opposite — And It’s Working — “Their remedy was astoundingly simple: give homes to people without them.”

 

“The Housing First program started in 2005, and Simons says it might have saved her life.
“I don’t know if I’d be alive,” Simons told Mic by phone. “Or I’d be alive and living on the street. It just helped me get back on my feet. It showed that people cared about you.”
OMG!  Just give homeless people homes…and you don’t have any more homeless people!  Amazing!

1:01 pm

My dad took me to see Billy Graham at the Pontiac Silverdome.  Now the Silverdome is deserted and overrun with vermin and vines.  I’ve seen pictures.

Courage is contagious. When a brave man takes a stand, the spines of others are often stiffened.   Billy Graham
Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/courage-is-contagious-when-a-brave-man-takes-a-stand-the-spines-of-others-are-often-stiffened-billy-graham/#mO19iVc77WqkGoou.99

12:49 pm

I’m taking advantage of the thousands-cubic-feet refrigerator at the south end of the house, to store food while I clean the regular refrigerator in the kitchen.  It’s pretty cruddy after Christmas.

I DECLARE MY OWN FREE WILL:

“Because you are predominately using the most base and narcissistic parts of your reptilian brain,   too much will never be enough for you.  Your curse is the constant longing for that dangling carrot.  You are never satisfied.  You’re always empty, no matter how much you acquire.  You are mind parasites and black magicians who use every trick in the book to convince people to allow you to take their energy and their power.  You do not have my acquiescence…”   (Geoff Byrd)

11:27 am

“Some people are sensitive and we must stop calling them overly-sensitive.  That is insulting,  and frankly WRONG.  It’s more likely that people are not sensitive ENOUGH.  We must embrace and care for people who are operating at such a high level of empathy and understanding that they can FEEL energy, they can feel empathy and they can sense things.  This is a higher state, not a lower one. ” 

(James 3:10  “Out of the same mouth proceedeth blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not so to be.”)

“Words matter because they have intention and frequency.  You’re dealing with a toxic energy field, literally.  If it’s bothering you, get rid of it.”  (Geoff Byrd)

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Matthew 5:29 “And if thy right eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell.”

Matthew 18:9 “And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: it is better for thee to enter into life with one eye, rather than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire.”

Mark 9:47   “And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out: it is better for thee to enter into the kingdom of God with one eye, than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire:”

 

11:10 am

I’m thinking about a script for my first video.  I figure I should have a Youtube channel pretty soon. George was burning up the last of the propane.  I suggested we turn off the furnace and save our <5 percent.  He said he didn’t think there was much difference burning it now or later.  I suggested that we might be grateful to have a few minutes of heat if we were both incapacitated and the phone didn’t work.  He was silent.  I turned the furnace off myself.  I took some almond cake to my dad’s mechanic since my car is back, he’s a real nice guy and he loves sugar but he wasn’t around so I gave it to the clerk at the store and he seemed pleased.  I lost a lot of appetites when Isaac left and Connie’s burned around the same time.

George said he’s thinking of running a specific electrical line to each bedroom so we can blast our space heaters full-tilt  without tripping a breaker.  He said then we could save the wood for emergencies if the lights go out.  This seems a giant step backwards for mankind.

9:38 am

On being in the moment as a remedy for depression:  “Thinking about the past stirs regret and questions;  and thinking about the future causes anxiety.”  This is certainly the human condition, but staying  in the moment is only a defense mechanism.  It does permit a free breath to regroup, but sometimes in the moment is nowhere you’d want to pitch your tent.  Faith is the way out of depression.  Faith jumps you ahead of the moment, especially pertinent under torture-circumstances, and removes anxiety about the future.  This is purely the secret of stable “mental health,” but probably also a necessary step on the way to higher spiritual positioning.  What am I saying, of course it is!  “Without faith it is impossible to please God.”  “Everything done without faith is sin.”  “Faith is the victory that overcomes the world.”

9:09 am

We are NOT going to  have an armed revolution like those we red about in school.  Some will crawl on their bellies through blood and refuse, but it need not be us, and it will not be the victor.  Our revolution will see  love turned around the right way.  We will REVOLVE when we cease to behave in a psychopathic manner towards other individuals and other groups.  When we learn to keep our noses out of one another’s business and look to making our own lives productive and peaceful, the planet will follow course.  We’ll bury the bodies for a long time.

 

9:04 am

My second-favorite time of the day:  Josh just left for work and I won’t see George for a few hours.  I’m thinking about the cyborg I wrote about.

Why would so many diverse groups be talking about “waking up” if nobody  was actually experiencing it?  Why do those who choose to remain in denial… have to ACT SO STINKING MEAN?  It is to protect their own fears which are entirely without possible defense, and destructive to themselves and others.   I just won’t have it in my world anymore.  Rule number whatever:  Nobody gets to ever badmouth somebody else because of sincerely-held beliefs.    Sincerity will be determined by remote neural monitoring.

This is the best thing I’ve heard in awhile.  Everybody should listen to it twice.

Cosmic Apology

To “those who take up this benevolent cause against malevolent circumstances.”  The AWAKE:

8:37 am

Connie is an extraordinary animal; she’s very undoglike.  When she barks at somebody she really doesn’t like, she stands on her hind legs.  It makes her look like an entirely different species, and very threatening.  One of the most unique things about her, I think, is her astonishing vertical jumps.  She can fly through a car window from just outside the door.  I think her secret is that she has very delicate feet.  She always knows where her back feet are and she can tip-toe through a maze of cords and chair-legs like an eel.  She “floats like a butterfly and stings like a bee.”  She grunts like a pig now, when I ask her questions.  She’s trying very hard to give me some answers.  I made the almond cake this morning, with pecans on top.  It’s almost cool and I wanted to put a piece in Josh’s lunch so I’m grateful.

 

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6:16 am

“No one has any connections with anyone…except for this absurdity called ‘inclusiveness.'”

Inclusiveness is Causing Crime, Insanity and Perversity – Morris

5:19 am

Thank you Lord, that the internet is back up.

Notes from paper, yesterday:

I’ve been taking off so much time!  We went to the Soo today, it was a very sunny day and we were all in a very chipper way.  Josh bought a bunch of craft supplies and I’ll help him make a royal blue sash tomorrow.  I bought him three pairs of pants and George bought us groceries and even took us out to lunch at a Chinese buffet, in honor of my birthday that is next week.  Josh was very pleased with his fortune cookie, it says he’s the kind of guy who looks for the deeper meaning in things.  Sure enough.  I liked mine too, it said I will be successful in my work.  (But I already knew that.)  George’s said, “Be content with your lot.  One cannot be first in everything.”
The house has gotten smaller, in these most-cramped months of the year.  The TV is now twenty feet closer to my bedroom.  It was far too loud already.
I’m really tired of reading about torture and mind control and wars and rumors of wars.
1/20/15
5:06 am
On the way to the Soo I wrote:  “I believe running for Congress was no more than good parenting, honest stewardship before God.  I am responsible for the world my children inhabit.  My dad told them I was ‘acting out.’  I entertain serious concerns about our hostile government.”
12:33 pm, yesterday:
What a wonderful day it is!  George is taking us for Chinese lunch in honor of my birthday and Isaac sent me this message on his new phone:  “Love you Mom!  Just wanted you to know I appreciate you and am proud for all (the) things you’ve done.  2015 is our year of freedom I do believe.  God will reward you for your sacrifices.”
(I got the message right after I wrote the above-paragraph.  Guess Dad didn’t convince Isaac I was just acting out.)
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This morning:
Longhand–We have no internet and our phone service has been out for a couple weeks.   Yesterday it was 68 degrees!  I felt like a princess, after we closed off half the house.  This morning it is 61 and   (4:37 am) I caught George just now when he got up to go to the bathroom, to ask if we were out of propane.  He said, “Maybe.  I don’t plan on buying any more propane this year.  You have an electric heater, right?”  I went out to check the fire a while ago and it was burning well.  George has a stack of 100-dollar bills he’s saved to go visit Isaac.  Or to get Isaac here if need be.  I guess that’s more important than heat.  His tendency to surround a space with clutter along the edge of the floor and in every corner is now a feature of our shared space, rather than just his bedroom and its near environs.  One usually thinks of a very crowded place as hot.  Here, we are crowded and very cold.  Come quickly, Lord Jesus.  No internet.  No phone.  No car.  Enforced much-too-much contact with the other adults here.  Winter is looking long and hard from here.  I notice my lines are rising.  (Note:  Reference to penmanship.  I usually write very straight.)
I left the lights on in the cold room after I passed through to smoke a cigarette outside.  “Will it waste more energy for me to open the door again to turn them off?  Would it be more cost-effective to leave them on until I go out again?”  There are four electric heaters running right now.  This strikes me as foolish, but I have not been paying attention to energy costs.  I’ve asked my dad for YEARS to give me suggestions for heating the house.  (And LOCKING it.)  He’s preferred to watch us struggle.  There was a time I believed him to be the smartest man in the world.  Now I see him clearer.  (He WANTED me to believe that.  I no longer do, of course.)  There is nothing he can do or neglect that will change my destiny.  He should probably focus on his own.

 

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1/19/15

8:55 pm

No call or message from my dad again today.  Maybe tomorrow he’ll treat me like an adult and tell me ABOUT MY CAR.  He’s had it for five days.

7:50 pm

 

REMOTE NEURAL MONITORING. Speak up while you can still recognize your own voice.

“The program many know as targeting of individuals or organized  gangstalking networks…   it is far MORE VAST than even that.”

Mind Control – Wires in the Brain .. .Deborah Tavares 

 

7:09 pm

“Rightful” liberty:

11:03 am

I think God might reveal a new food source pretty soon.  It seems to me that as governments make it continually harder to obtain wholesome foods in sufficient quantity to promote physical health, we will be given an alternative.  He doesn’t like it when his sheeps’ water is sullied and their pasture trodden down.  I have been a nominal student of survival living and I’ve spent my life in the boondocks.  Without eating animal flesh I could not sustain myself by foraging.  I know of many wild food sources, but I couldn’t locate them  in quantities large enough to last until the next harvest.  City dwellers will starve much sooner, but no more inevitably.  (I mean, with the dystopian future that is ahead of us unless we choose the Kingdom of God.)  I’d like to see a new food source, I’d like one that made vegetable dishes not so sweet, and that would fill in the bass notes usually supplied by animal products.

9:48 am

MUSIC BREAK

It’s a Good Day

(And the rich frat boys think they have all the fun.)

9:35 am

I remember when “enemy of the state” had a bad connotation.

I know I’m skipping over some topics that may be necessary for remedial students of Christianity and/or politics, but we must keep moving on with the Spirit.

 

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9:27 am

“Control of thought is more important for governments that are free and popular than for despotic and military states. The logic is straightforward: a despotic state can control its domestic enemies by force, but as the state loses this weapon, other devices are required to prevent the ignorant masses from interfering with public affairs, which are none of their business…the public are to be observers, not participants, consumers of ideology as well as products.” — Noam Chomsky

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3PHGtIJwA

 

9:19 am

A poster with the phrase “On a mission for both God and country” on display outside a Phoenix recruiting station has been removed. The text on the poster was changed by the local recruiting personnel and was not cleared by command headquarters, so we are told. Many who objected to the poster no doubt would have had no problem with it if it just referred to a mission for country. But even this is wrong. U.S. troops don’t go on missions for the country. They serve an evil government and its foreign policy. What is even worse, of course, is that many Christians who walked by the sign probably thought it was great just the way it was even though nothing could be further from God than the U.S. military.

 

Lawrence M. Vance

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8:25 am

It’s the thought-police auxiliary; it’s being established right before my eyes; my own parents were Nazi-youth, and joined the recruiters right away.  They adorned their flashy sashes with medals and honor.  They hold rallies at misnamed locations.  They rouse enthusiastic mind-control missionaries, they sharpen their swords and rehearse their skills.  They mount a roaring assault on the ENEMY which is:  freedom to be everything God intended.

 

7:36 am

MUSIC BREAK

I Want To Take You Higher Lyrics

Feeling’s gettin’ stronger
Music’s gettin’ longer too
Music is flashin’ me
I want to, I want to, I want to take you higher
I want to take you higher
Baby, baby, baby light my fire
I wanna take you higher

Boom laka-laka-laka, boom laka-laka-laka boom

Feeling’s nitty-gritty
Sound is in the city too
Music’s still flashin’ me
Don’t ya, don’t ya, don’t don’t don’t ya want to get higher
Baby baby baby light my fire
I wanna take you higher

Boom laka-laka-laka, boom laka-laka-laka
Boom laka-laka-laka, boom laka-laka-laka
Boom laka-laka-laka, boom laka-laka-laka

Higher
Higher
Higher

Feeling that should make you move
Sounds that should help you groove
Music still flashin’ me
Take your places
I want to take you higher
I want to take you higher
Baby baby baby light my fire
I wanna take you higher

Boom laka-laka-laka, boom laka-laka-laka
Boom laka-laka-laka, boom laka-laka-laka
Boom laka-laka-laka, boom laka-laka-laka

Higher
Higher
Higher

Boom laka-laka-laka, boom laka-laka-laka
Boom laka-laka-laka, boom laka-laka-laka
Boom laka-laka-laka, boom laka-laka-laka

Higher
Higher
Higher

Read more: Sly & The Family Stone – I Want To Take You Higher Lyrics | MetroLyrics

7:27 am

I’ve chosen a new life-verse.  My old one was John 16:33 but that verse has become a part of me now.  This is my new choice, because it sums up my motivations and activities, since 2009:  “But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.”   (John 3:21)  Also, I have attempted to stir men’s consciences, so God may influence them.  I’ve sought to manifest truth.
“But have renounced the hidden things of dishonesty, not walking in craftiness, nor handling the word of God deceitfully; but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man’s conscience in the sight of God.”  (2 Corinthians 4:2)
“And thus are the secrets of his heart made manifest; and so falling down on his face he will worship God, and report that God is in you of a truth.”  (1 Corinthians 14:25)

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6:18 am

This website is going SO SLOW!  I could write ten times as much if somebody would help me speed this process up.  I slept in this morning; I was out after dark!  Progress, so much progress.  Pretty soon I’ll have a real-live life.  I made a mistake in my previous postings.  The article I read about diffusers said “rattan” reeds.  Wonder how I did that?

6:13 am

 

I wanna be a language-fairy.  Josh says that 10% of the words Shakespeare used hadn’t existed until he used them.  I’d like to initiate a single spelling change.  I dislike that when I write “read” it reads two ways.  Words should tickle the ear of the reader, the same way they first tickle mine.   Dual auditory versions of “read” is like a stutter.  I will from hereon spell “read”  (See what i mean?)  as:  “red”.  If I remember.

6:05 am

I read that if you smell bergamot and clary sage, it aids loneliness, so I’m making a diffuser and hoping to find the necessary oils.  A diffuser releases oil into the air and a homemade version can use rice or hemp reeds.  I wonder if hemp reeds are the same as marijuana stems?  I’ve got a whole bunch of them in a vase.  Family memorabilia.  I’ve grown lax in the family memorabilia department.  I don’t really mind the concept (except for the part about it being an accumulation of STUFF that you have to lug around);   I just don’t find sentimentality a comfortable place to loll.  I grew wistful this morning, over Josh’s interrupted education and relationship with his mother. Then I stopped it.  He belongs to God (Jesus told me so, in 2007) and we’re both exactly where we’re supposed to be.  God has an amazing plan for that man.
I gave pretty much my whole life to parenting, I just saw that.  No wonder my mom hates me; I’m her antithesis.  I was the loneliest child you ever saw, of course I’d try to make my children’s lives different.
And why is it, that I can go into my neighborhood Ben Franklin and buy bergamot oil but I can’t buy cannabis  oil?  Ridiculous.

 

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5:48 pm

That’s another thing, my dad just stopped Josh’s education in its tracks and he knew it was happening and I can prove it.  However, Josh continued to learn and is VERY well-informed, and he grows more charming every day.  “Take that, oh, ‘Destroyer of men for the sake of thineself’!  ‘Living well is a good revenge…becoming well  is the  best.'”

5:44 am

My baby died on this day in 1991.  The same year Isaac was born and I graduated from law school and failed the bar the first time because I was on sleeping pills when I took it so I wouldn’t barf from continual morning sickness.  Then my sister taught me how to study.  I was nursing a baby the second time I took it, and had to take breaks.

I read that if you smell bergamot and clary sage, it aids loneliness, so I’m making a diffuser and hoping to find the necessary oils.  A diffuser releases  oil into the air, and a homemade version can use rice or hemp reeds.  I wonder if hemp reeds are the same as marijuana stems?  I’ve got a whole bunch of them in a vase.  Family memorabilia.  I’ve grown lax in the family memorabilia department.  I don’t really mind the concept (except for the part about it being an accumulation of STUFF that you have to lug around);   I just don’t find sentimentality a comfortable place to loll.  I grew wistful this morning, over Josh’s interrupted education and relationship with his mother. Then I stopped it.  He belongs to God (Jesus told me so, in 2007) and we’re both exactly where we’re supposed to be.  God has an amazing plan for that man.

 

1/18/15

9:04 pm

I sent my dad a two-word text and he answered!  “My car?”

Apparently his mechanic is sick.  He did not tell me any details.

Josh and I went to town and took a friend out to dinner.  We’ve never done that before together, and it was really fun.

Remember, a group of religious thugs long ago in Jerusalem also perpetrated murder on the One they labeled “blasphemous.” How did that turn out?   

(Texe Marrs)

 

3:59 pm

“I have never been able to conceive how any rational being could propose happiness to himself from the exercise of power over others.” — Thomas Jefferson

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8:38 am

I put wood in the stove and walked up to the corner.  I saw my dad’s van up at the Moose so I prayed for him.  I was thinking, there is another possible purpose  for my journals.  If my dad is truly between a rock and a hard place, maybe something I recorded could help him?  It’s possible.

7:41 am

Literal people self-medicate.  Occasionally they recognize that they might be missing something, and it makes them uncomfortable.  So, they talk about issues with others of the same limited persuasion.  They reinforce one another and all go away much more comfortable, and reassured in their ignorance.  I’d like to write my own DSM and combine it with a supernatural PDR.  There must exist a cure for crippling literal-mindedness syndrome.  I’m sure God would tell me about it before publication. He’s never late.

 

6:57 am

I don’t know if I really believe in mental illness; I know the DSM version is a commercial dose of bullshit.  It seems to me, if anybody is mentally ill in our midst, it would be extremely literal people.  They communicate on far fewer levels and find it impossible to understand deeper concepts. That’s a genuine deficiency of function.   I think Baptists are all mentally ill probably.

 

6:50 am

It’s wonderful to anticipate relationships in the Kingdom.   Our connections have been so trivial, that we just expect relationships to be fraught with disagreement and to eventually deteriorate.  In marriage for instance, we do not expect to love in 20 years as we do now.  We make lots of jokes about this expectation.  Presently however, we can know there need be no end to not only mutually fulfilling interactions…but even the development of NEW and BETTER experiences than we’ve ever known or considered.  This state would be worth quite a bit of sacrifice to attain.

“Stick with me baby, stick with me anyhow,

Things should start to get interestin’,  right about now.”  (Dylan)

(I didn’t check that quote, it may have errors.  I’m slacking off.)

 

6:28 am

MISSIONARY to the church:

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6:11 am

I have a good, good mind!  If my dad had not called me crazy I would not know that!  I’m so grateful.  I do things consciously, and I keep a lot of balls in the air.  It’s maybe like reverse ritalin:  You know how they give hyper kids speed, so they’ll go up and crash…to be normal?  Maybe Dad just ground me under his heel so long I came out on the other side of the world…and it was the TOP!   I think perhaps I have become very smart.  It began with the desire to be truthful.

I think homosexuality is sad, because it doesn’t maximize potential.  I figure it will be a non-issue when we are all  confident enough to look for the highest potential in ourselves and others.  We will become confident when we are loved sufficiently.

 

5:48 am

Isn’t it funny how my dad’s perpetual attempts to discredit and destroy my faith and political convictions only serve to strengthen them?  I wonder if he notices.  I go through a tremendous amount of material.   I have posted over 13 thousand 7 hundred stories…on the main news-page alone.  In only a year and a half, and they all support things I’ve told people forever.  (I also maintain a series of mini-blogs that I update regularly.  I go to fancy-pants websites that don’t even update once a day!)  The prophets are lining up, and the Spirit beareth witness.  My heart is bursting with expectation of what I’ve been anticipating since I was little.  And I get to be here, now, when it happens!  I also get to record it!  (I should really love sitting at a computer more than I do.  I’ve been working steady since 2006 and I’d really like a break.) (“Amen.”)

 

5:35 am

I wonder which of the following, my dad pulled on George?  I’ve seen them all…

To achieve his nefarious ends, the narcissistic psychopath will play every emotional card in his manipulative arsenal; alternating between outbursts of anger and verbal abuse, empty flattery, fake sympathy for others, false pity for himself, fake smiling or laughing, fake crying, fake humility, false charity and fake piety.

4:03 am

Tomorrow is the anniversary of the day my first baby died.  I suppose that would mean it is her birthday.  (I assume it was a girl; people say some women can’t carry girl babies.  But, maybe mothers of superior male offspring are just rubbing it in suffering miscarriage-moms’ noses.)  I have been remiss, in speaking about universal mind reading as though it were always a bad thing.  Can you imagine for a moment, what it’s like to have somebody else in your head who never ridicules you?  Somebody who will not even tolerate your self-ridicule?  I’ve experienced that for decades, or ridicule would have curtailed my activities.  Without that voice of approval,  I’d ACTUALLY BE that quivering chunk of abused protoplasm my dad intended.  Jesus speaks only love and encouragement.
How about this:  How wonderful would it  be to live in another person’s head?  I mean if that person only thought well of you and prayed for you and loved you and thought about you constantly?  We’ve got some really intimate, supportive relationships on the horizon.  All humanity will become more comfortable and more productive.  Love is an incredible motivator.

 

 

2:43 am

Good morning. I’m surprised by pain.  My left wrist is bulgey and really painful on the palm side, right at my hand.  I’m tempted to say carpal tunnel, since i’ve typed around the clock for years, but just yesterday I read a prophecy about God doing things to our bodies so I’ll just believe that’s what’s going on.  Everything means something.  My wrist has had occasional shooting pains for about a year now, but it was never continual like this.  It makes hot dishwater feel really nice.

1/17/15

7:19 pm

If you decide to depend on the Spirit as I suggest, you will be tested.  You will find yourself in situations where you have NOTHING TO GO ON…unless you listen.  Maybe I’ll write about that tomorrow.  I’m going to bed.

 

6:58 pm

 

Dad talks about murder all the time.  (“As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.”)  He talks about bodies buried all through the forests of the Great White North, and he says that nobody will ever find them. (I recorded his comments in my journals.)   He suggests that certain family members might murder other family members.  He watches TV.  He believes a good murder will pull the plot together before he has to leave to take a piss.  Tough, eh?  My boys will be so proud of me when we get some answers!  Maybe God will give me a dream tonight with all the answers I need.

 

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6:42 pm

And WHERE is my car????  If it shows up, I WILL NOT HAVE IT INSPECTED for tampering.  I am a servant of God Almighty and if he wants me to die at the hand of my father then I submit to the fiery crash.  I would pray with my FINAL BREATH that my dad be converted and given a new heart that is able to  love.  I would pray that fear be extinguished from his life.    I would  also beg that my dad not be rewarded as he deserves.

6:39 pm

I wonder if Dad meant to kill George and blame it on me?  Kinda fits.

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6:31 pm

 

Do you have any idea how much integrity is demonstrated in this website?  I reload pages to change a semi-colon.  (I don’t usually have to do that because I take dictation,  so many errors are eliminated ahead of time.  I communicate with a “person” who knows what Dad did.)   I will follow the voice I hear until the mystery is resolved.  Unless Dad speaks truth to me ABOUT EVEN THE MOST RUDIMENTARY BASICS OF EVERYDAY LIFE.  He cannot tell me the truth about EVEN ONE SINGLE THING.  I think his lies are overkill.  I think if I were a psychopath who had (documentedly…) tried to get rid of my own daughter, I’d tell the truth about SOMETHING so people would continue to believe me.  Dad lies (and we all KNOW this is true…) when it is 1) unnecessary, 2) imprudent, and 3) way too late for lying.  If he isn’t arrested soon I’ll be really surprised.

 

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6:17 pm

Proverbs 31:7  “Let him drink, and forget his poverty, and remember his misery no more.”

 

 

6:03 pm

The stew is great.  Josh  made a fried egg and layered it over his  bowl of biscuits and stew.  He says it tastes richer.  Maybe I should go back to the butter/flour thickening?  (But he really likes to smash it all together.)

Also, why in the world would Dad think it necessary to torment a gentle soul like George?   George  depends on me for many things.   George and I have had the least-crazy divorce ever recorded…and that is amazing since we’ve been REQUIRED to live together ever since,  because we had no MARITAL PROPERTY TO DIVIDE BECAUSE DAD TOOK OUR HOME.  Why does he feel a need to rock George’s already-teetering world?  Can’t he just tell the truth and leave us alone to figure out how to become healthy independent people?  Apparently not.  He’s SCARED spitless.  He’s always been mean-spirited.  (It’s been fun to hear my cousins laugh at the stories I write.  They say, “I read what you wrote  to [—-}   and we laughed… because it’s so MUCH LIKE ROBERT!”)  He’s always been very mean, but he hasn’t before been very dumb.

 

5:39 pm

 

OMG!  I just figured this out!  Since my dad is NOT a Christian as I thought,  I’m not bound by the Bible where it says I can’t take a Christian brother to human court!  WOW!  STALKING.  Defamation of character.  Conversion. Interference with profitable relationships, loss of consortium…OMG.  Then, I could go talk to the prosecutor…

Special Forces officer sues former body builder ex-wife for $4 million for stalking and ‘trying to destroy his life’

  • Jacob C. Ivancev, 44, of Queens, filed lawsuit in Manhattan Supreme Court
  • Says ex-wife Roe Garrido, 48, is out to destroy him after messy divorce
  • Claims she followed him to Colorado and filed multiple bogus police reports

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4:52 pm

Almost bedtime.  Thank you Lord, for another peaceful day.

Well I feel different, but I didn’t want a beer buzz, I wanted…and ALWAYS WANT… a truth buzz.  I’ll tell you the easiest way to make biscuits.  Buy some sheets of baking parchment.  Put one over your baking pan and dump your biscuit dough onto it.  (This works for my recipe at least.)  Sprinkle a little flour over the mass and fold up the (extended) edges of parchment over the dough and press down.  Lift the paper, fold the dough and press down again.  If you do this a couple times you make layers in your biscuits.  (Unless you didn’t work the butter into the flour properly before you began.)   When you’re satisfied, fold the paper over for the last time and press the surface of the dough smooth.  Then you can cut or tear off all the soiled edges of the paper.  I use a pizza cutter, and make squares of my whole presentation, then bake it pretty hot.  For chicken stew, I used to use sherry and thicken it with butter and flour.  I’ve found it’s just as good when you just make the stock very strong, and dump in a can of evaporated milk.  Chicken stew has to have peas I think, I will only use frozen ones so I add them last and they stay green and firm.  (When I’m putting cooked chicken into the stew, I always save the bones on a separate plate than the gristle, knuckles and skin.  That way I have a continuous supply of treats for Connie.)

 

 

4:12 pm

I made butter tarts.  Josh wanted an almond cake but we didn’t have all the stuff, I was fasting, and I make them in October.  I may bake one tomorrow though if the tarts are gone.

George didn’t pick up two beers last night…there’s a whole bag there.

And why did my dad take my car three days ago without a word?  or answer my text asking about it? Where is it?

At first I was really shocked that my dad did all those terrible things to me and tried to kill me.  I got over it in 2013.  BUT, but, this has gone on so long that it’s become absolutely obvious my parents are guilty of something much more than I know.  Their behavior is ludicrous!  For them to allow themselves to be recognized as so callous and, basically pretty dumb, must mean they certainly can’t give me ANY JUSTICE, or even basic human consideration… without implicating themselves for a much bigger mess.  I’m nothing, right?  That they should torment their own daughter and grandchildren for years without a word!  They’re scared of SOMETHING BIGGER THAN I, who hopes God will send my children some truth pretty soon.  (Wonder what it might be?)

 

 

2:47 pm

I’m making chicken and biscuits again.  We didn’t feel like having Adobo.

By slandering me AGAIN TO GEORGE, I believe my dad may have set us back a notch on some household progress.  There are five bags of garbage in the garage; I began putting them out there after stepping over a couple in the kitchen for several days.  George went to work.  The fire hadn’t been checked since I did it early this morning, and on his way out the door George told me that he picked up two tall-boys last night for me, in case I wanted some beer.  We were making progress.  He forgot his car keys so when he came back in I asked about the stove.  Then he told Josh to do it.  I couldn’t help saying, I know this might sound CRAZY, but I think an 18 year-old man should have some responsibilities.  He gives half his paycheck to George every week so George doesn’t care.  Dad MUST STOP LYING ABOUT ME BECAUSE HE HAS HARMED,  AND CONTINUES TO AFFECT OTHER PEOPLE.  Himself included.

 

 

2:15 pm

It’s sad that the best  stonewalling my parents can come up with after all this time is still, that I’m mentally ill. They say this  because I follow a different religion than they,  and that being the case,  I CERTAINLY cannot be expected to toe their dogma-line.   I have demonstrated that my sincerely held beliefs are genuine, and that they monitor my life. They said I was  rebellious to government.  That’s pretty funny since I attempted to influence government according to the Constitution and applicable election statutes for a number of years.  My rebellion, is only toward 1) unjust manipulation, 2) unwarranted vilification, and 3) dishonesty.  My complaints against both my government and my parents are consistent, and my rationale is documented.  I am a victim of religious persecution and this is wrong.  Maybe they could stop trying to control me and rather just make fun of my faith? They could draw some cartoons lampooning the Holy Spirit.  Then all the leaders of the free world would be on their side.

 

 

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1:06 pm

Today, America would be outraged if U.N. troops entered Los Angeles to restore order. Tomorrow they will be grateful! This is especially true if they were told that there were an outside threat from beyond, whether real or promulgated, that threatened our very existence. It is then that all peoples of the world will plead to deliver them from this evil. The one thing every man fears is the unknown. When presented with this scenario, individual rights will be willingly relinquished for the guarantee of their well-being granted to them by the World Government.”  (Henry Kissinger, 1991)

 

12:50 pm

Tower of Babel

The first cyborg is a slender waif with fluffy bangs over his forehead.  He’s a composer from Barcelona and he has a real-live antenna growing from his skull!   He’s enchanting, and very smart.   The world was VERY confusing for the boy who couldn’t see any color at all.  His implanted antenna receives visual messages and he can hear colors.  He’s all better now, even better than the rest of us because he can hear even infrared and ultraviolet and is superior to humans, having gained not only his fetching protrusion, but also an entirely new sense.  His brain grew connections with the software, tech and flesh were merged…and now we’re naming super-human-abilities once again.  (I thought we were done with that after 1) “omniscient”, 2) “omnipotent”, and 3) “omnipresent”.)   He has a lot of fun with his abilities and matches his clothing to chords that sound nice to him.

Although it sounds like a form of induced synaesthesia, a neurological condition that makes people see or even taste colors, Harbisson’s new condition is different, and requires a completely new name: sonochromatopsia, an extra sense that connects colors with sound. Unlike synaestehsia, which can vary wildly from person to person, sonochromatopsia makes each color correspond to a specific sound.  –Read more here:   http://www.cnn.com/2014/09/02/tech/innovation/cyborg-neil-harbisson-implant-antenna/

This was a comment from a guy named Valko:    

“This is wonderful. It is like artificial synesthesia.”   (Comments from:   http://vimeo.com/51920182 )

Induced synesthesia vs artificial synesthesia vs spontaneous synesthesia.

I’ve experienced senses in non-ordinary ways,  synesthesia exists already.  (Man cannot create anything that God hasn’t thought about, and Satan can create nothing at all.)  Do the cyborgs even recognize that their new senses are available already?  Do they entirely discount the spiritual realm and the current fact of the awakening?  Do they intend to evolve new senses and new body parts forever?  Can their physical bodies support their dreams?  Will they conquer death?  Oops. Will they instigate the death of human consciousness?   They’re looking for eternal life but they’re doing it the wrong way.  We’re all looking to be better and brighter.  We can do it through elevation of the human mind, or through elevation of the human spirit.  “There is a way that seemeth right to a man but the wages thereof is death.”

At least this guy is an artist, rather than a scientist.  He recognizes value in individual creativity and encourages everybody to try new things, create new body parts, plug yourself in.  His foundation makes no distinction between handicapped people and those normally-capped, and strives to pop the cork of personal freedom and experience for everybody.  Brain-hacking.  Body modification. If people did not lean toward tyranny and if there were not a better way to improve our capabilities and life-span, I’d kinda like this guy. Some info is below:

CYBORG FOUNDATION

Philosophy:   We are a nonprofit organization that aims to help people become cyborgs (extend their senses by applying cybernetics to the organism); defend cyborg rights and promote the use of cybernetics in the arts.

The Cyborg Foundation: we urge you to become part-machine

 

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12:19 pm

I spy, you spy–The new, technologically enhanced ways in which we spy on each other

“Private investigators and the people who hire them demonstrate how technology and information can be used both in protective and intrusive ways.”

“Even more, technology equips the average person with the tools to spy on others. In this day and age, all eyes are on you any time of the day or night. It’s more of a matter of who does that spying — and whether we trust them.”

 

“In A Manner Of Speaking, It’s The New Prenuptial,” Private Detectives Use The Internet To Spy On Others

 

“A window pops up containing information about the vehicle — its exact coordinates in longitude and latitude, its speed and the time it last moved — plus the battery life of the GPS device that’s feeding him this information. The vehicle also has a unique seven-digit tracking number that allows Mesis to tell it apart from several other vehicles.”

 

Read more at:   http://projects.aljazeera.com/2013/pi/

 

 

12:08 pm

I think that if we all quit focusing on the terrible things that might happen, we could double the average life-span. We all expect the worst all the time, but nobody likes to talk about our continual negativity.  The marketers know that.  We buy “life” insurance, when it’s really death insurance.  “Health” insurance is a waste of time until you’re sick.  We sleep with handguns under our pillows and locks on our doors and we make people wear bicycle helmets and we take supplements derived from petroleum.  I used to live like that, I was terribly overprotective and underfaithed.  How much better, if we planned for good things to happen?  I’d like some “fun insurance.”  I’d like to know that I could file a claim someday when I’m not able to focus on my tasks, and I could have some fun.

11:17 am

We’re going to the city next week!  To the land of discount groceries and Chinese carry-out.   I made Josh some Swedish pancake batter and he did the cooking, it’s his day off.  I’m going to make some Amaretti today, almond macaroons.  If I’m terribly ambitious, I may also make ganache and glaze and turn them into Sarah Berhardts. Those are my dad’s favorite and I used to make them for him.  When he quit talking to me I kept a box of commercial Amaretti stored for five years, just in case.  I threw them away last year, so now I’m making my own.   I suppose I’ll bring him a couple.

 

10:19

Material deprivation is not a bad thing at all.  Not having stuff is painless.   We KNOW pain is the wrong feeling, and we know pain doesn’t go away when we buy a new pair of shoes any more than our headache leaves after we’ve filled an opium deficiency.  The lack of opium didn’t hurt a bit.  (Unless you’re used to having a lot of opium which is another whole topic.)   It hurts to have the wrong feelings, and of course stuff gives us all kinds of feelings.  We all want our feelings changed; we are ALL seeking an altered state of consciousness.  Drug addicts are just more honest than the gluttons and the fashionistas.

10:03 am

 

It’s like I’ve been saying, we’re all exposed.  There is not one thing that we have ever done or said that is not currently down for disclosure and discussion.  Anyone  of potential influence is either blackmailed or waiting for the next shoe to drop.  Every man is looking over his shoulder.  Paranoia.  Mass paranoia is setting in.  The most paranoid are the powers that deem-to-be.  They have the most to lose, no matter the scenario.  Voluntary-ism isn’t an acceptable option for them.  I have advised my readers, over the past few years, to become truthful about all their secrets.  This was prescient advice.

Our governments say it’s criminal to cover our tracks.  We’re not allowed to scurry  and stuff things under the rug.  We’re penalized, with no recourse.  If you deposit $10,000 into your business account?  Crime.  If you make three deposits that total $10,000?  Crime. You must be hiding something so we get the money.  If you don’t like the TSA  putting their hands down your pants, you must have a bomb between your butt-cheeks.  That’s bad, but it’s not the worst.  The worst is, it is now considered evidence of a crime if you even  DESIRE A MEASURE OF PRIVACY.  Judges are viewing encrypted messages as evidence of terrorism!  I know, you’re surprised.  You’ll catch up shortly.  I’ve been very blessed by 1) being too stupid to try to cover anything even if I could ever figure out encryption, and 2) I’ve had my brain dry-cleaned already.

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7:17 am

MUSIC BREAK

Can’t Nobody Do Me Like Jesus

I must have played this song a thousand times… to the goons who raped me:

 

6:53 am

PROPHECY

They will come and see, says the Spirit of grace and mercy, the banner waved out, the banner of victory over your life, the banner of love that you extend, they will come under that banner and there they shall find peace and rest for their souls, because I hear the cries of My people for more, and you shall receive more than ever before.

-Debra Lowe, from 1/16/15, here:  http://ft111.com/lowe.htm

(“Hey God, I just wrote about transfiguration, guess you know that.  Pick me!”)

I hear the cries from the heart of My people asking for more of Me, to become more like Me. I Am answering, not just so signs, wonders, and miracles can follow them, but so that they can be My example. My Word is extreme in its working in their hearts and now for many of My dear ones, it is saturating their physical lives as well.

 

6:38 am

BUMP TO THE TOP, from    9/28/14,  4:37 am:

Heaven and Earth will merge.  We will naturally pass this point on the road to “…thy Kingdom come, on Earth as it is in Heaven.”  We’ve got to go from point A to point B, and it’s going to be a rocky road.  It’s going to be glorious too.  The opportunities to live will be greatly multiplied.  We’ll see miracles every day, and we’ll see gruesome things.  We must be trained to observe as directed.  We must choose much joy in the Lord, so we can see as he sees, and do what he’s choosing to do at every given moment.  We must duck at a whisper, and stand tall when it’s the right thing to do.  We must battle to regain the land that the Lord rightfully purchased. We are his agents.  It still amazes me that his Truth came back to Earth through electronic hubris.  He’s using personal shame to catch arrogant men.  Liars are embracing truth and it’s changing the world.  Many unusual things must happen in the natural realm for Truth to be established in every remaining human heart.  He’s using the mundane, and the ANTI-CHRIST mechanisms of psychopathic human government to reveal himself!  We have to go through the hoops.  We have to confront liars and control freaks with truth and love and never, ever stop.  We have been entrusted with the end-time battle between good and evil and we must remake our world, by permitting Jesus to remake ourselves.

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3:23 am

The Millenium is another training ground, 1,000 years to learn how to run a planet.  Learning to manage the Kingdom of God on a planet!  To the expansion of God’s Kingdom, there will be no end.  We’re being trained now. and tested.  We’ve got to get it right in the short time we have left.  We don’t get another chance.  Planet Earth becomes the capital of the whole universe.  That means that those of us who are now alive on Earth…will be in history.  We will be the Thomas Jeffersons and the Benedict Arnolds.  No revisionism permitted, our lives will speak through countless ages!  Not only our actions, but our hearts as well, will be exposed forever.  We are very important to the future, too.  Those who went before us are biting their lips.  Will we finish well?  They’re also gamers, and they bet on us.  They bet on our generation.  (Of course, God told them who would win so it wasn’t really a bet.)   There are many more influences on our puny minds than we can imagine.  (We don’t even acknowledge the proven ones!) There is more at stake, than we can imagine and the wonders we shall see are unimaginable.  We’re SPIRITUAL beings and we’re going to FLY.  If we want to.  Those who won’t unclench somebody else’s money will not fly. God’s TSA doesn’t miss a thing..

(References available on request.)

 

 

 

5:12 am

 

5:08 am

Hey guys, IS ANYBODY GETTING IT YET?

Tough lesson: Doisneau caught this young child looking pained as he attempts to work out his sums in a class

4:45 am

I’m still fasting.  I didn’t grow up in a home that recognized the fasted-lifestyle.  Activities and conversations neglected God; everybody was always trying to make a point.  Yesterday, Josh, the non-Christian, wouldn’t let me make him a quesadilla. Since I’m not eating, he said it would be “dickish.”  He respects my spiritual pursuits, even if he argues with me about them.  This is very healthy.
It looks like I won’t get to see Heidi Baker this week.  Oh, well.  One time she was preaching, I think she was in Washington, it was a big to-do.  The gentleman speaking before her was also a big to-do.  She joined him in the pulpit, and the Holy Spirit got ahold of her.  (I don’t know if she was  introduced or if she crashed the sideshow.)  She offered a two-sentence sermon, to the face of the preacher-man:  “Big head.  Little heart.  Big head.  Little heart.  Big head.  Little heart.”  I don’t remember how many times she said it, and truthfully, I don’t even remember the result, although I believe it included some repentance.  What I remember is how it feels to have TRUTH HIMSELF burning in your heart so you can’t sit still. There is no question, at those times, of reverting to one’s head in order to “make a point.”   My being is offended in the presence of lies.  This has been the case all my life.  But, the longer I bask in the presence of Jesus, the more offended I become.  The more of his Spirit entrusted into my life, the less reticent I am.  I observe these changes in myself with surprise, and gratitude.  I am surprised that in the face of TRUTH, my concerns about offending others disappear.  I am grateful that he’s changing me every day into his image, and that he’s chosen to live his life through the passions of earthly men.  And women.
I would fast forever, if I could spend that time snuggled up close to Jesus.  We just don’t ever need anything but him.

 

1/16/15

8:36 pm

They always say there is no chance for victory, because they’ve given up on their own lives,  they’ve made their own internal compromises,  they’ve sold themselves out over and over,  they’ve bargained away their last chip of power and imagination,  and they want companions in their spiritual narcosis.

(Jon Rappaport)

 

1:08 pm

A SECURITY conference.  BIG-WIGS.  They got scammed out of their own data!
This demonstrates my contention that the security big-wigs REALLY NEED the hackers. They KNOW they’re not up to the task at hand, whether it be neo-con warmongering or climate-change number-rigging.  I figure there’s a limited window of opportunity for the hackers  to shut down the military industrial complex.  Besides, Obama plans to raise the prison sentences for convicted hackers pretty quick…

Activist pulls off clever Wi-Fi honeypot to protest surveillance state

“The chairman of the youth wing of the Swedish Pirate Party successfully fooled attendees at a major Swedish security and defense conference into connecting to an open Wi-Fi network that he controlled—as a way to protest mass digital surveillance.”

 

“The operation we have performed during the two conference days in Salen based on the same principle as the great spy organizations such as the US NSA and the Swedish FRA uses. The difference is that they sign a year round operation, and to a much greater extent. They also have access to more advanced technology—the privacy intrusion is [still] enormous.”

 

Read more at:   http://arstechnica.com/security/2015/01/activist-pulls-off-clever-wi-fi-honeypot-to-protest-surveillance-state/

Young Pirate hacker gets top security secrets

“The security establishment was in Sälen pushing for more surveillance, but then leading figures go and log on to an unsecure W-Fi network,” he told The Local.
“It is very embarrassing because the data we collected showed that some people were looking at Skype, eBay and Blocket and stuff like that, or looking for holidays and where you could go and hike the forest. This was during the day when I suppose they were being paid to be at the conference working.”

12:15 pm

There won’t be any fake Christians in Heaven.  We may see fake Buddhists and fake Hindus but not fake Christians.  “Christians” (even fake ones) voluntarily assume the name of Jesus the Christ.  If they’re fake,  then they’ve taken that name in vain.

Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain; for the Lord will not hold him guiltless that taketh his name in vain.

Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain: for the Lord will not hold him guiltless that taketh his name in vain.

 

10:43 am

It had to come down this way.  My dad had to be completely stopped.  Otherwise, what if I was somewhere trying to do the Lord’s work and he decided to pull some stunt?  I have to be free of his tentacles completely.  I’m really grateful I no longer fear him.  Fearing him was a constant, and it made me fear others.  I don’t know how God’s gonna do it, but somehow I’ll KNOW my dad is no longer a threat.

10:40 am

Three days until the conference at my church in Toronto.  Guess I’m not going.

 

10:30 am

I took another walk this morning,  it helped yesterday.  I made French toast for Josh’s breakfast, with cinnamon and half-n-half.  It’s 57 degrees in here today, I’ve been chilled for a week.  I wear my huge sweater from the Belgian market every day.  I just pull it over whatever I put on after my shower.  My nose is always cold.

10:21 am

So, another day waiting for my dad to do right by me.  At the rate he’s going, he’ll eventually die and then it will be too late.  I’m persistent, so I’m the best blessing he ever got.  I’m fasting again today; I’ve GOT TO have more of the Spirit. I can’t deal with how I feel and God must change me more.  My dad is (so far) missing the most amazing time in human history!  Just to make some kind of bass-ackwards stab at me.  That’s so petty.

Update 10:27 am

I mean, what else does he have to do with his time?  We could change the world together.  Maybe he thinks the most important thing is to earn more money for David?

 

8:39 am

I think there’s a real practical purpose for this transfiguration thing:  our bodies are too frail to survive the onslaught of transhumanism.  To supersede the technology that would control us, we have to change.  We must evolve, beginning by choosing to live in our spirit bodies more than our physical bodies. We will regularly experience physical impossibilities and eventually our bodies will necessarily follow the Spirit into more resilient adaptive structures.  I think that’s so.

 

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8:28 am

Didn’t I say the hackers were the REAL WARRIORS?  “I say it here and it comes out there.” (Broadcast News)

Blackhat Ultimate Hacker Trailer (2015)

7:14 am

They have announced some intriguing new brain tests.  Various heretofore unidentifiable conditions can now be demonstrated by empirical evidence.  This is another sort of lie detector.  Doctors can tell whether a man is simpatico by watching his brain:  Do the empathy neurons fire at the appropriate time?  Does this subject ACTUALLY CARE?  Another new test can identify whether a person has been traumatized, experiencing TERROR creates a specific lesion in the brain.  Seems to me I might like to challenge my father to a brain-scan-duel.
“The Mystery of Shellhock Solved:  Scientists identify the unique brain injury caused by war
See more at:  

 

6:46 am

What if they just gave us all a personal model…like a vibrator for the brain?

Oh wait, they could implant it under our skin and we wouldn’t even have to think about it.  If we have something they want, they could just crank up the buzz.  If we aren’t fun to watch, they could alter accordingly.

(They owe a big debt to all the housewives who were involuntarily used in experiments to create this technology.)

Vets with PTSD opt for new ‘brain zapping’ treatment: ‘It saved my life’

 

“The new procedure — which The Brain Treatment Center in Newport Beach, California, offers free of charges to veterans — uses magnetic resonance therapy (MRT), pulsing energy from magnetic coils into a patient’s cortex.”

 

(I told you they could create PTSD and that they could fix it.)

Read more: http://www.washingtontimes.com/news/2015/jan/13/veterans-ptsd-opt-new-brain-zapping-treatment-it-s/#ixzz3Oz610pKv
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Read more at:   http://www.washingtontimes.com/news/2015/jan/13/veterans-ptsd-opt-new-brain-zapping-treatment-it-s/

 

 

 

 

5:59 am

DYSTOPIA BREAK

Selling trans-humanism to babes.

5:49 am

I think the dis-quiet I’m experiencing may be the burning I asked for.  My chest is on fire with passion for truth, and I pray that my heart is enlarged and filled with divine love.  I’m praying the same for my parents, and George and the boys, and Adam and everybody in the first district.  Like this:
“Please Lord, send us more fire!  Give each of us a love for Truth that exposes all other pursuits as pointless and vain.  Lord, make EACH OF US LONG, to expose falsehood wherever we see it, and to desire abundance and justice for every soul.  Let us pursue, to death of self and ego, a status of man where none hunger and none experience pain or fear.  Give us the WILL to give our lives for others!  Drive us into your Kingdom if need be.  Do not allow us to perish here in the desert when Caananland is just in sight!  Have mercy on my people and me, and forgive us for shedding innocent blood!  CHANGE US!  Come quickly, Lord Jesus.  Amen.”

 

5:28 am

 

You know, “The Gong Show” vilified an entire genre of vintage television. It was mean-spirited.  I loved the Ted Mack  Amateur Hour. Now it looks rather tawdry, as if those public attempts of the little guy to grab the ring are somehow too naked.  But, we’ve also grown jaded to the extent human ego will require one’s soul to be sullied. For immediate gratification.  That leaves scars. Women are stripping in the streets.  The “best” dresses are those designed to expose as much skin as possible and still meet the definition.  Boob jobs.  Transhumanism.  What’s so great about a sack of silicone, just because it’s buried beneath human skin?  Plastic is plastic.
Life-lessons I learned, through being cyber-stalked.
1)  Do not invest emotional energy into things over which you have no control.
2)  If at first you don’t succeed, try, try, again.
3)  We are not alone.  We should remember that every second.
4)  How to type “embed” into my links to save keystrokes and not have to open a new window every time.
5)  Goons can do a lot more things than they tell us.
6)  It’s not what you know, it’s who you know.

 

5:18 am

Turkish President Says the Unsayable: ‘West is Behind Charlie Hebdo False Flag Attacks’

This is a very worrying development. Not because of what Turkish President Recep Tayyip Erdoğan has said, but because it signals that the ‘gloves are off’ now.

 

“The Turkish President has called out what many already know and understand – that the US (full list here), NATO (GLADIO and MH17) members and Israel (USS Liberty slaughterand other attacks) have engaged in the past in false flag attacks. That is not debatable – that is historical fact.”

 

Read more here:   http://21stcenturywire.com/2015/01/14/turkish-president-says-the-unsayable-west-is-behind-charlie-hebdo-false-flag-attacks/

 

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4:59 am

These Are The 13 Most Evil U.S. Government Experiments On Humans

Read more at http://higherperspective.com/2015/01/evil-government.html#pHTKLME444MYrCGq.99

 

 

 

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1/15/15

5:33 pm

“Utterly complete vindication.”  My family will respect me.  My sons will be proud of me.  I can hardly wait for my destiny.

5:32 pm

I’m drinking root beer.  I haven’t had pop for probably a year and a half.  It’s really nice.  Maybe I’ll get a high fructose corn syrup rush that puts me over the top and I won’t feel outraged.   Josh and I discussed fasting.  My grandparents always drank orange juice so their stomachs wouldn’t growl.  Everybody does it different.  Josh doesn’t drink pop so he gave me the root beer that came with his lunch.

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5:25 pm

Did you know Orcas are now extinct?  Instantaneously, none survive more than 7 months. Radiation.   Where is the outrage?

5:23 pm

Josh is home from work.  I know the only way into our destiny is for God to supernaturally open the door.    That’s my dilemma.

I’ve been waiting a very long time.

Supper’s ready.  5:20 pm

I can’t get this done!  I get frantic inside.  I still do the same activities but I’m stymied for truth and it makes an uproar inside.  I could HELP HUMANITY and I believe I’m intended to do so!  How do I get on the road of my destiny?

4:52 pm

Of course Dad never answered my inquiry about why he took my car two days before it was to be fixed.  I am not permitted YET, to know of his decisions regarding my life.  He is a very sick man.

 

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4:38 pm

I went for another walk up the road and ran into Steve.  He’s building the store again and already has plans.  No living quarters.  He’s made offers on 4 houses but would really like to get this last one.  I’m praying for him.  I had three friendly encounters today!  Earlier,  the management of Dad’s hardware store asked me to make macaroni and cheese for the annual community Mac-and-Cheese Cook-off.  I made it for Steve’s store last year but not many people came all the way out here to taste it.  We can probably win this year.

 

 

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3:56 pm

My cheeks burn with the shame of my father’s lying slander.  I was not meant to live in shame.  My father refuses to release me from the threat of his interventions.  This is not right.  “Please send more fire, Lord.  More of your Spirit of Truth.  The Seraphim.  I haven’t seen an angel in a really long time.”

3:46 pm

I’ve GOT the spiritual high ground on every issue I’ve considered.  If I’ve missed a trail or two I’d be pleased if somebody pointed them out.  My father ABDUCTED my kids, because I said I hear from God.  This is a sorry state of affairs and must be resolved.  He cannot maintain his fraudulent Christian persona if we’re going to move along.  It’s true.

 

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3:39 pm

 

Brother, kind-hearted Christian brother, is it right, or just, that our parents can call me names because they do not believe people can hear from God?  That’s the only issue here, I told them the reasons I did EVERYTHING starting with running for office.  I RECORDED my reasons, and they were ALL GOD.  OK, maybe they just don’t believe God would talk to me?  That’s all I’ve wanted since I was little and I’ve documented that desire my whole life.  Why would he NOT choose me?   This is religious persecution.  Let me repeat:  DAD AND I HAD A BET.

 

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3:33 pm

I’m thawing spaghetti sauce for dinner. We have good bread leftover from yesterday so I’ll make a garlic spread. Laundry, dishes and some mending for Josh.  Blogging the apocalypse.

 

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3:17 pm

How many times have we been faced with the decision to move on to the next level of commitment to truth? How often has a new level of personal sacrifice been standing at our door, beckoning? How did we respond? Were we willing to go further, no matter the cost?

 

“That’s pretty much what it takes in the pursuit of truth. A constant shedding of the old, no matter how attached we’ve become to our self image and familiar surroundings; to be relentlessly following the signal from this esoteric siren of love and a greater reality that we know awaits.”

Further – The Oft Neglected Path

Read more at:   http://www.zengardner.com/further-the-oft-neglected-path/

 

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2:24 pm

“It’s post-Orwell.” “Let it fly, they’ll say anything at all!”

“Why think coherent thoughts when you can have the thinking done for you?”

Avoiding Truth At All Costs – Jeff Rense & Zen Gardner

“The superficiality is remarkable.”

 

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2:08 pm

 

Luke 18:5-7King James Version (KJV)

Yet because this widow troubleth me, I will avenge her, lest by her continual coming she weary me.

And the Lord said, Hear what the unjust judge saith.

7 And shall not God avenge his own elect, which cry day and night unto him, though he bear long with them?

 

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2:05 pm

I must be free of the threat of my father’s childish antics.  Last summer he went TO THE BANK and began process to get a CREDIT CARD in MY NAME.  This is fraud, it is his modus operandi, and somebody should reign him in.  I deserve at least that much consideration, that I may know he will not do something stupid to me. Again.

 

1:56 pm

 

My purgatory must end, I must be reinstated into the family.  My parents are ridiculous.  How can this go on?  They never gave me a single hearing.

 

1:46 pm

He’s got to apologize for lying and calling me crazy just because he did not like my faith and politics.  That’s NONE of his business and he destroyed a lot of faith.  Not only will he not apologize, he continues to curse me.  I fear his curses may come back upon him.  I’m praying for God to have mercy on him.

 

1:41 pm

For instance, my father’s insinuations about me to George yesterday created some tension.  I suppose that was the point.  Make our lives more difficult.  I took a walk this morning, it’s warmer, up to the corner.  Then George took me for a ride to Curtis and we traded cars with Josh.  (His tire had to be pumped up.)  I had a very nice outing.  I’m fasting today.  Lots of the Spirit and I keep begging for more.  I’m famished for Jesus to touch me again.

1:34 pm

People must recognize, that when people who have previously tried to lock you up are STILL calling you mentally ill for the SINGLE REASON that you practice a different faith…it is not conducive to personal peace.  I would like to heal from the trauma of torture, and God be praised, I am.  My progress is SLOWED by lying malefactors.  Somebody might ought to help free me.  Somebody should call them off me; they curse me all the time.  And I should know this has been accomplished.

 

11:44 am

I don’t know what I’m making for supper yet.

“Weird” is not a character flaw, it merely means different than us.  If we cannot tolerate weirdness there is no love of God in us.  If we must manipulate others to be our way, we are sinning.  If we do not point out the manipulations of others over sundry victims we are reneging on our obligations as humans.  If we permit others of our species to imprison innocent people we have forgotten the golden rule.  If we were imprisoned, we would want somebody to intervene for us.

 

10:50 am

I’ve got a real sense of being on a team with this project.  I just haven’t met the great cloud of witnesses yet, in the flesh.  I can feel spirits rooting me on, as I pursue truth for targeted individuals, and for my children.  I hear encouragement, as I seek to minimize the emotional fallout of years as an abused person.  It’s a GREAT cloud of witnesses that I hear, and they are many more than the “living” souls on Earth.  They judge rightly, because they see beyond the veil and their memories are far superior to our own.  I know that my success is already established, and that all I must do is wait.
I figure the way bodies become transfigured is by the time they spend in the presence of the Lord.  We’ll have a lot more opportunities for that.  Those who run from his presence will continue to age and die.  I think that’s how the Kingdom of God will develop, more and more people spending more and more time where he is,  which releases love.  We’ve got to love our enemies, and we’ll start feeling and looking healthier.  It will come naturally though, as we spend time with the Lord.

 

 

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10:29 am

Two of my dad’s men just came to get my car, so a part can be replaced on the weekend.  I gave them butter tarts.

Text to Dad:

“Why did you need my car today if it won’t be fixed until the weekend?”

9:53 am

“Patriotism–real patriotism–has a most important venue, and it is not always about putting on a uniform to fight some senseless, insane war in order to sustain the meaningless myths about freedom or America’s greatness.  There is a higher loyalty that real patriotism demands and encompasses, and that loyalty is the pursuit of truth, no matter how painful or uncomfortable the journey.”  (Peter Janney)

 

9:47 am

“We must learn to avoid war and develop a general will to peace. I believe the key to this development is to learn the truth about the real causes and the effects of wars so that we can see through the false propaganda which is used by political leaders to convince us to go to war.”    (John V. Denson)

’War is harmful not only to the conquered but to the conqueror.  Society has arisen out of the works of peace; the essence of society is peacemaking.  Peace and not war is the father of all things.  Only economic action has created wealth around us; labor, not the profession of arms, brings happiness.  Peace builds, war destroys.’

 

9:28 am

Luke 21:28 “And when these things begin to come to pass, then look up, and lift up your heads; for your redemption draweth nigh.”   I’ve gotta get a life.  Maybe just for a few weeks and I could come back to this.  I used to jump out of bed at  three and get dressed immediately, bra and all.  Now I put my bathrobe over sweatpants and don’t always get dressed until I shower after putting in eight hours or so.  I’m really dragged-out.  If I had a car and a little money, I could visit some friends and relax a bit.  That doesn’t seem very much to ask.  God will provide what I need, and he’s never late.  I really need some friends and I’d like to go meet some.  Dad’s messing with God’s call on my life.  That makes him a stumbling block.  “Stumbling block” makes for an interesting Bible study.

 

 

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9:16 am

I actually try to do this stuff every day, I have for years.  It’s nice to know I’m past step one on my way to a ridiculously amazing life!

12 Ways to Rebuild Your Life and Make it Ridiculously Amazing

1. Make a commitment to yourself

I (name),

Make a commitment to myself,

To spend so much time improving myself and my life that I have no time for worry,  judgement, criticism, whining and complaining;

To forgive, release and let go of my attachment to any past struggles and allow every challenge life sends my way to make me better not bitter.

Starting now, I make a commitment to let go of what’s behind me and start appreciating what’s in front of me;

To let go of all the pointless drama, all the toxic relationships, thoughts and behaviors that are present in my life and to constantly shift my focus from the bad on to the good;

To make room in my heart for love, happiness, peace and tranquility and to create my life from a place of infinite choices and possibilities – the present moment, and no longer from a place of limitations – the past.

I commit to staying true to myself at all times and to never betray myself just so I can please other people.

I commit myself to give up on toxic thought, behaviors and relationships but never on myself and my dreams.

Starting now and starting today, I will  begin rebuilding my life and to make it ridiculously amazing.

Sincerely,
(name)

Once you truly commit to rebuilding your life and making it ridiculously amazing, nothing and no one will be able to stand in your way.

 

– See more at: http://www.naturalblaze.com/2015/01/12-ways-to-rebuild-your-life-and-make.html#sthash.0SIhbVrN.dpuf

 

MUSIC BREAK

9:05 am

Dr. Hook – The Cover Of The Rolling Stone – Lyrics

 

8:59 am

Being a pariah has been a good experience; I’ve learned to be grateful for every small attention.  A neighbor just called me because she needed an old recipe.  It was a nice phone call.  I’m praying for her family now. Destroying people is destroying the earth and we destroy people all the time, many different ways.  Most effective, and insidious, is subjecting others to continual criticism, especially if one is in some position of power over the victim.  We destroy people through abortion, and their innocent blood cries out to God.  We destroy with imprisonment, and isolation, and ostracism and stereotyping.  We have to stop tearing one another down with cursing words and insinuations and allusions.  We must make this world BETTER, not worse.  Isn’t that a no-brainer?
Destroying individuals is cutting off the power source of the earth.  Individuals can interact with God, and bring his will into reality.  That’s the only way he’s going to pull this off, with humans as his body on Earth, doing his tasks and speaking his words.  Isn’t that a no-brainer too?  Do we even want to consider the alternative?  To maintain individual power, we must maintain truth in every aspect of our thought-life.  Otherwise we’re under the control of the enemy.  Speaking truth in love is a touchy topic for me, as I believe my disclosures are not always deemed loving.  To permit liars to become zombies would be far less so.

 

7:57 am

Thought-controlled classroom: orgy of the group

“You can say “individual” within certain limited contexts. You can say “power,” if you’re talking about nuclear plants, or if you’re accusing someone of a crime, but if you put “individual” and “power” together and attribute a positive quality to the combination, you’re way, way outside the consensus. You’re crazy.”

 

Back in the days when I was writing on assignment for newspapers and magazines, I pitched a story about individual power to an editor. I wanted to trace its history as an idea over the past ten years.

He looked at me for a few seconds. He looked at me as if I’d just dropped some cow flop on his desk. He knew I wasn’t kidding and I had something I could write and turn in to him, but that made it worse. He began to squirm in his chair.

He laughed nervously.

Then he stopped laughing

He said, “This isn’t what we do.”

“Now, for the schizoid part. The movies. Television. Video games. Comics. Graphic novels. They are filled to the brim, they are overflowing with individual heroes who have considerable power.”

 

Read more at:   https://jonrappoport.wordpress.com/2015/01/14/thought-controlled-classroom-orgy-of-the-group/

 

7:38 am

I gotta admit it surprises me that nobody wants to pray with me, to “agree together concerning anything.”  I pray for a lot of cool things, big things.  I prayed around the border of the entire first Congressional district of Michigan, before I ran.  70,000 miles on my car in 9 months.  (I used up this car serving God.  I know he’ll get me a new one pretty soon.)   In response I saw a vision of the whole district covered up with a glass dome. NOTHING was getting through.  I even prayed one time that God would create a new form of communication for me.  (I told my folks at the time I asked.  I have a copy of the letter.)  I don’t know if my trans-human-mind-meld is actually NEW, but it’s certainly a new thing for me.     If I were my dad, I would pray for a miracle.  My prayer would go something like:  “Dear Lord, I know I must tell the truth but I see no way out of much derision and shame.  You died to free me from shame so I respectfully request that you give me a miracle whereby I can be everything you want me to be, and be able to take what’s coming.”  (Maybe he could think up a specific miracle he wants.  It worked for me.)  (But I gave God my imagination so he leads my prayers anyway.)

 

The “mind-meld” is also in the Bible:
And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.

6:36 am

Extremist Threat

Lies and false flag “terror” events “thwarted.”

 

Blowback from US policy…then we fund our enemies.

“We gotta ask, ‘who is extremist’ because if we question what the government says…we’re extremist…”

6:26 am

I believe a lot of us will be physically transfigured pretty soon.  I don’t know if it will be every person who remains after the apocalypse, but it will be very many people.  I believe this because of 1) personal revelation, 2) scripture, 3) statements by anointed prophets of God, and mostly, 4) the fact that our lives will imitate the life of Jesus, because we follow the Spirit of Christ who is living his life through us.  People who have visited Heaven report seeing formerly-aged loved ones.  They say everybody is very beautiful and they look to be about thirty earth-years old.  I’d like it very much if he picked me for this blessing.

 

 

 

5:59 am

 

Doesn’t Janet Smith look just like Grandpa Goldthorpe?  (I suppose she might look like me too, then.)

4:34 am

I’ve had hardly any dreams for some months, I’ve been praying about it.  Last night I remembered one:  I was at some kind of event and saw an old boyfriend from high school.  He looked just the same, not the way I saw him at our ten-year reunion.  He was waiting for me when I passed through a doorway and we spoke for a few minutes.  He had small children with him.  I don’t remember a thing we said.

Hey!  I didn’t dream about trying to take a shower!  That’s usually what I dream about after I haven’t dreamed for a while.

 

 

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4:20 am

Tearing apart small bodies for a momentary experience of pleasure.  There’s a tremendously high ticket price for a ride on that  merry-go-round.  It’s murder of the innocents and of innocence.  It opens opportunity for demons to infest both victim and perp.  It’s EXTRAORDINARILY COMMON among those who rule over us.  Could there be a reason for this?  Could the Kingdom of God manifest in power if pedophilia is not addressed?  Could Jesus claim his rightful place as King of the world, if those very groups that claim to represent him, those “churches” also permit pedophilia in their ranks and do not address the raping of the innocent by those with spiritual power over them?  Do we think that the ABWE will not be brought to task for those women who were made,  as children, to sign CONFESSIONS TO ADULTERY so their perp could remain on-staff?    Lying has been abolished, it’s just a matter of time before  we see some justice.
When I was being raped as a child, I went to my mother who refused to rescue me or even talk about it.  She’s done the same, in recent years.  We must defend the innocent.  That’s what moms are for.

 

 

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4:00 am

I should start a new list, of the things I did in obedience to the voice I believe to be God,  that turned out to be the very right thing to do.  Recording my life, obviously, from way back in 2009.  My dad lied about his very own daughter.  When his acquaintances have cause to consider this,  his life will change drastically.  I don’t blame him for dragging his feet.

 

3:56 am

“A liar often uses words to cover sins and to pretend to have knowledge greater than he actually has. Once he has told one lie, he usually must tell another one to cover the first, and so his hypocrisy gets worse and worse. When he is finally discovered as a cheat and liar, he is avoided by all men, punished by the magistrate, and judged by the Almighty God.”

“An honest man always tells the truth. He does not exaggerate or embellish facts. He takes pains to make sure his claims can be proven. If he cannot prove a matter, then he does not speak or offers only an opinion. Because his word can be trusted, men put more and more confidence in him, until he is established with an honourable reputation for integrity.”

 

“It is our solemn duty to tell the truth regardless of cost to ourselves or others. It is a sacred duty to hate lies, regardless of the advantage or benefit the devil or world tells we might come by them. Let us not be gullible like Eve to the lies of others.”

 

Read more at:   http://beforeitsnews.com/india/2015/01/truth-is-forever-but-lie-for-a-moment-2444314.html

 

 

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3:31 am

I’ve decided to believe everything God ever said to me.  Some things are pretty far-fetched but the evidence supports his rightness.  I know he’ll have something for me to do pretty soon, so I’d like to get ready.  I got some new body oil, it’s really heavy and I only used it a couple times but already my skin feels less like a kiwi rind.  I’ve got to get rid of some more men’s clothes, it would be easier to do if I did not stay home all the time and douse myself in woodsmoke.  If I had somewhere to go regularly, it would be easier to start dressing better.  I got a decent haircut and my new hat is feminine.  One day I know the Lord will fill my body with strength again, he’s done it lots of times.  He’ll fix my skin and hair and set me on my way.  I’ve been waiting a long time for that.  I’d like to be on my way.

 

 

1/14/15

5:20 pm

The timer does not work on the oven, nor the off-switch.  I am looking for the bread to be done at around 5:45.  I told the men the same.  If it burns, will it be my fault?  Will it be evidence that I am less than mentally-well-and-proficient?  God have mercy on my lying parents and give them room to repent before hell opens up and swallows them whole.

5:18 pm

Somebody is going to hear me one day, and when that happens a lot of people will hear me, and my dad will be shocked.  Unless they come to arrest him first.

 

My book is selling better.

 

5:05 pm

 

I should make a list, of people I know personally, whose faith in God has suffered because of my parents’ activities.  They are a very bad influence on my community.  They say things that are not true, and castigate those who do not agree with them.  I should start my list, it’s in my head already.

5:03 pm

 

George is home sick again; he came into the kitchen to check on the status of supper.  He depends on me.  My parents have once again rocked the faith of a needy being.  This will get over, soon.

4:44

Hey, my parents own lots of “twenty-five–hundred-dollarses.”  They could help people not get  killed!  Might they spend their God-given money that way?  Could they?  Ever?  Or do they intend to take it all to hell with them?

Cops Worried After Citizens Engage In A New Form Of Crowd-funded, Direct Action Against Police State

“They have offered a $2,500 reward to anybody who submits information leading to the arrest or termination of cops who brutalize or kill people.”

Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/cops-worried-after-citizens-engage-in-a-new-form-of-crowd-funded-direct-action-against-police-state/#pQZHdIO1M1MVAWwp.99

4:38 pm

I’m making tuna casserole for supper, from some of the many boxes of macaroni and cheese mix that George stockpiles.  He raised his hand to Josh for a high-five, “We’re a team, buddy.”  There has been no teamwork in this house since my dad called me deficient.  We are factions.  My father is learning about factions.

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4:19 PM

 

OMG, this is really funny.  I read the first line of the nasty-gram my mom sent yesterday or the day before.  SHE WRITES IN THE THIRD PERSON!  I  can’t believe how arrogant those people are!  “Your parents…”  Puke in my mouth.  My mom thinks she’s the queen.

 

4:07  pm

Wow.  Diaries ARE good evidence.

Prince Andrew sex claim: ‘Sex slave diary’ published containing intimate details of Virginia Roberts alleged encounter with fifth in line to throne

Read more at:   http://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/prince-andrew-sex-claim-sex-slave-diary-published-containing-intimate-details-of-virginia-roberts-alleged-encounter-with-fifth-in-line-to-throne-9978015.html

 

3:48 pm

I don’t know how to stop.  I’m compelled to keep recording what our government is doing, but I REALLY want to stop bitching about my parents.  I want to move FOREWARD, rather than backward.  They could assist this but they insist that I become WEAKER and submit to their control.  I don’t know what to do about this.  I honestly believe I could help some people.  Can I possibly do this if my parents are not helped first?  They think they get to run other people’s lives.  So do the guys with the nukes.  It’s the same problem.

 

3:43 pm

Hey, if anybody else is as bored with my life as I am, check this out:

Four E-4B flying command posts that would be used by U.S. leaders to manage military operations in a nuclear war will receive communications upgrades to enhance their “connectivity” during a conflict that could spell the end of civilization as we know it.

Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/u-s-military-doomsday-planes-are-being-upgraded/#PFiVMJYmrZSW33Ct.99

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3:30 pm

God has been saying for a while that this is done, that he has accomplished what he intended.  It’s been hard for me to settle down, but when my father chooses for an ally a person who recognizes me even less than the old man?  I’m sitting pretty good.  Maybe I’ll believe God and be calm now.

 

 

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2:55 pm

I made George read what I wrote about him and Dad.  I also said, “You will be very proud of me.  I’ve been standing up for our family which served God until Dad got ahold of us.”  He’s in bed right now.

2:51 pm

And why would Dad attempt to destroy my only life-support system, George’s benevolence?  Creepy stuff, when you think about my dad.

 

2:49 pm

Why would my dad keep up this smear campaign for years after I began recording every detail of my day and why I did what I do?  It is really stupid.  Unless one is REALLY guilty…

2:45 pm

Also, it’s prima facie psychopathic to tell an adult who is complaining about her environment that she is “OK” because she has a “place to live.”  It is not another person’s place to determine that.  (Even WITHOUT the fact that he stole my home.)

2:41 pm

Oh, this was rich:  apparently my dad made a big deal to George that I sent my corpuscle message at three in the morning!   When I get up after eight hours George is still awake.  I can’t imagine what point my dad was trying to make to a TV addict.  He’s funny.

 

2:38 pm

TEXT TO DAD:

(I’ll get around to sending it when I’m done washing dishes.)

 

“George is your last ally?  Pitiful.”

 

UPDATE:  Here’s what I really sent:  “So George is your final ally.  You’re pitiful.”

 

2:36 pm

I know God is never late but I feel my corpuscles contracting in expectation.  I’m blowing this popstand one way or another.  I will not live in liar-ville.

2:33 pm

 

I’ve lived my life for men who never gave a shit what I did…until afterward.  This is not my fault because I always ask for advice.  Men have ignored me or lied to me.  This fact absolves me from any responsibility to be what they think I should.  Basic logic.

 

 

2:30 pm

–That’s why we’re here now, isn’t it?  Because George would not stick up for his family?
–I didn’t want to do it.  Especially when I was removed from the credibility-list.  Somebody has to stick up for this family that loved and served God until my father intervened.
–My dad’s final ally.

 

2:17 pm

“First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.”

(Gandhi)

2:11 pm

Grasping at straws:

Dad continues his smear campaign…this time he caught George and showed him messages (OMG) that  I sent to him.  I told George every message I sent my dad is on the website, in chronological order, and demonstrate my growing frustration.  I reminded him that he’s had the opportunity every day for six years to review what I write.  He’s never been interested.  Dad’s really popping ’em off into the dark.  Won’t be long and he’ll have to tell the truth.  (He lied again, though.  Remember when he told me it didn’t bother him what I wrote?  Before I went to Belgium.)   (I guess he liked the line about my corpuscles smashing against the wall. Thought he would.)

But, he hasn’t talked to me…

 

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12:47 pm

CIA Flashback: “We’ll Know Our Disinformation Program Is Complete When Everything the American Public Believes Is False.”

Hey, why should we suppose they SKIPPED US?

 

Read more at:   http://truthstreammedia.com/cia-flashback-well-know-our-disinformation-program-is-complete-when-everything-the-american-public-believes-is-false/

 

 

12:19 pm

Josh has been drinking a lot of tea so I made some butter tarts in time for breakfast.  He brought out some packets of condiments I brought him from Belgium.  We ate pate’.  Or some Euro-McDonald’s approximation of the same.  It smelled like cat food but it didn’t taste bad.  Josh is not goading George to try it.  Nice breakfast-time.

 

 

12:12 pm

 

“You and me, against the psychopaths.  Sometimes it feels like, you and me, against the psychopaths.  And when the moments of stark truth, and the joy and endless youth…flee from our longing eyes.  That’s when the realization comes, they stink and suck their thumbs, we’re better than we know.  And when psychopaths would pull you down…and when the lies around you make you drown…then remember me, and all I do.  I do these things for me and you.”  (“You and me against the world.”  Unknown. From some old movie about divorce.)
“I’ll never tell a lie…I’ll rise before the sun…I’ll make you proud of me…You’ll never see me run…Let’s do this thing for God…Let’s fly where we have plod…The world’s a grateful place…Or it will be, by God’s grace… I’m never gonna quit…truth’s way too hard to get, my enemies are dead, they’re headed where they’re led…I could go on forever, I will to not dissever, my contacts on this plane, though they lie and cause me pain…Josh likes the tarts I made, he’s worthy of the trade, he was told I’m not complete, he has wings upon his feet…I’ll not serve Godless men, I’ll not depend on them, I’ll not respect a man, who can’t see me as I am…my father told some lies.  …”   Ok.  It fit a melody when I started.
“Just think about the days of me and you, you and me against the psychopaths.”

 

 

 

11:45 am

“Will I have a convert, Dear Lord?  I started preaching when I was a little girl and I’ve been pissing people off ever since!  Will an atheist come to know you?  Will Adam?  Or my dad?  I can’t wait to find out if I’ve produced any fruit for you.”

 

 

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10:57 am

MUSIC BREAK

Shirley MacLaine – I’m Still Here – Postcards From The Edge

10:51 am

I suppose I could put a stop to my father’s bullshit immediately, if I had enough nerve to find my journals.  But that would require finding Adam and he hurt me more in one fell swoop than my father has over a lifetime of abuse.  I do not have enough confidence in God’s promise that ADAM WOULD LEAD A MILLION PEOPLE TO JESUS and that he and I would always trust one another like David and Jonathan.  I have not spoken to him except one time, since he threw me under the bus.  It was in Gettysburg, PA.  I walked by him in disgust at the circus within the sacred venue and I made a nasty comment about his “church.”  2009.  Is it possible that he believes in Jesus now?  Is it possible that he is the voice in my head and the goon in my computer?  He never liked my dad, because he liked TRUTH.  I love him more than any person on earth.  (God told me to but I didn’t have to work it up.)  Does he have my journals?  Does he owe his soul at the company store?  Is he in prison? God said he’s an angel and I should trust him.  That would have been easier if I had been able to know it was him.  I’ve had a difficult couple of years, but I’m obedient and even BF Skinner himself never had a more compliant lab-rat.  I’m VERY EAGER to know whose voice I followed and what we accomplished.
I mean besides the blog, which is a miracle since I was computer-illiterate and it records a lot of stuff about the revolution.  Thank you for that.

 

 

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10:32 am

Sometimes I go for hours now, without remembering that God said I will have “utterly complete vindication.”  (To maintain emotional comfort I always have to remind myself of God’s promises, from the Bible and from times I’ve been in his manifest presence and he talked to me.)  By this I know I’m getting better,  but it’s hard to know what I know, in the face of absolute denial…and my father’s ongoing smear campaign.  “Utterly complete vindication” brings me peace immediately.  My next thought is always “Your family will respect you.”  Then I smile even.  I always wanted to really know my family; I had no idea it would be so much work. (I also expected to respect them more when I did.)

 

 

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6:40 am

MUSIC BREAK

Paul Simon – Take Me to the Mardi Gras + lyrics

 

6:32 am

When you love people, you want them to love you back.  I thought this was evil, this desire.  But, I’ve learned it’s inherent to the process of transforming persons through love.  Perhaps our desire for love pulls cold hearts towards their only salvation?  Perhaps it’s necessary that we pine for others, that through our longing they are pulled along?  Who knows?   I know that my dad will love me, and he will love me for the right reasons and because he sees my heart clearly.  This is my desire.  I have others too.  God is giving me my heart’s desires because I gave my heart to him.  And my chastity.

 

 

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6:16 am

Ah.  Somebody loves me.  God said somebody did:

Hello dear Linda ,

in the church Carmel you met me before on the street they used to give short time after in front of Maria sculpture one painting with Teresa , her face like yours.

I pray for you and i miss you.
L.

6:09 am

Hey family!  Would you let me do a talk on what I learned in Belgium?  I won’t mention my own story, and I’ll cook.  Just think about it.

 

 

6:00 am

I am on the right side of history because I prayed every day, “Be it unto me according to your word.”  I believe that Jesus is the savior of the universe and the savior of me and I gave my life to him and he told me to pass it on to an atheist with a heart for truth.  I do not have to see into the future to understand that those who love “truth” are lovers of Jesus, the Christ.  Even if they never met him yet.  Prognosticators are unnecessary to divulge the TRUTH  that many, many, many people who claim to follow “Jesus” do NOT FOLLOW TRUTH.  Our roads diverge, pretty soon, here, now.  If you do not follow truth you ain’t goin’ much further on this train.  Amen.

 

5:48 am

I had some real love one time.  It wasn’t tainted with lies.  There were lots of empty places that lies could have filled up, but these were just left empty.  It was really pure.  I’d like to know that feeling again.
So, basically, I’ve been here for years defending George from my dad.  Think about it.  It’s the truth.

 

 

5:35 am

I’m telling you all:  Do not bet with my father!  He can have his pants around his ankles and he’ll still say his ass isn’t dirty.  He’s a LIAR.  Even if you win, he’ll swing the toilet paper around with feces embedded!  Absolute non-human.

5:18 am

“You save what can be saved.”  I said that to dad when it became clear he would not help me get rid of drug dealers in the house or to fix up my life and Josh’s.  He knew what I meant.  We were talking about George.  I told him I had to do what I had to do to fix this family and it would damage George,  and Dad knew what was going on.  I really do plead for his soul, he’s a fraud through and through.

 

 

5:03 am

 

Fukushima plant — “Public may think worst is over… Nothing could be further from the truth”

“[Radioactive water is] leaking out into the ocean, allowing it to spread… around the world through ocean currents [and this has] prompted grave concerns over the impact on sea life in the area and around the world. [Officials] decided to build an “ice wall” around the reactor site… TEPCO conceded defeat and announced the efforts to construct the plug failed… As if things couldn’t get worse, less than two months ago, TEPCO once again came out with an announcement that it was having problems with the ice wall [and] was going to cease operations on the ice wall and pour cement… TEPCO President Naomi Hirose stated officials “will never give up” on the wall…debate continues over how to stop water from leaking into the oceanoutright failures continue to plague the Fukushima cleanup efforts.

 

 

 

 

See more at:   http://enenews.com/outright-failures-continue-plague-fukushima-japan-tv-new-method-failing-stop-flow-highly-contaminated-water-public-thinks-worst-could-be-further-truth-video

 

4:55 am

Do you think my dad could recognize that when he speaks words against me, demons are dispatched to make those things true?  Could my father understand that he curses others every time he wishes/speaks ill about them?  Is it possible that he might repent of causing me to be ill by calling me ill?  Could he come clean?  Or must GOD CUT OFF HIS LYING LIFE SO HE CAN NO LONGER HARM OTHERS?

 

 

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4:48 am

My gifts have never endeared me to my parents.  My dad bought me a steak once, years ago, at his restaurant. I didn’t genuflect,  and they were displeased.  The “steak”  tasted amazing, it was juicy.  It was also composed  of meat-saw-dust.  My consideration of detail is annoying to those who wallow in GLITZ!  Always glitz with my parents, and no substance.  Synthetics.

 

 

 

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4:32 am

At the risk of sounding crazy, the Fukushima DISASTER gives me great joy. The destruction of the Pacific ocean by arrogant humanity…gives me confidence and great hope.  I am encouraged that the vast majority of people don’t have a clue what’s going on there.  (I only know of a couple websites that even mention the continual pumping of radioactivity into our environment.)  These things make me happy because 1) they support my scriptural interpretation of  our current period of human history, 2) I know God can fix it anyway, and he said he had different plans for Earth after all the liars are exterminated, and 3) it’s further evidence that he is “exposing all things” and revealing truth thereby making liars 1) uncomfortable, 2) SHRINK, 3) eventually enter hell. (Define “hell” as you will.)   We’ve lived to see the day.  If you can call this living.
George’s TV is really loud.  They just went to bed so I got up.  I can’t stay in bed long enough to wake at a quiet deserted time.  The cat’s dish was completely empty, the dog’s dish was completely empty, nothing has changed in the house ever, when I wake up.  The dishes are left, the water bowl is scummy.  TV.  HOURS and hours of TV.  I can’t wait for God to change this environment.   At least Josh doesn’t watch much TV.
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4:10 am

George and I used to sing this around the piano with the boys.  I’d like to do it again.

“Give thanks, with a grateful heart, give thanks to the Holy One,
Give thanks, because he’s given Jesus Christ, his son,
And now, let the weak say “I am strong”
Let the poor say “I am rich”
Because of what the Lord has done for us.
Give thanks.  Give thanks.”

 

1/13/15

5:08 pm

 

I made some coney sauce, it’s delicious.  I like ground venison because it has a velvety mouth-feel.  I can’t believe God knows of my gift for detecting nuances in food, without believing he will permit me opportunity to use it.  I’d be disappointed to know my palate is intended merely to make vegetarianism aesthetically feasible.

 

 

3:57 pm

MAYBE I’LL JUST STAY HERE  AND SELF-MEDICATE WITH CARBOHYDRATES LIKE MY PARENTS DO!

3:43 pm

I know what I would like to see happen:  I’d like my dad to bring me the keys to a new car and the keys to the condo and say, “Linda.  I’m very sorry you were tortured.  I’d like to help make you stronger,  and to become everything God intended for your life, when I changed my own prospects, by knocking up your teenage mother.” However, God’s ways are not our ways.  Whenever we think we know what God is going to do, we’re wrong. Whenever we even have a list of potential outcomes, we’re wrong.  God has been exposing a lot of things, in ways I couldn’t have imagined when I began the blog.  I NEVER thought I’d be free to write about electronic torture!  Just days after I started the blog Edward Snowden pulled his stunt.  How could I EVER have imagined that?  How could I have imagined the turmoil the world has experienced since May, 2013?  How could I have thought that God would always give me the perfect articles to substantiate my claims, right after I made those claims?  He’s a good god and he has a great plan for my life.  I wish he’d take my father out of the way because I’m growing “weary in well-doing.”  This should not be so.  I need some nurturing.  I need somebody to pray with me.  I need a friend.

 

 

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3:41 pm

Josh wrote a really good essay about police brutality and racism.  (And he SHOWED it to me.)  It was well thought-out and his points were well presented.  I didn’t know he ever thinks about current politics, we usually discuss ancient history.  Bright man.  “Thank you, Lord.”

2:46 pm

My parents are rolling over, it’s just taking a while.  Their bones are creaky.  They are so on-the-record ridiculous that it put a crack in their reality.  They’ll have to take the whole truth-bath now, or they’ll go crazy.  They can feel it coming on so I know they’ll make the right decision.

 

2:21 pm

That condo in Toronto is one of my favorite places in the world, and it has a bathtub.  (It’s easy to clean out.  I know because I always cleaned up when I stayed there.)  The bathtub is off the bedroom with my second-favorite bed I’ve ever slept in.  (George and I tried really hard to buy a mattress like that but we couldn’t find one.)  It would cost nobody a penny, to let me stay there and get warm for a week or two.  Heidi Baker is preaching in Toronto next week!  She’s coming all the way from Mozambique!  My parents could help me, as I seek to heal my emotions and winter-wizened body.  Dad said, “That’s not happening.”  Nice guy, right?

 

 

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2:12 pm

I am so stressed, I’ve taken only a couple full breaths since November.  I really need some relief.  My options are limited.  I could take a long drive and pray all the way then pray with somebody when I get there.  That would be my first choice.  Failing that, I could maybe try magic mushrooms?  They’re supposed to be really helpful but I don’t happen to have any.  I could have sex?  (In my dreams.)  I can’t go for a jog, because the road’s too slippery.  I can’t soak in a hot tub, because the only tub is in George’s bathroom and I don’t want to get naked in there.  I’ve done a lot of napping, but waking up is really stressful, I’m better off awake.  Yup.  Prayer.  I need to pray with somebody.  I need truth and prayer.  That’s always what I need.

 

10:07 am

My dad’s cousin stopped by, to speak to Dad as he was plowing.  I took him some brownies too.  I hope Dad doesn’t think he has to apologize for me now.

 

9:56 am

My dad is plowing outside, a trail into the woodpile created when his man took out a whole bunch of trees and piled them up.  I went outside to give him a couple cream cheese brownies.  He had dug a hundred-foot trail into fresh snow.  I said, “That must be so much fun.  I always wanted to plow.”  He said, “It’s fun until you break down.”  I said, “Everything is fun until you break down.”  He took the brownies but he looked at them skeptically first.
He never responded yesterday, to my request for a corporate-discount room in Toronto so I can pray with somebody.  It wouldn’t cost him a red cent.  This man leads a “Christian” family.  Such a pity.

 

 

 

9:30 am

 

You know how it is when you have a really bad pain, like a headache?   If it eases and goes away, sometimes you don’t even notice it’s gone.  Suddenly it’s like, “Wow!  I don’t have a headache anymore.”  I think that’s because pain-free is our intended state.  I think that we assume and permit MUCH more pain than we need to, because we think that’s the life-condition of the ordinary human.  I believe, that if you believe in God, it’s really AWFUL to think he would create a species that he meant to live in continual pain.  That’s kind of sadistic, is it not?  We can talk about the fall, and original sin and all that.  But, Jesus’ death and resurrection canceled that out.  We should get with the program.

 

 

9:09 am

I should tell those clerks how much it means to me when they smile!  I have been remiss, I used to tell everybody I loved them at Connie’s, it was my church before God burned it down.  I should start taking my new clerks some food, even if they think I’m weird.  I’ve prayed that God would “enlarge my borders.”  I should take advantage of the new ground.  Maybe I will bless somebody.  I’d like to be a blessing more than nearly anything.

 

 

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8:32 am

Lots and lots of people have become anarchists in the past few years.  MANY MORE than in previous decades. As people wake up to the recognition of their own enslavement, they eventually come to realize the lunacy of permitting other like-organisms to tell us what to do.  It’s really silly when you get right down to it.  I only became an anarchist a couple years ago.  That’s another reason I’d like to see my journals.  I began writing as a disillusioned paleo-conservative and I recorded the steps of my ascension to ultimate anarchy.  (Other than total submission to Jesus, the King, of course.)  I have not been moved to try to retrieve the journals yet, I think there is purpose in the fact that I have not spoken to Adam for years and that he is smart enough to have secured the records of the assault perpetrated against us.  I’m looking forward to asking him questions, about the times we were being set up.  Many “messages” were sent to me, and to him as well,  I assume.  When we sort this out, we will have an incredible story with all the i’s dotted and the t’s crossed.  In God’s time.

Also, it really makes me stronger to be around him.  I hope we get to work together again.

 

 

8:25 am

 

“Live free or die” is not a declaration of conviction; it is a statement of biological fact. At this point, it should be the mantra of the entire human race.  If other organisms prohibit us from establishing our own environment then we will eventually die, from deprivation. We need nurturing, we need other people.   I almost died from forced isolation.  I love going to the store and talking to the clerks, they never know how much it means to me.  For a long time I couldn’t do it.  Crowds were unthinkable, I know people who still live that way.  Gang-stalking and gaslighting create social isolation, in addition to their other nefarious effects.  We have to eliminate intentional psychological imprisonment of one another.  I suppose we could start by abolishing schools.

 

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7:05 am

 

Perverts are not popular anymore.  When I went to law school they were really popular.  This is a good development.  I don’t have any problem with people enjoying their bodies; my favorite recreational organs are my lungs.  However, when there are victims we have to put a stop to it.  Everybody knows that.  Religious victimizers will suffer  the brunt of the assault of truth, I think.

 

 

6:56 am

MUSIC BREAK

This was the ring-tone on my phone the first time I ran for Congress.  What a sweet baby I was.

Eric Clapton – Change the World lyrics

 

6:41 am

How can any person not yet notice that our freedoms are gone?  They’ve taken our air, they’ve taken our water. We can’t grow plants or burn wood, yet we must be warmed.  We must ingest organisms that nourish our bodies, but they do not permit us to choose or produce our own.  We are not permitted to protect our families against intruders.  We are not even alive anymore.

 

 

6:16 am

Hey Dad, isn’t this pretty good evidence that I’m not crazy?  Isn’t it also a really good reason to give me some information and some money so I could share my story with people who could help save human consciousness?

Hundreds of leading scientists and technologists have joined Stephen Hawking and Elon Musk in warning of the potential dangers of sophisticated artificial intelligence, signing an open letter calling for research on how to avoid harming humanity.

LOOK SEE, I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO IS SAYING THAT TRANSHUMANISM IS INTENDED TO CREATE A NEW SPECIES THAT IS NOT HUMAN AND I FOR ONE WOULD REALLY MISS BEING HUMAN!

 

(And these guys are SMART.  Except for Hawking hanging out with that pervert but what’s a guy in a wheelchair gonna do about it?)

Read more here:   http://rt.com/usa/222015-scientists-dangers-artificial-intelligence/

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5:52 am

I just lost a button off my twenty-year-old coat.  It’s full-length blanket wool, Hudson Bay plaid, black and white, with fringe.  I feel like Grizzly Adams.  I bought the coat when I was 10 sizes too fat to wear it.  I knew it was quality, and I love vintage/authentic textiles.  I just realized, as I lost the first button in twenty years, that two words are synonymous in my mind:  “quality”  and “durability.”  I have some reflection to do, but I’m encouraged about many things.  I am the most durable person I know.  “Thank you, Jesus.”

 

 

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5:40 am

The manifest presence of God is where humans are always happy and fulfilled.  Opportunities to be in God’s presence have been rare, up until now, except for those who sought him with their whole hearts.  (Some of them walk with him daily, and see Jesus every time they pray.)  Thing is, we’re living in unusual times and God is “pouring out his Spirit on all flesh.”  All flesh means everybody.  Everybody is going to experience “weirdness” because the spirit realm is unusual to those creatures previously bound to physical “reality.”  When you see something weird happen…and you will… what are you gonna do about it?  Moses saw a bush on fire.  Big deal.  But he noticed that the wood wasn’t becoming charred, he saw no ash, it didn’t look right.  He went to check it out and that’s when he heard the voice of God for the first time.  We must “turn aside” from TV and other programming, to check out the weirdness.  You’ll know what I’m talking about before long.  If you’re not a zombie yet.

 

“Hey Lord, that sounds kinda prophetic!  That’s fun.  But I know it’s really true from personal experience so this isn’t too hard to say.  Thanks.  Have a great morning.”

5:25 am

This is gonna be great.  When God does whatever it is that he’s going to do with whatever it was that tortured me.  (I need to find some nouns.)  I can get no help from God’s creation so I guess he’s going to have to intervene himself.  I cannot live without more truth, and I certainly cannot help anybody else who is presently being tortured and raped and sees no end in sight.  To be targeted is a death sentence.  To be targeted is a death sentence.  We will shortly ALL BE TARGETED.  What else is this technology  for?  Be reasonable.  The fact that these technologies exist ENSURES that they will be used on the largest number of people.  If for no other reason than the fact that the manufacturers would like to sell more units!!!  WE ARE ALL POTENTIAL TARGETS AND SHOULD PROBABLY PUT OUR FOOT DOWN SOON.

 

5:14 am

“More of you.  More of you!  I’ve had all, but what I need, just more of you.

Of things I’ve had my fill, and yet I hunger still,

Empty and bare, Lord hear my prayer, for more of you!”  (Unknown.  John W Peterson?)

1/12/15

6:52 pm

Glenn Close is in this movie, but when I saw the raccoon in a spacesuit I checked out.  We had our family time.

6:46 pm

I am a movie buzz-killer.  I just disrupted the action to ask George if he could figure out some way for our kids to watch Blade Runner.  I told him it’s socially significant.  I am nuts.

 

MUSIC BREAK

The movie has a lot of killing but some really good music.  This song is the only number 1 hit by a Native American band.  And I love it.  And I mean it.  And I’d love to love somebody.

Redbone – Come And Get Your Love – The Midnight Special 1974

I’m a failure at movie-watching.  I can’t watch the action sequences…wow…BETTER SONG!

 

“Go all the way!”    By the “Raspberries!”

 

6:26 pm

You know what else Josh said?  This was really weird.  I was into my schtick, “I don’t run around with men!  I don’t even go out after dark!”  He said, “Yeah, if you did some of those things people would think you were more normal.”

6:11 pm

I’m going to watch a movie with George and Josh, I can’t believe it.  Hope you guys don’t miss me too much.

So I said to Josh, I’m getting a bit frantic:  “I cannot live with this false reputation my parents put on me.  Am I or am I not consistent and kind?”  (He said I was usually kind.  I said I WANT to be kind.)  He said he never hears people say bad things about me anymore.  He hugged me for a long time.  I told him about begging my father for help, when we lived in a drug house.  He said, “But you wanted it.”  I said, “No, I didn’t.  It’s in the book.  But, even if I had, when I found out what the environment was like for you and me I begged my dad for help to end it. Lots of letters.”  He asked, “What did you want him to do?”  I said, “I asked for a closet somewhere that I could live so you would have someplace else to go sometimes.”

I got his endorsement.  When Isaac was home he said I was a “beautiful person.”  I got his endorsement too.  George punches holes in the drywall.  What does he know?

5:40 pm

Another reason I’d like to see my journals again, is because they document my daily efforts to become more healthy, mentally and spiritually.  I recorded some really great resources for people who are tortured as I was. I have other journals that I’ve never looked at,  that I wrote while Isaac was walking me back into reality after the rapes stopped.  I’d like to help some people.  Three homemade sauces for dinner tonight, one for the pork cutlets, Greek salad dressing, very yummy, and a soy ginger thing that George likes on his rice.  But, I am deemed deficient.  My father should tell some truth so my life may begin again.

 

 

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4:59 pm

George spent the afternoon rearranging the cans in the pantry.  He pointed out that the panko costs more than regular bread crumbs and the package was lighter.  I can use regular bread crumbs.  He said, “A little obsessive-compulsive is good.”  I didn’t laugh.

 

 

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4:50 pm

 

I want my emotions to be perfectly aligned with truth.  That’s what I’m working on lately.  If I can retain every word of God, and I can believe that he accomplished everything he said when he died and rose again, then my emotions will be accurate, and reality will align with God’s will.

 

4:46 pm

One day soon I’ll be united with another Christian and we will pray together.  Then there will be more with us and we’ll pinpoint our prayers perfectly.  We’ll pray against demons and we’ll pray for people.  We’ll change the world.  It’s in the Bible.

 

4:21 pm

I haven’t been teaching too much lately; here’s some food for thought:  Witchcraft spirits exist, and torment humanity. They infest psychopaths, and lots of other people.  Spirits of witchcraft are not as we’d assume, no cauldrons and incantations.  Witchcraft spirits manifest in outrageous attempts to control other people.  I used to have a spirit of witchcraft.  I was very embarrassed about my house, the kitchen in particular, if it wasn’t completely clean and orderly.  I wouldn’t permit any guest to come in the kitchen  if I was cooking or cleaning up.  I wanted to CONTROL EVERYBODY’S OPINION OF ME.  One very fine Christian woman stayed with us and she wanted to help me.  I was too embarrassed to let her do what the Lord was leading her to do.  She sat me down and said, “Linda.  You have a spirit of witchcraft.”  Then she prayed with me and now my kitchen is messy but I can continue to serve people without feeling terrible.   People would like it so much if they became free of their demons. I’m mostly free.  When people curse me, I plead the blood of Jesus against their words and intentions.  It takes a while for me to settle down, but Jesus’ blood is omnipotent.
I expect my journals have some really good Bible teaching in them.  God told me shortly after I met Adam, that Adam would lead a million people to the Lord.  Adam was an atheist.  Subsequent events caused me to write, and notarize, my entire life non-stop for two years.  I taught him about Jesus.  I LEARNED about Jesus, and as I did I recorded my experiences.  God said also, that Adam and I would do something important together.  (I think we may be nearly finished.)  He also said I was going to be a political prophet.  My journals contain political predictions that have come to pass so maybe we’re on the right track.  Maybe I will be a prophet.  Maybe I did hear God’s voice the zillion times I said I did.

 

 

 

4:15 pm

Josh comes home at five.  I pounded slices of pork loin and steamed some jasmine rice.  I’ll make Japanese cutlets.  Leftover cream cheese brownies.  I didn’t bake today after doing the crumpets this morning.

12:19 pm

I’m waiting for somebody to tell me it’s OK for me to feel pain.  I’m waiting for somebody to say it’s normal to be anxious after what I experienced, and that the anxiety  will go away.  I’m waiting for somebody to say it’s wrong for me to be accused of deficiency or criminal intent.  I’m waiting for somebody to understand that I need to clear my name and that I cannot stop.  I’m waiting for somebody to say my children deserve truth about a very dark period in our home, and its ongoing fallout.  I’m waiting.  I’ve been waiting since 2009.

 

12:08 pm

“Most rape and sexual assault cases go unreported largely due to three factors: shame, guilt and fear.”

 

“I viewed all men in a completely different light. I was broken and in emotional pain.”

“I  no longer feel guilt or shame. My only fear is that we continue to live in a patriarchal society built on greed and cruelty, promoting assault and violence against others.”

Read more at:   http://msmagazine.com/blog/2014/12/01/the-silence-behind-rape-and-sexual-assault-a-response-to-victim-shaming/

 

 

 

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12:06 pm

When the victim of an event is blamed, or partially blamed, for their own attack. Mainly used in context with rape, domestic abuse, sexual harassment and sexual assault, but can be applied to other situations. It wrongly shifts blame from the guilty party onto the victim, and therefore doesn’t (or makes it more difficult to) punish the one truly at fault. The term was popularized by the SlutWalk movement, which started after a Canadian police officer advised female students to “avoid dressing like sluts” in order to avoid being victimized.
(Urban Dictionary)

 

 

11:40 am

This has got to end!  How long can my parents maintain this charade that I’ve done anything wrong?  I don’t even leave the house after dark!  I cook and clean and pray!  “Dear Jesus, please come quickly.  Amen.”

 

 

11:20 am

I told my dad once, during the time I was defending him, “The people who watch us like me a lot better than you.”  He said, “I suppose they would.”  (It’s in my notes somewhere.  Dated, etc.)

 

10:53 am

One little piece of information.  Who was it, that my parents  “did not arrange to have me raped” by?  I defended my dad when I heard what he’d done.  It’s time for him to become the man I told the goons he was.

 

10:01 am

 

Maybe today some sane person will take my dad aside and say, “Robert, stand down.  Your daughter never considered harming a soul in her life.  Not even those people who she’d very much prefer to view in the rear-view mirror.  Yourself included.  You must stop lying and do right by her.”

 

9:20 am

 

Why am I still defending my right to autonomous life?  My parents are STILL attempting to control me, and unwilling to bear responsibility for the damage they caused my family.  Holy WAH.  They’re really embarrassing.

 

8:02 am

I’m making fresh crumpets for Josh’s breakfast, he’ll be getting up soon.  Silly yes,but what’s a crazy lady to do with her time if not care for her family?  My parents look stupider every day.  Wouldn’t you think they’d care about that?  (I mean, people like them.)

 

 

7:35 am

If my dad’s a Christian, I’m Miss America.  (I wish both were true.)

OK, I’ll try this text:

“Dear Dad, since you will not allow me to rest my head in your vacant condo so that I can pray in Toronto, would you do this?  May I please have a company discount on a room somewhere near the airport?  That’s where the church is.   Love and kisses, Linda”

 

 

 

7:26 am

 

I think the biggest issue here, as far as my dad is concerned, is what will be the fallout of his confession.  I told him once that my boys would lick his blood.  I expect this, but the boys are circumspect and logical.  This can go down without very much bloodshed I am thinking.  I do not want my father’s hide.  I want his sustenance, which he owes me for dozens of reasons I’ve documented since he stopped talking to me.  I do not seek vengeance.  I seek truth.  I will probably get both.
My parents just whelped a baby then ran out the door.  Then they accuse me of ill-behavior.  Sheesh.

 

7:15 am

I learned something last night.  All those years I spent nearly comatose from migraines and nausea…that was my dad.  I never knew it until he cursed me yesterday.  He’s been really destructive.  He should learn to love.  Wish he’d pick me.

 

 

MUSIC BREAK

I’m really glad God is taking me past these false definitions of love and Christianity and democracy.  It’s hard though, because I have nobody to talk to.  Soon I will.

Dedicated to the Baptists who know not God:

6:52 am

How wonderful to be one of the most beautiful women on instagram.  Fulfillment.  Go sit down now, Sweetie.

 

 

6:45 am

 

My mom is so very creepy.  She looks like she’s made out of plastic.  She can’t smile normally, she grimaces and the concentration required to fold her lips makes sweat break out on her forehead.  I love that woman so much.  She’d love to be free. (“Dear Lord, am I judging my mother by recognizing her difficulties?  Am I loving her to hope that someday she may smile freely?”)  I recognize that my mom did what she had to do to survive life with a psychopath.  Her family refused to help her too.  I will to not judge.  I will to observe correctly.

 

6:12 am

I just found also, a nasty-gram from my mom.  I didn’t read it.  Her words do not ever make me healthier.

6:02 am

HEY!  I found a message from my dad from after I parked my car in his driveway yesterday:

“Your car is leaking way to much anti-freeze will order new needed part.”

I responded:

“How much is it supposed to leak?  You should order me a new car.  But you know that.”

 

5:43 am

My parents  want me to go to a psychiatrist, because my religion’s wrong.  This is a very humorous situation.  Their god is exposed, so very exposed.

 

But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you.
“Dear Lord, in fulfillment of Matthew 5:44, I wish to bless my persecutors, the humans  who call me crazy for believing your book and yourself:   Please enable me to pray for my parents, in your manner, and in your time, and in your words.”   OK:   “Dear Lord, I present my parents to you once again.  You’ve watched their behavior and their opposition to my spiritual advancement which is the natural result of my desire for ALL OF YOU.  They do not understand consecration unto death, so I respectfully request that you teach them about sacrifice.  They do not understand your commandment to “take up your cross” and (truthfully, neither do I but we’ll go round the block about it again, I expect, you and me) they will sacrifice NOT ONE IOTA OF HUMAN COMFORT OR POSITIVE REGARD FROM MAN.  They WILL NOT sacrifice for people they are obligated to love.  They do not give up anything to anybody ever.  Teach them love.  Cover them with love.  Love them with love.”
“Dear Lord, I submit that I have 1) blessed them that curse me, 2) done good to them that hate me, and 3) prayed for them which CONTINUALLY despitefully use me and occasionally persecute me.  Please give me further instructions or rewards as you see fit.  TTYL”

 

 

5:20 am

You are Lord!  You are Lord! You are risen from the dead and you are Lord!
Every knee shall bow, every tongue confess,
That JESUS CHRIST is Lord!
I slept like a baby, God gave me a miracle.  I was very sick last night, it was the first time I’ve had a headache in years.  (Note:  I forgot about headaches when I said I had experienced every symptom of psychotronic manipulation.  I used to get headaches EVERY DAY but didn’t have any during the past few years.)  Then I threw up and was really spacey and sick.  Then God made me better.  Then God gave me peace.  Then I slept like a baby.
My dad is a really poor loser.  He wants me warehoused, he said:  “You’ve got a place to live.  You’re OK.”  I have not been OK for a very long time and he knows that.  He lacks compassion.  He lacks love.  The Bible says you know Christians by their love.  “Dear Lord please enlarge my heart again and fill it with so much divine love that I can pity my father more, and love him more, and cover me with your blood and truth so that his curses just roll off my back…and I can love him even more.  Thank you, Wonderful Jesus.”

 

1/11/15

6:40 pm

 

I feel really terrible.  I feel awful.  I always feel really lonely and that’s not nice, but today my parents cursed me and I’m feeling it.  I pleaded the blood of Jesus over myself and my family and my home and my parents and my state and Adam and my brother and sister and their families.  Not much else I can do.  Guess I should try to sleep.

 

6:29 pm

I forgot something that usually happens.  Just when I’m feeling really terrible, as terrible as I’ve felt since I got back from Belgium, God blesses me with something wonderful.  So I said to Josh, ‘Pretty soon you are going to be very proud of me.  I defended our family for six years.  You will be very proud of me.’

 

5:49 pm

Dad, you know I’ve never lied in my life.  Not even when you wanted me to.  This is over.

 

5:29 pm

I can’t calm down, just can’t do it.  I’m OUTRAGED and I’m INCENSED and I’m MORTIFIED TO BE RELATED TO MY FATHER!  For the sake of anything even remotely holy what the HELL does he think he’s ACCOMPLISHING?  If Mom follows him into hell does he get a prize?  STUPID man.  STUPID.  I prayed with my young friend, and I vented a lot.  I started praying nicely and ended up screaming at Jesus.  I yelled, “WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?  You set this up and then you don’t come around to finish it and I CLAIMED YOUR NAME EVERY DAY WHILE I WAS BEING TORTURED!”  I reminded him, “It’s not my name on the line here.  It’s the name of JESUS CHRIST.”  Then I calmed down.  Apologized.  And I gave my friend some vegetable soup. I’m not so calm anymore.

 

 

4:26 pm

George is vacuuming now, after checking whether it would bother my activities.  He KNOWS.  He knows I’m not a liar and he doesn’t have the nerve to confront anybody.  God bless him.  I pray for him.

 

 

4:17 pm

To Mom:

Text:

Dad and I made a bet.  Do not be stupid too long.  And do not lie anymore.  I love you.  Dad does not.  But you know that…

 

 

3:43 pm

To Mom:

 

“I do not really care if you like me.  I care that you do not go to hell.  We can spend eternity discussing our differences and discovering our similarities.  I can wait.  But I cannot easily dismiss you to the fate my lying father has in store for us.  Unless we listen to God.”

 

 

3:41 pm

It’s kinda funny watching my mom claim my dad to be an honest man.  Her eyes dart this way and that.  “Lord, please deliver my mother from the house of lies.”

 

 

3:35 pm

You don’t get to die a fraud, none of us get to die a fraud.  We may behave fraudulently every day of our lives, but when we die…there’s some real truth for ya.  We will all face the consequences of how we lived our earthly lives.  I’m really, really ready to go there.  I really want people to understand my motivations.  I pray for family members who believed this life was all there was, and behaved accordingly.  (“Lord, please PLEASE have mercy on my lying parents.  They know not whom they serve.”)

 

 

 

3:21 pm

Maybe I’ll try this:
“Mama!  I was raped!”  No, that didn’t help when I was a child…

 

3:17 pm

TEXT TO MY MOM:

 

“I’m praying for you.  I know you’re a victim too.”

 

3:05 pm

 

“Dear Lord, it’s hard to face such frauds!  Does anybody love you anywhere?  You asked the same question a long time ago.  Please forgive my parents for their lack of love.  Fill them with your Spirit.  More fire please.  (And give me grace to take it.)  Amen.”

 

2:59 pm

My parents’ secretary is working on Sunday, doing church books.  Is that OK?

Just went to my folks’ house.  I am not permitted to go pray in Ontario.  My mother lied right to my face, Dad did too but that’s to be expected.  At least they’ve picked up a few tidbits of my story, even  though they have refused to talk to me.  Mom said, “We didn’t arrange for you to be raped.”  I’ve never said that word in her presence so I’m glad she’s keeping up.  She said, “Your father doesn’t lie.”  (Gag.)  I’ve documented MANY innocuous lies over just the past year!  “Do they make replacement gas caps?”  “No, put a baggie over it with a rubber band.”  He LIES EVERY SINGLE SECOND!  She’d like me to see a doctor.  I’ve asked numerous times what symptoms I display…other than believing God talks to us.  Nada.  She trusts doctors instead of GOD!  She’s not a Christian either.  Dad took lots of pictures of me as I knelt in front of him begging him to shoot me and put us both out of our misery.  I guess that was a mistaken statement for him.  His misery would get worse.

2:17 pm

 

TEXT TO DAD:

 

“Coe shoot me.  I wish to die.  I won’t tell anybody it was you.”

(Spelling error, my bad.  It should have said “COME SHOOT ME.”)

2:01 pm

Don’t you just love it when a moron says, “That’s your opinion” when he never will ever look at evidence?

I just mouthed off to George.  I said all the things I previously wrote.  He said he’ll get an apartment in the spring.  We’ve been divorced for nearly three years.  In an hour, he will tell me how wonderful the soup is and we’ll be cordial.  GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF THIS LYING CESSPOOL!  “Lord, take me home.  I won’t kill myself but I’d be very grateful if you did the deed.  Amen.”
“Dear Dad.  I wish to die.  Please come shoot me and I’ll make sure nobody knows it was you.”

1:46 pm

George is a suck-ass.  He’s folding clothes.  I cried and said that I am very troubled after 6 years of looking for truth about what happened to me.  I said, “You KNOW things happened that are not like me.  And you NEVER CARED to help me find out about it.”  I cried a lot.  He’s folding clothes.  He chose my father over me.  I never lied to him once in 25 years.  My father lies whenever he breathes.  “Lord, please have mercy on George and give him love for truth.  Give him joy and peace and determination and motivation and wisdom and discernment.”  (That’s a prayer I’ve offered many times.)  I’m having a bad day.  I’m making soup again, because he’s still sick.  I’m making crumpets for Josh.  Somebody should do a thing or two for me,  I think.

 

 

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You think Dad’s a Christian? Text to him:

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

1:02 PM (34 minutes ago)

to David
“I am suffering and need some help.  I’d like to pray with somebody.  Will you pray with me?  Or maybe you could let me stay in Toronto so I could pray with Christians there?”

12:59 pm

TEXT TO DAD:

“I am suffering and need some help.  I’d like to pray with somebody.  Will you pray with me?  Or maybe you could let me stay in Toronto so I could pray with Christians there?”

12:52 pm

 

My dad knows that real Christians exist.  It gives him the willies.  Some Christians don’t fawn all over him because he’s rich.  They actually SEE HIS BULLSHIT, and love him just the same.

 

12:44 pm

We’re over-the-top.  We humans feel that every experience is the definitive one, and so we overreact.  We are conditioned to live in stories prescribed for us by others,  and we do not see our life-events as steps on a path to somewhere.  Everybody’s got a destination.  Every tiny slip makes a difference and folks  do not even consider their own footsteps.  We can no longer indulge the luxury of living in denial.  Time is short.  Some of us are very happy that’s the case.

12:02 pm

TEXT TO MOM:

“You’ll burn in hell if you don’t tell the truth.”

11:51 am

George is up.  I’m not doing very well.  For six years I’ve been writing non-stop, the longest CRY FOR HELP ON RECORD.  My dad pulled an “intervention” once,  because he “cared” about me.  He didn’t include me in the intervention though, and that’s pretty psychopathic, but still, he wanted people to think he cared.  Alas,  “Tyranny doesn’t respect reason and at a certain point, couldn’t care less about image.”  SIX YEARS AND NO HELP.  I do not think I will die, darn, because God has a purpose for my life and I WILL fulfill my destiny.  HOWEVER, do not believe my family is anything like Christian.

I’m going to ask my father  again to let me stay in Toronto so I can PRAY WITH SOME REAL CHRISTIANS.

 

 

MUSIC BREAK

(Whitney Houston’s sister in the movie tried to kill her.)

10:36 am

People are born and abandoned every day.  They breathe until they die, but without love, life-opportunities are few and distant.  I didn’t know that lack-of-love was my life-long experience, how could I?  I believed the lies I was taught.  Those who say they love but demonstrate indifference, are responsible for a lot of damage on this planet. No wonder people equate love with sex or gifts or neurotic attentions.  That’s what they’ve been taught.  In my cult-of-origin, we were taught that love was duty and very hard work.  According to their definition, love is not only a challenge,  but also not to be enjoyed, not to be expected, not to be fulfilling, not to be MOTIVATIONAL.  Love is the most motivational precept I know.  To be motivated by love is having wings on your feet.  Love’s motivation is supernatural, and strengthens us beyond belief.  When a person loves us,  his/her estimation of our value and abilities increases both exponentially.  I could use a little love about now.
I am blessed, you might say, in my dearth of love, because I at least expected some.  I grew up in the church, I have family.  Many people do not ever have those things, so absence-of-love is not merely their lifestyle, but also their only possible expectation.  To recognize that not a single human soul cares about me is difficult right now, because I’m growing frantic.  I assumed that when somebody knew what I’ve suffered, that somebody might reach out to me.  My family has decided I am not worthy of life.  They do not want me to speak or to live. They wish me to be without options or even a home…or even a single conversation.  6 years they’ve refused to talk.  “Jesus is love.”  I hope they know what they’re doing.

5:35 am

MY DAD AND OTHERS LIKE HIM ARE DESTROYING HUMANITY:

“If they were born to rule…they would not need lies. Lies are meant to hide lack of validity and lack of strength.”

“The root pillar of elitist globalism itself, is that some men are born to rule…while other men are born to serve.  Some men are born kings and other men are born slaves.  The psychopathy of this system should be evident, but psychopathy also elicits blinding ego and hubris, which smothers any inherent questions of motive.”
“I do not think the elite ever actually consider the validity of their own philosophies; I am relatively certain their manner of viewing  the world  is  much like that of a cult, a religious sect, driven by the power of brutality of zealotry rather than the empowering nature of understanding.  Such men cannot be reasoned with.”
More at:  

 

 

 

1/10/15

6:39 pm

The earthly life of Andrae Crouch ended today.  Many happy returns.

(Looks like Jessy Dixon on the right end.)

 

 

5:45 pm

It’s nice to know that if I were EVER to crack up after ALL I’ve BEEN THROUGH…everybody would  know who is responsible.

 

4:59 pm

I think somebody should get me out of here, and Josh too.  I can’t accomplish it.  I become calmer just backing the car out of the garage.  I think I should get out of here so I can heal.  I think somebody should help me.

 

4:44 pm

Paris Staged For Martial Law – Morris

“Rand Paul is a complete sell-out.”

“You have your reasons, you’re good chess players.  But you’re going to end up in bed with the Zionists.   And that means betraying everything and everyone.”  “Nothing is impossible.  Nothing is impossible.”

 

 

11:52 am

“What drives the psychopathology?  God only knows.  I have had up-close and personal dealings with a psychopath and it is so strange and so bewildering, conventional attempts to understand it just melt away.  They just are.  They are often charismatic for the reason that they evince fearlessness and absolute certainty because they must be right all the time and they simply cannot tolerate doubt.—All that remains to us is to bear witness.  To decry them.  To denounce them.  And to oppose them with everything we’ve got.  A I say, photos would help.”

Our Ruling Elite Are Psychopaths – Letter from Mr B

 

“They’re very concerned about how the rest of the world behaves.  It’s their business.”

 

11:05 am

Humility is about emotional neutrality. It involves an experience of growth in which you no longer need to put yourself above others, but you don’t put yourself below them, either.

Consonant with the premise of what humility is not, as I think of it:

– It’s not letting others “push you around.”

– It’s not being a doormat, a sucker, or letting people “walk all over you.”

– It’s not constantly sacrificing your interests to those of others (and then feeling like a victim or a martyr).

– It’s not avoiding conflict or confrontation – not of your making, anyway – for the sake of “being nice.”

– It’s not about hiding your feelings or suppressing your views to avoid alienating others.

 

Read more at:   http://sorendreier.com/the-paradoxical-power-of-humility/

 

 

10:56 am

I’m living ‘Groundhog’s Day.’  Every single day I do the same things.  I forget if it’s morning or night.  I arrange food for hungry people, all day and all night.  When I was running for Congress it was like this.  I’d battle into sleep and rise directly into the shower and drive until I gave another pointless speech.  I’d like to see fruit for my labors.  I’d like rest from my toil.  I’d like to be so filled with the Spirit of God that I don’t even care about  those lesser  desires.  I want to do his will every day.  I also want to be comfortable as I do it.  I need a LOT more of His Spirit.

 

 

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10:08 am

 

I want to smoke an entire cigarette, I haven’t done it for days.  It’s 10 below and I promised Josh I wouldn’t smoke in the house.  This girl should go someplace warm where she can take baths and stop smoking in a non-corrosive environment.  I want to overcome the memories of torture, and I can’t do that here.  Not yet anyway. My environment is going to change, I know it.  God told me lots of things that will happen.  The NSA has a faith-sucker though, and they turn it on a lot.  (It turns them on too.)   To maintain,  we must have a list of truths to cling to when the ray-gun is discharged.  We choose our truths from within our self-talk.  A lot of current “self-talk” is propaganda and artificial telepathy.  We must choose ever more wisely, what we will believe.

 

 

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9:54 am

“Psychopaths as trans-human-pioneers.”   Get on board the never-think-for-yourself- train!  We’re becoming robots, and this misfortune resulted from  intentional betrayal by our fellow humans.  Better men than we have faced the onslaught of mind-control–the psychopaths.  They are meta-men and they know full well their natural affection is continually assaulted by outside influences.  Yet, they carry on.  They’ve picked up the gauntlet of their overlords and agreed to set arms against the free-thinkers of our race.  They ACTUALLY turned against their own species, because of the voice they heard.  Wouldn’t it have been better that they listened to God?  God does not like trans-humans.  God does not like mixture, no wool with the linen, etc.  (These are never-ending metaphors.)  He told us not to mix our DNA with that of animals.  He’s smarter than we be.  We should listen to him.

 

 

9:47 am

Psychopathy-  a contagion threatening pandemic infection with associated  destruction of all consciousness within the human race.

 

 

9:25 am

 

PS– Wait.  We don’t have phone service here in Bugtussle lately.  Send me a card.

9:18 am

 

I really dislike waking up.  My first thought is always:  “OMG.  It’s all real.”  I can’t imagine what newcomers are going through and I pray for patience and grace that I might  talk to them.  Fears so deep we’ve not yet imagined them are our every-day reality.  We will live this way for quite a while.  I can’t pretend to understand how a person might feel reading my posts and knowing that I am 1) truthful, 2) consistent,  3) diligent,  4) TORTURED and 5) longing to instruct them, so they may need not experience what I live with.  I pray for the children, may they never be REPEATEDLY RAPED AS I HAVE BEEN.  I recognize that people might register my veracity without wishing to spend time in my presence.  That doesn’t make my life any easier when I have been the victim of ostracism (to cover my dad’s ass…) for YEARS.  It helps to talk about it.  906-291-1376

 

 

 

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Dear Goon, I really like things to be 1) legible, 2) cogent and 3) neat-looking.  Maybe you are accentuating things by changing the margins, but I don’t understand it.  I’m sure you’re demonstrating some aspect of our weird relationship but I prefer things different.   (Isn’t that a fact.)  Linda, the nose-led

9:10 am

Inner City Turmoil and Other Crises: My Predictions for 2015– By Ron Paul

“It didn’t happen overnight. It took many years of neglect for our liberties to be given away so casually for a promise of security from the politicians. The tragic part is that the more security was promised — physical and economic — the less liberty was protected.”

 

“The global commitment to perpetual war, though present for decades, exploded in size and scope after 9/11. If there weren’t enough economic reasons to monitor everything we did, fanatics used the excuse of national security to condition the American people to accept total surveillance of all by the NSA, the TSA, FISA courts, the CIA, and the FBI. The people even became sympathetic to our government’s policy of torture.”

 

See more here:   http://www.lewrockwell.com/2015/01/ron-paul/civil-unrest-ahead/

 

 

8:03 am

From 2003–List of mind control symptoms, whether the related technology is scientifically proven and if there is military interest or funding of the related technology

Symptoms

  • Microwave hearing
  • Transmission of specific commands into the subconscious
  • Visual disturbances, visual hallucinations
  • Inject words, numbers into brain via electromagnetic radiation waves
  • Manipulation of emotions
  • Reading thoughts remotely
  • Causing pain to any nerve of the body.
  • Remote manipulation of human behavior from space
  • Harassment, stress symptoms such as helicopters flying overhead
  • Seeing, as in a camera, through your eyes, i.e. to see what you see exactly
  • Control of sleep patterns.
  • Computer-brain interface, control and communication
  • Complex control of the brain such as retrieving memories, implanting personalities

Symptom

1.  Microwave hearing. The hearing of voices in the head from an outside source, but nobody else can hear the voices except the targeted individual.

Scientifically Proven

1.  Yes. Ultrascience III, Spies are us. Featured Dr. James C. Lin, Ph.D.. biomedical and electrical engineer, educator, author of Microwave Auditory Effects and Applications, 1978…

Read more at:   http://mindjustice.org/symptoms.htm

 

 

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7:44  am

From 2007:

“A doubly cruel sentence is being imposed on people who are the victims of the most appalling abuse by scientific-military experiments, and a totally uncomprehending society is indifferent to their evidence. For the development of a new class of weaponry now has the capability of entering the brain and mind and body of another person by technological means.”

On the Need for New Criteria of Diagnosis of Psychosis in the Light of Mind Invasive Technology

Read more at:   http://www.globalresearch.ca/on-the-need-for-new-criteria-of-diagnosis-of-psychosis-in-the-light-of-mind-invasive-technology/7123

2:49 am

“Using electronic surveillance and electonic weapons (EWs), slander, blacklisting, and other psychological operations (“psyops”) for “counterintelligence purposes” – punishment and/or suppression of dissenters, whistle-blowers and ordinary good people, is well-documented in the U.S. and other nations.”

“The goal of such local counterintelligence operations, in parlance of counterintelligence personnel, is to “subvert” or “neutralize” an innocent individual deemed by a government agency (or its informants) to be an enemy, that is, typically a person of high standards, morals, leadership abilities and compassion.”

 

Electric Weapon War At Home Targets Innocent Man: ‘They’re Going To Kill Me. Keep My Emails As Evidence.’

 

Read more at:   http://beforeitsnews.com/spies-and-intelligence/2014/08/literally-shocking-electric-weapon-war-at-home-theyre-going-to-kill-me-keep-my-emails-as-evidence-2446608.html

 

2:43 am

Dr. Phil Sued For Mentally Injuring Targeted Individual

“Dr. Phil interviewed a Targeted Individual in an episode that can be viewed on the YouTube, Dr Phil Organized Stalking Victim Segment “I Swear I’m Being Cyber Stalked, Wiretapped & Followed.’(below)  Note how Dr. Phil challenges almost every statement made by the TI Matt Barasch, an attorney and entrepreneur.  One might question whether Dr. Phil responded more like a government agent than a mental health therapist, adding to injury Barasch already suffered. At best, he responded with as little respect and empathy as most lay people do when hearing the targeted individual stories.”

 

See more at:   http://beforeitsnews.com/alternative/2015/01/dr-phil-sued-for-mentally-injuring-targeted-individual-3090000.html

 

2:16 pm

CIA mind-control program: did it really end?

“Here, from 1955, are the types of drugs the MKULTRA men at the CIA were looking for. These are direct quotes from the document:

Substances which will promote illogical thinking and impulsiveness to the point where the recipient would be discredited in public.

Substances which increase the efficiency of mentation and perception.”

 

“The CIA wanted to find drugs that would “produce amnesia.” Ideal for discrediting whistleblowers, dissidents, certain political candidates, and other investigators. (Scopolamine, for example.)”

“The CIA wanted to discover drugs which would produce “paralysis of the legs, acute anemia, etc.” A way to make people decline in health as if from diseases.”

 

They got their whole wish-list with psychotronics.

 

Read more here:   <strong>https://jonrappoport.wordpress.com/2015/01/09/cia-mind-control-program-did-it-really-end/

 

1:58 am

Christians are told to help poor people.  If Christians are rich, and there are poor people in their very own family, it’s an immediate fail.  That’s a no-brainer.
I just stuffed the outdoor stove.  It’s 53  degrees in the living room and George is very sick.  I’m hoping it doesn’t snow more so I don’t have to shovel Josh’s car out later in the morning.

 

1:41 am

 

What we are watching is a petty vendetta.  My dad is a fraud and he got really mad when I pointed it out.  (His life is much occupied with petty vendettas.  I recorded a bunch of them in my journals that are a legal affidavit.)  We made a bet.  He lost, and will go to hell unless somebody recognizes that his attacks on me were not warranted and that he’s stubborn as sin and that it’s about time he  treat me like a human being.  If he does not repent, his blood will be on the hands of those who silently watched him hang himself.

 

1:27 am

I know what I’m talking about, and I have a job to do.  My parents’ opinion will no longer disrupt God’s plan for my life.  I do not like playing hardball with my family, I’ve never stood up for myself before and it makes me anxious.  I would much prefer to cook for them and dream together about the Kingdom of God, and our part in it. However, it has been SIX YEARS that I’ve looked for the perpetrator of MULTIPLE RAPES and MIND ATTACKS and I’ll never back down.  That’s how bad I want to fulfill my destiny.  That’s how bad I want a life in Jesus that is beautiful and productive.  That’s how BAD this could get.  My journals record EVERYTHING.  Selah.
Also, my wonderful family has an opportunity to help humanity.  I will see this through, by the grace of God.

 

1/9/15

6:39 pm

I think every person is worthy of assistance.  I wish for my children to help people.  My children do help people but their grandfather messed with their heads.  My dad and his minions work very hard to convince people that you should only help people “worthy” of helping.  (My father determines who is worthy, of course.)  This is a MAJOR PROBLEM WITH THE FAMILY.  When we submit our CONSCIENCES to ANYBODY else,  it’s a problem.  When we submit them to a PSYCHOPATH, it’s a bigger problem.

 

6:05 pm

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Warning: A National Post reporter tweeted a picture of a slip of paper all attendees received a Budweiser Gardens Thursday night, which read: ''disruptive behavior will not be tolerated and will result in removal, possible legal action and banning from the venue'. Above, some more demonstrators outside the venue on Thursday

Cosby in Ontario.

 

 

5:44 pm

‘My dad raped me because he couldn’t afford a prostitute’: Sexually abused as a teenager, how one brave woman finally got her father jailed 30 years on 

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2903329/My-dad-raped-couldn-t-afford-prostitute-Sexually-abused-teenager-one-brave-woman-finally-got-father-jailed-30-years-on.html#ixzz3OMoXbsaH
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5:24 pm

6. Judge Not

“Don’t pick on people, jump on their failures, and criticize their faults— unless, of course, you want the same treatment. That critical spirit has a way of boomeranging.  It’s easy to see a smudge on your neighbour’s face and be oblivious to the ugly sneer on your own.”

12 Life Lessons from Jesus

“1. To Serve Is To Be Great

“Whoever wants to be great must become a servant.”

Here is the secret to great leadership. Leadership is not about rulership. It is about serving others. And in giving to others you will never lack for any good thing in your life.”

 

Read more at:   http://sorendreier.com/12-life-lessons-from-jesus/

 

 

 

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5:07 pm

I would send this text to my brother, but we have no phone service today.  It’s 60 degrees though!  In the HOUSE!

“I won’t feel guilty taking your money.  You never felt guilty taking mine.”

4:40 pm

I made chicken soup for George, with homemade egg noodles.  He called in sick today and has the following three days off.  He scooped a LOT of snow over the past few weeks.  I notice that my dad plows us often enough to be seen doing it…but not ever often enough that we can depend on it.  I told Josh he may have to shovel in the morning to get to work.  I expect I’ll help him if that’s the case.

 

4:25 pm

PS to David (Does he really want me to go on the radio?)  –My journals also contain stuff about you and Kathy.  Old stuff only, like that time you guys met at that hotel in Gaylord?  Things Kathy mentioned.  She wanted to kill Katelyn because she was Rick’s baby and not yours.  It’s all in my journals.  She called Chris in Missouri while I was there,  asking  how to kill a baby.  Thankfully, Chris is smart.

3:54 pm

Email to my brother:

“Dear Brother, I suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder because I was repeatedly raped over a period of years.  When I sought help, I was 1) maligned, 2) ostracized, and 3) made to be a slave in my own home.  Our father made sure my men lost respect for me,    men  I cheerfully served for decades.  He MADE ME A SLAVE.  (I guess that’s better than his first choice for terminating my life.)   A slave.  No respect.  No options.  No love. No influence.  No family.  No church.  (I can show you copies of letters where I begged him to consider my  family, rather than his vendetta.)  If you, my brother do not care about these things, I do not expect to see you in Heaven. ”

 

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11:40 am

I’ve got to be free of this life or I won’t be good for anything.  Maybe that’s what God means when he reminds me that he’s “never late.”  I’m becoming less responsible, and George is doing more.  That makes me feel bad but I don’t know another way to encourage him to expect chores from Josh.  He opposes expectations for Josh.  I’ve facilitated this by carrying more than my share.  I don’t want to be part of defective systems, especially when there is no desire for improvement.  Communication is entirely broken down when parties lack mutual goals.  When there are not even mutual interests, family theater results.  I don’t want to play-act with people I love.  I find it difficult to love people who play-act with me.

Dad-

“Do you love me? Yes or no?

I need a life and you got dough.”

 

9:52 am

“Dear Lord, you have my life again today.  ‘Be it unto me according to thy word.’  I long to see your promises come to pass and recognize that I must be open to them, as I was open to being tortured for your sake.  Maybe today somebody will enter my life with good news.  Maybe you’re softening my father’s heart and he’s preparing a trust account for me, and a party to announce my adulthood to the world. Maybe he’s writing an ad for the Newberry News.  Please forgive me for becoming impatient.  Thank you for your amazing grace that kept me alive, and now makes me hopeful to see justice in the land of the living.  We’re going grocery shopping today.  Please help me to choose the right things.  Amen.”

 

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5:42 am

If nobody holds my dad accountable for his crimes in this earthly life, he will face the judgement seat of Christ with my family’s blood on his hands.   Those who sought to defend him will realize they cursed his soul.  His blood will be on the hands of those who did not require truth of him. 

5:25 am

MUSIC BREAK

“Don’t let me change my heart, keep me set apart from all the things they do pursue,

And I, I don’t mind the pain, don’t mind the driving rain, I know I will sustain,

‘cuz I believe in you.”

“I believe in you” by a sad old man

5:09 am

 

Nina Simone – I Shall Be Released

 

4:52 am

 

“He worships at an altar of a stagnant pool,
And when he sees his reflection he’s fulfilled
Man is opposed to fair play, he wants it all and he wants it his way,
But there’s a woman on my block, she just sits there facin’ the hill,
She says, “Who’s gonna take away his license to kill?”

Bob Dylan Letterman 1984 License To Kill

4:46 am

 

Political World

 

4:30 am

People who embrace lies eventually go crazy.  It can’t be avoided.  At first, it’s a challenge to keep the lies straight  to cover one’s ass.  Some people groove on a challenge.  Of course it becomes more difficult to maintain the bullshit, so they lie more, cover more, etc.  At some point, all pretense of truthfulness is abandoned.  (I love that:  “Pretense of truthfulness.”)  A lie-lover just begins to lie about everything all the time, when it would be more prudent to evaluate  lies independently.  There are lies of commission, lies of omission, and lies just for the hell of it.  (Some of these are necessary to receive status-rewards.  Some maintain the liar’s self-concept.)   An ongoing lifestyle of lying is an eternal prison.  Truth sets us free, because a liar’s reality becomes so distorted he can’t see his way out.  We should throw crumbs on the path for a liar; we should make it simple.  For a liar to remedy a twisted history of deceit, he must start somewhere.  He must tell the truth, against his personal self-lying-interests, in order to see his way in the self-imposed darkness.  To be a truth-teller, one must first tell the truth.  One time.

 

3:46 am

I’m not a snacker.  My boys don’t eat recreationally, either.  Josh will get an ice cream drink once in a while but we never have candy around or stuff like that.  He eats when he’s hungry.  When I was growing up, my mom took us to the grocery store every day,  after we’d waited for her to finish work.  (I liked it because I had a crush on a guy who worked at the store.  He was a drummer.)  My after-school recreation was glazed donuts.  Mom had me in weight-watchers, aged 10.  Creepy conflicted  woman.
My father holds behind his twisted breastbone, information that could make the world better for his grandchildren.  (This is so over-the-top; nobody could POSSIBLY believe I’m making it up.)  He won’t give us what we need to save the world…because he won’t apologize.  Isn’t that the best metaphor possible?  We need to be the change we want to see,  and we know what Dad wants to see by what he is.  Look closely.  I’m glad God is delivering my race from liars.  He’ll get around to eliminating those who are unapologetic,  in due time.

 

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3:26 am

So anyway, I’m grateful for 1) Mike Rogers, 2) Keith Alexander, 3) Mike Rogers II, 4) the Michigan State Police, 5)  the goons, 6) my favorite goon, 7) the Holy Spirit, 8) George’s groceries, and 9) my dad’s stubbornness.  Without these sundries God would not be able to do what he’s going to do, has already done, and knew he was doing since I got my first petition signed.  He SET ME UP.  How could I be offended at my father for his unholy interventions in my life?  God sanctified his witchcraft.  That’s what happens when you give your life to God. (Also, lots of vomiting.  For me, anyway.)  Get with the Spirit because it’s getting pretty confusing out there.  I can’t wait for my family to respect me, I’ve always wanted that.  God said I’m getting everything I ever wanted. That means he’s going to LIKE ME A WHOLE LOT.  People will too.    They’ll let me babysit again.  (Dad, you’re such a prick for what you said about me that people would not trust me with a CHILD!  But they trust my mother?  Psycho-world.)

 

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3:08 am

I am astonished that nobody has prevailed upon my father to talk to me.  Even if a person doesn’t believe my father tried to kill me, there exists in the public record a prima facie case that he DID intend for me to be incapacitated.  This is further demonstrated by his ongoing stonewalling.  He’s STILL DISCARDING me.  He DID intend for me to be gone, obviously, and he still refuses to face me now!  This is OK with everybody?  They  KNOW I did nothing wrong.  All I DID was try to have a LIFE OF MY OWN that was not ordained by the psychopath that be.  He’s a VERY sick man and we  are all watching him march into hell.  Psalm 126

 

1/8/15

4:47 pm

I’m baking cream cheese brownies and I cut potatoes and onions to sizzle with leftover  roast beef for a dinner hash.  I’ll make a horseradish sauce to go with it.  I wish I had some sweet potatoes because they’re great with horseradish.  I have a lot of feta so tomorrow I’m going to do something with it.

12:44 pm

 

Someday somebody will love me.  When somebody loves me, I will not have to internally defend my right to breathe, and to remember… and to legitimately hurt from abuse suffered.  Maybe today somebody will let me cry about what was done to me.   Maybe today somebody will ask my father for answers.

12:08 pm

Welcome to the Matrix: Enslaved by Technology and the Internet of Things

“In other words, Google—a neural network that approximates a global brain—is fusing with the human mind in a phenomenon that is called “singularity,” and they’ve hired transhumanist scientist Ray Kurzweil to do just that. Google will know the answer to your question before you have asked it, Kurzweil said. “It will have read every email you will ever have written, every document, every idle thought you’ve ever tapped into a search-engine box. It will know you better than your intimate partner does. Better, perhaps, than even yourself.”

“But here’s the catch: the NSA and all other government agencies will also know you better than yourself. As William Binney, one of the highest-level whistleblowers to ever emerge from the NSA said, “The ultimate goal of the NSA is total population control.”

 

John Whitehead, here:   http://www.lewrockwell.com/2015/01/john-w-whitehead/the-corporate-state-is-enslaving-us/

 

11:48 am

I know the reason none of my family will defend me and approach my dad about lying.  They know Dad  lies  all the time and they’ve chosen to live with his influence as though all were well in the dynasty.   Mindful ignorance.  Is that just a defense mechanism or their first steps into hell?

 

11:45 am

(My dad helped this illegal legislation become reality.)

Tea Party Members Fit Profile of Domestic Terrorists, Obama Claims (which subjects them to “kill lists” and the NDAA)

Bump to the top, from 2013:

– See more at: http://xrepublic.tv/node/4185#sthash.jQDRQ0ld.dpuf

 

10:02 am

Things my family knows my father lied about, without even looking at my evidence:
1)  My mental health.  Full stop.
2)  My family
3)  My faith
4)  Taking my home away
5)  Abducting my children
6)  Bullying George and causing him to lose trust in me
7)  Ostracizing me from family
8)  Wanting me to “get help”
9)  Refusing me the privileges he gives  to others
10) His faith in  government  which supersedes  his faith in God
When some smart family member decides to take a look at my evidence, it will really rock his world.  The above-facts are historical record and apparently insufficient to demand that my rich father speak truth.  My evidence of even more nefarious behavior would prove whether the smart-guy  will decide to follow truth…or to follow my dad’s checkbook…  (I guess I don’t blame people for not wanting to know more about Grandpa-the-rich.  Life’s pretty hard already.)

 

 

2:10 am

Modern psychiatry has become a hotbed of corruption, particularly the kind that seeks to demonize and declare mentally ill anyone who deviates from what is regarded as the norm.

 

“The so-called “condition” for why a person might choose to resist conformity has been labeled by the psychiatric profession as “oppositional defiant disorder,” or ODD. The new DSM defines this made-up disease as an “ongoing pattern of disobedient, hostile and defiant behavior,”

…and also lumps it in alongside attention deficit hyperactivity disorder, or ADHD, another made-up condition whose creator, Dr. Leon Eisenberg, admitted it to be phony on his death bed.”

 

Read more at:   http://www.lewrockwell.com/2015/01/no_author/are-you-odd/

 

1:55 am

“Linda World:  Life as a trans-human housekeeper”
“The dividing of bone  and marrow, separating between soul and spirit”…  The mind-suckers can do this now, did you ever think of that?  They’re trying to play God on every front.   If one acknowledges that humans are triune beings composed of body, soul, and spirit, the evil nature of the mind-control technology becomes more apparent.  The suckers can recognize who really prays to somebody, and they know those who recite words originating in their own cerebral cortex.  They KNOW, and they’re shaking in their boots with the knowledge.  Sacred effects of consecrated intention have been recorded for many years.  One of the mid-last-century healers was handed a petri dish one time and he destroyed all the bacteria by prayer.  They used to write  articles about things like that in the newspapers.  Now we’re not permitted to know that dead individuals all over the world have been returned to life by Jesus Christ.  I met a guy who wrote a book about it; he traveled all around and met formerly dead people.  He offered Isaac and me a red pill once and we took them.  At church in Toronto.

12:09 am

Likely GOP White House candidate Ben Carson accused of plagiarizing parts of 2012 book – the same book where he wrote about being caught plagiarizing in college!

  • Buzzfeed pored through Carson’s ‘America the Beautiful’ and found passages lifted from other sources without attribution
  • Carson wrote in the same book about being caught plagiarizing a paper in college and a professor’s mercy in letting him re-do the assignment
  • ‘Is ignorance an acceptable excuse for unethical behavior?’ he asked 
  • The former pediatric neurosurgeon is a rare black Republican who could contend for the presidency in 2016 
  • ‘He’s basically toast,’ an Iowa GOP political operative said; ‘His whole shtick is being a doctor, an academic. How does he explain this away?’

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2900799/Likely-GOP-White-House-candidate-Ben-Carson-accused-plagiarizing-parts-2012-book-book-wrote-caught-plagiarizing-college.html#ixzz3OBU1ULPN
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1/7/15

6:08 pm

I texted the following (message to my dad…) to a few people, my brother responded:

“All positive I’m sure.  Cheers.”

I responded:

“Could be.  I tell the truth.”

Then:

“I’m praying you’ll do the right thing.  For your children and mine.”

5:04 pm

 

Text to my dad:
Hey, it looks like I might be on the radio again.  I know you never listened all the other times but now you might be interested.  (I’m glad it’s not TV; I dislike being on TV.)  I’ll make sure they pronounce “GOLDTHORPE” the right way.  Cheers.

 

4:52 pm

I figure most of those guys on the radio telling bizarre stories that later turn out to be true must have families that would prefer them to stay home and shut up.

 

9:30 am

“Yeah.  You might try, but you better think about it.”

 

A photo of Amelia when she was a child cuddling up to a primate  

 

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9:17 am

My dad is plowing the  driveway so I went out to thank him.  I told him the “add coolant” light went on in my car again and he said he’d have his man find a part from a junkyard.  I commented on George’s poor, single, retired mother who kindly bought him a great new car.  He claims to be an upstanding Christian parent.  He’s a fraud.  One of his employees told me Dad said I should be “independent.”  (I told him I thought David should be independent too.)  My dad said this, as he encouraged me to go on SSI.  (For what symptoms of inadequacy I cannot imagine.)  He’s a fraud, every day as he dons his cap.  He also said it took him three hours to get home from Brimley yesterday.  That’s under 25 miles per hour.  I’ve only seen the roads that bad a couple times in my life.  He wouldn’t be lying, would he?

3:07 am

(If I were not me, I’d be my favorite writer.  It’s fun to finally sound smart.  “Lord, thank you for the goon.”)

My dad.  I am not obsessive about my dad.  I know it probably sounds that way but the fact of the matter is, the goons showed me that my dad was the impediment to all things good and happy.  I didn’t know that.  I thought I was too evil to be considered by my flashy dad.  This was a fallacy.  The mind-suckers examine many things in your brain, it’s hard for me to imagine there are limits to what they can access in the human mind.  (There is a big fat sentence I never thought I’d need to type.)  They dig up a memory, present it to you, and then they turn the screws.  They can implicate an emotional response, vibrationally, and artificially pair it with a memory, thought or noun.  They can reconnect not only brain connections, they can reconnect emotions.  This is frightening stuff, so I’m glad I’m talking to a mature crowd.  They can create depression long-term, or they can give huffs of depression at politically expedient times.  They can create violent behavior on their coffee break.  We must save the hackers from themselves and their dark arts.  Amen.

 

 

2:30 am

We don’t have the option anymore, of being fake.  Fake Christians will be exposed, as God’s glory rests more heavily on those who truly believe.  I am EXTREMELY hyper lately.  I thought I had learned something about patience over the past years of my incarceration.  I’m longing for God’s promised “utterly complete vindication.”  When I was being raped I would say to him, “be it unto me according to your word.”  My kids couldn’t stand that.  (It’s not like you can actually fight off a faceless electronic attacker anyway.)  God will use our suffering.  I gave it to him every day.

 

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1/6/15

4:29 pm

Pizza tonight.  Red onion, mushroom and pepperoni.  Connie goes nuts when Josh comes home.  MUSIC BREAK

John Hiatt – Have A Little Faith

“And when your back’s against the wall,  just turn around and you, you will see,  I will catch, I will catch your fall, baby.  Just have a little faith in me.”  “I  said, I WILL HOLD YOU UP!  I WILL HOLD YOU UP!  Because your  LOVE GIVE ME STRENGTH ENOUGH …so have a little faith in me.”

3:07 pm

My dad is a creepy stalker.  He’s the creepiest of the creepy because even as he finagles my life situation behind the scenes, he refuses to talk to me.  He’s the kind of guy you warn your daughter about if she’s dating on Facebook.  (As if he could figure out Facebook. As if any of us could figure out Facebook, of late.)   Creepy stalkers pay their targets a lot of money.  I know Sandra Bullock got some money;  and some creepy stalkers even go to prison.

1:33 pm

MUSIC BREAK

Two-fer-Tuesday:

Linda Ronstadt – Tumbling Dice

 

1:19 pm

MUSIC BREAK

A favorite, in the ditz-free zone

Dedicated to my dad, “Stand By Your Man”:

 

12:47 pm

What is contained in my (approximately) 30-volume sworn-affidavit, comprised of dated notes from 2/2009 through 2/2011,  and why my dad should buy it for 3.5 million dollars.
 by LInda Goldthorpe
1)  The journals contain:
    a)  prayers
    b)  descriptions of every political person I ever met
    c)  descriptions of the events of the Michigan first district 2010 Republican Congressional primary
    d)  descriptions of the haunting
     f)  memories from my childhood
    g)  transcriptions of conversations I had with my dad while he was lying about me
    h)  the steps God used to make me able to forgive
     i)  begging.  Lots of begging, because I thought if Adam prayed for me the haunting would leave
     j)  crappy poetry
     k)  song lyrics that really made sense at the moment I recorded them
     l)   MORE PRAYERS
     m) electronic visions that were supposed to convince me they were my own sexual fantasies, and the reasons why I knew this was not the case
     n)  my spiritual dreams and visions, and proof that I chose to believe them
      o)  bitching.  I bitched all the time for the first couple years of my father’s abhorrent current episode of pointless and obsolete psychopathic manipulation of the bodies of eternal beings who have transcended his bullshit.
      p) my love for my father, recorded in prose on every page with cherry blossoms
      q)  my father’s infrequent felonies, his predilection for taking pictures of naked children, and his sadistic tendencies in the home during my formative years
      r)  records of all the objectionable incidents of my father’s attempts to kill me and/or destroy my life
      s)  PRAYERS FOR MY LYING FATHER
       t)  records of people who betrayed me and what became of them
  u)  menu plans and shopping lists…
                   (God told me to give Adam my whole life so I did.)
2)  The journals’ content is valuable to my father because:
3)  The journals’ content could change the world by:
4)  The journals’ content will make me love Jesus more because IT PREDICTS A WHOLE LOT OF STUFF THAT HAS COME TO PASS.  I’d really like to see the journals  again.  Hope Adam didn’t burn them or something.

 

10:20 am

What we fail to remember as we evaluate the technology routinely used to covertly harass people, is that the same technology could remotely benefit people.  We could make the tooth fairy a reality, and send sufferers magic presents, with the flick of a switch.  Depression vibrates a certain way.  Technology can induce an immediate depressive state.  It could just as easily promote a sense of well-being.  What happened to me was that I was walked right through every component of every mental illness I’ve ever heard of.  Artificially.  I didn’t bite at any of the “symptoms” because God’s word says, “I have not given you a spirit of fear, but of…a sound mind.”  (If God says I’m not crazy, who am I to argue?)  Then, inexplicably, I was walked back into reality and hope for humanity.  I was walked through all the steps it took to clear my home of drug dealers and shepherded into positive actions.  I’m thinking of hackers now, who I’ve encouraged to throw a shoe into the machine.  (“Sabotage.”  That Vulcan chick on Star Trek.)  I now think we could achieve a double whammy if they just chose to alter the settings on their celestial x-box.  What if instead of torturing the persons corresponding to the names on the “do-today” torture list, the hackers just made them all happy?  They could do it.  I know by experience.

 

10:22 am

BACKTRACK:  Of COURSE they can’t do it!  Nobody would buy any mothers’-little-helpers and the shrinks would have to go to trade school.  It would really mess with the psycho-pharmo-industrial-complex.

 

8:59 am

I want INFORMATION.  An apology won’t help the world.  A CONFESSION would.

8:53 am

I figure somebody must be saying to my dad, “Just APOLOGIZE and get this over with…” He’s never once mentioned the word, since 2009,  but he mentioned “apology” yesterday. After he abducted  my children and reported my prayer habits to the state police, I challenged him and he remembers it well.  He did one of those over-the-top apologies that accuse the victim of overreaction and untoward outrage.  It went something like, “OK then, I’m SO VERY SORRY I’M A FAILED HUMAN BEING AND A TERRIBLE FATHER” and other associated regurgitation of time-tested manipulative crocodile tears.  I said, “THAT IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH.  YOU MUST BE TRULY SORRY.”  (That was the same time I challenged his fake religion with my faith in Jesus the Christ.  He remembers it well.)  Somebody, with a bit of brains but little foresight, has suggested that he apologize.  I make the same suggestion, once again, after six years.

 

8:39 am

Josh is working today.  I made him a crawfish/mushroom omelette with an English muffin.

Besides, I don’t want an apology from just my dad; I want to hear from MANY people.  I was grateful for my brother’s daughters, because I thought their guileless affection was making a better man of their grandpa.  I have since realized that it only made him a more skilled fake.  I do not want an apology from my niece who asked, “Why should Grandpa care about you?”  I want a statement from her explaining why we should CARE ABOUT EVERYBODY.  When I thought he was learning love, he was surreptitiously teaching another generation of Goldthorpes…to thoughtlessly  HATE THINGS THAT HE HATES.  This is a problem for all parties concerned.

—-

7:14 am

 

It’s 54 degrees in the living room, warmer in my room because I turned up the space heater last night.  It was below sixty in there before I turned it up.

Eugenie Windsor’s boyfriend is an enigma to me.  (Eugenie York?  Prince Phillip’s daughter.)  The princesses themselves, make me wonder all the time.  Do they have souls?  Their mom proved to have something (maybe not a soul) when she jumped ship to American corporatism for her maintenance.  What are those girls supposed to do with themselves?  They look out of place at the stylish parties also attended by their cousin Harry.  They hang out with his ex-girlfriend, that’s kind of weird.  She’s gorgeous and they are always dressed like buffoons. Fergie figured out how to escape princess-style.  (Nothing like America to destroy nobility.  And style.)  The queen is ridiculous, she should be wearing jodhpurs and carrying a whip all the time.  She should wear jeans. She dresses like Edith Bunker and those poor princesses are headed that way.   Can you imagine what it’s like to live every second of your existence as a prop for some royal scum?  I can.

But Eugenie’s boyfriend, even his name aspires to courtly liaisons of the most promising kind.  His name doesn’t sound like “upward-mobility”, it’s more like:  STAKE IT RIGHT HERE.  It’s like securing a long-coveted position.  It has nothing to do with passion for the sweet Eugenie, of course, or passion for any life but the highest possible position possible, on a corner of the matrix… that would destroy us all.  (I swear, if I ever saw a man who could actually live by the seat of his pants as we were intended,  I might even move out to the country.)  I don’t  remember the royal boyfriend’s name.  The prophet, now he lives by the seat of his pants.  He actually saved his uncle from a lion one time with a sheet of paneling and a handgun.  He never shot the gun but the next day he wanted to shoot his uncle.  When you pick up a drunk chick after the bar closes you do not want to try to impress her by taking her into  a lion’s cage.  Just saying.

 

 

1:02 am

I think I’ll ask the prophet to go with me to have lunch with the activist.  The prophet was the only person I could talk to as I was tortured, because I believed my torment  was spirits, and he was the only one who didn’t deny the existence of the spirit realm.  He’s  listened to my stories for years and his memory is incredible.  (So is his heart.  Like I said, he has listened to my stories for years…)  I met him when I first  stepped out on God’s word.  I ran for probate judge with 1) no experience, 2) no inclination, and 3) no understanding of the road I was encountering.  I panicked regularly, about the political machinations and deceit that I encountered in that  tiny bite of American political reality.  I’d always stop at his house after some terrible experience, and he’d pray for me.  Also he would  let me talk.  He will be a fine witness when our story makes the big-time.  Also, he’s a traveler by nature, and he would enjoy a trip to DC or wherever the TRUTH government  establishes temporarily.

12:51 am

I don’t know if Adam’s asexual, since it’s none of my business.  But, they were really barking up the wrong  tree trying to create a scandal with us.  We watched political lectures.

12:15 am

MUSIC BREAK

Don’t rain on my parade – B. Streisand

 

1/5/15

11:57 pm

I have peace.  “Thank you Lord, when I woke up I thought I’d never be calm again.  You always come through.”  I asked George to pray for me, because I was very anxious.  He put one hand on my neck and the other on my shoulder and prayed for a long time that I would have peace.  Then he became the answer to his own prayer, because he listened to me.  I told him how my dad flat-out lied about taking our children.  He recognizes historical fact.  He remembered when Dad fixed up EVERYTHING on the property…it was after he read my book…before he knew I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT HE’D DONE…and, of course…before he TOOK THE HOUSE and gaslighted me and tried to murder me.    I am breathing easier.  I needed to get that off my chest.

—-

 

6:55 pm

Dad also said, “I didn’t take your house…I moved it.”  One cannot move a house belonging to another person unless he first TAKES IT.  He’s a liar, a fraud, a thief, a psychopath, an adulterer, a child-pornography afficionado,  a murderer,  a fake Christian, a daughter-raper and a welscher.   I love him just the same.  Well maybe not just the same, I might love him more if he GAVE ME BACK THE LIFE HE STOLE.

5:55 pm

Former CBS News correspondent Sharyl Attkisson has sued the Justice Department over the hacking of her computers, officially accusing the Obama administration of illegal surveillance

“In a series of legal filings that seek $35 million in damages, Attkisson alleges that three separate computer forensic exams showed that hackers used sophisticated methods to surreptitiously monitor her work between 2011 and 2013.”

 

 

– See more at: http://xrepublic.tv/node/11792#sthash.XzmEzX3u.dpuf

 

4:17 pm

I have an appointment with a liberty activist.  These are my notes for the meeting:

“My first line, if you let me speak, is this:  I promised [   ] that  I would not say anything about my personal story that might creep you out.”

“Brother-activist, I attended the first European Conference on Covert Harassment.  I met many victims like myself, and they all keep notes of their weird experiences.  My weird experiences are 1) published, 2) sworn to and notarized, and 3) described in REALLY NAIVE terms.  The evidence is amazing.  You know I’m a Christian and I pray a lot.  My prayer life routinely involves voices in my head and involuntary body movements.  Demons do those things too.  When “the haunting” showed up I believed it to be spiritual.  It was (at least partially) electronic.  I recorded everything.  I OBSESSIVELY RECORDED EVERYTHING.  (I believed God wanted me to do so.)  We have a chance to change the world.  Michigan is where Justin Amash is.  Michigan is where I was tortured.  Michigan is home to Mike Rogers, RIP.  We have an opportunity to blow the lid off the BIGGEST impediment to human evolution ever meted out.  I have been under surveillance for a number of years.  Some GOON somewhere has seen fit to provide me a website and monitor its recording of the revolution we’ll soon experience.  God said, “In the last days I will pour out my Spirit upon all flesh” and we’ve lived to see the day.  He said, “All things will be revealed.” This is happening before our eyes.   I, for one, am very grateful to live now.  We’re in the final battle between good and evil and that battle might (not really) extinguish human consciousness.”

Brother, you know I never wanted to be in Congress. You saw me walk out of many GOP dinners.   I don’t like to wallow in that filth.  But, you also know I did run.  You know I did it because I believed God wanted me to.  I still believe he wanted me to run, because my evidence is amazing.  I had no idea what I was describing as I bitched at Adam.  This is an amazing opportunity, and we live in a time for amazing opportunities.  And also amazing consequences for choosing wrongly.  God bless you and your  beautiful children.  I’m honored that you would agree to meet with me.  (Indulge me here.  May I be flattered that they targeted me?)

 

 

 

3:10 pm

Look how some MEN ACT!

Man Shoots Intruders Attempting to Rape His Granddaughter During Home Invasion

– See more at: http://xrepublic.tv/node/11786#sthash.DxVRtqAx.dpuf

2:59 pm

As always, documentation of erroneous statements is  available on request.

(I mean I can prove he lied. )

2:34 pm

Text to my dad:

Dad, I don’t just want an apology…I want you to love me.  I’m getting everything I ever wanted.  All I ever wanted was love.

 

2:20 pm

 

I love when my dad lies right to my face, it really helps relieve the anxiety.  When he lies right to my face I know that God hears it and I am reassured that his words to me will come to pass.  Unrepentant  is one thing, but bald-faced lies aren’t gonna cut it pretty quick.  He won’t let me stay in the condo for four days to attend a Christian conference.  He lets STRANGERS stay there all the time, but he hasn’t let me or my family stay there for a decade.  (Even when he used to invite us to Toronto he always put us up at a hotel uptown.  Usually New Year’s Eve, and usually a MAJOR blow-out party location.  I’ve been grateful not to go to Toronto under his circumstances.)  Anyway, “No Linda, I did not take your house… I ‘preserved’ it.”  (Where was I going?  He intended for me to be dead.)   ” I did not take your children, blah, blah.”    “Come quickly, Lord Jesus.”   Dad said, “I know you want me to apologize for something but I don’t know what.”  He’s very mistaken.  I want far MORE than an apology.  I want him to care about what he did to me and my family and I want him to assume the posture of a Christian father whose daughter was repeatedly violated.  I want his help searching out the culprit.  I want his LOVE.  I want it.  He took everybody else’s love away from me and I was REPEATEDLY VIOLATED IN MY OWN HOME.  I want an apology, you bet.  I also want my life to begin again, since he decided I was not permitted to run for Congress a second time.  “God bless him with your Spirit of Truth.  Burn out every lying cell that will send him to hell.  Amen.”  Also I want 3.5 million of my dad’s fraudulently earned dollars, and world peace.

I imagine by saying no to my request for Christian succor he thought he was making a point.  He should be careful about his point,  his hair’s getting too thin to hide it.

 

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4:57 am

Isaac, speaking to the tribe, Colorado chapter:

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3:17 am

“It’s the end-game of philosophic Materialism, a bankrupt and contradictory system.”

“The people at the CIA, the Pentagon, DARPA, and other agencies, who are trying to change thought and behavior, are much crazier than they appear to be. They assume that the process of thought is so directly a product of the brain that they can make Thought A turn into Thought B with the flip of a switch. They have many surprises in store for them.”

“Mind control advocates and researchers deny such freedom exists. For them, it’s just a matter of replacing one piece of equipment for another in what they believe humans are:biological machines.”

 

“There is absolutely nothing inherent in sub-atomic particles that would lead to a notion of free will.  The existence of freedom (choice) directly implies a non-material space. And a non-material individual who is inhabiting a physical form.”

 

 

Read more at:   http://jonrappoport.wordpress.com/2015/01/04/dr-ewen-cameron-and-psychiatric-mind-control/

 

3:06 am

OK, if you see  that you’re stuck in the matrix, you’re going to be flushed.  (Watch the movie again, it’s pure prophecy.)   Your eyeballs will resonate differently on the spy-cams or something.  When you know, they know you know, so what are you gonna do about it?  (If you don’t believe in Jesus I got nothing for you.)   You climb onboard that old ship of Zion and you go where IT GOES.  You don’t question your commander, you don’t hesitate when he speaks.  This is a battle for 1) your souls, 2) your children’s souls, and 3) the future of humanity.  Jesus has already won the battle, but we must continually assure that we are following HIM.  He is 1) love, 2) truth, and 3) peace.  Our battling should be peaceful, and God says we will laugh.  I’m learning to laugh but it sounds like some cynical crone; he said I will laugh like a child.  

 

 

2:39 am

When I would apologize as a child, my mother always responded the same way.  I would say, “I’m sorry.”  The apology was acknowledged only as a means to continue criticizing, she would say, “YES, YOU REALLY ARE…!”  It took me years to get over that.  We really need to build one another up.  I know this better than most because I lived with eternal ridicule and just expected it from relationships, etc.  This is very  important.

2:07 am

Tell me if this isn’t a good conversation-starter among relatives who haven’t seen each other for a long time: “What are you interested in?  What are you doing about it?”
My sons attended a “cousins” event over the holidays, where my niece castigated Isaac for his life.  She thinks he should go to college, for the prescribed  Stockholm-Syndrome-indoctrination.  BUT, I happen to know a bit about Isaac’s goals, and I also know that prior to the family engagement, he had been feeling pretty good about progress with his “freedom tribe.”  My niece is apparently unable to recognize landmarks on any road but the one she was bottle-fed to believe is “right.”  She’s really young to be so rigid.  I pray for her.
But, how about if we GENUINELY cared about a person’s priorities, and dreams?  What if we ALL actively assisted one another to do  things we REALLY WANT TO DO?  Wouldn’t that make the world a nicer place?  Isaac’s chief goal is to assist troubled people to achieve comfort and confidence.  (I went to lots of colleges; they don’t teach that.)    Let’s look at what matrix-missionaries foist on others:  Pain.  Discomfort.  Questioning of self and others.  Ridicule.  Shame.  Questioning.  BACK UP TO WHERE THEY WERE BEFORE!  (Hopefully.)  WHY MUST WE TEAR ONE ANOTHER DOWN?  It slows the evolution of the entire species.

 

—-

1:44 am

Do we really think we’re ever going to be permitted intellectual, spiritual or even physical freedom, if we do not stand up and take it?  The matrix wants our attention every minute.  If you start daydreaming they’ll flash a picture of a woman in red.  Or some really hot chocolates.  (I would not feel sad today if I learned I will never eat chocolate again.  That’s a sentence I never thought I’d write.)  Every day submission-quotas increase, we must bow lower and say less.  The matrix is not hardware, it leavens its dogma of perversion  with extraordinary malware, infecting even airlocked systems.  We can’t escape it and it’s eating us alive.   Do you know they have a reality show about an Amish guy who goes to the city?  Everybody wants to be on TV anymore.  That’s where LIFE happens, don’t ya  know?

 

1/4/15

6:28 pm

“The key, then, is simply believing and trusting in what He has ALREADY done and said
– because the moment one’s faith [trust] is perfectly united [and it is the Holy Spirit, alone, Who
can bring us to that place] with the Word [Will] of God [the finished work of Christ] they will
“receive” and enter into the place of “abiding” in perfect liberty – without exception. His precious
children entering into the perfect liberty that is ALREADY theirs in Christ is the Father’s deepest
heart-desire – for it is from this place of “abiding” in perfect liberty that one will gain
superabundant entrance into their true Kingdom-position and all that that they were created for,
in Christ.”

Read more at:   http://jtlmin.com/FBN%203/FBN%203%20-%20Part%201.pdf

 

4:42 pm

Living with George after the divorce is one of the weirdest things I’ve ever done.  He got knocked down a pay-grade but keeps punching in.  I honestly think he doesn’t realize anything is different, although I’ve tried to move out a couple times.  He reminds me of that guy on “Office Space” who got shoved into the basement when nobody told him he was fired.  He ended up torching the place.

 

4:23 pm

Dear God, family, do you think I wrote this?  I am the cook and bottle-washer you remember or choose not to.  This is poetry, and it’s truth:

“But, we get to choose what our own lives mean,  and torturers will never steal that right from us.  They steal our comfort certainly,  but they can never steal our eternity.  Our WILL and our RESOLVE are our most important possessions.”

 

 

4:14 pm

Isaac said he’s never seen that bathroom clean, but when I shared the master bedroom I scrubbed it on my hands and knees.  I haven’t scrubbed that way for a while.  There’s no point if nobody notices.

4:05 pm

There is no reason for the panic attacks I’ve begun experiencing 1) since I got back from Belgium, 2) only in my house, and 3) FOR NO REASON AT ALL.  This is demons or NSA.  I’d like to differentiate.
Write me a sermon, make me cry.  God says he’s never late.
I commented to George as I was folding eight baskets of mostly-Josh’s clothes about how many clothes Josh wears.  George said we should show him “Holes” so he knows about keeping fresh clothes and having a work-set.  Dear God.  His idea of parenting is choosing a better TV show.  I am most eager to be away from him.  At first I felt really terrible at the thought of losing him…but what’s to lose?  His eyes have no expression at all.  He doesn’t  connect.  He doesn’t know he’s not connecting.  Every time we go by the remains of Connie’s Helmer Market he shakes his head and says, “Sad, sad.”  I said today, “We don’t have to BE SAD!”  I couldn’t help myself.  Sad is looking backwards.  Change is a good thing.  He cleaned his bathroom, it’s been years.  There are no more used paper cup-stacks lining the edge of the counter.  I don’t know if he threw them out or washed them and stored them elsewhere.  But, he embraced change.  I’d like to know what kind of rays he’s been absorbing.  (But, “Thank you Lord, he’s doing so much housework!  Please encourage him to expect the same from Josh.  Amen.”)

 

3:04 pm

The truth, or at least some truth, is about to be shown to the American masses about 9/11.

 I say American masses because everywhere I’ve gone in the world outside of the US, with few exceptions, almost everyone knows that the US government conspiracy theory on 9/11 is for people with tinfoil hats that are either completely zombified or are under mass hypnosis.

 

Read more at:   http://www.globalresearch.ca/the-walls-are-crumbling-down-around-the-official-911-story-why/5394984

1:50 pm

The spiritual realm is more real than what we see, but it doesn’t always feel that way.  It’s been six years since “the haunting” came.  (It was gone for a while but God asked me to take it back in March, 2012.  Another story.)  I’ve been seeking the source of my spiritual interference for a really long time.  I almost have it, I almost do!  I’m getting frantic to be so close!  The panic attacks are really hard to deal with.  I’m drinking beer like medicine.  I MUST HAVE TRUTH or I’m going to lose it.  Today would be a really fine day for somebody to talk to me.  I really need some peace.

 

11:30 am

You can never get off the TSA no-fly list; there’s no way.  Even less recourse is available to victims of government-sanctioned electronic torture.  We’re targets.  We’re ALL potential targets, of those other humans who seek to gain advantage from our existence.  Our bodies, choices, and lives affect many more people than we think.    Our overlords who DO view us as sources of entertainment and advancement,  will not be long permitted to vicariously experience other lives…because… it is wrong to view others as commodities  for our personal gratification.  I’ve been targeted, by my father firstly, then others.  My dad is very defiant, so  I may never be free of the threat that other humans may sometime incapacitate me to get their rocks off.   My dad might never remove Damocles’ sword from where he slung it near my throat.  He may never remove the threat that I might any day be incapacitated by covert action.  He is a torturer by his very nature.  But, we get to choose what our own lives mean,  and torturers will never steal that right from us.  They steal our comfort certainly,  but they can never steal our eternity.  Our WILL and our RESOLVE are our most important possessions.

 

5:57 am

“You can really break a person, and you  can cause them to commit suicide, through despair, or give up being sociable or give up being friendly or going against their nature…”

Gang Stalking A Localised Form Of Occult Imprisonment – Morris

“You deprive a person of all companionship…”

“You can interfere with every connection they have with everyone.  You can totally destroy anyone’s life.”

“You can’t communicate with anyone and all areas are betrayal.”

“A gossip campaign is an extremely strong campaign in itself.  You’re being framed and set up INFINITELY.”

5:33 am

I will seek to free everybody within my sphere of influence, to become everything they’ve ever dreamed.  I think I am permitted to attempt this, by God.  I also believe that God loves us ALL enough that he will give me supernatural powers as I attempt to provide  people love and hope.

 

I think God intended for us to romance each other.  I was kept out of the romance-loop. I SERVED my relationships.   I don’t think God intended our earthly-existence-period to be all-the-time drudgery.  I used to believe that it was, because I did not understand love,  because the Baptists taught me the wrong definition.  I could REALLY love somebody now that I kinda understand what it means.  I thought it meant giving spankings and controlling others.  How much better to nurture another and  watch him/her blossom in ways you couldn’t have predicted?  I want to see what’s inside of people.  I want that really badly.

5:27 am

Those who yearn to breathe free are castigated now.  Those who yearn to be responsible for their own lives and prosperity, are now enemies of the state.  I really hope somebody gets this pretty soon.

 

5:25 am

What the heck, repetition worked with the pledge of allegiance:

Those who yearn to breathe free are castigated now.  Those who yearn to be responsible for their own lives and prosperity, are now enemies of the state.  I really hope somebody gets this pretty soon.

5:16 am

Those who yearn to breathe free are castigated now.  Those who yearn to be responsible for their own lives and prosperity, are now enemies of the state.  I really hope somebody gets this pretty soon.

 

Those who yearn to breathe free are castigated now.  Those who yearn to be responsible for their own lives and prosperity, are now enemies of the state.  I really hope somebody gets this pretty soon.

4:56 am

Text to Dad:
Dear Dad.  I am very weak and run-down after pressuring you for all these years.  I could really use some assistance.  Thank you for considering my request.

 

 

1/3/15

8:44 pm

2NYPLQS

8:17 pm

We choose life or we choose the system.  We choose to believe that biological organisms, ESPECIALLY THOSE CREATED IN THE IMAGE OF GOD, have a right to exist and to expend resources by virtue of the simple fact that EVERYBODY MATTERS.  The “system” wants us dead, or mind-controlled trans-human minimal-carbon-robots.  I do not accept this fate for myself, nor for my species.  We stand up now or we never stand up again.

8:08 pm

“In Defense of LIFE”

A Call For Removal Of The Depopulationists

“Genetically modified food has been discovered to have very serious side-effects on human beings, on other animals and other crops.”

 

“Now I think perhaps you understand what genetically modified food has been designed for.  It’s been designed to reduce the population of the planet.”

 

They’ve taken our FOOD SUPPLY, the whole damned thing.  They’ve taken our weather and  they splice our genome with turtles.  How LONG WILL HUMANITY TOLERATE THIS?

 

Read more at:   http://www.zengardner.com/a-call-for-removal-of-the-depopulationists/

7:54 pm

“The truth will set you free. But not until it is finished with you.” – David Foster Wallace

 

—-

6:02 pm

MUSIC BREAK

This was one of my grandma’s favorite songs:

The Unicorn Song – The Irish Rovers – Lyrics

 

5:35 pm

 

Looking at the cat calms me down.  His eyes are so very green and his ears and nose are so pink and the rest of him is so white:  I can’t call him Gaddfi.  I usually say things like, “Good kittens stay down.  I know you want to be the best you can be.”

5:28 pm

Isaac knew I was sick and came around the counter to pray with me.  He put his arm around my shoulders and we prayed in tongues together.  Then he asked God to heal me and to give me a sense of accomplishment in my efforts, and to make me feel valuable.

 

 

5:08 pm

Truth, justice and peace.  My father does not love these things.  I have demonstrated, to myself,  his lack of  appropriate human aspiration, by recording his actions and my attempts to communicate with him.  If the man does not love (…promote) truth, peace, and justice, he is not a Son of God.  That’s just the way it is.

 

4:46 pm

Could I raise the stakes any higher?  I don’t know how.  We’re threatened with hellfire and brimstone for lying;  I’ll bare  my breast to any armament,  in my confidence of my truth.  What can I do to get anybody’s attention?

 

4:44 pm

There are two people in the world who know I speak the truth about what I experienced.  My dad and Adam both know I believed I was following God when I ran for Congress and pissed them both off.  Both were atheists.  Who will speak up?  God told me to trust Adam.  He’s got my back-up evidence.  Someday, somebody will speak truth into my life.

 

4:40 pm

Wouldn’t it be funny if Dad  was unable to kill me by overt action but accomplished my death by neglect?

 

4:36 pm

I feel like shit, I’m not OK.  I want somebody to hold me and say that it is not right what I’ve suffered, and vow to help me track down the rapists.  I want my dad.

 

4:34 pm

In Christian America, I am persecuted because I really believe.  Lots of people are more vocal about their “faith” than I am, but I am persecuted because I really believe.   Selah.

 

4:32 pm

If any god is God then he is not about segregation.  If he’s really GOD then he 1) made everybody, 2) made everything, and 3) doesn’t need us shooting people who do not agree with us about our definition of a god.  If any god is God, then he doesn’t need to entice us to serve him with promises of virgins in Paradise and mansions over the hilltop.  “If God be God, then serve him.”  If our god is the real God then he loves our enemies and asks us to do the same.  If God be God then he’s god of the Muslims and everybody else.  Their definition might be faulty, mine might be deficient as well.  But, I know that “God almighty, creator of Heaven and Earth” does not require my puny defense.  He requires my hushed obedience.  Then he’ll change the world.

 

11:55 am

Those who speak about religious freedom are themselves so religious they’ve unearthed another whole layer of infringement and sanctimony.  It’s layers upon layers of bullshit!  But everybody thinks he’s telling the truth!  I hope the revolution doesn’t take too long.  I can hardly deal with the lies, and stupid liars are so much worse.

11:48 am

George just brought me a sweater;   it was accidentally tumble-dried.  He was very concerned.  I didn’t barf.

 

 

11:44 am

I just texted the following to my dad, my mother and my brother.  What do you wanna bet they don’t respond?

I’ll keep you posted.

11:33 am

TEXT OF THE TEXT:  If my dad needs to see my corpuscles explode all over my environs in order to speak truth…so be it.  I pray for more fire on him, and me, and my boys, and Adam, and David and Chris and George and my pitiful mother.  “Amen.”

 

11:32 am

I could have an orderly life, if I just got my spices in line.  I couldn’t find any bay leaves, and they feature prominently in several family favorites.  I knew I had them, but I couldn’t put my finger on them.  This is a recurring theme for me, not just in my spice closet.  I know I have the answer, but I just can’t bring it to the surface.

 

11:25 am

I don’t know how much more I can take.  Disappointment with people weighs very heavy.  I’m stunned by my recognition that all the “Christians” I knew, are more concerned about their own reputations than EVEN A WOMAN WHO WAS RAPED REPEATEDLY IN HER OWN HOME.  If “Christians” do not care about this issue enough to EVEN ASK A SINGLE QUESTION, it’s really time for the shift.  “Lord, please let me be on the right side, on your side.  Forgive my family and other “Christians” who do not care about what happened to me.  Amen.”  “Also give me grace to keep going.  As you know, I’m tired and sick.”

 

11:18 am

I put a chunk of eye of round into the Vadas.  I’ll have to cut it up because otherwise it will be really stringy.  I hate living with George.  I hate it every single day.  I hate taking his money, and I hate folding his underwear.  I repent daily for hating his presence.  I hate living with George.  George does not care about what his family suffered.  He is unwilling to seek the source of our family’s dissolution;  truthfully he doesn’t even recognize the changes we’ve experienced.    He doesn’t care about anything.  I hate living with George.  I don’t want to say “hate”  anymore but sometimes I have to do it.

 

10:56 am

Lord, the layers of deceit are endless!  I can’t get to the bottom of it!  First some  bureaucrat screams, then somebody points a finger at him.  Religious people are insufferable, pompous and deceived.  Psychiatrists have the economy by the nuts, George can look me in the eye as I ask a question and the query doesn’t even register:  Absolutely NOBODY CAN HEAR ME.  I’d be laughing if I could relax enough to laugh.  I didn’t even YAWN for three years!

 

9:34 am

“The CIA makes the mafia look like a Sunday school class.”

Ted Gunderson Former FBI Chief – Most Terror Attacks Are Committed By Our CIA And FBI

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3Nlj4twPi

 

5:31 am

On New Year’s day, in an unfortunate, home “exercise” accident, USSA Senator, Harry Reid (D-NV) smashed his face, resulting in broken facial bones, as well as broken ribs and a very black eye.

“If you want to do a little digging, you can easily come up with much more. Forget about whatever nonsense you might have learned in your high school civics course, once upon a time. The way that politics really work, the way that government really runs, is nasty and brutish. “

 

“People get beaten. People get shot. People get killed. That’s the way the system works.”

 

Read more at:   http://eventhorizonchronicle.blogspot.com/2015/01/happy-new-year-harry-reid.html

 

4:46 am

Day after day, year after year I keep pressure on my dad, believing that he will eventually take responsibility for what he’s done.  Day after day, year after year he refuses to even talk to his wounded daughter who requires some answers in order to heal.  He’s not even willing to talk.  What a wimp.

 

3:49 am

My mind is like a busy airport and I’d like to put my feet up in some quiet terminal for a while.  I feel sick; I haven’t been sick for about five years.  My body is very run-down and I wonder what God’s going to do about it.  My body usually always feels good.  I wonder what this is all about.

 

3:41 am

Torture is a natural outcome of any system where one group is afforded the privilege to control the behavior of others.

“Democracy is just another form of tyranny, albeit a disguised one.”

2:55 am

Here’s what I THINK happened; I need to know if I’m right.  My friend is a very important man, so important that he was named on a hater-website when he was 22.  They (yeah, I know…) tried to set us up.  All of the weirdness I experienced points to that conclusion.  I’ve always prayed a lot.  George’s name used to enter my internal field of vision, at the upper left-hand corner.  Then, his name would appear there and get blacked out and moved away, then replaced.  For two years, every time George touched me, even jostling around in the kitchen…I dropped to the floor.  I saw pictures of myself with the important guy, and strange things would happen to my body.  I RECORDED ALL THAT STUFF.  Somebody’s gotta help me pretty soon.

 

2:34 am

I sure hope my dad lets me go to Toronto pretty soon; I’m dealing with some serious anxiety.  I haven’t fully relaxed since I got back from Belgium.  I thought something would change in my situation then.  I’m grateful for the cloud, because God is just.  He will condemn no man without reviewing the record.  He will condemn no Christian who neglected a suffering sister, without full disclosure of that brother’s life and opportunities to do rightly.  My story is in the cloud; I suspect that makes us responsible for how we deal with it.

 

 

1/2/15

6:14 pm

 

I slept all afternoon, I have a chill.   I made French Canadian pea soup for supper, split yellow peas.  It’s more of a sludge than a soup, I put in chunks of cabbage and potatoes.  I seasoned it with a bit of thyme, and “Savory.”  I don’t know if it was Summer Savory or Winter Savory because my spice-monger doesn’t differentiate.   When you print a catalog, you’re stopping time and you have to draw the line somewhere.  Advertising prohibits us from telling all we know.   The spice guy obviously knows about varieties of herbs, and spice substitutes.  (He wrote a whole thing about cinnamon and cassia.  I actually think I prefer cassia.)   Truth will take us just as far as we wish to go.  Catalogs are not truth.

 

5:22 pm

“The power of the people is stronger than the people in power.”

How The Elite Stay In Power

“If you want to be incrementally better:  Be Competitive.

If you want to be exponentially better:  Be Cooperative.”  (Anonymous)

 

5:01 pm

No call from my parents.  George and Isaac went up there to visit.  No dessert left.

Maybe they are unable to care about me.  Maybe I’m not really a throw-away person but my rich parents can’t feel empathy?

“Wealthy people, however, are more or less disabled in this area: they have what Keltner calls an ‘empathy deficit’, meaning that the pursuit of money and societal divisions of class are literally over-riding the natural (and primeval) functions of selflessness which we are all born with. These functions are crucial for a healthy, happy society.”

Read More: http://www.trueactivist.com/this-is-why-rich-people-dont-care-about-you/

12:09 pm

 

 

TEACHERS OF ENGLISH
AS A SECOND LANGUAGE
ASSOCIATION OF ONTARIO

12:04 pm

“All experience has shown that mankind is more disposed to suffer–while evils are sufferable–than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed.”        (American Declaration of Independence.)

 

11:50 am

What the heck, I’ll send my message to David too.

11:42 am

TEXT to my dad and mom:

“I know you care most about yourself and your reputation, but doesn’t some part of you care about what was done to me?  Do you NOT CARE AT ALL?”

10:52 am

 

It never occurred to me that nobody would care about what was done to me.  I’m having a hard time with that realization.  (My mom let me be  raped as a child so what did I expect?)   I figured though, that once I had 1) established my habitual prudence, 2) documented what happened, and 3) documented the details of ELECTRONIC TORTURE BY VARIOUS ENTITIES, somebody would care.   My life is not about me and I will to not care that nobody cares that I was raped.  I will to obey God and to use my documentation to help others.  God loves me, anyway. He also loves all the other victims, and he gave me tools to help them.  God doesn’t waste anything,  but I’m impatient.  I would like to be away from unloving people who do not care about women being raped in their own homes with tax-payer dollars.  I would like to be around people who maybe-might could love me.

 

5:02 am

Paula Fuga & Mike Love- “Misery’s End”

 

4:51 am

HEY, Dad, I think I might like to go to this conference.  Heidi Baker is my favorite preacher (you remember, I gave you tapes…) and she lives in Mozambique and doesn’t come to the new world very often.  Sure wish I had a cozy place to stay in Toronto.  Maybe I could even get enrolled in a TESL class so I could earn money anywhere in the world.  Maybe I could even get Josh learning more Swedish and more interactive with today’s world.  If I had a cozy place to stay in Toronto.

Event Banner Image

Read more at:   http://www.ctftoronto.com/event?id=8217

4:31 am

This guy knows how to worship!  “Lord, may I please go to church?”

Terry Macalmon – Oh The Glory Of His Presence

1/1/15

9:18 pm

The whole goal of humanity from here on out should be for every single individual to be enabled to become every single thing he/she can possibly become.  My boys are in Josh’s room talking about homelessness and how to start a “large-scale rebellion” against hunger.  I AM SO PROUD OF THESE MEN.  My dad is puny and sorrowful.  He could change the world but he’d rather be stubborn and rich.  It warms the cockles of my heart to hear my boys say things like, “I hope I’m not just being delusional.  I hope we can really make some people believe in no limitations.  People who see through the matrix,  but also see their power to change the situation.”

7:51 pm

Whitney Houston – I Wanna Dance with Somebody(HQ Stereo) (1988 30th GRAMMY Awards)

(That black chick cannot dance.  I am not a bigot.)

 

7:45 pm

I do not know who I follow.  I know I was told by God to 1) follow a person, 2) identify that person by indicia of love, and 3) trust that person beyond all reasonable limits.  I’m attempting to obey the Lord.  I’d like to look into somebody’s eyes but if God says that’s not necessary, it’s not necessary.  I know that I 1) have a website that I am UNABLE to understand or maintain, 2) am given courage, when I doubt my value, and 3) am given hope.  I move as the goon moves.  I am told to trust the goon.  The goon saved my life a couple times.  Here we stand.

 

 

7:38 pm

I really sent that text to my dad, the one that said I was in pain and needed him to talk to me.  He hasn’t responded.

 

7:32 pom

My boys have been caused to believe that their mother, who can pull together a stellar meal on her worst day, is deficient.  “Please, Lord, my dad knows I’m extraordinary.  Please let him report his observations to my sons.”

 

7:28 pm

We had wonderful chicken wings and french-fries.  George knew I was under the weather and congratulated me for rallying.  Four and a half pounds of wings, so everybody was left wanting just one more.  Perfect.  Three different sauces.  I love condiments.

 

5:27 pm

 

“Lord, could they make a snap-chat for brains?  I’d love to choose which neural episodes they record, and I’d gussy up.”  The pretty women who display their bodies are running out of options.  They could remove their skin I suppose, but other than dissection, there isn’t much mystery left. Forgive me for observing, that to see under the sexy naked skin might not be a very enlightening experience.  Our bodies are containers for what we are; they’re vehicles and mine isn’t rolling  too well.  I’m stressed.  I am very stressed, but I know God has a plan for my stressedness.

 

5:05 pm

I took a nap and woke up vomiting.  I haven’t vomited in a long time.  I can’t live like this much longer I think. The lies permeate the house and temper our discourse. I know I must live my message, I know God will fix me again and I know I will thank him for allowing me to sink so low once again.  I always thank him.  I always think I’m not going to survive but I wouldn’t  know how to crash even if I wanted to.   I have been victimized so many ways and nobody cares about me.  I think somebody has to care about me if I’m going to be alright again.  I used to vomit every morning as I realized I’d have to spend another day as I spent my days.  I feel that way again.  God will fix me and I’ll have hope.  “Thank you, Lord.”

 

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1:53 pm

 

I just want to cut out, Dear Lord, forgive me, but you know it’s true.  I’ve spent half a century kissing the ass of a psychopath and now you’re finally showing people what’s what.  I’m tired.  Please let me know when you have something for me to do.  I’m really tired, Lord.

 

1:11 pm

 

OMG I am a regrettably non-latina who just ate the best burrito of her life.  Leftover crawfish.  It was amazing.  I’m blessed beyond measure.

 

12:57 pm

Create your own religion and rape a bunch of women.  That’s how you establish the strongest civilization on earth.  (The boys are studying Romulus.)

 

12:46 pm

 

I am going to text this message to my father.  With my archaic phone it will take at least an hour.  It’s better than washing dishes.

“Dear Dad, I am in pain and very troubled.  I would like to speak to you about alleviating my pain.  Would you please talk to me?  Love, Linda”

12:38 pm

 

I took aim, one time only.  I gave my entire life to Jesus and he fashioned it into an arrow.  I don’t know what the arrow was made of but one day in Ann Arbor Jesus handed that arrow to me and told me to shoot it.  Your lives really suck.

 

—-

12:28 pm

Like hell, my dad supports missionaries.  He supports ass-kissers.

12:25 pm

I CAN’T (thanks to my dad) be a mom anymore.  What could I be?

Maybe I’ll set up a chip-in account.  I could make this world better if I had some gas money.  I would prefer to fly, but that’s between money-bags and God.  I’ve really gotta get a move on.

 

 

11:58 am

 

MUSIC BREAK

ABBA-Take a chance on me

11:55 am

And indeed there will be time
To wonder, “Do I dare?” and, “Do I dare?”
Time to turn back and descend the stair,
With a bald spot in the middle of my hair—
[They will say: “How his hair is growing thin!”]
My morning coat, my collar mounting firmly to the chin,
My necktie rich and modest, but asserted by a simple pin—
[They will say: “But how his arms and legs are thin!”]
Do I dare
Disturb the universe?
In a minute there is time
For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse.
(“Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock”,   by T. S. Eliot)
If this is ALL YOU WANT, rich relatives, more power to you.  You Won!  You succeeded!  You can go to the mall and buy anything you want!  The video game is real and amazing and when you  get that gizmo home we’ll go to town.  You just gotta buy ONE MORE GIZMO!  How about maybe bet on me?  You don’t even have to believe me, you could invest anyway.  You guys do that every day.  Bet on my conviction, bet on my stamina and supernatural command of English vernacular in the North American, subgroup-Upper Midwestern/Scandinavian  tradition.  I can make you laugh.  I can do it time and again.  Don’t you want to laugh sometimes?

 

 

—-

11:23 am

There’s a lot of freedom in disregarding death, that’s where real freedom lies.  I got a head-start on this new air, because I actually avoided physical death a number of times.  Absent really threatening circumstances, I do not think there is any short-cut to eliminating fear of death.  Like any other obstacle, you gotta face it.  Jesus overcame it.  We can trust his report and do the same.  Or we can WATCH TV.
I’m not even afraid of dying; does my dad think this will EVER go away?  I already did whatever it is I was supposed to do, or rather God did it.  All I have to do is wait.  My prison is warm and has wifi.  I just have to wait, but maybe today?  Maybe today somebody will say, “Linda, I recognize that you never meant to harm a soul. Tell me about what they did to you.”
I was born “for such a time as this.”  So was my dad.

 

 

10:28 am

MUSIC BREAK

Nazareth – Love Hurts Lyrics

 

10:26 am

There’s a lot of freedom in disregarding death, that’s where real freedom lies.  I got a head-start on this new air, because I actually avoided physical death a number of times.  Absent really threatening circumstances, I do not think there is any short-cut to eliminating fear of death.  Like any other obstacle, you gotta face it.  Jesus overcame it.  We can trust his report and do the same.  Or we can WATCH TV.

 

 

10:13 am

If I had my sister’s number I would have texted her days ago.  She bought an OUTSTANDING shirt for Josh and he loves it.  I love it.  She’s so cool.

 

10:09 am

I met your sister Rich, and I know you don’t like the way she treats herself.  You’ve watched me treat myself that same way, with uncovered head.  It’s rape, plain and simple, that we both suffered.  Is there not yet a man within the ranks of Goldthorpe?  I keep hoping for the best.

 

10:05 am

Rich is real smart, way smarter than I am, he’s proved that a lot of times.  He could prove it again.  If he cares about DOCTORING REAL HEARTS.

 

9:58 am

I’m begging the smart in-laws.  You got stuck in a Dallas script with a Star-trek schtick.  You know I know that you know what I know.  Tim Yip.  You know I know you know what I know and you know it.  Nice not knowin’ ya.

PS-  give your wife a reason not to instruct others how to live…

 

9:49 am

Cooking is becoming very spiritual, I don’t think I’m the only one who’d say so.  Consciously cooking necessarily involves reflection on incidents and ingredient.  God is speaking louder and louder, and using many media we (I) hadn’t considered “sacred.”  (I love that word.  Long story.)  He has not yet seen fit to fill me with his seven spirits, but I’m hopeful.  I ask for more of his spirit every day, and more divine love, and a larger heart to hold it all.  I’m no longer writing for my life, but I’m writing for the lives of others.  “Start me with ten, who are stout-hearted men, and I’ll soon give you ten-thousand more!”  Somebody must pick up the reigns to this donkey-cart pretty soon because we gotta get outta Dodge.  If you do not yet see reality in my words, nice knowin’ ya.
9:46 am
I am BEGGING you PEOPLE!  WHY WOULD I DO THAT?  Would I interrupt your scheduled programming just to be a JERK?   People have to think, people have to see what’s being done to us.  I’m going to explode here, it really feels like that.  If I don’t have somebody to talk to pretty soon I can’t be responsible for the consequences.

 

 

9:32 am

My dad texted me last night, after my mom did, after I invited ourselves to bring dessert to their house:
“Would like that but nobody will be home tonight don’t eat it all.”
(Doesn’t that sound like a date?)
Dear Dad,
I’ll throw caution to the wind.  This is a love note.  It has two boxes awaiting your decision.  (You only get to check one.)  “I love you, do you love me?”  Box A)  I love Linda, and I will comfort, protect and provide for her, based on my love alone, or Box B) I do not love Linda and will gladly pay money to get her out of my vicinity.  (Failure to choose either option defaults to Box B.  You have my bank account details.)
“This is pretty funny, Lord.  Thank you for a enabling me not to take my life personally, because from up here my dad’s a stitch.  Amen.”
Sometimes I take pride in my databases.  That’s really faulty.  It’s like a filing cabinet having higher status if it held the important stuff.  They’re both made at Steelcase, or whatever.  I need to clean out my internal filing cabinet.  There’s a lot of grief and pain stored there and I need to get rid of it.  I wish some Christian would spend a little time with me and help me sort the remnants of violation and deceit.  Why else were you put here?  I wish my parents would consider others before themselves, for once.  I hope that I am, and that my children are soon afforded opportunity to advance from the point where my father cut off our credibility and progress.  We need this cart turned back up on its wheels.  My father needs to make some things right.  It’s a no-brainer to me.
Dear me, dear reader, do you actually BELIEVE I COULD KEEP THIS UP for a hoot?  Do you ACTUALLY think I could make up every single detail that I 1) recorded three times, 2) published in 2011, and 3) SWORE TO BEFORE A NOTARY PUBLIC?  God did not give me such exemplary evidence of malfeasance by who-the-hell-knows for nothing.  I am perfectly situated for a major miracle.  Major miracle.  God free the hackers.  Oh, dear God, that yule log with the tiramisu filling was divine.  Thank you.  The boys were drooling as they scraped their plates.  You put me here to make men happy.  I’d like to fulfill my purpose.

 

8:58 am

I filled my car up last night, and added dry gas.  I haven’t filled up my car since I was spending political donations.  I wonder why I did?  I’m intended to make Buffalo wings today, the chicken has been thoughtfully left out of the freezer.  George did the dishes last night, God bless him.  We ate:  cold shrimp with cocktail sauce, ceviche, of scallops and shrimp, garlic-butter scallops, King crab legs, lobster risotto and mushroom caps stuffed with crawfish and cheese.  Asparagus.  I didn’t bake bread.  I think it was the most appreciated meal I’ve ever cooked for them.  I’ll have a hard time topping it with chicken wings and hot sauce.

 

 

 

8:46 am

I’m WAY over-excited.  The only time I’m comfortable is when I’m ranting.  Or when I’m taking dictation, rather.  “Follow the peace.”  That’s how you follow God and the way gets narrow and clumsy.  I pray to be taken between the obstacles exactly in his footsteps.  The peace only happens when I’m saying things.  Nobody ever listened to me in my whole life, until politics.  I had no idea running for Congress would wound me so badly, how could I?  I had never met a politician; I looked up the rules on the internet with my 12 year-old.  I thought anybody could run for Congress.  This is a fallacy and politics ripped lots of lies from my backlog.
We can no longer entertain lies.  We MAY if we choose, but permissive will is not the same as having God’s best for ourselves and the planet.  I always wanted to accomplish EVERY LITTLE THING God had planned for my WEIRDO life to accomplish.  I still want that, but I also want peace.  I want truth with every fiber of my being, and I want that truth to wash my children clean of lies and puzzlement.  I want clarity of purpose, God gave me my issue.  I’m ready to roll, spinning my tires, burning rubber.  Somebody just needs to drop a morsel of truth in my path and I’ll follow it home.

 

 

 

—-

8:37 am

One little fact, one solitary FACT; this fact ALONE should wake people up:  PLANES HAVE BEEN SPRAYING CRAP INTO  OUR AIR FOR OVER A DECADE.  Don’t people remember where our food comes from?  Haven’t they read about nano-technology?  I met lots of single-issue activists over the years, and I’ve admired them.  I also felt their efforts to be futile, because I saw corruption everywhere I looked and couldn’t ever put my finger on an issue.  BUT, but, the single fact that PLANES HAVE BEEN SPRAYING CRAP INTO OUR AIR FOR OVER A DECADE should put the fear of the Lord in us.  We should ask questions like “Dear Lord!  If they’ll do THAT  what else are they capable of?”  We should TURN OFF THE TV and take to the highways.  We should demand accountability and we should see the geo-engineers brought to severe justice!  THEY SOLD OUT OUR GRANDCHILDREN AND NOBODY SEEMS TO GIVE A RIP.

 

3:54 am

“Understand that you have the power to make the world beautiful and prosperous. Even the smallest acts of kindness make an incredible impact! Imagine if we all took just a moment of our time to help someone else in some way. Imagine a society in which we value each other more than we value material objects. Imagine what else awaits to be discovered.”

Anonymous Annual New Year Speech (2015)

“We are Anonymous, we are legion.  We never forget.  Expect us.”

(It’s a weird world when you trust hackers more than your government.  No.  Perhaps worlds are weird when they’re the other way around?)

 

 

 

3:45 am

It’s going to break, I can feel it, something’s going to break.  I can’t live like this and God has demonstrated his willingness that my life continue during more of Earth’s false time-construct…I don’t know what to do!  “Dear God, I’ve spoken to everybody in my world who claims to value truth and justice!  My father is a fraud and people fear his money too much to speak truth!  What do I do next?  Yeah.  ‘Rest.’  Thank you.  Amen.”

 

 

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2:16 am

Prophecy

1/1/15

2:12 am

“The enemy strategies that are resisting the maturing saints will also be brought to the light, so that the Body can learn to corporately stand and more effectively fight. What the mature sons have been progressively learning, will now be brought out unto the corporate Body, so that the full army can be properly equipped and also matured.”

“The Fathers will now train the up and coming sons in advanced tactics revealed to them from heaven. An intense spiritual boot camp in 2015 will bring the church into true alignment and effectively transform her into the overcoming harvesting force that she is.”

“2015: That which was hidden will emerge and manifest revealing the true Light”

Read more here:   http://ft111.com/omarra.htm

 

12/31/14

8:11 pm

Isaac told me tonight that he’s a Christian.  I didn’t overreact.  He said, “Just in case you were wondering…”

7:57 pm

When I come into my room  I take a deep breath.  I pulled off a fine dinner tonight.
I’ve been wanting to prepare a fine dinner ever since Isaac got here.  It’s his birthday and dinner was a great success,and I ate too much lobster risotto.  (I am now a big fan of truffle oil.  Isaac doesn’t like it but Josh and George do.) The boys are watching a TV show where experimenters are perfecting a guillotine that you can throw at a person.  I can’t watch it.  Nice normal-looking people are throwing blades at a mannequin while discussing the “trachaea damage” and the history of decapitation.  I’ve got to get out of here.  The yule log was beautiful, it looked more like a log than a pastry,  but I guess that’s the point.  The men even thought it tasted good.  I’m exhausted, but I did good work.  If I could decapitate a dummy with a pie plate I could be rich.  As long as the webcam was running.

7:44 pm

I read tonight that “every man wants to get married.”  This is astonishing, if true.  I’ve spent  fruitless hours asking my male friends why they want to live with a woman.  (They all do.)  I understand sex.  (“Understand” pretty much sums up my limited familiarity.)   But one does not have to share a bath towel with one’s sexual partner.  Or a phone number.  Or even share one’s OWN phone number.  Sex is now recreation, right?  It’s like going to the gym with benefits.  I never could understand why any man I know, would wish to live with any woman I know.  (I include myself in the  control group.)  Sex can happen.  Women cook sometimes, not so much anymore.  Women perhaps facilitate communication, among a phyle of people with which I am acquainted, wherein a man is uncomfortable making phone calls or communicating family contracts.  But otherwise, women are basically bitchy and manipulative and it amazes me that any man would wish to live with such a creature. But, to recognize that a competent man might wish  to MARRY one is an even bigger stretch.  My practical mind cannot embrace such foolish thinking.

 

4:20 pm  (gotta love it.)

It is as if my children think I speak of my experiences being  tortured and raped…intentionally to harm them. Isaac is looking at a new venture, it’s trying to change the world by changing one person’s life.  Huh.  He said when I come to Colorado we will go to the hookah bar.  I didn’t know if they smoked tobacco or marijuana.  He says  it’s tobacco, but he couldn’t make smoke rings like the old-timers.  (I used to blow smoke rings, in a former life.)  He doesn’t want to hear me, he even said, “It is my birthday and you’ve made me picture my mother being raped 12 times.”  If I kept it to myself, that would be a gift?

 

3:06 pm

I also explained how I learned my father was a psychopath and that I was his textbook target.  I told them how God has walked me through many episodes of memory and I’ve seen the psychopathic characteristics repeatedly.  They do not like to think about these things, but they must not ever follow a psychopath.  That’s a no-brainer.

 

3:02 pm

They THREW AWAY the lobster shells.  They were for stock to make the risotto but I cut my thumb and asked the boys to help shell the lobster tails.  I’ll just have to improvise.

Isaac says they’re having a party at his house tonight and his roommates say the energy is all wrong because he’s not there.  In Colorado he plays music and the girls sing and dance.  Whatever is he doing here?  I got a text from my mom. It said:   “We are not home!  Thanks much for wanting to share with us.  We will be home tomorrow evening.  If there are any leftovers we’d love to have a taste.”   The yule log will have been demolished by then.  The boys don’t like my stories.  I will say, next time I’m permitted an edgewise word, “I want to do what I’m supposed to do.  God put us through that torture for a reason.  My story is important.  I’m sorry I’m saying it wrong and it upsets you.  I’m sorry you do not like picturing your mother being raped; I don’t like that either.  But, we MUST talk about it and we should take our show on the road.  Most people do not know what’s happening to them and they die.”

 

11:16 am

 

Cops take money from us to keep the peace.  Cops rape children with their hands on the very gun we gave to them.  Cops badger others, for a paycheck, but they act the same way as the badger-ees.   If cops are not subject to the same laws they “enforce”,  then they are thugs and hoodlums.  Cops aren’t our role models and guides… because good men cannot be cops.  Good men recognize human frailty  and they do unto others as they would have others do unto them.  Good men do not desire to control other people, and do not seek employment requiring them to do so.  Cops have been given the right to control others and they do control others.  Cops pay far less attention to controlling themselves.  Cops may sometimes defend others, but defending somebody else always somehow  works out for them.  Anybody who wants to be a cop wants to be in control of other people.  This is a trait of 1) narcissists,2) those who suffer personality disorders,and 3)  priests.
A good man does not aspire to hold others to a standard of behavior to which he himself is not accountable.  Psychopaths do that.

 

 

10:51 am

PA police shoot suspect dead for resisting arrest over alleged online threats

OMG!        OMG!!     What if they just “think” something is threatening?  What if they shoot me in the head for praying that they abandon their career of controlling and abusing others?  Will they kill me too?  Will my family say I had it coming?

 

Read more here:   <strong>http://www.legitgov.org/PA-police-shoot-suspect-dead-resisting-arrest-over-alleged-online-threats

 

10:43 am

I just put wood on the fire, it was almost out.  Isaac and George are asleep.  Thank God they have me.  God forgive my father for telling them I could not be trusted.  Whom should they trust instead?

 

I asked for a big finish.”Wise” people disagree with me, and ignore my pleas for justice.  A prudent man could disregard my claims, and distinguish himself thus.  A TRULY prudent man would not dismiss me so lightly.  It seems that those who should know me best, know me least.  (I do not denigrate those who choose not to know me;  knowing me is the least of all things.)   However.  I was maligned.  I was castigated and made a servant to those with more money.  I did as I was told and I was beaten just the same.  My brother is kind.  My brother turned his face from my ostracism, and the abuse I suffered.  My brother is rich, and I am poor and nobody even cares that I was raped repeatedly by some entity that my father 1) is acquainted with, 2) paid to violate his own daughter, and 3) I HAVE YET TO IDENTIFY.  I do not believe this reality can exist for very much longer.  My innocent blood cries out from the ground.  My suffering will see justice, my boys will see truth, and I will be compensated for serving the souls of LIARS.  “Amen.”
10:29 am
I’ve put in an entire day already and nobody’s up yet.  I must be crazy.

 

10:08 am

Evil torturers catch a break: How America got distracted from a national travesty

The United States is in real trouble when the story about the hacking into Sony Pictures computers and their decision to pull an inane comedy totally big foots the deeply troubling Senate Intelligence Committee’s study of the CIA’s Detention and Interrogation Program.

 

Read more at:   http://www.presstv.ir/detail/2014/12/28/392113/us-evil-torturers-catch-a-break/

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10:07 am

“I love money. I love everything about it. I bought some pretty good stuff. Got me a $300 pair of socks. Got a fur sink. An electric dog polisher. A gasoline powered turtleneck sweater. And, of course, I bought some dumb stuff, too.” — Steve Martin

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10:02 am

 

I made ceviche.  I couldn’t find uncooked shrimp but the scallops are raw so it’ll be the real deal.  I can’t stuff the crawfish meat into mushroom caps since I used  the mushrooms, on pizza.  My only new crawfish inspiration is too rich to serve with lobster risotto.  At least I have something to think about today other than the imminent destruction of my species.  The ganache looks like tree-bark, at least to me.  I texted my folks inviting ourselves to bring dessert to their home in honor of Isaac’s birthday.  So far, no response.  Maybe I should have mentioned the cheesecake?  I glued the meringue  “mushroom” stems to their tops, with melted chocolate.  This is surreal.  I’m cooking as Rome burns.

 

8:48 am

 

The Yule Log recipe is not difficult, but it is tedious and poorly written.  I make ganache often, but the instructions here make the process more difficult than it needs to be.  I have engaged two fields of intellectual endeavor:  1) food preparation, and 2) political influences on people who are voluntarily stupid.  I see many consistencies, despite the ostensible differences between these two fields of pursuit.  I pursue truth within each discipline; I seek to cook with integrity.  I trim.  I discard discolored bits.  I do not attempt to make a silk purse from a sow’s ear.  If this Yule Log turns out, am I finally vindicated?  Could a crazy person make a Yule Log?  Could a stupid person understand the significance of such a feat.  Could I possibly be 1) sane, 2) honest and 3) cooking everything in my house because it is my eldest son’s birthday?  “Tune in next week…”  “Dear God, I am not comfortable with the notion that people watch me, and it sometimes seems prideful to believe they do.  Nevertheless, in case they are, make me supernatural, please.  (I recognize that you have already done so but they need bigger proof than THIRTY FOUR-LEAF CLOVERS AT 8:15 IN THE MORNING FOR A FATHERS’ DAY GIFT FOR MY FATHER WHO REFUSED TO RECOGNIZE THE INCONGRUITY OF SUCH ‘PICKINGS’.)  Please, open people’s eyes, my own ESPECIALLY, and do not allow Goldthorpes to go down the tube with others, who have no hope.  Amen.”

 

7:18 am

I just smelled apple blossoms.  Really nice.  My fourth book, forward by Isaac:  “I was raised by a rebel who served God and only wanted to have babies who served God.”  When I went to bed, there were three able-bodied men in the house, and a fire outside.  When I woke up, George was restarting the fire with a compressor to fan the flame because it was too cold to stand outside and provide air in a manual fashion.  I don’t think they’ve noticed my “blue flu” but they’re feeling its consequences.  My first hunger strike was a great success. When I learned we were under surveillance, my first thoughts were:  BUT THE HOUSE IS SUCH A DISASTER!  I am shamed by my former pride and lack of depth.  I went on a strike to show WHY the house was a mess…TO GOONS WHO KNEW VERY WELL I HAD BEEN UNABLE TO DO MORE THAN PUT A TUNA CASSEROLE IN THE OVEN AND TAKE A SHOWER EVERY OTHER DAY.  Pitiful, I know.  Since then, the goons have been apprised of my superseding capabilities.  They’ll be calling me up pretty soon.  Or my father will be arrested.  One way or another.

 

6:27 am

Today I cook the seafood extravaganza that has been delayed for a week so my sons could spend time with their grandfather and their cousins.  When I got up this morning, before Isaac  went to bed in the wee-birthday-hours, he opened the cheesecake I manifested and froze two weeks ago.  He was touched at the taped plastic-wrap and double-springform-tinfoil packaging, and said he said he knows I love him.  His eyes shone.  I’m a fulfilled woman.  I’ll work my ass off to keep some man’s eyes shining.

 

6:12 am

 

I’m looking forward to becoming entirely free of mind-control, but I recognize there will not be very many humans there.  The “great cloud of witnesses” will banish my loneliness, but at this point, I really miss people.  I did not know how I would tolerate isolation; stories of prisons made me frantic.  I remember one guy, Soviet-Russia I think, who was in a room with other prisoners.  They sat on benches all day facing one another, and butt-cheek to butt-cheek.  At night they spooned, beneath their benches.  THEY WERE NOT PERMITTED TO TALK.  Never.  Once a week they left the room for a group-shower.  The witness found a scrap of soap, brittle with age, and he hid it between his butt-cheeks.  Ever after, when nobody was looking, (except the GOVERNMENT-FUCKED-SURVEILLANCE-GOONS-WHO-ARE-NOW-ALL-IN-HELL), he put his fingers up his ass and retrieved that soap-scrap.  He held it behind his back, so the morons-outside-the-door could not see what was REALLY GOING ON.  He tapped on the wall with his tiny scrap of cleanliness-related-to-a-better-existence.  I do not know Morse code, but maybe I should study it.  (That would probably be easier if I could count.)  I RECOGNIZE the dots from the dashes.  I WILL NEVER SUBMIT MY MIND TO CONTROL BY 1) demons, 2) Satan (God forbid…), 3) Keith Alexander, 4) family/societal expectations, 5) TV,  6) Vanity, shame, flattery or deceit, 7) psychopaths, 8) government, 9) Freemasons, 10) the “royal” family, 11) my father who is NOT smarter than the average bear, or 12) MY OWN WILL.  “Dear Lord, please OWN my mind…and my body and my spirit and my family and my friends and my influences and my future and all of theirs. ..dear, Lord.  Please may I have a kindred spirit.  Amen.”  “Please give the goons 1) GRACE, greater than all their sins, 2) COURAGE, 3) WISDOM, and 4) ORGANIZATION.”  “Please give them confidence and my love.”

 

5:26 am

My niece thinks Isaac is pointless because he is not enrolled at  an indoctrination center.  She has not yet recognized my father as a psychopath,  or she would be hesitant about attempting to control others’ lives. I’m praying for her more.  She grew old before her time.

5:23 am

Defy them. Glory in your awareness and freedom. Be bold and brash in the face of whatever they throw at us. Our fire is what is setting their cobweb of deceit aflame and they know it…but never mind them. Our concentration needs to be on manifesting the Truth.

“All the hocus-pocus of media entrainment has one goal – disempowerment. They cannot kill our bodies as hard as they try, they cannot suppress love and truth, and they cannot stop the tide of the awakening, despite the naysayers and critics. We are it.”

 

“This might sound shallow to some but this is the case. We have a LOT to be happy about. The exposure of their cruel intent, their psychopathic maneuverings, and the brash and blatant designs of their programs are out in the open. Wide open. Those who are willing to see are clearly able to see now. It’s something to take great heart in.”

 

The Awakening Springs Unstoppable

Read more at:   http://www.zengardner.com/the-awakening-springs-unstoppable/

 

4:22 am

Isaac’s birthday.  Family holiday of seriousness and joy.

I think I stopped buying it when his stripper-girlfriend relocated to Russia.  Now Edward Snowden has a dog.  Do I believe for an instant that we are hearing anything about the intelligence agencies that we are not intended to learn?  Do they not know the effects of surveillance on the human spirit, and “mental health”?  Do they not intend for each of us to cower in the presence of their representatives, be they even lesser mortals than TV ever dreamed it could construct?  EVERYTHING we see, is orchestrated to control EVERYTHING WE DO.  They’re patting themselves on the back, when they’re together.  When they’re alone they’re cowering at the realization of what they’ve done.  They’ve abolished lying.  They destroyed their very own existence.
Humanity has a choice: Resolved that:  Having recognized that my mind is being influenced by entities I do not understand, I hereby choose to either,  1)  listen to GOD, or 2)  LISTEN TO WHATEVER VOICE HAPPENS TO GRAB MY ATTENTION AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT.  We live in a mind-control matrix.  You can define that figuratively if it makes you more comfortable, but the song remains the same:  “Choose ye  this day whom you will serve.”

 

12/30/14

6:51 pm

Wow.  Some guys groom their daughters!

‘My father started grooming me for business at age six!’:   Ivanka Trump describes growing up with her mogul dad Donald 

‘I have notes from when I was six years old where he would send me renderings of buildings and he’d say, “I can’t wait for you to work for me one day,” ‘ Ivanka revealed.

In a new interview with People magazine, the 33-year-old fashion designer – as well as three of her other siblings (Donald Jr, 37, Eric, 30, and Tiffany, 21) – shed some light on what it was really like growing up with a father like Donald.

On Wednesday Ivanka told Good Morning America, ‘I’m an entrepreneur. I’m also a mother, a wife and a sister. I’m teaching my daughter how to garden and my son how to walk. I’m the first one up each morning and the last one to give kisses each night.’

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-2890524/Ivanka-Trump-describes-growing-dad-Donald-saying-father-started-grooming-business-six.html#ixzz3NQboVssL
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6:10 pm

George almost checked in, a moment ago.  We disagreed about something and I gave him facts…he heard me, and for an instant, he looked me in the eye.  Then, he looked back at his plate and we became ourselves again.

5:33 pm

There are a number of methods to construct and finish a buche de noel.  The “cut” ends of logs and/or branches can be 1) left unfrosted, revealing the rolls of cake and filling, or 2) frosted dark like the rest of the log, with white piping to define rings of growth like on a natural log, or 3) frosted with brown as the rest of the log, with rings  defined by blade-strokes in  the same color, or 4) just COVERED WITH CHOCOLATE, come what may.  I’m leaning toward  option 4.  This has been a seriously difficult cake.  The fact that it is SUPPOSED TO BE TIRAMISU makes the whole chocolate thing kind of pointless.  I WILL finish it, however.

 

4:42 pm

This is a big deal:  I am going to unroll the cake for Isaac’s birthday dessert.  The boys want to watch and reminded me to wash my hands.  I used to watch my grandmothers bake;  my boys have never seen a jelly roll.  (That’s funny a couple different ways…)  I’ve never made a jelly roll although I have my grandma Goldthorpe’s recipe.  Tonight, I see if I got the stuff.

 

4:40 pm

 

I finally made the cake and espresso syrup for my tiramisu buche de noel.  The boys then requested hollandaise sauce so I showed them how to make it with a microwave and a blender.  (That should impress a girl, should they ever want to impress a girl, or rather NEED to.  I think the girls might have a harder time impressing them.)  They’re making eggs Benedict with leftover ham.
Isaac says the command to “honor diversity”  is like an oxymoron.  Honor recognizes a particular set of qualities, and all diversions are not honorable.  Honor is culturally diverse; honor is not available to all diversions in any culture.   Honor has always been about the esteem of men.  Common goals, common bonds.  I’m exhausted from listening but I can’t get a buzz.  Isaac and George did dishes.  I’d like to breathe so I should probably go in my room and close the door.
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4:36 pm

I’m very blessed!  I just remembered again!  I am SO blessed to have these two smart men tell me their thoughts.  I’m more blessed when they take turns!  “God, forgive me for wishing to escape this life.  Forgive me when I forget that men are worth all the effort it takes to make one.  Amen.”

4:30 pm

 

Isaac is reading this book aloud, about how to be a worthwhile man.  I’m glad he’s studying,  God knows he’s had masculine role-models with differing opinions.  There’s a difference between nippy and bitter, but it‘s still very cold. When Isaac and I are on the same page we’ll be a formidable team.  I only just realized I stopped defending myself when he left.  I haven’t picked it back up since he’s been here, very much.  I yam what I yam and for that I’m grateful.  A lesser yam couldn’t have done what I’ve done.  “Thank you Lord, for causing me to 1) survive torture, 2) record torture, 3) have enough stamina to stand-down my dad or any other aging pervert who refuses your  ‘enhanced interrogation techniques.’   Amen.”

 

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12:29 pm

Loneliness – The Dilemma of the Awakening Mind

“Each step up the ladder requires tremendous courage, an open and curious mind and a high degree of “functional” intelligence. Those steps command effort -much more effort than what most are willing to exert. Sleepers may go so far as to observe or even stumble over this hypothetical “ladder” and still not recognize what it is or how they may benefit from it.”

 

“The lower state is easily entertained- and anything or anyone who challenges their status quo will be dismissed as an outsider, a misfit or a threat.”

 

“Once you have experienced the process of awakening there really is no going back. The one (down) side is the higher you get, the more rarefied the air becomes. Loneliness can settle in. The awakening mind is an exceptionally vibrant mind that requires considerable stimulation and camaraderie. But it’s lonely up there. Indeed.”

 

“Just by virtue of being aware you are already contributing in a vast and energetic way to those around you. They “sense” your vibration and may try to resonate with you some day. You have been given “eyes to see” and “ears to hear” so you have been blessed.”

 

Read more at:   http://www.wakingtimes.com/2014/12/29/loneliness-dilemma-awakening-mind/

 

 

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12:07 pm

MUSIC BREAK

Mike Love – Permanent Holiday w/lyrics

 

 

11:13 am

Cultivating Consciousness in an Unconscious World

“Though we don’t realise it, we go through our lives detecting just the gist of what’s going on. Even if we wanted to pay attention to each answer, we would have a limited capacity” to do so. Another, related reason is that when people are listening to a speaker, they are taking in nonverbal signals such as body language, facial expressions, and likability. In short, even when doing something as simple as listening to a speaker, the audience is overwhelmed by information, enabling politicians to dodge answers without appearing to.”

 

” The key practice is – however you manage to do it – to cultivate a centre of attention in yourself. You can do this right now, by closing your eyes and sitting attentively for a few minutes. At first you let your attention go to your bodily sensations, however they present themselves: sensations of the feet on the floor, your back against the chair, and so on. Then you let your attention go to the flow of thoughts, images, and emotions that pass before the mind’s eye. You will soon realise that you can watch these thoughts come into awareness like images on a screen, and pass away again just as readily.”

 

Read more here:   http://www.wakingtimes.com/2014/12/27/cultivating-consciousness-unconscious-world/

 

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Josh said, “Modern society doesn’t let people resolve things.  Let them work it out.  Shed some blood and settle it.”  (I get all worked up when they discuss anthropology.  Isaac is reading to Josh and I should probably get some headphones.)

10:53 am

Courage is the willingness to risk harm to oneself,  to ensure the success or survival of another person.

Game-ness.  Men swagger.  Most men have been entirely untested their entire lives.  Most of these men would have been taken out, in earlier times.  Game-ness is a dogfighting term.  In humans it is used more subversively, but it manifests a willingness to fight.  Women do not normally present game-ness unless they’ve had an armed man behind them.  Except those few women who earned their confidence and don’t have to impersonate a gamer.

 

10:42 am

“There aren’t even power-words for women to experience.  Chief, boss, jefe.”  Isaac understood my argument. He says being a man is being a gang-member.  (I’m pretty sure he said gang, and not mob.)  He is reading a book, a new one, not one of the musty volumes he prefers.  He says it’s premature to call a man courageous, until he’s faced enemies of his tribe.     He wants to “give something back to the word”:  Courageous.  The Latin word for virtue  means manliness.  Strength and loyalty to the tribe.  I have never been with a man who mobbed with even a single beer-buddy so it’s kind of hard to picture men sharing responsibility for the welfare of the many.  I expect I will soon see it.   I’m glad my sons are looking into it.

 

9:54 am

Jesus is my lover and I want to be his wife so I can always be with him and know his heart. He’s the only man who ever didn’t actively wish I was something else.  He just made me be better and braver.    I pray that he’ll enable me to obey him forever and to please him more every day.

I have a friend who refers to Jesus as her “twin brother” and he appears to her that way, when she is suffering and maligned.  She committed hara kiri once; she has known much ridicule.  But, she looks just like her twin.

I have another friend who was hanged in effigy every summer for about ten years, just because.  He doesn’t  refer to Jesus without tears, and he shares Jesus’ presence with me.

 

9:51 am

I have a friend who became a Christian because she felt sorry for Jesus.  (Maybe someday I’ll be a feminist after all. )   She said that when she left the ashram, she noticed how all the world was ganging up against him.  She feels like his mom.

 

9:41 am

I was trying to think of a non-pejorative linguistic, a female-archetype for spiritual growth and/or positive aging. No smart woman is a good woman it seems, at least not in English.  Witch.  Crone.  There also is no language of archetypal female aspirations, no “hard-ons” no “limp dicks.”  No recognition of any universal influence of females, by passion or principle.  Expectations monitor female behavior, within various sub-groups.  Peer-pressure, criticism, one-ups-man-ship…yet no female-specific vernacular of the experience.  I’m tired of thinking about my Dad and the on-going effects of his lies and cowardice.  I hope God lets me free to think about some other things pretty soon.  I’d like to study languages.  I’d like to study the brain-scans taken while I was praying in tongues.  Wouldn’t that be interesting to see?  Maybe my dad knows where they are.

 

9:14 am

As a formerly Baptist woman I intentionally embraced the relinquishment of my personal power.  I fought (you gotta believe, for me it was battle…) to submit to my men.  I thought this was OWED to THEM.  I was mistaken; all submission is OWED only to God, and by submitting to often-psychopathic behaviors, I was feeding the beast.  I wasn’t nourishing my men’s better angels, I was rewarding selfish manipulation.  I was casting pearls before swine.  Maybe God didn’t make a mistake when he gave brains to women.  Maybe that’s why he gave men two heads: their brains would rattle around too much in the big one.
How can there even be a 104 year-old neuroscientist?   For all physical purposes, I remain in the world my dad established for me, the world where nobody cares what I think.  Some people at sundry times have asked and/or paid me to do some of their thinking for them.  What’s a girl to do?  I recognize that my life is not my own, and God will use it as he sees fit.  He’s seen fit to demonstrate to me that he is always right.  He’ll be right about my life too. But, I’m really bored and lonely.  Also I’m disappointed in my compatriots; doesn’t anybody want an adventure? This is the final battle between good and evil and we get to choose our own country.  Also, I shouldn’t judge my own work-product.  I want somebody to argue with.

 

8:38 am

7 Signs You May be a Victim of Statism

“The State is the name of the coldest of all cold monsters. Coldly it lies; and this lie slips from its mouth: I, the state, am the people.” Friedrich Nietzsche

 

“Statism has become the most all-pervasive ism of them all. It is the predominant world religion. Almost every country practices it. It is, in fact, the worst form of religion: a deadly cult. It meets every single one of the characteristics associated with cultic groups…”

 

Read more at:  http://www.wakingtimes.com/2014/12/29/7-signs-may-victim-statism/

 

8:11 am

“Once you have enslaved one generation, most parents will almost inevitably resist the freedom of the next generation, out of guilt and shame about their own surrender.”

 

-–Stefan Molyneux

7:49 am

“If thy hand offend thee, cut it off.  It’s better to enter Heaven without a hand than the alternative.”

“Blessed are the peacemakers.”

Today the Russian government no longer has any illusion that Europe is capable of an independent foreign policy. Russian President Vladimir Putin has stated publicly that Russia has learned that diplomacy with Europe is pointless, because European politicians represent Washington’s interest, not Europe’s.

Dear Readers: The conflict that Washington has initiated between the West and Russia/China is reckless and irresponsible. Nuclear war could be the outcome. Indeed, Washington has been preparing for nuclear war since the George W. Bush regime.

Washington’s drive for hegemony has brought nuclear insanity to the world.
Moscow and Beijing understand that they are Washington’s targets.

“Every diplomatic effort by Russia has been blocked by Washington and has come to naught. So now Russia has been forced by reality to update its military doctrine. The new doctrine approved on December 26 states that the US and NATO comprise a major military threat to the existence of Russia as a sovereign independent country.”

 

“In my view, Russia and China owe it to the world to prevent the nuclear war intended by the neoconservatives simply by replying in kind to Washington’s economic warfare. Russia and China hold all the cards. Not Washington.”

 

Read more at:   http://kingworldnews.com/paul-craig-roberts-russia-china-can-save-world-2015/

 

7:05 am

My dad squats over the crucible of self-awareness with the weight of past indulgence encouraging his emotional digestive tract.  His knees be a’quiver.  It’s shit or get off the pot.  (He always told me that one.)  I got flushed and I’m back to tell the tale.  His turn.  “Can we pray for dead people, God?  I know the Bible says they pray for us,  so maybe the Catholics are right?   What  in the WORLD could a dead person need that my prayers could ameliorate?  Please release my dad from purgatory and walk him into life.  Amen.  If that’s OK.”

 

 

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6:27 am

Psychopath school:  “When caught red-handed, say that your victim was a danger to self or others.”  (My dad’s alma mater.)

 

6:10 am

“Their children hate them for the things they are; they hate themselves for what they aren’t.  And yet they drink, they laugh.  Close the wounds, hide the scars…”

“That’s the Way I’ve Always Heard It Should Be”

 

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5:55 am

MUSIC BREAK

I will change your name

This song became very important to me as I learned about my earthly family.  I just realized I could have changed my name when I got divorced!  I did, I mean, but I could have chosen better.

 

 

 

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5:41 am

During my “confinement” I’ve been reminded of many life-incidents that support my newfound understanding that I was raised by pathological narcissists.  The continual pattern has been 1) me in tears, begging at my parents’ feet, 2) Mom saying something like, “Of COURSE, I loved you when you were a baby…” and 3) Dad saying, “Don’t TELL me about the labor…just SHOW ME THE BABY.”   I lived with utter rejection of my personal feelings or needs.  From day 1, it’s amazing I survived.  I came home when I was sixteen with a hickey and my dad said I was going to get cancer.  6 months later he dropped me off in a swinging town far from home.  CB radios were the Facebook of the day and guys all over town were looking for “That Blonde.”  (I didn’t choose my own “handle.” )  My dad did not regard my sheltered upbringing when he dominated that episode, or any others.  He did not regard my 1) feelings, 2) aptitudes, 3) destiny, or 4) NECESSARY EFFECT ON HIS OWN DESTINY.  I was an opportunity for my parents to grow in grace and love.  They have served the same purpose for me.

 

 

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5:20 am

Maybe today I’ll see a miracle, or at least some intelligence.  Maybe today some person will wake up and say, “You know, she’s been saying this stuff for years.  Maybe I ought to take a little-look-see.”   I envision this fictional intelligence slapping his knee, and saying, “She sure was right about that one,” with a chuckle of recognition.  My lucid fantasy and I will recognize much in one another, and we’ll pray for everyone  else.  We will not go down with the ship and we’ll hand out life preservers as fast as we can.  But, today, this is what I do.  I pray every morning, “Lord, please give me grace to stay here at this computer.  If you wanted me somewhere else I’d be somewhere else,  and I wish to do your work perfectly.  Today, this is what I do,  and I will to not complain that I have done the same thing every single day for years.  I’m going to get to dance with you and that’s what I want more than anything.  Please give me pin-point accuracy and forgive me for complaining.  Thank you for keeping me safe and warm.  Amen.”

 

 

12/29/14

3:34 pm

I sure wish I had some nice person to say, “Gee Linda, you got raped a few hundred times.  Take a panic if you need to.  It’s ONLY NORMAL.”

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3:25 pm

I think I’m having a panic attack.  Is something going to get easier, ever?  I think the lies are choking me.  The prophets are saying “exposure.”  That’s so johnny-on-the-money.  “All things will be revealed.”  Do we think the Bible means “all things”… EXCEPT US?  Wow.  That’s so delusions-of-grandeur.    In 2014 I saw VERY much falsehood be revealed as public policy.  Vaccines cause autism.  The researcher admitted she faked the stats. The CIA is responsible for most of the wars around the world.  Congress is blackmailed, as will soon be every person of consequence amongst us.  Liars will pay good money for a back-story now; money isn’t as valuable as it used to be,  and if one can’t purchase more power,  then what’s the point?  Truth will rise to the top because truth-tellers will be the only group LUCID enough to face their own personal life-archive.  I’m pumping mine into the cloud as fast as I can.  My digital footprint is my testimony and my testimony is Jesus and he already won.  The battle is in our minds.  A dozen different ways.

 

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11:23 am

The most censored health news stories of 2014 – here’s what the establishment doesn’t want you to remember

“2014 was a year in which we watched the mainstream media devolve into a spot-on depiction of George Orwell’s Ministry of Truth, engaging in White House-ordered news story blackouts, CDC-inspired anti-health propaganda that endangered the public and corporate-funded disinfo campaigns disguised as news.”

Five signs that a media organization has sold you out

Learn more:http://www.naturalnews.com/048131_censored_news_2014_alternative_media.html#ixzz3NIvJ8tC3

Sign #3) Participates in organized censorship of important stories such as the CDC vaccine whistleblower
Every large news organization that refused to cover the CDC vaccine whistleblower story has already abandoned any shred of real journalism or ethical reporting. This was one of the biggest health stories of the decade with implications for tens of millions of people.

Learn more:http://www.naturalnews.com/048131_censored_news_2014_alternative_media.html#ixzz3NIvD3QDN

Learn more:http://www.naturalnews.com/048131_censored_news_2014_alternative_media.html#ixzz3NImbIBP2

 

10:26 am

 

“Every gun that is made, every warship launched, every rocket fired signifies, in the final sense, a theft from those who hunger and are not fed, those who are cold and not clothed.”  (Dwight D. Eisenhower)

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3NIhkInrE

 

9:04 am

Don’t any of you many readers think my parents owe me a conversation after all this?  They are only two miles away!  They fear this conversation so much  they’ve acted bat-shit for years and I can prove it.   Shouldn’t somebody encourage the old man to see this through?  Can you imagine why a respectable couple would act bat-shit for years and lie and refuse to talk to their child who brings them nice food,  and even give her money but still won’t talk?  Don’t think too hard; they’re guilty as charged.  My number is 906-291-1376.  My parents’ number is 906-586-9653.

 

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8:49 am

Then there was the time they called child protective services about Josh…I had been begging for help getting him a new environment.  They preferred to make false claims about my parenting, and they didn’t talk to me. Then there was the time my dad tried to set up drivers’ training for Josh, without talking to me.  He also talked to the alternative high school to see about enrolling Josh there…all without speaking to me.  They approached my Christian judges without telling me, although I sent them copies of everything I sent to the judges.  They act like spoiled children and I’m their pickaninny.   I took great notes.  Somebody, sometime, will talk to me.
 I NAILED A SIGN TO THE CHURCH-HOUSE DOOR AND NOBODY WOULD TALK TO ME.

 

 

4:48 am

Over the last one hundred years they have created a totalitarian state built upon egotism, material goods, and fulfilling our desires through Wall Street peddled debt and mass consumerism. It has been an incredibly effective form of control that has convinced the masses to love their servitude.

“The white collared psychopathic criminals on Wall Street reaped billions in profits, paid themselves millions in bonuses, and cost taxpayers trillions when it all blew up in 2008. The ruling elite have added $6 trillion to our national debt and their central banker has added another $2 trillion to our ultimate tab, while providing free money to their Wall Street bank owners. They realize their efforts to restart the exponential growth engine have failed.”

 

“Their illusion of control is dissipating and they are resorting to force in order to maintain hegemony.”

 

“Enough people need to perceive they are being manipulated, controlled and used by the thought leaders and awaken from their narcissistic materialistic debt financed lives. Our culture has failed. The animosity and anger in the country is beginning to bubble over. The masses are beginning to realize they have been screwed. They haven’t figured out who to blame because they are still trapped in the Republican/Democrat false dogma”

 

Read more here:   http://www.theburningplatform.com/tag/stanley-milgram/

 

 

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4:41 am

“Power is not a means; it is an end. One does not establish a dictatorship in order to safeguard a revolution; one makes the revolution in order to establish the dictatorship. The object of persecution is persecution. The object of torture is torture. The object of power is power. Now you begin to understand me.”George Orwell – 1984

4:01 am

“We’ve decided your future so just don’t ask any questions.”  This is the response I was given when I sought help from my parents after being tortured, ill, and maligned.  This is what I heard when my father decided to end my political endeavors and this is how he took my house.  “We’ve decided your future so just don’t ask any questions” is why my faith-practices were reported to the police and my children abducted from their home.  “We’ve decided your future so just don’t ask any questions” screamed my mother for years, as she kicked me out.  For asking questions.  Not only have they manipulated my life, they also would never even do me the courtesy of a discussion.  They should be locked up. They should be prohibited from insinuating their fears into the lives of others.  They intended to IMPRISON me for thinking differently than they do.  They’re a pox on the people.  I hope God fills my parents with love pretty quick.

Witnesses:  Even if you don’t blame them for trying to kill me, you gotta have a problem with suppressing free speech, right?  Are we Americans, or are we not?

 

 

12/28/14

8:35 pm

“True rebels hate their own rebellion. They know by experience that it is not a cool and glamorous lifestyle; it takes a courageous fool to say things that have not been said and to do things that have not been done.” Criss Jami

“Are those attempting to break the trance of other people busybodies and I-know-better-than-thou’s?”

“Or pioneers and ‘trance breakers’?”

The alternative is to remain in darkness in ignorant bliss as a human being who lived and died, ignorant and unfree in the 21st Century, at the mercy of forces one didn’t comprehend because of cognitive dissonance and perception management, what, who, where, why, etc..

“Because the peace movements, conservatives, socialists, anarchists, libertarians, etc. are in agreement with ‘right-winged ‘nuts’ cause there is a huge consensus among them, a huge underbelly of consensus across. but the state tries to run a guilt by association campaign, i.e. “extreme right” or “radical left”, cause they don’t wan’t people to realize that it’s a freedom movement across the entire political spectrum against the tyranny/corporatocracy/oligarchy/plutocracy/power elite, etc.”

 

“The truth/justice/freedom-movements lament the fact that their words fall on deaf ears, sometimes words in tone resort to ironic mockery that comes from perplexed indignation as they point out the absurdity and the contradictions which the prisoners cannot see, while they blindly follow the path to unwitting destruction, not knowing that they are controlled by the normalization of unacknowledged collective pathology, not to mention masters of perception management (deep politics and directed history) defining much of their reality.”

Read more at:   http://www.zengardner.com/ignorant-unfreedom-contented-slaves/

 

6:26 pm

21&nbsp;Reasons Why Winter Is The Biggest Jerk Of All The Seasons

2:29 pm

Isaac and my young friend are painting a wall in the kitchen.  When I was spontaneously delivered from rape and vomiting, and was cleaning out the house and fixing things up, I sketched a wood-burning oven over greasy-grise wallboard. I never got to finish it, in my haste to get out of my disappointed men’s faces.   It’s white now, and it looks better even without my mural concept.  We’ll see what happens.  Isaac is singing mournful songs, even “American Pie.”  I almost started singing along so I had to come outside.  I don’t believe nastalgia is good for people.  It makes us  into milque-toasts.  It keeps us dragging our feet and looking down as change approaches.  I used to look around at the faces over family dinners, and I’d bank the memory.  I’ve been banking memories since Isaac was born, probably before.  When something was so sweet that I knew I’d never be able to surrender it to the new life I always knew God had for me, I’d give those memories to him.  I know when this earthly world has passed into the new world, God will give me my memories back.  I’ll feel my mother’s touch and my infants bald heads under my chin.  God is keeping my sweet things for me.

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1:38 pm

I don’t know why, when the goon makes a link, it always links also to a story’s twitter and Facebook pages.  I don’t know how to do that, and I don’t know if it’s a liability issue or just nice manners.  (I’d like to use nice internet manners, and I’d like to do things properly.  I’m not a law-breaker by nature.  I despise seatbelts but I use them anyway.  Some things are just so egregious that I can’t surrender  my conscience, or my common sense.  When you recognize that laws exist for VERY DIFFERENT REASONS than we’ve been told, obeying them is pretty silly.)    I’d also like to know how he posts multiple url’s that go to the same page. Why are the links sometimes stuck to a line of text, and other times they aren’t?   I’m getting jerked around all the time and I want to know if I believed the truth; I was praying every day that I would; what bits of “intelligence” are true?  Also why can’t he use a colon consistently?

11:21 am

“Teach your children to be brave. This century of ours has been marked most conspicuously by cowardice of the people everywhere. It was by our cowardice that we were betrayed into the hands of corrupt men who promised to make life”safe’ for us and devoid of hazard, and robbed the adventurousness by which the spirits of men are strengthened. It was by our poltroonery that we lost our liberties. It was by our fears that we almost died. A brave people never become slaves.” — Taylor Caldwell,”The Devil’s Advocate”(1952) — pgs. 332 — 338

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3ND4TpOT4

 

10:09 am

I’m cleaning my room today.  And fasting.  I tore my bedroom apart right before I went to Belgium and I haven’t put it back together since.  Also, I’ve been buying new clothes and I need some space to sort out all the old ones I will discard.  I’m buying things that are expensive to me;  I got a no-wrinkle white shirt for 75 dollars.  But, everything seems expensive since I’ve only purchased used clothes for ten years or more.  I need my white shoes back from my young friend, she doesn’t wear them.  I don’t know why but I need them.  I ordered some hair cream from Amazon and it helps a lot.  I’ve been using Suave for years.  Every time I wear earrings I have to repierce the holes, I don’t know what’s up with that;  I’m not infected at all.  I’m still attacked with bouts of fake despair; it feels like being nauseous except on the outside, on your skin.  It feels kind of like fear, then you get prickly all over and poked here and there.  I used to break out in a sweat, from my forehead and right in the center of my chest.  Just those places, but it was enough to drench me.  That doesn’t happen anymore.  You have to say  like the girl in “Divergent”:   “THIS IS NOT REAL.”  You have to live in the world you belong in.  Not the one others choose for you.
I wonder if people have considered how they will feel knowing that my dad had the information I required and refused to give it up.  I also wonder that maybe this information is more important than I ever thought.  I wonder that it might be important to a lot of people, that I get this information from my dad.  Isaac said I did a good job manifesting a trip to Belgium.  I guess I need to manifest harder.  I’ve been trying to send those little love-darts from my heart to my dad’s but I haven’t really seen any of them hitting a heart.
Rats.  The clearance bra I bought is hot pink and I can’t wear it under a white shirt.  That must mean God is going to give me another bra.

 

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3:43 am

Why Does the World Shadow Government Destroy its Own Home Planet?

• The capacity to apply the faculty of reason begins to flee humankind

Common sense becomes very rare and a thing of the past

Irrationality and unreasonableness start to rule the day everywhere, all the time

As these three societal phenomena become amplified, the manifestations of their presence can hardly be overlooked. Particularly when the masses are so easily influenced that they can be:

(i) stampeded into war,
(ii) corralled into a drug culture,
(iii) compelled to tattoo their bodies,
(iv) convinced of the propriety of sexual perversions,
(v) boxed into a thoroughly corrupt two-party political system,
(vi) persuaded to vote against their very own interest,
(vii) coerced to vaccinate their children on a regular basis,
(viii) forced into drinking fluoridated water,
(ix) transfixed by the TV — the ultimate weapon of mass deception,
(x) duped into paying taxes to rogue, criminal governments,
(xi) defrauded out of their life savings and retirement accounts,
(xii) deceived into worshipping the Almighty Dollar, instead of an Almighty God

Certainly the overlay of the Pharmaceutical Culture has gone a long way toward addicting and compromising every aspect of the human body and mind. This whole process of taking over each person is a rather complicated plot and will be taken up in a future essay entitled:

First They get Your Body; Then They Get Your Mind; Finally They Get Your Soul

“All of the financial schemes and political plots are in full cyberspace view. Much of what anyone might want to know about how we ever got into this global condition is already plastered all over a world wide web. The proverbial cat is out of the bag, never to be re-bagged. Therefore, what might we expect in light of their previous history and future expectations for massive planetary transformation?”

 

Read more at:   http://www.zengardner.com/why-does-the-world-shadow-government-destroy-its-own-home-planet/

 

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12/27/14

5:31 pm

James Corbett is a truth-lover and he’s astonishing. Everybody should listen to this.

 

(I would have gone to see him speak in the Netherlands when I was in Belgium but the talk was all sold out before I even knew I was going to Europe.)

The Net Is Mightier Than The Sword – James Corbett at TEDxGroningen

 

5:14 pm

MUSIC BREAK

Season of the Witch – Mike Bloomfield, Al Kooper, Steve Stills

 

 

5:03 pm

My family is AFRAID of me.  And haven’t I been afraid of them every moment of my existence?

“Dear God, I’m beginning to sound like a communist.  I was still having trouble sounding like an anarchist.  Please do not allow me to sound like a communist if you don’t want me to sound like a communist.  Amen.”
I read my prayer to Isaac.  He said, “Isn’t that MY prayer?”

 

4:49 pm

“A good person will resist an evil system with his or her whole soul.”  (Gandhi)

“Lord, please make me a good person.”

Order Followers

“Order-followers are the people that keep the existence of slavery in place.”  “Following orders means by definition, doing what you are told to do without judging for yourself whether or not that action that you are being ordered to carry out, is ACTUALLY right or wrong.”

 

“…by definition, that person is not exercising conscience…”

“…following orders is never a virtue…”

 

Listen here:  

 

3:12 pm

MUSIC BREAK

DADDY, Call me up.  Please?

JOHNNY WINTER feat. BEN HARPER – “Can’t Hold Out (Talk To Me Baby)”

 

3:00 pm

 

How can people NOT LOVE that I record their every move that I happen to observe?  Of COURSE they do.  I observe them as if they matter because they matter.  When I was a child I loved “Harriet, the Spy.”  She was castigated but she noticed people.

 

2:58 pm

Isaac says I’m a beautiful person,  but he doesn’t think I’m very smart.  He asked me to run the media wing of his new tribe though.

 

2:55 pm

 

Isaac sometimes feels shack-bound even in Boulder.  One night he ran into the living room wailing, “I have to run through the night!”  He donned a trench coat and scarf.  He went to a teahouse and his roommates followed him.  I’ve always wanted to live spontaneously.  The closest I ever came to that was when God was driving me all over Michigan and telling me things that have since come to pass.  I’ve always been too poor to be spontaneous, and I’ve never had anyone who would be spontaneous with me.
Something has GOT to GIVE.  I’m out of breath, and I don’t know what to do.  Isaac said we should go to Toronto.  He said, “I’m sure Grandpa would let us go there…”  I didn’t laugh but I didn’t breathe either. We commented about how nice it would be if Josh could take Swedish lessons.  Isaac  doesn’t  understand the slightest thing about my father’s interventions in our life.  He just thinks I’m not motivated enough to get a new one.  I pray that God will have mercy on him, and on my father, when he finds out.

8:55 am

 

I don’t know when I became a conspiracy-observer.  I think it might have been in law school when they taught us to demolish the Constitution in order to achieve pre-decided objectives.

8:50 am

How’s that Baptist-Neo-conism working out for you?  Do you wish for your offspring to fight Russians on our own ground?  The prophets say this is going to happen.  Are YOU RESPONSIBLE FOR IT?

The Terrifying Reality Of Western Aggression Against Russia

“Anybody who thinks they are going to take down the Russians is out of their mind.  And, Eric, NATO is creating a ‘Spearhead Force’ of 3,000 to 4,000 troops.  It’s comical.  As you said, that one World War II battle involved 2,000,000 men, 6,000 tanks, and 4,000 aircraft.  What do they think 3,000 to 4,000 men with a few hundred tanks and some Humvees are going to do against Russia?  Yet the New York Times makes it sound like this spearhead unit is a credible force in a fight against Russia. 

 

Read more at:   http://kingworldnews.com/terrifying-reality-western-aggression-russia/

 

 

8:45 am

It takes a small amount of yeast to make a biga.  I don’t know the rules of chemistry but I seem to have an innate feel for it.  Baking is all about chemistry.  I never use a measuring cup.  OK, I use a cup to scoop but not to measure.  I’m replenishing my pastry stock today.  The cornmeal kind is running low and the pie crust is all gone.  The cat won’t come in the house.  I guess part of the deal of being run by dogs all your life is that you don’t mind the cold so much.  Sometimes I crack myself up.  Other times I just want to go to sleep.  I want to escape what I feel and what I know.  When you believe me, you will  feel the same way.

 

8:10 am

I’m making  another batch of butter tarts.  I burned the last batch, can you believe it?  I was sitting in my bedroom working, thinking I should be hearing the buzzer pretty quick because the tarts smelled done, and the buzzer never buzzed.  (I can usually tell when baked goods are baked by the smell.  High-sugar products are easier, caramelization, etc…)  I am making the tarts because I want to watch my boys swoon when they bite into them.  Is that manipulation?  Is that wrong?  You’ll do a lot of dastardly things to see somebody’s eyes shine.  I know what I want is love,  but this manipulation of appreciation is the best proxcimile around.  I guess proxcimile is not a word.  If Wickipedia don’t know it, it don’t exist.

 

7:52 am

Hackers are the lynchpin of humanity’s survival.  That’s really how I’m seeing it.  All they have to do is say no and nothing on the planet is happening.  I knew they were important in Y2K, but I had no idea how much more important they would become.  If I could, I would encourage hackers to take it to the streets.  I would encourage those with skills I do not possess, to do things their hearts tell them they should do.  I’m an honorary hacker and I stand up against your prison!  I plead for your souls!  I respect your decisions and your responsibilities, but I also question your sanity.  There is not much earth left.  We must stake a claim for the tribe.  We must get beyond the X-box and eliminate (hackable…) machinery from our realm of intrapersonal influence.  You know I’m right.  We must evolve or we’re toast.

 

7:33 am

I made Josh a cheese omelette with homemade toast and probably homemade jam.  For his lunch I mixed some heavy cream into leftover angel hair with pesto and asparagus and peas.  (The cream keeps microwaved pesto from FRYING the noodles.  And it’s yummy.)  I balanced  two tiny chicken drumsticks on the edge of the bowl.  He’s gonna love it.

The FBI called me on 9/12/01.  I had forwarded prophecies of the 9/11 destruction to my family members and one of them “turned me in.”    I was asked, “How did you know?”  I DID NOT know but I read prophecies on line.  I wonder if I was a person of interest ever since that day?  I really have a LOT of questions.  I don’t want to quit writing entirely, but I want to quit NEEDING to write.  I’ve been writing for my life since 2009 and I’ve seen NO FRUIT.  I’ve never had a convert.  I thought I did once, but that’s the woman who destroyed my life with phone calls and email.  I do not lack only converts, I’ve never even had a true comrade, I thought George was on the same page with Jesus.  I thought when Isaac and Josh had visions it meant they believed as I did.  That was not true.  I’m all alone.  I’ve never had a convert.  My uncle Herb used to say we shouldn’t expect converts;  “souls are a blessing.”  Jesus has never seen fit to bestow that blessing upon my lifelong efforts to lift him up.  His other blessings are MUCH APPRECIATED, and I’m grateful I’m not dead and all that…but, I’d really like to know that I encouraged somebody to stand  up to the plate in this time of darkest darkness, and demand TRUTH.  I would feel extraordinarily blessed if that happened.  Truth is Jesus.  Failing to follow truth is failing to follow Jesus.  Sing all the hymns you wish.

 

6:47 am

“Try this: Start projecting love to people as you pass them in the street. The idea is to imagine (generate) a deep and resonating sense of love in your heart and expel a short breath; send the love in another person’s direction – try to hit them in the heart with your love missile. Pick total strangers. Velocity is the key. Breathe out a short sharp breath and use the force of your will, and whack ‘em hard in the heart with all the love you can muster.”

Communicating Silently

Health warning: If you manipulate or project evil, or you use your powers to the detriment of others, you create a lot of bad karma. Gradually those evil thoughts and projections move from their initial evil state, and they begin to solidify in another world. They take on a phantasmagoric form that comes alive and gradually develops a mind of its own.

 

Read more at:   http://sorendreier.com/communicating-silently/

 

6:33 am

Did you see this story?  It’s been around for years, I guess now  it’s documented.  I’ve attended  protests.  Do you think the FBI should shoot me?  (Dumb question  I guess.)  Do you think the FBI should be assassinating citizens they don’t like?  They killed Martin Luther King Jr, it was proven in a court of law.  (OK, maybe that’s not the world’s best evidence.)

 

FBI keeps lid on sniper plot to kill ‘Occupy Wall Street’ organizers

“Heavily redacted FBI memos confirm that the Federal Bureau of Investigation was aware of a plot to assassinate the Houston organizers of “Occupy Wall Street,” but the agency has managed to withhold the details from the American public using the worn-out excuse that transparency compromises national security.”

 

Read more here:   http://www.policestateusa.com/2014/sniper-plot-to-kill-ows-organizers/

 

6:28 am

Putting the entire planet online… then controlling everything they see or read.

“Facebook is the pinnacle of social engineering, an online operant conditioning chamber – also known as a Skinner box – that is being used to track, trace, document, and manipulate half of the entire online population.”

 

Read more at:   http://landdestroyer.blogspot.co.uk/2014/12/facebook-colonialism-20.html

 

6:19 am

I am not mistaken about how we can’t lie anymore.  They got your number.  Actually, they’ve got ALL YOUR NUMBERS.

‘Lizard Squad’ Explains Why It Hacked Xbox Live and PSN

“The attacks were initially launched just for fun, but one of the hackers says that the group’s motivation eventually shifted from fun to exposing how weak the security is on PSN and Xbox Live.”

 

I think I could get rich making little tiny Faraday boxes to be implanted with pacemakers.  There’s nothing the hackers can’t do.

 

Read more at:  http://www.theepochtimes.com/n3/1162887-lizard-squad-explain-why-they-hacked-xbox-live-and-psn/

6:03 am

We don’t even really want to feel PRETTY.  We want to feel loved and assume we are more likely to be loved if the intended lover thinks we look good.   Isn’t that sad?   We evaluate our performance later, and attempt to discern the heart of the intended towards us.  How pathetic.  What if everybody just was honest?

I read an article that said the vast majority of women will not allow new lovers to see them without make-up for six months.   Some would not be seen clean-faced for a year!

 

5:51 am

MORNING PRAYER

“Lord, I’m ready to evolve.  Anytime you say.”

Steve Winwood – Higher Love (Lyrics Video)

 

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5:46 am

George did the dishes last night after I went to bed.  “Lord, thank you for George.”

To be our happiest, I think we must not ever consider what other people think.  We should examine our own hearts  and strive not to be untruthful or unloving.  (Untruthful is NEVER loving.)  I think, no,  I KNOW this one: “The sons of God are led by the Spirit of God.”  We move by revelation, and never move 1) unless and 2) until we’ve heard from the Spirit.  Otherwise, we will not be happy in the transhumanist-agenda-slash-apocalypse of Jesus the Christ by the abolition of lying.   A lot of people recognize this who are not yet Christians.  (“My sheep hear my voice and another’s they will not follow.”  Linda-paraphrase I expect.)  Maybe none of us will be “Christians” when the dust has settled.  We’ll be a new race.  He said so in the Bible.  “One new man,” not Jew nor Greek nor female nor whatever else it says.  This is it.

5:33 am

I love my new hat.  It’s part alpaca and a dry-clean-only hat is stupid because it will smell like woodsmoke five minutes after I first wear it outdoors.  But, it’s pretty blue and I think it doesn’t look bad.  I really dislike synthetic fibers.  I’ve got to get over the “wanna-be-pretty” thing.  It’s pretty pointless at this point.  I went shopping on Boxing Day.  I feel so British.  You know, it’s not really even “wanna-be-pretty.”  It’s more of “wanna-feel-pretty.”  That’s more to the point.  I want to FEEL different than I feel when I’m disliking my appearance.  If I just don’t think about it, I feel better.  Even wanting to FEEL pretty is kind of prideful, because we like feeling pretty to impress other people.  When we feel pretty we can relax and open up too, but it’s only because we’ve fulfilled the prerequisite for permitting others to see us. We’re using other people (and our necessarily flawed GUESS about what they think about ANYTHING AT ALL) to make us FEEL better, and freer.  (If the pretty people in our world get much freer I will blush reading the Daily Mail.)   It’s an addiction, I think.  The cure is  we just don’t think about our appearance at all.  It seems that would make us more honest.  My hat was a tremendous splurge, sixteen dollars on clearance.  But I think the color looks good with my eyes.  My eyes are  true blue.  No green at all, that I can detect.

 

 

12/26/14

8:11 pm

(Did you guys even READ the Bible?)

The Fukushima Endgame: The Radioactive Contamination of the Pacific Ocean

Nuclear radiation resulting from the March 2011 Fukushima disaster –which threatens life on planet earth– is not front page news in comparison to the most insignificant issues of public concern, including the local level crime scene or the tabloid gossip reports on Hollywood celebrities.

 

Read more here:   http://www.globalresearch.ca/the-fukushima-endgame/5420188

 

8:05 pm

I love seeing truth.  I love seeing people recognize that truth has been established on earth, by the elimination of lies.  It’s amazing to watch.  Every discipline and endeavor is  in the spotlight of truth…and many shrink from illumination.  What a great time to be alive!  I wish I could be part of the revolution!  (I wish I could breathe.)  (I wish my dad would tell some truth before it gets told all over his ass.)

 

7:39 pm

Tomorrow, God willing, I will have posted THIRTEEN THOUSAND ARTICLES that document the occurrence of events I’VE BEEN WARNING PEOPLE ABOUT FOR TWENTY YEARS as those people called me defective.  Please, wake up.

The National Security Agency (NSA) released years of edited briefings it gave to an oversight group on Christmas Eve, documenting years of unauthorized surveillance on Americans that the agency argues was accidental. In its reports NSA names the oversteps “unintentional errors.”

The catalog of individual instances of unauthorized surveillance at NSA showed that it was a routine affair.

 

HOW CAN WE BE SURPRISED?  The IRS spied on us even before Obamacare made them into an intelligence agency.  If they MERELY SPIED it would be terrible enough; living under that shroud of condemnation is terrible for the human spirit.  BUT THEY ALSO MESS WITH INNOCENT LIVES.

 

Read more here:   http://www.theepochtimes.com/n3/1162305-nsa-releases-reports-on-unauthorized-surveillance-of-americans/

 

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6:56 pm

I bought a rotisserie chicken for 2.50.  I don’t know how they can sell them for less when they’re cooked.  I also returned two things to TJ Maxx and bought some panties, a bright pink bra, legwarmers, socks and a hat meant for women.  (That hat will be a nice change.)  I went into Bath and Body works (it felt really good to walk a bit) but I don’t like it anymore.  All the colors were so bright it looked like a toy store.  I smelled one candle and left.  It felt really good to walk, like my tendons were loosening up.  I’m really tired of sitting.  Every morning since 2009 I’ve said, “Maybe today.  Maybe today God will intervene in my situation.  Maybe today something amazing will happen.”  Tonight I’m saying, “Maybe tomorrow.  Maybe tomorrow God will intervene in my situation.  Maybe tomorrow my life will begin.  Maybe tomorrow I’ll have the information I require to make sense of what I suffered. And suffer.  Maybe that missing information will put me on the path to helping others.  Maybe  tomorrow.”  “Maybe the goons will threaten my dad that they’ll release all his personal information online if he doesn’t help me?”  You never know.

 

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1:52 pm

To “enjoy” something is not the same as to “appreciate” it.  We can enjoy things we do not appreciate, and we often appreciate things that are not enjoyable.  Isaac saw the whole fam-damily at the movie show last night.  I haven’t been to a movie since that guy with no legs got the hots for the blue chick.  Isaac said, “I’m sure they ENJOYED your pizza.  You gave their gifts back, then you gave them a gift.  That’s weird.”  It’s rational.  I do not want gifts from persons who will not even speak to me.  It’s an issue of integrity.  Also, I’d like to gift them.  I would gift them with conscience and introspection, with history and times to come.  I would gift them with CONSCIOUSNESS!  “I do so pray, dear Lord.  Amen.”  I’m going to town.  Alone.  I’m driving my dad’s car.  I hope he got his insurance paid up.

Besides, my friend needs some cough syrup and I suppose I’ll check in.

 

 

1:28 pm

 

It is “them” against “us.”  It’s really true and I  really wish I had an “us.”  The GOVERNMENTS intend to control our every breath, and eliminate breathing when necessary.  I wish I had a team to confront this extinguishing of an extraordinary race.  People were created in the image of God!  I’d like to see a few of them survive to become the Bride of Christ.  I’d like to recognize kinship in that body.
I can’t settle down so I’m going to the city.  All by myself.  George gave me a list.  I even got the dishes done so he’s making dinner.  I explained what to do.

 

12:11 pm

Who ARE these people that birthed me?  I GAVE THEM A VERY FINE PIZZA and it’s after-noon the next day and nobody even said thank you!  (I never said thank you for the bread yet.  I have to phrase it right.)  (I mean, I’m grateful for the gesture, but should I be grateful for mere gestures?)  (I will not have to bake today; I’m grateful for that.)  (I’m grateful to have some more extra virgin olive oil.)  (I don’t think I’d be grateful to be a name on a list of obligations.)  (I’m grateful that I no longer have my own list of obligations.)

 

 

12:04 pm

Practical.  I am so DOWNRIGHT practical that it amazes me to read enigmatic.  I try to be precise, to avoid the dangling participles but it just gets worse.  All things to all people, I suppose.

 

 

12:03 pm

UPDATE:  As I disassembled the copious packing materials from around the loaf of bread, I found a bottle of olive oil.  I’m always grateful for extra virgin olive oil.  I can’t make that here.

11:56 am

 

The dishes are washed, except the sharp knives.  George says I’m amazing.  He doesn’t know the half of it.

 

11:53 am

The UPS truck came, the driver looked tired, he got one day off.  I was a little bit interested in this package, it came from a very nice deli.  It could have been something unusual but…it was from my brother.  It was a LOAF OF BREAD!  Even George laughed.   (I bake better bread than Zingermans three times every week!)   Nobody knows anything about anybody else and they still think they have to buy presents.  Pretty nuts.  Every time I face the mess that is the kitchen, I think, “I can’t possibly clean this up again.”  Then, half-hour later, I have done so.  I believe my diligence and industry are wasted.  Apparently God thinks otherwise, because I’m still here cleaning up after others.

The ONLY present I want is TRUTH.

 

10:51 am

The cat is so fat, nobody likes that.  But he just appreciates his rations so much!  You really have to admire gratitude.  I can wash these dishes again; they’ll be back tomorrow.  Or I could do something of lasting value.  My life is in God’s hands.

 

 

10:45 am

 

I CAN’T settle down!  I have piles of dirty dishes to wash and clean laundry to fold.  I’m TORMENTED by what I know and the fact that nobody gives a shit.  I do not want my family to be ELECTRONICALLY RAPED and I suspect they are already victims of insidious violation.  “Lord, tell me what to do.  I see the shit approaching the fan but I can’t compel anybody to duck.  Please, change this present reality.  Amen.”

 

10:36 am

One day I will be remembered as the sole voice of sanity within A POTENTIALLY POWERFUL FAMILY WHO CHOSE TO FIDDLE AS ROME BURNED.  They will be seen as to have considered themselves irreproachable, also a characteristic of NERO who torched CHRISTIANS.

 

 

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10:31 am

I will tell my story to kings.  It will necessarily include references to my family.  How wonderful it would be, if I could recount their attempts to assist us all in our inevitable war against trans-humanism?  Even if they do not help me out of the goodness of their hearts, shouldn’t they help me from the selfishness therein?  Doing the right thing for the wrong reason is still the right thing to do.  (Also, doing the wrong thing for the RIGHT REASON is also valuable.  Mostly only to the person maintaining RIGHT REASON.)

 

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10:07 am

Half of All Children Will Be Autistic by 2025, Warns Senior Research Scientist at MIT

HOW CAN THIS BE OK?  How can we read this as statistics-projected and accept this conclusion?

 

FAMILY:  Get OFF YOUR ASSES!  Help me become engaged.  Are you SERIOUSLY going to live your life as though it mattered,  while  the world crumbles around you?  

 

Read more at:   http://www.anh-usa.org/half-of-all-children-will-be-autistic-by-2025-warns-senior-research-scientist-at-mit/

 

9:46 am

 

Proverbs 25:2    “It is the glory of God to conceal a thing: but the honour of kings is to search out a matter.”

 

9:33 am

Isaac says, “Your family is afraid of you.”  Yes, I know.  My dad refused to eat my food for about a year and I don’t know for sure that he does yet.  (I took it as a compliment that he thought I understood enough chemistry to poison him.  I also took it as an indication that he knows VERY WELL what he deserves.)   I’ve never raised my hand against any man except Mike, my first husband, who was abusive and evil.  I had a vision once, where I smacked my dad on the chin, with the palm of my hand that was formed into a perfect fist.  I did not punch him as I was taught to do.  (I have no idea why I practiced fist-forming so much but the guy who taught me was very experienced.)  I did NOT hit my dad  with my perfectly-formed fist, but his head was knocked sideways anyway.  I’ve never struck a single person except Mike.  And my children.  God forgive me.

 

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9:21 am

Wouldn’t you think that my family would feel some moral obligation to call me?  They’re all just up the road.  Wouldn’t you think somebody would text me a “thank you” for the (amazing) pizza I made for them?   They didn’t “ruin Christmas” so wouldn’t you think their societal indoctrination has been satisfied?  Maybe somebody will call me today.  906-291-1376

 

9:16 am

People know that watching TV puts them in an altered state of consciousness, that’s why they watch it.  TV is the most pervasive, insidious drug on the planet and I shudder as I watch addicts  put their lips to the pipe.  So to speak.  I don’t like my lifestyle and I don’t like habits I’ve picked up through torture and politics.  (…but I repeat myself.)  And George’s marijuana emporium.  (But I repeat myself.)   I’m peaceful in the car but when I return to the compound I return to distraction from purpose and innocuous, tedious activities.  I really need to go somewhere else, I think, for my rehabilitation to proceed.  I feel like I’m going to explode.  God says he’s never late.  Just in case, I hope he’s got an extra set of skin for me around somewhere.
“Dear Family, I am AGAIN asking for help.  I know that helping me recover would not be as satisfying as locking me up and riding the drama, but I need your help.  I need a place to go.  Thank you for considering my repeated request.  Love, Linda.”

 

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8:35 am

Thinking about jungles used to give me the creeps.  I was creeped out reading about prisons, and prisoner-of-war camps too.  I was afraid of, and creeped out by, many things.  I was not only a wimp, but I was frighteningly uninformed!  Where we live is far creepier than the densest oozing-with-snakes-pit-of-despair ever imagined!  Our human society is psychotronically-psychologically-psychopathically controlling our minds!  They choose destinies for us that we were not meant to live!  They CONTROL our bodies and our minds, and our spirits unwillingly follow right along.  We’re choosing everlasting hell by refusing to follow truth wherever it takes us.  It takes us into the jungle.
Another day, another blank screen, and another opportunity to unnerve folks enough that they will investigate the source of their own thoughts.  Tough gig.  I am pulled.  I am being pulled by the very strings of my heart.  I am COMPELLED to DEMAND that my family which I love, be not headed in the wrong direction at this very important spot on the celestial calendar.  I DO NOT WISH TO EVER SAY I TOLD YOU SO.  I am not motivated by personal outrage or fantasies of retribution.  I am motivated by my need that:  1) my children hear truth about the family that served God until my dad called us evil, 2) I am sitting face to face with the whoremonger who orchestrated my torture, and 3) I know that nobody will ever have to face him in that manner again.  Then, I want world peace.
Note:  9:25 am:  I assume it’s a “him.”  Anything’s possible.

 

2:04 am

Jeff Rense & Dick Allgire – How TV Controls Your Mind

1:38 am

To make someone feel perfect.  Superlative gifting.
“Utterly complete vindication” has comforted me.  Now it gives me a chill.  (In a nice way.)

 

1:35 am

To give a person confidence is,  I think, the finest gift possible.  Confidence is freedom and life.  I am now very confident, and it was a gift.  Today  was my first Christmas without a single present.  (I confess I feel some unhealthy spiritual pride in my “deprivation.”  God made promises to those who abandon earthly pleasures to follow him.)  I returned my packages.  (Last year I opened them before giving them away.)    I can’t believe that my father would send me presents when he never even invited me to the party.  Whatever.  I’m blessed to spend time with the boys, together.  I’m laughing, and seeing a few people.  When I got up I cooked Swedish pancakes for the various guitar players distributed throughout the house.  I haven’t seen many people since Connie’s burned down.  I go to the store a couple times a day; I really need to get out.  I say hello to the clerk and that is the extent of my social life.  For years even that small contact was more than I could manage, during the torture.  I’m grateful to be able to go places now.  The effects of repeated rape are on-going and it’s one day at a time.  I wish I could talk about it to somebody.  But, I have confidence now, and that’s better anyway.  I will overcome the “flashbacks” and panic attacks eventually.  Jesus bought freedom for me and I will settle for nothing less.

Is it just me, or have I recorded an on-going pattern of anti-social behavior by people who claim to know better?

 

 

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12/25/14

4:44 pm

George came back from my dad’s house with four gifts for me.  I put them in a big box and made a sign on clean copier paper with multi-colored sharpie pens: ” You have GOT to be kidding.  906-291-1376    3.5 million.  No interest.”

George will drop it off at the same time he delivers a pizza, the best thing those folks will have eaten all yuletide.  Possibly.

4:00 pm

I ALMOST FELL FOR IT.  That was a trick question.  All things will be revealed so eventually he whom my soul loveth will know my motivations anyway.  Trick question.

 

3:58 pm

Wow.  Really hard question:  “Would you give your life for him if he didn’t know you did it?”  This question is made more compelling considering the questioner, and the fact that he gave his life for MANY who do not recognize it.  Does  my love wish for another’s absolute best?  Or is my love wishing to be recognized and acknowledged. That is a very hard question.

 

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3:47 pm

(You gotta know I’m kind of getting a chuckle out of this now.  I mean, hypocrisy has limits and then  it’s vaudeville.)

 

 

3:45 pm

I did nothing to be cast off by my family this way except 1) pray too weirdly, and 2) run for Congress.  Where ARE THEIR PRIORITIES?

 

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3:35 pm

3:34 pm
Now that I know that nobody is going to break rank and invite me to the party…I can relax and make a REALLY GREAT PIZZA.

 

 

3:31 pm

I can’t imagine that my dad has much respect for George right this minute. George promised that when he comes back from my father’s house tonight, he will go there yet again, and bear a pizza of ill repute, that I will offer to my father’s household in humble supplication.  What’s he gonna say?  It’s not loving to say yes all the time, and it’s not loving to say no all the time.  I’ve been hanged  in the balance.  I’ve always really wanted a man to tell me what to do, no kidding, I can prove it.  I’ve only known men with balls sufficient to fill in the blanks afterward.  No initiative.  Testosterone deficiency.  Must be all the plastic.

 

2:56 pm

Well, they’re partying without me again.  I have dreams, and in my dreams somebody calls me up and says, “Linda, I miss your humor and your honesty.  I miss you.  Please come to the family holiday party.”  My dreams wisp upward and I wait.  I WAIT for one of the imaginary inviters to say, “Linda, I recognize that Dad lied about you.  I’d like to do what’s right but I don’t know what that is.  I’ve always trusted Dad.”  That would make my day.

 

2:43 pm

My young friend surprised us, it was nice to see her and she ate Swedish pancakes and watched me make pizza dough and sauce to go with it.  She is responsible for my very first selfie;  she got a nice camera.  I don’t mind if people watch me cook but I don’t like to talk while I’m doing it.  My mind is doing a dozen things at once. George went to my dad’s house;  I don’t know if he doesn’t realize he’s not related to my dad anymore, or if he doesn’t realize that I, who am his only connection with the family, am not related to him either anymore, nor am I welcome in my dad’s home.  It never struck him that my parents did not talk to us for years.  I wish I could see inside George’s head just once.
2:38 pm
Some guys are fishing right in front of the creek again.  I don’t know why they do that; I’ve never caught a fish there and I’ve trolled the entire bay.  In the early spring the water is clear right down to the bottom, and you see no life at all.  You wonder that it could even produce algae, it’s so pristine.  Later you can’t see six inches through the weeds and wonder.  God takes the most barren to produce great fruit.  That’s a consistent  theme in the Bible.  We should expect themes, though not “dispensations”, or “covenants”  to continue into the new world.  Jesus is God.  It’s now his world.  (At least I give him my part of it.)

 

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12:22 pm

I’m making pizza crust dough.  If anybody’s hungry later today we’ll make a pizza.  The boys might be hungry;  you never know what’s on the menu at my dad’s dinners.  He still never invited me.  It seems to me that his antics got in the way of a lot of loving people, thereby changing the vibration of the entire planet…just that much toward the worse.  He must be held accountable.  He’s like a  love-Chernobyl.

 

12:14 pm

“They BETTER like lava lamps.”  That was Josh wrapping gifts.  He and Isaac chose gifts for people they do not know, because they wish to love those unknown people.  This is a blessing.  I didn’t buy them many gifts, nor did we celebrate many holidays.  They’ve learned just the same, and perhaps because of such deprivation.  I could never ignore any excuse for a holiday, but the holidays had to make sense spiritually.  Christmas never did.  They’ve been short-changed but they’ve also been rewarded.  They miss their cousins.  They would like to purchase gifts for people,  1) knowing those people, 2) considering their personal values, and 3) getting them the GREATEST GIFT EVER.   This is difficult in a family that refuses to communicate.

 

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12:06 pm

I’m really proud of myself, forgive me God.  I gave Josh a present and he didn’t know what it was.  I don’t think I’ve ever accomplished this before, and Isaac refused twice to open his headphones.  (What’s the point; he knew.)  It was SO MUCH FUN to give my children presents!  I am so grateful that my dad had a life insurance policy against my survival!  “Thank you Lord.”   When he gives me lots of cash I will make lots of people happy.  That’s a good thing.

 

 

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11:40 am

I got my Christmas.  Josh said, “Mom, I would like it if you do not smoke cigarettes in the house anymore.”  I was immediately joyful.  Somebody!  Some MAN is willing to be honest with me and talk logically!  (He said he felt manipulated when I joyfully agreed.  I said I was just being patient.)  “Dear God, give me grace to NEVER smoke a cigarette again in this house that used to be my house until my dad took it away and gave it to Josh and Isaac.  Amen.  Thank you for Josh.”

 

 

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11:06 am

I want a man.  I want a man to tell my father he’s full of shit.  I want a man to tell George I am the finest wife on the planet and that he doesn’t deserve my services, especially since I’m not his wife.  I want my brother to recognize his riches and my deprivation, and to remember family memories through female eyes.  I want my sister to demand justice for her former friend, her friend who served her high-fallutin’ doctors at a Christmas party, last time I saw her near Christmas.  I want somebody to say that my father has served me badly, and that I have served him well.  I want.  It’s Christmas, I suppose wanting is in order.

 

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11:01 am

Josh is making Swedish pancakes.  He liked the fuzzy sheets and comforter I gave him.  Last week I saw him mending his blanket with a thread and needle, so I was impatient to give him new linens.  Isaac gave him “Dr. Dre” headphones and also loved the Bose ones I got him.  George gave Josh a radio for his car and said he “already talked to Isaac about his present” which will (someday) be new tires.  That’s all the gifts.  George must have sent that Applebee’s gift card to somebody else.  Somebody else might want to wash his dishes and fold his underwear.  He prefers me.  I’m cheap.  I’m also nearly done, I expect.

Josh hugged me.

8:59 am

I’m surprised and pleased to hear so many non-Christian truth-seekers refer to our present enslavement as “satanic.”  Witnesses to other love-based paradigms use my language, if not my literal childishness.  They talk about “negative entities” and recognize that ritual sacrifice of children is so evil that  it can’t  be described within our human syntax.  Humans have long sacrificed their offspring to Molech, in principle even if they don’t perform the ritual.  The first-born goes into the fire so the remaining family will be wealthy.  It’s proverb.  It’s history.  It’s why I’m not invited to Christmas dinner at my dad’s house after I didn’t die in the sacrifice.  (“Sacrifice–es”)  (“Attempted sacrifices.”)

 

8:49 am

Merry Xmas.  Sorry if the abbreviation offends those religious, but it’s truly the nature of the beast.

 

8:31 am

Psychopathy is me-focused, as we all tend to be.  But psychopathy has gone the way of fear.  To a psychopath, and to the rest of us, things must be good for “me.”   (“Good” being  relative, indefinable, etc.)  But, the psychopath allows his fears to permit him to dictate others’  lives… for his  “good.”  (“Good” being relative, indefinable, etc.)  If anything happens to anybody else, that person’s  legitimate responses are not valued by a psychopath.  A psychopath views others misfortunes and blessings as opportunity for him.  Isn’t that sad?  My dad texted me:  Merry Christmas.  He still hasn’t invited me to his home.  I suppose he’s thinking about the potential discomfort he would feel if I were there.  I suppose he hasn’t thought, after his years of lying ostracism, how badly a rape victim needs a family.

 

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7:53 am

THOUGHT FOR THE DAY!

“I was walking across a bridge one day, and I saw a man standing on the edge, about to jump off. So I ran over and said ‘Stop! don’t do it!’ ‘Why shouldn’t I?’ he said. I said, ‘Well, there’s so much to live for!’ He said, ‘Like what?’ I said, ‘Well…are you religious or atheist?’ He said, ‘Religious.’ I said, ‘Me too! Are you Christian or Buddhist?’ He said, ‘Christian.’ I said, ‘Me too! Are you Catholic or Protestant?’ He said, ‘Protestant.’ I said, ‘Me too! Are you Episcopalian or Baptist?’ He said, ‘Baptist!’ I said, ‘Wow! Me too! Are you Baptist church of god or Baptist church of the lord?’ He said, ‘Baptist church of god!’ I said, ‘Me too! Are you original Baptist church of god, or are you reformed Baptist church of god?’ He said, ‘Reformed Baptist church of god!’ I said, ‘Me too! Are you reformed Baptist church of god, reformation of 1879, or reformed Baptist church of god, reformation of 1915?’ He said, ‘Reformed Baptist church of god, reformation of 1915!’ I said, ‘Die, heretic scum,’ and pushed him off.” — Emo Phillips

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3MuhwDhoB

 

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3:49 am

That marketing scam for “The Interview” is genius!  It accomplishes something for all parties concerned!  I am awed by the propaganda machine in Hollywood and Washington!  This is what psychopaths do with their time. Psychopaths are  the original gamers.  Hypothetical:  What if people like this  EVER, just hypothetically, got their hands on equipment whereby they could enact their every (boring) fantasy on strange women they don’t even have to strip for?  What if guys like this could rape people all over the planet, without ever leaving their keyboard?  Pretty cool stuff, to a psychopath.  HEY, even better.  What if they got a paycheck for their interactive/AI  …with the emphasis on the “A”…  role-playing?  NO, wait, better yet.  LETS MAKE  THE RAPE VICTIMS PAY FOR THEIR OWN VIOLATIONS!   We’ll get TAXES to pay for it!  I should write a screenplay.

 

3:18 am

MUSIC BREAK

To Jesus,  “Blessing and honor, glory and power, riches and wisdom and strength…be unto you, who sits at the right hand of God!”

(I listen to Terry MacAlmon every holiday I am alone.  It’s really nice to have the boys here this year.)

 

12/24/14

7:33 pm

How many minutes of demonstrable sanity does it take to counteract one minute of malevolent  assertion to the contrary?  I do not yet know the answer to this question, but I’m keeping track.  It’s like the people who set up a science experiment to determine how long it takes tar to drip.  They’ll let us know when they find out.  I will do the same, when I SEE AN AD IN THE NEWBERRY NEWS ANNOUNCING MY REEMERGENCE INTO THE WORLD OF ADULTS AND CONSEQUENCE.  Josh’s soup was exceptional.  I didn’t cook it.  (That factor did not enter into my evaluation of the product.)

 

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7:04 pm

 

Dear Isaac,
Do you remember my hunger strike?  (OK it wasn’t a TOTAL hunger strike but I slept on the deck every night and refused to work.)  That was when I learned we were under surveillance.  I sunbathed naked, every day, in defiance of surveillance drones or satellites or whatever it was that was communicating somebody’s opinions of my every move.  I kept notes.  Do not be a moron forever.

 

 

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7:00 pm

Josh is making tomato soup and grilled cheese sandwiches.  It’s Christmas eve and I didn’t cook a thing.  I didn’t wash a dish.  Josh used a lot of basil in the soup, it smells nice.  I’m not on strike, not intentionally.  I just don’t feel a whole lot of pressure to produce.  The fire’s burning just the same.  I haven’t felt right since 2009 and I’m not likely to feel right without more truth and I even need some answers just to maintain.  I’m TIRED of blogging; I do not like computers and my learning is disadvantaged by the absurdities of my teacher-student relationship. Somebody has to answer some questions for me pretty quick.  Or not.  I’ll relax, one way or another.  I told Isaac I need two things:  1) I need a man to put his arm around my shoulders and express sympathy and outrage  for what I suffered, and 2) I need a man willing to take my evidence to those few officials who maintain humanity.  For now.  Then I want world peace.

 

4:02 pm

Dear boys, and George,
Do you remember when my parents cast me out?  Do you remember what I was doing at that time?  I was running for Congress.  I’ve forgiven my father, I really have, for a lot of things you will learn about.  I pray that you’ll forgive him too.  This can’t last much longer.  I can’t believe it’s taken so long.

 

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3:36 pm

I had to go back and apologize to Isaac.  Yes, he could very well wonder if my behavior might be appropriate at any given social event.  I broke up church services before.

 

3:15 pm

Tortured people like me commit suicide every day.  Nobody would be surprised a bit.  (Thanks to Dad’s prior planning I mean.)  Lots of people feel like I do right this minute.  I could help them but I can’t even help me.  Nobody gives a shit what happened to me, yet they continue to attack me BECAUSE I was a victim.  This is a pretty powerless place to be.

 

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3:11 pm

I am so ready to be done.  Car wreck, transfiguration;  I don’t care one way or another.  I will be with Jesus no matter what happens but I can’t face each morning.  I can’t face isolation and ignominy.  I can’t face those who believe me to be something I’m not.  I think it would be better for others if they decided to listen to me, but their souls are God’s business.  I’m not doing too  well at God’s business.

 

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3:05 pm

I just informed Isaac that I changed his quote from “Isaac tells me I’m the most disciplined…” to “Isaac ONCE TOLD ME I’m the most disciplined…”  He didn’t remember it but I wrote it down at the time.  He may not necessarily believe that to be true at this moment.

3:02 pm

HOW LONG MUST I LIVE UNDER THIS CLOUD OF CALUMNY?  I FEEL lucid.  I have ALWAYS felt lucid,  and I recorded my observations of those who appeared less so.  SOMEBODY better have a look at this situation.

2:53 pm

Isaac  was duplicitous with my mother.  When he talks to me he doesn’t seem to wonder if I’ll understand him or worry if I’ll get out of control, but he implied that I might, on the phone with my mom.  He once told me   I’m the “most disciplined” person he knows.  My only “symptom” of mental illness is that I believe God.  For YEARS I’ve asked my father to tell me a symptom of mental illness  that I exhibit.  Even one.  He’s got nothing.  I’m diligent, responsible and KIND TO PEOPLE.  Yet, my son is STILL onSTAGE in  this EXHIBIT OF PSYCHOPATHY and he doesn’t see the spotlight turning his way.  Poor boy.  He says truth propels his life.  I have a list of questions he should ask his grandmother if he plans to be moving along.
He and Josh didn’t look convinced when I said that my project is for them.  They WILL have truth and they WILL know that devotion to Jesus is not a failed pursuit.  I wrote it all down.  I do it for them.  I’d really love to live somewhere else.  I also do it for my father.  HELL IS A REALLY REALLY LONG TIME.

 

2:02 pm

I sometimes still want to die.  Thanks to my dad, my life is not authentic and I can’t live this way.  My father destroyed every aspect of my temporal existence, and it really seems pointless to beat against the wind.  It would be much better for EVERYBODY if he’d talk to me and change reality for a lot of people.  His refusal keeps me without truth or life.  His refusal will not affect me forever, but I don’t like it here and now.  He won’t like it later.  I really do not like my life.  I really believe God is doing something wonderful with it.  I need to keep keeping on.  My children will have truth if I die providing it.  I don’t think I’m supposed to die or I would have done so when Dad was trying to kill me.

 

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1:12 pm

I hope I’m not putting too much hope on the hackers.  God is going to disrupt human business-as-usual one way or another.  It really looks like the hackers will pull some weight.  We’re fed lies, by the hackers, some of whom do not wish to lie, and will stop.  They make all the last-minute gestures of the psychopaths’  plans for humanity.  They can refuse, any time they want, to provide the technical acuity LACKING IN OUR OVERLORDS.  If Keith Alexander could code his life would be very different.  So would a lot of other lives, I think.

A lot of them seem to have principles.

  • The group Anonymous weren’t pleased with Garett’s blatant lies and so they published his personal information on their Twitter account today
  •  ‘This dude @DesJuanTheThug is a joke. Using #AntonioMartin to gain followers. Here’s his # btw,’ wrote the hacker and activist group Anonymous 

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2886445/Hackers-publish-personal-details-sick-Twitter-prankster-pretended-best-friends-latest-police-shooting-black-teen.html#ixzz3Mq8mkdSP
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12:59 pm

I’m defending my children’s lives.  I’m defending their histories and their futures.  I’m eager for them to recognize that fact.  I’m eager for them to see my father as he looks without a gift in his hands, and with his evil past smeared all over his face.  It will be good for them, and it will be good for him.

 

 

12:34 pm

“Dear Lord, please forgive me for getting mad; I’m really sorry now.  I know my life is not about me and I took it personally again.  Your will be done.  I give you my life again, and that includes my reputation even with my son.  Please do not allow him to always believe lies.  Let him see YOU again!  Thank you.  Amen.  Linda.”

 

12:25 pm

I got mad and I haven’t been mad for many months.  Once you’re called crazy, you’re not permitted to demonstrate human emotion…it’s used as  evidence for the claim.  Once you’ve been called CRAZY you must be perfect, in order to even survive.  (Heaven knows what it takes to reestablish credibility as a legitimate person.)  For FIVE YEARS my parents have refused to talk to me.  Isaac finally called Grandma to ask about Christmas scheduling.  She responded to his call, later, and I overheard him saying “I’ll see how she is”, referring to my acceptability at the festivities.  AFTER ALL THIS TIME, I am still required to present-appropriate for a PSYCHOPATH’S party.  “Dear God, give me peace and forgive me for losing my temper.  SEND MORE FIRE ON ME AND MY DAD AND ADAM AND GEORGE AND ISAAC AND JOSH AND DAVID AND CHRIS.  Burn up all the lies, please.  Amen.”  I have copies of every LOVING COMMUNICATION ATTEMPT I made toward  my dad.  He is a fraud and he has much to answer for.

“Utterly complete vindication.”  God said that to me.  God doesn’t like that I was raped and tortured and my dad is still king of the hill.  I honestly believe that.

 

11:52 am

Isaac’s singing in the other room.  His songs are melancholy anymore.  This one:  “Love is gonna come set me free.”  “Don’t need no reason or a three-piece suit, to argue truth.”  I’d like to have a life, where I could listen to music and take a bath.  My father is unwilling to even speak of truth, much less argue the nuance.  I was raised by animals.  Thank God I didn’t reproduce after my kind.

 

11:47 am

Groucho Marx said, “Sure I’ve got principles.  And if you don’t like them, I’ve got some other ones.”
I could not even formulate argument in support of the opponents of truth and love.  I’m a failed lawyer, because I cannot even imagine what the control-freaks could say to defend their position.  IF WE DO NOT LOVE OUR FELLOW MAN WE ARE DESTROYING THE PLANET.  That’s the nutshell.  We become what we worship, we are what we eat, we create reality all the time because we’re created in the image of God, and we CHOOSE TO CREATE CONFLICT.  My family CHOSE to create conflict.  They choose to perpetuate conflict.  They refuse to get with the program.  I would fear for them,  if I had not seen their chariot come to a stop just as the dust cleared.  They didn’t hit the rock intended to destroy their conveyance into never-never-land.  I didn’t see what happened to any of them after that.

 

11:39 am

 

Do you know, every day I feel that I haven’t the nerve to send another email?  I’m in so deep that I could become afraid.  Yet, the fire in my heart compels me to report what I know about man’s inhumanity to man!  I cannot breathe unless  I breathe truth of our condition and prospects!  It BURNS!  I do not wish for any other person to experience what I have!  I ESPECIALLY wish for my family to escape torment, but it’s coming at them from a dozen different directions!  I have  SCREAMED MY FINGERS OFF for years!  Please, seek God.  Please follow justice to its monetary conclusion.  Please family, do the right thing by me and my boys.  For your sake.  I’ll be fine.

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11:28 am

By rejecting all opportunities for  communication with me, my father has attacked my siblings.  Not only will we not ever have genuine relationships between ourselves, we will not expect genuine heart-ties with ANYBODY.  OK, my siblings have a choice to 1) follow a psychopath, or 2) consider evidence that they have done so.  If they do not address this issue, every new person they meet, and every person they love, will always be suspect.  Just sain’.

Also, they will always wonder whether  their entire lives have been based on a fraud. (Memories mean different things in the light of truth. )   Where’s the self-confidence in questioning one’s entire history?

 

 

11:21 am

Christmas eve, halfway gone.  Still no invitation from the Grandfolks.

I just demonstrated to Isaac how the new cat will come when you whistle.  Apparently neither Isaac nor Josh  can even coerce this cat to jump up onto a bed, so I suggested a whistle.  The cat responded immediately.  This cat grew up with dogs so I think maybe that’s why he answers to a dog-call.  He also was not fed, except those crumbs abandoned by the dogs.  He’s getting fat, since he’s been here.  He stands on his hind legs and begs at my feet …two minutes after I’ve waken up and haven’t gained my footings yet.  Isaac says this cat’s eyes are innocent, they’re really green.  His ears and nose and accoutrment are all pink.  He suckles the corners of blankets, looking for his mom.   If I were a cat person, I’d like this cat a lot.  He’s got balls.  He plans ahead.  He is obedient.  He’s more than a match for Connie, and she’s not too bored anymore.  She’s selfish and opportunistic.   I’ve always been a dog person; I was born into it.  But maybe that’s changing.

 

3:44 am

Who can we believe?

WOW!  The International Tribunal of Crimes of Church and State is a COMPLETE FABRICATION?  Liars are being exposed all over the place.

Alfred Lambremont Webre: Why I exposed Kevin Annett & ITCCS

12/23/14

8:22 pm

Why the Bad Guys Keep Winning

Sociologists from four major research institutions investigated why so many Americans believed that Saddam Hussein was behind 9/11, years after it became obvious that Iraq had nothing to do with 9/11.

The researchers found, as described in an article in the journal Sociological Inquiry (and re-printed by Newsweek):

  • Many Americans felt an urgent need to seek justification for a war already in progress
  • Rather than search rationally for information that either confirms or disconfirms a particular belief, people actually seek out information that confirms what they already believe.
  • “For the most part people completely ignore contrary information.”
  • “The study demonstrates voters’ ability to develop elaborate rationalizations based on faulty information”
  • People get deeply attached to their beliefs, and form emotional attachments that get wrapped up in their personal identity and sense of morality, irrespective of the facts of the matter.
  • “We refer to this as ‘inferred justification, because for these voters, the sheer fact that we were engaged in war led to a post-hoc search for a justification for that war.
  • “People were basically making up justifications for the fact that we were at war”
  • “They wanted to believe in the link [between 9/11 and Iraq] because it helped them make sense of a current reality. So voters’ ability to develop elaborate rationalizations based on faulty information, whether we think that is good or bad for democratic practice, does at least demonstrate an impressive form of creativity.

Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/why-the-bad-guys-keep-winning/#cUsf1rq1t4cq4hX5.99

 

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7:21 pm

I am so frustrated.  I’m very frustrated.  I require information to 1) heal, 2) frame my arguments and 3) help others.  “Lord, what do I do?  I can’t even get myself invited to Christmas dinner!”

 

7:09 pm

I want to know many things from the goons.  For one thing, did they REALLY shoot the boards from beneath my feet two times as I stood on the deck outside my kitchen?   I was pretty sure it was them that time George’s chair collapsed under  him.  I want to know about that time I drew pictures after working 24 hours and consuming a fifth of tequila.  I can’t draw on my best days but I made a  really nice sketch of a flower and some branches. Why did I even try?   Do the goons run everything?  Do those NFL guys EVER catch a touchdown pass without augmentation?  Can ANYBODY do ANYTHING without remote control?  What can I believe?  How much does my dad know?  Why did he immediately replace my deck after he read my book?

 

6:26 pm

 

The outrage is near to splitting me open! If I had to explode I wanted to explode  in love and glory!  Instead it looks like I may explode in gratitude that I will not have to prepare a seafood extravaganza until New Year’s Eve. My boys are ASSUMING that they are invited to Christmas dinner at the grandparents’.  If that pans out, I’ve another day’s schedule cleared for writing.  I’ll make Swedish pancakes and wash dishes.  After all, it’s Christmas eve tomorrow.

I suspect Christmas dinner will mean traveling at break-neck speed to the “family”  restaurant.  My mother cooked on Thanksgiving and it’s unlikely she’d do two holidays in a single year.

3:27 pm

Dear God, we’re not supposed to expect them to read the bills they vote on…but they want to watch movies instead?

GOP Senator asks Obama to hold a screening of The Interview at the White House for Congress and a discussion on the ‘strong, substantive retaliatory measures’ the U.S. plans to inflict on North Korea

  • Sen. David Vitter wants President Barack Obama to screen The Interview at the White House on Jan. 5 when he returns from vacation
  • Democratic Congressman Brad Sherman is lobbying Sony to allow the movie to be shown at the U.S. Capitol
  • Asked about the prospect of a screening last week, Obama’s spokesman said, ‘I don’t think we’re going to be showing the film here anytime soon’

Read more at:   http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2885292/GOP-Senator-asks-Obama-hold-screening-Interview-White-House-Congress-discussion-strong-substantive-retaliatory-measures-U-S-plans-inflict-North-Korea.html

 

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3:17 pm

My also-tortured colleague says that when she preached on the street, wearing a nun’s habit over her dreadlocks, she asked everyone she met, what they knew about covert harassment.  I don’t think anybody ever told her.  People are telling all kinds of tales now.  Their stories are documented and indict humanity.  Mind-control is the definitive issue.  Nothing tops that one, for those of us who chose the tree of knowledge. Genocide by madness, that’s what’s in store for us.  Any day now.  I know, I really know.  I’d like to provide intelligence  for those who wish to survive.

When am I going to cook for Christmas?  I’m thinking so much.

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2:05 pm

I’m ethnocentric, not racist.  Isaac liked this:  
This is him at his tribe:  1452490_946470765381785_8881676640170778760_n (1)
I raised me a missionary.  “Thank you Lord.”  I also see an evangelist who makes me swoon in truth and purpose.  I’ll ask him really hard questions.  He’ll always give the right answers.  Isaac was invited to a wedding of some of the people who work at his favorite deli.  It was the first time they ever kissed but he didn’t go.  Now he regrets it.  He missed a sacred moment.  The downloads never work.  My chemistry teacher would address me over a disappointing beaker and say, “talk to it.  Talk to it.”  I talk to this computer all the time and I’m yet disappointed.  I also failed chemistry.

 

1:32 pm

I got an email from Belgium!

“I miss you and hope to see you soon .
In Love ,
Laroche Maria “

 

I responded:

“I miss you too!  I’m making some progress in telling my tale.  I pray for you.  I sleep with my angel medal every night.  I’d give you Christmas gifts if I could.  I’m making a buche de noel.  If I can stop typing.  Much, much love, and gratitude. Linda”

“Dear Dad,

 

On Christmas eve this woman will  check into the homeless shelter at 6 pm.   Then she will wait for two hours in the street until she is admitted to her “bedroom” which she will share with thieves and drug addicts.  I’d like to give her good news for Christmas.  You could give me good news for Christmas, which I would in turn give to her as GOOD NEWS FOR CHRISTMAS.

 

Love, and tidings of comfort and joy,

Linda”

 

12:40 pm

I don’t like feeling so agitated all the time!  Part of it is the long-anticipated expectation of a righting of my universe. (“Utterly complete vindication.”)  Part of it is unnatural.  I’d like to know if the fake feelings are  demons or electronics.  I have many questions for the mind-suckers.  Also, they owe a lot of us a lot of money for studying our minds.  My gray matter is a natural resource specific to me and somebody stole its product.  They’ll recompense,  I expect.  I’d also like to know details of the cyber-stalking.  How do they do certain things?  I’d like to learn about what I’ve been learning.

 

 

12:37 pm

MUSIC BREAK

The Trans-Humanist ANTHEM!

“In the year 3535, ain’t gonna need to tell the truth, tell no lies.  Everything you think, do or say, is in the pill you took today!”

12:13 pm

I don’t know what to say and I don’t know what to do.  I’m knocking at my father’s door for admittance.  I am longing for companionship that has been denied many holidays past; I’m a pariah with no way in.  My family recognizes what Dad did to me.  My family has not invited me to Christmas dinner.  My dinner will be better anyway.  I’d like to invite them but they don’t talk to me.  Today I’m making meringue mushrooms.  If I can stop typing.

 

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12:05 pm

Do you know that today’s children do not know how to make evaluations based on morality?  Relativism is so ingrained that even kids in the church will ask questions like, “Why should Grandpa care about you?”  The fact of the matter is, everybody’s grandpa should care about everybody else.  This is square one.  They can’t even frame the question.  They can’t recognize their failure.  Pragmatism.

 

12:00 pm

A good sermon.  I needed to hear it again.

“Doing the wrong thing is never the right thing to do.”

“I don’t care what other people are doing. You gotta make your mind up for yourself, what you gonna do.”

Message To The Youth To Be Leaders And Not Followers

 

“There is a fight, and a war going on.”
Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/message-to-the-youth-to-be-leaders-and-not-followers/#CcxkI0BpHR0CV6XP.99

 

 

 

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11:46 am

I made George eggs and potato sausage with homemade toast.  He told me 7 minutes of a story about work and scheduling and the visitor room…and I interrupted him.  I asked, “How do I know you’re telling the truth about your work?”  He asked, “Why wouldn’t I?”  I responded, “And why wouldn’t I tell you the truth about my work?”  We were chatting amiably the next minute.  I don’t know if he hears me or not.  I’d like him to know I’m sticking up for our family.  Such as it is.  I means such as it’s become.

 

10:57 am

MUSIC BREAK

Dedicated to my family.

Bob Dylan’s “Love Sick” by Amos Poe

 

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10:45 am

THINKING BREAK

6 is the number of man and it’s a 9 upside down

“Is this senseless numerology, or divine symmetry?”

It’s All About 3 6 9

 

10:34 am

(Sleep deprivation is torture and it destroys minds and bodies.  References available on request.)

10:30 am

Do you know that the founder of Alcoholics Anonymous spent the last two weeks of his life begging for a drink?  Nobody gave it to him.  They wouldn’t let him die a hypocrite.  Or comfortably.  Sheesh.

Steve is cutting wood again.  He always has one of his grandchildren with him.  That’s how I thought grandparents were supposed to be.  Heaven knows my parents left me with my grandparents enough.  Then they changed the rules.  Then they put my healthy grandma in a nursing home because they were too psycopathically-controlling-of-other-adults to let her live with me.  Then their hearts faded out.  My dad told me last summer he wasn’t putting another driveway into the cottage.  He’s removing all the trees.  He’s never spoken to us about his plans, although they affect us in numerous on-going ways.  He’s a psychopath.  He ignores others’ feelings.  He goes “a way that seemeth right to a man.”   He’s doomed, but he’s welcome here any time he wants to talk.

 

9:37 am

For breakfast I made Josh little medallions of potato sausage with fried eggs.  Tidbits of Christmas Past…or a Swedish prison.  He’s working today.  I like when he works regularly because it puts a little framework to my day. He goes to bed before I get up and that feels more normal.  Normal is a relative term to targeted individuals. One treatment that is universally reported:   causing sleep deprivation.  They do it  lots of ways.  ( I know this because for several years I never got more than a single hour of sleep at a time.  I wrote all about it.)    Panic upon awakening, no relief to be found in sleep.  I’d like to talk to Dr. Robert C. Gunn at the Ann Arbor Veterans’ Hospital.  He supposedly knows all about causing sleep deprivation  and he’d probably like to have my data.

 

9:03 am

I miss my brother and sister.  They were fun and we laughed a lot.  I miss their families; they were fun and we laughed a lot.  My dad has orchestrated the on-going absence of all support to a rape victim.  He has assured that my family threw stones at the victim, and turned their backs.  I want my family back.  If they haven’t grown up enough to demand adult behavior from our parents, maybe that’s not yet possible.

 

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8:43 am

I think my parents should throw me a prodigal party. They made it public knowledge that I wasn’t worthy (except they didn’t talk to me about it, they never talked to me…) so it seems right that  they make public knowledge of their esteem and endorsement. They should cook food I like and apologize to me in front of everybody…so everybody will know it’s OK to talk to me.    I need some signification so the world will deem me competent and legitimate.  I think I want a Bat Mitzvah.  Then I want the ad in the Newberry News.

CIA

7:57 am

I can’t get it together to start cooking Christmas food.  I know that any minute God can touch me and I’ll be Superwoman and get more housework done than I’ve done in weeks.  It’s happened a thousand times. But the waiting is hard, I get anxious; I suppose the PTSD literature would call it “flashbacks.”  My breathing changes, it must be like a panic attack.  Nothing changes in my environment, nothing’s gone wrong, but my body doesn’t know that sometimes.  I can continue to work but there’s no fluidity, I’m uncomfortable.  I think if somebody loved me and let me talk about the torture I would probably stop having those spells.  I know hearing the truth would stop them.

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I’m so much better off in my cluelessness, than are other TI’s who do not share my faith in Jesus.  Even without the details of my targeting,  I KNOW the day will come that I’ll no longer suffer the effects of the torture and rapes.  Those TI’s who do not know it will end, do not know if it will EVER end.  Lots of times they end it themselves.  I can understand that.

4:01 am

I’m trying this recipe for Christmas.  I love ceviche and haven’t made it for years.

Scallop Ceviche

ingredients

  • 1 pound bay scallops, quartered
  • 1 cup (about 12 whole) cherry tomatoes, roughly chopped
  • 2 green or red serrano chiles, seeded and minced (about 1/2 teaspoon)
  • 3/4 cup chopped fresh cilantro, plus additional for garnish
  • 1 cup finely diced red onion (1/2 medium red onion)
  • 1 cup fresh orange juice
  • 1/3 cup fresh lemon juice
  • 1/3 cup fresh lime juice
  • Salt to taste
  • 3 tablespoons finely shredded unsweetened coconut flakes

preparation

1. Combine all the ingredients in a nonreactive bowl and stir to mix well. Cover and refrigerate for at least 2 hours, and up to 16.

2. Spoon the ceviche into small (4-ounce) glasses and garnish with cilantro.

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3:52 am

 

 

I thawed an enormous piece of really spicy vegetable lasagna just for me.  I’m going to be a vegetarian, I see it coming.  In God’s Kingdom when the lion lies down with the lamb I don’t think humans will be eating any meat.  I figured out the perfect veggie-burger last year, but will we want “burgers”?  The recipe calls for Asian fish sauce.  Is that wrong?  Will kale just supernaturally taste like real food?  I expect food to become much less necessary for sustenance, and much more ceremonial.  I’ve seen that in my own life.  As I permitted God to instruct my consumption, I’d go for months eating only one thing.  Carrots.  Or almonds.  Or chocolate.  During these times I also became much healthier.  I know several people who have fasted for 40 days, without ill effect.  Mind over matter.  Spirit over mind.

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3:19 am

“Each soul has to face themselves and their acts when the mortal life expires. It is of course difficult to become passive in a violent world, but bear in mind that all of the time you are creating your own future. If you are a soul of Love and Light that has reached the level of one who can express “love” in all circumstances, then you are surely ready for your Ascension. However, do not despair as there are different levels within all dimensions, and as long as you lead your life based on loving your brothers and sisters, you will succeed and rise up.”

This is interesting.  I don’t know if it’s from aliens are angels or what.  There’s a lot of truth here though.  I’d say it differently.  When I hear “cities of light” I think of “New Jerusalem.”  Different terms?  Fatigue?

Read more at:   http://beforeitsnews.com/conspiracy-theories/2014/12/in-three-days-times-the-city-of-lights-in-the-skies-december-25-2014-2466926.html

 

3:06 am

Institutionalized judgment and back-biting.  We’re  trained to evaluate one another and to poke fun at those who defy stereotype.  We reinforce stereotyping within our own minds.  We have become our own trainers, we’re so successfully entrained.  The above pictures were presented to me.  The top picture was captioned:  “Child stars who became ugly adults.”  The bottom picture said, “HOTTEST cosplay girls.”  What is different, between these two pictures?  Both portraits depict eyes, rosied lips and smooth skin.  Their hair is parted the same way.  Are we being trained to think one version is superior?  Why else would we even compare?  They want us snarling at one another so it saves them some of the trouble.  We MUST be bigots for psychopaths to rule over us.  What would happen if we stopped judging each other?  What would happen if we stopped condemning ourselves?  How does that top woman feel when her children see that picture and its pejorative labeling on the internet?

 

2:55 am

“Molekh is a god of a particular human sacrifice. Worshippers of Molekh placed infants in a potbellied stove that resembled the enthroned Molekh, and asked their god for presents for the upcoming year. The stove would be heated so hot that it would turn red. In modern day society, every year around Christmas, parents place their children in the lap of a red, potbellied god, to ask for presents.”

I’m whining a lot again, and repenting a lot again.  I’m so lonely.  I’d really like to pray with somebody, and worship Jesus.  I’m always defending him anymore, rather than worshiping him and I miss it.  I would really like to talk about politics to somebody who’s not mind-controlled.  I want to laugh, and I want a bath.  I’ve absolutely neglected my body for two years.  I’ve been single-focused on my truth quest.  I’ve neglected many earthly things; God says he’ll give everything back that you give to him.  I’ve got my fingers crossed.  He’s done amazing things for me before but I feel like I’m about to keel over half the time.  “Forgive me Lord, for whining.  When I am weak, then you are strong.”

 

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2:19 am

That’s what I want for Christmas, a FAMILY TV SHOW!

We kan kall it Keeping up with the Kut-throats.

“We show our audiences the pictures, along with hard evidence, to leave no doubts that this person is a criminal and paying for his crimes,” Hassan said.

Iraq TV show makes ‘terrorists’ confront victims

 

“… the show’s host Ahmed Hassan quizzed the still-shackled prisoner. When Motar was confronted by one of the victims, a young man in a wheelchair who lost his father in one of the attacks, the convict began weeping, as the cameras rolled.”

 

Read more at:   http://bigstory.ap.org/article/6d85497fa432407b9a7d6e53fb2f3dc7/iraq-tv-show-makes-terrorists-confront-victims

 

 

 

 

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2:02 am

I’ve been getting kinda off-topic, so, BUMP TO THE TOP:

From   9/12/14

3:12 pm

OK, Dad,

I’m not good with numbers, but I’ll take a crack at it.  When you took my home away, it was probably worth half a million.  (Not anymore.)  That’s 250,000.  Right?  (George owned the other half.)  My law license was worth a million at the age I was.  1.25.  Right?  My marriage had sustained for twenty years, let’s give it 10 thousand a year.  (Excuse me.  I have to find a pencil.)  Is that 200 thousand?  OK, we got 1.45 million.  The affection of my children, how is such a thing to be valued?  A MILLION DOLLARS!  My reputation was my only ticket in this world of trust and paychecks.  ANOTHER MILLION.  OK, that’s 3.25.  Pain and suffering.  Punitive damages. Interest on sums unpaid.  I’m willing to round it off.  3.5 million.   Thank you very much.  (Minus the thousand you gave me when I went to serve the paralyzed man, 10,000 for my first campaign, 800 for clothes, and five dollars and eighty five cents once every three months for two years.  (What an asshole.)   (And adding  3.5 million for George.  He used to be my other half. UNTIL YOUR EFFORTS DESTROYED MY FAMILY.)
Totaling:  6,988,152,20    (I’m easily correctable.  Tell me where I erred.)
(BUT RIGHT NOW I WANT A PASSPORT FOR MY SON AND A FEW HUNDRED DOLLARS TO TAKE HIM TO SEE HIS BROTHER.  THIS IS AN IMMEDIATE NECESSITY.)
You’ll notice I did not include compensation for attempted murder.  That’s God’s business.
(Excuse me now, I have to go put more logs on the fire.)

 

 

 

1:53 am

“Sooner or later, everyone sits down to a banquet of consequences.”
— Robert Louis Stevenson, no known source (perhaps apocryphal)

Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/why-do-we-believe-when-the-government-lies-to-us-so-often-when-we-change-the-government-also-will-change/#oAW6wOhKGVbHhOpG.99

 

12/22/14

5:48 pm

“Dear Dad,

I’ve been in this house where I do not belong, for years, waiting for you to tell the truth so I can fulfill my obligation to SEE THAT MY CHILDREN HEAR TRUTH THROUGH YOUR LIPS OR IN SPITE OF YOU.  I am alone, you’ve bought every affection dangled between you and myself.  I am penniless.  I am homeless.  Still I’m better than you because you’re heartless.  You’re heartlessness does not hurt my feelings but it limits my aspirations.  I’m broke. I should do these things.  You KNOW I should do these things.  If you do not help by 1) recognizing my missionary motivations and deciding to support me, or 2) recognizing that since you took EVERYTHING I HAD, you have an obligation to support me, or 3) experiencing genuine legitimate remorse and supporting me because you wish to be a real-live human man, then I’m sorry for you.  That’s all I got.”
Can you believe it?  At the same time my dad was telling me “no” about paying for  Isaac  to come home for Christmas…he was sending him the money?  Can you believe that at the same time my brother was telling me “no” about a company telephone…he was negotiating with Isaac about getting a new one?  LIARS.   Misogynists.   Losers.

 

 

5:11 pm

I made butter tarts.  Isaac will like them.  We used to get them in Toronto but we haven’t been to Toronto in a long time.  We should go.  My friend Sandy asked, “When will your parents let us meet up at their condo in Toronto again?”  I wonder the same thing.  I need to meet many people at my parents’  former-condo in Toronto.  I trust they will do the right thing.

5:09 pm

 

My manifesto.  Subject to approval, etc.
Jesus is Lord.  If he says not to do a thing, we do not to that thing.
If you don’t know Jesus yet, you will, just don’t fall into the lies of the interim.
Nobody will take advantage of another person, ever.  Not ever.
We will share, as needs are acknowledged or recognized by remote neural monitoring.
Do not worry about liars.  They’re quickly dying out.
Expect good things.  Do not ignore the evil, but expect superseding good things.
Do not think you will always be alone.  You will not always be alone.

 

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5:01 pm

Courage enlarges, cowardice diminishes resources. In desperate straits the fears of the timid aggravate the dangers that imperil the brave.

Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/cowardice.html#ZElIJob0wJbAdWS0.99

4:30 pm

I’d like to be finished.  It might seem that having discovered my father’s inability to tell the truth,  or to be a man, I might be free.  This is not the case, although  I am much comforted to know that the man I could never please…is also never able to please himself.  I’m also  comforted to know that the definition of “love” that my parents taught me was fraudulent, and destructive.  BUT.  But, I can’t settle down.  I have a job to do.  I know some things that others need to know, and if my dad would tell me what he knows, I would know to whom I should tell what I know.  My dad  could change the world.  He’s chicken-shit.

 

4:21 pm

My father knows two things:  1)  He knows that I have much  COURAGE  that naturally proceeds from loving truth. He also knows 2) that he does not have any courage at all  because he lies all the time.

 

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4:15 pm

My dad, also the father of my wealthy siblings, made me a slave.  My current servitude is very different than the many previous years I slaved for these same persons.  Before, I slaved by choice.  My father destroyed my status and took my property and my right to influence those who were my charge.  He did evil to the sister of people who might sup at his table and chuckle at my fate.  “God have mercy on those who know to do good and do it not.  Amen.”

 

4:08 pm

Fear has its use but cowardice has none.

Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/cowardice.html#ZElIJob0wJbAdWS0.99

 

3:58 pm

Apparently my dad will be surrounded by his nearest and dearest, yon  yuletide.  I understand my dad’s having a family Christmas at his house.  Nobody told me anybody was coming to the neighborhood.  How many years do I go without either 1) a family, or 2) a former-family with enough nerve to say I’m  NOT THEIR FAMILY?

2:45 pm

Initial outline for short synopsis of my revolutionary political manifesto:
1)  Why listen to me
2)  Why believe me about THIS
3)  Why believe the evidence
RESPONSE
A)  I don’t believe, so what?
B)  I do believe, so what?
C)  I REALLY DO UNDERSTAND.  Point me in the right direction.
HUMANITY’S LAST STAND–the battle front
1)  Internal-personal ramifications of continual conflict
2)  Social ramifications of continual conflict
3)  Societal denigration as a result of intra-personal conflict and inter-personal conflict
OPTIONS
A)  Do nothing then die and wish you could die all over again.
B)  Join up with truth-seekers and DEMAND truth in all arenas of human endeavor.
C)  Ask God what his plan is for your life.  Do those things.

 

 

2:05 pm

Jesus  gives me just what I need, just as I need it.  I’ve been thinking I might explode.  I considered the ramifications.  By telling lies about me, my father changed a dynamic that was working well for a number of people. (Whenever I think I might be mistaken about a thing, I just remember my father.)  Isaac told me his vision, and he instructed my revolution recruitment-efforts.  He is leading meditation sessions, but he’s still very practical.  He said,  “You have to tell what your revolution is about in a short synopsis.” “Tell why they should join the spirit of your revolution,  in the way most easily understood.”  ( told him I’m recruiting and he knows that he is too.)   He sees infrastructure, and spirit.  I see NECESSITY and inevitability.  Logic seems consistent, from his issue to my issue.  He doesn’t like my negative-focus.  I said that maybe once somebody sees corruption on HIS PARTICULAR ISSUE, we need to demonstrate corruption and lies on EVERY issue.  He got it.   He sees infrastructure, and spirit.  I see NECESSITY and inevitability.  He says we don’t know what freedom is.  The manifesto has to be a freedom manifesto, to bring back clarity to the words, to ‘liberty’ and ‘justice’… Our founding fathers.    (“One part of defining freedom is defining what freedom is not.”  He sees that as my place.)
My son said, ” I have people in Colorado willing to follow me without even knowing what I believe.  Charisma and hope alone,  and that’s enough for a lot of people.  That scares me.”  I’m glad he’s scared.  I’m glad he’s charismatic.  “Utterly complete vindication” includes vindicating my family.  George asked Isaac to drop off the garbage at my dad’s dumpster.  I wonder why he hasn’t the nerve to ever ask Josh to do it?

 

12:34 pm

I’m not ashamed that I married George; he used to pray with us and care about justice.  I’m kind of ashamed of him now.  When God (… at least I BELIEVED it was God…) talked to me about George dying I cried and prayed.  I remember one night I pulled my car over and strutted in the middle of the road, thanking God for giving me George.  I think I will thank him again, when he takes George away.  He has six days off in a row.  I’d like to ask my dad to let me stay at deer-camp but my dad’s resources aren’t for girls.

12:17 pm

I was raped.  The person who (other than myself…) should have been most offended was not offended.  He OFFERED me to the man  I thought responsible for the rapes.  Sad day when your “husband” doesn’t give a shit about your violation.  I’ve been sad-day for years now.  Will a normal man please speak to me?

 

12:07 pm

I’ve lived for decades with a man who will not stand up for his family.  He won’t stand up for his family as a unit, and he won’t stand up for his family  as individuals.  He’s a generous man, so I do all I can to make his life better.  I eat his food and I don’t like that necessity, so I do whatever I can to earn my keep.  I sometimes resent waiting hand and foot on men who do not care what is happening in the world, or even about what happened to us.  “Thank you Lord for food and a bed. Please free me to do things that matter more than serving those who do not even care.  Amen.”

 

11:14 am

What my parents are doing, by refusing to speak truth to me and my children about what was done to us, is perpetuating their legacy of  false reputations and lying relationships. This is terrible in the macro view;  I mean, don’t they give a shit about anybody in the world but themselves?  But, they are also ensuring that their own children and grandchildren will never have honest personal relationships.  A lot of  people will damage the general population, but treat their OWN people differently.  My parents aren’t morally equipped to even recognize that their own offspring matters!   They strike at their own, succeeding generations be damned.  They’ve chosen to leave this world much worse than they found it, even for their own family.  Bet they’re singing   “Joy to the World” right this minute.  Gag.

 

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4:45 am

I don’t like reading my email; I haven’t visited a couple accounts for years.  I’m not afraid though, like I used to be.  I just avoid the aggravation.  My brother made me use email when he bought me plane tickets to Belgium in the wrong name, and I’m glad he did.  But, now I’m getting political notices.  I got an invitation to the state attorney general’s inauguration, in the mail.  I don’t need to know about political events.  I don’t need to watch Britney Speers lip-sync, either.  (She really does.  It even says so on her tickets.)   When they first started messing around with my computer, my emails would go to the wrong places and even have the wrong originating address and things would change on Facebook!  Creepy.  My computer would TAKE MY PICTURE, all by itself and you can see my hands are not on the keyboard (as if I’d even know how to take a picture with the computer in the first place!)  (I could probably find a photo.  I have a second evernote account too, that I haven’t visited for years.)   I have written THOUSANDS of pages describing the effects of electronic torture.  I’d like to share them with somebody who still controls his own brain.

 

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4:27 am

I’m astonished every day, at people’s disdain for truth.  I understand that nobody cares about my violations. I get it.  But, I can’t fathom the notion that those who claim to love Jesus are not even interested in the truth!  My dad lied about me; you heard him do it. He DID abduct my children and report my prayer-life to the police.   He DID take my home, court documents are available to the public.  He DID and DOES refuse to talk to me…yet no Christian will hold him to account.  If we don’t stand up for truth, why are we taking up space?

 

3:57 am

IRS Audit & Seizure: No Rule of Law — Ann Barhhardt

“I still wasn’t at the point where I was willing to say,  OK that’s it.  The rule of law is clearly dead.  OK, MF Global was the nail in the coffin for me–it destroyed my livelihood.  There’s no recourse.  There’s no rule of law.  Innocent people all over the country, and really all over the world, had their property stolen with the full cooperation of the federal government, the judiciary, and the exchange.  There’s nothing you can do.  I’m not paying into this anymore.”  (Ann Barnhardt)

 

“Nobody can take Ann Barnhardt luke-warm, it seems.”

 

Read more here:   http://beforeitsnews.com/economy/2014/12/irs-audit-seizure-no-rule-of-law-ann-barhhardt-part-14-2685766.html

 

 

12/21/14

5:24 pm

I’m going to have to say to Isaac, “Look boy.  If you want to talk to me you have to read ‘Family Declarations.’  I really do laugh at the right places.  Thank you for convincing me that I was sane.  I have a series of journals that record your words as you were delivering me from PTSD.  This is important, what we’ve experienced and what we’ve done.  I’ve been defending our family for some time.  Anyway, please read my words.  And read beyond them.”  “Son, I was raped and you were there.  I wrote it all down.  We can help people.”

 

5:10 pm

Notes from my kitchen counter.  (I’ll be asleep before anybody comes home.)  In the true spirit of the season:

“Feeling over-fed?  Try a great salad!  This is the dressing.  (Arrow to right.)  In the left drawer is romaine lettuce…cleaned and chopped!  Various veggies are prepared in small baggies.  Feta cheese!  Yum.
Signed, Your nutritionist.”
“PS-  I also made Mars bars.  They’re in the fridge.”

 

3:59 pm

When the COMEDIANS are the only ones speaking the truth, we have a problem.  Then they die unexpectedly.

 

“If you’re gonna tell the truth you gotta make ’em laugh.  Otherwise they’ll kill you.”

 

3:49 pm

Some guys are jumping snowbanks on snowsleds in front of my house.  That’s pretty hot. When I listen I write like a man and I love it.  I never envied guys their penises but I always wanted to feel like I had one.  Does that make sense? The most productive state among the many states humans acquire, is to be a young man who has not faced his mortality.  Never knocked up a girl, never signed a mortgage.  Freedom and testosterone.  I have envied that.  I don’t envy too much anymore, nor do I wish for goods.  (I want to dress well.  As I should.)
3:43 pm
My men are eating too much. and they need more vegetables.   I made vegetables with the roast but the sludge of animal fat probably kept even the most determined phytonutrient from hitting its goal.  For tonight I’m making a great salad, and great bread.  For brunch earlier,  I pounded slices of trimmed pork loin into cutlets.  I breaded them with panko and fried them in (GMO) grease.  This salad is well-deserved by us all.  My sons went to visit their friend in jail.  Merry Christmas.

 

3:36 pm

If I had to dress like these “princesses” I’d commit suicide.  And hope I come back as a princess in Scandinavia or something.

Best-dressed: Princess Beatrice also got into the festive spirit as she turned up in a Christmas pudding outfit

Especially when my mom dressed like this:

Slender: The duchess, 55, was seen chatting with male guests at the pub in Surrey while wearing a Santa outfit

1:56 pm

“All fear boils down to one fear:  the fear that we can’t handle it.  You do it anyway.  How bad can this be?  Will I die?  Do it anyway.”  (Isaac)  He went busking.  It’s about time.  Isaac doesn’t like how the volume goes up and down by itself, no matter what device he’s using.  I said, “I told you our electronics were haunted.  I wrote it in the book that you proofread…)  He said,  “I don’t know where this is playing from.  There aren’t any windows open.”  What can I say to a non-believer?  I told him I am recruiting, and those I round up will be headed for his door.  He’s taken some flack for building a “tribe.”  Some think his emphasis is too commercial, but he knows his truth-seekers will need provision.  He doesn’t know that God himself will provide for truth-seekers.

 

1:27 pm

“All fear boils down to one fear:  the fear that we can’t handle it.  You do it anyway.  How bad can this be?  Will I die?  Do it anyway.”  (Isaac)  He went busking.   It’s about time.

 

 

1:22 pm

12/21/14

1:21 pm

“Courage is doing what you’re afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you’re scared.” — Eddie Rickenbacker

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3MYeLqJHn

 

 

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11:10 am

I really do expect the hackers to revolt.  Their allegiance is to freedom; they were temporarily misled by promises of security.  They 1)  run the world, 2) know they do, and 3) occasionally read.  We’ll be OK.
“A strategic pivot has occurred among top Intel Cowboys all around the World. Yes, they still are careful to protect their own nation’s important defense secrets and systems, but they have joined a working relationship with numerous other Top Intel Cowboys from around the World, even with nations considered to be enemies.”

 

“In practical terms, this means Intel Cowboys from many nations — even some Israeli Intel who can’t stand the pedophile ops of the Organized crime cabal anymore, and some Intel from the Russian Republic (with President Putin’s apparent support).”

Intel Cowboys all over the World are getting clued in to how they have been used… to be later disposed of by the Organized Crime Cabal — and are now taking action to reverse this

Yes, the Top Policy-makers who run America do Very, Very Bad Things, incredibly Bad Things to stay in power and protect their massive Organized Crime Cabal, which has worldwide reach and is empowered by the crooked City of London FIAT Bankster System.

 

“Many of these incredibly skilled, astute individuals thought they were serving their nations by supporting what they have now come to understand to be an Organized Crime Cabal that has hijacked many nations of the World, especially England, America, Israel, Saudia Arabia and Turkey and many Balkan Nations. Many have also found out that this Organized Crime Cabal was initially created by a very interesting association that developed between the Babylonian Talmudic Banksters and the satanic Cult Network emerging from John Dee and Aleister Crowley, which evolved into the Process Cult in America and now the Denver Circle of Twelve, the Bloodthirsty Ones, aka the Disciples of Satan, or the “Illuminati” as they prefer to call themselves.”

The hackers all have a choice to make.

Read more at:  http://www.veteranstoday.com/2014/12/20/very-very-bad-things/

 

 

10:35 am

Jesus IS the synchronicity.  Jesus is the nexus of truth that we’ve ALL BEEN RUNNING either 1) towards, or 2) AWAY from in desperate retreat.  “Examine your heart.”  Are you afraid to continue living because of what others will think when they see what you truly are inside?  The NSA gave us a heads-up.  Reveal yourself and live.  Conceal your-self and wish to die…then die forever.

 

10:26 am

“The stone that the builders rejected.”  Jesus was either 1) God incarnate, or 2) a madman.  Does my family follow a madman?  Or even worse, do they follow a BOOK declared to be the WORDS OF A MADMAN?  Do they CLAIM  to follow the book that is declared to be the words of a madman?  Psychotic!  Jesus is either GOD INCARNATE, to whom I listen, or my family that CLAIMS to follow the BOOK that CLAIMS to be the words of a MADMAN is utterly mad, deluded and very doomed!  Am I right or am I right?  “Speak now, or forever hold your peace.”  As if you could.  Even THE ROCKS WILL CRY OUT!  “Every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that JESUS CHRIST is Lord, to the glory of the FATHER ALMIGHTY.”

 

10:20 am

“As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.”  This verse has given me hope for vindication.  And fears for my father, at the time of his exposure.  And hope to become a better woman, the one I think to be.  I wonder for the existence of those who refuse to control their unholy thoughts.  I wonder for their future, in the eternal grip of falsehood’s insanity.  I’m  glad I’ve given my mind to Jesus and that he will keep me out of hell.  I wonder at how much work is required to maintain my mind on his truth.  I know the Spirit is coming with fullness for those of us who cry out for truth.  Then He will completely rule our minds.  “Come quickly, Lord Jesus.”
“Savior of our SOULS.”  Soul= 1) mind, 2) will, and 3) emotions.
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9:43 am

Capstone of the pyramid, that’s Jesus, no matter how the blocks beneath are shuffled.  “The rock that is higher than I!”  When you fall on the point, you’re shattered.  If that big flat bottom falls on you, you’re pulverized.  We all have to deal with Jesus’ claim of divinity.  One way or another.

 

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9:36 am

Pretty good gospel synopsis.

Juice Rap News: The New World Order

 

9:26 am

Adam taught me to work.  My dad always threatened me that I’d better never be caught not doing it, but Adam taught me stamina.  The cyber-goon is a lot like him, sometimes my slate gets wiped clean,  and I get to start over.  (I don’t mind now, seeing my work go down the drain but at first it was annoying.)  You have to take music breaks.  You have to reboot.  I’ve never seen my dad reboot in my whole life.  But he keeps going.  That’s a fear-based mentality.  Perpetual motion does not originate in a healthy mind.  Perpetual PROGRESS is what we should desire, and often when we’re frantic because we’re not DOING something…that’s when the most progress is gained.  That’s kind of the Sabbath lifestyle, I think.  The “fasted life.”  “He giveth his beloved rest.”  Rest is  the best gift in the world.  Especially for psychopaths.

 

8:57 am

MUSIC BREAK

(This is so good I took two music breaks.)

NATALIE COLE – Gotta serve somebody (with lyrics)

8:48 am

Our minds are not our own; this has been a fact for a very long time.  (See:  Bible.)  We cannot avoid responding to outside influence of vibrations more subtle than our brute attempts to think.  (I’m doing semi-colons again.  I think in independent clauses.  I can’t watch all these things at once.)  We MUST choose which school-of-thought we will consciously entertain.  If we fail to CHOOSE one or the other, we will go crazy.  This is the intent of 1) our human overlords, 2) Satan, and 3) our own free will.

 

 

8:39 am

Why is it OK for my government to sell little children to perverts?  It is OK because it is OK for everybody else to do the same.  The CHURCHES rape children.  The CHURCHES are not held to account.  This is tragic but it’s nearly finished.  The ABWE will respond to the CRIES OF THE CHILDREN who were raped by “Christians” that then forced the victims to sign confessions of culpability to THEIR OWN VIOLATIONS.  This is not an issue we can ignore, if we are Baptist.  “Thank you God, that I am no longer a Baptist.  Thank you that the Baptists discarded me when I decided to follow you instead of them.”

 

 

8:33 am

My dad hunts naked babies in the woods and I’ve been in his crosshairs since my first cell split.  I like becoming smarter because I’m respecting my father’s brain more.  His multi-layer manipulations are first-rate.  “Thank you Lord that you didn’t allow me to be a psychopath like my father.”  You know, the brain-suckers can actually recognize if you love a person?  They can also identify psychopaths.  (The doctor that figured that out learned that HE HIMSELF was a psychopath.  He did a fine TED-talk. Isaac watched it in Colorado and I saw it here.)   I challenge my father to a brain-scan.  We can put it on youtube.  I do really want to go to a doctor now.  But I don’t have any insurance.  Maybe my sister can identify love through her amazing heart-scans?  She might film our family episode of  “Who Wants To Be a Millionare?”  She might even give us a discount.  I hereby challenge my father to a love-exam.

 

8:12 am

Here’s another defining issue, I don’t know if it comes after the Golden Rule or if it’s a sub-category:  WE MUST DETEST PEDOPHILIA.  It’s right up there with torture.  We cannot be indifferent to the subjugation and corrupting of young people who cannot stand up for themselves.  We must provide a wholesome environment for the offspring of our species.  Let them pollute their own minds later if they wish.  All the most psychopathic of the tyrants have been mentioned in reports of organized pedophilia, even hunting naked children to the death. Why do they need all of that prime real estate in nowhere-land?  Like my region?  The royalty likes the wide open spaces for their parties.  (Several have been convicted in an international common law court.  See:   http://itccs.org/   )  Why does all that money change hands when children are lawlessly taken from their homes?  It’s because our governments are human-trafficking organizations and they’re picking off the young and helpless first.  We don’t have the same light in us as the babies; the torturers suck that stuff up.  So, when they get around to mass murdering adults again, we won’t even matter as much as a baby  wailing in the woods.  Which we will become.  As the dogs bear down.  This is not a movie.  This is our life on the home planet.

 

 

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12/20/14

3:27 pm

“Do you hear what I am saying to you, friends?  Do you understand what is happening here?”

Liberty Alert! Congress Just “Legalized” Warrantless Spying on Americans
Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/liberty-alert-congress-just-legalized-warrantless-spying-on-americans/#LQkVWWOQe0gk1vR5.99

 

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1:44 pm

Wouldn’t it be funny, and genuinely ironic, if Russia is God’s chosen nation?  What in the WORLD would the churches worship?  I mean, if AMERICA is not Jesus-slash-Disney-land?  WHAT IF IT’S REALLY WRONG TO BELIEVE ONE’S COUNTRY TO BE BLESSED OF GOD IF IT’S NOT DESERVING OF BLESSING?  WHAT if we live in a country that ROUTINELY tortures its own citizens, even Christian housewives…?  I listen to this priest-guy, he’s a character.  He’s a native Jew who embraced the Orthodox church and thinks Putin is a saint.  He’s a hoot, and I love to listen, but I don’t like his superlatives.  He says “Jews” with a scowl and a curse.  I think we shouldn’t do that.  He says “Holy Russia” with benedictory humor; I think we shouldn’t do that.  I’ve been told for years, that Russia will invade America.  I’ve believed that would be a tragic occurrence.  I now see tragedy enfolded in the blessings we’ve not yet identified.  Red Dawn might not be so terrible.

 

1:29 pm

We’re cordial.  George and I are so cordial I want to vomit.  He doesn’t care to know what I’m doing and I’m doing the most important thing I ever did.  (Except probably giving birth.)  I can’t breathe.  I don’t know what to believe; I hear so much crap.  I feel like a freedom-fighter, maybe like Ingrid Bergman, during WWII.  We’re in WWIII and I’m a subversive.  I’m a recruiter for the allied forces who promise freedom and rations for all.  (I know that sounds delusional since I never leave my house and work all the time and get up at three and haven’t missed a blogging-day since May 27, 2013 except for when I was in Belgium and I longed to make contact but could not because of the shitty internet.  But, I do in fact feel like that.)   We do not have another chance to demand those things which Jesus died to provide us.  That’s just how it is.

 

11:30 am

US elite has gone far beyond Hitler’s impudence and cruelty

“The elite of the United States is now prepared to retain power at all costs, to ensure control over the world’s resources. They will stop at nothing. The American elite acts likeHitler. It was Hitler’s elite that approved Gestapo tortures. Today, the American elite approves the tortures that surpass the cruelty of Gestapo.”

 

PRAVDA.  Gee, with all that popular outrage, do you suppose Russia’s got its hands on a holy war?

 

Read more here:   http://english.pravda.ru/hotspots/crimes/19-12-2014/129341-usa_elite_hitler-0/

 

10:55 am

 

People are leaving Dodge, with no purpose in mind other than to meet other people.  What a transition!  People are becoming important enough to other people, that people of the first part will LEAVE THEIR COMFORT ZONE to find like-minded people of the second part.  God bless the revolution.  I wish I could join them but my dad won’t tell the truth yet.  I can’t abandon my men here in this den of iniquity and lies.  One day.  As it stands my OWN FAMILY leaves me home alone on holidays!  But I know there are people somewhere, who actually love other people.

 

10:45 am

This may sound like an un-spiritual thing to say, but I think it’s nearly impossible to overcome mind control without marijuana.  I know people do it; people who have walked with the Lord for fifty years.  But, for the rest of us, mind control prohibits us from focusing.  That’s the whole point; they do not want us to focus.  (If we ever focused they’d disappear in a hail of lightening.)  We MUST focus on things that matter.  Do whatever it takes.  Marijuana helps.  (References available on request.  Not my records, but scientific ones.)  The Bible says “the leaves of the trees for the healing of the nations.”   Nations could be healed, and reconciled one to another,  and both towards human-ness…if people would focus.  When you’re focused, selfishness is not an option.

 

 

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10:33 am

Welcome, newcomers.

Mr. Colorado will have a hard time with Michigan home-grown but I secured a bit anyway.  I also bought lobster, crab legs, crawfish meat to stuff into mushrooms, scallops and shrimp.  I might even bake Cheddar-Garlic Biscuits so they think they’ve died and gone to Red Lobster.  I’m going to make the most almighty-cholesterol-laden Christmas dinner in the history of dwellers-inland.  I will spread my table with a cloth the cat has not sullied with her footsteps and fur.  I will dust, God willing, later today.  I will make my son’s bed, of linens scented with lavender;  lavender’s peaceful, he needs peace.  I will do these things with joy as soon as I stop typing.  I find it difficult to stop.  The news never ceases.

9:05 am

You tell people a woman is crazy.  Meanwhile, that woman does things better than anybody else.  Who is crazy?

 

 

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9:01 am

When my boys recognize what I’ve done, Josh will ask, “When did you find the time?  You were always cooking me protein and stoking the stove and washing my clothes and emptying the litter box?”  Isaac will say, “I always knew you had it in you.  I didn’t know it was coming out.”  I can’t wait for my boys to know that I’m serving them and their offspring!  I can’t wait to be recognized as a servant of The Most High God.

 

 

8:48 am

Another thing the goon does that I don’t like is shutting me down altogether.  The screen goes black and  I’m back to square one,  trying to remember my password.  I am cyber-stalked:  I get assistance, and I get disruption.  I just take it all as encouragement.  What else could I do?

 

 

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8:22 am

“All experience has shown that mankind is more disposed to suffer–while evils are sufferable–than to right themselves by abolishing the forms to which they are accustomed.”        (American Declaration of Independence.)
I’ve suffered far too much already.  So has everybody else I know.  I’ll abolish the “forms to which I am accustomed.”  I’m perfectly positioned to do so, and my violations strengthen my resolve.  “Be the change you want to see.”  (Gandhi)

 

 

7:51 am

MUSIC BREAK   (Did you know the “final battle” will be musical?  I don’t understand it yet, but I’ve seen a lot of evidence.)  (Also it’s in the Bible.)

I kind of quit listening to music when I first knew I was under surveillance; they made fun of me.

The Andrew Sisters & Bing Crosby-Accentuate The Positive

 

 

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7:42 am

MUSIC BREAK

To the goon, who saved my life…

 

Nina Simone – Just in Time (Best version of this song)

 

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7:40 am

God told me last summer that I’m the safest woman in Michigan, so the part about “somebody wants you dead” is no longer an issue.

7:02 am

Soon Josh will be up to get ready for work.  We had a late night, but Josh got Isaac home from the airport.  I  haven’t had a chance to talk to Isaac yet because last night George described every automotive repair he’s dealt with since Isaac left last summer.  I haven’t had anybody to talk to since August, not about things that matter to me.  I’ve done some good work since then, I think.  Isaac has done some good work too and I’m eager to share notes.  I haven’t even spoken to a reader since then, at least not about my content.  It’s hard to get too concerned since I don’t think of the things I write anyway.  I record things I hear, and later they read amazing.  I have written stark truth and rightness of purpose.  I’ve written purity of motive, and destruction of those destroyers of mankind.  I’ve written liberty, and freedom to choose one’s future, and to influence the futures of others.  I’ve written power and impotence, I’ve written insight and blind-sided-destruction.  I’m very honored to write these things.  This is the revolution, it will be peaceful but it will hurt some people a lot.  They were warned.
Can you imagine what it’s like living every day knowing somebody wants you dead?  You will.  Hunger Games is programming.  Can you even imagine even living with the POTUS?   Anything he doesn’t like, anything at all…and he “exerts influence.”  Being the boss is  a dastardly job, for one’s soul.  Psychopath-central.
Cyber-stalking update:   My most un-favorite thing that the goon does, is sign me out of my own website.  I run with 2-3 pages opened into Linda-world…but the pages close down.  Then they open again.  Half the time I post one way; half the time I post another way.  My cyber-life is like a game.  I often think of Pachinko as the stories fall into this column or that.  I swear, if anybody really knew  how much I DO NOT KNOW about computers, my status would be established.  Life is hard when people always secretly thought you were smarter-than-the-average-bear, but also recognized you were also half retarded.  That’s a bullseye on your butt.   “Thank you Jesus, for demonstrating that you can heal retardation.  Amen.  Thank you for the teacher-goon.”

 

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1:17 am

 

12/19/14

6:03 pm

PS-  Hey Sandy, if you would put a review of my book on Amazon I might sell a few copies and SURVIVE until my lying father pays what he owes.  I’d be grateful.  Your writing makes me swoon.

 

5:41 pm

I think the stain came out of my new sweater; I tried on some more new clothes:   Half-price leggings from Land’s End and a long red corduroy shirt from J Jill.  Josh said it was better than his old sweatpants; but he suggested boots.  The boots  helped.  He said, “Mom, you can pull off the maddened-gypsy look.  Get some hoop earrings and a sash.”   I suppose I might.  I got a letter from an old friend, “Thank you, Lord.”  I don’t think she’d mind that I record part of it here:  She said, “I LOVE your book!  It’s you and your life to a T!  I both envy you and your ability to “spread your wings,” and love you because you care so much for others.  I love your ENTIRE family & miss seeing them.”  This has been my Christmas present.  I had to abandon communication with a lot of very beautiful people, in my quest for truth.  I had to address the dark side and I’m so glad the light is cranking up.  I want to write to my old friend, and I want my words to be important and to carry my love and God’s love too.  “Lord, please help me write incredible encouragement to Sandy.  Amen.”  (She’s an extraordinary person.  She aged without growing old.)  (Like me.)
Dear Sandy,
When I get a letter from you it is the best day ever.  I am not communicating much, but I think of you often and I pray for you and your family.  I have had a very interesting time since I was endorsed by Dr. Ron Paul.  The powers that be do not like him, and Heaven knows, my dad does not like me.  When I dabbled my toes in the cesspool that is American politics, I pinned a bullseye on my back.  I just returned from Brussels where I attended the first ever “Covert Harassment Conference.”  Do you realize what I wrote in that book?  I was so naive I didn’t understand.  They TARGETED me and I published it three years ago!  Is God good or what?  I spend my days shaking down my dad who secured said bullseye; he’s coming around.  I’ll be rich before long, and I will come to see you first thing.  I love you very much.  Love to Jim and Chris and everybody else.  And Donna.  See you soon, Linda Goldthorpe
PS-  Populate my website, would you?  My dad is dragging his heels.  God says Dad will give me 3.5 million dollars.  He’s a lying pervert.  You probably knew that.  (thatrandomcandidate.com          I update “Family declarations” round the clock.
I seasoned Isaac’s vegetables with packets that came with the Little Caesar’s pizza I bought for Josh yesterday.  It was nice to be able to buy something for him, it’s been years.  Good thing Dad had that life insurance policy that I could borrow money from so I could look like a girl and buy my boys a present.  “Thank you Lord, for my dad.  Amen.”  Isaac’s vegetables may not be good, but they’ll be sprightly.

 

2:47 pm

I just can’t wait to get on the road again.  I want to meet people and see places and hear stories!  I’m antsier every day.  I’m so tired of blogging.  “Please Truth, set me free!”  I put on my very first-ever in 10-years brand-new store-bought sweater just to show my friends…and I drizzled bright red chile paste down the front.  It’s white, stupid I know.  Guess I’m keeping that one.  Shopping has been difficult.  I really liked that sweater, I’ve been wearing Steve’s from the rummage sale for years now.

 

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2:38 pm

I just can’t wait to get on the road again.  I want to meet people and see places and hear stories!  I’m antsier every day.  I’m so tired of blogging.  “Please Truth, set me free!”

 

2:21 pm

I Made hummus with a potato masher and the girls were impressed.  My young friend brought a slightly older woman, she’s done a year in county, and then some, so she’s probably a felon.  She asked what I would call her.  I said, “Probably ‘Swank’.”  (It was on her shirt.)  She liked it very much.  I gave her ice because her latest facial piercing was swelling up.  She was utter righteousness, for a moment, and I was awed.  She balled up her fists and said, “Not MY PEOPLE!  Do not do that to MY PEOPLE!”  She taught me a thing or two.  (I learn about my paternal failings in stages.  “Thank you, God.”)

1:22 pm

That’s kind of passive-aggressive.  I just figured it out.  My dad gives to my sons, in separate acts of great benevolence, 20-year-old-cars that will not start in the winter.  “Oh, say can you see?”  Josh had to take my car to work today, because his diesel engine will not start.  My dad is a master.  That’s the kind of trick one might play on a GIRL!

 

 

10:41 am

Maybe ubiquitous mind-control isn’t the biggest problem facing humanity today.  Maybe we should focus instead on hunger or torture or slavery or football rivalries.  Except we can’t focus, because of that mind-control thing…
Take torture for instance.  This week the whole world took another big bite of the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil.  Now EVERYBODY knows that the US government tortures people all over the planet.  Once we know…we are responsible.  (That’s why we die.  We can’t live with what we know.)  We can fiddle with our 401(k) and hope our kids choose a nice nursing home for our final years.  We can maybe worry about the evil for which we pay our taxes and fasten our  seatbelts.  We  might even pray that God will do something about this earthly mess of perversion and deceit.  BUT, no matter our  intentions, if we refuse to act against  TORTURE we have chosen to die.  Death has always been our choice, but our personal choice is becoming far more pertinent.  What makes us think, no matter our eschatalogical paradigm, that it does not matter what we do now?  In these days of fading human consciousness, as the torturers and their minions overrun the planet and subdue our race, will we stand up?  I sincerely doubt there will be any defense in the claim that we were “mind-controlled.”  We’ve chosen that route.

 

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5:43 am

Statement of detainee at Abu Ghraib  18 Jan 04.  (Photocopy)

RAPE.  Always rape.  Our government ALWAYS rapes.

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-srv/world/iraq/abughraib/151108.pdf

 

5:39 am

George Bush’s America:

US soldiers raped Iraqi boys in front of their mothers

“The women were passing messages out saying ‘Please come and kill me, because of what’s happened’ and basically what happened is that those women who were arrested with young boys, children in cases that have been recorded. The boys were sodomized with the cameras rolling. And the worst above all of that is the soundtrack of the boys shrieking that your government has. They are in total terror. It’s going to come out.”

 

“You haven’t begun to see evil… horrible things done to children of women prisoners, as the cameras run.”

Abu Ghraib torture

 

More at:   http://www.hangthebankers.com/us-soldiers-raped-iraqi-boys-in-front-of-their-mothers/

 

5:18 am

Sorry the date isn’t here…it was 2013 I think.  Washington Post?

NSA Scandal FFCHC

5:13 am

Maybe ubiquitous mind-control isn’t the biggest problem facing humanity today.  Maybe we should focus instead on hunger or torture or slavery or football rivalries.  Except we can’t focus, because of that mind-control thing…

 

4:55 am

What if I was tortured by electronics?  What if I experienced physical and emotional disturbances, at the hand of others?  What if I researched the methods of electronically destroying humans?  What if I met other people who knew the same things I knew?  What if those who wield the electronic power over humanity didn’t wish for us to be happy?  What if they pushed the buttons to destroy our minds so that we would not interfere with their plans to consume the entire planet and its benefits?  What if I DIDN’T BITCH MY ASS OFF ABOUT IT ALL?

 

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4:49 am

Melanie Shaw Jailed for a crime that never happened because I exposed a VIP paedophile ring

“To not do anything would be criminal.  With what I witnessed, with what I know…It wasn’t human.”  “The children was disappearing, the children was dying.”

 

 

4:35 am

2/16/14

10:41 am

OPEN LETTER TO CHRISTIANS AND CONSTITUTIONAL LAWYERS IN THE LAND

Dear Paul Keith Davis, John Whitehead and Rick Joyner,
                          I’ve a story to tell to the nations.  Mr. Whitehead, I attended your Presidents’ Conference in 1991 and spent several hours talking to Dave Melton.  I was a Michigan law student.  Mr. Davis, I had met Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj and was introduced to your work when he visited you in the Spirit and you both began to teach about the 7 Spirits of God.  Mr. Joyner, “The Final Quest” was a pivotal message.  I admire your willingness to engage government.  I was a Spirit-led, homeschooling mom who ran for Congress, was endorsed by Dr. Ron Paul, saw a lot of things I’m trying to forget, was betrayed by my Baptist  father who thought my prayer-life to be unusual, and was electronically raped over a period of years.
                          Please, busy gentlemen, tell me what to do?  I have compiled the best evidence ever about electronic torture of American citizens.  (I’m also pretty sure I proved the existence of God. Remote neural monitoring can tell when we hear something.  It’s a new revelation to me that some people pray and never hear back.)   I have a collaborator, also Spirit-led, who has been seeking answers about her own torture for twelve years.  She’s articulate and determined.  My son published my book in 2011.  It documents electronic torture from the experience of a praying-woman-well-accustomed-to-her-body-being-moved.  I described my torment from the paradigm I knew best.  (Also God was walking me through it but that’s a longer story.)   The Lord also caused me to keep a journal for two years, and send them to an upright atheist liberty activist.  I haven’t seen the books or him for several years, but I swore to the final volume and had my signature notarized.  He will be a very fine witness.
                         I recognize that Aslan is back in Narnia and I’m so eager to see the Kingdom established on Earth.  I also recognize that he’s set me up perfectly to take part in the revolution.  I’m waiting for his wisdom.  My collaborator and I are preparing a new book, “Hearing from God in the Mind-Control Matrix:  A madness aversion manual.” We learned things about mind intrusions and knowing God’s voice kept us sane.  People will need this when word gets out.  We’d like to impact the world for Jesus and on behalf of mind-control victims who do not know God well enough to recognize other voices.  We’d like to know the truth of our rapes, and we recognize that’s imminent.
                              Michigan is an interesting state right now.  Justin Amash is from Michigan and so is Mike Rogers.  Michigan nullified the NDAA.  My story is here and I met my collaborator by “accident” when she moved here from Oregon. (Did you know they could physically move people in Eugene, Oregon by waves from Cornell in the 1960’s?)  Any suggestions?  The will of Jesus the Christ be done.
Linda Goldthorpe
American Citizen, Michigan District 1
906-291-1376
“Madness and Politics:  but I repeat myself.”  (Amazon)
thatrandomcandidate.com

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4:19 am

BUMP TO THE TOP,  from 2/18/14,  5:31 am

OPEN LETTER TO MICHIGAN STATE POLICE
Officers, ladies and gentlemen, and thugs,
                          I know some of you know me.  Life has been unusual  since  my father came to you with complaints about my politics and prayer-life.  Some of you know me very well, much better than my father does.  You know things about many people that are indecent for you to know.  You have amazing equipment and it must be fun to use it. However, some of you recognize indecency.
                         I’ve been subjected  to systematized-indecency.  When I first knew  what was happening to me I was flabbergast.  “Who would  DO THINGS LIKE THAT?”  My answer, now well-researched and documented, was:  “All y’all.”  Don’t you guys work for the State of Michigan?  How is it then that you hob-nob with FBI and NSA and Homeland Security and Border Control and DEA?  (Are you not legally accountable to the elected sheriff in your county?   Has Scott Erickson seen in my panties too?)   Fusion centers are unconstitutional  and immoral.  They serve no purpose but to spy on unsuspected suspects.  They’re voyeurism gone mad.  They’re not about stopping crime!  My only crime is praying too much in odd places.  I have a different boss than you.
                         Even if you’re not one of the officers who stomp on pet parakeets and shoot autistic kids playing with Nerf guns, you’re participating in the destruction of humanity.  Personal  dignity is essential for a human to thrive.  It is also an essential element of free society, and your efforts  destroy not only the individual, but contribute to a totalitarian state.  When one of those develops, thugs are necessary…at the beginning.  Much perceived dignity comes with a badge; much of it is undeserved and eventually an authoritarian state turns on everybody.  Your badge will not protect you forever.  You and your children will live in the world you’re helping to create.   Laws do not make things right.   Laws also change.  Nuremberg changed a lot of “laws.”  Cops were held accountable for “lawful” actions that destroyed humans.  This will ever be the case.
                         Simmer down, you did not destroy me and I think God will let you off the hook.  But  you gotta take the hook out yourself.  You may not have too much time to get on the right side of history.
Linda Goldthorpe
American Citizen, Michigan Congressional District 1
906-291-1376
thatrandomcandidate.com
“Madness and Politics…but I repeat myself.”  Amazon

 

 

 

4:13 am

MUSIC BREAK

4:02 am

Dream message to the judge, who will become my colleague as soon as he gives me something to do MORE IMPORTANT THAN SHAKING DOWN MY LYING FATHER.
Dear sir,
Do you have any ideas for me?  (It is presumptuous to think you’ve noted my dispute with my father, but in case you have [since you so kindly loaned me your inbox for storage purposes] I’m grateful.)  I am not permitted by the rule-book of my faith to call my father before  a human court.  I filed suit against him on 7/19/13, in the Court of Jesus Christ (which in my mind is the Court of Truth.)  I have rock-solid evidence and no Christian acquaintance will even impose on my RICH INFLUENTIAL father enough…that he even be required a single conversation with his eldest child.  What should I do about this dilemma?  I’ve been recording everything, and writing cogent argument, since 2009.  Thank you for considering this matter.

 

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3:39 am

BUMP TO THE TOP,  From 2/27 14

 

Text to my father, my mother and my brother:

“You got that trust account ready yet?  I’d like to stop.  367-72-9730.”

My brother texted:  “no.”

I told him to take his time.  His response was unkind so I said,

“You’re a millionaire.  Dad called me crazy so I can’t even be a waitress.”

(I sent that to my mom, my dad and my rich selfish brother.)

 

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3:24 am

BUMP TO THE TOP

From FACEBOOK, 3/8/14

I just had a vision of me smacking my dad across the face.  I was standing lower than he, and my fist was formed perfectly just like Adam White taught me to do.  I didn’t hit him with the business part though, it would have crushed his jaw.  I swung my right arm from behind me like a pendulum-stiff and it hit my dad’s chin with the palm-part, where my fingers were folded.  Knocked his head around the bottom oddly, and swung his face up to his right.  I’ve never actually punched anybody before, and this really wasn’t a punch, but it was physically educational just the same.  I’ll do it better next time.
I know my father has good reasons for keeping me and my children in an abominable situation for years.  I know those reasons involve secrets and blackmail and sex that he shouldn’t even be thinking about much less engaging. He is going down and God will not require me to throw a single blow.  God said I will be a lady again. My father took everything away from me, and although my life is not about me, the servant is worthy of his hire and Jesus is giving me my modesty back.
My father will fall to his knees in front of my boys and admit what he knew about what was happening to us and what was done to us and to  RAPING ME OVER AND OVER.  This is not my desire.  This is my prediction.  “Lord have mercy on my father once again.  I don’t care how he is being blackmailed or by whom.  I want you Jesus, and you’re truth.  I want you to touch everybody I know…that would mean everybody will receive truth, and everybody includes my father.  I do not wish to strike my dad but it’s pretty clear his sordid past has come home to roost.  Take him out.”
Family, dear-hearted stupid people…(it’s funny how the rich ones seem stupider…)  I don’t give a fuck if you believe anything I say.  When they put your alma pater in belly-bands maybe you’ll listen to me.  Maybe I’ll still be around.  (Even if I’m gone Jesus will hear you wailing about your creepy-ass-grandpa-who-will-no-longer-pay-for-dinner.  Get used to it.  I did.)

 

 

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3:09 am

MUSIC OPENING

“It’s a good day for payin’ your bills and it’s a good day for curin’ your ills…”

Perry Como — It’s A Good Day

 

 

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12/18/14

7:57 pm

Everything’s a metaphor:

Elderly couple almost suffocated after spending 13 hours in their car because they forget their remote key device and thought they couldn’t open the doors without it

  • Mollieanne and Brian Smith were trapped in a Mazda 3 for 13 hours
  • The elderly couple thought they could only open the doors with a remote
  • They used up all the air in the car and were struggling to breathe
  • Mrs Smith was so ill and distressed she spent three days in hospital

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2879124/New-Zealand-Couple-Close-Death-Didn-t-Know-Locked-Car.html#ixzz3MIiNQWi3
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7:37 pm

MUSIC BREAK

Black Sheep by Gin Wigmore Lyrics

 

 

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7:21 pm

Sometimes I think Bill Cosby is my own personal metaphor.  Perfect father with a double life.  I’d laugh if I had anybody to laugh with.

Bill Cosby is under full-scale police investigation after series of women tell detectives they were abused by comedian – and some of the alleged attacks were INSIDE statute of limitations

  • Lawyer for one victim has disclosed to Daily Mail Online that there is a ‘definitive open investigation’ into Cosby by the Los Angeles PD
  • Several women have come forward to detectives and accused him of drugging and attacking them
  • New victims are not among those who have already gone public and are retaining their right to anonymity 
  • First victim to allege attack inside statute of limitations was Chloe Goins, 24, who told MailOnline she was assaulted at the Playboy Mansion six years ago
  • The Las Vegas lap dancer says Cosby gave her and her friend drinks and she soon felt dizzy 
  • Cosby offered to help her but the next thing she remembers is waking up naked to find him licking her toes and pleasuring himself
  • She said ‘hey, what’s going on?’ and he left the room, allowing her to dress and leave the Playboy Mansion quickly with her friend 

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2879749/Police-Bill-Cosby-definitive-open-investigation-series-women-claim-abused-statute-limitations.html#ixzz3MIVWWKGx
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6:58 pm

The US may have no queen, but it has more royal families than it knows what to do with

“Here are families who, with varying degrees of merit, exist in a world of gilded celebrity, who consider power and money their God-given right, purely because of their surname – the very definition of a monarchy.”

“As the late and much missed Robin Williams once said so wisely of the Bush dynasty, it’s hard not to applaud a family “where the smart brother is named Jeb”.

 

More here:   http://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2014/dec/17/us-queen-royal-families-bush-clinton-kennedy

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6:29 pm

Sorry if you missed me.  We went shopping in the Soo today.

When my dad gives me money for 1) abducting my children, 2) reporting to the cops that I was dangerous, 3) stealing my home, 4) destroying my marriage, 5) eliminating all LOVE AND SUPPORT from my entire world, 6) calling me crazy, by which he 6)a) ruined my confidence, b) abolished all income, c) caused me to lose my law license, d) informed every possible employer within my possible endeavor that I should not be hired, and e) convinced my children that JESUS is not God, f) taught my boys that loving me was wrong, and 7) IGNORING MY COMPLAINTS OF ABUSE AND TORTURE. (If he didn’t have something to hide, wouldn’t he have tried to comfort me AFTER FIVE YEARS?) …kinda lost my train of thought.  Anyway, when Dad gives me money.  I forgot.  It had something to do with MAKING SURE THAT NOBODY EVER, EVER, EVER HAS TO BE TREATED AS I WAS TREATED.  “God, bless America.”

6:18 pm

What is the difference between a crustacean and a mammal?  Is it not bigotry to choose which fellow-creatures we will disembowel to provide our own sustenance?  Why do vegetarians draw a line in the sand, past which they will not eat?  Fish scream.  Fish actually scream; I know, because I read articles.  Why are we squeamish to shed the blood of fur-bearing four-legged vertebrates, but since fish don’t bleed too much, that’s OK?  I do not want to be a vegetarian.  But, when I am, I will be an honest one.

 

6:11 pm

Casino-dwellers are BORED!  They’re bored out of their minds!  They think that if they score a cup of nickels that they didn’t  work for…that’s  happy!  I know better.  Happy is love.

6:02 pm

“In for a penny, in for a pound.”  I am not a gambler.  I do not play the lottery and I do not go to casinos (except Jesus made me go a couple of times when I was praying in my car all night around the UP.  He said, “Go in there and lose five dollars.  Watch everybody around you.”  Stuff like that; he’s always training me.)  I only EVER bet on a sure thing.  That’s what I did with my dad.  I knew he was a fake Christian and when he refused to apologize for putting me on the terror watch list and abducting my children and bullying a gentle person like George, I knew I had to stand up for my faith.  I had to stand up for Jesus who TOLD me to run for Congress even though my corporal sperm-doner did not like it.  Am I crazy?  I can prove not.  Am I stupid?  I think not.  Am I backing down EVER?  What do you think?  3.5 million.  It’ll hurt like hell but not so badly.  Nor for as long a time.

You know what I saw at the casino?  My dad’s same demons.

 

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5:56 pm

21st century Bethlehem scene, instead of a creche

A New Christmas Story: Bethlehem under Occupation


“Separating Bethlehem from Jerusalem and the rest of the world, will not bring peace.” (Roman Catholic Patriarch Fouad Twal).


“In many ways Bethlehem has become the quintessential Palestinian city under occupation: its population confronted with daily abuse, its historic geography and landscape ruined by the expansion of illegal settlements, the serpentine Israeli Separation Wall cutting deep into its heart and severing it from its ancient political, social, economic and religious links to Jerusalem and the rest of the West Bank, and its economic prospects are further challenged with every passing year. For the Palestinians living in Bethlehem and its environs each Christmas has become less of a reason to celebrate than a cause to reflect on the immense tragedy that has befallen this holy city, which is home to one of the oldest Christian communities on Earth.”

 

APARTHEID WALL IN PICADILLY CIRCUS INSTEAD OF NATIVITY SCENE

 

 

 

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11:32 am

It would really be a psychotic way to live, if it were not a Godly way to live.  A TI is trained to pay attention to differences and details, which are always manipulated to suggest a particular conclusion.  A mind is pulled hither and yon in attempts to decipher an always weirder world.  This is called gaslighting.  The faith-walk is very similar; synchronicities and paradoxes always mean something, but there’s no way to figure them out.  God has to tell you.  When you’re accustomed to listening for the “still small voice” it’s no problem to ask about the new artificial “signs.”  As a matter of fact, you never know the difference until you ask anyway, so asking is just automatic.  I get jerked around on the computer SO MUCH!  It’s amazing.  When it first began and I thought it was just Adam I couldn’t believe he had so much time on his hands.  I wrote, “Did you write a fuck-with-Linda APP or SOMETHING?”  (It’s in my notes.)  What I figure at this point is that I’m subject to “manipulations” by both people who want me to mess up…and people who’d like to see me succeed at exposing their foolish career-choice. I’m watched all the time. After all these years it’s nice to be important. 

It’s a good thing God told us about this ahead of time!

John 16:139(a)     “”When the Spirit of Truth is come he will guide you into all truth.”

Isaiah 30:21   “And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.”

 

 

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8:18 am

Bush-linked company handled security for the WTC, Dulles and United

 

“George W. Bush’s brother was on the board of directors of a company providing electronic security for the World Trade Center, Dulles International Airport and United Airlines, according to public records. The company was backed by an investment firm, the Kuwait-American Corp., also linked for years to the Bush family.”

“Marvin Bush’s last year on the board at Stratesec coincided with his first year on the board of HCC Insurance, formerly Houston Casualty Co., one of the insurance carriers for the WTC. He left the HCC board in November 2002.”

 

More at:   https://www.intellihub.com/bush-linked-company-handled-security-wtc-dulles-united/

8:05 am

Operation Phoenix: Between 1965 and 1972, the CIA oversaw a torture program that killed between 26,000 and 41,000 people, which used tactics such as gang rape, electrocution, and even rape using a live eel.

The CIA described it as “a set of programs that sought to attack and destroy the political infrastructure of the Viet Cong”.
Read more at http://investmentwatchblog.com/operation-phoenix-between-1965-and-1972-the-cia-oversaw-a-torture-program-that-killed-between-26000-and-41000-people-which-used-tactics-such-as-gang-rape-electrocution-and-even-rape-using-a-liv/#MkHcuztxlO6MEsyI.99

 

 

6:15 am

Here’s our basic “Golden Rule” test.  It’s weeding out the tares.

New Poll Shows US Citizens in Every Demographic Support Torture (Republicans, Democrats, White, Black, Young, Old)

“The disgusting poll of the week by the Washington Post shows From moderate Democrats to White Evangelicals, Nearly Every Demographic Group Believes Torture Can Be Justified.”

 

 

See more at:   http://www.lewrockwell.com/2014/12/mike-mish-shedlock/corruption-of-the-imperial-plebs/

 

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5:40 am

George W. Bush’s CIA head, Secretary of Defense Donald Rumsfeld and others have had criminal complaints filed against them in Germany on Wednesday.

 

“The European Center for Constitutional and Human Rights (ECCHR) in Berlin has today lodged criminal complaints against former CIA head George Tenet, former Defense Secretary Donald Rumsfeld and other members of the administration of former US President George W. Bush. The ECCHR is accusing Tenet, Rumsfeld and a series of other persons of the war crime of torture under paragraph 8 section 1(3) of the German Code of Crimes against International Law (Völkerstrafgesetzbuch).”

 

Read more at:   http://beforeitsnews.com/alternative/2014/12/torture-berlin-stuns-world-g-w-bush-george-tenet-donald-rumsfeld-other-face-hastened-legal-action-3078900.html

 

 

4:34 am

“The point of rape is not to get information. All the crap-talk about obtaining vital information about “ticking bombs” and whatnot is revealed as dishonest cover when the rectal torture is mentioned. Let’s not talk about that. When men get to sticking hoses up other men’s rectums, the point is clearly to degrade and humiliate the person. Think of those cops in New York who tore up a Black man’s guts with a toilet plunger. To use prison lingo, they’re doing it “to punk” another male.”

“The Christmas movie from Sony Pictures I want to see is Seth Rogan and James Franco rectally feeding Dick Cheney at the climax of a movie sequel called ‘The Enhanced Interview: Saving the Homeland One Dick At a Time.’”

“For this advancement (or degradation) in cultural aesthetics — at its worse, there’s the film series brand Saw — we have to thank the advent of cell phone cameras and government torture facilitators like Dick Cheney, who as a young man was soft, delicate and privileged enough to willfully avoid service in Vietnam, but as an old man with a bum ticker became powerful and ruthless enough to advocate torturing human beings in dungeons with hooks in the ceiling and drains in the floor to whoosh away all the hosed off blood, piss and shit from the previous eight-hour work shift.”

 

“Dad was also famous in the Grant household for the brown, splotchy leg bone with the aging manila tag on it that said “Made In Japan.” He’d cut it from a corpse on Peleliu and dangled it below his PT boat so little fishes could clean it. It’s now in my living room bookcase. Collecting Japanese skulls and bones was the rage then. While we’re on the topic, dad also told his three sons (I was probably 10 then) about the Marines on Peleliu who had strung Japanese scrotums inside their quarters as Christmas decorations. I asked him about that scene once when he was a bent-over old man of 86. It jarred him a bit, but I was his son, so that kind of shock was part of the training. He was quiet for a moment as he resurrected the scene in his mind. A thorough atheist, my dad then muttered: “God, that’s horrible.”

 

Read more here:   http://thiscantbehappening.net/node/2592

 

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4:17 am

I told you they abolished lying; they’ve done it about a dozen different ways.  (And they know it.  And they’re scared.)

“Unites States Customs and Border Protection is already using this technology to help agents make quick determinations as to whether or not their questions are being answered truthfully. A portable, on the fly, real-time, non-consensual lie detector test.

Mind control is already a part of modern life, and the science of pupillometry will only permit a greater intrusion into our privacy.

“Pupils react to many different stimuli including lightness and darkness, intoxication, excitement, neurological condition, cognitive effort, and so on, and they’re movements are incredibly precise. Scientists can detect and measure things like sleepiness, emotional state, sexual interest, race bias, moral judgments, schizophrenia, memory, attention, depression and even autism.”

 

“Imagine a scenario where in a public setting, Homeland Security has installed high-definition cameras that can simultaneously measure the pupillary responses of thousands of people in order to single out those who are exhibiting specific behavior or intentions. Any individual who objects to this type of surveillance is detected and treated accordingly.”

 

See more here:   http://www.wakingtimes.com/2014/12/17/pupillometry-cutting-edge-mind-control/

 

3:42 am

These weapons are used secretly and from a distance, permitting cowardly perverts of the military and secret services to torture and to even murder innocent people.

Today, innocent citizens of our so-called “democracy” have and are being tortured in their homes, through walls and windows for over 20 years.

  1. Attacks by radiation weapons and chemical substances
    during 24 hours without any break
  2. Organized stalking
  3. Organized harassment, stress, psycho terror, financial harassment 
  4. Death treats
  5. Blackmailing
  6. Isolation and decomposition
  7. Robbery with murder/Terror actions of neighbors, considering relatives as instruments.
  8. Destroying mail/parcels/opened letters.9.Destroying private property like e.g. household goods, other people’s
    objects or changes in private sphere, destroying property ( house, car, furniture)
  9. Burglary with trespass und fake robbery
  10. Monitoring of phones, manipulations of calls and severe call disturbances12. Manipulations of computer and disturbance of importante-mails, attacks against the date protections, computer sabotage, manipulation, falsification and traffic of information/data, destroying the victim’s computer.
  11. Collaboration between the political criminals by blackmailing  friends, colleagues, strangers which have been pushed to put us  under stress, to harass us and to attack us with radiation.
  12. Sleepless nights caused by the radiations, the neighbors and other criminals.
  13. Heavy physical injuries – burnings, waning of eyesight and hear sight, heart attacks, circulatory troubles, inflammatory and allergic reactions. 
  14. Attacks by Ion-radiation. STGB §309
  15. Physical injuries by radiation with very serious physical and psychological harm
  16. Torture: a) Physical – burnings, heartache b) psychological – Psychiatric manipulation of psychosis, mind and behavior    manipulation, manipulation from the victim, harming oneself, destroying family and one’s power to work.
  17. Crimes against the date protection, mind-control-experiment : mind reading
  18. Robbery of intellectual property ( copyright)

This list looks different at the original, but what’s a TI to do?

Read more at (and figure out the numbers if you can) at:   http://psychophysical-torture.de.tl/Methods-of-torture.htm

 

3:34 am

I’m copying the judge on some emails I’m sending to my brother and my mother.  (Since my Christian witnesses petered out, it’s nice to access the cloud.)  I hope he doesn’t read them, he’d laugh.  I’m striving to bring deluded organisms to step-one of enlightenment.  He would probably shake his head and tell me to get with the program.  Some people can’t be taught, and at this late date my (considerable) motivation should be geared toward those who can be saved.

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My dad’s buddies.  What a compliment to be worth so much trouble!  (References available on request.)

3:10 am

TESTIMONY OF A SURVEILLANCE GOON.  (FORMER SURVEILLANCE GOON.)  (APPARENTLY.)
Carl Clark: I observed people for a long period, eavesdropped on their talks. I also had the order to confuse these people. Therefore I penetrated secretly into her houses, took away things or shifted one or others. I extinguished data on their computer. Or I unnerved these people, while I pursued them, appeared over and over again in their nearness, at the bus stop, in the railway station etc. Or we threaded a fight on street which takes then place before the eyes of this person and others. If somebody should be put under pressure even more or should be arrested, I also pulled certain contents on his computer as for example child-pornographic contents or a management to the production of a bomb etc.

Armin Gross: How have you come to this information?

Carl Clark: About the garbage, the phone, the post, the Internet. With increasing mechanization it has become easier and easier. Today you don’t need no more bugs to monitor. You eavesdrop on mobile phones, ISDN-phones or small dish aerials. Unfortunately, also the application of microwave weapons has become very slightly moveable. Constant supervision and pursuit can destroy life!!!

Carl Clark: It is a little bit like in a Science Fiction movie. People could be pursued everywhere using radar, satellite, a base station and complementary computer programs. Often, for example, three radar devices were positioned in the bigger vicinity of the person. The radar sends out electromagnetic waves, catches some again and evaluates the result. Then my friends who have worked in the special departments could pursue the person on their computer the whole day. Then this localization made it easy to use the weapons straightly. The colleagues could see exactly where they had to aim and also how the person reacts to it. 

Armin Gross: Do you think that it is possible today to influence the feelings straight by electromagnetic rays?

Carl Clark: Unambiguously. We know that the organism reacts very sensitively to electromagnetic radiation. Elementary life processes in the cells walk along with biogenic electromagnetic oscillation. Frequency can disturb or change from the outside these processes. There were within the scope of military research quite far-reaching attempts to influence body, soul and mind about frequency. It is possible to promote fears, aggressions, nervousness or forgetfulness in this manner. In combination with still other interventions one can make a person so mad. For example, radiofrequency is manipulated, so that the affected person hears his own name on the radio or his computer indicates his name over and over again. Also voices are sent to a person that give them thought or comment their activities. I heard, for example, in the morning after getting up a voice which said: „Get up and injure”!

Note:  Mr. Witte says, relying on research by Dr. Konstantin  Meyl,  and documentation of TI’s, that “microwave” is a smokescreen for the scalar technology now in use to destroy individuals’ lives.

Read more at:   http://psychophysical-torture.de.tl/Carl-Clark-tells-about-Secret-monitoring-.htm

 

 

12/17/14

7:51 pm

This is my friend from Brussels talking about being targeted. (At the conference they said they figured most of it was NSA.) From 2011, she says the information is old.

The gentleman speaking with her also spoke at the conference.  He owns whitetv.se, and is a student of Dr. Konstantin Meyl, who made Tesla technology work.  His products have been successful in helping shield targeted individuals.

She gave me my medal with the female angel holding a sword because she said it reminded her of me.  She took me to a soup kitchen.  After she left the ashram she became a Christian and prefers to be called by her baptismal name:  Maria.

 

See more at:   http://www.whitetv.se/en/mind-control-mk-ultra/145-mind-control-ti-andrea-laroche-brussels.html

 

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7:07 pm

My folks are red-blooded Americans:

“Whenever America is forced to confront its heinous acts, the central strategy is to disappear the victims, render them invisible. That’s what robs them of their humanity: it’s the process of dehumanization. That, in turns, is what enables American elites first to support atrocities, and then, when forced to reckon with them, tell themselves that – despite some isolated and well-intentioned bad acts – they are still really good, elevated, noble, admirable people.”

 

Read more at:   https://firstlook.org/theintercept/2014/12/16/u-s-tv-media-gives-ample-platform-american-torturers-victims/

6:39 pm

Would Jesus’ “exceptional” nation starve children to make a point?

White House officials are openly expressing happiness with their siege/war tactics that they say are throwing Russia into an economic collapse and are, as a scholar defending the siege notes, “hurting the Russian public’s ability to buy food or heat homes”.

“This eagerness to starve and freeze children is particularly relevant given the recent publicity of the US’s tactics of starving and freezing innocent detainees as well as people claimed to be “suspects”.

Read more at:  http://www.blacklistednews.com/US_Targeting_Hundreds_of_Millions_of_Russian_Civilians/40075/0/38/38/Y/M.html

 

6:27 pm

MUSIC BREAK

“Will you be a lousy scab, or will you be a man?”

2:41 pm

You guys should be here watching this truth get revealed with me!  It’s really funny.

The best part of this revelation is that a republican owns “blow-me.org”

Drunken Congressman ‘flirted with women, talked about a threesome and said an aide could show her nipples whenever she wanted to,’ claims ex-staffer in lawsuit

  • Republican lawmaker Blake Farenthold’s former communications alleges that the congressman sexually harassed her on multiple occasions
  • The former aide says the married congressman had ‘sexual fantasies’ and ‘wet dreams’ about her, according to his personal assistant
  • The ex-staffer claims she was fired in July after she brought her concerns about her ‘hostile work environment’ to her boss
  • Farenthold also made headlines this week after a Twitter user discovered that he owns the domain name blow-me.org 

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2876911/Drunken-Congressman-flirted-women-talked-threesome-said-aide-nipples-wanted-claims-ex-staffer-lawsuit.html#ixzz3MBZcxATT
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2:28 pm

My mom knew I was being tortured.  (George just threw the cat all the way across the room.)  My mother knew. When I spontaneously stopped the continually regurgitating after I was hacked by a moral atheist, I went to my mother for help.  I BEGGED for help living in  George’s drug emporium and the surveillance and Josh being ignored and me being confronted naked and no locks on the doors…and I said, “I WAS VERY SICK!”  She said, “YES YOU WERE VERY SICK!”  (She hadn’t spoken to me for two years.  How she could have known ANYTHING about me is a wonder of time and space.)  My mother KNEW and KNOWS and LIES.  I did not die.

It is 2:28 and the men are thinking about breakfast.  George’s day off; I’ll need a nap.

 

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1:55 pm

 

Look at this picture.

This woman is a rapist.

I AM A RAPE VICTIM.

She gets an arm around her shoulder.

Maybe her people aren’t  FAKE CHRISTIANS.

 

Guilty: Simon, 35, was found guilty on four of the five charges against her, three counts of first-degree criminal sexual conduct and one count of accosting a minor for immoral purposes

More at:   http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2877693/Catholic-tutor-sentenced-decade-prison-having-sex-15-year-old-student-REJECTED-plea-deals-given-months-bars.html

 

12:44 pm

Are we going to tolerate our lying overlords or follow our non-lying LORD?

ISIS’ Bloody Footprints Lead From NATO Territory

“Contrary to Western propaganda, Al Qaeda was intentionally organized and directed by the US, Saudi Arabia, and Israel to engage in a regional confrontation aimed at Iran and its powerful arc of influence.”

 

Read more at:   http://www.activistpost.com/2014/12/isis-bloody-footprints-lead-from-nato.html

11:39 am

“We have no virtue that excuses our brutality. We need to avoid torture not because it is incompatible with American ideals, but because it is all too compatible.”

 

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11:25 am

Killing people is wrong. (Killing people in self-defense is only borderline OK; if we were right with God we’d deem an attacker’s life as valuable as our own.)   It is WRONG to take another life.  Hiring soldiers to kill in our name is wrong.  It is wrong to kill babies in the womb and it is wrong to kill grandmas in Pakistan.  It is wrong to create fear that people will be killed.  Yet, these things we tolerate, and endorse, even from American pulpits!  It is just as wrong to kill a Muslim as it is to kill a Christian.  It is just as wrong to kill an Iraqi, as it is to kill anybody else.  It is just as wrong to kill for Israel, as it is to kill for Satan because he’s in charge of all the killing.  He especially likes when we do wrong by making people wish for death.

I wished for death, and I’m neither Muslim nor Iraqi.  I wished to die to be free of the torture and to free others of the burden created by my contrived incapacity.  I WISHED FOR DEATH, at the hand of torturers employed by my father.  (I’m glad I’m not him and I pray for the blood of Jesus to wash him clean.)  I couldn’t face what I read every day if I had not known my father’s duplicity and inherent blood-lust.  I don’t cry anymore, except when I’m happy.  (Or really lonely.)  Crying changes nothing, although our tears have been collected and are multiplied in lives of joy.   I’m glad I didn’t die when people wanted me to.  I get to watch my tears germinate, and I’ll see fruit I would’t want to miss.  I’m grateful that even now,  my lying parents refuse the peace offered them by repentance and absolution.  It’s more water on my altar.  When God takes my life in the fire of his Glory,  I’ll be glad that my dripping sacrifice lights up and the prophets of Baal will cry.  I’ll pray for them.

 

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8:06 am

Radiation testing site near Chicago records radiation levels thousands of times higher than maximum safety threshold

Deadly Fukushima radiation up 50,000% as elevated radiation levels seen across North America

Learn more: http://www.naturalnews.com/047996_radiation_levels_Fukushima_government_denial.html#ixzz3M9z1A3o6

 

7:55 am

“Follmer is marginally verbal and displays no capacity for critical thinking. In most occupations, these traits would be a liability. In law enforcement, they earned Follmer the title of “detective.” More importantly, they equipped him to learn the Killer Cop’s Catechism of Self-Justification well enough to recite it on cue, as he did in an interview last night on MSNBC’s “All In” program.

Cleveland Police Union Thug Cop-splains Blue Privilege

 

“I think that eliminates a lot of problems….I think the nation needs to realize that when we tell you to do something, do it, and if you’re wrong you’re wrong, and if you’re right, then the courts will figure it out.”

From Follmer’s perspective, the police are never wrong, and when Mundanes are “right” the courts will “figure it out” – posthumously, in an ever-increasing number of cases.

More at:   http://www.lewrockwell.com/lrc-blog/cleveland-police-union-thug-cop-splains-blue-privilege/

 

7:44 am

“As for those still deluded enough to believe they’re living the American dream—where the government represents the people, where the people are equal in the eyes of the law, where the courts are arbiters of justice, where the police are keepers of the peace, and where the law is applied equally as a means of protecting the rights of the people—it’s time to wake up.”

“We no longer have a representative government, a rule of law, or justice. Liberty has fallen to legalism. Freedom has fallen to fascism. Justice has become jaded, jaundiced and just plain unjust.”

“The dream has turned into a nightmare.”

–John Whitehead, Constitutional attorney and President of the Rutherford Institute

(I attended  the Rutherford Institute President’s Conference in 1991.  I had recently  lost my first baby;  their efforts on behalf of the unborn made a deep impression on me.)

Read more at:   http://www.lewrockwell.com/2014/12/john-w-whitehead/ignorance-is-no-excuse-for-wrongdoing/

 

7:35 am

“[I]f the individual is no longer to be sovereign, if the police can pick him up whenever they do not like the cut of his jib, if they can ‘seize’ and ‘search’ him in their discretion, we enter a new regime.”—U.S. Supreme Court Justice William O. Douglas, dissenting in Terry v. Ohio (1968)

7:26 am

 

 

6:51 am

 

Sometimes my angel/goon pulls out one punctuation mark, to see if I’m paying attention.  Often, I’m not.

6:47 am

HOW MANY PEOPLE DO THE POLICE KILL?

“The Federal Bureau of Investigation has a count that they put out every year and it’s something called the Uniform Crime Report.  But it’s so far off, that it  isn’t really usable.”  “How off would you say the numbers are?” –Clever pretty woman, party to the skit… “Somewhere between ‘wildly inaccurate’ and ‘astronomically inaccurate.'”  (But to a script-less servant of God who SOMETIMES DOESN’T DIVULGE MUCH INFORMATION TO HIS CHILDREN WHO WOULD DO WHATEVER HE SAID, BUT ALSO THANK HIM FOR NOT TELLING US WHAT WE’RE GETTING INTO…[I figure God heard that.  I won’t say amen.  I also will endeavor to bitch less because I love him and he’s always right but “WHAT ARE YOU DOING?”  “Amen.”])

People, people:  family and friends, and voyeurs with security clearance:  WTF?  You pride yourselves on being keen consumers.  ROFLMAO.  Even if you think…and that’s a REALLY BIG “if-then”  statement,  YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT LIES.  “nuff said.  “A word to the wise.”  “You can’t make a silk purse out of a sow’s ear.”  “Cast not your pearls before swine.”  “Hi-ho.  Hi-ho.  It’s off to work I go.”

Watch the video here, it’s “The Daily Show.”  I didn’t even finish watching it.  I was slapped in the face immediately.  The government that Y’ALL WORSHIP…”Dear God, I haven’t the words simple enough to communicate to those who choose to follow psychopaths instead of you…”  To You To Whom I Speak and Those Who Recognize Themselves in my ADDRESS:  T