Family Declarations (Book 2)/page closed 12/16/14


5:31 pm

Why would a non-Jew, non-“evangelical-Christian” become a Zionist?  If not for spiritual reasons, or at least reasons of historical cohesion, why would an American sell out the ground beneath his feet on behalf of a foreign country which has repeatedly murdered Americans?  What could influence a run-of-the-mill Congressman, to disregard even his natural progeny, and function to benefit an apartheid government many time zones afar?  Blackmail gains compliance, but where does all that enthusiasm come from?  Why do we permit persons to rule us, who  maintain dual citizenship, with a country that has killed our citizens, and brutally massacres countless others, from other places?  Were this a Bible issue of allegiance, the PNAC bunch would be singing hymns.  But, instead they torture people.  I want to be on the right side of history.



4:52 pm


I sent this one out to my goon-angel.  Too sappy?  Do you think he likes me?

“Milk and honey flowing, that is where I’m goin’,  Caananland is just in sight!”


4:43 pm


4:19 pm

Me and Dad.  I’m making a list but my “santa” doesn’t even need to check it once.

Oops, repost! Here’s today’s actual comic.



4:10 pm

I’ve been extraordinarily rational…and really patient, in light of the MANY RAPES I SUFFERED.  Maybe I should do the TV thing, so some BAPTIST would care about my tortured self:




3:38 pm

I am just trying to exist as an authentic human being…but it’s hard to make headway.  I have family, they are rich, successful, and benevolent to lesser beings.  Except me.  I AM A LESSER BEING.  I BEAR THEIR COUNTENANCE AND THEIR DNA, but “Thank God” I will not bear their soon-to-be-established reputation.  I AM AN UPSTANDING HONEST PERSON.  I WAS TORTURED AND RAPED. MY CARING CHRISTIAN PARENTS COUNSEL ALL THE OTHER PEOPLE IN OUR COUNTY AND THEY WON’T EVEN SPEAK TO ME.  I want to be honest with the world and all its inhabitants.  I want relationships with my family that are truthful and mutually nurturing,  My parents are so busy telling everybody else in the world how to live that they can’t  waste even a moment’s reflection on me.  I’m the ABORTION  who refused to die.  I will LIVE truth and I’ll HAVE truth.  Not much they can do about that.  Try though they did.  I’m glad I’m not them.


12:49 pm

TORTURE!!– “In fact, the International Criminal Court has in their hands, an official request document for the immediate arrest of George W Bush.”




11:06 am


It is SUCH a GREAT COMPLIMENT that  anybody doesn’t believe me yet!  “Dear God!  Some of these people are stupid enough to think I could make this up!  I know.  I’m sorry.  Yeah.  Amen.”



11:03 am


Eddy Grant: Electric avenue with lyrics


10:48 am

Hey Goon, Angel, I love you but I’m so earth-bound I believe people should be able to READ THE POSTS.  Just consider it.


10:42 am

And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.
(I pray for the covering of his BLOOD every day…and my testimony is in the cloud.)


10:39 am


Alan Jackson – There Is Power In The Blood



10:03 am

I have a new fan, my youngest I think.  A teenager said I’m “cool” and she likes my “perspective on things.”  I’m glad to hear it; that’s rational.  My perspective is:  “Everybody happy.”  I was asking the Lord this morning, for fresh manna.  I always desire some new revelation to feed my understanding and nourish my faith.  This morning I heard, “What do you want to think about?”   Huh?  (I think consciously, but I do not consciously think.)  I considered my options, obviously limited by the preternatural constructs  of my current status as a carbon-unit. A Bible verse presented  “Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added unto you.”  Sounded like good advice, so I answered, “I’d like to think about the Kingdom of God.”  And I did.
 It seems  to me, that eventually we will all read one another’s thoughts all the time.  Subterfuge will be an obsolete habit worthy of its inevitable derision.  Attempting to maintain behaviors based on our expectations of what others will think of our behavior is troglodyte.  It’s refusal to evolve.  It’s sin-based, as it demonstrates a tendency toward subterfuge and deceit.  Besides, if any persons remain who choose to judge others, they will do so based on more telling evidence.  If anybody’s going to be judging anybody, their observations will be truth-based; I do not know if their considerations will be, but it seems to me they will.  Most everybody will be INFLAMED by shame, remorse and angst…upon  the revealing of their own personal deception!  Judging one’s neighbor will be nigh to IMPOSSIBLE… DUE TO OUR OWN MENTAL/SPIRITUAL OVERLOAD.  Anyone still cognizant enough to observe others will presumably also have enough savvy to judge righteously.



7:46 am

“Earthquakes in diverse places.” The truly amazing earthquake paradox of the last 114 years.

“We are constantly being told on the Internet and by the media that earthquakes are increasing and they are, well earthquakes of certain sizes are increasing but some earthquakes are actually decreasing, it sounds crazy but it’s true!”


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7:05 am


Hey look!  I’m not the only one who recognizes the abolition of lying!  And this guy is an actor so he even lies for a living…

Describing 2014 as a “great time of revelation,” (Mark) Ruffalo said the Sony hack, the CIA torture papers and the racial tensions in the country were all signs of how “duplicity doesn’t stand anymore.” 

“Ultimately, we need a correction, and that’s what this time is,” he said. “Whether it’s the CIA or the perversion of our values in the material world — do we see human beings as animals who are disposable with these racial issues? It’s all coming to light. All of these things are related.”

–and since he’s a celebrity, we’re supposed to believe him…



6:14 am

American warmongers justify murder of foreigners, to promote American interests.     American warmongers can recite history, regarding murders by Hitler’s Germany and Stalin’s whatever-it-was, but fail to assimilate the universal reality of perpetual home-grown genocide.  They ignore the fact that the VAST majority of people murdered on Earth throughout history…have been murdered by their own governments.  If America be the “exceptional nation” such prudent reflection is unnecessary:   “It can’t happen here.”   Their position is ignorant, arrogant ethnocentrism that assuages the deficient conscience.  It’s bigotry and selfish and prideful, and like all other lies, it’s doomed.



5:37 am



5:22 am

Why there would have been no torture without the psychologists.

“Less widely known is that the Bush administration’s torture operation, at both the CIA and the Pentagon—at “black sites” and at Guantanamo—was devised and supervised largely by clinical psychologists. These psychologists used their knowledge of the workings of the human mind and psychological “mind-control” research to induce “learned helplessness” and “debility, dependency, and dread,” aiming to destroy the minds of detainees…”


Torture is designed not to gain intelligence…but to break victims’ minds.

“…it appears that senior staff members of the American Psychological Association, the world’s largest association of psychologists, colluded with national security psychologists from the CIA, the Pentagon, and the White House to adapt APA ethics policy to suit the needs of the psychologist-interrogators.”


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4:37 am


4:33 am

NeoCons are a Terminal Disease

Bump to the top, from 2004:

“George Bush is a surrogate in service of a New World Order. He has not been an honorable national leader, but has been an obedient servant of the Globalists. Neoconservatives are internationalists, devoted and intended to intervene, worldwide.”


“The reality of current events, clearly demonstrates that our country is paying a terrible price to expand the regional domination of a country that is consistently against the best interest of our own citizens. While this is the core motivation of NeoCons, the lust for expanding the power of centralized rule, is not far behind. Neoconservatives are devoted Statists and detest limited government, and especially State Rights. The concept that people should be able to live their lives locally, and have the effective ability to reject the “metropolitik” of the urbane cultural of coercion, is unfamiliar to the tyrants. There is nothing remotely conservative within the cult of the NeoCon.”


“All the other dual loyalists, whether they are students of Leo Strauss, closet Trotskyites or confused premillennial dispensationalists, need to be unveiled as false messengers…”


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8:25 pm

There won’t be any of these things in the Kingdom of God:

Inside the Torture Chambers– Conversation with a CIA Interrogator

“These things” included: rape, gang rape, rape using eels, snakes, or hard objects, and rape followed by murder; electrical shock (“the Bell Telephone Hour”) rendered by attaching wires to the genitals or other sensitive parts of the body, like the tongue; “the water treatment”; “the airplane,” in which a prisoner’s arms were tied behind the back and the rope looped over a hook on the ceiling, suspending the prisoner in midair, after which he or she was beaten; beatings with rubber hoses and whips; and the use of police dogs to maul prisoners”.

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7:22 pm

Bush “Intimately Involved” with Torture, “Fully Briefed on All CIA Tactics in 2002″: Former Strategist Karl Rove

“Despite arguments made in the U.S. Senate Intelligence Committee’s report that the CIA had not alerted Bush and other top officials about the extent of the abuses until 2006, Rove told the morning show: “He made the decision.”

“The Republican insider’s admission comes as a growing number of rights groups and others are calling on President Obama and lawmakers to prosecute those responsible for the abuses.”

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6:22 pm

Now THIS is how to be FAMILY:

CITIZENS’ ARREST: Moment burglarized family ‘captured intruders at gunpoint after passing them in the street as they were on the way back from ANOTHER break-in’

  • Wyatt family’s home surveillance system captured break-in on Friday
  • Chris Wyatt was driving nearby when he passed ‘the intruders’ on Sunday
  • Held them with guns until cops arrived, car ‘was filled with stolen goods’ 

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3:08 pm

COMING CIVIL WAR – Police Admits its Preparing for War with Gun Owners & Constitutionalists



1:52 pm

I made two great pans of lasagna:   for one I used some Italian-seasoned beef patties that George froze a few weeks ago and a highly-seasoned thin tomato sauce, and for the other I made a vegetable montage from all the old things in the fridge.  It’s outstanding, and I didn’t even make a sauce:  I just dumped a can of evaporated milk over the vegetables and stirred in a 1/2 pint of sour cream.  Balsamic vinegar and lots of garlic, basil and French thyme.  I used 1 zucchini, 3 shriveled tomatoes, 3 excellent leeks and two sweet onions, 1/2 head of cauliflower, 1/2 pound of baby spinach, diced carrots and huge chunks of mushroom.  Then I sliced a bunch of fat jalapenos across, whole, and dumped them in, seeds and all.  I ate three bowls before I put the lasagna together.  The bread will be out soon, I’m baking it on a stone so the crust will be crackly.  I’ve eaten too much already; I’ll probably take a nap today.



11:30 am

I will tell the judge, that if I can coerce my father to reveal his contacts in the raping-community,  I’ll have the entire court-admissible story.  He understands crime-elements and will recognize the value of my records. There are other reasons I persist.  For one thing, my sons need to know what happened to their God-fearing family.  But, I  also need to know what happened to me.  Everybody threw me under the bus at the same time; this is classic gang-stalking.  But I need to know when it began.  I was singled out in law school, a board-member’s daughter approached me out of nowhere to invite me to a concert, first semester.  When I graduated my diploma had two extra signatures:  1) her mother’s, the board member;  and 2) it was also signed by the first female chief justice of the Michigan supreme court.  That was very nice, but I had no idea why I merited such unanticipated attention.  Four Cooley graduates are involved in the Michigan covert harassment support group, and I became depressed for the first time shortly after my graduation.  (I had also recently given birth and attributed my depression to that.)  I recorded names and dates and weirdness.  I also did my research.  I need to know what happened to me, and I need to prevent it from happening to others.  I require my dad’s information.



10:20 am

I’m sending details of my project to the judge; I’d like to get it into the cloud as many places as I can.  He said it was ok to mention him if I was accurate, and I wasn’t.  Here’s his time-travel story:

Here’s what I answered him:

THANK you so much.  I have much to learn and do not want to misrepresent things.

Here’s my project, it’s been going on since my book was published in 2011.

I’ve learned about evil men through my (recorded) BET WITH MY DAD.  My dad taught me about politics, since he 1) put me under surveillance, causing  me to be tortured and repeatedly raped for a period of years, THEN, 2) read my book, 3) FIXED MY HOUSE AND LAWN AND SEPTIC SYSTEM AND LAKEFRONT AND DRIVEWAY (and more) then,  4) realized I DID NOT KNOW WHAT HE’D DONE,  then 5) TRIED TO KILL ME,  6) TOOK AWAY MY HOUSE, 7) CONVINCED MY CHILDREN THAT JESUS IS NOT GOD, then 8) refused to talk to me for more years, then 9) STARTED OFFERING ME BANK STOCK AND GIVING ME MONEY FOR CLOTHES AND OFFERING ME FREE CREDIT CARDS AND TRIPS TO EUROPE and 9) will not talk to me yet, although he called me “Doll” at his Christmas party and I had to text him not to do that anymore because it makes me queasy.

My dad taught me about George Bush.  Although I knew George  the Second  had been involved in torture and rape since his college days, I didn’t understand why.  It was also strange to know that he INSTRUCTED the CIA to torture low-level-nobodies, who didn’t know anything!  I couldn’t figure out how, although 1) WE KNOW that torture does not yield valuable intelligence, and 2) the people doing conventional interrogation wereGETTING VALUABLE INTELLIGENCE, and 3) the torture-gurus  felt no time-pressure,  and took a vacation before setting up their little shop of horrors…yet… THEY TORTURED PEOPLE ANYWAY!  Ah-hah.  My dad taught my why.  THIS IS SADISM AND A POWER TRIP.  And why is it always sexual?  They’re really into  anal rape.  Oh, I could tell you stories!  Wait.  I did.  They’re in my journals.


I used to attend “Preparedness Expos” when Al Bielek was on the circuit.  I have tapes of Zladamir Terziski (I’m sure that’s spelled wrong.) I heard many things that I questioned back then…I was raised Baptist.  If one continues researching, a lot of stuff falls into place.  I hope ALL OF IT WILL pretty soon!  L

10:11 am

Lying has been abolished.

Boston Bombing: Feds Admit No Evidence Tsarnaev Brothers Involved in the Slayings

I thought it might be the FBI next.  (I can’t wait for us to get the truth about SANDYHOOK!)

“This is a pattern we’ve seen since the bombing: The government feeds prejudicial information (usually anonymously) to the press, implying Tamerlan and Dzhokhar’s guilt, despite having flimsy or no evidence.”


“… the government admits that, other than the confession, it “has no evidence that Tamerlan Tsarnaev actually participated in the Waltham murders.” And it turns out that the damning confession has some serious holes in it too.”


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10:05 am

Dick Cheney belongs in jail, not in a comfy chair on national television.

US Justice Department’s official definition of “forcible rape”:

The penetration, no matter how slight, of the vagina or anus with any body part or object, or oral penetration by a sex organ of another person, without the consent of the victim.

As Human Rights Watch director Ken Roth stated matter-of-factly: “That’s what CIA did.”


…”Cheney, whose former communications director once openly admitted that Meet the Press was the go-to PR platform for his most brazen lies, really outdid himself this Sunday. Saying that Dick Cheney is unrepentant for torture would be the understatement of the week – but, hey, it’s only Monday morning.”


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Over the past couple years, every time I cook something,  it’s the best I ever made.  (Unless I’m distracted.)  I always tried to cook in the Spirit;  I grab this or that.  Sometimes the results were incredible…other times the results were incredible.  Now though, I’m at the top of my game.  (So far.) I had very fine cooking teachers.  Both of my grandmothers cooked a lot and I usually lived with them.  The smell of yeast dough makes me remember them,  each in turn.  As a young mother I turned to two other mothers who knew the ropes.  One gave me menu plans, with vegetables to accompany each predictable entree.  The other was on a tight budget, and she taught me that homemade is much cheaper than mixes.  (Then she got money and pretentions.  That’s another story.)  The best learning-to-cook experience was at Helmer House. Tom Bridges and I tried everything in the book and then some.  I loved being in my great-grandfather’s home in front of that huge commercial gas stove.  I always kept a kettle of stock on the back burner and ladled it into this or that experiment.  I almost felt French.  I will someday cook for kings, I know that.  I need more experience cooking for discriminating people.  Josh notices variations.  George knows I’m a good cook, but he’d be happier if I used fewer recipes.  In everything I do, I  honestly try do things more efficiently each time, and I strive for better results.  I’d be bored out of my mind if I didn’t challenge myself.  Heaven knows, in my father’s family a woman heard so much ridicule, and her options were so severely limited,  I became an Olympian in most pursuits.  But, I never tried my best until I had kids.


4:10 am


We’ve A Story To Tell To The Nations (song and hymn history)


A lot of us are seeking truth, from our various life experiences and indoctrination.  We are all following the Spirit of Truth and when we get there, we will be in agreement.  It won’t really be synthesis, although it might look that way.  It will be more of a revealing, an apocalypse.  Anybody who rejects revealed truth at any point in the journey will not get to Truth.

Luke 9:62  Jesus said to him, No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back [to the things behind] is fit for the kingdom of God.


3:52 am


This Is What A Big Fat Cat Falling In Slow Motion Looks Like

“To settle once-and-for-all if cats really do always land on their feet, iX Cameras filmed a 30-pound male cat being dropped on his back from a height of roughly 4-5 feet. And while you might be able guess the outcome of this “experiment”, the gem of this video is that you can watch the whole thing in high-def slow motion. And it is glorious.”


This Is What A Big Fat Cat Falling In Slow Motion Looks Like


Watch here:


3:05 am

So anyhow, I wonder if  the GOP might have had something to do with my torture.  I know they went to my dad first thing when I decided to run for Congress.  Not that I was any threat to anybody but I posed a delightful opportunity.  Not a single thing in the political process is real.


3:01 am

Paul Craig Roberts:

“On occasion a reader will ask if I can give readers some good news. The answer is: not unless I lie to you like “your” government and the mainstream media do. If you want faked “good news,” you need to retreat into The Matrix. In exchange for less stress and worry, you will be led unknowingly into financial ruin and nuclear armageddon.”

“Neoconservatives dominated the George W. Bush regime. They controlled the Pentagon, the National Security Council, the Office of the Vice President, and much else. Neoconservatives gave us 9/11 and its coverup, the invasions of Afghanistan and Iraq, the beginning of the destabilizations of Pakistan and Yemen, the U.S. Africa Command, the invasion of South Ossetia by Georgia, the demise of the anti-ABM Treaty, unconstitutional and illegal spying on American citizens without warrants, loss of constitutional protections, torture, and the unaccountability of the executive branch to law, Congress, and the judiciary. In short, the neoconservatives laid the foundation for dictatorship and for WW III.”


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2:31 am

Coming to grips with someone reading my mind, the hardest part for me (other than when I’d think about my body; that was very hard), was knowing that every time God touched me it was being shared.  I’ve tried to learn not to think about very personal things and I’ve longed to be alone in my mind and spirit.  I believe (“Lord, tell me if I’m wrong”) that he’s taking my understanding up a notch.  That’s always uncomfortable because it means death to another layer of self.  I think I’m just to supposed to unclench my mind altogether.  I said I was willing to give my life but it seems perhaps I haven’t yet.  Some spots are so tender you don’t want anybody poking at them.  I’ve had a lot of tenderness poked and it made me stronger and made me love truth more.  Here we go again.  Satan creates nothing, so if he went to the trouble to make ‘synthetic telepathy’ it’s because we’re going to experience the real deal.  We’ll have to get used to some new things.


2:06 am

People are even talking about blackmail now!  Mainstream people like Matt Drudge.  This is good to see.  Man, if they could have pulled off something with Adam and me they might have taken down Ron Paul!  The goons do not just USE dirt on people…they CREATE it!  (I recorded everything; this is gonna be good if somebody will ever listen.)
Oh yeah, the judge called back.  Unexpected holiday obligations but we’ll talk.  I’m looking forward to it; he has time-traveled.  I know a couple Christians who have done that and I’d like to share notes.  I’d also like to time-travel.

1:53 am

Well, I asked for creative.  The skinny columns are still ugly but the floating cursor is fun and I like the orange. When I was first being cyber-stalked and thought it was Adam I asked him to teach me stuff about the computer. I figured if he was going to be there anyway it could serve a purpose.  I’d learn much faster if I could ask a few questions.  (But I have a BLOG, which is astonishing so thank you very much, goons.)


1:45 am

With false thoughts pumped into my head all the time, I learned to pray, “Lord, do not allow me to believe even one thing that is untrue.”  (Error is SIN.)  Now I also pray, “Lord, please enable me to believe EVERYTHING THAT IS.”

The unbelieving and the fearful are the first cast into Hell!  By their own choice!

1:39 am

I’ve been thinking about how to answer my brother’s question about “Am I supposed to not trust my father now?”   I think I have the answer:  You do what the evidence demands.

1:27 am

We can choose to believe that a fairy tale is real.  Absent evidence, we have the choice to believe in it.  But, if a thing IS REAL…and documented…we don’t really have a choice NOT TO BELIEVE IT.   I mean we can SAY we don’t believe it but that’s not intellectually honest.  Also, probably really lazy.

I have evidence about a number of things a lot of people choose not to believe in.  I have evidence that we live in a corporate matrix that has never been democratic.  I have evidence that the government tortures people, and that some entity tortured me and my family.  I have evidence that my father’s a compulsive liar and tried to kill me.  People seem to have their fingers in their ears and they’re humming real loud.  That would be funny to watch if it weren’t so tragic.

Revelation 22:

14 Blessed (happy and [a]to be envied) are those who cleanse their garments, that they may have the authority and right to [approach] the tree of life and to enter through the gates into the city.

15 [But] without (outside)  are the dogs and those who practice sorceries (magic arts) and impurity [the lewd, adulterers] and the murderers and idolaters and everyone who loves and deals in falsehood (untruth, error, deception, cheating).






6:23 pm

Hey, they’re talking about synthetic telepathy in Turkey, even President Erdogan

“Erdis appeared in public last week after a closed-door meeting with Turkish President Recep Tayyip Erdogan and reiterated his long-held claims that outside powers were trying to control his mind and make him do evil things. “While I am speaking you today, they are trying to wield influence on me through the ‘telegram method,’” he told an audience of thousands of people in a conference hall in Istanbul. “As you know, this means mind control.”


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3:49 pm

About once a day my stats go through the roof.  Not that I believe in on-line stats, or anything else I see; our ‘content’ is manipulated.  However, about once a day it’s almost like some class turns me on all at once, like I’m a group project or something.  They experiment on a lot of people so  I don’t believe anything, until I take it to God.  We just CAN’T!  EVERYBODY lies to us for their own objective.  If we don’t hear from the Spirit we’re doomed.  I will endeavor to do so always.  Soon, endeavor will be unnecessary.  We’re either becoming trans-huimans, or we’re becoming Christs.  There’s no other choices, not that lying has been abolished.



3:40 pm

I made chocolate chip cookies, Vadas from round steak (we can’t afford roasts anymore), and started dough from which I will make baguettes.  Tomorrow.  I dislike how George puts the glasses away in rows, although I’m grateful for the help.  The more habits we have, the harder it is for God to direct us.  Torture destroys personal habits.  In that sense, it is good.



3:35 pm

The “I Got Stood-up Prayer”

“Dear Lord, if I am now too weird for Afred Lambremont Webre you may have gone too far.  Pardon me for suggesting such a thing, but there doesn’t seem to be A SINGLE PERSON that will talk to me.  I’m frantic here; please calm me down.  My family KNOWS Dad lied about me and took my house…but I don’t get a call.  Your judges KNOW I sought to serve you through all the crap.  I KNOW you have a plan for this because it is utterly weird and all I ever did in my life was cook and wait on people.  Until you told me to “bring your bride —out of government.”  You must have a really big finish coming up.  Selah.  I guess.”



1:48 pm

Another email:

Dear —,

Maybe you didn’t call because you think we’re on different pages, and that I am religious.  I know we’ve had disparate life experiences that brought us to this point.  (I’d rather talk about your life than mine.)  Thing is, I do not go to church and have no problem with others who describe what I experience in different terms.  Please reconsider, if this is the case.  Thanks again, for all you do.
Linda Goldthorpe


1:42 pm

I guess maybe that wasn’t the phone call I’ve been anticipating for years.  “I am, because I wait.”  (No call from Dad either.  He really should let me take a bath; he must own 300 bathtubs.)

I haven’t had many dreams lately, and I miss them.  I used to dream about trying to take a shower, all the time.  Mostly during the years I was being repeatedly raped.


WOW!  My computer just taught me how to make a phone call from my email!  I left a message I think.1:37 pm

WOW!  My computer just taught me how to make a phone call from my email!  I left a message I think.



1:31 pm

I sent this email:

1:18 pm


I understood that you would call me, but in case I was wrong I tried to call you at ——-.   My phone is a pay-as-you-go model and it would not complete the call…”Check Restrictions.”  I’m sorry to have missed you.



1:14 pm

He hasn’t called, so I kept writing:

The piano bench has dust on it.  I sat there maybe one time since Isaac moved.  When he lived here, George and I would whack our legs on it in the dark.  He’d pull it out and not push it back in.  That’s a metaphor; “God bless Isaac.”  We used to worship around the piano, morning and night.  Before politics and the haunting and growing marijuana and shaking down my dad.  I’d like a normal job, and some songs around the piano.  Ever since my dad ostracized me, and I became so isolated, I’ve had to strive to keep a song in my heart, although they commence spontaneously sometimes.  I long to BE the song.



12:59 pm

MUSIC BREAK…a prayer

12:57 pm

I have a phone call in 5 minutes with an international judge that doesn’t like torture or pedophilia.  I wonder what I’ll talk about. “Lord, please give me pinpoint accuracy.  Thy will be done.”  I backed out of the documentary thing.  A little bird told me it might not be a good idea to proceed.  I even tried to memorize a sentence in French for this call, I’m pretty jazzed.  That’s really  prideful.  I don’t even speak French.



12:07 pm

Bump to the top, prayer from 5/7/13

“Lord, the world abuses everybody!  Every person I talk to has encountered government opposition to every single thing he or she attempts!  Break it!  Break the fear from parents who are accused of harming the children they’d die for!  Break the expectation that limits all ambition.  Break the concern for the future, which future you’ve seen, and established.  Break our defiance, which makes us weak.  Break the feelings of incompetence we harbor, when we attempt to stand up for dignity!  We don’t have to muster dignity, we, each and every one, have dignity because we are created in your image, and live in your world!”
“Do not allow us to strip one another of dignity!  Do not allow us, any longer, to strip each other of the very sustenance of life, our free will and opportunity to express ourselves in the arena!  Let those who have been denied a voice, by fear, fear very justified, to SPEAK AND CHANGE OUR OWN CIRCUMSTANCES!!  Bring it, Jesus, my life.  Bring it.  Bring it.  In the name of Jesus, in YOUR name, I declare a changing of the guard.  I declare you Lord and government of the entire universe.  I lift you up!  I worship and adore you…and I trust you to change this world!  I trust your plan!  I trust your heart.  I trust your word.  I declare an end to the kingdom of Satan…and bondage.  ‘Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty!’   Make it so!  Fill me with your Spirit to such an extent that the darkness flees at my shadow!    BURN ME UP AND LET ME LOVE IT.”



10:42 am

I was feeling I should go for a walk…for about thirty minutes I didn’t go.  Then when I did, the very first car on the road was my  mom.  I waved, and she did too (rather half-heartedly)  but she didn’t stop to say hi.  Another half hour later I decided to take a ride and buy some cigarettes.  As soon as I got onto the highway, I met my dad and he waved too.  So nice to be acknowledged after all these years.


10:40 am

Hey, did you guys see this?  I wrote in 2011 that the bankers were “disappearing” as they scurried into their dens of “safety”.  Guess they were right.

Tycoon’s fatal plunge ‘linked to five other mystery deaths’

Days earlier he told a relative: “If anything happens to me in the next few weeks, it will not be an accident.”

“Mr Young, Robert Curtis and Mr Castle all died after apparently committing suicide in the past four years. In March last year, exiled Mr Berezovsky was found dead in the bathroom of his home with a ligature round his neck.”

37 dead bankers now?  Wait, it was 36 in 2014.  A couple mentioned in this article were in recent other years.

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1:59 am


We sang this in church…I don’t think anybody believed it.  (Judging by their treatment of me, anyway.)  But it’s true, and it’s how we can survive what the psychopaths have planned.  For instance:  I DO NOT LIKE THOSE SKINNY COLUMNS OF TEXT AND IF I WERE READING THIS WEBSITE I WOULD PROBABLY STOP AND GO SOMEWHERE ELSE,  however, I am well trained,  and if something changes on a page…or if my computer spontaneously closes windows,  or shuts down…or if a video starts by itself…or if text I’m typing disappears…I JUST ROLL WITH IT.  “Ours is not to wonder why, ours is but to do or die.”



1:56 am

“Simply and truthfully stated, torture has been (and probably still is) being used to gratify the psychopaths in our federal government and those who control governments.”

Axiom: The more ignorant a population becomes, the less clever psychopaths need to be, in order to remain successful ­ meaning going undetected as psychopaths.


“Psychopaths seek to serve themselves at the expense of others. They not only do not have empathy for the suffering of others, they “get off” on the misery and pain of anyone. It is what makes their life worth living. Successful psychopaths hide this fact, while the unsuccessful ones, in their exuberance, broadcast their insanity for the whole world to see.”


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6:51 pm

What I’ve been doing here, beloved family and increasingly large number of observers, is I’M CALLING MY DAD OUT!  I’ve been calling my dad out for three years.  I’ve seen him piss himself since I first challenged him.  I’ve watched him start out every direction but the right one.  “He who has ears to hear…etc.”

6:40 pm

I talk to my computer a lot, I apologize to the animals and I pray out loud.  Connie has begun to respond; when she sneezes, she wants out;  when she whines she wants somebody to open my bedroom door;  and sometimes she grunts like a pig at porcine opportunity.  The computer answers me too, it has done so for years; as did the computer before this, and the one that I threw out my car window up on M-28 near Eckerman, before that.  The  State Police brought it back to me.  They knew who I was, but they wouldn’t talk about my father’s calumny and its effects on my mental health.  Dear Jesus, I lit a forest fire across the road and I never even got a bill.  My life has been charmed even as I was being raped, and I’m grateful for/to  my benefactor.  If my father would tell the truth, I’d thank him to his face.

6:28 pm

“Hey Dad, I need to stay someplace with a bathtub for a while, and no wood to haul;  do you think I could use one of your many bathtubs?  I’ve been working real hard here, trying to save your soul rather than taking my evidence to the authorities.  I’ve been working really hard.”

Josh says that when he bought the lighter he bought me, (I found it balanced on my bedroom doorknob the morning after they got home from Minnesota and I was already asleep) with the Aquarius on its sticker, that he saw me with a huge bowl of stew and a cheesy smile on my face.  I was right about it;  he loves me.  I can’t count to five without having to do it twice, but I’ve been right about a number of things.  I’m loving writing so much:  between the recognition of sound combinations and nuances of timbre, I’m really liking writing.  I’m happy when I’m writing, and I don’t have to think, because the words just keep on coming.  I wake up with prayers in my mind and figure I should write them down.  Then I say, “Lord, if you want me to remember it I’ll remember it when I wake up.”  Then I go back to sleep.  “In returning and rest.”  He’s doing amazing things on this planet and for anybody to ignore this is stupid and tragic.  My young friend sleeps around since a guy broke her heart.  She shouldn’t do that, it’s not good for her heart.  When I said that, Josh accused me of preaching the non-existent-diety-whom-died-for-me-and-for-whom-I-died-for.  (Actually I died for the other guy but it’s a long story.)  I said he was mistaken..  It’s just not good for her heart, to fill it and empty it so recklessly.  “God, don’t let me ever do that.”


3:04 pm


Sent out with great love to my own personal  Dick Cheney,

Merry Christmas,  Mr. G!


2:50 pm

I’ve learned about evil men through my (recorded) BET WITH MY DAD.  My dad taught me about politics, since he 1) put me under surveillance, causing  me to be tortured and repeatedly raped for a period of years, THEN, 2) read my book, 3) FIXED MY HOUSE AND LAWN AND SEPTIC SYSTEM AND LAKEFRONT AND DRIVEWAY (and more) then,  4) realized I DID NOT KNOW WHAT HE’D DONE,  then 5) TRIED TO KILL ME,  6) TOOK AWAY MY HOUSE, 7) CONVINCED MY CHILDREN THAT JESUS IS NOT GOD, then 8) refused to talk to me for more years, then 9) STARTED OFFERING ME BANK STOCK AND GIVING ME MONEY FOR CLOTHES AND OFFERING ME FREE CREDIT CARDS AND TRIPS TO EUROPE and 9) will not talk to me yet, although he called me “Doll” at his Christmas party and I had to text him not to do that anymore because it makes me queasy.

My dad taught me about George Bush.  Although I knew George  the Second  had been involved in torture and rape since his college days, I didn’t understand why.  It was also strange to know that he INSTRUCTED the CIA to torture low-level-nobodies, who didn’t know anything!  I couldn’t figure out how, 1) although WE KNOW that torture does not yield valuable intelligence, and 2) the people doing conventional interrogation were GETTING VALUABLE INTELLIGENCE, and 3) the torture-gurus  felt no time-pressure,  and took a vacation before setting up their little shop of horrors…yet… THEY TORTURED PEOPLE ANYWAY!  Ah-hah.  My dad taught my why.  THIS IS SADISM AND A POWER TRIP.  And why is it always sexual?  They’re really into  anal rape.  Oh, I could tell you stories!  Wait.  I did.  They’re in my journals.



2:11 pm

2:01 pm

American Inquisition

“Republicans want George W. Bush cleared because Gov. Jeb Bush is planning a run for the presidency.  So the Bush name and the Republican legacy of two lost wars must be whitewashed.  Karl Rove has been assigned this task.  Fox TV and the Wall Street Journal have been leading the Pravda-style campaign to rewrite history.”


“…I was always proud to be an American and to wear my nation’s uniform. That was before Bush & Co. brought so low our nation, fouled its honor, and made it into a world-class hypocrite.


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12:40 pm



10:51 am

(I read some of these court documents years ago, before the victim was suicided.)

Bump to the top, from 2002: “President Bush is being accused of rape. This allegation is part of a lawsuit filed by a Texas woman, Margie Schoedinger. According to the complaint filed on December 3rd in Fort Bend County, Texas, the President and his men are accused of repeatedly kidnapping, drugging and raping Mrs. Schoedinger and possibly her husband.”

“…she was harassed by the police. She was treated similarly by the FBI. To make matters worse, her bank accounts were frozen, her husband lost his job, her academic records were expunged and she became the subject of 24-hour surveillance.”


“Nevertheless, the story in question is 100% accurate. In fact, anyone with a computer and a modem can verify the story by downloading court documents. However, the accuracy of the story does not seem to be enough for the media.”

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10:44 am

The  Bush White House, the Rape of Margie Schoedinger and other Sexual Indiscretions

“Another woman…stated she witnessed former president George W. Bush perform an expertly enacted homosexual act with another man…”


“George Bush Sr. was also implicated in a book called “The Franklin Cover-up” for crimes against children, namely pedophilia.”


“I don’t know about you, but I would think that a lawsuit against the President (now former President) of the United States alleging rape and kidnapping against Margie Schoedinger AND her husband would be newsworthy…”

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10:27 am

“If you do a Net search of the terms “Bush torture fraternity” you will see that others have also reported on the severe hazing—amounting to torture—that Bush presided over as president of Delta Kappa Epsilon (DKE) fraternity at Yale University…”

“Presidential candidate George W. Bush once led a Yale fraternity that barbarically branded its new members

on their backsides with a red-hot metal rod…”

“Because of his clear intellectual limitations, because he would be an embarrassment on a quiz program like Jeopardy, or even Who Wants to be a Millionaire or The Weakest Link, people tend to take George W. Bush too lightly. Intellectuals like Leon Trotsky, Nikolai Bukharin and Evgeny Preobrazhensky, and millions of other people took Joseph Stalin too lightly, too, and we know how that story played out. A person’s other dimensions can be of much greater moment than his ability to engage in abstract reasoning.”

George Bush’s First Torture Scandal

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10:13 am

My dad’s drug of choice:

To hold absolute power over others, to define what they should love or fear, to decide if they were to live or die and thereby to ravage the whole of their beings—that was a sensuality that made sexual passion look pale by comparison. It was a noneconomic conception of existence. The rewards for those followers who deserved them did not cost one penny; the only price attached to rewards was the abject suffering of some individual victim who was dominated by the recipient of the reward of power…. No, they were not dumb, these [subordinate power wielders]…. They knew a thing or two about mankind. They had reached far back into history and had dredged up from its black waters the most ancient of all realities, man’s desire to be a god…. How far wrong most people were in their appraisal of dictators! The popular opinion was that these men were hankering for their pick of beautiful virgins, good food, fragrant cigars, aged whisky, land, gold…. But what these men wanted was something much harder to get and the mere getting of it was in itself a way of keeping it. It was power, not just the exercise of bureaucratic control, but personal power to be wielded directly upon the lives and bodies of others. – Richard Wright, The Outsider, pp. 198-199

5:01 am

Merriam-Webster call police states “political unit(s) characterized by repressive governmental control of political, economic, and social life usually by an arbitrary exercise of power by police and especially secret police in place of regular operation of administrative and judicial organs of the government according to publicly known legal procedures.”



4:18 am

“The pastors were trained to go to homes where people refused to be relocated by the authorities, and their immediate job was to convince the reluctant to willingly go to relocation camps, ostensibly this was to be done instead of sending in the SWAT teams.”


FEMA Pastor Speaks Out and Reveals a Dirty Little Secret About What They’ll Be Called to Do by the Government When Asked…Warning You May Not Like What You’re About To Hear…

“The churches are being forced to go along with FEMA”



5:38 pm

Lost in all the defense of uncivilized and unethical behavior that should be criminally punished in the CIA Torture scandal, is the simple fact that human beings with a conscience do not act that way.

“The USA routinely tortures people in prison. This is how the Feds get their 98%+ conviction rate.”


“… conflict was “nowhere more graphic than in a setting where the same individuals who applied an enhanced interrogation technique, which only they were approved to employ, then judged the effectiveness and detainee resilience, and implicitly proposed continued use of the technique.”

“The  Feds typically threaten your family. That is stage one. It is far too often effective. I myself was confronted with that situation. I then wrote a letter to Dorthy Heyl  who was the SEC prosecutor at the time.The previous defendant the SEC used the same tactics removing all lawyers hung himself when he could not take it any more.”

“They threw Bradley Manning into solitary confinement prior to trial. This is all Psychological Warfare that rises to the level of mental torture that is excessive and inhuman treatment.”


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4:22 pm


October 25, 2013
How to hear from God part II.
God does not like whining.  I know this by a whole lot of experience.  I was tortured and I whined, more than most I’m sure.  He also does not like bitching.  I did a lot of that too.  He is much more kindly inclined to listen when you are speaking words of faith.  He loves questions the best, and often answers a query with an enigma. When you ask him a question, he ALWAYS throws the ball right back to you.  Conversation with the Lord is the finest ever.  (I long for wonderful conversation, don’t you?)  When you answer a question, the Lord’s likely response is “why?”  He cares much more about why we do or think or feel a thing, than he does about the act or thought or sense.  He causes you to recognize yourself as he sees you, and that’s good because that’s how we’re supposed to live.
He told us to “pray without ceasing.”  This is very difficult for any human who lives in the world.  The world intrudes on the prayers conjured by mind-language, because our minds are otherwise occupied.  The only way to pray non-stop (praying non-stop is necessary when the mind is inundated with outside influences.)  Lots of these [ie. mind control, television, demons, electronic weapons, etc.]  interject intrusion you will soon easily identify.  You must  pray in the Spirit.  (Praying in the Spirit is synonymous with “praying in tongues” and involves many manifestations, linguistically, musically, kinetically, emotionally, etc.)  Then, when you’re alone again, you can revert to the ongoing conversation in English that you habitually enjoy.  This is how to “pray without ceasing.”  Didn’t you always wonder how it was possible to obey that commandment?
This continual contact with God saved my life as I was being tortured and subjected to intentional fear induction.  I did not become afraid when my body moved on its own, because I was used to it.  God prepared me perfectly to survive the onslaught of induced sensations I experienced.  He has prepared us all perfectly for what we are about to encounter.  If you choose not to believe that, or choose not to seek his face now, you will become afraid and enter the first level of hell.

Oh, by the way, I now have a witness willing to testify about what he watched me experience and how I reacted to it.  He said, “I remember you praying all the time about why is he putting me through this?”  The reasons are becoming more clear.  He came “to set people free.”



2:55 pm

1:56 pm

“…the once-popular notion that the Bush administration never really tortured anyone, or engaged only in “torture-lite,” is no longer a tenable position.”

They were effectively anally raped. Perhaps the American people would’ve endorsed that tactic in the weeks after 9/11 had the CIA been transparent about it. But the fact that it’s only now making is way to the public cuts against the narrative that “this was a path our entire government took, with a public consensus at its back.” In fact, Team Bush went out of its way to hide many of its actions, with President Bush explicitly saying that the U.S. does not torture.”

“In other words, even if you’re someone who is inclined to give the CIA a break for torturing al-Qaeda members, there is no reason to give them a moral or legal pass for that most serious of all negligent acts save homicide: carelessly torturing an innocent.”

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1:38 pm

“There was a concerted campaign on the part of the Bush administration to connect Iraq in the public mind with the horror of the Sept. 11 attacks. That campaign succeeded,” said Levin, who cited opinion polls from that time showing many Americans believed former Iraqi leader Saddam Hussein was involved in the attacks. “Of course, connections between Saddam and 9/11 or al-Qaida were fiction.”


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CIA Flipped Out Behind The Scenes When Bush Said U.S. Would Ban Torture

“Torture anywhere is an affront to human dignity everywhere,” he said, adding, “The United States is committed to the worldwide elimination of torture, and we are leading this fight by example. I call on all governments to join with the United States and the community of law-abiding nations in prohibiting, investigating, and prosecuting all acts of torture.”

“Behind the scenes, however, the agency tasked with carrying out the Bush administration’s torture program had no idea what the president was talking about.”


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8:33 am

Should you Believe What they Tell you or What you See?

“Sadly, I’m cursed with a mind that questions everything and trusts no one in authority or associated with the status quo. It’s the reason I don’t read newspapers or watch mainstream media television entertainment propaganda, disguised as news. It’s the reason I will never vote in a national election again. The lesser of two evils is still evil.”


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8:14 am


A former host at a popular Christian radio station, described by prosecutors as a man “living a double life,” was sentenced to 40 years in federal prison for sexual exploitation of a child and child pornography.

The punishment for John Balyo follows a recent 25-year sentence in state court for sexually assaulting a boy in Calhoun County. The sentences will run at the same time.

7:46 am

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7:14 am



(Marvin Gaye’s religious father murdered him.)



7:02 am

Revelation 11:15      “And the seventh angel sounded; and there were great voices in heaven, saying, The kingdoms of this world are become the kingdoms of our Lord, and of his Christ; and he shall reign for ever and ever.”
Can we be so far into the apocalypse?  Are we seeing “the kingdoms of the world…becoming…the kingdoms of our Lord”?  As much as I study, and as much as I’ve prayed, am I still realizing we’re further than I think?  The kingdoms of the world are run by pedophiles who worship Satan, in fact if not in outward pageantry.  ALL THE GOVERNMENTS are occupied by PEDOPHILES.  (This makes sense if one has studied Satanic Ritual Abuse and the “benefits” bestowed by their abominable practices.)  (I have not ever read that Putin has raped a baby.) (I have read many times that the Bushes do so.)  Prophets I’ve met personally have seen visions of Russia and China invading America.  I used to consider that as an evil thing.  Maybe I was wrong?  (It will certainly be evil for any who have not chosen to follow Christ.)
My family thinks it matters what kind of food is served at a party they’re obligated to host.  My family claims to love Jesus but they ignore his warnings…and his apocalypse.  (Apocalypse=”revealing”)  “Lord, I give my life to you again.  I’ve offended people.  So did you and I ask that you settle down my flesh that dislikes being disliked.  Set my face like flint, again.  Give me courage and wisdom.  Do not let me say even one thing that does not originate in your heart.  Amen.”
“My family loves the world.  They go to football games and watch TV.  They tear up when reading the Christmas (yeah, I know it’s a pagan holiday…) story.  I could never stand watching my mother read “The Littlest Angel.” She cries and takes pride in her tears.  I couldn’t fathom how a celestial being could be captivated by rocks and a leather dog collar.  You DID NOT COME TO EARTH TO SAVE DYING HUMANITY JUST BECAUSE YOU WROTE A BOOK AND WANTED TO MAKE IT TRUE!  You want a bride who loves you to the abandonment of everything else.  EVERYTHING ELSE, even breath.  I do so want you.  I want you more than anything, beloved Jesus, and I will do whatever you say to convince others of your        No words.  You leave me speechless.  Anything, but give me grace to accomplish it because I’m tired and poor and weak.  But I love you more than anything and I do not want to miss your apocalypse!  Please, fill me with your Spirit so that I can confront those who torture for fun and profit.  OPEN THE EYES of those who claim your name in dishonest satisfaction!  MORE FIRE ON ME!  More fire on my lying father, and on my sister and brother and mother and sons and ex-husband and Adam (and the goon who helps me if it’s not him…) and on Michigan!  Please, OPEN EVERYBODY’S EYES!  Amen.”




6:04 am

Beloved family, please pay attention to what is happening on our planet.  The Bible said it would happen and it’s happening.  Please wake up.  There is no life for us here…if we remain materialistic.

Experts: 100% death rate for baby killer whales along West Coast — ‘Alarm bells ring’ as no newborns have survived in past 3 years — “This is absolutely the worst thing possible”, pregnant orca dies with decomposing stillborn full-term fetus inside — “We’re going to lose them… they’ll be extinct for sure” (VIDEO)

RADIATION is pouring into the animals!   They are dying off!  They are our food supply and our mates!  Nobody  wants to talk about it…


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5:37 am

I have badgered my father for years, to confess.  I do not do this because I require his confession.  I continue to provoke him because I need the details of his offense.  He is forgiven and all is well with me…but I will not stop demanding truth for my children and the tortured people who could benefit  from his disclosure.  This is very important.


5:20 am

EU Activist: NSA/CIA are using DARPA/Motorola strangulation nano-technology to torture, kill me

I met Melanie at the Covert Harassment Conference in Belgium.  She was one of the organizers and said the torturers stepped up their game since then.  The visuals she’s receiving are satanic…









10:43 pm

Email message sent to my mother and brother:

You say anything you want on my blog.  Anything at all.

If you think I’m evil or I lie you fix it.  You always think you know best so prove it…
Love and prayers, Linda



10:35 pm

Email to David, my brother whose diapers I changed:

“Do you really want me to stop talking?  Do you want to become a George?  You’re on your way to being a Dad.  There is another option.  OPEN UP YOUR EYES.  EVERYBODY MATTERS.  DAD IS FULL OF SHIT TO DECIDE WHO GETS TO LIVE!  He said I was not worthy of life and did all he could to do to destroy any possibility of life for me.  (Abortion wasn’t legal then.)  DO NOT GO TO HELL FOR BEING STUPID.  (That would be a real tragedy.)”

10:21 pm

My mom is a eugenicist.  She told me “retarded people should not be permitted to have babies.  It messes with the gene pool.”   (I wasn’t taking notes then, maybe 1985?)  And also her friend Ardyth’s daughter got pregnant by a black man and Mom thought the baby should be disposed of.  ( I think they have a lot of kids now.)   (Bet they’re cute.)



Embattled MIT professor Jonathan Gruber has not only gotten in trouble for bragging about helping President Obama put one over on the American people with Obamacare, he’s also been uncovered as an abortion advocate—but not a run-of-the-mill advocate of “women’s rights.”


“Gruber co-authored a paper during the Clinton years which argued that legal abortion had saved the U.S. taxpayer upwards of $14 billion in welfare benefits and that it also lowered crime. “


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10:12 pm

Email to David, he told me to quit writing because I don’t like instant mashed potatoes:

“Geeze David, you know that was a crappy party.  I’m supposed to be a  bad person for saying the truth?  Get real.  I have an opportunity to CHANGE THE WORLD.  So do you.  Forever your name will be remembered, because we live in the last days.  You will be a Benedict Arnold or a Patrick Henry.  I already chose what I want to be.  ( WITH JESUS.)  Don’t be petty.  You’re real.  You told me you chose to be a father unlike ours…and he was GOOD to you!  He has been horrible to me every day of my life!  Tough shit!  I love him and I love you so much.  Don’t die stupid.  This is an amazing time to be alive and JESUS CHOSE TO PUT US HERE NOW!  This is the big-time.  Congress voted down the CONSTITUTION today.  You think America is God’s chosen people?  George Bush SIGNED THE OK FOR TORTURE!  (I’m just one of the people he tortured.  I’m not even an Arab.)  WISE UP.  This will be fun for those who choose Jesus over…status, wealth, religion, DAD, prosperity, comfort…etc.   HE CHOSE US TO LIVE NOW!  He loves us a lot and he PICKED US TO LIVE HERE NOW!  Do not miss this.  Please.  I’ll be fine even if you throw me under the bus.  But, DO NOT MISS THIS.  L”



9:46 pm

Email to the Documentary-lady:

I’ll get a new skype account tomorrow…this is important enough to figure it out.  I didn’t mean to sound glib if I did.  I do not entertain several objectives.  This must stop and I’ll give my life towards only that objective.  If you just want to make waves and shock people you may find me difficult.  I’ll tell the truth until they try to kill me again.  Sorry if I sound nasty, but this is satanic and I am not permitted by my Lord to permit Satan to destroy people.  I’ll email you when I’m finished mourning the US Constitution.  This has been an extraordinary day in the US.

9:06 pm

EMAILS between me and the documentary-maker:

Hello Linda,

Very strange thing happened to me past 12 am last night. I was typing an email to you and it just disappeared, as if the the window had never been open at all.

You are 5 hours behind UK in Michigan so, if your schedule permits, I would like to skype you on Monday at 3pm your time. Is that ok?

Could you let me have your skype ID (name)?

I’m pipsquik so I could send you a request via skype and all you’d have to do is accept. Then we’d be set for Monday.

I wish to mention that some questions I’ll be asking could be a little uncomfortable for you. For example, I might ask what you mean by “knocked unconscious” and by “rape” do you mean the physical act or did it take place electronically. Just a couple of examples.

I’ll be playing devil’s advocate at times and trying to put a clear cut, acessible story out there for audiences worldwide, regardless of race, religion and culture, but especially for those who haven’t the foggiest this crap is happening.

We would have achieved our one of several objectives if people walk away thinking and wondering instead of shutting their minds completely.

Thanks for your time. And thanks for being so courageous.

gwen xx

Linda Goldthorpe <>

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to Greedy
I am no longer “uncomfortable” about anything and will explain the times the lips of my labia majora moved all by themselves.  If you can Skype me although I am a dummy, I’d be pleased to answer any questions.  “Courageous” is past-tense.  I am determined and I documented more than you’ve probably heard so far.  I published it.  Call anytime but forgive me for being techno-stupid.




8:57 pm

Our government tortures and rapes people.  That’s one element of the crime I suffered that has been proven unequivocally.  Other elements have been also proven, in recent months.  My daddy should speak up about the tiny piece of information THAT GOD HAS NOT YET CHOSEN TO REVEAL.  Or not.  God is bigger than him.  It’s about time he acknowledges that he, ROBERT GOLDTHORPE, is not God.  Or a god.  Or even a father.  Or even a man.  If he doesn’t say it, the court will hear it from another witness.  (God loves his witnesses.  “Witness” means “martyr.”)  SOMEBODY raped me, was unable to MURDER me, and my dad knows the rest of the story.  He could die with that knowledge…or he could embrace truth and live forever!  How could it possibly be interpreted that my badgering him is a negative thing?  I DEMAND TRUTH…because I love him.  And because he will FRY for lying to my children if he does not tell me what he knows. This is a good thing I do.  I’d rather do INTERESTING things, but I do not run my life.  If I did, I’d have a father who tells the truth and loves people.  Amen.




8:47 pm

The Senate report reveals that a private company played a central role in the CIA’s brutal interrogation regime. It adds more murk to what was already a catalogue of horrors

“The CIA transferred a total of $81m to a firm set up by two psychologists involved in the interrogation programme. The value of the CIA’s contract with this firm reached $180m in 2006, though in fact only $81m was paid out before the contract expired in 2009. In 2007 the CIA provided that same company with a multiyear indemnity arrangement to protect it and its employees from legal liability. The agency later paid out a further $1m in connection with this agreement.”


The Guardian view on the CIA torture report: there is a second scandal here

“…the relevant presidential memorandum of notification was signed by George W Bush on September 17 2001″


“If it is a scandal that the CIA tortured, it is another scandal that it hired a private business to do that work on its behalf. “

More at:





8:33 pm

The night they cancelled the Constitution.  I exchanged names with a woman I’ve been running into.  We’ve been friendly but didn’t know the monikers. I was raving about how Congress had given us over  to the dark side. I told her they are all blackmailed. Apparently she likes my folks;  my mom has “been there.”  I  explained that my mom does the best she can living with a lying psychopath, but that I had not been welcome in their home for years.  “I ran for Congress and they didn’t like it.”  Maybe George might go to bed tonight.  He’s had three days off and an hour is too long for me. He doesn’t care about anybody or anything except being at his mother’s house.  He should go there and be happy and maybe we could expand our borders a bit without the binding influence of an obsessive-compulsive (beautiful child of God) who does not wish to know…anything at all.  I ranted at George too:  “They DOCUMENTEDLY  destroyed the Constitution!  The fourth amendment is ON-THE-BOOKS dead.”  No response.  “My stats are going through the ceiling.”  He indicated perception when I said that.  I’m smoking in the living room so now the TV is blaring from his bedroom instead.  He watches the same movies over and over.  The new world would be very difficult for him.  We’ll have to jump at the merest whisper.  We’ll have to move when the Spirit says to move.  We can’t dilly-dally with bullshit.  Not anymore.




7:26 pm

Republican Senator Lindsey Graham has defended the CIA’s torture program, describing enemies of the United States as “bastards.”

“We have a lot going for us that our enemy doesn’t. We’re actually good people, and they’re bastards,” Graham told Fox News on Tuesday.


Read more here:



7:20 pm

Congress Just Passed Legislation Ramping Up Mass Surveillance to Super-Steroid Levels

Fascist Power Grab Wipes out 4th Amendment


Those guys are all blackmailed; I know it for a fact.

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7:03 pm


Paper Lace-The Night Chicago Died

6:49 pm

(I never had the chance to meet Justin Amash because of Dad calling me crazy and all that shit.  I like him very much.)

According to Congressman Justin Amash, Congress just passed a bill, (Dec 11th 2014) which grants the government and law enforcement “unlimited access to the communications of every American”.

Well at least they’re documenting it now…

“When the Michigan lawmaker discovered that the Intelligence Authorization Act for FY 2015 had been amended with a provision that authorizes “the acquisition, retention, and dissemination” of all communications data from U.S. citizens, he desperately attempted to organize a roll call vote on the bill.”


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6:43 pm

“Please dear God, could you influence my ‘assistant’ to make this one look right?  Amen.”


“In his view, torture is worse than killing people, because it doesn’t work, which was obvious before the release of the Senate report and further confirmed by it. A person being tortured will tell you anything you want to hear, even if it’s all lies, and a lot of the victims had to lie because they didn’t have valuable information to begin with.”


“It doesn’t matter what tactics you use, you’re not going to get information if people don’t know anything and most of these Gomers didn’t know shit,” he said. “Who in the leadership was stupid enough to think they would? Why would these guys have detailed knowledge about plans and targeting? Even if they were hard-core jihadis who took part in operations, that doesn’t mean they would have knowledge of upcoming attacks.”


“At the same time, he said Senate Democrats are being totally disingenuous about their own role in tacitly condoning torture. They gave Bush a blank check when it was politically convenient and now they’re pretending to be shocked about what happened: “I’m familiar with congressional oversight and there’s no way people on the intelligence committees and in the leadership didn’t generally know what was going on.”


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6:33 pm

CIA report: “These depravities are not going to infuriate the Muslim world–they’ve been enraged about them for years–It’s the WESTERN RESPONSE that the torturers really fear, which is why the CIA has been so intent on misleading us.”

“And the vicious psychopaths and sadists that ran the CIA torture centres “on our behalf” must be protected, even praised by the BUSHIES for keeping our civilisation safe”


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6:27 pm

Facebook would be valuable to the powers that be, even if they did not 1) spy on us, 2) report our thoughts to the government, and 3) perform mind-control experiments on us.  It also keeps us focused on inane garbage and innocuous controversies.  Maybe Obama plans to give Zuckerberg a  knighthood when the shit has settled.   He won’t have the chance.


6:08 pm

Disney bans children’s comments if they mention God.  (Disney was  involved with government programming  since way back when.  Fantasia was used for trauma-based mind control.)  This video is very much worth the time.

Warning for 2015: The Signs Are Here…Something Is Going To Happen

(I’d prefer to just post the video but the goon who monitors my every keystroke always connects a link and types:  “Read more at” EVEN IF IT’S A VIDEO.  It’s annoying, but it’s nice to know I’m not as alone as it sometimes feels.)


5:03 pm

To my goon-slash-cyber-babysitter:

I know you gotta keep making your presence known, but I REALLY DO NOT LIKE THE SKINNY COLUMNS OF TEXT.  If you’re so smart, how come you can only do two different margin options?  You know I can’t change the margins or the PAGES WOULD BE PRETTIER.  Just saying.

OK, I know you did that one post with a VERTICAL COLUMN OF SINGLE LETTERS so it can be done.  Do you not study design at goon-school?



4:59 pm

“Christian” America!  Under the reign of George the second, monarch of highest character and lauded by evangelicals forever…

Senate Torture Report Ignores CIA’s Most Brutal Crimes

“On November 9, 2005, CIA Director of National Clandestine Service Jose Rodriguez, Jr. authorized the burning of 92 videotapes depicting the harsh interrogations of Abu Zubaydah and ’Abd al-Rahim al-Nashiri.”

” Arrested in Pakistan on April 10, 2002, Mohamed was transported to a CIA black site where he was beaten, burned, and suffered cuts along his torso and penis with a scalpel. The US eventually dropped all charges against Mohamed and released him.”

“On November 4, 2009, an Italian judge convicted in absentia 22 suspected or known CIA agents, an Air Force colonel, and two Italian secret agents of kidnapping Nasr.”

“While exposing the CIA’s lies about thwarting terrorist attacks, locating Osama bin Laden, and saving lives through the use of torture, the Committee failed to enumerate the worst atrocities committed in our names. Acting with impunity, the CIA bears a sordid history composed of decades of kidnapping, torture, and assassination with no end in sight.”

“Instead of holding anyone accountable for devising or utilizing enhanced interrogation techniques, Dr. Mitchell and Dr. Jessen received $81 million prior to their contract’s termination in 2009. Former CIA case officer John Kiriakou was sentenced to 30 months in prison after revealing the torture program during an interview with ABC News.Kiriakou was charged with violating the Intelligence Identities Protection Act of 1982 by giving Deuce Martinez’s business card toNew York Times reporter Scott Shane.”

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3:53 m



Evangelical Christian Leaders Rush to Defend CIA Torture

– To those who claim that America is a “Christian” (which literally means: “Christlike”) nation: would Christ support torturing one’s enemies? If He would not, then is it wise for “Christians” to permit, let alone promote, such un-Christlike behavior?

– And to the growing number of Americans who believe that this nation has a unique “covenant” with God, have you convinced yourself that God’s “judgment” against this nation can only be stayed by ridding the country of homosexuals (and other “liberals”) while ignoring the sins of our violent military occupations?


“What George Bush did, TORTURED PEOPLE,  was necessary, but what that scummy Obama is doing endangers AMERICANS…”  (Paraphrase)

Plus he’s lying.  Videos at link.


Read it and weep:




2:20 pm

I looked at a Christmas catalog, food gifts.  One option:  8 standard sugar cookies.  They’re  frosted like “ugly Christmas sweaters.”  (One of them is a vest with no sleeves so it’s smaller.)  The price for eight classic Christmas cookies?  Forty nine dollars and ninety five cents!  (This price is promoted as reasonable;  the page boasts:  A Collection of Expertly Crafted Gifts, ALL UNDER $50.)  This must be a secretary’s catalog. Some busy psychopath tosses her a list:  1)  Client A,  $200,  2)  Client B,  $75,   3)  My mother,  $500…  This catalog is full of presents for people you do like, or do not know.  These are gifts for people OBLIGATED to buy a gift.
Obligation-gifts are quasi-gifts, they’re not the real deal. Actually, they’re not even quasi-gifts, because when one pays an obligation, one expects corresponding changes of the payee’s behavior and/or expectation. Sometimes the obligation is blatantly mercenary, its purpose seeking future advantage, or improved status. (Proverbs 18:16  “A  man’s gift maketh room for him, and bringeth him before great men.”)  Or, the gifter might wish to  CREATE an obligation or an expectation of augmented behavior.  (” I GOT  you that X-Box, so you have to listen up.”)
Obligation-gifting leaves us entitled and jaded.  Recipients, unaccustomed to giving attention to their own offerings, ASSUME that nobody gave a thought to choosing what they receive…even if they like the gift!  If somebody gives us something we truly like… we’re surprised!  Rarely seen is a gift chosen with loving consideration of another’s preferences. (To poor people, the most-appreciated gift is freedom to choose.  Poor people have very little opportunity to exercise their own sense of taste or personal judgments of value.)
Psychopaths invest in gifting; they buy presents by the gross…and expect a corresponding return. Their gifts are  bribes and kickbacks.  Some are merely promised, or bestowed and then taken away.  This “carrot on a stick” serves to manipulate people, and to maintain obeisance by always dangling it just beyond reach.  When psychopaths give gifts to their targets, it helps maintain the covert nature of their “ops.”  (They often give gifts to God for the same reason.)  Efficient gifting jingles the sleigh-bells of the upwardly-mobile psychopath.
“Leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way; first be reconciled to thy brother, and then come and offer thy gift.”
“Like clouds and wind without rain is a man who boasts of a gift he does not give.”
“The Lord loveth a cheerful giver.”



12:20 pm

George Bush on the torture report. Would it sound less stupid if he defined his terms?

These are patriots and whatever the report says, if it diminishes their contributions to our country, it is way off base.”



12:00 pm

One of the reasons repeatedly stated by President George W. Bush for the American invasion of Iraq in 2003 was the maintenance of “torture rooms” by Saddam Hussein. While making this very argument, Bush was secretly authorizing CIA agents to engage in similar unlawful behavior

“When the head of the CIA’s torture unit decided to destroy videotapes of his team’s horrific work, he unwittingly set in motion a series of events that led to the release this week of the most massive, detailed documentation of unlawful behavior by high-ranking government officials and intentional infliction of pain on noncombatants by the United States government since the Civil War era.”


“Oh, what a tangled web we weave. When first we practise to deceive!”   (Felicia Hemans used two lines from Marmion)

The CIA and its Torturers


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10:31 am

NSA first.  Then IRS.  Secret Service.  Border patrol.   Veterans administration. Centers for Disease Control.  Now the CIA.  They all 1) lie,  2) harm people, and 3) take our money to do those things.  I love taking notes  as God dismantles evil entities by revealing deceit and corruption.  (I’ve loved watching him do the same in my personal life.)  Knowing- our-enemy changes not only the playing field, but it absolves us of residual allegiance to corrupt entities…and gives us great courage.  If we KNOW we’re dealing with evil…there is NO CHOICE BUT TO GO FOR BROKE.  No compromise will suffice, when the party of the first part cannot be trusted to keep their side of the bargain!  If you’re already on a liar’s  shit-list…it’s prudent to aim for the top.

(References available on request.)



9:15 am

My dad’s parties are sinister theater; he carefully orchestrates a Christian ambiance.  He calls on my mother’s pious ambition to read the Good Book in public.  He subordinates my brother’s uniformed faith and genuine spirituality.  Dad knows he couldn’t pull off the charade by  himself;  last night his only role was a stand-up routine featuring lots of hats. (He also distributed religious Christmas buttons.  Oh yeah, and bonuses.)  He wants his employees to know he’s a good Christian businessman, so they won’t notice  when he  lies or belittles others.  He’s the king of mind control.  He should write a book, now that we have spell-check.



6:26 am

Some of my Christian family still have BUSH stickers on their cars!  (Or at least they did last time I was permitted near enough to my family to even know what cars they drive…)

Cheney: Bush knew about CIA torture after 9/11 attacks

“That the president wasn’t being told is just a flat out lie,” he said. “He was fully informed.”

“Top UN officials said all American officials who were involved in torture must be prosecuted for violating the UN Convention Against Torture that was ratified by the United States in 1994.”

Four years ago there were plans to arrest Cheney if he landed in Canada…he had his pacemaker replaced with a less hackable version…now he’s spreading the blame around. This man is running scared.  Too bad they wouldn’t let us see the whole TORTURE REPORT…

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6:08 am

I slept late because I went to my FIRST in Years…CHRISTMAS PARTY!


An oldie, but a goodie…from 2007, but “the song remains the same.”

“Dashing through the sand, with a bomb strapped to my back,

I have a nasty plan, for Christmas in Iraq.”–Achmed, the Dead Terrorist

Achmed’s “Jingle Bombs”






10:18 pm

Text to my dad:






10:02 pm

Abu Ghraib abuse photos show RAPE.

“Allegations of rape and abuse were included in his 2004 report but the fact there were photographs was never revealed. He has now confirmed their existence in an interview with the Daily Telegraph.”

“These pictures show torture, abuse, rape and every indecency.


My government rapes people ALL THE TIME…even innocent housewives who never leave their homes.  With God’s help I’ll make that fact common knowledge…and impetus for the most amazing revolution humanity has ever seen.


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9:28 pm

George Bush’s America.  (He’s about as Christian as some people I know.  They think he’s great so I shouldn’t be surprised.)

“The conversation is as banal as it is Orwellian. The pro-torture crowd, including CNN’s Wolf Blitzer, seems like the Pentagon’s embedded anchor and torture advocate, are all currently rallying around GW Bush’s inner circle, while the CIA stooges continue to sound a lot like Dr. Josef Mengele’s assistants testifying at Nuremberg.”

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8:23 pm

Well my dad just bought me the restaurant-dinner he offered me the first week of May when he took me to Pizza Hut and I turned down his dirty bank stock.  George and I accompanied Josh to his employee Christmas party.  I prepared little gift bags of Snickers bars for the people he works with…but there were a lot of other people there and  I didn’t have enough.  (So I gave two bags to one of my favorite clerks from the former “Connie’s Helmer Market ” who is now waiting tables.)  There were guys who work at maintenance of my dad’s other properties, my niece who once asked, “Why should Grandpa care about you?”,  the manager of a Big Boy and his wife–lots of people I haven’t seen for years.

My mother preached Jesus; I didn’t vomit.  She doesn’t believe that Bible from which she reads the nativity story with a quiver in her voice.   She called me crazy BECAUSE OF MY FAITH in that book, and she hasn’t apologized to me or my sons.  She and my dad did not care that my boys were losing faith in the blood of Jesus the Christ…I sure told them often enough, what their SLANDER was doing to my sons’  faith!   (And I kept records of my appeals.)  In that same book, Jesus says, “But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea.”

As we left,  I approached my host to shake his hand and thank him for the wing dings and instant mashed potatoes.  He pulled me against his shoulder kinda like a hug, and he said, “Thanks for coming, doll.”  He’s never called me doll in my entire life.  (And he hasn’t invited me to a holiday party for many years.)  It’s not yet comfortable seeing his acquaintances, knowing all the lies he told about me.  If I’m going to take my rightful place,  in my rightful family,  then he better get that apology  in the Newberry News,  right quick.



2:48 pm

“Only those who decline to scramble up the career ladder are interesting as human beings. Nothing is more boring than a man with a career.” — Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn

I think it’s time to re-read Solzhenitsyn.  I’m looking forward to being done with this project. But, my father’s eternal soul was worth it.



2:37 pm

I can’t wait to see my journals, I wrote about EVERYTHING.  (I know it’s hard to believe, but I used to just ramble and ramble.)  I’ve written myself right past the padded wagon and into a new life.  I’m enjoying the vindication trickling down.  “Mercy drops round us are falling, but for the showers we plead!”  I woke up today with a number of things I didn’t have yesterday:    3,000 dollars;  that’s unheard of.  An interview with a documentary maker about electronic torture, and a meeting with one of the international judges.  (He went to law school in the states, I think Yale?)  Yesterday I was asked… FOR THE FIRST TIME…questions about what I experienced, by a man who seemed to care.  Also I’ve learned that there is no logical requirement that I believe anything George says;  if he doesn’t have to believe me, I don’t have to believe him.  I actually ordered a Christmas gift for Josh, something he needs; that’s very important to me.  (The handmade nutria wool tricorne hat from Dirty Billy was a lot of fun though.)   We decided on lobster for Christmas, with my truffle oil, and tiramisu.  (I found a recipe for a tiramisu buche de noel, but I’m not sure I’ll be so ambitious.)  I’m gonna make a deadly cheesecake, and put it in the freezer.  Isaac loves cheesecake for his birthday but I don’t know if he’s staying until then.  I suspect he’ll love it just as much on his un-birthday.  I’m enjoying the CIA’s discomfort at the release of the Senate’s torture report…they spent 81 million trying to sabotage it.  (I’m also enjoying the exposure of war-criminals-extraordinaire:  Bush and Cheney.)  Our government  tosses our money back and forth and argues about shoving things up our backsides.  This is truly comical, but the awakening is real and gaining momentum.  “Thank you Lord for the writing.  Thank you for providing the words.  Amen.”

“Love people.  Cook good food.”   (Bill Penzey, owner of Penzey’s spices)



2:22 pm

Another great surprise!  My dad came back to plow the driveway!  I took him some of the Snickers-bars I made, the ends.  They’re not pretty enough for presents but they taste great and usually have a lot more chocolate.

1:01 pm

What a great surprise!  My dad returned my espresso powder!

12:03 pm

The problem that many bloodthirsty Christian conservatives, Christian armchair warriors, Christian Coalition moralists, evangelical warvangelicals, Catholic just war theorists, reich-wing Christian nationalists, theocon Values Voters, imperial Christians, religious American exceptionalists, religious military exceptionalists, Red-State Christian fascists, pro-lifers for mass murder, God and country Christian bumpkins, Religious Rightists, and Christians who wear American flag lapel pins in the shape of a cross have with the CIA torture report is not that the torture occurred, but that the CIA Inquisition has been exposed and, in some cases, that they had to find out about the torture that took place because it makes them “uncomfortable.”

Laurence M. Vance



10:55 am

I know a bit about how sadistic our government is.  Sick behavior is rewarded and righteousness is not.  This is important to know, for people who 1) support government and 2) expect to face God at the judgment.

Good guys do not sadistically torture people. Good guys do not threaten to sexually abuse the family members of their prisoners, and they certainly do not forcibly ram things up the rear ends of those in their custody.

Horrific Torture Report Shows Why Much Of The World Considers America To Be The Nazis Of The 21st Century



Remember, CIA officer and whistleblower, John Kiriakou, is the only reason why we learned of waterboarding in the first place.

9:21 am

Documents Reveal Obama HHS Paid Baptist Children and Family Services $182,129,786 for Four Months Housing of Illegal Alien Children

Taxpayer funds covered free laptops, big screen TVs, $75 per child per day for food, pregnancy tests, and “multicultural crayons”


The start date of BCFS’s contract was October 1, 2013, but it was signed on June 27, 2014.  The project’s end date of September 30, 2016, suggests that the Obama administration anticipates that the “surge” will continue until near the end of his presidency.

“According to the documents obtained by Judicial Watch, the cost to the American taxpayer was $86,846.34 per illegal alien child…”


Read more here:




2:45 am

No word from Dad yet.  He borrowed my instant espresso last summer when he came down that one time  to talk about nothing.  I sent him a new text:

“I’m making tiramisu for Christmas and need my espresso powder.  OK?”

(I misspelled espresso in the text.)


2:38 am

So George began to tell me another inane story from the prison with personal details about people I’ve never met, and I interrupted him;  I asked, “Why am I supposed to believe you when you talk about your work and you don’t believe me when I talk about mine?”  The moment passed, we were immediately cordial, we’re always cordial.  I’m tired of being cordial in the face of intentional ignorance.  I cannot respect a person who has LIVED THROUGH HELL and does not wish to finalize the torture.  He’s as good as dead.  I cannot respect any man who doesn’t care about others who suffer as we did.  So far, I don’t respect very many men.




7:22 pm

I’m going to bed but couldn’t quit thinking about how bad David must feel, so I sent him this text:


“I never, ever meant to say I was smarter than you or worked harder.  But I am smart and I work hard but had no opportunity in the business or in the family.  I was Dad’s target ever since he got Mom pregnant.  There’s nobody I’d rather have for a brother.”



6:44 pm


I’m praying for David tonight; I’m asking God to give him courage and wisdom and peace and truth.  I know how hard it is to find out one’s guiding light is a perverted caricature of righteousness.  (I washed my dad’s feet.  I know very well.)  “Please Lord, give David truth.  Give him wisdom and then more truth.  Give him grace to deal with all that he will learn.  Amen.”



5:54 pm

Those damnable “controlling” parents…they always think they know best.

‘Controlling’ mother, 65, ‘killed her mentally-disabled son, 29, and his seven-month-old daughter because she thought they’d be better off dead’

  • Sylvia Majewska ‘sliced her son’s neck with a boxcutter, beat her granddaughter to death and then tried to take her own life in November’
  • The bodies of Daryne Gailey and his daughter, Charley, were found after he failed to return the little girl to his ex-wife
  • Majewska was taken to hospital, where she was arraigned on Monday
  • Authorities say they believe Majewska thought her son, who had learning disabilities, and granddaughter would be ‘better off if they weren’t alive’
  • Police said they had evidence that Majewska was extremely controlling of her adult son and was caught on surveillance footage ‘berating’ him 
  • She also previously sought a protective order against his ex-wife Amanda for ‘becoming increasingly violent’ to her son – which Amanda denies

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4:43 pm

You know, if all the NSA did was spy on us, I could be OK with that.  I’ve been very well conditioned; I don’t get upset even when voices comment on my body parts or ask “How long have you been meditating, Ms. Goldthorpe?”  They do not just 1) watch us, 2) listen to us, and 3) talk to us via “voice to skull” technology. They also 1) mess with our lives, 2) try to set us up, and 3) kill people.  Torture is not OK under any circumstances but my president admitted, “We tortured some people…”  (Link available on request.)  The rest of his sentence would have been…”so just get used to it.”    The FBI sent letters to Martin Luther King, Jr. decades ago, insisting that his only recourse was to commit suicide.  (Link available on request.)  The government was PROVEN to have KILLED HIM.  (King vs whomever…I don’t know the case but his family OBTAINED A JUDGMENT AGAINST THE GOVERNMENT.) These are things that require reflection by all sentient humans in America.  (If people don’t like being sentient, the government has a plan for that. too.)




3:44 pm


Hey, the judge wants to talk to me!  This is looking good.

The governments are perfectly aware of the fact that once the citizens know that their governments are in possession of technology which can be used to control citizen’s thinking and bodily functions, the citizens would demand immediate and verifiable ban of those technologies. To know that governments are in possession of such technologies is to know that the democracy no longer exists.   — Mojmir Babacek’s lecture at the Covert Harassment Conference in Belgium, 11/14

To David:  I may be wrong about Adam helping me, I’ve never looked into his eyes… but I’m not wrong about Dad. Somebody helps me with the blog all the time.  (I just learned how to turn on the TV last year!)  If it’s not him, it’s another goon and that would be great because if Dad gives me the piece of information I’ve been trying to force from him, then maybe they can all be free!  Lots of them do not like torturing people but once they’ve been chipped by their employer there’s no way out.  The intelligence agencies must be abolished and I have a case that can do it.  (Adam and I have a case that can do it.)  They could stop Snowden’s heart anytime they please so he’s never going to expose the real dirt.  I can.  My own father tried to kill me and I’m not afraid of anything.


2:38 pm

I had a long text-conversation with my brother.  (It was made much longer by the fact that my phone has no keyboard and every time I get an incoming message is messes up the response I’m working on.)  I think David’s texts were all questions but I didn’t add punctuation.  It was WONDERFUL to be asked questions after all these years!
Here’s how it went:
L:  I need a phone.  You can afford to give phones to other people who do not work for you.  I should be among that number
D:  Who is that you speak of
D:  Why do I owe u a phone
L:  Because you are a boy and shit gold.
L:  Isaac.  But that doesn’t matter anyway.  I’d use it to help your children.
D:  Wow really and u know all
L:  No.  But I will and I will protect my nieces from being raped like me.  Are you doing that?
D:  Should I tell Isaac that he no longer works for me so I have no phone for him per Linda
L:  Whatever you think fair.  That sounds kinda stupid to me.
D:  What about the others
L:  Yes, I met many others and I pray for them and my evidence will help them too.
D:  How are you protecting yourself from this reoccurring
D:  Well you know how stupid I am
L:  You are not stupid.  You have been taught that you are more valuable than me.
D:  Protection not evidence
D:  Not true
L:  You’re a millionaire.  Do you work harder than me?  Are you smarter?
D:  You make judgments on things you know nothing about
L:  And you make judgments according to what Dad says.  I’d like to know you.
D:  I have knowledge in fields you know nothing about.  I don’t expect to be a lawyer either.  When was last time you did work in that field
L:  I do every day.  I lost my license when I was being tortured and couldn’t pay my bar dues.  Dad almost killed me.
D:  I’m not in competition with you on brains or work  I do things everyday sometimes I struggle and sometimes I succeed but I try each day.  Sorry if I am not your equal  Had prayer with a wonderful group of Christian Brothers this AM at 6.  They are an encouragement to me
L:  I have nobody but God and I’m glad for you.  Do they encourage you into more truth?  Because truth is Jesus
D:  Thanks
L:  Why don’t you come to Vancouver with me and meet this international judge?  I can even pay my own way this time.  God bless you for Brussels.
D:  How do you prevent being tortured now
L:  I can’t keep up with this phone.  Sorry…I don’t get to the new messages… May I send you an email?
D:  What does the judge do
D:  How do you afford Vancouver
L:  I cashed in a life insurance policy.
D:  Sure
L:  Are you serious?  You have a great day!
D:  Have a good rest of the day
D:  Who initiated that policy for you?
L:  Dad
D:  You said you couldn’t text.  Can you or can’t you
L:  I go slow.  No keyboard…incoming messages mess me up.
D:  Are u serious?
L:  I’m so serious that I’ve given up my life.
D:  Oh
D:  Who covers your phone bill now
L:  Phonecard.  George pays me to cook and clean
D:  Is that by choice
L:  Yes.  I gave my life to Jesus and he gave me perfect evidence.
D:  Does he take out taxes
L:  No.  I don’t file.
D:  Jesus died for our sins
L:  Yeah, so we could be his body on Earth.
D:  He is alive and lives within all who believe
L:  He doesn’t like seeing his daughters raped.
D:  No he sure doesn’t
L:  I don’t know how I am protected now.  Adam hacked me and told me what was going on and it stopped.  Except for the cyber-stalking.
D:  Does it come through internet and computers
D:  So Adam saved you from this
D:  Can he save others
L:  We can together.  They tried to set us up.  I haven’t spoken to him since right after the book was published…and just emails.
D:  Have you had anybody helping you since being raped
L:  Just Adam
D:  Maybe he should go with you to Vancouver
L:  I don’t even know if he’s still in Michigan.
D:  You sure it wasn’t Adam doing the stalking to start with
L:  I’ve considered every possibility.
D:  I mean if he could stop what was happening.  Might have started it.
L:  Remember when I told you that Jesus said he was an angel and I should trust him?  It kept me alive.
D:  Jesus is not an angel.  He is Gods son
L:  Adam.  Guess you don’t remember.  You were griping that Adam was an atheist and I said I saw Jesus in him.
D:  God works through all sorts of people.  Doesn’t make them Christian
L:  And lots of ‘christians’ are atheist.  Like Dad.  God said Adam will lead a million people to Jesus.  Guess that didn’t happen yet either.
L:  I bet he’s not an atheist now.  Everything Jesus told me came true.
L:  Except the part about George dying.
D:  God said this to Adam
L:  To me, before any of this started.  I told him.
D:  What if a million were led to Christ by dad.  Would that be unhonourable to God
L:  Of course not…but God doesn’t use liars.
D:  You knew Adam was the answer to ur suffering
L:  I knew nothing but what God said
D:  Think maybe you might have done role reversals?
L:  ?
D:  Adam and Dad
L:  This is very hard.  Could we have coffee sometime?
D:  Guess I can only use my little knowledge of Adam and seeing what Dad does
L:  God never told me to trust Dad.
D:  God told you to not trust him
L:  You do not see what Dad does.  He’s a fraud but Jesus loves him and so do I.
D:  And what of the rest of us?  We people who trust our dad…
next text…Are we not to be trust as well…next text…Shall we expand this group…
L:  I have recorded every conversation we had while he was calling me crazy.  He did not believe it for a minute and admitted he tried to have me locked up.  He took my house.
L:  My readers need me to get back to work and I’m making snickers.  Love you.
L:  I was wrong…God does use liars…’vessels of honor, vessels of dishonor’.  Sorry.
D:  I don’t get it
D:  God only uses to bring glory and honor the dishonor is not of God
L:  He uses everything to bring him glory.  Everything.  Look up the verse I quoted if you want. is pretty easy to use.



10:20 am

12,000 posts, give or take a couple hundred, proving I WAS RIGHT and my father was wrong.  He doesn’t like to be wrong.  He should stand down SOON or he will be proven VERY WRONG.

Text to Dad:  I NEED a phone.  You can afford to give phones to other people who do not work for you.  I should be among that number.


4:59 am

“Why do people lie to themselves? There are any  number of reasons. Sometimes it is because a awareness would compromise one’s pursuit of self interest.”  (Les Visible)


3:46 am

I survived what other people do not survive because of Jesus.  This issue is NOT GOING AWAY, so maybe people should recognize the power of the CREATOR of those who torture others for fun or profit.


3:29 am

I answered the maker of the British documentary:

  1. When did you realize you were targeted?
  2. Do you know if there are others like yourself?
  3. Are your family and friends targeted too?
  4. What were the first thought(s) and emotion(s) that came to you with this realization?
  5. What is being done to you, i.e. how are you targeted?
  6. Has anything changed since then – have they stepped up the harassment and/or torture?
  7. How did you cope with your situation?
  8. Do you have support from family and friends?
  9. What are you doing about it now?
  10. Do you think the targeting is going to end?
1.  I didn’t realize it.  Somebody told me.  I had studied MK-Ultra-history  but never thought I’d experience it myself.  When I noticed “opposition” I recognized its similarity to things I’d studied, but never thought I’d be important enough to be a target.  I realized that I was being tormented, but disregarded the possibility that what I experienced was anything other than demons or human spirits.
2.  Yes.  Four graduates of my former law school are involved in my state’s electronic-harassment support group.  That’s weird.  Also weird is the fact that a woman who spontaneously befriended me in law school, is the daughter of a board member who also weirdly befriended colloquial-me.  My former friend also threw me under the bus in real-life, including discussing me with my neocon-psychopath father…as I was running for US Congress.
I know a woman who was tortured in Oregon.  She and her husband were on the trail until he lost his mind.  When she left her fancy suburban home in a jeep with provisions, he didn’t even know her name anymore.
My ex-husband and children know more than they’re willing to talk about.  I don’t blame them; they watched their significant woman be knocked immobile and raped, repeatedly.  My children’s friends know what I went through.
3.  Duh.
4.  I pray.  My thoughts and emotions are always given to Jesus and returned to me in a different package.  I don’t remember.
5.  I don’t know if I am targeted any longer.  I experienced every single effect on that drawing that I’ve seen a few times:  It’s a human outline with arrows pointing to body parts and describing effects.  I recorded all of them in my novel and notarized journals.  I also experienced the gang-stalking bullshit and recorded those events too.  Cyber-stalking has been my daily reality for years!  Ask a question, I’ve got a story.
6.  It has changed dramatically.  I no longer vomit, see disgusting pictures, or get knocked out.
7.  Prayer and obedience to the voice of God.  (That voice I was already hearing when the perverts showed up in my mind.)
8.  None.  Nada.  Zip.  I’m now divorced and my parents tried to kill me.  Then they tried to lock me up.
9.  Being very grateful that truth is being exposed and that you are doing a documentary and that I have 3,000 dollars for the first time in YEARS  (I lost my law license too, of course…) and I will take my exemplary evidence somewhere where somebody can use it for good.

10.  Yes.  I know that for a fact.  (My original V2K is always right.)



3:08 am

Church-christians sometimes wonder about those whose experience of faith in Jesus Christ has actually changed their lives; I know this because I’ve listened to church-folk.  My mom heard about some church-folk she respected, who went to a DIFFERENT church and were knocked out by the power of God.  She questioned the reality of their experience, of course.  But, she also questioned the lack of reality in her own.  She chose not to investigate the difference.
It is impossible to love Jesus and not “investigate.”  Jesus is TRUTH and truth is a well-hidden commodity in the world and in the “church.”  If we’re not interested in truth, we just are not interested in Jesus.  That’s the bottom line and that is what concerns me about George’s apathy.  My children’s belief in the blood of Jesus was also attacked, but they still seek truth.  One psychopath can damage the faith of a lot of people.  One psychopath will answer to God.
“Lord, I want only your way.  I will to want only those things you want me to have, and to do only those things you want me to do.  I wish to display your majesty and omnipotence to the fullest extent possible.  That means that you have the right to do with me as you will.  (I no longer gasp when I say that.)  I have few personal preferences, and none of them mean anything in light of your plan for humanity.  You put me here now.  Please enable me to become and do whatever it is that you wish for me to become and do.  I trust you.  Please give me grace to trust you more.  Amen.”  “PS- I’ve been thinking about how you asked me to bring your bride from government.  May I know more?”



7:20 pm


Even if I NEVER did anything else but cook, I’m still a genius.  I do not experience the slightest trepidation at sending my thoughts into the universe.  It used to scare me a lot.  Once your own father deems you unworthy of planet-space, a lot of things change.


6:57 pm

It’s so simple.  When I begin to type I have no idea what is going to appear on the screen. But when I look back at it?  It IS SO STINKING RIGHT THAT I ALMOST BELIEVE IN MYSELF! Somebody, tell me where’ I’m wrong?

6:39 pm

A whole lot of people would like to see me succeed in my quest to demolish the NSA.  Most cannot contribute to my goal because 1) their security clearance will not permit it, or 2) I DO NOT HAVE A CHIP-IN ACCOUNT.  To family and dear ones, my mailing address is Linda GOLDTHORPE, 2693 CR 377, McMillan, Michigan  49853.  I could use some help as I seek to clear the way for your children to continue as humans and not become robots. (Unless they already are.  I guess that’s between you and God.)



6:17 pm

I got the money to go to Vancouver, if the guy will talk to me.  If not, I’ll take my information somewhere else.  (I made a milky chicken stew to go over biscuits.)  It seems to me that the highest form of stupidity would be to say, “I refuse to listen to you.  Also, I choose to disbelieve you.”  I forgive George, he doesn’t read.  Everybody else should ask me some questions I think.  I think George is a perfect example of how NOT to be a husband and father.  He’s a very generous person.  We sometimes mistake that attribute for love.  I know I used to do that, until my dad taught me otherwise.

Selfish though, is not love either.  Love has nothing to do with material stuff.  Love is about wanting the very best for another person…even if his/her “very best” is not our idea of good at all.  This is truth.  My rich father taught me that,  by creating my deprivation and offering my men trinkets of presumed affection.  “Thank you Lord, for my dad.”

I swear, if I go two hours without having something to say, I don’t even feel right.  I could do this forever!  (“Please Lord,  do not make me do this forever.”)

However.  “Where a man’s capital gains are, there will his heart be also.”    (It’s in the Bible.  I’d give references if  ANYBODY WOULD CALL ME!)  (906-291-1376)

My mother and father are beneficiaries of a life insurance policy against my longevity.  I don’t like that very much, and I plan to change the beneficiary to be Isaac.  He knows I don’t give a shit if my body were buried, or permitted to bleach white on the beach.  He’s my beneficiary.  (That company  changed my name without even seeing the divorce decree…over the PHONE!  They were not in India.  Maybe my dad’s dealings with this company are not indicative of his overall stupidity?  It’s possible.)


10:35 am

I told George I was being interviewed for a British documentary on remote electronic torture.  He said, “I’m sorry Linda, I’m still not convinced.”  I said, “Why should I give a shit if you believe it?  You’ve refused to look at the evidence for six years!  You’ve not been interested in anything I did!  I wrote love letters to another man and you didn’t want to see them!  “George.  I’m telling Adam I love him.  I think he needs to hear it.”  George said:  “OK. Here, try this marijuana bud that I grew to the abandonment of all other holy things…”   I am not shitting anybody here. The very-kind man has no feelings.  No interests.  No friends.  He saves dirty paper cups.  Why indeed, should I give a shit what he believes?  Yet, I do.  He used to believe in miracles.  Until my dad caused him to believe a lie.  I asked, “George, why IN THE WORLD do you think you had to pick me up from the floor seven thousand times and I vomited every day?”  He said, “Linda, I don’t have an explanation for that.”  I said:   “I  DO!  I do have an explanation for that, would you like to learn about it?”  What do you think he said?



10:20 am

Text to my father, my mother and my brother.  (Heck, maybe I’ll even send one to Isaac.  He should keep up on current events.):

“They want me to participate in a British documentary.  You’re going to look pretty stupid if you don’t come clean pretty soon.”

I hope they don’t want me on TV…I hate being on TV.  I can do it though.  I beat my congressman so thoroughly in a TV debate that the next week everybody was talking about the traumatic brain injuries coming home from Iraq.  My father should have watched me on TV.




9:54 am

I’ve been asked to participate in a British documentary about  COVERT HARASSMENT OF INNOCENT CITIZENS:

Hey Linda,
I’m sending you some basic questions for now. Then, if you could, send me your responses via email. I’ll have a read and then formulate some more questions based on your situation. That way, the interview will, hopefully, flow more smoothly.


Questions for the interview


  1. When did you realize you were targeted?
  2. Do you know if there are others like yourself?
  3. Are your family and friends targeted too?
  4. What were the first thought(s) and emotion(s) that came to you with this realization?
  5. What is being done to you, i.e. how are you targeted?
  6. Has anything changed since then – have they stepped up the harassment and/or torture?
  7. How did you cope with your situation?
  8. Do you have support from family and friends?
  9. What are you doing about it now?
  10. Do you think the targeting is going to end?


9:49 am

I responded to two of the questions right away:

Number 5:  I WAS RAPED.  I was repeatedly raped, body and mind, and knocked immobile until my sons or ex-husband would pick me up from the floor!  I vomited every single day.

Linda Goldthorpe <>

9:33 AM (15 minutes ago)

10.  Yes, the targeting will end.  Yes.  I kept amazingly obsessive records.  I will do whatever it takes.


9:21 am

Isaac, from his latest foray:


That man is most often RIGHT.


See more at:



8:14 am

Alfred Lambremont Webre
Vancouver, BC   Canada
Dear Mr. Webre:
I don’t know if my email will get through, so I’ll send another copy via US mail.  (It was funny in Belgium to hear all the TI’s say that kind of thing.  I was hoping to meet you there.)  I believe you and Annett have a heart for humanity, and I’d like to offer my story.  I don’t know when my torture began; there are four victims in my state’s small support group who attended my law school.  In 2009, when I was running for Congress a second time (I was endorsed by Dr. Ron Paul in 2008) my psychopath-neocon father told the police I was dangerous, then I noticed my life becoming stranger.  (Earlier I had attributed my torture to natural or spiritual causes.)  I used to be a lawyer and recognize that I have inadvertently compiled some really substantial evidence about the use of electronic torture.  I published a book, in 2011, wherein I referred to psychotronic effects as “the haunting” and “spirits.”  I also recorded my experiences in 2-years of journals, which I swore to before a notary public;  I haven’t seen them since,  and their chain of control is fully documented.
I’d like to talk to you about my evidence, and how it could be used to eliminate the use of psychotronic weaponry.  I’d like to come to Vancouver to speak with you.  Would that be possible?  Thank you for what you do to make the world better for my children.
Linda Goldthorpe  (906-291-1376)
Madness and Politics…but I repeat myself   (Available on Amazon)




8:10 am

The fact that mind control technologies are classified is the reason why mind control technologies can be used on innocent people. The governments are perfectly aware of the fact that once the citizens know that their governments are in possession of technology which can be used to control citizen’s thinking and bodily functions, the citizens would demand immediate and verifiable ban of those technologies.

From the Covert Harassment Conference in Belgium, November 2014:

covert harassment conference 2014


the ways to defeat the secrecy surrounding the existence of mind control technology

Mojmir Babacek’s lecture


In the past decade there is an obvious trend in the world politics to place the struggle for power above the struggle for democracy. This can be exemplified by the current situation in Ukraine. You probably know that in the recent elections the majority of eastern Ukrainians did not vote for parties promoting ukrainian membership in the European Union.  All the same the democratic European Union and the democratic USA support the war of western Ukrainians against their eastern co-patriots while  democratic Russia supports the eastern Ukrainians in the war against western Ukrainians. Isn’t this an evidence that in the contemporary world democracy is not the priority for the power elites and financial entities behind them?

The issue of classification of mind control technologies is part of this favorisation of power above democracy. There would be no reason to hide those technologies from people if we were living in the world where democracy would prevail.

The fact that mind control technologies are classified  is the  reason why mind control technologies can be used on innocent people. The governments are perfectly aware of the fact that once the citizens know that their governments are in possession of technology which can be used to control citizen’s thinking and bodily functions, the citizens would demand immediate and verifiable ban of those technologies. To know that governments are in possession of such technologies is to know that the democracy no longer exists. For that matter our effort to disseminate information on the existence of this technology among  people is an effort to save democracy and the salvation of democracy can be defined as well as a goal of  this conference.

For the victims of experimentation with those technologies, the classification of those technologies is the major obstacle on their way back to freedom and good health. Once the technology enabling remote control of human nervous system is declassified, the only possible follow up is the legislation banning the use of those technologies and establishing teams capable to measure and detect the harmfull radiations and find their sources.  The victims targeted by those radiations will be able to demand the verification of the use of those technologies against their persons and their torture will come to the end. The major problem is that so far only very few people are affected by those radiations and they have no chance to prevail in democratic process since they are small in numbers.

     There are several ways to attract the attention of  larger masses of people to the issue of mind control technologies and make the  lawmakers and government officials work toward the ban of the use of radiations controlling the functioning of human nervous system:

     The first approach is disseminating the convincing evidence on the existence of mind control technologies via Internet. There is certain amount of published scientific experiments proving that pulsed microwaves can produce effects in human nervous system including auditory hallucinations and microwave hearing. This scientific evidence can be supported by information from the websites of ministries of defence of NATO states which are engaged in the development of non lethal weapons including radiofrequency weapons acting on human nervous system as is stated in the study of the European Parliament entitled Crowd Control Technologies  For example on the site of the ministry of defense of the Czech Republic we can read:  “High frequency electromagnetic radiation. disrupts the activity of the brain and the central nervous system. The effect is perceived by the individual at the same time as an unbearable painfull sensation of intense hum and squeaking accompanied by anxiety and uneasiness depending on the precise conditions and parameters of the signal”. Apparently in order to hide this information from the Czech public this article is no more accessible directly from the webpage of the Czech ministry of defense, though you can still find it on the site of the ministry, if you know the exact address of the article Further evidence for the fact that at least certain governments are in possession of mind control technologies can be found in political actions aimed either at the ban of mind control technologies or at their military use.

     Russia was proposing the ban of radio wave weapons which it considered to be weapons of mass destruction in the U.N. Committee on Disarmamment already in 1986. The only negative vote on the committee cast the USA and so those weapons were not banned. In 1998 Russia  addressed the United Nations, OSCE and the European Council with a proposal for an international convention banning the development and use of informational weapons. Until that point of time there were presented four bills proposing the ban of mind control technologies in the Russian parliament. The European union cooperated with Russia in the following year and in 1999 the European parliament passed the resolution calling for the ban of manipulation of human beings. Evidently Russia and the European union cooperated in order to prevent  advances in the  construction of the American system HAARP which apparently can be used to manipulate nervous systems of whole populations.  It seems to be rather evident that the convention banning the development and use of informational weapons was not signed again due to the resistance of the USA. Quite to the opposite they managed to convince the countries of the European Union to accept the development of non-lethal weapons into their military doctrines and abandon their effort to ban mind control technologies. In 2001 Dennis J. Kucinich opposed the decision of the U.S. government to keep their mind control technologies and presented in the U.S. Congres  the Space Preservation Act bill demanding among others the ban of those technologies. However his effort did not last long. After the long silence on this issue in 2012 Russia, facing the danger that its nuclear weapons will no more pose a threat to the USA, choose the opposite path of action and the Russian defense minister declared that psychotronic weapons are part of the Russian state arms procurement program for the period from 2011 to 2020

Those actions of governments and members of parliaments together with above mentioned scientific publications present convincing evidence that devices enabling remote manipulation of human body’s functions and brain activity actually exist.

The trouble is that if you gather this kind of evidence and publish it on Internet, since no big media dare to publish classified information, your publication on Internet is targeted by government agencies. For example when I published the article How Far in the Future is the Ban of Psychotronic Weapons, messages refering to my international webpage were blocked on  Facebook as spam and on Twitter as malware and finaly both my webpages (in Czech and English language) containing this information were deleted from Internet. The western and especially American secret services apparently did not want to allow to happen, in a western hemisphere, an event comparable to the Arab Spring.

We would need a systematic work to expose this activity of government agencies to the Internet public. It would mean to record with a camera the sites with this information when they are placed on Internet and as well to record with a camera when they are no more available  or when the reference to them is blocked on Facebook or Twitter. The video, proving this work of government angencies should then be placed together with a new webpage address of the text in question on YouTube and the whole story should be described in articles published on Internet. To avoid a repression by the state agencies this work should be done not by only one person, but by a group of people. This would be the way to make masses of people aware that the state agencies are hiding from them their possession of technologies enabling remote control of human mind and body. If anyone wants to take part in this effort, please write me at the

    Second way to fight the secrecy surrounding weapons enabling remote control of human nervous system is to inform the deputies of parliaments about the existence of those technologies. Most of them apparently do not have security clearances to obtain this kind of information. I have talked to two deputies of the Czech parliament and evidently none of them was aware of the possibility of remote control of the functioning of human nervous system. Yet evidently when they are not aware of the existence of mind control technologies, they do not feel the obligation to implement the ban of their use. Anyway we know that deputies do not care for the issues about which the general public does not care. So  the public pressure for the ban of mind control technologies is needed to make the deputies  feel obliged to work toward this goal. The MP’s should be addressed individually and we should make sure that they have received the information and citizens should be made aware which MP’s were informed. Again this could be done only by an organized group of people and this should be the same group of people who would try to inform the general public. A list should be established on Internet dedicated strictly to this effort.

     The third way how to make the governments and legislative bodies enact the legislation banning the mind control technology and establish teams capable to detect those harmfull radiations is to present the evidence of the feasibility of this technology to constitutional courts  and demand them to suggest the verifiable ban of development, possession and use of technologies enabling remote manipulation of human nervous system. The problem is that constitutional courts usually are not authorized to suggest  new legislations. At least in the Czech Republic the constitutional court does not have this right so far. The only way around it is to file a lawsuit in the regular court and if it denies the action than challenge its decision with the constitutional court. The trouble is that to file a meaningfull lawsuit we need an irrevocable evidence. Hopefully it can be acquired   it with the use of various detection devices.

    The  irrevocable evidence is the evidence developed in a scientific way. Most of the detectors available on the market are capable to detect frequencies up to 8 GHz. Most scientists experimenting with effects of pulsed microwave radiation on human brain came to a conclusion that carrier microwave frequencies above 3 GHz do not have any effects. The reason is that the higher the microwave frequency is the faster it is absorbed in the human tissue and for that matter it does not penetrate deep enough into the brain to produce there any effects. All the same there are windows at frequencies above 3 GHz where the electromagnetic waves will penetrate deep enough into the brain tissue to produce effects on nervous system. Among those frequencies are frequencies of the red light and near infrared light. Red light, with wavelength from 620  to 750 nanometers,  penetrates, about 1centimeter deep into the brain tissue and is capable to affect about one quarter of the brain gray matter. Near infrared light with wave lengths between 700 and 800 nanometers penetrates normally 3 to 4 centimeters deep into the tissue, but when the geometrical shape of a wave of near infrared light is changed this light can be made to penetrate up to 20 centimeters deep into the human tissue. The fact that red and near infrared lights penetrate into the human tissue is explained by the fact that the average wavelength of the activity of cell tissue in the human body ranges between 600 nanometers and 720 nanometers which match frequencies of red and infrared light. There are studies suggesting the ability of near infrared light to affect the activity of nerve fibres (pg.6).

     To make human nervous system more susceptible to be controlled by pulsed frequencies of light no microchips are needed. The scientists developed viruses which can make neurons susceptible to react to pulsed frequencies of light . So now to make a human being susceptible to manipulation of his nervous system you only need to make him eat some contaminated food or to undergo a  vaccination. Just two examples: one of the pioneers of this research Gero Miesenbock cut off the head of a fly and than used the pulsed light to order its body to fly and it did fly Another one, Carl Diesenroth, made the mouse to run making only left turns with the use of pulsed light

     However red and near infrared lights do not penetrate walls and other optical barriers  and for that matter could not be used for continuous manipulation of human nervous system. As well the red light is visible and could be detected rather easily. There is a question whether the same viruses which could make neurons react to light will make them react to microwave frequencies from 100 Megahertz to 3 Gigahertz, which penetrate into human brain. If they will not, most probably,  there is no problem for contemporary science to develop viruses which would make neurons react as well to microwave frequencies.

     The frequencies of near infrared light, which is invisible, can be detected by special detectors As well there is a question whether wave shapes of frequencies above 3 GHz could not be doctored up to make them penetrate into human tissue. On Internet detectors for frequencies used by NATO (20 – 40 GHz) can be found

     Anyhow extensive experimentation with the available devices should be carried out in search of the evidence of the use of so called “psychoactive” pulsed microwave frequencies on human beings. If it is found, it should be presented  to media and courts. Such evidence should be sufficient reason for them to demand the legislation banning the possession and use of mind control technologies to private persons as well as to organizations and government agencies. It is obvious that media as well as the courts will want to verify this evidence at the scientific laboratories. For that matter it is worth effort to ask scientific laboratories for the verification of this evidence even before it is presented to the media or courts. Many scientists are kind people and when facing convincing evidence recorded on video they may be willing to verify it using their precise equipment.

     Now what convincing evidence means. According to various studies the power density of electromagnetic radiation in the cities is most of the times no more than 5 microwatts per square centimeter. However in an Indian city the measurement reached 1mw per square centimeter. Most scientists, who experimented with the effects of microwave radiation on human organism agreed that the necessary power density does not exceed  10 mW/per  sqare centimeter. In the experiment by Allen H. Frey with microwave auditory effect the average power density varied for different frequencies and pulse widths  from 0,4 mW per square centimeter to 7,1 milliwat per square centimeter. In Ross Adey’s experiments with calcium efflux from nervous system, the efflux occurred only within the range of power density from 0,1 to 1mW per square centimeter or in other units he had the best results when using the intensity of electromagnetic field of 10 V per meter and 56 V per meter. For the fact, that power density of mind control frequencies is close to electromagnetic smog in the cities it is advisable to make the measurements of power density outside of  cities. The measurements should be made as far away from the cell phone antennas as possible and away from power lines underneath which the intensity of electromagnetic field may reach 100 V per meter  and as far away as possible from high voltage power lines underneath which the  intensity of electromagnetic field may reach 10.000 V per meter. The measured person should be approaching the measuring person from distance so that the measuring person could see and record on video camera whether the power density is rising with the approaching measured person. The experiment should be repeated several times. The device for measurement in Volts per meter of intensity of electromagnetic fields in frequencies from 5 Hz to 400 KHz (with accuracy 1 microwatt per square centimeter) and power density of electromagnetic fields in frequencies from 300 Megahertz to 2000 Megahertz (2 Gigahertz) in milliwats per square centimeter can be found on Internet as Electromagnetic radiation detector DT-1180 and can be bought for 21 U.S. dollars.

     As for frequency counters it is rather impossible to find evidence of  microchips in the city as well as outside of the city due to the overwhelming presence of electromagnetic waves in the modern environment. But there are caves or ancient mines accessible to the public, where electromagnetic waves in microwave frequencies do not penetrate. Personnel at those sites does not object to performing measurements at their facilities. If the chip is not getting its energy from the outside antenna, it should be working  still when it is in the cave or mine.  It should be measured by frequency counter (the frequency counter Aceco FC-6002 Mk2 registering frequencies up to 6 Gigahertz can be bought for 149 euros) as well as by a device measuring the power density and the measurements should be recorded on the camera. The measurements should be repeated on the same spot in absence of the measured person and on a person which is not claiming to be targeted by brain control radiation and they should be repeated several times in front of the camera. The video recordings should be then presented to scientists who have access to electromagnetically shielded rooms and they should be asked to verify the presence of the chip with their equipment. The scientific evidence should be than presented to the media and courts. (To save money one could start with buying only the Electromagnetic radiation detector). If anybody finds the evidence I would be glad if he lets me know at the e-mail address .

    There is one more experiment which could be worth effort, though it would not bring out any objective evidence. It should be tried  how much the experience of a person who claims to be targeted would change when the magnetic field in which it is situated changes. When Ross Adey carried out his experiments with calcium efflux from neurons, other scientists found out that they had to use different frequencies of microwave pulses than Ross Adey to obtain the same results. When searching for the reason of this phenomenon, they found out that those were the variations of the strength of the magnetic field of the Earth at the locations of their experiments which were responsible for the variations in effective pulse frequencies in their experiments. Finally Ross Adey placed next to chicken brains he was experimenting with a Helmholtz coil, which cut in half the Earth magnetic fields. Now to cause the efflux of calcium from neurons he needed instead of pulse frequency of 15 Herz a frequency of microwave pulses of 30 Herz.  The explanation for this phenomenon is the cyclotron resonance.  For that matter it would be important to see if the experience of a targeted person would change in the presence of a strong artificial magnetic field or Helmholtz coil. In the 70’s of the past century the hair dryers helmets produced magnetic fields of about 30 Gauss. The strength of the Earth magnetic field varies from 0,25 to 0,65 Gauss). If the current hair dryers helmets still  produce strong magnetic fields it would be worth effort to see if the experience of a targeted person would change, when it is drying its hair in the helmet (If not it would be worth a try to buy someplace the old helmet). If the experience of several persons claiming to be targeted would change due to the effect changed Earth’s  magnetic field this would be a definitive proof that those persons are subjected to the effects of pulsed microwave radiation and the  only remaining problem would be to find the carrier frequency used against those individuals (if anybody tries it, please let me know the results at the ). Another way to experience a strong artificial magnetic field would be to undergo examination with magnetic resonance which usually lasts more than half an hour. Solenoid would work as well.

     I believe there should be a list created on Internet  dedicated strictly to scientific research concentrating on the possibility of the use of pulsed electromagnetic waves against people.

     Some eight years ago I have seen on Internet a proposal by Chinese scientists to develop a direct brain to brain communication with the use of the concept of non local electron and photon connection. You probably know that this concept of quantum physics states that when two electrons or photons make an encounter, ever since their reactions are coupled no matter how far away they are from each other. It sounds quite feasible that if the photons and electrons in two brains or in a brain and a neurocomputer are made to meet, the two brains or a brain and a neurocomputer will become intertwined. As we have seen in this lecture the near infrared light can be made to penetrate 20 centimeters deep into the brain. Perhaps this could be the way how  to make acquainted the photons in two brains and interconnect one brain with the other brain or with the computer simulating brain activity. I am aware that to detect such a malicious act by some government organization is rather impossible once it was done. I wonder whether the weapons using unknown physical concepts, the development of which the Russians recently announced, include this concept. The possible defense against this kind of manipulation of human brain could be the replacement of “acquainted” photons in the brain by new photons by means of a long exposure to near infrared light. If anybody tries it, it would be worth effort to get the near  infrared light generator generating the light penetrating 20 cm deep into the tissue (with adjusted wave shape). He should as well make sure that it does not generate near infrared light which is warming up the tissue and could cause him a brain damage. The near infrared light is warming up the tissue only by 0,2 degree Celsius. If anybody tries this method, please let me know the results at the e-mail .

         To conclude my lecture I would like to stress one more time that in the modern times, with incredible advances the science and technology are making, the ban to access human brain by various radiations  from the part of governments or malicious organizations or individuals should be embedded in constitutions of all of the countries of the world. Otherwise the concepts of independence of a human being and democracy will be destroyed.

     At present time the major obstacle to reaching this goal is the effort of the USA and its financial and corporate elites to reach global power instead of sharing it with Russia, the European union and other democratic countries as well as with China. If the human world is supposed to have any humanistic and democratic future the struggle for world dominance by individual governments must be stopped.




6:13 am

Text to my dad:  “I should go to Vancouver to meet with an international judge.  This is another opportunity for you.  Wanna take me?”


5:12 am

It’s hard to accept that our government would lie to us about important historical events, each and every time we learn that they have.  Shouldn’t it be easier to believe they lied to us about everything?  Instead, we struggle with each new disclosure of their past duplicity.  Each individual example is really hard to believe.  Taken as standard operating procedure however, it’s much easier on one’s nervous system. It’s like finding out my dad is a psychopath…it explained lots of things that never made sense.  Taken as a whole, I’m a lot more comfortable. Falsus in unim, falsus in omnibus.
I woke up very happy this morning, I’m going to have friends again!  Also, my family will respect me so maybe they’ll be my friends too!  I woke up listening to my spirit.  As I was coming around I could hear myself thanking God for all the things he’s done.  There’s no time with him, so every word he’s ever spoken to me is already reality!  I’m a sign and a wonder and I’ve helped a lot of people!  “Thank you, Lord!”  (He says I’m kind of a sweetheart.)




5:05 am


You Deserve The Glory {Lyrics} ❦Terry McAlmon❧





8:28 pm

“Just a little insight as to the complicity of our government in lying to our own people about what we’re doing overseas…  Whether it’s 70 years ago or today, these things go on.”

Life Magazine (1945) Pearl Harbor Inside Job!


8:15 pm

Isaac called because his house hosted a hoedown and the cops delivered their greetings.  Two tickets, “disturbing quiet enjoyment of home…”  Isaac was sleeping downstairs at the time; he should be able to take care of this.  Apparently a guest screamed “fuck the cops” at the same moment the boys in blue were passing their house.  They have a sign on the front door, Isaac never saw it.  Apparently his roommates have decided to become political since Ferguson, and have lain in the streets in front of cars.  In Boulder.  He should have no problem with any of this.  I told him to suck up,  and to put his points in parentheses.  He needs to take notes.  He’a up to it.  I asked if he wants to go to Vancouver with me, Josh said no.  If I can get money from my dad’s death-bet against my life I’d really like to go.  I think this is important.  He said his roommates badgered him to call me, a Michigan lawyer who ran for Congress.  He said he forgot to tell them the part about “family-fuck-up.”


5:12 pm

“He is light and in Him is no darkness at all.”


This one goes out to Jesus (he knows I don’t mean to be irreverent and he’s a lot of fun):


5:04 pm

I’m seeing into my dad’s mind a lot more clearly.  (At first, the sixth sense feels like you’re swirling around the sink.   It feels like you’re going down…but instead of a dark drain, when you get to the center,  things are very light.  “Lord, more light please.”)  Despite not liking himself, my father cannot either,  like any thing,  that is not like him.  He cannot be wrong, must not be wrong, and having a daughter who called him “WRONG” would not be tolerated by his pampered ego.  (Personally, I’d love for somebody to tell me I’m wrong.  I really would…)  I couldn’t possibly CONTINUE to disagree with him…unless I was crazy!  But, he and the goons couldn’t make me crazy. So he stepped up his game.  I had to be eliminated.  How perfect if I committed suicide?  How perfectly ironic to make martyr of his firstborn,  at the idol of “mental illness?”      Etc, etc.   (Someday you ALL will want to look at my notes.  And I’ll let you look.  After the paying customers.)



2:56 pm

As long as a single person has a single dollar in the bank, while at the same time a single person lacks a single necessity…we’re an evil race.


2:24 pm

It occurs to me that among the few who do not yet believe that my father tried to kill me, are those thoughtful souls who believe I could not possibly be so blase’ about his malevolence,  that I could not talk rationally if my father had really tried to kill me.  I hear that.  However, I am so saturated in 1) the evil of man on this planet, and 2) the love of JESUS who means for NONE to perish, that I can recognize my father’s depravity as merely an extension of man’s condition and predisposition.  I love my father.  That he is incapable of feeling love, or pity, or remorse…is as expected.  He’s “of the world.”  Look it up.


1:50 pm

These are serious times, the most serious ever.  If we begin to recognize this fact, we respond in one of two ways:  1) we get scared, or 2) we get faith.  There’s no middle ground, the road has split beneath our feet.  We must choose one path or the other.  It’s true and I’m here to tell ya.




1:47 pm

Eagerly anticipated end of my digital-filibuster, best-case scenario:  OK.  The BEST thing that could happen is for Jesus to perform a MAJOR miracle, as a human being, and through the power of the Holy Spirit, that would 1) demonstrate reality, 2) deliver us from the need to die or even wanna tell a lie, and 3) motivate us towards love and truth.  Oh wait, he already did that and it didn’t work.  Second-best-case scenario:  The FEWEST possible number of people continue to LIE and continue to DIE.  The remnant pays attention, wakes up, and joins the army of the Lord.  (This is what I anticipate, because I read the Bible.)  Liars and die-ers will envision another, terrible outcome.  Their potential reality will be obliterated along with their DNA.  “As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.”  When they’re gone, we’ll be safe from their catastrophic…chosen…reality.




12:11 pm

I dislike cooking for George.  I made Swedish pancakes this morning; they’re Josh’s favorite and he eats them with Nutella, raspberry jam, caramel topping  and heavy cream.  George ate his standing at the counter between me and where I was working.  When I finished cooking pancakes, he announced that he would sit at the counter to continue eating.  He said that they should take away all the chairs in the dining room at the prison.  He said inmates wouldn’t sit and chat so long.  I said I thought it was a human right to share a meal with others and talk.  I said that I don’t think they get too much “normal.”  He said, “They have lots of time to chat.”  I said, “I THINK IT’S A HUMAN RIGHT TO SIT DOWN TO A MEAL…and what else do they have to look forward to?”  I remember Bible camp and how meals were always a welcome diversion from the long sessions of indoctrination.  I remember getting up at 7 with (maybe five) other people for a “polar bear plunge.”  ( I’ve always wanted to live a life of spontaneity but could never afford one.)   Prisoners cannot EVER enjoy normal things.  I guess that’s the point of incarceration; the US has certainly spoken to the ages-long dilemma of whether incarceration’s goal was to rehabilitate, or to punish.  George recited the entire scene from “Heart-Break Ridge” where Gunny teaches the Swede a lesson.  He’s so bad-ass when he talks.  I can’t tolerate such false bravado.  I do though.  “Thank you Jesus.  Please give me patience.  Forgive me for judging George.”  “Please have mercy on the prisoners who are begrudged their right to eat as humans do…even by the most kind-hearted of my government’s jail-keepers. Have mercy on the jail-keepers who “know not what they do.”


10:04 am

Sometimes a girl’s GOTTA  BE ANNOYING

Baby nose mommy: This baby doesn't want mommy to sleep so she tries picking mommy's nose to wake her

9:40 am

I’m trying something new:  I’m not going to ask Josh to tend the fire, and I’m not going to do it myself  if somebody else in the house is awake.  I’m not going to wake from my own sleep, to check if anybody has put wood on the stove.   I figure if it gets cold enough (it’s still up to 57 degrees in the living room, so it may take awhile…) Josh will just learn to do it.  This is my new “don’t ask don’t tell” policy.
I also have an old policy, betting against my survival.  I’d forgotten about the life insurance since I always just throw away envelopes from my dad’s “Christian financial services” people.  The premium is 400 dollars and I’ve gotten a statement every Christmas.  It looks all paid up, and it’s still in my former name so I should contact them.  I think I’ll cash it in, the money could 1) get Josh a passport, 2) bring Isaac home for the holidays, and 3) get me to Vancouver to meet with the citizen’s tribunal judge who is focusing  on covert harassment. I don’t suppose I can call the insurance people on Sunday, those are Christians.



3:55 am

Dave & Kim Dortch – Family Battles Police Harassment in Riverside County

3:27 am

I give my dad about six months, he won’t be able to turn on his own TV.  Kinda late then, to adopt a lifestyle of truthfulness.  Or even stop drooling long enough to regret it.



3:16 am


Blues Brothers – Rawhide


I haven’t fully relaxed since 2009.
Here’s an example of when a dumb-ass abandons the ranks of the conscious:  My dad.  Now he’s been told that I’m movin’ on… with the truth of our current situation as human pioneers on terra-sorta-firma.  He’s just not coming along.  He says, with his eyes held perfectly open and not blinking and kinda glazey and looking like they’ve practiced just such behavior:  I don’t know what you’re talking about, Lin.  

2:48 am

“Once anti-Semitism was hate of the Jews; now it has become saying anything that Jews hate.”


2:47 am

“How the settlers spit on Christians In the land where Jesus died— And how those who do the spitting Have the world upon their side.”

She Died for Palestine



“The difference between a Jewish soul and the soul of non-Jews

is greater and deeper than the difference between a human soul

and the soul of cattle.”

Rabbi Kook


“I know Christians who lock themselves indoors during the entire Purim holiday,”—  Daniel Rossing.


In memory of Rachel Corrie

Like all things pure and precious

Like holy bread and wine

I love the radiant Rachel

Who died for Palestine.


Read more at:




5:22 pm

I’m so agitated I can barely focus.  God is going to do something; he didn’t give this kind of evidence to a person with my energy for nothing.  I can sign onto the coming campaign, I never really did that before.  Isaac always said the campaigns would have been fun if I’d wanted to win; I didn’t care.  I was really disinterested in politics. But now I’m very interested, now that the elites are on the run.  I can’t wait to go, I can’t wait to talk to people.  I can’t wait to participate in the destruction of the NSA!
“It works in our favor when the matrix rejects us.”  (Zen Gardner)


10:59 am

BUMP TO THE TOP, from 5/23/13


Some  journal entries, just after I returned from Mexico and Florida because my boss was a liar and wouldn’t pay me.

I figured out one reason I like to be in a car so much.  No housework beckons from dirty corners.  No clothes to fold, usually.  The atmosphere is very extravagant.  I can run the heat at 90, knowing that as long as I keep moving, there will always be heat.  I love to roll my windows down, as the heat burns, knowing that as long as the alternator keeps working I can have any temperature I want.  I do not need to calculate the btu’s I must split/carry/haul/drag/stuff into an outdoor woodstove.   I do not need to think of how many btu’s I’m wasting, by desiring a more pleasing fire indoors.  I can feel the air as I please.  I require air.  I require different kinds.
Another reason for loving cars is, of course, their portability.
Dear God, did I just confess to being a Goldthorpe after all?  On a puny scale, yet still?
I do not require a Jaguar, or a Range Rover or even a BMW.  I require leather.  I require a good sound system.  I require that my car be “American” and that it be discreet.  I would prefer a 350 engine or above, but mileage might win in a duel.  (I’d take a Saab.)
I also love a car, any car, if it runs, because a moving car is the finest prayer-closet yet developed.  The Spirit comes along and talks, he’s always moving, and if you’re going his way he’ll hitch a ride.  He’ll tell you stories, as you drive.  They’re better than the often-moving stories I hear from all the hitchhikers I pick up.  (A hitchhiker is much more likely to be harmed by a “cruising” driver than the other way around.)  The Spirit will make you cry and hope nobody notices, if you’re in the city.  He loves the cities.  He doesn’t love what the cities do.  He loves me.  He loves me in my car.
6 am.  31 degrees.  George has four days off.  We went to Manistique yesterday and he bought groceries, vodka, beer, cigarettes, a dvd player, marijuana, a phone charger for Isaac, sandals for me, and Clyde’s hamburgers.  He says of course I can stay.  I just have to not criticize.  Josh lost his job.  I had him at work every single day last summer, but it’s only May and after calling in sick for a couple weeks, he has been replaced.  I told George I thought it was a problem that a nearly 17 year-old boy could not keep a job filling pots with dirt.  He said he disagreed.  I said that I believed a near-man had to have a purpose and had to accomplish things.  He said he disagreed.  I suppose I was almost criticizing him.  Last time we were home, Kevin instructed Josh to go to work despite the cough.  I actually thought he might.  The courts seem to think that Kevin is a threat to children.  If only I had married such a threat.
Even if we’re not presented a burning bush, observing anomalies in one’s experience is easy.  This observation is necessary to recognize the voice of God.  Knowing oneself is paramount.  You don’t need to know what you can and/or would ever do; that’s impossible.  To recognize anomalies of experience, you have to know what you cannot do.  Every day I do something I’m not capable of doing.  That’s God.  I’m the only one who sees him this way, in my life.  Nobody else knows how pitiful I really am.  If anybody knew, he/she would spend less time fighting me.  And maybe get a magical life of his own.
George took my father’s side, over me.  This, after I showed him Henry Gruver expounding on the word God gave him and we absorbed many years ago.  I asked, “Do you actually think it matters who you make deer-camp keys for?  It’s happening!”  He said,  rather defiantly, for him, “I’ll ask your father if you can have one.”  I am so surprised that his testicles are useful for anything at all.  I went to bed and slept 11 hours.  Isaac and George went to my camp.  Josh stayed up all night.  His chair should be wearing out soon.
“We appeal to you, holy servant boy, to come and walk among us.”  (His people, to St. Patrick)
Gruver banished all the snakes from an island near Okinawa.


10:51 am

BUMP TO THE TOP,  from 4/17/14


Derivatives as a verbal concept.  Sets up a similar situation to the financial derivatives.
Do we choose our own prisons?  I suspect that must be true.  I used to be a little bit Calvinist.  I still believe God controls every detail of my puny life, but I now recognize the overwhelming influence of my free will.  (I now also believe God big enough to pull off both extremes without negating the tiniest element of either.  He’s God.)  I do not choose anything.  I’m presented with options, they make me giddy.  I’m permitted to evaluate and compare.  I’m made to feel pride when I notice imperceptible differences.  Whispers.  When I choose, creation snickers.  I suspect humans are the only faction of creation that indulges pride.  The flowers shake their heads when they watch us interact with our creator.  We’re uppity and we’re pitiful.  We’re also beautiful and God’s best effort.  We’re going up!  And we’re going down.  This is a great time to be me.  This is the best time ever, to be human.
Humans are part of God’s creation that he established on this mineral-chunk in the ether somewhere.  We are his business.  Time has been established for our eternal benefit, but it will not be our eternal experience.  We’re moving on and if people choose to remain behind they may.

3:59 am

Zen Gardner – Occult Symbology & Death Worship Unleashed on the Unsuspecting Public

“Symbols support programming”



3:50 am

I don’t know what negative thing I’ve been feeling since I got up.  It’s not condemnation.  It’s not fear or self-pity. Once I’ve identified the enemy, I’ll have to try to determine whether it’s spiritual or electronic.  Or some incantation by some evil-thinker.  Maybe I’ve been cursed inadvertently?  Bringing “every thought captive” is a lot of work and it’s becoming harder.  We’ll have a very difficult time of it until the intelligence entities are demolished.  I can’t strike the head, since my dad is stonewalling, so I think the next best thing I could do is to tell people about the Covert Harassment Conference, and its implications for humanity’s survival.  I’m preparing some notes for when I speak.  I need a phone to make arrangements.  I need to go to Vancouver.

3:45 am


Wonderful Words of Life [Live]

3:13 am

Anytime you’re ready, parents:

Dream ad in the Newberry News:  “Yes, community, I lied about my daughter because I was embarrassed that she beat me on a bet about God.  She has never been crazy, is way smarter than I am, and has my blessing and financial support.”

“From your lips to God’s ear.”  (That’s what the Jewish grandmas say.)


2:53 am

“Lord, I’m very troubled; please keep me from rising up against my station and permit me to see everything from your viewpoint.  Enlarge my heart, give me more love and more capacity to process it for the benefit of everyone. My father treated me like an animal.  He cast me aside with no trial.  He lied to people who also refuse to stand for truth or to assist.  Even if they believed me to be diseased, they should not have abandoned me.  (Especially if…) Such evil in my family!  Please allow me to be a different family, with people who love truth and are not selfish with their affection!  Please may I have a friend and a colleague.  Please may I see the fulfillment of your words over my life.  You said my family is driving straight at a big rock.  You said that if I was driving we wouldn’t hit that rock, because I would give you the wheel and let you steer.  I couldn’t steer anything if I wanted to; I’m in prison.  My prison is formed of deceit and apathy.  I often wonder if Joseph knew that you would release him, I don’t remember reading that in the Bible.  Did he overcome with mere hope?  Did he love you so much that he just hoped you’d set him free?  I hope that today you will soften my father’s heart and give him courage to tell my boys the truth of what happened to us.  I hope that today you will encourage him to provide assistance to his victims.  I hope today he will meet you. I hope that today he and I will be free.  Please give us more fire of your Spirit.  Please enable me to stand.”



7:09 pm

My dad took my love, he took away all the love I was ever getting.  But I kept on pumping it out.  This is very cool.  I prayed for divine love.  I’m going to like it.  How come nobody sees what I’m learning?   He does.

6:06 pm

My parents are both utter failures, in the things that matter.  They’re both scared and co-dependent, and stymied.  They must move out with the army!  “Lord, give my frightened parents a vision of what you have in store for us.  You said that if we ask you will show us things that we do not know.  Please give them that experience so they will help us, and also so that they may understand me, and not fear me.  They should fear you.  They fear the wrong things altogether.  Have mercy.  Send more fire.  Amen.”

6:05 pm

Do you know how many keyboard-jockeys sit at the ends of the earth and hope for me to be right?  Do you know that there is not a demographic on Earth more eager for God to be God than the atheists?  Do you know how stunted is their contribution, because they are honest?  Do you know, parents of the flesh, that if you were to do right by me, millions of people would believe in God?  Do you?  Do you believe in God?  You know that I do and it’s led me to hundreds of four-leaf clovers.  I’m still poor and wearing second-hand men’s clothes but I’m always finding a four-leaf clover.  I’m still alive.  You two know it might have been otherwise.  You now tell the truth and Jesus will be glorified.  He will be permitted his rightful place as the TRUTH and the Prince of Peace.  I want peace with y’all.  I want what you stole. After that, I want to do things that would make you happy.  I want “EVERYBODY HAPPY.”  Jesus says I’m getting everything I ever wanted.  You’re toast.  You’re loved and you can’t even stop me from doing it!


5:48 pm

Pork roast in the oven, and a pan of root vegetables with butter and onion.  I’m making a big pan of gravy because I might just get ambitious and fry potatoes tomorrow, for poutine. I made an almond tart but was too lazy to find the right pan; it boiled over in a pie dish so I’ll have to make a note on the recipe.

I love for Josh to come home to a house smelling of good food.  The aroma even helps me, since I’m not permitted to burn a fire this year.  As a child in this house I used to smell the bonding of textured-vegetable-protein and plastic-coated paper via microwave-radiation.  This house is better than it was.  This house is not my home, or I expect it could be even better.  My father stole my home.

5:37 pm

I also believe that my mother loves me, but she is also afraid.  If she allows me to be right, that makes her entire history “wrong.”  I don’t blame her for treating me like she’s trying to pick up shit at the clean end.


5:32 pm

Do you know my mother was one of the mind-control goons?  She plopped David and me into classrooms that were so Pavlovian we got little plastic “snorkels” when we obeyed the “authoritah.”   If we got a blue snorkel we got a fudgesicle.  I learned to drool when the bell rang.  We’re intentionally “educated” to be OBEDIENT. Nothing else did I learn during my scholastic incarceration.  I learned more than my mom did.


Did my mother teach me to think?  Or allow that I might?  I’m 54 years old and she has continually discouraged me FROM THINKING.  (Except when I was doing her research for major papers.)  She knows I’m not a liar…and I believe she loves me too.


5:17 pm

My dad would like to do a lot of really nice (necessary) things for me, if other people weren’t looking.  He’s a secretive kind of guy, and I like him that way.  I do not like when he lies to maintain his secrecy, but I understand the impetus of his aberrant behavior.  I accept him that way, and I love the true-him.  He can’t stand to be loved, because he does not feel himself to be worthy of love.  (If love were a thing to be earned, he-be most VERY RIGHT.)  He loves me and he will put his money where his love is, just as I have demonstrated love to him.  If y’all gotta watch that’s OK; maybe he’d like it that way.  I’d rather hear him cry to me in private.  God’s will be done with this GLORIOUS relationship of 1) love, 2) trust, and 3) mutual provision.  I have much to offer.  I don’t need to tally a  “balance-sheet” because my balance is an easily recognizable commodity.  It’s only money that  I don’t have. For now. My dad loves me and he’s rich.
You’ll notice I’m not mentioning the amounts he stole from me in ways that are 1) recorded, 2) published and/or notarized, and 3) legally definitive in a US court which I will not summon because THE BIBLE SAYS THAT I MAY NOT TAKE A BROTHER TO HUMAN COURT.  As always, I’m trusting Jesus to encourage loving behavior from my loving father.  Amen.


2:07 pm

Mind-Controlled Alters Documented

“MKULTRA encompassed numerous other projects including dozens of institutions, universities and programs designed to perfect the military (and now domestic) use of various types of psychological manipulation and conditioning intent on creating a Pavlovian slave, able to be programmed into completing various missions. “


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1:47 pm

I feel so coherent.  It’s purely by accident.  When I’ve been to my different places where better things are happening, I return to the matrix with trepidation, I’m unsteady.  I remember its most recent bullshit and I remember responding to the nonsense.  So I read what I wrote.  I believe I have occasionally been successful at describing aspects of the Kingdom of God in earthly terms.  I lack the heart-language necessary to instill mass-psycho-catalyst.  But it’s OK; I’m saying the right things, this means that I say: 1) the things that are true right now, and 2) things that need to be said because the majority of people are, seriously, dumb-asses.  I dislike speaking derogatorily about my fellow humans.   Soon I will never have to do it again.  The dumb-asses will have abandoned our ranks, and I will focus on the positive traits and objectives of all the remnant.



10:13 am


“I  just accepted what you said
Keepin’ me among the dead
The only way to know
Is to walk then learn and grow
But faith is not your speed
Oh, you’ve had everyone believe
That you’re the sole authority
Just follow the majority
Afraid to face reality
The system is a joke
Oh, you’d be smart to save your soul
Oh, when escape this mind control
You spent your life in sacrifice
To a system for the dead”

Lauryn Hill , I Get Out

8:59 am

“We need righteous groups on the ground.”

“Maybe this is what you were meant for.”

Video: Wake Up! Governments Are Backing Staged Protests Across the Globe!


1:39 am

Isn’t it pitiful when the only remaining arrow in the old-men’s quiver  is “time”?  That’s a paradox from Hell, ‘cuz they ain’t got much of it…but they still wave it around like one last hard-on.  My dad says:  “You want an answer from me?  Is YOUR life on hold because I can’t give a straight answer?  I, your father, can always top that:  I’M GONNA DIE PRETTY SOON AND I STILL REFUSE TO TELL THE TRUTH, or to LOVE ANYBODY (even somebody who loved me although I tried to kill her.)  By dragging my feet on issues of timeliness, I am proving__________________________”
He’d have to fill in the blank, my gifting  is not yet come of age.

1:27 am

You know why some people can’t give a straight answer?  Because some people are psychopaths.  Telling the TRUTH  is not an option…until EVERY OTHER POSSIBILITY is considered!  “What can I say here, that will give me the greatest advantage?”  “Nope, nope, nope…truth?  Let’s run the list again…”

1:16 am

I watched 2 and 1 half hours of Rome Total War.  Josh took over our hemisphere using the Inuit!  (Until a gang of marauders from INDIA decided they wanted Montreal.)  He said, to my request for strategic assistance:  “You CAN’T have a revolution, Mom.  You don’t have any other people revolting but you.”  I told him that’s why I need his help.  Isaac called and he’d like to come home for Christmas.  He said he called my father about maybe getting some financial assistance for his travel arrangements.   He said Grandpa gave him some bullshit (my word, Isaac’s noun was kindlier…) and gosh-darnit!  “Maybe Grandpa will think about it.”   (My father couldn’t give a straight answer with a gun to his head.  It’s the gospel truth and EVERYBODY knows it’s true.)  Isaac and I agree, that this is an amazing time to be alive.  It’s the shift and although we’re watching different battle-fronts, we foretell the same outcome.  I said, “MY ISSUE IS NOW.  How amazing that just when I get the nerve to speak out about covert harassment I get to go to THE FIRST EVER-IN-THE-WORLD CONFERENCE OF TARGETED INDIVIDUALS-SLASH-ACTIVISTS?”  He said, “You’ve always been a prophet, Mom.”  (It’s true.  When I used to have money I’d buy a pair of shoes and two years later they’d be in all the pictures.)  We… who have been targeted and have survived the onslaught of our fellow-man against our right to exist as sentient beings… are the unstoppable force based on that consideration alone.  I said, “We… who have been targeted and have survived the onslaught of our fellow-man against our right to exist as sentient beings… are the unstoppable force based on that consideration alone.”  We are also kind-hearted and would prefer that our fellow men not be REPEATEDLY RAPED IN THEIR OWN HOMES.  Think about it; won’t you?

1:00 am



4:11 pm

MUSIC BREAK–Can’t you just feel it?

Queen  & David Bowie – Under Pressure

4:01 pm

“The last shall be first.”

Child sex abuse inquiry in crisis as victims walk away

“We, alongside many survivors, have made numerous representations to you regarding our view that the Inquiry as it stands is not fit for purpose,” it said.”

“The Home Office seems to be running the inquiry to meet others’ needs rather than those of survivors and the public.”


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2:08 pm

Controlled Opposition – The Hidden Hand of Misdirection

“Nothing is as it seems. Nothing. Not the least of which is anything and everything in our  engineered society. It’s all misdirection, controlled opposition for the mind. This game of ruthless deception is endemic to the fabric of the entire matrix.”


“We’ve all been useful idiots at one time or other. No one’s been fully conscious or completely independent of these influences all of their lives. We all have had to compromise in some manner just to survive in the matrix and unwittingly played into their hand.”


“For those looking to help others, this is a great way to approach someone still under the spell to get them started looking around. GMO awareness has jacked and is a great entry point. And just like the bankster revolving door with government, the Monsanto/Merck et al. infestation of so-called health agencies, this will make their heads spin if they’re willing to see it.”


“Layered in the imposed matrix are many overlapping memes and projected illusions, rendering fundamental empowering truths either hidden altogether, disguised or distorted. In a loving, uncontrolled conscious world there would be no need to hide anything. Instead, this mutant matrix system is built on deceit in order to spiritually disconnect and disempower those they wish to exploit.”


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1:46  pm

I worked for seven hours this morning before I went to see my dentist to get repaired the same tooth, for the fourth time.  He didn’t charge me a penny, and he gave me some serious attention.  He dropped FOUR gloves on the floor… trying to put them on his gentle hands.  He was shaking.  Every time he fixes my tooth something falls off!  This time, half my face went numb and my earlobe swelled up like a tick and the skin even burst!  I still have scabs!  It was like an allergic reaction or something.  If I were paranoid and had done my homework and believed in God, I might be paranoid and believe in God.  “Dental implants” killed Alberto Rivero decades ago. And his sister.  (He was a priest and she was a nun and he saved her life.)  I know it sounds crazy, but it makes a good story anyway…

Maybe it was Alberto Rivera.  I get those names mixed up.


1:36 pm

I recorded my shopping lists, in my journals (“Please God, let Adam be as smart as I think he is.”)  I even recorded my grocery lists.  I reorganized them by category in the order that the various departments appear as one enters the store of my choice.  I am not only SANE, I have been sane enough for a number of people who depended on my sanity.  This was not a situation I exposed very often, however.  However.  Somebody who disrupted a situation that was working for a lot of people has to tell the truth.


1:27 pm

I am responsible for 300 dollars worth of food.  We went grocery shopping, my best-worst two days of the month. George cannot buy one of anything and we spend many long minutes discussing the pros and cons of each brand and price.  Sometimes I walk away during deliberations, then we forget to buy it at all.  I shop alone in half the time, and I spend half the money.  No matter, I am still responsible for ALL THE  FOOD.  I must cook it in the right order, so nothing goes bad.  I must cook vegetables every day and I must work leftovers into lunches and breakfasts.  I must wash every dish after I’ve located them here and there.  For a man uninterested in sex, I am the best wife in the world!  All he has to do is feed me and provide some sort of fuel and bandwidth.  My dad really messed up my life in a lot of ways.  Sometimes I feel like I’m in a box, screaming.  One day somebody will hear me and then we’ll go to town.  My oven won’t turn off anymore; the button won’t work.  That’s a metaphor for something.  I have to go down into the basement and shut off the breaker.


7:23 am

“Pushing people away because you’re scared they’re going to trample all over you is like retreating before the war has even begun.”

I think somewhere between high school and real life, we were hurt a few times — somewhere along the way we became less bold, less confident and less ballsy.

Somewhere along the way we decided it’s easier to push people away than giving them a chance is.

Because we’re scared

It’s easier to sleep at night knowing you drove them away instead of the other way around. It’s easier to say that you were the one who ended it. It’s easier to hurt someone before that person gets a chance to hurt you.


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7:12 am

CS,  if you’re still listening, I’d like to talk to you.  906-291-1376  (Sometimes I miss Zuckerberg’s help.)

6:59 am

Do you ever see things move all by themselves?  I think that might be a baseline of some sort.  If you never even see that,  be assured you’re missing a whole lot of reality.  I think it’s some kind of internalized physics, without math.  Spaces and timing, glitches in the matrix.  I think we’re supposed to depend on these new abilities more than our physical senses.  Wait, that was always the expectation.  He’s “pouring his Spirit out on all flesh.”  We might not want to miss this.

Also psychotronics are entraining us with triggers.  Maybe it’s not God after all?   When the bell rings do I salivate?

6:54 am

I never understood online dating.  I don’t remember every wanting to be with “someone.”  It was always about the person. The only smart guy I was ever with suffered from personality flaws similar to my own.  He spoke three languages (four if you count his mother’s version of French) but he couldn’t understand why a construction crew doesn’t appreciate it when you criticize their project.  He thought he was helping.  We said a lot of things to each other but neither of us was listening too much.
I really am getting tired, I never thought I’d say that.  For months, years even, I’ve jumped out of bed at 3 am with a purpose and I got dressed immediately and I set to my task.  I didn’t take a shower yesterday.  I’m still in my bathrobe and it’s nearly 7.  My body hurts, it never does that.  The left side of my head exploded after some dental work, I’m going back today.  My face is numb and my left knee hurts and my left wrist shoots pains up my arm.  This all means something.  “When I am weak, then He is strong.”  “He restoreth my soul.”  “Truth shall set you free.”  “Though he slay me, yet will I trust him.”  “More fire, Lord, on me and my dad.  And on all the rest of my family and Luce county and Adam and Michigan.  And Detroit!  And the goons at the NSA and everywhere else that tortures people. More truth and brotherly love!  Sort out the liars so we can be free!  Thank you.  Amen.”



6:03 am

“And that is where the zombie stands today – a tragic figure, trapped between a craving for human flesh and a desire to regain human form. Unlovable, sexless and alone, the zombie’s only means of reproduction is eating humans, especially their brains. Zombies conscious enough to witness their own disgusting acts evoke our greatest fears, but also real compassion. A zombie in such a predicament makes us more conscious as well.”

“Their romance seems doomed. But then something strange begins to happen inside R – his feelings for Julie start making him more human. Jonathan Levine’s film Warm Bodies (2013) asks: can love bring a zombie back to life?”

The good zombie

The new zombie still eats brains, but it can think, emote and even fall in love. Why zombies with heart are on the rise


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4:45 pm

Looks to me that my dad is going to pay for my journals one of two ways.  He could buy them and destroy them, or he could pay for me to take them to somebody who can use them for good.  The drama is perfect.  I’m agitated and expectant.  I had a really solid feeling today, right in my heart.  Josh loves me.  I am made better in love.  Josh said his father was served with papers three times, after I left for Belgium.  Josh said the cops came every day for three days.  George didn’t mention it.  I overheard Josh describing to our guest how I made him banana cake for every birthday and we rented this jumpy-house and it always rained.  He’s taking her to the “Snow Ball.”  I told him it was like cos-play for girls.  He’s so beautiful.


2:44 pm

I think my dad just showed me a bit of normal adult respect, at least I’m choosing to view it that way.  A local man has been contracted to remove some wood from the cottage in front of my former home.  I was asked about using the driveway.  It was good to talk to him; his wife gave me a huge box  of vegetables last summer and I didn’t know if she got my thank-you note because Connie’s burned down and I left it up there.



2:07 pm

George is gone, Josh came out and told me funny stories.  George and I rode to Curtis, I said, “I asked Josh to take the garbage up to the dumpster.  Is that OK?”  That was OK.  I asked, “Would you be willing to reinforce it?”  He was.   Later I heard him go into Josh’s room and request that Josh be part of the team, and would he please put the garbage in George’s car so George could drop it off on his way to work.  Is this unhelpful?  Is this my plight? It has been and I figure I probably should talk about sex a bit.  I recognize that it probably sounds like since I never got enough daddy-love, I probably just want to cuddle forever.  This is not the case.  I wish to be held until I’m done crying. Then I’ll be done with crying.  Then I’ll be a grown-up.  Then maybe I’ll have to talk about sex a bit.  (Sometimes it feels like I’ve written history’s longest online-dating bio.  I’d really like to get this man’s attention.)



10:27 am

“I don’t know what you mean, Lin.”  I cannot believe he says that to my face.  There IS NO PREVIOUS SENTENCE OF REFERENCE!  He has no idea what I have on him and he’s refused to learn.  He’s defending blank space.  That’s VERY paranoid…


10:22 am

Everything in the outside freezer is mushy so we’re having chicken wings and banana cake.

Text to my dad:  “Thank you for plowing the boys’ driveway.  I’m tired.  I’m a lover not a fighter but when I am weak, He is strong. Please tell the truth and give me my life back?  I’ll do you proud.”
Dream ad in the Newberry News:  “Yes, community, I lied about my daughter because I was embarrassed that she beat me on a bet about God.  She has never been crazy, is way smarter than I am, and has my blessing and financial support.”

3:50 am

I think “utterly complete vindication” would also mean that I’m never dorky anymore.  You have to stop whining. You have to stop whining even in your self-talk.  When it’s hard and nasty, you just shut up.  (This is possible if you trust God, or are learning to do so.)  We speak victory of Truth over our emotions (often false) and our minds (always diverted).  No whining, and no bitching.  LISTEN.  When the weirdness starts in your head, listen. Ask for the voices to be isolated.  Ask the Holy Spirit to guide your beliefs and understanding.  And DO NOT WHINE.  (This really works. I wrote all about it.)  Voices are out there talking at us.  If you haven’t heard them yet, you will.


3:39 am

I’m like a general, with no troops!  I can feel it surging in my blood.  (George always said I should have been a fighter pilot.  Josh never got it but he will.)  We have a battle to win!  It’s winnable!  It’s trendy!  It’s tech!  What a fun battle!  It’s like a computer game that sucks you out of real life until you win it.  WTF?  No hackers want to play for the high stakes?  You get to sleep in the heart-shaped bed on the umpteenth floor!  Pretend, in reverse.  Let’s pretend this is the movies.

Where’s my best-in-the-world-on-multiple-games, strategist-genius son when the gaming gets good?


3:23 am

“Some people, through no fault of their own, can’t see past the end of their nose.”  (Mary Poppins)



3:17 am

I feel terrible.  I’m sorry I called George stupid and I’m repenting.  “Utterly complete vindication” would necessarily include vindication FOR George.  He went through some very heavy shit, and he’s probably still getting zapped.  (Each emotional state emits a particular vibration; these can be reproduced and artificially introduced.)  It is a great miracle of God, that I became so clear-headed and I don’t know if 1) they stopped torturing me, 2) I just got so used to it that I can fend it off without conscious intent, or 3) they are on my side and hope I expose this bullshit.  I’m guessing it’s a combination of things, I’d really like to know for sure.  God said I will be a “sign and a wonder” and he’s got a lot of back-story to work with.  The B-reel is all shot, bloopers and all.  We need a miracle.  I’m glad I feel terrible because that always happens right before Jesus shows up and tells me what’s been going on.  Then I laugh.  I know I’m going to laugh again but right now I feel like a failure.  “Lord, please fill me with so much of the fire of your Spirit that I never doubt your words to me!  I want to do EXACTLY as you say and to say EXACTLY what you want to accomplish EXACTLY what you wish to accomplish through your interventions and the things you permitted to happen to my family.  Take our lives, and our stories, and turn them into something beautiful for you!  You said you would, February 2007.  I’m holding you to your word.  You said that you were doing things to me for YOUR GLORY!  You said I should “withstand” and by your grace I have.  Thank you, Wonderful Jesus.  Please open the doorway I must enter to take my place in your plan.  Please relieve this daily torment of nothingness.  Remove it from all of us, please.  Thank you for planning my life way back before you even invented time.  I’m glad we’re moving beyond that construct too.  Take me away.  I don’t claim to be ready, but I’m really ready.  Amen.”
“Lord, I’m sorry I called George stupid; I forget that he was also tortured, but it’s hard to fight for someone who will not fight for himself.”





6:11 pm


Text to my father (I might really send this one…):

“Just DO IT!  You look stupider every day.”

5:51 pm


It seems that my words may fall on ears unable to hear them.  Subtle nuances of my injury cannot be understood by a man who views sex as my father does.  Nevertheless, I’m instructed to present my life.  My life grows inward, and there, within,  I’ve been injured in subtle ways.  It is enough, if my father does the right thing.  He cannot be expected to feel that which he is incapable of feeling.  He attempted to corrupt a very delicate thing; I don’t know many women who have what I have.  The boys say, “You’ve spiritualized sex so much you’re not even normal.”  Then came the goons.  I really can’t express what it cost me to strut onto my front lawn naked when I told them to fuck-off.  I’ve had a very difficult time of things, and my father owes me 3.5 million dollars.  For the indignity.  That I suffered.  FOR HIS SOUL!



5:44 pm

My father has some things to make right.



5:42 pm

It seems to me, that “utterly complete vindication” would necessarily include vindication with George.  I’ve been in monogamous union since I was very young.  It was very important to me.  He should understand  why I left.  “The servant is worthy of his labor.”


5:30 pm

George believed every word I ever said until my dad got ahold of him.  Never doubted each other, never once…I published those very words…


10:33 am
George is starting the fire, God bless him.  He’s shoveling still-smoldering debris…I haven’t tended it since Friday when I realized the chimney was too plugged to maintain a flame.  Josh loved the medals and trinkets I got for him; one patch is Asian but he likes it anyway.  His car wouldn’t start and he started the borrowed car without realizing it was a stick…it ran into the garage but it doesn’t look like it’s damaged.
12:04 pm
George and I have talked about the weather thirteen times already.  I am so grateful that I got to go to Belgium without having to hold anybody’s hand.  He gets confused choosing a parking spot.  I really dislike living with him and I tell him so every 3-4 months.  He doesn’t believe me the very next minute, I think.  He bought me beer this morning.
5:15 pm
I just called George stupid; I never do that and I try not to even think it.  I was telling him about the conference and the people I met… and how important it was, all that we went through.  I said, “We can HELP people!”  No reaction of course, but I pushed it.  I said, “Isn’t that amazing?”  (Or something like that.)  He said, “Linda, I don’t know how much of that I believe.”  Then I said, “I was just at a CONFERENCE in BELGIUM…”  He said, “I know.” I’ve asked him before if he remembers picking me up from the floor while my voluntary muscles stopped working and the involuntary ones had me in orgasmic hell.  He remembers those dark times, but they are long past and we walk now through roses on our way to the prison.  This is intentional, by-the-will, CHOSEN ignorance.  He’s stupid.  I feel no residual guilt over the divorce; he didn’t notice anyway.  I am so perfectly positioned for a miracle and I can feel it coming.  I have defended my family against the onslaught of HELL itself.  God is never late.




10:36 am

I made grilled peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for Josh.  He liked the medals I bought him in Belgium.

This is What Happens When You Call The Cops



8:28 am

I saw a little vision, it was me holding a horse’s reins.  I was standing near a river and I pulled the horse’s bridle ever so slowly down to the edge of the water.  Then I held his head against the ground and slowly, slowly the horse came to his front knees then dropped his back legs and rolled over very gently on his side.  He was white.  It reminded me of George flinging Rodney by his horns when he got ornery.   Rodney was white too, a big shaggy Saanen that looked just like a mountain goat. But the horse was not violent like the buck. He  displayed a very controlled, gradual consent to submission.
God laughed at me as I was sitting in the Salsa club in Brussels.  Dancing is kind of an inside joke for us, it’s metaphorical of both my religion-squelched youth and my yearning to express female sensuality.  (He might have started with a waltz but he’s got a real strange sense of humor.)  My escort, a single-mum from Poland, began folk dancing as a child.  Dancing is her favorite thing to do and she studies music and Flemish.  She bought a beer that smelled and tasted just like fresh raspberries.  (It reminded me of the juices my grandma always prepped and stored.)  The first place we went was the top of a tall parking structure; she said every tourist in Brussels should start there.  Being with her was magic, I’d been so intent on my work that I hadn’t realized how many times I rode  the subway right under amazing things.  Isn’t that always the case?

The Pole dancer was cute, but appearance didn’t seem to mean very much at the Salsa club.  The best, most popular female dancer was rather large, and not dressed to any advantage…but she threw her head back and laughed!  She touted her tubbiness… and loved every second of it.  So did the  men who danced with her.  Even one little guy with the profile of an Inca that began somewhere  lower than my chin. (Appearance didn’t seem to mean much for men either.  He danced a lot.)   My exotic Pole pointed out how the black people move.  (Her son is half-black.)  She compared them to the skinny white couple who knew all the steps.  They were having a ball, but they were pretty rigid.  What were they missing?  What did they not feel that some other dancers obviously felt?  How is it possible that the gay boy across the floor trying really hard to impress his date…could NOT even feel RHYTHM?  He couldn’t even clap, I’m sure.   Maybe I have to watch belly dancing next.

The activist is very graceful.  It’s hard to stay presentable when you’re homeless and she chooses silk and cashmere from the outdoor market, because sometimes she goes to parliament buildings and you have to look decent. She’s absolutely committed to freeing the children from a future of psychotronic mind control, but she gets really wistful about the life she gave up.  She too, is celibate, also due to circumstances of torture and gangstalking. She loves a man who lost his courage when his children were threatened.  She understands, but she misses him.  She says perhaps it’s necessary that we be alone, to do what we have to do. I’m sure she’s right since the loss of my family was so much out of my control.  But I get wistful too.  We had cappuccinos at an outdoor cafe. (My real European moment, I was taking pictures of the chemtrail grid above our heads.)  She misses India, cries even.  She knew the Dalai Lama and wasn’t too disappointed that he was involved with the CIA.  (Did I say that before?  I feel as though I did.)  She said he did it for Tibet.  She said that making love with a man who has a pure heart can keep her going 4, 5 months.  It’s cleansing, she said.  She’s been on her own for a couple years.  The soup kitchen is just around the block from her former home, where her man lives.




7:44 am

Josh is home!  I can’t wait for him to get up so I can show him what I brought him from the street market in Brussels!

Michigan Police Officer Detains Man for ‘Making People Nervous’ by Walking With Hands in Pockets in Near Freezing Cold

“Brandon McKean, the man who was detained noted in the video which he posted to his Facebook page on Thanksgiving Day, said he recorded the incident for his protection.”


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4:47 am


Bump to the top, from when my wits were returned to me…

Thanks, Dad

Willy Wonka (HD) “I’ve got a Golden Ticket!”



4:37 am

Did I or did I not say there would be no more blood-drinking?  The hackers are saying the same thing…

“We demand an end to human trafficking and abuse complicity worldwide.”

Anonymous initiates Operation Death Eaters #OpDeathEaters

“…UK media is following the direction

of the Paedophile Information Exchange and telling you these people are
child lovers who need understanding and tolerance. They are telling you
this is sex. Who controls the words controls your thoughts.
This is not sex.
These people feed off the agony of others. They cause
wars and destruction during their working hours and they torture and
murder children as recreation.
These are not child lovers.
These are death eaters.
To the people of the world, this story is not limited
to the UK. Unlike us, death eaters have no borders. Human trafficking is
the biggest criminal industry in the world. Death eaters have global




4:18 pm

‘I strangled my daughter’s rapist then burned his manhood with heated tongs’: Shocking confession of Indian father who tortured and murdered man who attacked his 14-year-old daughter

  • Daughter became pregnant after alleged horror attack
  • Father says he considered the suspected rapist as part of the family
  • He drugged the man and attacked him when he refused to apologise
  • Enraged father from Delhi then burned the man’s genitals
  • 36-year-old kept his daughter’s rape a secret to protect her honour
  • But he acted when she ‘stopped smiling’ while her attacker roamed free 

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4:00 pm

You know why my dad put his disgusting pornography under his mattress?  Because he has a conscience and he wanted to hide it.  But wait, if he knew his daughter was changing his sheets every Saturday maybe that wasn’t the reason?


It’s not what we do, it’s why we do it.  That’s why Keith Alexander has a lot to worry about.

3:44 pm

Jesus just asked me, “Do you still believe your dad?”  He knows that I do not fly because I do not think I’m worthy of flight.  He knows why I feel earthbound and he encourages me to see things through his eyes.  I’d like that very much and if he thinks I’m good enough to fly…who am I to argue?  Who is my dad, that his criticism should obfuscate  the life of God’s child?

3:36 pm

I really think I probably should talk to somebody pretty soon.  Josh and George will be home tonight; I made white chili and pumpkin pie.  They will not want to talk about what is going on in the world, and nobody else wants to talk about it either.  I’m very alone.  I’m waking up, and I’d love to share the sunrise.  What’s a girl to do?

3:25 pm

I would not have known how to shake down my father, without supernatural intervention.  I never even knew how to ask for a loan to pay college tuition!  I did not understand his motivations, and I did not recognize that when I washed his feet it did not say anything about me.  He is unable to see me.   To a psychopath, every subservient gesture is about him.  For newcomers I’ll repeat:  I CHALLENGED MY FATHER’S FRAUDULENT RELIGION.  Thus, we stand.  (Or at least I’m still standing.)



3:18 pm

3.5 million seemed like an awful lot of money, when God first said it.  At first he said a million, and I was stunned.  He’s filled in some blanks and I’m on the right page now.  (He also kept pushing the number higher.)  I just couldn’t believe all that I heard about my dad.  I’m a believer now.  I’m on the right page and I believe what I’m seeing.


3:10 pm

Have I at least communicated, at least, how astonished I am at the events in my life?  I spent half a century trying to please Robert…now I have the goods on him so bad that if I were to please him I’d repent immediately!  I can’t tell you how secure this feeling makes me live.  I pray every day that God will not permit me to believe a lie…so he gives me evidence!  Do what you will, burn me at the stake…I’ll go down saying that my dad is a serpent.  (Unless he’s not anymore.  Then I will also tell the truth.)


2:27 pm

When you’re cornered, refusing to tell the truth is like a giant “fuck-you” to the whole universe, God included.  It’s like declaring oneself king, with only one’s personal trepidation bearing any influence on events that have to do with entire nations!  My dad honestly thinks he can hold onto these lies…until when?  Until he dies?  Then what?  I am astonished at the childish man who spawned me.

2:10 pm

Dad, you were unable to kill me.  You were unable to even slow me down.  Think about the ramifications of continuing to lie about me.  Or don’t.  I would do it if I were you.

2:08 pm


EXOTIC WEAPONS ACT (HR 2977) Exclusive Report

This report details the secret exotic weapons programs outlined in US House Resolution #2977. This very impressive array of weapons concepts is something everyone should know about.


2:03 pm

3.5 million

“I know what’s right.  I got just one life.”

2:00 pm



1:58 pm

I made white chili, from tomatillos and ground chicken.  There is a pumpkin pie in the oven because Josh and George will come home tonight.  (Also I needed to replenish my stock of pastry dough.)  My dad needs to do many nice things for me…because it’s right and he needs to get right.  If he continues to refuse my requests, it’s no skin off my nose.  God will give me everything I need to become everything he wants me to be.  My dad’s reticence is not an issue for God.  It is an issue for my lying father.


12:20 pm

EXOTIC WEAPONS ACT (HR 2977) Exclusive Report

5:19 am

Transhumanist Agenda War Crimes Tribunal

Citizen’s War Crimes Tribunal to prosecute Transhumanist Agenda

Public Announcement

Thursday Nov. 27, 2014

The Transhumanist Agenda War Crimes Tribunal is pleased to announce it is in formation and will be launching in Spring 2015.

Citizen’s War Crimes Tribunal to prosecute Transhumanist Agenda  

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5:05 am

“Kevin Annett announced during the interview that he would be joining a Transhumanist Agenda War Crimes Tribunal announced on Nov. 20, 2014 at the Covert Harassment Conference in Brussels. The mission of the Citizen’s Tribunal is to prosecute, try, adjudicate, sentence, and enforce against perpetrators at all levels in the Transhumanist Agenda including the use of new physics torture and mind control/robotization weapons; the use of mind-control technologies in any and all human settings; and the robotization of humans.”


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3:54 am


C’s birthday.
“When you talk to people, they will look at you and they’ll…according to the situation…tell you what they think you want to hear, in order to benefit themselves the most.”  (Jeff Rense)
 “Character is making a commitment and keeping it no matter what the cost.”  (Preston James)  Sometimes one’s commitments are at odds.  Then you have to prioritize.  I made a commitment to my boys that I would provide for them truth and love every day of their lives.  Other things had to fall by the wayside.  I think this is “character development.”  I think we narrow down our values very precisely.  We identify those things worthy of commitment.  Commitment to unworthy things is where the matrix wants us to live. We’re powerless there,to change anything, and that’s just the way we want it.  We become committed to being non-committal.  If we all consciously committed, and  to those things of greatest value, the world would change really fast.




7:04 pm

I understand the “covert” in “covert harassment.”  “By deception make war.”  (Mossad)  What I don’t understand is the “harassment” part.  I desire for every person within my sphere of existence to be well; I’m the coffee-pouringest daughter my dad ever raised.  Why is it necessary to harass, to make targets uncomfortable, when one could just remotely stop the offender’s heart?  (Dick Cheney had his pacemaker changed for a less-hackable model.  About a year ago.)  What’s happening is operant conditioning, behavior modification.  They use stimuli to sensitize the target to certain triggers.  What for?

6:22 pm


Goldthorpes are going down in history already.  They are either going to be known as the family that told the truth and changed the world…or the family that was too stupid to do that when they had the chance.

5:53 pm

Mr. Love will take you to Sunday school, but he won’t bring any Sunday school to you.  He talks about everybody behind their backs, no matter how hard they’re trying.  He’s so puny in his own mind that he even puts down those who shouldn’t be permitted to go any lower.  He’s messing with our bell curve.  My dad and his kind must be stopped.  We must build one another up.

5:18 pm

No compassion, no compassion from the Goldthorpes.  My niece even asked me, a woman she has not spoken to for years, “Why should Grandpa care about you?”  (Or “help you.”  I’d have to check my notes.)  Well, sweet chil’, for the express reason that YOU do not wake up with some guy ramming you from behind and expecting you to like it.  They are sadistic.  When they rape your mind and your body it’s the real deal.  Wanna know how sadistic they are with those electronic toys?  They could reduce the cost of long-term incarceration with just a push of the button.  They plan to  MAKE THE GUY FEEL that he’s in prison for a thousand years.  No harm done, he’s out in 30 days and still has a job to go to.  It is time to speak up against this stuff and I need from my father 1) a PHONE, and 2) A PHONE NUMBER.



1:27 pm

My dad knew I was being raped, just as he always knew I was sane.  He liked it.  Will somebody please cry with me?

1:18 pm

I require a shoulder to cry on.  I was abused and raped and nobody has offered an ear.  Did the pioneers have to document their claims after a scalping?  (I guess a lot of Brigham Young’s people got slaughtered and nobody said too much.)  Where are the compassionate people?  My heart was broken and my chastity compromised.  I need to cry.  Instead I must clench my fists in determination that the perpetrator of my assault be brought to justice.  Instead, I must love those who abused me.  Instead, I am alone.  Those girls raped by the Baptist missionary have been alone far longer than I.  Maybe I can be alone with them?



11:51 am

I really love cooking for myself now, in fact, I’m my favorite person to cook for.  I notice differences, and I appreciate integrity in preparation.  I never even licked a beater, when I was my father’s child.  I lick all manner of things now, and I eat right from the bowl.  I deserve to do these things, because I am conscious. Consciousness makes all manner of things rightful, and full of joy.

11:43 am

I totally forgot.  Directed energy weapons are now so commonplace that their use has been APPROVED by the legislature of the Netherlands.  Gangstalking is law.

11:12 am

I love when actors can’t pronounce a word in the script and don’t even bother to look it up.  Sometimes, the screenwriter must just sit at home and bash his head against the wall.  Some of those lines would have been funny.  Actors just open their mouths and pretend to know what’s going on.  Just an observation.

10:55 am

I miss Isaac but I won’t let myself do it very much.  He was my life-coach.  He couldn’t take it anymore, being the sole adult among former-adults destroyed by calumny.  So much pressure, such grace beneath its weight.  I love that man and God is going to bless him a lot.  He did everything everybody else ever needed.  He’s stopped suicides a number of times.  “God bless Isaac and do not let me stand in his way on any issue of his heart.  Give him joy.  Amen.”


10:41 am

Revelation 2:

15 So hast thou also them that hold the doctrine of the Nicolaitanes, which thing I hate.

16 Repent; or else I will come unto thee quickly, and will fight against them with the sword of my mouth.

(Nicolaitanes were committed to differentiating between clergy and laity.  God doesn’t like human “authority” very much I think.)

Statism: The Most Dangerous Religion (Featuring Larken Rose)

“For years I thought it was a really good analogy to compare government to religion…and only a few years ago did I realize that it’s not an analogy.  It IS a religion in every way.  It has a superhuman deity: government, that has rights that mortals don’t.  It isn’t restricted by the rules that apply to mortals.  It issues commands, and if you disobey you’re a sinner and you deserve to be punished.”
“Some people, they weren’t gods or anything, wrote down a thing on paper, and they called it “legislation” and then they did certain rituals, and then people go around saying “Well, this is law.”  “If you do as you’re told you’re good, if you don’t, you’re bad.”
 “The belief in authority leads everybody–good people, bad people, everything in between–to advocate and do things they wouldn’t otherwise do–bad things they wouldn’t otherwise do.”  “Including cops, because the cops really and truly believe they have the right to do things that I don’t have the right to do and you don’t have the right to do.  The only reason most of them do what they do is because they believe in authority, and they really believe that legislation gives them an exemption from morality.”


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5:17 am

There are only two sides to my issue of contention, there is no middle ground for its witnesses.  They choose the side of lies and money.  Or they choose the side of God’s written word and its consequences.  906-291-1376


Who Is On the Lord’s Side?



4:44 am

I was called “prolific” a year ago.  I work all day every single day.  I’d like to apply my native diligence to an issue more weighty than the eternal damnation of a single psychopath.  (It’s honestly really pitiful, and unnecessarily tragic.)  I could work on a project with hope.  I could work for those who value hard work, and commitment, and diligence.  I am hard work, and commitment, and diligence.  You become what you serve.  (Pity about my brother.)  I serve the King.  “So it is spoken.  So let it be done.”



4:28 am

“I am the giver of dreams. I am the revealer of dreams. I am the author and finisher of your faith. I want My people to ask of Me, to draw inspiration from Me, even in the midst of their daily life. I am as Wisdom unto you. I am council and insight. I can illuminate anything that is cloudy to you. This is a time to stir yourselves up and to ask Me for fresh vision, and for creative thoughts and ideas from heaven. I am full of creative ideas. I am the Creator. It’s time to ask of Me.”

“I created men to have a continual relationship with Me, so that they would partake of all that I am throughout their days. But mankind only wants to come to Me when it serves them. This is to their detriment. I have a rich, full life for all to attain to, and even though life on earth is hard due to sin, it is also a rich place when you walk in fellowship with Me. I am your daily supply of wisdom, and of provision. I know all things, even before you are aware of them on the earth. I can provide a detailed plan for you for each day, for you to navigate your way.”

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“The Heavenly Room of Possibilities – Vision experience – 11-28-14”


4:22 am

Text to my dad.  (I may not type it all into that pathetic phone.):

Are you a dealer of death, or of life?  You took my life and you gotta put it back.  If you gave me a phone, I could spread some life around.  How could this be a bad thing?



4:14 am

Maybe today I’ll receive the seven Spirits of the Lord.  Maybe today I’ll know every intention of every human heart as I gaze on its corresponding face.  That wouldn’t be boring at all.

4:10 am


I really feel like I might explode.  I have been SHIT ON-repeatedly by my family of origin, who TO THIS DAY REFUSE TO TALK TO ME!  My righteous motivations have been recorded but nobody wants to see them.  My parents are rich, selfish and controlling.  They stole my life and I’ve been sitting on my ass waiting for a new one to show up.  It is not ok, even when I do not take my life personally, as I should not.  It is WRONG because I know things and have NOTARIZED THINGS that could help my rich, selfish, controlling parents’ OTHER OFFSPRING, that they do like and promote.  It is absurd!  It is utterly absurd that each morning as I talk to Jesus I say, “Today.  Maybe today you’ll release what I need to serve you as you wish.  Maybe today is it?  Maybe I’ll get a purpose?  Maybe today I’ll see your beautiful face, Jesus my Lord.  Maybe today I’ll share my love for you with other people who also love you?  Maybe today the “man” who spawned me will do something positive for humanity?”   My dad cut off my life and apparently it’s up to him to turn it back on.  Or, one of us will explode.  That’s how this is probably going to go down.
Yeah, and how about this?  I went halfway around the world to meet with OTHER PEOPLE who are researching and recording what happens to people when the cops are called into their lives by evil-minded fathers who cannot even imagine a holy motivation for a strange behavior.  Shouldn’t he want to know what I learned over there?  Only an extremely guilty conscience would not be curious.  Blackened souls run this world and they 1) want to control us, 2) do control us, and 3) RAPE PEOPLE JUST FOR KICKS!  (Google:  Bush family.  Satanism.  Children.)  (We BECOME what we serve.)

3:47 am





8:21 pm

How could a man not love a woman who sees him as I see them?  How is it possible for a tormented xy to ignore the impetus of continual positive regard?  Who fears forgiveness?  Who can possibly turn his back on a woman who wishes and believes him well?  A psychopath.  A fearful, manipulative psychopath.  Do you or do you not believe my father should give me two thousand dollars and his blessing?  (Message me privately.)


7:32 pm

The hyper-ventilating is so bad here.  I’ve been working in the house for over a month now, and I’m able to do it, but my prayers are hindered and I’m panting.  When I go for a ride, and I’m grateful for two cars with gas in them, I can breathe and think.  That car my dad gave me has a whole well-hole full of change.  He’s so rich he can put a car into storage full of money.  Yet he can’t get me a phone.  He’s very selfish.  If I had two thousand dollars you know what I’d do?  I’d fill up that crappy car with gas and go see some people.  I’d visit some who volunteered on my campaigns and never knew why I quit.  I’d tell them about the conference and the torture.  I’d go see some Christian friends who told me to “see it through” and I’d tell them about my progress.  I’d visit some liberty activists who love liberty and support activism.  I’d tell them about my dad and how badly we need his information to proceed.  I’d stop by the office of the Rutherford Institute  and give them a synopsis of my evidence that I would have printed on the new printer I would have bought.  I’d pray with strangers every day.  I’d not waste a drop of the anointing; I’d invest it as God instructed.  I’d be a real-live missionary.  And I would not be a pedophile.  And I would be effective.  And maybe our children will not be raped as I have been.

6:12 pm


Lily Tomlin, 1975


5:53 pm

Sometimes I lose the reins on my mind, and I wonder what I could do that would coerce my father to do the most important thing he’s ever been asked to do.  I repent then, and ask Jesus to take me lower and slower and to never depend on my human mind and to never believe anything that is not true.  I pray that a lot, when I’m bored, and my mind wanders.  I know it’s just a matter of waiting some more, but I’m really tired of waiting.  I’ve been extremely patient, praise Jesus, and he’s going to have to let me out of this cage one way or another.  I saw visions, I saw fire and explosions in my locality on the map.  If it has to be my guts that ignite the flames of truth and purpose, then so be it.  I just wish something would happen.  I wish my dad would do SUCH A TINY THING as to assist ALL HUMANITY!  This is too comical for words, I’d need to draw pictures.



1:33 pm

“Materialism is a disease. It is nearly indistinguishable from Cancer. It is a cancer. It eats your soul. Obviously, this sad and horrible trend has to play itself out. What can you do? You can step out of the way. You are not going to convince any of the rest of them to. They are mad. They are certifiably insane and they will kill and maim in the pursuit of gain. They will Kill for Krap. Imagine the level of rage, the anger that the futility and impotence generates. Think of what the end result will be when the assault of ever more outraged Nature and the lack of heating fuel and electricity meet up.”


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12:42 pm

It’s like I’m on auto-pilot with this blog.  I’ve recorded 12 THOUSAND stories that support my claims of decades past.  I’m so tired of this stuff.  Somebody, take me dancing.  It’s like you don’t ever laugh at Dad.  He can laugh at you and reward others for doing so, but don’t you dare point out his sadistic theatrics.  What a world.  I’d really like to move on.



12:36 pm

When asked why everyone keeps laughing at him, Dr. Phil is kind enough to explain, saying; ‘They’re laughing because it’s ridiculous. They’re laughing because of your absolute and utter lack of insight and narcissistic, self-serving sh*t is more than they can take.’ 

Married man takes his wife and mistress on Dr. Phil to meet for first time and to decide which relationship he wants to end

  • Melvin is married to Rachel but having an affair with Chantelle
  • Melvin met Chantelle when he was separated, and even though he and his wife have reconciled they have remained together for two years
  • He decided to pick one woman once and for all by going on Dr. Phil 

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12:37 pm

My sweater is great, it cost about a dollar.  It’s completely hand-made; even the zipper was applied by hand.  It’s long and cozy and I need a whole lot of long and cozy.  I recognize that the opposition I experience on the website is only to keep me paying attention.  I get SO BORED doing this blog.  I know Jesus is taking over the world and I want to wield my sword alongside!  I have THINGS TO DO, PLACES TO GO, PEOPLE TO MEET! Since Connie’s burned down, I have no social life.  This is not acceptable.  My life is not about me, and I will to not take it personally.  However, I do have a right to interact with other people.  My father took all opportunity for me to have  mutually beneficial relations with those who have known him.  People like me…those who have not been indoctrinated to fear me.  My father took my life, and I will have a life again, but holy-waah!  He is dragging his feet.  “Dear God, my father is dragging his feet.  Human-shrinks call this:  STONEWALLING!  But, I guess you know that.  Please keep the fire to his clean feet, and make him light on his toes.  He’s supposed to dance with you too, right?  We all are, right?”


9:42 am

Besides which, this is the last go-round.  The ONLY safe place on Earth is the center of God’s will.  He has a personal destiny planned for each of us, should we choose to accept it.  The destinies proceed so far into the future that we are unable to fathom the many interesting things we will do.  We’ll not get old, and we’ll not be sad.  God will swipe our minds in that marvelous way he has that leaves only the good we’ve known.  The colors will smell sweeter than we’ve ever heard.  Now is the time to choose this future.  We must choose it for ourselves and our children.  We must choose it to the abandonment of all this world seems to offer.  We must not “love our lives onto death.”  We must choose ETERNAL life over the matrix.  We must behave as though we’re living there now.  We must encourage freedom, and discourage control and sadism.  This is the most wonderful time to be alive in all of human history!  He picked US to live here now!  This is a very great blessing and some of our names will become important.  We’d rather they not be important for the wrong reasons.  “All the world’s a stage.”




9:32 am

My sole intent while tormenting my father and praying for him for decades, was to see him come into the freedom provided by Jesus at the cross.  My journals record my intent on every matter.

9:22 am

We’re supposed to be building the Kingdom of God.  We’re at the border of the promised land, and we must step into the water.



9:14 am

I got the dishes done.

How is it that my father can LIE, LIE, LIE about me, steal my home and marriage right out from under my feet, DESTROY MY CHILDREN’S FAITH IN JESUS, TORTURE ME…and he just doesn’t have to talk about it?  Is this the world we’re living in?  I chose two honest Christian men and one agreed and the other one didn’t say no…to be judges.  I believe Christian brothers should hold him accountable.  He can’t just not talk about it for six-plus years.  I’m not kidding, this is very wrong.  I gave him an extra whole year, God told me to do it and Dad knows I did.  I submitted to his false accusations and attacks…for him.  He must speak up.  He’s shrinking, day by day.  To encourage my dad to face my allegations is not an affront to him.  It is the most loving thing we could do.

2:02 pm

“When you make a tyrant act like a tyrant, that’s when the tyrant actually falls.”  (James Corbett)

My dad is such a perfect metaphor for the police state.  I’m chuckling all the time.


1:58 am

I can’t believe they’re not monitoring everybody already, or letting us know they are.  Pretty soon here they’re going to make a run for it.  We’re winning and the goons all know it.  Pretty soon we’ll see something big.  I was right about Oklahoma City.  Ask George.


1:50 am

My dad is such a turd.  (“Former turd.”  “Thank you, Jesus.”)  He could help a lot of people, and he won’t even buy me a phone.   All over the world, people are crying for his information.  They’re raped.  They’re gang-stalked.  They’re brave and they won already.  Be there or be square.  My dad is such a turd.  He’s like those guys he’d have you vote for instead of me.  The lesser of two evils is still evil.  We choose between a douche and a turd sandwich.  (Southpark.)  We choose what they say we may choose and that is no choice at all.

“It’s amazing for me who spends all my time online reading words on a screen, to actually be meeting these people, and shaking their hands and seeing there are real human beings behind all of this.”

I wanted to hear James Corbett speak when I went to Belgium; he wasn’t very far away, but his events were sold out.

He is a very fine researcher.  I admire him more than I can say.  He is journalism, at the moment.  I’m sure there are others, there are many languages.  He’s the best I’ve seen.

I’m kinda sorry he’s married.  I loved hearing his observations of Japan.  In 1978 I was the largest, blondest woman in the country.  My mom was number 2.


What if a guy like him held office in Jesus’ kingdom?  Dear me!  We’d have a different world.

“Political activism is sort of a failed paradigm at this point.”  “The fundamental part of all of this isn’t specifically about what slave-master is ruling over people; it’s getting rid of the slave-master itself.”  He gets it.  He’s an anarchist and Jesus loves him.  “And that’s a position a lot of people are reluctant to eliminate.  Psychologically.  Moreso than anything.  Because it’s convenient…”



6:32 pm

Real text to Dad:


“Get me a phone.”



6:26 pm

Imaginary text to my dad  (I’m tired of this stupid phone.):


Your daughter can help the world.  You’ve been apprised of this fact yet continue to run her life elsewhere.  You may not run her life.  You could assist her to help others;  that could also assist your plea  for leniency from your maker.  Do not be stupid.  It is no longer a prudent mien.  You are no longer permitted to claim stupidity as you have done in the past.

Your daughter needs a phone so she can help fix the world.  A “phone.”  This is a simple, cheap step in the right direction.

6:25 pm

Every day I understand something I didn’t understand the day before.  I like living this way, and it encourages me to believe that tomorrow I will understand something I do not understand today.  I can forgive my father for being a wienie.  I sure can forgive him, in light of what he’s done.



5:36 pm

Political observations I cautiously insinuated into my dad’s ever-flowing bullshit…are now documented reality.  I was right every day of my life as a subservient daughter in the house of Robert Goldthorpe.  I don’t even care anymore about my physical comfort.  I’m floating on truth and timeliness.  I don’t like the car he gave me.  He should give me a better car and return the life he stole.  *lives he stole.



5:28 pm

But psychopaths, the psychopaths!  We must be mindful of their difficulties!  They too can see the shit rolling downhill, but they don’t know enough to get out of its path!  Pray for the psychopaths who believe us to be theirs to control and enjoy!  Pray for the souls of those who deem others as impediments to their own affluence and superiority!  Love the psychopaths.  Please, love my dad?


5:17 pm

I’m making myself Japanese pork tenderloin.  It’s a lot better than turkey.  I’m treating myself as I would like to see others be treated.  Golden rule in reverse, or something.  The tenderloin has the most prions that cause JCD.  (Mad-cow disease.)  I don’t think I’ll worry too much.  I didn’t wash a single dish today, and I have dirty pans from Thanksgiving.  I made a cucumber relish thing, with lots of chile paste.  I’m going to have a very nice evening, all by myself.  George sent me a text saying “shalom” and that he’ll see to it that maybe I can be with my children next year on Thanksgiving.  It’s been a lot of years that I’ve spent holidays alone.  I’ve learned to value my own company.

You’d be amazed how valuable to one’s freedom-quest is the mere whispering of the words:  I DIDN’T WASH A SINGLE DISH TODAY.


4:40 pm

See, we’ll all learn about love before we leave here, one way or another.  If we learn by its absence, we still got the memo.  If we REJECT its demonstration by those we choose to judge as inferior according to programming we received of bigger psychopaths than ourselves?  Tsk.


I’m the perfect object for my dad to begin loving on.  With.  I will always love him back so there’s no risk involved!  I’m perfect for a beginner.

4:23 pm

As long as my dad keeps saying “no” to me, he’s saying “no” to Jesus Christ, it’s just that simple.  If anybody cares about a perverted psychopath’s aging soul, now might be a good time to pray for his salvation.


4:22 pm

Such a great story, in a book I gave away years ago.  A guy went to Heaven and saw one of Jesus’ princes, a very handsome, loving soul, previously from Earth.  This man asked what the prince had done on Earth to merit such honor in the court of the King.  This earthling had performed only one loving act, in the entirety of his terrestrial existence:  He abstained from kicking a cat.  Or a dog.  A smaller mammal.
This Prince of Jesus had received no love, none at all, in his earthly situation.  But, when the hatred was flowing hot and the resentment and envy sucked his heart dry of all compassionate lubrication…he stopped himself from harming a smaller creature.  “To whom much is given, much is required.”  You know what a lot of NDE patients report?  (Near-Death-Experience)  They say they heard a question:  “Did you learn to love?”  It’s very important to consider this NOW, when we’re perpendicular…and if the answer is “no.”  Well…he’s removing all of our “no.”  No’s.  Noes.


4:11 pm

(He’s gotta love me, there’s no other way.  I’m the most incredible thing he ever saw and he tried to exterminate me because I had his number.  I AM  his number and I love my dad so much.)   “Please don’t let him go to Hell because he tried to kill me.”

4:08 pm

Am I talking a psychopath off the ledge, is that what I’m doing?  Is this the first time in history that a psychopath saw the error of his ways and developed a conscience?  Was I wrong about expecting a FLASH OF LIGHTENING before this reprobate came to his senses?  I’d like that very much.  He should flash me his checkbook, 1) for yes, 2) for no.  He will have the “no” taken away from him.  I did.  We all do.  There’s no “no” in love.



4:02 pm

Psychopaths depend on the matrix more than the rest of us.  It’s a paradox.  They know our programming, and they use it to their advantage.  However, from further out I can see that they do NOT recognize their OWN programming, and others use it to their advantage.  My dad’s pretty funny, and really sad.

My dad should just grow a spine and call me up.  I’d cook something nice, and record his confession for my sons.  I wouldn’t even require him to look in their eyes.


2:14 pm

What a twisted world is the mind of a psychopath caught red-handed.  Action is obviously required, but how little how late?   Whom can he manipulate to mitigate his responsibility and inevitable comeuppance?  Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide.


To my dad:

The Clash – Police on my Back (with lyrics)



1:47 pm

I built the fire in the furnace outside.  The chimney is so plugged that black smoke billowed out the front around the controls.  I felt bad letting that fire go out but I needn’t have worried.  I get to let it go out again.

1:30 pm

My dad was prepared to dump all kinds of money to get me to a hotel when I was stranded at an airport.  What is his problem now?

1:22 pm

My dad texted me again!  He said I could keep that car until mid-December.  So I responded:

“Thanks.  Is the seat broken?  I like to sit up really straight.  Also may I have a phone like Isaac?  And will you pay to bring him home for Christmas?  And will you give me two hundred dollars to repay what Josh lent me for emergencies?  And will you buy me some clothes from “Anthropologie”?   (I misspelled that.)  And will you get Josh his passport and let us stay in Toronto?”


He said:  SORRY.

I said, “Not yet?”

12:47 pm


To Jesus, this is one of my favorite worship songs.  He sings the hard parts for me.  He also sings that weird note in “How Great Thou Art.”

12:29 pm

They don’t just attack us with microwaves anymore.  That got boring decades ago.  Now they use “scalar” waves, that pick up additional free energy as they travel.  My torture could be coming from China for all we know.  This is the end of humanity one way or another.  I’d prefer to see the world explode in Truth and Love but if it’s gotta be deceit and cowardice, I’m still on board.  (Because I know the guy who wins and he loves me.)


12:23 pm

See, a lot of my fellow covert-harassment activists have a problem, at least in America and I presume in other Western countries:  they lack a nexus.  They lack a smoking gun.  We can ALL prove this technology exists, and that it is used on citizens indiscriminately.  (Most of us had newer information than the speakers at the conference I attended.)  We can also prove that this technology has been used on us.  Necessary for a court case in the piece we lack:  who pulled the trigger?  I’m in a very unique situation here, because I know somebody with the answer.  He withholds very important knowledge.  He could set the whole world on a course toward purity and justice with what he knows.  He just won’t say he’s sorry.  That’s about the sorriest guy I ever met!



12:17 pm

“Dad, you know I’m talking to you, and you know I’ve been trying to do so for six years.  It wouldn’t surprise me if you were held responsible for every word you refused to hear.”

5:38 am

My dad lent me a car.  I could probably keep it for a couple weeks without hearing about it, but I don’t want to.  I do not like that car.  It’s a five speed, but designed for a heavy foot.  I drive kinda delicate.  Also, I sit up very straight in my seat and this car’s seat is in perpetual-recline.  I need a car really bad.  And I need a phone.  People are beginning to talk to me again and I can’t keep up on my pitiful flip-phone.  “Lord, may I please have a new car and a new phone.  Amen.”  “And some gas money.  Thank you.”


5:30 am

“Lord, give me a little opposition.  If I don’t feel any opposition the day hasn’t been worth living!  But you said I’ll dance on the battlefield.  You said I’d ‘have to.'”

(I do love being right and I think I feel a little jig coming on.)



5:22 am

I think my dad must have loved the idea, that I might be sleeping around.  I think his mind grabbed onto that in abandon of all logic.  That was it.  He knows me and he loved that opportunity so much he couldn’t see straight.  Lies will do that to you.



5:17 am

How does a Joan Collins get to be a Joan Collins?  I’ve read that she was one of those early MK-Ultra victims, and trained to be a sex kitten.  They’ve been making them for decades:  “Presidential Models.”  There are other terms too.  These women are broken, by trauma, into various personalities which can be triggered in contrived situations.  It got so easy for them to make these soulless-souls-of-God that they got bored.  (Porn gets boring.  Isn’t that the problem exactly?)  They had to get their show together and take it to the streets.  This is not OK.  They are not permitted to get their rocks off performing more heinous acts on their sex-dolls.  You gross a lot of us out really bad.  “Grossed-out” is not on the Christmas list I gave to my father and lover and the savior of my soul and yours, Jesus, the Christ.  He’s going to set things right.  If you’re not right, you’ll be set aside.  Do with that as you will.



5:07 am

The HONOR, and the tax dollars you pay to your king…have been used to corrupt an overweight middle-aged woman who is a world-class prude.  (Ask my dad.)  To what ends?  What is to be achieved by these perverted actions and those who (even tacitly) approve them?  Get it together people.  “Time is fleeting.  Madness takes its toll. But listen closer.  Not for very much longer. ..something, something…TAKE CONTROL!”  (Time Warp.  Rocky Horror Picture Show.)


Joan Collins reveals how she was drugged and raped by her future husband Maxwell Reed when she was just 17 in harrowing documentary about sexual violence

The 81-year-old actress, who has previously written about the ordeal in her autobiography, tells how she was drugged and raped at the age of 17 when she was still a virgin and explains how her guilt drove her to marry the perpetrator of the crime.

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3:41 am

“I am your vindication THEREFORE never “fear” [become anxious]
concerning the motivation of one’s heart who is against you. For truly I say to
you, I know and see ALL things – and there will remain “no stone unturned” in this
most critical and glorious hour as I begin to move powerfully in the midst of my
people to separate [distinguish between] that which is unrighteous [in
motivation] from that which is righteous [in motivation].”

….”For nothing is hidden that will not become evident, nor anything secret
that will not be known and come to light”…. Luke 8:17 NASB

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3:19 am

We’re talking life and death.  We’re talking send these people into eternity.  We’re talking Fukushima destroying the Pacific ocean and we, the biological organisms who are DEPENDENT on the Pacific ocean…are not even permitted to know that it has been poisoned.  The thugs are out of control!  The thugs are killing children every day and we keep going shopping!  “Dear God forgive your people for BLACK FRIDAY!”  “Forgive us for ignoring the continual suffering that we cause and we pay for because we trust in government instead of you!”  “Forgive my family for not ushering me into their bosom and bank account.  Forgive us humans for our continual promotion of injustice!  No man is an island!  Do this thing, please?  More fire on my father.  More fire on me.  Amen.”


3:08 am

This guy is completely rational.  He is a veteran and he pays attention to detail.  Do we ignore this message?


Ferguson, MO
Re the Cop:     “Regardless what your take is on this, regardless of whether you think he deserved it or not..which is amazing to me,  how many people in the independent media community BELIEVE that this was a just act.  That he shoulda killed him.  And he did.”
Re the Kid:  “He did something teenagers do.  He got up in the face of a cop.  He was dead ninety seconds later.”


9:45 am




8:47 am

Did it shake my dad up that I went to Belgium?  Or did he get arrested while I was gone? Because  I missed it.  Why is he being so nice now?



8:14 am

I do not believe I am watching the reformation of a psychopath.  I believe I shall soon see supernatural transformation of the heartless character.  I believe there must be a breaking point, with tears and apologies.  This all, for him.  I do not require showy demonstrations of piety…but I love a big finish.



8:06 am

I made blondies with cranberries and dark chocolate.  The pie is perfect.  (My pies are always perfect.)  My dad got a car out of storage for me to deliver dinner; he said my car’s repair should be tested on a shorter trip.  He also said that he was counting his blessings and I am one of them.  (Personally, I suspect I am his finest of blessings.  I know he serves that capacity for me.)   I suppose he’s going to make me another offer, and I suppose it will be far too low.  I’m thinking of those girls raped in Bangladesh by “missionaries” to whom my father pays obeisance.  I think a man of my father’s stature could initiate an investigation into the girls’ stories. The Baptists made the pedophile’s victims CONFESS.  We need to right a wrong.  We could also maybe give the goons a reason to believe we are for real.



7:03 am

They just run you ’til you’re dead.  At the conference people discussed establishing a memorial to the martyrs of our cause…those who finally committed suicide.  This is mass murder, plain and simple.  It is not OK and none of us will know if they’ve ever stopped dinking around with us.  The organizations that torture people remotely must be disassembled.

The easiest way to go about this it would seem, is for all the goons to just stop doing it.  We should give them a reason to stop, and a guarantee of safety when they have.  Simple.



6:58 am

I have a pumpkin pie in the oven and the beginnings of dough for dinner rolls, which I will make in about an hour.  I’m trying to think of something interesting to do with the butternut squash I cooked last night but I may just mash it with some maple syrup.  That would be good with the sage in the dressing.  I always feel very extravagant making dressing; I remember Laura Ingalls Wilder arguing with her sister about whether to use sage or onions.  I always use both.  It is a privilege to cook for this family, I was also privileged to pray with their mother before she died in a Detroit hospital.  God has taken me some good places.  He has also kept me out of a lot of bad ones.



6:38 am

But the rapes were the worst, and I wrote every detail.  (Almost.)  I would see pictures, always Adam and me, doing things I’ve never done or even considered.  I wrote it all down because I thought it was a spirit and I blamed him.  This evidence is extraordinary, I wrote things like, “If it was a FANTASY of MINE it would never involve pantyhose!”  This really is remarkable evidence, even if I didn’t have the other tons… and allies all around the world who are distributing their own portfolios.  History is turning, we must all be on the right side.



At the same time I was being immobilized every time George touched me.  Maybe that was supposed to be a set-up?


6:06 am

I’m putting so much butterfat into this dinner you won’t even  notice how boring the turkey is.  I cheated with canned whipped cream; I’m out of nitrous oxide cartridges for my cream whipper.  I probably couldn’t buy them anyway,  since my dad put me on the terrorist watch list.

5:47 am

Then there were the sheriffs in the grocery stores.  They’d come from all directions wearing sidearms.  That was pretty flippy a few times.  (I’d have to look up all these dates.  One time was at Glenn’s in Gaylord.)

5:25 am

So anyway, the entire time my father was denigrating my character I was out praying with strangers.  This makes him look really bad, especially to unbelievers who think you’re all full of shit anyway.  I think that may be why I’m not dead.  The goons really hate you.  They tolerate me if I don’t sing too much and I’m not boring.  They must be bored out of their minds.  I’ve been tolerant of them, I even used to give a cooking lesson every day at three.  If they were gonna be in my house, they were gonna learn something.  I’ve prayed to love them, and I am very concerned with the state of their consciences.  They need freedom from their blood oath to the beast, and must sell their skills on the open market.  Even the scientists say the only way through mind-control is love.  God told us that day-1.  The only people who are not susceptible to COMPLETE behavior control are those who embrace the “Golden Rule.”  Such people will not do unto others, that which they would not have done to themselves.  It’s in the scientific  journals.  Look it up.

So anyway, at the conference they even had a session about Jesus.  I had to leave, because I can’t tolerate preaching from the mind and that’s usually what you hear.  I figured I was serving better to be outdoors praying.



5:17 am

I must have seen forty garbage trucks that night in Saginaw.  I had to sleep in my car until the hospital opened so I pulled up next to a cop car for protection.  The building was swarming with “authoritah.”


5:13 am

vladimir terziski  used to speak at “Preparedness Expos” back when George and I were running a booth selling mylar bags for long-term food storage.  He told a lot of amazing stories.  Al Bielek did too.  I’m needing to consider a lot of things I studied twenty years ago.  It seems to be all real.   Your government is persecuting true believers of Jesus the Christ.  It is time to speak up.  Or forever wish you had.


5:08 am

Theses are the persons you PAY to control your DAUGHTERS’ SEXUALITY!  And your own.  Reprobate, false fathers!

5:04 am

My dad fixed my car with his own  hands, that’s one for the baby-book.  He also asked, “Do you think somebody might have tampered with your car?”  No shit.  That’s been my entire point for six years.   I went to the Veterans’ Hospital, I think it was Saginaw,  and there were so many people following me and trying to drive me off the road.  I went to PRAY with an veteran amputee who LOST HER LEG DUE TO GOVERNMENT INCOMPETENCE.



4:30 am

This has got to be satire, right? Sometimes I can’t tell.

The Illuminati Has Come Out of the Closet–See Their New Commercial! Openly, Boldly On Facebook, Twitter,

Official Website, and YouTube! (Chilling Video)

Can this POSSIBLY be for real?

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3:44 am

All I know for sure at this point is that I gotta get out of here.  I’m vibrating every minute and when I was gone I was in perfect peace.  On a train going the wrong direction in German/French/Flemish,  and I was at peace.  I have no peace in this house and it’s coming to critical mass.  I’m driven here, and prone to striving and I’m condemned.  There is no peace and I am becoming peace.  I’ve begged for peace and my Lord and Savior is giving it to me.  Men will assist Him in giving me peace or he will take my peace from them forcefully.  I serve the Most High God, and although I do not do so perfectly, I do so with utter consecration.  He does not ignore the heart of a soul who wants him more than ANYTHING!  I am just such a needy soul.  I need things in this material realm (which  I will escape one way or another.)  Did you see the youtube video of that guy popping a zit on his neck that had been there for twenty years?  His wife filmed it.  She should have been calling the disaster-housecleaning people.


3:29 am

I never had toys, not even when I was little.  My cousins had a shelf stretching all the way around their bedroom and the adjoining stairwell.  It must have been 70 feet long…and every inch was covered in baby-doll.  I had one naked Barbie.  They had a playhouse with tiny dishes and their mother would bring us bologna sandwiches with mustard and potato chips.  I had a vacuum hose growing from my hand.  They wore rabbit skin to school and my mom would tic the box on the JC Penney order-blank where it said “Three sets.  Different colors.”  (Often they were pink, blue and lime green.  White stripes on the top and matching pants.  When I was finally permitted to wear pants to school.)   I waited for my mother, every day.  She was busy parenting other people’s kids and couldn’t leave the compound until the clock said so.  My earliest memories include staring at a clock, waiting for my mother.  I can picture where the clock was, in my babysitter’s house.  I spent a lot of time in the library.  At one time I had read every book I found interesting in Tahquamenon-ville.  My boys have never owned many toys either, and they also had books.  I think I’d like to give my boys some toys; I’ve always wanted them to have fun.  God knows this is one of the desires of my heart and he’s giving them all to me.  (He told me so, 2010 I think.  It’s in my journals somewhere.)  Do you know I’ve never been on a jet-ski?  And I won an award for water-skiing at Bible camp when I was 11.


3:17 am


(Being thankful is the secret to maintaining sanity.)

A text from my dad this morning!

He fixed my car!

Jesus be praised!




6:19 pm

My dad came down to fix my car!  He said the hose that’s spraying radiator fluid doesn’t really do anything except maybe relieve pressure so he’s going to disconnect it and put a bolt in the hole.  I can’t find Josh’s car keys anywhere.  Maybe he took them to Minnesota, he usually keeps them on a hook-thing inside his coat.

4:17 pm

My dad really liked my boots, I know he did.  I snickered at him.  I said, “You don’t think I gave ALL that money away!”  I paid an old debt, bought Josh the present of a lifetime with Dirty Billy the hatmaker to boot.  I got TWO pairs of boots on ebay.  I am a smart shopper.  I also got two skirts, two shirts, two sweaters and my great lady pants.  (If you’re going to sleep in an airport, make sure to wear stretchy stuff.)


4:13 pm

Guess I should get this in the cloud as soon as I can.  God says I’m an honorary hacker.  If my teacher ever spoke English, I suppose I’d come along faster.

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4:08 pm

It was strange at the conference, to hear over and over, as attendees shared contact information:  “Now, I don’t know if this will work because they mess with my e-mail…”

I had to start using e-mail again to attend the conference.  Do you suppose the NSA will allow me to say this to my sister in Belgium?

“I have a couple e-mails from you so something must have worked.  I’m wearing that beautiful medal you gave me and I pray for you many times a day!  I got home, one flight was cancelled due to snow so I spent two nights in airports.  There are mice in the Amsterdam airport.  Lots of them.  I miss you and love you more than I can say.  Jesus already won this battle and we’re just along for the ride.  You’re beautiful and you made me feel beautiful too.  Love, Linda”




3:41 pm

My kind father responded to my plea for information about my car.  He  also said he’d lend me a car to deliver Thanksgiving dinner to my friends…and he even invited me to dinner at his house!  Dinner at Dad’s!  (I can’t go because I’ll be at my friends’ but it was a very nice thing.)  I have cornbread in the oven for stuffing, and cranberries are simmering with orange rind oil.  I prefer a  raw cranberry relish but don’t feel motivated to play with the food processor.  I’m also not going to restart the fire until Friday.  I’m taking Thanksgiving off.  I have much to be thankful for.



8:42 am


Queen – I Want To Break Free.


8:40 am

“And how we burned in the camps later, thinking: What would things have been like if every Security operative, when he went out at night to make an arrest, had been uncertain whether he would return alive and had to say good-bye to his family?”  –

Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn

8:32 am

We live in a police state.  They will come and take your children and you will not say a word.  Then you will wonder why you did not and then Satan has you.

8:17 am

I ate cucumbers for breakfast every day I was in Europe.  I love cucumbers for breakfast, especially with slurpy scrambled eggs.  And sour cream and dill.  I could be a vegetarian for 3 UP-months, but grow fatigued without variety.  I never liked cucumbers too much but now they’re my favorite.  They’re supposed to be good for your skin and I could use some help.  I haven’t considered my appearance too much since I began the blog.  There are reasons for grooming, and I’d forgotten some of them.  Maria said I have the right to be a woman again.  She also fights.  She gave up her home and her relationships so that my children may live free.  She gave me a pendant, like a medal, bronze I think.  It’s very European and intriguingly aged.  The French on the back says something about “fighting for civilization.”  On the front is a female angel with a sword and a crown of olive leaves.  She said it reminded her of me.  But she said I have a right to be a woman.


8:02 am

I voted for Pat Buchanan.  Then I didn’t vote anymore.  Then Ron Paul ran for president and I voted for him with my whole body.  I loved him in Texas when country wasn’t cool.  I shook his hand the day I became a Republican.  My life has been controlled by unseen forces.  It will continue to be run that way.  I personally don’t give a shit if my dad gives me money.  It pisses him off when I give it away.  I NEED money and he NEEDS to listen to God and a perfect solution would be for him to give me 3.5 million dollars.  He should have put me into Congress but thank God he did not.  He’s gotta get over this stupid virus.  (60% of the population has it.  I read an article.)


7:38 am

“My editor told me that daddy Cosby was the source. He ratted out his flesh and blood,” said my source.

“Contacted by the Enquirer for comment, Cosby apparently handed the weekly a story about his then-23-year-old daughter Erinn’s battle with drug and alcohol abuse instead.”

Bill Cosby is a horrible human being — even when he isn’t allegedly drugging and raping women — according to detractors.”


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6:57 am

I want to take a course on “Teaching English as a Second Language.”  TESL.  (“Teaching English as a Foreign Language”) I could do that in Toronto.  Josh could study Swedish.  These would be good things to do with a vacant opportunity right next to St. Lawrence Market.

6:35 am

I will expose the existence of that spirit-being whose attributes line up remarkably well with Jesus of the Bible.  I will convince “whosoever will” that he is real and that he holds the keys to death and hell.  I will do this thing or I will not relax.  I cannot allow my fellow-man to suffer as I have suffered, or as they will.

6:24 am

This house smells so bad I’m even smoking in here.  I never do that, but what’s the point?  The litter box wasn’t cleaned before the men left.  And locked the animals inside.  There was a sweet little Connie-turd next to the 10 pounds of cat piss.  I’ve got to make a pumpkin pie and I think pumpkin pies are a waste of good fat and sugar.  Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday but it gets weirder every year.

6:10 am

In this house I must be writing, and there are so many other things that need to be done!  I look around at all the things broken in this house!  When I cleaned up the place after the torture abated, I found ELEVEN broken doors.  I NEVER owned a key to the house even.  We never locked up and I begged  my dad  to help me get it together.  That man remembers the day he encouraged me to remove my shirt on the front lawn while I was hosting a Mexican fiesta in the cantina…I inventoried the problems in this house and asked his assistance.  He remembers MANY such times of perverted behavior on his part.  (When I built the cantina I worked for 24 hours one day.  I drank a fifth of tequila.  I was supernatural all summer. That shook him up a lot.)  30 4-leaf clovers, shiny with dew at 8:15 in the morning.  Monsanto can only dream of such crops.  He said I should get a rabbit.  God has been breathing down my father’s neck for years and I documented every time he refused to respond.  I am not afraid of anything anymore.  The truth sets you free.  Liars suffer bondage without end.  “Thank you Lord for making me a truther.”  The house needs cleaning again.  George’s walk-in closet is filled with empty cardboard boxes and coffee cans.  He keeps the used paper cups in his bathroom.  I’m really not relishing the task.  I do not belong here.



6:03 am

Text to my dad:

“Thanks.  Hey my car has a light lit about needing coolant.  It went off when I added some, then went back on.  I need to take dinner to a single grandfather’s family tomorrow.  It’s 80 miles round trip.  Will I make it?”

5:58 am

I’ve got to get out of here!  I’m not OK in this house that used to be my dad’s house.  I am hyperventilating for the first time since I left here last week.  The condemnation rains down like sacks of shit from the sky!  This is not right and I do not belong here.  I slept in airport lobbies more easily than I do in the maid’s quarters.  Something has got to give and it sure looks like that something is my dad’s wallet.  He destroyed all possibility of a normal life for me here.  He can easily afford to buy me a life somewhere else.  Also, he should.  I feel a weight on my back, it’s not painful but it shrinks my lungs.  I have work to do and I’m happy when I’m telling strangers about Jesus.  “Lord, please give me a car and FREEDOM!  “Where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom.”  I need more of your SPIRIT!  I need to be so filled with you that sorry-me doesn’t even poke her head into the fray.  Please fill me with light and love that pushes through my pores and illuminates every cobblestone!  Don’t let me trip up!  More love for my father who tried to murder me!  More fire on me!  More fire on him!  Amen.”
(I didn’t really hyper-ventilate when I was driving on Schoolcraft county’s crappy roads yesterday but I would have been if I had not been worshiping Jesus.)




9:34 pm

Do you know I went to Belgium without tasting a single lick of chocolate?  I did not pay for a single hot meal, but at a soup kitchen.  I am meant to do this work, and I am meant to be supported in this endeavor.


9:28 pm

“My cousins can sing along with me.  If they don’t know the words  they can hum.  I’m eager to throw them a party right here, now that I’m not such a bum.”  (I wrote ten pages in ninety minutes.  I need you.)



9:14 pm

Jeanie, you know our fathers are psychopaths.  You and I are smarter than he and him.  Your DAD allowed you to believe that you that you are not funny!  My “dad” told me that “if you can’t kiss any better than that you’ll never get married.”  (Guess he was right.  I told my Polish friend at the Salsa club that I never even moved like that in bed!  BUT I WAS AT A SALSA CLUB!)  Our fathers lied!  You are a perfect child of God but you never got the chance to show anybody.  Because our fathers could only see boys.  You have a number of great boys in your house.  So do I.  I REBEL against gender-family-business.  Allow us, as Goldthorpes, to value value.



9:12 pm

Tom, I’m gonna shit a brick here.  You laugh in the right places.  Am I right, or am I right?  Is this hysterical or am I?  Gotta let me in on the joke!  “Much love, Your cousin who would have kissed you on the lips, Linda.”



9:10 pm

“Million.”  That would be: 3.5 “million”.  Here, and now.

9:06 pm

I WILL BE FIRST.  I will not shirk injustice.  I WILL be the first one…or I will be first.  I do not wish to be “Number One.”  I wish to obey a man WHO IS SMART.  I was not born to smart stock.  I was born to a family of selfish hypocrites.  My brother is gaining wisdom.  LET THESE WOMEN RISE.

9:05 am

“You let these women RISE!”  Thus sayeth the Lord!  You have done badly!  Your women are chaste and kind and smart!  BACK DOWN!  thus sayeth the Lord.  And me.  Through Him.  Amen

9:04 pm





(I’ll take it off your bill.)

9:00 pm


George called to say there is potato corn chowder in the fridge, and to enquire about my trip.  He says he doesn’t know how the coffee pot got turned on because he washed the carafe.  That makes me breathe easier.  At least I didn’t leave it on five days ago.
8:55 pm
No new texts from my dad.  He did plow the driveway though.  After I pointed out, via text, that he should plow his daughter’s driveway FIRST…unless he loved money.  (I’m teaching him how to be a grown-up.)  God said I’d be a lady again and doggone-it, I realized that my dad never even let me be a lady for the first time.  I’m gonna get a double dose.  AND a new car.  “Thank you Jesus.”
AND, I want a telephone.  Just like the one the boys get.  Isaac got a prepaid company phone for absolutely no reason at all.  Y’all don’t listen to him even though he’s WAY smarter than you.  Cough up.  (You know I’m going to need a telephone because I’m going to be famous at your expense.  You could mitigate damages.  If I were your attorney I’d encourage you to do so.  God says:  3.5)




8:51 pm

All my driving life I’ve chosen my route based on the likelihood that if I should break down, would a passerby know me and would he maybe help.  I  choose roads based on this consideration.  My car rolled over 240,000 tonight. Two hundred thousand of those miles were driven in service to 1) God, 2) family, and 3) Michigan.  I was really proud to finally have a car born in this millennium.  It is a 2000.  It spilled its rust at the Escanaba airport and the orange leached into the blacktop while I was at the Covert Harassment Conference.  I could sure use a new car. Today a new light went on:  “Low Coolant.”  I added coolant but the light went on again.  I have to take dinner to a single grandfather and his family on Thanksgiving.  That’s about 80 miles round-trip.  I wonder if I’ll make it?

2:02 pm

I think Schoolcraft county must have a scanty road-budget this year.  I never hyper-ventiliated even one time on my trip until the Schoolcraft county line.

Text to my brother:  “You gave me a miracle.  I’m very grateful.  Love, Linda”

He responded:  “I’m glad you got to go.”

I responded:  “Me too.  I met people from all around the world who have been tortured like me.  Most don’t know Jesus, so they have no hope.  I prayed with a lot of people.”


Text to my DAD:  “Good thing I made it home…the coffee pot was on!  Thanks for noticing my absence.”

(I haven’t heard back from Dad.  What a HUGE surprise…)

7:36 am

God told me he would return my modesty.  I wonder if he’ll have to take down the entire Western intelligence complex to do it?  I sure wouldn’t mind.

British and American Security Services Pass Around Our Nude Photos … While Protecting Pedophiles

Something similar may have happened in the U.S.  Yahoo News reported in 2010:

A 2006 Immigration and Customs Enforcement investigation into the purchase of child pornography online turned up more than 250 civilian and military employees of the Defense Department — including some with the highest available security clearance — who  used credit cards or PayPal to purchase images of children in sexual situations. But the Pentagon investigated only a handful of the cases, Defense Department records show.

Should We Trust Governments Which Pass Around Our Nude Images … While Protecting PEDOPHILES?


Read more at:


7:18 am

A nice woman from Niagara who should have flown out of Iron Mountain came down to get me.  The yoopers wanted me to know that there is an earlier flight to Escanaba, with seats available.  I’ll go four hours earlier! Connie would be very happy, if she had short-term memory.  (Josh says its absence is why we can leave her home alone without feeling guilty.)

6:49 am

This airport has birds in it!  I’m well rested and nothing hardly hurts anymore at all.  Thank you God.  I slept among the yooper-nomads and it was easier than the night before when I was surrounded by Spanish-squealing ankle-biters.  If not for Connie, I’d be perfectly happy right here.  (Although I’d like to smell better.)  I’d be doing the same thing at home:  documenting the fall of the American police state.  At least here there are people and activity.  “Thank you Lord for this extended layover.  I couldn’t be happier if Anthony Bourdain himself planned the show.”

5:53 am

To “give” a thing requires letting go of it.  A person holding control of a thing relinquishes that control to another.  That is “giving.”  My parents have never given me a thing, nothing that I was free to have and use as I wish.  My life was not even a gift from my parents;  it was a duty and responsibility because it was theirs.  My life was never relinquished to me.  My parents have even attempted to control gifts I received from others, like my children.  Their greedy claws clutched at the finest things God has given to me.  George said my dad called to see if I’d been heard from, and to offer me a room at his hotel.  This is unusual and I can only wonder who Dad was trying to impress with his appearance of concern and largesse.  He doesn’t need to impress George, who loves him and trusts him.  He trusted Dad instead of me, despite years of shared confidence.  Dad even took my husband.  He’s no different than the priests and presidents and bankers who kill children and drink their blood to gain personal advantage.  (Google:  Satanic Ritual Abuse)  No difference at all. Learning that I was raised by a psychopath was the most helpful news I ever got. I’m glad I quit trying  to please him.  I wasted a lot of years trying to do the impossible.
Men are supposed to protect women and children.  Failing that, they’re  not men.  They’re neuter.  If however, men seek to CONTROL women and children for the MENS’ purposes, they’re not men either.  They’re devils.
“Only one life, it will soon be past.  Only what’s done for Christ will last.”  (Sign  in my grandma’s house, when I was a child.)
“Live as if to live forever, love as if to die tomorrow.”  (Sign in my parents’ house, when I was a child.)
Matthew 19:29  “And every one that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name’s sake, shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life.”




10:00 pm

I’ve gotten more texts from my dad today than he’s sent in the past five years.  He offered me a room in his hotel, at first.  (Unprecedented gesture.  I don’t even get free coffee at his businesses.)  Later,  he said he put wood on the fire at my sons’ home!   That’s very nice, but this time George actually left me propane, and I’m very grateful.  Last text: “Go to westen hotel back in main term next to mc Donald’s get phone number text it.”  I texted back: “Thank you, no.  I’m going to sleep a bit.”  (I  haven’t used my body much since I started the blog and I have shin-splints from miles on cobblestones.)  I can’t help but wonder if he regrets not giving me the money he owes me.  He obviously doesn’t regret being a bully since he’s still trying to boss me around.  Could it be he hasn’t yet determined 1) which of us is smarter, 2) which of us is braver, or 3) that GOD IS REAL AND HE DOESN’T LIKE THAT MY OWN FATHER TORTURED, RAPED, and TRIED TO KILL ME?

8:44 pm

They cancelled my flight.  Good news is, pretty soon I won’t have to walk anymore because my clothes are so dirty they’ll just do it for me.  “God bless and protect Connie.”

8:00 pm

Snow in Escanaba so my flight is delayed.  I spent last night in the airport in Amsterdam so I’m hoping I won’t be stuck here very long.  Connie is locked in the house because George and Josh went to Belva’s for Thanksgiving.  With her temperament,  If she’s alone too long we might be looking at some kind of dissociative disorder!  Free wi-fi, I found this synopsis with a lot of links:

The Strange World of NSA Mind Control

“Have you ever head of Lt. Col. Michael A. Aquino? Aquino as high priest of the temple of set, arguably the world’s most prolific satanic institution and a former disciple of Anton LaVey (founder of First Church of Satan), is reportedly a master psychic, good at psionics, and rumored the highest ranking member of the NSA.”


– See more at:





The computer and the clocks and the phone all say different things!  I am in Amsterdam, all is well.  No internet in Belgium the past couple days.  ttyl




Sometime in Belgium

I met an angel today, his name was Daniel.  He was from Hong Kong and way too chipper for a targeted individual.  The Russian ladies didn’t show up for our meeting this morning, but a local woman took me to an outdoor market, and Daniel joined us.  His English was extraordinary, his eyes were extraordinary and he kept jostling me as we walked, in an extraordinary way that was comfortable and familiar.  He began to sing “How Great Thou Art” and I joined him as we walked.  It was pretty loud.  He seemed really glad to be along with a knowledgeable tour guide,  but at one point he said, ” This looks interesting around here.  I think I’m going.”  And he did.

I ate lunch at a soup kitchen, it cost one euro.  My friend lives in a homeless shelter.  The market was wonderful, I expected to be working all day and it was fun to poke around in the sunshine.




Sometime else, where I am not

1:36 pm  (I’m in Europe and I’m totally lost about what time it is at home.)

The Quiet Microwave Genocide

“Humans are like guinea pigs, if they want to experiment on you by the thousands they will.  You can be driven to insanity and death and you just become  a tic in a box.”


And that’s even before they started using scalar waves…




9:38 pm

I am in Belgium.  “God, I’m in Belgium!  Guess you know that.”  I also have a friend for the first time in four years.  She’s from Poland and is going to take me out on Saturday night to learn about Belgian beer and salsa dancing.  I told her I don’t dance but she said I will.  She speaks five languages and believes in God.  I told her she looks like she has a sense of humor but I know such things are not an asset as a desk clerk in a hotel.  Her smile confirmed my observation.  I think on Saturday morning I may go to mass, at a church recommended by a Christian woman I met at the conference.  Her left eye is very damaged and looks painful.  Her experience with electronic torture has been mostly painful physical attacks, her attempts to change the world have been far more strenuous than mine.  She traveled to Texas, and Washington state, and DC.  Her documentation is impeccable and she takes her evidence with her, on wheels.  I understand her caution, my records are stationed close to the house door in case of fire or other necessary evacuation.
The conference ran far longer than scheduled, and I left when I could take no more.  My subway card wouldn’t work and a young man pushed me through the stile with a younger man traveling with an enormous joint in his hand and followed by a huge German Shepherd who knew the ropes.  I tried to find out on the train if I’d have trouble exiting since my card caused the computerized-reader to flash “BAD CARD.”  A very tight-ass woman speaking very fine English told me I must go to the front of the train and talk to the driver.  Yeah.  I said, “I’ll get lost if I miss the stop.”  She shrugged her shoulders and smiled smugly, but at the last moment the kind street-kid nodded to me and I exited where I needed to.  I still got lost.  A biological-research girl walked me to the right street, her English was excellent and I asked her if she knew about electronic-biological weapons.  Lost again, I stopped in a small shop to ask directions; the guy at the register just arrived in Brussels two days ago, from India.  We laughed a lot since he was lost too, but his friend directed me to the hotel.
Tomorrow I will meet with the Russian women, the eldest said (through the youngest…) that the Russians and the Americans will join up to fight the government.  I met people from France, Sweden, Czechoslovakia, Finland,  Italy, Switzerland, Palo Alto, Chicago, Wales, London, Singapore and Berlin.  The woman from Switzerland couldn’t speak English very well but I ate lunch with her because she was a Christian and saved me from the Catholic woman from Poland who wanted to tell me which saint I should summon to prevent “voice-to-skull.”  I was trying to say that Jesus already did that and the Swiss woman said “Jesus.”  She was the real deal.
Most of the TI’s who spoke recounted details of their own torture.  One French woman has been very damaged and is afraid the next step is cancer and she’ll lose her hair.  Most of us believe the next step is trans-humanism, and we will lose our species.  The couple from Palo Alto have a very successful hair salon, I asked for help with my hair and tomorrow I may get some.  They are Russian immigrants to the US.  The Mrs. was a singer, and her husband was a successful composer before they started fixing American hair.  She said one day decades ago he came to her and said, “Let’s get out of here.”  For a man to make such an offer is to me the stuff of dreams, but he could have chosen better than the US.
I don’t know why Bill Binney was there.  He showed us Snowden documents (yawn) and pretended not to know the other stuff we were talking about.  I approached him at lunch and asked a loud question.  I said, “I’ve never met a real spy.  Tell me why they can drop me to my kitchen floor and give me a spontaneous orgasm…but they can’t stop Snowden’s heart?”  He said he’d like them to do that to him.  Another guy got all excited and said they stopped his heart three times!  Once he was on vacation in Spain.  Emergency room, the whole shot.  I should be very grateful that I was repeatedly raped for years rather than physically damaged.  I think God had a lot to do with that.
I borrowed an adapter from the fancy hotel where the conference was held.  It was only a couple blocks from Mannekin Pis[/embed])  and I took a walk to see it.  Postcards, a trinket for the boys.  Lunch was included with the conference and I ate a lot; I also took some pastries from the coffee table for later.  I’d rather have more of the veggies and sandwiches from lunch but there wasn’t a paper napkin in sight and I’ll not steal cloth.  I’m probably going to return the adapter by mail…they didn’t care too much and never even took my name.  I’m praying for Brussels.  Much evil happens here.
One French woman asked me questions.  She asked, “Do they retrieve your memories?”  Of course.  She said that when she is given glimpses of her memories they include actual voices of people from her past, people she hasn’t spoken to for years.  She said they alter the memories.  I suggested a journal. She asked if they ever “touch me.”  Oh, yeah.  “Down there?”   She said she doesn’t even hear her own thoughts anymore.  I prayed for her.  She’s been in Belgium one time before, to hear Ten-Inch Nails.


1/10 pm

I bought an electrical adapter for 25 euros, that’s $41.25 at the airport exchange rate.  It doesn’t work so I hope they’ll take it back.  I can’t return it until day after tomorrow, so I’m not going to be online very much.  My flip-phone is useless, except it tells me the time if I remember whether to add or subtract the requisite six hours.  Security in Amsterdam took my conditioner and my hair is drawing more attention than usual, so I bought some goop and deodorant to replace the space-saving bottle I brought that gave me a rash within four hours.  Dinner is spicy olives, garlicky cheese and crackers.  Cup-o-noodles cost more than two euros!

The guy at the desk said the conference-hotel sits adjacent to that famous statue of the little boy taking a piss.  Thirty-minutes walk, but I don’t want to get lost and miss such an important event, so I arranged for a taxi.  If I pay attention, we can attempt the walking-bit on other days.

I haven’t been to a city in a very long time and they put me out of my element even when the streets don’t each have two different names!  I’m practicing my French:  “Je nais parle pas Francais.”  I should learn its equivalent in German.  I should also learn “I do not speak German” in French…”I do not speak French” in German… “I do not speak Swahili, and no I’m not from Syria.”   (A guy actually asked me that.  He gave good directions, though.)

Everybody’s bundled up and I’m too warm in a coat.  I brought a quilted liner from an old jacket of Isaac’s.  It’s light and doesn’t look too terribly butch.  Never thought I’d see Europe for the first time wearing second-hand men’s clothes.  God works in mysterious ways.


4:11 am

I think maybe my first solo trip to a foreign country should have been to one that didn’t have two national languages.  And lots of immigrants.  I took the wrong train from the airport (a taxi would have been a hundred dollars) and then I had to come back, and then take a subway.  It’s been fun.  Just a week ago I said I wanted to ride a train through a foreign country and get lost until God showed me the way.  So far, so good.  It is a miracle that I’m here!  The conference is tomorrow and I’ll probably sleep until then.  It’s 10:11 here.  I’m beat.



8:32 am

Josh lent me 200 dollars for emergencies.  I imagine that if I make friends with the hotel people they’ll let me eat a cracker or something, after breakfast time.  I told him I’d return it for sure in January.  (In December I’d like to buy him and Isaac a gift with my stipend from George.)


8:15 am

I went to my dad’s office to pick up my mother’s electrical adapter and told my dad I needed some spending money.  He said, “Sure, Lin.  How much do you want?”  I told him a thousand ought to do it.  He said, “No, Lin.  I’m not gonna do that and I’ll tell you why…”  I interrupted him.  (I never used to do that.)  I said, “I don’t really care why.  Tell Mom thank you.”  Then I got in my car and drove away.


7:26 am

I made some copies of this to take to the conference:


11/18/14          Dear anybody I may talk to,

I inadvertently did something very good for targeted individuals.  I used to be a lawyer and I recognize that I have compiled extraordinary evidence.  I would welcome any suggestions for using it and would be pleased to share it with committed activists.

I am from the US and ran for Congress twice;  in 2008 I was endorsed by Dr. Ron Paul.  I am a Christian who prays in tongues and moves spontaneously during prayer.  I regularly hear voices in my head, and when the new ones showed up I assumed they were a spirit.  I published a book about my experiences in 2011 under that mistaken assumption.  It describes nearly every effect of electronic torture that I’ve read about.  My book is very naive and I believe it to be exceptional evidence.  Also (long story…) I recorded my day to day experiences for two years in a series of journals that I swore to in front of a notary public.  (This makes them an affidavit and admissible in court, according to US law.)   I sent them to a liberty activist and have not seen them or him for five years.  The chain of control is perfectly documented.

The book is available on Amazon, a download is only a couple bucks.  I also maintain a website that should substantiate my claims.  I didn’t know I was coming to this conference until 11/17 or I would have prepared something to distribute.  Thank you for caring about my children’s future.

Linda Goldthorpe    906-291-1376

“Madness and Politics…but I repeat myself”  -on Amazon




Free the Hackers




5:53 am

Well, God told me to remember that he’s never late.  The conference in Belgium is only one day, and the airfare was MUCH cheaper if I stayed a couple days more.  But, good news, the conference room will be open for those other days so targeted individuals can hobnob.  That’s just what I was hoping for, so I can maybe locate somebody who can use my book and journals.  If I had known I was going, I would have made up some business cards with the book title and the website.  To download the book is only a couple bucks and maybe somebody would like to read it.




11:41 pm

I haven’t been up this late for months.  And I’m going to Belgium tomorrow.

11:16 pm

Text to my dad:  I am going to come to your office in the morning to pick up the electrical adapter your wife is lending me.  I believe you should give me a bunch of money since I am going to Europe for the first time in my life and you never paid a cent for my tuition.  (Girls in America are suing their parents for unpaid tuition.  And they’re winning.  God bless America.)  George said he told David yesterday that we were divorced.  Does he have selective listening like you?  You are not trying to turn my kind-hearted (gullible) brother into a psychopath, are you?  “Lord, thank you for David’s kindness.  Please free him from the spirit of witchcraft.  Amen.”  (The spirit of witchcraft makes you want to/able to control other people.) “I bind that motherfucker that holds your heart and sucks your blood in the name of my risen Lord and the savior and creator of the world, Jesus the Christ.  Amen.”

You always wanted me to wear do-dads, so you’d look rich.  I swear, if you ever give me another rhinestone watch I’ll vomit on your shoes.  Get some class.  Amen.  I might see something in Europe that would  flatter your decrepit, fat, disreputable,  filial daughter.  Never know.


11:25 pm

I had so much fun writing that, but I’m not going to send the text.  It would take me three hours on my grocery-store flip-phone.  I’ll condense it but I expect I’ll get my meaning across.


I told them not to call me crazy.


11:36 pm

ALSO, I warned them another time…when they were screaming at me in their kitchen and demanding,  “WHO IS ADAM DE ANGELI?”   I said, “You know Adam?  Pay attention.  If I say he’s brilliant, I’m understating the case.”  Then they kicked me out again.




9:52 pm


I’ve got to sleep, whether I travel tomorrow or not.  I got up at 1:30 to fight for our childrens’  right to think their own thoughts.  “Thank you Lord, that you’re running things.”

9:38 pm

I don’t know if I’m going, I haven’t heard from my brother.  I texted him that I was divorced, I figured he knew.  I said that I didn’t know what else to do when Dad wouldn’t help me get Josh out of George’s drug house.  I figured the surveillance was because George was growing weed.  I didn’t know that my dad was responsible.  Then, I couldn’t get away anyway because Dad took the house and the boys won’t kick either of their parents out.  I had to take over and get rid of the drug dealers myself.  I castrated George, he loved growing weed.  It was a terrible environment for a woman and child though.  He couldn’t see that at all.

8:47 pm

My brother purchased my ticket in the wrong name.  I have been Linda Goldthorpe for over two years and repeatedly given copies of my passport and social security card and driver’s license to my dad.  (He still hasn’t changed my name on my quarterly dividend of  $5.80. ) David was really nice, during my first campaign.  He bought me yard signs…with the name wrong.  (We used a magic marker on them.)   He never asked about our colors either, so some signs were our colors…and some were his.  People said they thought there were two different women running…
That’s what happens when your family refuses to talk to you.


6:59 pm

Looks like I’m going to Brussels.  I haven’t been on an airplane for ten years!  Pray for me, if you’re so inclined.

5:36 pm

Well, I got my miracle.
When Josh got home from work he asked when that “thing” is that I wanted to go to.  I said I’d need to leave tomorrow.  He said Isaac figured out it would only cost 1300 total, and he and Isaac would pay.  Josh said he would call my Dad first,  I was outside and they’re still on the phone.  Then, DAVID called and asked about it.  I explained a bit about covert harassment and the conference and the value of my evidence to those people.  He asked if anybody had made arrangements for me to go and I said that Josh was (is still) on the phone with Dad but that if God didn’t want me to go, that was OK.  I said my evidence is so unusually fine, and its circumstances of retention were SO WEIRD, that I know he has some use for it.  He said that when Josh gets off the phone I should have him call.  He said George told him how important it was to me.  I said it would be important for my whole family after being slandered so badly by Dad.  I explained that none of us anywhere, will have free will if this agenda is not stopped.  I don’t know if he understood, how could he?  But he called and I’m very grateful.  I haven’t mentioned the conference for a week.  I’m very grateful that Josh remembered.


3:34 pm


(I get bored after about twelve hours of reading articles.)

This song became very important to me as I was learning what my family was capable of doing to one who trusted them. (And shared their name)

“I Will Change Your Name”


11:16 am

Still no promised-money from my dad so I can go to the Conference on Covert Harassment.  It feels a  lot better being his chosen victim now;  he obviously doesn’t care about any of the other 7.2  billion people on the planet either.  He must think his life is the only one of value.  He must figure he’ll die pretty soon anyway,  and he won’t have to worry about the rest of us.


7:38 am


Paralyzed Iraq War Veteran Writes Last Words to Bush & Cheney

“I write not because I think you grasp the terrible human and moral consequences of your lies, manipulation and thirst for wealth and power. I write this letter because, before my own death, I want to make it clear that I, and hundreds of thousands of my fellow veterans, along with millions of my fellow citizens, along with hundreds of millions more in Iraq and the Middle East, know fully who you are and what you have done.”


“You, Mr. Bush, make much pretense of being a Christian. But isn’t lying a sin? Isn’t murder a sin? Aren’t theft and selfish ambition sins? I am not a Christian. But I believe in the Christian ideal. I believe that what you do to the least of your brothers you finally do to yourself, to your own soul.”


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7:26 am

Do you give e’en a crap for the world that you’ve made, has your conscience a minimal twinge?

No, you’re drunk on your dial with nary a smile as you power freaks go on a binge

To sum up your game and put it in frame, you’re psychopaths pushing your fingers

On life’s loving camera, forcing to fade, while the Truth you don’t know clearly lingers


Your time given now is just fleeting we know, we can hear the awakening beating

So desperate you are as you cruise in your cars and think that humanity’s bleating

We’re alive and awake, and expecting your fate, as you build up your bunkers and gold

The point we make here is you’re living in fear, and not us, that’s what needs to be told



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6:37 am

I am very well prepared to counsel targeted individuals.  I have a degree in psychology and another in law, some experience in politics and have been targeted myself.  I am an overcomer.  (“By the blood of Jesus and the word of my testimony” which is published, sworn-to, notarized, in the cloud, multiple copies, etc.)  Targeted individuals have no hope, no hope at all.  Even if they recognize what’s happening to them, gangstalking maintains their impotence.  Life is over, for most of them.  The best that “support-groups” can offer is Faraday boxes and microwave resistant clothing!  The satanic conspiracy to destroy all that’s innocent is running every high-level organization in the world!  They need SATAN-resistant garments!  THEY NEED HOPE.

6:25 am

My father is very frightened and he should be; he’s in bed with terrible people and he failed to make me go away.  He’s in far more danger than I ever was.  I have Truth on my side and Truth is taking his rightful place in our world.  I’d like to pray with Dad.  The only safe place is with Jesus, on the right side of history.


5:31 am

The State’s Endless War on Children

Child of cannabis activist placed by government…in the home of a FELON CRACK-HEAD!!!

The 2 year-old  was BEATEN TO DEATH.

FOSTER families are not held to the same standards as NATURAL families.


CPS takes children of activists.  TAKES children from parents who exercise their first amendment rights…(and other rights)


4:27 am

Kevin Annett: Vancouver&Bangkok top child-trafficking cities. Archbishop, Judges in child sacrifices

(Alfred Lambremont Webre will be speaking at the conference I was hoping to attend in Belgium.  Kevin Annett was a minister, publicly and expensively defrocked when he began defending children…from torture by high church officials and other powerful men.)


Eye witnesses to Pope Francis killing and eating babies in Satanic rituals


The Evidence that forced Pope Benedict to Resign is Now Available

Global Communique from The International Tribunal into Crimes of Church and State (ITCCS): November 15, 2014


“The ITCCS has just released the complete set of testimonies and documents that convicted the government and churches of Canada, the Vatican and the Crown of England, and their officers, of planning, committing and concealing crimes against humanity.”

“These 150 exhibits formed the basis of the verdict of February 25, 2013 that sentenced Pope Benedict, Queen Elizabeth, Prime Minister Stephen Harper and others to twenty five years in prison without parole, and stripped them of their office and authority.”


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2:27 am

College men and women! “Who won the civil war”? “Who is our vice president”? Their answers are appalling.

1:50 am

“I love you Lord, and I lift my voice,

To worship you, oh, my soul, rejoice,

Take joy my king, in what you hear,

May it be a sweet, sweet sound, to your ear.”

No money so I guess I’m not going to Belgium tomorrow.  I can’t wait to see what God has for me to do!




5:37 pm


The Killers – All These Things That I’ve Done

4:23 pm

‘No, first strike, you’re dead. I’m not equipped to diagnose but if you so much as look at a child in a sexual context… it’s the one crime a person should be killed for. It’s the only thing that will stop people from doing it.’


Sinead O’Connor also discusses ritual child abuse by clergy and famously destroyed a picture of the pope on Saturday Night Live.  (Destroyed her career in the process.)

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3:24 pm

The public implosion of Bill Cosby has been nothing short of stunning — a decade-long, slow-motion fusillade of mistresses and no fewer than 16 sex-assault accusers culminating in recent weeks with a series of spectacular, career-threatening p.r. grenade blasts.

“The women victimized by Bill Cosby have been talking about his crimes for more than a decade,” wrote Bowman, who says the legendary comedian repeatedly raped and drugged her in 1985, including in his New York town house, when she was an 18-year-old aspiring actress.”

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10:24 am

OMG, this is my dad all over the place!  I’ve never seen these examples of symptoms before.  He never talks about himself.  He does that whisper thing, I knew his pauses were to choose the most strategic answer to a question, but the monotone…he doesn’t give a shit about social issues although his religion says he should…he often responds literally, I figured he was always just jerking me around.  Guess he was!  “Cold indifference?”  Still no call…

7:10 am


7:00 am

I knew a man who was very controlling and got angry if things didn’t go perfectly his way. This man had an excuse,  because he was completely paralyzed and could do nothing for himself.  I’ve been thinking about his similarity to my dad.  It could be the case, that my father is not a natural-born psychopath, but that he learned to command others, because he felt useless, and helpless to control himself.  I’m hoping this is the case.  (Maybe I should take him to a doctor for a brain scan; then I’d know for sure.)  Nevertheless, Jesus created brains and he can recreate them.  I’ve prayed for my dad for decades.  EoNS!  I have a friend with a brain injury.  He’s a faith-filled Christian man who expects miracles, just not healing of brain injuries.  George and I even laughed once, at the incongruity.  He’d readily  proclaim that Jesus can raise the dead, but his programming irritates  when somebody suggests that Jesus can heal a brain injury.  Surely the life-giver can easily raise a single component of an otherwise life-filled body!  I don’t believe my friend ever asked for a healing miracle, although he asks for other miracles.  I learned very little in law school that withstood close examination, but this thing I know for sure:  You don’t get what you don’t ask for.  I asked for overwhelming wisdom, everlasting love, superseding skill, stamina, persistence, healing, freedom, joy, peace…just about everything good in human existence.  I’m going to enjoy my life very much, and I’ll help a lot of other people enjoy theirs too.




“I can ride my bike with no handlebars!”

6:17 am

Look at  me, Daddy!  I’m on my way!


5:21 am

That page was beginning to take forever to load.


“Not only whistle blowers, activists and political opponents are targeted, but also thousands of innocent civilians are subjected to non-consensual testing and mind control experimentation by a myriad of non-lethal weapons and covert community harassment by government and non-government agencies. The conference addresses these issues on individual and global scale, and is also about trying to find solutions for all those targeted, which soon will be all children of our world.”


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