8/31/16

5:25 am

Jeanice Barcelo: PORNOGRAPHY – the DELIBERATE MANIPULATION of Human Beings — A Luciferian REBELLION against the Creator to destroy the natural order • Porn brings a person under the control of DEMONS • Causes the brain’s frontal lobes to ATROPHY, WEAKENING impulse control • Sex education changes the neural pathways of a child’s brain • Porn producers are Satanists who have the intention of destroying those who believe in God • SODOMY is rebellion against God Himself • Sodomy of a child ATTACKS NERVES at the base of the spine — a prerequisite to be able to develop multiple personalities for mind-control • The ILLUMINATI is a brotherhood of sodomites

(She is a former SEX-GODDESS-WITCH.)

 

8/30/16

8:10 pm

C-PTSD* Sucks! Stuck in Fight or Flight after Narcissistic Abuse

[*Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder]

“The narcissist says things like:  Why are you holding on to the past?  Why can’t you let that go?”
“It’s one of the things that they do to keep us silent and prevent us from talking about stuff, is they SHAME US.  And make us feel like we’re just being children, for bringing up their abuse.”

(Running regular EVICTION-DRILLS is REALLY GOOD THERAPY to address the fight-or-flight scenario!)  

“THANK you GOD, that my SONS KEEP THREATENING ME.”

“Thank you that VERY SOON nothing in this world will threaten me.” 

8:00 pm

The Mandela Effect (Tom Hanks Remembers “Life Is Like A Box A Of Chocolates”.  James Earl Jones said, “Luke.  You are my father.”)

7:37 pm

JESUS SAYS… My Bride is beautiful on the Battlefield

“This is another way to recognize my bride:  when I sorrow, she sorrows.  When I must work tirelessly, she is by My side, working as well, rain or shine.  She’s there because she truly loves me.  This is one of the true tests of my authentic bride.”
“What credit is it to you if you show up for the festivals and the celebrations but are absent at the work parties?
What does that reveal about the character of a person?  Those who are part of the Kingdom of Heaven want to be present for all facets of that life.”
“In these times, I am strengthening you for intersession, to be hot on the trail of the enemy, tending the enemy, and at certain times will I permit you to be ahead of the enemy, to cut him off and spoil his plans.”
(Yes, LORD!)

6:48 pm

I didn’t pick any clovers.  My dad’s cottage has an inhabitant now.

SOON I’LL BE MOVING INTO MY CONDO IN TORONTO.


I am GLAD, I am so VERY glad that my sons staged another of their confrontation-dramas.  I’m grateful and glad because EVERY TIME THEY ACT THIS WAY IT HURTS LESS AND I GROW STRONGER.

I AM UTTERLY DETERMINED.

If those goons can make NICE PEOPLE LIKE MY SONS have absolutely  NO INTEREST IN TRUTH FOR A PERIOD OF YEARS…they’re gonna be out of a job.

ELECTRONIC TORTURE OF INDIVIDUALS and by necessity, their families, WILL BE DESTROYED, stopped, dismantled, and ALL OF THE EVIL ACCOMPLISHED THEREBY WILL BE MOURNED BY THE PERPS AS THE FORMER-VICTIMS JUMP FOR JOY ALL OVER THE COUNTRY AND THE WORLD.

If my smart sons MAINTAIN THEIR FOOLISHNESS AFTER ALL THIS RESEARCH I’VE DONE?
-THEN MICROWAVE-TORTURE PERPS ARE MY ENEMY.

THIS WILL NOT STAND. 

THOSE YOUNG MEN BELONG TO GOD.

IF THEY DON’T EVEN KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN TRUTH AND A MAGNIFICENTLY ORCHESTRATED SMEAR CAMPAIGN FOLLOWED BY AN EXTENDED PERIOD OF INTENSE RESEARCH, SOUL-SEARCHING AND HEALING, then they are very right:  SOMETHING HAS TO CHANGE.

“LORD.  Thank you for the time in July when they sent me away and I drove to Texas…and then Isaac said I could come home.”

“Lord.  Thank you that I did not kill myself that day earlier this month when they staged another scene…and after you kicked the UNWORTHINESS-DEMON out of me, Isaac said the ‘spirit was changed’ and he thought I could stay longer.”

“LORD.  Thank you that THIS TIME I only cried a little bit and got much stronger and determined in my resolve to see that my story CHANGES A WHOLE LOT OF LIVES for the better.”

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If my sons want CHANGE so bad, they should look a little closer to home.

They could find a purpose that would nourish their souls and grease the skids of their dreams.

WE WENT THROUGH ALL THAT SHIT FOR A REASON…and it’s not RECREATIONAL SHOPPING AND VIDEO GAMES.

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6:28 pm

I don’t think I ate anything today.  I think I’m going to fast for a while.  Maybe God will honor my measly sacrifice and apply it to the salvation of my sons or my parents?  Maybe he will bless me with a glimpse of his face!  THEN I WOULD BE UNSTOPPABLE and I would run with joy, the course that is set before me.  “Please Jesus, touch me soon?”

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6:15 pm

I red to my sons the letter written to Josh.
They say that nothing changes here. They can’t stand it; something must change.  I said, “I do.”  They said, “Nothing but you changes here.”  I said, “Maybe that’s because I have Jesus?”  “So, you’re the only one with Jesus?”  I said, “No.  Your dad is changing too and he also has Jesus.”  Isaac said, “But he didn’t MEAN to change.  It just happened.”  I said, “It never happened in the first twenty years I knew him so I’m kind of pleased.”  I said, “Isaac, YOU CHANGED.  And then you came back.”  Whatever.

So, in order for THEM TO CHANGE SOMETHING…I, being THE ONLY ONE WHO CHOOSES TO CHANGE AND THEN ACTUALLY ACCOMPLISHES IT, must depart.  Please explain that one to me.

5:41 pm

Letter to Josh:

 

Dear Josh,
I recognize how difficult it was for you to talk to me about how you feel.  I don’t want you to think I blow it off because you have been my major concern ever since Grandpa first refused to help us in 2009.  
If my absence would make you be happier and free to try some new things, I would be VERY HAPPY to leave here.  I DO NOT WISH TO CAUSE YOU PAIN.  I will go as soon as I can figure it out and even before then, if you need me to.

BUT, please DO NOT CURSE ME AGAIN.

DO NOT CURSE ME AS YOU AND YOUR BROTHER HAVE BEEN DOING BY JUDGING AND CONDEMNING ME.

As you know, I am unusually responsible, dependable, and disciplined …and those things don’t happen to a mentally ill person.  Also the Bible says that GOD HAS GIVEN ME A SOUND MIND and I won’t listen to lies that disagree with God.  I JUST WON’T LISTEN. 
I’ll do whatever you wish.
Don’t curse me any longer.
Thank you.
Sincerely, Linda
Disciple of Jesus, the Christ
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5:33 pm

I picked 3 more four-leaf clovers.

4:53 PM

I bought ham and salami with my foodstamps so George and my sons can have a sandwich tonight.

I picked 3  four-leaf clovers.

4:22 pm

NOW, they say if I  stay that they will leave and George will leave and they’ll lose the house.  How do they figure they can keep it and also pay rent for me somewhere they wish for me to place my body and its growing consciousness?  NOW that GOD IS FIXING ME  I WANT TO STAY UNTIL I HAVE AN ITINERARY OF PLACES TO PREACH.  Or until God moves me out.

NO MATTER WHAT I DO IT IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO OVERCOME THE SHAME THEY FORCE ON ME FOR HAVING BEEN ELECTRONICALLY RAPED AND TORTURED AND GANGSTALKED.

IT IS EVIL TO PUNISH A VICTIM.  I PRAY FOR THEIR SOULS.


Maybe I should tell this story again?

In 2009 I RECEIVED DIRTY THOUGHTS THAT DID NOT ORIGINATE IN MY BRAIN and I began vomiting daily and being knocked immobile for hours at a time every time I touched George.

I have spent the intervening years LEARNING HOW THAT HAPPENED and DOCUMENTING IT.

They have spent the intervening years PUNISHING ME DESPITE MY BEST EFFORTS TO CHANGE MYSELF…and to GIVE THEM TRUTH.

“Lord.  please CLEAR MY NAME?  You promised I would have my family’s respect and  hold my head up in the community and be a lady.  Please, could we do this?  I WANT TO PREACH.  Amen.”

This is the list Josh gave me when Isaac went to Montreal and I was trying AGAIN to be well and accepted.  And I was doing VERY WELL until Isaac came back and began again, to MANAGE ME DOWN.
Every time I begin to be ‘helped’…they undo what’s been helped and set me shaking for another series of months.

Not this time.

I love TRUTH WAY MORE THAN I CARE ABOUT MY SONS HURTING MY FEELINGS TIME AND TIME AGAIN.

I ALSO LOVE THE OTHER VICTIMS ENOUGH TO TAKE SOME CRAPO FROM SONS WHO BELIEVED LIES AND STILL REFUSE TO SEE TRUTH BECAUSE IT WOULD MEAN THAT JESUS IS LORD and if He’s Lord, then they must BEND THEIR KNEE to Him and MY SONS WON’T SUBMIT TO HIM or ANYBODY.  

They don’t have to submit.  They’re homeowners, after all and their dad empties their trash and pays their bills.

They sure don’t have to value us submitted types who do not own property.  

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1)  Remember most people just want to be happy and would like other people (you) to be happy too.
2)  Dogs beg.  It’s what they do.  It’s not that bad.
3)  Don’t worry about stuff you can’t change.
4)  Don’t drink beer.
5)  Double-check if somebody is attacking you or not.
6)  Keep room and bathroom clean.
7)  Ask for help.
8)  Remember, other people can’t be your source of self-worth.
9)  Go for more walks.
10)  “My life was a great many troubles, most of which never happened.”  (Mark Twain)
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I think I’d submit most of this list right back at him.
He can’t blame me for his unhappiness.  No way.  I did that.  It didn’t make him any happier.
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I’ve done all he listed, except I don’t ask him for help.
Also, my room got messy when I started tearing it up so I could move and then God started talking to me and giving me clovers and teaching me stuff and I stopped packing until today.  THEN they give me the talking-to.  I can’t win because I AM THE DESIGNATED SCAPE-GOAT HERE and always before.  THAT IS GETTING OVER.  
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I don’t think Josh completely believes the things he wrote but
he keeps his room clean and he doesn’t drink beer.
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3:04 pm

My thirty days is up.

EVICTION-TIME.

They want me to go ‘get help’ although since the demons went away, including UNWORTHINESS, I have been getting better and happier every single day.  It’s hard to maintain a sense of WORTHINESS when I am begrudged a bed despite all my work on myself and the premises.  They want me dead.  They REJECT what I must be.  I AM A TARGETED INDIVIDUAL SAVED BY JESUS, the CHRIST.
 Isaac thinks that for ANYBODY to be influenced by the electronic weapons he or she MUST HAVE A SCREW LOOSE ALREADY.  He thinks God just permeates his every cell and he does no wrong so he could NEVER be influenced by archonic mechanics.
 “JESUS,  FORGIVE HIM and please have mercy on him so he learns to CONTROL HIS MIND while there is still time to find you.  Amen.”
Josh bared his soul.  He can’t stand having me here and every day he wakes up thinking he must make me leave.  I did everything he asked, when I asked what I should change.  Apparently, they require that my MIND BE CHANGED.  That is mind-control and that really does make them the enemies of freedom.
When they threaten that I must leave; I usually start to hyperventilate.  I asked to stay until the first of the year.  I don’t think so.  Maybe a month.  One month to find a new life and pack up the old and I don’t even know what clothes I’ll be able to wear.  They said, “You had a whole month to get ready to leave…”
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I spent that month being healed and trained by God.  I was VERY SHAKY.  NOW I’M NOT.
This is ridiculous.  This was MY HOUSE until I SIGNED IT OVER TO THEM and ever since that day they’ve been trying to make me leave. They don’t think Dad arranged that on purpose. (Isn’t that cute?  When he has REFUSED ME AN AUDIENCE FOR ALL THESE YEARS DESPITE MY PLEAS ON BEHALF OF MY SONS.)  George doesn’t either and he doesn’t seem uncomfortable SERVING MY SONS.  (I think Dad knew what would happen when you put children in charge.  It’s in the Bible and Dad went to Sunday school.)
I require at least a month.  I’m still having flashbacks of the psych ward.  Do they have any compassion?
JOSH REALLY NEEDS A BREAK from me,  but I’m not the problem.
They think I AM the reason they sit on the couch all day playing games.
I used to think they were my problem when I couldn’t get work done. I don’t have any problems anymore.  God will give me a place to live and friends who are BELIEVERS.  My sons will be believers too. THEY JUST HAVE TO STOP WITH ALL THIS DRAMA!!!!!!!!  (It’s the demons, I know.)
They should grant me a month.
There is not another person on the face of the earth to whom they would deny shelter.  They even sent me out knowing I had nowhere to go but to a man’s house.  They have no love.  They would if the demons went away.  I’ve been loving on them ALL THIS TIME.

 

1:03 pm

I picked another four-leaf clover.

12:22 pm

 

JESUS EXPLAINS… GOD’s High Tech Weapon – ‘LOVE’
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“What the powers behind the collider are trying to do is basically reduce people to an animal mentality turned against itself until they all kill one another.  But I will never, ever allow them to be overwhelmed if they turn to Me.”

“That is why the enemy is TRYING TO FIND A WAY TO CUT OF THE MIND FROM THAT PORTION OF THE BRAIN THAT COMMUNICATES WITH ME MOST CLEARLY.”

(Didn’t I just say this yesterday?)

“WHAT THEY DO NOT UNDERSTAND IS THAT I AM OMNIPOTENT.”  
“They cannot stop My communing with a soul.”  

“I WILL OVERRIDE their EVERY ATTEMPT TO CUT THE SOUL OFF FROM ME.”

(The goons know that.  You’re welcome.)
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11:40 am

I picked another four-leaf clover.

We’re taking Josh’s car to the repair shop.

11:17 am

I picked 3 more four-leaf clovers.

11:01 am

My bluejay buzzed me as I was bent over picking a clover and he lit on the nearest tree and mouthed off at me.  I missed him.  The other day he showed up with a crowd of birds, lots of other jays even.  They surrounded me and flew back and forth in front of me.  The chickadees just stayed right next to me like always.
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I found a clover so beautiful it made me cry.  It doesn’t matter if Isaac loves me or if Josh loves me or if George ever did.  Jesus loves me so much he makes special clovers just for me.  I know what I feel when I pick four-leaf clovers:  I feel love.

10:57 am

I picked 6 more four-leaf clovers.

10:18 am

I picked 3 four-leaf clovers and 1 with six leaves.  Really tiny ones.  

10:08 am

I have to go to court day after tomorrow.  I don’t know why; the notice says:  HEARING.

It has to do with an old credit card bill that I thought was long gone since I got a notice freeing me from paying the judgment from the nice lawyer in Macomb county but of course, I can’t find it.  I’m hoping one of the girls will cut my hair today or tomorrow.  I look a wreck.

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