7/4/16
9:12 pm
“Well, I’ll tell you this is so much different than playing the Dew-Drop-Inn.” (Jim Croce)   (I stayed there when I ran for Congress.  EVERYTHING is different.)
JIM CROCE- “ROLLER DERBY QUEEN” (WITH WORDS BY JIM CROCE)
Rapid Roy.  Sigh.
“Just watchin’ and talkin’ to people like that.  You can’t help but write a tune.”
“The meanest hunk of woman that anybody ever seen”
(Geeze.  He wrote great songs but it’s really disappointing to see him watching his fingers for the chord changes.)
(However.  He CAN be a star.  That is a very good jacket.)
(I had a jacket kinda like that.  I gave it away, to the LAST GUY WHO CLIMBED ON TOP OF ME after I’d gone to sleep in a different room.  Jesus watched all that shit.)
“Well, she might be nasty.  She might be fat.  But I never met a person who could tell her that.”
I love this guy with a great sense of humor.  People tell me he doesn’t exist but I’m head over heels anyway.
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8:54 pm
MUSIC BREAK

 Dad’s Gonna Kill Me

Richard Thompson

“NOBODY LOVES ME HERE.  NOBODY LOVES ME HERE.”

“DAD’S GONNA KILL ME.”

8:47 pm
Somebody please call me stupid.  I’m bored a lot of the time.
I think my government has been engaging in time-travel for decades, perhaps centuries. Perhaps millennia. What that says to me is:  ANYTHING THAT WILL EVER BE POSSIBLE, HAS ALREADY BEEN DONE.  Except that, ‘creation’ does things that have never been done before and the evil-doers are bored out of their ‘minds’ and wouldn’t we humans just indulge them with a bit of creative entertainment?  Then, if we wanna go home, they’ll take our blood on the way out.  Otherwise, we stay at the cloning center until SOMEBODY HAS ENOUGH BALLS (maybe a disciple of Jesus-woman in dumb-fuck-nowhere) to express an interest in our fate since what happens to us also happens to everybody, eventually.  So anyway, all things are possible but Jesus said that a long time ago and now if we do not believe it we will be left far in the dust by those who do.  And you saw it here first, on Roller Derby.
8:34 pm
“IT’S POINTLESS TO WALLOW IN THE BAD HALF OF BEING AN ORPHAN.”
(Fight Narcissism)
7:13 pm
GOD THE FATHER says… Great Suffering is about to befall the World – Message from July 2nd, 2016
“Cleave to me.  All of Heaven waits in silence.”
7:01 pm
“You know it’s lonely to feel always homesick for a place you’ve never been.”
Celebrating No Contact – My Youtube Recovery
from A Toxic Narcissistic Family
“I was my mother’s punching bag.  She says, ‘There’s something wrong with you.  I really think there’s something wrong with you.'”
6:40 pm
FOR WEEKS I’VE HEARD:  ‘You don’t get to…’  Over and over, and always without its object.  “You don’t get to…”  Is it spoken to me?  Am I the voice to another?  I don’t have any idea who might be ‘you’ and what it might be that you will not do, by decree of another.
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6:11 pm
You know how you know that somebody doesn’t love you?  It happens when you learn that nothing you do will piss him off.  He wouldn’t leave if you lit his bed on fire.  That’s resignation and incarceration.  That is anti-life and anti-spirit and anti-creative-anything.  That’s not human because if a human soul does not love, then it hates.  Or else it would find new pasture.  The anti-christ-human doesn’t hate.
6:02 pm
(Note to self:  If you ever find yourself referring to a person as ‘brilliant’, then LISTEN TO WHAT HE/SHE SAYS.)

My sons need to forgive me for things I never did. I think they’ll figure it out. George won’t.

George went to work.
I took a break and picked another four-leaf clover.
Tonight I will sleep better than I have since 2008.
That’s when my life changed course.
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Truth-following NECESSITATES the reevaluation, rejection and reestablishment of one’s FUNCTIONAL REALITY on a regular basis.  That’s just the nature of the beast.
Forgiving somebody who does not apologize is the hardest thing ever.  Sometimes, we get parked on and have to forgive for offenses that WERE NOT EVEN COMMITTED,  and there’s no way that person is going to know that he is expected to repent and to ask forgiveness for a thing he never did.
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5:51 pm
IF I KNEW A GIRL WITH GOOD STUDY HABITS WHO SPENT EVERY WAKING HOUR OF EVERY DAY FOR OVER THREE YEARS TRYING TO GET ME TO PAY ATTENTION TO SOMETHING?
WELL, SHE WOULD HAVE A DESK BY NOW.  AND AN INCOME AND SOME RESPECT.
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Rooty-toot-toot, I’m  the girl from the institute…
“BECAUSE IF YOU SPEAK THE TRUTH, YOU WILL VERY QUICKLY FIND OUT WHO IS ON THE SIDE OF GOOD AND WHO IS NOT.”
5:50 pm
Family Matters – Put Your Hand In The Hand Of The Man
(Those black families really know how to throw a funeral.  I like the ones with brass horns.)
(I’m all alone in my home so I didn’t even turn down the volume!  ALSO, my bedroom doors is open.  I feel very brazen.)
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Karmanos Cancer Center doctor caught running over a dozen sock puppet accounts to impersonate online identities

 There is evil in this world. Remember Hitler? He poisoned people to death on purpose – millions of people. What if you found out right now that medical doctors are engaged in poisoning millions of Americans as we speak, yet under the “radar,” and under the canopy of a crooked, insidious form of medical malpractice that goes completely unpunished and has even been declared legal by rogue regulatory agencies?

 
Some of these doctors not only brag about it online, but they violate a code of ethics that applies to their profession and that is illegal. So, now this begs the question: Who will enforce the law? So far, nobody.
MICHAEL THE ARCHANGEL LITERALLY GRABBED THIS MAN OUT OF HELL AFTER DEFEATING A 13 FOOT TALL DEMON
5:30 pm
George went to work.
I took a break and picked another four-leaf clover.
Tonight I will sleep better than I have since 2008.
That’s when my life changed course.
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Truth-following NECESSITATES the reevaluation, rejection and reestablishment of one’s FUNCTIONAL REALITY on a regular basis.  That’s just the nature of the beast.
Forgiving somebody who does not apologize is the hardest thing ever.  Sometimes, we get parked on and have to forgive for offenses that WERE NOT EVEN COMMITTED,  and there’s no way that person is going to know that he is expected to repent and to ask forgiveness for a thing he never did.

 

4:12 pm
Todd White – The Guitar Testimony
“What do you do man?”
“You know, I love people for a living, bro.”
(I think this guy could heal Isaac’s feet. I think maybe he should.)
3:55 pm
The reason my sons squirm so at any suggestion they might be converted is simple.  They are honest [de facto] men and they know that to be converted is not a trivial issue.  They know that IF THEY WERE TRUE BELIEVERS…no commitment could ever be stringent enough.  No clarity of purpose could gleam in truer reflection of one’s heart’s content and the destiny it chose eons before the earth spit protoplasm.
To join with my cause would change their lives forever and supersede any concern or passion or fear.  My sons know a thing the Baptists do not.  My sons know that if JESUS BE LORD, then serving Him is not a choice.  If JESUS BE WHO I CLAIM then nothing can ever be denied him and all other allegiance falls into old Benny Hill episodes.
 In His oxygen.  It oxidizes.  I’m breathing words here.  Ever do that.  My words are always rhythmic.  Today they are birth pangs.  They come closer.  They come faster.  And finally they end.  AND WHAT WE FIND OURSELVES STUCK WITH IS WHAT WE STUCK BETWEEN OUR LEGS WHEN WE SHOULD RATHER HAVE PRAYED.  SELAH.
My sons are not Disciples of Jesus because they know one disciple who is the real deal.
They will not offer so much.
Yet.
3:34 pm
I am so very grateful.  George is taking another power-walk and my sons went to KI to visit a friend who hasn’t been heard from since he got a place with a girl.  Such a common story. The men are not cuckolds.  They are intentionally submissive and dismissive and they are settling because they do not believe they are valuable enough to behave as their minds and hormones and rowdy-spirits would like.  Young white men DO NOT EVER GET WHAT THEY’D LIKE.  One guy, a lech, admittedly, had a pregnancy scare with a real nice girl.  he was glad.  Finally a reason to chop all that wood.  The child was not well and the pregnancy didn’t end well and the girl hasn’t been around ever since.  He cared about her, surely. But far more than that did he care about finally HAVING SOME DIRECTION.
These young white men, a few are brilliant, the women are over-pierced and under-educated and the women run every second of the men’s lives that are not spent earning money to buy apathetic, sometimes unintended engagement rings for their captor who puts out once in a while but never, ever initiates sex.  I dislike what the Women’s Lib movement did to women; I was raised by a flaming libber.  But, I dislike FAR MORE what women’s ‘liberation’ did to men.  It is not ‘liberated’ to CONTROL SOMEBODY ELSE.  That’s just being a bully.
I have enough direction to sublimate that pesky testosterone for legions of lumberjacks.  Put that broadside to good use or keep it in the sheath.  Just sayin’.
2:44 pm
The vet is here.  I picked another four-leaf clover and he asked me to give him numbers for the lottery.  I hope they work.  He ate tuna salad.
2:21 pm
I picked another four-leaf clover.  I get to stay.  I’m very peaceful now and my joints don’t hurt anymore.
12:32 pm
My sons used to fear my temper; I did too.  I’ve overcome rage by the blood of Jesus.  He also delivered me from arthritis, migraines, chronic candida and bowel issues and sinus infections and (at one time) obesity.  I no longer need eyeglasses, my handwriting COMPLETELY CHANGED FOR THE BETTER instantaneously, and I can pick four-leaf clovers to order.  I no longer become annoyed at stupidity and I have no need to control anybody, not even those who fill up my home with plastic shit and do not eat my wholesome food but instead ‘snack’ on chips and commercial ‘health’ foods.  I am a walking miracle.
I’ve  been accused of not repenting for things but I beg to differ.  You don’t get all those things fixed unless they were rottenness to begin with.  I was extremely judgmental and critical.  I was demanding and controlling and I tried very hard to maintain my control through honest threat of violence rather than manipulation.  I wert holier than thou.  Now, I’m holier than I wert.
12:28 pm
My sons said I may  stay until Monday.  Maybe longer.  I didn’t cry in front of them but I will after they leave this afternoon.  I called the Prophet’s grandson to tell him that Jesus answered his prayer and softened my sons’ hearts.  I’m very grateful.  
(That sounds so obvious when you say it that way.  I’m a slow learner but I’m persistent.)
be he live, or be he dead, I’ll grind his bones to bake my bread
10:41 am
I made ham and cheese omelettes for Josh and Roy and Isaac made one for himself.
Then I picked a four-leaf clover.
Roy is excited about what’s happening to humanity and recognizes a coming eternal divide within our species.  There’s no time he’d rather be alive than now.  I told him I was pleased to talk to him because sometimes my roommates believe I’m negative.  I’ve always been a woe-is-me conspiracy-theorist but NOW I’M SO HAPPY.  He understands.  I let him eat my homemade raspberry jam.
“… for the Lord hath created a new thing in the earth, A woman shall compass a man.”
9:31 am
This is a really good quote.
I think I’ll keep it up-top all-day.
“BECAUSE IF YOU SPEAK THE TRUTH, YOU WILL VERY QUICKLY FIND OUT WHO IS ON THE SIDE OF GOOD AND WHO IS NOT.”  
(Stephen Molyneux)
9:20 am
I Don’t Care What People Do After I Tell Them The Truth
Stefan Molyneux
“I can’t fundamentally worry about it or care about it.  I care about the presentation, because you know, I’m trying to get it across in a way that helps.  But what they do with that information..”
“This is what you do.  You speak the TRUTH.  That’s how I was raised. I was told that as a child…”
(He must have come from a great family.)
 
“I was told as a child in church:  SPEAK THE TRUTH AND SHAME THE DEVIL.”
Police Called to Elementary School After 3rd Grader Makes ‘Racist’ Comment About a Brownie
There was a police officer with a gun in the holster talking to my son, saying, ‘Tell me what you said.’ He didn’t have anybody on his side.”
Isaac said he thought for a while that my clovers were making him sick.  He’s still coughing.  We all are.  Even the Minnesotan.  Except George.
8:03 am
Isaac’s traveling man from Minnesota isn’t awake yet so Isaac knocked again and asked if he could sit with me and drink his tea.  After a couple minutes I could feel myself becoming agitated and I asked him to leave.
I told him I was feeling threatened.  He seemed surprised. Isn’t he just the cutest thing?
I asked to stay a few days because I’m sick.  He said the timing bothered him.  I said I didn’t get sick to inconvenience him.  He’ll talk to Josh.
7:34 am
WOW.
Isaac
just
brought
me
a
cup
of
tea
with
honey
and
lemon
because
I’m
coughing
a lot.
Also, it’s pretty early for him.
“Thank you, Father”
7:29 am
“Who’s On The Lord’s Side!”
Timothy Wright
(Isaac’s looking for a producer for his incredibly moving freedom-music.  This guy might do.  He says:  “Certain songs don’t appeal to sinners.”)
(“Everybody wanna hear you sing, if you can sing.  But they wanna hear you sing for the wrong reasons.”)
THIS IS HOW WE USED TO DO IT
(and there’s a good argument for integration if I ever heard one.):
Who is on the Lord’s Side. Protestant Reformed Mass Choir Concert
7:17 am
God’s downloads are SO MUCH BETTER (and different) than the porn-tinged cartoons contrived by satan’s videographers at the NSA.  Ever see words explode?  You will and I just did.  I’ve quoted this verse to myself and the underworld a thousand times as I was being accused of heinous acts and mental incapacity.  TODAY IT IS A SYMPHONY AND IT PLAYS FOR ME ALONE ON THE VIBRAPHONE OF MY ELECTROCARDIOGRAM:
 
“There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.”
Call me any ‘fucking’ thing you want, Isaac.  (I use ‘fucking’ advisedly.  Although my GOD wishes for us to abstain from vile communication, the word ‘fucking’ has become acceptable as a MEANINGLESS and coitus-denigrating  adjective in MY SONS’ HOME.  They love to punctuate with filth.)  I AM CLEAN AND WITH THAT STATE FLOW MANY BLESSINGS OF CONFIDENCE AND NERVE.  
You are wrong, my son.  You exist in deadly error.  You will suffer the pains of hell if you throw your mother out and continue these MIND-CONTROL attempts.
I suspect your punishment will be harsher for the layers of wool you’ve pulled over your father’s eyes.
You are not welcome here, spirit of manipulation and luxury.  Jesus says no.  This is my home,  so it is His home and it is holy.
BEGONE demons.  I plead the blood of Jesus over this compound once again.  May it rip the PROTECTIVE SCALES FROM EYES THAT HURT WHEN THEY BEGAN TO SEE.  It’s like Debbie Reynold’s ancient ice cream in that Albert Brooks movie.  He thought the layer of ice over the confection was disgusting.  She thought it was protecting the ice cream.
“Give these suffering men new eyes and confections unimagined.  Amen.”
(What in the WORLD do they think would happen without my prayers here?  Give me a break already!)
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ALERT
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I’m pretty sure this is Mandela’s effect.
The following verse used to say:  “call not UNCLEAN”.
(This is explaining how sometimes my memory isn’t linking with the computer search of KJV scripture.)
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And the voice spake unto him again the second time, What God hath cleansed, that call not thou common.  (Acts 1:15)
WHAT GOD HATH CALLED CLEAN, CALL THOU NOT UNCLEAN.  Selah.
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Josh even said, “It’s three against one.”
Glad he cleared that up.
6:26 am
It’s like they’re under a spell.  All three of them just look at me with eyes that don’t see anything.   They don’t even see what they’re doing and supporting!  They just want me gone so they can pretend I’m wrong and pretend that life is what they’ve been told.
Independence Day.  Wouldn’t that be great? For me it would only cost a couple thousand dollars!  I could begin my new life telling people things they will need to know.  Maybe I could even find some who want to know.
I’m thinking of begging for mercy and shelter from my sons.  I’m coughing up lots of green stuff and I’d sure rather stay here than sleep on the floor in the Prophet’s wood-room.
6:12 am
FROM ‘Madness and Politics…but I repeat myself’ 
PUBLISHED 10/11
THIS PORTION DESCRIBES MY INITIAL EFFORTS TO UNRAVEL THE SOURCE OF THE ELECTRONIC RAPES I EXPERIENCED BY A FREQUENCY THAT IMPERSONATED A FRIEND:
The hauntings attentions were often really sexual, in spiritual ways that I hadn’t known existed.  I started doing research.  These things happen, in other places. 
 I sent him an article about shamans.  Various cultures and religions document the shaman.  These people are described as having contact with a spirit, and receiving information by it.  They are described as being overcome sexually, and are often very fearful of these events.  Sometimes the events are pretty pleasant.  Early on I prayed a lot about the Bible’s admonition to refrain from “consulting familiar spirits” and this one got plenty familiar.  
I looked into Tantric yoga.  I even asked the guy if he’d ever been involved with that stuff.  (That was one potential reason for his spirit hooking up with mine, I thought.  If he had participated in spiritual sex in times past, perhaps his spirit was still floating around out there looking for a little action?  Spirits get lost, sometimes.)  I needed his help so badly that I sent tons of documentation for my arguments.  I figured he’d believe me, eventually.  (I never told him anywhere near the amount of stuff that actually happened.  I’m talking TWO YEARS.)  
“My life was absolutely unreal.  I guess that’s the point of crazy, abandoning reality, but I never did.”  
I think this is the most important statement in the book:  “I don’t know if the spirit was him or came from him or pretended to be him.”
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Now I know they call it EEG-cloning.
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