6/30/16

6:25 pm

“The problem with the Mandela effect is you cannot PROVE the Mandela effect to… somebody who DOESN’T HAVE IT.”
Now there’s a matter that might automatically separate some sheep from some goats.   Some of us are from a very different world and it’s plenty obvious to us and it’s even obvious to some others.  It’s very clear that a great divide is taking place within humanity.
MANDELA EFFECT, QUANTUM EFFECT, REALITY SHIFT, GRAND CANYON, 100% PROVEN, MISUNDERSTANDINGS QUASHED!
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“Beloved, I am the fulfillment of all things!
In my arms, Heaven and Earth pass away.
Only perfect fulfillment remains.”

THE LORD Explains… The Voice of Truth – Love, the still small Voice – TRUMPET CALL OF GOD

PBS DONATIONS ARE SECRETLY BEING USED BY POLICE TO SPY ON AMERICANS

“DHS is using Public Broadcasting Service (PBS) television stations to send videos and messages to law enforcement across the country. “Once the hardware [IP encapsulator] is set up at the television station to enable this capability, data recipients will need a datacast receiver connected to their computer in order to receive the information being broadcast from the PBS station. Datacasting’s software allows the owners of the video and other data to target individual users or groups of receivers to receive the video, files and notifications being transmitted.”

I’ve got to assimilate information faster.
Things are changThe talented father-of-one initially took up the sport to keep fiting at an alarming rate.After a while, Andrew began to go topless in his classes, wearing just a pair of hot pants to dance in
I’m still taking too long to adapt to the changes.
 It was after joining a gym that Andrew was convinced to give pole fitness a go
Man, 52, shocks his wife by admitting he has taken up pole dancing after she finds his hot pants – and she refuses speak to him about it for THREE YEARS
  • Andrew Knox, 52, took up pole dancing to keep fit
  • The Felixstowe resident kept his hobby a secret from his wife, Carole
  • After discovering his hot pants, the father-of-one revealed his secret
  • Carole, refused to acknowledge her husband’s dancing for THREE years
  • However after seeing him dance she was won over by his skills on the pole

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-3667611/Man-52-shocks-wife-admitting-taken-pole-dancing-finds-hot-pants-refuses-speak-THREE-YEARS.html#ixzz4D6Vn4HPa

‘There was a time when I wouldn’t even get up and dance at a party, whereas now I’m parading myself half-naked at my pole classes several times a week.’

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-3667611/Man-52-shocks-wife-admitting-taken-pole-dancing-finds-hot-pants-refuses-speak-THREE-YEARS.html#ixzz4D6VZvLTs

3:26 pm

I picked one four-leaf clover.
Lots of rain and thunder.

1:31 pm

Does your favorite color have to be flattering for you to wear?  Or is it like you can always add your favorite color to an outfit if you keep it away from your face so then you’d actually have two favorite colors, one to wear and one to just enjoy at odd times when you can or in a scarf or something.  
Isaac freed me, it was just like that.  I didn’t realize how powerful it was until afterward when I started to cry.  These guys DO NOT see me cry anymore.  I guess I will not be punished for becoming happy.  The news made me spontaneously much more energetic; I felt an urge to cook.  I made borscht for George and Italian meatballs for the other guys.  
I might prefer shimmery turquoise, smooth like satan but not snaggy. Maybe like beaten metal, with sparkle-spots of random reflection.   That’s not really a color anymore is it.  I didn’t expect it to be so difficult to choose a favorite.  

10:00 am

I picked a four-leaf clover.
They’re dying inside.  All those politicians know they’ve done evil and they know evil has them under its control and they know there is no hope.  They couldn’t tell the truth now because somebody would activate the chip in their brains and they’d have an aneurism on the house floor preceded by a heartfelt tirade against short-changing the intelligence agencies.  Hands gesticulating genuinely then pausing over the drop-dead-sequence and the heart-explosion is on C-Span for all to see; shoddy-sell-out-life-force spirals upward as liars’-lips plead absolution with the most sacred of all utterances:  “BUDGET”.  
That’s the future for the mind-controlled hypocrite ‘representatives’ and some of them are smart enough to know it.  There’s no free lunch and every hooker maintains a guestbook.  Even free ones.  Especially them.
Apparently I’m selfish and only care about myself now, and the only possible solution is for me to leave.  They recognize that I am ‘happy’ and picking clovers and it is far too weird for them since they are not happy and as usual, it is my fault.  Aren’t they cute little leaseholders?  I’m doing them a favor.  I suspect they’ve observed some inconsistency in their decision to have me abducted by the government and forcibly detained and drugged.
That being so, I suppose I will not CRITICIZE THEM ANY MORE.  It was easy to start, after all those years and the things I’ve learned about self-love-deficit-disorder and the lifetime acceptance of abuse it fosters.
It will be easy to stop.  They’re lovely men.
In return, I’m pretty sure they will not KICK ME OUT and I will continue my Truth-quest QUIETLY and I will not care what they believe.  Except about Jesus.  I’d really like them to believe in Him so He can lead them into Truth.  It’s not my job it’s the Holy Spirit’s job.  I repent for wanting to brainwash them.  I repent for resenting the fact that they want to brainwash me.  As for me being happy?  Well, SOMEBODY’S GOTTA GO FIRST.
I find it curious though that they objected to my public criticism of them… within a very short period of time.  They confronted me and tried to make it stop.  Just like I (logically) did when my dad started bad-mouthing me all over.  I’m still holding out for a response.  But what’s curious is that although I’ve made MANY PUBLIC ALLEGATIONS about my parents, they haven’t come to me to discuss them for seven whole years.  This is guilt.  No two ways about it.  Also, they DID contact my witnesses behind my back.  They’re sneaky and I am glad my sons are transparent and honest non-manipulative men.
My sons are forgiven.
I’ve been free since I freed Isaac.
I hope he gives himself (and me) the same gift.

 

7:02 am

George will not influence my right to live in my home.  He said my sons would like to invite their grandparents for dinner and their cousins.  (HE FORGETS THAT THOSE PEOPLE HAVE WANTED NOTHING TO DO WITH US FOREVER.)  
The preference is that I be DEAD AND GONE.
Under no circumstances am I allowed to COMPILE EVIDENCE AND BECOME CONVINCED OF A MATTER.  They will not permit me to FOLLOW MY HEART INTO TRUTH.
Their evil requires a scapegoat; it is evil to keep one’s mother under that threat for years.  My dad knows how this has played out.  
I asked George why dad took our house.  
He said, “He DIDN’T take it.”  
I tried again, “Why do you suppose Dad HAD US SIGN THE HOUSE AWAY?  What had we done?  We were taking care of things, living in it.”  
He has no answer but will not ascribe any evil plans to my dad.  
THEN WHY DID HE DO THAT?  AND WHY HAS HE REFUSED TO SPEAK ABOUT MY CLAIMS FOR SEVEN YEARS?  
“IT IS EASIER TO FOOL A MAN THAN IT IS TO CONVINCE HIM HE’S BEEN FOOLED.”  (Mark Twain) 
Dad himself said, a few years ago, “I didn’t TAKE your house.  I PRESERVED it.”
Preserved it for whom?
Where was I going?
I won’t be my sons’ scapegoat.
They have to deal with my family BASED ON TRUTH.
They don’t want Truth.
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“Lord, please deliver my sons from STUPID.  Thank you.  Also, please intervene with my heart?  It’s breaking some more.  Thank you for a fear-free month.  Please, if I’m supposed to leave, please show me where?  Please give me resources?  You have not given me a spirit of fear so I rebuke him in your name and through your blood.  Amen.”
I can only imagine Dad is offering my sons money if they get me warehoused.  Forgive them for not wondering why he is SO ADAMANT that I be put away.  He started trying in 2009.  I WILL BE TOTALLY FREE OF FEAR.  

 

6/29/16

We can’t negotiate.  It isn’t any of my behaviors and he agrees that I am a very disciplined person.  He just wants MY MIND TO CHANGE.  Nazi.

You know how I know Jesus Christ is real?  I know because He has taught me to love myself in this house where I am not trusted and I am plotted against.  
He taught me to love myself in the face of continuing devaluation and silencing.  Blaming. Life-long shame from blaming the victim, and still I love myself more every day.
My sons will love Jesus when they see what He will do for us.  
I love Truth more than anything.  I have maintained a Truthful Truth-quest for all these years all by myself.  I can respect that.  And I love me. 

 

10:18 pm

God is never late.

He has two days.

I didn’t pick any clovers today and my back has hurt less.  Josh suggested it.  He made me a whole list of things to do back when Isaac left, and I did them all.  Now he wants the cops to remove me.  I could negotiate.  I’m a VERY DISCIPLINED PERSON.  I quit smoking I quit drinking beer.  I fasted for 12 days one time.  
I can control my behavior so I should just do that. How silly to involve governmental force when a person is controlling himself?  He told me to stay in my room a couple months ago and that’s where I’ve been ever since.  
I WONDER WHAT ELSE HE WANTS FROM ME?

 

9:45 pm

God says He’s never late.

It feels like He is late.

9:38 PM

Well, I didn’t have a panic attack for over a month.  I’ve been happy and picking clovers.  My sons don’t want me happy because I’ve been threatened again.  I must go for ‘help’ within two days or Josh will call the cops to remove me from my home. 
Neither of them has yet considered WHY DAD GAVE THEM MY HOUSE TO BEGIN WITH.
I enjoyed feeling safe for a time.  Now the knot is back in my stomach.

1:31 pm

I was attacked just now, by a narcissist.  I am understanding.  Finally.

It’s post-porn.  It’s the sideshow.  It’s erotic only by elimination.  We are gazing upon the mutilated bodies of the trans-gender and we’re getting our jollies and we’re being instructed to do so.  From creeps.  From the defective.  Pretty soon we’ll be buying those brown-cover magazines with dirty pictures of amputees.  

1:13 pm

I’ve been standing up for my sons for years now.  Their own dad doesn’t think they can do anything and he expects nothing, I’ve stood even against him on their behalf.

I don’t respect them anymore.

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1:07 pm

I took a nap and when I got up Josh was cooking eggs for everybody else.  He wasn’t nice to me.  NOBODY WAS NICE TO ME because I wanted eggs too.  I kept saying ‘I’m not your problem’ but they kept yelling at me for wanting to eat.  THEY’RE BECOMING LIKE GEORGE.  For decades, when we’ve had guests, George has partaken first.  I’ve recorded it, and his apologies, but he still did it again last week.  He said, “I haven’t eaten…I’m hungry.”  I say you offer it to others first.  JOSH and ISAAC agree with George.  I wonder if they’ll try to kick me out again now that I expect to eat with them like a person?

9:41 am

We love our enemies…and they know it fer-sure because they can reed our minds from a satellite.

9:27 am

Here’s another thing I must bitch at my sons regarding.  I am eager for us all to tell the truth all the time and to not pre-judge anybody but so far I must confront my ADULT sons yet again:  Were you guys disrespectful to Adam?  It occurs to me, that despite my careful attempts to provide Adam, an honest man and fellow TI, some leeway and SPACE…you guys LOOKED HIM UP and DEMANDED THAT HE GIVE YOU HIS PROPERTY and then even made him get you high?  THEN, after [presumably] intimating that if he GIVES YOU HIS PROPERTY THAT I SENT TO HIM, it might in some way help me?  (Did you tell him it would help me?)  AND THEN YOU DIDN’T EVEN TELL ME FOR A YEAR AND A HALF THAT YOU WENT THERE AND DEMANDED SO UNJUSTLY?  Sons.  I expect FAR BETTER.  WHAT DOES ADAM OWE YOU APOLOGY FOR?  BECAUSE HE DIDN’T FOOL AROUND WITH YOUR MOTHER ALTHOUGH ELECTRONICALLY ENCOURAGED TO DO SO?  Do not shame me any longer with your stupidity.  Thank you.
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9:14 am

I just felt Truth.  I write lots that I know is actually Truth but I don’t often feel it.  I felt this:  “…my story will help stop these spirit-perverts.”
I gave Jesus my life decades ago.  I wanted to boogie but I washed dishes instead and asked Jesus to use me for something important and cool.  Sigh.  I’m getting everything I ever wanted…because I didn’t chose to never want anything.  
 
(Hillary actually, upon tele-prompter, pronounced the intended sigh as ‘sigh’ and wasn’t she just as genuine as hell?  I love you you-tube.)
I know the goons wonder about me, and probably others.  I could have stopped the RAPES with my will.  They know I COULD HAVE STOPPED the rapes with MY WILL.  They wish to be as powerful as a natural woman.  So do I.  The syntho-watchers wonder why I submitted to torture and rape because they already know why but they don’t believe it.  We submit because of love.  We know the future is perfection and don’t we just wish to take along as many as we might?  WE love.  We LOVE.  We love our enemies…and they know it fer-sure because they can reed our minds from a satellite.  They can’t imagine how or why we should love them, because also, they know we are not stupid.  But…love is VERY ATTRACTIVE and every robot seeks his fair share.  “I thirsted in a barren land of sin and shame and nothing satisfying there I found.   But-then-un-to the blessed Cross of Christ one day I came…where springs of living water did abound!  Drinking at the springs of living water…happy now am I…my soul is satisfied….drinking at the springs of living water, oh WONDERFUL AND BOUNTIFUL SUPPLY.”

8:34 am

David thinks Donna is a ‘good Christian woman’ because she’s bossy.  I can prove it.

8:26 am

Sweet David, it’s really like this:

“DEAR JESUS. I don’t actually want to write what I believe you mean for me to write.  I don’t like putting my own shell into the gap like that but it is exactly what you did and I’ve wanted to be YOUR BODY ON EARTH so here goes, strike me down if I’m wrong:

DAVID.  I believe that your eternal destiny may depend on how you deal with me because you know I have been tortured, raped and wrongfully represented and kicked out of the family without a hearing.”  “Amen.”  

(I wasn’t struck dead.)

Amy Winehouse – Do Me Good (lyrics)

8:04 AM

David, if you follow that man into hell then you deserve everything you get.  Jesus loves you.  Dad makes fun of you.  C’mon over.  I’ll show you [sworn] references.  JESUS IS LORD.  DAD is satan’s offspring and you know it.  ❤
STANDING UP FOR TRUTH DOESN’T MEAN YOU DON’T LOVE DAD; IT MEANS YOU HAVE A DIFFERENCE OF OPINION.  SO HIS EGO GETS THREATENED.  HE PUSHES YOU AWAY.  DAVID, I KNOW YOU,  AND I SEE THE SAME PICTURES OF OUR FATHER THAT YOU SEE WHEN WE REED WORDS FROM OTHER DYSFUNCTIONAL-FAMILY-SURVIVORS.   AND ALSO YOUR BIG SISTER IS NOT ONLY A SURVIVOR BUT SHE IS A SUPERSEDER AND JESUS IS REAL AND DAD IS NOT.  GLORY HALLELUJAH.  
WE DO NOT HAVE TO LIVE OUR LIVES WONDERING WHAT OUR NAZI-SPERM-DONER  WILL THINK OF THE WAY WE WIPE OUR ASSES AFTER HE HAS PERMITTED US TO TAKE A DUMP.  I LOVE YOU DAVID. WANNA GET FREE?
IT TAKES TRUTH.  YOU KNOW THAT BECAUSE YOU REMEMBER THE BIBLE FROM SUNDAY SCHOOL AND AWANA.  THAT’S A GOOD THING. DAD’S CREW IS CHANGING WHAT THE GOOD-BOOK SAYS EVEN AS WE DILLY-DALLY.  WHAT YOU REMEMBER MAY BE ALL YOU HAVE THAT’S REAL.  I’D SHARE MINE IF YOU’D SHARE YOURS AND MAYBE WE COULD EAT DINNER TOGETHER AND BE FAMILY AND AFTERWARD GEORGE [THE OBTUSE] WILL NOT HAVE TO COMMENT AS HE HAS FOR TWENTY FIVE YEARS AFTER EVERY MEAL WE’VE SHARED WITH DAVID:  DAVID TALKS SO FAKE-Y.  TRUE THAT.
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7:34 am

 

Love After Codependency 2016

“My mother was always afraid of upsetting my dad.  I watched that as a little girl.”
“Literally COWER…”
(Me too.  Good times.)
“He can’t wrap his head around the idea that you’re ALLOWED TO HAVE A DIFFERENCE OF OPINION.
(ALSO, he lives in FEAR that David or my mom might also realize that they also are ALLOWED TO HAVE A DIFFERENCE OF OPINION.)
 (If I were David, my ‘difference’ would have begun years ago when my PERVERT-FATHER gave my wife FANCY BRASSIERES for CHRISTMAS in front of our CHILDREN thereby CASTRATING ME FOREVER…and then he made fun of me to the rest of the ‘family’ because Donna’s the boss.)
(ASSHOLE, BOUNDARY and PERSON-DEVALUING FATHER-BOSS and am I glad I’m not the ‘golden’ goldthorpe.  Amen.)
(“Lord, please give David some balls.  Thank you.”)
(“I know you already did but I’m being fa·ce·tious because that’s how we learned to communicate in Robert’s house.  I mean in YOUR HOUSE that Robert stole from me.  Amen.”)

6:08 am

DNA is gender-specific. There are two genders.  Sometimes, humans are born deformed and sometimes they have either the genitalia of both genders, or maybe an odd extra ‘X’ chromosome.  Super-males.  Extremely aggressive.  These curiodities co-inhabit our bi-gender, biological-and-also-spiritual-paradigm.  They’re mutated; not adequate representations of the pattern; not to be emulated but often to be envied.   My spirit is female.  That issue was nicely settled by the goons with their toys of fake-spiritism which is even worse than spiritism which is not to even be compared with LEGITIMATE SPIRITUALITY.  Also, there’s really no way conceivable that FALLEN ANGELS could be [sexually] attracted to the BODIES of humans.  That’s ludicrous.  Their bodies live forever and can go through solid objects.  Mine can’t.  BUT, mine is female and so is my spirit.  Nephilim sometimes like men’s bodies too; they enter them and control their hands on the joystick and they use these HUMAN-MAN-BODIES to rape people.  This won’t happen much longer; my story will help stop these spirit-perverts.  Until then, we must cover our bodies and souls and spirits with history’s BEST demon-repellant.  Google it.  

5:14 am

‘The Hope Brigade.’  Maybe that’s too corny.  9-1-1-HOPE.  “HOPE-World’s Best life extender and increaser of comfort-levels and maybe even testosterone.”  “GERITOL for the soul.”  Could I formulate an ad campaign to sell ‘hope’?  Nobody wants it.  In ‘The Postman’ Kevin Costner just passed it around ‘like candy’ from his pocket.  That’s because in the movies people ACTUALLY WANT HOPE.  
IN THE MOVIES,  that sound in the distance portends some kindly stranger with a canteen who be leading an unridden donkey.  We want somebody to cut the rope that holds our visage alert and we want down from out of this motherfuckin’ tree.  We want the Avon lady to do our colors and rock our world.  We want to believe that we may one day offer the story of our would-be execution amid brotherly smiles and swills of free ale.  WE WANT HOPE.  But, we don’t really believe in it so we don’t get too worked up.  
Hope is silly, so we don’t indulge anymore.  We’ve been weaned from the hope-porn-channel and we don’t even think about turning it on. No more hope.  No hope. No, I won’t have hope because it’s stupid.  I’m SMART.  I won’t hope in things that cannot possibly change me or my circumstances.  Woe.  Sob.  Whine.  Hopeless me.
YOU CAN’T SELL HOPE AROUND HERE.  
Josh says, “Hope is that feeling you get right before disappointment.” 
HIS EXPERIENCE OF LIFE HAS BEEN STUNTED BY HIS MOTHER’S TORTURE AND NEAR-MURDER AND THE LIES SURROUNDING IT.
HIS GRANDPARENTS WERE ASKED REPEATEDLY TO PROVIDE OPPORTUNITY FOR HIM.
I cried.  I submitted to my own life’s destruction…if they’d help me get Josh some life.
THEY KNOW THAT WHEN THEY SHUNNED ME, MY CONCERN WAS FOR JOSH…BUT THEY WOULDN’T EVEN TALK TO ME ABOUT HIM.
That has been his experience, and he has not been given truth about his family and most importantly, JESUS.  
There is no hope where there is no vision.  
“Where there is no vision, the people perish.”
“Dear Lord,  thank you for showing me so many things I did not understand about what happened to me and my family.  Please reveal truth to Josh?  Also Isaac and George?  I know how difficult it was for me to believe when the goons first told me how my troubles originated.  Please, give them an easy initiation.  Please smooth the presentation for them?  They’ve had SO MUCH PAIN!  Soothe it all with Your Truth. Please love them into faith?  Please demonstrate your power and vindicate their parents who only wanted to serve you and were targeted for it.  Please, more than clovers; the clovers just scare them I think. Please show us your glory.  Show us your attention to detail and to the evil performed in your name…and my parents’ utter failure and false religion.  Please Lord, you’re never late.  Please redeem my beautiful sons?  Sorry.  “YOUR SONS”.  Amen.”
At our house, hope is like believing in Santa Claus.  We’ve been repeatedly screwed by those who claim to love us and we aren’t falling for hope.   I hoped for so long that my dad would help my sons.  His theatre-persona is all he cares about.  I suppose that makes sense:  It’s all he has left.

The Mandela Effect is Getting too Real – Calm Down – This is what is Happening

“A lot of things are changing in our reality.”
Wow.  Either Jesus is going around telling a lot of people things that are TOTALLY VIOLENT AND UNLIKE ANYTHING HE’S EVER SAID TO ME…or there’s somebody else calling himself ‘Jesus’.  Who would have thought that identity theft would be a problem even for the King of Kings?  I guess it’s not, not really a problem.  

Narcissistic abuse – “I just wanted to be loved”

“Especially if we grew up with parents who were or are narcissists.”

Snowden Documents Proving “US Alien Hitler” Link Stuns Russia

The most illegal drugs are illegal because they disrupt mind control programming

See at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/the-most-illegal-drugs-are-illegal-because-they-disrupt-mind-control-programming/

 Cannabis vs Legal Drugs

Terence Mckenna 

“[Cannabis] erodes loyalty to the industrial state.”

Marijuana Disrupts Mind Control Programming

Cathy O’Brien

(I red about her life years ago and it really scared me.  She says she lives in constant celebration that those times are over.)

6/28/16

10:17 am

“Standing up to ‘authority’ makes most people uncomfortable.  People don’t want to make waves, and don’t want trouble.  They want to ‘get by’ and take the safe road.  They don’t want to put themselves at risk.  They don’t even want to tell the truth, or even know the truth, if it means they must go against the tide.  And that is why tyranny happens.”  (Larken Rose)  
(“Standing up to ‘authority’ makes most people uncomfortable.  People don’t want to make waves, and don’t want trouble.  They want to ‘get by’ and take the safe road.  They don’t want to put themselves at risk.  They don’t even want to tell the truth, or even know the truth, if it means they must go against the tide.  And that is why tyranny happens.”)  (Larken Rose)  

“Standing up to ‘authority’ makes most people uncomfortable.  People don’t want to make waves, and don’t want trouble.  They want to ‘get by’ and take the safe road.  They don’t want to put themselves at risk.  They don’t even want to tell the truth, or even know the truth, if it means they must go against the tide.  And that is why tyranny happens.”  (Larken Rose)

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Tyranny happens
because of PEOPLE
LIKE ISAAC.  
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Mark Passio Master & Slave Relationship

 

1:55 pm

I picked a four-leaf clover.

10:08 am

This is a TERRIBLE new term:
“Artificial Intelligence Arms Race”
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“I’m here to tell you how I became a targeted individual.”

How I became a National Security

NDAA Jade-Helm Risk

by Lissa June 28 2016

“The gentleman you see is George.  He was my husband.”
I got shot in my ear day before yesterday. A big lump in my earlobe and blood dripping out of nowhere. I thought it was a huge horsefly bite but there was a line of scabbing about an inch long in addition to a really big lump that doesn’t seem to be a bug bit. Is that what you meant? I appreciate your work. Linda 906-586-4629 (thatrandomcandidate.com)

I think I pretty much don’t have PTSD anymore.  I can only remember one flashback in maybe a week.  I feel ungrateful that I didn’t miss them.  I’m grateful now.  It takes YEARS for people who have been abused for as long as I, to get to this point if they ever even do.  Jesus is Lord.  
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9:30 am

THIS IS MANDELA’S EFFECT:
I KNOW THIS SONG.
‘SOMEBODY SAID DIGNITY WAS THE ‘F-I-R-S-T’ TO LEAVE IS HOW IT USED TO GO BUT NOW IN HANOI, DYLAN IS SINGING THAT DIGNITY GOES LAST?  It’s not even true.  You don’t bend over all the way the first time.

Bob Dylan’s Dignity, playing in Green Gecko Cafe (Hanoi, Vietnam)

If I thought like my dad and I wanted to gaslight him,  what would I do?
Apparently, I’d do NOTHING DIFFERENT THAN I’VE EVER DONE because he’s been scared of me for years and all I did was bake for him and be nice and love him.  HE WOULDN’T EVEN EAT MY FOOD FOR A WHILE BECAUSE HE THOUGHT I’D POISON HIM.  That, my friends, is a guilty conscience speaking through paranoia.  
I COULDN’T EVEN POISON him if I wanted to because I FAILED CHEMISTRY ENTIRELY and if he ever paid attention to me he’d know I am utterly harmless.  
IT IS HIS OWN POLLUTED MIND AND MEMORY THAT BRING HIM TO THE EDGE OF INSANITY OVER AND OVER AGAIN.  I am not even shitting you: I SEE INTO THIS RANCID SCRAP OF MANHOOD.  And I discard and denounce everything he’s ever stood for.  And for sure I won’t get worn out rounding it all up.  
My dad actually SAID REPEATEDLY THAT HE EXPECTED MY BROTHER-IN-LAW TO KILL MY SISTER.  He is evil-minded and he thinks everybody else is too except he thinks he’s better at it.  
I swear, if those cops don’t arrest him pretty soon they’re accessories after the fact and they’re setting up his next victim.  GUILTY.  I’ve even written to judges.  The eyes of Texas are upon him.  I’m the safest woman in Michigan. 

9:04 am

We’re going shopping this afternoon so I’m not starting dinner.  Maybe we’ll eat somewhere or buy something for tonight.

I picked a five-leaf clover.

Dad’s employee is mowing on OUR SIDE of the fence.

The worlds have collided!

8:23 am

I LIKE GINGER.  I like cilantro and cumin.  I like lemongrass.  I don’t like cinnamon in chocolate or coffee.  Saffron is overrated.  I like dill.  Isaac is facing some difficult ideas.  He commented about how his dad just wanted a quiet, peaceful, stay-at-home life. And I’ve always wanted adventure.  His observation gave me opportunity; I asked him to consider which of his parents had more gotten what he wanted out of our life together.  It’s always been very easy for him to blame me for everything.  George never corrected him.  It would be nice if George would confirm that I’ve not been the overbearing wife my parents reported.  I don’t think he can see me anymore.
Isaac is so lucky to be waking up at his age.  My life would have been very different if I had actually seen my parents during the years before they tried to kill me.  But, better late than never and my boss says He’s never late.

8:06 am

HERE’S ONE TIME GOD TOLD US THAT STUPIDITY IS FATAL:

Hosea 4:6

“My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge: because thou hast rejected knowledge, I will also reject thee, that thou shalt be no priest to me: seeing thou hast forgotten the law of thy God, I will also forget thy children.”
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7:14 am

“Even though they’re destroying your soul and destroying who you are, they never actually believe you stopped thinking the way they do.  They NEVER ACTUALLY BELIEVE YOU’RE NOT PLOTTING THE SAME WAY THEY ARE…”  “Because that’s how they think.”  (Ollie Mathews)

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6:57 am

“How many of us get to a stage in life and then realize you haven’t  lived a day of your own life.  You don’t even really know what you like.”
(I didn’t know that until a new-friend asked what kind of music I liked.  I COULDN’T ANSWER.)
(I’m leaning toward brilliant emerald green for a favorite color.)

The Narcissist’s Moments Of Happiness Are Holding You Back

If You Don’t Break Contact

The Narcissist Will Kill You

One Way Or Another

(That’s why they invented maximum security facilities.)
(I am so disappointed that MY GOVERNMENT would allow my dad to roam freely for so long.)
(I’ve got any parts of the story they might still lack, and they’re permitting me to live in danger why?)
(Just to see if my Jesus will help me I suspect.  He’s their ONLY CHANCE AT DEFEATING REMOTE-CONTROL-DEATH-CONTRACT SECURITY-CLEARANCES that make the goons’ EXISTENCE TEMPORARY AND POINTLESS.)
(If I can shake off a psychopath then so can they.)
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yep they love and live for that one my narc mother worked so hard at trying get me the scape goat to this result first was through taking away my kids by proxy wow she lived that one and suddenly made amends with me just before the court case so she could watch first hand her handy work.lucky i never broke came close.thank god ollie for reminding me importance of no contact

Breaking the Chain 

+Abuser Abuser Wow! Some piece of work, that one. So glad you got that one out of your life! My former friend’s husband was like that. No Contact. No more histrionics. Be well, friend 🙂 ♡

Rob O 

Just like another Ollie video about keeping you on the bottom run of the ladder. You killing yourself is their ultimate victory because they are left to write history. A man in my local area I had recently come into contact with killed himself last week. I can’t help but think his suicide note had narcissistic abuse written all over it. I’m sure his ex wife is smiling because she probably drove him to it! She gets to collect SS for his children now. My x wife wouldn’t give a crap if I was breathing or not, I’m worth more dead than alive to her.

VIOLET PACE 

Ms Sky . .how kind if u 2 post that number. B4 i got right with God . . people like u.. is one of the reasons that I have surviled to be a old woman. The only reason my health is excellent is because God is good. Wake up people!! Will u wait till over half your life is gone like I did? Start young! DO NOT allow toxic people in your life.

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JESUS SAYS… NOW or NEVER! Where is your Allegiance My Bride?

“If you’re going to come back you’d better do it quickly, there’s hardly any time left for you.  It is now or never, my brides.  Now or never.  Now or never.”
“Yet another fact that is highly unusual is the recent string of murders, attempted murders, arson, and other crimes that have happened on Walmart’s premises. Many of these “crimes” sound more like drills or exercises. During one of the exercises in Amarillo, Texas, the police force notes that two gunmen are in the store holding hostages. They said that one was hispanic and another was black, but then this was modified to one arab Islamic terrorist, then modified again to a episode of “workplace violence.” This mirrors problems in the stories of San Bernardino (reports of three shooters) and Orlando (report of two of three offenders, then modified by police reports). Are these exercises or drills being carried out by the DHS (for whom Mateen conveniently worked as a contractor)?”

The Myth of Authority (Video Contest Winner)

“The idea that we need to give a group of people permission to forcibly rob and control us so they can protect us from those who might forcibly rob and control us is RIDICULOUS.”
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The Great Lakes Water Wars Have Begun After U.S. Officials Approve Drawing 30 Million Litres Per Day

Last year, the city of Waukesha in Wisconsin had asked the Great Lake states for permission to divert water from Lake Michigan because its own aquifer is running low and the water is contaminated with high levels of naturally occurring cancer-causing radium. 

A panel representing governors of the eight states adjoining the Great Lakes unanimously approved a proposal from Waukesha, which is under a court order to find a solution to the radium contamination of its groundwater wells. The city says the project will cost over $200 million for engineering studies, pipelines and other infrastructure.

See more at:  http://preventdisease.com/news/16/062516_Great-Lakes-Water-Wars-Officials-Approve-Drawing-30-Million-Litres-Per-Day.shtml

Judge: FBI Transcript Shows Nobody Died in Orlando Shooting Until SWAT Teams entered the Building

Judge Andrew Napolitano told FOX News that an FBI transcript indicated that no one died until 05:13am Sunday morning when the police SWAT teams entered the building.

“Here’s what is news in the summary – nobody died until 05:13 in the morning, when the SWAT team entered. Prior to that no one had been killed. The 53 that were injured, and the 49 that were murdered all met their fates at the time of, and during, the police entry into the building,” Judge Napolitano said.

Michelle’s Tiny Dream House- a gorgeous triple-axle home on wheels!

(She says it gives her joy.)
My cousins had a play house.  It was fitted out with toy appliances and complete sets of tiny dishes.  They had dolls on a shelf running around their entire upstairs, probably hundreds.  Dad built my brother a treehouse.  My sister lived at the barn with her horses.  I ‘built’ a couple ‘forts’ but they never worked out.
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