Monthly Archives: June 2016


6:25 pm

“The problem with the Mandela effect is you cannot PROVE the Mandela effect to… somebody who DOESN’T HAVE IT.”
Now there’s a matter that might automatically separate some sheep from some goats.   Some of us are from a very different world and it’s plenty obvious to us and it’s even obvious to some others.  It’s very clear that a great divide is taking place within humanity.
“Beloved, I am the fulfillment of all things!
In my arms, Heaven and Earth pass away.
Only perfect fulfillment remains.”

THE LORD Explains… The Voice of Truth – Love, the still small Voice – TRUMPET CALL OF GOD


“DHS is using Public Broadcasting Service (PBS) television stations to send videos and messages to law enforcement across the country. “Once the hardware [IP encapsulator] is set up at the television station to enable this capability, data recipients will need a datacast receiver connected to their computer in order to receive the information being broadcast from the PBS station. Datacasting’s software allows the owners of the video and other data to target individual users or groups of receivers to receive the video, files and notifications being transmitted.”

I’ve got to assimilate information faster.
Things are changThe talented father-of-one initially took up the sport to keep fiting at an alarming rate.After a while, Andrew began to go topless in his classes, wearing just a pair of hot pants to dance in
I’m still taking too long to adapt to the changes.
 It was after joining a gym that Andrew was convinced to give pole fitness a go
Man, 52, shocks his wife by admitting he has taken up pole dancing after she finds his hot pants – and she refuses speak to him about it for THREE YEARS
  • Andrew Knox, 52, took up pole dancing to keep fit
  • The Felixstowe resident kept his hobby a secret from his wife, Carole
  • After discovering his hot pants, the father-of-one revealed his secret
  • Carole, refused to acknowledge her husband’s dancing for THREE years
  • However after seeing him dance she was won over by his skills on the pole

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‘There was a time when I wouldn’t even get up and dance at a party, whereas now I’m parading myself half-naked at my pole classes several times a week.’

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3:26 pm

I picked one four-leaf clover.
Lots of rain and thunder.

1:31 pm

Does your favorite color have to be flattering for you to wear?  Or is it like you can always add your favorite color to an outfit if you keep it away from your face so then you’d actually have two favorite colors, one to wear and one to just enjoy at odd times when you can or in a scarf or something.  
Isaac freed me, it was just like that.  I didn’t realize how powerful it was until afterward when I started to cry.  These guys DO NOT see me cry anymore.  I guess I will not be punished for becoming happy.  The news made me spontaneously much more energetic; I felt an urge to cook.  I made borscht for George and Italian meatballs for the other guys.  
I might prefer shimmery turquoise, smooth like satan but not snaggy. Maybe like beaten metal, with sparkle-spots of random reflection.   That’s not really a color anymore is it.  I didn’t expect it to be so difficult to choose a favorite.  

10:00 am

I picked a four-leaf clover.
They’re dying inside.  All those politicians know they’ve done evil and they know evil has them under its control and they know there is no hope.  They couldn’t tell the truth now because somebody would activate the chip in their brains and they’d have an aneurism on the house floor preceded by a heartfelt tirade against short-changing the intelligence agencies.  Hands gesticulating genuinely then pausing over the drop-dead-sequence and the heart-explosion is on C-Span for all to see; shoddy-sell-out-life-force spirals upward as liars’-lips plead absolution with the most sacred of all utterances:  “BUDGET”.  
That’s the future for the mind-controlled hypocrite ‘representatives’ and some of them are smart enough to know it.  There’s no free lunch and every hooker maintains a guestbook.  Even free ones.  Especially them.
Apparently I’m selfish and only care about myself now, and the only possible solution is for me to leave.  They recognize that I am ‘happy’ and picking clovers and it is far too weird for them since they are not happy and as usual, it is my fault.  Aren’t they cute little leaseholders?  I’m doing them a favor.  I suspect they’ve observed some inconsistency in their decision to have me abducted by the government and forcibly detained and drugged.
That being so, I suppose I will not CRITICIZE THEM ANY MORE.  It was easy to start, after all those years and the things I’ve learned about self-love-deficit-disorder and the lifetime acceptance of abuse it fosters.
It will be easy to stop.  They’re lovely men.
In return, I’m pretty sure they will not KICK ME OUT and I will continue my Truth-quest QUIETLY and I will not care what they believe.  Except about Jesus.  I’d really like them to believe in Him so He can lead them into Truth.  It’s not my job it’s the Holy Spirit’s job.  I repent for wanting to brainwash them.  I repent for resenting the fact that they want to brainwash me.  As for me being happy?  Well, SOMEBODY’S GOTTA GO FIRST.
I find it curious though that they objected to my public criticism of them… within a very short period of time.  They confronted me and tried to make it stop.  Just like I (logically) did when my dad started bad-mouthing me all over.  I’m still holding out for a response.  But what’s curious is that although I’ve made MANY PUBLIC ALLEGATIONS about my parents, they haven’t come to me to discuss them for seven whole years.  This is guilt.  No two ways about it.  Also, they DID contact my witnesses behind my back.  They’re sneaky and I am glad my sons are transparent and honest non-manipulative men.
My sons are forgiven.
I’ve been free since I freed Isaac.
I hope he gives himself (and me) the same gift.


7:02 am

George will not influence my right to live in my home.  He said my sons would like to invite their grandparents for dinner and their cousins.  (HE FORGETS THAT THOSE PEOPLE HAVE WANTED NOTHING TO DO WITH US FOREVER.)  
The preference is that I be DEAD AND GONE.
Under no circumstances am I allowed to COMPILE EVIDENCE AND BECOME CONVINCED OF A MATTER.  They will not permit me to FOLLOW MY HEART INTO TRUTH.
Their evil requires a scapegoat; it is evil to keep one’s mother under that threat for years.  My dad knows how this has played out.  
I asked George why dad took our house.  
He said, “He DIDN’T take it.”  
I tried again, “Why do you suppose Dad HAD US SIGN THE HOUSE AWAY?  What had we done?  We were taking care of things, living in it.”  
He has no answer but will not ascribe any evil plans to my dad.  
Dad himself said, a few years ago, “I didn’t TAKE your house.  I PRESERVED it.”
Preserved it for whom?
Where was I going?
I won’t be my sons’ scapegoat.
They have to deal with my family BASED ON TRUTH.
They don’t want Truth.
“Lord, please deliver my sons from STUPID.  Thank you.  Also, please intervene with my heart?  It’s breaking some more.  Thank you for a fear-free month.  Please, if I’m supposed to leave, please show me where?  Please give me resources?  You have not given me a spirit of fear so I rebuke him in your name and through your blood.  Amen.”
I can only imagine Dad is offering my sons money if they get me warehoused.  Forgive them for not wondering why he is SO ADAMANT that I be put away.  He started trying in 2009.  I WILL BE TOTALLY FREE OF FEAR.  



We can’t negotiate.  It isn’t any of my behaviors and he agrees that I am a very disciplined person.  He just wants MY MIND TO CHANGE.  Nazi.

You know how I know Jesus Christ is real?  I know because He has taught me to love myself in this house where I am not trusted and I am plotted against.  
He taught me to love myself in the face of continuing devaluation and silencing.  Blaming. Life-long shame from blaming the victim, and still I love myself more every day.
My sons will love Jesus when they see what He will do for us.  
I love Truth more than anything.  I have maintained a Truthful Truth-quest for all these years all by myself.  I can respect that.  And I love me. 


10:18 pm

God is never late.

He has two days.

I didn’t pick any clovers today and my back has hurt less.  Josh suggested it.  He made me a whole list of things to do back when Isaac left, and I did them all.  Now he wants the cops to remove me.  I could negotiate.  I’m a VERY DISCIPLINED PERSON.  I quit smoking I quit drinking beer.  I fasted for 12 days one time.  
I can control my behavior so I should just do that. How silly to involve governmental force when a person is controlling himself?  He told me to stay in my room a couple months ago and that’s where I’ve been ever since.  


9:45 pm

God says He’s never late.

It feels like He is late.

9:38 PM

Well, I didn’t have a panic attack for over a month.  I’ve been happy and picking clovers.  My sons don’t want me happy because I’ve been threatened again.  I must go for ‘help’ within two days or Josh will call the cops to remove me from my home. 
Neither of them has yet considered WHY DAD GAVE THEM MY HOUSE TO BEGIN WITH.
I enjoyed feeling safe for a time.  Now the knot is back in my stomach.

1:31 pm

I was attacked just now, by a narcissist.  I am understanding.  Finally.

It’s post-porn.  It’s the sideshow.  It’s erotic only by elimination.  We are gazing upon the mutilated bodies of the trans-gender and we’re getting our jollies and we’re being instructed to do so.  From creeps.  From the defective.  Pretty soon we’ll be buying those brown-cover magazines with dirty pictures of amputees.  

1:13 pm

I’ve been standing up for my sons for years now.  Their own dad doesn’t think they can do anything and he expects nothing, I’ve stood even against him on their behalf.

I don’t respect them anymore.


1:07 pm

I took a nap and when I got up Josh was cooking eggs for everybody else.  He wasn’t nice to me.  NOBODY WAS NICE TO ME because I wanted eggs too.  I kept saying ‘I’m not your problem’ but they kept yelling at me for wanting to eat.  THEY’RE BECOMING LIKE GEORGE.  For decades, when we’ve had guests, George has partaken first.  I’ve recorded it, and his apologies, but he still did it again last week.  He said, “I haven’t eaten…I’m hungry.”  I say you offer it to others first.  JOSH and ISAAC agree with George.  I wonder if they’ll try to kick me out again now that I expect to eat with them like a person?

9:41 am

We love our enemies…and they know it fer-sure because they can reed our minds from a satellite.

9:27 am

Here’s another thing I must bitch at my sons regarding.  I am eager for us all to tell the truth all the time and to not pre-judge anybody but so far I must confront my ADULT sons yet again:  Were you guys disrespectful to Adam?  It occurs to me, that despite my careful attempts to provide Adam, an honest man and fellow TI, some leeway and SPACE…you guys LOOKED HIM UP and DEMANDED THAT HE GIVE YOU HIS PROPERTY and then even made him get you high?  THEN, after [presumably] intimating that if he GIVES YOU HIS PROPERTY THAT I SENT TO HIM, it might in some way help me?  (Did you tell him it would help me?)  AND THEN YOU DIDN’T EVEN TELL ME FOR A YEAR AND A HALF THAT YOU WENT THERE AND DEMANDED SO UNJUSTLY?  Sons.  I expect FAR BETTER.  WHAT DOES ADAM OWE YOU APOLOGY FOR?  BECAUSE HE DIDN’T FOOL AROUND WITH YOUR MOTHER ALTHOUGH ELECTRONICALLY ENCOURAGED TO DO SO?  Do not shame me any longer with your stupidity.  Thank you.

9:14 am

I just felt Truth.  I write lots that I know is actually Truth but I don’t often feel it.  I felt this:  “…my story will help stop these spirit-perverts.”
I gave Jesus my life decades ago.  I wanted to boogie but I washed dishes instead and asked Jesus to use me for something important and cool.  Sigh.  I’m getting everything I ever wanted…because I didn’t chose to never want anything.  
(Hillary actually, upon tele-prompter, pronounced the intended sigh as ‘sigh’ and wasn’t she just as genuine as hell?  I love you you-tube.)
I know the goons wonder about me, and probably others.  I could have stopped the RAPES with my will.  They know I COULD HAVE STOPPED the rapes with MY WILL.  They wish to be as powerful as a natural woman.  So do I.  The syntho-watchers wonder why I submitted to torture and rape because they already know why but they don’t believe it.  We submit because of love.  We know the future is perfection and don’t we just wish to take along as many as we might?  WE love.  We LOVE.  We love our enemies…and they know it fer-sure because they can reed our minds from a satellite.  They can’t imagine how or why we should love them, because also, they know we are not stupid.  But…love is VERY ATTRACTIVE and every robot seeks his fair share.  “I thirsted in a barren land of sin and shame and nothing satisfying there I found.   But-then-un-to the blessed Cross of Christ one day I came…where springs of living water did abound!  Drinking at the springs of living water…happy now am I…my soul is satisfied….drinking at the springs of living water, oh WONDERFUL AND BOUNTIFUL SUPPLY.”

8:34 am

David thinks Donna is a ‘good Christian woman’ because she’s bossy.  I can prove it.

8:26 am

Sweet David, it’s really like this:

“DEAR JESUS. I don’t actually want to write what I believe you mean for me to write.  I don’t like putting my own shell into the gap like that but it is exactly what you did and I’ve wanted to be YOUR BODY ON EARTH so here goes, strike me down if I’m wrong:

DAVID.  I believe that your eternal destiny may depend on how you deal with me because you know I have been tortured, raped and wrongfully represented and kicked out of the family without a hearing.”  “Amen.”  

(I wasn’t struck dead.)

Amy Winehouse – Do Me Good (lyrics)

8:04 AM

David, if you follow that man into hell then you deserve everything you get.  Jesus loves you.  Dad makes fun of you.  C’mon over.  I’ll show you [sworn] references.  JESUS IS LORD.  DAD is satan’s offspring and you know it.  ❤

7:34 am


Love After Codependency 2016

“My mother was always afraid of upsetting my dad.  I watched that as a little girl.”
“Literally COWER…”
(Me too.  Good times.)
“He can’t wrap his head around the idea that you’re ALLOWED TO HAVE A DIFFERENCE OF OPINION.
(ALSO, he lives in FEAR that David or my mom might also realize that they also are ALLOWED TO HAVE A DIFFERENCE OF OPINION.)
 (If I were David, my ‘difference’ would have begun years ago when my PERVERT-FATHER gave my wife FANCY BRASSIERES for CHRISTMAS in front of our CHILDREN thereby CASTRATING ME FOREVER…and then he made fun of me to the rest of the ‘family’ because Donna’s the boss.)
(ASSHOLE, BOUNDARY and PERSON-DEVALUING FATHER-BOSS and am I glad I’m not the ‘golden’ goldthorpe.  Amen.)
(“Lord, please give David some balls.  Thank you.”)
(“I know you already did but I’m being fa·ce·tious because that’s how we learned to communicate in Robert’s house.  I mean in YOUR HOUSE that Robert stole from me.  Amen.”)

6:08 am

DNA is gender-specific. There are two genders.  Sometimes, humans are born deformed and sometimes they have either the genitalia of both genders, or maybe an odd extra ‘X’ chromosome.  Super-males.  Extremely aggressive.  These curiodities co-inhabit our bi-gender, biological-and-also-spiritual-paradigm.  They’re mutated; not adequate representations of the pattern; not to be emulated but often to be envied.   My spirit is female.  That issue was nicely settled by the goons with their toys of fake-spiritism which is even worse than spiritism which is not to even be compared with LEGITIMATE SPIRITUALITY.  Also, there’s really no way conceivable that FALLEN ANGELS could be [sexually] attracted to the BODIES of humans.  That’s ludicrous.  Their bodies live forever and can go through solid objects.  Mine can’t.  BUT, mine is female and so is my spirit.  Nephilim sometimes like men’s bodies too; they enter them and control their hands on the joystick and they use these HUMAN-MAN-BODIES to rape people.  This won’t happen much longer; my story will help stop these spirit-perverts.  Until then, we must cover our bodies and souls and spirits with history’s BEST demon-repellant.  Google it.  

5:14 am

‘The Hope Brigade.’  Maybe that’s too corny.  9-1-1-HOPE.  “HOPE-World’s Best life extender and increaser of comfort-levels and maybe even testosterone.”  “GERITOL for the soul.”  Could I formulate an ad campaign to sell ‘hope’?  Nobody wants it.  In ‘The Postman’ Kevin Costner just passed it around ‘like candy’ from his pocket.  That’s because in the movies people ACTUALLY WANT HOPE.  
IN THE MOVIES,  that sound in the distance portends some kindly stranger with a canteen who be leading an unridden donkey.  We want somebody to cut the rope that holds our visage alert and we want down from out of this motherfuckin’ tree.  We want the Avon lady to do our colors and rock our world.  We want to believe that we may one day offer the story of our would-be execution amid brotherly smiles and swills of free ale.  WE WANT HOPE.  But, we don’t really believe in it so we don’t get too worked up.  
Hope is silly, so we don’t indulge anymore.  We’ve been weaned from the hope-porn-channel and we don’t even think about turning it on. No more hope.  No hope. No, I won’t have hope because it’s stupid.  I’m SMART.  I won’t hope in things that cannot possibly change me or my circumstances.  Woe.  Sob.  Whine.  Hopeless me.
Josh says, “Hope is that feeling you get right before disappointment.” 
I cried.  I submitted to my own life’s destruction…if they’d help me get Josh some life.
That has been his experience, and he has not been given truth about his family and most importantly, JESUS.  
There is no hope where there is no vision.  
“Where there is no vision, the people perish.”
“Dear Lord,  thank you for showing me so many things I did not understand about what happened to me and my family.  Please reveal truth to Josh?  Also Isaac and George?  I know how difficult it was for me to believe when the goons first told me how my troubles originated.  Please, give them an easy initiation.  Please smooth the presentation for them?  They’ve had SO MUCH PAIN!  Soothe it all with Your Truth. Please love them into faith?  Please demonstrate your power and vindicate their parents who only wanted to serve you and were targeted for it.  Please, more than clovers; the clovers just scare them I think. Please show us your glory.  Show us your attention to detail and to the evil performed in your name…and my parents’ utter failure and false religion.  Please Lord, you’re never late.  Please redeem my beautiful sons?  Sorry.  “YOUR SONS”.  Amen.”
At our house, hope is like believing in Santa Claus.  We’ve been repeatedly screwed by those who claim to love us and we aren’t falling for hope.   I hoped for so long that my dad would help my sons.  His theatre-persona is all he cares about.  I suppose that makes sense:  It’s all he has left.

The Mandela Effect is Getting too Real – Calm Down – This is what is Happening

“A lot of things are changing in our reality.”
Wow.  Either Jesus is going around telling a lot of people things that are TOTALLY VIOLENT AND UNLIKE ANYTHING HE’S EVER SAID TO ME…or there’s somebody else calling himself ‘Jesus’.  Who would have thought that identity theft would be a problem even for the King of Kings?  I guess it’s not, not really a problem.  

Narcissistic abuse – “I just wanted to be loved”

“Especially if we grew up with parents who were or are narcissists.”

Snowden Documents Proving “US Alien Hitler” Link Stuns Russia

The most illegal drugs are illegal because they disrupt mind control programming

See at:

 Cannabis vs Legal Drugs

Terence Mckenna 

“[Cannabis] erodes loyalty to the industrial state.”

Marijuana Disrupts Mind Control Programming

Cathy O’Brien

(I red about her life years ago and it really scared me.  She says she lives in constant celebration that those times are over.)


10:17 am

“Standing up to ‘authority’ makes most people uncomfortable.  People don’t want to make waves, and don’t want trouble.  They want to ‘get by’ and take the safe road.  They don’t want to put themselves at risk.  They don’t even want to tell the truth, or even know the truth, if it means they must go against the tide.  And that is why tyranny happens.”  (Larken Rose)  
(“Standing up to ‘authority’ makes most people uncomfortable.  People don’t want to make waves, and don’t want trouble.  They want to ‘get by’ and take the safe road.  They don’t want to put themselves at risk.  They don’t even want to tell the truth, or even know the truth, if it means they must go against the tide.  And that is why tyranny happens.”)  (Larken Rose)  

“Standing up to ‘authority’ makes most people uncomfortable.  People don’t want to make waves, and don’t want trouble.  They want to ‘get by’ and take the safe road.  They don’t want to put themselves at risk.  They don’t even want to tell the truth, or even know the truth, if it means they must go against the tide.  And that is why tyranny happens.”  (Larken Rose)


Tyranny happens
because of PEOPLE

Mark Passio Master & Slave Relationship


1:55 pm

I picked a four-leaf clover.

10:08 am

This is a TERRIBLE new term:
“Artificial Intelligence Arms Race”
“I’m here to tell you how I became a targeted individual.”

How I became a National Security

NDAA Jade-Helm Risk

by Lissa June 28 2016

“The gentleman you see is George.  He was my husband.”
I got shot in my ear day before yesterday. A big lump in my earlobe and blood dripping out of nowhere. I thought it was a huge horsefly bite but there was a line of scabbing about an inch long in addition to a really big lump that doesn’t seem to be a bug bit. Is that what you meant? I appreciate your work. Linda 906-586-4629 (

I think I pretty much don’t have PTSD anymore.  I can only remember one flashback in maybe a week.  I feel ungrateful that I didn’t miss them.  I’m grateful now.  It takes YEARS for people who have been abused for as long as I, to get to this point if they ever even do.  Jesus is Lord.  

9:30 am

‘SOMEBODY SAID DIGNITY WAS THE ‘F-I-R-S-T’ TO LEAVE IS HOW IT USED TO GO BUT NOW IN HANOI, DYLAN IS SINGING THAT DIGNITY GOES LAST?  It’s not even true.  You don’t bend over all the way the first time.

Bob Dylan’s Dignity, playing in Green Gecko Cafe (Hanoi, Vietnam)

If I thought like my dad and I wanted to gaslight him,  what would I do?
Apparently, I’d do NOTHING DIFFERENT THAN I’VE EVER DONE because he’s been scared of me for years and all I did was bake for him and be nice and love him.  HE WOULDN’T EVEN EAT MY FOOD FOR A WHILE BECAUSE HE THOUGHT I’D POISON HIM.  That, my friends, is a guilty conscience speaking through paranoia.  
I COULDN’T EVEN POISON him if I wanted to because I FAILED CHEMISTRY ENTIRELY and if he ever paid attention to me he’d know I am utterly harmless.  
IT IS HIS OWN POLLUTED MIND AND MEMORY THAT BRING HIM TO THE EDGE OF INSANITY OVER AND OVER AGAIN.  I am not even shitting you: I SEE INTO THIS RANCID SCRAP OF MANHOOD.  And I discard and denounce everything he’s ever stood for.  And for sure I won’t get worn out rounding it all up.  
My dad actually SAID REPEATEDLY THAT HE EXPECTED MY BROTHER-IN-LAW TO KILL MY SISTER.  He is evil-minded and he thinks everybody else is too except he thinks he’s better at it.  
I swear, if those cops don’t arrest him pretty soon they’re accessories after the fact and they’re setting up his next victim.  GUILTY.  I’ve even written to judges.  The eyes of Texas are upon him.  I’m the safest woman in Michigan. 

9:04 am

We’re going shopping this afternoon so I’m not starting dinner.  Maybe we’ll eat somewhere or buy something for tonight.

I picked a five-leaf clover.

Dad’s employee is mowing on OUR SIDE of the fence.

The worlds have collided!

8:23 am

I LIKE GINGER.  I like cilantro and cumin.  I like lemongrass.  I don’t like cinnamon in chocolate or coffee.  Saffron is overrated.  I like dill.  Isaac is facing some difficult ideas.  He commented about how his dad just wanted a quiet, peaceful, stay-at-home life. And I’ve always wanted adventure.  His observation gave me opportunity; I asked him to consider which of his parents had more gotten what he wanted out of our life together.  It’s always been very easy for him to blame me for everything.  George never corrected him.  It would be nice if George would confirm that I’ve not been the overbearing wife my parents reported.  I don’t think he can see me anymore.
Isaac is so lucky to be waking up at his age.  My life would have been very different if I had actually seen my parents during the years before they tried to kill me.  But, better late than never and my boss says He’s never late.

8:06 am


Hosea 4:6

“My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge: because thou hast rejected knowledge, I will also reject thee, that thou shalt be no priest to me: seeing thou hast forgotten the law of thy God, I will also forget thy children.”

7:14 am

“Even though they’re destroying your soul and destroying who you are, they never actually believe you stopped thinking the way they do.  They NEVER ACTUALLY BELIEVE YOU’RE NOT PLOTTING THE SAME WAY THEY ARE…”  “Because that’s how they think.”  (Ollie Mathews)


6:57 am

“How many of us get to a stage in life and then realize you haven’t  lived a day of your own life.  You don’t even really know what you like.”
(I didn’t know that until a new-friend asked what kind of music I liked.  I COULDN’T ANSWER.)
(I’m leaning toward brilliant emerald green for a favorite color.)

The Narcissist’s Moments Of Happiness Are Holding You Back

If You Don’t Break Contact

The Narcissist Will Kill You

One Way Or Another

(That’s why they invented maximum security facilities.)
(I am so disappointed that MY GOVERNMENT would allow my dad to roam freely for so long.)
(I’ve got any parts of the story they might still lack, and they’re permitting me to live in danger why?)
(If I can shake off a psychopath then so can they.)
yep they love and live for that one my narc mother worked so hard at trying get me the scape goat to this result first was through taking away my kids by proxy wow she lived that one and suddenly made amends with me just before the court case so she could watch first hand her handy work.lucky i never broke came close.thank god ollie for reminding me importance of no contact

Breaking the Chain 

+Abuser Abuser Wow! Some piece of work, that one. So glad you got that one out of your life! My former friend’s husband was like that. No Contact. No more histrionics. Be well, friend 🙂 ♡

Rob O 

Just like another Ollie video about keeping you on the bottom run of the ladder. You killing yourself is their ultimate victory because they are left to write history. A man in my local area I had recently come into contact with killed himself last week. I can’t help but think his suicide note had narcissistic abuse written all over it. I’m sure his ex wife is smiling because she probably drove him to it! She gets to collect SS for his children now. My x wife wouldn’t give a crap if I was breathing or not, I’m worth more dead than alive to her.


Ms Sky . .how kind if u 2 post that number. B4 i got right with God . . people like u.. is one of the reasons that I have surviled to be a old woman. The only reason my health is excellent is because God is good. Wake up people!! Will u wait till over half your life is gone like I did? Start young! DO NOT allow toxic people in your life.


JESUS SAYS… NOW or NEVER! Where is your Allegiance My Bride?

“If you’re going to come back you’d better do it quickly, there’s hardly any time left for you.  It is now or never, my brides.  Now or never.  Now or never.”
“Yet another fact that is highly unusual is the recent string of murders, attempted murders, arson, and other crimes that have happened on Walmart’s premises. Many of these “crimes” sound more like drills or exercises. During one of the exercises in Amarillo, Texas, the police force notes that two gunmen are in the store holding hostages. They said that one was hispanic and another was black, but then this was modified to one arab Islamic terrorist, then modified again to a episode of “workplace violence.” This mirrors problems in the stories of San Bernardino (reports of three shooters) and Orlando (report of two of three offenders, then modified by police reports). Are these exercises or drills being carried out by the DHS (for whom Mateen conveniently worked as a contractor)?”

The Myth of Authority (Video Contest Winner)

“The idea that we need to give a group of people permission to forcibly rob and control us so they can protect us from those who might forcibly rob and control us is RIDICULOUS.”
The Great Lakes Water Wars Have Begun After U.S. Officials Approve Drawing 30 Million Litres Per Day

Last year, the city of Waukesha in Wisconsin had asked the Great Lake states for permission to divert water from Lake Michigan because its own aquifer is running low and the water is contaminated with high levels of naturally occurring cancer-causing radium. 

A panel representing governors of the eight states adjoining the Great Lakes unanimously approved a proposal from Waukesha, which is under a court order to find a solution to the radium contamination of its groundwater wells. The city says the project will cost over $200 million for engineering studies, pipelines and other infrastructure.

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Judge: FBI Transcript Shows Nobody Died in Orlando Shooting Until SWAT Teams entered the Building

Judge Andrew Napolitano told FOX News that an FBI transcript indicated that no one died until 05:13am Sunday morning when the police SWAT teams entered the building.

“Here’s what is news in the summary – nobody died until 05:13 in the morning, when the SWAT team entered. Prior to that no one had been killed. The 53 that were injured, and the 49 that were murdered all met their fates at the time of, and during, the police entry into the building,” Judge Napolitano said.

Michelle’s Tiny Dream House- a gorgeous triple-axle home on wheels!

(She says it gives her joy.)
My cousins had a play house.  It was fitted out with toy appliances and complete sets of tiny dishes.  They had dolls on a shelf running around their entire upstairs, probably hundreds.  Dad built my brother a treehouse.  My sister lived at the barn with her horses.  I ‘built’ a couple ‘forts’ but they never worked out.


12:36 pm

The Prophet is coming for dinner, with his grandson.  I made some really good sauce for lasagna and bread dough.  Successful’s dad stopped by, I cooked eggs, and a neighbor came over too.  Busy morning.

Then I picked 6 four-leaf clovers.

11:11 am

JESUS SAYS… NOW or NEVER! Where is your Allegiance My Bride?

“If you’re going to come back you’d better do it quickly, there’s hardly any time left for you.  It is now or never, my brides.  Now or never.  Now or never.”
“Yet another fact that is highly unusual is the recent string of murders, attempted murders, arson, and other crimes that have happened on Walmart’s premises. Many of these “crimes” sound more like drills or exercises. During one of the exercises in Amarillo, Texas, the police force notes that two gunmen are in the store holding hostages. They said that one was hispanic and another was black, but then this was modified to one arab Islamic terrorist, then modified again to a episode of “workplace violence.” This mirrors problems in the stories of San Bernardino (reports of three shooters) and Orlando (report of two of three offenders, then modified by police reports). Are these exercises or drills being carried out by the DHS (for whom Mateen conveniently worked as a contractor)?”

10:38 am

I picked three more 4-leaf clovers.

9:49 am

Psychological and emotional abuse basically brainwashes you into accepting whatever negative things your abuser has said to you as your reality and worth.  Often times the abuser is someone the victim loves, respects and trusts!”
(YEAH.  Like Isaac.)
“The abuser makes the victim vulnerable through a devaluation process or managing them down consistently throughout the relationship.  That process confuses and disables the victim’s reality which in turn undermines the very opinion they have of themselves.”
“The victim believes and adjusts their behavior because they believe the person (abuser) must be right because they are so relentless and angry at them about these so called things that they do.”
“The abuser may even convince the victim that they have mental health issues completely undermining their self-worth.

American Red Cross exposed as massive, incompetent fraud: built just six homes after collecting half a billion dollars in Haiti earthquake donations

The group has publicly celebrated its work. But in fact, the Red Cross has repeatedly failed on the ground in Haiti. Confidential memos, emails from worried top officers, and accounts of a dozen frustrated and disappointed insiders show the charity has broken promises, squandered donations, and made dubious claims of success.

The Red Cross says it has provided homes to more than 130,000 people. But the actual number of permanent homes the group has built in all of Haiti: six.

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9:18 am

I cooked eggs for Isaac and the Successful One.  I soaked and dreamed and picked a four-leaf clover.

7:29 am

Mandela Effect Example – The Great Pyramid At Giza

(This is occurring because somebody wrote code that made it happen.)

Illuminati Mind Control – Actual Footage (WATCH THIS)

Bohemian Grove–Cremation of Care

7:04 am

Are they real people at all?  How can Kanye West publicize naked pictures of his wife in bed with him and Becky?  This is degrading to all parties and relationships represented.  I know why ‘poly-amory’ is evil: it lowers the vibration of all humanity.   We are all subject to condemnation; nobody thinks he’s good enough.  If we accept that we aren’t sufficiently pleasing to even a single significant person we’re stepping down.  If we aren’t ‘all that’ to even one person…then we aren’t all that at all.  If we all feel that we aren’t sufficient…then we aren’t and neither is anybody else.  I’ll never settle.  Not ever again.  I do this for my species.

6:50 AM


6:37 am

The truthful tides of the anarchist soul.

I’m looking forward to writing that one.

George Carlin Political Correctness Is Psychological Fascism

6:31 am

Chet Baker – Dancing On The Ceiling

6:08 am

Apparently, and this has been a really good question, they are only changing the stupid little stuff because of a paradox-situation;  they would alter other (unpredictable) things if they changed important stuff.  (Marshall.)  I’ve wondered about that, I thought the trivia may have been testing their capability.  (BUT, if they’re changing the bible at all, then it’s part of an agenda.) My friend from the psych ward was from Duluth.  Like Dylan.  Donald Marshall is Canadian.  The accents are similar.  If I used Facebook (or rather, if Facebook used me…) I’d contact him maybe.  They try to set people off, on the psych ward.  He just told those porkers with their electric pokers, “Have some respect.”  He had mine.  
(We know there is a supernatural god.  Dylan is a singing star.)

5:50 am

I Believe in You & When He Returns Toronto 1980

I know he remembers the words.  I’m gonna sit next to Dylan at dinner sometime.

I’m getting everything I ever wanted.  (Because I let Jesus pick for me.)

5:36 am




“I’m trying to save the world here, you guys.”
“I don’t know how the science works; I’m not a physicist.  THEY WILL GO BACK TO THREE DAYS AGO…”
“I’m kind of frantic, because LOOK AT THE LENGTHS I HAVE TO GO…”
“Not an insult, but it should be CNN…”
(I pray for this guy all the time.  I was in the psych ward with either him or his clone and he had a tattoo of Jesus.  He talked about stigmata, too.  I’ve never met a stigmatist but my late Catholic friend knew one in Escanaba.)
“Anderson Cooper is at cloning…”
(There’s no catching up.  At this late date, I do not believe that if a person has not yet been introduced to concepts of reality that are DEMONSTRATED TRUE, AND counter to his/her inherent prior understandingthere’s no catching up.  It’s too shocking. And if a person has no foundation of SHOCKING REALIZATIONS THAT LIFE HAS BEEN A FARCE, augmented by FACTS SUPPORTING A DIFFERENT REALITY…then the new information will be 1] unfathomable, and 2] way too frightening.  They might even die from it.  Who could have told us that STUPIDITY IS FATAL?  WHY DIDN’T HE?
“Men’s hearts failing them for fear of the things coming on the earth…”  WE WERE WARNED IN THE BIBLE, OF OLD.

4:34 am

Here’s what I’ve noticed.   I’ve begged that my occasional forays through EXCEPTIONAL LOGIC AND STYLISH PROSE will continue unendingly, because except that…when it’s not flowing, it’s just not even in there.  I can’t access ‘smarts’ at my whim.  We do not contain even the things we’ve ‘learned’. They ebb and flow, and if we’re blessed, our memory will retrieve them as instructed. But, they’re not IN US.  I couldn’t possibly summon a wise thought and I’ve prayed repeatedly for new ones.  Then God speaks.  Then all is well and I have much to say and later when I reed it, it’s often really good.
I believe the ‘secret place’ is a posture of attention.  I think the secret-place is ‘listening’. The necessary discipline is merely patience.  We’re receivers, not originators, but we’re free to create.  We’re free and we create. Human will is the strongest thing (aside from God-slash-love-slash-TRUTH-HIMSELF) in the universe.  It took the shedding ofJesus’ innocent blood to clear the counter so we could see what satan has always envied.  He steals God’s breath and Jesus’ blood for a few strands of inexplicable DNA because he cannot do what we can do with every breath:  create life.
We’re created in the image of God so we’re creators too.  If we ever figured that out, within seconds we’d have satan bound somewhere in a pit and we wouldn’t even give him a trial for a thousand years!  That’s a really good idea.  The Bible used to talk about that-idea but since we PERMITTED THE BOOK TO BE ALTERED BECAUSE WE’RE LAZY then maybe it doesn’t say that anymore.  It’s still a good idea.

4:06 am

James asks his Narcissist mother for help

Pt. 2 – The smear campaign

(Man, do I love the way James’ avatar guy walks right through his child-icon and goes nose-to-nose with his mom.  This is art.)
“I loved my mother so much…yet she made everyone think I was an evil kid.”
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3:59 am


Attempt 4.

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3:50 am

This is a drone.


Narcissistic abuse recovery

– Psalm 27:10-14

“…a passage in the Bible that has helped me during some tough times in my recovery from narcissistic abuse– 
It’s Psalm chapter 27,  verse 10 through 14:  ‘When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.’ 
‘Teach me your way oh Lord, and lead me in a plain path because of my enemies.  I had fainted, unless I believed to see the goodness of the Lord, in the land of the living.  Wait on the Lord.  Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart.  Wait I say, on the Lord.'”
(Isn’t that amazing?  Those are the same verses God gave me!  Also my friend from West Virginia sent them to me and lots of SCAPEGOATS OF DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILIES know about them.  My birthday is the 27th so I really liked that.  I was circling the drain back then.)
The photos top-left and center, are of Richard Farnsworth, actor, who appeared in the TV mini-series ‘Anne of Green Gables’ and the other two are of John Ward who blogs financially.  Isn’t it just amazing?

(For his portrayal of Alvin Straight—an Iowa man who in 1994 drove a lawnmower several hundred miles to visit his estranged, ailing brother—the 79-year-old Farnsworth earned a Golden Globe nod as well as an Academy Award nomination for Best Actor, becoming the oldest actor ever to be nominated in that category.)

(Here’s Ward’s site:
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U.N. Vehicles, Mysterious Troop Movement Spotted In VA, NC, W.VA, Ohio

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Trump Has Accepted Jesus Christ

Dr. James Dobson says so.


7:43 pm

Before supper I picked two more 4-leaf clovers.

2:10 pm

I picked two more 4-leaf clovers.

11:49 am

I made chocolate chip cookies and picked 1 4-leaf clover.

10:49 am


“And I will give children to be their princes, and babes shall rule over them.

And the people shall be oppressed, every one by another, and every one by his neighbour: the child shall behave himself proudly against the ancient, and the base against the honourable.”   (Isaiah 3: 4-5)

I love doing something I enjoy and knowing I have to leave it for something else I also enjoy. That’s happy I think. I really love to work but nobody would ever trust me with anything important except once in a while like when Dad needed a letter written above his pay grade and mom couldn’t count the measure and she was right up front leading the choir. I always helped them out. I didn’t ever POINT IT OUT either. (Until our present controversy.) That’s how I know they’re going to recompense me because it is just.

“Assange says the UK’s decision to leave the European Union has the unintended side-effect of voiding the European Arrest Warrant (EAQ) issued by Sweden.”


Wikileaks: Brexit Will Free Julian Assange

They’re gonna free Mendax.

Things are looking up.

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Demonic and deranged doctors in America… An inside look at 3 medical lunatics: one serving 45 years in prison, one just got fired, and a third is still a surgeon

As the deranged Dr. Santella holds a pair of scissors near the neck of the man with the video camera, he growls that he has a “dark heart” and “loves” killing babies and tearing them apart. The notorious and nefarious San Diego abortionist, who has a bad reputation with his patients, and has faced several disciplinary measures from the California Medical Board, has botched more than a few operations, injuring patients in the process, and refusing to call in medical treatments they needed afterwards.

Until this video was shared on Facebook and with the Family Planning Associates clinic where he worked, Santella was enjoying tearing babies apart for cash and planned on continuing doing so. Here’s an excerpt from the videotaped conversation outside the clinic:

Why are we getting another Tarzan remake?

10:11 am






Do you know how to make soap?  Vinegar?  Alcohol?  Chloroform?
Dead meat.
We’re dead meat unless we’ve been living off the land already.
Or unless we know Jesus.
100 % dependent for every facet of survival
100 % mutually-assured-destruction by the psychopaths
“This is underground now but it’s gonna be bursting into the streets.”
(Super-Soldier assassin guy in the plaid shirt)
(“Underground” is not just a metaphor.)

9:46 am

Dad got mad at me after the first primary because I wouldn’t endorse the GOP nominee.
Why did he give a rip?

Narcissistic abuse – Second guessing and unable to prove what we believe to be true

(I remember this.  Chronic thought patterns.  Rumination of SELF.  Terrible to KNOW and have nobody care.  I don’t have to know anymore because I gave it to Jesus.)

‘ELVIS NOT DEAD’ Graceland Film THIS MONTH shows ‘The King of Rock’ now age 81.

He always did have a good head of hair.
5:25 AM
So they can artificially reproduce the vibration of anything.  Any material, disease, even any person.  They can sample a speaking voice, and imagineer it into any words they want.  They is irrelevant but we’re NEVER GOING TO IDENTIFY TRUTH if we fall under the belief that THESE BLANK IMPOSTORS are actually God or satan or any of the other players.  Even Tolle gets this part right: FIRST THING–KNOW WHO YOU’RE GOING TO LISTEN TO.  

4:52 am

“So much harm has been done by the greedy and rich.  They are literally eating the food off the plates of the poor whereas I created the Earth rich in resources for all.”  (Jesus, to Sister Clare)
by Julianne McKinney Director,
Electronic Surveillance Project Association of National Security Alumni
December 1992
Four months ago, when this Project commenced, we approached these complaints of government harassment and experimentation with an admitted “high degree of caution.”
We are no longer skeptical. 
“The term, “non-lethal,” used to describe this technology is misleading. The energy emitted from all of these weapons can kill when appropriately amplified.” 
In another, also involving auditory input, the individual is certain that the current Director of Central Intelligence (DCI) participated in the “voice transmission” process on at least one occasion. She claims to have recognized his voice. When she commented aloud on the DCI’s perceived involvement in this experimentation, the “voice” responded with stuttered and stammered denials. We are told that this particular “voice” has not been heard from since.
Another individual, a target of harassment and experimentation since 1952 (apparently singled out because of his student activism while at Penn State University) began hearing “voices” after having most of his teeth capped. He has more recently been informed by his “handlers” that implanted devices are no longer used for purposes of inducing auditory input. No explanation was offered. He was quite visibly surprised when informed by this investigator that auditory input can be achieved solely by means of pulsed microwave audiograms (discussed in Part I of this report).
Preliminary Findings
1. The technology exists for the types of harassment and experimentation reported to us.
2. About a dozen U.S. citizens have informed us of continuing experiences with effects which directed-energy weapons are designed to produce.
3. U.S. Government-sponsored research into the bioeffects of exposure to microwave radiation is extensive and continuing.
4. The U.S. Government has a past record of having engaged in mind-control experimentation; and various agencies of the Government have a record of circumventing legal restrictions upon their activities.
5. Neither Congress nor the courts appear willing to look closely into “black” intelligence and weapons procurement programs.
6. A number of U.S. Government agencies might have interest in testing directed-energy technologies on U.S. citizens under non-clinical/non-controlled circumstances—DoD, to test ranges and degrees of “non-lethality”; DoE, to explore “safety” limits; CIA, to test “mind-control” capabilities, and NSA, for technological refinement.

Cyborgization of Humanity

 with Michael Prince as James Casbolt

Bases 9

We share the planet with a lot of people who have very strange histories.  Nobody has ALL THE TRUTH and lots of diverse pieces are being held by people we may not believe when they tell us their very strange histories.  We’re all so egocentric!  And PSYCHIATRISTS are even given license to POISON ANYBODY WHO DOESN’T AGREE WITH THEM!  Preposterous!  It’s coming down.
We sold mylar bags for long-term food storage in the nineties; the Preparedness Expos were the best thing I’ve seen, probably, as far as pre-internet information disclosure.  I liked Prophecy Club and many technological/spiritual realities were exposed there decades before we’re [just now finally] considering them.  But, I always had a problem with Stan.  Showboating.  He had marvelous speakers though and the first one I ever attended in person was Henry Gruver.  I was still Baptist and I couldn’t believe he’d say with a straight face that he had been to Heaven.  We heard Dumitru Duduman in Detroit;  Michael Boldea was about 15 and was his interpreter.  We went to one meeting where the speaker had us drop a steel bearing through a metal pipe and it took it’s sweet time falling out.  We heard and saw amazing things.
We heard a guy say that if you get one of those [brand new, then] grocery store frequent-shopper cards, they’d know every time you walked into the store and they’d record your purchases on the [then unknown] cloud and next time you watched a baseball game on TV the fence around the field would advertise potato chips and beer…AND YOUR NEXT-DOOR NEIGHBOR’S TV-BASEBALL GAME WOULD BE HAWKING PRETZELS AND SODA POP.  We knew this was coming and yet I am so astonished and George can’t even stand to look.  I really tried to get us ready and educated.

I didn’t believe everything I heard, twenty years ago.

I believe those things now, almost all of them.  (My terms have become more fluid.)

God always told me to ‘believe more’ but wouldn’t you think He was referring to particularly ‘sacred’ believables?

Also, it was always just mental masturbation, titillating but with no real connection to my perceivable future.  I could just learn things without even caring whether they were Truth.  This is no longer true.

Al Bielek was hard to believe.

So was Vladimir Terziskey  (Spelling is wrong.)

There were charlatan prophets on the circuit back then, and also a really nice community of ‘preparedness’ venders. We met Randy Weaver and his family, from Ruby Ridge, when the baby who had been in Vicki’s arms when she was assassinated by FBI-slash-ammunition-supermodel Lon Horiuchi, was about four.

(Of course I also red that Vicki Weaver is still alive and runs a restaurant in southern Texas or New Mexico or Arizona.)

 OK.  Do we believe this nice Rh-neg genetically-engineered super-soldier in a plaid shirt?  I’m very tempted.

“Interviewed by Miles Johnston. More of his work here. Casbolt tells of the SS Nazi connection with the creation of Cyborgized Human babies for use as Supersoldiers of the 4th Reich, in the modern world,and how his batch of programmed babies was intercepted when enroute from a Canadian Nazi SS Base, in Nelson, British Columbia. The inclusion of his mission as an assassin to terminate one of these Cyborg-Supersoldiers, who had stolen a…”



6:50 pm


#AceSecurityNews BRITAIN: Smart TV’s can take control of your life and using your web cam you become the star of a porn site letting others watch you – @AceNewsServices

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It is my humble opinion, that due to AI (artificial intelligence), the “Killer Grid” has been fully activated and is intentionally affecting people physically, mentally and emotionally, and the AI occulted government’s goal is to eventually create a HIVE MIND and total population control.

The “Killer Grid” is an electronic plasma grid which is now controlled by a supercomputer, Jade Helm, which is using Game Theory and mind control against humanity. 

The Killer Grid: has made mind control easier and targeting EVERYONE possible!   

Killer Grid: SDI’s (Strategic Defense Initiative) Scalar Weapons, EMF, Infrasound, ELF, VLF, Gwen Towers, Nexrad Radar System (NOAA), High Power Radio Microwave System, Sea Based X-Band Radars, World Wide HAARP System, Smart GridChemtrail Grid. Get the picture? I call it the Killer Grid. Now, maybe people will wake up!

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Feeling Unsettled, Lost & Like the World is Collapsing? Well……

11:00 am


LAW ENFORCEMENT AGENCIES, including the FBI, have been knocking on the doors of activists and community organizers in Cleveland, Ohio, asking about their plans for the Republican National Convention in July.

As the city gears up to welcome an estimated 50,000 visitors, and an unknown number of protesters, some of the preparations and restrictions put in place by officials have angered civil rights activists. But the latest string of unannounced home visits by local and federal police marks a significant escalation in officials’ efforts to stifle protest, they say.

“The purpose of these door knocks is simple: to intimidate the target and others in efforts to discourage people from engaging in lawful First Amendment activities,” Jocelyn Rosnick, a coordinator with the Ohio chapter of the National Lawyers Guild, wrote in a statement denouncing the home visits.

The truth about living in NARCISSIST-ville and why we have to move out and never return!

Let’s really get this because there are many Narcissists out there and this abuse is not confined to just relationships. Narcissists can be a mother, father, brother, sister, friend, co-worker, boss, preacher, mailperson, lawyer, judge, doctor, therapist, or anybody! I think you get the message, BUT what we must understand is that they are dangerous and once they feel wounded they attack with the veracity of a hungry shark and will completely try to destroy a person’s integrity and life. It doesn’t take much for them to feel slighted and it can be anything from a real to a perceived slight to them or their world.

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OMG, I’m eating the best thing ever.  Whole-milk organic vanilla yogurt with granola and orange-blossom honey from the Successful One’s own hives.  He knows how to treat a mom and he doesn’t even have one of his own.  I could be a vegetarian if not for bacon.  

Babies Take No Prisoners – Also Fatherless Children – Morris

“Tremendous crying!  Then you lift him up and it all just vanishes!”

“Apparently boys are worse than girls…they’re more demanding.”

Cheap Trick – Surrender (Live)

Cheap Trick – Surrender (Live)


Camille Paglia

10:06 am


 “I Believe In You”

Robert Morse
(“How to Succeed in Business Without Even Trying”)

“You have the cool, clear eyes of a seeker of wisdom and truth…”

(This would be a good song to have with us in the FEMA camps.  Or the psych wards.)

“The Last Round-Up”

Gene Autry, 1933

“Gonna saddle ol’ Paint for the last time…
so long, oh Palestine, your tears were dry…”
It would be morbid would it not, if things were not as they are?

Gene Autry – A Yodeling Hobo

My uncle Herb used to yodel.  He was the funnest preacher you ever saw and now I know why.  He wasn’t afraid.  Herb wasn’t even afraid to be wrong!  He just loved Jesus and he went wherever the Spirit led…and he didn’t even speak in tongues.  He didn’t put down anybody who did though.  I love that guy a lot.

Do you think politics is real? In a culture gone to reality programming, with most motion pictures now released in 3-D, virtual reality machinery being released to hungry consumers – we are tested daily in our ability to discern what constitutes truth versus that which can only be deemed a manufactured reality.

“You are what you eat” and we eat and process just as much with eyes, ears and brains as with our mouths. Americans are obsessed with an overarching “reality” culture, programmed at root through an array of media manipulation. This culture presents energetic food for the populace, a source of fuel for an agenda-imposed false “reality” prescription. The condition this diet feeds is a warped and false sense of the world, shielding us from eternal truth and timeless knowledge. It changes the way we view and interact with everything around us. And created in its wake is a robotic and growing herd, asleep at the wheel of human consciousness elevation.

(Well, YEAH.  Like that guy said.)

“Now you have heard my story,

So I’ll be on my way,

I hear a crystal freight-train,

And it’s calling me…”  (Yodeling Hobo)

Reality Programming

and the Truth

of American Politics

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You’re gonna have to jump off of that fake skyscraper sometime.  You think that’s air you’re breathing?

9:34 am

I cut up about 5 pounds of beef round and picked a four-leaf clover.

8:39 am

This reminds me so much of Josh.  He’s even got the same shirt and hair-do.

I’m going to make beef curry and samosas and mango chutney which I’ve grown to love on a natural casing Vollwerths hot dog.  Perhaps I spelled that wrong but I’ll take the leeway provided by Mandela Effect.  You gotta be there.  I might make naan but I haven’t even been outside yet because I did some of the three-days-pile of dishes.  I don’t usually wash dishes in the morning because it makes noise and everybody is sleeping.  Today I figured I’d do it anyway because it’s cooler now.  I haven’t even picked a single clover yet.  

OMG.  How terrible it must be for those caught in electronically-induced honey-pots when the goons turn off the love-gun and the parties wake up to see what they’ve done to their very own lives!  I’ll bet that gives Clapper and Alexander and Alexander and their Rag-tag Band and Mike Rogers a real big hoot.

7:59 am

A thing worth considering is the fact that although Adam and I were hit with the enemy’s best radar-love… we could not be forced to have an affair.  That bodes well for those who CHOOSE TO BELIEVE GOD IS MORE POWERFUL THAN THE NEOCONS and their phazer-toys. Perhaps we all needn’t fear being turned into MANCHURIAN CANDIDATE MASS MURDERERS.

It also is cause for the trans-humanist-lizards to STEP UP THEIR GAME.  

On the personal side, it reveals a thing of God’s nature that He used an ATHEIST to demonstrate HIS POWER.  I love His sense of humor. 

Also, Adam’s fine character is to be commended.  Isaac would do well to nurture half as much love-of-Truth and fortitude.

Isaac should also consider all my other campaign managers, even the crazy ones.  They didn’t need to be the rock star.  They actually cared about changing things.  I miss them more than I can say.  Even the ones who are still alive.

(I’m sorry if this is embarrassing you Isaac, but you’ve had a LOT OF OPPORTUNITIES to listen to me.)

6:35 am

OH, YEAH:  I wrote my parents and told them Isaac was abusing me and  knocking me out.



6:27 am

What my sons did to me was a thing I would not, even now after evaluating her covert narcissism, EVER do to my own mother.  And she harmed me very badly and lies about me.

I would never lift a hand to my mother and I’d never HAVE HER COMMITTED.  (Although I’ve seen myself slapping her face but then I got control of my thoughts and imagination.)  

Three years ago Isaac threw me into a wall.  I was knocked out on the floor but I could hear. Josh went to get a white towel to put under my head to see if it was bleeding.  NEITHER OF THEM WOULD TOUCH ME THEN– NOT EVEN ENOUGH TO LIFT MY PRONE BODY TO SEE IF MY BRAINS WERE SPURTING OUT.

The Truth is setting me free.  BUT I REALLY DON’T GET IT.

They did these things to a VICTIM OF TORTURE AND RAPE AND SLANDER.  

They did these things…to shut my wondering mouth.

They are not free, they are not truthful, and they are not going to survive until they settle those issues.


I was fighting for ISAAC’S  RIGHT TO KNOW TRUTH



(And he wants to sell freedom.  Good luck with that.)

2016 Libertarian Presidential Candidate Found Dead At Cleveland Motel

“… truly a beacon of unity and empowerment …”

Dr. Marc A. Feldman, 56, of Cleveland, was found dead Wednesday at the Americas Best Value Inn near the Cleveland Hopkins International Airport. No official cause of death has been released.

Feldman lost the Libertarian nomination in May to former New Mexico Gov. Gary Johnson.

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8:42 pm

I’m eating chocolate, and desserts.  I’ve gone entire years without eating chocolate.  Now I’m really liking it.  I red that in Europe snorting cocoa is the new party drug.  Can you imagine?  I’m enjoying life so much that I sigh just standing in the sun or on the beach.  I KNEW I WAS A HAPPY PERSON!  I knew it all the time.  Under that FAKE MOOD CRAP I was happy.  A guy once told me, “If you weren’t so big I’d think you were an elf.”  I haven’t had a single flea bite all season and butterflies seem to follow me while mosquitoes do not.  It’s like I’m a Disney princess or something.  I’m being courted by the creator of the universe.  I imagine I’ll see a lot more amazing things.  I am enjoying things, fully and freely and it is such a relief.  For so long nothing was satisfying or fun.  Always a missing chunk.  Does everybody feel that way?  I never used to.  

8:20 pm

What’s going to have  to happen is a reduction of data.  Less personal stuff to remember.  Our minds and hearts will focus on relationship and emoting and not on documentation because the hive mind is reality either side of the conflict.  There’s a lovely better name for God’s version and obviously it’s employ is entirely subject to His whim and control but when He wants to send an announcement to us we will not be able to say we didn’t get the memo.  Savvy?
The more data we’re juggling the less energy available for creative endeavors and fulfilling activities.  We’ll become the things we love and we will join with others who love those things too.  We’ll all radiate from Jesus as His body and nobody will be out of position as we retake planet Earth.  This will be glorious battle and we will laugh and dance and love each darkened-soul we encounter until he either drops his sword or swizzles up into a spit of black snort.  It won’t smell nice.  We won’t mind and we’ll take the land for Jesus.  There will be horses. There will be no enemy in the camp.  I can’t wait. 

8:04 pm

OMG it’s TRUE.  We are really just batteries.  It’s the breath of God, I said it before.  I can’t wait to see it from outside the matrix.
I asked the kid about his favorite colors.  I told him I’m trying to choose a new favorite color and I can’t pick one out.  He suggested one of the greens from his bouquet of PERFECT SYMMETRICAL AND HUGE four-leaf clovers.  It was a lovely color.  I think the clovers at the Prophet’s are healthier because the compound has been cursed and his place was cleansed when he and George and I prayed around his property years ago.  He had a witch living there for a while.  Things grow very healthy there.  Clovers here are shrively and sometimes tattered.  But they are very prolific.

Vibrational State and Recovery from Narcissistic Abuse

(I can see this so clearly now!  The Truth has set me free and I recommend it.)  (Praying in tongues is WAY MORE POWERFUL than meditating.)  (The goons have been investigating altered consciousnesses using involuntary subjects.)  


7:52 pm

You know, I always agree with myself but I never know until I reed it.  I’m sure that makes sense to somebody scientific or super-spiritual.  I’m downloading yet and I was SO CAREFUL TO KEEP MYSELF UNSULLIED BY THE NEW AGE MOVEMENT…I preached against it with the same fervor I pitched Richard Nixon until my Catholic 7th-grade English teacher started keeping me after class to argue.  Man.  I am very much going to like being around people who are not thin-skinned and stupid. One or the other can work with a buzz. You can  torture it out of them but it’s a pity to go that route when it’s not necessary.  Look and live. But if you wanna do the dude ranch,  torture put my whole life into perspective and it can do the same for you.  Oh yeah, I told Henry Gruver in  early 2000’s that I was ‘channeling’ but he knew I was the real deal for Jesus and he told me to be careful with the term and I already was because I was anti-new-age.  But, there it be, the words kept coming.  MY HANDWRITING.  Very good miracle, I still enjoy it every day; I could NOT MAKE A LETTER THE SAME WAY TWICE.  I get compliments now.  I could get my act together and take it on the road.  If I had a gypsy wagon.  And if I only had a brain.

7:33 pm

So anyway, the ten-year old; we were sunning with the prophet, outstanding in his field.  The boy’s loving the clovers and he asked how much I could sell them for.  He said each one means six years good luck and when he saw my clover-montage-pages he was multiplying my luck upon luck.  He said he figured I might find a million dollars.  I told him I was going to be given 3.5 million.  I won’t sell the clovers probably.

7:30 pm

I have not had a single panic attack since Isaac went to Montreal and I was delivered of a spirit of condemnation.  I was having maybe twenty a day, if you count the nights.  The Prophet knows; he says sometimes they stand him right up on his feet out of a deep sleep.  I told him about things I’ve red about psychics and prayer-people being easily identified and monitored from a long time ago.  He figured as much; he’s been targeted forever.  I told him about Mandela Effect and how the Bible now says Jesus instructed His followers to kill His enemies.  The Prophet reminded me that Revelation told us this was coming; God pronounced a curse on anybody who adds or takes away from the book.  
‘Freedom’s just another word for nothin’ left to lose.’  I gave Him my life and had I not done that I would have been dead many times over.  I do not fear death and I do not fear lack.  I’m beginning to not even fear lovelessness.  It’s a darn sight better than fraud and manipulation.  Now I will look into my torturers’ eyes.  “There is no justice without vengeance.”  I didn’t like the sound of that at first but vengeance belongs to Him.  And whatever He says goes.  
Mostly I’m looking forward to opportunity.  I should go to Toronto and my sons should put a lifetime lease on the compound for their father. That would be prudent in a number of ways.  Now that at least SOMEBODY is responding to me I’ll expect some answers.  Also some funds.  Thanks in advance.  WonderWoman.
(It’s not being proud to call myself ‘WonderWoman’.  My dad knows what I am and it always scared the crap out of him.  I expect I will become increasingly smarter and stronger from here on out.  That’s how I understand eternity.)

7:16 pm

I picked two more 4-leaf clovers after I got home.

JESUS SPEAKS about the coming Hell on Earth – Don’t take the RFID Chip

You, mankind, brought this forth.  You sided with evil.”

(You know what?  I don’t sense much urgency in the Spirit.  It’s been urgent for a long time.  We’re on the diving board of resignation here.  Eternity… I lost it right there.  I got nothin’.)

6:19 pm

I gave all of the clovers I found at the Prophet’s house to his grandson, age ten, who said, “I thought FOUR-LEAF clovers were a myth!”  That was a lot of fun.  Nobody’d ever found one there and I picked a bunch right in front of them.  I never used to let my sons say ‘luck’ because the root of the word is “lucifer” and I couldn’t  have them saying that.  (I believed love was controlling somebody.)   God really is not at all religious.  He’s not superstitious but that’s the best the NSA can do to imitate God.  They are so creepy!


6:08 pm

5:54 pm

When my kids were little, as I washed mountains of dishes, I listened to cassette tapes and dutifully copied them by the dozens to share with my cult-mates.  I heard Dr. Carl Sanders describe how he participated in the development of the chip.  Then he became a Christian.  Then he read Revelation.  Then he got shook.  THEN he got cancer.  This is a very serious time and consequences are not returnable under any circumstances.  This is the last stop coming up and if I didn’t know the city and I do not know the city I would make sure I got out under a streetlight!!!!!


I can’t wait to preach.

My sons know better than they’re behaving.  They’re alpha males and better than their thoughtless compatriots.  I’ll see that demonstrated shortly.



JESUS SPEAKS about the coming Hell on Earth – Don’t take the RFID Chip

You, mankind, brought this forth.  You sided with evil.”

(You know what?  I don’t sense much urgency in the Spirit.  It’s been urgent for a long time.  We’re on the diving board of resignation here.  Eternity… I lost it right there.  I got nothin’.)

5:23 pm

My Uncle Herb led a lot of people to Jesus, I never did it before even once until the psych ward.  She was a junkie/prostitute and I loved her but she just prayed on her own, I didn’t have to even issue an invitation.  Anyway, my Uncle Herb told me not to feel bad if I had no converts, as long as I obeyed the Lord.  He said souls were a VERY SPECIAL BLESSING.  So, here I am and I remember him saying  “First they get mad.  Then they get sad.  Then they get glad.”  We’re livid.  We’re on the way.

The young man called me crazy for my faith and he knows it.  He is not what he tells himself he is.  He’s lovable as heck.  But he is not a follower of Truth at all.

An RFID chip won’t let you die.  That’s the worst thing I’ve red.
OK, here’s what I figure.  I asked Jesus to keep me following TRUTH and not to turn aside for lies and I found this youtube channel and I almost always really feel Holy Ghost there.  This isn’t always the case. One channel even says it’s God’s channel but I didn’t feel him there.  This channel frequently quotes “jesus” regarding technology and synthetic humans and mind control.  He says they’re real.  I’m gonna go with that.
Isaac says he’s ‘livid’.  He went to the Mayor’s store and bought a bottle of Jaegermeister and a can of store-brand ‘Red Bull’.  He let me try it although it’s me with whom he stands livid.  He’s reading my emails!!! Glory, and hallelujah, and long live the King and you are my shining star and JESUS… you take my breath away.  I always knew it would be like this.  Isaac used to get real pissed at me after I’d spent time in the Spirit and returned with tales of swishy fabrics and heady spices and air so dense and sweet that the world can kiss you good-bye right on your A.  He is livid.  He thought my experiences extra-terrestrial and extra-Biblical were too ‘sexual’.  I’ve raised another prude.  We do reproduce after our kind, do we not?  And he blamed me of sexual impropriety and will not see that the extreme opposite has been the case.  ‘Dear Jesus, thank you that I was able to break through to someone. Have mercy on his dad and mine amen.’  The young man is livid and I caused it and it is sincerely about time.  He doesn’t agree with a single thing I’ve said except the part about burning the house down.  I begged to differ:  I NEVER said I wanted to burn it down.  I said I SAW IT BURNING DOWN and trust me, after all these years of house-arrest, I’m ready for anything.
The young man called me crazy for my faith and he knows it.  He is not what he tells himself he is.




11:28 am

I picked another four-leaf clover.

Josh has pinkeye but he doesn’t want to go to the Dr.

I told him to wash his hands a lot and throw his used kleenexes into a bag instead of leaving them around.  Isaac’s on his third week coughing.

10:51 am

I took Connie outside and picked a four-leaf clover.

5:03 am

I went to bed at 7:30 again. I got up very early and made a pot of coffee. As usual, lights were on all over. The pie and cake were still uncovered but they have been used some. A loaf of bread hanging open; I saw one in the garbage the other day; I suppose it was too dried out to eat. Lazy people live here. There is a basket of clean socks I refused to match two months ago, maybe longer. I don’t wear socks much.

The house is absolutely horrifically dirty. My dad gave this house to children and ruined their motivations and sense of value. Josh filled out a questionnaire for jury duty yesterday; one of the questions was whether he was a property owner. He said, “Oddly enough, yes.” He knows it’s not right and it’s given him and his brother a sense of entitlement that extends to the control of their parents. Gee. I wonder if my dad thought of that when he stole my house and gave it to them?

He stole life. He stole faith. He stole love. He stole respect. He’s a very evil person. My sons will soon understand how very badly he treated their father. They will be VERY SORRY they blamed his digression on me. When they understand what went down here I can’t imagine what they’ll do. Hopefully, they’ll grow up; maybe they’ll even respect me?  Maybe I’ll respect them again?

Four adults live here. I live in my room now. I’m glad Josh told me to stay in here more. I can’t bear to look at the place and I’m done facilitating these pointless decadent lives. Isaac has assumed my spot on the deck, and also uses my spot at the dining room table. I’m grateful he lets me use one of his old computers in my bedroom.

I don’t have anything to say. The internet is out and I opened a word processor because, well, it’s three in the morning and this is what I do. I don’t have anything to say.

I no longer care much what my sons think of me. Their evaluations are sluggish and sullied by allegiance to a psychopath. They played video games and ran around Newberry while their dad dug the garden. I don’t know which to despise more, him or them. I think you can despise people’s behavior while still loving them. I’m pretty sure that’s where I’m at.

My sons just kept running me down! YEARS. I couldn’t stand up. Running me down, like Dad taught them. I’m no longer their slave. I hope they don’t get typhoid without my consistent application of sudsy water to their lives.

I’m ready for this house to burn. I never knew if the fulfillment of my vision would be physical or symbolic but I’m OK with it either way. This is the most beautiful spot on the lake. (That’s what my dad said too, just before he took the house.) God has LOTS of pretty places to take me.

I’m ready for the church to explode, I’ve been ready for that since before the turn of the century. This local Baptist brothel benefits liars and frauds and abusers of those who seek Jesus in their midst! BABY-RAPERS who don’t want to talk about it because they’re ‘retired’. CHRISTIANS DON’T GET TO RETIRE.

I’m so ready for Truth to come to Helmer. I’m also ready to leave; I don’t even need the single suitcase He told me I’d take; I’ll bring my passport, and I’d like to have comfortable shoes. I just need Him and distance from hypocrites who seek my head. Sons, otherworldly sons, who would rather see their mother dead or institutionalized than seek truth; do not ask them to defend the helpless, do not ever. It’s not in them. But they belong to God. He told me so in 2007. He can have them.

I bought a graduation card for my nephew, he’s going to the Marine Corps, and I asked George to sign it. He wrote: ‘Semper fi. Uncle George’. I didn’t say a word. He doesn’t learn and he doesn’t change. He’s not related to my nephew and the US military, well, he knows what they do and he knows it’s wrong. He still votes because it makes him feel better. That’s the only reason they encourage us to do it. Pacification. I’ve never seen a more pacified individual. He supports three other unemployed adults and his sons won’t help. It’s their house after all; we are their wards and servants. My dad is so screwed.


I can’t identify with most of the prophecies I reed. The speakers seem so carefree! Even as they encourage believers they don’t seem to recognize the intensities of pain some of us have been holding for others’ benefit. They want a comfortable life, and don’t appear to realize that life as we’ve known it is finished. We’re stepping onto new ground and we’d better be provisioned with that knowledge.

THIS IS THE BIG-TIME, this is the end of time, this is the only time. Once. Humanity has one time left. Individuals may have fewer even, as the goons are artificially manipulating more and more of our reality every day, and also even our private thought-life. It’s over and some will not go down with Spaceship Earth.

I can’t help but wonder what feel-good prophets are hoping to accomplish. I know they sell-out appearances but ‘what does it profit a man if gains the whole world and loses his own soul’? That’s what happens to sell-outs.


“And I will give children to be their princes, and babes shall rule over them.

And the people shall be oppressed, every one by another, and every one by his neighbour: the child shall behave himself proudly against the ancient, and the base against the honourable.”  (Isaiah 3: 4-5)

I ate dinner in my bed with the computer; I always do.  I think the men ate outside.  I’ve been eating at this computer for three+ years. Isaac poked his head in the door and asked if there was anything he could do for me.  I didn’t plotz.  
“As of spring last year…we were almost ready.”
“We are like READY…SO ready.”

bride of christ almost ready

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P4CM Presents:  Ready or Not

by Featured RHETORIC Poets Ezekiel & Janette..ikz

“More than I want you to be beautiful, I need you to be mine.”

New Federal Rule Requires Doctors To Treat Trans Patients As Their Pretend Sex

“Sorry ma’am, I know you say your prostate’s swollen but I can’t find it anyway.”
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Another spiritual-person abducted and incarcerated in a psych ward:


“Tim Rifat planned appearance on rense radio ( 14th of June ) never happened because the Police arrested him and he is yet not released. They also denies him legal defence at this moment trying to pin mental illness on him.”

“So you can actually see that the synergy between and gives Tim Rifat complete control over all aspects of Satanism and since he now controls the Satan thoughtform no demons can feed off of the sacrificed humans, therefore they’re getting hungry and if they wish to eat they have to become Tim Rifat’s bitches and attack the Satanists in order to get any food.”
(OK, I’m not on board with his ‘doctrine’ but he’s got a right to do his thing.)
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Call to Tim in the hospital:


6:55 pm

My ‘Luck by the Yard’ project will be worth a LOT OF MONEY when our story comes out.  


American womanhood.
Omg, this is SO much better than those modern plastic-chrome cruise ships…
royal clipper the largest full rigged sailing ship in the world (4)
“You might think she was an apparition from the grand age of sail, but Royal Clipper is as new as tomorrow, boasting state-of-the-art navigation systems and every comfort and luxury one could wish for. For connoisseurs of sail cruising, the 439 foot Royal Clipper offers the ultimate sea-going experience, balancing the grandeur, adventure and tradition of sailing with the superb service, amenities and accommodations of the finest modern yacht. Royal Clipper carries just 227 guests in luxurious style. A full 19,000 square feet of open deck and three swimming pools create a wonderfully spacious and expansive outdoor environment.”
(And I even like the color.)
royal clipper the largest full rigged sailing ship in the world (5)


“According to the report, the system actually contains about 411 million photos, only 30 million of those are “civil and criminal mugshots.” The overwhelming majority of images in the FBI database are of innocent people.”

Flat Earth: Stanford Graduate Finds Out Hubble Doesn’t Exist

Do we believe the Hubble telescope is really on a Boeing 757?
Oh, yeah.amphicarcaravan
BREAKING: Supreme Court Rules Warrantless Forced Blood Draws for DUI Unconstitutional
Report Shows DEA Deliberately Blocked Beneficial Science to Perpetuate War on Cannabis
Though it probably comes as no surprise, a new report confirms the DEA systematically thwarted research into both cannabis and MDMA for medicinal use and potential rescheduling. Additionally, the Drug Policy Alliance and Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies (MAPS) found in their report, the federal government maintains an “unjustifiable monopoly” on research-grade cannabis — preventing independent producers from contributing to any scientific studies.
“THIS IS SO AWESOME!  How can nobody believe you exist, Lord?”
“When they come out of the clouds you can see their body and stuff.”
AMAZING VIDEO!!! Are These Angels Warning Us???
“I could stay here all day, y’all, I’m dead serious.”
“Father, you’re so amazing, God!”
The Characteristics of the Lord’s Army
Here are some of the characteristics of the end time army of the Lord.
They will be young and old – Joel 2:28
They will be men, women, boys, and girls – Joel 2:28
They will be of every nationality (all flesh) – Joel 2:28
They will be “yielded vessels” – John 3:30
They will be willing – Psalm 110:3
They will seek His face – Psalm 24:6
They will be a part of ushering in the glory of the Lord – Isaiah 60:1
The glory of the Lord will be seen upon them – Isaiah 60:2
They will be militant – Matthew 11:12
They will be mighty – Joel 2:7
They will be skillful – 1 Chronicles 5:18
They will be bold – Joel 2:7
They will be have great faith – Matthew 21:21
They will speak with power and authority – Luke 9:1
They will be fiery ministers – Psalm 104:4
They will do great exploits – Daniel 11:32
They will preach the Gospel of the Kingdom – Matthew 24:14
They will heal the sick, cleanse the leper, raise the dead, and cast out devils – Matthew 10:8
Signs, wonders, and miracles will follow them – Mark 16:20
They will feed and clothe the poor and needy – Matthew 25:35-40
They will have such a love for their heavenly Father – Matthew 22:37
They will love all people, no matter who they are – Matthew 22:39
There will be unity and they will work together – Joel 2:7-8
The Lord’s army will be kingdom minded and have these objectives; loving and knowing Him, souls and destroying the work of Satan (1 John 3:8b). This unity will come from an understanding, that each one has a purpose and a grace from the Father. Everyone will walk in their anointing and calling, and they will not fight with one another out of envy and jealousy. The Lord will do away with competition, strife, and envy. This all will happen when we understand that we all have a place and a job to do.

6:22 pm

They’re eating dinner.  I picked another four-leaf clover.


6:05 pm

Chicken and baked potatoes.

I picked two more four-leaf clovers.

4:44 pm

I picked another 4-leaf clover.

2:46 pm

Nice ride.  Connie was quietly thrilled.  She had about thirty porcupine quills in her snout last night.  She’s perky now.  
When I got back I started a pot of coffee.
Then I went outside and picked 9 four-leaf clovers.
Now I’m sitting comfortably with the fan running and a cuppa joe.
I’m pretty sure I could choose a spot, park in a chair on the lawn and pick clovers at intervals all day. I’d have to have a good book though to sit still.  I’m almost nearly pain-free today; I even walked down the deck stairs without holding the rail.  I’ve had to put both feet on each step before I could proceed to the next one.  THOSE DRUGS ARE POISON.  I feel like a cheerleader now.

1:18 pm

I’m getting some chicken breasts out of the freezer.  They can figure it out.

I took a break and picked four four-leaf clovers.
George is digging in the dirt, I didn’t offer to help.
The garden should have been taken care of a month ago.
If I weren’t here to cook nobody would even harvest the produce.
I’m going for a ride to pray.
I wonder what Jesus will do now?

12:46 pm

Here’s one geek who isn’t wasting his time, right?
I mean, what could be more important than this?
How terrible is it that your enemies are people whose numbers you have on your phone?

This app auto sends ‘Game of Thrones’ spoilers to your enemies


12:20 pm


“At one point I hated this man more than my rapists,” Tracy said, referring to Riley, according to USA Today. She described in graphic detail her gang rape, her thoughts of suicide, her long struggle to feel normal.

“You could literally see the whole room turn and look at Coach Riley,” she told reporters afterward. “It was intense. I saw them all look. I could feel it.”

“Like a piece of cattle I was branded, never to forget eight hands on me, inside me, their laughs as they high-fived each other in a congratulatory manner as they each took turns raping me. … Never to forget the next morning when I awoke to the smell of dried vomit in my hair, the stickiness of a condom stuck to my stomach, the food crumbs that left indentations on my skin as I lay face down on the apartment floor like a piece of garbage that someone forgot to pick up.”

(That’s my daddy-o.  He don’t care what anybody does to a girl.  He doesn’t even care when it’s his own daughter.  He will not listen to her complaints of nearly-continuous MULTIPLE RAPES; he just gaslights her and runs her down.)
  (I suppose that’s because HE INSTIGATED IT.)
(Then he takes her house and her reputation and her children and everything she ever had or thought she might.  Except Jesus,  who just asked, “Did you not think that I would avenge you”?  “Watch.”)

‘This is a coach who victimized me, and now I’m going to stand in front of his football team and tell them how I felt.’

 “Tracy was force-fed alcohol, vomited in the restroom, was violated with a flashlight and raped by at least two of the men as the others watched, she told investigators.”
Did you know they can accomplish all those things nowadays via satellite?
Daddy does.

Last week I heard in my spirit, “I’m ready”.  It kept resounding over and over. When Jesus has asked if I were ready I’ve always had to answer no.  Not anymore.  I’m going home.  Somebody will love me.  Even me.

I’ve spent the morning crying in the hot tub.


Powerful and Emotional Dream. The Bride is now ready and so is Jesus.

The Bride is ready!!!!!!


Jeremiah 29:11-14 “You will be in Babylon for seventy years. But then I will come and do for you all the good things I have promised, and I will bring you home again. For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. I will be found by you,” says the Lord. “I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes. I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you and will bring you home again to your own land.”



Simulated Reality: THIS is How They Fake Shootings & Terror Events Like Orlando

India lightning strikes leave 93 people dead

Opposition to Brexit is based on two powerful interests of Washington.

One is the interests of the New York banks and Wall Street to eliminate the UK as a financial center competitor. This blatant fact has escaped the notice of the City and the Bank of England.

The other powerful interest is the interest of Washington to prevent one country’s exit from leading to the exit of other countries. As CIA documents found in the US National Archives make clear, the EU was a CIA initiative, the purpose of which is to make it easy for Washington to exercise political control over Europe. 

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To discount Mateen’s potential use of anti-psychotic drugs would be grossly irresponsible.

Suicide, birth defects, heart problems, hostility, violence, aggression, hallucinations, self-harm, delusional thinking, homicidal ideation, and death are just a few of the side effects caused by the medication Mateen was researching.

There have been 150 studies in seventeen countries on antidepressant-induced side effects. There have been 134 drug regulatory agency warnings from eleven countries and the EU warning about the dangerous side effects of antidepressants.

Despite this deadly laundry list of potential reactions to these medications, the use of antidepressants has skyrocketed by 400% since 1988. 

Currently, 11 percent of all Americans 12 years of age and over take antidepressant medication, this is a higher rate than all other countries in the world.

However, the most worrisome aspect of Mateen’s ties to anti-psychotic medication is that the majority of mass shooters in recent U.S. history have links to these same meds.

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More than 300 people across the nation – including 22 in the Houston area – have been charged with stealing more than $900 million in what federal investigators say is the “largest Medicare fraud takedown in history.”

The 301 people facing criminal and civil charges of health care fraud include 61 doctors, nurses and other medical professionals, according to the Department of Justice.

Doctors indicted for $122 million Medicaid fraud scheme face prison

Dr Ataya richly deserves the sentence he received, if not more. In addition to the Medicare scam, he was responsible for injuring or killing a number of people ,including clients of ours.
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‘Fear, American Style’ preschoolers practicing lockdowns

Congratulations, DHS and police. You’ve done what no parent could have dreamed of twenty years ago, you given kids new nightmares. Instead of kids being afraid of the dark or monsters under the bed, they’re now afraid of being killed in school. 

‘Fear, American Style’ isn’t a remake of the old ‘Love, American Style‘ TV show. Sadly, its about kids being afraid of getting killed.


The next Israel Independence Day, expect to see the letters of the Google logo featured on the company’s homepage shaped by Israeli air force personnel and framed by two F-16 jets. No, this is not a hoax and not from The Onion.  It was reported by Israel state radio (IBA) veteran military reporter, Carmella Menashe.

When Google CEO, Eric Schmidt came calling at the Hatzerim Airbase, the airmen there were ordered by their commanding officers to join in a formation which, from the air, spelled out the Google icon. The logo was framed by two Lavi fighter jets.  How absolutely picturesque.

This macabre commercial venture appears to have been organized by those innovative folks in the IAF public affairs unit.  Though what they could’ve been thinking when they devised this stunt, Lord only knows.

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A Saudi-born Palestinian, Zubaydah was subjected to 83 waterboarding sessions ‒ a torture technique akin to drowning – was placed in a coffin-sized box for a total of 266 hours (11 days, two hours) over a 20-day period, and forced to sit in another small confinement box 21 inches wide by 2.5 feet long for 29 hours.

Mitchell and Jessen have also partially admitted that Zubaydah, who spent nine years at Guantanamo without being charged, was stripped naked, confined and that his cell was lit by halogen lamps 24 hours a day for a period of time.

Months after the request to assist with Zubaydah, in November 2002 Jessen was asked to evaluate Rahman. The psychologist determined that the defendant was resistant and administered a facial slap to him.

(Psychiatrists get to mold persons’ minds in their own image and judge the validity of things they’ve not seen or experienced.  Kinda childish.)


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Do people actually just play all the time?  I’m pretty sure my brother does.  That’s all I see, on the web and within the larger one.  Fooling around, adults and candidates and that demon-infested abortion doctor.  Everybody is screwing around when they should be paying attention to our planet’s self-destruct sequence that was initiated many years ago.

8:48 am

And it shall be, that thou shalt drink of the brook; and I have commanded the ravens to feed thee there.  

(1 Kings 17:4)

And the ravens brought him bread and flesh in the morning, and bread and flesh in the evening; and he drank of the brook.  
(1 Kings 17:6)
“Most terrorists are false flag terrorists, or are created by our own security services. In the United States, every single terrorist incident we have had has been a false flag, or has been an informant pushed on by the FBI. In fact, we now have citizens taking out restraining orders against FBI informants that are trying to incite terrorism. We’ve become a lunatic asylum.”  (David Steele)
I went to bed at 7:30.
There are three other adults here.
This morning, the chocolate cake is on the counter uncovered and the strawberry-rhubarb pie wasn’t covered either.
I don’t care.  This happens all the time.
I don’t cook to be appreciated.
I don’t take it personally that they are spoiled brats.
I’ve been forgiven for facilitating their dependency and inertia.
Ever see fly-eggs in food?  They’re all neatly organized like the seeds in a melon.  It’s putrid.
The pie is sour anyway.  (Aesop)
“Is it possible to program somebody to kill without them realizing it?”
You know what’s really interesting?  My former friend who betrayed me, now a FEDERAL MAGISTRATE,  had an uncle who was an actor.  
He appeared in the original ‘Manchurian Candidate’.  
ALSO, her family was supposed to be some kind of royalty from Germany.  
ALSO, her mom was on the board of the law school I attended and ‘took me under her wing’.
ALSO, there are five other people WHO ATTENDED MY LAW SCHOOL who are members of the COVERT HARASSMENT SUPPORT GROUP in Michigan.
ALSO, several of my other ‘friends’ from law school have taught there, including the magistrate.
She hasn’t spoken to me since she threw me under the bus and I left a message on her phone saying I hope nobody ever does that to her.
She didn’t even say thank you when I sent some of her belongings back to her.  TWO times.
She married a judge from my Congressional district.
It really makes a mind-control-attempt-victim wonder…

7:55 am

I took Connie outdoors and picked one five-leaf clover.
It’s cold out so I came back to my bed/desk with a hot cup of coffee.  
I’m covering my icy toes with an afghan my maternal grandma crocheted.  
She never molested me.  
Dad’s mom did, ALL THE TIME.  
My folks knew it but didn’t intervene.
(They griped once when she poured Lysol full-strength over a scrape on David’s knee.)
(My dad’s own MOTHER was a chomo.  No wonder he’s so screwed up.-)
What she did to my GENITALS EVERY DAY was not important enough to risk altering their own lives should Grandma not wish to keep me anymore.
(She molested my girl-cousins too.  I don’t know if their father gave a hoot.)
So I’m thinking that maybe the reason we’re seeing so many ERRORS in the false-flag terrorist operations is because the perpetrators WANT US TO KNOW IT’S THEM.  We are meant to fear, absolutely.  At this late date, with so many of us waking up to our matrix-bondage, the fear of Islamic terrorism or racial violence isn’t sufficient.  (And also it doesn’t prepare us for the knock on the door at 3 am.)  When martial law happens, most will do exactly as they are told and they will KNOW there is no savior in even their beloved government.  FEAR feeds the beast.  FEAR feeds all beasts.  My dad sucked my fear dry and now I got none. Glory to God.
I really can’t stand it when authors/videographers do not mention in their titles the pertinent subject matter of the piece. “BIG STORY”  “MUST WATCH”   I don’t like being teased into increasing their page-views when so much is at stake and so much information is available that I can’t even get to. I don’t want to waste my time building wannabe’s media-empires.  I don’t like the bumper music they add and I don’t like the long stylish intros.  I want just the facts, Ma’am.  THIS IS THE FINAL GO-ROUND AND A PERSON’S GOT TO BE SERIOUS ABOUT MORE THAN THEIR OWN YOUTUBE CHANNEL.  They’re like hawkers on the midway, bright lights and free samples. I’ll take my TRUTH straight-up, as He gives me grace to assimilate it.  I had an incident of info-queasy yesterday when I red some horrible story…but Jesus set me back on track.  I couldn’t reed about a kitten stuck in a tree before I was tortured.  An apocalypse is not the time for tender sensibilities.  We’re at war.  Truth already won but we’re here to see Him take back what’s His.

Police: We Were Told to Allow Orlando Shooter to Kill

“Police officers who confronted the Orlando shooter have claimed that they were ordered to “stand down” for up to 30 minutes while Omar Mateen went on a killing spree.” 

“Six police officers arrived at the Pulse nightclub minutes after Omar Mateen opened fire on club goers, breaking through a large glass window and entering the club as the massacre was underway.”

Deception and Mind Control – Gangstalking

“Electronic mind control is actually old technology, much older than the non-lethal weapons technology you’ve heard about in the news.”

“It’s been known since the eighteenth century that electrical impulses can stimulate muscles and cause them to act.”

(Even involuntary muscles.)-


…feel artificial sensations…things that aren’t really happening…
I should be getting used to this by now.  Yesterday after I quoted ‘What About Bob’ and how he sailed by letting the boat do all the work…GEORGE QUOTED THE SAME PART.  This happens every day.  It almost makes me think they reed my work but he said he didn’t.

6:22 am

A Narcissist is a great actor that draws from his/her audience to create a reality that is believable or real enough that the audience becomes completely engaged with the story, emotions, beliefs, feelings or all of it.

“Their extreme manipulation ‘trained’ you to provide everything they needed.  After they drained you or were done they stepped up their game and tried to destroy the evidence or ‘you’ to cover up the abuse and avoid exposure.”
“It is a desperate love because you constantly tried to change YOURSELF to fix this doomed relationship and in doing so you lost so much of yourself.”
(AND…after growing up like that, you reflect that situation into EVERY RELATIONSHIP OF YOUR LIFE so when you marry a man with no opinions you STILL DEMAND YOURSELF TO CHANGE and eventually you end up as a smartish adult taking ORDERS FROM YOUR SON WHO WANTS TO BE A ROCK STAR LIKE GRANDPA!)
I sleep like a baby now.  
I wonder whose life-force my dad is draining these days.  
He uses it up fast and regularly returned to attack me again.
I was NEVER the problem.
I sleep like a baby now.
The TRUTH DOES set us free.
I hated myself with every breath of my life,
because I couldn’t please my dad.  
I please me now.  
Dad can’t stand to be in the same room with himself.  
(Others don’t really like being there either.)
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Narcissists want us to feel 
Fear, Obligation, Guilt and Shame  
“They’re always trying to SHAME me into submission.”
Dark humor is like food.  Not everybody gets it.”  (Stalin)  (Or at least that’s what Josh says.)


“The company maintains at least nine different blacklists that impact our lives, generally without input or authority from any outside advisory group, industry association or government agency. Google is not the only company suppressing content on the internet.”
My late Catholic friend discussed Jesus and discipleship a lot.  She often said, “It’s all about the body.”  That made sense to a blood-drinking Catholic; it was difficult for me to understand.  I don’t believe in transubstantiation.  But, once God has transformed our minds the body will naturally follow.  Doesn’t that follow?

Could Hunger Games become a reality? Hunting HUMANS may be a hobby for the rich in the next 100 years

  • By 2200 hunting humans could be televised, and an activity for stag dos
  • Changes is natural environment will drive a divide between rich and poor
  • Humans in the future will kill others in a ‘claimed aim to reduce population size’, although there will be a ‘perverse thrill and excitement’ to it


JESUS SAYS… The Day of the Lord is upon you 

Message from June 21st, 2016

“Now it is your time to hold me over your heart.  As I must look upon the faces of mothers and children that will be separated for eternity.  And yet, my provision in Heaven for such as these is total loss of memory.”


German MP spends 72 seconds addressing every possible gender while opposing diversity bill

This is really good.
We’re putting up with this nonsense.




5:32 pm
You don’t have to cover your ass if you’ve never committed a crime.  Except, as in my case, when people BELIEVE you are evil.  But that only lasts until you have enough TRUTH under your belt (and documented…) to enable you to confidently tell them to mind their own business. I did that today.  I’m a little hyper now,  but I told Isaac he would not run my life.  It was educational for me to see that in 2013 I was even then recognizing that I DID NOT FEEL THE NEED TO DEFEND MYSELF (as much) WHEN ISAAC WAS ABSENT.  Since he was in Montreal and the demon of condemnation left, I have not panicked even one time.  I will not submit to Isaac’s controlling nature and rejection of Truth.  He’s God’s business and so am I.  God gave him A SINGLE LIFE TO RUN.  It wasn’t mine.
I’m not sore today, only my neck is a bit stiff and my ankles too but not nearly as bad as it’s been.  My sons and Connie and I went for a ride around the nature drive at the wildlife refuge and it was a pleasant afternoon.  Josh cut me a couple wild roses; they smell very nice.  I hope I get to smell orange blossoms again; they’re the best.  George is buying pizza tonight and my sons downloaded a raunchy movie that interested George too.  I will continue my efforts toward utter and absolute revolution as orchestrated (and predicted…) by Jesus, the Christ.  I’ll go to bed early and I’ll get up early tomorrow and do it again.  They may roll their eyes at my efforts now.  This will not always be their response.
I can imagine not wanting to hear about your mom being repeatedly raped.  It was a very terrible time.
I cannot understand FORCING HER SILENCE AND SUBJECTION when she has told the same story and pleaded for assistance for SEVEN YEARS.  SAME STORY.  SAME DENIGRATION.  SAME INTENTIONAL IGNORANCE.
But then again, there are many things about Isaac that are hard to figure.
He rejects Jesus.
If he didn’t reject me I’d be doing it wrong.

1:51 pm


Jewish demonstrators shouted “We will tear down this abomination, you are evil. The Jewish people lives forever! King David lives forever! May the name of your so-called God be blotted out forever.

“It hurts me that they are letting these goyim come here. It hurts me that these evil men, who have oppressed the Jews throughout history, are being allowed to contaminate our holy sites. 

“The goyim got their way this time. But they won’t the next time. King David lives forever!  The people of Israel lives forever!”

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Good thing he didn’t start praying or they might have shot him!
(Actually, “God bless America” is really a prayer.)
(So is ‘God damn’ I suppose.)
“Narcissists don’t have that many relationships.”
“Narcissists don’t really have any friends the way that you or I might think of them.”
George doesn’t have friends; just me and his girlfriend in Tennessee.
George has had no friends in all the time I’ve known him.
George is friendly.
George has always become friends with my friends.
Now I have no friends either.
What do I make of this?
His conversation-span is short, and he has usually left me with our guests,
to do something else.
I don’t know what goes on in his head.
He told God years ago that he would give me up.  (It’s in the book.  Good times.)
My sons believe him to be the ‘kindest most genuine’ person they know.  (Father’s Day card)  (I gave them forty dollars to spend and all they came up with was a card.  They’ve both been sick.)
I don’t have a clue whether George is genuine or not.
I’ve begged for his opinion since I realized he didn’t notice mine.
It’s amazing we procreated together.
I don’t think he’s a narcissist but he gets things his way.
He’s not intentionally unkind.
My sons would be more apt to consider my claims and not [repeatedly try to] THROW ME OUT if their father had some opinions.
Even if he did not AGREE with my opinions,  if he expressed preferences they would believe him able to hold his own, and they would not BLAME ME FOR HIS SITUATION.
My sons will appreciate the care I gave him
when my dad tells the truth.
I don’t know if George is genuine at all.
I don’t know him.
But he’s always been nice to me.
I’m grateful that he feeds me.
I’m grateful for my sons.

Gilgamesh NIMROD Tomb Found

– Intact NEPHILIM Giant Skeleton Retrieved for DNA GENOMES

Why does this seem like theatre?
War is obsolete, yet both NATO and Vlad use it to threaten us.
(He knows it too.)

100% Proof You Are Being Lied To By Your Government And The Media

It’s astonishing how many mistakes they’re making on these false-flags.  We’re decades after the WWII lies and they STILL are not common knowledge.  Shouldn’t the masters be better fakers now?  EXCEPT of course, this is a season of TRUTH-REVELATION. Some of these ‘terrorist attacks’ are so silly a kid in kindergarten could see through them.  (And that after only five years of TV’s predictive programming and demonstration of plot development mechanisms.)

If You Want to Find the True Church Today, Look for Christians Who Have Suffered Evil

Increasingly I am seeing that the church, the true church, is once again meeting in catacombs and baristas and now in online locations. Christ’s people hear His voice and follow Him, and a stranger they will not follow.

Their teaching is so contrary to what the Bible actually says, that I wonder if they actually read it. It’s like they put the Bible’s book cover on their own opinions. No, it’s like they are grooming victims to accept abuse.

How did Orlando victim Antonio Devon Brown die in Pulse Nightclub shooting, when he was killed in 2013 in West Virginia?

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Larken Rose

What Is National Security?

(Alpha male by another name would smell as sweet.)
1:38 pm
We ate eggs benedict and we’re going for a ride around the refuge.  Josh is feeling better than yesterday but they’re both still croaky.

Why is the allowable limit of glyphosate in U.S. food 300 times higher than in Taiwan?

I’ve got an idea.  Maybe it’s so that they can scare us with FAKE ZIKA incidents.  BRAZIL says the malformed TINY HEADS come from MONSANTO.  And look what’s happened to Brazil.

Chewable, fruit-flavored ADHD medication ‘candy’ for young children receives FDA approval

So it’s illegal to SAVE CHILDREN’S LIVES with a plant…and it’s OK TO GIVE THEM CANDY-COATED METH!!  I know the temptation; I ate a bottle of baby aspirin one time.  It’s a good thing it was only orange flavored birch bark because nobody took me to the doctor and if it had been AMPHETAMINE GUMMY BEARS I could have died!
Willie Wonka breaking bad.

12:31 pm

I’m making hollandaise sauce for my sons when they come in from lying in the sun.


From 12/30/14


My dad squats over the crucible of self-awareness with the weight of past indulgence encouraging his emotional digestive tract.  He’s knees be a’quiver.  It’s shit or get off the pot.  (He always told me that one.)  I got flushed and I’m back to tell the tale.  His turn.  “Can we pray for dead people, God?  I know the Bible says they pray for us,  so maybe the Catholics are right?  What in the WORLD could a dead person need that my prayers could ameliorate?  Please release my dad from purgatory and walk him into life.  Amen.  If that’s OK.”




4:20 pm


Isaac is reading this book aloud, about how to be a worthwhile man.  I’m glad he’s studying. Heaven knows he’s had masculine role-models with differing opinions.  There’s a difference between nippy and bitter, but it’s still very cold. When Isaac and I are on the same page we’ll be a formidable team.  I only just realized I stopped defending myself when he left.  I haven’t picked it back up since he’s been here, very much.  I yam what I yam and for that I’m grateful.  A lesser yam couldn’t have done what I’ve done.  “Thank you Lord, for causing me to 1) survive torture, 2) record torture, 3) have enough stamina to stand-down my dad or any other aging pervert who refuses your “enhanced interrogation.  Amen.”

SAME DAY, 2014

As a formerly Baptist woman I intentionally embraced the relinquishment of my personal power.  I fought (you gotta believe, for me it was battle…) to submit to my men.  I thought this was OWED to THEM.  I was mistaken; all submission is OWED only to God, and by submitting to often-psychopathic behaviors, I was feeding the beast.  I wasn’t nourishing my men’s better angels, I was rewarding selfish manipulation.  I was casting pearls before swine.  Maybe God didn’t make a mistake when he gave brains to women.  Maybe that’s why he gave men two heads: their brains would rattle around too much in the big one.

How can there even be a 104 year-old neuroscientist?   For all physical purposes, I remain in the world my dad established for me, the world where nobody cares what I think.  Some people at sundry times have asked and/or paid me to do some of their thinking for them.  What’s a girl to do?  I recognize that my life is not my own, and God will use it as he sees fit.  He’s seen fit to demonstrate to me that he is always right.  He’ll be right about my life too. But, I’m really bored and lonely.  Also I’m disappointed in my compatriots; doesn’t anybody want an adventure? This is the final battle between good and evil and we get to choose our own country.  Also, I shouldn’t be adjudicating my own work-product.  I want somebody to argue with.


I was trying to think of a non-pejorative linguistic, a female-archetype for spiritual growth and/or positive aging. No smart woman is a good woman it seems, at least not in English.  Witch.  Crone.  There also is no language of archetypal female aspirations, no “hard-ons” no “limp dicks.”  No recognition of any universal influence of females, by passion or principle.  Expectations monitor female behavior, within various sub-groups.  Peer-pressure, criticism, one-ups-man-ship…yet no female-specific vernacular of the experience.  I’m tired of thinking about my Dad and the on-going effects of his lies and cowardice.  I hope God lets me free to think about some other things pretty soon.  I’d like to study languages.  I’d like to study the brain-scans taken while I was praying in tongues.  Wouldn’t that be interesting to see?  Maybe my dad knows where they are.

Were we ever middle class?  It seemed so, for a couple years between milk goats and politics.  We thought, for an instant, about “getting ahead” rather than “playing catch-up.”  We couldn’t afford this house and I told my dad so, at the time and ever since.


I have a friend who became a Christian because she felt sorry for Jesus.  Maybe someday I’ll be a feminist after all.





word for virtue means manliness strength or loyalty to the tribe while attacking or defending against enemies of Rome.      latin  virtus      vir=man   virile?

“There aren’t even power-words for woman to experience.  Chief, boss, jefe. Isaac understood my argument. He says being a man is being a gang-member.  (I’m pretty sure he said gang, and not mob.)  He is reading a book, a new one, not one of the musty volumes he prefers.  He says it’s premature to call a man courageous, until he’s faced enemies of his tribe.  (I might venture that more courage is required intra-tribaly.)   He wants to “give something back to the word”:  Courageous.  The Latin word for virtue means manliness.  Strength and loyalty to the tribe.  I have never been with a man who mobbed with even a single beer-buddy so it’s kind of hard to picture men sharing responsibility for the welfare of the many.  I expect I will soon see it.



Game-ness.  Men swagger.  Most men have been entirely untested their entire lives.  Most of these men would have been taken out, in earlier times.  Game-ness is a dogfighting term.  In humans it is used more subversively, but it manifests a willingness to fight.  Women do not normally present game-ness unless they’ve had an armed man behind them.  Except those few women who earned their confidence and don’t impersonate a gamer.



George just hollered:  “Cheeseheads of the world, unite!”  I don’t know where this stuff comes from.




Teenage boy arrested under “terrorism” for Tweeting


Teenage boy arrested under ‘terrorism’ for Tweeting


How about we just outlaw advertising our terrorist attacks on Twitter?  If it’s illegal, then we’ll know that if anybody schedules his attack on Twitter it’s not real because he’s breaking the law in the first place.  Something is more comfortable about a Twitter we KNOW cannot be trusted, over a Twitter trying really hard to be trusted despite the fact  that we KNOW Twitter cannot be trusted.  And can be hacked.


I can’t get alone.  My men are  everywhere.  George has seven days off and with the four of us in the house for a week I don’t know what to expect.  It’s a great time to be me.  I saw tiny sparkles in the air.  I kept the faith during torture!  (I never thought I could do that; that’s why I got a tattoo of “Jesus.”  I thought I’d deny him for sure so I prayed a lot that he wouldn’t permit that.)   I watched my sons and ex-husband lose faith because they couldn’t believe “God” would do those things to us.  He allowed them to happen to show his glory!  I’m thinking I’ll have a convert any day now.

“All safe and blessed, we shall meet at last.” (Sibelius)


10:20 am

I took Connie outdoors to greet the day’s first chemtrail fluffering against the blue-blue sky.
Then I picked three four-leaf clovers.  
And then I remembered how TOM CASPERSON approached my DAD immediately after I announced I was running for Congress.  
The issue of ELECTION-TAMPERING is so pertinent that US CITIZENS have even approached the UN for help in establishing fair elections.  (Oxymoron, that.)  God told me that if I loved the first district of Michigan enough…He would reveal the corruption.  I can HARDLY WAIT!  MUCH LOVE BRETHREN AND LOWER-PENINSULA PEOPLE TOO!  We will have the finest most dependable pure state in the country.  I even love my enemies.  (Actually I just let Jesus do it with my person.)
“I’M SAILING!!!  I’m really sailing.  I just let the boat do all the work.  That’s my secret.”  (Bill Murray.  ‘What About Bob’?)
Demons are real.  Everybody knows that.  Down deep.
Video by Trey Smith

Anyone notice the Rainbow Heart at the top of the page?

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I Don’t Have to LEAVE!!
(Steve Martin on Johnny Carson)

Breaking– The MEDIA Is Bringing About Legalized pedophilia


Gangstalking down unda- electronic harassment

I saw the same screen this morning and I ALSO DID THINK for a while I was being jerked around.
Poor guy.   Youtube was down, I red.
THIS IS ACTUALLY TRUE…the PARANOIA that comes from continual CYBER-STALKING makes every flaky computer-issue be interpreted as a personal attack!  
(Unless you develop full-blown Stockholm Syndrome.)

Oh, this is just great; they uncovered the body of NIMROD.  Makes sense, considering the lateness of the hour.
10:14 am

9:13 am


I Don’t Have to LEAVE!!

(But I can if I want to.)

(I hope my LANDLORDS-slash-sons  see this; it’s familiar.)

(They don’t hold my hand like Johnny Carson though.)


8:46 am


Judge with ‘blood on her hands:

Tragic Ellie given back to father AFTER court told she was in danger.

One year later, he killed her 

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Orlando Changes Everything
By Brother Nathanael Kapner  June 16, 2016 ©

WE’RE ALL A BUNCH of suckers now, and getting sucker punched by politicians itching to be president stings the unsuspecting.

Mourn for LGBTs today and tomorrow they’ll gag your mouth with their hate s##t.

They just stuffed their gag into the mouth of a Catholic priest in Spain who gave a homily denouncing homosexual sin, and now the virtuous priest has to defend himself in court vis-a-vis an LGBT lawsuit.

We can turn the other cheek and pretend it’s sympathy for the dead rather than the devil.

But boxers who lead with a left jab follow with a knockout punch.

If Christians don’t feel the left jab now, they’ll reel from the knockout punch tomorrow.

Trump has hitched his pitch to the homo bandwagon announcing his “solidarity” with the LGBT community and declaring that Orlando “strikes at the soul of who we are as a nation, and is an assault on the ability of people to love who they want and express their identity.”

The queers and perverts have a whole new champion in Donald Trump. (Not to mention that the Orlando carnage was apparently neither a “terrorist” act nor a “hate crime” but a ‘gay-motivated’ crime since the killer was a known homosexual.

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“Hatred is the most accessible and comprehensive of all the unifying agents. Mass movements can rise and spread without belief in a god, but never without a belief in a devil.”
This video is VERY interesting.
I’ve been (trying) learning not to judge things, my appearance, even clovers.
Four-leaf clovers are mutants, after all, and they’re seldom symmetrical and whole.
When I find a shapely one I’m more pleased.
Are they really any luckier?

People (Over) Rating Themselves

Alert:  it’s a bit disturbing if you’re empathetic at all.


Mark Zuckerfuck covers his Mac’s camera and audio jack with tape!

I’m loving the assonance but it sounds like ‘truth or dare’
How does one zuck?
(With an ultimatum that could be important to know.)

After posting the photo online, several Internet users spotted and pointed out the tape covering his camera and audio jack on his Macbook at his desk.

It’s rumored that skilled hackers are able to take over the front facing cameras on laptops when they’re not covered up.


(I don’t even think one must be appreciably ‘skilled’.)

Hacked Twitter Account, Plans for Martial Law, Create Chaos, To Stop the ELECTIONS!

I love listening to Dahboo.  His videos are short and simple and his tone is always urgent.

Sly and the Family Stone Hot Fun In The Summertime – 1969

Gotta love a guy who can sing so butch wearing a satin bolero.
Survivors of the summer of love.

Did you know his band was his family?


(Dec 12, 2015 – Why Sly Stone still can’t collect royalties from his classic songs. … A judge has handed a legal setback to Sylvester “Sly” Stone, ruling that he won’t be able to collect $5 million in royalties because he previously had assigned those royalties to a production company.)
(Prince was WAY-smarter with his portfolio.  But of course, he’s dead.)
Mungo’s got Sly Stone’s sideburns!  
And his ‘summer’ schtick.
In the Summertime.
Mungo Jerry.

“Diplomats” Urge War

-51 State Dept Officials Call For US-Led War

Against Syrian Govt and Its Russian Ally

-Ron Paul

Child cruelty and neglect cases up 75%: More than 8,500 offences were reported to officers in 2014-15 compared with 4,800 in 2005-06

  • Parents or carers reported in connection with 8,506 offences in 2014-15
  • Adults contacted authorities with fears about children who were beaten
  • Others reported parents who were drunk or leaving children on their own

(I wonder if the number grew because more people are turning to the government about long-standing issues?  Child neglect was de rigueur when I was a kid.)


7:44 am

I bought an address book. I haven’t taken time to transfer my phone numbers into the book but that’s my plan. I think I will not have a phone anymore. I spilled coffee on my old one in the car when Josh and I went to pick up Isaac from the airport when he went to Costa Rica and everything turned blue. George bought a new one for me but I can’t turn it on. He transferred the numbers and pictures; there are about a dozen. He always replaces electronics; he’s been forcing them on me for years and I suppose it’s a good thing because otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to document the revolution as I have but I do not think they’re healthy and I expect a very different life than what they promote. Also, they could become useless any day.

I’d really like to get my broken tooth fixed instead of seeing new printers and Sirius radios and phones and flat-screen TV’s and electric motors and weights of various styles and sizes and trailer hitches with no trailer … He’s a shopping fool lately. His belongings always billow out of the bedroom into the foyer and when the exercise equipment took over the living room I forced myself to stop looking at it. Now it’s seeping out onto the deck. I’ve only seen him use his 36” plastic balls one at a time. He has four. They’re stored on the couch. It seems out of control to me. I pray he’ll be well.

He doesn’t have any legal obligation to help me get my tooth fixed but he’s a decent guy so maybe he will anyway. He’s got lots of money to throw around. He even bought silver for his retirement. My years of service are not considered because I was raped and he did not believe me. At least we’re not in Asia; he might have thrown acid in my face. That would hurt more than a broken tooth.

7:05 am

IRS Just Admitted it Stole Millions From Innocent People — Here’s the Catch: They’re Giving it Back

By Justin Gardner

“It’s the stuff of libertarian dreams. The IRS admits that it wrongfully took money from innocent citizens, and it gives the money back.”

“This is actually happening to victims of a little-known form of civil asset forfeiture carried out by the IRS on the premise of “structuring” violations. In case you didn’t know, depositing or withdrawing just under $10,000 from your bank account multiple times is viewed as suspicious and possibly criminal activity…”


Read more: WHAT REALLY HAPPENED | The History The US Government HOPES You Never Learn!

Jun 21 10:19

Very Curious Craigslist Ad:

Arabic and Dari Role Players needed

to engage in military training scenarios

at McGuire AFB

“We are a language and cultural training company and we provide language Instructors and Role Players to participate in military training scenarios at McGuire AFB.”

Part-time job, usually one day per month on a Friday
Pays $24 per hour
No special skills needed, but MUST be a native speaker of Arabic, Dari or Pashto and be from the Middle East. Preferably Afghanistan or Iraq.
Basic English communication skills, including speaking and some reading
Must be able to email and be reachable by cell phone
Must have reliable transporation (sic) and be dependable

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An incubus is a Lilindemon in male form who, according to mythological and legendary traditions, lies upon women in order to engage in sexual activitywith them. Its female counterpart is a succubus. Salacious tales of incubi and succubi have been told for many centuries in traditional societies, andGenesis 6:4 is a passage used to support the credibility of such stories. Some traditions hold that repeated sexual activity with an incubus or succubus may result in the deterioration of health, or even death.[1]  Wikipedia

‘Those who will be destroyed for the most part will not be human with a soul, rather they will be synthetic soldiers, not of God’s origin, rather manufactured, just like dolls except with technology that is far superior and ties into the human make-up.”
“These will be inhabited by demons.  You see there is so much you do not understand about the early days of the Old Testament, when the order was given to destroy men, women and children.  The demonic infestation in even what looked like an innocent child was horrendous.  Even the animals were polluted and impure.”
“When you trace back the truly evil ones in history, you will find somewhere in there lineage, those who mated with demons.”

6:42 am

In the interview below, when asked by the host of The Financial Argument what he fears -most, Dr. Willie gives a rather alarming response.

He says, I fear the U.S. government and their murder squads,  I fear being gunned down or run over by a black SUV, or I fear being poisoned by my government like Catherine Austin Fitts was, at a recent event with a certain FBI official, who was trying to go public with certain information…”

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7:34 pm


GOD’s High Tech Weapon – ‘LOVE’

Re:  Hadron Collider-CERN

“Clare, this machinery has been used time and time again all over the world to instill the worst bitter hatred and urge to kill; it is standard operating procedure.  But you see when a people is steeped in me, when they turn to me, it no longer works.”
“What the powers behind the collider are trying to do is basically reduce people to an animal mentality turned against itself until they all kill one another.  But I will never ever allow them to be overwhelmed if they turn to me.”
“That is why the enemy is trying to cut off the portion of the brain that hears from me most clearly.”
“What they do not understand is that I AM omnipotent.  They cannot stop my communing with a soul.  I will override their every attempt to cut the soul off from me.”
“The prince of demons?  his very existence depends on ME.”
“His days are numbered and he knows it.
What he could not do in his demon kingdom he has enlisted foolish men to accomplish for him.  But God shall not be mocked.”
“What is coming on this world is an unprecedented wave of crime and violence stirred up by these evil creatures and not the least of which is the scientific community which is devoid of a conscience.”
“Nothing can conquer the soul who has chosen to live for me.”

CIA’s Gang-Stalking’s

Worse Than Any Horror Movie

“They won’t even put it in movies.  It’s too insane.”
“This is scary beyond anything I’ve ever imagined.”
The phone rang today.
The last time it rang was 6/6.
That was when Isaac was in Canada and two days late getting back and George was in Minnesota.
The isolation of this family is astonishing.
7 years after dad abducted my children and set a trap for me with the state police, our isolation continues.
His family is trash.  God loves them but they’re really trashy people.   I mean THE MAN TRIED TO MURDER ME AND WILL NOT SPEAK OF WHAT HE’S DONE.  TRASH.  Forgivable trash.
“Lying in wait is a waiting and watching for an opportune time to act, together with a concealment by ambush or some other secret design to take the other person by surprise.”
“Lying in wait is evidence of deliberation and intention. 3. Where murder is divided into degrees, as in Pennsylvania, lying in wait is such evidence of malice, that it makes the killing, when it takes place, murder in the first degree.”

Orlando false-flag: Man claims to be part of CIA plot targeting gays

“A potential “smoking-gun” for the Orlando gay-club shooting massacre has emerged, according to Brenda Corpian reporting for Get Off The BS. Corpian’s post was then reproduced by a number of sites, including G. Edward Griffin’sState of the Nation blog and”

“Corpian’s claim is fourth-hand — that an unnamed former Los Angeles County prosecutor who works for Get Off the BS was told by two unnamed Santa Monica police officers that a 20-year-old man named James Wesley Howell, who was arrested by Santa Monica police on Sunday, June 12 (the same day as the Orlando gay-club shooting), with explosives and 3 assault rifles, said he was part of a CIA false-flag plan to launch attacks against gays on the east and west coasts.”

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Nathanael: The Holocaust $MYTH$ is GOING DOWN! — 1950 Encyclopedia Brittanica stated ‘THOUSANDS of Jews,’ NOT ‘6 MILLION’ perished during WWII. NOT A SINGLE GAS CHAMBER was mentioned • It WASN’T UNTIL THE ’60s, when pro-Israel lobbies grew in power, that the number ‘6 million’ and ‘gas chambers’ were suddenly served up to a gullible public. Working with Jewish Hollywood, the lobbies needed to manipulate political opinion to support Israel. By PLAYING VICTIM, they could EXTORT $BILLIONS! • FILTHY LUCRE is forbidden by the Bible! — tobefree

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Two Cool Black Guys speak on “White Privilege”.

“Be patient and wait for it. After the fooling around is over, the content is priceless.”

“How come I can stand outside and scream ‘black power’ but the white guys can’t scream ‘white power'”?  

“I’m the one with the privilege.”  (Paraphrased a bit.)

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3:55 pm

Gangstalking down unda-meltdown level 2

“These dreams aren’t natural.”

“You can feel the pulses hitting you.”
(I’m praying for this man.)
(Maybe some Christians would join me?)
“These fucking Nazi scientist dogs!”

JESUS Explains…

‘How Bitterness can change your Destiny & DNA’ – Message from June 20th, 2016

If this weren’t so sad it would be really ironically funny.

U.S. Citizens Officially Request Emergency Electoral Assistance From The United Nations

“We the people of the United States of America are officially requesting the United Nations to monitor our remaining 2016 presidential election. So far we have seen evidence of massive election fraud all across the country, which gives us reason to believe that the fraud will continue. Our president Barack Obama and the U.S. State Department have done nothing about the obvious rigging of our elections, which gives us reasonable suspicion that our government and the integrity of our electoral process has been compromised in order to place their chosen candidate in power against the will of the American people.”


Read more: WHAT REALLY HAPPENED | The History The US Government HOPES You Never Learn!

Catholic Leaguer gloats over killing anti-child abuse bill: It was an attempted ‘rape’ of the church

“Catholic League President Bill Donohue on Monday gloated after he successfully helped kill a bill in the New York legislature that would have made it easier for sex abuse victims to bring cases against their accusers.”

“As The New York Daily News reports, Donohue sent out an email to supporters after the defeat of the Child Victims Act, an act that he said was designed “to rape the Catholic Church.” The bill would have extended the timeframe that victims can bring forward cases by five years and would have opened up a six-month period for victims to revive older cases.”


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I made the cabbage salad, also cabbage salsa with avocado and lime.  The fish is thawed and tartar sauce is made and the baking pan for the fish is covered with tin foil which I don’t always do. Chocolate cake in the oven.  Chocolate is out for the ganache.  Pan of water is ready for boiling some pasta.  I didn’t put any salt in it yet because I’m not sure what I’m making.
I picked another  4-leaf clover while the cake is baking.
George said maybe we’ll get a garden planted tomorrow.
He’s working out.

2:01 pm

(She still charged me half price for the haircut.  I don’t know why she couldn’t see how lush and beautiful my hair is.  She even talked about it being so fine.)

A Grand Deception: The Successful Response Of Sex Offenders

Sexual offenders have perfected a grand deception that sadly seems to work all too well inside faith communities. This deception twists truth, minimizes abuse, and exploits guilt in order to create a fictional narrative that paints the offender as the victim and those who accuse and confront as perpetrators of injustice. Unfortunately, too many fail to realize that this deceptive narrative is fiction.”
“Offenders simultaneously take the spotlight off of their own wretched acts while subtly eliciting sympathy from their confronters. Sadly, this initial step of the grand deception can be extremely successful, especially with the broader congregation.”
“Though I’ve made some mistakes, I’m certainly no child molester.” 
accessory before (or after) the fact
phrase of accessory
  1. 1.
    a person who incites or assists someone to commit a crime (or knowingly aids someone who has committed a crime).
It’s a good thing my ostracism has gotten me
accustomed to spending holidays alone.
(Oh yeah, and David)

“Whoever, knowing that an offense against the United States has been committed, receives, relieves, comforts or assists the offender in order to hinder or prevent his apprehension, trial or punishment, is an accessory after the fact.”

“Except as otherwise expressly provided by any Act of Congress, an accessory after the fact shall be imprisoned not more than one-half the maximum term of imprisonment or (notwithstanding section 3571) fined not more than one-half the maximum fine prescribed for the punishment of the principal, or both; or if the principal is punishable by life imprisonment or death, the accessory shall be imprisoned not more than 15 years.”

(June 25, 1948, ch. 645, 62 Stat. 684Pub. L. 99–646, § 43Nov. 10, 1986100 Stat. 3601Pub. L. 101–647, title XXXV, § 3502Nov. 29, 1990104 Stat. 4921Pub. L. 103–322, title XXXIII, §§ 330011(h), 330016(2)(A), Sept. 13, 1994108 Stat. 2145, 2148.)
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12:19 pm

I picked four more four-leaf clovers.
Now I’m going to Curtis to get my hair cut.
Now that it’s so thick they might even charge me full price!
We’re having fish for dinner, baked with cracker crumbs and butter.
Asian cabbage salad…no cilantro this time.  I loved the last batch.
Connie could probably do some impressive lifts now that I’m thin.
(Come to think of it, she wouldn’t look too bad with a bit of white either.)
(I’m pretty sure she’s an Indigo dog.)
High-tech Tinfoil Hat:

11:08 am

The people who believe we are not monitored are exceedingly stupid.

We received a campaign flyer from JASON ALLEN.  Oddly, it was addressed to ‘GEORGE AND ISAAC MILLER’.  
I wonder how his staff knew about residential/relationship changes at my house?
I wrote about JASON ALLEN in my first book, he was the guy during whose speeches I LOUDLY EXITED THE ROOM.
I wonder if he’s still married?  TOM CASPERSON told me some interesting stories about the haberdasher’s wife. She sounded quite formidable.
I remember when after my [most recent] divorce I received a copy of the magazine from COOLEY LAW SCHOOL which had my name wrong for years and years.
This time it was labeled to my NEW NAME!  
And it was right!
How’d they know so quick?  
The people who believe we are not monitored are exceedingly stupid.
And, at this point, stupidity is a VOLUNTARY CHOICE.

Doctors more likely to prescribe drugs from companies who buy them dinner, American study says

At least they expect dinner before they put out.

10:43 am

I’m thinking I’ll wear white instead.

10:39 am

I picked 2 four-leaf clovers and wore a new swimsuit in the hot tub.  Actually, it’s not new because I got it at Goodwill but I’ve never worn it because I was saving it for when I got thin and gorgeous.  It was time.
“By the end of 1935, 100,000 Jews had left Germany, but 450,000 [remained]. Wealthy Jewish families…kept thinking and hoping that the worst was over.”
(I’ve been poor at math.  Where did they find 6 million Jews to murder?)
 (Oh wait.  They reduced that number right?  Changed history again?)

8:49 am

I’m going outdoors into God’s amazing world.

Maybe I’ll pick some clovers.

Feelin’ Stronger Every Day

8:23 am

The Normalcy Bias and Bible Prophecy

“I’ve been in the business of warning people about the end times for several decades now. One of the hardest tasks is convincing people that danger is coming their way. They have fallen prey to what is commonly called the normalcy bias.”

“By the end of 1935, 100,000 Jews had left Germany, but 450,000 [remained]. Wealthy Jewish families…kept thinking and hoping that the worst was over.”

“Many of the German Jews, brilliant, cultured, and cosmopolitan as they were, were too complacent. They had been in Germany so long and were so well established, they simply couldn’t believe there was going to be a crisis that would endanger them. They were too comfortable.”

“The normalcy bias has a strong relationship to Bible prophecy. Because we’ve never had famine, nuclear emergencies, earthquakes, and volcanic eruptions on a global scale, people assume these disasters will never happen. Most of the same people believe that there is a God, yet they refuse to believe the dire predictions made by Him.”

“Knowing this first, that there shall come in the last days scoffers, walking after their own lusts. And saying, Where is the promise of his coming? For since the fathers fell asleep, all things continue as they were from the beginning of the creation” 

2 Peter 3:3-4.

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Firefly Serenity reaver chase

Benjamin Fulford: June 20, 2016 In a First, US Supreme Commander General Joseph Dunford Addresses the UN…as head of republic

The evil overlords want to mend their ways?
“You’re only a victim once.  After that you’re a volunteer.”

Two Nuclear Leaks in the United States, One Likely Worse Than Fukushima (Videos)

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It is a different earth like they’re saying.
I just saw a picture of Zuckerberg in a tie and jacket.
Why I Think the World Should End

1000 drummers & The Golden Earring – Radar Love (5-9-1992_Rotterdam)

The guitar player with the shapely mullet looks a little panicky.  Probably justified.
I bet it was stressed pretty heavy that nobody would improvise…too many chiefs and not enough Indians?
Drummers rock.
As a rule, I don’t eat blue food.  I think blue might be my favorite color though.  I’ve been evaluating my options since I realized that my previous favorite colors were actually my pertinent MEN’S favorite colors.   I dislike all pastels but mint green is my most flattering color when I’m tan so I tolerate that one.  Isn’t that sad?  It makes me look better so rather than surround myself with colors I like, I choose according to how it will influence others.  How can I possibly choose a favorite color when I haven’t even seen them all yet?
I kind of like the red in Obama’s eyeballs:

Obama Mocks Christians ‘Anti Christ’ Comments by Appearing as a Demon in White House Dinner

Christians will be betrayed (Organized GangStalking) to intelligence organizations by friends, neighbors and family;

intelligence organizations will assist the military to persecute God’s people–

Martyred Targeted Individual by NWO’s




Agents of Deceit


–Death for Satan’s Judgement–not the true living God!

PROGRAM OF S.A.T.A.N. FALSE ANTI-CHRIST [AI]FOR THE REAL ANTI-CHRIST | Betrayal Intel Ops Informants Persecuting God’s people

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Prophetic dreams.

Saved from wolves by a silver spoon.

Most of 411 million photos in FBI facial recognition database belong to law-abiding citizens [VIDEO]

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6:45 am

The normalcy bias, or normality bias, is a mental state people enter when facing a disaster.
—-It causes people to underestimate both the possibility of a disaster and its possible effects.—-

6:29 am

This is not just ending a relationship and grieving the emotional connection with another person – this was emotional and psychological abuse that traumatizes the victim! This abuse is debilitating and the victim needs love, help, support and most importantly heard and understood so that they can move forward and get the necessary help and then go back out into the world feeling mentally, emotionally and physically healthy again – that and to able to trust people.

“This type of abuse has exposed you to horrible manipulation, confusion, betrayal, resounding fear and terror because of the coercive methods from the Narcissist as well as dehumanizing control and TRAUMA.”


“The target/victim bundles everything up and somehow even blames themselves as if they created everything they are feeling as well as deserve it.”

“There may be biological children involved, financial ruin and character assassination waiting for the target/victim as well from the Narcissist’s smear campaign.”

“This is probably the darkest time of the target/victim’s life having to deal with the total devaluation, discard, and devastation from someone that they BELIEVED loved them and cared for them!”

‘This is betrayal so hideous that a person that has never experienced this abuse could NEVER even start to realize the damage that is done to a target/victim and the extreme trauma it causes to them and their life.”

“With emotional and psychological battering or abuse victims are entrapped by extreme manipulative and psychological persuasion over a lengthy period of time or basically brainwashing.”

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I’ve been in prophet-training camp.

If my sons thought me to be unusual and perceptive, I’d be doing it wrong I suppose.

For Jesus himself testified, that a prophet hath no honour in his own country.

And he said, Verily I say unto you, No prophet is accepted in his own country.

But Jesus, said unto them, A prophet is not without honour, but in his own country, and among his own kin, and in his own house.
And they were offended in him. But Jesus said unto them, A prophet is not without honour, save in his own country, and in his own house
Mandela Effect?  I painted a tall cactus on the wall outside on the deck a couple years ago for the Cantina.  It’s different now.  It had a silly arm coming off the side with a blossom on it.  I looked up pictures before I drew it.  Now the flower is gone and the arm is right up snug against the trunk.  I would never have done that; it’s pointless there.
I feel very much better today.  Hardly stiff at all.  Slowish and somewhat achy but nothing like it’s been.  Thank you, Lord.
That’s what’s going to change:  currently, it’s not the TRUTH that matters but what the majority of us believe is the TRUTH.  However, when the Spirit is come He will lead us into ALL TRUTH.  Some will reject it (Him) but their opinion WILL NOT MAKE A SPECK OF DIFFERENCE.  Truth is gonna set us all free.  Except the ones who refuse.  

Truth Will Soon be a Currency

Larken Rose Thank The Military For What


8:30 pm

For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?

Mark 8:36 KJV

I think my parents expected me to die in the hospital.
(I’ve got my reasons.)



mind 6

8:15 pm
“If faith as a mustard seed can move mountains, what does it profit if you have no faith at all in yourself?
Behold the devil’s purpose:  To keep you entrapped, ensnared by your own doubt and temptation, which leads to feelings of unworthiness, casting your own self from my Kingdom and my purpose.  If you are FORGIVEN, then how are you UNWORTHY?  If I cleanse you, how are you yet unclean?”
“My child, my son, all is a lie and a deception.  Nothing can separate you from the love of God…”
“There is but one way, and only one who can separate you:  YOU.”
My sons,
You must make your own choices.  You must make your own choice about what to believe.  You may freely reject my Jesus; I know you’ve never seen Him do any of the things I say that He can and does.  BUT, you WILL NOT REJECT HIM WITHOUT CONSIDERING THE VARIABLES.  FULLY INFORMED CHOICE is actually redundant.  CHOICE is only CHOICE when it is fully-informed.  Otherwise you’re making a bet.  I don’t bet.  One time I did, with your Grandpa and look where it got me.
But, also LOOK WHERE IT’S TAKING ME.  OBSERVE ME.  God is changing me more every minute, and the goons all know about us who are growing in strength and glory.  Time is short.  Watch what Jesus is doing for me.  Then we’ll be on the same page and we will be a force to contend with.  Or not.  BUT, I will not go to HEAVEN wondering if I might have done more to WAKE YOU UP.  You’re both real good at running away from Truth.  He’s really scary but He is also THE WAY, THE TRUTH and THE LIGHT.  You WILL NEED THOSE THINGS.
(Isaac mouthed off at me today and I mouthed off too.   I said the fact that he turned me over to the enemy indicated that he can’t be trusted with sensitive things.   I told him he was a traitor to the revolution.  He sneered, “What revolution?”  He’s already out of the loop and he doesn’t even know it.)
(Also, I was a wounded warrior.  I needed to speak about the trauma in order to heal.  He denied me recovery for years, even before he betrayed me to the government.  He’s lucky they didn’t lop my head off; they’re getting situated for that.  What he did to me was very wrong on a number of levels.  WE must help the wounded, not finish them off.  Recovering Baptists know about this.)
5:16 pm
Video message from July 11, 2006
(That’s my parents’ anniversary.)
(It’s also the year I ran for Probate Judge and got them pissed at me.)
(My mom said, “So Jesus told you to run for office?  SHOW ME WHAT CHAPTER AND VERSE He Said that  IN THIS BIBLE.”)
  (People who have not learned to hear from God are  gonna be in trouble pretty quick…)
(It occurs to me that it is quite convenient for the luciferian psychopathic human-herders, if the Bible records ‘Jesus’ telling his disciples to KILL PEOPLE.)  
They WILL remove ‘Christians’ heads.  
They will even make people believe they’re DOING GOOD by killing CHRISTIANS.
Christians are dangerous, right?

THE LORD SAYS… Resist the Devil & Embrace My Commands 

4:57 pm
I red the book of Luke a lot of times.
The red letter edition has Jesus’ words in red ink.
I don’t remember Jesus ever saying this:

Luke 19:27

King James Version (KJV)

“But those mine enemies, which would not that I should reign over them, bring hither, and slay them before me.”

(He didn’t even expect to ‘reign’ the first time He showed up.)

(There’s one nice thing about being a Baptist:

they won’t get disappointed when the Bible is different because they never believed it in the first place.  Those of us who have loved Jesus all along will hear His voice…same as always.  “Thank you, Jesus.”) 

(Unless the change is prophetic…lots of people ARE going to die.)

(He is supposed to have said to kill His enemies just days before He was taken before Pilate and did not open His mouth to defend Himself?  Yeah, right.)

SATAN is Rewriting the BIBLE to usher in The Anti-Christ!!!

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I have nearly another square foot of clovers.  I think I might like to frame them side by side in a single presentation, all three pages.  I’ll label it ‘Luck by the Yard.”  I could find some bright fabric or some cord to dress it up.

DEA To Reclassify Marijuana, Effectively Legalizing Medical Use Nationwide Aug 1, 2016


Germany Slams NATO

“Warmongering” Against Russia !

Dr. Paul Craig Roberts: EU Was A CIA Creation To Trigger War With Russia

Boulder is the hollywood of consciousness>
3:44 pm
I washed the rest of the dishes; somebody had started them.  And I cleaned the chip-board countertop with bleach.  Then I washed up myself in the lake and soaked in the hot tub.  
Then I picked 2 more four-leaf clovers.
2:28 pm
I picked 8 more four-leaf clovers.
I lay down on the grass on my stomach to get some sun  on the back of my slender, beautiful legs…and I KEPT RIGHT ON FINDING CLOVERS.

World War III: US and RUSSIAN fighter jets in dramatic showdown over Syria scrambling as Putin bombs Pentagon backed Syrian rebels!

That’s the ‘prince’.
Every psychopath fears the bigger psychopath.
Except Rothschild.
He fears Jesus  instead.
(And a lot of the rest of us are too dumb to even recognize a psychopath at all.)  (Or Jesus!)
Evelyn De Rothschild and Prince Charles

Pulse FAKE Shooting:

Citizen Calls


Fake Victim Angel Colon At Hospital

RARE celestial convergence, last one took place in 1948 (Israel regathered) happening TOMORROW!

12:21 pm
I picked 21 more clovers.
11:23 am
I picked one six-leaf clover
I had to pee.
I’m going back out.
10:52 am
I picked 1 clover.
I forgot my clover bag so I came back in to get it.
“Anybody who tries to run for office who believes the Bible will be considered a lunatic.”
(The ‘CHURCH’ even thinks that way!)  
(It took near-filicide
for me to learn that people
list the church-slash-whorehouse
on their 1040-schedule..



“Are you a targeted individual? Take Faith, Jesus Christ was too! He was gang stalked, and ultimately put to death, only to rise again on the third day. Because He Lives, We as Christians, Children of the Most High God, can face tomorrow. Because He Lives, All Fear Is Gone, In Jesus Name! I know I can endure and do all things through Him who strengthens me (Philippians 4:11-13).”




10:32 am



(HEY.  Make sure you reed the part about how the powers that wannabe ‘KNOW’ that mystical powers are real.)

10:22 am

The covert war against psychics and prayer people

“From the moment ruling powers discovered psychic/magical/mystical powers were real it became a priority to corner the market.”


All people with such powers were to be identified, recruited, or if not recruitable, disabled and/or destroyed.


People with evil orientations were little problem. Without morality, serving evil and happy for the opportunity to have a license to cause harm without repercussions, they could easily be bought.

The problems were the good psychics, the committed enemies of evil,  and prayer people, not psychics at all but channels of Divine Will.

Their loyalties lay with good and the powers of good. 


(HEY.  Make sure you reed the part about how the powers that wannabe ‘KNOW’ that mystical powers are real.)


10:08 am

My clovers serve as a double-entry accounting system of my veracity.  Cool. I record the number two different places, each time I update one of the posters with my most recent harvest.  My words are interspersed with verifiable events that are recorded elsewhere and covered with my fingerprints!  God is good.

“Utterly complete vindication” is what He promised me.

10:01 am

My dad keeps driving by.  I know what I’ll say if he stops:  
 I don’t have to talk to him ever again unless God says to.
I picked three more four-leaf clovers and made sandwiches for the successful one and his grandpa, who stopped by.  They’re going fishing but my sons didn’t want to go.  They’ve both been sick and are still coughing and not yet restless enough.  My fingerprints are all over my clover-posters.  I use a lot of tape.  I should maybe treat my clovers  with more respect, and press them neatly in a book and mount them on cards…but I wouldn’t have time to do anything else!  Scotch tape is the only way.  And it takes your fingerprints.


–9:08 am


“The worst form of abuse and criminality is from those who are empowered and paid to uphold the laws, the rights of the innocent, and due process.  The lies, betrayal and abuse by those in this system carrying out these crimes is inexcusable.  The truth is the truth!”


Are Judges and Lawyers Around the Country Finally Realizing It’s Game Over? 

Good question.  Also, a good idea.
–I was personally betrayed by a federal magistrate.  She’s one of the few women who betrayed me who is not dead.  It’s extraordinary how they just drop dead all over the place!


8:27 am

I picked four four-leaf clovers.
George mowed the grass yesterday; it was knee-high with clovers a’plenty.  Then Isaac mowed it again!  (I think they might have been wondering if I could still pick clovers.)
I’m guessing that as the artist formerly known as my dad watches my
CREDIBILITY  and GOOD WILL SINKING  INto minds he has manipulated…he’s probably buying his minions some really nice presents.  I wonder what David got?  He always gets the best presents because he’s a man.  Or I used to think so anyway.
(I know this guy so well!  
They say, you never know a person as well as when you have



7:13 am

The Ghost of Fathers’ Days past:
“To go a step further, the narcissist demonstrates complete control whenever there are witnesses present or they are out in public.”
“BUT, when they know nobody is watching they will try to get away with anything they can to satisfy those many needs.”
“They will also [attempt to] destroy the integrity of anybody who tries to expose the truth about them, with horrendous lies.”
“A narcissist does what he/she wants without a single care or concern.”
“They are also able to practice control to PROTECT themselves from exposure because they 
ARE AWARE of what they do.”
“So, using, hurting and  abusing people isn’t something a narcissist does by accident–it is how they live.  It sounds more like the definition of a stealth predator.”
See more clearly at:

6:33 am

I love this color but I can’t turn off italics.

Or double-space but I can NEVER do that so I just roll with it.

I saw a truck this color.  It was really nice.

Jewish mentality: Rabbi calls for jewish terrorists to poison Palestine’s water

The Palestine Liberation Organisation (PLO) has denounced a Jewish rabbi’s permission for settlers to poison water sources in Palestinian areas in the occupied West Bank as “an order to kill”.

Jewish Settlers (Terrorists) in East Jerusalem Execute 3 School Children

“This incredibly shocking and painful-to-watch video in the Jewish colony of Pisgat Ze’ev in annexed and occupied East ‪#‎Jerusalem‬ is being shared on Israeli social media…”

Narcissistic Mother | How to Confront Gossip

“A Narcissistic Mother’s smear campaign often causes depression and anxiety in the scapegoated child. This is because the scapegoat doesn’t know the REAL reason why life seems so sad. This video is another example of how a Covert Narcissistic Mother spreads slander and gossip and then plays innocent when her story gets questioned.”

Unbelievable!! 😢 😢


Deja. Vu.


Oh my gawd!!!!!! Even if I didn’t know what your channel was about, I’d know your mother was lying from the beginning. Your questions were pretty clear and concise, yet she wanted to play Scheherazade and keep spinning tales. And some old classmate of yours would come and tell her you were selling drugs, because they were worried about her? Seriously? Oh my gawd!!!!!

Scapegoated Daughter 

I know right! It’s such a pathetic cover story. It’s hard to believe she was able to keep me on the defensive so easily. I feel so much smarter now. Thank you..and everybody else!!


Psalm 27:9-10

Rejection (Lack of Parental Love)

“You’re WORTHY!”
Published on Jun 22, 2013

When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up. (Psalms 27:10 KJV) 

Top NSA Officials’ Reaction To 9/11: “9/11 Is a Gift To The NSA. We’re Going To Get All Of The Money We Need, And Then Some” … “We’ll Milk This Cow For 15 Years”

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Ron Paul blasts secret government running economy… Keep an eye on the shadow banking system – it is about to be shaken to the core. According to the Financial Stability Board, the size of the global shadow banking system has reached an astounding 75 trillion dollars.

Apparently this is ‘sport’?
And we humans don’t even see the depravity.
God forgive us for how we get our jollies.




7:07 pm

We choose… GOD & SANCTITY or Ourself & Mediocrity – Message from June 18th, 2016

“These times we are in right now are the most intense, because they are leading up to THE DESTRUCTION OF THE WORLD SYSTEM as we know it.”
I saw my parents today.  They were in a car; I saw my dad in a car one other time but it was the first time I’ve seen my mom since January 11 when they came to watch me be abducted.  I was turning left and they were turning right and it was the exact spot where I used to meet my dad and I’d wave my arm loose trying to see him wave back.  Today my mom waved; they both looked right at me.  Mom waved; she looked like she was trying to shake a booger off her finger.  I didn’t even nod.  I have ZILCHO respect for either of the hypocrites who spawned me.  Nada.  6 months.  7 years and six months.  They’ve refused to talk to me.  They are also wienies.
I came home and took a soak outside. The tub was very hot and the wind was wild and cold.  I feel good now.  I picked a lot of clovers today and my joints are stiff anyway so I was very sore.  I guess I haven’t been off the meds as long as I thought, probably less than two weeks since I took the last pill.  I started weaning myself off when Isaac left for Montreal; I guess I took about a month.  It sure is nice to be able to complete my sentences.  Also, I don’t miss the tremor.  My hands shook so bad!  Even my mouth and my tongue would shake. Horrible.  That stuff is very nasty.  And they give it to POLITICAL PRISONERS and Disciples of Jesus.  In America.  Back in 2009 when my dad was first trying to lock me up my mom said I was CRAZY because… I was REBELLIOUS TO GOVERNMENT.  U  betcher ass.  SO VERY MUCH MORE NOW that government’s offenses are so well documented.  I LOVE vindication.  I don’t give a rip what ANYBODY THINKS OF ME NOW.  I recorded everything!  EVERY SMIDGEON is documented…right down to the ‘soft-kill’ intent of my psychopath father.  I haven’t much evidence of the times my life was threatened in a more acute manner.  BUT I WILL.  Amen.
I thought my dad would be arrested long before now.  

4:09 pm

I picked 3 more four-leaf clovers.

3:08 pm

I took a nice ride and prayed.

Then I picked 26 more four-leaf clovers.

12:30 pm

I made zucchini bread for George.

I picked 8 more four-leaf clovers.

I’m feeling kind of resentful after reeding some old entries.  It’s been a LONG time that my sons have rejected Truth and I’m feeling resentful about them locking me up and that I had to take those poison medicines that made me lose my memory and stammer and shuffle and gain a lot of weight.  I’m still achy.  I thought it would be out of my system by now.  I shouldn’t feel resentful because I gave my life to God and obviously that’s what He did with it.  So I’m going to go for a ride to pray.

I don’t want my bad attitude to mess with my sons’ spiritual growth.  So I’m counting on Jesus to love me back into confidence and joy.  Good thing I’ve got a full tank.

11:40 am

I picked three more four-leaf clovers.

10:12 am

Bump to the top, from January 2013

God is in control and his schedule is the best.  I believe that sometimes.  They want me to leave and I’m trying.  God says I won’t have to leave, though.  He’s said a lot of things I struggle to believe.  I gave away my life.  I shouldn’t bitch that I have none. 
I’m feeling sorry for myself.  I was the VICTIM and I must leave my home.  I don’t have any idea what I could do or where I could go.  George is the one who punches walls out when required to consider that Josh has problems, but I’ve got to go.  Jesus set this up.  I have no resources and not much nerve to carry out a plan if I even had one.  
“Lord, I’ve felt myself at the end of myself so many times!  I have nothing and nobody.  Only you.  You have a plan for my life and I reject self-pity in your name and by the power of your blood and your sinless, perfect life and mind, body and spirit.  I was abused so thoroughly by so many people that I don’t have any confidence.  It hurts when Isaac tries to find me somewhere to go.  It hurts that they want me gone.  It hurts that they don’t believe you’re God, but truthfully, what evidence do they have?  I’m the only one who still believes in this house and I have nothing to show for it.  I do not no another person holding out for the Glorious Church and the new things you’re doing in this time.  Not one soul to speak to.  How can I get a job?  How can I even get to an interview?  How can I do anything except take care of men who sleep all day.  Josh slept until 2 yesterday.  1:30 today.  George thinks that’s OK.”
“Lord I have to lick this self-pity!  I’m so lonely!  I know your word says you’ll restore everything taken from us.  From me.  I lost every single person I cared about.  I lost my home and reputation.  I lost my financial support and all of my worldly goods, pretty much.  I lost my satisfaction with two very fine boys, raised by me.  They’re troubled and the only cause they see is me.  They think me evil.  All I ever did was obey you.  I did a favor for a stranger.  You put all this on me, and you say I”ll get everything back, and then some, and then a whole lot more.  I’m choosing to believe this, but right now it’s only mental ascension.  I do not feel in my heart, what I felt last night.  Last night I was jubilant, thinking how any moment you could change my life.  You could demonstrate the truth of my victimization.  You could restore friendships, and respect.  You could make me rich or beautiful or clever.  I thought, even this morning, that you would and might do such things right away.  Now I feel sorry for myself again, and terribly pointless.”
“I do choose your way.  I do chose to stay down and allow you to raise me up, in your time.  I consciously choose to be content alone.  I consciously choose to disregard the lies and lack.  I am grateful for my astonishing good health.  I am grateful for my strength and fortitude.  I am grateful for all the visions and dreams you gave me in years past that have kept me going thus far.  I am grateful for the years I spent with sons who loved and trusted me.  I am grateful for the things I taught them before I was unable.  I am grateful for George.  I am grateful that he was always kind to them and to me.  I am grateful for the time I got to feel that this house was mine, and that my contributions to its maintenance were valuable.  I am grateful that George gives me money each paycheck.  I am grateful for your promises to me.  I am grateful that Isaac will not always feel that I”m the daughter he never wanted and that Josh will not always think me slovenly and untrue.  I am grateful that neither charge is warranted.  I am grateful that I quit smoking and drinking and smoking pot.  I am grateful that Isaac has projects.  I am grateful that former friends of mine still believe him to be valuable.  I am grateful that some day truth will be exposed and somebody will like me again.  I am grateful that you waste nothing, and you have invested a lot of time and energy into teaching me things that  (apparently) other people do not know.  I am grateful that some time my knowledge will matter.  I am grateful that I always sought YOUR WAY AND NOT MY OWN and there is at least one person who knows that for sure.  I am grateful that my words have proven prophetic.  I am grateful that false accusations only make my obedience more valuable.  I am grateful that you have enabled me to hear you many times.  I am grateful that your glory will soak into the land beneath my feet and people will thank you for my consistent weirdness.  I am grateful that people will praise your name because of things you’ve enabled me to do.  I am grateful that you are the vindicator, and the almighty judge, and the sentencing guidelines and the good shepherd and the great and good physician.  I am grateful that when I beg you to totally possess me with your Spirit, you would like nothing more.  I am grateful that your glory will be seen as you pour out your Spirit on all flesh!  I am grateful that I’ll get to see it.  I am grateful that you will heal my broken heart and soothe my pains and hold me and let me cry.  I am grateful that when you claim me as your own, finally, I will be at peace.  I am grateful that I am still alive.  I am grateful that you have enabled me to live with conflicting, psychotic disparities of reality, and that you will see me through.  I am grateful that I sleep.  I am grateful that you have taken away the band that was around my chest for so long.  I am grateful that you won, and Satan has no right to make me feel like I do.  I am grateful that soon I will be so confident of that fact that I won’t need to convince myself ever again.  I am grateful that after I feel this bad, you always make me very happy and give me amazing spiritual blessings.  I am grateful that I worship you and no other!  I am grateful that even when I don’t feel like it, you bring me around to reality, and I again, worship you!  I am grateful that if I can keep being grateful, you’ll draw me into the intimate place with you again, where I can feel valued and loved.  I am grateful that your love is the only thing I ever need.  I am grateful that I can remember that with my mind, even when I don’t feel that way.  I am grateful that you have taught me not to value my mind, over my spirit.  I am grateful that you will not ever let me go.  I am grateful that I WON!  I am grateful that Satan and the sons of perdition will never stop me from accomplishing and becoming exactly what you designed me to do and be!  I am grateful that even when I feel my heart breaking all over again, I know you can fix it all over again!  I am grateful that you are Lord of Lords and King of Kings and my only love and strength.  I am grateful that you are ever faithful and all powerful and did not ever once submit to the enemy!  I am grateful that by your grace, and through your blood, and because of your love, I WILL NEVER SUBMIT EITHER!  I am grateful that when I do not submit, others all around me benefit, whether they know and or believe it.  I am grateful that my obedience will yield tremendous dividends in the lives of those who know me.  I am grateful that my story will be told and that perpetrators of evil will be brought to divine justice!  I am grateful that you will restore the years the cankerworm has stolen!  I am grateful that Satan cannot steal from the omniscient creator!  I am grateful to know you!  I am grateful that you’ll draw me into your arms again!  I am grateful that you will heal my heart.  I am grateful that I allowed it to be broken, again and again.  I am grateful that you told me I would.  I am grateful that you told me you had a plan and I would not die from a broken heart.  I am grateful that you will use my life to touch many, many lives.  I am grateful that you will give me my heart’s desire!  I am grateful that you know my heart far better than I ever did myself!  I am grateful that you won’t ever require more than I can give.  I am grateful that you are the eternal giver, and that I depend on you for my sustenance.  I am grateful for the DONE TENSE!  I am grateful that you won!  I am grateful that Joshua is well and trusting and truthful!  I am grateful that you won on behalf of my entire family!  I am grateful that George has a friend!  I am grateful that he is not so dependent on me!  I am grateful that you provide for me.  I am grateful that the work and the battle were finished many years ago and my pain is only an illusory state!  I am grateful that your deliverance is absolute, final and accomplished!  I am grateful that I am seated with you in heavenly places, even when I don’t see them or you!  I am grateful that the haunting is a blessing, even thoughit hasn’t seemed that way.  I am grateful that you know what you’re doing and you’ve been driving this car all along!  I am grateful that when the smoke clears and I can see my way, you’ll already have positioned me perfectly to do all you ask and to praise you for your amazing plan!  I am grateful that your plan does not depend on me!  I am grateful that you are dependable!  I am grateful that you are truth!  I am grateful that I will not be alone!  I am grateful that there are others with whom you’ve dealt as deeply and strangely as you have with me.  I am grateful that we will swap stories forever and ever!  I am grateful that the increase of peace will never end!  I am grateful that the increase of your government will never end!  I am grateful that you will overtake all earthly government and establish your kingdom among the heathen, as you have with us.  I am grateful for justice and mercy.  I am grateful that I already have both!  I am grateful that my enemies are under my feet!  I am grateful that you will deal with them in righteousness and absolute truth, because I will not nor do I have to consider it!  I am grateful that as I rest, you will establish my future and the future of my sons and everything having to do with us.  I am grateful that you will provide a place for me, and something for me to do.  I am grateful that all these years haven’t been in vain.  I am grateful that you have perfectly prepared me for what is to come.  I am grateful that you are DONE and that you ARE ENJOYING WHAT IS UNFOLDING!  I am grateful that I’ve always asked to see difficult situations through your eyes and at least one human being knows that to be true.  I am grateful that love NEVER, EVER FAILS!  I am grateful that you are love and that by establishing myself in your continual presence means I will never, ever fail.  I am grateful that I won!  I am grateful that those who abused me will see you rise upon my behalf and they will fear.  I am grateful that I will not have to know anything at all.  I am grateful that you know everything.  I am grateful that my name is etched on the palm of your hand!  I am grateful that you will never, ever fail at what you set out to do!  I am grateful that I climbed onboard with you years ago.  I am grateful for the spirit who prays through me when I don’t have a clue what is going on!  I am grateful that I never need to know what is happening because you always do!  I am grateful for the promises you made me.  I am grateful for the fullness of time and that I will see you rise with healing in your wings.  I am grateful that you will satisfy me.  I am grateful that I’ve never been satisfied so I can really appreciate it when it comes.  I am grateful that there is no time with you and if I could just internalize that, I’m already satisfied.  I am so very satisfied with you, Lord.  I am so very grateful and appreciative that you took notice of me!  I am grateful for the fire you’re sending my way.  I am grateful for what you will accomplish in the lives around me and in my own.  I am grateful that you know that my interactions with my parents have been by dictation and geared toward their eternal best interests.  I am grateful that one day they will thank me for all that I did and said.  I am grateful that Joshua will respect me and Isaac will believe in your omnipotence!  I am grateful that your will is that everybody comes to know you and that you will do anything at all to see that they get the chance.  I am grateful that every single morning I give my life to you again.  I am grateful that I do not always take it personally when I am vilified.  I am grateful that my sense of discouragement is only a fleeting emotion, and not a representation of any truth at all.  I am grateful that when I feel better after tonight’s pity party, I will feel VERY MUCH BETTER!  I am grateful that even if I can’t get a job, or don’t know how to represent myself, or what kind of work I could do, or don’t believe I am worth a paycheck, or don’t have the confidence to even look…you have a place for me.  I am grateful that there is nothing I could do that would make me miss it.  I am grateful for that time I was giving George grief about not applying and Dave said he wouldn’t get an application in the mail and then you did!  I am grateful that you know what I require before I do.  I am grateful that you know how to provide the things I can’t even believe I could ever have.  I am grateful that you did not let me go through all that political stuff and learn so much without  planning a way for my knowledge to be of value.  I am grateful that you would not require so much love from a person without planning that that love be returned.  I am grateful that I do not have to trust in any human, but only in you.  I am grateful when you tell me where and whom to trust.  I am grateful that you tell me many things and that you will again.  I am grateful for the Kingdom and I am grateful that I have been longing for it for so many years!  I am grateful for the Glorious Church and I am grateful that I will have part in bringing it into the physical realm.  I am grateful for the great cloud of witnesses and that my preaching hasn’t been in vain.  I am grateful that I will be loved and valued.  I am grateful that I do not usually feel as lousy as I do tonight.  I am grateful that lousy is not your way.  I am grateful to come again feeling lousy in your name, and through your shed blood!  I am grateful that you will hide me away again and I won’t feel the pain.”
“I am grateful that you say I will not have to leave here even as I look for somewhere to go.  I am grateful that you have a plan for me.  I am grateful that you have enabled me to believe that through all the terrible things I had to do and say.  I am grateful when you touch me and show me amazing things.  I am grateful that I will live forever with you.  I am grateful to know that without you, living forever would be a terrible thing.  I am grateful that your glory will rest on me!  I am grateful to be birthing a new thing into the world!  I am grateful for all the times I felt bad and you lifted me up above the earth, above the scandals and violence, above the insanity and expectations, to the place where you and I are (almost) alone and I can hear you clearly and see things as you do!  I long to be alone with you!  You’ve not permitted that for a long time!  Please Jesus, let me be alone with you!  I am grateful that for whatever you have for me to do, I am perfectly prepared and abundantly anointed!  I am grateful that my destiny starts today.  I am grateful for done and for now.  I am grateful for now.  I am grateful to be in this gorgeous bedroom by myself with lots of merino wool and the peace of mind to actually imagine things.  I am grateful that I can imagine a very fine future, with pleasures and hard work, with divine relationships and connections.  I am grateful  that I’m not lazy.  I am grateful that I have learned to obey you.  I am grateful that I do not require my obedience to make sense.  I am grateful that I do not care what man may say about me or do to me.  I am grateful that not a hair on my head will be touched!  I am grateful that you are my protection and my high tower and my inheritance and my reward and my savior and my deliverer.  I am grateful that I will be blessed and that I have been blessed all along.  I am grateful that the very people who ridicule me and heap reproach on me for things you’ve required, will be the ones most affected by my ascent to your planned position.  I am grateful that many will believe in you when they see what you have prepared for me!  I am grateful that they will not see me, but your glory all over the place!  I am grateful that you enabled me to do so many things without taking them personally, and that you will perfect this characteristic   I am grateful that my life will give you glory!  I do so give you the glory!  Lord, Jesus, you’ve been there through so much crap!  You have loved me when nobody else did!  You recognize my contributions when others do not.  You loved me enough to trust me with a very hard life, so you can be seen upon the earth!  Forgive me for desiring to be vindicated for any reason except to demonstrate your glory!   I am grateful that I never went crazy!  I am grateful that at least one person knows this to be true!  I am grateful that his life will count for a lot.  I am grateful you used me to save his life.  I am grateful you enabled me to love him despite my own wounds.  I am grateful that love never fails.  I am grateful that your word ALWAYS accomplishes what you set it towards.  I am grateful to have spoken your word many, many times.  Thank you for the privilege of speaking your words!  Thank you for the privilege of knowing your heart on his behalf.  Thank you for loving the unlovable.  Thank you for all the miracles!  Thank you for my handwriting.  Thank you for divine enabling to do many things!  Thank you for ordering time so I can accomplish more than I can accomplish.”  
“Thank you that you have a home for me.  Thank you that you will see that I get there.  Thank you that you told me I don’t have to do it.  Thank you that “it” meant a lot of things.”

FBI Admits Forensics Unit Lied for Decades

The Justice Department and FBI have released a statement formally acknowledging that for over two decades, every examiner in an elite FBI forensic unit offered false testimony in almost every trial in which they offered evidence against criminal defendants.

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Mind Control: Nazi Technology controls Today’s Politicians

“One of the easiest ways to develop evidence which can be used for future blackmail is through arranging sexually compromising situations involving mind-controlled Manchurian Candidates.

Each targeted leader or potential leader is profiled by operatives in the mind control programs to discover what sexual type most attracts them.”

“Only when a politician or leader later makes an attempt to go against the agendas of those in control is he or she informed of compromising videos which could ruin their career. The elite usually gain quality blackmail evidence on key politicians long before they rise to high positions of power. Consider the 2001 case of Chandra Levy and Congressman Gary Condit as an example.”

“It is when we face our greatest challenges that we have the greatest opportunity for growth. Can we love even those who would consciously do us harm? Can we see the silver lining in even the darkest clouds”?

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9:30 am

I picked six  more four-leaf clovers.

7:30 am

No more Gangstalking down unda

“I’m NOT AFRAID anymore!”

“I’m NOT AFRAID anymore!”
“I’m NOT AFRAID anymore!”

An abused wife’s Bill of Rights

it’s not all that easy a thought to grasp. I—me, the one others lie to, lie about, abuse, yell at, curse out, hurt, ignore, blame—I have rights. Such a thought is shocking and utterly life changing.

When I was growing up, I believed that other people’s wants far outweighed my needs. Because I believed that, that broken-down, mixed-up, bad-to-the-core, false-as-could-be belief enabled others to wield power over me.

Abusers will tell you that you have no rights. They will treat you as if you have no rights. They will yell, stomp, scream, hit, threaten you, and ignore you. They will destroy what you love, lie about you, and give you the silent treatment in order to prove you have no rights.

Because we are precious in His sight, though man may abuse us, we have the right to stand up for ourselves because we do have rights, rights granted by God Himself, and nobody has the right to rob us of them.


In September of last year, Officer Brendan O’Brien killed himself a little more than a year after police say his wife, Irma Huerta-Lopez, also took her life. Although police have not revealed the reason why, immediately after O’Brien’s suicide, an internal affairs probe began looking into whether any current officers committed sexual misconduct with a minor.

Months after the probe was launched, it sent shockwaves through the department and eventually spread to other departments.

The public became aware of the investigation after an 18-year-old sex worker went public claiming to have had sex with dozens of cops in five cities while she worked as a prostitute. Several of these encounters happened when the teen, Celeste Guap, was legally a child.

“It appears to be a cesspool here,” local attorney, John Burris, responsible for a 2003 federal probe into the Oakland police department said. “But you gotta keep working at it to drain the swamps.”

As Oakland scrambles to hold on to what little shred of dignity they think they have left, the embarrassment continues to grow.

Read more here:

6:53 am

I went out to take a bike ride but the bike had a flat tire again.  That’s too bad because George just fixed it.

So, instead I picked 3 four-leaf clovers.

5:30 am

It must be clearly understood in this most critical and glorious hour that ALL those who truly love God are in the process of making a COMPLETE transition from walking in their “own” strength and understanding and the ways of the world [including the ways of a “worldly” {soulish} church] into the ways of the Kingdom – and the absolute truths and principles therein. One of the most frustrating things one can do is to try and walk in divine Love in their “own” strength – as it is impossible [futile].


Never has there been a more important time for one to be found “ready” – on EVERY front. There comes a time [season] wherein the “fullness of time” begins to overtake the one who has been faithful – and that season is here NOW for all those who truly love God.

As the first “domino” [aspect of the Father’s Will] begins to fall [in the midst of His “forerunners” throughout the remnant Church] it will then produce a “series of suddenlies” throughout the remnant Church [not the least of which will be Kingdom-finances] – and ALL things will come into “divine order”, supernaturally, in our midst [on both an individual and corporate level]. Because of these things, it is of the utmost importance for EVERY child of God to go wherever the Holy Spirit leads them in this hour – knowing that their obedience is best for not only themselves but, also, all those in their sphere of existence.

Being in the right spot at the right time with the right people means everything to all those who are truly seeking the fullness of their precious destiny, in Christ, in this hour – without exception!


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4:47 am

Good Daddy Jive
(Sometimes it‘s so embarrassing to be white.)
(But even so, they ‘dance’ better than I could.)
(Is that racist to imply that black people dance better?)
 (A Polish salsa queen in Belgium told me so.)



FROM 8/26, 2011


My folks just picked up my Younger to go to his cousin’s football game.  I’m astonished.  Yesterday I sent my mother  this:



Thanks for the peaches.  It’s funny that you brought them when you did; I was in the shower having a melt-down remembering more things from my childhood.  It’s also funny that the healthier I get the more angry I am with y’all.   Not only did you allow your little girl to be repeatedly molested, but I was expected to accept that it was OK to see my father with the baby sitter undressed. Nobody ever said anything…I was supposed to just forget that?   I watched you and [a woman] give each other backrubs and I’d cry because you never wanted to touch me.  I was expected to just move on, I guess.  I learned about sex from Dad’s pornography.  Some of the pictures I saw were pretty intense.  When I grew up, I believed that those things were just normal.  It affected a number of situations,  I can assure you.

I need more than peaches.  I was ignored for my entire life!  (Except the few occasions I was thin and looked OK.)    And  last year my father actually asked my husband (pointing out my additional inadequacies…) when was the last time I cooked him dinner?  I have cooked for my children a thousand times more than you did for yours.  I know, because I started cooking for your kids at 7.  And getting raped.  And watching things I should not have seen.  I need more than peaches…or even cars or houses.  I need no more denial.  You are not the perfect Christian people you hold yourselves out to be and attempt to shame me for not being.  Truth.

You allowed your little girl to be raped.  What does that make of your “Christianity”?  I’ve said this before.  I’ve documented it now.  Whatever happens to me, at least I’ll know that I tried to touch you.  All my life I’ve tried to squelch my discomfort.  I tried to squelch everything, isn’t that how it’s supposed to be?  I’m done.  I’m not gonna puke and have diarrhea anymore because I feel unworthy.  Jesus died for me too.  And he’s watched every moment of my life.  I stand on that and hope that you repent before it gets too far.  You are not my superiors in any arena.  (Except money.  Jesus told us what to think of money though, didn’t he?)  Just because you’re rich doesn’t mean you’re right about anybody else’s life.  You’ve never been right about mine.  Not ever once.  You chose to not know me.  You intentionally chose that.  I understand you had your own axes to grind but that shouldn’t have been the problem of a little girl.  It’s not mine now, either.

I am not threatening you with any intentional discord between you and my children.  I have NEVER done that.  I encouraged them to call you even when I could not personally have been paid enough to talk to you.  They are their own persons,  (whatever, grammar…) but I will not be here much longer bearing this burden that you have put on me repeatedly and continually since I was born.  I don’t want any relationship with liars.  Even those who’ve successfully lied to themselves.  Period.

Let’s make it simple.  I want Dad to apologize for calling me a murderer.  I can overlook the whole stuff with Dr.[I should put her entire name here and her license number and her address…]  (illegal, inappropriate, immoral…) and the cops (you believe the government is God, I get that…)  but your belief that I would murder a person, any person, not even one as fine as [my husband], has to be rectified.  It must.  I swear I’ll push wheelbarrows in dumb-fuck-nowhere before I can stay here in the face of that.  YOU DON’T KNOW ME.  If you want to keep it that way, OK.  Tell me.  I’ve borne shame that came from you for my whole life.  I puke it out, and it’s still there.  Do what you want.”

I thought I went too far, but my boy is at the football game.   I’m home alone for the first time in weeks.  No scheduled guests until tomorrow.  Life is good.


Yesterday I sent a copy of my email assaulting my parents to the guy.  (He hated my dad.)  Today I sent him this:


“I sent that terrible email to my parents yesterday and today they took [my Younger] to a football game.  I was really scared to send it.  I could never have done it if you hadn’t permitted me to bitch at you for so long. I sent them chunks (sans marijuana) of my book.  They put a new roof on the carport a couple weeks ago and replaced the deck that I fell through.  My dad washed the windows and mowed the grass.   Thank you.  It may have been quicker to this point if I actually knew you read anything.  Thank you, just the same.”

He couldn’t possibly know this, but my belief in him has made my semi-sanity possible.  When the spirits would get so overwhelming and my perception of self-value be so diminished that I considered any conceivable alternative to my existence, I would believe that the guy had valued me.  If someone as perceptive as he could (at one point, at least) believe I was worthwhile, then I must be so.  His love (whether real or imagined) saved me.  Isn’t that funny?


“Freedom is always illegal.”  (Larken Rose)

Larken Rose Government is Not my Boss


Breaking Free to Self-Love. From Risk Comes Freedom. Codependency Expert

“I changed the term ‘co-dependent’ to ‘self-love deficit disorder’.”

(Ross Rosenberg)
-“To overcome SLDD we have to discover why we never learned to love ourselves.”

The agony of watching my son die… on live TV: Marco Junior’s mother on the tawdry Big Brother antics that left her crying herself to sleep over her ‘lost’ child

  • By her own reckoning, Mati Conejero has had a combustible few years 
  • The estranged wife of celebrity chef Marco Pierre White has seen her acrimonious divorce put on ice 
  • She has fallen out with her sons Luciano, 22, and 21-year-old Marco Jnr
  • But the heartbreak of seeing heavily tattooed Marco Jnr cavorting on Big Brother has been a new a desperate low

“Marco Jnr was last week seen kissing and stripping off with 30-year-old redhead Laura Carter, taking a naked shower with her, before sucking her breast.The scenes sparked more than 600 complaints to broadcasting watchdog Ofcom, and left Mati crying herself to sleep over her ‘lost’ son. Humiliation has been heaped upon shame.”

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PICTURED: The moment Zara Holland breaks down on Love Island as she is stripped of her Miss Britain title after having sex on TV

‘We gave our permission for Zara to enter, as our current winner, under the stipulation that she did not have sex on TV. Zara fully agreed to this and knowingly went against our wishes.’

And, while there have been accusations of sexism in the strong action taken against Zara for her behaviour, Miss GB bosses insist this is not the case, stating they’re protecting their brand.

The statement continued: ‘Zara is a lovely girl, we understand that this is out of character for her and that she truly regrets her actions; however, the decision simply comes down to the fact that she has broken the rules of the competition.



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transfiguration doesn’t come upon us   it comes from within us
–The Church Commission was founded on my fifteenth birthday.
“I don’t want to live on this planet anymore.”
Sexually Victimized since the seventies
MRI is a simple technique where they broadcast radio waves into a persons atoms and subatomic particles, causing those particles to broadcast radio waves to receiving antenna. This technique is used from space satellites and over the horizon radar to warrantlessly spy on Americans in their homes. As such the government obtains plenty of videos of us fucking and masturbating, and this is what we look like when the MRI through the wall scan is done:
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New Intel CPUs Have NSA Exploitable Secret Hidden Backdoor

New Intel CPUs come with a hidden backdoor that can allow hackers or the NSA to control your computer remotely even while PC is turned off.

(I hardly think that’s new.)

Vatican offers ‘time off purgatory’ to followers of Pope Francis tweets

“Papal court handling pardons for sins says contrite Catholics may win ‘indulgences’ by following World Youth Day on Twitter”

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Patrick Henry
The Ground-Wave Emergency 
Network (GWEN) System

“Between 1980 and 1984 I was in England, and I got to see some illustrations of how some of this technology actually works. During this period, there were a lot of protests, sit-ins and demonstrations by Greenpeace and many other groups against the deployment of Cruise missiles, especially at Greenham Common, which was south of where I was located. In 1983 and 1984 there was a very large presence of military police at the base when the Cruise missiles arrived. Around mid-1984 this presence diminished considerably, and some of the protesters who were outside the base started claiming that they were being irradiated from the base because of physical problems they were unable to link to any other source. This was reported in Electronics Today magazine in 1985. The symptoms ranged from skin burns to headaches, drowsiness, menstrual bleeding at abnormal times, bouts of temporary paralysis, faulty speech coordination, and in one case circulatory failure severe enough to require hospitalization. Such a complex series of symptoms fits well with severe EM field exposure. The Ministry Of Defence (MOD) denied that any harmful electromagnetic signal was being used against the women, but did not deny that an electromagnetic signal may be in use which, if below lOmW/cm2, would not, under UK guidelines, be officially acknowledged as harmful. In other words, they lied.”

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BUMP TO THE TOP, from June, 2015:

(Another thing I’d really like to know is how I find so many four-leaf clovers.  Are they everywhere and the NSA just digitizes the ground I’m looking at and then focuses me in on one?  Or does God sprout them just for me? That one morning when I found thirty in fifteen minutes I was almost certain he was creating them right in front of my eyes.  I’d like to know about that.  I’d like to know if the cyber-stalkers can see when I scrape a smashed bug from my computer screen if the camera’s not on, or do they only watch my keystrokes and curser?  They can tell what I type by the sounds of the keys and they can tell if it‘s me a number of ways.  I’d like to see what they see and meet those others who could not be brain-washed.  I suppose it‘s inevitable that I do…we’ll be the only ones left!)

“By simply adding on the desired modulation patterns, the Soviets can now pump material directly into the mind-brain-consciousness-life loops of the entrained brains.  The weapon implications are enormous:  raw emotion such as sheer terror or panic can be transmitted; death or disease patterns of all kinds can be transmitted; informational content (thoughts and ideas) can be impressed directly into the captured brains and minds and processed as if originating inside each brain itself.  Indeed, as long as the Soviets keep the effects rather gentle, an entire population can be subtly influenced without governmental notice.  Certain specific ELF frequencies can rapidly disable or even kill, and for wartime use those frequencies can be directly implanted in the captured brains themselves by the woodpecker signals.  It appears that 1984 came a little early, and one can perhaps now understand Brezhnev’s strange 1975 proposal to the SALT negotiations that we should also consider outlawing the development of new weapons more frightful than the mind of man has ever conceived.”  (Lt Col Tom Bearden) 


5:58 pm

I picked a nice large 4-leaf clover and taped it to an envelope for a lady who brought me some rhubarb.  I also bought a couple lottery tickets and put them in the envelope.  She plays the lottery all the time.  It’s really nice that the mayor’s store is open again; I can bring food to people again.  Day before yesterday I brought molten chocolate cake and ice cream to the guy who helped me set up the website three years ago.  I told him then, that he would see a miracle.  I don’t think he’s seen one yet.  I’m glad he’s back in the neighborhood.  He’s a great cashier and also a very good motorbike rider.

5:55 pm

So what is the real goal of watch-listing innocent Americans you might ask?

There are several:

1) To sabotage the lives of individuals who are considered to be “subversive.”
2) To gradually increase Deep State control over all segments of society.
3) To generate revenue for private security companies.

Because the contractors operate within the shadows in a covert fashion, watch-listed individuals (a.k.a. – Targeted Individuals) often have no recourse, especially since their names also reside on Regional Data Fusion Center networks, which are accessed by local and state police.

“The sentiment within the Deep State is that domestic terrorists should be eliminated via any gradual and untraceable means necessary.”


I went to Manistique to get some Tinactin for Isaac.  Before I went I took a kayak ride and washed up in the lake.  I have beef and peppers on the stove.  It‘ll be nice thick gravy in a couple hours and it‘s very spicy.  I usually serve rice with it but today I’m going to bake some potatoes I think.

Narcissism Why do Narc Mothers hate their Daughters?

“I’ve seen this pretty clearly.”

The garden was finally tilled a few days ago; the guy was over two weeks late.  George is mowing grass instead of addressing the garden.  Again.  The neighbor has an old plow truck for sale and I know he takes really good care of things.  I suggested to George that this might be a good purchase since we could do our own plowing and also my sons or I could maybe occasionally pick up twenty dollars plowing somebody else.  George bought two jump-ropes yesterday.  There is not much more room for exercise equipment and empty boxes.  I stay in my bedroom all the time. When I’m not picking clovers or doing dishes anyway.  George heard I picked 35 clovers this morning and got impressed.  After twenty-five years of trying I finally learned how.  When we were first targeted (to my knowledge) I begged him to move away so we could start over.  He said no.  I guess that’s obvious.


I don’t think Isaac recognizes what he did.  When he turned me over to the government, he committed treason against the revolution.  He can’t be trusted.

Not only that, the person he turned over to the government…was his own mom.

I don’t think also he understands that his grandpa paid the devil for the wee bairn’s soul and attempted to collect.  I am/have been the only thing between impressionable youth and the deep, dark sea of narcissistic self-deception.  Grandpa wants him.  (Or at least he did.  Maybe by now the old man recognizes what I told him repeatedly:  “ISAAC IS NOT EVER GONNA BE A ‘JUNIOR EXECUTIVE'”.  I do not say that from any sense or expectation of control; if Isaac believes that allowing Grandpa to control his life is his destiny, then I’m out of the way.)

  (But.  It isn’t.)

I bet he dreams about grandpa like I used to do.   Soon he will recognize that if he is uncomfortable here it is not because of anything I might do.  His discomfort is because our family and its life-progression has been snagged by a psychopath and it is the son, not the mother, who is expected to leave the marital home.  It‘s even in the Bible.  My dad messed with us a whole lot of ways and I’m sure there are many I am not smart enough to yet understand.  But I learn every day don’t I?  Loving adults can share a house.  They can even disagree and still behave as loving adults.  In my father’s home only one person’s opinion ever mattered.  I’m so very glad not to be my mother.


11:20 am

I picked 9 more clovers.

10:36 am

I picked 8 more 4-leaf clovers.

10:07 am


9:38 am

(Both true prophets and false prophets are being raised up.)
“Humility and the meekness of Jesus characterizes David’s lifestyle in person, while walking in an uncommon boldness and authority when serving the Lord.”

“Standing in front of me was the man I’d heard about as a little boy my entire life.  I had heard about this man from my father and mother, and was taught that He died on the cross for my sins and rose again on the third day from the dead.  He still was not truly real to me, only a religious opinion.  He was just someone my parents told me about because of their religious beliefs.  Then, out of nowhere, there He was standing in front of me, face-to-face.  As He stood in front of me, His very presence exuded and emanated such gentleness; a pureness and kindness beyond this world.  It was ecstasy!  For the first time, I was standing in front of Jesus.  My whole being felt Him.  You can imagine the ecstasy I felt.  It was a feeling of intense glory!  It’s like wherever He stands… He fills the very atmosphere, air and molecules all around you.  Even the atoms inside your very body and being respond to Him. It was total ecstasy, indescribable, blistering with ecstatic eruption! My whole being felt like it was caught up into Heaven. The very atoms in my body made me feel like I was about to explode! Currents of  electricity went through me!”

He Was All Glorious And Powerful
“Standing in front of me was an awesome man, handsome and perfect in stature. He was just a little taller than me about 6 feet or more, the perfect height of a normal man.   As I gazed upon Him I saw that the color of His hair was sandy-brownish and parted at the top, coming over the sides of His face, down His shoulders in waves. The natural words of my vocabulary fail to describe how awesome He was then and how He is presently today!”


I do not believe that God wants us to become discouraged by always looking at the negative things that are going on in this country in an unbalanced way. I believe that the Lord wants us to also look and find the good things that He has done with this country in a godly healthy perspective. The scripture confirms this in Philippians 4:8 that God wants our minds to think on the good report of things and not the negative. 

“Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.” Phillippians 4:8

The Good Report about America

These are just some of the few things that God has used
America to do throughout history.

Multitudes of missionaries have come out of this country and 
1. have been sent all around the world. 
America has provided for many immigrants, a place of freedom 
2. and refuge from famine, disease, hunger, war, starvation and a place of safety from the abuse of dictatorship.
America has provided a place where the nations of the world 
3. can see their dreams come alive by being able to pursue them through the liberty that reigns in this land. 
God has raised America to prominence, riches and wealth.
4.    The goodness of God shows throughout this whole country in 5.
5.     that we have been so blessed as compared to other third world countries.
We were the first country to allow such a freedom and liberty with 
6. justice for all.
Most of all God has provided a land where by we can be free with 
7. liberty to serve and worship Him alone.

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LOL: Pastor Fails Miserably When Interviewed By Court About How He Spends The Ministry’s Funds! Must Watch, It’s Unbelievable!

9:09 am


I drank coffee and swatted mosquitoes.

8:32 am

I’m getting jerked around, I know, but how?  I really need to know.  Is this Mandela come to call?  Who is creating this reality that I need only believe in order to attain?  It’s pretty cool.  Is it anti-matrix?  I gotta know.
I would not be appreciating this nearly as much if I had not been tortured and therefore familiarized (a bit) with TORTURE capabilities.  I have a zillion questions.
The second-highest vibration is (supposedly) gratitude.
The highest is love.
We should vibrate together.
Or at least in harmony.
All of this matrix will burn so we must transcend
and that requires conscious choice.
And they’re removing our consciousness
at night while we sleep
in REM mode.
(I can’t imagine what I’m saying wrong.  
It’s hard to reed my own words
and know that others reed them
without alarm.)  
I need a LOT MORE anointing of HOLY GHOST.
Time is running out. “Time is running backward [even] and SO IS THE BRIDE.”  (Dylan)
Cloud-based counseling.  I’m loving the new age.  I’m hearing what I need to know just in time to address the next revelation of my history and its reverberations.  I’m changing the frequency but I have to listen to each note separately.  I don’t hyper ventilate. Everybody condemned me and nobody would help me but the ‘great cloud of witnesses’ stepped in.  I don’t blame the cyborgs for wanting a hive-mind.  You’re never lonely with imaginary friends.  Also, you’re never as stupid as you would be alone.  I can’t wait to be perfect because then I’ll have to consider a lot of things.
Robin Williams said that he used to think the worst thing was being alone.  But then he said the worst thing actually was being with people who made you feel alone.  He wasn’t quite right:  The very worst thing is being around people who make you wish you were alone!

8:06 am

“If you’re doing a reshoot it’s no longer improvisation.”  (Random)
Man, have I known some pitiful pansy-ass men.  My dad set me up for that and I’ll bless him forever because it made me a good woman.  Throw me a scrap and I’ll roll over.  Oh, my dad was a very bad man on that other timeline.  He was a TERRIBLE man and so was his brother.  THEY BOTH ARE MISOGONYSTIC control-freaks who sacrifice their own children on the alter of self-validation.  The boys go up in a cloud of frustrated rhinestone dust and the girls eat themselves from the inside out.
I supported that perversity with my own sweat and backside and I do repent.  I took the brunt of everything therefore I ENABLED THEIR VILE JUDGMENT.  When my sister became pregnant at sixteen and my parents were doing Brazil for the winter…I learned about her pregnancy through a ventilation grate between my ear and her confession to our brother.  I was twenty-two.  She said:  “AND NOW I’M PREGNANT…JUST LIKE LINDA WANTED.”  
My entire frigging family cursed me every single day!  I was a GREAT SLAVE and I could even cook!  I LOVE TRUTH!!
How’s this Apocalypse going for the rest of y’all?
I DO love you and I heartily appreciate you hanging in here with me for so long.  I’m going to throw the biggest party and we’ll laugh a lot.  
Thank you for all of this.  
Linda, the Random

7:39 am

‘Terrible Tim’ Rifat Taken By 
Put In Mental Hospital 
I have received word from Tim’s associate who was told by Tim’s family that he was taken from his residence just before his scheduled appearance on our program of Tuesday, 6-14-16.

I was informed he was taken to a MENTAL HOSPITAL and is being held as someone who is ‘mentally ill’.  I have no idea what kind of treatment is being forced on him or what his near-term status is.

“He has a remarkably accurate view of the world and many of his forecasts have been spot-on…”
“There are also many who don’t care for his views and opinions …and that’s fine…”

The War on Stupid People

American society increasingly mistakes intelligence for human worth.

People who’d swerve off a cliff rather than use a pejorative for race, religion, physical appearance, or disability are all too happy to drop the s‑bomb: Indeed, degrading others for being “stupid” has become nearly automatic in all forms of disagreement.
Other analyses suggest that each IQ point is worth hundreds of dollars in annual income—surely a painful formula for the 80 million Americans with an IQ of 90 or below.

Cannabidiol (CBD): The Cat’s Out of the Bag with This Cure-All

Cannabinoids aren’t just found in the cannabis plant. They’re also found somewhere closer to home: you! That’s right: the human body itself has an entire system which utilizes cannabinoids. It is known as the endocannabinoid system (“endo” is from a Greek word meaning “within”). In this way, we can distinguish among endocannabinoids (those produced by the human body), phytocannabinoids (those produced by the cannabis plant) and synthetic cannabinoids (the approximately 17 synthetic versions produced by the pharmaceutical cartel). Synthetic cannabinoids, by the way, are Big Pharma’s way of trying to pirate and cash in on Nature by modifying or isolating a natural chemical or compound, making it slightly different to its natural state, getting a patent, then marketing it as a drug with a governmentally enforced monopoly. Some synthetic cannabinoids (such as K2, spice, marinol, etc.) have been taken off the market due to their dangerous nature, but after all, they are part of the Big Pharma business plan, and the greater New World Order synthetic agenda, so what do you expect?

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Just think of all the things proven true in the past five years!  No wonder people are going to drop dead for fear.  If they haven’t been keeping up I suspect their gray matter may not be even physically able to receive all the new facts.  I know that if I had not spent years studying weirdness, this present weirdness would be very unsettling.  Not much of what we’ve been taught had any basis at all in Truth.  

If the foundations be destroyed, what can the righteous do?  (Psalm 11:3)

Pope Francis says Catholic marriages are invalid

Who the hell is this demon?  
Is his ‘church’ so powerless that they can’t even do one of their own sacraments right?
‘I know, let’s blame it on the flock!’
“Then, if they give us more money we’ll tell them a DIFFERENT FORMULA…  We’ll tell them it’s the RIGHT ONE this time…”
(“And also, with all our SHEEP  living in FAILED CATHOLIC UNIONS they won’t be able to point fingers at us ‘priests’ who are too ‘holy’ for marriage and so  instead we RAPE ALTAR BOYS.“)

Luis “HODOR” Burbano in “Shooting Up” by Spirit Of Orlando – Orlando Pulse Shooting Hoax

I don’t know why anybody goes to the movies anymore.
Real life is become more incredible.
God said I would laugh like a child.  At the time it was hard to believe but I forced myself.  I am now convinced that my observations about ‘stories’ were spot-on.  I’m loving stories.  Also, I’m laughing pretty hard.
The Saga of Adam Driver
From Marine Grunt To Star Wars Villain: A Conversation With Adam Driver

War wasn’t in the cards for Lance Cpl. Driver. So he made his way to The Juilliard School in New York City to study drama. Meanwhile, the Marines he had spent the last few years training with deployed to Iraq. But they stayed in touch

“They were like, ‘Wait, what the fuck are you doing? Wearing pajamas and dancing all day?’” Driver recalled in an interview with Task & Purpose. “And I’m like, ‘Uh, yeah, but it’s the foxtrot.’”

Driver quickly established himself as a heavyweight in New York’s hipster-oriented acting scene, mastering the persona of the brooding anti-hero who understands poetry, but can still kick your ass in a fistfight. It’s hard to imagine anyone else playing Kylo Ren.

 “Everyone kept telling me that theater really didn’t fit the military demographic. So, really, more than anything, anger spurred this nonprofit. “

What are you hoping the service members in the audience are getting out of these performances?

I can only speak for myself and what people have said to us afterwards, like, “I’ve never gone to see a play,” or “plays are too expensive,” or “I didn’t know theater was like this.” Our material isn’t military-themed. We stay away from that to really highlight the human struggles we all share…

And also, the way that we do it, how it’s very pared down — not sets, no costumes, no lights, just reading the material — shows the military audience that there doesn’t need to be this huge artifice. There doesn’t need to be a theater. They can do it anywhere.


And then there are people who approach us afterwards and are like, “I never thought, being from where I’m from, that this is something I’d ever be exposed to.”

Transitioning out of the military is a mindfuck anyways, so to go into a structured school setting was really helpful. To go from one intense, structured institution into another was a good transition for me. 

…I was used to talking to infantry Marines, where there’s a sort of shorthand and a roughness to communicating with each other. You’re also so jealous of civilians who didn’t decide to go to the military after high school. You always imagine them having a great time in college — you know, doing drugs and meeting girls and all of this stuff that you’re not doing in the military. I felt a sense of entitlement because I had gone through this thing and these nasty civilians were so lazy…

They’re just like some PFC or lance corporal they grabbed and were like, “Shave these fucking heads.” And one of them shaved a mole off someone’s head, and he started bleeding and screaming. So everyone in line starts subtly touching their heads to check to see if they had any stray moles they forgot about. And of course there’s some drill instructor yelling, “Don’t touch your fucking heads!”

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They wanna give a PURPLE HEART to a guy for going out to a gay club in Florida!

He wasn’t killed in selfless battle…he was killed in the pursuit of happiness.

Why The Soldier Killed In Orlando Could Receive A Purple Heart

“The fact that Brown was off duty and out of uniform may still factor into the Army’s decision to award him a Purple Heart, however. Regardless, the Army will likely not be able to rule on the issue until police investigations have ended.”
“If you’re doing a reshoot it’s no longer improvisation.”  (Random)


8:47 p m

Prepare For The End! It’s About To Get Ugly, And Here’s Why!!!

When the Lord turned again the captivity of Zion, we were like them that dream.

Then was our mouth filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing: then said they among the heathen, The Lord hath done great things for them.

The Lord hath done great things for us; whereof we are glad.  Psalm 126:1-3

Increasing numbers of highly credible and educated individuals, both in the US and globally, have been coming forward to report electronic harassment—physically measurable assaults on their bodies and brains with remote-controlled radiation weapons or directed-energy weapons, covertly-installed RFID and Bio-MEM implants, as well as COINTELPRO-style organized stalking and mobbing in their neighborhoods and communities.

Scientists have stepped in to validate these reports, including an Artificial Intelligence (AI) and Cybernetics expert, Dr. Robert Duncan, who reports working for the Department of Defense and the CIA on AI and neuroscience projects which seek to electronically stimulate and rewire human brains. He points to the CIA’s MKULTRA and Monarch Programming techniques which used LSD and torture to reprogram personalities as precursor to current-day covert brain experiments and classified-research field testing of weapons.

United States of PSYOPS: Call them paranoid; call them delusional

Do we want to tell the people Neuroweapons, Neurotechnologies, Directed-Energy Weapons, Nanotechnology and Artificial Intelligence Networks, Mind Cloning, and Mind Hiving are being tested by DARPA and the CIA, especially on activists, writers, whistleblowers, community leaders, and random, innocent people—but really, on every single citizen, on the whole mass of humanity–or do we want to protect the neuro-experimentation, the neuro-experimenters, and the controllers behind them?
There are psychologists and psychiatrists stepping forward to urge scrutiny of mental health diagnoses among those reporting non-consensual experimentation in light of all these patents, technologies, scientists, whistleblowers, evidence of experimentation. There are hundreds of testimonials online.
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They’re being irradiated.

They’re being lasered, masered, tasered.
They’re being talked to inside their heads.
They’re being electronically raped.
They’re being microwaved.
They’re being covertly implanted.
Their organs and nerves are being assaulted
with directed-energy weapons, Remote Neural Monitoring technologies,
Clandestine Tagging, Tracking, and Locating technologies.
They’re being surveilled, stalked, harassed, defamed, slandered in public.
They’re being tortured 24/7.
They’re being sleep-deprived.

They’re being physically, mentally, and psychologically abused.

George and I are going to Marquette.  I gave my sons some money to buy Fathers’ Day gifts and told them when Fathers’ Day is happening.  I was a good wife and I am a STELLAR ex-wife.  On Mothers’ Day George washed the dishes and put them away even the next day.  Now it’s just a month later and already SOMEBODY WASHED THE DISHES AGAIN!  I’m a princess. A homeless princess.  I love my room.  Isaac said it’s the best in the house.  I deserve this room.  I defended this house and this family but I’m not mowing anymore.  I took care of all the yard work and I took care of this house and these men called me crazy and locked me up.  I don’t mind long grass and I even removed some of the plastic solar yard-lights George had distributed around the lawns so I couldn’t look out any one of my THREE windows without seeing the ghostly glow-spots.  I really disliked the one that looks like sparks shooting out the top.
5:37 pm
We had Chinese lunch and got groceries and had a nice drive and drank ice tea and when we got home…ISAAC AND JOSH HAD CLEANED THE KITCHEN AND DONE THE DISHES!
Very nice day.
Everything’s poisoned.  All the food, even ‘unprocessed’ produce and all the grain products and the soybeans.  Holy shit, there is HUMAN DNA in fast food hamburgers about 95% of the time!  Why?  IS THERE ANY WAY FATHOMABLE THAT THIS COULD BE AN ACCIDENT?  ZIKA is Round-up.  Brazil is having a crisis in science as well as representation before men.  The Brazilian scientists were saying things rich people didn’t like.  Bless them.  Bless all principled scientists.  May they rest in peace.

The Greenscreen Queen Christine


Michigan Freemason State Police

Finlanders make the big-time

Dr Cornel West can we just say Occupation?

Off-Grid Tiny House Builder: SimBLISSity Tiny Homes

25.5 feet

Very nice.
George filled up my tank on the way home from shopping, and I didn’t have to wait for him at the sporting goods store.  It was a quick trip.  I can enjoy things now.  It took a couple years before I could go anywhere in public.  George and Josh and Isaac knew I was working on healing all that time and they knew I had been tremendously traumatized.  NOW, the recognize that I was an abused child in a number of enduring respects.  What they don’t want to know about is THE PART WHERE I WAS TORTURED IN THE MIDDLE THERE.  My story will be getting around and I tried to prepare them but they ran the other way from Truth.


Imagine my shock.
Multitudes, multitudes in the valley of decision: for the day of the Lord is near in the valley of decision.
OK, for a couple more minutes here (The prophet says ‘minutes’ all the time.  He means a very short period of time and it’s charming.) we may choose to exercise free will.  We may CHOOSE to do so but there is no guarantee that any among us will be able to pull it off.  We cannot even now know if our thoughts are our own and frankly, I think our brains are just receivers anyway.  I don’t think our minds originate a damn thing or the tree of the knowledge of good and evil wouldn’t have been such a fail.  It is our SPIRIT that must be permitted access to our MINDS and our HEARTS must inform our inclusion of any proffered raw material.

The Dude Drops Orlando Shooting Hoax Truth Bomb LIVE on TV!

I had to post this again.  What a man.

“Never in all my years of researching, studying & making & uploading Youtube videos about these shooting hoaxes & fake terrorist attacks that are being STAGED by the media & government have I come across a video where a guy has spoken THE TRUTH so much”

“This guy drops the bomb on them all Charlie Hebdo, Sandy Hook, Boston, Bataclan, Orlando pulse, you name it, he truth bombs them all LIVE on Press TV”


I know I’m dense about strategy and this is probably obvious but:  why is it absolutely necessary that we not speak ill of Muslims?  Why may we not even mention Islam when it’s pertinent to the story?  Or to the suicide-bomber?  I don’t get it.

If I sold my clovers I could get a tank of diesel and go somewhere to convince somebody to pass me the mike.  Or, I could just REST IN JESUS knowing that he has a time and place for my story to be introduced…and for my money to provide remedial opportunity for me and my (previously) tortured sons.  Either way, it’s great to be happy.  I knew I’d like it but I never ever thought I was worthy of seeking it.  Isaac told me I was good enough to be happy.  Then he changed his mind but I believed him anyway.

I think I gotta keep these clovers.  They’re extraordinary.  Like me.  Thank you, Jesus.  I can’t wait to preach.

10:10 am

I got up around 4 and worked for a while.  Then after I took my soak and washed my hair I picked 6 four and 5-leaf clovers.

JESUS SPEAKS about the Deaf & Blind among us – Message from June 16th, 2016

“That is what it will take for Americans.  When their lives are severely interrupted, then they will listen.  They will seek me until they find me.  And yet, many others will not.  They will choose the safety and comfort of man [ GOVERNMENT] over me, and for them there is NOTHING LEFT TO DO.”

9:01 am

Have you been firing up your streaming services to look for Oscar Isaac’s films, like Ex Machina or Inside Llewyn Davis or at least Agora? Have you taken this test? Have you shared the videos of him teasing and joking with and generally charming his co-stars? How different is this from posting screenshots of a terrible Tinder conversation online, or taking a deep dive through your crush’s Facebook profile?
"Show Me A Hero" New York Screening  Have you heard the news? We’re all in love with Oscar Isaac now. He’s filling up your Tumblr dash, blanketing your Twitter feed, and featuring in your daydreams. He is the internet’s new boyfriend.
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NASA Speechless!

ENORMOUS Mystery Space Object Outshines Galaxy!

I’ve got a home in glory-land that outshines the sun!
I’ve got a home in glory-land that outshines the sun!
I’ve got a home in glory-land that outshines the sun!
Way beyond the blue!

Johnny Cash – Do Lord

8:03 am

I really just like characters who you don’t know where they stand for a long while. It’s like people. You hang out with them for 10 years, and then all of a sudden they do something, and you say, ‘Who are you?’ That’s more interesting. In life and on-screen.

Oscar Isaac
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8:00 am

I think the following may be a message for somebody:

That’s a Masonic thing, right?  The hand inside the coat?  Also, when the actresses cross their legs on the red carpet?  Illuminati?  I bitched Dylan out a couple years ago.  He might think it’s too late for Jesus to forgive him but that’s a lie.
(Oscar Isaac)
(I love tests.  Don’t you?  My sons didn’t get to take many tests, at least not with paper and pencil.  So they’ve learned to test themselves.)

Oscar Isaac: The Internet’s Boyfriend Becomes a Leading Man

He went from ska punk to ‘Star Wars,’ ‘X-Men’ and being this generation’s Pacino — just don’t call Oscar Isaac a movie star


Isaac never planned for any of this – never planned for much of anything, really – and he’s trying to keep it all out of his head. He’s obsessed with craft, indifferent to celebrity, private by instinct.
The money is nice, not that he’s spending much of it, but the only part of success he truly covets is having his pick of roles. He’s bemused by the fervent female fan base he’s acquired, with bloggers calling him “the Internet’s boyfriend.” “The Internet never struck me as being into monogamous relationships,” he says with a small laugh. “It’s very promiscuous, the Internet.”

(The Internet almost dumped him last year when an old picture emerged of him wearing a T-shirt emblazoned with the cover of Ayn Rand’s Atlas Shrugged. “I liked the design,” he says. “I didn’t think wearing the shirt was saying I agreed with all her politics. I’m not a libertarian!”)

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All of my high school issues are resolved! –Oscar Isaac
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Isaac strums a D chord on an acoustic guitar, eyes still shut, losing himself in “Devotion,” a song he wrote six months ago. He was, at the time, in Montreal, filming his X-Men: Apocalypse role as nearly all-powerful mutant Apocalypse, a performance that director Bryan Singer calibrated by asking for “quarter Skeletor,” “half Skeletor” or “full Skeletor.”

“Devotion” fails to reflect the circumstances of its composition, though it does sound like something you’d write while missing your girlfriend. The melody is strong, with a Jeff Buckley-like feel. “I have released myself from fear,” Isaac sings in the chorus, in his supple, sweet-toned voice, stretching out the pronoun. “But I go crazy when you’re not here.”

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His parents were fervent evangelical Christians; Isaac systematically questioned and then abandoned the faith. “The social-conservative culture wasn’t lining up with what I was understanding Jesus was saying,” he says.

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“His parents divorced when he was at “prime trauma age”; Isaac began acting out. He and a friend tried to break into a movie theater, and a week later they vandalized their school, writing a lot of “fucks and shits and ass” on a mural, spraying a fire extinguisher in the gym. Isaac was promptly expelled. He would have gone to an even stricter Christian school were it not for an actual act of God”

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“I remember I said, ‘I fucking need a drink,’ and I had a drink,” he recalls. “I thought, ‘What am I afraid this is going to do?’ ” For good measure, he started smoking weed with his pothead roommate. “I was like, ‘Whaddya got there? This is a bong? Is that what they call this? Give it over here. Oh, this is nice. Wow. I should’ve been doing this a long time ago!'”

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. All of the funny lines – including one about Poe being unable to hear Adam Driver’s Kylo Ren through his helmet, and the “who talks first” exchange – were added in reshoots, and Isaac improvised some of them. He’s always pushing to complicate and deepen Poe, who started as little more than a charming archetype. “We’re making shit up as we go,” he says.

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“Then again, joining the fictional galactic Resistance is a less consequential decision than another one Isaac almost made even more impulsively: After high school, he nearly joined the Marines. “The recruiter was really cool,” recalls Isaac, who thought he’d become a combat photographer. He went as far as taking an initial oath and passing a physical – “They check your balls, they check everything”

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It can be a little exhausting, all this work, all this throwing yourself into the role and the moment, so Isaac tries to live by a quote from art photographer Saul Leiter: “I don’t have a philosophy. I have a camera.” But it would be a lot easier to have a philosophy.”
“Then Isaac might be able to figure out when he’s actually succeeding in the face of all his success.”
“I’m getting a lot of what I would have hoped for in this line of work,” Isaac says.
“But you realize happiness and fulfillment is not going to be an external thing. And that’s a little scary… Having gone this long – two years, basically, without stopping – some fatigue can set in.”
I think romantic passion is wanting a little something in return. Oscar Isaac
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I’ve always liked acoustic blues. I liked Bob Dylan a lot. Oscar Isaac
If you can find a way that your principles are actually the strategically smartest thing to do, you’ve kind of figured it out. Oscar Isaac

Sitting in the back of a dark, noisy London coffeehouse, Isaac smiles a little, and finally comes up with his definition of success. “If the day ends,” he says, “and I haven’t fucked something up, then I feel OK.”

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Drama student Oscar Isaac putting makeup on before a performance. “There was a natural energy I had that worked,” says Isaac, who’s done theater on and off since grade school. Photo Courtesy of Oscar Isaac

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There’s nothing scarier than unlimited choices. Oscar Isaac
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Talent is very hot. Oscar Isaac
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What you wear can be such an indicator of so many things. You know, how you feel, how you want others to perceive you. So, that is an absolutely essential part of building a character.

“I like when you watch something and you get the sense it’s something you’re not supposed to be seeing.”  (Oscar Isaac)

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5:31 am

Drop the arrow to the other side of the river.

You can’t see the compound for the trees.

I used to own this place!  Isn’t that amazing?

This is behind my head.  I work on my bed since Josh told me to stay in my room more.  (I think he meant it to benefit Isaac.)  Behind my head is a window, and north of the window is this:


This is how it used to look:

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My dad was born there.

I used to live there.

The angle I see from my bed/office is:


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This compound is at the south end of Helmer Creek, on the east side.

-The north lawn runs into a bridge on County Road 377 in Luce county, and the creek flows along the west side of the house.  It’s charming.  The bridge has concrete lions on it.  They’re charming too.  The wrestler lives south of me near the eastern-most access site and the mayor’s store is almost directly north.  I could see it from my bed/office if not for the trees.


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Michigan’s upper peninsula used to support industries and agriculture.

Newberry was famous for its unique celery but I can’t find any reference to the enterprise online.  Does that mean it didn’t happen?

“This is a classic photograph of a Hemp farm in Seney, Michigan taken around the 1920’s.”

This photo was taken 18 miles from here:


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The lady in pink counts my dad’s money.

She is in my cousin’s store, across the road from my dad’s office, just north of the mayor’s store.

Everything is online.  I was surprised about the celery.

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JESUS SAYS… Rest in Me, until I carry you over the Threshold of Eternity – From June 14th, 2016

The difference between right and wrong is easy.  It’s simple and everybody knows it.  One small factor-oid can keep us from hypocrisy, theft and violence.  “DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE OTHERS DO UNTO YOU.” –It’s so simple and it eliminates a lot of PTSD and minimizes freedom for psychopaths to maneuver.  If we DO THE GOLDEN RULE and we also EXPECT THE GOLDEN RULE TO BE DONE UNTO US then we can trust people again.  Pretty soon we’ll be getting along, Japan will start having babies again, although probably on somebody else’s island.  Theirs are toast.  But, that’s OK because we will do unto the Japanese as we…under the same circumstances…would wish for Japan to do toward us.  So much trouble avoided by just one consideration and even a baby can do it.  Remedial morality 101 has no prerequisite and guarantees placement in the next course.  Step by step.  We must rebuild humanity from the inside out.  And it’s not even destroyed yet.  I’m at rest.  I’ve never actually been here before but it’s been recommended to me.  It is so wonderful to not hyperventilate and I do not miss the creepy-crawlies of current.  This is like a filibuster, right?  I could type forever.
Something is interesting about TRUTH.  If you have TRUTH then you are RIGHT.  Being right is buoyancy.
A lot of this dichotomy stuff going on right now.  Everything has a flip side; for every winner there’s a loser, every action has an equal and opposite counteraction.  Me heads, you tails.  For instance:  all those speaking Truth are being locked up or run out of town.  That’s how you’ll have to find them, maybe, after the EMP that changes reality for all eternity.  The teams will change it up.  SOME carbon-units will be online still, mostly in one of two ways:  either the lucky Radar O’Reilly will be operating because 1) he/she is plugged into the Holy Spirit, or 2) he/she has been assimilated into the Borg.  If we don’t have keyboards and alternating current, nobody who is yet dependent on technology will be able to phone home.  Some of us will fly.  Our levitation may honor God or it may honor the enemy’s remnant.  It won’t be long then.  Most will be dead.  They didn’t have the heart to live on.  “AS a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.”  We will all be known.  I can’t wait.  Partially I can’t wait because I want to see if I was right about some things.  So far, I’ve been right about absolutely everything!  That’s because I always ask God to lead me:  “by faith, not by sight, after Spirit, not after flesh, and according to everlasting things unseen, and not to my visual perception, not by sight.”
So.  IT LOOKS LIKE I WAS RIGHT ABOUT A HUNDRED PERCENT OF THE TIME.  I’d try not to let it go to my head if I had any friends or family whom I might/could offend in my new status and arrogance.  So I’ll gloat alone.  “Thank you JESUS.  YOU DID THIS.  YOU’RE THE BEST.”   I am ACTUALLY going to get everything I ever wanted.  When my sons see that they’ll love Jesus right away.  Running away from Truth is really hard when you love Him so much.  They’ll come home.
I picked 5 four-leaf clovers and started sticking them to a new sheet of scrapbook paper.  I have two square feet of clovers and then some.  I started on May 20.  This is fun.
I think I’ve learned that you can’t force anybody to tell the truth.
But, you can sure demonstrate that he refuses to do so and you can prove he told a lie
4:13 pm


Over forty international bankers allegedly killed themselves over a two-year period in the wake of a major international scandal that implicated financial firms across the globe. However, three of these seemingly unrelated suicides seem to share common threads related to their connections to Deutsche Bank. These three banker suicides, in New York, London, and Siena, Italy, took place within 17 months of each other in 2013/14 in what investigators labeled as a series of unrelated suicides.
Lightning strikes are increasing in frequency and intensity.  We’re cautioned to be careful when outdoors.  How in the world, could any amount of WORRY and PREPAREDNESS protect one from a lightning strike?

Jewish mentality: ‘We bombed civilians for entertainment’

Israeli soldier: ‘We bombed civilians for entertainment’

At the time there was no Hamas fighters, no one shot at us, the commander said jokingly: ‘We must send Bureij a morning greeting from Israeli army,’” Arieh reported his commander saying. “I remember that one day, a soldier from our unit was killed and our commander asked us for revenge so I drew the tank randomly towards a huge white residential building,” Arieh said. Days of Palestine, Paris –Israeli soldier has said he and his colleagues bombed civilian in Gaza Strip during last year’s Israeli offensive “for entertainment.”


2:18 pm


(This is how the ‘last’ are gonna be ‘first’.  When you’ve seen hell you’re harder to scare I suspect.)


I’m really kind of enjoying this; I’m seeking repentance for that since God’s Word says we should not desire the judgment of God but oh it is so righteous what I see. I see genuine virtue replacing selfie-dom.  I see massive harvests distributed supernaturally,  to those who love most for local distribution.  I see spontaneous organizations of like hearts doing gratifying fun benefit shows and they pull out all the stops.  Nobody is a wallflower; everybody can dance.  How in the world did we get the privilege to do our stint on prison-planet just as the allied forces liberate us all?  How COOL IS THAT?  I feel like Steve McQueen on the Jap-bike to freedom.  His was probably European.  Whatever.
We are GOING TO SEE AMAZING THINGS IF WE HAVE SISU SUFFICIENT TO PULL OUR HEADS FROM THE SAND.  Get a little grit in your eyes.  Do it soon, do it sure.  Don’t go down with Spaceship Earth.  We have lifeboats a’plenty.  Just squeeze your eyes tight then open them real big.  It’s gonna be the biggest show ever and I’m going to tell it over and over throughout eternity.  The blood of Jesus saved me from the New World Order and I got to watch it go down.  Whew.  “Thank you, Lord.  Don’t let me mess up.  Thanks for the cloud.”

Tidal waves in Bali leave tourists terrified

And they shall fall by the edge of the sword, and shall be led away captive into all nations: and Jerusalem shall be trodden down of the Gentiles, until the times of the Gentiles be fulfilled.

And there shall be signs in the sun, and in the moon, and in the stars; and upon the earth distress of nations, with perplexity; the sea and the waves roaring;

Men’s hearts failing them for fear, and for looking after those things which are coming on the earth: for the powers of heaven shall be shaken.  (Luke 21:24-26)

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Israel: Prison for Marriage with Non-Jews

These people are the definition of racist.
(They really hate Christians.)
(Zionists hate Christians and take their money even so.)

For as the body is one, and hath many members, and all the members of that one body, being many, are one body: so also is Christ.

For by one Spirit are we all baptized into one body, whether we be Jews or Gentiles, whether we be bond or free; and have been all made to drink into one Spirit.

For the body is not one member, but many.  (1 Corinthians 12:12-14)

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Baby’s incredible reaction to mom singing Rod Stewart song

(This is no big deal; Isaac used to cry when I sang any song at all.  He still winces.)  
(I remember when I was first being mind-assaulted.)  
(I was REPEATEDLY requested not to sing by the goons.)
(The goons impersonated a friend and I accused him at the time of having perfect pitch.  He probably remembers.)

NATO Begins Encirclement Of Russia

(The prophets warned us about Russia attacking America; it sounded evil.  Now Russia would be way-EVIL if they DID NOT try to shut us down!  We’re not leaving them a lot of choice.)

US Government Declares Camping A ‘Terrorist Activity’

(Why am I not surprised?  Of course it would happen just when I decide to go camping.)
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Fukushima keeps giving.. now right into the ocean without fanfare, news or reporting… 7000% increase in radiation….

And the second angel poured out his vial upon the sea; and it became as the blood of a dead man: and every living soul died in the sea.  (Revelation 16:3)

NATO says it might now have grounds to attack RUSSIA. Russian hackers copied Hillary Clinton’s emails.

They think it is justified to risk NUCLEAR ANNIHILATION OF ALL HUMANITY…over a couple emails that ZILLIONS OF PEOPLE have already seen?

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(That is the way they are disarming veterans.  With FALSE ALLEGATIONS.)

The Tattooed Lady and The Alligator Man

“A bunch of cowboys on the water.  Hah.”

Marcia Ball “Down the Road”

Isn’t she just a most agreeable lady?  
She’s way cooler than those fakey models with black fingernails.  I think so anyway.
Can you picture her ever pushing anybody around?
She can take suggestions; she leads creatively…I might like to be like that.
This song makes me want to dance.  Almost EVERY song makes me want to dance.  I can’t dance though.  I went to the prom with the best dancer ever in Newberry and I didn’t even dance.  He did.   That’s good anyway.
That’s what Baptist theology does to creativity, and in that respect alone, it is antichrist.
Creativity is life.
Anti-life, I decided yesterday, is NECESSARILY antichrist.
She didn’t play ‘Down the Road’  (I’ve been listening as I write.)  (YES.  I AM LISTENING TO MUSIC!  God is a very good heart-fixer.  Blood-free surgery.  The blood part was settled long ago.)
I wonder why it’s mislabeled.
“AR-15’s are flying off the shelves.”
(So THAT’S why the ‘news’ always reports that an AR-15 was used no matter what kind of firearm it was!  Advertising.  I am so dense.  Lord, have mercy.)
11:59 am
I picked one four-leaf clover after soaking in the brief interval of sunshine presented.  I watched the eagle, I see him almost every time I soak.  Last week he soared right over the house straight into my line of sight as low as the nearest treetops.  Sometimes he circles over me.  I get to look at him closely sometimes.  I never turn on the jacuzzi jets because I prefer to hear the birds and the wind.  I haven’t seen a bluejay yet this year but I know I will.  The prophet says that bluejays are easy to tame and if you slit their tongues they can talk.  He’s never done that though.  He doesn’t even slit the tongues of his pet crows.  He doesn’t have a pet crow right now but he has some baby chickens and his grandson moved in. The boy is probably 8 now and it looks

like he’s grandpa’s boy for good.  That man’s heart is enormous.

Fake News!! CNN & BBC Busted!! ISIS Is A Fake Threat!! 2014
“It’s just amazing, this world we live in.  Nothing is what it seems.”
“Deceived from crib to the coffin.  Admitting you were wrong is not a pleasant thing.
“Apparently there is nothing that cannot happen today.” Mark Twain
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But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible.

Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.

And Jesus looking upon them saith, With men it is impossible, but not with God: for with God all things are possible.

And he said, Abba, Father, all things are possible unto thee; take away this cup from me: nevertheless not what I will, but what thou wilt.


Omar Mateen has a page at the Internet Movie Database! Has two credits!

Read more: WHAT REALLY HAPPENED | The History The US Government HOPES You Never Learn!

“Being a ‘criminal’ means you’ve disobeyed the politicians.  
And that’s all it means.”  
“We’ve been trained to believe that GOOD people obey politicians.”  (Larken Rose)

Chef’s Night Out: Kjøbenhavn

I can’t wait to go places; I’ve always wanted to travel.  I just figured I would but I never had the money.  Traveling would have been my favorite hobby, I’m pretty sure.
Trump can’t be the antichrist.  That’s too easy.  Even Ann Coulter likes him?  Not even possible.  She’s a clone.  She’s not supposed to like anybody, and WHY must I see Alex Jones’ naked body every week?  He was naked in the woods he was naked at his desk and he sells over-the-counter herbal viagra.  I don’t go to Rense hardly at all anymore.  It’s all about Trump. EVERYBODY is all about Trump.  Am I missing something or are they?

The Disturbing Truth Behind U.S. Drone Assassinations That the Government Tried to Keep Secret | Alternet

The Disturbing Truth Behind U.S. Drone Assassinations That the Government Tried to Keep Secret, During one four-and-a-half-month period, nearly 90 percent of the people killed in airstrikes were not the intended targets.


Michigan requires public schools to teach about Holocaust

Governor signs law legislating six hours of genocide studies, including Shoah and Armenian genocide, between grades 8-12

ed note–a list of Holocausts and genocides that these young, soon-to-be military age/voting age children won’t be reading about–

1. The genocide of as many as 60 million Christians in Russia and Ukraine by Judaic Bolsheviks, as referenced by Russian President Vladimir Putin

2. The genocide of Germans in WWI and WWII, and in particular the literal incineration of the entire city of Dresden in WWII.

3. The genocide of Iraq, which has been going on for 25 years, spearheaded by the United States and helped along by other nations such as the UK, France, Germany, etc.

4. The genocide of Libyans, spearheaded by the United States and helped along by other nations such as the UK, France, Germany, etc.

5. The genocide of Syrians, spearheaded by the United States and helped along by other nations such as the UK, France, Germany, etc.

6. The genocide of the Palestinians, going on now for over a century, spearheaded by Israel, international Jewry, and the United States and helped along by other nations such as the UK, France, Germany, etc.

Yes, borrowing a line from George Orwell’s Animal Farm, ‘all holocausts are equal, but some holocausts are more equal than others…’





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I wish I would have had a dad.

Science, Technocracy, and Social Control

– Jerry Day on The Corbett Report

 “The social disorder will be those who accept being engineered, being doctored, being drugged, being commanded and controlled, There will be the people who will accept that.  There will be the people who will not accept that; and there will be some sort of conflict.”

More links and resources on smart meters, digital meters, electromagnetic radiation, and making your living environment better. After several years of activism on the topic we regard the links below to be some of the most credible and valuable:

Microwave weapons expert Barrie Trowerexplains the horrors awaiting society if wireless technologies are not curtailed.

Direct YoutTube links to the same videos:

EMF Engineer Rob State‘s comprehensive 30-minute video “The Dark Side of Smart Meters”:

Dr. Dietrich Klinghardt presents his un-rivaled knowledge, experience and expertise in EMR pathology

CERN Mystery – The Effect – Did we Leak into a Parallel Universe?

I should probably tell you people that even though I’ve been dealing with alternate realities and unseen beings for a lot of years, I still OFTEN find it hard to believe.  I think it pertinent that everybody start coming to terms with higher levels of weirdness.  It would make things much easier ie. less likely that one’s heart may ‘fail [one] for fear of the things coming on the earth.’

Interpretation of dream..going home…

10:35 am

ANOTHER CORRECTION to my Joshua taught me about spirits and knives story:  He said that a great portion of the person who MAKES A WEAPON remains with the weapon.  Not just of those who use and own it.  That’s important.


8:58 am

Gone At Last

Paul Simon – With Phoebe Snow And The Jessy Dixon Singers

(I liked watching Jessy Dixon on the Gaither videos.  For a long time he was the only black guy so you gotta be really good to get that gig.  ‘Good’ being a relative concept that might apply to behavior rather than performance.)

“Every once in awhile,
from out of nowhere,
when you don’t expect it,
and you’re unprepared.  
Somebody will come
and lift you higher
and your burden will be shared.”
(Paul Simon did the Baphomet thing with his fingers on the Letterman Show so I’m posting a studio version.  To watch Phoebe Snow sing though is maybe worth suffering a stupid satanic signal.  Music just pumped through her body; she couldn’t restrain it and she didn’t try.  I suppose that’s how satan’s body worked too, at one time.  He was created with music in him.  he ‘left his first estate’.)

“I do believe
if I hadn’t have met you,
I might still
be sinking fast.
I’ve had a long
streak of that bad luck
[and I’m glad ] it’s gone at last.”






 Let The Good Times Roll

Jimmie Vaughan & Susan Tedeschi –

Jimmie Vaughan emailed Isaac when we were Ron Paulers.

We saw him play at Interlochen and all his equipment had Ron Paul stickers on it.
I’d love to meet his stylist.  I bet he could give me some good ideas for my vardo.  Why do I assume it’s a guy?
That chick can really sing.  She doesn’t play like Bonnie Raitt though.
I suppose Vaughan is an anarchist now.  Even Ron Paul sounds like one.  That would make sense.  He’s smart.

(I Can’t Believe I’m Not A Millionaire)

Puppini Sisters
Wow.  Conspiracy-savvy-evangelicals are doing interviews on MSM ‘Christian’ programs.  Judgment begins in the house of the Lord.  Then certain reconciliations must also begin there.


7:50 am

I love how Marcia Ball plays with her legs crossed.  That helps to keep your back from getting sore if you sit at the piano for a long time.  I’d like to play again.  I’d like to play in the Spirit , spontaneous.  Finger-rapping.  ‘Free-styling’.

The guy doing the guitar solo has a mullet and a jew-fro at the same time!  He nailed it.

Marcia Ball – La Ti Da 


7:36 am

Some of these handbuilt vardos (oes?) look just like you’re living in a jewelry box.  Maybe you could have another for workdays.  Such colors, we’ve never seen.  That’s what people say who have been to Heaven.  They always talk about the colors.  Even the streets of gold aren’t gold as we know it.  Henry Gruver described it as the color of cherry 7-UP. Transparent gold.  Also Henry said that people’s clothing in Heaven is WOVEN with their life STORY.  Every good deed threaded right into their robes.  Cool.  Jesus is the light and everybody worships Him, even flowers and trees.  They move independently and offer themselves to serve the Bride of Christ.  As the Bride offers herself to Jesus.  It’s really bright colors and everybody has synesthesia of various senses that they never even had on Earth-point-o.  We’re going home.  Home is where the heart is. ❤

7:30 am

Baptist Waltz

Do You Know My Jesus – Skeeter Davis


Psalm 46:9-11

He maketh wars to cease unto the end of the earth; he breaketh the bow, and cutteth the spear in sunder; he burneth the chariot in the fire.

10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.

11 The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.


7:16 am

I forgot to say something in the following/previous story so I’m adding it here because I’m trying to be more accurate and right:

When Josh’s knife flew into the air in the ride at the fair with the young girl…when he caught it it was open.  It was an open blade flying around in an enclosed fair-ride cart and that’s gotta be a metaphor for something.

6:37 am

Ivanka Trump and Chelsea Clinton have both had facial plastic surgery.  They’re young healthy women who don’t drool and all but they couldn’t be permitted to enter public life with their real faces?  Is it like grooming now, to slice one’s face open and rearrange the pieces?  We really shouldn’t grimace when we study ancient customs of baby head-molding and various circumcision practices.  OK, Chelsea did have those troubling Webb Hubbell lips and his chin,  but Ivanka couldn’t have been a dog by any means.  Maintaining “appropriate” apparel is limiting enough,  but now young women must also wear appropriate faces?  We’re afraid to engage the world with our real ones and we are DISCOURAGED from trying to.
‘turn off the nagging self-doubt’  (tite)
by-pass the whole issue
take your cues from God about your being and status
that’s way better
that way also even counteracts doubts that are
Josh likes blades and he has lots.  He throws stars at targets and refurbishes vintage machetes.  He’s frugal with money but if he finds a great unique knife at an antique store he’ll get it. First he’ll jew the seller down.  He has one knife he can’t trust. He says the old-timers believed that swords carried the spirits of their owners, even dead ones.  His knife flew out of his pocket one time on an amusement park ride and he was in a cart with a young girl he didn’t know.  He grabbed the knife out of mid-air as they were both upside-down.  He didn’t know if she had seen it but it bothered him for a long time and he even brought it up again last night when he told me about spirits.
I think it’s supposed to mean we’re not racist if we criticize our own people.  Tauno and Eino jokes are popular in my Finnish family, or they were when my family got together and when we laughed at jokes.  Smacking everybody doesn’t make it right to smack anybody at all.
Josh’s knife was made by a company called ‘Fury’ and he believes that’s one reason why you can’t trust it.  He thinks the way  a tool or weapon is employed contributes to its essence and its value.   Those weapons wielded in defense of Truth and innocence probably even smell nice, in the natural.  I told him that I understand the concept, as applied to different subjects; it’s like ‘blessing’ and ‘cursing’.  I told him that as long as his BROTHER AND HE kept calling me crazy I was not allowed to rise; I wasn’t able.  They cursed me just like my dad taught them to and like George cannot understand or he might possibly have defended me.
Josh’s very honorable.  He said that some battles he would not fight unless his weapon was inferior to his opponent’s.  He’s that conscious and that sturdy and that confident.  He’s absolutely brilliant and principled and he will NEVER lie to me to save my feelings.  I’ll never lie to him either.  If I had not stood up when I did, and if they had sent me to a funny farm as they demanded, I would have been diseased forever.  They’ll understand that and they will love me for my patience with them.  They have been tortured too and they required some leeway.  Now they also must rise.

Living a Free and Artistic Life in a Magical Gypsy Vardo Style Caravan

“It is just absolutely packed with character, isn’t it?”

“Kinda like me.”
(REALLY great colors.)
I don’t think zip-in vinyl windows would be smart.
I also think that if I was a vardo-gypsy I would be like Sadhu Selvaraj.
The vardo-people seem to like fairies and dragons.
Maybe I could emulate their art using discipleship designs?
Selvaraj is a ‘Christian’ sadhu; sadhus are common in India so he is given space in society.
In the West, disciples of Jesus are not offered hospitality.
This is too perfect.  All the cool parts were created by her friends.  Handblown glass knobs on her tiny handbuilt wood-stove with firelight Skittle-ing through colored marbles lit by a tiny perfect fire. I like this one.  She built it for $9,000.  It’s not really a rag-top, there’s a roof beneath.  6’5″ wide.  It could be as wide as 8’6″.

Gypsy Wagon

I like this one too but I could do without the kid’s books and stuffed animals.  The wood is nice and also the bed is traditional vardo-height.  I wonder if you could put a tiny office beneath.

God Just Worked Another Miracle! PRAISE GOD!

Hackers steal 45 million VerticalScope accounts

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 Unvaccinated children experience almost no incidence of autism, autoimmune disorders, asthma, allergies, diabetes and other common childhood diseases which have reached epidemic proportions in recent years.


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Paul Craig Roberts Explains Orlando Shooting Just Like Sandy Hoax

Some readers have asked for my take on the Orlando Shooting.

I don’t have one. Let’s see if together we can form a reasonable view.

“Let’s start with the basic first question. Before there can be a murder declared, there must be a body.”

“As far as I know, dead bodies, other than those of the perpetrators themselves, seldom if ever emerge from the terrorist attacks. No dead bodies materialized from the Paris attacks except those of the alleged perpetrators. No dead bodies ever emerged from the Sandy Hook shootings. The only dead bodies I recall from the San Bernardino shooting were the husband-and-wife-alleged-perpetrators, and their hands were handcuffed behind their backs. Do police handcuff dead people who the police have shot to pieces? I don’t remember dead bodies from Brussels, just reports of dead bodies.”
“One could say that the media is averse to invading the privacy of dead people and their relatives by showing dead bodies, or that the media doesn’t want to show gruesome scenes—except for the videos of Muslim terrorists cutting off people’s heads.”

Ezekiel 20:40-41 For in mine holy mountain, in the mountain of the height of Israel, saith the LordGod, there shall all the house of Israel, all of them in the land, serve me: there will I accept them, and there will I require your offerings, and the firstfruits of your oblations, with all your holy things.

I will accept you with your sweet savour, when I bring you out from the people, and gather you out of the countries wherein ye have been scattered; and I will be sanctified in you before the heathen.

But in the last days it shall come to pass, that the mountain of the house of the Lord shall be established in the top of the mountains, and it shall be exalted above the hills; and people shall flow unto it.

“science is on verge of a nervous breakdown..monumental deterioration across all fields, from climate science to health research to economics”

“The mere idea that “most published research results are false” should be cause for alarm. But it is worse than that. The crisis runs through just about everything we take for granted in modern science, from the use of big data to computer models of major parts of our social, economic and natural environment and on to the often absurd uses of statistical methods to fish for predetermined conclusions.”
Revelation of Jesus Christ.  Jesus is Truth.  You can’t reveal Truth without exposing everything that’s not Truth.  Two sides of the same coin.

Press TV Journalist Unexpectedly Gets Told By Guest Speaker That Orlando Shooting Staged By Government

Plan B Is Going Into Effect to Stop Trump Because the Elite Cannot Hide Clinton’s Criminality From the Masses

“Retired Department of Homeland Security (DHS) security agent, Philip Haney, is reporting that the mosque that Omar Mateen attended several times every week is the exact  same mosque protected by Hillary Clinton’s State Department Muslim protection policy after the Islamic terrorist attack in San Bernardino, California which was carried out by Syed Farook.”

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7:47 pm

This one is more right.

” Beulah Land ” 11 year old – Mckenzie George at the Gospel Cafe

This one starts the tears.  

Tears are living water.  

Did you know that?  

Maybe not.  It’s ‘extra-biblical’.

7:32 pm

I don’t forget much but I miss a lot.

And also everybody should know…GOD GAVE ME A GUIDE THROUGH THE BULLSHIT.  They really do MESS with your mind.  Then they mess with your car and your computer and your libido.  THIS IS WAR.  God gave me a guide and although I was UTTERLY BLIND I walked right through the TRUTH-QUEST minefield.  God is good and I’m here to make the case.  Namaste.*
(*That verse about how any spirit that doesn’t know enough to admit that Jesus ‘is come’ in my flesh…is antichrist.)
(Is it in Revelation?)
Anti-christ is anti-life; it’s just that simple.  Christ is the anointing, the oil that flowed down Aaron’s robe to the hem of his garment.  Christ is the living water without which we will not survive armageddon and it’s math.  After that, we’ll need even more anointing so we can pour out on the survivors and we will all be truthful and in love.  Thus sayeth something in my imagination.  “Lord, please show me what to believe.  I love you.  Welcome home.”  Living water.

Michigan Water Blues (Dave Van Ronk)

Isn’t this ironic?
Bob Dylan used to sleep on Van Ronk’s couch when he was new in New York.
Or so the story goes.
God is going to flood Michigan with goodness and light.  A lot of people will be leaving real quick.  He promised.
—  —  —  —  —  —
And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.
(I am not kidding.  If you haven’t been hearing voices yet get worried.  ALSO, you should be seeing creepy things.  Don’t panic.  “In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path.”  Easy.)
(Also it was kind of presumptuous for me to say that if you hear ‘words’ that it’s not your own thoughts.  That’s just how I KNEW.  I don’t know if everybody else thinks like I did.  I just KNEW how I thought from many years of prayer.  Prayer is LOTS OF WAITING and solitude.  Then it gets exciting.  It teaches you about your mind-space.)

John Birch Paranoid Blues {Live at Town Hall 1963} – Elston Gunn

Somebody is going to want what I know pretty soon.  I’m so fat I don’t have anything to wear.  God had me sew up all my tablecloths and curtains into dresses a couple years ago and I’ve never worn them because they’re too small.  I hope He means that’s my “goal weigh.”  (Weight Watchers TM)  It also would mean I might occasionally slip south of the permafrost and that would be grand.  Even without a gypsy wagon.  I think I’m supposed to go camping somewhere.
I had a vision the other day, of my homecoming.  I was slender and tan; my hair was long and wavy and gold.  I got out of my gypsy wagon and came in through the front door of my sons’ house.  I could see myself entering from my place at the top of the stairs.  (Was I a fractal?)  They were very glad to see me and we talked about all the people who met Jesus when I pointed Him out to them.  I was very shiny and brilliant and colorful and soon I was surrounded by young smiling people.  They begged me to cook a meal for them and then relented.  They said that I could cook for them the following day.  The night of my homecoming, they wished to cook for me.  I felt very content.

Definition of Beulah

  1. :  an idyllic land near the end of life’s journey in Bunyan’s Pilgrim’s Progress

I was taught that ‘beulah’ meant ‘married’ and ‘rest’.  I guess both definitions aren’t really likely to be true.

George used to have a shirt like that.  My dad gave it to him.  Alexander something.  I can picture the tag from many washings but I can’t reed the label.  That’s one of the Speers at the piano, Ben I think.  He wrote a lot of songs.

Sweet Beulah Land [Live]

6:58 pm

No, I didn’t get it wrong.  Last time I talked about washing Dad’s feet I said the water was scented with ‘lavender’ and lavender is the major component of the scent in Bath and Body’s ‘Moonlight Path’.  Angel is my favorite perfume but I ran out of that a long time ago.  I can’t WAIT to have nice cosmetics once again.  Suave probably gives you cancer.

I made taco salad from ground venison George brought from his mom’s freezer.

Rhubarb cake from my grandma’s recipe.

Isaac said he’s glad I’m his mom and he’s glad I’m trying to get better.

I’ve been trying to get better ever since the very first time I WAS RAPED BY A FACELESS FORCE back in 2009 when I thought it was a spirit.   I recorded my efforts every single day, efforts to become DIFFERENT so I could SURVIVE what was happening to me with FORGIVENESS in my heart and to BECOME what God wanted so He could accomplish whatever it was He wanted to accomplish through my torment. It’s been a lot of work learning about what happened to me and I can’t imagine what he thinks I’m doing differently now.    I serve the same JESUS with the same passion.

Psalm 41:11

By this I know that thou favourest me, because mine enemy doth not triumph over me.



I wrote this on  6/21/14:

Eckhart Tolle says we should abandon our “stories.”  (He wasn’t the “number 1 top spiritual person in the world” last year.  Pretty close.  I’ve never seen the award show.)  I believe Tolle is mistaken.  I believe our stories are very valuable.  Our stories are life.  To pretend our life never happened is abandoning life itself.  I can know that I am made of vibrations with no actual matter and I can meditate myself into cosmic consciousness, but what is to be gained, if I don’t look forward to living tomorrow in my body at my spot?  How would erasing my mind encourage me to bless others?  My favored spiritual teacher was all about stories.  Jesus spoke in parables, and he still does.  He turns water into wine all the time.  Most of my body vibrates in a water-way.
People fear transformation, people sink into comfort with their stories and choose not to finish the book.  This is choosing death.  They believe that nothing can ever change so they accept lies and foolishness.  Eventually they will die so it doesn’t matter.  I do not choose to die before I’ve been the extraordinary character God imagined  when he wrote my story.  God wishes to see everybody happy, so I get pushy.  I have stepped on many vibration-manifested-imaginary-human toes.  I do not tread on fake people to be mean.  I do so to get attention.  I dyed my hair red.  I started drinking beer.  I ignited a forest fire!   WAKE UP!   We are not meant to play out the hand we got dealt and then die. We are meant to change the world!  We are meant to write happy endings  for EVERYBODY.
It is difficult  to live with unpleasant histories or prospects.  I have longed for release from my story, and even death.  I can only imagine how others feel, who have been tortured, slandered and ostracized, but it hasn’t been an easy road for me. God  told me in 2007 that I must  “withstand.”  He said, “What is to come is ordained by me for my glory.”   ( I didn’t like the message at all. Talk about “fear of the Lord!” )  I have done many things I didn’t like.  In 2009 I became aware of intrusion in my (constant) prayer-world.  God asked me to tolerate it, for love’s sake.  I am not naturally a tolerant person and I couldn’t do it, so I asked him to change  me. I asked him to do whatever it took, to make my life the parable he intended.  Then my “story” got  VERY TERRIBLE!  So I asked him to change me more.  “When we are tried, and purified, we shall come forth as gold.”  “God is a consuming fire.”  (This is not a fable.)  (Sometimes I like to know how a story ends, before I start the book.)
God has been writing my story and we need a plot twist.  I have opportunity to help a lot of people.  My father’s big crooked toes are in the way.  I have stomped on them and sucked them and washed his feet at his office. (I’d have to look up the date. I scented the water with Moonlight Path, from Bath and Body.)   If I were the author of my life, my daddy would have loved me, I would not be destitute and I would not know what government does to people it doesn’t like.  However, here I am.    My life is a parable.  Everybody’s life is a parable.   “A parable is a succinct, didactic story, in prose or verse, which illustrates one or more instructive lessons or principles.” (Wickipedia.  In Sunday school they said a parable is an earthly story with a heavenly meaning.)
If my dad would give me the smoking gun, I could provide happy endings to a WHOLE BUNCH OF PEOPLE WORLDWIDE!  If he’d prefer to just die, then that’s his business.  I will become  gold, just the same.
What in the dickens does this mean?
Life is the dancer and you are the dance.
That’s the kind of stuff that earns Tolle the big bucks.
I’m going to raise the dead one day soon here.

4:25 pm

We ARGUE AND FIGHT AND EVEN HARM OTHERS,  by reason of…wait for it…WHICH DICTATOR BEFORE WHOM WE PREFER TO GROVEL.  “I wanna lick Trump’s shoes.”  “No way, I wanna lick Hillary’s shoes…I’m gonna punch you in the eye.” They’re laughing at us.  Britain, “We can’t go EU!  We’d be giving away all our power.”  But, they already did that.

3:48 pm

“For what is the messenger to you, oh ignorant and vain peoples?
Why do you consider so carefully seeking to find fault with those I send? Why do you concern yourselves with those I choose?  
And why do you judge those through whom I speak?”


“For there is no prophecy apart from my will.   And without My voice…there can be no prophesying.”  
“I tell you:  no man in authority will find them.  nor can any device of men track them, nor can any do them harm…
For who can stand against Me?  Or shut my mouth once I have begun to speak?”
I do not believe that human government is a fail.  Government does exactly what it was designed to do and it does it very well and under cover of good intentions.
Government is NOT MEANT to even any playing field.
Government is NOT MEANT to give us a choice in our circumstances.
Government is NOT MEANT to do us good all the days of our life.
Government was meant to take us away from God by giving us the notion that we are not responsible for ANYTHING and that we do not answer for ourselves.  Government destroys moral accountability.  Laws define prescribed behavior so we don’t have to think.   And CERTAINLY we don’t have to wonder if we’re doing right by obeying said laws.  Even laws that are ON-THEIR-FACE evil aren’t are fault.  Government handily removed our guilt by giving us the vote.  If we didn’t vote for it, it isn’t our fault.
I can’t understand even yet, how it is that ‘partisan’ government employees can magnanimously turn the controls over to a person of a different political persuasion.  That fact alone designates the election process as fraudulent and elected officials as unconcerned with campaign rhetoric.  You know, the stuff they tell us is important.  Like OUR LIVES, for instance.  If a term-limited official  truly believes in partisan positions he couldn’t possibly be at peace with relinquishing his duties to one whose values are (presumably) very different and harmful.
I just got my copy of “The Confessions of Congressman X”.  It’s genuinely old news.  And it is also very genuinely…government.  Government’s other purpose is to transfer resources from a subservient group to a ruler class.
Everything from our intellect and industry…right through to the babies in our bodies and the blood in our veins must run through means of ‘government’ evaluation and distribution.  They can TAKE OUR BLOOD EVEN IF WE HAVEN’T COMMITTED A CRIME.  They can TAKE OUR KIDS OVERSEAS AND SHOOT THEM.  They take our money and tax our land and poison our air and outlaw collecting rainwater.  Government comes first and government’s requirements  are the most important consideration.  If the government ain’t happy, ain’t NOBODY happy.  And even then it’s only a fluke.
I’ve been meaning to write about this and it’s become more important:  HOW WILL YOU REACT WHEN YOU HEAR VOICES THAT ARE NOT YOUR OWN THOUGHTS?
You may first recognize ‘synthetic telepathy’ if you notice that your thoughts are occurring in SENTENCES.  When you think in WORDS it’s likely somebody else is putting them there.  They can more delicately insert fleeting sensations of ABSOLUTELY CREDIBLE FAKE-REALITY  but I suspect most of us just get the boilerplate ‘chatterbox’.  The notion is that your brain will become ‘entrained’ as you are encouraged to communicate with the voices in your head. You will find yourself answering questions.  All by yourself.  It works.  More and more you will be sucked INTO THE ‘hive mind’.
…OF THOSE WHO’VE been brain-sucked BEFORE YOU.

If you don’t Obey…

RFID Chip will poison and kill you!!!

2:15 pm

The War on Terrie! 06/06/16 Gang Stalking Staff

Those gang-stalkers sure do have a lot of white cars and trucks!
A lot of times they wait until you’re already BACKING UP before they pull up behind you.
Then they can sneer at you like you’re a criminal and flip you off.

1:51 pm

📡 + 🔩  = 👹

John 3: 11-12

“Verily, verily, I say unto thee, We speak that we do know, and testify that we have seen; and ye receive not our witness.”


“If I have told you earthly things, and ye believe not, how shall ye believe, if I tell you of heavenly things?”

THUS SAYS THE LORD… The Glory of Men must die


(NO.  SERIOUSLY.  I was told personally by the leader of a gang-stalking support group.
She said they don’t like to ELECTRONICALLY MOLEST AND TORTURE fat girls as much,  so they make their targets skinny sometimes.)
(They gave me a humdinger yeast infection once.  It was gone in fifteen minutes.  That is NOT natural.)  (It corresponded with artificial ‘visions’ I was seeing.)  (I’d have to look up the date.)
“You retain no knowledge at all.  Only greed and wickedness, wickedness upon wickedness passes before your eyes without ceasing.  And oh, how you love yo have it so.”
“DEAD GENERATION!  Your hearts are stone!”
“Look upon the works of your hands
…you evil and most wicked generation.
Look upon your wickedness!!  
Look upon all you have done!”

Look and Live, with lyrics – Un Mensaje del Señor

OK, I decided to be thin and gorgeous, right?  So I put on some eyeliner and some earrings and trimmed my floppy hair a bit and went to show Isaac how good I looked.  Then I turned on a video by a female disciple of Jesus who dreamed about riding in a limousine home from ‘The Biggest Loser.”  (That’s a show where fat people lose weight, right?)  She’s chubby too and she talked about another woman being in the car with her and she described make-up and gorgeous clothes and jewelry gifts from Jesus.  I haven’t listened to it all yet because it was so amazing I had to tell Isaac.  He found a 4-leaf clover yesterday.  He didn’t feel special.  What can I do for him?


“Paid.   Funded resources of the new world order.”
I’m in shock.  I can’t believe it.  I searched Youtube for ‘destiny’ and all I got were videos about an online murder-game.  So I googled ‘destiny’.  Same thing.  Destiny is just about the most important consideration for humanity!  And when we look into it, all we find is blood games and Queen Bey?  I am thinking that we could probably rate words’ legitimate creative value, by identifying  how rarely they are employed.  The news does NOT quoth ‘Jesus’.  They don’t talk about important words at all!  Instead, they repeat coarse vapid phrases.  They slip around the definitions and define new paths.  They destroy value in words.  They destroy our continuity with linguistic history and our fathers.  They REVERSE meanings!  They degrade legitimate intercourse.

Going home!!!!! A wow dream!!!!

“Once again history is being made.”

We Now Stand On The Edge Of A Total Systemic Collapse, Here’s Why.

By Gregory Mannarino



11:45 am



November 7, 2013

3:37 pm

Jay:    I do not want to do this.  I do not want to read about politics anymore.  I am supposed to be a real missionary and travel around doing Jesus’ work (MIRACLES).

You must confess so I’m not so bored anymore.  (And to save your soul from hell.)

ABWE Mission Doctor Abuses Children in Bangladesh

“This blog is a voice for those of us ABWE missionary kids (MKs) who were sexually molested by Dr. Ketcham in Bangladesh and for anyone who has been abused by him here in the States. We can finally tell “our side of the story.”

More here:

SIM Missionary Kid Survivors

Read more here:


“In 1989 we received a report of sexual abuse of a female minor…”

“DO YOU BELIEVE WHAT YOU JUST READ? This man could have been sent home as early as 1975!! Please, please forgive us. Forgive this mammoth organization for overlooking sin against women and young girls! ABWE CALLS IT INAPPROPRIATE BEHAVIOUR AND INDISCRETIONS. Where is the outcry from the churches? Forgive them for overlooking this perpetrators sin of adultery and eventually paedophilia. How many chances does a missionary get for sexual misconduct, sin! HOW DID THIS CONTINUE FOR SO LONG!? THE SILENCE IS DEAFENING.”

“What all this shows is there is a job (ministry) always open for the GOOD OL BOYS.”

More at:

Please note the following “Confession” …  it HAS NO SIGNATURES!

ABWE Board and Administration Confession

-More at

OCTOBER 17, 2012 ABWE Administrative Changes

In response, the current ABWE Board has taken the following actions:

  • Terminated President Michael Loftis for a leadership failure, displayed in a loss of confidence on the part of the board and administration. The allegations of Ketcham’s abuse surfaced for the second time in 2002. Dr. Loftis stated that he is solely responsible for his actions in failing to officially inform the board of the situation until March 2011, and not following through to insist that the promised investigation was completed. The blog detailing the sexual abuse by Ketcham and the failed response of ABWE in regards to other victims were not the sole issues that resulted in the board’s unanimous decision to release him, but rather the situation provided a window for the board to look more deeply into Dr. Loftis’ overall leadership.
  • Asked and received the resignation of Russ Ebersole from his position of Vice President of Missionary Ministries.
  • Asked and received the resignation of Don Davis as Corporate Counsel.
  • Asked for the resignations of members of the 1989 board who continued to serve as Emeriti board members. Presently none of the 1989 board members continue to serve as Executive or Emeriti board members.

Again note the ABSENCE OF NAMES in the following article.

Who are the “Emeriti board members” who could have protected kids?


Missionary Group Fires Sex Abuse Investigator

Weeks before the release of a nearly two-year investigation into allegations of sexual abuse of missionary kids, the Association of Baptists for World Evangelism (ABWE) has fired and replaced its investigator, Godly Response to Abuse in the Christian Environment (GRACE).”

2013.  Still no satisfaction.

Read more here:

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11:24 am

I have (as best I can) combined my knowledge (generous term) of physics and spiritual Truth this way:
I am what I think I am.
My body is not me; it’s my current container composed of consciousness intrinsic to particular frequencies.
As the frequencies differ, I experience things differently, even things I think to be concrete and fat.
The goons can remotely ALTER either my BODY or my MIND.
The goons and/or God have made me alternately VERY FAT,  and also spontaneously much thinner.
Maybe I could trick the goons into making me thin.  (You can’t trick God.)
I plan to believe that the fat is in my mind, and that the goons have used directed energy weapons to make me see it in the mirror and feel it too.
If I could BELIEVE sufficiently that I am thin and gorgeous, they’d have to make me thin.
What do you think?
WAIT, no.  If I believed it, the goons would actually be TOTALLY IRRELEVANT.


OK.  I guess it wasn’t my whole morning’s work.  Only an hour during which I also made coffee and took a bath in the lake and posted my clover.  –

God pointed out the other day, that I am lately cutting corners on this site.

When I notice a spelling error or a logjam of grammar I don’t always fix it.

I should always do my best.

I also went to the store to tell the MAYOR about how the BAPTIST PERVERTS OF ASIA HAVE BEEN EXPOSED.  (I knew that he felt really terrible for those girls.)


10:49 am


I was going to post more but

all my morning’s work just disappeared from Evernote.


9:21 am

I picked a four-leaf clover.
It’s so muggy I’m going into the lake instead of the hot tub.
Here’s the song:

Sweet & Innocent

Donny Osmond


OK, by SPECIAL REQUEST we’ll do a two-fer:
“I know that your lips are sweet
but our lips must never meet…”

Go Away Little Girl Live


8:52 am

Dedicated to:   Association of Baptists for World Evangelism
“Thank you Lord!  Thank you for busting my dad’s CHOMO buddies!  Thank you for letting me predict that you would give counsel and vindication to their victims.  You are WONDERFUL!!  THANK YOU JESUS!  BLESS THOSE WOMEN!  BLESS THE TRUTH-TELLERS.  Draw me close and speak to me.  Thank you, Wonderful Jesus.”
Skinny old man, worked for my dad;  he will spend the rest of his life in prison because he molested children.
YET, people like my parents who endorse molesters in MANY WAYS are honored as model citizens.
My folks smile and sign checks to support them and their ‘missionary’ work in BANGLADESH and greater Asia.


Jesus doesn’t approve.
We’re living in a time of very great miracles.
(Or they could repent.  Here’s hoping.)
to keep their PERP out of jail
and their ‘ministry’ intact,
I’ve been praying for these victims and confronting JAY WALSH about his part in the cover-up and very great sin.
And, the ‘CHRISTIAN’ organization supported him and several years ago even STOPPED AN INVESTIGATION JUST WEEKS BEFORE DISCLOSURE OF THEIR REPORT.

Baptist agency comes clean about ex-missionary’s trail of sexual abuse

Starting in 1961, missionary Donn Ketcham served at Memorial Christian Hospital in Malumghat, southeast Bangladesh. He was fired in 1989, for sexually abusing an underage teenage girl, who was labeled as a “willing partner” and coerced to confess.

Starting in 1961, missionary Donn Ketcham served at Memorial Christian Hospital in Malumghat, southeast Bangladesh. He was fired in 1989, for sexually abusing an underage teenage girl, who was labeled as a “willing partner” and coerced to confess. Photo courtesy of ABWE

But the new report, released Tuesday (May 10), shows a far wider trail of abuse, which began in 1964 and continued until 1989.

See more at:

ABWE has hired a female psychologist as mediator (to answer questions and communicate on ABWE’s behalf) at this time, if victims do not desire direct contact with ABWE. As we did not have permission from the psychologist or ABWE to give out her contact information publicly, you can receive it by…

  • Asking us at We will give you the contact info for the psychologist, no questions asked. (Use an anonymous email account or have a close friend use theirs if anonymity is a priority for you.)
  • OR contact ABWE headquarters directly. They ought to be willing to do the same.

Choosing whether or not to have contact with ABWE is up to every individual victim, but every victim has the right to know this is happening and how to get the same information that other victims have been given and are being given at this time.

If you are not a victim but know someone who is, please be sure they have this important information.

The ABWE and Donn Ketcham Investigation
The investigation, which concluded in April 2016, confirmed that Donn Ketcham, an ABWE missionary doctor who served in Bangladesh, engaged in the sexual abuse of nearly 20 minors — most of whom were the children of fellow ABWE missionaries — and 4 adult women. The abuse primarily consisted of improper and medically unnecessary examinations at the hospital in Bangladesh, and included sexual assault and apparent drugging.

This statement from ABWE makes me want to puke beginning with the title:  

“Protecting Our Children”

We Commit to Supporting Victims

We are grateful and indebted to the women and men who boldly and persistently held us accountable. From the women who came forward in July 2002, to the contributors of the MK blog, and everyone else who has supported these individuals in their pursuit of truth and justice, we thank you for continuing to demand responsiveness. We thank those of you who have believed us to be capable of change.

We have worked — and will continue to work — to create an organizational culture where the interest of children is paramount. We accept the obligation to continue to admit, confess and repent of our failures and mistakes to those we have hurt.

We Commit to Telling the Truth

If you want to reed the rest, it is here:

Isn’t this pitiful?

This fake ‘Christian’ organization that permitted travesty to continue, after ALLOWING THEIR STAFF TO FILL YOUNG CHILDREN WITH DEMONS  (references available on request) and now wants to help…
(That makes Jesus puke too.)
So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.  (Revelation 3:16)

Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away.  
(2 Timothy 3:5)  (Been there.  Did that.)

“We’re devastated by the negligence of ABWE leadership in failing to remove Ketcham from the field again and again,” said the family of the underage teen survivor. “We wish that ABWE leaders could comprehend the immeasurable pain that this … continues to cause her even to this day.”


“Over the course of his professional life, Ketcham abused at least 22 individuals, the report concludes. Many were his patients, and some (as young as 8) were given unnecessary pelvic and breast exams. There is evidence that several were heavily drugged with the anesthetic ketamine.”

7:40 am

This is the anniversary of my first marriage.  He was a psychopath just like my dad.  (That’s what victims of narcissistic abuse usually marry.)  I pray for him once in awhile.

“Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence.  Talent will not.  Nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent.  Genius will not.  Unrewarded genius is almost a proverb.  Education alone will not.  The world is full of educated derelicts.  Persistence and determination are omnipotent.”      (Some long-dead president)  (When I was a child my grandpa gave me a dollar every time I recited that.)
Persistent hoaxes can repeatedly ensnare us.  Or at least they threaten our commitment to Truth. They wobble our stance.  If a narrative is maintained, even if we don’t fall FOR it…we often eventually FALL IN WITH IT.  That’s easier than maintaining vigilance on behalf of TRUTH in the face of painful opposition.
(I didn’t learn this from my family of origin so I’m grateful to know it now.)  
(I’m ALSO grateful to know that dads shouldn’t walk around naked in front of little people all the time,  and they should PROTECT CHILDREN WHO ARE SEXUALLY ASSAULTED BY OTHERS and they shouldn’t make their children go INTO THE BATHROOM with them for a heart-to-heart…while DAD TAKES A SHIT.)
(My dad did that for the last time when I was over 50!  I was so grateful that he was FINALLY going to grant me an audience.  I didn’t even recognize that he was laughing his ass off as he sat on his throne.  Good thing he didn’t flush it.)
(Nobody EVER respected a liar more than I did.)  (I have repented.)
(Isn’t that funny?  Just when DAD LEARNS that  HE is required to RESPECT ME.)
(And everybody else, eventually, hopefully, so he won’t  ROT  IN  HELL.)
(That’s about the best gift I could give him, no?)
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“To completely understand a narcissist you have to conceptualize that EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM IS A LIE.”

“To take it further–not ALMOST everything about them is a lie but EVERYTHING from I love you, I hate you, my family hates you, your friends hate you, the world hates you, you are crazy or mentally ill, etc. etc.”
“Don’t forget all the other day-to-day lies, the lies about stupid stuff, the lies about accountability, the lies about other lies, and every other lie about anything and everything.”
“The narcissist downloads these lies into your head and your heart to manage you down, gain power over you, and control you.”
“The prison the Narcissist used to hold you captive was built from all of their lies – the POSITIVE endearing I love you lies and the disabling ones that managed you down every day to control you and eventually disable and destroy you. Narcissists are VERY convincing and polished liars and EVERYTHING they told you was a LIE!”

Orlando Our Atrophied System Has No Truths – Morris

“That sums up the world we’re living in now.”

“We’re all having to give lip service to things we don’t really believe.”

“ISIS and Orlando are both marketing ploys.”

Praying in Tongues – Key to Intercession, your Spiritual Strength & Destiny in the Endtimes

Speaking in tongues releases life; it has birthing power.
I Corinthians 14:4 He that speaketh in an [unknown] tongue edifieth himself; but he that prophesieth edifieth the church. ( Edifieth Brings forth life)
Financial Material: 
Victory over enemy:
Relationship with God;
Fulfill your destiny Etc
The promise of this is the mark in your mouth,speaking in tongues.
No wonder the Apostle Paul said; I speak in tongues more than you all
God Bless you
N Johnson © September 21. 2007



8:12 pm

Josh and George are home.

Would a documented, high level, technology testing program, TARGET generations of families, beginning in early childhood?

Once in this program it is until death.

NO ONE has ever been released…

The hope appears to be to understand [Ed. note: AND EXERCISE]  God given spiritual gifts in these historic scientific programs to include discernment and also understand how and why many victims continue to appear to be not programmable.

The dynamic of spiritual gifts and awareness is not a farfetched esoteric concept, ideation or focus as some might believe.  Spiritual intuitiveness is written and documented in all religions.

1 Corinthians 12:4-11

Now there are diversities of gifts, but the same Spirit.

And there are differences of administrations, but the same Lord.

And there are diversities of operations, but it is the same God which worketh all in all.

But the manifestation of the Spirit is given to every man to profit withal.

For to one is given by the Spirit the word of wisdom; to another the word of knowledge by the same Spirit;

To another faith by the same Spirit; to another the gifts of healing by the same Spirit;

To another the working of miracles; to another prophecy; to another discerning of spirits; to another divers kinds of tongues; to another the interpretation of tongues:

But all these worketh that one and the selfsame Spirit, dividing to every man severally as he will.


I have believed this:
“…the fact is this program in early studies, 100%, likely then, and possibly even today, continues to search for, and too focus on, possible psychic or intuitive abilities.”
(I’d do the same thing if I were Luciferian.)
“Families close to victims become primary targets, also documented in this book, for subliminal influence in ongoing involuntarily commitment efforts of the victim, if she could be programmed.”

Author Renee M. Pittman on the Targeting of Americans Through the Farce of Psychiatry

“Exposing generations of mind control, covert radio frequency, manipulation, subliminal influence, and careless destruction of human lives. The mass population control ideation, globally, has traditionally involved nonconsensual testing programs, by powerful government agencies, hospitals, universities, law enforcement and the military. The effort has been heinously backed and legitimized by

connection with the Association of Psychiatry

resulting in intentional misdiagnosis

which has played a critical role

in the cover-up

and the denial of a

very real nonconsensual program and the TRUTH.”

6:48 pm

I picked three more clovers.

6:00 pm

Ms. Gypsy Soul Tiny House Tour

OK, this is 8′ longer and five inches wider than I was considering but it is VERY cool.

sky cycle pedal powered rolloer coaster japan (3)
This is a pedal-powered roller coaster in Japan.
I’d like to know if the guy in the video is making sound effects or if Japanese just sounds like sound effects in English.
“Everyone should know that an expert in nuclear physics and nuclear medicine, who was in Ecuador during the aftermath of the April “earthquakes” has strong reasons to believe that they were nuclear attacks from a US weapon called rods from god.”
(I think the weaponry is called ‘Rod of God’ which makes more sense.)
(Video too)
Read more here:
Flat Earth PSYOP: CIA Blackop Designed
to Destroy the Truth Movement
(OK.  Do we believe THIS INSTEAD THEN?)
“They justify their preposterous sophistry and wacky ideas by routinely outing NASA as a serially prevaricating government agency, which they are — and then using their well-known deception as a justification to overturn the entire paradigm of modern astrophysics. Talk about throwing the baby out with the bath water.  There is no astronomical scientific truth that the Flat Earthers have left unassailed.”

This gesture means ‘6-6-6’

He knows that.

5:17 pm

I picked 5 more 4-leaf clovers.

3:39 pm

I picked 5 more 4-leaf clovers.  (Some had five.  I’m not probably going to count the leaves anymore.  It’s time-consuming for me.)


1:35 pm

I picked 13 clovers with more leaves each, than the standard ‘3’.

12:32 pm

The Narcissistic Family

“Their harassments are designed to put you over the edge.
…to make you homeless or commit a crime…”
“They have criminal intent.  They want what is worst for you.”
I picked four clovers this morning but I didn’t stick them to my ‘luck by the yard’ project. I gave them away and it was really fun.  People are very impressed and delighted when you give them a four-leaf clover.  When you show them hundreds of fresh green ones they get a little bit freaked out.  I’m learning about these things.  Also, I thought that picking 4-leaf clovers is my favorite hobby ever, and I’ve had THOUSANDS of hobbies, mostly producing a useful item of beauty and endurance.  Picking clover is better than knitting or making lace, but it is NOTHING compared to the fun of giving 4-leaf clovers away.  Isaac wrote himself a temporary knuckle tattoo.  One hand says ‘fuck’.  The other says ‘luck’.  We’re making progress.
So anyway, I gave one of my morning clovers to my dad’s genial employee who was engaged MOWING THE GRASS ON MY END OF THE FENCE I am not shitting you.  My dad did something ADULT and I was so proud of him!
I did a little happy dance.
I didn’t point my fingers and shake my hips
like I did at him before,  when I was thin
and also then I was pointing out how very much he owed me
because he lost our bet
and Jesus is Lord
and fake religion is revealed.
This pride-dance was friendlier.
(But it wasn’t any happier.)
I think it’s OK to be proud of other people.  I think ‘pride goeth before a fall’ only applies to self.  My great-grandpa Isaac used to say:  SELF PRAISE STINKS.  
So anyhow, I’ve been assigned another topical essay.
I’ve been run-down so bad…that now God is running me up, just as far.  

Quitting the Role of a Lifetime | Scapegoat in a Narcissistic Family

Quitting the Role of a Lifetime | Scapegoat in a Narcissistic Family

Quitting the Role of a Lifetime | Scapegoat in a Narcissistic Family

Quitting the Role of a Lifetime | Scapegoat in a Narcissistic Family

Quitting the Role of a Lifetime | Scapegoat in a Narcissistic Family

I’ve been a good scapegoat.
I’ve been the crazy one.
I’ve been the troubled one.
yada, yada, yada…
I played my role of scapegoat well, very very well…
“What I’ve decided is:  FUCK THEM.”
‘Anonymous’ is porn-bombing militant Islamists.  I suppose that’s better than when US military regularly inscribed TORPEDOES and MISSILES with Bible verses.  I don’t know which is more disgusting.   In this case, words from Christ’s Bible might be just as offensive as porn.  Or pork even.
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Why are so many bankers committing suicide?

Why are so many bankers committing suicide?

Why are so many bankers committing suicide?

A devastating security video shows Rossi landing on the pavement on his back, facing the building — an odd position more likely to occur when a body is pushed from a window.

The footage shows the three-story fall didn’t kill Rossi instantly. For almost 20 minutes, the banker lay on the dimly lit cobblestone, occasionally moving an arm and leg.

As he lay dying, two murky figures appear. Two men appear and one walks over to gaze at the banker. He offers no aid or comfort and doesn’t call for help before turning around and calmly walking out of the alley.

9:20 am

I do not believe I’ve ever, not EVER have I heard American leaders use the word ‘RECONCILIATION’.
See the dove and the olive branch?  
(They’re symbolic for peace.  You might not remember.)

Russia Strips Dual-Nationals of Citizenship; Jews Outraged

“I’ve always had two citizenships, two languages, two identities and two cultures. It’s who I am,” said Katya Rouzina, a 27-year-old college Russian instructor and graduate student who expects her Russian passport application will be rejected—as was this reporter’s—because she left Russia before February 1992. Like many Russian expatriates, Rouzina, who moved to the United States when she was 1-year-old, considers her continued tie to Russia a matter of identity. “They can’t just randomly say you’re not a Russian citizen anymore. That just makes me angry,” she said.
“When you were on the other side making your soul contract, being an empath seemed like such an easy job to volunteer for as you were surrounded in unconditional love.  Perhaps you forgot how difficult it would be and now that you’re here, you no longer want this responsibility?”   ?


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I don’t believe Bigfoots really hate dogs.  I think they prefer to slip in and out of our dimension without notice and dogs notice EVERYTHING, and they make noise.  I think that’s why sometimes Bigfoots tolerate dogs…and sometimes they kill them.

If You Love Your Dog Keep It Away From Bigfoot

Woman In Montana Spots Bigfoot After Dogs Act Strangely

“When the tyrant has disposed of foreign enemies by conquest or treaty and there is nothing to fear from them, then he is always stirring up some war or other, in order that the people may require a leader.” – Plato

HEADS UP! BLM Leader Hacked, Plans Reveal ‘Martial Law’ by Chaos at Both Conventions

“THIS HAS BEEN the week of Twitter hacks, from Mark Zuckerberg to a trove of millions of passwords dumped online to, most recently, Black Lives Matter activist DeRay McKesson.”


And the hackers inherit the earth.

White-heart hackers.

Oh yeah…EXPOSURE…it’s now disclosure

…the time for telling lies is OoOo-ver...Multiple Musical Notes on Apple iOS 9.3

yeah, yeah, yeah

(I’m writing a revelation-song.)

I’m learning about emojis.  Josh told me how to say the word.  They’re kind of puny and you can hardly see their details so it takes longer to interpret them than it would to actually reed human language.  🍀  📓   The dark one is a tiny composition book like the dozens I filled during the years when when I was recording ELECTRONIC TORTURE and RAPE.  The other is a four-leaf clover. I guess you can see that one.
Why is July 17 the date on the emoji calendar?
ABSTRACT:  The author hasn’t a clue
“Nightclub”  “Club”  “I’m not going to let you be in my club.”  “I’m going to make my OWN club.”  “This is the ‘HE-MAN-WOMAN-HATERS’ club.  “Garden club”  “I’m going clubbing.  Wanna go clubbing?”  “Clubbing is all about getting laid.”
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C’est tiguidou! | That’s all good!

Tiguidou” is simple, funny, and if you hang out with French Canadians long enough, you’ll hear it all the time. No need for a dictionary to decipher the adorable “tiguidou.”

However, if you think that “tiguidou” is proof enough you are bilingual in French Canadian, read the following and think again: “Tiguidou, l’affaire est ketchup.” The use of condiments has a lot of French slightly confused.

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Military uniforms aren’t really about identifying the participants anymore, right?
They’re about making all the PEOPLE look like OBJECTS;  they’re all the same so we experience less trepidation about killing one.
‘There’s more where that one came from.’
I just saw a picture of one of the queen’s ‘Beefeaters’ face down with heat exhaustion.
That’s the first time I ever thought about those guys’ regular lives.
They have mamas watching TV and seeing their sons pass out from wearing hot wool uniforms to make the queen look important.
They might be skinny, scared, pimple-faced kids.
Probably are.
But their mamas like the way they look in the uniform.

BREAKING: No Orlando shooting victims on life support, nobody needs a ventilator, hospital holds weekly trauma simulations.

What do we believe?

Legalized Propaganda, Cognitive Dissonance, Hegelian Dialectic

and Fake “News”

CNN Fake Newscast Best Quality
You really ought to watch this one:

Lots more links and videos.

See more here:

Orlando Pulse Shooting Hoax – Cop Laughing in Background


8:26 pm

Wheel of Freedom (WUA) 4/4/16–Former NSA Karen Stewart (Hear her story)

Chills and Spills…
THEY SENT HER TO ‘Psych Services’ because she said she was being stalked by NSA people.
They said she was ill and delusional.
She said, “NO, I KNOW who it is because they’re too stupid to remove their NSA NAME-TAGS.”
The Warrior Bride of Christ
I love the wedding dress.
They can’t take your guns unless they take your guts first.

8:14 pm

I picked one 6-leaf clovers after we ate.
I’m so stiff and sore all the time.  I stood on my head when I was in the hospital in January but now I hurt and I don’t move well.  My neck is stiff and my back and ankles and hips and shoulders too.
I feel like those poison medicines aged my body twenty years.
God is giving me a new body.  He told me so even before I started looking for ‘transfiguration’.
He didn’t exactly say ‘new body’ but he said he’d ‘make me 29 again’
and at this point the two concepts overlap a lot.

Wheel of Freedom (WUA) 4/4/16–Former NSA Karen Stewart (Hear her story)

Chills and Spills…


4:50 pm

I picked six more 4-leaf clovers.  (Some had more leaves.)

3:53 pm

You know what amazes me?  

My smart fellas don’t understand

that no amount

of warehousing me

or poisoning me

or shaming me

or even murdering me…

could even in the slightest aspect,

alter the Truth.

 If I have spoken any Truth…it will stand with or without me.

Wouldn’t you think they should know that?


3:36 pm

I picked 15 more mutant clovers.

Isaac says it’s getting scary.

I can always find 4-leaf clovers; he asked why.

I said that God is blessing me.

He said something on the order of congratulations, and it’s about time.

I offered my agreement and did not permit myself even a smirk at the irony.

“I feel quite fearless


the people I love.”

Paloma Faith
Read more at:

“Hope, like faith, is nothing if it is not courageous; it is nothing if it is not ridiculous.” Thornton Wilder
Read more at:

I should be getting one of these, I expect.

New and Improved Tiny House Trailer Made for a Tiny Home

“…which gives us a pretty dang good idea of how to build a tiny home.”


I sang today.  Well, that’s what I call it.

I used to sing all the time, even after I knew

I was being monitored.  Then eventually I

stopped.  It is great to be free. The singing just came out of me.

‘Porn’s job has always been to show what is taboo, but we’ve kind of gotten to the point where we’ve run out of taboos.’

 – Porn performer Kelly Shibari


This is the first robot designed to cause human pain

The pain machine breaks the first rule in science fiction writer Isaac Asimov’s famous “laws of robotics,” which states that machines should never hurt humans.

“No one’s actually made a robot that was built to intentionally hurt and injure someone,” robot designer and artist Alexander Reben told Fast Company.

“I wanted to make a robot that does this that actually exists.

“[It was] important to take it out of the thought experiment realm into reality, because once something exists in the world, you have to confront it. It becomes more urgent. You can’t just pontificate about it.”

Its only weapon is a small needle attached to a long arm, which is used to inflict a small amount of agony on a human victim.

The robot randomly decides whether to attack people who are brave enough to put their hands beneath its arm, although it’s not strong enough to cause major injury.

(That’s what my dad used to do.  He’d pinch me or squeeze my finger and it hurt.

Then he’d ask, “Doesn’t it feel good when I stop”?)

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1:29 pm

THE LORD SAYS… My Word is subject to NO man – TRUMPET CALL OF GOD

This whole thing stole my breath.
“The highly esteemed shall be abandoned.  The self-appointed shall be severely abased.  And shall become slaves in the day of the Lord’s anger.”

Wow! “We got set free and are speaking in tongues”

Three girls from Germany describing their prior experiences,  as clips of the event are presented.
DEMONS are still making noise and messes when they leave.
I don’t believe they will have the freedom to express themselves pretty soon, when Holy Ghost is distributed on ALL FLESH. They’ll just run the other way.


Urinals in Women’s Bathrooms in California For Transgenders Who Have a Penis but Identify as Women

Does this strike anybody else as unnecessarily provocative?

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Death toll changed to 49 to exclude Orlando shooter

This isn’t the first time a shooter has also died; this isn’t a new issue.

What is the point of this?

The numeric ‘correction’ must indicate some kind of symbolic nose-thumbing.

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Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:




Summer Days (Bob Dylan Ukulele Cover)

My grandma played the ukelele.
She was a flapper.

I should be getting one of these, I expect.

New and Improved Tiny House Trailer Made for a Tiny Home

“…which gives us a pretty dang good idea of how to build a tiny home.”


I sang today.  Well, that’s what I call it.

I used to sing all the time, even after I knew

I was being monitored.  Then eventually I


It is great to be free.

The singing just came out of me.

12:24 PM

I took a jacuzzi and a shower and picked THREE CLOVERS.  Two with five leaves and one with four.

10:36 am

10:13 am

Is the International Space Station just another fairy tale?
(no kidding)

Adorable 3 year old is very happy to dance!

(From Taiwan’s Got Talent or some show like that.)

(I love watching bald guys doing
the ‘Random Dance’.)
Judge 1:  “That’s ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE, right?”
Judge 2:  “You think the kid has a chip?”

9:54 am

THEY ARE SAYING, that if we experience the ‘Mandela Effect’ we are from ‘old Earth’ and probably just arrived here.  It’s possible.  God’s going to transfer some of us to ‘New Earth’ at some point.

For, behold, I create new heavens and a new earth: and the former shall not be remembered, nor come into mind.

For as the new heavens and the new earth, which I will make, shall remain before me, saith the Lord, so shall your seed and your name remain.

Nevertheless we, according to his promise, look for new heavens and a new earth, wherein dwelleth righteousness.

And I saw a new heaven and a new earth: for the first heaven and the first earth were passed away; and there was no more sea.

Pete Tsim On Orlando Terrorist Attack Is Radical Islam Actually The Problem

“Da GOv-herment blames potsies…”
“WIFOUT A GOv-herment   almost none of thees sheet would be possible…”
“Do you constantly feel confused as it concerns the reality of your relationship?
Do you always find yourself explaining instead of participating in normal conversations?” 
(These narcissism gurus are very accurate.)

Those RED FLAGS – just what are they in reality? Simply put they are your intuition or your mind reviewing, thinking and piecing things together and trying to draw on logic to understand a situation or actions – but most importantly intuition is telling us that there is something not quite right that needs attention.

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9:32 am

“Explain to him who you all really are!”

Galaxy Quest – We pretended, we lied.

“He doesn’t understand.  Explain as you would a child…”

Captain Taggert:  “Our berileum sphere is wire with plaster on it…it’s all fake.”
“On our planet we ‘pretend’ to ‘entertain’ and…I AM SO SORRY!  GOD I AM SO SORRY!”

9:22 am

‘A black man should be killed if he’s messing around with a white woman,’ he once said.

And if a black woman was messing with a white man?

‘Then she dies. Kill her too.’  (Mohammed Ali)


(White Baptists only want to kill the baby.)

FRENCH GOVERNMENT Issues “Terror App” For Smartphones To Warn Of Impending Or Real-Time Muslim Terrorist Attack

What a time to be alive.
Brandon:  “I’m not a complete brain-case, OK?  I understand completely that it’s just a TV show.  I know there’s no…berileum sphere…”
Captain Taggert:   (Interrupting)  “Stop.   Stop stop…”
Brandon:  “…no ship…”
Captain Taggert:  “It’s all real.”
Brandon:  “OMG…I KNEW IT. (Laughing)  I KNEW IT!  HA HA!
Captain Taggert:  “… we NEED YOUR HELP”



Do we believe this guy or is he one of those scary ‘black-eyed children’?
He recorded that Mohammed Ali’s death/non-death was another incidence of Mandela Effect…RIGHT BEFORE HE DIED.
He said, “Mohammed Ali…that’s a really weird one…”
Do we care what the ‘high council’ wants?  Are we caring about that?

8:49 am

The 100 Greatest Movie Insults of All Time

This is actually a trailer for the Karma movie.
I like this one.  It gives me visions:
“What you have just said is one of the most insanely idiotic things I have ever heard.”
“Everyone in this room is now dumber…for having listened to it.”
“May God have mercy on your soul.”
(This is a well-considered collection.  Hysterical.  Crude though, so I won’t post the link.)
“You are a sad, strange little man.  And you have my pity.”  (Buzz Lightyear)

While The Formerly Christian Western World Burns The Real Glory Days Of Christendom Are Upon Us

“In the wink of an eye, or so it seems, America went from one nation to another. If you put this into a greater historical continuum, such as America 1956 to America 2016, this change becomes not only more apparent, but the differences are just magnified. If Leave it to Beaver was the idealized American family of that time period, then today’s same family would see Beaver’s parent’s divorced, Ward going through sex change to become Wanda while suffering from long-term drug issues to cope with the fact that he is dying of AIDS, June would be a tattoo-covered, 50-shades-of-grey reading single mom with bipolar disorder who works as a waitress by day and turns five-dollar tricks at the local truckstop by night to pay for her hair extension and fake nails, Wally would be a runaway who dresses all in black and has a history of suicide attempts, and Beaver would have converted to Islam and be plotting how to explode his first bomb while unfortunately blowing up everything else around him except his intended target.”

“Change does not happen gradually as people say, but the steps to change happen slowly and the transition takes place quickly, much like exponential growth in mathematics.”

(Look at this good God.  I confess my unbelief in mathematics and He starts teaching me about its use.)

“…there are still Christians talking about the days of America’s Christian past, and how nice they were, and how we must fight for Christian social change in society, and how we have an litany of perceived obligations to greater society at a major expense to us, and so forth. These are the same people who are afraid to talk about Christianity in a bold, uncompromising manner, for fear that they will lose their jobs, social standing, or other worldly benefit. I see it  as the proverbial ostrich who puts his head in a hole at the sight of danger, thinking that if a predator does not see him then he will be fine.”
“Fellow Christian, American and Western European society does not like you. It hates you for what you believe in. It only likes you when you agree with it. If you do not agree with it, it turns on you. Call it an abusive relationship, a bad friend, whatever you want, but it does not care about you. It only cares about itself, and it will rob and murder you and your family if it sees there is a perceived benefit to doing just that. You are not safe in your own society any more.”
“This is a wonderful time, but it is also a terrifying time. Torturing people to death is not something to be taken lightly, and I can hardly think of anybody but only an insane person would neither see nor feel a great sense of concern, and even fear for what the true consequences of this look like.”
(The consequences can be mitigated if we recognize that our own personal negligence and pride is responsible for this condition. WE MUST STAND UP AGAINST TORTURE AND EVIL NOW.)

Hey, How About Putting A Muslim Migrant Center Right Next Door To A Nudist Camp…What Could Possibly Go Wrong?

By BI: Nudists in Dresden, Germany are protesting the proposal for a migrant home to be built near their nudist colony over safety fears.

Breitbart  A new migrant home is scheduled to be built in the town of Mortizburg outside of the eastern German city of Dresden. Neighbours of the proposed home, which is to cost €1.5 million, are up in arms over safety concerns because the town is home to a nudist camp.

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8:01 am

How is it that people don’t want to know the mess we’re in?  Why recoil from learning about our conundrum ?

If a guy were sitting at his kitchen table and I saw somebody sneaking around outside his house planning to enter with weapons and ill intent, wouldn’t the guy want me to mention it to him?  

7:55 am

“What more can we do? In a nutshell, all you westerners, unless you completely ban Islam, you’re screwed.”  (Walid Shoebat)
(I could be a lot more help guiding my intrepid readers through the quag of shocking-information mire IF I HAD SOMEBODY WITH WHOM TO DISCUSS CURRENT EVENTS AND GOD.  I guess He knows that.  “Blind leading the blind.”  He said He’d keep us out of the ditch.)

“We Warned You Three Days Ago That A Massacre By Muslims In Florida Was Coming And No One Listened.

Americans Should Care More About Gun Rights More Than They Care About The Massacre.

God Bless Gun Rights.”

I don’t know much about this guy, Walid Shoebat, but I’ve heard his name for years.

Apparently he was a terrorist and became a Christian.
(But I’ve been handed that line before.)
(I guess I could find out.  If I PAID HIM MONEY I could speak to him on the phone.)

“For years we said “lock and load” and no one cared. We said that Ramadan is the perfect season for terrorism, stay indoors, no one listened. We reported thousands of Christians massacred by Muslims and no one cared. Now that 50 homosexuals were killed we should all care and bend the knee to the LGBT who are pro-Muslim and anti-gun”?

“The idiot who okayed Mateen to carry arms should be hung from his testicles.”

(If we LOVE gun rights but we withhold them from individuals…who are we going to get to vet the contestants?  No matter which human reviews and decides, we’ve come to another beginning of the identical problem.  Eventually only his buddies will have guns.  I’m glad Jesus has a handle on this violence-to-others issue.  Shouldn’t a fellow Christian expect the same?)

I can’t tell you how many times I dealt with the FBI, pointed to them from contacts all the way in Libya pin-pointing with perfect accuracy terrorist movements, weapons cache … the FBI simply did not care.

Even from my own family, we pointed them where and how to catch them and they did not care.

(He has tons of information.  When he provides it to US law enforcement and intelligence entities..does he actually EXPECT THEM TO INTERVENE in Muslim-initiated violence?  Is he stupid)  (Or is he a shill?)

Scientists Prove Aliens Exist Using Mathematics

(I can’t bring myself to believe in math.)

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Militarized USDA and EPA using SWAT teams to terrorize innocent people including lemon growers and small farmers

The federal government is becoming increasingly militarized, with numerous agencies now employing their ownSWAT teams to conduct raids on raw milk producers, beekeepers, lemon growers – or anyone else who runs afoul of agency policies.

The trend has increased during Obama’s presidency and is not only costing taxpayers enormous amounts of money, but also terrorizing citizens who could hardly be considered dangerous criminals by any sane estimation.

“Guns in the hands of the bureaucrats”

(Can you think of anything scarier and more stupid?)

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Bombshell study admits


increase suicide attempts in teens

and are completely worthless

for treating depression

Explosive Siberian Craters, Giant Sinkholes Swallow Bulldozer, Truck and Man In His Yard

Witnesses see lights in the sky and hear explosions.The EARTH IS SWALLOWING PEOPLE.

(I guess that’s happened before.)

OUTAGES – EBT, ATM, All major mobile carriers and now DISH NETWORK?

Terrorism related?


Fear Of Loneliness From Narcissistic Abuse

“I hate my mother so much for what she did to me.  And if she were standing in front of me right now, back from the dead,  I would want to bash her head against a wall.  And make her feel as humiliated and powerless as she did me.”

“The fear of loneliness is just another after-effect of narcissistic abuse.”