I picked three four-leaf clovers this morning but it’s kind of raining and there are lots of bugs so I came back in to work some more.

7:58 am


7:31 pm

I made buffalo wings with rice and red beans.  Cucumber spears.  Mango chutney which is incredible.  I’m going to make samosas again pretty soon.  Maybe tomorrow.  George said dinner was excellent.  Josh says I have to feel good about myself without depending on others.  He ate a lot too.


(I don’t do math.  How many does it take to make ‘divers’?)

For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places.

For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be earthquakes in divers places, and there shall be famines and troubles: these are the beginnings of sorrows.

And great earthquakes shall be in divers places, and famines, and pestilences; and fearful sights and great signs shall there be from heaven.

Chicago Investigator Blows Whistle On Corrupt Police Review Board

“Despite a long history with law enforcement and the IPRA, Davis is now suing the agency alleging that he was fired for not listening to his superiors when they commanded him to change his reports to favor officers accused of misconduct.”

Aliens Creating Portal (Wow footage) & NASA Witches?

Japan.  Quite extraordinary.

Aliens caught on tape in china rapid shape changes and gone

China.  More extraordinary.

Did We Just Go To War? Indiana Bombarded With Helicopters, Explosions, and Gunshots

Gangstalking down unda- the police state 

It is what it is,
No denying it,
Us ti`s are just the first wave,
Fuck them,

They robbed me of my entire life and many others,
If I stay silent with what I know,
I’ll b just as guilty as the filth behind this.”

“You’re forced into feeling and living like a felon…  The fucking police state that nobody even knows is here.”

F B I documents shed more light on State Secrets about Targeted Individuals

You know what I really want to find out?  I want to learn that every single ‘beautiful’ woman in the world is really actually a reptile.


Prof David Haslam, chairman of the National Obesity Forum, said: “As a clinician, treating patients all day every day, I quickly realised that guidelines from on high, suggesting high-carbohydrate, low-fat diets were the universal panacea, were deeply flawed.

“Current efforts have failed – the proof being that obesity levels are higher than they have ever been, and show no chance of reducing despite the best efforts of government and scientists.”

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Supreme Court Allows Monsanto To Sue Farmers

The ruling left in tact a federal appeals court decision to throw out a 2011 lawsuit from the Organic Seed Growers and Trade Association that sought to prevent Monsanto from claiming patents on genetically-modified seeds.

The suit would have prevented Monsanto from destroying the lives of thousands of farmers.

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MANHATTAN: Russian banker who U.S. prosecutors say was involved with a spy ring operating in New York City that sought to collect economic and other intelligence was sentenced to 2-1/2 years in prison on Wednesday – @AceNewsServices


AIG Exposed as a wing of CIA spying and terrorism (and that is why they were bailed out)

SHOW NOTES and MP3: https://www.corbettreport.com/?p=4956

Most people know “American International Group” as the recipient of the largest bailout in history, but there is much more to this giant insurance company than that. From ties to “Wild” Bill Donovan’s OSS to Arkansas money laundering to 9/11 insider trading, today we explore the allegations and connections that continue to haunt the once impervious AIG.

Linda Moulton Howe: UFO Breakthrough in 2016 – March 22, 2016
Part 1 of a Fascinating Investigation into UFO Secrecy
You’ve Never Heard Linda Moulton Howe Like This Before!
Join Dark Journalist Daniel Liszt for the exciting return of Coast to Coast AM Investigative Reporter and star of the History Channel’s Ancient Aliens series Linda Moulton Howe! In Part 1 of this fascinating episode, Linda, in a rare and controversial prediction, reveals that she has received inside information from trusted sources that 2016 will be the year that at long last the reality of life beyond the Earth will be acknowledged officially by the political leadership and the UFO question and alien presence will be announced!”
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Anonymous Hits New York Stock Exchange, World Bank, The Fed, & Vatican — Total Media Blackout

“Make no mistake that this operation has already been extremely effective — evolving and growing rapidly. The fact that global corporate media is refusing to report on these numerous high-profile attacks is indicative of the fear the 1% have of OpIcarus garnering massive public support. The attempt to conceal the scope and breadth of this operation from public purview reveals the visceral fear the elite harbor toward those they prey upon. It seems the only thing the ruling class can do now is attempt to conceal and suppress the information about what’s transpiring in hopes of keeping the populace ignorant.”

“Officer of the Year” Sentenced to Life in Prison for Horrifying Child Porn and Abuse

“Harding, who is married with three children, would spend his shifts posting child porn with an app called Kik messenger that allowed him to access a chat room called #toddlerfuck, where child porn was viewed and exchanged, according to a report by PINAC.
“Officers of the year, as the Free Thought Project has pointed out time and again, raping, murdering, and molesting, is nothing new. However, being given a life sentence is incredibly rare.”

Unbelievable video shows six month old baby girl WATER SKIING

  • Zyla is just six months old – but she is already a proficient water skier 
  • A popular video shows Zyla skiing nearly 700 feet on a Florida lake
  • The owners of a water ski school in Winter Haven made the cute video
  • Zyla is the daughter of a champion barefoot water skier, Keith St.Onge and a champion show skier, Lauren Lane St Onge 

2:26 pm


Karen Hudes, former attorney at the World Bank.
“She now makes her career as an anti-bank activist billing herself as the “World Bank Whistleblower”. Using that as her brand, Hudes has been able to build a small but devoted following among consumers of the so-called alternative media.”

You Don’t Have To Answer When The Narcissist Comes Banging On Your Door

What a relief!
“You can’t tell a narcissist anything…even in your own home.  It’s HIS home as far as he’s concerned.”

Jehovah’s Witnesses ‘hid’ over 1,000 sex-abuse cases

“The Jehovah’s Witnesses Church in Australia failed to report to police more than 1,000 cases of child sexual abuse going back more than 60 years, a government investigation into abuse and its aftermath heard on Monday.”

Electronic headband that could end migraine misery for millions is approved on the NHS

  • £250 headband works by emitting electrical pulses to the brain
  • Used for 20 minutes a day or when migraine strikes to ease symptoms 
  • Battery powered device found to work on between 40 and 75% of patients 
  • Experts say Cefaly could eliminate the need for drugs in some sufferers 

Thousands of Roma gipsies descend on sleepy French town in their colourful caravans to pay homage to their patron saint ‘Sarah the Black’

  • Every May Roma gipsies travel to the sleepy French town of Saintes-Maries-de-la-Mer, near Arles, on pilgrimage
  • They are there to pay homage to their patron saint, the enigmatic Black Sarah, and stay in the town for a week
  • Carry a statue of ‘Sarah the Black’ to the sea after a church service and a procession to re-enact her arrival in France
  • The pilgrimage is a unique religious and social event for Europe’s gipsies as it allows them to come together
(I really love gypsy wagons.)
Gypsies play guitar and dance in front of their folklore wagon on May 24, 2016 during the procession down to the French shoreline
The Roma Gypsies stay in the small town to celebrate Black Sarah for one week - but because she is not an official saint of the Catholic Church, apart from this annual outing to the ocean her statue is usually situated in the crypt of the local church
Gypsies sing and play guitar between their folklore wagons shortly before the procession to the sea with the statue of the saint

12:39 pm

I’m making sausage gravy for Josh.  There are biscuits left over from yesterday.

Why Narcissistic Mother’s Golden Child Is Male When The Black Sheep Is Female

Golden-child:  “They turn them into emasculated little pussy-boys.”

My president is in Vietnam and he ate noodles with Anthony Bourdain.  He also did beat-box for a rapper,  in Ho Chi Minh City.
I can’t even think of anything snarky to say!
WWIII vs being a star.
Glad he’s not worried.

Seniors Now the Fastest Growing Demographic of Cannabis Users

How One Incredible New Invention Anticipates the Reversal of Biblical Curses
“What we need to learn from that is that we really have to get with the program and understand that with every day that passes, we’re getting one day closer to the geula. Hashem is basically preparing the ground so we can relate with Godly concepts, and so that we can see with our own eyes. The world is even evolving to a different dimension.”

UNIVISION Anchor Booed for Trashing Trump, Speaking Spanish at Commencement… ‘Get off the stage!’

At a commencement!

Fukushima: 600 Tons Of Melted Radioactive Fuel Still Missing

“The company hopes to locate and start removing the missing fuel from 2021, Naohiro Masuda, TEPCO’s chief of decommissioning told ABC’s Foreign Correspondent program.  He added that Japan does not yet possess the technology to extract the melted uranium fuel.”
(Nor does anybody else.)
See here:   

11:31 am

“Rowdy” Roddy Piper Admits ‘They Live’ is a documentary

He and his big black friend always remind me of the dynamic duo in the Christian tracts printed by Chick Publications.  The Christians are always a big white guy and a big black guy.  They’re very muscular and look a lot like Piper and the other guy.

Rowdy Piper Talks They Live, Illuminati & More!

RIP, Rowdy

Missile expert talks Flat Earth – Explains ‘CURVATURE’ is NOT USED.

“We are already denied by our parents who also called us CRAZY when we BROUGHT UP THE ABUSE.”

The Same Way You’re Validated By Others’ Stories The Narcissist Is Injured

“You can’t have THIS MANY DIFFERENT PEOPLE coming out of nowhere with the same story with the EXACT SAME STORY…”
“…what this is, and why it’s happening…”


The judge refused to even acknowledge her although she was using a microphone.
Handcuffs.  Jail.   2 year-old daughter in custody.
Heartbreaking video.
(Yes.  The assault falls within prohibitions of a RAPE STATUTE.)
“Dylan Days” in Hibbing, Minnesota isn’t happening this year.  
Happy birthday to him anyway, #75.

The Abuser Who Awakened You To Narcissism Is The First Domino

“I was raised by them.  I date them.  I breed them.  That is what’s eating me alive.”

Israeli Start-Up To Provide DHS With Facial Recognition Tech That Digs Up Character Traits

(YEA!!!   Now at least somebody will know I’m not crazy!)
(Also, they might acknowledge a certain consecration.)
(Or of course, they could LIE about the system and it’s conclusions…)

Further and further we go into the beyond-1984 nightmare of big brother technology.

An Israeli start-up claims that its technology can take one look at a person’s face and realize character traits that are undetectable to the human eye.

The Washington Post reports:

Faception said it’s already signed a contract with a homeland security agency to help identify terrorists. The company said its technology also can be used to identify everything from great poker players to extroverts, pedophiles, geniuses and white collar-criminals.

“We understand the human much better than other humans understand each other,” said Faception chief executive Shai Gilboa. “Our personality is determined by our DNA and reflected in our face. It’s a kind of signal.”

Faception has built 15 different classifiers, which Gilboa said evaluate with 80 percent accuracy certain traits. The start-up is pushing forward, seeing tremendous power in a machine’s ability to analyze images.

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My hair started falling in my face yesterday; I thought it was because I was perspiring.  (Like I never did that before.)  BUT, then I saw that there is a chunk in the front that is about 2 inches shorter than it was when I went to bed the night before. Weird, huh?  It’s better than last month when I woke up with that enormous bruise on my thigh and the big lump in the center of it.  That hurt.  The hair thing is just a nuisance.

The Curse of the Bastard- Do You Have It?   –Sheila Zilinsky

Sheila prays…powerfully…for deliverance for listeners who identify with her history.  (Her life sounds very much like my own.)  Wouldn’t it be nice to be free of all those demonic lies?  Pray along with Sheila…
I just had the most amazing thing happen.  I was washing dishes and I squirted some soap into the water and five tiny bubbles escaped.  Four dropped immediately and disappeared.  The fifth though, started going back and forth in front of my face.  Then it went over to the stove, then it came back and very nearly touched my nose.  (It did that twice.)  I stopped what I was doing to watch it.  It came to my nose again, then faked me out near other things too.  Eventually (minutes?) it landed on the very tip of a bristle on a vegetable brush…and it didn’t pop!.  So, I watched it sit there for a long time.  It looked like something was moving inside the bubble but the light wasn’t good so I picked up the vegetable brush (natural fiber) and carried it to the window in the door and watched as it swirled with shadows and spinning things.  I wanted to see what was inside of it so bad!  The bubble teased me; the motion of its contents would slow then speed up around and ’round, like a kid going downhill in one of those plastic balls that are ‘for daredevils’.
 I prayed with Sheila Zilinsky.  I’ve been longing to receive some Christian counseling and deliverance.  (“You can’t COUNSEL out a demon.”)  Even though I have no believers around me, God sent me what I needed.  The Curse of the Bastard is exactly right.  I prayed and worshiped and some yelling other sounds/air escaped through my mouth.  With spirits attached; I’ve done this before.  Great morning.   Oh yeah, music started on my computer again.  I can’t ever understand the words.  Last time it sounded like:  I’m down.  Calm down.  (Nice suggestion anyway.)  Today it was something about hanging the DJ.   I’ll probably miss sitting here for countless hours when I get my real life.  Probably not a lot though.

7:26 am

Isn’t it great how Truth is using the enemies’ tools against them?  TV has been really good for satan’s followers, by spreading lies and spiritual wickedness and entraining our minds.   Then they changed it to digital HD to facilitate watching us.  Now it identifies our very hearts…AND ALSO THEIRS.
I cut my medicine in half again.  I understand it’s dangerous to stop all at once with these poison medications.  I haven’t been drinking alcohol since Isaac left; I was hoping I’d lose some weight but so far no good and it’s been weeks.

Narcissists Redefine “Success” So They Can Call You a Failure

If anarchists are idealists, they may simply be likened to someone who finds himself swimming in a cesspool, and rather than paddling about looking for the area with the least amount of floating feces, seeks to climb out of the pool completely.   (Robert Higgs)

Why are aliens afraid of Jesus Christ? Real life story of a mother protecting her children.

“People don’t awake when they are feeling good — no, they awake when feeling low, since their measurement of the programming in which they live is correct: It is hollow, evil, cold as steel and the matrix wants you to trade cold comfort for change.”          (Soren Dreier)
I love it when Alex Jones tells us the number of pages in some big book he red.  And just when I’m enjoying that?  He puts a cherry on top by telling us how much he paid for it.  At least he’s promoting reeding.

Antidepressants in America are causing suicide rates to soar, especially among young women

The lead author of that study, Professor Peter Gotzsche, said: “Antidepressants don’t work in children, that is pretty clear. In the randomized trials, children say that they don’t work for them, but they increase their risk of suicide.”

He said that the actions of Big Pharma is this regard are unsettling: “What I get out of this colossal under-reporting of suicides is that [antidepressants] likely increase suicides in all ages. … It is absolutely horrendous that they have such disregard for human lives.”

This one does when he’s shopping for votes…
Is Trump the antichrist?  I know a MUCH BIGGER LION.
(Actually I know a couple.)  At least the star is right side up.

Narcissists blame and project – It is YOUR fault always no matter what, and you DIDN’T even do anything but somehow there is an argument that came out of the blue.

“Narcissists simply bait you with many conversations in an effort to constantly manage you down and keep you confused. Just with a normal conversation it almost seems like they are testing you or even mocking you. They are gauging your reactions to see just how far they can push you to get a chaotic reaction. They want you to react emotionally and after they bait you to get a reaction they will tell YOU to calm down, or say you are overreacting and make you internalize their disappointment with you. They want the upper hand always to feel in control so the whole point of this is to get you unhinged and they can and will get down and dirty to achieve this. Conversations are always a competition with them just like everything else with a Narcissist. Think of it like this, it is like the Narcissist purposely punches you in the face and then gets angry at YOU for reacting to that punch!”
(Every day of my life with my dad and mom.  But now I’m ‘no-contact’ and I’m happier than I ever was before!!)  (lonely though)
See more at:
Alex Jones says if we get off our butts and support Donald Trump, God will give us a hundred years reprieve.  Do we really want that?  (He didn’t cite a Bible reference; no surprise there.)  Then he ridiculed Glenn Beck some more, this time ABOUT CLAIMING TO SPEAK FOR GOD!
Even Phyllis Schlafly likes Trump.  She’s going to be a national delegate.  

Live crocs invade Museum of Natural History in new exhibit

“I think one of the things we hope from this exhibition is that people come to understand that crocodilians are really an interesting group of animals,” said George Amator, director of the Sackler Institute for Comparative Genomics.

“That they come in many different sizes and shapes, they have a very interesting evolutionary history, they have complex behaviors, they are threatened by our impact on the environment and that they are much more than the dangerous animals from our nightmares.”

More at:   http://nypost.com/2016/05/24/live-crocs-invade-museum-of-natural-history-in-new-exhibit/





1:24 pm

I only found two 4-leaf clovers today because it is VERY buggy and muggy outside.

Bill Cosby WILL STAND trial on sex assault charges after judge hears rape accuser’s claims actor told her to drink wine and take ‘herbal medication’ to relax before unconscious assault

  • Bill Cosby, 78, will stand trial on sex assault charges Judge Elizabeth McHugh ruled on Tuesday
  • Andrea Constand, 42, the women who is accusing Cosby of raping and drugging her in 2004, did not testify in court Tuesday
  • Constand’s affidavit was read in court in which she claimed the actor gave her ‘herbal medication’ and ordered her to drink wine before the assault
  • ‘I had no strength in my legs. They felt rubbery and like jelly. I felt spacey. Everything was blurry or dizzy,’ Constand told police at the time  
  • If convicted on these charges, Cosby faces up to 10 years in prison and a $25,000 fine 
“Going solo: Cosby was not joined by his wife Camille (above in November 2014) or any other family members as he arrived at court Tuesday morning”
(Don’t you just love seeing arrogant old perverts on trial?)
(and this is only the FIRST victim…)
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11:39 am

FIRST American pays for his meal by swiping his hand across RFID scanner

(Actually I red about people doing that before Y2K.  Wisconsin, I think.)

Obama and Bush now have arrest warrants for war crimes. GOOD!!!

RT News. Obama, Bush and Cheney run the high risk of being arrested and tried for war crimes if they leave America. The international court is catching up with these war criminals, but don’t count your chickens just yet. I am sure that Obama has something up his sleeve to avoid this happening. Nevertheless, at least Americans might wake up to how evil their government really is.

Bush Convicted of War Crimes in Absentia  (2012)

The Kuala Lumpur War Crimes Commission found George W. Bush guilty of war crimes in absentia for the illegal invasion of Iraq.

“At the end of the week-long hearing, the five-panel tribunal unanimously delivered guilty verdicts against Bush, Cheney, Rumsfeld and their key legal advisors who were all convicted as war criminals for torture and cruel, inhumane and degrading treatment.”

(If this reptilian invasion is demonstrated, wouldn’t that put a different light on the morality-question of why God would require the Hebrews to kill every living thing in the cities of the giants?  It was probably VERY IMPORTANT.  Still would be, right?)
What’s happened?  I thought these characters retained image-masters to make sure they don’t look stupid?

Baby Talks At 4 Months

(This was prophesied several years ago.  By Heidi Baker, for one.  I’m thinking Neville Johnson too.)

Surprise! 7-week Old Baby Says “Hello”

There are about a zillion videos of very young babies talking.  In 99 percent of them, they’re saying “I love you”.  Isn’t that amazing?  (And also doesn’t it sorta make sense?)

Amazing Babies Dancing on Roller Skates

What Others Dare Not Say
David Icke
Judaism and Zionism are DIFFERENT THINGS.
Jews are VICTIMS of a political system.
Zionism is NOT about religion.

Princess Diana’s Secret Daughter Sarah Meets With Prince Charles

Stolen ova from Diana/sperm obtained prior to their wedding
The girl is certainly better looking than her paternal relatives.  And her brothers.
My guess is there exist a great number of cloned replicas.
Did Charles kill Camilla’s mom?  She thinks so.


I’ve seen drones go over my house two times but I’d have to look up the dates.  They were white with the rounded part on top near the middle.
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9:13 am

REPTILIAN aliens Secret tape (They are in the U.S. Gov)


“Some people call them demonic.  In the Islamic culture they call them jins.  All different names, but the same entities.”
Rothschilds, Rockefellers, Greenspan…
Sacrifices to the gods…the gods are these entities…
Blood drinking …black magic…
(Seriously, I’m quoting  but it feels like I’m writing the back cover of a sleazy fifties novel.)

The Truth about reptilians by George Carlin

Reagan’s administration (at this point) had seen 250 (+/-) members investigated or charged with criminal activity.

Cops Tase Man to Death, Whine About Broken Cuffs, and High-Five Each Other…IN FRONT OF VICTIM’S FAMILY

On a 911 call, Mary Ann Sherman told a dispatcher her son was on drugs and was having a mental breakdown.

She stressed he was unarmed and asked that responders not hurt him. It was the first time she had ever called the police in her life, she told CNN.

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You know, ‘governments’ are extinguishing the individual.  They control almost all aspects of our environment and corporate lives and even our personal lives and they want to have a continual stream of information about us.  The only reason anything remains uncensored and regulated is that they haven’t gotten around to it yet.

Austrian election was rigged, a village with nearly 150% voter turnout… This fraud is very blatant, and they don’t even care.

These numbers on an official governmental site: 9026 eligible to vote and 12599 valid votes. All 300 extra “votes” go to the pro immigration leftist. Un-be-lievable.
(And people would have us believe the American-way is diminishing in popularity.)
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Two sets of eyes, very distinct.  What do we make of this?
Ron Paul appears in this video with the liquid crystal distortion of his face on slow-running HD.  Is he a reptilian?  What do we make of this?  I can’t imagine reptilians are the only ones who use holograms.  BUT, maybe we ALL ARE REPTILIAN?  We all maintain some demons, if they haven’t been eliminated.  What to think?
(Dr. Paul is at 26.25.)  (REALLY interesting around 33.)
This is going to be so easy!  We will be able to SEE the demons and we will KNOW who is who.  We’ll REED BRAINS and we’ll know if people are telling the truth about things.
“Thank you, Jesus.  Sorting out humanity is a breeze for you.  Now it’s going to be easier for us.  Thank you for ‘alien technology’.  This is like ‘They Live” but everybody gets a pair of sunglasses. Now if they’d just put them on.”


Here’s a place I don’t have to visit when I go to Norway.




It took three stone-carvers 14 years to carve this obelisk.  (‘Shaft of Baal’, satan’s penis, supposedly.)

What the World Rejected: Hitler’s Peace Offers, 1933-1939 – Time to face the facts

“This article from 1940 by Dr. Friedrich Stieve provides an overview of Hitler’s various peace initiatives from the time he was first duly appointed as Chancellor in 1933 until war was declared on Germany in 1939.  It demonstrates clearly how these efforts at preserving world peace were thwarted by British, French, American and Russian war mongers and their string pullers, the International Bankers who had an entirely different agenda to which Hitler’s proposals and his model of National Socialism posed a huge threat.  Thus, they declared that “Hitler was a menace to the world and must be stopped!”,  employing atrocity propaganda, false quotes, or quotes taken out of context, and disinformation to propagate and perpetuate their own narrative, to incite nations to war, and to always shift the blame away from themselves.”
Read more here:
DE NIRO 2222222222222

Robert De Niro Announces His Own Vaccine Documentary

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Robert De Niro to Produce Big-Pharma Documentary

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Mythical creature
In European bestiaries and legends, a basilisk is a legendary reptile reputed to be king of serpents and said to have the power to cause death with a single glance. Wikipedia
AbilitiesLeaves deadly venom, Spits poison, Gazes lethally


baz’-i-lisk (tsepha`, tsiph`oni, from obsolete root tsapha`, “to hiss”:

Isaiah 11:814:2959:5Jeremiah 8:17Proverbs 23:32 m. In Proverbs 23:32, the King James Version has “adder,” margin “cockatrice”; in the other passages cited the King James Version has “cockatrice,” margin “adder” (except Jeremiah 8:17, no margin):

The word is from basiliskos, “kinglet,” from basileus, “king,” and signifies a mythical reptile hatched by a serpent from a cock’s egg. Its hissing drove away other serpents. Its look, and especially its breath, was fatal. According to Pliny, it was named from a crown-like spot on its head. It has been identified with the equally mythical COCKATRICE (which see). In all the passages cited, it denotes a venomous serpent (see ADDERSERPENT), but it is impossible to tell what, if any, particular species is referred to. It must be borne in mind that while there are poisonous snakes in Palestine, there are more which are not poisonous, and most of the latter, as well as some harmless lizards, are commonly regarded as deadly. Several of the harmless snakes have crownlike markings on their heads, and it is quite conceivable that the basilisk myth may have been founded upon one of these.

(International Bible Encyclopedia)

Reptilian Snake-person Hissing!!


Human Hybrid Reptilian Snake Hissing Possession “Caught On Live TV” HD

I am a classic co-dependent people-pleaser…and that makes me unpleasant to others and myself.  I just realized that I am addicted to work.  I’m not a workaholic, but I am a productivity-addict.  I self-medicate to make myself feel worthwhile, and well.  I just realized this; I’m making biscuits for strawberry shortcake and we have half of a perfectly good pineapple cake on the counter.  Cream cheese frosting.  I’m trying to change.  I’ve been trying to change since I could talk and was told for the first time to shut up.  Now I expect Jesus to change me, and He has a lot.  I’ve got to get over thinking there is anything I could do that would make Him love me more.