1/6/16
3:52 pm
Really shitty day, but I got George’s dinner bubbling on the range:

This message is for Adam. Others, please witness this attempt to obtain my evidence.

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Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

2:45 PM (5 minutes ago)

to Margaret, David, christine.ratt., Eric, Tom, jim, ANDREA, Alfred, a, Kevin, Tom, Tom, Rob, Josiah, Steve, Isaac, Joshua, Congress, George
Dear Sir,

For a long time now I have maintained a website, all the while believing that YOU HAD SOME KIND OF PLAN about addressing theEVIL PLOT PERPETRATED AGAINST US WHEN I was a no-name podunk candidate.  Some things never change but I’m NO LONGER RUNNING FOR ANY PODUNK OFFICE.
I WILL  TRACK YOU DOWN.  ARE YOU ALIVE?  DO YOU HAVE A PLAN?  MY LIFE SUCKS BECAUSE IT LACKS TRUTH and you have a WHOLE LOT OF MY TRUTH SOMEPLACE.
Isaac said you gave him some journals.  Of course, I do not know WHICH VOLUMES THEY MIGHT BE FROM THE DOZENS I SENT TO YOU.
Do you still want to change the world?  I know I do, and if I do not do so I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE HERE ANY LONGER.  
What is your address so I may travel somewhere and KICK YOU IN THE SHINS with everything I got.  Or, I will LEARN ABOUT HOW WE JUST CHANGED THE WORLD.  Either way, I gotta talk to you.
Sincerely, Linda Goldthorpe  (Do you even REMEMBER ME?)

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

2:49 PM (2 minutes ago)

to Margaret, David, christine.ratt., Eric, Tom, jim, ANDREA, Alfred, a, Kevin, Tom, Tom, Rob, Josiah, Steve, Isaac, Joshua, Congress, George
PS- I returned ALL OF YOUR BOOKS and you’ve had ALL OF MY VERY BEST BOOKS during this past 7 years when I have been TOO POOR TO EVEN BUY A NEWSPAPER.  Maybe you could find it in your heart to RETURN MY PROPERTY????

Or are you Karl Rove now?
3:33 pm
Not a single normal breath today.  I’m going for another ride to pray, and I’ll ask  that George will die.  He’d be happier and so would I.  I’ve tried talking to him, but he won’t do that.  I’ve asked him to leave, but he won’t do that either.  Obviously, learning about NARCISSISTIC ABUSE and what it DID TO HIS FAMILY is out of the question.  Maybe he’ll die; it’s been nearly four years since I filed for divorce and he keeps expecting things to remain the same.  I would die if I could not hope for change.  My dad could fix four lives with a single sentence.  Maybe he should die instead of George but God never said anything about him.  I’d be willing to die instead, but God has plans for me.  If I can just survive.  This is death here already.  When you must live with somebody who used to claim to love you who refuses to believe you or even look at evidence but calls you a liar anyway:  THAT’S HELL ON EARTH.

3:24 pm

GEORGE:

Malignant Narcissists and Their Enablers

Could he possibly wake-up?
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1:50 pm

Narcissistic abuse Recovery Two Steps Forward One Step Back

“Narcissistic abuse is not something that we as victims can just switch off.  We do get better.  We do move forward.  We do become healthier.  We do realize the traits of the narcissist, and the symptoms they leave behind with us.  But, as you make those progressive moves forward, it’s perfectly normal to have a moment, and take a step backward and just go ‘whew’ in disbelief, and start remembering and maybe playing some of those tapes of what was done to you…and try to figure out why.”
“This is exactly what the narcissist wants…they wanna be inside our head.”
“They want us to CONSTANTLY know that we are worthless.”
“They want us to CONSTANTLY think that we are bad.”
“They want us to CONSTANTLY be in pain.”
“And they ALWAYS want us to know, that THEY DID IT.”

12:36 pm

I think public school is about the best thing to come along for selfish knocked-up women.  Mothers don’t particularly like it.-
12:08 pm
“I was sent off to abusive baby-sitters and left at day-care…by a mother who didn’t have to work, but wanted to get away from her children.” 
[Some of us] “lived the reality of sixties and seventies feminism.”
“Self-righteous, self-absorbed narcissist women who used the movement to neglect their children.”
(I was first raped at seven.  Mom apologized for the first time last month…and I’m fifty-five.)  (But she is a big-ass child-educator in my region.  She won awards and was mentioned in articles…)

Narcissism: Gen X Survivors of Narc Baby Boomer Parents

(She wrote a great poem:  “I’m thinking of four-bedroom houses and luxury sedans…and daycare…versus two-bedroom cottages, used station wagons…and raising our own children.”)

9:57 am

I baked a ham before my sons got up, and also made a big pan of raw-fried potatoes.  It is a great breakfast, and it will be a great dinner for which I will mash some rutabaga and carrots from the garden.  I might put in some thyme.
11:28 am
I feel like I’m going to explode.  I’ve felt that way for a week.  “Please God, do not let me explode. Amen.”

The Devil Beside Me: Gang Stalking, The Secret War and How to Win

I am so tense.  I took a ride to pray but I got too paranoid.  Being hunted stays with a person for a long time.  Deliberate sensitizing of victims to various COMMON stimuli is de rigueur.   White trucks and vans give me a panic still.  I have seen MANY THINGS that others will experience too.  I hope I’m STILL ALIVE TO HELP THEM.

Self Sabotage after Narcissistic Abuse

“After you go no-contact,  and you no longer have the external negative messages coming at you, what you’re going to notice is you still have those negative tapes going in your head…and you tell YOURSELF negative things about yourself.”
“I had to take steps to stop doing that.”
“When we have PTSD, one of the things that is affected is our executive function…handling shit is incredibly difficult.”
“I’m no-contact with my family of origin…obviously no-contact with my ex and his narc-family…it’s just me and my two sons…so I have to be ON…It kinda took ALL I HAD IN ME, just to take care of my day-to-day.”
“Very early in my recovery from PTSD, I was not capable…”
You know what I’ve come to believe?  Survivors of NARCISSISTIC ABUSE are among the finest people I’ve ever listened to. They’re WAY BETTER than preachers.  They WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING to be responsible, but their sense of what that entails has been corrupted.  I love these people.  I AM these people.  I got left in charge of two babies and a house when I was about 7!!! That is ILLEGITIMATE responsibility for a child that age.  I ALWAYS thought I was responsible for everything and if I couldn’t get around to accomplishing everything?  OMG…DADDY’S GONNA HATE ME.  So, he did.  He is so pathetic and I am getting smarter.  I hope I can calm down soon. PTSD is unforgiving but it can’t last forever if I get my thoughts truthful.  Truth says: LINDA IS NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR LIARS or for the CONSEQUENCES OF THEIR EVIL.  Or for stupid people who believe liars.  It’s been nearly four years since I filed for divorce.  George is still bound to lies.  Four years and he doesn’t know enough to leave or in the alternative, TO ACTUALLY READ SOMETHING.  Maybe he thinks my dad will adopt him?  Unlikely.  Dad’s already got token testicles in the trophy case.  That’s where he stashes David’s.
8:57 am
HEY BAPTISTS!  Check out the ‘church’:

Angels appears in Church during a LIVE Service-Prophet Shepherd Bushiri

8:41 am

Could George also be a narcissist?  I’ve often thought that many of his tendencies and traits were similar; sometimes the descriptions use the exact phrasing that others have used to describe George; for instance:  robot-like behavior.  He DOES NOT FEEL what others feel, I know that for a fact because I slept with him for years, but I always thought his mechanical-ness was just because he was so morally superior.  He doesn’t engage in gaslighting behavior to my knowledge; but also he WILL NOT STAND UP AGAINST IT.  His family was TORN APART and he still doesn’t ‘see it like that.’  Nor does he see any reason to attempt improvements for any one of us.  He buys exercise equipment, and he goes to work.  He watches children’s movies and he saves empty bottles and boxes.  He knows I’m in pain; maybe he thinks I deserve it?  I didn’t break any vows; I just told him the truth about what was going on with me; and in the years since, I have documented the source of our difficulty.  He says, “I still don’t see it that way.”  I dare say, he sees not very much, any way.  George will not examine evidence, will not confront my father, LOST HIS HOUSE to a narcissist, and ‘doesn’t see it that way.’  I married two morons.  I thought only one of them was a narcissist.
I knew he was not smart when I married him.  I knew that he wished for me to be different so I prayed that I would.  I wasted a whole lot of life with a man who can’t even recognize when he’s got an AMAZING WOMAN; and I wasted more of my life believing that I was not an AMAZING WOMAN.  “Please Lord, take him out of my life and allow my sons to experience the opportunities they’ve been intentionally visualizing forever,  yet have been unable to approach… since FOREVER!  Please forgive George.  Forgive me for hating him.  Give my sons and me joy unspeakable and full of glory.  Give George whatever you know is right.  You are God.  You put me with an extremely stupid man.  You know how diligently I served him.  You also know how my father lied about me; and you know that George CHOSE to believe a liar instead of his own devoted wife.  Forgive him.  TAKE HIM AWAY.  Please.  Amen.”
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6:50 am
I don’t think I can take the panics much longer.  I know everything happens for a reason and I really don’t want to die. I also don’t think I can live like this much longer.  I also know I am a child of God hoping soon to become a mature son of God and God’s kids don’t have to put up with terror.  I’m seeing maybe the need for a proclamation over myself and my life.  I spoke to George, when he came in this morning and was eating our leftovers.  I told him that the panicking was really taking me down.  I told him that when I first began to study and I recognized my father and his TREATMENT OF ME in the videos teaching about NARCISSISTIC ABUSE SYNDROME, that I was encouraged and laughed.  Every time I watched a video about somebody’s experience with a narc, I’d laugh.  I see clearly that I was abused every second of my childhood.  I had psycho-somatic symptoms as a child, and they developed into full-blown medical disorder when I became an adult.  I recognize that my parents caused those diseases and I recognize that God delivered me from them.  I do not always recognize the intensity of the gratitude I should feel and the exorbitant worship I should offer.  “Thank you Jesus that I do not have arthritis or migraine headaches!  Thank you that I haven’t been ill for years.  Thank you for fixing so many things in my life!”  Thank you that one way or another, you will complete my healing.  You will make it happen with a man here who calls me a liar to this minute…or you will take him out of the way and my healing will be halfway accomplished at that point.  Thank you.  Amen.”
I said, “I need ministry.” I said,  “At first it was helping to recognize the source of my pre-TORTURE pain, but now I’m just having flashbacks and I’m really suffering.  I need some help…”    George said, “I still don’t see it that way.”
I do in fact hate him very much.  I hugged him as I told him of my pain.  He ate my good food and went to bed.  He told me I’ve never been a piece of shit.  Nice compliment, right?  I had his babies and kept his slightly-deficient butt off the street for years.  (Or more likely, just off his mother’s couch.)  I said, “I NEED TO HEAL.  I can’t heal here with a man who thinks I”m a liar.”
He went to bed.  Good riddance.  It’s not his fault.  My FATHER LIED TO HIM so he has no more faith.  And he thinks I’m not worthy of love or attention.  He’s wrong.  I tell myself that over and over.  My cousin (also KICKED OUT OF THE FAMILY) says,  “God doesn’t make any garbage.”
I couldn’t sleep last night,  hardly at all.  SEVEN YEARS.  SEVEN YEARS OF SLEEP DEPRIVATION; I’m a freakin’ miracle.

Narcotics Cop Who Ruined Countless Lives for Weed Possession, Busted with $2 Million in Marijuana

(The article says investigators didn’t know this guy was a cop.  I don’t believe it.)

MICHIGAN GOVERNOR DECLARES STATE OF EMERGENCY OVER LEAD IN FLINT WATER

Gov. Rick Snyder has declared a state of emergency for Genesee County because of health and safety issues caused by lead in the city’s drinking water.

Snyder’s office issued a news release today, Jan. 5, saying the governor has authorized the Michigan State Police to coordinate the state’s efforts as the request for assistance moves to the federal government.

See more at:   http://www.blacklistednews.com/Michigan_Governor_declares_state_of_emergency_over_lead_in_Flint_water/48163/0/38/38/Y/M.html

Deadly U.S. Hypocrisy Exposed as World’s Biggest Arms Dealer Moves to Limit America’s Access to Guns

Just 5 years ago, the Obama administration secured the largest arms sale in the history of the world when he sold $60 billion in weapons to a country who beheads more people than ISIS, Saudi Arabia.

HIGH-LEVEL FEDERAL RESERVE OFFICIAL: FED INTENTIONALLY “FRONT-LOADED AN ENORMOUS [STOCK] MARKET RALLY IN ORDER TO CREATE A WEALTH EFFECT”

New Obama rule allows doctors to declare patriots, conservatives and Constitutionalists mentally ill to ban their gun rights without due process

Following the Alinsky–Marx playbooks to the letter, one thing Barack Obama and complicit members of Congress have managed to do during his tenure is create suspicion, distrust and anger between Americans and the various professions they used to trust.
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Gods Judgements, Discipline in the Economy Warnings Terry Bennett

“True love, God’s love, is not just letting us get away with everything.”
“I’ve been to hell…I’ve seen people you know of…”
“You can’t have your cake and eat it too:  you can’t not want God and then spend eternity with him.”
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How to heal and move on from the Sociopath, Narcissist or Abuser – The most important post I have ever written

If you try to leave before the sociopath is ready to let you go, you could also experience ruining and smear campaigns against you. When the sociopath can no longer control you, they will try to control how other people see you. You might be stunned to learn, that leaving the relationship, rather than protecting losses, incurred further losses as the sociopath starts a campaign against you, while playing victim to whomever will listen.

Escaping from the relationship

There are four ways that you escape from a relationship with a sociopath

  1. They die
  2. They get sent to jail
  3. They find a new source of supply
  4. You escape and hope that they will not hunt you down.
(Or he could be transformed by divine love.)
You can’t get back a house, or financial losses, but you can move elsewhere, or regain your finances.
You might lose friends and family, but really how close were you for this to have happened?
Reputation is a trickier one, and one that ‘might’ always be damaged. But have you ever seen someone famous who looked destroyed, and then they turned their life around? It CAN be done!
“The key to undoing psychological abuse, is to focus on gratitude. I mean REALLY REALLY focus on gratitude.”
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Living in the Twilight Zone

 
“Those scapegoated by narcissists know what it’s like to live in the twilight zone, a world in which deciphering truth from fiction is a never ending battle of the soul.’
“Narcissistic abuse places the victim in a fantasy world.”
“The more sophisticated and covert abusers in our life have mastered the dark art of leading us to this imaginary world through subtle and elusive means.”
“Though this imaginary world is false; and I know on a cognitive level it is false, these are the residual effects on my soul after having been raised by conscienceless bullies posing as parents.

The World in 2016: THE VIDEO THEY DON’T WANT YOU TO SEE (Watch Now!)

12:32 am

Prophecy for 2016:
Infiltration and hidden alliances will be uncovered from within the government and different organizations. From CEO’s to Presidential candidates with strange bedfellows, all will be uncovered due to their refusal to change. The crossover into 2016 will hold heavy consequences and many who have been warned will see that God is not playing with them. 
Beautiful People: I had a dream where I saw a group of people arising out of the ashes of the pain of the past and they were coming forth as lights. There was such a beauty upon their countenance. I inquired of the Lord and a few days later He said, “I am taking a people who have come out of the ugliness of experiences and bringing them forth as a beautiful people. For those who will come out of drug addiction, alcoholism, mental oppression, and emotional struggles will be made whole and new. They will see things in a new way and in a new light. For their past will be overcome by my love towards them.”
We will see transfers of wealth and finances that have been previously promised and now will be currently manifested in the lives of God’s people.
Read more here:    http://ft111.com/phyllis.htm

Dr. Steven Greer about Hoaxed Contacts and Project Blue Beam, July 5th 2015

Dr. Greer shares his information about how not only citizens, the UFO subculture, but also world leaders have been deceived by the ARV’s (alien reproduction vehicles) and PLF’s (programed life forms – cyborgs that look like “aliens”) of the eschatological section of the military industrial complex (MIC).

A THOUSAND MEN RAPED WOMEN… TOGETHER… IN GERMANY.  DESTROYING WOMEN’S LIVES IS A GROUP ACTIVITY.  SOMEBODY BETTER SPEAK UP PRETTY SOON.

German police search for 1,000 men after mass sexual assault at German train station (VIDEO)

See more here:
5:57 pm
HEY MOM AND DAD AND DAVID AND GEORGE,
GUESS WHAT I JUST LEARNED?
ISAAC ALSO HEARS VOICES TELLING HIM TO COMMIT SUICIDE.
HE IS THE MOST POSITIVE DESTINY-DRIVEN PERSON I KNOW, but of course he will not investigate my claims that PEOPLE ELECTRONICALLY SAY THOSE THINGS INTO OUR MINDS…because, 1) his grandfather is a LYING PSYCHOPATH, 2) his uncle is a FAKE CHRISTIAN, who KNOWS I SPEAK THE TRUTH ABOUT THIS STUFF, but will not help and 3) his father can’t think any longer.
Somebody should speak up here pretty quick.  So Isaac is walking around OWNING THIS BULLSHIT IN HIS HEAD!!!!
GOD FORGIVE THE GOLDTHORPE SWINE.
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