12/30/15
2:23 pm
Text to Mom:
My sons do not believe that Jesus is God because of you and dad.  Do you care about that at all?  If not, it was nice knowing you.
1:34 pm
1:23 pm
Dear Isaac,
This will seem unusual because I will speak to you as I would speak to a child, and I’ve never done that with you.  I have always respected your intellect and compassion and valued your opinions and spoken to you in a manner THAT MY PARENTS HAVE NOT YET SPOKEN TO ME.   It is more difficult to respect you now than it was when you were little.  You didn’t throw tantrums then, you just took off.  You always just did what you wanted and you took off.  I can respect that.  Tantrums are intended to control another person.  I can’t respect that.  
Truthfully, I don’t respect you as much as I did when you were little.  I don’t believe that’s not because when you were little I could coerce you into doing things; I never really had to do that, I think.  You were interested.  You’re not interested anymore. You’re actually pretty stuffy.  You seem much older than me.  I HAVE COMMITTED MY LIFE TO JESUS THE CHRIST AND I WILL DO WHATEVER HE NEEDS FOR THE REVELATION OF TRUTH INTO MY WORLD.  Anything at all.  I know that ‘commerce’ has its limits.  I do not.  I am limitless.  
Do NOT discount Jesus in MY HOME.  Not ever.  Not ever.  You may hold the deed but I’m the one who has prayed over this property and this entire state for many years.  If you do not recognize power in  prayer in the name of ‘Jesus, the CHRIST’  then you probably do not recognize the POWER invested in this VERY GROUND because of my life and commitment.  JUST WATCH AND SEE.  Just watch.  We will see miracles and they will ALL BE DIRECTLY ATTRIBUTABLE to JESUS…MY LORD!  He is MY LORD AND HE OWNS MY LIFE.  DO NOT DARE TO DISCOUNT WHAT I AM.  This is not a threat.  It is merely a heads-up.
With much love, even if I cannot demonstrate it as significantly as your grandfather’s expensive games seem to impress you,
LINDA GOLDTHORPE, soon-to-be PROPHET of the Lord God Almighty through my continuing allegiance to His SON, Jesus the Christ;
I am also your mother.  If that don’t matter to you, it don’t matter to me.  I BELONG TO JESUS.
L
12:22 pm
 George told me  that’s how Karen (his intended) talks to him, like that woman on Dirty, Rotten Scoundrels.  “Oh, don’t be mad at little-ol’ me..here comes the creep monster…”
10:38 am

Bill Cosby charged with sexually assaulting former university employee at his Pennsylvania home in 2004

George changed a light bulb for me.  I had a screwdriver in my room and he used it when a screw fell out of the lamp.   He showed me his social security number on it and took it back.  He kept his screwdriver from being stolen.
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“Pride is believing in the superiority of one’s own judgment or one’s own power to discern right from wrong.”
 
11:24 am
My sons love their father, and I’m glad they do.  My sons judge me harshly because I do not enjoy George’s baby-talk and silliness.  They think I am being unduly judgmental…but they did not MARRY a MAN.  I married a man and I  expected manliness and support and defense.  They are wrong to judge me for how I behave experiencing what has been to me a major disappointment .  I pray they will not be dissed by their children.    Eventually, Isaac will know what his grandfather is…and he will know Jesus.  I can’t wait.
can’t wait.
Isaac threw a tantrum.  He rolled on the floor and kicked over a dining chair and kicked the couch.  I said this:  “Jesus is God.  The Dalai Lama is not God.”  He got very angry.  I asked if he believed the blood of Jesus was important and he said, “All of our blood is important.”  It went on for a long time.  He says I’m a fake Christian.  I said, “I will always love Jesus more than you.”  He said he just wants love and doesn’t want my gifts.  (Gee.  Where have I heard THAT before?)  I don’t know how to demonstrate love; I’ve rarely experienced it.  BUT, Jesus is GOD INCARNATE and he’s my best friend and I’ll do what he says EVEN IF ISAAC TRIES TO MANIPULATE ME LIKE HIS GRANDFATHER DOES.  Eventually, he will know what his grandfather is…and he will know Jesus.  I can’t wait. 
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8:48 am
12/30/15
7:24 am
“Fair game.”  Monica Lewinsky and Paula Jones are ‘fair game’.  It might be a game to Trump but it’s not a game to the American citizen.  “Fair game” sounds like a war even.
7:04

“The practice of oncology in the United States is in need of a host of reforms and initiatives to mitigate the problem of overdiagnosis and overtreatment of cancer, according to a working group sanctioned by the National Cancer Institute,” explains Medscape.com about the study. “Perhaps most dramatically, the group says that a number of premalignant conditions, including ductal carcinoma in situ and high-grade prostatic intraepithelial neoplasia, should no longer be called ‘cancer’.”

Conventional cancer treatments once again shown to be a leading cause of cancer

I need to get a crown.  It will cost 900 dollars.  That’s three months salary.  Today he ground down my broken tooth.  Didn’t change too much; I think my tongue has a callous.  Actually he said I need two crowns.

Thank you that you are present in this world .

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ANDREA LAROCHE

10:52 AM (8 hours ago)

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Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

7:26 PM (0 minutes ago)

to ANDREA
It’s nice for somebody to say that to me.  I guess you know I’m considered a troublemaker and don’t have any friends anymore.  I won’t ever stop though, and eventually somebody will hold my dad to the standard he claims…and he’ll give me the money he owes me.  Then I’ll come to see you.  So, I have to keep working at it.  I am very proud to know you.  I’m proud of what you’ve tolerated and what you’ve stood for.  It was a very great blessing to meet you.

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Toxic Water: Max Blood Lead Levels In Flint Children ‘7 Times Higher’ Than CDC Guidelines

Over 500 ISIS terrorists medically treated by israel while they refuse treatment to Palestinians

“Dear God, my father is incorrigible and irresponsible.  Please change me faster or intervene with him.  I don’t want to do this anymore.  Please bring it to an end?  I mentioned Dad’s mother’s abuse in an email.  Do you want me to go so far?”
7:46 am
“Assholes and Politics…but I repeat myself.”
(I changed the title of my next book.  I need an editor because I have about six books already written.)
During both of my successful pregnancies my father REQUIRED ME TO HELP HIM MOVE FURNITURE.  (Second time it was at Helmer House, antiques my mom bought in England;  and he moved my OWN POSSESSIONS the night before I took the bar exam.)

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He FORCED ME TO MOVE FURNITURE THE NIGHT BEFORE I TOOK THE BAR EXAM.
I WAS VERY PREGNANT AND SLEPT ON THE FLOOR that night.  Dad said it was the only time he was available to help me move.
Robert Goldthorpe has a serious problem and we should get him some help.
8:45 am

“Nano Domestic Quell” Kill-Switch DoD DARPA Program

The program is called “Nano Domestic Quell”.

As the documents clearly demonstrate, the U.S. government has embarked on a program to implement a secret “Armageddon nano device” that mimics a flu virus, to be activated on the public in the instance of domestic uprisings, riots and armed resistances.

The nano devices are in, or “carried” by, an estimated 87% of the population at this point, with a projected 98% inflected by 2014.

Chances are, you already have this nano device inside of your body as you read this.

Please understand: these nano devices are inert until activated by a radio signal or transmission.

Read more here:  http://www.sheepletv.com/dod-nano-domestic-quell-kill-switch-program/

This program was not created to kill everyone. Let me repeat: they are not trying to kill everyone. They created this program to deal with domestic uprisings during an economic collapse.

It is now ready and being implemented. When the collapse happens, they won’t have enough troops to control the country or deal with the armed resistances. They needed another way of keeping control. By not having to fire a single shot to put down an armed uprising, they’re essentially “killing two birds with one stone”. A flu virus will appear to be a random “act of God” instead of perceived government aggression.

Why do you think they haven’t banned guns? They don’t need to with this system in place.

4:49 pm
“One day he came up to me and flashed $500 in my face. When I asked him where he got it from he told me to sit down and told me he had taken pictures of you in the bathtub playing with your toys and sold the ‘set’ to a man he met on the computer. i wanted to call the cops and I wanted him not to do that but when i saw the money, I figured he’s only just take pictures it won’t be that bad. I never knew he would go far enough to take videos of you. I’m sorry Lexi I’m very sorry can you ever find it in your heart to forgive me?”
“At this very moment I feel dirty and ashamed, I feel like It’s my fault that I have ruined a source of income to my grandma and I feel like everything wasn’t meant to go this far.”
-from a narcissistic abuse support group
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How Narcissistic Parents Create Boundary Deficiencies

This sets us up to feel comfortable in the presence of another narcissist who minimizes, denies, belittles and ignores our feelings. We put ourselves, our feelings and needs last, because of the constant messages that our feelings don’t matter.  It’s why we don’t listen to and trust our intuition (our feelings) about narcissists in our adult lives who are taking advantage of us. It’s why we extend benefit of doubt to a predator who is attacking us rather than respond to our feelings and escape them.  We learn to put selfish people, like the narcissist, who demands their needs be met, first to ourselves. We spend most of our time in adulthood catering to the needs and feelings of others while ignoring our own. We don’t learn to trust ourselves and we don’t learn how to protect ourselves because we were punished for doing so by our caregivers.

See more at:  https://afternarcissisticabuse.wordpress.com/2015/10/18/how-narcissistic-parents-create-boundary-deficiencies/

Signs That You’ve Been Abused by a Narcissist

1. YOU DOUBT YOURSELF

This reactive adaptation to narcissistic abuse is because the narcissist is ALWAYS finger pointing and shifting blame to YOU for ALL of the ups & downs both in the relationship AND in the narcissist’s personal psyche.
Because this relationship has NON EXISTENT boundaries, you will find YOURSELF constantly PUT UPON and FORCED to accept responsibility for things you didn’t do or say. This borrowed humiliation and shame is exactly what the narcissist intends for the victim to take from the narcissist. Their own unfelt core of shame.

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6. PTSD

Let’s face it. If I didn’t mention PTSD, or Complex PTSD, I would NOT be doing the topic of narcissistic abuse syndrome ANY justice.

Ptsd, in layman’s terms? From a fellow sufferer? A Cerebral anxiety attack that makes your whole body come alive with PALPABLE FEAR. The rapid heart beat, the intrusive and spinning thoughts and fears – just like the abuse is CURRENTLY HAPPENING SEQUENTIALLY ALL OVER AGAIN. This is called RE-LIVING.  It’s as if the traumatic abuse event is occurring in the present tense. All the emotions of fear, shame, shrinking, wincing, looking over your shoulder & walking on eggshells waiting to be attacked ruthlessly AGAIN.

See more here:   https://afternarcissisticabuse.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/signs-that-youve-been-abused-by-a-narcissist/

my brother killed himself because of family members would not stop trying to make him crazy. He could not escape because of child support, my mother and her husband. They seemed to enjoy the attention that my brothers suicide brought them. It was so fucked….

+Sin I’m sorry for your loss. This is a very disturbing and traumatic experience that clearly illustrates how and what narcissists do to drive their victims to suicide.

Narcissists Destroy Sibling Relationships

(Betrayal by her brother, for turning in her father who is a rapist now in prison.)

Perhaps one of the most insidious realities of narcissism is the destruction of sibling relationships. The narcissist parent is often successful in dismantling the bond between siblings who’ve suffered through and survived their abuse at the hands of the narcissist. In the end, again, the narc wins via destruction. BUT, always remember that the ADULT child of a narc–your sibling–makes a choice as well.-

The Aftermath of Growing up in a Narcissistic Family

The aftermath of growing up in a narcissistic family has led you to experience trauma and pain from your parents’ and siblings’ behaviors and attitudes. Because of this trauma you experienced, your life was changed dramatically by malignant forces in your family you had no control over, and now you are a malignant narcissism survivor of that trauma.
Scapegoat:  these children are usually the most sensitive and caring which is why they feel such tremendous hurt.  They are romantics who come very cynical and distrustful.  They have a lot of self-hatred and can be very self-destructive…often the first person in the family to get into some kind of recovery…he probably can not articulate his loss but his love-tank is staying on empty.
This is the child the family feels ashamed of…and the most emotionally honest child in the family.
This child provides distraction from the REAL ISSUES IN THE FAMILY.

The psychology of a narcissistic abuse enabler / gaslighting proxy / gang stalker

“Why do  good people ignore abuse and neglect…even when it is on their doorstep?”“When good people become abusers they bask in the praise that is heaped on them by their superiors.”

“Their need to belong is so strong that it overpowers ethical, moral or legal considerations.”

The Scapegoat’s children: the Narcissist’s grandchildren

On 25 October 2013 I published “The Scapegoat’s Daughter,” a guest post written by a young woman named Eve who very eloquently told us about the pain narcissistic grandparents cause for the child who must watch her mother’s pain. It helped us to realize that, even if our children seem unaffected by their exposure to narcissistic grandparents, they may well be suffering just as much—if not more—than we are.

There is another facet to this, however, because not all children of scapegoats are empathetic, compassionate individuals like Eve. Some of them may be innocently influenced by their narcissistic grandparents and some of them may even be narcissists themselves. And that creates a whole new dynamic.

(I’m sure glad MY KIDS have hearts and active consciences.)

Read more at:   http://narcissistschild.blogspot.com/2014/09/the-scapegoats-children-narcissists.html

Narcissistic Grandmothers and Abusive Behaviour

I’ve described the tendency for NPD MILs to demonstrate favouritism towards their children and grandchildren. This is a form of emotional abuse. It compares and excludes and thus implies inferiority or flaw in the excluded. Such conditional affection is typical.

She bragged that my husband had been upset when he found out that she had done exactly what he advised her not to. It was funny to her and worthy of a boast to show how she wasn’t ordered around by anyone.

Learn more at:   https://narcissisticmil.wordpress.com/2014/05/26/narcissistic-grandmothers-and-abusive-behaviour/

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Malignant Narcissism and Gang-Stalking & Their Efforts to Drive You Insane

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