Monthly Archives: December 2015

OMG, I always love my dad’s employees so much!  This woman is very cool, and her daughter taught me how to use the tablet that Isaac gave me and since I pitched my CHROMEBOOK-non-computer into the driveway, it’s very nice to live in a space where people understand technology and the desk-clerk’s daughter taught me how to turn it on.  Isaac sent me a text to make sure I had a place to sleep.  I said I do, then I sent him another text.  I sent it to my dad, my mom, George, Josh, Isaac, David and my niece.  I said:

 

“To Isaac–

I wouldn’t die for Dad.  If you think I am a liar I’d do it for you.”

So far none of my Christian relatives have seen fit to respond.

I’m going to bed.  I’ll like living in St. Ignace I think.

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8:03 pm

 

Isaac hates me and says all the problems are my fault.  I left home.  My dad is to blame but he won’t tell the truth, and my brother has refused to speak to me for over a year since I got back from Belgium where I attended the CONFERENCE ON COVERT HARASSMENT.

I MOVED INTO MY BROTHER’S HOTEL.

MAYBE HE WILL TALK TO ME.

He says he’s a Christian, so I expect if I stay her long enough he will eventually have to talk to me or I’ll be following him to church and everything.

 

-I will not always take the blame for liars and my sons will love me.

MY DAD IS A LIAR AND AN ABUSIVE NARCISSIST AND MY BROTHER IS A WIMP.

(So far.)

I threw up and cried a lot.  I really would much rather die but God loves my dad and my brother.  I used to love them too.  Not much worthy of affection anymore.\

12/30/15
2:23 pm
Text to Mom:
My sons do not believe that Jesus is God because of you and dad.  Do you care about that at all?  If not, it was nice knowing you.
1:34 pm
1:23 pm
Dear Isaac,
This will seem unusual because I will speak to you as I would speak to a child, and I’ve never done that with you.  I have always respected your intellect and compassion and valued your opinions and spoken to you in a manner THAT MY PARENTS HAVE NOT YET SPOKEN TO ME.   It is more difficult to respect you now than it was when you were little.  You didn’t throw tantrums then, you just took off.  You always just did what you wanted and you took off.  I can respect that.  Tantrums are intended to control another person.  I can’t respect that.  
Truthfully, I don’t respect you as much as I did when you were little.  I don’t believe that’s not because when you were little I could coerce you into doing things; I never really had to do that, I think.  You were interested.  You’re not interested anymore. You’re actually pretty stuffy.  You seem much older than me.  I HAVE COMMITTED MY LIFE TO JESUS THE CHRIST AND I WILL DO WHATEVER HE NEEDS FOR THE REVELATION OF TRUTH INTO MY WORLD.  Anything at all.  I know that ‘commerce’ has its limits.  I do not.  I am limitless.  
Do NOT discount Jesus in MY HOME.  Not ever.  Not ever.  You may hold the deed but I’m the one who has prayed over this property and this entire state for many years.  If you do not recognize power in  prayer in the name of ‘Jesus, the CHRIST’  then you probably do not recognize the POWER invested in this VERY GROUND because of my life and commitment.  JUST WATCH AND SEE.  Just watch.  We will see miracles and they will ALL BE DIRECTLY ATTRIBUTABLE to JESUS…MY LORD!  He is MY LORD AND HE OWNS MY LIFE.  DO NOT DARE TO DISCOUNT WHAT I AM.  This is not a threat.  It is merely a heads-up.
With much love, even if I cannot demonstrate it as significantly as your grandfather’s expensive games seem to impress you,
LINDA GOLDTHORPE, soon-to-be PROPHET of the Lord God Almighty through my continuing allegiance to His SON, Jesus the Christ;
I am also your mother.  If that don’t matter to you, it don’t matter to me.  I BELONG TO JESUS.
L
12:22 pm
 George told me  that’s how Karen (his intended) talks to him, like that woman on Dirty, Rotten Scoundrels.  “Oh, don’t be mad at little-ol’ me..here comes the creep monster…”
10:38 am

Bill Cosby charged with sexually assaulting former university employee at his Pennsylvania home in 2004

George changed a light bulb for me.  I had a screwdriver in my room and he used it when a screw fell out of the lamp.   He showed me his social security number on it and took it back.  He kept his screwdriver from being stolen.
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“Pride is believing in the superiority of one’s own judgment or one’s own power to discern right from wrong.”
 
11:24 am
My sons love their father, and I’m glad they do.  My sons judge me harshly because I do not enjoy George’s baby-talk and silliness.  They think I am being unduly judgmental…but they did not MARRY a MAN.  I married a man and I  expected manliness and support and defense.  They are wrong to judge me for how I behave experiencing what has been to me a major disappointment .  I pray they will not be dissed by their children.    Eventually, Isaac will know what his grandfather is…and he will know Jesus.  I can’t wait.
can’t wait.
Isaac threw a tantrum.  He rolled on the floor and kicked over a dining chair and kicked the couch.  I said this:  “Jesus is God.  The Dalai Lama is not God.”  He got very angry.  I asked if he believed the blood of Jesus was important and he said, “All of our blood is important.”  It went on for a long time.  He says I’m a fake Christian.  I said, “I will always love Jesus more than you.”  He said he just wants love and doesn’t want my gifts.  (Gee.  Where have I heard THAT before?)  I don’t know how to demonstrate love; I’ve rarely experienced it.  BUT, Jesus is GOD INCARNATE and he’s my best friend and I’ll do what he says EVEN IF ISAAC TRIES TO MANIPULATE ME LIKE HIS GRANDFATHER DOES.  Eventually, he will know what his grandfather is…and he will know Jesus.  I can’t wait. 
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8:48 am
12/30/15
7:24 am
“Fair game.”  Monica Lewinsky and Paula Jones are ‘fair game’.  It might be a game to Trump but it’s not a game to the American citizen.  “Fair game” sounds like a war even.
7:04

“The practice of oncology in the United States is in need of a host of reforms and initiatives to mitigate the problem of overdiagnosis and overtreatment of cancer, according to a working group sanctioned by the National Cancer Institute,” explains Medscape.com about the study. “Perhaps most dramatically, the group says that a number of premalignant conditions, including ductal carcinoma in situ and high-grade prostatic intraepithelial neoplasia, should no longer be called ‘cancer’.”

Conventional cancer treatments once again shown to be a leading cause of cancer

I need to get a crown.  It will cost 900 dollars.  That’s three months salary.  Today he ground down my broken tooth.  Didn’t change too much; I think my tongue has a callous.  Actually he said I need two crowns.

Thank you that you are present in this world .

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Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

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It’s nice for somebody to say that to me.  I guess you know I’m considered a troublemaker and don’t have any friends anymore.  I won’t ever stop though, and eventually somebody will hold my dad to the standard he claims…and he’ll give me the money he owes me.  Then I’ll come to see you.  So, I have to keep working at it.  I am very proud to know you.  I’m proud of what you’ve tolerated and what you’ve stood for.  It was a very great blessing to meet you.

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Toxic Water: Max Blood Lead Levels In Flint Children ‘7 Times Higher’ Than CDC Guidelines

Over 500 ISIS terrorists medically treated by israel while they refuse treatment to Palestinians

“Dear God, my father is incorrigible and irresponsible.  Please change me faster or intervene with him.  I don’t want to do this anymore.  Please bring it to an end?  I mentioned Dad’s mother’s abuse in an email.  Do you want me to go so far?”
7:46 am
“Assholes and Politics…but I repeat myself.”
(I changed the title of my next book.  I need an editor because I have about six books already written.)
During both of my successful pregnancies my father REQUIRED ME TO HELP HIM MOVE FURNITURE.  (Second time it was at Helmer House, antiques my mom bought in England;  and he moved my OWN POSSESSIONS the night before I took the bar exam.)

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He FORCED ME TO MOVE FURNITURE THE NIGHT BEFORE I TOOK THE BAR EXAM.
I WAS VERY PREGNANT AND SLEPT ON THE FLOOR that night.  Dad said it was the only time he was available to help me move.
Robert Goldthorpe has a serious problem and we should get him some help.
8:45 am

“Nano Domestic Quell” Kill-Switch DoD DARPA Program

The program is called “Nano Domestic Quell”.

As the documents clearly demonstrate, the U.S. government has embarked on a program to implement a secret “Armageddon nano device” that mimics a flu virus, to be activated on the public in the instance of domestic uprisings, riots and armed resistances.

The nano devices are in, or “carried” by, an estimated 87% of the population at this point, with a projected 98% inflected by 2014.

Chances are, you already have this nano device inside of your body as you read this.

Please understand: these nano devices are inert until activated by a radio signal or transmission.

Read more here:  http://www.sheepletv.com/dod-nano-domestic-quell-kill-switch-program/

This program was not created to kill everyone. Let me repeat: they are not trying to kill everyone. They created this program to deal with domestic uprisings during an economic collapse.

It is now ready and being implemented. When the collapse happens, they won’t have enough troops to control the country or deal with the armed resistances. They needed another way of keeping control. By not having to fire a single shot to put down an armed uprising, they’re essentially “killing two birds with one stone”. A flu virus will appear to be a random “act of God” instead of perceived government aggression.

Why do you think they haven’t banned guns? They don’t need to with this system in place.

4:49 pm
“One day he came up to me and flashed $500 in my face. When I asked him where he got it from he told me to sit down and told me he had taken pictures of you in the bathtub playing with your toys and sold the ‘set’ to a man he met on the computer. i wanted to call the cops and I wanted him not to do that but when i saw the money, I figured he’s only just take pictures it won’t be that bad. I never knew he would go far enough to take videos of you. I’m sorry Lexi I’m very sorry can you ever find it in your heart to forgive me?”
“At this very moment I feel dirty and ashamed, I feel like It’s my fault that I have ruined a source of income to my grandma and I feel like everything wasn’t meant to go this far.”
-from a narcissistic abuse support group
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How Narcissistic Parents Create Boundary Deficiencies

This sets us up to feel comfortable in the presence of another narcissist who minimizes, denies, belittles and ignores our feelings. We put ourselves, our feelings and needs last, because of the constant messages that our feelings don’t matter.  It’s why we don’t listen to and trust our intuition (our feelings) about narcissists in our adult lives who are taking advantage of us. It’s why we extend benefit of doubt to a predator who is attacking us rather than respond to our feelings and escape them.  We learn to put selfish people, like the narcissist, who demands their needs be met, first to ourselves. We spend most of our time in adulthood catering to the needs and feelings of others while ignoring our own. We don’t learn to trust ourselves and we don’t learn how to protect ourselves because we were punished for doing so by our caregivers.

See more at:  https://afternarcissisticabuse.wordpress.com/2015/10/18/how-narcissistic-parents-create-boundary-deficiencies/

Signs That You’ve Been Abused by a Narcissist

1. YOU DOUBT YOURSELF

This reactive adaptation to narcissistic abuse is because the narcissist is ALWAYS finger pointing and shifting blame to YOU for ALL of the ups & downs both in the relationship AND in the narcissist’s personal psyche.
Because this relationship has NON EXISTENT boundaries, you will find YOURSELF constantly PUT UPON and FORCED to accept responsibility for things you didn’t do or say. This borrowed humiliation and shame is exactly what the narcissist intends for the victim to take from the narcissist. Their own unfelt core of shame.

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6. PTSD

Let’s face it. If I didn’t mention PTSD, or Complex PTSD, I would NOT be doing the topic of narcissistic abuse syndrome ANY justice.

Ptsd, in layman’s terms? From a fellow sufferer? A Cerebral anxiety attack that makes your whole body come alive with PALPABLE FEAR. The rapid heart beat, the intrusive and spinning thoughts and fears – just like the abuse is CURRENTLY HAPPENING SEQUENTIALLY ALL OVER AGAIN. This is called RE-LIVING.  It’s as if the traumatic abuse event is occurring in the present tense. All the emotions of fear, shame, shrinking, wincing, looking over your shoulder & walking on eggshells waiting to be attacked ruthlessly AGAIN.

See more here:   https://afternarcissisticabuse.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/signs-that-youve-been-abused-by-a-narcissist/

my brother killed himself because of family members would not stop trying to make him crazy. He could not escape because of child support, my mother and her husband. They seemed to enjoy the attention that my brothers suicide brought them. It was so fucked….

+Sin I’m sorry for your loss. This is a very disturbing and traumatic experience that clearly illustrates how and what narcissists do to drive their victims to suicide.

Narcissists Destroy Sibling Relationships

(Betrayal by her brother, for turning in her father who is a rapist now in prison.)

Perhaps one of the most insidious realities of narcissism is the destruction of sibling relationships. The narcissist parent is often successful in dismantling the bond between siblings who’ve suffered through and survived their abuse at the hands of the narcissist. In the end, again, the narc wins via destruction. BUT, always remember that the ADULT child of a narc–your sibling–makes a choice as well.-

The Aftermath of Growing up in a Narcissistic Family

The aftermath of growing up in a narcissistic family has led you to experience trauma and pain from your parents’ and siblings’ behaviors and attitudes. Because of this trauma you experienced, your life was changed dramatically by malignant forces in your family you had no control over, and now you are a malignant narcissism survivor of that trauma.
Scapegoat:  these children are usually the most sensitive and caring which is why they feel such tremendous hurt.  They are romantics who come very cynical and distrustful.  They have a lot of self-hatred and can be very self-destructive…often the first person in the family to get into some kind of recovery…he probably can not articulate his loss but his love-tank is staying on empty.
This is the child the family feels ashamed of…and the most emotionally honest child in the family.
This child provides distraction from the REAL ISSUES IN THE FAMILY.

The psychology of a narcissistic abuse enabler / gaslighting proxy / gang stalker

“Why do  good people ignore abuse and neglect…even when it is on their doorstep?”“When good people become abusers they bask in the praise that is heaped on them by their superiors.”

“Their need to belong is so strong that it overpowers ethical, moral or legal considerations.”

The Scapegoat’s children: the Narcissist’s grandchildren

On 25 October 2013 I published “The Scapegoat’s Daughter,” a guest post written by a young woman named Eve who very eloquently told us about the pain narcissistic grandparents cause for the child who must watch her mother’s pain. It helped us to realize that, even if our children seem unaffected by their exposure to narcissistic grandparents, they may well be suffering just as much—if not more—than we are.

There is another facet to this, however, because not all children of scapegoats are empathetic, compassionate individuals like Eve. Some of them may be innocently influenced by their narcissistic grandparents and some of them may even be narcissists themselves. And that creates a whole new dynamic.

(I’m sure glad MY KIDS have hearts and active consciences.)

Read more at:   http://narcissistschild.blogspot.com/2014/09/the-scapegoats-children-narcissists.html

Narcissistic Grandmothers and Abusive Behaviour

I’ve described the tendency for NPD MILs to demonstrate favouritism towards their children and grandchildren. This is a form of emotional abuse. It compares and excludes and thus implies inferiority or flaw in the excluded. Such conditional affection is typical.

She bragged that my husband had been upset when he found out that she had done exactly what he advised her not to. It was funny to her and worthy of a boast to show how she wasn’t ordered around by anyone.

Learn more at:   https://narcissisticmil.wordpress.com/2014/05/26/narcissistic-grandmothers-and-abusive-behaviour/

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Malignant Narcissism and Gang-Stalking & Their Efforts to Drive You Insane

12/29/15
10:14 am

Senator tried to reform child protective services. She was killed supposedly by her husband with a unregistered gun,when he had several in a gun case.

Her speech continues. Parents committed suicide when losing visitation right. This is crime against humanity for financial gain. Many foster children become homeless when they reach adulthood. She was told by her political colleagues that if she helps families scrutinized by Child Protective Service (CPS), she will lose her job. Indeed, she was sacked. CPS is a business to make money by separating families.
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9/11 Firemen claiming they heard explosions (2015)

“I heard this metallic roar, looked up and saw what I thought was just a peculiar site of individual floors, one after the other exploding outward. I thought to myself, “My God, they’re going to bring the building down.” And they, whoever they are, had set charges. In fact the building was imploding down. I saw the explosions, and I thought, ‘This is not a good place to be, because we’re too close to the building, and it’s too easy for the building to topple over.’”

Karin Deshore, Captain (E.M.S.)

Dominick Derubbio, Battalion Chief (F.D.N.Y.) [Division 8]

It was weird how it started to come down. It looked like it was a timed explosion.

Brian Dixon, Battalion Chief (F.D.N.Y.)

“The lowest floor of fire in the south tower actually looked like someone had planted explosives around it because the whole bottom I could see — I could see two sides of it and the other side — it just looked like that floor blew out. I looked up and you could actually see everything blew out on the one floor. I thought, geez, this looks like an explosion up there, it blew out.”

Rich Banaciski, Firefighter (F.D.N.Y.) [Ladder 22]

“And then I just remember there was just an explosion. It seemed like on television they blow up these buildings. It seemed like it was going all the way around like a belt, all these explosions.”

Stephen Gregory, Assistant Commissioner (F.D.N.Y.)

“[It was at] the lower level of the building. You know like when they demolish a building, how when they blow up a building, when it falls down? That’s what I thought I saw.”

Greg Brady, E.M.T. (E.M.S.) [Battalion 6]

“We were standing underneath and Captain Stone was speaking again. We heard — I heard 3 loud explosions. I look up and the north tower is coming down now, 1 World Trade Center”

Kevin Gorman, Firefighter (F.D.N.Y.) [Ladder 22]

“I thought that when I looked in the direction of the Trade Center before it came down, before No. 2 came down, that I saw low-level flashes.”

Gregg Hansson, Lieutenant (F.D.N.Y)

“Somewhere around the middle of the World Trade Center, there was this orange and red flash coming out. Initially it was just one flash. Then this flash just kept popping all the way around the building and that building had started to explode”

Courageous Judge Nails US Treasury For $279 Trillion

Called for the FBI to arrest the president and Congress and for the restoration of the Republic.
9:42 am
Even as Jenner prepares to adopt a new child, the words of Burt Jenner, Bruce’s oldest son reveal how Jenner may have been as a parent. “I have high hopes that Caitlyn is a better person than Bruce. I’m very much looking forward to that,” Burt said. “At the end of the day there’s no way I can get around it. I am ungodly thankful and I feel very fortunate to not have had my father in my life … I learned how to open doors and shake hands and look people in the eye. Things that my dad never would have taught me.”

Shock: Caitlyn Jenner Just Revealed What He Wants To Do Next – Many People Aren’t Going To Like It

http://investmentwatchblog.com/shock-caitlyn-jenner-just-revealed-what-he-wants-to-do-next-many-people-arent-going-to-like-it/

1:10 am
I woke in a terrible panic.  I didn’t even feel better after I vomited.  Isaac prayed with me, but he doesn’t believe in the blood of Jesus and I LONG for a Christian companion!  If I talk about something that bothers me George will sidle away…if I mention the weather or the hot-tub, the conversation picks right back up.   I hate living with George.  I hate waiting on him and cooking for him and begging him for money.  He gave me money to get a broken tooth fixed and I spent it on some clothes for me and my sons when I had to cancel the appointment weeks ago.  I’ll have to ask him for more.  I haven’t had my teeth cleaned for years and I need new glasses and I am an indentured servant in my former life.
Seven years ago when my dad abducted my children George finally went to bring them home after se
1:41 am
I’m concerned that people who should know better are endorsing Donald Trump for president.  Alternative media and even long-time conservative activists
I shouldn’t be surprised that nobody in my family is very concerned about the people around the world who are being tortured remotely via psychotronic weapons.  They do not care about their own kinswoman so I’m being ridiculous perhaps, to look for additional compassion in heads full of gumdrops and roses.  I dislike living with George very much.   I hate it probably.  For about four years, every thought I had about him was followed with an immediate prayer:  “Forgive me, Lord.”  I want my thoughts to be pure and loving about everybody but George stood up for this family the last time in 2009 when he warned me not to come home when my dad abducted my sons and set up a trap for me with the state police.  So, I stand for us and I wouldn’t mind pulling the weight if I didn’t also have to live as his servant.  He lived with his mother when we met and he never really moved in with me.  When the rapes stopped and I no longer vomited every day, as I was cleaning up this neglected house, I found boxes of personal belongings he had moved twenty times and never opened even one time since we were married.  I dug out some items to use around the house, trinkets from his grandparents.  He didn’t like it; I think he felt violated.  I know I felt violated that we’d lived as man and wife for so long and he never even unpacked.
 George has somewhere to go; I don’t.  I have to beg him for money again because I’m supposed to get a broken tooth fixed tomorrow because when I cancelled the last appointment I spent the money he had given me on clothes for me and my sons.  Both of my sons own a single pair of shoes.  I cannot buy them much but I did give Isaac a pair of shoes for a Christmas present so he now has two.  The priorities are way out of whack here and I can’t influence them and I am deemed problematic for even WISHING to oppose George who is given a portion of Josh’s earnings and is more interested buying guns and exercise equipment than heating fuel;  and I couldn’t pay for food if he ever got pissed enough to leave.  How’s that for a prison?  CHIN UP, LINDA.  I WILL DEFEND THIS FAMILY AND DEMAND TRUTH UNTIL I GET IT.  We will be vindicated.  We were Christian, worshiping people and my dad destroyed all that faith and unity when he tried to kill me and failing that decided to try to make me crazy…   My sons will live FREE and that takes TRUTH.  Jesus loves them a lot and He’ll make that known to them.
I woke in a terrible panic earlier.  Very intense, I threw up and cried.  Isaac prayed with me, I calmed down a little and began to ask the Lord what I had done to let the fear in.  Had I opened some spiritual doorway?   I reviewed my day, things I’d red, encounters with people.  Nothing.  Then the Lord nudged me like this:  “Doesn’t it feel wonderful to not experience that fear ALL THE TIME?  Do you remember how it was before?”  Oh, yeah.  That re-characterized what was only a single attack after many days and nights of superlative peace.  I do have MUCH to be grateful for.  I am grateful for all the videos I’m watching about narcissistic abuse.  I’m re-characterizing much of my memory-bank and I’m becoming the hero of my own life.  I prayed and prayed and did the best I could through years of unrelenting criticism and slander.  Jesus is very good to me and He hasn’t stopped changing me yet.  (Thank God.)
8:54 am
“It is amazing that people who think that we cannot afford to pay for doctors, hospitals, and medications think we can somehow afford to pay for doctors, hospitals, medications, and a government bureaucracy to administer  – Thomas Sowell

DNA Analysis Proves That We Are Not Alone

The Paracas skulls are considered to belong to a hybrid race of super-humans known as the Nephilim. The Bible refers to ‘Fallen Angels’ and the birth of the ‘Nephilim’ and their descendants who became immortal.

Tello discovered a massive and complex graveyard containing tombs, buried under the sand and rocks of the desert in 1928

Since their craniums are 25% larger and 60% heavier than regular human skulls, researchers strongly believe that they couldn’t have been modified through binding. They are also structurally different and only have one parietal plate as opposed to the two normally found in human skulls. These differences have deepened the decade-old mystery around the Paracas skulls and researchers haven’t been able to explain their origins.The director of the Paracas History Museum has sent samples from 5 skulls to undergo genetic testing. The samples consisted of hair, skin, teeth and fragments of skull bones. The genetic laboratory was not informed about the samples’ origins in order to avoid biased or influenced results. The results were fascinating.

 

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The history of the slippery slope of the insanity that the Roman Catholic Church has become

(Bill Schnoebelen was a priest…and a vampire.  I read his materials many years ago.)

Public Health Alert! Potential Radiological Run Off Spotted at West Lake Land Fill

(Missouri.  Fire has been burning for five years underground and has come within 1,000 feet of nuclear waste.)

In Flint, Michigan, Overpriced Water is Causing People’s Skin to Erupt in Rashes and Hair to Fall Out. Much of the problem can be attributed to a change in policy on the part of the federal government, which reduced funding for water and wastewater systems by 80 percent between 1977 and 2014.

Michigan is “The Great Lake State” after all, a place surrounded by 20 percent of the world’s fresh surface water, suggesting that water should be extremely affordable. But as in Detroit, its more famous sibling city to the south, water has become a high-priced commodity that too many residents can no longer afford. With average household charges nearing $150 a month, Flint’s water and sewer rates are among the highest in the United States.

See more at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/in-flint-michigan-overpriced-water-is-causing-peoples-skin-to-erupt-in-rashes-and-hair-to-fall-out-much-of-the-problem-can-be-attributed-to-a-change-in-policy-on-the-part-of-the-federal-go/

The Man Who Discovered Cancer Said This (You’ll Never Hear From Your Doctor)

Mitochondrial break-down…oxygen deficiency due to fermentation of sugar.  (?)

“Religion is the fashionable substitute for belief.” — Oscar Wilde

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3vihdEouW

Students at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology discovered that WiFi signals can be used to see through walls and can detect the location and movement of people.

(Sure they did.  It was just discovered last week I suppose.)
What freedom of speech? Prank petition to repeal First Amendment gets support at Yale

“Fantastic,” “love it,” “I’ll sign for you, guys”: Future presidents, lawyers and devoted human rights defenders at Yale offered their backing to a prankster’s petition to repeal the First Amendment. It protects freedom of speech, the press and religion.

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3vik3oYNA

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3vijyZ1aA

9:48 am
I’m back at the True Value sitting in George’s car.  That VW beater won’t take a charge at all and my dad didn ‘t respond to my request for advice.  I figure I’ll get it going and drop it at his office.  It’s not doing me any good here. The Wrestler came over for dinner last night and we played cribbage.  He’s only red one chapter of my book but he quoted a good chunk of my poem about Dad:  “When Yertle the Turtle-man Fell on His Ass.”  I don’t know where he saw the poem but apparently a lot of people like it.
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4:49 pm
“One day he came up to me and flashed $500 in my face. When I asked him where he got it from he told me to sit down and told me he had taken pictures of you in the bathtub playing with your toys and sold the ‘set’ to a man he met on the computer. i wanted to call the cops and I wanted him not to do that but when i saw the money, I figured he’s only just take pictures it won’t be that bad. I never knew he would go far enough to take videos of you. I’m sorry Lexi I’m very sorry can you ever find it in your heart to forgive me?”
“At this very moment I feel dirty and ashamed, I feel like It’s my fault that I have ruined a source of income to my grandma and I feel like everything wasn’t meant to go this far.”
-from a narcissistic abuse support group
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How Narcissistic Parents Create Boundary Deficiencies

This sets us up to feel comfortable in the presence of another narcissist who minimizes, denies, belittles and ignores our feelings. We put ourselves, our feelings and needs last, because of the constant messages that our feelings don’t matter.  It’s why we don’t listen to and trust our intuition (our feelings) about narcissists in our adult lives who are taking advantage of us. It’s why we extend benefit of doubt to a predator who is attacking us rather than respond to our feelings and escape them.  We learn to put selfish people, like the narcissist, who demands their needs be met, first to ourselves. We spend most of our time in adulthood catering to the needs and feelings of others while ignoring our own. We don’t learn to trust ourselves and we don’t learn how to protect ourselves because we were punished for doing so by our caregivers.

See more at:  https://afternarcissisticabuse.wordpress.com/2015/10/18/how-narcissistic-parents-create-boundary-deficiencies/

Signs That You’ve Been Abused by a Narcissist

1. YOU DOUBT YOURSELF

This reactive adaptation to narcissistic abuse is because the narcissist is ALWAYS finger pointing and shifting blame to YOU for ALL of the ups & downs both in the relationship AND in the narcissist’s personal psyche.
Because this relationship has NON EXISTENT boundaries, you will find YOURSELF constantly PUT UPON and FORCED to accept responsibility for things you didn’t do or say. This borrowed humiliation and shame is exactly what the narcissist intends for the victim to take from the narcissist. Their own unfelt core of shame.

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6. PTSD

Let’s face it. If I didn’t mention PTSD, or Complex PTSD, I would NOT be doing the topic of narcissistic abuse syndrome ANY justice.

Ptsd, in layman’s terms? From a fellow sufferer? A Cerebral anxiety attack that makes your whole body come alive with PALPABLE FEAR. The rapid heart beat, the intrusive and spinning thoughts and fears – just like the abuse is CURRENTLY HAPPENING SEQUENTIALLY ALL OVER AGAIN. This is called RE-LIVING.  It’s as if the traumatic abuse event is occurring in the present tense. All the emotions of fear, shame, shrinking, wincing, looking over your shoulder & walking on eggshells waiting to be attacked ruthlessly AGAIN.

See more here:   https://afternarcissisticabuse.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/signs-that-youve-been-abused-by-a-narcissist/

my brother killed himself because of family members would not stop trying to make him crazy. He could not escape because of child support, my mother and her husband. They seemed to enjoy the attention that my brothers suicide brought them. It was so fucked….

+Sin I’m sorry for your loss. This is a very disturbing and traumatic experience that clearly illustrates how and what narcissists do to drive their victims to suicide.

Narcissists Destroy Sibling Relationships

(Betrayal by her brother, for turning in her father who is a rapist now in prison.)

Perhaps one of the most insidious realities of narcissism is the destruction of sibling relationships. The narcissist parent is often successful in dismantling the bond between siblings who’ve suffered through and survived their abuse at the hands of the narcissist. In the end, again, the narc wins via destruction. BUT, always remember that the ADULT child of a narc–your sibling–makes a choice as well.-

The Aftermath of Growing up in a Narcissistic Family

The aftermath of growing up in a narcissistic family has led you to experience trauma and pain from your parents’ and siblings’ behaviors and attitudes. Because of this trauma you experienced, your life was changed dramatically by malignant forces in your family you had no control over, and now you are a malignant narcissism survivor of that trauma.
Scapegoat:  these children are usually the most sensitive and caring which is why they feel such tremendous hurt.  They are romantics who come very cynical and distrustful.  They have a lot of self-hatred and can be very self-destructive…often the first person in the family to get into some kind of recovery…he probably can not articulate his loss but his love-tank is staying on empty.
This is the child the family feels ashamed of…and the most emotionally honest child in the family.
This child provides distraction from the REAL ISSUES IN THE FAMILY.

The psychology of a narcissistic abuse enabler / gaslighting proxy / gang stalker

“Why do  good people ignore abuse and neglect…even when it is on their doorstep?”“When good people become abusers they bask in the praise that is heaped on them by their superiors.”

“Their need to belong is so strong that it overpowers ethical, moral or legal considerations.”

The Scapegoat’s children: the Narcissist’s grandchildren

On 25 October 2013 I published “The Scapegoat’s Daughter,” a guest post written by a young woman named Eve who very eloquently told us about the pain narcissistic grandparents cause for the child who must watch her mother’s pain. It helped us to realize that, even if our children seem unaffected by their exposure to narcissistic grandparents, they may well be suffering just as much—if not more—than we are.

There is another facet to this, however, because not all children of scapegoats are empathetic, compassionate individuals like Eve. Some of them may be innocently influenced by their narcissistic grandparents and some of them may even be narcissists themselves. And that creates a whole new dynamic.

(I’m sure glad MY KIDS have hearts and active consciences.)

Read more at:   http://narcissistschild.blogspot.com/2014/09/the-scapegoats-children-narcissists.html

Narcissistic Grandmothers and Abusive Behaviour

I’ve described the tendency for NPD MILs to demonstrate favouritism towards their children and grandchildren. This is a form of emotional abuse. It compares and excludes and thus implies inferiority or flaw in the excluded. Such conditional affection is typical.

She bragged that my husband had been upset when he found out that she had done exactly what he advised her not to. It was funny to her and worthy of a boast to show how she wasn’t ordered around by anyone.

Learn more at:   https://narcissisticmil.wordpress.com/2014/05/26/narcissistic-grandmothers-and-abusive-behaviour/

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Malignant Narcissism and Gang-Stalking & Their Efforts to Drive You Insane

11:41 am

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From CHRISTMAS last year, 2014

2:53 pm
Well, they’re partying without me again.  I have dreams, and in my dreams somebody calls me up and says, “Linda, I miss your humor and your honesty.  I miss you.  Please come to the family holiday party.”  My dreams wisp upward and I wait.  I WAIT for one of the imaginary inviters to say, “Linda, I recognize that Dad lied about you.  I’d like to do what’s right but I don’t know what that is.  I’ve always trusted Dad.”  That would make my day.
1:23 am
To give a person confidence is,  I think, the finest gift possible.  Confidence is freedom and life.  I am now very confident, and it was a gift.  Today  was my first Christmas without a single present.  (I confess I feel some unhealthy spiritual pride in my “deprivation.”  God made promises to those who abandon earthly pleasures to follow him.)  I returned my packages.  (Last year I opened them before giving them away.)    I can’t believe that my father would send me presents when he never even invited me to the party.  Whatever.  I’m blessed to spend time with the boys, together.  I’m laughing, and seeing a few people.  When I got up I cooked Swedish pancakes for the various guitar players distributed throughout the house.  I haven’t seen many people since Connie’s burned down.  I go to the store a couple times a day; I really need to get out.  I say hello to the clerk and that is the extent of my social life.  For years even that small contact was more than I could manage, during the torture.  I’m grateful to be able to go places now.
 The effects of repeated rape are on-going and it’s one day at a time.  I wish I could talk about it to somebody.  But, I have confidence now, and that’s better anyway.  I will overcome the “flashbacks” and panic attacks eventually.  Jesus bought freedom for me and I will settle for nothing less.  
To make someone feel perfect.  Superlative gifting.  But, it has a catch.  Once you’ve felt perfect, you can’t tolerate not feeling perfect all the time.  It ruins your life.

12/28/15
5:01 am
I forgot to record these messages I also sent to my brother David:
“He tried to make my kids hate me.  How would that make you feel?  He made George lose his bearings.  Wanna see my notes?  DO NOT LET LAUREN AND DREW BELIEVE DAD.
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He even TOLD ME SO.  Dad said he was amazed that my kids still loved me.  I could look up the date.
5:00 am

All government, in its essence, is a conspiracy against the superior man: its one permanent object is to oppress him and cripple him… The most dangerous man to any government is the man who is able to think things out for himself, without regard to the prevailing superstitions and taboos. Almost inevitably he comes to the conclusion that the government he lives under is dishonest, insane and intolerable, and so, if he is romantic, he tries to change it. And even if he is not romantic personally he is very apt to spread discontent among those who are.

The notion that a radical is one who hates his country is naïve and usually idiotic. He is, more likely, one who likes his country more than the rest of us, and is thus more disturbed than the rest of us when he sees it debauched. He is not a bad citizen turning to crime; he is a good citizen driven to despair.

– H.L. Mencken

4:25 pm

Righteous Anger and Betrayal

 The narcissistic abusive parent or spouse commits a most egregious form of betrayal, the type of treachery that will spawn a righteous anger.
12/28/15
4:39 am
That beater car wouldn’t start so I borrowed Josh’s car and I’m the only person awake in Curtis.  Since the internet is still out at home I sent a few texts, to my brother, they went like this:
TO DAVID:
I will have justice soon.  Will you be a hero or a villain?
I hope you choose love over fear…I want to see you in Heaven.  and your bitchy daughter too.  You must demonstrate love so she doesn’t go to hell.
Stacy asked…”Why should Grandpa care about you?”—that wasn’t Jesus talking…
My sons do not believe in Jesus as the savior because of Dad.  I guess even your millions of dollars couldn’t protect your kids from him.  Hell is forever, pretty soon.  I only have been here for seven years and I’m getting out.  DO NOT ACCEPT LIES BECAUSE THAT IS REJECTING JESUS WHO IS TRUTH.
I mean, be real:  YOU’RE THE FATHER OF DAUGHTERS:  I WAS RAPED THE FIRST TIME WHEN I WAS SEVEN!  I WAS IGNORED WHEN I COMPLAINED!  (Mom just apologized last month.)  Our parents are not Christian.  Remember when they were both making it with Jean?
12/27/15
6:08 am
I’m at the True Value and it snowed last night and no plow has been out yet.  I sent an email to my parents and witnesses.  It was this:

Swedish class starts in a couple weeks. WE should get Josh enrolled.

Inbox
x

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

5:57 AM (12 minutes ago)

to MargaretDavidchristine.ratt.KevinEricTomjimJoshuaGeorgeIsaacANDREAAlfredTomaSteveJosiahTomRobCongress

Dad, David, Mom…I’ll need a check and the key to my condo pretty soon———————-

Rarely does a concerned person get such an opportunity to put his money where his mouth is.  My folks have ALWAYS complained (even to ‘authoritah’) that my sons did not go to school.  Then, they PROLONG that situation so they can keep bitching!  So now, he has an opportunity to study and they owe us a whole lot of money so they get to NOT BE HYPOCRITES anymore.

HUGE CROWD Witness!! [RINGS OF FIRE] HAARP UFO Phenomenon! Multiple VIDEOS 2015

(Wow.  American citizens are actually, finally LOOKING UP!)  

It is Now Time to Walk Out of Hell (Thomas Sheridan Lecture)

Psychopaths must be forced out of power.  Must.
Historically psychopaths were called “moral imbeciles”  or “morally insane.”

ISIS issues threats from British Government Internet address — huh ?

War Aims Cannot Be Digested By The Indoctrinated – Morris

“People will buy any amount of spin;  and it’s gonna take a revolution of consciousness to break out of this.”

“Cannabis oil is gathering an unstoppable momentum as a world class healer, and there is little or nothing Western Governments are going to be able to do stop it.”

See more at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/cannabis-oil-is-gathering-an-unstoppable-momentum-as-a-world-class-healer-and-there-is-little-or-nothing-western-governments-are-going-to-be-able-to-do-stop-it-2/

Thought for the day:
“Just because we’re being exterminated doesn’t mean we can’t make it fun.”  (  Vinny Eastwood)

Very Strange Occurrence At Our Church This Morning

 

Posted on 11/15/2015, 7:24:56 PM by Vinylly

This morning as we entered our church we were met by armed security guards. We also noticed a security guard in the back door. They were dress in black uniforms with a white word ‘security’ on their backs. We don’t know how many were in the church. So I am wondering, is this a precaution to what had happened in Paris? We have several Persian Christian refugees that are members in our church and was wondering if these security officials were there for the Persian’s protection? I am wondering if any others on this website witnessed the same precaution this morning at your church. Our church is the First Presbyterian Church in Seattle.

See more at:   http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-chat/3360691/posts

My sons went to David’s house to spend the night last night, to watch movies with their cousins.  What a GREAT IDEA.  David invited them.  David sent me a Christmas gift, an ugly red and black scarf-loop-thing, like a pre-fab noose.  I dumped it, along with PRESENTS FROM MY PARENTS  (I know.  They DO have a lot of gall…) in front of their door on Christmas day.  I wrote on the bag containing David’s present:  I DON’T WANT JUNK I WANT A BROTHER.  I considered writing:  I Don’t Want Junk…I want a FAMILY.
David gave Josh an incredibly hypocritical gift.  Josh loved it, it features a scripture verse from some modern translation of Esther.  The part about how you might have been put here for just such a time…because you’re meant to make a difference.  Wow.  This from the same uncle who wouldn’t take him in when he was fourteen and threatened him about how hard it would be for him to live with a ‘real Christian’ woman.  Then for these past years he would not help me get truth or opportunity for his nephews.  He has intentionally kept Josh down.
I love listening to my sons who are learning how shallow is the veneer of education that covers the public persona of the ‘educated’;  overheard yesterday:
“Do you mean he really didn’t know who Ghandi was?  That’s gotta be the most famous picture of him…”

12/26/15
2:37 pm

New Year Promises from Abuse Victims

1)  I will treat myself with dignity and demand respect from others.
2)  I will set clear boundaries and make known to others what I regard as permissible and acceptable behavior, and what is out-of-bounds.
3)  I will not tolerate abusive aggression in any form or guise.  I will seek to terminate such misconduct instantly…
4)   I will be assertive, and unambiguous about my needs, wishes and expectations from others, and about my emotions.
I will not be arrogant, but I will be confident.  I will not be selfish and narcissistic, but I will love and care for myself.  
5)  I will get to know myself better.
6)  I will treat others, as I want them to treat me.
7)  If I am habitually disrespected or abused, or if my boundaries are ignored and breached, I will terminate the relationship with the ABUSER, forthwith.

Americans Will Be Locked Up in FEMA Concentration Camps Admits Supreme Court Justice Antonin Scalia

Justice Antonin Scalia predicts that the Supreme Court will eventually authorize another wartime abuse of civil rights such as the internment camps for Japanese-Americans during World War II.

“You are kidding yourself if you think the same thing will not happen again,” Scalia told the University of Hawaii law school while discussing Korematsu v. United States, the ruling in which the court gave its imprimatur to the internment camps.

 

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3vSUhCJzx

Can Pathological Narcissist be Cured?

“People with personality disorders cause resentment, or simply alienation, or burn-out in the healthcare professionals who treat them.”

“Most narcissists are expert manipulators and consummate actors and they learn how to deceive their therapists.”
Ephesians 2:13 But now [at this very moment] in Christ Jesus you who once were [so very] far away [from God] have been brought near [b]by the blood of Christ. 14 For He Himself is our peace and our bond of unity. He who made both groups—[Jews and Gentiles]—into one body and broke down the barrier, the dividing wall [of spiritual antagonism between us],15 by abolishing in His [own crucified] flesh the hostility caused by the Law with its commandments contained in ordinances [which He satisfied]; so that in Himself He might make the two into one new man, thereby establishing peace.16 And [that He] might reconcile them both [Jew and Gentile, united] in one body to God through the cross, thereby putting to death the hostility. 
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Unclassified DHS Documents Prove Local Law Enforcement is Being Propagandized against Innocent American Patriots

Homeland Security documents, which have been marked as “Unclassified/Law Enforcement Sensitive,” appear to demonstrate just how local law enforcement is being propagandized against Patriots in the united States by the Department of Homeland Security (DHS) under Barack Hussein Obama Soetoro Sobarkah. And who did the document target? The Constitutional militia, specifically those who engaged the Department of Interior’s Bureau of Land Management (BLM) in Nevada of April last year at the Bundy Ranch siege.

 

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3vSXmqkiq

Jewish Terrorists Burned An Israeli Church, Now Israel’s Government Is Screwing The Church Out Of The Money It Needs To Rebuild

National Geographic has a new article on Jewish extremist violence against Christians in Israel and the West Bank.

Much of it has already been long reported elsewhere, including here on FailedMessiah.com.

 

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3vSYD4JHY

3:20 pm
Josh went swimming in the river yesterday.  This is a really great December.  We are beginning to work as a team and the house is cheerier and so am I.  Thank you, Lord.  
11:37 am
10:34 am
Now I’m pirating internet from my dad’s True-Value store.  The Wrestler asked for a copy of my book; I’m really impressed.  He used to say reeding was for rich folk.

Well-Armed Activists Openly Defy Texas Law to Feed the Homeless – Hundreds Clothed and Fed

“When feeding the homeless becomes an act of civil disobedience, Americans have been asleep for far too long.”

Steam had a major glitch that gave users access to each others’ accounts

Steam, the online market for PC games, experienced a major glitch on Friday.

Steam users who logged in were getting access to other users’ accounts. We’ve also seen reports on social media that some people were able to make purchases with other users’ credit cards.

In fact, simply visiting the Steam store website gave anyone access to another user’s account. Valve, the company that runs Steam, shut down the store within an hour after the glitch hit. The store was operational again about an two hours later.

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3vRVEhFMr

A Hatred without Cause – The Saga of the Malignant Narcissist

There is no logical, rational explanation for the malignant narcissist’s hatred. As David wrote in Psalm 69, these are men who hate without cause.

“We try to rationalize in our own minds, something that is irrational.  No wonder so many scape-goated children interpret their evil parents’ behavior from an inaccurate perspective.  How could they not?”
“The sad fact is that most if not all scape-goated children internalize their parents’ hatred, blaming themselves for the abuse.”
“There must be something I AM DOING WRONG…even if I can’t identify it.”  (Rational abused child of malignant narcissists.)

Delusional Narcissist

“I believe spiritual delusion is the direct result of the condition we call narcissism.”
“What we call NPD (narcissistic personality disorder) the Bible calls WICKEDNESS and INIQUITY.”
“The narcissist seeks out discarded sources of narcissistic supply when he has no other source of supply at his disposal.”
When he’s starving to feed his Big-Kahuna-Ego and he’s burned all of his bridges…

“Hoovering”: Narcissist Re-idealizes Discarded Sources of Narcissistic Supply

“Narcissists are nice and friendly only when they need something from you, like narcissistic supply, help, support, money or sex.”
“…or when they feel threatened and they want to neuter the threat…by smothering it with oozy pleasantries.”

Can We Remain on Friendly Terms with a Narcissist?

8:28 am

narcissistic relationships why do narcs often find lying and cheating so easy

* It is only perfect obedience in their own lives which can keep My “intercessors” from being “overwhelmed” [to some degree] by the sin of the one(s) they are called to intercede for. ….”Bear one another’s burdens, and thereby fulfill the law of Christ [which is the law of Love]”…. Galatians 6:2 NASB *****

Just a short time ago the Father spoke to me very clearly, saying: ….”The adventure has begun!”

…. “adventure” – an exciting or very unusual experience; an exciting or unexpected event or course of events [in this case, a “series of suddenlies”];

-So let us be found moving forth in great faith and boldness in obedience to the Holy Spirit – KNOWING [maintaining a revelation in our heart of the spiritual reality of not only who we are in Christ but, also, the almost incomprehensible destiny that is ours as the Glorious Church, in Him] that the Father has perfectly planned out some very, very special things for all those who truly love Him – things and events that we would not have thought possible this side of Heaven, itself!

….”Do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new, now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert”…. Isaiah 43:18-19 NASB *****

See more at:   http://jtlmin.com/2015/2015ml12p.pdf

* Many things happen in the times of intimate fellowship that My children have with Me. First, they come into My Presence and are thus saturated by it, whether they “feel” like they are or not. Secondly, I am able to reveal “mysteries” to a continually deeper degree to their heart in such a way that they gain the understanding needed to combat the lies and darkness which exist in the minds and hearts they will “encounter” and, thirdly, in seeing the reality of My “salvation” and its fullness – and in My light seeing clearly the bondage and captivity of those who are apart from My Word [Will] – they shall “fearlessly” bear the burdens of these suffering ones, and through their [living] intercession help them to be lifted up into the “fullness” of their inheritance in Christ.

* The key to “maintaining” the “love-walk” – day in and day out – is for My children to spend the “required” time with Me in intimate and personal fellowship.

* I have such tremendous blessings planned for all those who are faithful to Me in every area of life, that My faithful ones shall see soon see VERY clearly the necessity of ministering first unto Me in prayer and communion [intimate fellowship]. First to receive, then to “appreciate”, and then to “disperse and scatter” fully the superabundant blessings which they could in no way ever contain, themselves, or use properly in their own strength [wisdom].

See more at:   http://jtlmin.com/DAILY%20FBN%202015/12%20December%202015/WPFBN1225.pdf

8:03 am
Election judges in Iowa, New Hampshire, Nevada, North Carolina, and Florida all allegedly forwarded messages to the Trump campaign on Wednesday informing the Republican front-runner that his candidacy was invalid per state laws.  If not resolved by February 1st, Trump’s campaign for the Republican nomination is effectively over.

PROJECT BLUE BEAM – Part One

(Fake second-coming, or fake alien invasion, or fake Iman coming, or whatever.  They’ve talked about it for DECADES.)

Arctic ancestral survivalism: on extreme weather Sami wisdom

The Sami people are one of the oldest semi-nomadic indigenous groups in the world. Traditionally herding reindeer in the Arctic regions of Sweden, Norway, Finland and Russia’s Kola Peninsula (the region is known as Sapmi), they learned to work with the rhythms of nature in order to survive the harsh climate.

“Nature is everything for us because we think we belong to Mother Earth,” explains Sami writer/artist/teacher Gunnel Heligfjell, “It is not as with Western European thinking that the earth belongs to us, to the human beings. We think that we belong to the earth like the animals and the plants and everything.”

Following the reindeer migrations, they built transportable homes called lavvu from wood and fabric (similar to Native American tipis, but less vertical to sustain high winds). They also have more permanent homes called goahti made from fabric, peat moss or timber and curved poles.

The reindeer are used for food and materials: clothing, shoes, tents, tools, toys, and handicraft. They even play a role in one of the Sami creation myths.

Gunnel Heligfjell is an artist/writer who teaches the Sami language to school children (recognized as an official Swedish minority language in 2000). While she lives in a more conventional home in Vilhelmina, Sweden most of the year, she still spends time in a goahti or lavvu during summer or hunting trips. She believes in this traditional self-reliance and knows how to build traditional shelters and still cures reindeer meat (from her husband’s herd) and makes shoes, bags and fabrics from the skins.

7:56 am

I’m at the library pirating internet.  Dinner was very well received and we all watched ‘Jingle All the Way’ and laughed together and when I got up this morning the kitchen was all cleaned up even!  I’m not going to my parents’ house-party today.  I dropped the following letter at their house but it doesn’t look like they’re home.  George said their lights were out yesterday when he delivered the tiramisu Buche de Noel with meringue mushrooms.  He put it into a refrigerator in their garage, he said.  I put my letter into the door inside the garage and it said:

“Dear Dad + Mom,

It was a very nice surprise to be invited to your home to watch David’s family enjoy their affluence and golden relationship with you.  My gift to you is my RSVP–I’ll stay home and permit you as much relaxation as your contrived-boring gatherings provide.  Besides, when you apologize to me and my men it will be in public–where your lying slander still lives.

‘Dad will confess and repent and become a Christian.’

Then your parties will become fun because they will not be intended to support Dad’s false self–and other people’s value and ideas will be celebrated.

Merry Christmas  (Did you know that means ‘death of Christ’?)  Ho Ho Ho”

12/24/15
3:56 am

Narcissist as the Center of the World: Referential Delusions and Ideas of Reference

“The narcissist is the center of the world.  He’s not merely the center of HIS world; as far as he can tell, he’s the center of THE world.  This Archimedean delusion is one of the narcissist’s most predominant and all-pervasive cognitive distortions. The narcissist feels certain that he is the source of all events around him, the origin of all the emotions of his nearest or dearest, the fount of all knowledge, both the first and the final cause, the beginning as well as the end.”

This is understandable.”

“I was commanded to walk in love.  I was to take the higher road.  The people who abused me, surely they did not know any better.  Perhaps if I had shown greater levels of Christian charity and understanding toward them, they wouldn’t have acted so cruel  not have treated me so cruelly.”

When God goes No Contact

DAMASCUS SUBURB NOW A ‘RUINOUS HEAP’

The lights went out this morning and stayed out for hours.  When they returned the internet wouldn’t work.  But, for the first time in a couple years, all of our cell phones have full bars.  Go figure.  I made two yule logs of tiramisu and really good dark chocolate ganache.  Maybe tonight I watch “It’s a Wonderful Life” since I can’t document the apocalypse with no internet.  Love ya.
“I try hard not to offend them, to act civil, to be helpful and forthcoming.  I give so much in my relationships that I often feel exploited.  (LOL.  Dad.  LOL.)   I make it a point not to strain my contacts, not to demand too much, not to impose, says the narcissist.  But, it’s not working.”
“The more I help someone, insists the narcissist, the less grateful he or she seems to be, and the more repelled by me.”

(I’ve heard this crap from my dad all my life!  It’s funny now.  You do NOT get warm fuzzies for being a tyrant.  It just doesn’t work that way.)
The narcissist continues, “I find jobs for people, lend a hand with various chores, make valuable introductions and give advice.  I charge nothing for my services which are in some cases rendered day in and day out…”

The Narcissist Cannot Be Loved

“There’s some people in this world, it’s like the wheat and the tares.  They are just not gonna get saved.”

Narcissist: No Sense of Humor

Some narcissists have a great sense of humor. In this, they are no different than healthier specimen of the human species. The narcissist, though, rarely engages in self-directed, self-deprecating humour. If he does, he expects to be contradicted, rebuked and rebuffed by his listeners (“Come on, you are actually quite handsome!”), or to be commended or admired for his courage or for his wit and intellectual acerbity (“I envy your ability to laugh at yourself!”). As everything else in a narcissist’s life, his sense of humour is deployed in the interminable pursuit of Narcissistic Supply.
(Yes.  I know this.  My dad is not a laughing matter.  He tried to kill me and he couldn’t even pull it off and now he’s going to pay me lots of money.  Not a laughing matter.  He won’t laugh.  Don’t laugh at him.)
(It’s really very funny though.)
2:28 am
I received a very respectful text message from my mom.  She thanked me for the cardamom bread and said she’d deliver the cookies I made for my sister who will not be in the area on Christmas.  She also invited me to their home on Christmas morning. She’s kicked me out a number of times, screaming like a banshee so this is a big deal and I’m praying for God’s will.  Last year they sent presents  for me, with my sons, after the celebration.  I returned them unopened of course; how could I EVER take those ridiculous baubles from people who REFUSE TO PAY THEIR DEBTS TO ME AND MY SONS?  (I sent them back with a fresh, hot pizza, right out of the oven.  Nobody said thank you, of course.)  Anyway:
“Dear Lord.  Thank you that my mother is acting like an adult.  Please show me 1)  what her invitation means, and 2)  what is my responsibility regarding it.  Personally, I’d really rather not sit at her house for hours waiting for David to show up.  Or to return, or whatever.  They ALWAYS end up waiting for David’s family.  But, my life is not my own and I’ll do what you want of course.  Give me grace to carry your presence everywhere I go; may your  will be accomplished through my life.”
“Can I say Merry Christmas? I never used to say that to anybody after studying about the origins of Christmas.  Now  I don’t even know how much relevance I should pay to symbols and historical  origins of still-significant dates and events;  nobody even knows or cares.  But maybe that’s the point?  The spirits know.  The demons know you and they tremble.  They know the importance of lots of things we humans refuse to acknowledge.  Don’t let me be like that.  Don’t let be believe even one untrue thing…and don’t let me fail to believe even a single thing that IS TRUE.”
 “Please give me your values and your priorities and let me see your strategy as you rein in a malignant narcissist who destroys faith everywhere he goes.  My dad is your problem, not mine, but I’d sure enjoy Christmas more if I didn’t have to see him or his consort.  Anyway.  You know my heart because it’s yours.  I love you.  Thank you for everything you do for me.  How do you want to be God to me today?  I want to just let you be God.  I’m done with hyper-vigilance and false responsibility and striving.  Be God in my life.  Amen.”
3:03 am
I’m making Josh fudge for breakfast; that’s how a holiday ought to be, I figure.  I’ll put some nuts in so it’s healthy.
3:29 am
This is an AWESOME morning.  The wind outside is ferocious and the doors are making noises and the lights are all sparkly and I have a GREAT menu to work on every time I take a break from the computer.  We’re having Christmas dinner tonight because George has the day off and my sons will probably be at their Grandparents’ house tomorrow.  We all agreed to have beef tenderloin roasted with dijon mustard and rosemary.  I serve it with  gorgonzola sauce and beet risotto.  If the meat is rare, the plate is all pink and white.  Tenderloin is great because well, because it’s the best searing cut of meat on a beast, but also because it gets narrower at one end so that if somebody wants their meat well-done they can have a little gray on their plate too.  Tenderloin is closest to the spinal cord and the most-concentrated source of prions correlated with BSE (Bovine Spongiform Encephalopathy–‘Mad Cow Disease’) which was first observed in humans WHO ATE THEIR CLOSE RELATIVES.  Not just any sort of cannibal can contract Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease.    You must eat a CLOSE RELATIVE; that’s why sheep get scrapie.  They’re supposed to be herbivores and ‘civilized’ man feeds to them their ground-up brethren.  Soylent Green isn’t fit fodder for either man or beast.  EATING ONE’S BRETHREN TURNS ONE’S BRAIN INTO A POROUS SPONGE, FULL OF HOLES AND NOTHING STAYS WHERE IT SHOULD.

 

12/24/15
3:29 am
This is an AWESOME morning.  The wind outside is ferocious and the doors are making noises and the lights are all sparkly and I have a GREAT menu to work on every time I take a break from the computer.  We’re having Christmas dinner tonight because George has the day off and my sons will probably be at their Grandparent’s house tomorrow.  We all agreed to have beef tenderloin roasted with dijon mustard and rosemary.  I serve it with  gorgonzola sauce and beet risotto.  If the meat is rare, the plate is all pink and white.  Tenderloin is great because well, because it’s the best searing cut of meat on a beast, but also because it gets narrower at one end so that if somebody wants their meat well-done they can have a little gray on their plate too.  Tenderloin is closest to the spinal cord and the most-concentrated source of prions correlated with BSE (Bovine Spongiform Encephalopathy–‘Mad Cow Disease’) which was first observed in humans WHO ATE THEIR CLOSE RELATIVES.  Not just any sort of cannibal can contract Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease.    You must eat a CLOSE RELATIVE; that’s why sheep get scrapie.  They’re supposed to be herbivores and ‘civilized’ man feeds them ground-up brethren.  Soylent Green isn’t fit fodder for either man or beast.
2:28 am
I received a very respectful text message from my mom.  She thanked me for the cardamom bread and said she’d deliver the cookies I made for my sister who will not be in the area on Christmas.  She also invited me to their home on Christmas morning. She’s kicked me out a number of times, screaming like a banshee, so this is a big deal and I’m praying for God’s will.  Last year they sent presents  for me, with my sons, after the celebration.  I returned them unopened of course; how could I EVER take those ridiculous baubles from people who REFUSE TO PAY THEIR DEBTS TO ME AND MY SONS?  (I sent them back with a fresh, hot pizza, right out of the oven.  Nobody said thank you, of course.)  Anyway:
“Dear Lord.  Thank you that my mother is acting like an adult.  Please show me 1)  what her invitation means, and 2)  what is my responsibility regarding it.  Personally, I’d really rather not sit at her house for hours waiting for David to show up.  Or to return, or whatever.  They ALWAYS end up waiting for David’s family.  But, my life is not my own and I’ll do what you want of course.  Give me grace to carry your presence everywhere I go; may your  will be accomplished through my life.”
“Can I say Merry Christmas? I never used to say that to anybody after studying about the origins of Christmas.  Now  I don’t even know how much relevance I should pay to symbols and historical  origins of still-significant dates and events;  nobody even knows or cares.  But maybe that’s the point?  The spirits know.  The demons know you and they tremble.  They know the importance of lots of things we humans refuse to acknowledge.  Don’t let me be like that.  Don’t let be believe even one untrue thing…and don’t let me fail to believe even a single thing that IS TRUE.”
 “Please give me your values and your priorities and let me see your strategy as you rein in a malignant narcissist who destroys faith everywhere he goes.  My dad is your problem, not mine, but I’d sure enjoy Christmas more if I didn’t have to see him or his consort.  Anyway.  You know my heart because it’s yours.  I love you.  Thank you for everything you do for me.  How do you want to be God to me today?  I want to just let you be God.  I’m done with hyper-vigilance and false responsibility and striving.  Be God in my life.  Amen.”

12/23/15
5:11 pm
BUMP TO THE TOP, from 12/9/14– (A WHOLE YEAR AGO)–
Right after I got back from Belgium where I attended the CONFERENCE ON COVERT HARASSMENT and (of course) I thought that my family would pay attention because they’re CHRISTIANS and they are supposed to CARE ABOUT INJUSTICE AND TORTURE:
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10:16 am
Text to Dad:  I NEED a phone.  You can afford to give phones to other people who do not work for you.  I should be among that number.  
12,000 posts.  Give or take a couple hundred, proving I WAS RIGHT and my father was wrong.  He don’t like to be wrong.  He should stand down SOON or he will be proven VERY WRONG.
1:58 pm
I was so proud of George I almost cried.  He didn’t buy me any beer in town so I asked for his car keys.  He said, “Why should I buy you beer?”  I said, “Because you’ve been doing it for years.”  He said, “Maybe that’s not good for you?”  I said,  “That’s my point exactly.  I squeeze you for every cigarette and bottle to make a point.”  I asked if he’d take some butter tarts out of the oven so I could go to the store but he told me he was going to Curtis and would pick it up.  Sheesh.
I had a long text-conversation with my brother.  (It was made much longer by the fact that my phone has no keyboard and every time I get an incoming message is messes up the response I’m working on.)
Here’s how it went:
L:  I need a phone.  You can afford to give phones to other people who do not work for you.  I should be among that number
D:  Who is that you speak of
D:  Why do I owe u a phone
L:  Because you are a boy and shit gold.
L:  Isaac.  But that doesn’t matter anyway.  I’d use it to help your children.
D:  Wow really and u know all
L:  No.  But I will and I will protect my nieces from being raped like me.  Are you doing that?
D:  Should I tell Isaac that he no longer works for me so I have no phone for him per Linda
L:  Whatever you think fair.  That sounds kinda stupid to me.
D:  What about the others
L:  Yes, I met many others and I pray for them and my evidence will help them too.
D:  How are you protecting yourself from this reoccurring
D:  Well you know how stupid I am
L:  You are not stupid.  You have been taught that you are more valuable than me.
D:  Protection not evidence
D:  Not true
L:  You’re a millionaire.  Do you work harder than me?  Are you smarter?
D:  You make judgments on things you know nothing about
L:  And you make judgments according to what Dad says.  I’d like to know you.
D:  I have knowledge in fields you know nothing about.  I don’t expect to be a lawyer either.  When was last time you did work in that field
L:  I do every day.  I lost my license when I was being tortured and couldn’t pay my bar dues.  Dad almost killed me.
D:  I’m not in competition with you on brains or work  I do things everyday sometimes I struggle and sometimes I succeed but I try each day.  Sorry if I am not your equal  Had prayer with a wonderful group of Christian Brothers this AM at 6.  They are an encouragement to me
L:  I have nobody but God and I’m glad for you.  Do they encourage you into more truth?  Because truth is Jesus
D:  Thanks
L:  Why don’t you come to Vancouver with me and meet this international judge?  I can even pay my own way this time.  God bless you for Brussels.
D:  How do you prevent being tortured now
L:  I can’t keep up with this phone.  Sorry…I don’t get to the new messages… May I send you an email?
D:  What does the judge do
D:  How do you afford Vancouver
L:  I cashed in a life insurance policy.
D:  Sure
L:  Are you serious?  You have a great day!
D:  Have a good rest of the day
D:  Who initiated that policy for you?
L:  Dad
D:  You said you couldn’t text.  Can you or can’t you
L:  I go slow.  No keyboard…incoming messages mess me up.
D:  Are u serious?
L:  I’m so serious that I’ve given up my life.
D:  Oh
D:  Who covers your phone bill now
L:  Phonecard.  George pays me to cook and clean
D:  Is that by choice
L:  Yes.  I gave my life to Jesus and he gave me perfect evidence.
D:  Does he take out taxes
L:  No.  I don’t file.
D:  Jesus died for our sins
L:  Yeah, so we could be his body on Earth.
D:  He is alive and lives within all who believe
L:  He doesn’t like seeing his daughters raped.
D:  No he sure doesn’t
L:  I don’t know how I am protected now.  Adam hacked me and told me what was going on and it stopped.  Except for the cyber-stalking.
D:  Does it come through internet and computers
D:  So Adam saved you from this
D:  Can he save others
L:  We can together.  They tried to set us up.  I haven’t spoken to him since right after the book was published…and just emails.
D:  Have you had anybody helping you since being raped
L:  Just Adam
D:  Maybe he should go with you to Vancouver
L:  I don’t even know if he’s still in Michigan.
D:  You sure it wasn’t Adam doing the stalking to start with
L:  I’ve considered every possibility.
D:  I mean if he could stop what was happening.  Might have started it.
L:  Remember when I told you that Jesus said he was an angel and I should trust him?  It kept me alive.
D:  Jesus is not an angel.  He is Gods son
L:  Adam.  Guess you don’t remember.  You were griping that Adam was an atheist and I said I saw Jesus in him.
D:  God works through all sorts of people.  Doesn’t make them Christian
L:  And lots of ‘christians’ are atheist.  Like Dad.  God said Adam will lead a million people to Jesus.  Guess that didn’t happen yet either.
L:  I bet he’s not an atheist now.  Everything Jesus told me came true.
L:  Except the part about George dying.
D:  God said this to Adam
L:  To me, before any of this started.  I told him.
D:  What if a million were led to Christ by dad.  Would that be unhonourable to God
L:  Of course not…but God doesn’t use liars.
D:  You knew Adam was the answer to ur suffering
L:  I knew nothing but what God said
D:  Think maybe you might have done role reversals?
L:  ?
D:  Adam and Dad
L:  This is very hard.  Could we have coffee sometime?
D:  Guess I can only use my little knowledge of Adam and seeing what Dad does
L:  God never told me to trust Dad.
D:  God told you to not trust him
L:  You do not see what Dad does.  He’s a fraud but Jesus loves him and so do I.
D:  And what of the rest of us?  We people who trust our dad…
next text…Are we not to be trust as well…next text…Shall we expand this group…
L:  I have recorded every conversation we had while he was calling me crazy.  He did not believe it for a minute and admitted he tried to have me locked up.  He took my house. 
L:  My readers need me to get back to work and I’m making snickers.  Love you.
Later
L:  I was wrong…God does use liars…’vessels of honor, vessels of dishonor’.  Sorry.
D:  I don’t get it
D:  God only uses to bring glory and honor the dishonor is not of God
L:   He uses everything to bring him glory.  Everything.  Look up the verse I quoted if you want.  Biblegateway.com is pretty easy to use.
3:15 pm
To David:  I may be wrong about Adam helping me, I’ve never looked into his eyes, but I’m not wrong about Dad. Somebody helps me with the blog all the time.  (I just learned how to turn on the TV last year!)  If it’s not him, it’s another goon and that would be great because if Dad gives me the piece of information I’ve been trying to force from him, then maybe they can all be free!  Lots of them do not like torturing people but once they’ve been chipped by their employer there’s no way out.  The intelligence agencies must be abolished and I have a case that can do it.  (Adam and I have a case that can do it.)  They could stop Snowden’s heart anytime they please so he’s never going to expose the real dirt.  I can.  My own father tried to kill me and I’m not afraid of anything.
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11:17 am

It occurs to me that perhaps I am the last to recognize this?  I’m blushing, all alone.  I have never been crazy but as my family knows I’m a bit of a ditz.  3.5 million.  God says you will give me 3.5 million dollars.   Dad. David.   Whatever He says.  I declare it and release it in the name of Jesus and through his blood and his body and mind.  4 people are dead who betrayed me.  I think this might be an important debt to attend.  I demand satisfaction.  I was raised among snakes.  My father displayed framed poster-sized photos of my mother’s nipple.  He couldn’t stand my sensitive conscience, that was it,  right?  He used to be a very scummy man but he’s getting clean now.  “What God hath called clean…call not thou unclean.”  

That’s why nobody will talk to me, right?  But they keep on reeding.

10:42 am

It has been really good for me to spend the past couple weeks studying malignant narcissism; I haven’t laughed that much in years.   I UNDERSTAND now why Dad couldn’t allow me to be sane;  I was messing with his whole family-dynamics of power!  I was the scapegoat.  Everything makes perfect sense!  Of COURSE I couldn’t be allowed to run for Congress– and be competent…nobody else in the family ever did anything that big.  I HAD TO BE THE fucked-up SCAPEGOAT so everybody else could maintain their fake-selves!  I am HEALED!  (In the manner of Steve Martin)

 “Thank you Jesus for showing me how insecure and false and scared my parents are.  Thank you for showing me how much my siblings depended on me to carry the bullshit so they could pretend to be amazing altruists.  Thank you that not ONE OF THEM has YET made an effort to speak to me…it confirms my claims that they wanted me dead as you said…BECAUSE…where do they want me now when I’ve made it clear I will not stand down? Will they still pretend I do not exist and that they have no obligation to acknowledge me?  Their delay proves the theory.. because I’ve not been invited to Christmas again;  they act like I’m dead and it has been SEVEN YEARS SINCE THEY CAST ME OUT WITHOUT TELLING ME.  No guts.  No guts in my family.  Except my sons.  And me.

 
7:33 am

Whistleblower Exposes How Government Spies On Cell Phones… and More (Videos)

Let’s make some clear REAL quick. It’s far from just your cell phones DC is using to spy on you. Just to name a few, as you’ll learn below you cell phones can hear every word you say, even when they are OFF, the CIA says our appliances will be spying on us despite the fact the CIA should not be operation domestically, back in February it was learned that Samsung smart televisions are eavesdropping on their owners in literally Orwellian fashion, and the same DHS Secretary Who Approved The Targeting U.S. Citizens With Drones, has allowed for Homeland Security Drones to Fly Above Looking For Civilians Carrying Guns. This the country you grew up in?
 

‘The law was broken for the right reasons’: Gun-toting dad engaged in three-hour standoff with police to block doctors from pulling the plug on his ‘brain dead’ son – and the 27-year-old SURVIVED

  • George Pickering II took gun and went to Houston’s Tomball Regional Medical Center to spend a few more hours with his son George III
  • Pickering’s ‘brain dead’ son had suffered a huge stroke earlier in the month
  • Doctors and father’s family were ‘terminally weaning’ son off life support
  • Pickering forced his way into son’s room and standoff with police ensued
  • When son squeezed his hand during the standoff, Pickering surrendered 
  • He was arrested but his son recovered a few weeks later and is doing well

(DAD TO THE RESCUE!  I love stories like that.)

NYPD officer faces four years in jail for accusing innocent man of trying to punch him – after surveillance footage ‘shows it was the other way around’

  • Officer Jonathan Munoz, 32, filed report saying Jason Disisto punched him
  • But surveillance footage shows Disisto, 21, was only trying to film Officer Munoz as he searched a woman’s pocket with apparent reason in 2014
  • The video shows Munoz wrestle the phone out of Disisto’s hand and push him around the street in Manhattan’s Washington Heights
  • Now Officer Munoz is charged with falsifying a statement
  • District Attorney blasted case, saying innocent man could have been jailed 

(Justice for the truth-teller.  I love stories like that.)

Narcissist’s Reaction to Criticism

“The narcissist is constantly  on the look-out for slights and insults.  He is hyper-vigilant.  He perceives every disagreement as criticism, and every critical comment as complete and humiliating rejection.”
“The narcissist perceives every disagreement,  let alone criticism,  as nothing short of a threat.  He therefore reacts defensively.”
“He becomes indignant, aggressive, cold.  He detaches emotionally for fear of another narcissistic injury.”

How do Narcissists Experience Holidays

Most of them hate to see other people happy, specially when they are not the cause of that happiness.

Jesus formally pronounced a curse upon those who cause the innocent to stumble in their pursuit of Truth.

“As I read this parable (and Judgement)  from the lips of Jesus, I imagine a young girl running toward the brilliant light of Truth, of Good, and God, full of joy, excitement and confidence.  But before this little girl takes but a few steps, she feels a large foot brush against her leg, and she finds herself stumbling head-first to the ground. 

So she tries again.  She thinks to herself, “Perhaps if I take a different path to the Light I so long to embrace, maybe mommy [+ daddy]  will not stick out her foot and trip me up this time.”

But once more she garners a head of steam, she feels that large foot kick her feet out from under her and down she goes…   So this little girl tries again.  After all, the last two paths she took may have been wrong–right?

The Light keeps calling,  drawing and tugging on her heart.  So, she takes another stab at it, this time from yet another path.  

SAME OUTSTRETCHED FOOT.

SAME STUMBLING INTO THE DIRT.

SAME RESULT.

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“I spent many years knowing something was not right, but thought I must have been perceiving things wrongly.  When the Lord opened my eyes to this evil of narcissism, I began to have joy and freedom in my spirit that I never had before.  The Holy Spirit in me delivered me from the chains of emotional bondage to those who had nothing but harm in mind for me.  Sadly the people that were my oppressors claimed to be Christian.  Because of my experience I realized through God’s Word that most people who claim to be Christian have never been born again. These narcs latch onto religion to feel superior.”

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“…but whoever causes one of these little ones who believe in Me to stumble and sin [by leading him away from My teaching], it would be better for him to have a heavy millstone [as large as one turned by a donkey] hung around his neck and to be drowned in the depth of the sea.”

“Woe (judgment is coming) to the world because of stumbling blocks and temptations to sin! It is inevitable that stumbling blocks come; but woe to the person on whose account or through whom the stumbling block comes!”  

 

 

 

God Curses Abusers – A Study of Matthew 18

 

 

12/23/15
6:32 am

Taking Back Your Power: Adult Children of Narcissists

“Narcissists don’t mess with people who are self-differentiated.”
 “Taking back your power is essential for recovery and self differentiation for those of us who are dominated by a narcissistic family.”


“YOU need to make a plan:  how are you gonna protect yourself…your family…and your kids?”

Judge Jeanine Pirro

“This is not about politics.  This is about survival.”

(I’m still not getting a gun.)

ANALYSIS: Chipotle is a victim of corporate sabotage… biotech industry food terrorists are planting e.coli in retaliation for restaurant’s anti-GMO menu

How do we know? The CDC has already admitted that some of these e.coli outbreaks involve a “rare genetic strain” of e.coli not normally seen in foods. Furthermore, we also know the track record of the biotech industry engaging in the most criminal, dirty, sleazebag tactics imaginable against any person or company that speaks out against GMOs.

Read more here:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/analysis-chipotle-is-a-victim-of-corporate-sabotage-biotech-industry-food-terrorists-are-planting-e-coli-in-retaliation-for-restaurants-anti-gmo-menu/

Stunner: Pentagon in Secret Revolt Against Obama

Syria, apparently.

I am a fine artist.  My family will not tell me I’m talented.  I’m the resident black sheep & sensitive to energy.  Perhaps, my narco~dad hates my knowledge of his sickness/weakness?  My brother, or their golden child, seems to turn a blind eye to narcissistic abuse.

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+Stefanya De Castaneda the golden child does not see They have taken you parents view as right They have no knowledge of what they do Its like that part of their brain is dead never awakened And when you do try to awaken them it seems to strengthen their belief that your parents were right
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4:56 am

OMG, I am so naive.  It just occurred to me that people negotiate for their grades, don’t they?  OF COURSE I didn’t get a lot of ‘A’s’.

 Catholic Bishop Richard Williamson so eloquently explains ,

” I mention this in sermons. Why do I keep mentioning this in sermons? Because TRUTH is at stake. Because if the towers were pulled down by two aeroplanes, then the party is virtually in control. The party has got control of people’s minds, the party can push through all kinds of lies in its media, and if the people swallow the lies, they will be enslaved. Our Lord said, ‘The truth will make you free,’ the corollary of which is ‘Lies will enslave you.’At the moment, the whole world is being told lies by these media, by the government, by the politicians, by the universities, by the teachers, and worst of all, alas, by the cardinals and the highest authorities in the Church. We are being enslaved by lies, and the most outstanding global lie of recent times to enslave the minds of all of us, or to deceive the minds of all of us, and thereby to enslave us by making us all believe that the police state is a good thing and a necessary thing. And that is why the police state has advanced in leaps and bounds as it has. The greatest example is 911. And that is a classic example of an enslaving lie.”

Building Up Your Ability to Go Without Love or Approval

Apocalypse boot-camp.
“Loneliness is a result or symptom of unresolved childhood issues.”
 

Closure for Victims of Abuse

“Fat chance.  Often the abused are left to wallow in a poisonous stew of misery, self-pity, and self-recrimination.  Depending on the severity, duration, and nature of the abuse, there are three forms of effective closure:

 
1.  Conceptual closure
2.  Retributive closure
3.  Dissociative closure
 
 
“When the abuse has been gratuitous, sadistic, repeated and protracted, conceptual closure is not enough…vengeance…restorative justice…restored balance.”
 
 
 
(God said I will be ‘utterly completely vindicated’.  I’ll have ‘closure’ that goes on forever.  I will also have enough money to provide opportunities for my sons.)

“Victimization is the ABUSER’S fault…and not the victim’s choice.”

Recovery and Healing of the Abuse Victim

 

“Facing and reconstructing and reframing the traumatic experiences  is a crucial, indispensable  first phase on the way to healing and recovery.”

PROPHECY ALERT: “Damascus A Ruinous Heap”

(We are at war with Russia in Syria.)

Nationalism vs. Patriotism: Narcissism vs. Self-love

Patriotism is akin to the healthy form of self-love: it consists mainly of pride in one’s self-identity and values based on one’s culture and shared history. Patriotism is not exclusionary, but inclusive. The patriot, in constantly seeking to improve his lot and that of his compatriots, is open to advice and suggestions, and welcomes criticism. Patriotism is concerned with the concrete, the here and now. It is grounded in reality.
 Nationalism is exclusionary and oppositional: the nationalist’s sense of self-identity and self-worth depends on the aggressive belittlement and devaluation of other collectives (other nations, minorities, ethnic groups, or religions.) 
 

MUST SEE: STATE SANCTIONED SATANIC CEREMONY HELD ON CAPITOL STEPS, LANSING, MI; TAKEN THE LOW ROAD

“I don’t subscribe to any religion and I hardly know anything about the Bible and you don’t have to; YOU DON’T HAVE TO.  All you have to do, all you have to be is SOMEBODY GOOD AND DECENT to realize what is taking place here…”
“We’ve taken the low road.” 
(I used to live just around the other side of the building.  There goes the neighborhood.)

Fox News Caught On Tape Censoring Pete Santilli’s Interview

Immediately after his release from jail for what the establishment falsely claimed was a case of “mistaken identity” when Santilli was deemed to be a terrorist. Listen to the full audio, and then watch the video which aired. Notice the most important parts of the interview were censored.

Republicans and Democrats have MERGED: It’s all one big, police state party of insanity now!

On the other hand, Republicans were historically the party of smaller government, fiscal and personal responsibility and maximum liberty. The election of George W. Bush signaled a dramatic change in Republican orthodoxy, however, with Big Government programs like the major expansion of Medicare (Part D) and the No Child Left Behind law. The only president to have expanded the federal budget more than Bush has been Obama.

More proof that Obama is a sleeper cell: FBI agent ordered to shut down investigation into Islamic terrorists

“Several years ago, after Haney complained of the shutdown of his investigation to Congress, DHS reportedly revoked his security clearance and pulled him from his duties.”

Writing for The Hill, Haney – now a DHS whistleblower – noted that the Obama DHS was rife with political correctness, and deference to Islam:

“There are terrorists in our midst and they arrived here using legal means right under the noses of the federal law enforcement agencies whose mission is to stop them. That is not due to malfeasance or lack of effort on the part of these officers; it is due to the restrictions placed on them by the Obama administration.

More at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/more-proof-that-obama-is-a-sleeper-cell-fbi-agent-ordered-to-shut-down-investigation-into-islamic-terrorists/

 

 

4:49 pm

NARCISSIST-IN-CHIEF: “It’s because I’m black, isn’t it?”

 

The really maddening thing, though, is that President Obama thinks the reason he isn’t perceived as being especially good at his job is that we yokels aren’t smart enough to understand how spectacularly spectacular he is. Barack Obama is a man almost entirely incapable of self-criticism, and in the NPR interview, he repeated one of his favorite claims: He has had trouble with public opinion because he didn’t explain his awesome ideas well enough. That’s a very politic way of saying: “These rubes don’t get it.”

Yep, this is the way narcissists behave. It’s never their fault. They are so perfect, so awesome, that ordinary mortals cannot comprehend their greatness. Those who dare to criticize The Great One must be haters or idiots

Read at:  

http://investmentwatchblog.com/narcissist-in-chief-its-because-im-black-isnt-it/

They’re taking out Chipotle. You don’t like GMO’s? Ok then we’ll destroy your company.

See more at:

http://investmentwatchblog.com/theyre-taking-out-chipotle-you-dont-like-gmos-ok-then-well-destroy-your-company/.

PRE CRIME HAS ARRIVED! UK Brings In New Facial Recognition Pre-Crime CCTV Systems

A new system is being proposed which will allow real-time face recognition to be integrated with existing CCTV cameras which will be linked to a central database populated with ‘undesirables’. If the system matches a person in this database, they are immediately flagged for a potential pre-crime violation.

Read more at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/pre-crime-has-arrived-uk-brings-in-new-facial-recognition-pre-crime-cctv-systems/

The Obama’s Administration Is Arresting Independent Journalists for Anti-Government Speech

It only took one day, for my warning to come true!

One Day Later… Pete Santilli Is Taken Into Custody for “Slow Driving”

Prison Chaplain Charged With Rape Studied Minister Accused of Sex Abuse

The allegations were first reported by RecoveringGrace.org, which collects stories from more than 30 women who said they had been sexually “groomed” and inappropriately touched by Gothard over the past three decades.

Recovering Grace produced what they say is a Gothard textbook from 1979 that essentially blames victims of sexual assault and domestic abuse.

(My parents sent me to a Bill Gothard seminar in Grand Rapids when I was a teen-ager.  Figures.)

Read more at:   http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2015/12/21/prison-chaplain-charged-with-rape-studied-minister-accused-of-sex-abuse.html

These Fifteen American Cities Are Destroying Homeless Camps Just Days Before Christmas

Christmas is normally known as the time of year when Americans try to be a little more giving, more compassionate, and more altruistic than during the other 11 1/2 months of the year. But in cities across the US, many are simply fighting for the right to exist in hastily-constructed homeless camps. The National Alliance to End Homelessness reports that on any given night, there are over 578,000 Americans sleeping on the streets. At the same time, there are at least 10 million vacant homes across America that are lying empty.

Here are 19 cities that are going above and beyond to push the most vulnerable Americans out of the public eye during the most compassionate time of the year:

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3v5jnSNcM

12/23/15

2:39 am

Dramatic Narcissist’s Conspicuous Existence

“The narcissist elaborately state-manages his very being, his every movement, his tone of voice, his posture, his inflection, his poise, his text, subtext, context.  They’re all orchestrated,  choreographed to yield to maximum effect…and to garner the most attention.”

“Their intentions are focused on one and only one thing:  the DRUG, securing narcissistic supply.”

Shame, Guilt, Codependents, Narcissists, and Normal Folks

“Children who turn out to be co-dependents are actually the strong resilient ones.  Fragile ones turn out to be narcissists.”

Pathological narcissism is a life-long pattern of traits and behaviours which signify infatuation and obsession with one’s self to the exclusion of all others and the egotistic and ruthless pursuit of one’s gratification, dominance and ambition.

Children, to the narcissist, are both mirrors and competitors. They reflect authentically his constant need for adulation and attention. Their grandiose fantasies of omnipotence and omniscience are crass caricatures of his internal world.

In the narcissist’s surrealistic world, even language is pathologized. It mutates into a weapon of self-defence, a verbal fortification, a medium without a message, replacing words with duplicitous and ambiguous vocables.

The narcissist’s lies are not goal-orientated. This is what makes his constant dishonesty both disconcerting and incomprehensible. The narcissist lies at the drop of a hat, needlessly, and almost ceaselessly.

Narcissism Fridge Magnets

See more at:   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ag5mmc6KmbQ

50 Symptoms Of Narcissistic Abuse Syndrome

(Thank you God, for Isaac.  He held my hand on the way back out.)
He also took in… and took care of his young BROTHER… when my parents destroyed my credibility and George stopped parenting… and my parents would not help me find a stable place for Josh because to do so would destroy their CONTRIVED SCENARIO.)

“…complex PTSD…from interacting with a psychopath.”

“If you’ve been ‘discarded’, it’s the term they use…in a particularly vicious way…”

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12/22/15

3:39 pm

6:11 am
For with stammering lips and another tongue will he speak to this people.

Beautiful Baptism in the Holy Spirit

This woman had never been to a Spirit-filled meeting before. Her friend brought her to the meeting, and during the book signing at the end, the Lord touched this woman mightily. You can see her prayer language bubble up as His deep awakens hers!

How I received the Baptism of the Holy Spirit….. in a parking lot!

(My experience was much like his:  I did not receive the Baptism for years although I prayed and fasted and people prayed for me.  I also believe I should have stepped out in faith and actually MOVED MY MOUTH on earlier attempts to receive.  We ‘find God in our mouths’.  I received the Baptism all alone in bed and asleep.  He woke me up and I couldn’t stop the glossolalia for about two weeks.  It didn’t develop slowly but came on fluent, and with constant interpretation for a while.)
“Baptists are missing out…they even borderline on “blaspheming the Spirit.”

(…and his campaign is hitting the road.)

In just a couple of weeks, I will begin going state by state to every capital in our nation to hold prayer rallies for our country and share this same challenge on the Decision America Tour. Des Moines, Iowa, is first on January 5.

I hope you’ll join me in your capital-check decisionamericatour.com for more dates and details.

Read at:   http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-chat/3375317/posts

7:03 am

George massages his mother’s feet.  He’s working overtime because he wants to take an extra vacation in March, to go see her again.  He says that as he walks by her chair, she sticks her foot out to stop him and he massages it and she groans.  I had a hard time over the years, listening to her dog licking her skin repeatedly ad nauseum.  I was too sensitive.  Apparently I still am.

7:16 am

8 Extraordinary Things Happening in the World Today

5- The fall of exaggerated consumerism

For too long, we’ve been manipulated to consume as much as we possibly can.To buy every new product launched, the newest car, the latest iPhone, the top brands, lots of clothes, shoes, lots and lots and lots of pretty much anything we could our hands on.

Going against the crowd, many people have understood that this of way off.Lowsumerism, slow life and slow food are a few excerpts of actions being taken as we speak, pointing out by contradiction how absurdly we have come to organize ourselves.

Fewer people are using cars, fewer people are overspending, and more people are swapping clothes, buying used goods, sharing assets, cars, apartments, offices.

We don’t need all of that they told us we needed. And this consciousness of new consumerism can take down any company living of the exaggerated end of it.

6- Healthy and organic eating

We were so crazy we even accepted eating anything! It only needed to taste good, and everything would be alright.

We were so disconnected that companies started to poison our food and we didn’t say anything!

Read more at:   https://wikkorg.wordpress.com/2015/12/22/8-extraordinary-things-happening-in-the-world-today/

 

FEC chair who sought to regulate DRUDGE slams colleagues as ‘dysfunctional’

Since assuming the chair’s position in January, Ravel has pursued an ambitious regulatory agenda that includes stricter regulation of campaign spending, eliminating some of the commission’s members, and, as noted by the Washington Examiner’s Paul Bedard, new controls over online political content on outlets like the Drudge Report, Google and Facebook.  

See more at:   http://www.washingtonexaminer.com/fec-chair-who-sought-to-regulate-drudge-slams-colleagues-as-dysfunctional/article/2578893

“We don’t believe you!” Panic causes a run on the banks and traffic jams as Russians ignore “no danger claims” after a cloud of vapour seen pouring from Leningrad Nuclear Power Plant

More at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/we-dont-believe-you-panic-causes-a-run-on-the-banks-and-traffic-jams-as-russians-ignore-no-danger-claims-after-a-cloud-of-vapour-seen-pouring-from-leningrad-nuclear-power-plant/

God knew His endtime army would include hackers:

“…but the people that do know their God shall be strong, and do exploits.”  

-Daniel 11:29(b)

(The Holy Spirit has NEVER been ‘the christmas spirit’ or the ‘holiday spirit’ or the ‘spirit of the season’.

The Bible tells us His names.  Retailers do not.  But they DO INVOKE SPIRITS.)

but the people that do know their God shall be strong, and do exploits.  (I see them all the time.)

The tech world is in shock after Hillary Clinton’s call at this week’s debate as to a “Manhattan project for the internet” to defeat encryption; fiery criticism can be heard from all corners of silicon valley and beyond.

Confrontation with TSA on Weapon Detection Failures: TSA Calls Cops!

Read more at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/confrontation-with-tsa-on-weapon-detection-failures-tsa-calls-cops/

“Most Hated Man in America” Martin Shkreli’s Twitter feed hijacked

See more here:   https://nakedsecurity.sophos.com/2015/12/22/most-hated-man-in-america-martin-shkrelis-twitter-feed-hijacked/

(I don’t know how to turn off the double-space.)

Narcissist’s Objects and Possessions

The narcissist parades his objects, flaunts them, consumes them conspicuously, praises them vocally, draws attention to them compulsively, brags about them incessantly. When they fail to elicit Narcissistic Supply – admiration, adulation, marvel – the narcissist feels wounded, humiliated, deprived, discriminated against, the victim of a conspiracy, unloved.

(My mom knows this.  She used to suffer remorse for their ‘conspicuous consumption.’  That was her term.  I wonder if she still hides her shopping bags.)

“…secondary sources of narcissistic supply.”

“These objects attest to the narcissist’s wealth, his connections, his achievements, friendships, his conquests and his glorious past.  They’re kind of trophies.  

12:33 pm

My mind is not white.  My mind is consciously training itself to evaluate every situation based on the details of that particular situation and as I obtain more experience and knowledge I will continually improve my determined open-mindedness and diminishing prejudice.  My sons are white men; who knew that would be a handicap fast accomplishing decimation of the species itself?  My sons cannot kow-tow low enough to be permitted an opinion on matters of race.  People have become entirely stupid.  That black-Rachel woman said that we should consider race as a matter of personal interpretation.  We shouldn’t think of it as something genetically-determined.  We should instead think of it as we [now] do homosexuality, or gender.  DUH?  Gender is not genetically determined on her planet?  DNA is one very good reason that Caitlyn Jenner will never be a woman.  She might establish the various parts, but the sum of them does not equal the whole.  I am cellularly female, and my spirit maintains gender as well.  I know some people are born with varying degrees of plumbing or programming and I don’t pretend to understand how they must struggle and what they should do.  But God does know.  He made them and he makes no mistakes whatsoever.  

Narcissists and Hotel Maids: The Strauss-Kahn Affair and Beyond

(…or babysitters…)

Corporate Narcissists and Fraud

(I wonder if this guy ever red my journals?  This is uncanny.)

Narcissist’s Language as Weapon

With the classic narcissist, language is used cruelly and ruthlessly to ensnare one’s enemies, to saw confusion and panic, to move others to emulate the narcissist (“projective identification”), to leave the listeners in doubt, in hesitation, in paralysis, to gain control, or to punish. Language is enslaved and forced to lie. The language is appropriated and expropriated. It is considered to be a weapon, an asset, a piece of lethal property, a traitorous mistress to be gang raped into submission.

Narcissist of Substance vs. Narcissist of Appearances

Why do some narcissists end up being over-achievers, pillars of the community, and accomplished professionals – while their brethren fade into obscurity, having done little of note with their lives?


There seem to be two types of narcissists: those who derive ample narcissistic supply from mere appearances and those whose narcissistic supply consists of doing substantial deeds, of acting as change-agents, of making a difference, and of creating and producing things of value. The former aim for celebrity (defined as “being famous for being famous”), the latter aim for careers in the limelight.

“The narcissist, and often by contagion his unfortunate victims…he doesn’t talk.  He does not communicate.  He fends off; he hides, evades, and avoids, disguises…”

“The narcissist perfects the ability to SAY NOTHING…in lengthy Fidel-Castro-like speeches.”

Safe Surfing: Narcissist Invades Your Computer

(That’s what happened to me and then I asked for computer lessons and now I have a website!)ANYTHING SUSPICIOUS? Stop everything you are doing, disconnect from the Internet, and scan the computer for malware. Examples of suspicious behavior: persistent pop-ups; the computer or connection slow down considerably; repeated re-boots; mouse or keyboard freeze; strange messages and alerts.

Embarrassing Narcissist

The narcissist rarely admits to a weakness, ignorance, or deficiency. He filters out information to the contrary – a cognitive impairment with serious consequences. Narcissists are likely to unflinchingly make inflated and inane claims about their sexual prowess, wealth, connections, history, or achievements. All this is mighty embarrassing to the narcissist’s nearest, dearest, colleagues, friends, neighbours, even on-lookers.