8:03 am


They will lie to get you in trouble with the law…they will lie to triangulate you from your family and friends…they will tell everyone you’re mentally ill.  As soon as they say that…when they communicate that, they are automatically planting the seed in other people’s minds that you are the problem…while they are gaining NARCISSISTIC SUPPLY.

7:53 am

Narcissistic Grandmother and Your Children – Parental Alienation



5:12 am

America Needs To Know! TV- panel discussion on mind control and other forms of psychological warfare

Organized Gang Stalking And Electronic Harassment 

Coast To Coast AM

Russ’s Radical Gypsy Wagon, built by hand!



5:34 pm

Softest Targets vs Unhumans

Mind control projects for over fifty years.  People shouldn’t be calling me crazy anymore prettysoon.

3:45 pm

“You’re a TARGET? Why YOU?!” asked 1,000’s of Listeners.

5:24 am

The Constitution has been shredded, but it lives in your heart.

You know what freedom is and what freedom isn’t. Stand, because when you stand,

others will stand with you and God can’t stand with you if you don’t stand. Once you stand you can expect the hand of providence to be over you.

No matter how it ends, it matters how you stand.

Lavoy Finicum

I decided that when I get my gypsy wagon I’d like it to have a service window that I would use to pass out hamburgers or smoothies.  I figure I can just find people and start giving them free food.  I’ll always get a crowd… and then I’ll preach. The people will invite me to their homes to wash my laundry and I’ll pray for them and they will be healed.  I won’t get into trouble because I won’t charge for the food but my new friends will always be very generous.  Isaac says this this idea is pretty brilliant. If I can’t do it right away, I’d like to spend six months in Toronto and Josh and I can study languages.  Why is this not an OK idea? Shouldn’t his grandparents wish for him to learn Swedish when they actually took him to Sweden?  That’s a no-brainer after all this time.  I’d like my wagon to be 8 x 20 with maybe a small porch at one end.  I’ll also need something to tow it.  God told me a long time ago that I’d have a blue pick-up, extended cab.  Maybe this is why.
Pigeons are a form of dove. I prayed with a lot of people in the psych unit.  I red to the screaming lady in the wheelchair; she requested I Corinthians.  When I offered to reed the next day she called me a stupid bitch.
This woman stole my idea!  She has a SERVICE WINDOW on her vardo!  We were gonna be Java Gypsies years ago.  I can’t believe this.

Gypsy Tini House on Wheels Tour

The tiny home built from scratch for $11,000 by architect, 27, who wanted to avoid a mortgage

Wouldn’t it be fun if my dad built a gypsy-wagon with me?

Bow-Top Caravan time-lapse build HD

chris ward building a bowtop wagon

This is pretty good.

Vagavond Tiny House by Andrew Gielczyk of Wood & Saw (aka Itty Bitty House Co.)

Gypsy Wagon Correct one!

5:12 am
OK, the Prophet says he always wanted to go to the psych ward; he’s only been there visiting people and he thinks if he were locked up he would have interesting interactions.  I almost think he was jealous as I described praying for confused people.  I loved being there.  I was very paranoid when I got there and then I got braver.  Near the end of my incarceration I encountered a man freshly-admitted, just in front of my door, who told  me he heard somebody threatening to kill himself and his family.  He was sure he heard it from my room.  Yikes.  Then he asked what ‘happened to’ me…and you don’t really ask that in a psych ward…and he’s been to a number of psych wards.   He surprised me so much I told him that I had run for Congress and came away from it feeling pursued.  He knew I have a tattoo of Jesus on my chest.  He REMEMBERED a speech I gave in Hancock in 2010.  He tried to get me to talk about Tom Casperson and other political people I used to know.  He told other patients that I had ‘powers’ and he narced to the doctor. He said he was a Spirit-filled believer but that’s really hard to believe.  I was nice to him just the same.

4:41 pm

Emotional Manipulators Who Minimize Us Its Always About Them!

Dr. John R. Hall, Do

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Open today · 9AM–5PM
George is sending a valentine to Karen.  Why will he not go to her?
3:33  pm
When I get my own place I’ll make lots of things.  I’ll work on my projects all the time.  I won’t take very much stuff from here since the people here will need it more.  I’ll make a lot of things.  I’m thinking blue, electric blue, serious blue, sultry (Revlon).
“Going through this will put fire in your belly.  Once you’ve fought hard for what you believe, once you’ve walked through hell and back fifty times, you know what you know, and you’re not gonna let some knucklehead who’s not been through it dissuade you.  Right?”

10 Killer Narcissistic Abuse Syndrome Quotes!

“If you’ve been brutally broken but still have the courage to be gentle to others, then you deserve a love deeper than the ocean itself.”
6:29 am

Narcissism: Manipulative mother and other stalkers

“…the discussion of whether or not I am afraid and intimidated by my narcissist mother and my narcissist sister and golden-child-brother and narcissist father…”
“I’m not a silly little girl anymore.”
“She’s very good at doing subtle shit like that.”

Schools Train Kids to Be Good Little Statists

GangStalking The Dr John Hall Interview

Paranoia is a result of neurotransmitter changes? 
6:09 am
I miss the psych ward.  I miss Hilda and Umar and the little packets of ‘Mrs. Dash’ that I smuggled to new patients when they were scared and without joy.  I felt safer there.  I felt safer at the psych ward because my door opened every fifteen minutes.   I felt validation.  For the first time in my life I mattered… because  some  ‘sane’  person looked at me and ticked the box in front of my name on the government-slash-pharmaceutical-topia documents.  For sixteen days I was observed by another human being every fifteen minutes. I’ve never had that much attention in my whole life.
2:17 pm
This guy gets it.  I don’t know whether he’s right about everything, but I know he’s following Truth so eventually he WILL NECESSARILY BE RIGHT.  My brethren are those who love truth.  I’m not related to those who love rules.

A KEY – It OPENS an ORACLE upon Earth – Please consider with Open Mind- 14

(I think he’s right.  Actually, I mostly KNOW he’s right.)
2:27 pm
I’m doing exactly what my stripper-friend told me I was doing when we were incarcerated together.  I was planning to see her today but her phone has been disconnected.  She told me, in the joint, that every time I spoke about my faith I looked over my shoulder.  I’m alone in the house just now, and I’m worshipping Jesus and I keep looking toward the door.  I have been persecuted for my faith and the effects persist.  I prayed with probably twenty people during my incarceration.  I’m not even kidding, I was so afraid of being locked up.  I read about the gulag and the stasi and I was scared shitless all my life.  James Clavell and WWII.  Siberia and One flew over the cukoo’s nest.  I’ve always lived in fear of school.  God, school is a really horrible reality for a lot of people.  We must change these things.

GangStalking The Dr John Hall Interview

2:17 pm

This guy gets it.  I don’t know whether he’s right about everything, but I know he’s following Truth so eventually he WILL NECESSARILY BE RIGHT.  My brethren are those who love truth.  I’m not related to those who love rules.

A KEY – It OPENS an ORACLE upon Earth – Please consider with Open Mind- 14

(I think he’s right.  Actually, I mostly KNOW he’s right.)
2:27 pm
I’m doing exactly what my stripper-friend told me I was doing when we were incarcerated together.  I was planning to see her today but her phone has been disconnected.  She told me, in the joint, that every time I spoke about my faith I looked over my shoulder.  I’m alone in the house just now, and I’m worshipping Jesus and I keep looking toward the door.  I have been persecuted for my faith and the effects persist.  I prayed with probably twenty people during my incarceration.  I’m not even kidding, I was so afraid of being locked up.  I read about the gulag and the stasi and I was scared shitless all my life.  James Clavell and WWII.  Siberia and One flew over the cukoo’s nest.  I’ve always lived in fear of school.  God, school is a really horrible reality for a lot of people.  We must change these things.

12:07 pm

This song is the very best song in the universe today.  Today, this song is my song.

You’re My Glory

…and the lifter of my head.


5:07 am
My parents sent a birthday gift:  a hundred dollars and some decent  perfume, silver earrings.  I kept it, and Isaac hand-delivered a thank-you note.

Turn the Key with Praying in Tongues

God told this guy how to fix his truck, step-by-step.  Henry Gruver crawled under concertina wife on the Lebanon border.  He said Jesus kept telling him what foot to move and when to lower his tail and/or head.   This is a beautiful man with a pertinent message.

Neville Johnson – A Prophecy of Jesus in Psalm 110

If you gotta die, why not make it a great death?
Prayer of Proclamation:
Father, we thank You and praise You that as we keep our eyes “fixed” on Jesus [Your Word] we can know [have a deep assurance] that YOU [by the Holy Spirit] will reveal whatever we “need” to know concerning what the Enemy has done to us in the past – and what he is planning both in the present and the future. Therefore, we boldly proclaim that NO weapon formed against us shall prosper [or is prospering], and we set ourselves to keep our eyes on the absolute truths [principles] of the Kingdom – knowing that, as we do, whatever revelation of the Enemy’s works [schemes] we “need to know” will continually be made evident to us – and we declare all of these things DONE, in the Name of Jesus.
“…constantly being transfigured into His very own image in ever increasing splendor and from one degree of glory to another;”
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5:07 am
My parents sent a birthday gift:  a hundred dollars and some decent  perfume, silver earrings.  I kept it, and Isaac hand-delivered a thank-you note.

Turn the Key with Praying in Tongues

God told this guy how to fix his truck, step-by-step.  Henry Gruver crawled under concertina wife on the Lebanon border.  He said Jesus kept telling him what foot to move and when to lower his tail and/or head.   This is a beautiful man with a pertinent message.

Neville Johnson – A Prophecy of Jesus in Psalm 110

If you gotta die, why not make it a great death?
Prayer of Proclamation:
Father, we thank You and praise You that as we keep our eyes “fixed” on Jesus [Your Word] we can know [have a deep assurance] that YOU [by the Holy Spirit] will reveal whatever we “need” to know concerning what the Enemy has done to us in the past – and what he is planning both in the present and the future. Therefore, we boldly proclaim that NO weapon formed against us shall prosper [or is prospering], and we set ourselves to keep our eyes on the absolute truths [principles] of the Kingdom – knowing that, as we do, whatever revelation of the Enemy’s works [schemes] we “need to know” will continually be made evident to us – and we declare all of these things DONE, in the Name of Jesus.
“…constantly being transfigured into His very own image in ever increasing splendor and from one degree of glory to another;”
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“A brother may not be a friend, but a friend will always be a brother.” — Benjamin Franklin

Activists Push for Immediate State Action to Fix Flint’s Toxic Water System

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1:23  pm
“There are three classes of people, those who see, those who see when they are shown and those who don’t see.”  –Leonardo da Vinci
They let me out of the psych ward.  I didn’t go outdoors for sixteen days… I didn’t even wear shoes for ten. After ingesting sufficient psychotropic drugs, I was deemed well enough to go on an outing for ice cream, and then to return to my sons’ house.  While incarcerated, I was asked the same question every day, by multiple professionals:  “Do you see things that are not there?”  Well first of all, if I did, how would I possibly know it?  If I saw anything I would be quite reasonably sure that it was there, so I always said no.  What they should ask is:  “Do you see things that WE DO NOT SEE.”  Again.  How in the WORLD would I know that?  Their question should be:  “Do you see things unseen by [however much percent] of other people?”     Reality-by-consensus is pretty lame, but that’s really what they want us ‘psychotics’ to adopt.  How pitiful we who see more, we more-abled-specimens…are controlled by those with lesser abilities.   Sadly, not only are we arbitrarily CHOOSING reality…we’re doing so based on the lowest common denominator.  Our species is striving to be the least we can be.
I’d dearly love to ask the psychiatrist about what he sees.  He didn’t want to see me pray; with the current blooming of noetic science I thought he might;  what if he doesn’t see all the things that actually are?  He is likely to miss a thing since  it’s HIS observation and bias that determine what things do exist.  How self-validating it must be to DECIDE for others those  things that are and are not real.  Psychiatrists may even label a subjectively determined ‘false’ belief to be disease based on no evidence at all!  This is power that should not rest on a single pair of shoulders, but also, it is not science.  The empirical methodologies are utterly ignored and psychiatry is a religion of self-righteous witchcraft and the poor shrinks are unlikely to ever see anything  more than they do today.  I’m missing about a third of my vocabulary.  “God have mercy on all doctors.  Thank you.”
 I was subjected to my three biggest fears all at once:  1) incarceration in a psych ward, 2) taking mind-altering medications, and 3) being in the system.  The doctor said I shouldn’t work so I’ve applied for disability and food stamps.  It feels very wrong  but I don’t know if that’s principle or pride.
It’s intellectually lazy to allow others to determine reality for us. Also, reality-realization is a pretty personal-responsibility concept.  “Don’t compromise yourself.  It’s all you got.”  (Janis Joplin)

‘He deprived me of my family, childhood, friends and love… but I FORGIVE him’: Daughter of cult leader who kept her as a slave for THIRTY YEARS describes her ordeal as her ‘narcissist psychopath’ father is sentenced to die in jail

  • Aravindan Balakrishnan, 75, subjected followers to horrific sexual assaults
  • He kept his daughter locked away for 30 years until she finally escaped  
  • Maoist cult leader was found guilty of six counts of indecent assault and four counts of rape last month after a three week trial
  • Daughter Katy Morgan-Davies, 33, was kept like a ‘caged bird’ and was not told her mother was cult devotee Sian Davies, who died in 1996
I dodged diagnosis for a good long run;  now that I got one I can relax… and submit the following verse written by my eldest.  The younger quit his job today, after six months of reflection.  He says it’s so boring that sometimes his blood pressure drops.  He’s going to study Swedish again.  They are watching a video course about the bond market, on Friday evening,  with youthful hormones pumping through their…brains.  They’re pretty bright.  Can you imagine how smart they’d be if they hadn’t been raised by a crazy lady?
A vision recorded by Isaac:

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“Everything Is Dying” Wildlife Is Gone “Methane Gas Leak

When the ambulance came for me, Isaac said, “This isn’t gonna be a good day for you, mom.”  I spent all day in the emergency room and was then driven by the sheriff’s team behind chicken wire through some breezy snow to the psych ward on the fifth floor, in Marquette. I had an attorney but at the end I decided not to protest the hospitalization, so I signed away three months wherethrough they might incarcerate me should I fail to obey orders.  I was VERY DISAPPOINTED in God, that he had let it get so far before He claimed me.
 I considered the Biblical principle of submission to captivity.  I remembered that I was a prisoner only of GOD and not the human parties.  I expected HIM to make things right so I wouldn’t be abducted and medicated.  I was threatened with morphine when I refused to have my blood pressure taken on the day of my abduction.  I was threatened with long-term incarceration before I submitted.   I told the psychiatrist I’d do whatever he said.  I pray for him.  I saw him having dinner one time, at a restaurant,  only my body wasn’t there.  I wonder if he saw me too.  I wanted to not be declared defective BECAUSE I CLAIM JESUS’ NAME ALL THE TIME AND HE SHOULD HAVE A BETTER-LOOKING REPRESENTATIVE.  Then I figured, if Jesus needs me to defend him, He’s not God.  So I just opened my mouth and swallowed.   Besides, I REALLY DID WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS SENSORY-DEPRIVED HOUSE.  It was great to be around some people.  Isaac and Josh did me a favor.  Aren’t they amazing?

Couple Living in an RV in Winter & Living in a Van in Summer

It’s not looking so good, for me to get on disability although the Dr. told me not to work for a while.  George won’t divulge his finances,  and since we live together the presumption is that we are living as man and wife.  We can create affidavits of mutual conjugal repulsion, but they won’t believe it.  Without disability I’ll have a real hard time getting an apartment.  But, one of my friends from the psych unit said I can sleep on her couch, and I figure I’m not likely  to get hooked on  heroin after all these years.  What’s a girl to do?  My father is a millionaire and I owe 180 thousand dollars for an education that his slander ensured that I am not authorized to use.  I’m getting food stamps. I withhold comment.  I really really don’t want to write about him anymore.  The psych ward was far saner.
Isaac asks, “Who needs revenge when you can have just amends?   and lots of money?”
(Pretty soon here, we’re gonna see some smart folks slapping their knees.    The really smart ones might also hoot, they’ll say, ‘Dang!  I knew she was right.  I said it all along.’)

“If ye love wealth better than liberty, the tranquility of servitude than the animated contest of freedom, go from us in peace. We ask not your counsels or arms. Crouch down and lick the hands which feed you. May your chains sit lightly upon you, and may posterity forget that you were our countrymen!” — Samuel Adams

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Eco-tourism, organic farming.  We could make some money here and connect with real people.  Yoga studio up the road.  Take a sauna; go for a swim in the lake.  Isaac would like the lands he owns to require relinquishment of US dollars at the border.  Josh is researching the difficulty of creating a private currency.
I apologize for my unannounced hiatus.


6:13 am

Fukushima Warning : Ian Goddard & James Corbett WHOI UVic Jan 11th 2015

6:07 am
God is pretty funny.  Here I am trying to establish healthy self-esteem for the first time in my life…and I am opposed by those I love.  Don’t you think that’s funny?  Why am I not permitted to demand truth and even some nurturing attention?  I can’t believe the things I hear…and it’s even HARDER TO BELIEVE THE THINGS I DON’T.  My parents and my brother go to church every week and tell other people how to live, but they have denied me comfort…or even an audience…for SEVEN YEARS!  “Dear Lord. Thank you for showing me that I needed to stand up for myself and my little family.  PLEASE HELP ME PERSIST because I’m very tired and very lonely.  Please bless US ALL WITH TRUTH.  Then bless me with some rest?  Could I please help my friend in Belgium somehow?  Could I please have SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO?  Please, remove this bleakness from my mindset. I know it only requires a touch from you and everything looks perfect.  Please, change me more?  Nobody thinks I’m worth anything yet.  Make me like you.  Amen.”

5:39 am

I sent a text to my mom and my brother.  It said ‘James 4:17’.

“Therefore to him that knoweth to do good, and doeth it not, to him it is sin.”


11:40 pm
I am so grateful.  George gave me a chance to be not wrong.  Isaac wouldn’t offer that chance.  Josh would rather strike me in a heartbeat.  George said he remembered when we moved from Lansing.  He said he remembers how Dad’s schedule controlled our packing, and our move.  He remembers that I was very pregnant.  He remembers that we slept on the floor that night.  He remembers that I failed the bar exam the next day.  Tonight He wrote a note to my dad:  “Did you do that on purpose?”  (His words may have been a bit different, but that was the gist.)  I am very grateful.  George GAVE ME A CHANCE.  His sons won’t. They demand that I be the problem that makes their family unpleasant.  But, one day they will know how much their mother loved them…and HOW MUCH MORE SHE LOVED TRUTH.  “Thank you Lord that George is AT LEAST WILLING TO GIVE ME A CHANCE.  Please Lord, George and I always wanted to please you.  Please, give George truth?  And let his sons NEVER SETTLE FOR GOLDTHORPE-LIES or any other.  Amen.  But also, my brother is not the kind of man that our father is.  Please have mercy on him?  Give him TRUTH EVEN IF HE DOESN’T WANT IT…because…you and I both know he really does…he wants TRUTH…because Truth is You…and he loves you. Thank you.  Amen.”

9:25 pm

I haven’t been to a movie since Avatar came out.  I don’t deserve movies.  That’s what DAD AND DAVID AND MOM taught my sons.

9:19 pm

I can’t sleep because it feels like my insides are jumping around.  My sons took their father to a movie.  They spend a lot of time making him feel OK because they think I am too harsh because I was nearly murdered by my father and it still bothers me a bit and I get annoyed at my ex-husband who never gave a shit what happened to his family.  I hope he enjoys the movie.  I haven’t been to a movie since Avatar.    I’ll probably make crumpets tomorrow.  I hope I can sleep some tonight.  –My brother could ease my mind a lot, and encourage my sons that Christ is real, and give us all peace.  I hope he will.

8:45 pm

7:25 pm
Hey David.  I was just sitting here feeling terrible about all the things I’ve posted.  But then I loved you even more than you know.  And then I wanted to stand up with my hair on fire.  I do not discount your value.  Not a single bit.  I have always loved you and you used to know that.  Remember when I got Dad’s Cadillac stuck in the Soo?  I mean you ONLY THE BEST and our father is a LIAR FROM HELL AND YOU KNOW I’M RIGHT!!! You know I’m too weak to speak poorly of anybody if I AM NOT RIGHT.  Dearest brother, my only POSSIBLE conduit to a lifestyle that I have chosen to abandon:  DON’T BELIEVE DAD.  Instead, believe the Bible. 
Don’t you tell all those prisoners to whom you preach, that they ought to believe the BIBLE?  BUT YOU DON’T EVEN BELIEVE IT YOURSELF…

Chuck Berry – My Ding-A-Ling

“Then Mama took me to grammar school…”

7:12 pm

Hey David, did Grandma ever play with your ding-a-ling? Did Dad?

“I AM STILL WAITING.”  I’ve sent him the same message dozens of times!  I’ve been sending it ever since the day he told me he knew how/that I was tortured.  ,My texts to my brother always say:  “I AM STILL WAITING.”  That statement  refers to an ancient email where I reminded him that DAD STOLE MY LIFE AND I WAS WAITING TO GET IT BACK. He knew then, and he knows it now.  Wow.  That was  a LONG TIME AGO.  God is VERY MERCIFUL…because my dad and my mom and my brother  ARE STILL ALIVE.  (So to speak.)
 I am not a child, therefore I COULD NEVER expect a Baptist to actually follow Jesus Christ himself.   How impossible would that be?   Baptists don’t even believe in the HOLY GHOST!     But, now my rich-fake-ass brother must decide if he will follow…at the VERY LEAST most MINIMAL definition of what NOT TRUE CHRISTIANS but those who make their living by PRETENDING TO BE CHRISTIANS would know they MUST DO.  Like not TOTALLY IGNORING  the TEACHINGS JESUS GAVE US.  Otherwise he will (as usual…) default into subservience to our psychopathic father, who has been somewhat KINDER TO HIM, but who still remains: MY BROTHER’S ABUSER, AND MY MOTHER’S ABUSER AND THE ABUSER OF ALL MY IN-LAWS AND also he is the pitiful fake-man WHO JUST ALWAYS REMAINS:  AN ABUSER of PEOPLE LOVED BY JESUS.    MY BROTHER cannot be a fake Christian anymore.  None of us has that luxury.  Some of us never did.
POSTING THIS if I am permitted, on 1/11/16 at 7:07 pm
OK.  I am not going to send the text.  If God wants David to reed my message, David will reed my message.  Then he should  buy me a decent phone.

4:30 pm

Still no call from my ‘Christian’ family.  I’ve been emailing all day.  Again.  Here’s the caption of the last one:  My grandmother was obsessed with little girl’s genitals. Every night (I stayed there a lot…)…


 I don’t necessarily want to go into all the sordid details of my life as the scapegoat child of a fake-Christian family who CONTINUES TO INFLUENCE MY FAMILY WITH LIES…but a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do.  I love my grandma a lot, she was the only adult who actually noticed me, but she was perverted.  I expect she would agree now, and support my efforts to get this family right.  



(Besides, for my dad to be such a flaming psychopath…his mom was probably a major negative  issue.  I hope I don’t have to learn about all that stuff.)




Narcissist Needs Pity

Why does he make these videos?  He says it is so somebody might say:   “That’s the same symptoms I have.  That’s exactly the way my mother treated me!”
“They project their mental illness on YOU AND THEN TELL THE WORLD ABOUT IT.  But, they still want the pity…”
My folks are classic:  
Golden-child’s children:  “David’s kid is:  ice skating, playing football, making music, smiling without drooling, etc.”
Scapegoat’s children:  “Linda’s kids are defective because…well, we’ll also TRY TO USE THEM to draw attention to ourselves in the manner we’ve PROJECTED LINDA…”   (But, my folks find it really hard to denigrate my exceptional sons…)  (As if anybody gives a shit what they might make up to whine about.)
“They’re incredibly ill…and they know they’re ill.  They need that pity.  Don’t fall into that trap.  Get the hell away.  Stay away…Peace.”
1:06 pm
I sent this email,  with copies to my witnesses.   Maybe Dad will come talk to me…with his checkbook…
Dad, your mother sexually molested me and you know it.  Wanna talk about it?
9:22 am
I’m glad I quit smoking.  Isaac says every time you smoke a cigarette God takes five hours of your life and gives them to Keith Richards.  Dad is plowing the driveway.  I went outside and gave him a bag of chocolate chip cookies and said, “Thank you very much.”  Dad also said, “Thank you.”  It was almost like normal people.


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My president wants to retire in Dubai?  Didn’t we give him good enough vacations here-bouts?  I guess maybe we’ll never know…since he FIRES ANYBODY WHO CROSSES HIM.  (And, that HAS been his track record…)

BREAKING: Top US Admiral Fired For Questioning Obama Purchase Of Mansion In Dubai

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Bill Clinton’s FBI Head Is Called In to Show Bill Clinton ‘Not Present’ at Jeffrey Epstein Underage Sex Orgy
(Is it easier to PROVE A NEGATIVE… if you control entire intelligence agencies?  Lawyer question:  OK, your guy wasn’t at that orgy.  What orgy was he at?)
(My dad is a vet.  He tells us all that our sons should go into the military.  BUT,he didn’t ever tell that to HIS OWN SON– because he NEEDS that token-son to pretend that he is a Christian so BAPTIST IDIOTS will also believe that HE, himself, is a Christian.)  (At one time His SON was not a fake.)  (Seriously.  My brother wasn’t,  at one time; he wasn’t a fake.)

Hey, Daddy!  You just keep paying your taxes…”Go America!  HOO-rah!”

Feds indict first bank that got TARP bail-out money
 (Wait…is it possible to do both of those things?)  (Dad told David that was so. Dogma stands.)  

11:32 am

Message from Belgium:

andrea maria laroche

8:59 AM (32 minutes ago)

to me
Dear Linda ,
please , read the answer on my letter i send to the doctors / and to you/.
What do you think about the answer ?

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

9:30 AM (2 minutes ago)

to andrea

“Dear Lord Jesus,”

“Our dear friend needs some help very badly and she asked me to help her communicate her need to some other people who speak different languages than I.  Please, let me recognize anything in her messages that I could help her say in a different way…if that is necessary.  (You could also teach me French if you wanted…)”
“I am without earthly resources to assist her in any way, and that feels terrible.  But you are my best friend and you are the Lion of Judah and the scepter will never pass from Judah… which means ‘praise.’  So, instead of whining to you again about how much I love her and how helpless I feel, I will offer you thanksgiving and praise.  I know that you love her FAR MORE THAN EVEN I do.  I know you had a plan for her life since before the creation of anything.  I know those doctors will also answer to you, as will those wicked people who harm others who have never harmed them.”
“Dear Lord.  Thank you for creating my beautiful friend.  Thank you for letting me meet her.  Thank you for even the evil that has been perpetrated against both of us.  Thank you that NOTHING EVER HAPPENS TO ONE OF YOUR CHILDREN that is not meant for their benefit, and for the benefit of the most people, because you love us all.  (Even the doctors and psychopaths.)  I’d really like to ask you to perform a miracle on my friend’s eye, so that she could be a sign and a wonder for those who ignore her intelligence because their egos are so puffed with bullshit.  Please, give her a tremendous miracle.  Thank you so much for her life!!!  Thank you for her kindness, and for her determination!!  If I had a friend like that at my elbow I’d never sleep;  I wouldn’t need food!  I’d keep plugging away…I’d keep spreading your TRUTH, just as she does.  Love her so much and so tangibly that it doesn’t even matter what happens to her body.  Wait.  I guess you already do that.  Fill her with peace and confidence.”
“We who have been and are tortured do not expect kindness from others,  and our confidence diminishes, even our confidence in you.  Forgive us,  and GIVE YOURSELF SOME GLORY THROUGH OUR LIVES!!  Give Maria absolute peace.  Give her miracles and friendship.  Give her the CONSTANT KNOWLEDGE OF YOUR SUPERNATURAL LOVE AND POWER.  Give her my best regards and my longing to be with her.  I miss her a lot.”
Dad PLOWED MY DRIVEWAY!  And when I went outdoors to say thank-you and to give him the cookies I had pre-packaged for the possibility that he might show up, he said, just like a real-live adult without a single bit of BULLSHIT: ” THANK YOU.”
( I couldn’t be any prouder of an infant.)

7:46 am

I bet my fat body introduces as many BTU’s into the water as a stupid puny lightbulb.  And, maybe if he showed me how to turn it off, I COULD ALSO LEARN HOW TO TURN IT BACK ON WHEN I’M FINISHED?  Just spit-balling here…
Also, illuminating one’s body in a tub of water puts on a great peep-show doesn’t it?  I dislike THAT ASPECT TOO.  (“Forgive me Lord for suggesting that George might watch me out of his bedroom window.  Forgive me for presuming he wouldn’t.   Either way, it’s bad for me to think.’)


7:33 am
Nice try.  I am not permitted to sit in water that is not lit by a tiny lightbulb that somehow is supposed to assist the REALLY GOOD WATER HEATER.  I’ve told him I don’t like  to be immersed in illuminated-linda-flab but that bulb is supposed to ‘SAVE MONEY’.   I’m VERY TIRED OF LIVING WITH AN ANAL-RETENTIVE…
But, this is not my life.  “God forgive me for getting so mad at George when I couldn’t untruss the ridiculous bindings  on the tub and he wouldn’t let me even know how to turn the light off so I could sit there in the dark.  He’s your business and you love him.”
“Isn’t there some place where my preferences could MATTER EVEN A LITTLE BIT?  If not, please give me more grace because I’m sinning every time George opens his mouth.  That’s my problem right, and not his?  Forgive me again.  Please.”
7:06 am
I’m going into the hot tub and it’s seven degrees outside.
“Thank you, Jesus!  I just realized that although I know it well…I HAVEN’T SEEN MY DAD’S  CHARACTERISTIC SMIRK IN SEVERAL YEARS!!!  Please forgive me Lord, (if it’s a sin…) but  I kinda PREFER  SEEING  FEAR instead, on my sperm-doner’s  FACE.  Thank you that he COULD NOT KILL ME.   Thank you that he will NOT EVER HARM ANOTHER PERSON…of those who do not voluntarily submit to his bullshit.  Amen.”

6:47 am

The Smirk on the Face and the Knife in the Back. Betrayal with Condescension and Insults.

“The tell-tale smirk, and the knife in the back.  When a psychopath pulls a fast one on you in a relationship, at work, anywhere, there will be a patronizing, condescending demeanor;  there will be a smirk that goes like this: […].”
[The smirk comes after]  “…a statement like:  ‘Well I deeply regret what’s happened…’  [involuntary smirk]”

6:30 am
6:13 am
5:11 am

Narcissist stare of death

“…never confront a narcissist about anything you have learned…”
“Any damage you may cause to their ‘perfect’ self-image…or narcissist-ego…   will slate you for punishment.  And often you will see the ‘narcissist stare of death’ beforehand…”
“You see, the narcissist has a fragile ego, although they always appear to be right.”
“So what does this stare look like?  Well, It appears as they are looking straight through you.  You see no emotion, no fear.  Nothing.  Just a feeling of pure and utter evil.”
“It’s as if the lights are on…but no one is home.”
(I have recorded my father’s stare numerous times; and also the circumstances surrounding that stare.  When confronted, he DOES NOT EVER BLINK.)
“Now, if you think you are on the receiving end of a smear-campaign, after you have done something to warrant the ‘narcissist’s stare of death’ they will more than likely turn the SMEAR CAMPAIGN INTO OVERDRIVE.”
(I EVEN RECORDED THAT!  Keeping track of dates and times is really helpful.  Dad is so toast.)
“The sad reality is even though many have been on the receiving end of a narcissist’s stare of death, many THAT ARE CO-DEPENDENTS will try to work with this narcissist, try to find out what is wrong with him…and I have to say, this is the WORST THING  IN THE WORLD YOU CAN DO.”
“This could be something you did by accident…and now you are slated for punishment…”

Labyrinth of the Psychopath 4 – Them “Smirking” Eyes…

“A psychopath, male and female, smiles like this…It’s like the Joker from the old Batman cartoon…”
“It’s almost like a painted-on smile but the eyes don’t smile…”
(I’ve noted many times,  that my dad does not laugh.  I’ve recorded his stare.  I’ve noted EVERY SINGLE PSYCHOPATHIC CHARACTERISTIC that I’ve SINCE LEARNED ABOUT!)  (Yup.  EVERYSINGLEONE.)


(HEY FAMILY.  DO YOU THINK THAT’S TRUE?  WOULDN’T YOU LIKE TO SEE OUR PSYCHOPATHIC NARCISSIST WIFE-ABUSING naked-baby-photographing-babysitter-fucking-son-disabling-daughter-murdering -KNOWLEDGE-deficient and WISDOM- REJECTING ‘father’  BECOME A CHRISTIAN?  Could he?  Is Jesus God?  or not, I guess…)
I AM REGULARLY ASTONISHED THAT MY ‘CHRISTIAN’ FAMILY DOES NOT CARE THAT GRANDPA IS GOING TO OCCUPY A VERY SPECIAL BERTH IN HELL.  MAYBE THEY WANT TO SEE THAT HAPPEN?  (In that case it would really be hard to blame them at all…)  (Stupidity however, is another matter…)
Nobody loves a person who permits him to maintain a false life that harms others.  Dad’s blood may be required at MORE THAN A FEW HANDS.

A Psychopathic Sex Offender – An interview with a real psychopath – Disturbing!

“Robert describes behavior that puts him in the category of POWER AND CONTROL RAPIST,  but doesn’t necessarily tell us that his problems are pervasive,  and that he has no capacity for attachment.”
“If I seen the children doing anything wrong…I would whip them and tell them…I would tell myself, SHE IS NOT GONNA  BE LIKE THAT.”
“I didn’t molest her then…I was grooming her to fit me…I started at about a year…”

4:54 am

4:37 am
Dear Dad,
Hasn’t this all been a hoot?  You and I have traveled a few roads that our significant-others haven’t even googled.  You and I both know what you tried to do..and we both (together with all of my readers…) know how pitifully you failed.  But, the STUPID PLAN can’t be blamed entirely on you.  satan wants us all to suffer and die, and you’ve been licking his boots.  I know that you are deceitful and that you harm others because you feel so much pain yourself.  BUT, you do not extinguish pain by lighting the pain-pyre someplace else.  Pain ONLY LEAVES when we 1) are forgiven FOR LIVING SHITTY LIVES, and 2)  feel ENOUGH love. (Perhaps 2 is contingent on 1.  That would be my most educated guess.)  NEVERTHELESS:  you are no longer PERMITTED to smear your Robert-stink on us.  We are valuable people.  You ARE NOT VALUABLE ENOUGH to HIJACK all of our lives on the remote chance that you might not FEEL LIKE SHIT ANY LONGER.  Jesus could help you there, but not without repentance.  Repentance has no chance to fix any person who CANNOT AND WILL NOT SPEAK THE TRUTH.  Bow now.  Or bow later.  I’ll miss you.  L
4:28 am


4:20 am

Golden Child and Scapegoat Black Sheep: Narcissistic Parent’s Projected Splitting

“…it is at this stage that child abuse like  “emotional incest”.. is heightened…
“…the different treatment meted out by the narcissist becomes a life-long pattern…cast in stone…”
(It’s easy for a SCAPEGOAT to see that her life has been [considered] an accoutrement to somebody else’s whacked self-vision.  It must be a whole lot worse for a Golden Child to wake up one day and realize his entire lauded-life was merely an aspect of his parents’!   That sure puts ‘mama’s boy’ in a whole new light!)

Narcissism The Golden Child’s Abuse

“The narcissist FORCES them to be an extension of themselves…they have HUGE control issues…they are not allowed to be their own individual self.”
“Whether a child is put on a pedestal…or is beaten with it; either way it is abuse.”
(I remember all these years my dad has slandered my brother’s wife, saying she was controlling.  [We all just picked up on it and believed it and I will apologize to her if she ever talks to me.  I know now how he smears reputations falsely.]  He is VERY CUNNING and finds ways to deflect knowledge of his OWN MANIPULATIONS.  Our father sports with us all, and triangulates us against one another for his own amusement.)
[If a Golden Child as an adult]…knowing right from wrong…CHOOSES to continue to take on the traits of a Golden Child… and that is cruelty..then they’re no longer victims, they’ve made their choice.”

You, Too, Can Smell Like Vladimir Putin

The Russian president’s “warm, woody scent” is now available by the bottle in a swanky department store on Red Square.
Rekunov’s creation, “Leader Number One” eau de toilette, was designed in Belarus, made in France, and approved by Putin himself, according to the perfume’s distributors. The fragrance is on sale in only one place: in the heart of Moscow, on Red Square.

The perfumer said he once recognized his perfume on the street in Moscow. “I was in the underground pedestrian passage and sensed my scent—see, I deliberately made it noticeable and sustainable,” Rekunov told The Daily Beast.

The Narcissist’s Plaything– YOU

“The narcissist loves to sit back and watch you squirm.”

(I’m not enjoying the squirm-watching part of my truth-quest.  I don’t like seeing fear on my dad’s face every day since Father’s Day a couple years ago when I gave him thirty dewy 4-leaf clovers at the same time.)  (OK, maybe I did enjoy that time a little bit…)
“The narcissist literally uses lies and manipulation to watch you… try to prove a negative.  They get immense joy out of this, and satisfaction.”
“Watching you try to prove that YOU’RE SANE, and that THE NARCISSIST IS LYING, gives them great joy.  These are very intelligent [sic!]  and devious individuals.  They will think out their lie way in advance, knowing it will be difficult to disprove, and then sit back and watch the show.”
(Come to think of it, I saw fear on my dad’s face way before the four-leaf-clover deluge [that has continued for several years.]  He looked REALLY SCARED after he had been gaslighting me for a long time… and I kept asking him for help!!! He tried to get me to do crazy things all the time, “Take your shirt off, honey.”  I’ve got to review my journals:  He has been afraid of me for much longer.  I guess he’s not ENTIRELY deluded…  “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.”)
[My BROTHER’S dad is]…”like a shark, constantly swimming, never sleeping, and always thinking of ways to cause you conflict and pain.”
2:51 pm
5:08 am
“The Truth will set you free.  But first He’s gonna really piss you off.”
Did Trump pay these ‘alternative’ journalists for their endorsement?  I can’t believe this shit.
I don’t think anybody is going to convince me that there exists some legitimate reason for LAW ENFORCEMENT to distribute kiddy porn.  We are so screwed.
This is surreal.  We’ve got a spy-on-the-lam and he’s a rock-star but he ‘can’t’ come home?  Robots?  It’s so much worse than the Truman Show because the castmembers don’t even get a paycheck!!!  We can’t believe anything at all anymore, unless God says to.  That’s the point we’ve arrived, sorry to say.

‘Can’t arrest a robot’: Snowden’s hi-tech disguise surprises audience at Vegas convention

Diamandis then changed the subject to Snowden’s criminal charges, asking him if he would like to return to the US.

“Absolutely,” Snowden answered, but he isn’t ready, explaining that he lacks confidence that the US will treat him well, as they have only promised so far not to “torture” him.

(And doesn’t his pic look just like Big Brother?  Maybe Snowden’s the anti-BigBrother.  We’re supposed to see some ‘antis’ around pretty soon.)  (What a smug little prick.)

The Lonely Road of the Free Thinker

 Free thinkers are in fact the most threatening kind of people to the established system because they are independent and can actually see outside the rigged paradigm that most in power have unjustly built. They are usually demonized as crazy and dangerous, in the hopes that the gullible public will abandon their support and back the eventual takedown of them.  It is no wonder some of the great free thinkers like Martin Luther king, Mahatma Gandhi, and Jesus Christ are so polarizing at the time, as there is a large public who adores them for their courage and authenticity, yet there is a large majority who are taught to hate them for changing the current paradigm. It should become more obvious why they were all assassinated. The current power structure never wants to lose.
If the world has any hope of transforming into something beautiful, it is the free thinkers that will lead the charge. Free thinking is true self empowerment to the highest degree; deriving your own truth from within without the need for external approval. It’s not to say we don’t need others along the way or there is no form, in fact both are essential, but at the end of the day, one must have dominion and control over one’s own actions and the freedom to roam.
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“Psychopathy is our number one public health risk.”

“It’s not STD’s, it’s not AIDS.  It’s PEOPLE WITHOUT A CONSCIENCE.”

(She looks kinda like my sister-in-law.  Not as pretty though.)

“Can psychopaths be cured?”

“Genetic psychopaths,  technically no…we’re talking about very impacted neurology...lots of parts of the brain…”

IS your Government Gang Stalking You: Deep LEAK: Google-stalking For Covert NSA Research Funding – WILCOX KILL LIST SATELLITE HUMAN MAP TERRAINING HTS WANTS YOU! BE WARNED!



You know, just yesterday I was talking about the STASI.



EPA Releases Study On Pesticides Killing Bees, Gets Sued Immediately By Beekeepers

Read more at:
At least 231 children who sang in a boys’ choir led for 30 years by the brother of former Pope Benedict XVI were abused over a period of almost four decades, a lawyer investigating reports of wrongdoing said Friday.
Read more here:  

To save $5 million, these officials decided not to renegotiate a contract to get clean drinking water from Detroit, and instead opted to tap into the Flint River.

And some of these officials had been warned by the EPA months earlier that the river was contaminated with dangerous levels of lead.

Now, the residents of Flint are paying for the errors of their leaders. The lead-contaminated water is damaging the city’s water system but, more importantly, it threatens the health of anybody who drinks it. In the end, experts predict that the liability for this mistake will be “immense.”

–See more here:  http://whowhatwhy.org/2016/01/07/dirty-lies-local-officials-endanger-thousands/

NOTE TO SELF:  Buy this book when you get your money:
“COMPLEX PTSD:  From Surviving to Thriving”
Pete Walker

How Covert Narcissists Brain Wash Their Victims

“I’m not torturing you…I’m cleansing you and loving you…I’m not the predator…”

Why Can’t I Succeed? Internal Blocks To Success Installed By Emotionally Abusive Family Unit

Complex PTSD from being raised in an abusive family unit.
“Dear God.  You say you are never late.  Please save me before it gets this bad:”
It took her five long weeks to ‘detangle’ the 120 balls of yarn-worth of knotted mess, a time that she looks back on fondly. “I was so happy, I can’t tell you,” she recalled.

Will Mind Control Technology Be Applied to the Oregon Patriots? Confidential Source Says Yes

I work with a consortium of engineers and we have “accidentally” discovered an anomalous band of electronic frequency which is out of the ordinary and the location is near the Burns, Oregon, stand-off event in which a group of ranchers are protesting the taking over of their land by the BLM.
My colleagues have complained that they are no longer in charge of their own experiments and the nature and tone of the experiments is such that we all believe that a widespread application of what you have labeled “mind control” is about to be unleashed on the world, not just the United States. 
 In other words, this is a smoking gun patent for what is often referred to as “voice to skull” technology. This means that the thoughts (i.e. words) in your head may not be your own. This patent clearly demonstrates that the technology has existed to control your thoughts and the technology is over 35 years old.  
2:28 pm

Electromagnetic Stalking Dr John Hall Incredibly Important EDGEAM Interview with Daniel Ott

The technology is used most for sexual assault and corporate espionage.  Groups can can use it for  their own purposes…as long as the data gets sent to the right place.

New wave in tech: hacking the brain

The “mind control” headband unveiled by startup BrainCo effectively hacks into brain signals with a range of possible applications — from helping to improve attention spans, to detecting disease, controlling smart home appliances or even a prosthetic device.

The device “translates your brainwaves into electronic signals,” said the Boston-based firm’s Zenchuan Lei.

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4:11 am


4:12 am

Narcissism 101: “Prove Yourself!”

(She realizes that her overwhelming gratitude at being taken seriously is not normal.  I know what that’s like.  I often cry when a person is nice to me.)
“I’m not used to people taking my word for something.   I’m not used to people defending me…
What I’m used to is having to explain myself; having to defend what I know is right.”
“…with a narcissist you’re on trial for the rest of your life…”
“Dear Lord.  It feels like the CPTSD is getting worse.  Nobody believes me in my whole world except the prophet and my friends in WV.  Isaac would like to see me ‘get some help’ for the terrors and he believes entirely that I was abused as a child and suffer residually.  I DO need help:  All I need is somebody to talk to who doesn’t think I’m a liar.  My childhood hasn’t changed…what changed was the introduction of a whole new set of traumatic experiences…and they continue; I was hunted, that’s the fact of gangstalking.  I need to be in a safe place with loving people;  when I’m in bed trying to sleep and I hear a door in the hall I immediately wonder if I have offended somebody with my audio scriptures or if I failed to do something and somebody else is bothered. I have become more sensitive since learning about NARCISSISTIC ABUSE SYNDROME.  But, I’ve also learned to like myself a bit more.  I was NEVER a problem child and a lot of the time I was REALLY COOL.”  
“When I was first learning about gangstalking and electronic torture, I spoke to a woman with a support group for victims.  She said two things that stood out.  First of course, she was shocked that my Dad was involved with my torture.  I assured her I was certain he didn’t know what he was doing…and she cut me off.  She said, “They ALWAYS know.”  She also asked incredulously, “So you don’t have ANYBODY who is with you on this?”  She felt really sorry for me and that was four years ago.  Yet, I’m still here and Lord, it seems like it should get easier.  But, my documentation and commitment have not been valued by anybody and nobody values me.  I lived without ANY human love for several years so I’m very grateful that Josh and Isaac at least care about me now.”
“But, it’s not helpful at all to be discredited all the time.  How can I maintain reality and fight remote electronic torture all alone?  How can I do that when I’m finding it hard to even maintain with you?  I MISS YOU SO MUCH.  I miss the spiritual manifestations and I miss worshiping with people and I miss feeling loved.  It was great to be in WV because as soon as I was around other believers I began immediately to move in your Spirit.  So wonderful.  So wonderful to pray together.  Please, may I work on this project with Christians?  Please could it be soon?  Please, don’t let me go under.  I think I need that ‘Baptism of Love’ I heard about.  You fix abused people with that one, right”?
“If something doesn’t change soon I’ll have to try to leave again; I can’t even breathe, but leaving  seems pointless; and it really is, right?  Until I’m going the place where you want me to be, leaving is just an escape mechanism. (grin).  I want to stop panicking and it seems I can’t do that around people who believe I lie.  But, I suppose you could give all of them the Baptism of Love too and then maybe they’d see me right.  Maybe you have to start with Baptism of the Holy Spirit?  People consider that one weird!  It’s only a baby step!  It’s only PREP for actually living your life!”   
“I feel such condemnation in this house!  My breathing slows just a few miles from here.  I feel, over and over again that I have done something wrong and the fall-out is imminent.  I’m not supposed to panic.**  Also I am supposed to believe that you love me 100 percent, 100 percent of the time.  I can’t imagine what that would be like.  I’m supposed to believe that you don’t love me less when I fail.  I can’t imagine what that would be like.  I’m supposed to believe that you love me just as much even if I do not try, and in fact, you prefer that unless you’ve given me a specific task.  I want to try really bad God!  MY DAD WOULD NEVER LET ME TRY ANYTHING AND MY ‘HUSBANDS’ ASSURED ME THAT HE WAS RIGHT AND I WAS A PROBLEM.  How is it a problem to want to become everything you want me to be?  Why am I THE PROBLEM all the time?  Why can’t I live somewhere that I can be helpful, maybe fun?  I’m a tired plow-horse with visions of the meadow far away.  All my life that sad man convinced me I was worthless, and now that I know I’m not…his tentacles still steal my breath.  Deal with us please.  I sighed when I typed that; I’ve said those words so many times and I was sure in 2013 that you were going to claim me and pass judgment on my behalf.  That conniving selfish man is still stealing my peace.  Please, be God about that?”
“Opportunity.  That’s what Dad denied me, right?  Over and over, and he always denigrated my ideas.  I didn’t ask my dad for nothing,  nothing but a chance.  I was not permitted to have a chance.  Isaac didn’t believe me when I said that Dad hadn’t paid a penny for my education.  Mom paid for an apartment in the Soo in 1980 when I was attending classes.  Nothing.  Never a chance.  He wouldn’t even help me REFINANCE all my student loans!  He just laughed in my face about the attempt I made after it backfired!  A nice dinner at graduation, then out of the picture. Deal with him, God.  Thank you.  And see if you can get him to pay what I owe to his government so they don’t take away my passport.”
“I suspect that since Isaac is so entirely convinced that I was abused as a child and suffer ill effects, everybody else is probably seeing my dad and mom differently, too.  It was a shocker for him to acknowledge any truth in my words, and my child-abuse-neglect wasn’t anywhere near the front burner.  He sees what I have become and he knows trauma was involved.  He sees my parents differently maybe, we haven’t spoken about it.  George is still in love with my dad; he borrowed a plow truck from Dad so he could plow out his cousin’s vacant cabin because she might come here from Seattle some time before Spring.  He and Isaac shoveled our driveway; it took many hours.  Dad plows us sometimes, but never often enough that we can depend on it and not even once so far this year.  “Intermittent reinforcement.”  He deems to keep us all needy and dependent on him.  I recognize much more about his personality now, and I pity him.  But, he’s your business God.  Can’t you just keep him out of mine?  And make him pay his debts?  And tell the Truth?”
“The only ‘help’ I need is more of you.  You will set me free.  Truth will set me free.  I need you to show up!  I need you to be TRUTH in my situation.  I need you to be TRUTH for my sons and also for George.  I need you to show up for my mom and my brother.  I need you to be TRUTH for my nieces and nephews and my grand-niece.  We need TRUTH.  WE NEED YOU.  I can’t do this alone; please, please give these people some TRUTH!  Your body and your blood and there’s always enough!  Please, Jesus.  I am too weak to pass invocation and ritual and all that.  I’m at the end of me.  I can’t.  If you’re done with me, just say so.  Anything’s better than being disbelieved… because that is being unloved.*  Perhaps because I am becoming TRUTH,  I can’t tolerate any more bullshit accusations.  Could you deal with my share?  I love you and miss you.  Please could you give me your seven Spirits so maybe I could keep going.***  Sorry.  With more of you I wouldn’t be dragging-tail, I’d be jumping over walls in perfect precision with my comrades.  Please, have mercy on me and give me more and more of you. L”
“OMJ, (I thought that was cute…you must get so annoyed at us humans…)  did you just give me a revelation after all this time?  Isaac is eager to believe I was abused as a child, only because,  we gotta have a reason for my torment which is described in precise detail by the youtube-healers discussing NARCISSISTIC ABUSE SYNDROME…and the alternative is far worse.  He is unwilling to lose respect for his grandfather who is, TRULY, a murderer in his heart.  Please comfort both of their hearts.  Give them much love for one another…but WAY LOTS MORE LOVE FOR TRUTH.  And it is part of my promised heart’s-desire that both of those extraordinary men will love me too.”
*Love…believeth all things…Love never fails.
(I Corinthians 13:7-8)
**There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.  (Romans 8:1)
***And the spirit of the Lord shall rest upon him, the spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and might, the spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the Lord  (Isaiah 11:2)
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
(II Timothy 1:7)
7:41 pm

Made to Sleep the Entire Day. Remote Neural Monitoring

Dear, God, could I please be experimented on by the sleep-causing-goons  rather than the sleep-deprivation goons?

John Cullum, where would you go if you could go to any time you wanted?  (He was ‘Holling’ on ‘Northern Exposure’ and that’s about the last time I was interested in a TV show…)  (He played tennis in elementary school.  He musta been rich.)  (Does she have a good buzz or lousy dentures?) (I still think they’re pretty cool.)  (John was a folk-dancer.  So was my favorite professor before law school.)  (I gave her a copy of my book; she does ‘clogging’.)  (Her husband is the US highest expert on vampires.)  (They are friends with Stephen King.)


What is a Targeted Individual

“Such a victim is constantly under attack, and their whole life is sabotaged.”
“It sounds a bit childish…it sounds a bit insane…it’s not rational, but it is real, it’s happening.”
(My daddy is gonna help a lot of people when he exposes the CRAP he’s been involved with.)
6:51 pm
“What is it you expect?  A message from the prophet?

Northern Exposure: Adam’s pessimistic views on nature…brilliant!

7:32 pm

5:10 pm
4:40 pm
I just got back from Marquette; it wasn’t my best trip ever.  My errands were few and easy but I didn’t finish them because every time I looked at people I got woosey.  I couldn’t stand what I was seeing and every person set off an emotion within me.  These weren’t all bad, but I’m kinda fragile still.  I felt the same way about buildings and cars on the way home.  Cars make me have flashbacks that border on paranoia so I rebuke the thoughts in the name of Jesus.  But also, lately I’ve been moved by buildings, especially cabins.  Actually, it’s been kind of weird, and I’ve dreamed of living in chalets and yurts and on houseboats and atop treehousemansions and with people of different colors and I always cook great new food.  In real life lately though, I drive the shore of Lake Superior;  and I’ve memorized details of shacks and bungalos; some of them I’ve noticed many times; but lately I’ve driven slowly so I could look into the windows (most of the places are vacant in January) and wonder what it would be like to spend a night inside.  I imagine staircases and porticos and cubbies and windows-from-the-inside-out.   I wonder what has become of children conceived in decrepit farm-houses; I mourn because the barns are almost gone. Nobody builds a stately wooden barn anymore, but if they did they could easily house hundreds.  I wonder what it would be like to live among a community of people who cared about shelter for others.  My very own family uses that basic necessity as a weapon against their very own.  They treat security as a behavior modification snorkel.  Tit for tat.  
The old barns around here haven’t even been pirated for reusable materials.  Barn-wood is worth a lot of money, to the right people.  Around here it mulches the ground as generations of weeds grow through it.  I’m getting flakier and I’m not the only one who has noticed.  But, flaky sounds better than paranoid.  God said at the beginning of my ‘saga’ that ‘not a hair on my head would be touched.’  He has said, numerous times that I am the SAFEST WOMAN IN MICHIGAN.  He hasn’t talked to me in a long time.  I have to keep remembering what he told me, and how much he loves me.
My mother has texted me a couple times; I believe she would like to believe in me.  She was unkind, but that is her way, and she disliked the language I used earlier and although she had no comment about my remarks, she wanted me to know she was thinking about me.  I reminded her of the vile names she and other ‘educators’ used for their ‘retarded’ students and suggested that my words are somewhat different, against an adult narcissist who has taken my 1) house, 2) relationships and 3) prospects.   She’s coming around.  I don’t believe anybody ever told her before that she had a right to her own feelings.  She can say whatever she wishes to me.  And I’ll return the compliment.  I love her very much and I’m looking forward to the day when her face will not always be scrinch-aimed for approval from a malignant narcissist.  I see her face even now, as it dares to rise toward the light and displays an unusual softness and longing, and a rare coherence.
It will be really fun to get to know my people once we all know we are safe from ridicule and censure.  We’re actually pretty fly.  (That word’s probably wrong.  My sons went for pizza so I can’t ask. What is a really outstanding current word that means really outstanding?  The shitz?  Tell me there’s something better.)  We are extraordinary people who have been denied self-actualization and authentic relationships because our lord-n-master has an ego the size of a steam-roller and he uses it to the smushing of our souls.  He’s done with that.  He can wave that  $1,000 gold certificate around as long as the Viagra-buzz lasts.  Then, he’s gonna have to come home.

9:21 am

9:17 am
My dad is so very stupid that he does really funny things.  Yesterday I pulled into his office driveway as he was putting boxes into his LandRover with part of the logo missing.  I demanded the $120 he (legitimately) owes me for books I wanted to sell in his businesses so I could have some money before Christmas to buy gifts for my sons.  He said…  (“Dear God, please permit Adam to proffer my records of identical statements by my asshole-dad…”… with a straight face just as a GROWN-UP would do…:   “I’m not gonna do that.”  (He sounds like a toddler.  Right?)

8:07 am
What happens when a malignant narcissist begats an anointed child?  How much worse could the terror of first-time parenthood become?  I mean, what if the kid DOESN’T LOOK A THING LIKE YOU?  “Me, myself and Irene.”  Yeah, so the kids are negroid and my ex took off with a black Mensa-member… that DOESN’T MEAN THEY AREN’T MY KIDS.  To a narcissist, “my kids” means they are–MY TOOLS TO MANIPULATE OTHERS,  AND A SOURCE OF NARCISSISTIC SUPPLY.   My mom was a very bright woman.  Even as a child I could recognize that she was smarter than a lot of other adults who told me what to do.  That’s a rough spot,  for a child who wishes to obey, especially when one’s mother is in the darkened living-room feeling up the babysitter whom you also encounter naked on the couch with the father-figure.  Neither my mom nor my dad will recover from their fake lives… if they do not confess what they have been.  I don’t know why my good brain was put into their house,  whose master was a mentally-defective;  but I recognize the legitimate responsibility deposited on me thus.  This is exacerbated by the possibility that I might be the only person they ever encountered in their entire lives…who CHOOSES NOT TO BELIEVE LIES!   Anybody can be smart.  (Hell, I bet even my dad could become smart.)    (‘Smart’ means you don’t believe bullshit.  (Selah.)  ‘Recovered from abuse’ is WAY BETTER than smart.  Recovery means–not only do you not BELIEVE bullshit;  but…the blessed truth is that you don’t even have to ever even listen to bullshit ever again, even.  Selah.)
(“Living well” is not the best revenge; at best it’s only a sort-of-OK revenge.  BECOMING WELL IS the absolute ‘BEST REVENGE.’)  
PS-  SUCK ME, Daddy.
PPS-  “God, dear Jesus, please let me know if that was a sinful thing to say to my lying father;  but even if it was it was Truthful and you are God and if you don’t condemn me THEN NEITHER DOES ANYBODY ELSE.  I love you.  Amen.”
8:28 am
I just can’t stop thinking about Daddy, today!  Another dedication to my father, by the incomparable…Freddie Mercury…

Freddie Mercury – The Great Pretender (Official Video)

“My need is such…I pretend too much…I’m lonely … but noone…can tell…”
(Sigh.  Dad.  Who loves ya, baby?)
(Sigh.  Dad is still being outrageously rotten to me.  Do you suppose he thinks he might outsmart me in some manner?  Sigh again.)

7:41 am
7:34 am
MUSIC BREAK:  This one goes out to Robert d’Rabble-rouser…
“‘…cuz I…’m… gonna make you see.  
There’s nobody else here.  No-0ne like me.  
I’m special!  
(So special.)
I’m gonna have some of your attention…
(give it to me!)”

The Pretenders – Brass In Pocket

(Yeah,  it’s a great title.)

6:20 am
Attempting to establish independent personhood in the wake of PSYCHOPATHIC ABUSE, one cannot EVER stand down.  Abusers lie, and my father abuses EVERYBODY, and he also does that poor-me-bullshit so his victims will pity him.  Even as the tears dry and with apologies still floating on the air…my dad is regrouping and planning his next angle.  He is UTTERLY vindictive and he holds a grudge for…well, so far he can hold a grudge forever.  His influence on our family MUST BE ENTIRELY NEUTRALIZED.  Secular scholars say it is imperative to go entirely no-contact, but as a Christian, I am more optimistic than they, because I know that God can change even the biggest self-serving bastard in the world.  (OH.  Maybe not.  That would be satan.) BUT, satan’s followers were created by God and they’re fair game for redemption…but that is very rare, and until that day, I’d like to see my mom somewhere warm where she can listen to music and maybe share a glass of wine with a person who thinks more than her abusive husband.  After half a century with that selfish faker, she’s gotta be bored out of her mind.
I’ve had lots of visions and dreams about Helmer.  I’ve watched the local church EXPLODE.  (And I’ve seen myself on the grounds trying to warn people it would happen.)  I’ve seen myself driving my family out of the church JUST BEFORE IT EXPLODES, and I’ve seen myself surrender the steering wheel to Jesus.  Time is here, for now.  We’re going to drive out of the disaster and we WILL NOT HIT THE ENORMOUS ROCK IN THE ROAD, a HUGE BOULDER NAMED ROBERT.  My father’s vindictiveness will be exposed and he will suffer tremendously.  His family will be spared a lot of it.  Then his family will become Christians and we will love Dad as much as it takes for him to submit to Jesus who is love.  Otherwise, he’s the sperm-doner from a former world.  When we live in love and acceptance how could we ever even miss him?  We’d wipe our brows and say, “Whew.  Thank you Jesus.  Our dad ALMOST TOOK US ALL TO HELL. Thank you, wonderful Jesus.”
This is the bottom line.  This is the ABSOLUTE bottom line for my abused mother and my abused brother and for sweet Isaac who thinks my dad (and everybody else, actually) means well:  WE CANNOT TOLERATE HIS BEHAVIOR AT ALL.  We MUST demand absolute respect and consideration for EVEN THE WEAKEST AMONG US.  We will not listen to his (classic-narcissist…)  sob-stories and we will look beyond his gifts.  (But we can enjoy them I expect.)  WE WILL HOLD HIM TO THE STANDARD WE WILL ALSO DEMAND FOR OURSELVES. That standard will be absolute Truth, absolute Love, absolute Joy and utter acceptance for every person of good will.  We will NEVER AGAIN believe crap from a serial, non-repentant abuser who pits us against one-another.  A word to the wise:  until I see my father on his knees before Jesus with tears in his eyes…I will not believe a single word from his mouth.  
5:48 am
———- Forwarded message ———-
From: andrea maria laroche <andreamarialaroche@gmail.com>
Date: Mon, Dec 21, 2015 at 12:24 PM
Subject: Re: Your email to counselor Jérome Arnould
To: Melanie Vritschan <mvritschan@skynet.be>, Verstraeten Jean <verstraeten.jean@belgacom.net>, Alfred Lambremont Webre <alfred.webre@gmail.com>, Phuket Patong <phuket222a@gmail.com>, Peter Mooring <peterpm@xs4all.nl>, Energy Weapons <habre@gmx.net>, Mostafa ‘ SAAD <saadm4@gmail.com>, Luc Vervliet <thevitruviusgroup@hotmail.com>, andrea maria laroche <andreamarialaroche@gmail.com>

Subject : My email from 20.12.15 to the lawyer , Mr Arnould .

Hello Melanie ,

open to write – i don’t understand your reaction .
The fact is , i was in contact with Mr Arnould, the lawyer , in May  2015 . Peter Mooring from STOPEG organisation spoken about my urgent case with Mr Arnould and asked him for the  assistance for me. We spoken in May , Mr Arnould and me  on phone about my case .
 Mr Arnould is one lawyer and not some  private person  to write me such email , you did .Among other things , when you read my email to Mr Arnould , i was not asking to give me his assistance gratis .
I also  am surprised  about your reaction : After one is reading my email to the lawyer  about my heavy illness like cancer and about the abuse of involuntary psychiatry in political porpoise  during i suffered acute on the eye tumor , what was
 / and is /  for me life danger ,  one will expect , that the reaction on my email to the lawyer , Mr Arnould  will be positive and automatically supporting my case . So is it and was it from many / international /  colleagues , they cared about and assisted me .
I informed you and the other colleagues in our meeting –  what i am planning : One  very important point of our work it is to care about the abuse of involuntary psychiatry  / in political porpoise and as one part of mind control against mentally healthy people / in Belgium.  See in my email to the lawyer – 650 Belgium’s psychiatrists against the involuntary psychiatry in Belgium , because of suspect cases  .
 Among other things ,  Jean Verstraeten cared about one colleague and victim of mind control , i also was  in contact . The abuse of psychiatry against her let her lost her life .
 My case from 2015 is the confirmation , that the abuse of psychiatry in Belgium is out of control . For this reasons it is necessary and our duty as one human rights organisation in Belgium against human robotisation and electronic torture  , to care about it and to try, that the Patient Verfugung document / ADVANCE MEDICAL DIRECTIVE get legal in the law in Belgium , like it is for Ex.in Germany , to protect many victims of such inhuman way . The abuse of psychiatry against the victims of ” mind control ” is in the combination with the abuse of electronic means  and that’ s why necessary for us  to care about it.
I wish , after we opened the organisation , to be response for the official steps in this matter .
To write me about ” not correct way to go ” it is in this matter not correct way  from you. “Bombarding  him now with all kind of other requests …” – I asked Mr Arnould as lawyer to assist me in my heavy medical case . Cancer and physical disability in combination with  abuse of psychiatry and injections are not ” all kind of other requests  ” and i have not the duty or ambition  to discussing  it with you prior …if i can go to one lawyer .
Regards ,
Laroche Andrea

On Sun, Dec 20, 2015 at 7:05 PM, Melanie Vritschan <mvritschan@skynet.be> wrote:

Hi Andrea, 

I am not very pleased about this, as Mr. Arnould hasn’t been informed about this prior to your email and has kindly accepted to review the statutes for me / us as a free service to what he usually does in assisting me to get the custody of my son back. 

Bombarding him now with all kinds of other requests and concerns and this, without even discussing it with me prior to sending them to him, is not the correct way to go. 


Le 20-12-15 17:38, andrea maria laroche a écrit :
Subject : Document – Patienten Verfugung against involuntary psychiatry to protect me as heavy eye  cancer ill and physically disable of more danger health damages and bodily injuries and to protect me against abuse of involuntary psychiatry in political porpoise    .
Dear Mr Arnould ,
I ask  you urgent to assist  me  with the “Patienten Verfugung ” against the  involuntary psychiatry . I am heavy  ill with conjunctive melanoma :eye cancer and physically disable with cervical spine and cervical chronic pain.    Throught the abuse of involuntary psychiatry against my person , in the year  2015 , May ,  i received heavy and life danger health damages. To have to protect me of eventually new abuse of involuntary psychiatry against my person  and to protect me of more  for my life danger heaths damages , i ask you as lawyer for your assistance .
 I am member of international human rights organisations and working for humanity against crimes against citizens and children and i was participent from the year 2013 in EU Parliament / LIBE Committee inquiry against the electronic surveillance on EU citizens from NSA , USA  . Mrs Vritchan with other colleagues and me we are opening now one human rights organisation in Brussels , what was my initiative.  My colleagues and me ,we all believe the abuse of involuntary psychiatry against me was in political porpoise and i have particularly evidences about it.  For more details see , please , the petition in German ,in  Avaaz organisation  ‘ Hilferuf fur Andrea Laroche ‘ .
  Generally  , they are suspect  cases of involuntary psychiatry in Belgium . See for Ex :  ” 650   Vlaamse psychiaters in obstand tegen gedwongen opnames” / 650 psychiatrists in strike against involuntary psychiatry . 3 000 involuntary psychiatry cases in one year and 8 in one day in Vlaenderen . I think ,in Brussels it will be the same suspect situation when not worse .
I received your name and address from the Human Rights organization STOPEG , from Mr Peter Mooring in Holland  . Among other things ,Mrs Melanie Vritschan informed me to have with you one appointment , we are together with other colleagues opening the  Human Rights organization in Brussels .
Short summary:
2015 , May i received one decision from the  Justice in Brussels   for 40 days involuntary psychiatry  with the abuse of psychiatric diagnoses paranoia –  schizophrenia  , because i refused the scalpel operation from my eye cancer :tumor ,  what was my right  . I had series reasons to refuse the scalpel operation  This was, among other-things , the viollance of my patient rights in Belgium – the patient has the right to refuse the treatment or all treatments .The evidences that i cared about one treatment like special  radiation  for the conjunctive melanoma  and that i am mentally healthy got ignored from the judge and from the lawyer. They refused to see the documents and evidences i was giving them.  I have witnesses.  My right to make an appeal till 15 days  against the Justice de Peaux decision got blocked and manipulated . The procedure was for more reasons one incorrect procedure and i made one appeal against it . The appeal got from the judge ignored.   During the involuntary  psychiatry i received danger health damages and bodily injuries and i made one complain to the hospital ombudsman. I was heavy cancer ill with one life danger eye  tumor and i had to stay 40 days in the psychiatry , where i received against my will injections /depot/ . I warned the personal and the psychiatrist not to give me the injections because of the cancer . Generally , there was not one reason to give me the injections , i was not treating my life or the life of others .   Throught the chemical substances  and sides affects of the injections i lost blood from the eye tumor and the tumor grow up rapide . This was ill treatment and bodily injury and life danger . Among other things , thought the injections came the worsening of my physical disability and chronic cervical pain.  I was in one procedure with one prodeo lawyer to make the claim against the involuntary psychiatry  , but the NL speaking lawyer told me after 3 Months  , i have to do the claim in French  and not in Nederlands . I am NL speaking  / not writing / , my Franche knowledge is not good to can make in Franch the procedure.  .
The other difficulty  is , that i have not some financial aid as heavy eye  cancer ill and physically disable . I have the Belgium’s card E and i can not receive for longer the CPAS  financial aid . I get small donations about 158 E /Months .   As first step i would like to ask you ,  that you save the Patienten Verfugung /  in German  and in English /  and i ask you to write me , how much i have to pay for it and for one appointment with you. In the case of new abuse of psychiatry against my person , i need than urgent  your assistance. I am  writing one appeal with the summary about my case  to my colleagues ,  to assist me with the donations for one lawyer , when need . Can you ,please , inform me about your prices ?
Among other things , i would like to have more legal agents in the Patienten Vefugung and i will ask my colleagues to do it for me. But as first important step it is to send you immediately the documents / see in the PDF /  and to get soon as possible one appointment  with you.
Sincerely ,
Laroche Andrea , Brussels  –
 Ph. No. 046 6 05 22 80  / Please , do no speak on the answer machine it is defect /.
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1:51 pm

Massive Fukushima Radiation Cover-Up: Government-Funded Scientists Now Claim Radiation Won’t Hurt You

Most of the radioactive material from the disaster is likely to stay concentrated on the western coast through at least 2026.

According to professor Michio Aoyama of Japan’s Fukushima University Institute of Environmental Radioactivity, the amount of radiation from Fukushima that has now reached North America is probably nearly as much as was spread over Japan during the initial disaster.

4:30 pm

Targeted Individuals VI Corruption,Psychotronic Warfare,Torture Programs

“Political dissidents and whistleblowers…”

Narcissist in Court and Litigation

“You have to find chinks in the narcissist’s armor.  You have to penetrate, you have to inflict pain, to leverage the narcissist’s vulnerabilities, frailties, weak spots and underlying inferiority complex.  So here are a few things the narcissist finds devastating, off and on the stand:”
“I know that many of these questions cannot be asked outright in a court of law…but you can insinuate them.”  “The narcissist will explode in rage and create a public scene.”
“He will tell you truth he didn’t intend to say.”
I made caramel corn today, and two nisua braids;  that’s Finnish coffee-bread with cardamom.  I also made kale soup with sausage and potatoes from a copy cat recipe so it tastes like the soup at Olive Garden.   I made sausage yesterday from some pork George ground the day before, and a raspberry sheet cake and my sons don’t want me to bake anymore.  I told them if I did I’d keep it in my bedroom.  I took one of the nisua to my parents’ house and left it by their door.  Yesterday I left for them pieces of the raspberry cake and fresh crumpets leftover from Josh’s breakfast.  My dad hasn’t paid me for the books I left at his businesses to sell so I could have some Christmas money,  and nobody has called.  Christmas is just a few days away.  I guess I’m not invited again.
Tomorrow I”m making Fattigmans Backels for my sister.  I figure if I drop them at my parents’ house they’ll get to her somehow.  I think she’s the only one who actually likes them although my mom will appreciate that I’m using her mother’s recipes.  Or not.  Who knows what those people think?  I wrapped a few presents and did a load of laundry and mailed a copy of my book to my friend in Belgium.  Went to the pharmacy with George.  He’s working out now, tonight will be his third or fourth night.  He goes in early and uses a building at the prison.  Josh and Isaac went to St. Ignace again to work.  We need some opportunities pretty soon so I expect that’s what we’ll have.  God is good.  We didn’t get any propane today but praise God we do have that couple cords of firewood I encouraged George to buy for emergencies.  Maybe tomorrow we’ll get some heat again so we don’t use all the wood.

Muslim Woman Gives Jesus One Week To Prove Himself Before Ending Her Life. Then This Happens!…


“He inhabits the praises of His people.”
(My friends in West Virginia used to know this guy, Sid Roth.  They used to go pray at the 700 Club and knew everybody in the day.)


(Radiation headed west towards Helsinki.)

“Dear Lord, if it might be your will, I’d sure like to return to Belgium to spend some time with Maria.  I don’t suppose I could help her legal efforts, but I could make her coffee and keep her warm and give her a place to sleep…if I had my money.  I think now would be a good time but this is your show.  Please provide for her; give her a companion and keep her safe. Give her DISCERNIBLE RESULTS FOR HER EFFORTS AGAINST TORTURE.  Please bless Melanie and keep her child safe and tender.  Make Melanie tender too.   Amen.”
6:11 am
For with stammering lips and another tongue will he speak to this people.

Beautiful Baptism in the Holy Spirit

This woman had never been to a Spirit-filled meeting before. Her friend brought her to the meeting, and during the book signing at the end, the Lord touched this woman mightily. You can see her prayer language bubble up as His deep awakens hers!

How I received the Baptism of the Holy Spirit….. in a parking lot!

(My experience was much like his:  I did not receive the Baptism for years although I prayed and fasted and people prayed for me.  I also believe I should have stepped out in faith and actually MOVED MY MOUTH on earlier attempts to receive.  We ‘find God in our mouths’.  I received the Baptism all alone in bed and asleep.  He woke me up and I couldn’t stop the glossolalia for about two weeks.  It didn’t develop slowly but came on fluent, and with constant interpretation for a while.)
“Baptists are missing out…they even borderline on “blaspheming the Spirit.”

(…and his campaign is hitting the road.)

In just a couple of weeks, I will begin going state by state to every capital in our nation to hold prayer rallies for our country and share this same challenge on the Decision America Tour. Des Moines, Iowa, is first on January 5.

I hope you’ll join me in your capital-check decisionamericatour.com for more dates and details.

Read at:   http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-chat/3375317/posts

10:08 am
Did you know that Bob Dylan wanted to marry Mavis Staples?  Maybe Pop Staples thought he was a go-nowhere wimpy-ass white boy.  You never know.  And maybe I red a lie anyway.  Isn’t she adorable?  
Mavis Staples Performs “I’ll Take You There” at In Performance at the White House

It is the false self that gets intimate…not the narcissist who stands behind it.”  
“The narcissist creates two masks, which serve to hide them from the world.”
Let us go then, you and I,
where the evening is spread out against the sky,
like a patient etherized upon a table.
Let us go to certain half-forgotten streets,
the muttering retreats of
restless nights  in one-night cheap hotels.
(Too bad I’m not a lawyer anymore.  I’d have a ball now that I’m not afraid of anything.)

Support & Exposure of Electronic Brutal US Torture by Kevin Barrett Veterans Today

In today’s triumphalist West, the cruel, unethical, non-consensual human experimentation of the Nazi Doctors is universally deplored. Yet similarly atrocious experiments, using the latest in electronic weapons, continue with active or tacit support of Western governments – as documented by the Covert Harassment Conference in which I am participating.

Electronic Harassment – ‘Targeted Individual’ Richard Cain Hour One


Richard and his two son’s have been targeted and implanted with nanotechnology and he is doing all he can to fight this uphill battle.

He mentioned, “they can monitor every aspect of your physical body. they can hear every conversation you have. thy can see everything you say and everything you do.”

It’s all about data collection and putting under the name of national security.”

One of the most shocking statements Richard Cain shared in my opinion, was when I asked him, “what have you noticed recently in the media that makes you question… hmmm I wonder if this person is being targeted?”

He said, “it’s interesting you will find a series of patterns… you’ll see in every type of something major happening there is a particular ambulance company that’s always there”

“Out of all the the ambulance companies you’ll see the same one.  go back and look at the film”

You can help Richard and his son’s with this new “Gofundme” campaign recently launched.


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An 87-year-old British parliamentarian deemed unfit to stand trial on a string of child sex abuse offences died peacefully at his home on Saturday, his family said.

Cop Says Life “Ruined” After Pointing AR-15 At Journalists Saying, “I’m Going To F***Ing Kill You!”

“Oh my God, gun raised, gun raised,” stated Zeigler.

“My hands are up bro, my hands are up,” he says before Albers responds, “I’m going to f***ing kill you, get back, get back!”

“You’re going to kill him?” asks another individual before Zeigler asks, “did he just threaten to kill me?”

When Albers is asked for his name he responds, “go f*ck yourself.”

A week after he was caught on video committing assault with a deadly weapon, Albers resigned, but has avoided any form of discipline – until now.

(Sounds like his life wasn’t so hot beforehand or he might have been kinder.)

See more at:   http://www.activistpost.com/2015/12/cop-says-life-ruined-after-pointing-ar-15-at-journalists-saying-im-going-to-fing-kill-you.html


5:39 am

Predator Narcissist: YOU are the Prey! (Part 1)

The narcissist says:”…And I pretend to do so selflessly, “for their own good”. I preach and hector and pour forth vitriolic diatribes and expose and impose and writhe and foam in the proverbial mouth – all for the greater good. I am so righteous, so true, so geared to help, so meritorious.”

“What has happened over the past several years in places like Iraq, Libya and Syria have roots in the late 1990’s. The Project for a New American Century, a “think-tank”, founded by Dick Cheney, one of the most die-hard neocons the world has ever seen, developed a plan to invade – that’s right, invade – 7 countries in 5 years. Their plan is taking longer than originally thought, but I am not sure if Russian and Chinese resistance was part of the calculation. The development of al-Queada, that has now morphed into ISIS, has not gone as planned either. ISIS appears to be morphing into their own entity that the CIA is having a hard time controlling.”  (Paul Craig Roberts)

Two new plants to bottle Baikal’s ‘pure’ water for foreign export

Inverted Narcissist Envies Narcissist Intimate Partner

A sound heart is the life of the flesh: but envy the rottenness of the bones.

“Women sense the void that I am.  The howling abyss, where a person should have been.”
(I hope somebody else is laughing…I couldn’t make this stuff up!! Not only does this guy KNOW my dad but also he’s a real poet.  I bet he’s funny as hell in his original language.  ALSO, it seems that every time I begin to work, he’s made a dozen new videos I never saw!  AND…they were posted four years ago or something!  AND, they’re so SPOT ON TO MY LIFE that I keep thinking I’m on Candid Camera!  THIS IS GETTING FUN.  God said I would ‘laugh like a child’.   “Don’t get saved too soon Dad.  This is really very cool.”)

Cerebral Narcissists Don’t Dig Women

(My sons were amazed when I told them Lord Janner died, still an unrepentant pedophile.  They reminded me that I just showed them his picture a couple days ago and they said my life is really weird.)

Toxic Fathers Leave Scars Eternally on both Sons & Daughters – Please Break the Cycle

(My brother has intentionally tried to be a better father than ours.  He told me so many years ago.) 

(This was posted on my birthday.)

Sugar Coated Toxic Moms & Dads Toxic Parents That Everyone Thinks Are The Greatest

“OMG, if you only knew what they were really like at home.”

(Kids know.  When I was in high school my friends wouldn’t come over until they asked:  “Is GOD home?”)
“Toxic parents, or toxic siblings ARE NOT THE MEASURE OF YOU, however, they love to think they are. You need to learn to break away from what those people think that are wrongly judging you.”

Feeling Totally Broken From Measuring Yourself Through Toxic Family Members

Top 20 Twin Flame Signs

(My sons need to reed this.  Somebody should have shown it to me one time.)

Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along. – Rumi

We are not always receptive to the appearance of our twin flames in life. We might be heart-broken, wracked with grief, maritally over-burdened, or just plain tired and disillusioned when they suddenly appear out of the blue. In fact, we might have already met our twin flames or mirror souls, but we might have overlooked them, belittled them or taken them for granted in some way.

Whatever emotional or psychological stage you’re at in life, it is always beneficial to be conscious of the people you live with and meet. These following twin flame signs might help you to open new pathways and opportunities for union:

  1. You feel a strange, inexplicable sense of “recognition” when you meet the person. This might manifest itself as déjà vu, or an unshakable feeling that you’ve known this person before, or are somehow “meant to be together.”
  2. You have a feeling that they are going to play a very important role in your own development, without knowing when, why or how.
  3. You’ve established an immediate, intense connection with them that is invigorating and shocking at the same time.
  4. You feel as though you’ve finally found a “home” or safe place with the other person.
  5. You are able to be your authentic self – warts and all – without the fear of rejection, persecution or judgment with them.
  6. You both embody the yin and yang, in other words, your dark side is balanced by their light side, and their dark side is balanced by your light side.
  7. You feel a sense of expansion with them, as though you are larger than your limited identity.
  8. They make you a better person, and you make them a better person.
  9. When together you are both bonded but free, attached but unattached. In other words, you still maintain your freedom even though you might be in a relationship with them.
  10. You are finely tuned to their energy, and they are finely tuned to yours. This means that you are both very conscious of the present play of energy (whether happy or sad, angry or forgiving, open or withholding) present in the connection. You’re both therefore highly empathic with each other.
  11. You feel as though you have been waiting for this person your entire life.
  12. You both connect deeply and mirror each other’s values and aspirations for life beyond surface similarities.
  13. You twin flame is a mirror of what you fear and simultaneously desire the most for your own inner healing. For example, if you are a highly-strung person, your twin flame will most likely be relaxed and messy. If you like to play the victim, your twin flame will be a strong character who refuses to give you pity or sympathy to perpetuate your complex. If you are creatively repressed, your twin flame will be a flourishing artist. In this way, our twin flames challenge and infuriate us but also teach us important lessons about our fears, core wounds and repressions.
  14. No matter how many times you avoid or leave your twin flame, you’re always magnetically attracted back to them. (Don’t confuse this with abusive relationship complexes.)
  15. One of you is more soulfully mature than the other, and often serves as the teacher, counselor or confidant within the relationship.
  16. You are taught important life lessons such as forgiveness, gratitude, empathy and open-mindedness by them and with them.
  17. Your connection is multi-faceted. In other words, your twin flame is likely your best friend, lover, teacher, nurturer and muse all at once.
  18. Your twin flame doesn’t try to change you. They accept you for who you are and what stage you’re at, and encourage you to do the same for yourself (and vice versa).
  19. You can be truthful with each other about anything.
  20. Together, you both feel driven towards a higher purpose, whether spiritually, socially or ecologically.


Our twin flames can be lovers, sisters, brothers, friends, cousins or even mothers or fathers. For some people they arise at the most opportune times, and for others they arise at the most complicated times. And still, for some people twin flames are said to not arise in this lifetime, but are nevertheless with us in heart.

Whatever the case, remember that it is entirely possible to be whole and complete unto yourself with enough soul work. Remember, twin flames do not “complete” you because you are already innately “complete” at a soulful level; they instead compliment you deeply and help you to grow.

At:  http://lonerwolf.com/20-twin-flame-signs/ 

7:17 am
I’d like my sons to know what it’s like to become braver just because another person exists, whether you even see him or not.  Just knowing Adam exists makes me braver. That’s a very great gift to give another person.  He saved my life even if I’ve been following AI instead of the real deal.  I couldn’t have survived the brain-rapes if he had not been the subject of all the VOICE and DIGITIZIED-presence BULLSHIT.  In order to keep clear records I HAD TO BE AT PEACE with the foreign entity in my head and that’s not possible unless you TRUST…people even get Stockholm Syndrome from the V2K!   I had THERAPY through it, because of the character depicted.  Also, I’ve helped to destroy the NSA.  The haunting knows how to show a lady a good time.   (I suppose somebody would tell me if Adam died or something.)
 7:49 am
This was my Grandma’s favorite song.  She played it on the piano and I’m pretty sure I own the sheet music too.

Who’s Sorry Now?

Liza MInnelli (London Palladium)

(Observed by her mama, Judy Garland)
“I tried to warn you, somehow.”


5:00 am

Officials now say Fukushima reactor with MOX fuel “leaked directly from containment” — TV: Contamination of environment was due to “failure of vessel” — Experts: This has caused additional worries because MOX is more “radioactively aggressive” due to plutonium content (VIDEO)

See more at:   http://enenews.com/officials-fukushima-reactor-mox-fuel-leaked-directly-containment-vessel-tv-radioactive-contamination-environment-caused-failure-vessel-experts-caused-additional-worries-tepco-govt-because-mox-ra

The solution so far has been to dump the salty water into the reactor building basements. This itself is problematic as excess salt levels will increase the corrosion of structures in the lower levels of the buildings. It has also created a problem for treating the contaminated water. The decontamination systems are not meant to handle water with significant salt levels. Early salt contamination of water involved in cooling the reactors back in 2011 had to eventually have the salt removed. This reduced the corrosion in the systems and allowed the water to then be processed through various decontamination systems. Anywhere this salty water is included will likely need to be run through a desalination system at the plant first. This may cause a serious bottleneck in water processing at the site.

It’s not about party, it’s about hunger for war: 19 percent of Democrats also said they’d bomb fake country from “Aladdin”

You’re missing the point. 30% of Republicans said they’d bomb Agrabah — but so did 19% of Democrats.

See here:   http://www.salon.com/2015/12/18/its_not_about_party_its_about_hunger_for_war_19_percent_of_democrats_also_said_theyd_bomb_fake_country_from_aladdin/

The Bucket List: The Sadly Underwhelming Things We Dream Of

The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. And not very much travel

For a startling number of us, that list includes tattoos and Disneyland.
What does it say about humanity’s resolve when only 31 percent of people who want to get a tattoo have gone about doing so, and it’s the most-achieved thing on all bucket lists?

Narcissist Has No Friends

They only have suck-ups.  And those devoted sycophants must be “sufficiently vacuous to make the narcissist look sharp and omniscient.”
“Never likely to obtain center stage…and NEVER overshadowing their masters.”
  “Moreover, both Holmes (Sherlock) and Poirot (Did you know Agatha Christie never owned a writing desk?) sadistically and often publicly taunt and humiliate their [senchu-ponches(?)], explicitly chastising them for being dim-witted…in front of others.”
“Narcissism and sadism are psycho-dynamic cousins.”
“Both Watson and Hastings are perfect victims of abuse:  they are docile, they are understanding…they are malignantly optimistic.  They are self-deluding and they are idolizing.”

The Sad Truth To Why Most People May Not Wake Up!

“What is Fox news?  Just a parade-of-propaganda, a festival of ignorance.”

Narcissist Despises His Fans, Followers, and Admirers

“The narcissist depends for his narcissistic supply, on his coterie of fans, followers and admirers.  But, he resents this addictive dependence. ..and he resents himself for being so frail and impotent.”  “It negates his grandiose delusional fantasy of omnipotence.”

(He thinks they’re ‘repulsive’ and ‘inferior’.)  (Where have I heard THAT before?)
“NO-one can be the narcissist’s real and true friend…because no-one is equal to him!”
“Being special is the exclusive privilege of the narcissist.”
“The narcissist is a guru at the center of a cult.”
“The less-accomplished he REALLY IS, the more stringent his mastery, and the more pervasive the brain-washing.”
“Cult-leaders are narcissists who FAILED IN THEIR MISSION… to BE SOMEONE.”
“Even as cult leaders, even as gurus, even as the center of attention,  they realize deep inside,  their fraudulence and their failure.”
“They resent everyone around them…for witnessing their painful truth.”

Narcissist Confinement, The Value of Friendship to a Narcissist

“His world is as narrow as an ant’s.”
 “The narcissist is not interested in people as such, incapable of empathizing, he is a solipsist, recognizing only himself as human.” 
“All others are…tools and instruments…in the task of securing and consuming narcissistic supply.”
“…the narcissist is a predator.”

Beware of Narcissistic Christian

(I would use quotes around the ‘Christian’ but the title didn’t have any and I cut and pasted it.)

Who are The Victims of Narcissistic Abuse?

“They regard natural-born empaths as deplorable, nauseating weaklings who deserve all the abuse and ill-fortune that life…and the narcissist…meet out to them.”
(There is NO STANDARD VICTIM.  EVERYBODY is FAIR GAME and everybody should BEHAVE ACCORDINGLY.  Dad won’t be sucking any more of my life anymore so keep your heads down.)

Discontinuous Narcissist: Fractured and Broken

“…the narcissist is his own creator, his own god; hence his grandiosity.”

“Into this reflective vacuum, this sucking black-hole…the narcissist attracts the sources of his narcissistic supply:  YOU.”
“By definition, the narcissist has at least two selves…his personality is very primitive and chaotic…”
“Living with a narcissist is a nauseating experience, not only because of what HE IS
…but also because of what HE IS NOT.  He is NOT A FULLY-FORMED human being…”

Narcissist: Irresistible Charmer

“The narcissist is confident that people find him irresistible.  His unfailing charm is part of his self-imputed omnipotence, his personal myth.” 
“Narcissists…firmly believe that being unique, they are entitled and deserve special treatment by others.
“Narcissists…use these people as instruments of gratification, as sources of narcissistic supply.”
“It’s all a mind-game intertwined with a power-play.”

The Uncanny Valley of Cold Empathy

“Psychopathic narcissists are near-perfect IMITATIONS of humans” and we react with revulsion just the same as we do when a robot too closely resembles a real human.  They creep us out.
“…but lacking empathy and emotion…they’re not up-to-scratch, they’re not human.”
“Psychopathic narcissists are…robots.”

The Narcissist Surprise when He’s Accused

“To be morally repugnant, one needs to be purposeful, to deliberated and contemplate the options, and then to prefer evil to good, to choose wrong over right.  No ethical or moral judgement is possible without an act of choice on behalf of the perpetrator.  But, narcissists do not choose.  They simply ‘ARE’.  (Guess that’s what happens when you take on ‘I AM’.)
“He feels wronged, hurt, the victim of pettiness, bigotry, bias, discrimination…and injustice.  He rebels.  He rages.”
“He is unable to link his past actions with their outcomes in the present.”
“The narcissist is an assemblage; he plays host to many persona.”
My dad’s a zombie because he thought he was God.  How’s that for one of those deceptions God gives us when we refuse Truth like the Bible talks about?  You saw it here first:  not to the strong goes the battle, not to the swift goes the race.  (Dad always said I’m ‘not too swift’.)
It appears to me, upon review of SEVEN YEARS during which I have received neither solace nor consideration as my family flew asunder by his blows, that my father is UNABLE to bend his knee to Jesus, the Christ and my betroth-ed-Lord.  If this can be remedied, somebody should go about accomplishing it.  He is in God’s sites because he intentionally harms people and he will not repent.  Yon lookers-upon, ‘Lower thine heads’.   You saw what happened to those Nazis in “Raiders of the Lost Ark.”  (And they were only curious.)
“To achieve its goal this machine stops at nothing, and does not hesitate to alter itself, to recombine beyond recognition.”

MattRach – New Album 2016 “Indigo Child” Trailer

This guy is a great guitar player and he has a new album coming out on my birthday.

INPUT Short Circuit

Short Circuit 2 – Major Input

8:26 am
Since neither of my siblings is speaking to me I have no way of knowing this to be true, but here’s what I expect:  one of them has approached our mother with kindness and support.  She has been supporting Dad’s false narrative longer than any of us and this is a hard time for her.  ALSO, she was his first victim and remains a somewhat superior person to our father; she doesn’t deserve his reputation.  We will minimize its effects on her.  Right?  906-291-1376/906-586-4629.

7:42 pm

How the narcissist sees the “normal people” and his relationship with them. The narcissist feels used and that he is actually doing a great effort towards his relationship with others.

How the Narcissist Sees “Normal People”

How to Cope With a Vindictive Narcissist?

“They stalk, they harass, they intimidate.  There are only two ways to deal with a vindictive narcissist:  to frighten him, or to lure him.”
Frightening:  “Narcissists live in a constant state of repressed aggression.  Envy.  Hatred.  And rage.  They firmly believe that everyone else is precisely like them.  As a result, they are paranoid.  Suspicious.  Scared.  Labile and unpredictable.”
Luring:   “Offer him continued narcissistic supply, until the war is over and has been won by you.”
“[?] by the drug of narcissistic supply, the narcissist immediately becomes tame.”
Under the influence of narcissistic supply, the narcissist is unable to tell when he is being manipulated;  he’s blind, dumb and deaf.  
You can make the narcissist do ANYTHING by offering, withholding or threatening to withhold narcissistic supply.  Adulation, admiration, attention, sex or subservience are the weapons in your arsenal.  

This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come.

For men shall be lovers of their own selves…

–II Timothy 1-2(a)

“Learn to read the abuser’s body language and save yourself a WORLD of HURT.”

Body Language of Narcissistic and Psychopathic Abuser

“In general abusers always prefer show-off to substance.  One of the most effective methods of exposing an abuser is by trying to delve deeper.  The abuser is shallow; he’s a pond pretending to be an ocean.  He likes to think of himself as a Renaissance man, a jack-of-all-trades, or a genius.”   

“He always name-drops, and appropriates other people’s experiences and accomplishments as his own.”

“The abuser may possess a fabulous sense of humor, scathing and cynical, but rarely is he self-deprecating.”  

Easily offended.  “The abuser’s time is more valuable that other people’s.”  

“Lack of empathy, aloofness, disdain, the sense of entitlement, the restricted application of humor, the unequal treatment, the sadism, and the paranoia, do not render the abuser a social misfit.  This is because the abuser only mistreats his closest, his nearest and supposedly dearest.”  

“They’re great actors and they succeed in deceiving the entire world, all the people, all the time.” 

Effects of Abuse on Victims and Survivors

Repeated abuse has long-lasting and pernicious and traumatic effects such as panic attacks, hyper-vigilance, sleep disturbances, flashbacks, intrusive memories, suicidal ideation, psychosomatic symptoms.  

The victims experience shame, depression, anxiety, embarrassment, guilt, humiliation, abandonment, and an enhanced sense of vulnerability.  


I red that Richard Simmons hasn’t left his house for two years because he ‘doesn’t want to be famous anymore.’  Isn’t that curious?  99 % of America’s graduating seniors want to be famous; for 72% that’s the ONLY thing they want.  (After satisfaction of necessary carnal considerations.)  People want to be famous SO BADLY that they don’t even care if they become famous for shallow intellect or slatternly habits.  They don’t care a single iota what people think of them, just as long as people DO THINK OF THEM.  I red a headline at Wal-mart today; apparently Bruce Jenner is having second thoughts about being the ugly step-sister and he wants his boobs removed; those decorator models, I don’t get it.  I’m not proud of my saggy boobs but maybe I should be; they did some serious work.  Angelina Jolie is now the name of a syndrome where people are so health-obsessed that they become off-balanced; sometimes they even self-harm by mutilating their bodies under the delusion that evil spirits have taken up residence in their glands or in their gonads.  They replace real organs with synthetic prostheses and cyber-link the nerve endings and replace the human soul with an arrogant algorithm.   They clone replacement bodies and they hack and hack and hack.   I can’t continue this train of thought.  I am a child of light and in me is no darkness at all.  (Cuz Jesus lives here and he creates NEW BODY PARTS every day of the week.)  There are hackers in the light too.

Why Narcissists Laugh in Funerals?

“Inside,  the narcissist is barren, incapable of any inkling of true feeling.  The narcissist looks down on those who succumb to weakness of sentiment.”

Good People Ignore Abuse and Torture: Why?

“The sadistic variety of abuse fulfills the emotional needs of the perpetrator and is very passionate.”

“ABUSE is asserting absolute and all-pervasive domination of the victim’s existence.”
“Abuse is a coping strategy, employed by the abuser;  he wishes to reassert control over his life, and thus to reestablish his mastery and superiority…”  
[abuse] “…regulates his sense of self-worth.  So abuse is a catharsis.”
“Victims of abuse become symbols of everything that is wrong in the abuser’s life.”

Narcissist’s Pathological Space: His Kingdom

Pathological Narcissistic Space (PNS). This is an imaginary environment, a comfort zone, invented by the
narcissist. It has clear geographical and physical boundaries: a home, a neighbourhood, a city, a country. The narcissist strives to maximise the amount of Narcissistic Supply that he derives from people within the PNS.
The narcissist’s PNS incorporates people whose role is to applaud, admire, adore, approve and attend to the narcissist. Extracting Narcissistic Supply from them calls for emotional and cognitive investments, stability, perseverance, long-term presence, attachment, collaboration, emotional agility, people skills and so on.
The narcissist interprets everything as addressed to his person (“ad hominem”) rather than to his actions. The list of things, real or imagined, by which a narcissist might be slighted is dizzying indeed. When contradicted, when deprived of special treatment, when subjected to an attitude or comment which he judges to contravene his grandiose, superior self-image or his sense of entitlement — he is beside himself with indignant rage.

Narcissistic Humiliation and Injury

Any sign of disapproval, disagreement, criticism or remonstrat(ions?), all of these reduce the narcissist to a state of 
“insulted, sulking agitation.”
 (I’ve gotta save that one for the family Bible…or my dad’s tombstone.  Those three words encapsulate life with him.)

Bullying as Art, Abuse as Craftsmanship

(This guy is GREAT.  I think he knows my dad.)
Psychopathic bullies and abusers regard themselves as artists: their bullying is a form of perfected art and their abuse — the epitome of craftsmanship. They are proud of their “achievements” and happily recount instances of pain and hurt inflicted on their victims.
There is a glint in the psychopathic narcissist’s eye when he describes the helplessness of his targets, their doomed attempts to extricate themselves, the traps he sets at every turn, and the fear he inspires in his prey, as his prey succumbs.
“Independent, or disobedient people invoke in the abuser the realization that something is wrong with his worldview.  That he is NOT THE CENTER OF THE WORLD.”
Here’s how he tries to reestablish his cockamamie order:
1)  Intermittent reinforcement, capricious, disproportionality of his reactions, tantrums, etc
“constant changes to the rules of the game…are all premeditated.”  “always on the prowl, spies, collects information.”
“GASLIGHTING:  AMBIENT ABUSE:  This is the fostering, propagation and enhancement of an atmosphere of fear, intimidation, instability, unpredictability and irritation.” 

Narcissist’s Selective Memory: It’s All About Narcissistic Supply!

I’m glad that soon I’ll be the source of something GOOD FOR SOMEBODY… rather than just giving myself to plug holes in other people who are too lazy to work on themselves!  

4:09 am
And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil.


When something stupid happens, my sons immediately turn on me. They seek to control me, as though I might harm their dad;  and that’s pure unadulterated INAPPROPRIATE  pre-crime prosecution.  If I would have harmed their father BELIEVE YOU ME, it would have happened long ago when he quit being a dad or a husband.  Also, I do not experience rage anymore and ALL THREE of these MEN have put holes in walls and doors.   (After Josh smashed my door I smashed a hole in his.  It seemed like the right thing to do.)  If I approach their father with questions about whatever stupid-circumstance, my sons interrupt our conversation; they believe they are protecting him from me.  If I pointed this out, they would think the reason I believe they’re protecting him… is because I believe he needs protecting. Such is the circular-reasoning that results from BELIEVING A BUNCH OF LIES, and isn’t it really ironic?  We ran out of propane last night; George woke me up around 2:30 to tell me the news and offer a space heater.
 It‘s too bad we have no heat but we won’t freeze and I do not blame George.  I don’t blame him for anything at all.  He always does the best he can.  
-I blame my father, who refused to talk to me for the six months ever George said he would not purchase fuel this year.
– I blame my father who went behind my back and arranged for us to get propane without setting up automatic deliveries.
– I blame my father who spoke to George about these matters although George is not related to him or to me.  
-I blame my father who created circumstances whereby I have no resources and no input within my former home.  
-I blame my father who has long known these facts to be true…and who STILL WILL NOT MAKE IT RIGHT.  
I pray for my dad.  George is in God’s hands already.   My father however, is a spoiled brat who thinks he gets to control EVERYTHING and EVERYBODY… and he can’t even SET UP A RESPECTFUL  ADULT CONVERSATION.  He’d better figure this out because  I’ll SOON see him in God’s hands too.
When George woke me up I suggested starting the wood furnace and he said, “No, because it would take too long to get running.”  That didn’t make sense, since if you don’t light it, it never gets running so I went to ask him what he meant.  (We DO NOT communicate well.  I frequently ask questions and it‘s been 25 years.)  His answer was logical.  He said the stovepipe was disassembled and he’d see about things tomorrow since he called for propane today and it‘s coming on Monday.  That was my question, but my sons thought the worst of me.  They thought I was mad at George.  That wasn’t the case, and I was MERELY annoyed with my father;  the fact is:  I am STANDING FIRM on the knowledge that my father will become the man he has always pretended to be.  When a ferocious Truth-lover STANDS FIRM…it always looks threatening, but it‘s only a real danger to the lie.  When my sons recognize the jaw-dropping extent of my father’s malfeasance and intent towards us, they will reevaluate a lot of things, myself included and also Jesus.  It would be nice if they’d begin already.
George and I went shopping in the Soo today and I didn’t hyperventilate even once.  He even bought me a Christmas present!!  He hasn’t done that for a long time; it‘s a bag of Kona coffee beans and a travel mug with a base that will fit into the cup-holder in that beater-VW my dad gave me that WOULDN’T EVEN START TODAY so we took George’s car to the Soo and he even took me out to dinner.  When we got married my uncle Herb made him promise to take me out to dinner once a week.  It was part of the vows.  I’ve gone 18 months without stepping foot inside so much as a McDonalds.  But I have become an exceedingly skilled cook.  Also, George bought a set of REAL GLASSES!  (We’ve been using plastic cups and a set of lucite Christmas tumblers my mom left in the basement with all her other junk.)  He also bought two new pans and that’s great because I threw away one pan last week and a couple more should go.  As we were looking at cans on a top shelf at Wal-mart he turned to me and said the craziest thing.  He said, “Maybe next year this time we’ll be doing our shopping at Meijers.”  (Rumor has a new Meijers being constructed in the neighborhood.)  I would have thought that a crazy thing to say on any one of the thousand+ days since he stopped being my husband.  I was near death;  I began to lift my head the day I filed for divorce.  I suspect we were unequally-yoked.  That didn’t seem to matter as much when we were both pulling in the same direction.  I wish him great joy and peace.  I wish him distance from me.

Narcissist Loves his Disorder and Narcissistic Personality

“The narcissist is emotionally attached to only one thing:  His Narcissistic Personality Disorder.  Cultivates his illness tenderly.     Where normal people love others, empathize with them, the narcissist loves his false self, and identifies with it, to the exclusion  of all else, and all others…including his TRUE SELF.”  

5:27 am
No propane.  Hunkered near a space heater.  Why couldn’t I have seen this possible scenario in July when I watched truck-loads of firewood drive by?  Oh yeah.  I did.  No MAN WOULD TALK TO ME.  Two years ago my brother said:  “You buy firewood.  How hard is that?”  Rich asshole.
I have been on a continual rant since 2009.  I have not relented.  I have been writing the same story for all those years.  I know some stuff that would help other people to know.  Yeah, that too.  I know some things that people will need when all their other things burn up.  I know about the Spirit a little bit only.  I also know a little bit about the NWO.  Orders.  The Kingdoms are not in conflict, although that’s always what the loser wants you to believe isn’t it?  The loser doesn’t ever go down alone, if it’s within his power to snag a few drunken sailors on his way overboard, so he’ll maintain the charade for just as long as a single impoverished soul is around to hear his final lies.  The loser is the FATHER OF LIES, and he’s not above using even a little truth to weight the galoshes of Earth’s final litter of narcissistic patsies.  Narcissists worship a false god and here’s how it happened:  they chose to remain in err after receiving a revelation of Truth and now they’re on the Highway to Hell.   Once you reject truth (“received not the love of the TRUTH”) then God has the right and obligation to cull you from the herd.  (Heaven wouldn’t be heavenly for the rest of us if liars are also there.)  He does that by sending “strong delusion” that ENSURES that you will “believe a lie.”   “Hell hath enlarged herself” for just this group of people who “maketh and loveth a lie.”  Poisoned skies and radioactive water and large-hadron-colliders conspire with AI (GREAT nickname for satan…) and it’s pretty obvious:  there is no hiding place on Earth from the wrath of God.  (Should he exist.)  There is no ‘break-away’civilization available to the vast majority of Earth-doomers.  There are NO OPTIONS that can UNDO WHAT WE HAVE DONE!!!
We have to reach beyond this dimension; that’s what the scientists say too.  I don’t see ANY OTHER OPTION…than to explore the possibility that God might exist and that He might be omniscient and omnipresent and omnipotent and that He might care about us and that also He might have allowed us to get to this point of IMMINENT EXTINCTION so that we would choose to seek His face.  This time ’round…as Earth sinks once again to the depths of depravity such that God would repent that He even made us, we orchestrated our own annihilation-course.  We did it all by ourselves because we believed lies and said ‘There is no God.’  “THE FOOL HATH SAID IN HIS HEART:  THERE IS NO GOD.”   Jesus said:  “If you have seen me, you have seen the Father.”
6:12 am
More studies into character-disorders:
I think I’ll be a psycho-whisperer.  Then I’ll find out where they hid all the bodies telepathically.
“Narcissists are prone to magical thinking:  they hold themselves immune to the consequences of their actions.  or their inaction.  Therefore they consider themselves to be beyond punishment and the laws of man.”
 “Narcissists feel entitled, entitled to everything.”  
“By playing on the narcissist’s grandiosity and paranoia, it is possible to deceive and manipulate a narcissist effortlessly.”
“Just offer the narcissist narcissistic supply; give him admiration, a modicum of affirmation, some [dorable flagellation] [transcription fail]…and he’s all yours!”
“Harp on the narcissist’s insecurities and his [persecador] delusions, and he’s likely to trust you, and only you, and cling [to] you for dear life.”
“Narcissists attract abuse:  they are haughty, exploitative, demanding, sensitive, quarrelsome…they tend to draw hatred.”

7:05 am

Most puzzling question of the twentieth century:
“Why didn’t Marty go back earlier?”
If you had a time machine, and you had to go back in time, in time to save Doc Brown from the Libyan terrorists, why would you go back only as far as ‘just in time’?  Why in the world would you only give yourself fifteen minutes or whatever it was?  He could have gone back to day before yesterday; he could have taken a shower, then he could have fed Einstein and checked on his girlfriend and made a decent plan.  But, NOOOOOoo. Everybody has to be in a hurry all the time…even those who have no need to respect time at all. We’re pretty silly actually.

Zombie Narcissist: Deficient Narcissistic Supply

“To him his nearest and dearest are nothing but tools…catering to his narcissistic lust…”
—(Somebody should put Dad under suicide-watch…or maybe ‘orgy watch’… because when nobody kisses his ass anymore he might go on an ‘orgy of self-destruction.’)—
“Without narcissistic supply, the narcissist crumbles, like the zombies or the vampires one sees in horror movies.  It‘s a terrifying sight to behold.”
Transformational magic, dedicated to Dad:
“Vampires gather ’round me…angle in to take a bite.
They want to drink my blood of courage, and try to take away my fight.
But no, no, no…they can’t do that, no, no, for one Truth  I ‘ve learned in life…
If you wanna scare away the vampires…you simply guide them into the light.”
“And when I wake up, in the mornin’, I hope I see you in the light.”

Michael Franti and Spearhead – “See You In The Light” 

8:03 am
I think the worst thing my dad does, other than destroying the faith of children, is that at the same time he’s attacking one’s conscience with jabs of improper shame and guilt, he also sets himself up as the moral authority. My mom does that too.  That’s God’s job.  They both have a lot of repenting ahead of them.  Or else they can choose complete zombie-dom, that’s available now too.  
tsk, tsk

Giving Narcissist Second Chance

(I guess we know how stupid THAT would be…)
“If any man be in Christ is is become a new creature.  Old things are passed away, behold, all things are made new.”
“This thing is the most deadly event in human history…that was man-made.”

Unstoppable contamination of Pacific Ocean… is seriously menacing US West Coast

8:24 am



Entrepreneurs Inspired by Tinfoil Hats Create Stylish Headgear That Protects Against Harmful Signals

Researcher Links AI, Geoengineering, Smart Dust & Morgellons to ET’s
“came across a number of substances that shouldn’t have been in nature because they are 100% artificial, and they are high-tech, and there is no other reason to have them in the environment apart from intent — and not the best one, let’s put it this way.”
“… if you root these substances back to what they are designed for, you come to Transhumanistic technologies, which is the attempt to get an interface between artificial intelligence and biological. If you ask the Transhumanists themselves, they would always say they would like to give humans better access to AI — and if you look into the technologies, it’s always to the opposite way round, it’s always giving the AI access to the human, in the sense of getting the human system controlled from the outside.”

Documents show DEA tracking millions of vehicles

The Drug Enforcement Administration uses roadside cameras and license plate readers to track millions of vehicles in the United States, documents show.

The American Civil Liberties Union obtained documents the group describes as “heavily redacted and incomplete” through a Freedom of Information Act request. The documents, “undated” and “years old,” show information sharing with local, state and federal law enforcement agencies that use license plate readers to track vehicles.

See more at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/documents-show-dea-tracking-millions-of-vehicles/

“The Sandy Hook parents have traveled the country lobbying for gun control.”

An Assortment of Footage Shows Sandy Hook “Father” David Wheeler at the scene in FBI Agent Attire


Professor Tracy is reasoned, intelligent, eloquent, calm. No wonder he is vilified by MSM. It would take effort to not consider what he has to say. especially in light of his expertise in communications.

“Winners do deals and winners get rich…
While sad little losers just sit there and bitch…”

Hilarious Video!! Dr. Seuss Inspired Trump Book “Winners Aren’t Losers” Read By Jimmy Kimmel

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3ugWkgCBc

This is my second-favorite poem I ever wrote about my dad:
When Yertle the turtle-man fell on his ass,
The neighbors all whispered, “I thought he had class.”
They smile when they see him, they nod and they grin.
I don’t find it humorous, I once was him.
Yertle don’t like me, I never knew why,
Try though I might, he would not let me fly.
It’s never about me,  it always was him,
His days are accomplished, ‘cuz  that was a sin.
Yertle told reptiles how to behave,
He sneered at their misery, “So goes the slave.”
“They crawl on their abdomens,  up to my throne.”
“I’ll not waste my bounty on them that’s their own.”
He tested and chose us and perish the rest,
His notions are quaint but he said, “I’m the best!”
Destroying my life put a zing in his own,
(The turtle-pond always was his killing zone.)
Yertle, the turtle, is sad now to see,
But I’m breathing deeply, I’m glad it’s not me.
We’re all  super turtles!  We’re better than him!
When this is all over, we’ll be happy kin.
Yertle will pay me ‘cuz  he owes me lots,
When he gets my Seuss-rhyme I hope he won’t plotz.”
–I think that was from 2/14.
Secret US Commandos Forced to Leave Libya After Facebook Post
There must exist an a la carte menu for those who believe themselves not to be sell-outs.  Like if you’re not full-time on payroll of evil you’re not tight with the gang.  All it takes is one time when the rent is due and you gotta raise a little cash fast.  Just print that one story that you know is shit…it’s not like you’re actually ENDORSING the position, it’s just one story.

“Popular Science” Warns About “Weather As A Weapon”–in 1958!

I recently acquired two exceptional original copies of “Popular Science” from June of 1958. Almost 60 years ago the dialog about weather warfare was more open. As the power structure began to consider how negatively the public would respond to the decimation caused by climate modification programs of mass destruction, the push to completely suppress media coverage of this issue commenced.

Dane Wigington

What the U.S. Gov has done and still does today: Staging funerals for fake victims

One Family Made Up of Two Families

I am quite confident in this: if you are the scapegoat of your family, it is because of the Light in you. The reason your so called family targeted you is because they are Darkness. Family of Light. Family of Darkness. Two distinct natures, or families, living under the same roof.


“Your morally dark parents saw that in you…and it freaked them out.”

“Your light shines a light on the void that’s in their own heart and conscience and soul.”
“I’ll just quote the Bible:  You’re a ‘child of light’ and you were raised by men and women of darkness.”
“If you wanna call them parents, that’s your business, but some of these animals…mother-snakes have more compassion for their baby-snakes than some of these people.”
10:59 am

Brave Christian Girls With Guns- Photos Of The Women On Crusade Against ISIS


1:43 pm
I spent an hour and a half in the hot tub.  I love being out there when it’s snowing or really cold.  My hair didn’t freeze today but there was enough contrast to keep me interested.  I am intrigued about how and when we were all targeted.  If I had time-travel equipment like the CIA, I’d probably go back enough times to recognize everybody of influence I had identified in the future at some earlier time.   I’d know everything about every body and if I were satan, I think I would expect my servants to do just that.  That way I could formulate
“D. John.: I had rather be a canker in a hedge than a rose in his grace; and it better fits my blood to be disdained of all than to fashion a carriage to rob love from any: in this, though I cannot be said to be a flattering honest man, it must not be denied but I am a plain-dealing villain. I am trusted with a muzzle and enfranchised with a clog; therefore I have decreed not to sing in my cage. If I had my mouth, I would bite; if I had my liberty, I would do my liking: in the meantime, let me be that I am, and seek not to alter me.”
― William ShakespeareMuch Ado About Nothing
“BEATRICE Is he not approved in the height a villain that hath slandered, scorned, dishonoured my kinswoman? O that I were a man! What, bear her in hand until they come to take hands, and then, with public accusation, uncovered slander, unmitigated rancour – O God, that I were a man! I would eat his heart in the market-place.”
― William ShakespeareMuch Ado About Nothing
2:00 pm

BREAKING: “Shooting Dearborn Michigan” Bomb Threats Across America

Exclusive: Combat Vet Now Being Monitored by Police for Speaking the Truth in a Senate Meeting
Lansing, MI — Kicked out of a Senate Committee meeting last week while defending medical marijuana patients, U.S. veteran Dakota Serna received a phone call on Tuesday informing him that the Senate police are routinely checking his Facebook page. The state senator who had Serna’s mic cut off and ordered him out of the building now refuses to meet with Serna in his office and will only conduct any future meetings with him at the security desk.
2:14 pm
Doesn’t my dad have a duty to mitigate damages?  He’s been on notice of an PAST-DUE DEBT for a number of years.  I have established that I am a targeted individual and the fascist state is stoking the boiler.  What if I were to be abducted or suicided when I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my entire life because I finally stood up to my tormentor and learned that there is nothing wrong with me and that he however, suffers a severe character disorder?  I think it would be his fault.  That’s basic.
I’m snacking.  I’ve been snacking for two days and I never snack.  I made lemon bars yesterday; I should never do that again.  Every time I took one I went back twice more.  My sons know I  cook for something to do.  We don’t really need all that food though.

The US Federal Government Finally Admits The War On Drugs Is A Failure

Now, the nation’s newest ‘Drug Czar,’ and recovering alcoholic, Michael Botticelli, is going public with the message that the war on drugs is a failure and that it cannot continue as is. He says it’s time to change our approach to how we treat addiction, and in an appearance on the CBS program 60 Minutes which aired in December of 2015 entitledA New Direction on Drugs, president Obama’s recently appointed drug boss is making an attempt to change the tone of this colossal disaster.

Silent Spaces? Yale Students Eagerly Sign Petition To Repeal The First Amendment

The fact that some of the supposedly best and brightest college students this country has to offer are practically jumping up and down with glee to attempt to get rid of one of the most important natural rights we have as human beings just kinda makes me throw up in my mouth a little.



Bombshell: UK Accused Of Plotting Syria War Back In 2009

In the interview, first televised in 2013, Dumas states that during a visit to England (“two years before the hostilities began in Syria”), he was asked whether he would be willing to participate in a plot to overthrow President Bashar Assad, who (along with many other Arabic leaders) was considered an enemy of Israel.


Narcissist Embarrassment

“The narcissist’s real self is stashed in the farthest recesses of the narcissist’s mind.”

Narcissist’s Cognitive Deficits

“The narcissist doesn’t see others as three-dimensional beings.”  (So I guess recognizing additional dimensions is out of the question.)  “He’s startled when people deviate from the script and prove to be complex.”

Narcissist: Loser and Failure

Three traits establish this as fact:

1.  His sense of entitlement.

2.  His haughtiness, arrogance; an innate conviction that he is superior.

3.   His aversion to routine.

“Unable to work on a team, to compromise, to give credit where due, and to strive toward long-term goals, the narcissist, skilled though he may be…finds himself unemployed and unemployable.”  

“He does not realize that actions have consequences.”

“He believes that he is immune to the cosmic justice.”

The Narcissist’s Life, a Prolonged Nightmare

“This inner battle, between false self and true self …he does things, and he does not know why or where from.”
(Sounds like good old-fashioned demon-possession to me.  “A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.”  ‘Mind’ is also translated ‘spirit’.)
“It is as though the narcissist has been ‘body-snatched’.”
“He is ashamed and fearful, he knows something is wrong but there is no cognition but he has no cognition 

When I get my money I’ll buy these books:

Pilgrimage: The Book of the People (The People)

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These are the People.
Marooned on this planet by the crash of their interstellar vehicle in the distant past, The People are never free of a sense of strangeness in this world and a yearning for the home they have half-forgotten.

These are the chronicles of their arrival on this world, their estrangement from it, and their ultimate acceptance of their poignant exile.

Pilgrimage: The Book of The People is one of the most unforgettable works in all of science fiction.

The “People” stories included in this book:
Ararat (1952)
Gilead (1954)
Pottage (1955)
Wilderness (1956)
Captivity (1958)
Jordan (1959) (less)


How the Abuser Reacts to the Separation from the Abused”

Some of these days you’re gonna miss me…

– Renee Ansell

(Doesn’t that album cover look like Josh and Isaac dancing???  And they’d both love to dress that way…)
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[it is necessary to] … “reinforce the abuser’s self-esteem against overwhelming convictions of  worthlessness.”


Narcissist as Compulsive Giver

Tactics Used Against Targeted Individuals (Black Ops)

“Engineered psychosis” and “character assasination”

I made a tomato soup-spice cake, rice noodles with lots of scallions and onions and beef stir-fry from some marked-down top sirloin I picked up in Manistique while George was gone.  It’s pretty good.  My sons went to St. Ignace to work.  They can’t find consistent internet anywhere around here.  Isaac asked my brother for a place to live and work, even a hotel room…but David never responded.  No surprise to me.  Isaac should have a place with a kitchen.  He doesn’t like to waste money on fast food and he prefers to eat kale and to cook healthy food.  David should give him an apartment.  Soon.


Narcissist Never Sorry

(I don’t know if refusing to apologize for seven years is ‘never’ sorry but it’s gotta be getting close.)
“He attributes to others, that which he hates in himself.”
Mike Rogers is so full of it.
The phone records “metadata” program did not and does not collect the content of conversations, just the “to” and “from” billing data routinely provided by companies. The NSA contractor who leaked program details helped create a false narrative and led terrorists to change tactics.
This Year's Ugly Christmas Sweater

Synthetic Telepathy Your Thoughts Are Not Your Own

5:32 am

A Politician Tweeted About “San Bernardino” Terrorist Attack on Nov. 13th BEFORE It Happened!

As far as events classified as “terrorist attacks” in California, the only thing that I see is the San Bernardino shooting.
The narcissist ages without  mercy and without grace.  His withered body and his overwrought mind conspire to betray him all at once.  
He refuses to accept his growing fallibility and morality.
He rebels against his decrepitude and mediocrity.  
Accustomed to being awe-inspiring, the recipient of adulation and attention, the narcissist can’t countenance his social isolation,  and the prophetic figure he cuts…in old age.
Having been exposed for what he is, the deceitful, treacherous, malignant egoist, the narcissist’s old tricks now fail him.  People are on their guard.  Their gullibility is much-reduced.  The narcissist, being the rigid, precariously-balanced structure he is…cannot change…
He’s made a mockery by his accentuated denial of reality:  by his obdurate refusal to grow up.
“An eternal, malformed child in the sagging body of a decaying man.”
6:39 am

 I don’t want my dad to tell me about the arrangements he made concerning me, or about the times I almost died; I’ll know those things soon enough.  I will hear a single word from his lips; I’ll hear it from every set of lips that ever kissed a mirror.  The shepherds rejoiced and Mary pondered this word.  I challenged my father’s fake dying carcass of forgiven-psychopath-carrion.  I said, when he attacked my family and refused to make it right in February of 1999:

“You are now my enemy.  It will be your fake religion or my faith in Jesus, the Christ.”
(Date available on request.  Documented and sworn to, a couple different times.)
I have only one question for him, at Christmastime, in 2015:
Who is God?  Is Jesus God?
            or is it Robert?
His answer will fill me with joy and renewed purpose.  
(It will also make his life begin becoming better.)
(Jesus really loves that man a lot.)

Blood, Sweat & Tears – You’ve Made Me So Very Happy (with lyrics)


(I thought I wanted to be dead but I think I’m going to enjoy this revolution a lot.)
To Dad:

Phoebe Snow – No Regrets (Anniversary Video) HD

“If there is such a thing as the Battle of Armageddon it is taking place right now in the domain of human consciousness.”  (Thomas Sheridan)
6:23 am
This looks just like my dad.  It’s Lord Janner, an English pedophile.
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That picture is so amazing it’s creepy.

Catherine Austin Fitts: The Solari Report . . . this week’s Report, Homan Square: Is Someone Prototyping Domestic Rendition? will be available to the public!

Throughout 2015, The Guardian has published ongoing revelations of Homan Square in Chicago, IL. Where people arrested by the Chicago police have been interrogated, tortured, sexually abused, and “disappeared.” There have been so many allegations and witnesses that The Guardian now maintains a home page for Homan Square coverage. One witness described Homan Square as “domestic black site,” and The Guardian states that it was used to “disappear 7,000 people.”

The reach of the carceral state today is breathtaking. More than 8 million people in the United States – or 1 in 23 adults – are under some form of state control, including jail, prison, probation, parole, community sanctions, drug courts, and immigration detention. Millions more are booked into jail each year. An estimated 70-100 million people – or as many as one in three Americans – has a criminal record. Millions of people have been condemned to “civil death,” denied core civil liberties and social benefits because of a criminal conviction.”

~ Professor Marie Gottschalk

(And that doesn’t include the ones who ARE  BEING REMOTELY TORTURED.  This country sucks.  For now.)

“Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me….For I was an hungred, and ye gave me no meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me no drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me not in: naked, and ye clothed me not: sick, and in prison, and ye visited me not.”

~ Matthew 25:40-43


Another quote for the day:

There is no better way to celebrate the Christmas season and the birth of Christ than to think of ways that we can reach out and help those among us who are hungry, in prison or– worse yet –  have been “disappeared.” Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers.

Catherine Austin Fitts

You Need to Know This: ‘Gaslight’ by Thomas Sheridan and James Corbett


“This is exactly what voting is as well.”
How we end up in the future is in some ways besides the point, because what we are really trying to do is feel satisfied and happy in the present – by doing what we need to do to secure good thoughts of the future.  (I moved on before I noted who said this.  Mea culpa.)
“Politics does not suffer from corruption.  Politics is corruption.”  (Thomas Sheridan)
“We deal with the shadow, and we put the psychopaths out of business.”  (Thomas Sheridan)
Psychopaths prey on our weaknesses, just like the demons who run the zombie-shells that we believe are threatening humans when in fact they are really corpse-vehicles for the ‘powers’ and they have to keep moving because if one of them drops dead the demon has to find a new home.  Demons don’t like to move but lots of times they must for many reasons and when they do they end up in the dry and desolate places and after a while they come back and if their house has not been occupied by the Spirit, then they move in with a host of other refugees from an era humanity has been duped to forget.  
The zombies are the psychopaths and they’re drinking our blood.  Sheridan talks about a congruent social holocaust on the macro level, with mutual consciousness usurped by monsters more lethal and terrifying than our worst nightmare.  
“Little orphant Annie’s come to our house to stay,
to wash the cups and saucers, and sweep the crumbs away.
To shoo the chickens off the porch, and dust the hearth and sweep,
To make the fire,  and bake the bread,
And earn her board n keep.”
“But sometimes, in the evenin’-time…when supper things is done,
we sit around the kitchen fire and have the mostest fun,
a’listenin’ to the ghost stories that Annie tells about,
…and the goblins ‘ill  get ya if’n you don’t watch out.”
(I’m not looking it up.  My mom used to reed it to me when I was a little girl.)
“If you are a working class person with talent, dedication and creative sincerity, 
there will be no end of ‘respectable’ people who’ll do everything to punish you for it in order to make sure you know your place.”
(He makes a good point:  the entire SOCIETY is run by psychopathic principles.)
“And his mammy heared him holler
And his daddy heared him bawl…
but when they pulled the kivvers back…

It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.

Jiddu Krishnamurti

(Doesn’t that sound like a Finlander name?  Except it would have double ‘a’ and two ‘i”s.  [“‘i’s”?])
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/j/jiddukrish107856.html#WmFvpT5Ht2f5hWJC.99

I think I’ll write the world’s first textbook on cyber-gaslighting strategies and techniques.  (NOT their technical execution…)    I know LOTS OF WAYS goons can make you want to throw your computer out the window.  (But they only succeeded one time.)  Fool me once, shame on you.  Fool me a dozen times and you’re a psychopath in need of serious repentance so you can DEAL WITH YOUR SHADOW, because you messed with the wrong target.  (Actually the ‘right’ target but it won’t feel that way for a while.)  (Ain’t nobody can illuminate your dark side like the Light of the world.  He loves you a lot so don’t be scared.)
Firstly, we must look at what the Psychic Vampires crave from their targets? It is really very simple, they want their energy. Specifically their emotional energy.
The easiest method for the psychic vampire (and to a lesser degree the passively pathological Trauma Vampire) procures this emotional energy is by creating hysteria (or being amongst it), displaying passive aggressiveness, and by making others around them as uncomfortable as possible. However, they generally do this by stealth.
Battered women’s shelters often admit women and their children in high numbers during the ‘season of goodwill’, as dear old dad wanted an extra helping of energy.
Then, as you’ll read below, it became clear instantly thanks to a leak by a U.K. paper, that this was Benghazi all over again, in the sense that Obama had ACTUAL knowledge this wasn’t workplace violence, but in typical pathological and sociopathic style, Obama went on the air and freely lied his ass off to the American people.
 “I have long noticed that shallow and superficial people love the entire trappings of Christmas to a near histrionic levels. It energises them into nearly passable human beings as there appears to be some form of life in them that is otherwise absent during the rest of the year.”
(Thomas Sheridan) 

Attorney General Loretta Lynch Intends to Jail Hodges, Hagmann, Jones & Quayle (Breaking news)

I was told yesterday, by no less than 40 people, that  Attorney, Loretta Lynch(Mob), has threatened to prosecute myself, personally, and other talk show hosts for revealing the truth about the Refugee/Resettlement Program which is bringing in hundreds of thousands of Muslim immigrants from parts of the world who traditionally hate Americans and mean us harm. Loretta Lynch(mob’s) FBI is not even allowed to investigate the background of even one immigrant
When The Common Sense Show was small and unnoticed, TPTB left us alone. No More! Even my listen by phone option was taken out on Sunday night, which has nothing to do with the satellite. This was an orchestrated hit.
Read more here:   http://beforeitsnews.com/police-state/2015/12/attorney-general-loretta-lynch-intends-to-jail-hodges-hagmann-jones-quayle-breaking-news-2644.html

Your Speech Is Packed With Misunderstood, Unconscious Messages

“Instead, speakers talk and think at the same time, launching into speech with only a vague sense of how the sentence will unfold, taking it on faith that by the time they’ve finished uttering the earlier portions of the sentence, they’ll have worked out exactly what to say in the later portions.” 
(I stopped myself from rambling yesterday and said to Josh:  “I know now that I’m valuable and I don’t have to force anybody to listen to me like I always had to do with my dad so I’m not going to talk so much or so loudly.  I don’t have to talk so fast either.  I’m worth listening to.”  Josh came up to me and gave me a hug.)
“In fact, designers of synthesized voice systems have begun experimenting with the insertion of naturalistic disfluencies into artificial speech.”
It might be surprising but there are a LOT OF CONSPIRACY THEORIES about which I have no opinion.  I have not looked much into assassinations or the moon landings.  I was introduced to the possibility that we had never been to the moon about twenty years ago, and I still can’t decide.  The Van Allen belt vs the dark-side breakaway civilization; I couldn’t begin to say.  Yesterday though, I came up with my own first conspiracy theory.  Here it goes:  When the oil spill happened in the Gulf of Mexico, I was being stalked by a political acquaintance, a young man in the Coast Guard (part of DHS, right?)  He was deployed to the Gulf, and kept idle in a hotel for weeks.  He said they didn’t go anywhere, and when they did they were housed in a cabin on the very edge of the water.  They fished for crabs.  Then one day a cruel storm touched down right where these fine military youngsters had been farmed, far from the base-commissary and chow-halls.  My young friend was struck by lightening, and he called me.  Knowing what I now know about the precision of artificial weather-making, I wonder if those guys were supposed to be in that storm and whether they were supposed to be struck by lightening, and if so, why could this be so?  And that makes me think about the other strange circumstances regarding/since that rich fishery was decimated and Cajun lives rent asunder.  There are no accidents.  (That really is my first conspiracy.  I usually just study what other people say.)


It was impossible to land on the Moon in 1969 – but the scientific facts were IRRELEVANT in comparison to a conflict between the US and the Soviet Union – it was all about winning the most important Propaganda War for the perception of military mastery of the World – with the next step to launch satellites merely around earth for military purposes.

There is no intention to ever pretend to launch manned missions to the Moon or to pretend to return to the Moon as it is technically and scientifically impossible!

The majority f the US public are totally ignorant of the hugely dangerous to man the radiation belt in space known as the Van Allen Belt. [The International Space Station (ISS) is not as high as the radioactive Van Allen Belt].

(That’s presuming that the ISS actually IS IN SPACE.  I’ve read people who say otherwise.)
Richard M. Nixon’s main advisers:
i) Donald Rumsfeld – US Defense Secretary
ii) Henry Kissinger – US Secretary of State
iii) General Alexander Haig – US White House Chief of Staff
iv) Lawrence Eagleburger – US Deputy Secretary of State
v) Richard Helms – US CIA Director
Richard M. Nixon’s Personal Secretary – Eve Kendall
(Isn’t ‘Eve Kendall’ a character in a Hitchcock film?)  (Yeah, with Carey Grant, the one on a train and on the top of Mount Rushmore.  Russian spies.  That is a great house up there on top of those famous heads.)  (Blond.  Really smooth.  Martin Landau, great Jewish actor.)
(I red that Kubrick’s confession was faked.)

Victims Daughter Exposes Her Mother To Be A FAKE

“The narcissist finds solace in certainty, in reccurence, the familiar, and the anticipated.  These balance his inner precariousness, volatility and chaos.  Narcissists often strike their interlocutors as being machine-like, artificial, fake, forced, insincere, or spurious.  This is because that even the narcissists ostensibly spontaneous behaviors are either planned, or automatic.  The narcissist is continually occupied with his narcissist-supply:  how to secure its sources, and how to obtain the next dose.”
(Interesting stuff.  Lots of little ritualistic male-behaviors in my life.)  

Narcissist’s Routines

Putin is a rock star.  He walks like a ‘gunslinger’.  All the world is aghast as the whore burns like a witch with a panful of Blackwater in the face.  She’s melting, and I couldn’t be more pleased.  Isn’t it astonishing that whole organizations are actually choosing to starve the dark side?  Some groups are deliberately becoming purified and providing haven for hunted individuals.  I’d love to do that; so would my sons.  We see this property joined again, like their great-great-grandfather had it, with facilities and yoga classes and sanctuary.  We might call it Serenity and it might become the last free city of Zion in this region.  Putin is a rock star and Miley Cyrus is a rock star and Joe Namath is a rock star.  A lot of would-be rock stars are like holographic billboards.  The dark side beckons and wisdom whispers her ancient warning:  “Do not go in onto a harlot!  Know ye not that if you do that you become part of her and you share in her just desserts?”  Wisdom has increased her volume.
I wouldn’t be a self-respecting hick, did not my multi-media journals include Nickelback:

Nickelback- Rockstar Lyrical Video

(This reminds me of the Republicans.  And the judges.)

Top VA Watchdog Resigned After Being Caught Masturbating On The Job

Jon Wooditch, the Department of Veterans Affairs’ former top watchdog, resigned after being caught masturbating in the agency’s all-glass conference room in full view of people across the street, including school teachers at an education conference.

REVEALED: Reuters Reports Who Controls U.S. Government! Massive Corruption!


“My Experience as a Targeted Individual”, Part 1

The first of three videos made by attorney Myron May one or two days prior to the November 20, 2014 shooting at Florida State University. The recordings were found by Tallahassee police playing in a loop on May’s laptop in the wake of the tragic event.
(There are at least 7 targeted individuals who attended Cooley law school.)
I know that because of Jesus we are no longer responsible for our sin; I believe we are responsible for our love.  “Of him to whom much is given, much is required.”  I red of a great prince in Heaven whose only worthy deed in the body was restraining himself, on a single occasion, from kicking a defenseless animal.  He had seen very little love in his life, but he used every scrap to its utmost.  That was a very big deal.  As I said, now he’s a prince.  I red again, about an attorney who walked every day to his office, and passed the flop-spot of a homeless man who had volunteered since before the creation of the earth, while yet a spirit with God, to come to Earth at a very pertinent time…to occupy just that spot of concrete and history.  He did that out of love for the attorney.  He also did it because coming as a human container of divine Jesus on Earth just now is a TREMENDOUS BLESSING. The angels didn’t get that chance and most of my race would rather watch cartoons.  I’m astonished no less than I ever was and I’ve always been easy to impress.  


5:18 am
“Yes children, that was when your great-great-great-great-great-great-grandma was on that long stakeout ..right before she got her wings and destroyed the NSA.  (With the hacking angels, of course.)”   I’m working on my story-telling now because ‘The Great Courses’ says it’s an important skill and that we’re losing our ability to share experience between the generations.  I don’t agree, since soon we’ll all share a whole lot more than history and connecting will not require anybody telling.  But, we will still enjoy stories, I’m certain of that.  Jesus LOVES stories, and He wants to be the hero in everybody’s plot line.  But, most authors want to be their own hero, wouldn’t you?  It creates literary tension and ulcers.  And murders.  And fake religions.  It’s selfishness.  I figure to be a great journal-er requires similar attributes as those necessary to be a really great cook.  Right off the bat, you cannot be selfish.  No selfish woman can really cook.  I think that’s pretty evident.

 Papa’s Got A Brand New Bag – I Feel Good

Ed Sullivan Show!

James Brown
“Consciousness parasites”   “Emotional vampires”  “Brain-sucking technology”
-No wonder they want to suck my brain.  If they didn’t target me, I should be most desolate.  Sometimes it seems that the only light on Earth exists inside of me.  That would be Jesus.  I was supposed to die, but Jesus made me better, right?  I know something that is MOST CRUCIAL for the rest of humanity to know, and they should know soon.  My pains were for a good purpose and now Dad must give me his blessing and send me about the Lord’s business. He’s got to give me away, and I don’t mean like he tried to do last time.  He should pay my student loans, to begin with, so they don’t REVOKE MY PASSPORT, and he should get Josh installed in Swedish classes and me enrolled in TEFL-school in Toronto.  He should move his ass.
Narcs definitely want you to fail. They love it.  I guess so they can gripe at you for failing.  I don’t know.  They send you out in the world with no tools for life skills after beating you down.    It’s hard to believe they really know what they are doing but they know exactly what they are doing when they try to get you to fail.  God is on our side.   He has everything still under control. Thank you for this video.  I love it and all your videos.  (Lisa Marie, from comments)

Proof of Mind Control: Dr. Robert Duncan Worked on V2K Technology, Admits Torture

Q-Jesse Ventura:  ‘Are there citizens of this country that are being abused by this technology?’
A-Dr. Duncan:  ‘Worse than abused, that’s a light word.   THEY ARE BEING TORTURED.’
3:55 am
I’ve been gaslighted a whole lot, and not just by my dad.  Here’s one time things got very fake and hairy.  It was SO AMAZINGLY WEIRD…that I didn’t even put my notes on-line.  They’re with my SPECIAL books and nobody has seen them but me.  I even sewed one of them closed from that time I spent in Okemos, stitched through a fabric cover a friend made for me.  I thought it might be a nice surprise one day:
Comfort Inn(MI306)
2187 University Park Drive, Okemos, MI, US, 48864
Phone: (517) 347-6690
Map/ Directions
Check In: Sunday, Feb 26, 2012 Check Out: Wednesday, Feb 29, 2012
Confirmation Number: 21212777
Reservation Status: Reserved
Length of Stay: 3 Nights
Number of Rooms: 1


I went to Okemos rather suddenly;  it was [the first?] of THREE UNUSUAL TRIPS I took that winter.  Ron Paul was in East Lansing that week and Tuesday was the presidential primary.  I received communication that my presence/help was urgently needed… but nobody showed up when I got there.  It was a great time; I ate olives and gelato and I didn’t wash dishes.  Also, I DIDN’T GO CRAZY AND I DIDN’T EVEN GET MAD.  Most importantly though, I wrote down all the weird things that happened to me with precise details and  maybe even more importantly, I didn’t record any of it online.    I know so many interesting stories; I hope I live long enough to write them all down because I’m getting better ones every day and I will soon not ever be mediocre again.
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I didn’t go to the event because I was having so much fun by myself.
I wonder what the gaslighters might have planned for that day?
4:17 am
George would confirm what he can remember of that couple-week period in March.  We’re doing more things together and I’m less annoyed around him.  He REFUSED to talk about a raise months ago, but he gave me twenty-five dollars yesterday and when we were grocery shopping he offered to buy me beer.  (I’ve been fasting from beer because I don’t want to be mediocre anymore.)  He also made a big deal of buying a six-pack of wine coolers; he keeps them around but he usually hides them in his bedroom.  This time he even told me he was buying more and he NEVER tells me anything.  I think he prefers that I drink.  (It does take an edge off my intensity.)  He will withhold no money if I ask, but he will not permit me independent use of it.  In the grocery store I ask permission about every single item not previously agreed-upon and on the shopping list, sometimes.  Other times I just plounge ahead,  and send him on errands to the other side of the store. When I shop alone I spend far less money and the chef has better provision for her genius menus.  George shops differently and evaluates each small detail of each potential purchase, and it’s frustrating.  HOWEVER, I think I could live with him pretty well if I had my own money and some sense of control over this home environment.  My father could provide both of those things by nightfall today.  I pray that he will exercise that wise option.  That would be prudent.  I’ll wave as we pass in the lobby, and I’ll pray that he won’t drop the soap.  My incarceration is over with.  

4:50 am

My mom’s having a Christmas tea on Friday and Isaac has been recruited to sing once again, to the ladies.  My piano teacher friend knows of my stand-off with my parents but has not spoken to me since I sent her a copy of my Petition for Reinstatement as a Sane Intelligent Member of the Goldthorpe Family (It won’t bother me if I’m the only one.) so I thought I’d bring her a copy of my book with its new stickers affixed.  The ones that interpret my story into google search terms.  I think I’ll deliver it with a bow, and not wrap it.  I’d like to greet the ladies once again, after all these years of a psychopath’s lying protestations pertaining to me.  I think it could be a good time.  Or, on the other hand, I could wrap the book and ask Isaac to give it to my friend (she was his piano teacher too) and she’d be too much of a lady to open it there.  She was married to a newspaper man.  Maybe I should just wrap the book and leave it in the Lord’s hands.  I only have two copies left and I must send one to my friend in Belgium but I haven’t had the money to send it.  The books I left for my dad to sell at the hardware store have disappeared.  Josh looked but they’re nowhere around.  Dad owes me $120 for those books.  3.5 million, one hundred twenty.  Plus a lot of interest.  And a bat mitzvah.
My dad doesn’t have friends; he has customers and marks, he wants something from everybody.  He takes them all out to dinner and heartily stoops to lift the bill.  Let me tell you about that one time when he was so psychotic, I’m sure it’s in my journals…


3:17 pm

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You Need to Know This: ‘Gaslight’ by Thomas Sheridan and James Corbett

Finally. A clergyman finally serving the flock and they go and lock him up.  

Rabbi gets 10 years for arranging divorces with beatings

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3uWWB2wYF

Iceland constitution2

“You must do things that others do not do, and you must not do what others do.”


You must do things that others do not do, and you must not do what others do.)

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When I was a ‘prepper’ back in the nineties, I used to travel to ‘Preparedness Expos’ and sell mylar bags for long-term food storage.  We wrote instructions manuals and had matching shirts and a booth and the whole shot.  If I had been given any encouragement in my destiny’s direction, I could have had a GREAT BIG SURVIVAL BUSINESS BY NOW, and probably a fortified bunker big enough for the nay-sayers too.   I thought all my ideas were stupid because Dad always said they were.  I believe he probably wishes he would not have ignored me all those years, and I’ll bet he even wishes he would have hired me one of the hundred times I asked for a job.  I’ll even bet he wishes he would have paid for some education for me.  I’m thinking my dad is learning to regret many things he believed to be very smart things to do.  I’m sure of it.  

Your Religious Narcissistic Husband

“You have no obligation to remain with your narcissistic husband;  he deceived, and defrauded you from the very beginning of your relationship with him”

Narcissists Attack Your Conscience

“If you have a clean conscience; your conscience is clear, and you’re around a malignant narc:  WATCH OUT.”

 (That just explained years of suffering, from religious spirits I picked up around my folks.  This guy knows the psy-ops and the spiritual, and he expresses it very well.  Going to church makes you feel like crap because they destroy your conscience.  We aren’t meant to live on the edge of getting away with something.  We shouldn’t be looking for the back seat on the bus of ‘OK’.   I’m not gonna be mediocre ever again.)
“If you have a clear, clean conscience…the narc is gonna do everything in his or her power to ‘muddy’ it.  They’re going to say something, or do something or insinuate something to make you some-how-or-other feel guilt, or shame.  Or morally off base.”
More details of how narcissists defile others, just like my dad raped me:
6:45 pm
2:34 pm
A fancy casket doesn’t mean much.  Especially if your tombstone says:   Here lies a COWARD.

Father’s Love – The Inheritance

 Graham Cooke

North Korea sentences Canadian pastor to life in prison for alleged crimes against the state

More:   http://news.nationalpost.com/news/north-korea-sentences-canadian-pastor-to-life-in-prison-for-alleged-crimes-against-the-state


All 23 districts of Tokyo contaminated with radiation, worse than at Chernobyl after the accident, and blood cells of children under ten are showing worrying changes; the WHO, the IAEA & the Japanese government cannot be trusted.

‘We lost my father a year and a half ago and for the last few years of my adult life we weren’t together,’ she explains.

‘I’m sorry, I love you, I can’t do without you’: Women tell their fathers how they really feel about them in heart-wrenching video that will have you in tears

  • Film shows women opening up about special times with their fathers
  • Some remember dads who have died, and wish they’d had more time
  • Project encourages daughters to call their dads and express their feelings

-‘You’re a little pain in the butt,’ he jokes.

‘You smell bad,’ she replies.

‘She’s at that fun age.’

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“We may be so sure we’re about to be attacked that we strike out preemptively.”


“Maturity deeply depends on getting to know one’s tendencies to transference.  

Court Rules That Members Of Bush Administration Can Be Sued For Crimes During War On Terror

Years ago, the case of Turkmen Vs. Ashcroft set the precedent that the Bush administration could be held accountable for the actions that it took to harm innocent people during the war on terror. However, the case has been in limbo for several years as constant appeals have been filed against the ruling.

Recently, The Second Circuit Court of Appeals finally rejected the appeal and ruled that people can, in fact, sue members of the government for enacting policies that result in trauma or injury. It is likely that this ruling sets a precedent for all members of the government and not just the Bush administration.

Robots and corporations are the high-end of the food chain anymore.

Stand Up and Show Your Soul

Ours is a time of almost daily astonishment and often righteous rage over the latest degradations of what matters most to civilized, visionary people.

One of the most calming and powerful actions you can do to intervene in a stormy world is to stand up and show your soul. Soul on deck shines like gold in dark times. The light of the soul throws sparks, can send up flares, builds signal fires, causes proper matters to catch fire. To display the lantern of soul in shadowy times like these – to be fierce and to show mercy toward others; both are acts of immense bravery and greatest necessity. Struggling souls catch light from other souls who are fully lit and willing to show it.
If somebody walks into a room of 100 strangers and declares ‘I am in charge here’, guess who will end up in charge, and his right hand man will be the guy who stands up and says ‘who says so.’ We are easily convinced of the authority of those who have the brass to declare it.

CONSENT – The Most Important Word In The English Language

Before we discuss ‘withholding consent’ let’s be clear about one thing… the political establishment have become so used to us doing their bidding without objection, that when we start to flex our muscles and remind them that it is they who serve us, they are not going to shift from their control mentality easily – they are going to put up a fight.. They will bring all their assumed authority down to bear on us, with a poorly informed police force ready in the wings to do their dirty work for them, albeit unwittingly. The powers-that-be will not be dragged down from their pedestals without a fight. They are going to take the assumption of their absolute authority to the Nth degree and challenge us to prove our point – and they will fight dirty.
Read more at:   http://www.ukcolumn.org/article/consent-most-important-word-english-language

Cop Who Sought Photos of Teen’s Erection in Sexting Case Commits Suicide Moments Before Arrest

The cop was the sexual predator, not the teen.

(I can’t wait until all the pedophiles are reformed.  Or dead if they prefer.  Maybe I’d prefer that too if they use AUTHORITY to not only victimize people sexually…but even   FALSELY PROSECUTE THEM FOR far more natural sexual BEHAVIOR!!!)
“…the detective in the noteworthy teen sexting case from July 2014, in which the authorities sought a warrant to take the 17-year-old male suspect to the hospital, inject him with a drug that would give him an erection, photograph his genitals, and compare the photo with existing pictures of his genitals the police had confiscated from his 15-year-old girlfriend’s phone.”

Consequences of a Narcissistic Mother on her Adult Daughter

(“INSECURE AND CODEPENDENT”  “Feels like she must earn every morsel of love.”  I’m sure not going to miss the old me!)


Child abuse, part 2.1: the personality of an abusive father

I could have made this video myself.  (Except for the accent.)
“He claims to have morality, personality… puffs of smoke surrounding a very, very shallow, very weak  personality.”
“He is very very eager for other people to respect him.  He wants at the same time to put them down.”
“Anything he can get away with, he just loves doing.”
“If you come to him with honesty, with genuine interest, wanting to have reasonable dealings with him, he will want to make you feel inferior to him.”
“Now, I don’t know whether he realizes this or not; to a certain extent I think he does:  he doesn’t really have…other than his grandiose delusions, he doesn’t really have much depth to him as a character.”
“Truth, falsehood:  it doesn’t matter as long as he looks good…”

Psychopathic Atheist Turns to Jesus

“It’s Jesus or there’s no hope.”
From comments to ‘Gaslight’
…my husband kept taking pics of my 16 year old niece. I didn’t want to “go there” mentally at the time but now that more and more lies are being revealed, all those trips to Asia he took, I just don’t want to imagine how many girls and how young they were….

Abuse By Proxy: From Smear Campaigns to 3rd-party Stalking and Abuse

Dad knows this stuff too:  “The social groups become the instruments of the abuser against the victim.”


Would a narcissistic get narcissistic supply by being overly humble or self deprecating with the goal to fish for complements from others?

Devoid of systematic and methodical education, the narcissist tries to make do with pompous, or aggressive mannerisms, bombastic announcements, and the unnecessary and wrong usage of professional jargon. He attempts to dazzle his surroundings with apparent “brilliance” and to put possible critics on the defence.

Beneath all this he is shallow, ignorant, improvising, and fearful of being exposed as deceitful. The narcissist is a conjurer of verbosity, using sleight of mouth rather than sleight of hand. He is ever possessed by the fear that he is really a petty crook about to be unearthed and reviled by society.

This is a horrible feeling to endure and a taxing, onerous way to live.

Read more here:   http://samvak.tripod.com/narcissistmodesty.html

The narcissist is a dilettante and a charlatan. He glosses over complicated subjects and situations in life. He sails through them powered by shallow acquaintance with rapidly acquired verbal and behavioural vocabularies (which he then promptly proceeds to forget).

False modesty is only one of a series of feigned behaviours. The narcissist is a pathological liar, either implicitly or explicitly. His whole existence is a derivative of a False Self, his deceitful invention and its reflections. With false modesty he seeks to involve others in his mind games, to co-opt them, to force them to collaborate while making ultimate use of social conventions of conduct.

The narcissist, above all, is a shrewd manipulator, well-acquainted with human nature and its fault lines. No narcissist will ever admit to it. In this sense, narcissists are really modest.

 (At an event my dad always pours the coffee… with his head lowered.  So do the politicians.)

The Narcissist does not cater at all to his own needs. Contrary to his reputation, the Narcissist does not “love” himself in any true sense of this loaded word.

The narcissist feeds off other people who hurl back at him an image that he projects to them. This is their sole function in his world : to reflect his False Self, to admire him, to applaud his actions, even to detest and fear him – in a word, to assure him that he exists by giving him constant attention.

Read more here:   http://samvak.tripod.com/index.html

Money: Narcissist’s License to Abuse

“When a narcissist has money, he can exercise his sadistic urges freely, and with little fear of repercussions.”

(I’ll shout an ‘amen’ to that one.)

“Money is a license to sin.”

Ambient abuse is the stealth, subtle, underground currents of maltreatment that sometimes go unnoticed even by the victims themselves, until it is too late. Ambient abuse penetrates and permeates everything – but is difficult to pinpoint and identify. It is ambiguous, atmospheric, diffuse.

A form of intimidation or psychological abuse, sometimes called Gaslighting. where false information is presented to the victim, making them doubt their own memoryperception and quite often, their sanity. The classic example of ambient abuse is to very subtly toy with someone’s environment in a way that you know they’re sure to notice, but then deny knowing anything about it, and to explain that they “must be imagining things” when they challenge these changes. Doing this on a long term and/or methodical basis (as opposed to the occasional practical joke) with the intent to cause distress and harm would be considered ambient abuse.

A more psychological definition of ambient abuse is “an increasing frequency of systematically withholding factual information from, and/or providing false information to, the victim – having the gradual effect of making them anxious,confused, and less able to trust their own memory and perception.

Your spouse begins telling you things that never really happened. For instance, he says that last week he told you he was going to go to the bar with his buddies this Monday night, but you never remember him telling you that.

Or maybe your boss gets angry because you didn’t prepare the report he asked you to. When you remind him that he usually prepares that particular report, he snaps that he told you to take care of it a few days ago because he was too busy. However, you know he never asked you to do so.

Both of these could be considered ambient abuse.

by Your Reality Check June 01, 2009

 Dr. Stern describes the Gaslight Tango:

“The powerful gaslighter (he has power both because he asserts it and because the gaslightee gives it to him!) engages in an ongoing, systematic knocking down of the other, less powerful person, purposely controlling the relationship by telling the other that there is something wrong with the way she sees the world or there’s something wrong with who she is — and– the gaslightee, by agreeing with him or allowing his perceptions define hers, over time, loses confidence, feels unsure and experiences a growing shakiness of self. Gradually, the gaslightee begins to question what she thought she knew—and gives up the power to stand in her own reality.”

(or NOT!)

“Lord, please open eyes and enlarge hearts and give David great courage.  I’ve given him so much information that if he allows Dad to go to Hell because he won’t stand up for me or for you, well, I really hope you’ll forgive him.”  “Amen.”

6:48 am

Presence-of-God-Driven Churches in the Endtimes

by Bro Neville Johnson

 “The FIRE is coming.  If you want it, it’s coming, it really is.  You’ve got to hunger for it; you have to ask for it. You’ve got to be totally dissatisfied with what you’ve got right now.”   (Neville Johnson)
(God is presently removing candlesticks from churches that would not repent.  [Google:  The Revelation of St. John the Divine].  HIS PRESENCE IS NECESSARY to survive the apocalypse.  GET TO KNOW GOD NOW.  The window of opportunity is slim, and for those who depend on an institution to ensure their right-relationship with God…well, I suppose electronic mind-control will be received gratefully.)
“He’s gonna light a fire, in those that really love Him.  And the whole world is going to come and see that fire burn.”
Dana Durnford has the coolest accent; he’s a Newfie, Canada’s version of the YOOPER.
Dana spent decades as a professional diver, and since the Fukushima disaster he has documented the death of British Columbia’s coastline.  He was arrested a few weeks ago FOR TELLING THE TRUTH, I don’t know all the details, but I DO KNOW that he is a tireless investigator and truth-teller.  If he says directed-energy weapons took down the twin towers I’ll definitely consider it.  How did all that MOLTEN STEEL remain hot and fluid underneath the pavement for such a long time?

Proof Directed Energy Weapons took down the Twin Towers

(Also he has a sense of humor.  Some of these investigators have lost the ability to laugh I think.  I also understand it.)

Proof of Mind Control: Targeted Individual (T.I.) Testimony at Presidential Bioethics Commission

“I’ve been vilified, I’ve been ostracized, I’ve been tortured…burns on my body.  I’m an AMERICAN.”  “We’re begging you to help.”   (Lady from Wisconsin)

“Non-consensual human experimentation is happening in the United States today.  Calling these activities experimentation is truthful, but possibly distracting:  I think the criteria  governing the selection of the experimentees  will  prove to be a much bigger scandal.”  (Jeremy R.)
Testimony from 2011:
“They are literally communicating with the human mind remotely, using electro-magnetic waves.”
“Reading these patents changed my life.”  (Pete Santilli)

Targeted Individual Breaks Down The Mind Control Machine

CIA Funding of Tech Companies
Note to self:
Pete Santilli show, 24 hours
He’d like my story.  So would a lot of these guys.
Maybe I won’t have to make my own youtube channel.
Sayonara, NSA
“There are pirates and emperors, but they’re really the same thing…”
Schoolhouse Rock

William Pawelec: Billions of Microchips Made by Siemens in 1984,

Trackable from Space

This video interview of the late William Pawelec by Dr. Steven Greer, referred to in his recent talk on the Secret Government, explored here, has been highlighted in an article this past week (excerpted below) by Dr.Michael Salla of Exopolitics.org,Siemens Implicated in Tracking Forced Labor and Slaves in Space, which explores whistleblower testimony regarding forced labor in space, but also explores Siemens’ role in early manufacture and developing of RFID chip technologies.

The tiny Siemens chips made in 1984 that he refers to (see below) could be detected and read from a distance of 120 km away, he said. This translates to about 400,000 feet or 75 miles, well above the altitude most commercial jets fly at (30-40,000 feet) or even fighter aircraft (50,000 feet or above), well above the stratosphere and into the thermosphere.

More:   http://everydayconcerned.net/2015/12/16/william-pawelec-billions-of-microchips-made-by-siemens-in-1984-trackable-from-space/


I Hear Him Coming

-Terry Macalmon

4:52 am

Wireless torture

“Many leaks have revealed the extent of these inhumane and cruel methods of torture and sexual humiliation from Guantanamo Bay to Abu Ghraib and a number of black sites around the world.  But what is less known, is that the exact same methods are being used, not only in these known prisons, but also within people’s own homes.”
(Maybe their attacks WERE warranted…IF THEY ARE INVOLVED…)
This was one of my favorite songs when I was a Baptist.  Nostalgia for my family this morning.
“And I’ve never hoist a mainstay, and I’ve never flogged a poop-deck,
And I’ve never veered to starboard ‘cuz I’ve never failed atoll…
And I’ve never walked the gangplank, and I’ve never stoned a ferret,
And I’ve never been to Boston in the fall.”
we don’t do anything.”
(I just love that little latino vegetable.  What is he supposed to be anyway?  A jalapeno?  (sans accent) Or maybe a chunk of chayote.  Am I waxing racist again?)
“Hey, that’s right!  We’re supposed to sing about piratey-things!”    (Esteemed [but not for or against his ethnic background…]  bandito-veggie)

The Pirates Who Don’t Do Anything Silly Song

(Baptists really liked Veggie-tales.  They used them to inoculate  the Christian children in case they might catch a case of HOLY GHOST.)

List of Americans who are Terrorists

Thanks to TheTruthWins.com these government documents have been compiled for Everyone to see.

Below is a list of Americans who are terrorists according to the U.S. government. These exposed government documents reveal everyone in America who is considered to be an “extremists”, a “potential terrorists” and, or, a “terrorists” in official U.S. government documents. This is only a small portion of the ‘Official’ Terrorist Watch List.  Are you on the terrorist watch list? Find out now.

Original documents can be found in the links provided.

1. Those that talk about “individual liberties”

2. Those that advocate for states’ rights

3. Those that want “to make the world a better place”

4. “The colonists who sought to free themselves from British rule”

[ …]

69.Those that supported former presidential candidates Ron Paul, Chuck Baldwin and Bob Barr

70.Those that display the Gadsden Flag (“Don’t Tread On Me”)

71.Those that believe in “end times” prophecies

72.Evangelical Christians


73.Anyone who flies a drone

In some of the documents referenced above, members of the military are specifically warned not to have anything to do with such groups.

You can now be considered a “potential terrorist” or “terrorist” just because of your personal beliefs. Free speech is becoming a thing of the past along with thinking on your own.  If you decide freedom is something you want to promote, prepare to be added to the terrorist watch list.

Read more at:   https://www.therealstrategy.com/list-of-americans-who-are-terrorists-according-to-government/

OMG.  I just guessed the answer to a math problem in my head and I was right.  Close.  Maybe I won’t have to learn math after all!  One way or another, we’re all connected to a source of great intelligence.  Mine comes in peace.

It’s so nice to have people care that I stopped smoking!  Last time and the times before they only cared that I wasn’t blowing money on cigarettes.  This time they seem genuinely happy for me.  I couldn’t quit any time I wanted, but I could quit any time Holy Spirit moved me to.  Then I’d start again after some months because nobody gave a rip.  This time is different, because I’m getting my new car.  Smoking is not who I am in reality, and I can’t drive my new car until I get out of the old one.  Cyborgs might be able to do both for a while, but even a robot has to pick a lane and stay there.  I think when I get my tribe, and we’re voting about a name, I’ll nominate:  The Gentle Giants.  That would make our glory less threatening, I think.
My sons won thirty dollars at the casino while we waited for the Michael McDonald concert.  They are highly favored.  Who will be the first American citizen killed by a flying robot on US contiguous soil?  It has happened in the colonies, and we of the Fuhrer-land should take note.  Jingoism destroys the mind and steals the soul and we’ll all rue the day we pledged allegiance to the flag without questioning Grandma.    Drones are flying death-robots.  Drones are flying death-robots.  Let that sink in and imagine how it feels with them buzzing over your own wedding party.  Now imagine living like that for the foreseeable generations.   I have seen white drones fly over my house.  They have a strange kind of bump on their back.  I don’t think I’d like it if my entire life and my children’s lives and my grandchildren’s lives were observed continually and threatened anonymously.  Oh wait, they are. Also, they’re even paying for it!!  The spirit of STUPID has America by its shrunken nuts.  We need a mass exorcism after a major episode of televised WEEPING AND WAILING.  We must repent and call upon almighty GOD for mercy.  A pox upon the unmerciful for by what measure they judge, they are also judged.
Graham Cooke says we can get to a point in the Spirit where satan just doesn’t show up anymore.  We can wear him out and that’s what’s meant by ‘more than conquerors’.  We just keep winning and winning and winning (by obeying the voice of the Spirit…) that he gets confused and doesn’t waste any more of his very limited resources.  I prayed one time that my life would astonish satan.  I meant it at the time.
5:35 am

Over 15,000 baby sea lions estimated dead as Pacific sea life dies off

When speaking to NBC News, Sea World San Diego senior veterinarian Hendrick Nollens reported, “We had rescued 19 California sea lions in January [2013]. This year we already rescued 87 pups in that same month. So this event seems to be much larger.”

According to the Daily Breeze, the “unusual mortality event” wiped out two-thirds of the sea lion pup population off the West Coast in 2013.

Rehabilitation centers are taking several hundred pups in this year to save the species from total extinction.

(Isaac confessed that he ate fish while in California, he said the huge restaurant was full.  He spoke to an employee about the death of the Pacific Ocean and the guy said their fish now comes from Canada.  I hope that would be Nova Scotia or some place on the east side…)

Read more at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/over-15000-baby-sea-lions-estimated-dead-as-pacific-sea-life-dies-off/


JOHN McCAIN IN 2013: Screw Russia China, We’ll Invade Anybody We Want to

“They won’t do a thing…”   (Famous last words.)  (He really is idiotic.  Especially when he argues about stupid semantics.  Also he LIED LIED LIED.)

israel’s indoctrination of USA politicians

57 Congress Reps Taken to Israel

Who Do They Really Represent?

By Paul Larudee | Dissident Voice | December 14, 2015

In August, 2015, 57 brand new members of the U.S. House of Representatives bowed their heads and promised to obey their Israeli overlords. They allowed themselves to be taken to Israel, plied with good food and propaganda. They then returned home to do Israel’s bidding in the Congressional seats that Israel helped them win. Sixty were invited, but only three decided not to go, for unknown reasons.

The Free Palestine Movement tested this theory and found it wanting. We sent a personalized invitation to exactly the same members of Congress to come to Palestine at our expense. Not a single one accepted. Although we sent a followup to those who did not respond the first time, the vast majority never responded at all.

Read more at:   https://uprootedpalestinians.wordpress.com/2015/12/15/israels-indoctrination-of-usa-politicians/

How some evangelicals are challenging a decades-long stance of blanket support for Israel’s government

Hybels is among a small number of influential evangelicals who are challenging a decades-long stance of blanket evangelical support for Israel’s government. They are taking trips to the Middle East, not only to visit biblical sites but to engage with modern-day Palestinians and Israelis in conversations centered more around modern politics than ancient texts. They are organizing conferences and writing publicly in an attempt to discern a new role for Christians in bringing an end to the Israeli-Palestinian conflict. Gradually, their ideas are taking hold, especially with young evangelicals.

Read at:   https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/acts-of-faith/wp/2015/12/14/how-some-influential-evangelicals-are-challenging-a-decades-long-stance-of-blanket-support-for-israels-government/

Journalist: “Nobody even talks about Fukushima anymore… there’s almost no more fish… the ocean is dying, it’s terrifying” — Gov’t warns public to expect alarming increase in deaths on West Coast — “Fish… are just too hard to find” — “Chaos below the surface” — Official: “We are preparing for worst” (VIDEO)

Report: “Red Alert! Sharp increase in radiation… at Fukushima” — Levels spike 400,000% under plant — Almost 1,000,000,000 becquerels per cubic meter — TV: Officials investigating cause


Neocons’ Aggression Towards Sovereign States Destroying Earth

Paul Craig Roberts

My warning that the neoconservatives have resurrected the threat of nuclear Armageddon, which was removed by Reagan and Gorbachev, is also being given by Noam Chomsky, former US Secretary of Defense William Perry, and other sentient observers of the neoconservatives’ aggressive policies toward Russia and China.

Whether ironic or paradoxical, the US is pushing a policy that means the end of life. Yet, the majority of Western governments support it, and the insouciant Western peoples have no clue.

Read more: http://sputniknews.com/columnists/20151212/1031662320/neoconservatives-sovereign-counries-nuclear-destroy-earth.html#ixzz3uNwdblHl

Read more: http://sputniknews.com/columnists/20151212/1031662320/neoconservatives-sovereign-counries-nuclear-destroy-earth.html#ixzz3uNvy9eXJ

Read more: http://sputniknews.com/columnists/20151212/1031662320/neoconservatives-sovereign-counries-nuclear-destroy-earth.html#ixzz3uNvgDGVb

Judge orders U.S. landlord to learn Islam
A judge has ordered a landlord who was involved in a dispute with a Muslim tenant to learn Islam as part of her punishment for a fight in which the renter was “pushed” down a flight of stairs – prompting a legal analyst to describe the action as “a constitutional outrage.”
(This was very multi-cultural of him.  He didn’t force  her to learn Confusianism…oh wait.  Was that racist?)
5:55 am
Dear Dad,
I took ’em on, I took on all of them, just Isaac and me.  (Josh and George believed in us.)  You should have seen me!   I stood up to every tax-sucking hypocrite I met when I was a candidate. I walked out when liars were giving speeches; I jostled people as I left and I flushed loudly before I returned.  I disregarded flattery and offers.  I ignored the vulgarity of the contest itself, and its futility.  If you were an honest man, you would be very proud of me.  I did it all for God, and if you were a God-fearing man, you would be also grateful.  Instead, you joined up with the enemy.  Now that the victory is clearly established I’m relaxing and seeing things a bit easier.  I’m entering rest.  “He giveth His beloved rest.”  He loves me a lot and you haven’t bowed your knee to Him yet.  I hope you don’t die today.
Jingle Bells…clink, clink

6:18 am
So now we turn to Sarah Palin for our color commentary?  She sent a signed copy of her book and to Adele.  Bristol gives birth again shortly, on her hiatus from 100-grand-a-year endorsing celibacy.  Last holiday season, Todd punched out a guy at a house-party, or Bristol’s little sister did, I forget.  Anyway, there was blood and scandal in Alaska.  And Sarah, who slept with wandering athletes when she worked for some TV station…(was it in Lansing?)… is to whom we entrust the microphone of GOP quoteworthies?   Gag.  If I had  a personal trainer, I coulda been a contender.
Dad and his buddies love this shit:
A Lucrative Business: Obama’s Private Drone War
Despite the devastating effects the drone program has had in the Middle East and North Africa, the Pentagon has announced its desire for a vast expansion of the drone war. It has also announced a $3 billion plan to double the number of drone squadrons to 16 for spying and military missions. It comes as the Pentagon has intensified airstrikes supposedly against terrorist targets in Iraq and Syria. Those strikes, according to transparency group Airwars, have instead killed some 1,000 civilians thus far.
Maybe I’ll become a life-coach and get rich on the internet.  Isaac could build me a pretty website;  we’d research the colors and symbolism so I’d get a lot of page-clicks so I could sell advertising too.  Some of these life-coaches are amazing, and they really know what they’re talking about.  I’ve been directed to some very fine Christian victims of narcissistic abuse, and they are spot on and full of forgiveness and love.   These people taught me more than they could imagine.  I’ve been on the accelerated-recovery-project and I’m becoming very grateful.  The gurus post videos several times a week!  They are every-day-encouraging former victims to live in love and forgiveness, and they have to repeat it over and over and over.  I am so grateful for the blood of Jesus and the interventions of man.  I’m prepared for something very special.
Scripture is exciting right now.  I’m especially excited about the portion of prophecy which predicts a day, near the end of time, that God will pour His Spirit on all flesh.  The Bible also says that in that day WHOSOEVER CALLS UPON THE NAME OF THE LORD WILL BE SAVED.  Delivered.  Depends on the version.
Isaac needs either a healing or two operations, and he needs it soon. He is unable to participate in physical activities as he’d like, and his knees and back hurt all the time.  His feet are very weak and a procedure can fix them but he must be young enough for his body to adapt.  I’ve spoken to my parents about necessary funds but they have refused to discuss it with me for seven years.  We’ve asked God to heal him for a much much longer period of time.  Please pray for wisdom in this matter?    Thanks, readers.

PS.  Also, I heard Josh and Isaac discussing their new property tax bill.

Wasn’t it a really dickish thing to do, stealing a house from a mom and giving that huge responsibility to teenagers?
Then MAKING SURE their mom can’t earn any money?
Quote for the day:

Give me an adequate army, with power to provide it with more pay and better food than falls to the lot of the average man, and I will undertake, within 30 years, to make the majority of the population believe that two and two are three, that water freezes when it gets hot and boils when it gets cold, or any other nonsense that might seem to serve the interest of the state.
– Bertrand Russell

Maybe today really is my last, loyal readers.  I haven’t been able to post anything and when it looks like I have, it’s just not true.  My stats-reader has gone to zero…for many many hours.  (Maybe I’m just getting so many thousands of hits that they didn’t want me to know!  Who is they?)  Anyhow, I’ll plounge forward.  (I made that up.  Did you know that Shakespeare made up ten percent of the words he used?  And now we know them all.  If we’re literate, I mean.  My sons told me about it.)  (“Plounge” is the opposite of lounge.  It is active and obstinately plows through the depths at a fast pace as easily as though it were water.)

US Cops Go to Scotland to Learn How to Kill Fewer People

The tactics of US and Scottish police officers can’t be more different: where US policemen usually pull their weapons when confronted with an armed [and unarmed people as well, especially if they happen to be African-American] suspect, their Scottish colleagues resort to verbal de-escalation techniques calming down potentially dangerous situations.

Read more: http://sputniknews.com/us/20151214/1031729134/us-police-scotland-police-shooting.html#ixzz3uOJkyma2

Can technology help humanity realise its full potential? Transhumanists see the merging of man and machine as a natural “next step” in human evolution, but where does consciousness fall in the equation? Instead of bringing freedom, merging ourselves with technology could chain consciousness to the physical body and material world, overriding our natural capacity for spiritual evolution.


Transhumanism, or the belief that humans can use technology to evolve past their current limited physical and mental experience of life, presents an interesting question on the subject of consciousness: can technology lead us to higher states of consciousness, or is it just the opposite — a weight dragging us back into the heaviness of the material world?

See at:   http://www.wakingtimes.com/2014/09/01/transhumanism-trap-biohacking-chains-consciousness-material-world/

I recognize that I have been delivered of a whole lot of lifelong baggage in a very short time.  My battles change almost daily; just now I’m struggling with the embedded belief that if anything goes wrong, it’s my fault.  That’s pretty self-focused but it’s also hard when my roommates are talking and they all lower their voices.  I suppose they could be discussing my Christmas gift but that’s unlikely since I didn’t get one last year.  Also, I’ve had seven years wondering what people are saying about me,  and these guys used to talk about me a lot, when Dad would corner them with his fraudulent ‘concerns’.  It’s so good to deal with such trivial matters.  I should have been made crazy.  When everybody says you are defective, it’s really hard to believe you are not.  When you are experiencing SUPERNATURAL TORMENT and they say you’re defective…you pretty much have to pray nonstop so God can keep telling you the truth.  I can’t wait for Dad to apologize to these men so I am no longer a slave who must depend on a man who does not value or trust me.     I can’t wait to be somebody’s cherished daughter.  Finally.  Then I can leave.  After the check clears.

12:30 pm
I told Isaac that his car would be in the driveway this morning but I think he was still a bit surprised.  I wasn’t surprised when I overheard him sighing that he’d like to be like his Grandpa who “gets things done.”
I know my dad very well.  He’s like the government:  set on COMPLETE domination, and to further his cause…he never lets a crisis go to waste.  His entire life-source is his fake image so he gets as much mileage as he can out of every event…especially if somebody is in trouble and feels sheepish.  When he is compelled to assist, he will CERTAINLY get it done…and he always leaves a little claw-mark on the victim so there’s no doubt who is the alpha-male.  I don’t know how making others feel bad helps him, but he’s EXCELLENT at being a psychopathic manipulative pretend-Christian.  He even gives my brother’s wife LINGERIE FOR GIFTS!!  Funny, right?  (I wouldn’t think so if she were my wife.)   I can’t wait until his crimes are revealed, because EVERYBODY in his environment will be more honest and content with themselves.  He won’t make ANYBODY feel like a piece of shit ever again.
Neither of my parents have spoken to me since they got back from California although I’ve gifted them 1. molasses cookies, 2, spinach pie and 3, pumpkin cake with orange cream cheese frosting.   Today I made Indian pudding and a quiche with Swiss cheese and shallots.   Maybe if I share I’d get an invitation for Christmas?  They haven’t invited me for a holiday for many years.  Then they pretend they did.  It’s really twisted but not for long. I can’t wait for my sons to figure them out.  It took me over fifty years.  I also wanted to be like him until I recognized that to be incompatible with decency and a Godly destiny.
Of course I knew he’d have that car unstuck.  Ever see Dirty Rotten Scoundrels?   “Oh DR. SCHEFFHAUSEN, you said Freddie would get up out of that wheelchair today…and he did!!!  I’m beginning to think that you can do miracles!!”
12:30 pm
“Do you need perhaps, to reclaim your birthright of knowing that you are inherently beautiful, you are inherently good and wonderful and intelligent, and that you have come to this earth, not just to survive, not just to slog through the mud of life, but to dance in the light and live a beautiful thriving existence?”  (Beverly Banov Brown)

What is The Secret to Happiness-For Codependents and Narcissistic Abuse Survivors

“…who raised us under almost a totalitarian rule.  There was one person in the house who was allowed to have feelings..and the rest of the people in the house weren’t allowed to have feelings…”
“Until we wake up we’re really robots, responding to this childhood programming.”


“You only have power over people so long as you don’t take everything away from them. But when you’ve robbed a man of everything, he’s no longer in your power – he’s free again.” — Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3uHzXvIYb


State Senator Kemp Hannon, the author of the recently passed law that will require all seventh and twelfth graders in the state to get meningitis shots, has been caught taking large bribes from pharmaceutical and health companies.
(I wonder why when politicians take pharm money it’s ‘bribes’ but when the DOCTORS GET THEIR KICK-BACKS they call it ‘fees’?)
nwo and the church
9:38 am

Bill Clinton’s US Government Apology to past Targeted Individuals

Relevant Patents:
(Note: A patent does not necessarily mean a fully functional method or apparatus)
Microwave Hearing Device

Microwave Hearing System

Communication System and Method Including Brain Wave Analysis and/or use of Brain Activity (1998 Patent)

Apparatus and Method for Remotely Monitoring and Altering Brain Waves (1974 Patent)

Multifunctional Radio Frequency Directed Energy System

Method and Device for Implementing the Radio Frequency Hearing Effect ~ v2k aka Electronic Telepathy (1996 Patent)

Apparatus for Audibly Communicating Speech Using the Radio Frequency Hearing Effect (2002 Patent)

Method and Device for Producing a Desired Brain State (2000 Patent)

Behavior Modification (1997 Patent)

Pulse Variability in Electric Field Manipulation of Nervous Systems (1999 Patent)

Intra-oral Tracking Device (1996 Patent)

Electric Fringe Field Generator for Manipulating Nervous Systems (1998 Patent)

FM Theta-inducing Audible Sound, and Method, Device and Recorded Medium to Generate the Same (1994 Patent)

Magnetic Excitation of Sensory Resonances (1995 Patent)

Signal Injection Coupling into the Human Vocal Tract for Robust Audible and Inaudible Voice Recognition (1999 Patent)

Brain Wave Inducing System (1999 Patent)

Apparatus for Electric Stimulation of Auditory Nerves of a Human Being (1996 Patent)

Device and Method for Estimating a Mental Decision (1995 Patent)

Supraliminal Method of Education with Particular Application Behavior Modification (1996 Patent)

Method and an Associated Apparatus for Remotely Determining Information as to Person’s Emotional State (1994 Patent)

Method of and Apparatus for Inducing Desired States of Consciousness (1991 Patent)

Method and Device for Interpreting Concepts and Conceptual Thought from Brainwave Data and for Assisting for Diagnosis of Brainwave Disfunction (1993 Patent)

Psycho-Acoustic Projector(1967 Patent)

Method and System for Altering Consciousness(1991 Patent)

Method and System for Altering Consciousness (1992 Patent)

Silent Subliminal Presentation System

–More at:   http://www.targeted-individuals.net/p/targeted-individual-resources.html

American Cancer Society admits conventional cancer treatment causes more cancer

Read more at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/american-cancer-society-admits-conventional-cancer-treatment-causes-more-cancer/

Targeted Individuals ~ Covert Transhumanism Preview

Meet some of my colleagues.
Dr. John Hall had corresponded (at this point)1500 people complaining of IDENTICAL ABUSES…from all fifty states.
“Emotional projection”      
“Mood management”


Image result for demonic possession image remote influencing technology
3:28 am
“You owe me 120 dollars for copies of my book, which are at your businesses and will sell for 60 dollars more.  You’ll make 5 dollars a piece.” 
“I’d like my money before Christmas so I may buy a present for my sons. Last Christmas I cashed in that life insurance policy you bought on me and I’ve already pawned my rings.  (I singed the books so they’ll be more valuable pretty soon.)”
“How many tons of aerosols does this represent?  And where does it all come from?”

End of Days Satellite Image Reveals Fleet of Chemtrail/Chemdump Super-Tankers

CoDEPENDENCY REVEALED:  Fallacy 1:  My Needs,Wants and Desires Don’t Count!

“You’ve been dealing with DREAM KILLERS…a lack of healthy self-esteem on the part of the caregivers…maybe you learned it wasn’t OK to express a desire for something special…”
“These kind of messages delivered frequently enough give the child the idea that they’re not good enough, that they’re not smart enough,  that their opinions about things in life …the goals and aspirations they have for the future, they’re not worthy.”
(Every hamburger of my childhood was adorned with ketchup and pickles, just like my Dad liked them.  Every sandwich my mother has made me in my life has included butter, although I’ve not liked buttered sandwiches ever and she’s seen me dealing with the butter under the filling and she even uses Miracle Whip!  Yuk.  I was nearly fifty years old and THEY STILL were deciding what I should do and be!  AND, taking action to change those things!  Nutso.)  It’s like the shrink told me when they sent me there because I didn’t get all A’s when I was seventeen:  “It’s NOT YOU.  It’s THEM.”
(I wrote about that in my book.)
I’m praying for Kevin T Thoms this morning.  He hasn’t made a video in a while and he used to say profound things.  He still does, and it sounds like he’s gangstalked.  (It also sounds like he’s been cursed and he believed in it.)  I wonder if he’s in Michigan still/again?   He says he’s willing to go to hell (it it existed) if it will make other people happy.  Been there, tried that.  I think I’m going to make a video if I get a real good rant burning in my soul.


3:13 am
Didn’t I just say  that my dad would have great adventures with my sons, and it already began. Together they slogged through the mud and offense  to dislodge a small car from  the mud-hole it skid on a sluice of new sod slid atop sodden ground.  They couldn’t get it out. And even Dad’s truck got stuck.  I wish I could have been there; it must have been a riot.  I say it here, and it comes out there.

What are “Crisis Actors?” | Stuff They Don’t Want You to Know

2:21 am
I am a child of the king and I’m just about to receive my inheritance.  I’m not going to blow it on some flashy car and good times.  I’ll invest it right back into the family business..and that business IS FAMILY.
Romans 8

37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.

38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,

39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

10:25 am

Is my iPhone listening to me?

(Ah, the smell of dead delusions in the holiday air…)

As I walked toward the door to leave I looked down at my phone. Again, there was a push notification from Apple Maps (an app I have never once used). It read: “16 minutes to Congress St.; Traffic is normal right now.” This time I took a screenshot, posted at right.

How on earth could my iPhone have known that I wasn’t going to take the bus this morning, and that I was going to drive downtown instead?

Video: Conductor Lectures Dutch Queen on Islam – Entire Orchestra Walks Out

12:59 pm
I made really good spanikopita with spinach and kale and five kinds of cheese and dill and oregano.  You don’t ever get to be a somebody in the Kingdom of God unless you’ve been betrayed.  I’m glad that’s over with.


I am treated like an animal or insect in a science experiment…, NOT HUMAN!

I have not had a day off in over nine years.


There was at least a two year period where I got little or no sleep, sleeping is still a major problem.

It involves setting up or staging various situations (skits)…. including, but not limited to, vehicle accidents or potential accidents. This can involve all sorts of possible scenarios. Here are a FEW I have encountered… vehicles coming at me the wrong way on a one way street (many times), vehicles trying to run me off the road (many times), various staged potential accidents where I had to take quick-action to avoid contact/crash (many times).

Read more at:   http://lissakr11humane.com/2015/12/13/i-am-living-this-orwellian-existence-in-the-united-states-of-america-2/

Julianne McKinney Report

Electronic Surveillance Project

Overt Harassment—which obviously is meant to be observed—may be intended to “precondition” individuals for eventual long-term electronic harassment. Persons terrified by unexplained overt harassment are not likely to cope with the sudden onset of electronic harassment in any more reasoned fashion. This phased pattern of harassment is apparent in all of the cases now being investigated. The fact that the overt harassment continues in these cases even after the electronic targeting commences suggests that the objective is to maintain long-term extremes of stress.

We are now in touch with approximately a dozen individuals located throughout the United States who appear to be targets of harassment and mind-control experimentation involving directed-energy technologies. [By mid-November 1992, that number had increased to 25.]

Primarily because of MKULTRA, MHCHAOS and COINTELPRO, Executive Orders and implementing regulations were published which prohibited military and CIA domestic covert intelligence operations. Experiments on involuntary human subjects, and the surveillance of/collection of personal information on U.S. citizens, except under strictly regulated conditions were also prohibited.

The long-term objectives of these harassment and experimentation campaigns appear to be quite fundamental; viz.,

(1) induce a sense of perverted “loyalty” toward the very agencies engaged in the individual’s harassment, to confuse his or her priorities where the possibility of obtaining legal redress might be concerned;

(2) redirect the targeted individual’s feelings of hopelessness, anger and frustration toward racial and ethnic groups, and toward select, prominent political figures, to include the President of the United States; and

(3) force the individual to commit an act of violence, whether suicide or murder, under conditions which can be plausibly denied by the government.

See whole report at:   http://mckinneyrreport.blogspot.com/



12/13/158:59 am

Let Me lift you up, let Me carry you, for I will see to you and all of your ways, says the Lord. I say let Me, for I will not force this rest upon you, you must allow Me. No harm, or hurt will come nigh your place, your dwelling, or your body. I have every member numbered. I have every member numbered and I have not forgotten the place, nor the original purpose says the Lord. I have not forgotten the member and I will restore, there is no shortage in Me, only a shortage in My people who will not believe Me. Just lay back in My strong capable arms, lay back and see the miracle that I will do in you.

So hear this day and commune with Me. Change your mindset. I know you have been struggling, believing, confessing, all those things that I have said for you to do. Some of you have said, I have done all that I know how to do. I Am saying, that is good, I Am glad you are at the end, I Am glad you are at the end of yourself, so now if you will just let Me be God.  

–Debra Lowe at:   http://ft111.com/lowe.htm

At 91, Michigan woman who fled East Germany during Cold War becomes U.S. citizen

-(This story is about my friend from law school who attacked me in 2009 the same time my dad was smearing me.  I wrote about her in my book.)   (The judge, not the lady.)

It wasn’t Guenter Ahrens’ first time in the United States or Michigan.

During World War II, Ahrens, who at the time was Lentz’s fiancé, fought in the German army and was captured by U.S. Army Lt. Gen. George S. Patton’s troops in Africa. Brought to mid-Michigan as a prisoner of war, Ahrens picked sugar beets in Caro for five years.

“He was treated very well and when he came home, he said, ‘I’d like to go back to the United States because, my gosh, it‘s wonderful over there,’ ” she said.

In an expedited naturalization hearing held within the Braun Kendrick law offices the morning of Wednesday, Dec. 9, U.S. District Magistrate Judge Patricia T. Morris swore in 91-year-old Gerda Lentz as a citizen.

See at:  http://www.mlive.com/news/bay-city/index.ssf/2015/12/at_91_michigan_woman_who_fled.html

Whistleblower drone pilots now threatened by U.S. govt. for speaking out; financial assets frozen as intimidation ratchets up

That action follows an earlier act of retribution against the mother of one of the former pilots, Brandon Bryant.Newsweek reported a month earlier that shortly after Bryant gave damning testimony to the German Parliament about the U.S. government’s drone program, two U.S. Air Force officers showed up at his mother’s house in Missoula, Montana, and said she was on an ISIS “hit list.”

Newsweek reported further:

“Bryant, now an outspoken critic of the U.S. drone program, left the Air Force after what he described as a moment of moral clarity…

See more at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/whistleblower-drone-pilots-now-threatened-by-u-s-govt-for-speaking-out-financial-assets-frozen-as-intimidation-ratchets-up/

* It is time for many who have been in a prolonged “valley of decision” to “push the envelope” [through an absolute faith and trust in Me] as far as their pursuit of the “fullness” of My Will for their life and ministry. For it is ONLY in this way that they will be empowered [through the continual accessing of My Grace] to rise above the lethargy, procrastination and “stagnancy” that has [up until this time] kept them mired in a place of doubt, double-mindedness and mistrust. This is the hour in which I shall begin to establish [and, in some cases, re-establish] divine connections throughout My remnant Church – glorious connections that will bring My faithful ones into the “fullness” of Covenant, first with Me, and, then, with those that I have raised up for them [to help them] according to the fullness of My purpose in this final hour. The spontaneous fruit of these “divine connections” will be a radical increase of the “corporate anointing” in the midst of all those who truly love Me throughout the earth – a radical increase [of unlimited Power] that will “thrust” [propel] My people into the “fullness” of their precious destiny, in Christ [both individually and corporately].

* The “apathy” and the “lethargy” that many of My children have “allowed” to affect them in this hour is an attack rooted in demonic power and influence, and it is not something that one will walk above apart from the power of My Spirit. * “Making preparations” [moving forward in faith and obedience – even in the small, seemingly insignificant things] “fuels” a holy expectancy in one’s heart for the fullness of the vision/blessing to come forth. The opposite is fear and unbelief [leading to “hope deferred”] which leads to a hopeless, lethargic and unproductive state of existence.

….”wake up the mighty men…….. let the weak say, I am strong”…. Joel 3:9b, 10b KJV

….”Little children, you are of God [you belong to Him] and have [already] defeated and overcome them [the agents of the antichrist], because He Who lives in you is greater [mightier] than he who is in the world”…. 1 John 4:4 The Amplified Translation

More from Glenn Jackson at:   http://jtlmin.com/DAILY%20FBN%202015/12%20December%202015/WPFBN1213.pdf

8:12 am
I think I’m the most blessed targeted-individual-mother on the planet.  My sons don’t like when I talk about the tormentors.  They ALREADY KNOW these things and I’m preaching to the choir.  They’d be ready to step out probably,  if I EVER HAD AN IDEA about what to do.  That’s pretty good;  Jesus will CERTAINLY give me an idea soon.  Or else, He will give me peace and patience as He continues to set things into position.
 “…I will bring you out. I know the shadow land that you are in. I know this place that casts shadows of doubt and unbelief, but I will bring you out for I Am your Father. I have promised that I would never leave you, I would never forsake you, I Am the promise-keeper. Even here in this valley and darkened place, I Am making you. I am making you strong, I am making you confident, I Am making you the soldier that I have called you to be.”  
Through Debra Lowe, for 12/12/15 at:  http://ft111.com/lowe.htm
(My sons are flexible and my sons are rational and my sons are ready for anything.  My sons are ALSO REALLY BORED JUST LIKE ME.  I sure hope my dad feels the wind pretty soon.  He ain’t NEVER had an adventure like he will have with my sons and me.  Every single day with them is an adventure!!)
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I don’t know what there is about ‘extinction of humanity’ that is hard to understand.  We know extinction, we cause enough of it.  We know we’re biological beings and we know that we’ve destroyed our source of sustenance.  We KNOW that the guys with the nukes are waving their manlihoods at one another.  We KNOW that our social systems have proven grossly unjust at their foundations, and are now corrupt beyond any possibility of reform.  Pathogens have grown stronger due to our overuse of antibiotics, and they just used up the last of the most powerful,  so now people will start dying again from minor food-borne diseases.  The western nations are being invaded by operatives from other cultures with agendas we know nothing about.   And, as we REFUSE TO CONSIDER THIS MULTI-THEATRE TRAGEDY, our brains are being altered along with our DNA and there’s not a thing we can do to stop it.  “Who ya gonna call?”  And yet, people would rather be entertained than to rationally discuss our alternatives.  OK.  There are no alternatives, but we should discuss a safe transition for individuals.  We should rescue the perishing before they are rendered beyond conscious thought and also beyond help.
From Isaiah 54
 No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord.

 In righteousness shalt thou be established: thou shalt be far from oppression; for thou shalt not fear: and from terror; for it shall not come near thee.

Behold, they shall surely gather together, but not by me: whosoever shall gather together against thee shall fall for thy sake.

O thou afflicted, tossed with tempest, and not comforted, behold, I will lay thy stones with fair colours, and lay thy foundations with sapphires.

The spiritual Seeker does not want to be performing better or to obtain a better role. They plainly watch their own reactions. They no longer identify with the roles and allow the quality of their reactions to determine their self-image. They learn to laugh at themselves. 

A Simple Step to Know Your True Self

See more at:   https://wikkorg.wordpress.com/2015/12/13/a-simple-step-to-know-your-true-self/


International sextortionist pleads guilty to hacking, blackmail from US embassy in London

If the women balked at his blackmail attempt by either refusing to comply or begging him to leave them alone, Ford responded with additional threats, including by reminding the victims that he knew where they lived, the DOJ said.

In some instance, he followed through by sending the explicit material to their family and friends.

See more at:   https://www.intellihub.com/sextortionist-hacking-from-us-embassy-london/

An epidemic in the making – 35 percent of the population affected by electromagnetic field exposures

More and more people are developing reactions to their cell phones, laptops, tablets and WiFi – which emit a form of non-ionizing radiation called radio frequency radiation, as do microwave ovens. Wired electrical devices are also linked to this condition such as computers household wiring, certain types of lights like neon’s, compact fluorescent light bulbs and even sleeping next to a clock radio electric alarm clock.


15–Year-Old Schoolgirl Found Hanged After Developing Allergic Reaction To School WiFi

See more at:   https://wikkorg.wordpress.com/2015/12/13/15-year-old-schoolgirl-found-hanged-after-developing-allergic-reaction-to-school-wifi/

Jody Sofia borrowed $92,500 to get a degree from Florida Coastal School of Law. Now she’s in default, her outstanding balance having ballooned to almost $144,000, and she spends her days fielding calls from government-contracted debt collectors.

The companies making those calls are just one part of an ecosystem feeding on federal student loans. There are also debt servicers, refinance lenders, firms that help former students stay out of default and for-profit schools that make money as borrowers try to repay more than $1.2 trillion in government-backed education debt.

See more at:   http://www.blacklistednews.com/Who%E2%80%99s_Profiting_From_%241.2_Trillion_of_Federal_Student_Loans%3F/47758/0/38/38/Y/M.html

5:59 am

Civil Lawsuit Charging Medical Malpractice Filed in Kentucky: Non-Consensual Human Experimentation with Directed-Energy Weapons

To understand what is happening in the US today, to see how unethical medical doctors, psychiatrists, and hospital staff are colluding with covert Military and Special Ops to run Directed-Energy weapons-testing and human experimentation programs abusing patients at their hospitals, in their care, please read the text of this lawsuit.

Read more at:   http://everydayconcerned.net/2015/12/12/civil-lawsuit-charging-medical-malpractice-filed-in-kentucky-non-consensual-human-experimentation-with-directed-energy-weapons/

We have to rise to the occasion. It’s virtually us or them, life or death, truth or lies, freedom or slavery – for not just ourselves but our loved ones, progeny and the entire human race. That’s what makes this the opportunity of a lifetime, and our marvelous creative Universe is there to meet you if you dare walk the path.

In fact, you’ll even meet your true self, what you’ve been looking and longing for your whole life!

The Tipping Point Is Here – And It’s All About You

You’ll see these manifestations of the tipping point we’ve reached everywhere if you look. People’s tones are changing, minds are tossed about but exploring new perspectives, truths are being outed like never before. It’s an amazing time. Don’t stare at the machinations of the powers that shouldn’t be, they’re designed to distract and disempower. This is crucial.

See more at:   http://www.zengardner.com/the-tipping-point-is-here-and-its-all-about-you/

“This is everything I want to tell the world about chemtrails, and I think it could not be said better, by anyone, EVER! It’s perfect! The world needs to be shaken to the core by his words, so LISTEN UP, and share it with your friends.”

Wake the Fake Up! – Zombies, Sleep No More

“How fucking stupid are you…to call me crazy?  I AM ENRAGED…”
“You have some serious mind-control right now, because you’re going out looking for real food while fake-fucking rain is landing on it…you’re an idiot.”
(I think this may be my favorite sermon ever.) (I’m praying for an anointing to preach all fiery like that.  Probably with fewer f-bombs though.)  (I’m also praying for a place to preach.)
Quote for the day:  “People who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those who are doing it.” – George Bernard Shaw

We don’t need more self-serious bossy-types waiving their authority around like a bludgeon nicknamed Ultimatum. We need more self-deprecating guides tossing up doorways leaving it up to us to decide if we walk through or not. We don’t need leaders who want followers. We need leaders who want a sense of comradery on their journey through the unknown. We don’t need preachers up on high talking down to the flock. We need trailblazers blazing up their own trails and showing by moral/amoral example how others can do the same.

On the flip side: We don’t need more whiney followers unquestioningly going along with the status quo. We need more self-questioning, world-questioning, open-minded autodidacts. We don’t need followers who think they need leaders. We need self-educated individuals seeking guidance and the shoulders of giants. We don’t need the bleating heart of sheep who are mesmerized and compromised by the shepherd’s spell. We need the courageous heart of lambs-turned-lions who have the audacity to break the spell. In short: we need more self-empowered individuals willing to take on the fates. As Seneca said, “The fates guide those who will; those who won’t they drag.”

See more at:   http://www.zengardner.com/why-we-need-empowering-leaders-fewer-disempowered-followers/

White House also unable to explain how droning women and children and wedding parties deters terrorism

America’s deadly double tap drone attacks are ‘killing 49 people for every known terrorist in Pakistan’


We killed a lot more than a million Iraqis.  And Depleted Uranium keeps killing:

People are starting to catch on that if their neighbor takes his Mastercard to Best-Buy,  he can watch everything you do in your home, and project it on his 48 inch screen.  Soon they must also needs-understand,  that if your neighbor’s brother-in-law works for DARPA, he can also track along with your THOUGHT-LIFE and even make alterations as he wishes.  It’s the newest video game for the big dealing big-deals.  Memory drone-hits; 100% deniable.  (Thus far.)   When the extent of our absolute exposure is recognized, we will see zombies manifest.  Don’t judge anybody for how he or she reacts to being found out and sold out.  It’s a horrible thing to experience.  Take it from me.
7:54 am

Ligons, whose complaint triggered the investigation that led to charges Daniel Holtzclaw victimized 13 women as an Oklahoma City Police officer, said: ‘He just picked the wrong lady to stop that night.

‘I wanted to make sure this wouldn’t happen again, no way no how.’ 

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3355554/Ex-Oklahoma-cops-rape-conviction-symbol-national-problem.html#ixzz3u6v8uwbF
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‘I don’t think there’s any way any of us would have known that my brother was living such a secret life,’ he says.

‘It broke my heart. Whenever somebody you respect the most is willing to get up and proclaim what we believe as Christians, about being true to your wife, you’d never think that that’s the person who’s involved in it.’

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3357068/I-tell-older-brother-don-t-want-like-anymore-Duggar-brothers-finally-break-silence-turn-Josh-affairs-sex-scandals.html#ixzz3u6vprpaF
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Image result for leuren moret image         Royal blood: Mira's daughter Nadejda, pictured as a child, who may well have been the Queen's first cousin

Is this little girl the Queen’s illegitimate cousin – with a sex mad spy for a mother? It sounds preposterous but a new book reveals compelling evidence buried in an MI5 file

  • In 1940, a British stockbroker told MI5 that he believed London-based Princess Marina Dmitri of Russia might have been working as a spy
  • Marina, known as Mira, was known for her loose morals and love of alcohol
  • Files suggest she might have had an affair with our present Queen’s uncle, the Duke of Kent – and given birth to a daughter, his love-child, in July 1933
  • See more of the latest news on the Queen at www.dailymail.co.uk/thequeen
(I wonder if she really died?  Doesn’t she look like Leuren Moret?)

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3356895/Is-little-girl-Queen-s-illegitimate-cousin-sex-mad-spy-mother-sounds-preposterous-new-book-reveals-compelling-evidence-buried-MI5-file.html#ixzz3u70qtVRM
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The Watchlist Gun Bans Begin: Obama Enlists Governors to Bypass Congress: “By Executive Order”- Mac Slavo

Now governors are abusing executive orders to trample on the 2nd Amendment as well.

With strong resistance in Congress to gun control measures, Obama has taken to working outside his constitutional authority yet again.

But he, his pen and his phone, are not alone this time.

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3u738j2X3

US sub scandal: Sailors filmed all female officers every time they showered, says new report

New details of the scandal involving the USS Wyoming crew, who spied on their female shipmates undressing, have emerged through The Navy Times’ FoI. The servicemen appear to have taped every female officer each time she went to shower for almost a year.

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3u744EjdD

Epic Fail: US Navy’s Newest Ship Breaks Down in the Open Sea

Secret lists are becoming the law of the land. Overseas, Obama uses a secret list to authorize the killing of suspects (and bystanders) via drone strike. Execution, as determined by “secretive processes, without indictment or trial.” Some of those killed have been American citizens.

Secret lists have been used to determine who can fly on a plane, who is worth watching as a potential terrorist, and who can travel. None of this necessarily requires that a crime has been committed, or that the individual in question has done anything wrong.

But it won’t stop there.

Red or Blue: What Happens When YOU Are Put On A List? “If You’re On That List, Your Right Is Cancelled”

12:59 pm
I am entirely cut off.  No internet at home.  I am at the library and might not post again.
I made banana bread with cranberries because it’s George’s favorite.  My sons might sneer and ask why I cook for him when I wish him dead.  I’ll say, “Jesus wants me to treat my enemies well.”  They will ask, “Then is Dad your enemy?”  I’ll answer, “So far, yes.  He and I have chosen different sides of history because he believed lies.”

7:33 am

When people think you’re crazy, humor departs the building.  No kidding.  You are not permitted to share anybody’s joke, because everybody is always watching your reactions to see if they’re right because you’re supposed to be crazy.  It‘s really sick.  Normal people are really very sick and self-conscious.  Also, nobody laughs when a crazy person is funny!  How weird is that?  Crazy people are the funniest of us all!
You know, if my dad still has that condo in Grand Rapids, I’d probably take that too.  That would help us both, and maybe keep from digging so far into operating businesses.  Wish he’d send ’round his lawyer.  I’m in the holiday spirit and feeling charitable and very reasonable.   But I have an intense dislike for injustice and I’m agitated all the time.
“Lord, what am I doing wrong?  There’s this pesky spirit of condemnation and fear that destroys my peace repeatedly.  I know my warfare requires more love but I really don’t know how to apply it.  Please advise?”
6:38 am
Nikola Tesla – Deathbed Confessions
Recent evidence has surfacing detailing that Nikola Tesla was murdered the day after he was visited for an all-day interview with two secret service agents, Reinhardt Galen & Otto Skorzeny. After suffocating him, they stole all of Tesla’s blueprints & papers.
Otto Skorzeny was Hitler’s bodyguard & also an assassin, one of the many Nazis who ex-filtrated to the USA after WWII, as part of Project Paperclip. Many of these Nazi scientists ended up working for NASA, the CIA, and other US secret services.
Although he supposedly died in 1975, Skorzeny resurfaced in 1999. In a death-bed confession to the man who was dating his daughter, he revealed the identity of Tesla’s assistant, who was stealing from him.This man, he said, known as George Scherff Snr was none other than Prescott Bush – the father of the 41st President of the US, and grandfather of the current President.
More at:   http://beforeitsnews.com/power-elite/2015/12/nikola-tesla-deathbed-confessions-2450396.html?currentSplittedPage=0

Judge Calls For US Marshals and FBI To Arrest Congress and The President

On November 28th, 2015, Alaska State Judge Anna von Reitz (Anna Maria Riezinger) addressed an open letter to all federal agents, including the FBI and US Marshals to arrest Congress, the President and the Secretary of the Treasury. She goes into incredible detail on the fraud that has been committed. Anyone who reads this is sure to learn at least something. Below is the text and you can open the original pdf here. This has been encouraged to be shared widely.
I just learned that there are little function keys that change the volume!  That’s gonna  save me probably fifteen minutes a day.
“Dear Lord, here we go again.  Another day, another chance to share your love with maybe one person if I go to the store.  Another chance to try to be funny, thank you for that.  I’m down, God.  I’m really down.  I know you use downed-people so I’m expecting something to happen pretty soon.  I threw up yesterday, anticipating George’s return.  He brought ten more cans of tuna for the pantry, I don’t know if he’s increased his bedroom and car stashes.  I really can’t stand watching him blow money on stupid stuff and then dock me my pittance…ESPECIALLY when by not smoking I’ve saved this household MULTIPLE HUNDREDS OF DOLLARS already.  Josh just keeps handing his pay over to George, and George wants more guns.  He hasn’t shot  a gun for probably 9 months or a year.  Ammo’s pricey.”
” Forgive me.  Forgive me for bitching about him Lord, but couldn’t I live somewhere else?  Or couldn’t he?  Nobody will tell him I’m smart!  WOULD YOU PLEASE TELL HIM YOU MADE ME SMART AND THAT I WAS NEVER CRAZY?  Nevertheless, this is your plan,  and if I’m supposed to lead your bride out of government,  then I must be in the right place at the right time.  I give you my life again.  You know best.  Give me love for George.  Give my sons eyes to see.  Couldn’t George just wake up?  What’s your plan?  None of us can get it rolling!   I love you and I wish to become everything you ever wanted in a wife.  I know you’ll see to that.  Thank you for saving my life.  Please now, may I live its  purpose?”
“In all the years we’ve lived together George and I have suffered lack.  We lacked everything we thought we needed, so we gave things away.  We expected you to return them with interest like the Bible says.  We lived in a mindset of lack.  We did not live the abundant life but rather expected it some time in the future.  I think hoarding comes from a mindset of lack.  Please lift that cursed paradigm from my family and from this home.  Everything belongs to me, because everything belongs to you, and you live in me.  Please enable me to rise about this cesspool and see myself as you see me.  Also, I can’t wait to see you.  Amen.”
Do you know what it’s like to meet a person and think, “Hey.  There’s really somebody in there!”  That doesn’t happen real often, does it?
 Tomorrow we see Michael McDonald and he has a concert tonight too.  I can’t imagine what he might do to kill time in Escanaba.  His life must really suck.  It’s kind of depressing to see these guys up here in the sticks, but I’m glad they do it.  We saw Smokey Robinson at the casino.  He thought I was Isaac’s date but we had front row seats so it was fun.  Music tomorrow.  I haven’t heard live music for many years.  “Thank you, Lord.”
12/10/152:52 pm

Was Aaron Swartz Killed By An
MIT Satanic Child Porn Ring? 

By Yoichi Shimatsu
Exclusive to Rense.com

“MIT Media Lab is yet another spin-off from the all-powerful MK-ULTRA and DARPA. No wonder it’s been producing child porn and involved in overseas pedophilia. The One Laptop program is a clever vehicle to provide early sex education to children across impoverished Asia and Africa who have yet to reach pubescence.”

(I’ve been telling people for years that all this mind-control bullshit is about perverts getting off on controlling their victims and jacking off.  I am right about this.  I have been RAPED IN MY MIND AND BODY AND I KNOW OF WHICH I SPEAK.  Also, I knew it before and my records prove that.)

11:10 am

George is coming home today so I’m baking a banana cream pie.  And trying not to plotz.

I am a victim of ‘financial-abuse’.  I served my sons’ father faithfully for every day since I took vows with him.  When I got divorced, I KNEW FULL WELL that I am a poster-child for alimony.  I have a law degree, and my earning potential was high. Instead of GROWING A LUCRATIVE CAREER I devoted my years to RAISING HIS CHILDREN.  I know George can’t understand the favor I did him by not haggling about money. BUT HE SHOULD VALUE MY WORK-PRODUCT.  Somebody could explain this to him…

(Somebody could explain this LEGAL REALITY to my sons as well…)

Study: Happiness Doesn’t Lead To Longer, Healthier Life


Figures.  If your life sucks of COURSE it’s gonna last longer.

Read more at:   http://atlanta.cbslocal.com/2015/12/10/study-happiness-doesnt-lead-to-longer-healthier-life/

PROOF Demons CONTROL Your Government!! PART 1

I stopped at the Wrestler’s  to bring him some molasses cookies and he looked terrible.  He injured his groin, and I restrained my amusement.  He said he got to drop his drawers in front of two women at the clinic and it only cost him a hundred dollars.  He’s off work for ten days.  Glad it wasn’t me.
Happy Syrians!  They got to go to CANADA like me!

11:10 am

George is coming home today so I’m baking a banana cream pie.  And trying not to plotz.

I am a victim of ‘financial-abuse’.  I served my sons’ father faithfully for every day since I took vows with him.  When I got divorced, I KNEW FULL WELL that I am a poster-child for alimony.  I have a law degree, and my earning potential was high. Instead of GROWING A LUCRATIVE CAREER I devoted my years to RAISING HIS CHILDREN.  I know George can’t understand the favor I did him by not haggling about money. BUT HE SHOULD VALUE MY WORK-PRODUCT.  Somebody could explain this to him…

(Somebody could explain this LEGAL REALITY to my sons as well…)

Striking at the nerve center of the military-corporate-pharmaco-porno complex is an ethical duty not a crime.
Every element in the Swartz case indicates that he died in a heroic attempt to expose the perversion that has corrupted the hearts and minds of the global elite, a heinous and often murderous vice that traumatizes innocent children and threatens every family on this planet.

Nicholas Negroponte, you have no place to hide in Southeast Asia or Africa, not any longer. You are under watch and will be relentlessly tracked down, not just for child porn and pimping children but now as an accomplice to murder. Your only way out is to turn over the video files along with the entire list of names, and you had better do it sooner than later because the powerful pedophiles on that list are going to silence you to cover their own tracks.

Nicholas Negroponte
Nicholas Negroponte is a Greek American architect. He is the founder and Chairman Emeritus of Massachusetts Institute of Technology’s Media Lab, and also founded the One Laptop per Child Association.Wikipedia
Born: December 1, 1943 (age 72), Manhattan, New York City, NY

(I guess laptops work better nowadays than offering your mark  a lollipop.)

My dad likes child-porn..  I have some pictures he took of my niece; she was posing in the bathtub, maybe she was four.  My dad also decks his house, vacation homes, restaurants and even sometimes his car…with stuffed animals.  “Teddys”.  Also, God has said REPEATEDLY that I must torment my father with a single word:  ASIA.  I’m looking forward to understanding what that means, but Dad DOES HAVE BAPTIST ACQUAINTANCES who have RAPED CHILDREN IN ASIA.  I’m just sitting here keeping my eyes open.  Like my dad taught me.  Like a guilty guy would know how to do.
Aaron Swartz.  “The Internet’s Own Boy”
(Spies can tell what you care about by the things you google.)
Read more at:

Was Aaron Swartz Killed By An
MIT Satanic Child Porn Ring? 

By Yoichi Shimatsu
Exclusive to Rense.com

“MIT Media Lab is yet another spin-off from the all-powerful MK-ULTRA and DARPA. No wonder it’s been producing child porn and involved in overseas pedophilia. The One Laptop program is a clever vehicle to provide early sex education to children across impoverished Asia and Africa who have yet to reach pubescence.”

(I’ve been telling people for years that all this mind-control bullshit is about perverts getting off on controlling their victims and jacking off.  I am right about this.  I have been RAPED IN MY MIND AND BODY AND I KNOW OF WHICH I SPEAK.  Also, I knew it before and my records prove that.)

This is my favorite poem I ever wrote.  I can’t find the second half of it.
Tiki Bar Blues
“Peril runs rife at a lone Tiki Bar
To teetotalers truly committed.
Rose-colored spectacles spy blood-shot eyes,
Everywhere booze is permitted.
Tiki Bar theatre gentles the lure
to the Mai Tais and Singapore Slings.
One drop at the well and soon you’ll become,
A loonie who sits home and sings.
To not fear a Tiki Bar threatens the soul
(and makes people watch you and point.)
Self-righteous prigs state their case most precisely.
(Should see what goes on at their joint…)
“Don’t squander your love on a drinker.
Don’t bid him the mere time of day.”
You never can tell what he’s thinking.
(You might just be watching a play…)
Drunks do bad things to their children.
Fathers and teachers hurt too.
With all said and done,
and my dad on the run,
It’s high time that I save the crew.
Drinkers suck all they can swallow.
They guzzle and giggle and burp.
But sometimes a drunk who seems hollow,
is not just your everyday twerp.
To tangle with drinkers is risky,
Especially with drinkers who think.
To watch them at play,
is a hypocrite’s way.
Much worse when the fink has a kink.  (Wink.)
To struggle with drink is so humbling,
especially when people look on.
But my God defies all addiction.
Health class on drugs was a con.
Health-class without drugs was boring.
I access no way to speak kindly.
Disease is a construct of evil,
and Health-class was blind ones, led blindly.
Addiction to food is less troubling,
to those who believe what they’ve heard.
Slicers!  Gut-staplers will save them!
(Their stomachs the size of a turd!)
To eat more than needed is sinful.
To hack your gut off is a crime.
The eatingest ones are the new nouveau riche.
Great coins greased with chocolate grime!
When sinners judge sinners it’s shameful.
Judging God’s servant is worse.
Refusing to cleave good and evil
restores mouthy fat ones the curse.
They’ll eat it right up, and swallow it whole,
for whole is the way they do business.
They’re “wholly” alarmed at their neighbor who might
after work have himself a few Guiness’.
The Cantina‘s closed for the season.
The barflies were sorry to leave.
I’m grateful for all that I learned there,
but now I’m too happy to grieve.
Tiki Bars light up the landscape,
with warm episodes for us all.
Prudes who don’t see this are heartless.
They drool watching other folk “fall.”
I’m glad that I ran the Cantina.
It’s there that I learned what went down.
I’m anxious to get my subpoena,
and no longer look like a clown.
The fearmonger’s grip is now slipping.
His fingers are pulling away.
The sand in the glass drip, drip, dripping…
yet still he has nothing to say.
Cantina discussions are sacred,
and everyone says what he thinks.
Then Jesus shows up, and stirs up the pot.
(I don’t even know if He drinks.)
Fear versus love is the topic.
Somehow it always comes up.  That’s it.
Same choice as trees in the garden…
Strange fruit!  Are you sure which you bit?
Love’s a peculiar substance,
Not everyone knows how it looks,
But closest to home, almost on the right track,
Are those who don’t get it from books!
Books are not Jesus, not hardly!
But books can be honest and true.
Books can be scary and suck out your breath!
(Depends on who’s looking at you.)
Being watched is at times, so confusing!
The mental gymnastics are hard.
It’s helpful to know as I’m jumping,
The “spotter” is Jesus my “L’ard.”
I’ll never forget this great summer,
the second best I’ve ever had.
I’m glad it’s autumn,
I’m happy to say,
I no longer “need” to be “bad.”
I could probably ramble forever.
It probably seems that I do.
You’ll probably read this.  Whatever.
It’s not much fun talking to you.
With Jesus it’s different, however.
We talk just the same as last Spring.
We’ve talked all day long, since forever.
It’s real now, I’m getting a ring!
Some people missed Jesus’ last visit.
It earned them some shame for a while.
Their faux pas was quickly forgotten.
The pigs will return to the style.
The dogs eat their vomit
we all forget facts.
The truth departs quickly,
when we turn our backs.
(And never is bolstered by comic book tracts.)
(Our lives should be visible!  Stunning!  Like “Acts”!)
(And all those who nay-say eventually get smacks.)
(Are they just too rigid to see facts are facts?)
Bump to the top, from sometime in 2014 I think:
Self-validation is the goal of every living soul.  Otherwise we can’t summon the guts to persevere.  If we don’t think we’re valuable then our goals are ridiculous and our observations inaccurate.  It’s a tremendous pity that we are mind-controlled from day one, and intended to fulfill a purpose nobody tells us about.  We get hints in school, as we’re herded to the various classes of distinction.  In my high school everybody who was related to a school-employee was also dragged into the broom closet.  Teachers’ kids were fair game for janitors and coaches. The school-nurse’s son got locked up in  a third floor classroom for an hour every single day.  He knew when to show up.  I don’t know why teachers’ kids got it worse but it done me good.  My mom was the superintendent.  I learned much.  I graduated in 1978.  The current crop of victims is smarter than we were. They see the doorknob turn and they yell “rape.”  To be “schooled” is to learn self-defense.  Or to become a robot.
I am not a robot.  I did the best I could but failed initiation.  I cannot turn off my mind.  I cannot  permit lies to go unrecognized.  I cannot convince my classmates that they hear lies.  What’s a student to do?  I am shedding self-defensiveness and now there’s nothing remaining of my education.  I owe a lot of money for indoctrination that served no purpose other than my temporary subjugation.  I will no longer be subjugated…but there’s always debtor’s prison.  “Please, God, pay my student loans.”
My mother does not mean to serve a false god.  My mother does not mean to serve ANYBODY because she’s smart.  Smart is not sufficient.  All the teachers’ kids were smart.  We still bent over when instructed to do so. My mom bent over so much her joints gave out.  I’d see her free of pain, as I am.  Real pain though, is a deeper thing.  Real pain comes from a disconnect between what we believe and what we do.
Bump to the top, from 3/4/14:

(The Bible says not to take a brother before a human court.  I guess prosecutors can do that though. It also says not to accuse an elder except before  two or three witnesses so I sent this to two men my parents respect:  Kevin Keizer and Brandon Postma.)

9:33 am

                         When I’m off-kilter Jesus  tells me to read things I’ve written.  I am fearful sometimes, to even look.  I write many things at the same time to many people.  It encourages me though, to watch love develop through the seasons. I started out pretty pissed.  My family and best friends betrayed me in a permanent manner.  I was irate at times, with my folks.  (I was ASTONISHED that they would not assist me during  Josh’s molested-adolescence.)  I bitched at Adam for years on end.  I also did as Jesus instructed, I sent Trish all the fabric samples that belonged to her brother.  I sent Adam copies of my nominating petitions from a place where everybody was a tea-party-mogul.  I did nice things for people, then I began to feel love again.  The secret to liking oneself truly is helping others.  The secret to remaining sane is gratitude.

                         I recognize that nothing really changes anymore, about how I feel about people.  I don’t ever seem to take their behavior personally or become angry.  (I have the hardest time retaining equilibrium around George.  His behavior affects me more personally than others’.)  I think this is what rational feels like.  What changes during the times I’m darkest, is how I feel about myself.  I’m in a shaky place and it’s not comfortable, but I’m only here because I obeyed Jesus every single day.  For years. He says I can ask for 3.5 million.  When I see myself through his eyes I’m extremely balanced.

                         To survive mind control and to hear from God you must consciously train yourself to ignore others’ opinions of you.  This makes it difficult to take joy from flattery.  In a survival situation, you can’t even trust  legitimate human love.  It’s impossible to differentiate when one has been behavior-modified to believe oneself defective.  It’s a good thing I knew God or I’d never be able to love again!  Think of all the people whose love-mechanism  has been intentionally destroyed by slander!  By psychiatry!  By prosecutors!  By psychopathology.  They need God to get their love unstuck.  God’s love has taken me far.  If a human loved me I’d probably go all the way!  Chayla loves me, and Isaac does too and Josh even said he did.  We’re becoming a tribe now and so far it’s a lot nicer than family ever was.  There’s lots more music and laughing and we talk about how to help love-stuck people become conscious.  Isaac is planning the “Ski-for-Freedom Summit” and Chayla is teaching the finer points of twinkie-ism.  God said I’ll have everything I ever wanted, I’ve been warning people about that for years.  

12:54 pm

 Summer of 2012  was the second-best in my life.  I was invincible.  The things I’ve done I cannot do.  I mowed the entire compound with a push-mower and fixed nearly everything. When I built the cantina I worked for 24 hours without a break and I drank a lot.  I gave a dinner party the next day, a creative Mexican repast first considered the same morning.  I found 100 four-leaf clovers and I’d never seen one in my life, despite my grandma’s continual efforts.  The more amazing things I did, the more my dad’s eyes darted away and the more rumors I heard about me.  (I wrote down every single thing I did, drank, and observed.)  I showed my dad many miracles, I used to show  Adam miracles too.  (I have tons of evidence to sort through.)  My handwriting changed overnight.  My vision got perfect for six months.  (That might have been the NSA because “God’s gifts are without repentance.”)

OK, I lined up my life with the book a little bit.  When it became overwhelmingly obvious that my dad would not talk to me or help me get my reputation back, I sued him in the court of Jesus Christ.  God gave me two witnesses, Godly men who I love and my parents respect.  The Bible says not to take a brother before a human court.  COMPLAINT

Jesus’ Kingdom case # 13-0000001
Hon. Jesus the Christ, presiding

June 23, 2013

                     Affiant swears,

Robert and Margaret Goldthorpe did willfully and knowledgeably commit the following offenses against Linda Goldthorpe:

1.  Slander
2.  Defamation of character
3.  Alienation of  family
4.  Intentional interference with profitable relationships
5.  Loss of consortium
6.  Dereliction of duty
7.  Lack of love

Additionally, Robert and Margaret Goldthorpe committed the following offenses against  God:

1.  Fear
2.  Self-importance
3.  Disbelief
4.  Lying
5.  Attempting to camouflage lies by influencing behavior of others
6.  Conspiracy to defraud
7.  “Offending a little one who believes in (God).”

Statutory Violation:

The following statues were violated:

1.  Matthew 18:6
2.  Mark 9:42
3.  Luke 17:1-2


Receiving the evil directed towards her, Linda Goldthorpe suffered the following damages:

2.  Subservience.
3.  Loss of intimate fellowship
4.  Gossip
5.  Disruption of profitable expectation
6.  Loss of self-confidence
7.  Loss of family
8.  Loss of friends

Prayer for Relief:

Plaintiff/affiant prays this honorable, and honor-worthy court grant relief as follows:

1.  Truth
2.  All other compensatory advantages this court deems just.
3.  Fear is sin, and has been cancelled administratively.  Plaintiff/affiant repents and no longer fears a thing.
4.  A beer with her dad on HER deck.
5.  Upon offer and acceptance of truth, “millstone around his neck” can be evaluated during plea negotiations.

                         Signed and sworn to this 23rd day of June, in the year of Our Lord, 2013.  No notary is available on Sunday but I have a great cloud of witnesses.

Linda Goldthorpe


(Electronic torture  is recognized in human court.  “privacy-invasive remote interrogation and behavioral influence applications.”    Read more:   http://lissakr11humane.com/2013/12/16/james-walbert-sedgwick-co-ks-take-former-business-partner-to-court-to-cease-harming-him-with-mind-altering-electromagnetic-radiation/)

“Putin hopes the cruise missiles won’t need to be armed with nuclear warheads.” 

The loneliness narcissist victims feel – Begood4000 explains

“Your narcissist family member probably poisoned people’s feelings about you.”

“Usually [they] will plant doubt in our friends minds, a little at a time…because we were kids…we were virtually helpless…”


If you don’t love yourself, you will need others to behave certain ways so that you feel worthy of love, but others can only demonstrate your belief that you don’t feel worthy of love.

The Core Wound

If you look deep, you will find that the core wound of all emotional wounds is the belief of unworthiness or conditional worthiness. This belief is so painful because it is completely untrue, but since our parents, teachers and peers all suffer from the same debilitating belief, it seems perfectly normal.

If you believe that you are fundamentally unworthy of love unless you meet certain conditions, you will construct a reality built on this false premise, and, as a result, you will embark on this game of life, seeking love outside yourself, and building unsustainable relationships upon that search.
…if your primary emotional need is acceptance, you must somehow get others to accept you, again and again, in order to feel worthy of love.
The bottom line is, even if someone truly loves us, if our conditions are not met, we unconsciously block love. Conditions don’t bring us love – conditions block love.
Quote for the day:  “Oh yeah..and the police always handcuff dead people after they shoot them to death.”

The Holy Spirit will move in total opposition to normal human practices. God is not human. He doesn’t work according to our rational minds, so let’s not treat Him like He does.

He’s divine. He’s altogether different. And, get this, His plan is to make you like Him.

It seems to me that many Christians are just like that, trying to make the best life possible in Egypt, unaware that there is a Promised Land that God is taking you to.

You know that “If it is too good to be true, it probably is” is wisdom.

But in Heaven, the wisdom is the opposite.

In Heaven, if it is not too good to be true, it’s not God.

If it’s not glorious. If it’s not wonderful. If it’s not brilliant. If it’s not amazing. If it’s not astonishing. If it’s not absolutely outrageous…

It’s not of God.

Read more here:   http://www.elijahlist.com/words/display_word.html?ID=15440

“Dear Lord I claim Graham Cooke’s message.  I don’t know how to value myself any other way but by performance.  If I work hard I feel valuable, so I work all the time.  You say I’m lovable.  You say I AM OK.  You say that I may rest, but I can’t.  I don’t sleep because of the panic-weapon used against me.  I am made afraid to sleep and I am made afraid to wake up.  I’ve been doing my best to warn my brethren about these attacks, but they call me ‘not nice’.  I would be far more not-nice to neglect warning them!  Lord, I know that I do not require the approval of others to be WONDERFUL.  I don’t require their recognition of the wonderful things I’ve always been.  I KNOW this, but I get panicked and it’s not a natural thing; I mean it DOES NOT DERIVE FROM ANY THOUGHT PROCESS WITHIN MY BEING.  Please, I know you’ve got VERY GOOD REASONS that I am not at peace yet, and that I experience MICROWAVE-BRAIN-COOKING…and I’d really love to know what they are.  I would seriously appreciate a friend, of any color or creed, just somebody who knows you.  Amen.”



We have a house phone:  906-586-4629.

George is at his mother’s house in Minnesota.
Josh and Isaac and I are looking for a break.
I hope you’re well.
Connie misses you.To my friend.
3:07 pm
Wow, the local padre just told me my dad doesn’t pay his rent.  I wonder if things have changed or if he’s lying?  He said it’s ‘not nice’ that I put stickers on the church door.  I told him it was better than the time I NAILED MY CONTROVERSY INTO THE WOOD. He’d be happy to talk to me sometime, but not right now because his wife has to be with him and his wife has a bad back…(I asked her name so I can pray for her.)  I put also then some stickers with my PHONE NUMBER and I said I wanted him to call me when his wife was around to protect him.  He said, “That’s just the way we do it.  We don’t TALK TO WOMEN.  Spurgeon even…”
I said, “DID YOU KNOW THAT SPURGEON  SMOKED?”  (To his credit, he nodded.)  I made a disapproving  HUMPHF and then I left.   (I don’t think this one will have the nerve to call me even if his wife holds his hand.)    I put stickers all over my dad’s cars and in his office.  He left the DOOR UNLOCKED.  He went away and left the door unlocked but back when he was gaslighting me he was CHANGING LOCKS ON VACANT CABINS JUST TO MAKE A POINT.  God’s got his number.
3:17 pm
I love it anymore, when people are assholes.  I’m thinking the whole time:  “This is gonna be great to write about.”
“Hey you, you build me up.  I’ll never stop and if you ever need a hand I’m here with my feet embedded in concrete. ” <3  (I’m getting nice messages now.  I’d like to be nice in return.)
3:34 pm
(Conversation with a former friend.  This man is a BIG TIME MASON and he OWNS GWEN TOWERS and he knows who raped me.)

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

1:58 PM (1 hour ago)
to Glenn

OK, I lied.  Just one more crazy-ass email


But my research and records could  help  them remain alive and learn to love other people.

Then I MIGHT contact you again.

You know about the covert harassment.

You know about microwave RAPE.

So does God, and he knows that you know tool


Glenn A. Wilson, Sr.

2:00 PM (1 hour ago)
to me

Please don’t… I don’t want to hear about anything you have to say…


You have a right to what you believe but you don’t have a right to make me hear it… so, stop!




From: Linda Goldthorpe [mailto:goldthorpelinda@gmail.com]
Sent: Wednesday, December 09, 2015 1:58 PM
To: Glenn A. Wilson, Sr.

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

3:21 PM (11 minutes ago)
to Glenn


(Also, you WILL tell me what I need to know.)

Glenn A. Wilson, Sr.

3:23 PM (10 minutes ago)
to me

What the hell do you “need” to know from me?


From: Linda Goldthorpe [mailto:goldthorpelinda@gmail.com]
Sent: Wednesday, December 09, 2015 3:22 PM

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

3:23 PM (9 minutes ago)
to Glenn

Big smart guy like you doesn’t know how to block my emails?

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

3:25 PM (7 minutes ago)
to Glenn

I need NOTHING from you because I know things that people do not even tell me!  You need me.

Glenn A. Wilson, Sr.

3:25 PM (7 minutes ago)
to me

Yes, I can, now will block your emails, I just thought you would stop when asked…  I see you won’t..


From: Linda Goldthorpe [mailto:goldthorpelinda@gmail.com]
Sent: Wednesday, December 09, 2015 3:24 PM

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

3:26 PM (6 minutes ago)
to Glenn

You didn’t ‘ask’.  You cussed at me.  Just like you cussed at Tracy when she loved you and my boys were underneath your pit of screaming and perversion.

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

3:28 PM (5 minutes ago)
to Glenn

Seriously, I’ve done my homework and you’re on the wrong side of history and you know it and I could help and I couldn’t block anybody if I tried and I just googled it even.

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

3:30 PM (3 minutes ago)
to Glenn

You could be a FRICKIN HERO.  Don’t you see that?  You know what people are talking about and you and I could get our act together and take it on the road and Jesus would protect you from the morons and MAYBE you could be a person again.

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

3:33 PM (0 minutes ago)
to Glenn


Just fyi

What a big day.  I also got a message from the only man who had the nerve to kiss me in ten years.  Selah.


6:08 am
I’ve postponed thinking about my experiences in politics and when I met the beast.  Once my quest is completed and my needs are met, I’ll spend a lot of time thinking about things.  And I’ll pray about every single person I ever met.  (I did that when I was a Baptist.  If I couldn’t sleep I’d pray for every person, row by row from where I used to sit up front at the piano.)
I’ll think about motivations, and I’ll ask God to reveal the hearts of those I worked with when I was targeted.  I’ll ask what is my responsibility, once I know the things He’ll say.  If He wants me to address anything, I’ll ask him to prepare me perfectly, and to give me supernatural opportunities to speak truth to powerlessness, so that we all may become real people.  With or without my participation, I’ll watch God reveal the things He will have already spoken to my heart concerning the adversaries of freedom and those who conspired against me personally.   The Truth will set me free, and as more people become free we’ll join up and our former masters will shrink and we’ll laugh.  We won’t laugh at their pain, never that.  We will already have tried PRAYING WITH THEM…so what are ya gonna do?   What can you say to a glorious creation of/with eternal potential for joy and excitement and opportunity and love… who choose instead death because they will not share anything or tell the truth?
Hasta la vista, baby.
The stickers came for my books, now I gotta save up for some more books.  (I gave Isaac and Josh the hundred dollars my dad left in the door because I owed Isaac because he bought my concert ticket to hear Michael McDonald on Saturday, and I still owe Josh money I borrowed to go to West Virginia in September.)  The stickers are perfect, matte against the glossy book cover, understated, and the color is a good contrast.  I never put my name to that book before and it feels right.  Isaac had a hissy minute when he read the sticker.  I listed google-search-terms for no-touch-torture and contact information.  He doesn’t ‘like’ the topics.  Tough.  He’d grow to like them much less if I stop now!  DEATH TO THE NSA!!!  DEATH TO FREEMASONRY!  Death, death to all who stand against my boss, Jesus, the Christ.  (This is not a threat.  I am not violent and do not own a gun and I don’t know anybody in the NSA anyway.)  (Alexander.  5 or 6.  He’ll die then everybody will want to talk to me.)  (I thought it was Keith.  Maybe it was John?  He’s older, right?  He’s perverted.)  (Wait.  I know who I’m picturing.  It’s that new guy who’s named after the Michigan douchebag.  KKK town, I’m trying to remember his name.  Same as the cable company in Toronto…   Sheesh.  My memory is usually spot-on.   Oh yeah.  Mike Rogers.)


3:46 pm

Jerry Lee Lewis – Whole Lotta Shakin’ Going On (1957)

Kanaal van rog3rcas 

BREAKING: Greenpeace co-founder reports Greenpeace to the FBI under RICO and wire-fraud statutes

‘Greenpeace has made itself the sworn enemy of all life on Earth’

By Dr. Patrick Moore, a co-founder of Greenpeace

Greenpeace, in furtherance of what is in effect its war against every species on the planet, has now turned to what, on the face of things, looks to me like outright breach of the RICO, wire-fraud, witness-tampering and obstruction-of-committee statutes. I have called in the FBI.

Greenpeace appears to have subjected Dr Will Happer, Cyrus Fogg Brackett Professor of Physics at Princeton University, to a maladroit attempt at entrapment that has badly backfired on it.

See more at:   http://wattsupwiththat.com/2015/12/08/breaking-greenpeace-co-founder-reports-greenpeace-to-the-fbi-under-rico-and-wire-fraud-statutes/

And this word, Yet once more, signifieth the removing of those things that are shaken, as of things that are made, that those things which cannot be shaken may remain.
2:27 pm
I just remembered that my Catholic friend who betrayed me after we supported her and moved her stuff three times and fed her and sent her to the dentist when she was very ill and then my dad kicked her out of the cabin he SAID SHE COULD LIVE IN ALL WINTER and then she betrayed me and then recently she died, was at one time married to Dick Cheney’s nephew, Michigan people apparently.  Her kids are even named Cheney and their dad, may he rest in peace, was extremely abusive.  The Catholic died really young.  It’s interesting that none of the four women who turned on me and then recently died was over 60, I don’t think.

One lesson from military history is that once mobilization for war begins, it takes on a momentum of its own and is uncontrollable


(Paul Craig Roberts)

(That’s what happens when pride prohibits any party from standing down.  Or if Truth does.)

Training In Favour As A Lifestyle ~ Graham Cooke

“We believe the promise…but we don’t step into it.”

“There is no breakthrough without follow-through.  And that’s a part of process for us.”
3:11 pm
This is a funny secret Dad and I share.  He could have had me so cheap,  if even a SINGLE TIME during the past 7 years he had been truthful.  OR EVEN KIND!  or human.  He knows he screwed up.  He can recognize it even as a godless materialist bound for hell.  David will catch on.  Probably just before the lights go out for both of them.  REPENT FOR THE KINGDOM OF GOD IS AT HAND.  3.5 million.  Soonish.  I’d like it if Josh could begin Swedish courses on JANUARY 11, 2016.  “Dear God.  I am learning how to declare things, etc, but you know I am hesitant and do not wish to say anything presumptuous that displeases you.  So, tell me what you think:  “In the name of Jesus whose blood cleanses and protects me, I declare the RELEASE OF THAT CONDO IN TORONTO AND SUFFICIENT FUNDS TO GET ME AND JOSH AND ISAAC ON A DIFFERENT ROAD THAN WHAT IS AVAILABLE HERE..and THAT single option ONLY MAKES MY DAD CRITICIZE US ANYWAY!  In your name, I release angels of worry to hover over the brows of my parents who are unrepentant narcissists, and I release the Seraphim to burn their pretense.  Thank you.  Forgive me if I’m wrong.  Through your blood and your mind and you soul and your Spirit and your sinless life.  And hopefully through your words.  Amen.”

Cold Dead Hand with Jim Carrey

(My dad always loved Hee Haw.)

8:38 am

I’ve been trying to foment revolution for decades, and I don’t have even a lieutenant.  I don’t even have a flunky or a Korean houseboy.  
The least we will accept is the maximum we will get.  I suppose that makes sense because that’s the point  where we stop trying.  Rich people have bigger ‘musts’.  Non negotiables…we all have them whether we know it or not.  Torture changes your musts and that’s what God wants to do anyway.  So Torture is a blessing.  Dick Cheney be praised.  But first may he deserve it.

Navy two-star fired for public drunkenness, nudity

(This sounds like a set-up to me.  Obama has discharged a LOT of top brass.)

“After extensive medical testing and diagnoses, four doctors have stated in writing that I most probably experienced an atrial fibrillation event the evening of April 8th which caused lightheadedness, disorientation, dizziness and confusion,” Baucom said in a statement provided to Navy Times. “These symptoms may last up to 24 hours. I am now being treated for those symptoms and other medical conditions.”

See more at:   http://www.navytimes.com/story/military/2015/12/07/david-baucom-story-florida-conference-public-nudity-drunkenness/76881816/


Words of Prophecy:

* “These are the days wherein those who have been faithful to Me shall look back and say, “Our God has done GREAT things for us!” For truly I say to you, I shall bring to pass EVERY word that I have spoken, and these words shall manifest in ways that are exceeding abundantly beyond all that even the most sanctified intellect could comprehend. For ALL that I touch MUST increase, and in ALL that I touch I leave MY mark [seal] – a “mark’ that cannot be mistaken [counterfeited] in ANY way.”

* “Have I not shown you that it is only the exercising of a “perfect love” that shall cause the captives to be set free? Take heed to these words which I have spoken this day, My child, for it is time to move forward!”

(In that case I will begin grateful rejoicing now.  “Thank you Jesus, for accepting my life-offering and for loving me with divine love.  Thank you for preserving my life when the enemy sought to destroy it!  Thank you for my sons and my parents!  Thank you for loving me and thank you that soon I’ll  be where there is no enemy in the camp and where we hold one another up, rather than holding them under!  Love never fails.  You never fail.  Thank you that the goons and scientists know it’s true.  Thank you that pretty soon EVERYBODY will know it, and every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord to the glory of God the Father!  Hallelujah and amen.”)  (“Thank you for the money and advice my dad will give me and my sons!  Thank you that we will have opportunity at last!  Thank you that we will see the world and that we have purpose!”  “Thank you that my ego retains very few non-negotiables.  Thank you that you know best for me and you wish me great joy.”)

“Dear Lord:  ….”For a day in Your courts is better than a thousand outside. I would rather stand at the threshold of the house of my God than dwell in the tents of wickedness. For the Lord God is a sun and shield; The Lord gives grace and glory; No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly. O Lord of hosts, how blessed is the man who trusts in You!”…. Psalms 84:10-12 NASB
An exceptionally good shave today in every respect. The Omega brush shown, with a marvelously soft boar knot, is now well broken in. As with a previous lathering, I found myself adding small amounts of water while loading the brush, observing the soap gradually work its way up into the brush, a little farther as each driblet of water was brushed in. I hadn’t really noticed this progression until I began paying closer attention to the loading, something that started when I decided to learn to load the brush neatly even when using a tub filled with soap came to the very brim. The close attention needed to do a neat job led me to observing more closely…

Is that creepy or is that really appealing attention to detail?  I think maybe enjoying grooming that much could possibly be OK,  but would sexting each plucking and driplet be a little much?  I think I find it creepy because that’s exactly what I’ve been doing since I got lambasted by the world and the Powers That Used To Be.  I’ve put every detail of my life on the record.  I’ll never back down ever again in my life, not ever again.  For the first time I stood up to my dad and it was the most empowering thing I ever did.    And I’m starving him of narcissist-supply!  I could very well stay here forever, if God did not mean to take me higher.
 I’m so very grateful Dad tried to kill me because it made me recognize that he had me dead already.  He never one time permitted me to think for myself.  Even if he ignored my decisions, he bitched about them later.  He was killing me more each time he stole a bit of my life.  I’ve experienced resurrection and without the ill intent of my family that wouldn’t probably have happened.  I’d stake my life with Jesus against anybody’s life I know.  I didn’t know I knew that but now I do.  God judges the heart and I recorded every detail of mine.  We overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony.  Recording my testimony has made a believer out of me.  “If thou believest, thou mayest.”
There are many who have faithfully stood for years on certain revelations [visions, dreams] that the Father revealed to their heart, and I can tell you that – without exception – the physical manifestation of the FULLNESS of the Father’s plan and purpose concerning those revelations [purposes] will be almost overwhelming in every case. In other words, it will most certainly be found to have been “worth the wait”!  (Reference above)
According to the Humai website, AI and nanotechnology can be used to “store data of conversational styles, behavioural patterns, thought processes and information about how a person’s body functions from the inside-out.” This data can be coded into multiple sensor technologies built into an artificial body that is powered by the brain of a real, deceased human. And as the brain ‘matures’, the company will restore it using cloning nanotechnology so it can always be brought back to life. Technically, a person could live forever this way.
When’s the last time a president had a son?  A boy in the White House?
Bush sr.
6:58 am
If you are the victim of a malignant narc, you are a refugee, a person seeking shelter from abuse and subsequent danger.
“Shelter.  That’s what we seek, shelter, protection, a refuge from these creatures.”

I can’t imagine who pays for these stupid polls.  Do people actually spend time evaluating whether they consider their government sufficiently engaged to protect them?  As we watch our contrived foreign wars, do Americans actually feel threatened in their beds? When we see Palestinian babies burnt up in their cribs, do we fear for our own babies?  We’re frauds.  We’re not afraid of jack-shit.  Fear would require reflection and reflection would require abstinence-from-tv and as we learned at school, abstinence is impossible in this intemperate age.  Fear would also inspire action; they can do it with a scalar wave, from space.  They can jump you right out of bed believing the sky was falling and it’s all your fault.  Fearmongers can crank up our adrenals and flood our good sense with a TERRIFYING URGENCY to fight or flee.  Then they target the heart, through the memory and they summon the VERY WORST THINK IN THERE,  and turn up its emotional volume. TRAGEDY! No HOPE, no hope.  What if they administer our very worst fears at the same time as the utter-uselessness-lethargy laser?  Well, you do the math.  
But, if we refuse to believe our lying feelings, great liberty awaits.  Although it gets tiresome to consciously evaluate every ‘feeling’, mind-control efforts make that necessary for the time being.  I can’t wait for God to shake-up the powers of heaven.  I think the electronics-portion of other-worldly power will experience its ultimate destruction;  we’ll just have to sweep up some tiny radioactive flash-backs of gratitude.  I was born for such a time as this.  So were we all.

Men’s hearts failing them for fear, and for looking after those things which are coming on the earth: for the powers of heaven shall be shaken.

And then shall they see the Son of man coming in a cloud with power and great glory.

(Luke 21:26)

7:34 am
Well here I sit on another identical morning with another identical day ahead of me (except my sons and I are going to the VFW for their burger-night) and the baskets of unfolded laundry and the dishes waiting to be put away or washed.  In February it will be seven years since everybody I loved betrayed me or disbelieved me.  I should be getting ready to go, I suppose.  I keep waiting for the Spirit to move me into some preparatory activity but so far I’m still here.  He always stirs me up at the right time, always at JUST the right time; and I’m never late and neither is He.  BUT, I must not have learned everything I’m supposed to learn in this prison-season of my life.  All this time I’ve been asking Him to change me so that I could become everything He ever wanted and so that He could accomplish things through my life, and He said He was going to do that.  I’ve changed a lot and I’m grateful for my journaling that records my changing attitudes and behaviors.  My spiritual journey might become important to others.
My dad told me one time that I would never have an original thought.  “Linda, you’ll never have an original thought.”  God has healed me from a whole lot of rotten curses like that.  Now I think my dad’s bluster is pretty funny.  God is making me extraordinary, just like Jesus.  I should be able to completely slip the torture paradigm pretty soon.  Then I’ll be able to tell others how to do it. I could tell them already, but until I’m free I guess nobody has to believe me.  And when I’m free they’ll automatically believe me, and I won’t have to spend SEVEN WHOLE YEARS to see an atheist’s eyes open up.   I’ll tell you what, you gotta raise an atheist’s eyebrows a LOT OF TIMES, before his eyes open up.
Australia convict mugshots
The extinction of humanity has befallen our generation.  There is no antidote.  We must vacate the planet.  But there aren’t enough spacecraft or transistorized-cadavers to go around, and anyway, we can’t get away from ourselves or from whom we are becoming in our own selves, but also we’re joined to the Borg… “Resistance is FUTILE”…without JESUS.  We are being assimilated into the collective nutrient base for unsavory characters.  We have been granted all authority over them, through Jesus.  We know that their headquarters ‘will not prevail’ against our assault.  What’s for dinner?

Psalm 139:7-8

Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?

If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.


Revelation 6:15-16

And the kings of the earth, and the great men, and the rich men, and the chief captains, and the mighty men, and every bondman, and every free man, hid themselves in the dens and in the rocks of the mountains;

And said to the mountains and rocks, Fall on us, and hide us from the face of him that sitteth on the throne, and from the wrath of the Lamb:

And he answered and said unto them, I tell you that, if these should hold their peace, the stones would immediately cry out.  (Luke 19:40)


SILENCED - A new documentary from Oscar nominee James Spione's video poster

“…private investigator William Taylor has served dozens of Targeted Individuals, including high profile people. Taylor told Deborah Dupré when investigating secretly forced brain implanted Targeted Individual James Walbert, “Only the best Americans are being targeted.””

“Hundreds of emails and testimonies sent to Dupré by lesser known targets being persecuted show it is only their unique courage and character keeping them alive. They are not only persecuted in their communities by government paid operatives, including some neighbors, but also, they are stalked 24/7, in itself torturous.”


“TIs, “America’s best,” are suffering 24/7, never knowing what will hit them next, never receiving local or national advocacy or defense from human rights groups. They are left as sitting ducks, easy prey for covert operatives to taunt or eventually kill, as a cat with a captured mouse.”

This war, covertly waged against Americans of highest ethical standards for decades, has become more overt in terms of high profile targets. The new widely acclaimed film Silenced, as shocking and important as it is, shows only the tip of the iceberg of the covert war, complete with military-grade weapons assaulting thousands of innocent Targeted Individuals daily.



See more here:   http://beforeitsnews.com/alternative/2015/02/targeted-individuals-nightmare-silenced-the-war-on-whistleblowers-tip-of-iceberg-3104886.html


3:45 pm
Greek tonight.  Moussaka, baklava and pita.  Cucumber salad with Kalamata olives and a great vinaigrette I made with dill and oregano.  I might do the lemon soup thing but it’s overrated.  Fried cheese.
Dear Dad,
Thank you for the hundred dollars you left for me at the front door.   I’m wondering though, what part you do not yet understand of the fact that:
4)  YOU CAUSED ME TO lose my bar license.
5)  You lost a bet and have refused to pay up.
Should I use smaller words?  A hundred dollars is interest for what, a week?  Don’t be a dick any more longer.
6:48 am
“It’s really interesting that people say they are Bible-believing but they don’t know how to hear the voice of God.  It’s not like God wrote the book and stopped talking.  I mean, what is that?  That just makes me giggle.  God is always talking, and the promise of Jesus is ‘My sheep hear my voice.'”  (Graham Cooke)
(I just learned that forehead kisses have significance in the occult because of the third eye stuff.  God has TOLD ME to kiss a man on the forehead, two men really.  Both atheists.  Wow.  My dad HATES being kissed on the forehead because it makes him feel old and the other guy was asleep.)
There is a distinct difference between cleaving unto one in fear and selfishness and cleaving unto one in faith [love].
It must be clearly understood by every believer that it is indeed possible to walk above earthly attachments and love somebody with the holy Love of God that He puts within us. This is the ONLY kind of Love that can enable us to love our enemies and those used to persecute us. The joy of a relationship [with God and with man] built on the bedrock of Divine [totally selfless] Love has no bounds! Both to give and to receive within the compass [limits or range] of such a friendship is a blessing of immeasurable worth. It is literally Heaven on earth!  (Glenn Jackson)
(That’s what my uncle Herb said marriage was supposed to be:  Heaven on Earth.  He married me twice and I know he’s watching to see if I yet believe him.)
Our lives move in continual charade of prophetic significance, on many different planes even.  Our activities, our gestures and speech are always making reference to reality which we could not otherwise recognize.  (Not that we do anyway, usually, and if we do, it’s usually not until our memes have manifested.)  Everything we do is a prophetic pantomime;  our actions are demonstrative of purpose and inner workings of spiritual influences. Our bodies and minds have ALWAYS been moved according to unseen forces.  This intrusion on our beings has increased, and will continue to increase until each of us is totally possessed by another consciousness.  This is a necessary thing since the natural environment is on auto-destruct and we have no other place to go, except INTO THE UNSEEN REALM.  The scientists know that. The trans-humanists know that.  Bill Gates knows that.  It truly is time to determine whom we will serve; we must.   The default is psychotronic-antichrist mind-control or otherwise-induced demonic-zombification.  So, we who ARE STILL SORT OF CONSCIOUS…we must choose God.  It’s really very simple.  And we must recognize that our bodies are merely vehicles through the matrix and not fear their destruction.
Therefore, it is of the utmost importance for all those who are truly seeking God to gain a deep revelation of the spiritual reality that they are NOT alone in their spiritual quest [even though, in many cases there are those who are, even now, found abiding in a “Joseph’s prison” or a “David’s cave”].
* Upon the “physical manifestation” of the “certain” divine connections which I have ordained for you in these days I shall give you some “quality time” together. And in this time of “corporate” separation unto Me I shall supernaturally prepare you for all that lies ahead – both individually and corporately!
* I am “making a way” for you, to establish that which needs to be established in these days in order for you to enter into the “fullness” of all that I have for you concerning Covenant-relationship [“divine connections”].
* As I raise up “divine connections” on every level in this most glorious hour I shall fuse them together as one by My Spirit, and there shall be a great and exponential increase in the anointings abiding within them – both individually and corporately.
* It truly is the “fullness of time”, My beloved ones, and now, I shall move powerfully on your behalf to bring forth those “divine connections” [and other things] that will accelerate your entrance into the “fullness” of your precious destiny, in Christ!
* I am an “exacting” Father. This is in NO way to be construed as something negative! Many have experienced the “counterfeit” of My Love through their own earthly fathers through a sternness, aloofness and dominating control. But truly I say to you, I am Perfect – and I am true Love personified. ALL that I do, ALL that I command, and ALL that I say – at ALL times – is for the greatest eternal benefit of each and every one of My children – without exception!
* True love is NEVER based on performance – or the lack thereof. It is based on My love “abiding” in the hearts of My children. It is a love that is both divine and eternal – and it NEVER fails [1 Corinthians 13:8a] to accomplish the fullness of My Will and purpose.
This is a very exciting time for me.  I made a couple bets in 2009 and I’m about to see if I was right.  I was faced with two atheists, manipulative types who thought they were smarter than everybody else.  They both attacked me because of my friendship with Jesus Christ and He told me which one to trust.  He told me to give my entire life to one and to deny the other one my temper-tantrums and respect.  We’ll see if He was right or not.  It has been nearly seven years since my life was turned over to FEAR and SHAME and lying-induced weirdness.  Seven is a very important number to God; I think I’m nearly finished.
We had a ball yesterday at the falls.  Nobody around, just a really warm nice day full of laughter.  On the way back Josh was in the back seat and I was driving and he said, “I love you guys.”  (He was talking to Isaac and me and I did not gush or cry so I can be forgiven for recording my joy here.)  My sons do not yet understand that my father INTENTIONALLY tried to destroy our affection for one another.  I recorded his attempts and also his annoyance at the substance of our family.  One time he was talking about trying to lock me up and his lies and he shook his head.  He said, “Your kids still love you!!!”  He was shocked.  After all his efforts.   I’m hoping that even George will recognize what we have weathered, but I know my sons will.  (Because the atheist I bet on  has my journals and they can read about it if they ever want to.)
Also, they might read about their father.  They blame me for their ‘broken’ home but I beg to differ and I can back it up.  You don’t get to just stop being a husband and then not ever go away!!  That’s psychotic.  (Or at least advanced-spectrum OCD weird-neurotic.)


4:51 pm
We had a great afternoon.  We went to Tahquamenon Falls with Connie on a leash.  It was a beautiful afternoon.  My sons are extremely funny.
6:10 pm


(This woman is incredible to me.  She throws around terms I learned decades ago and she is so matter-of-fact about mind control and snuff films and so much evil!  I do not agree [as if my ‘agreement’ would influence anything anyway…] with her eschatology but I know she is definitely on the side of Truth.)

(“Revelation 1:8.”  “This is Jesus Christ speaking:  ‘I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending, sayeth the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to come, the almighty.’     It lays out WHO Jesus is.  Remember ‘say-tan’ in the occult world likes to be referred to as Lucifer…”  “the masons…Lucifer…”)  (She respects my Jesus.  She does not respect satan.  I’d like to meet her.)

FOIA Request Report: Massachusetts State Police Suggests Public Safety is Upheld By Withholding Inventory of Non-Lethal Weapons Currently in Use

The Massachusetts State Police recently responded to a Freedom of Information Act request (by this writer, through Muckrock.com, filed here) for records detailing the inventory of non-lethal weapons and less-than-lethal weapons in use in Massachusetts with a rather immediate, same-day rejection of request, citing “public safety” as rationale for the denial of access to public records in this matter, via an exemption in Massachusetts General Law which protects certain-record-disclosure on the basis of its possible endangerment to public safety.

See more at:   http://everydayconcerned.net/restoring-democracy/foia-request-reports/foia-request-report-massachusetts-state-police-suggests-public-safety-is-upheld-by-withholding-inventory-of-non-lethal-weapons-currently-in-use/

I sent a letter to my local probate judge a few months ago.  I told him that my parents are frauds and if they can’t be human parents to a tortured woman, I would take their money instead.  I sent it certified so even if I were mistaken about the surveillance I recognized years ago…somebody is watching now.  (Or else we should get a higher millage for the whole insufficient criminal prosecution facade.)  

So many malignant narcissists will leave you believing you (the victim) are no better than they (the narc). This is called leveling. In church circles, a popular phrase many victims of abuse hear is, “we are all sinners.” In this video, I want to show the difference between the sinner, and the wicked (malignant narc).

The Difference Between the Wicked Man and the Sinner

7:04 pm
If God says He will give you the desires of your heart, does that mean that whatever your heart desires is what He wishes to give you?
I am so alone.  I am so lonely.  I am sufficient because God talks to me sometimes.  If I could I would leave Earth but if I stay then maybe someday I can explain what we all should have known all along about God and our pitiful condition that becomes worse every minute because man is following lucifer who does not wish us well.  It’s really sad when even ‘christians’ will not assist us to overcome when it is so obvious that we 1) must overcome, 2) will overcome, and 3) HAVE OVERCOME.

The judge knows I’m ditzy but I forced him to step up his game.  I did the same for a federal magistrate.  Somebody will come through for me because I never did anybody wrong on purpose even once and the universe is fair.  Eventually.

10:43 am

You know how to overcome electronically-induced sleep-deprivation?  Be right a thousand times.

ANDREA LAROCHE Dec 1 (5 days ago)

Did you write and published new book ?

Linda Goldthorpe <goldthorpelinda@gmail.com>

Dec 2 (4 days ago)

No, but it’s time to sell my old book because now it makes sense.  I wrote about ‘the haunting’  (like a ghost or a spirit) but I described all the weapons and it’s all in the open now.  I think I can sell a lot of books and maybe get a life.  I’d like to send you one, do you have a dependable mail address?


Dec 4 (2 days ago)

to me
Send me your  book , please , to :

–I made jelly donuts but I haven’t fried them yet because nobody’s awake but me.  You’d think I could get used to that.

Happy Hanukkah.

9:25 am
I can’t wait until robots replace fashion models.  It’s happening already, men are modeling women’s clothing and women are modeling men’s clothing and it doesn’t matter any more than a coat hanger.

You shall know them by their fruits. Any church, any church leader, any professing Christian, who mistreats the weak and injured, who puts burdens on them that no one can bear, is an idol worshiper. The Jesus such a person professes is a Jesus re-created by man. He is an idol.

See more at:   http://cryingoutforjustice.com/2015/12/06/idolatry-will-never-produce-love-for-others/

Drive-Thru Flu Shots- Admitted to be Drills for Forced Vaccines [VIDEO]


Well, a couple envelopes came in the mail from a propane company.  They’re made out to “George and Linda Miller” and I KNOW that my dad would NEVER EVER try to establish another account in my name without talking to me about it!  Especially since two years ago when he tried to buy me off with a credit card I posted notices all around the county that his use of my information is FRAUD AND THAT I AM NOT BOUND BY HIS FAKE CONTRACTS AND THAT I DO NOT AGREE TO HIS OVERTURES ON MY BEHALF WHEN HE IS ATTEMPTING TO CREATE CONTRACTS IN MY NAME… or ever.  He must talk to ME about my life.  He should learn to do that about all the people he manipulates for his own amusement.  Sure am glad my name’s not Miller anymore.  Of course I didn’t open the envelopes; maybe they’re full of gift certificates and prizes that my dad bought us because I always tell the truth!  You never know.

“The Americans used their own people as guinea pigs…to develop their own weapons…”
Activists deliberately targeted with lethargy or cancer or suicidal depression…
Target a specific gland, or the brain or the heart and follow it around all the time…-
“This wasn’t secret until the seventies.”


6:59 am
Hanukkah gelt refers to money as well as chocolate coins given to Jewish children on the festival of Hanukkah. Wikipedia

Today is the first day of Hanukkah.  Traditional foods feature oil,  in remembrance of the Maccabees miracle when their lamp-oil didn’t get used up.   I’m making jelly donuts and possibly latkes.  We’ll have no brisket because brisket is rare in the UP.  It’s amazing that our cows can keep themselves perpendicular with all the body parts they lack.  Maybe I’ll make Swedish meatballs because George bought 14 pounds of ground day-old roasts and I thawed a package.  If I don’t use sour cream in the gravy it would probably be Kosher.
It’s been two weeks since my dad came down here (ostensibly) to apologize and I haven’t heard from him since,  despite a number of messages and gifts.  I thought he was sorry?
No message from either of my parents or my brother and I’m really stymied.  I CAN’T understand how they DO NOT WISH for me to use my years of meticulous-evidence-gathering to help humanity!  
And yet, they will still go to church this morning and pretend they are human people.  I’m utterly amazed at the degree of stonewalling and denial they maintain.  
They all KNOW I have this treasure and they all KNOW I am motivated to help fix the world and they KNOW that Jesus prayed, “…thy will be done on Earth…” and they KNOW that Jesus never prayed a prayer that was not answered.  Don’t they?
My significantly-obtuse others are apparently HOPING TO DIE BEFORE THEIR KIDS FIGURE OUT THAT THEY HAD  A CHANCE TO GRANT A THEM A FUTURE AND THEY CHOSE TO GO SHOPPING INSTEAD.  And to lie about God.  That’s extremely lazy and ultimately criminal.
6:31 pm
OMG, I can’t believe I just thought of this.  If I am becoming my beautiful savior the CHRIST, then eventually I will out-think every computer ever manufactured.  This is VERY cool.

Boston smokin with lyrics

My dad has always been up with the sun.  He didn’t wanna miss a thing.  Tough, I guess.  You know what I also just realized?  I could say anything I want right now and people would believe me!  Wow.  The Truth does set you free.  Maybe this is where imagination enters the disciplined mind.  If I COULD change the world, how would it be?  Our intent sets the foundation, that’s why we’re in trouble now.  The intent was selfish from the start.
There’s nothing wrong with any of us.  We’re only lacking connection with God is some area.  Areas.  My mom used to gripe about a local single mom with numerous children by many fathers.  Mom was knocked up at seventeen herself, and when I pointed that out, she said, “But Jesus FORGAVE me.”  (This conversation is recorded in my journal.  2011, I think.)  God forgave that other unwed mother just the same.  Our personal relationships with our creator who is also our redeemer are all different and most of them feature hefty blind-spots.  (Thus far.)   “Pride cometh before a fall.”
I’m making candy bars again.  I always think I’m making enough so that I’ll have some for gifts.  Then it all disappears.  My sons don’t want me to make as much.  But, I don’t push it into their mouths and I don’t eat it myself.  Almond Joy today.  Maybe one of the men will take some fragments to my folks.  I hope so.  I don’t want to see them because I have beer on my breath and they immediately stop thinking at the scent and/or mention of alcohol.  They’re confused enough when they do think!  They’re sinful, addicted gluttons and they ridicule OTHER ADULT PEOPLE for taking a drink of alcohol!

At its worst, cannabis allows people to relax and have a good time. Indulging in the recreational “high” of the THC of cannabis isn’t physically addictive. At its best, cannabis can be bred for other cannabinoids that assist the body in healing seizures and cancer, among other health issues. In other words, cannabis is not something that we should be at war with.

If we should be fighting a war, it should be against a much more addicting substance called processed food.

Food addictions more rampant and more dangerous than drug addictions

A new study from the University of Michigan confirms that highly processed food like pizza, doughnuts, French fries, boxed pastries and chocolates are more addictive than any other substances that we put in our bodies. 

OMG, my parents are DRUG ADDICTS!!!  We should stage an intervention…

Read more at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/just-say-no-processed-food-turns-americans-into-malnourished-dumbed-down-addicts/
I remember one New Year’s Eve when we’uns were in Florida at our grandparent’s hacienda while my parents crashed a party at some fancy hotel until the waiter showed up to punch their non-existent cards.  They returned bleary, and when I sniffed my mom’s breath as I had been taught every day of my life…she got offended and told me off.  She’s been a hypocrite for a really long time.  I hope she can break free.
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    a person lacking basic knowledge of mathematics and arithmetic.

Research Points To Mental Health Risks Associated With Meatless Diet

The article cites an Australian study from last year which found that vegetarians reported that they were less optimistic about their future more often than people who kept meat in their diets. That same study found that vegetarians were 18 percent more likely to report having depression and 28 percent more likely to experience panic attacks and anxiety.

I am not terrified of the terrorists; i.e., I am not, myself, terrorized. Rather, I am terrified of the terrorized; terrified of the bovine masses who are so easily manipulated by terrorists, governments, and the terror-amplifying media into allowing our country to slip toward totalitarianism and total war.

Now the result of that could be a statistically significant threat to myself and my family. Under an omnipotent government with permanent emergency powers, there would be a significant likelihood of my nephew being drafted to help occupy a foreign country; my daughter going hungry thanks to wartime economic planning; or myself being imprisoned or shot as a dissident.

Paris and San Bernardino taught me that my family is trapped amid a herd, completely surrounded by cattle-minded millions who can be spooked into large-scale stampedes with small-scale crimes. And there is literally no way out, because virtually the entire world is afflicted with one form of collectivist statism or another. Therefore, the only way to prevent my loved ones from being trampled is by helping as many people as I can to break the spell of terror that turns civilized men and women into rampaging beasts.

See more here:   http://www.blacklistednews.com/Nothing_to_Fear_But_the_Fearful_Themselves/47651/0/38/38/Y/M.html

(Kim Jung Un reminds me of my dad.  The guy from VICE said, “I’ve been to the most fucked-up place on Earth.”  I’m calling him about Helmer in case he wants to start a series.)

‘We had to treat him like God’: Daughter kept prisoner by Comrade Bala gives hellish insight into her life as his slave after the Maoist cult leader is found guilty of raping his followers during a 30-year reign of terror

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3346885/We-treat-like-God-Daughter-kept-prisoner-Comrade-Bala-gives-hellish-insight-life-slave-did-not-know-carer-mother-died-mysteriously-falling-window.html#ixzz3tTWYUmye
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She wrote: ‘I’ve been cursed, insulted, mocked, denigrated, excluded, beaten up, caged up like a wild animal, deprived of what really matters to me, presumed upon, imposed upon – the list is endless.’

Despite the horrors, Balakrishnan, who often referred to the little girl as ‘project’, never felt as though he had done anything wrong. 

A bright girl with a keen interest in politics, she is now living in a residential home and is determined to start anew after the trial. Although she scores highly on IQ tests, she has no formal qualification 

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5:10 pm
“A mother is sleeping in the dirt and all some people can think of is profit.”

California Man Builds “TINY HOUSE” For HOMELESS Woman SLEEPING In the DIRT!!

“Narcissists.  They simply enjoy drama.  Have you noticed this about them?”

They Abuse to Amuse

(This guy is really good.  He must know my folks.)
5:36 am
“I don’t know the secret to success, but the secret to failure is trying to please everyone.” – Bill Cosby.  (But if they’re knocked out cold on barbiturates they really aren’t going to judge your performance.)
Under the Future Attribute Screening Technology (FAST), criminal cues are captured through the following types of biometric data including body and eye movements, eye blink rate and pupil variation, body heat changes, and breathing patterns. Various linguistic cues include the analysis of voice pitch changes, alterations in voice rhythm patterns, and changes in intonations of speech. Documents released by DHS clearly show that individuals could be arrested and face serious consequences based upon statistical algorithms and predictive analytical assessments.
“Your abundance and your fullness, it’s attached to your inheritance.”
“Your inheritance is part of your mature alignment with God in Christ.  Who are you now, and who are you becoming?  What provision is attached to who you are right now; what provision is attached to the person you are becoming?”
“As long as an heir is a child, he does not differ from a slave, although he is owner of everything.  He’s under guardians and managers until the date set by the father.  So also we, while we were children were held in bondage under the elemental things of the world.  But when the fullness of the time came, God sent forth His son, born of a woman, born under the law so that He might redeem those who are under the law, that we might receive the adoption as sons.  And because you are sons, God has sent forth the Spirit of His son into our hearts crying, “Abba.  Father.”  Therefore you’re no longer a slave but a son,  and if a son, then an heir through God.”    (Galatians      )
“Inheritance comes into experience when we demonstrate faith in Christ;  we demonstrate what it is to be clothed in Christ and we demonstrate what it is to belong to Christ in the Earth.   If we remain as children, we can’t enter into fullness.  Other people have to be responsible for our blessing…  The line we are crossing is this:  You are the source.”

Coming Of Age by Graham Cooke

“When you know: I can’t stay here.  I don’t wanna go BACK THERE, because I KNOW that’s death.  THIS is killing me…  So really, the only shot at life I’ve got is somewhere out there, and I’m not too sure about that either.  And God is silent.”
(With much prayer sometimes you don’t get knowledge.  You get sensitivity.)

Pastoring People Prophetically

(Isaac’s got to watch this one.  He struggles with the Tolle-antichrist concept that our personal stories should be abandoned and minimized and extinguished and neuter.  Jesus loves stories.  I love Jesus.  So does Isaac.  This is a very fine discussion.  I think the resolution is easy though.  Tolle seeks to eliminate ego.  Jesus instead replaces it with His own and it’s a very comfortable effective fit.)

5:15 am

I just got a glimpse of what God is doing in my family and it is glorious.  I know they’ll come to Truth, and I’ve known that for years.  But I guess I was thinking last-paradigm because I never pictured any of my family members with the FULLNESS!  I

pictured them as more sincere Baptists maybe.  But NO!  There will be no more Baptists where we’re going!  There will be zombies, and their will be beautiful glowy beings who used to be human and who know the future and they will understand the past and fix every single person who comes into their light.  So.  My kin will be a force to be reckoned with.  “Thank you, Wonderful Jesus.”

“How To Recognize God’s Voice Speaking to You” ~ Graham Cooke

“Whatever God is…He is RELENTLESSLY.”  (I guess maybe I am becoming like Jesus after all?  At least the ‘relentless’ way.)
“The voice of God that makes you feel the beloved?  That would be Him.  The voice of God that makes you feel good about yourself, even while you’re in the process of changing…”
“THE ENEMY would not say anything kind to you!  He’d rather cut his tongue out!”
(My parents are so critical I should have known they were satanists, right?)

5:36 pm
This is kinda cool, but only to somebody who’s awake to the times.  OK, I thought of two very significant things, I thought repeatedly and intentionally…and I DID NOT SEE THEM ONLINE.  Is this an algorithm fail?  Have I finally superseded the NSA? Or are they faking me out?   I’ll keep you posted.
4:20 pm
Every single day I look at the clock at exactly 4:20.  Usually two times.
Hot and sour soup, mu shu pork, and chicken fried rice.  Every dish uses eggs and I stopped myself just in time because I almost made a meringue pie.  Eggs are very expensive.  I don’t know what I was thinking.
“Long before the malignant narcissist in your life abused you, long before he hated you, long before he devalued and despised you, the malignant narcissist in your life hated, devalued and despised…knowledge.  The narcissist in your life hated knowledge, before he hated you.  The Word of God addresses this phenomenon.”  
“Fools will seek me eagerly but they will not find me because they hated knowledge.”    (Proverbs 1)
“This knowledge, which is hated by the narcissist…is called LIGHT.”
It is God who gives rationality, reason and intellect and enlightenment to all of mankind…”
3:03 am
Sparky went to the vet yesterday.  (I haven’t told her her new name yet but she comes when I call it just the same.)  (She thinks her name is:  Connie Get-down Jones.)  She has steroids. Don’t we all?  If I were to see a couple hundred dollars I should probably buy some copies of my book and sell them so I can get more money and not starve or freeze.  BUT, if I got a couple hundred dollars I’d WANT TO go see that baby in California.  Is that wrong?  I’d approach tiny Vespers-Veritas with respect, and subdued humor.  She’s young, and we can laugh when she’s larger.  I know she’s one of those special babies; I learned to expect them years ago.  When I was expecting.
Wouldn’t you say that series’ of small unexplained wounds, equal-distant apart, is kinda weird?  I see scabs on my body that look like I rolled a seamstress-marking-wheel over my flesh.  Perfectly spaced wounds.  If anybody does not yet believe my DOCUMENTED OBSERVATIONS AND WARNINGS  about REMOTE TORTURE…they soon will, I think.
My sons and I are going to a concert at the casino.  Michael McDonald is singing ‘holiday’ and ‘hits’ just outside Escanaba.  We weren’t too pleased about the Rudolph part but Josh listened to some Doobie Brothers  and decided to go with Isaac and me, both of whom already wanted to see McDonald because of his historical significance, and also because he was a very fine vocalist. (Maybe he still is.  Like I could tell.)
It hurts my 70’s persona to see McDonald on the Kenny-Rogers-Train, but we’ve seen it coming.  Yet, there was a time.  Now I listen to videos with titles like:  ‘History of early scalar star-wars’.  I miss music.  I suspect McDonald does too.  Phoebe Snow died, after sacrificing her career for a handicapped child.  I will sing with her one day.  I’ll sing on pitch, and she will enjoy it.  Where else but THE KINGDOM OF GOD could a person like me sing with a person like her?

N.Y. Rock And Soul Revue Digest – Donald Fagen / Michael McDonald / Boz Scaggs / Phoebe Snow


Paul Simon & Pheobe Snow @ The David Letterman Show

“I’ve had a long streak of that bad luck, but I pray it’s gone at last!!!!!!!!!”
(Phoebe Snow is like a protoplasmic musical instrument.)
3:52 am
“George, don’t you want to kiss me?”
“I don’t know.”
“Earth Angel, Earth Angel, will you be mine?”

Earth Angel – Back to the future scene

2:50 am
Nuclear weapons are the ultimate suicide-bomb.  They not only take out one’s enemies, but they also do onto others as thyself.  Nuclear/atomic bombs can destroy every hope for human future, and one’s own offspring are also sacrificed to the age-old man-game of perverted reality and short-sightedness.  WE DO NOT DESTROY HUMANITY JUST TO COUNT COUP.  We do not sacrifice EVERYTHING…just to make a point.  My race is afoul of reality… and astern to that Old Ship of Zion.  I shouldn’t have to say this either but:  WE DO NOT BECOME LARGER PEOPLE BY DESTROYING OTHERS.  My race is instructed by ego and competition.  My race will destroy itself inevitably.  There’s no two ways about it at this point.  As it stands, THE MEN OF MY SPECIES are content to allow the SCUMMIEST OF EXAMPLES to determine the future for us all.  They have demonstrably DESTROYED THAT FUTURE…AND STILL MY MEN WILL NOT UTTER A SQUEAK.  puke.  
I’m sorry to have to tell you, but you don’t get to destroy all creation JUST TO MAKE A POINT!  My dad set out to make a point and he thought destroying his own family was justifiable sacrifice to stoke his ego-orgy.  puke.
  The Indians say:  You don’t make a blanket longer by cutting off the bottom and sewing it to the top.


2:12 pm
The Bible says ‘The last shall be first’ and we’ve lived to see the day.  I was chosen to be the family scapegoat.  I was the chosen child… by being the black sheep.  God turns things around.  Growing up is the coolest thing I ever did so far.   I can’t wait for more.  If not for my dad’s murder attempts, I probably would not have even gotten to the ticket booth.  He forced me to grow up, and all the mental health literature says the black-sheep-scapegoat child becomes the most healthy.  She recognizes, at about my age, the cesspool from which she slithered…and she stands upright.  It‘s kinda like Darwin.  I’m so grateful that Dad tried to kill me.  I couldn’t be more pleased with my life or the directions my sons’ lives are headed.  God IS in control and His words to me have always been 100 percent right.  (As far as I can see.  I do not have my journals and also I have nobody with whom to argue about what differing scenarios portend.  But I will.)
Do I not have the right to know exactly how many murder attempts I avoided?  It‘s like I’m “Perils of Pauline” or something.  I saw Betty Hutton interviewed on a late-night oldies-move show.  She was completely orange.  I think she lived in Palm Beach and I’m guessing she slept in the microwave.  But, she was the coolest woman ever.  I wonder what it cost back then, to become a famous actress.  I wonder if she regretted her purchase.  Attempts on my life were orchestrated on the road and at home.  I’m figuring about 6 or 7 and I’d like to know how many times God protected me.  (That’s not counting the times where they made me wish for death.  That’s ultra-soft-kill.)  I’d like to know how many other true-Christians have been monitored and how many of them made it through.  I’d like to know what they’ll do with such valuable data.  I’d like to know statistics.  I’d like to know how many Christians avoided murder attempts and I’m sure the government kept records.
2:07 pm
Isaac said I’ve been invited to San Francisco to meet my grand-niece.  I was repairing a child’s apron to send to her, Josh wore it when he was little and the colors are GREAT to hide smears if you’re making artwork; I think that reminded him to tell me about my invitation.  When I saw the picture of that cherub in her Inca hat, snuggled in  with the blanket I knit for her… I was smitten.  I know she’ll be reading before she’s two, you can tell just  by looking at her.  Isaac halfway invited himself along to visit the wee bairn.  He didn’t have the nerve to hold her last month when they met, but with his mom around he’ll probably indulge.  Also, he needs to pick up some things in Boulder.  He was down to four pairs of pants but I picked up a couple and so did Grandpa.  I cried when I learned that I may hold that stunning baby, but I’m not crying now.  I’m just very, very grateful.
Bump to the top from: 4/21/15
4:32 am
I read a story once, about a Christian family that was continually tormented by the devil.  They prayed and others prayed and applied oil…but the torture continued.  Then, God told them to rip up some carpeting in the basement and they found satanic (I think I will use lower-case from now on…) symbols poured into the concrete.  People do that a lot, and graffiti gives legal openings to spirits.  (Henry Gruver taught me that.)  When a chunk of paneling slipped loose in the basement of this house, because it was soaked with river water, I saw the signatures of guys who worked for my dad years ago.  Now they’re dead.  Perhaps a satanist builder would include saranic bullshit in his own home?  I’ve prayed over this house so many times, and when we first moved in my whole family walked around it seven times, just like Jericho, and we prayed.  I’ve walked the circumference of the property MANY times and asked that the Blood of Jesus be applied to cleanse it from ungodly influence.  I ‘ve seen many spirits leaving, like tiny butterflies or bulbous confetti.  I never saw a big one leave though.
I read a story once, about a couple who could never get ahead.  No matter how hard they worked, the money just slipped away due to one crisis or another. Years of prayer and attention to their situation didn’t change a thing.  I can’t remember what additional consecration they mustered, maybe it was fasting, but one day as they were in another room, a small statue inexplicably fell to the floor and shattered.  It had been a gift, a souvenir, and further investigation revealed that its image was a “poverty” “god.”   My father has given us many souvenirs from foreign lands, some of them I discarded upon receipt.  I’m hoping GOD will remind me of more stories.  (He always does.)
I can understand how people might use church-going as a cover.  They have no fear because the ‘church’ is false, and has no power.  The fact that satanists take part in ‘Christian’ churches proves my (attempted for YEARS) point that the church is not the CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST.  I red that some evil cults even REQUIRE their members to join a ‘church.’  Knowing these things in the abstract is very different from recognizing one’s life experiences in their light.  I need to think a about this; I always ask God to give me new things to think about, ‘Fresh Manna’ is the term I use when my thoughts become repetitive and boring.  There’s nothing boring about MY God.  (That was my first indicator that ‘church’ didn’t invoke his presence.)  My parents are boring too.  I should have connected some dots.
Guess I now know why I was castigated for saying “barf” in public…by the same man I found on the couch with my unclothed babysitter
“I say inequality for reference, but really it’s not inequality that all living beings detest; it’s inequity and the reason being that we each are born with an internal scale by which we can measure what’s equitable and what’s not.”
“So before we can free ourselves from oppression, we must first recover our awareness of the inalienable rights we possess. only then can we recognize that we are being oppressed. That is the first challenge an oppressed people must address.”  More at:   http://shareverything.com/2015/04/21/why-inequality-matters/
Inequity.  It is impossible to judge the merit of various life-choices.  If either life-choice was disadvantaged by inequitable resource distribution the resulting conclusion is erroneous.  3.5 million.-
2:26 pm
OK, now I’m crying.  “Thank you Jesus, for this kind act.  Thank you and bless those people and give them the vision you see for that beautiful baby-woman, and give her parents great joy and vision for themselves too.  Amen.”

Putin wants Russia to become world’s biggest exporter of Non-GMO food

According to the President, Russia is now an exporter, not an importer of food.

“Ten years ago, we imported almost half of the food from abroad, and were dependent on imports. Now Russia is among the exporters. Last year, Russian exports of agricultural products amounted to almost $20 billion – a quarter more than the revenue from the sale of arms, or one-third the revenue coming from gas exports,” he said.

See more at:   https://www.rt.com/business/324605-russia-putin-healthy-food/

There Go The Truckers: Unprecedented 59% Plunge In November Heavy Truck Orders

See more at:   http://www.zerohedge.com/news/2015-12-03/there-go-truckers-trade-collapse-hits-home-unprecedented-59-plunge-heavy-truck-order

9:09 am

I think following the Spirit is very simple.  It is child-like as the Bible says, in a lot of ways.  Then it becomes even simpler than that.  We perform the same behaviors pursued by even much lower organisms who are not burdened by the ‘knowledge of good and evil’ when they rebuff threats almost involuntarily:  They FLEE NEGATIVE VIBES.  That’s how God’s army rolls I think.  If it doesn’t feel right, that’s called having a ‘check in your spirit.’  If you get one of those, you just stop and try something else.  Retreat, at first, is about what you can muster.  But, eventually you will find yourself in situations of unpleasantness with no means of escape.  Then you have to face what is unpleasant, in yourself, or the situation or another or in whatever-have-you-not.  That’s hard,  but you know you have to do it because once you spend some time free of negativity, you want to RETURN there and to spend ALL YOUR TIME THERE.   So you face down the negatives and you call their bluff and you gain ground against the devil and his plans of destruction for humanity.  Demons have names like ‘depression’ and ‘rage’ and ‘independence.’  We gotta take a stand and resist their influence in our lives and thus minimize their effect on the world congregationally.   That’s the spiritual battle in a nutshell.   Our captain spilled his blood for us and achieved the impossible:  World Peace.  We choose to occupy the land for Him.

Both armies are pressing the locals and the enlistees are picking sides.  Will the boys transfigure or will they trans-humanifry.  My late Catholic friend used to say, “It’s all about the body.”  I knew she was right about many things but I wasn’t able to understand a lot of her ideas.  I hope I gave her cause to consider things too.

7:26 am
Those pitiful trans-humanists.  They work so hard to create a cell for their shriveled sac of neurons.  I’ve been asking God for a larger spirit for about thirty years.  As if a metal box could hold even what I am now;  there’s not much room in that steambath,  for spiritual growth…those pitiful trans-humanists.  I wonder if when AI is creating reality for real the metal begins to shrink and shrink until its content prays for relief of the vastness surrounding it and longs to extinguish artificial life support.  Meanwhile, I’m going to be a MUCH LARGER creature, because for as big as I am, I’m as much as I can get.  My hardware will grow softer rather than rigid, and of the ‘increase of peace’ there will be ‘no end’.  I will 1) dance, 2) skate, 3) sing on key, 4) remember numbers, and 5) experience everything I ever wanted and lots of things that will amaze me that I never thought to ask for.   This is our finest hour.  So far.  The fire should hit the altar any day now.  I’m just watching the show.
7:01 am
I wonder if God will take us out of our current bodies or if the new ones will just materialize around our spirits? That’s how it happened at Jesus’ transfiguration I think, but his physical representation was only temporarily changed and our new forms are going to last much longer, maybe forever?  At least a thousand years certainly. I’d love to talk to somebody about what’s happening.  Passion vs discipline.  It’s the difference between religious striving and life in the Spirit and there’s NO WAY I should be vacillating between two positions at this late date.  I choose the side where the victory is already accomplished and my participation is expected only at the awards ceremony.  I CHOOSE to suffer no more panic thinking I am not enough and that I have not performed sufficiently.  I performed every day of my daughter-life until I was set free by my imprisonment and now I renounce and denounce striving.  I denounce and renounce my minds machinations and ruminations.  I CHOOSE to believe the words Jesus whispered into my ear yesterday morning.  I was half asleep or I would have begged Him to stay but He always does what He wants anyway and He never says more than He intends to say,  He is ENTIRELY PURPOSEFUL.  And entirely RIGHT.  I haven’t talked right up next to Him in a long time and I’m looking forward to it.    Jesus said:  “I DID IT!”
6:21 am
I remember when people I love started locking doors against me.  It was terrible; nothing said, people just stopped talking when I entered a room.  My dad lost a bet; that’s why he gaslighted me,  and he kept it going until he learned that I could not be driven crazy, nor shaken from my demand for justice.  He lost a bet because he didn’t believe I was real, and he didn’t believe Jesus was either.   Now that he knows, he’ll pay what he owes.  When I wake up it takes me a minute to remember George isn’t here.  “His mercies are new every morning.”   It’s a nice surprise.  Last night we ate veggie again, with leftover chicken on the side of course.  Fajitas, from two kinds of mushrooms,  Anaheim chiles, and golden bell peppers.  Avocado ‘sauce’ but I didn’t use the sauce from the recipe since Isaac wants me to make Southwestern egg rolls like from Chile’s so I made the avocado dressing I’ll use for them, with Ranch seasonings.  I’ll make the egg rolls today.  I would have made them yesterday but we didn’t have any corn.  He’d also like the lettuce wraps from Chang’s and for those I need some bibb lettuce.  I’ll probably have to drive 80 miles for such a rarity, but that’s what the Virtuous Woman does.  She goes far away and brings home food for her household.  (Proverbs 31)
George used to say I was a virtuous woman until my dad convinced him I wasn’t.  I’m glad he’s gone. Those fajitas were really good and we ate them with crema and cabbage salsa made with tiny round slices of yellow grape tomatoes, and wrapped up with chunks of salty Feta in stretchy tortillas.  Chocolate zucchini cake with no frosting but bittersweet chips baked into the surface, and a loaf of Italian bread.    Today I’m cooking Cajun and taking Connie to the vet.  I have three new flea bites.  I’d like to go to Chang’s sometimes.  If I still harbored envy I’d feel bad that I can’t travel with my sons like my parents can.  My sons are a riot and they’re down for anything.  “Dear Lord, please give me a great restful week with my sons.  Give us an amazing time in your presence. Rest is a weapon and mine is wanting a shootout.  Amen.”


4:41 pm
I had a headache!  I NEVER have headaches anymore and headaches one time put me on IV pharmaceuticals.  This is really very important is it not, the time in which we live and the role each of us is RIGHT THIS MINUTE performing for all history.  (Somebody REALLY should tell my prissy niece Stacy that she should become compassionate or she might very possibly be recorded as the Margaret Sanger of the apocalypse.)  Her question to me, as I BEGGED FOR LOVE, was:  “Why should Grandpa care about you?” [It‘s on Facebook.  Zuckerberg owes me one.]  Her question could easily be followed by a whole variety of objects.  She might ask, “Why should Grandpa care about you…COMMA…LINDA?”  or  as easily “Why should Grandpa care about you…COMMA…Niggers?”  She is diseased and to my knowledge nobody has corrected the young sprite of self-righteousness. My brother’s whelp is a bitch.   Move on it.  She does not know love, she knows privilege and entitlement.  She may become a rich doctor but she will still go to hell if she does not learn to love.  I love her enough to say so.  She will be at the shindig when my dad apologizes me me and my sons.  She will apologize too.  I love my nice and will not stand still as social-norms send her to hell thinking she’s hot shit.  Going to hell is bad enough.  You don’t want to show up demanding special privileges.
Graham Cooke said, “God will ALWAYS bless your rest.”  I was immediately in tears, and arguing with God about these years of induced-sleep-deprivation and the fact that if I’m still in bed at 5 I feel guilty for sleeping-in.  I feel like I need rest.  My face doesn’t look right; I’m getting blister things under my eyes.  I’m exhausted on a cellular level.  I gave my body to God and I haven’t followed up on any physical symptom for years.  I expect he’ll replace my body pretty soon.  I used to think he’d just finish fixing this one, because he’d done so many wonderful miracles for my decrepit body.  No though;  I’ve been reminded of how new wine requires a new wineskin.  I’m trying to be patient.  I’m very hyper when what I really want is to drop my sword and take a nap.  I don’t do what I want, but I’ll be grateful to receive far more than I ever dared to want because I battle for Jesus, the Christ.  I’m pooped.  That’s when you can see Him in me because I’m useless.  My father will fix things pretty soon.  I declare it.  In the name of Jesus.  I’m making vegetarian tex-mex tonight.  Fajitas with feta cheese.  Also pinto beans and chocolate zucchini cake.  I had samosas for breakfast.  I love being in charge.  I also loved that Isaac laughed when he looked at the headlines on my website today.  LOTS OF STORIES about no-touch-torture of activists…he said, “It sounds just like you wrote it!  That’s exactly what you say.”  I have recorded YEARS of documentation.  Pretty soon I’ll be important.  I think Isaac is relieved.  He wanted to believe me because I never lied to him but you know, he’s a guy.  I hope he’s not a Mason.  They were chasing his ass for a while.
I choose carefully, the hot sauce for the table.  I choose my accompaniments as a challenge, and I mentally predict those who can recognize the direction of  wise condiments.  At least twice a week I say to myself, “Self.  you cannot possibly recreate that meal or any meal as succulent, and you ought to just entirely forget about superseding that amazing opera of sensation and nutrient.”  And, twice a week I’m wrong.  Because, of course, I keep trying and I keep testing new things and I keep learning and “DEAR GOD if I have to be here much longer, will you please intervene onto people so that they will think about things.  After they listen.  Amen.”
Text to Dad and witnesses:
Some people who love you a lot also know you’re a piece of lying shit-cake.   They would like to stand in your corner, and I’d be there serving the kool-aid, if ONLY you would speak truth.  We all love you, Dad, but we also recognize that the time is past when we can endorse falsehood and selfishness.  We’d like you to come home.  The Goldthorpe-train is bound for Glory.  You may accompany us.  906-291-1376.
9:37 am
Words of Prophecy
* This is a time of perfect preparation, My beloved ones, for ALL that is to come. ….”Build up, build up, prepare the way, Remove every obstacle out of the way of My people”…. Isaiah 57:14 NASB ….”Therefore, prepare your minds for action, keep sober in spirit, fix your hope completely on the grace to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ”…. 1 Peter 1:13 NASB
* From this “breakthrough” you are about to experience you will never look back!
“You’re nothing in the Kingdom, unless you’ve been betrayed.”   (Graham Cooke)

Graham Cooke – Why Wounded & Betrayed Believers Are So Useful to God

“I trust God so much that I am prepared to trust people…again.”
11:27 pm


Based on “The Torture Memos” and the Senate Intelligence Committee’s Declassified “Torture Report”

“Targeted Individuals” being hit with electromagnetic and other directed-energy weapons is a CIA set-up, ostensibly to test more of their “enhanced” interrogation techniques on unsuspecting “detainees”–ordinary people in the US and elsewhere…

“detained indefinitely,”and being “interrogated,” and being “tortured for purposes of interrogation”–only rather exotically, with energy weapons and implants which peer into brains and body parts, constantly track EMF emissions, and attack continuously and covertly with EMF signals on bodies and brains which are translated inside brains also as images, moods, feelings, sensations, dreams, and audio commands. Experimentation on human brains and nervous systems with energy weapons.
Torture is often used for revenge, punishment, interrogation, and behavior modification.  In other terms torture is used to remove the continuity of thought to confuse the target to reveal information, erase brain patterns such as values and beliefs, or to break down the human spirit to make them submit and obey their handlers.



1) It is being run as a shadow paramilitary CMO (Civilian Military Operation) and Black Ops operation by the American Corporate Shadow-Government (CIA? DHS?) in collusion with Homeland Security and Intelligence agencies especially the CIA, NSA, and FBI as a “covert” and “clandestine” operation targeting outspoken and ethical community members and activists;

2) This operation, with openly-denigrated “Targeted Individuals” –a label used to deleterious effect–at its center, appears to have been carefully constructed to foil and mislead investigators, via false psychiatric

Using technique often called EEG-heterodyning the targets will receive molestation effects of their genitals. In men this can be the anus and genitals. Similarly women can be wirelessly raped by the analogous function of perception.

(They can also make your body parts move independently.  Including genitals of course.)

Read more at:   http://everydayconcerned.net/2015/09/06/dr-robert-duncan-the-executive-summary-neuropsychological-and-electronic-no-touch-torture-report/


Is the US Department of Justice Secretly Permitting Local Law Enforcement & the Military to Assault American Citizens Using Covert Directed-Energy “Non-Lethal” Weapons?

This goes beyond surveillance, and it goes beyond Snowden’s published revelations, to weapon-use on citizens.

See more at:   http://lissakr11humane.com/2015/12/01/is-the-us-department-of-justice-secretly-permitting-local-law-enforcement-the-military-to-assault-american-citizens-using-covert-directed-energy-non-lethal-weapons/

Tim Rifat: Deadly Microwave Weapons Being Used Covertly as Dissident/Mass Behavior Control Weapons in UK and US

As this article details, microwave weaponry is being used covertly–radiation is covert–by government Intelligence agencies and local law enforcement on both specific individuals, groups and organizations, and whole city populations for both behavior control, “mind”–mood/thought-control, and biological bodily-control. They are all brutal, Physical Assaults on the Human Body–they are unlawful, and they should be stopped.

Please note, this article was published in 1999, and contrary to the hopes expressed herein, the problem has only gotten worse, as people reporting assaults by microwave weapons worldwide attest.

 The National Security Letter Spy Tool Has Been Uncloaked, And It’s Bad

David Kravets/ArsTechnica:
The National Security Letter (NSL) is a potent surveillance tool that allows the government to acquire a wide swath of private information—all without a warrant. Federal investigators issue tens of thousands of them each year to banks, ISPs, car dealers, insurance companies, doctors, and you name it. The letters don’t need a judge’s signature and come with a gag to the recipient, forbidding the disclosure of the NSL to the public or the target.

The “Neutralizing” of US Dissent With Neuroweaponry: Open Letter to Journalists and Human Rights Advocates and Organizations in the USA and Worldwide



1) It is being run as a shadow paramilitary CMO (Civilian Military Operation) and Black Ops operation by the American Corporate Shadow-Government (CIA? DHS?) in collusion with Homeland Security and Intelligence agencies especially the CIA, NSA, and FBI as a “covert” and “clandestine” operation targeting outspoken and ethical community members and activists;

2) This operation, with openly-denigrated “Targeted Individuals” –a label used to deleterious effect–at its center, appears to have been carefully constructed to foil and mislead investigators…

See more here:   http://everydayconcerned.net/human-rights/clandestine-classified-human-subject-experimentation-using-emf-radiationsonicultrasonic-neuroweaponry/open-letter/

Everyone who receives notification of an investigation from an Intel agency or the local Fusion Center also knows they cannot speak openly about it–or so they are told, by Intel. Using the National Security Letter as weapon, the FBI/NSA/DHS/CIA/DIA informs community members that the being-framed individual is “under investigation,” and seems to either demand or command or coerce the co-opting of the community into “concealed electronic monitoring” activities–a phenomenon of both GPS’ing and using tools such as networked apps on cell phones to silently direct neuroweapon-hits on their neighbor, covered more fully as subjective experience in this post here.


7:48 am


From Russia Insider- fair use: holy crap! Thank God for idiots with un-controllable egos. I never thought I’d say this. Lindsey had Ash Carter squirming like a weasel kicking heroin. This is great. 1. Coup- planned and now admitted. 2. now we KNOW Russia is in the crosshairs if they get involved. 3. they will. 4. get ready- with “mentalities” like this? It won’t be long now. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mC7Fz…
6:15 am
George just left to go to  his mother’s house.  I asked if I could pray with him before he went and he said, “No.  I’m gonna get on the road.”  I’ll pray anyway:  “Dear Lord.  I don’t even know what to ask.  Thank you so much for the kind generous person George has always been.  Give him exactly the trip you’d like him to take.  Please forgive me for getting so upset with him yesterday but I don’t feel at all guilty about what I said.  Is that right?  I’m beginning to feel, I think, the ‘permission’ Graham Cooke talks about. Every time I woke up last night I wasn’t panicked, just irradiated.  I didn’t feel like I’d left undone something tragic.  Thanks for Peace, I could use a whole lot more and I’d love to give it to George and my sons and my parents and Luce county and Michigan.Thank you for this time I can be alone with Josh and Isaac.  Help me make it special.  Intervene with your glory, please.  I don’t know what to say about a man who won’t even pray at all.  Bless him, Lord.  Forgive me for striving all the time, in my mind and activities.  It’s sin for me to feel such heavy responsibility, isn’t it?  It’s lots easier to work for a solution than it is to wait for one.  You are God and I am not.  Change me some more.  Amen.”
“There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.”

Walmart Had The FBI Joint Terrorism Task Force & Lockheed Martin Spy On Activist Employees!

Just because you’re paranoid doesn’t mean they’re not out to get you.

Part 1 Artifical Intelligence-Lucifer’s Vessel – Can U Hear Me Now?

Uploading memories…even photographing a dream!

-(Read that again:   Uploading memories…even photographing a dream!  They can also ALTER memories…)
7:44 am
I sure hope my sons aren’t mad at me today about their father.  I didn’t make him cop out!  I didn’t cop out and I was even the one getting raped.
8:25 am
I hope that the things I’m learning about who I am in Jesus when He’s also in me will extinguish the panic things that have 
me up on an amazingly regular schedule for a number of years.  (Several schedules actually, different protocol.  I’d have to look it all up.)  I AM NOT  MIND-CONTROLLED Human-livestock.  Thank you, Jesus.
–4:10 am
To Dad-   By the way, you owe me 120 dollars for books I put for sale at your St. Ignace hotel, the True Value in Curtis and that dive where Tom lives in Escanaba.  I also gave stuff to Rob Pike and some other people.  The books will sell for fifteen dollars, so you get to keep five dollars per copy.  Tell your people to keep track of my books because I need some money to do things for my sons that YOU, DAD, have knowingly and with malice aforethought prohibited them from experiencing.  (Documented, notarized…etc.)
 Our book will soon be VERY POPULAR… once I get the stickers to put on the cover that explain about how  EVERY TIME I MENTIONED ‘THE HAUNTING’ I WAS DESCRIBING THE EFFECTS OF ELECTRONIC WEAPONRY.  120 dollars you owe me. Your businesses will net 60.  One giant step for mankind, one small step for Robert.-
PS-  Thank you Dad, for buying those great jackets for Isaac and Josh!!  I was shopping coats for them but it’s hard to buy because I get only ten dollars a day.  At least I don’t blow my wad on cigarettes anymore!
3:26 am
3:19 am
I’m working on my guest-list for when my dad apologizes for targeting my family and watching us suffer and knowing about it all the time and lying.
1)  Lakefield Baptist Church, including most particularly:
          a)  Jay Walsh
          b)  Chuck (PR) Reed
          c)  KATHY PLESSCHER
          d)  Melody Ellis and her wife
2) FAMILY, including
           a)  My uncle Jimmy
           b)  Kathy Lahti, his daughter who was treated exactly as my father treated me, and she will sit NEXT TO ME
( I’m still working on this list but I know my dad is getting the idea.  His apology will be the event of the season and no small deal.)    (I want to book the AWANA building.)    (Oops, you can’t say AWANA anymore around here.  Funny how God ‘changeth not’ but the Baptists do it all the time.)
“You are an expression of the level of and quality of Love you extend. The world may not return the same to you but the ineffable surely will.”   (Visible)
Wow.  I’m not stupid but the only reason I say that is because Jesus tells me not to say that I am.  What do I want more than anything else on this planet?  I suspect I want what other people want too.  I want somebody to understand me and to love me anyway, and to agree with me and to help me and to trust me,  and then I’d do those same things for him.  That is what everybody needs I think.  If somebody thinks your a big deal, then you can go about becoming a big deal without having to repeatedly pick yourself up from the gutter of slander and defamation.  I think when we have somebody who loves us, we automatically become better people.
When people curse us, we sink and die and go to hell and those who cursed us are beneath our feet even in that disreputable abode of absolute justice.  Hell is NOT a representation of a vengeful god.  Hell is what we do to ourselves…each and every time we do it to another.  “Dear Lord, time is short.  (Yeah, YOU can think that’s funny…)”   “Jesus, my family still dines with my narcissistic satanic parents, and they still will not speak to me. Something is VERY WRONG WITH THIS FAMILY.  Fix me first, because I’m not likable.  Then fix my family’s DISREGARD FOR TRUTH;  teach them that TRUTH is YOU.  Amen.”
2:21 am
My sons just got back from California.
Josh said he will now celebrate Black Friday instead of Christmas because it is the festival of money and blood and it truly pleases the gods.  Next year he says he’s going to a mall with boxing gloves.  Isaac said, “Grandpa CAME DOWN HERE last week to apologize…and you went to bed!  He GAVE you a chance…”  (Grandpa bought him lots of presents in California.)  Grandpa did NO SUCH THING.  He’s had a thousand chances since 2009 when he sabotaged my family.   After SIX YEARS of begging for an audience with the old liar, I know  HE needs a chance.  Not me.  I’m glad my sons had fun.    They said my stuffing is way better than Dean and Deluca’s.
I sent a text to my dad and associates:
“To Dad-  Thank you for returning my sons…they had a ball.  Isaac said I missed a chance to hear your apology last week when you showed up again unannounced and I went to bed.  Isn’t it cute that after six years of your stonewalling he thinks it’s me who is running out of chances?  When I let you apologize…set up something nice, would ya?”


6:08 pm
Today I took copies of my book to sell at my dad’s businesses East of here.  I kept track of how many books I left, and his employees were all really nice and when I left they were looking at the books excitedly and reading my attached message with the code-key to understand psychotronic attacks by way of my spiritual language.  Tomorrow I venture to the western end of my father’s empire.  Were he a nice guy, I’d stay there for a week or two, in a room unneeded and unsold and which I would keep very clean.  I’d take a bath.  I’d be alone.  I’d pray.
 I cooked for George hand-cut shoestring potatoes and crispy cod strips with homemade tartar sauce; it was hot when he got up at 5:10 pm so he ate right before leaving for work.  His divorced colleagues do not eat as well as he.  Neither do the married ones. On Tuesday he goes again to his mother’s home for another ten days.  He has no desire to ever go anywhere else.  I am uncomfortable living with him and it would be a WHOLE LOT BETTER if my father had not made me a slave.  It will be considerably better when my father remedies the false hierarchy he established when he lied to George.  I expect he’ll say something like:  “For crying out loud…she waits on you hand and foot just like she always did for me!  Everybody knows I lied about her, everybody but you!   Give her a break, she was the VICTIM, not the PERPETRATOR.  Yes, she’s crazy. That’s obvious,  she still SERVES HER EX-HUSBAND in what used to be her own house after you quit being a husband or a father years ago!  For ten dollars a day! And you weren’t even going to buy any heat this year!  Give MY BELOVED DAUGHTER A BREAK ALREADY.”  (I saw a vision of my sons crying as my dad talked to their dad.  It was crying in a nice way, not sad at all.  Crying with relief.)  (I saw George too, and he also looked relieved.)  “For crying out loud she makes you a BIRTHDAY CAKE EVERY SINGLE YEAR!  Remember the last time somebody made her one?  I put SMOKED PROVOLONE between the layers and it wasn’t even edible!  I, ROBERT, should throw a party for her and you, George, should wait tables.”  “Get your head out of your ass and treat her like she deserves.  She raised your sons until you believed my bullshit and she kept your ass out of your mothers spare room.  Grow a pair of balls and then show me how you did it.”
5:20 am
I bought a few copies of my book when I had a few dollars not beholden to the tobacco industry.  I’d like to sell them since George has been docking my pay and the bank over-drafted me without telling me although I know VERY WELL I only have 40 dollars in that account every two weeks.  I think I’m going to put my books for sale in some of my dad’s businesses; I don’t think any of his employees would turn me down.  Maybe I’ll bring along one of George’s coffee cans with a slit in the plastic lid for donations.  I’m writing a flyer to go inside; I think this would be a stellar stocking-stuffer.  If I had a word processor I’d do a neat little book-mark shape but here’s what I got so far:
Finally, the Truth can be told!
Thank you for buying my book. I wrote it in 2011
but it was sealed until now because people
didn’t have the background to receive it.
Also, I am haunted and  if you don’t believe
in ghosts, it might be less scary to read
now, since the technology used to torture me has
been so well documented.
To decode this book, everywhere I wrote ‘haunting’ you
replace that spooky word with a corresponding science-term.
If you get stuck and need some new words,
remote neural monitoring
synthetic telepathy
electronic weapons
microwave weapons
covert harassment
targeted individuals
blackmail of political candidates
(Also:  NARCISSISTIC PARENTS and the shit they pull on their SCAPEGOAT children.)
Deborah Tavares does good research.  Also James Corbett.  My website is thatrandomcandidate.com and there is much information available on the pages “Gangstalking Round-up” and “Mind-control Matrix”.  (Go to the bottom.  I’ve been just dinking around lately.)
Don’t be the last kid on your block who doesn’t know about government mind-control.  (Oh wait, how would you even know?)
Much love and prayers for the future I see coming soon when no psychopaths will steal our souls.
Linda Goldthorpe
3:44 am

BLM Going After Hammond Family! Declared Terrorists Sentenced to 5 Years in Federal Prison

“The Gestapo broke bones…but the Stasi broke souls.”
My family are charter members of the US Stasi.  I pray that they will repent for their soul-breaking allegiance.  (And activities.)

Chris Hedges Brilliant Answers re: The Psychopaths Among Us

“…minds taken over by manufactured messages…”
The victors get to write the history.  This is brilliant.  (When I was in choirs and we forgot the words they told us to move our mouths as if we were singing ‘watermelon’.  Tie-me-kangaroo-down is a lot more fun.)

Adrolf Hitlarris – Tie me kangaroo down sport

“Prop me up by the wall, Paul, prop me up by the wall.  I’ll  scream and cheer ’til I fall, Paul, if you’ll prop me up by the wall.”
OMG.  Did you know that Hitler only had one testicle? (That might explain some over-compensation issues.)   (I love Prince Charles’ cameo in this film.)

10 Things You Didn’t Know About Hitler

Hitler Finds Out About Rolf Harris

Convicted paedophile Rolf Harris has written a vile song from his prison cell, in which he displays no remorse for his victims whose lives he wrecked

‘The main victim has never worked because of his abuse of her from an early age. Hers is a life ruined. Yet Rolf Harris still believes fame, power and money are more important than these women’s lives.’

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3123036/Rolf-Harris-s-vile-jail-song-shock-letter-cell-shamed-star-reveals-country-rock-lyrics-damn-sex-victims-greedy-wenches-brags-cushy-prison-life.html#ixzz3sgPjC1PE
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Rolf Harris’s vile jail song: In shock letter from cell, shamed star reveals ‘country rock’ lyrics that damn his sex victims as greedy ‘wenches’ – then brags about cushy prison life

  • Paedophile artist paints his victims as money-grabbing ‘woodworms’  
  • Misogynistic rant goads women and girls he attacked in sick crimes
  • Recipient of letter was so appalled that he passed it to The Mail on Sunday
  • One of his victims said she was ‘totally revolted’ by what he’d written
  • Solicitor representing his victims now wants Harris to be denied parole 

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3123036/Rolf-Harris-s-vile-jail-song-shock-letter-cell-shamed-star-reveals-country-rock-lyrics-damn-sex-victims-greedy-wenches-brags-cushy-prison-life.html#ixzz3sgNtFRnX

‘He put these women through hell during the trial. He has shown them nothing but contempt and arrogance, even in the way he assaulted them. They will be distraught at this disgusting song.

‘They came forward because they wanted to see him face justice – it was nothing to do with claiming compensation. They are claiming it because it is the only way they can hold him personally liable.’

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3123036/Rolf-Harris-s-vile-jail-song-shock-letter-cell-shamed-star-reveals-country-rock-lyrics-damn-sex-victims-greedy-wenches-brags-cushy-prison-life.html#ixzz3sgPLTYdX
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In court the victim was described by prosecutor Sasha Wass QC as ‘a damaged and emotionally dead creature’, adding: ‘He used her for his sexual gratification like she was a blow-up doll.’

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3123036/Rolf-Harris-s-vile-jail-song-shock-letter-cell-shamed-star-reveals-country-rock-lyrics-damn-sex-victims-greedy-wenches-brags-cushy-prison-life.html#ixzz3sgRW5QW0
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If I could just get a handle over this last bit of torture I could teach other people how to do it.  I know that I have ‘the mind of Christ’ and I give Him my thoughts MANY times each day so I know the darkness is neither me or him.


Once Putin began bombing ISIS it was only a short time before Russia uncovered the West’s lack of competence or outright deception when it came to bombing. The Russian’s soon figured out that NATO was not bombing ISIS directly but was degrading Syrian infrastructure.

I ran into a former teacher yesterday.  She said she liked my haircut but then she asked me if I’d cut it myself so I don’t know for sure.  She’s that way.  She also made conspiratorial comments about the lack of money for schools and nudged my arm a bit, obviously forgetting that my kids never attended school.  She has no way of knowing how passionately I begrudge EVERY SINGLE PENNY my government takes and spends to indoctrinate young humans.  They want more money to build a new school in Newberry.  Their enrollment has been dropping for years; I think they’ve got half the kids they did when I attended.  Yet, we should throw more money at a system that 1) fails to educate, 2) is rather INTENDED to indoctrinate, 3) costs a LOT of money, 4) gets in the way of family relationships and 5) minimizes time kids can spend actually pursuing their passion and learning important things.  The mindless acceptance that we should continue with schooling is ridiculous.  We need to revisit the entire paradigm.  Kids belong in families with people of all ages and persuasions.  They learn every single second, except the time they’re in school when they’re running from room to room and wondering what the other kids think of their clothes and hoping for a blizzard so they can stay home for once and learn about things that interest them.  I really dislike school but I love learning so much.  My sons love to learn too.  I don’t think that’s merely a side effect of eschewing schooling…it’s one of the major reasons for doing so.  Dewey and Stalin and Bernays and Sanger and all the other fascists knew that.  They also knew that schooling destroys self-sufficiency.  To be schooled is to lack confidence in one’s understanding sufficient to motivate critically important behaviors.  They don’t have to worry much about  rebellion from a bunch of mind-controlled lab-rats who’ve been entrained to such an extent that they actually raise their hands if they need to take a leak.  What human parent could submit his child to such de-humanizing control freaks?  A controlled freak.
11:03 am
I think I’m a protestant to the protestants.  Maybe I’ll do a 501(c)(3) called “The Stargazers of Apocalyptic
Reformation”.  Baptists say they’re not protestants because they are without original sin and (their rare learn-ed apologists discuss…) the Anabaptists and all that.  Every cult using Jesus wants to trace their roots back to Peter.  All these claims and pissing matches will end immediately when Jesus tells us what went down and the result and his reasons for allowing us to hate one another for no reason.  He permits a lot of things at present but we will have Peace.  Pretty soon.  It would behoove us as ‘Christians’ to cool our jets and wait for Truth before we decide on the next crucifixion.  If we’re patient and we trust Jesus, we will be on the right side of history.  That’s what an apocalypse is.  Survival of the fittest.  Those who refuse Truth are culled from the herd.

Jews Crown “Miss Holocaust Survivor” In Morbid Beauty Pageant

A Romania-born woman who immigrated to Israel won the third annual Miss Holocaust Survivors Beauty Pageant in Haifa.

Rita Berkowitz, 83, was chosen among the 16 European natives who participated in the contest on Tuesday. She came to Israel in 1951.

Hairdressers and makeup artists primped and pampered the contestants before they took to the runway. The participants shared their personal stories of survival with the audience, Reuters reported.

(Nice looking bunch of Jewesses, all things considered.)

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Happy Thanksgiving.
11/26/15  (right before)
7:55 am

I don’t know if it’s morning or night again.  I hate when that happens.  

(I hope you didn’t really write that about that Republican dweeb because I was the best boss.)
To Concerned Taxpayers Worldwide and their representatives:   You can’t be serious with this website.  You need a designer.  So does ‘Before it’s news’.  Isaac could make a fortune if somebody would teach him how to MARKET WEB DESIGN and to OUTSOURCE CODING which he doesn’t understand in the first place.  You didn’t do this, right?  You gotta call me.  I can’t stand this.  Set up a speaking schedule; you’ve never managed a more motivated candidate.  If I’m gonna appoint you secretary of state we oughta get cracking.  Hacking.  Talking at least.  You could make this viral and it needs to be made viral and I don’t require a blessed thing to begin and I now can, I’m certain, deliver a rousing address any time at all.  I am sufficiently motivated to care about things I merely spoke about before.  Please give me a job.  Thank you.  Amen.
Adam.  UNLESS YOU’RE IN PRISON.  You’re NOT TOO MUCH ON THE-GOOGLE AND I DON’T HAVE A CLUE WHERE YOU’RE AT.  SPEAK NOW OR FOREVER HOLD YOUR PEACE.  I want to get on with my life in the Kingdom and I need to know some things.  906-291-1376.  I’ve spent a lot of years believing you had a plan for some subterfuge and now I’m calling your hand.  If there’s any reason that I may not yet face my assailants, please tell me the reason at least.  Thank you.  (I pray for your uncle.  Is he still alive?)  I’ll say, after the shift, that I knew a Jew before the war.  The spy who came in from the cold.  
And how is it possible that there is nothing on google about you for a number of years?  I saw you with satan and you know I did.  Which side are you on?  
Adam, everybody knows you reed every word I write.  How could it be otherwise; I wrote a whole book about you, you’re stuck to me.  Let’s do this the easy way.  You just call me and say you’re sorry for lying about me and then we IMMEDIATELY start fixing the world.  How can I appoint you Secretary of State if we don’t get going.  906-291-1376.  El absolvo.  Vini, vidi, vici.  Gitty-up.  
Yon oracle,
As you know my menfolk fail me, and I am a traditional woman requiring input influenced by some bit of TESTOSTERONE:
-You know exactly what they tried to do to us, and you know what they are doing to other people so I KNOW you have a plan, but I really need a little direction if I’m expected to retain this holding pattern of truth and offense.
 I am all alone, and the government does not like people like me or like my sons or my roommate-ex-marine-with a mouth far bigger than anything else he’s got goin’ on; and YOU are far too principled a man to not have a plan for some others, and also you have a sense of false-responsibility EVEN LARGER THAN MY OWN because, I suspect because, you are WAY smarter than the rest of us and I could really use some advice just now because we’re in WWIII and the men in this little girl’s life refuse to recognize that we will not always go home for the holidays… because we can’t.  What’s a girl to do?  Please advise.  And THEN I WILL PRAY FOR YOUR SULLIED SOUL BECAUSE YOU STOOD AGAINST THE LORD.  I’d like to know that you no longer posture in folly.  906-291-1376.  Also Isaac says if I had a splash-page I could sell that book and I’d like to start the next one and you could easily sell that book and we could become millionaires.  You’re welcome.  If you need this property just say the word.  Bring warm socks.
Do you honestly believe that God is WRONG?  Or do you no longer believe that He exists?  There’s no way in the DSM that you might believe that I DO NOT HEAR FROM HIM.  Where’s the major malfunction?   906-291-1376.  (I’ll be gentle.) 
I think sometimes, that to be feminine is to be vulnerable. Other times I think that maybe being feminine is SEEMING vulnerable. The truth is that being feminine, as an intricately valuable half of divinity, is absolute stalwart involuntariability about a series of topics relegated by society to females who are meant to interact with male representatives in an equally effective manner, yet without employing any of the male-OK behaviors that influence compliance.  Guys are a tough act to follow. That’s why when you’re a woman picking your warm-up act, you pick guys.
(It is a mind-stretch to know a man just told me to write that.)
6:25 am
Grammar Nazi Hunters
That's What
4:41 am
Thanksgiving Day, and an old friend’s birthday.  I might call her but probably not.  I’m still postponing a lot of reconnections because I want to have CLOSURE AND RESTITUTION before I try to tell my unusual story to people I love.  Also I need gas money.
George and I are having taco salad for dinner, and poutine because I made a LOT of really good gravy when I cooked turkey the other day.  We can’t give any more turkey to Connie because she smells terrible.
“Who is the Lord, that I should hear his voice?”  (Pharoah)

Narcissism and the Disordered Belief System of Pride

“I believe there is more disorder at play in the malignant narcissist than a disordered personality, or disordered character. The narc is a belief-disordered individual. He has construed a belief system founded on falsehood. A falsehood that perceives the world around him through the lens of one who thinks himself superior to God, superior to God’s Law, and superior to man.”
(The following could go on my dad’s tombstone but you’d have to put ‘Here lies Robert Goldthorpe [comma]’ in front of where it says ‘malignant narcissist’.  For crying out loud, I was nearly FIFTY YEARS OLD when he decided he didn’t like my life and tried to lock me up and slandered me to the destruction of any and all things positive in my life and took away ALL MY LOVE except Jesus.  He’s really a sad case.)
“At a certain point in his life, the malignant narcissist made the definitive decision to place absolute trust and confidence in his own understanding, in his own power, in his own wisdom, and in his own righteousness.  The malignant narcissist came to believe that who he was and what he was,  somehow or another, was of a higher order than either God or man.  He came to believe that his personal judgments held greater merit than the judgments of either God or man.  He came to believe that his interpretation of reality was of a higher level than the reality proposed by either God or any man.  He came to believe that his opinion was absolute truth and should be viewed this way by others.  He came to believe that his understanding was absolute light and should be viewed this way by others.  He came to believe that his wants and desires were of absolute importance and should be viewed this way by others.”  
“And he came to believe that the things that pleased him were of the highest priority and should be viewed this way by other people.  Now here’s the problem:  In order to accept this distorted belief system of pride, one must squash the promptings and leadings of one’s own spirit.  In order to accept this distorted belief system, one must despise the voice of one’s own conscience.” 
“The compulsions of the human conscience, those compulsions of humility, meekness and lowliness, they run counter to the belief system of self-superiority.”
“The man who walks deliberately and habitually in accordance with the self-superior belief system of pride, will effectively extinguish the lamp of God.”
“Pride goeth before destruction and a haughty spirit before a fall.”  (God)
I just love this funny picture.  My dad gets it.  I mean he gets in one way.
Today show host Jenna Bush Hager, left, shared a photo giving her beloved grandfather a kiss along with her twin sister Barbara Bush, right at the wedding of her cousin Marshall Bush
My dad abandoned me in Florida for a whole winter.  I went there with him, and the next morning he left.  I was either three or four, preschool anyway.  I was SO ABUSED just because he was too wimpy to ever talk to anybody.  He couldn’t even talk to a BABY.  And I was pretty verbal.  (I expect that’s why he left me there.)
Your Pretty
“I will say to the prophets: Get up now… wash your face and hands and tell My people they can stand and win this battle. Silence fear. Impart wisdom, discernment and the power of My Holy Writ. Prophets, draw together. Seek one another out. Prepare the people to stand in these days,” says the Lord.
4:27 pm
Wow.  I forgot how free I feel when my mom and dad are out of the neighborhood.  “Thank you, Jesus.”  I’m just now settling down; my sons were picked up at about 10:30.  George is still sleeping and he goes to work in an hour. My responsibilities are decreased for the next five days and part of me is uber-grateful to be alone for a bit. The rest of me is very lonely.  I honestly can’t daydream about a better life.  I can’t mentally walk myself through a day in Toronto where I learn new things and grow more distant from the torture and healthier and I feel love.    I’m still being cooked.  I’m still being cooked and I don’t understand it since God has delivered me from SO VERY MUCH of the psycho-tronic bullshit.  “Why do I still cycle through the identical, repetitive,  brief episodes of DESPAIR…  when you and I know very well that I am naturally very joyful and also I don’t worry about anything anymore.  “Please Lord, could I be finished with the torture?”  “Please show me the doorway to enter my destiny.  I’ve seen an outcome, but I don’t see a way.  Thank you.  Amen.”
4:56 pm
I’m having such a hard time moving from a paradigm where my value is assumed by my efforts, to my beloved’s home where I’m valued just because I am.  This is difficult terrain for me.  I suspect that assimilation is not merely harder for a former psychopath-sycophant-scapegoat than for the nominally-abused, but it is also required that I not miss a VERY GREAT ROADSIGN towards health and eternal life.  And let me tell you it is one major shock that nobody, not even your OWN PARENTS wishes for you to be well.  No, not one.   As I grow weller my parents suffer, and they indulge behaviors from the DSM-5.  The Truth will set them free, as He is doing in me.
I can now lean on my injured forearm without squealing.  I heal really fast.  I wrote in my journals about how cuts healed INSTANTANEOUSLY and I recorded the witnesses.  I texted Adam again today.  I have to get out of this paradigm and he knows what I need to know and if he doesn’t want to participate in his destiny then that’s between him and God.  I really have to break free and no matter how much I pray for God to reveal my door-slash-portal, I can’t see even one chink in the prison.  Except my dad.  “God.  Please give my dad courage to do what he will do for me.  Tell David to suck it up.  Amen.”   And the only overcomer I see is Adam.  Except of course for the fact that I do not see him.
I used to think it was terrible when I was little and the evening news told us the body counts for the day.  I couldn’t count but I could appreciate when the Viet Cong number-column was bigger.  George noticed that I will be alone tonight and encouraged me to consider Connie a ‘kid’.  PUKE AND STAND DOWN MAN.  I don’t know where to start.  But, I am pleased for a few hours without being responsible for ‘kids’ and the dog may do as she blessed-wishes.  She’s not my DNA.  Of course on the other hand my dad is.  You know what believing in the supernatural does for you?  (I am a believer.)  It makes you have hope, because no matter how terrible things look in the natural (read:  Doublespeak:  matrix-false-paradigm) in reality, there is no predestined outcome. Except in the mind of a genius who loves you.  So.  Jump I think.
 I’m watching “Cabin in the Sky” with Ethel Waters.  I couldn’t watch a movie for about three years when I was being more seriously COOKED BY PSYOCHOTRONICS and it’s kind of fun to review things that once mattered. This is a very good movie.  I’d love to share it with somebody.  Maybe I should join a book club.  My family is doing a white elephant gift exchange and requested gift-wrapped used books.  Methinks me thinks.  My folks KNOW how they should be.  They also think it’s boring.  My wrestler friend says ‘reading is for rich-folks’.  That’s an urban legend.
5:42 am
Hopefully, so many “insiders” will come forward that it will become impossible to hide what it is coming from those who are actively seeking answers. To the general public, it does not matter what they are told, for they will still believe that the government will take care of them, CNN truthfully reports the news and Santa Claus exists. As a result, these fools will never know what hit them.  (Dave Hodges)
Connie won’t stop whining and she was just out.  She looks at the front door and she goes over to George’s bedroom then comes back and looks down the hall.  I’m the only one home and she slept at the foot of my bed but I don’t think I have any new flea-bites.  She’s just whining for no reason.
The thing about time is that although time is illusory, ‘timing’ is everything.  We’re getting to the point here in present-day-illusory America, that the neighbors will soon begin disappearing.  At that time, many formerly stupid people will suddenly become no longer stupid.  They’ll want to ask some questions and they’ll go to great lengths.  Or not.  Most of the people I know probably would just make up some evil rumor about the missing person and not even believe the cull was progressing, as they watched with their eyes.
My countrymen have answered a remaining question from the ‘Great War’:  Why didn’t anybody in Germany stand up for anybody else and just say ‘no’?   The answer (subject) is (verb) because their minds were darkened by selfishness and fear of death.  I think that’s right.  When we do not fear death and we do not envy what another person has, we’re more willing to risk something on his behalf.  As people become fewer, each will become more important BUT, if we’re gonna be the last man standing, we’d sure wish we’d maybe joined up with people earlier in the inquisition; we’ll wish we might have joined with those who are now missing and we’ll wish we knew where they’all went.  Even if you survive, if you’re the very last specimen do you think you’ll be allowed free-range?  Huh?  They just euthanised 1/4 of the white rhino population of Earth.  They’re coming to your town next.
When government officials, from the various alphabet soup agencies, retire en masse, it is not necessarily a noteworthy event. However, when the same officials retire en masse and then relocate to form their own survivalist enclaves, then this is something that we should all sit up and take notice of, especially when we are seeing the same behavior on the part of Wall Street executives.  (Dave Hodges)
It is a matter of official agency policy that some current and senior level DHS and CIA officials and their families will be provided safe sanctuary in various strategic locations in Colorado in times of trouble. Most people in the know are aware of the underground facilities which lies below the Denver International Airport which has an underground connected railway to the Cheyenne Mountain NORAD/Fort Carson/Peterson Air Force Base underground facilities. The structures are part of the Continuity of Government program developed by the United States government in the early days of the Cold War. However these facilities are increasingly becoming the planned refuge for many of the global elite residing within the United States when all hell breaks loose.

I was trying to turn off my new I-pad which I accidentally turned on and we somehow initiated Siri.  I use a flip-phone and even so I recognize that Siri is one giant step backwards for humanity.  I can’t believe I was ever bewitched by her imprecise responses and limiting-recognition.  I’ve seen the Borg now, and Siri ain’t nothin’. We still can’t turn off the I-pad, so George asked Siri how to do it.  Then he red:  “Slide to power off” so I won’t think about her anymore.  Except this:  We see the technology happening in real-time and we still refuse to believe that our species has used this stuff to promote an agenda.  “Siri:  Are you smarter than a human?”
“Governments’ militaries are the enforcement arm of the central banks.”  (Greg Mannarino)
The planned obsolescence for the nation’s capital is becoming increasingly apparent. If I were you and I lived in this area, I would be looking for a new place to live in the very near future.  (Dave Hodges)
Isaac owns only four pairs of pants and I told George that since I didn’t get my broken tooth fixed because I had a stomach issue on Monday that precluded sitting in a dentist chair, and he provided some cash so I could go to the dentist, I would instead be purchasing some pants for our son.  He was not pleased.  I pointed out that he purchases many foolish things for himself, and that I’d like to help Isaac with something necessary.  He got huffy.  Then he settled down.  He still insists that we could have survived the winter with electric space-heaters because he planned to install bigger circuits or breakers or whatever.  I’m glad we’ll be distanced pretty soon.  I can’t live in stupid without freedom to interact therapeutically.  Just is what it is.  That’s what all the inmates say.  My dad messed up a system that worked and he’s gonna fix it.
One’s children are an extra set of eyes into reality and history.  Josh loved ‘The Prophet’ so much that I went back to St. Ignace to get him the rest of the volumes from the Kahlil Gibran set at the “Hope Chest”.  He loved “The Prophet” so much that he couldn’t give up either copy for the Goldthorpe-book-exchange in California.  I had that identical set when I was 22.  Marcel gave them to me.  Josh asked, “You had a boyfriend who gave you poetry books one time?”  An incredulous tone makes you reconsider things.  It also makes you regret not having red more, especially books given to you by somebody else just for you.  I have a cookbook he gave me and I still use it all the time. He was way older than I was.  My mom used to say, “Look in his EYES.  He loves you so much.”  I couldn’t be bothered to look into anybody’s eyes.  What if they made me look into my own?  It’s the Peter Principle at work in all of our stunted lives.  We rise to the highest level of our utmost incompetence.  I worked REALLY HARD to get there and I’m able to say I accomplished this one thing at least.  I was my father’s child:  If anybody LOVED ME…he had to be deficient.  (Marcel was also very controlling and it’s a good thing I didn’t know that he loved me.  He has had a better life no matter what.)  (My mom recognized loving eyes. What an amazing thing to know.)
I think in some ways I have become very mature, in some unpleasant ways, but what I know now is very important.  If you want to know who your master is, determine who it is that you are not permitted to criticize. Those words make my skin wrinkle, but it gets even worse when I understand that humans exist who serve willingly and unknowingly, ‘humans’  for whom ‘master’ is not a weighty word and matter.  My brethren do not mind serving others and that is proper.  However, they do not CHOOSE for whom they labor.  They bow and obey the loudest voice.  They genuflect at the appointed times, and they salute the flag when the band motivates them to rise.   My family are these people, this hoard of ‘don’t-notice-that-I’m-different-and-don’t-not-notice’ servants of contrived representations of artificial reactions to our [already] artificial reactions to the artificial-reality in which we [sorta] live.  My parents cannot yet tell the truth but they’re recognizing it.  “Thank you Jesus.”
I’ve owned many family heirlooms from many branches of family.  When I learn about the vibrations remaining in physical objects from the many people who held them I’m kinda amazed at the number of people who have touched my life.  One of my favorite books belonged to my cousins’ father when he was a child.  My uncle and his brother were gifted this book by my cousins’ grandparents in the forties.  It’s all about manners and the illustrations are exquisite.  I have my cousins’ grandmother’s creamer and sugar dishes; they’re charming, a small floral pattern.
I’m going to the Soo to spend money I obtained by false pretenses since I didn’t use it to get my tooth fixed.  Am I doing wrong?  “Lord.  Please advise.”  “One day I’ll get to pay Isaac back for all he sacrificed because I said you told me to run for office.  Could that begin pretty soon?  Amen.”  “Graham Cooke says your word is ‘yes and amen’ so I’m going to buy Isaac pants unless you stop me.  Maybe I’ll sign Josh up for Swedish lessons in Toronto too, unless you stop me.
Maybe I’ll go to Lakefield Baptist Church next week and distribute my cogent, double-spaced complaint against the congregation with a copy of my documented indictment of my dad, and pages of evidence against every and any ‘pastor’ I’ve ever submitted before in my foolishness and their misogyny… and then maybe I’ll fall to the floor in surrender to the will of the brethren.  (You never know what I might do.)
 “Lord, you ARE THE LORD and these people have not yet permitted me to say those words in public.  Do what you will but PLEASE be quick?  Sorry for whining.  Amen.”
11:48 am
Sexuality used to fill the gap created by non-loving parents, I think.  There used to be power in knowing that we were attractive and threateningly desirable.  Now it doesn’t look like anybody feels actually sexually powerful. Not even the ‘sexiest’; from my corner, I would assume and notice beautiful desirable women;  aren’t the best ones red-carpet gals, with genes on their side and access to the latest beauty treatments?  Top of the heap, one would think.  (No subject, no verb.  “God forgive me and free me from grammar and mind-control amen.”)   But THESE VERY WOMEN seem to be the least confident of their beauty.  The selfies are self-promoted-porn-of-self.  These high-maintenance women take pictures of themselves naked all the time.  Their beautiful gowns have shrunken beyond ‘skimpy’ to bondage-perv,  and have you seen Mylie Cyrus’ costume adorned by that enormous synthetic penis?  They have no true sexual allure if they must compete for the nakedest-dress when the cameras are rolling.  If you GOT IT, you don’t have to flaunt it.  That’s what I think.
2:15 am
‘Me, Me, Me!’
A narcissist thrives on admiration from others. They want praise, compliments, deference and expressions of envy at all times. They like to hear that everything they do is right and better than what anyone else can do. This ‘Me’ attitude is highly dangerous as it starts affecting the personal and professional lives of the individual and people around them. Slowly people start realizing the lies and the betrayal and everything comes crashing down. 
It’s all about the Money
This personality disorder causes narcissists to believe that anyone who is not superior or rich doesn’t deserve to live. They display a very hostile attitude towards people who are low in economic and social backgrounds than them. To explain the above statement in simple terms – narcissists believe that average and middle class crowd should be transported to the moon and they have no place on earth.
They expect favorable treatment and complete compliance, and any defiance shown by the child results in rage and exploitation. What seems as a cause of worry is that such a mother is quite capable of sexually abusing the child as well.

Your Doctor May Be Killing You

(NaturalNews) In a virtually unheard of move, a medical professional has come forward with a personal story filled with regret and industry shame. She even goes so far as to say that modern medicine “doesn’t train doctors to see patients as individuals” and that “patients are no longer treated as a whole person, but individual body parts.”(1)

Those are the words of Dr. Erika Schwartz, founder of Evolved Science, a boutique personalized medicine group headquartered in New York City. Schwartz, who specializes in anti-aging, hormone balancing and disease prevention is also the author of Don’t Let Your Doctor Kill You: How to Beat Physician Arrogance, Corporate Greed and a Broken System, and is a regular contributor to the Daily Mail.

“We’ve got to get on our ‘A’ game or they’re gonna die.”  (Cooke)
I don’t know how to file all the weird things happening to the planet.  That’s been my ongoing problem since I started looking into dark technology too.  A road in California slid uphill.  It raised fifteen feet and moved sideways.  I know that electronic weaponry could easily accomplish that.  But also, the Bible predicts  ‘earthquakes in diverse places’ and ‘birth-pangs’ of upheaval in our physical world.  It was hard to attribute weirdnesses to either terrestrial-tech sources, or to supernatural involvement, and I thought I had to do that.
My sister was a very young mother and I was pretty old;  I noticed that our relationships with our parents reacted differently to becoming parents ourselves.  My sister would sometimes get  jealous of attention paid to her (gorgeous, just like her mom…) baby-girl.  She knew that she also deserved attention.  When I became a mom,  I vicariously consumed and relished any of the warm-fuzzies tossed towards my boy-baby.  I was pleased that he was a boy, and worthy.  (I did not know then, that he was/is also not a SCAPEGOAT-child like his mom which is perhaps as big a reason for his comparatively better acceptance as his gender.)   I didn’t begrudge him any attention that I’d never gotten, how could I?  When you grow up without enough calcium and vitamin D your teeth don’t form properly.  Similarly, when you don’t receive necessary amounts of approval and attention, love-traits are stunted.
 I think when I’m all better I will be able to speak to victims of family abuse with much authority and hope. When I am entirely well, and have recorded all the prayers and the materials and revelations that have helped me heal, I will point hurting children of narcissists to Jesus who loves them and made them and values them.  I will tell how my dad tried to kill me and how my mom permitted me to be raped by a cousin and and to be sexually abused by my grandmother and Trevor Blakely’s kids and my dad’s buddies with electronic sex-toys.  I’ll tell everything that got broken, and I’ll tell how Jesus fixed each part.  When I’m home and happy, everybody will want what I have; and they’ll come to find me.  I’ve been getting ready for them for a long time, so I can give them what they need so they will become happy too.  I hope my parents show up pretty soon.  Anybody who can treat a kid like they treated/treat me is NOT a happy camper.
Ever since the first MIND-RAPE in 2009, I have responded by PRAYING FOR LOVE FOR THE TORMENTOR…and trying to grow healthy.  Ever since 2009, my parents have REFUSED TO ASSIST ME IN ANY MANNER.  My siblings and their families will still not talk to me and I’ve had only Isaac and the angel-goon to assist my efforts to escape mind-control and grow emotionally healthy.  I recorded my journey.  The Holy Spirit is enough to make us entirely well…and even miraculous.  He will not waste what has been deposited within me, because it’s Jesus and Jesus is very attractive to all of Heaven which we must bring to Earth.  Graham Cooke says it makes God sad that he has so much stuff up there that belongs here.  Regarding this, he quotes his daughter:  “You know Dad, the church needs to be like me.  I have no problem taking you for everything you’ve got.”  (Queen Sophie.)  When he hadn’t seen her for a few weeks, she approached him saying, “Hey Dad, before I kiss you give me your wallet.”  This woman would also stand in front of the ATM on Sunday morning and ask how much God wanted her to put in the offering.  “She knows how to receive from God.  She knows how to give.”  (Cooke)
Sophia (σοφία, Greek for “wisdom”) is a central idea in Hellenistic philosophy and religion, Platonism, Gnosticism, Orthodox Christianity, Esoteric Christianity, as well as Christian mysticism.
When Isaac is struggling with unhappiness, I suggest that he do something for somebody else.  (Josh doesn’t struggle.  He is very intentional.)  My parents could be much happier if they did a little something for another person.  Also consider restitution:  the fact that they are responsible for MUCH HORROR in that person’s life would also make it a good thing for them to do for themselves.  My siblings should encourage transparency and responsible behavior on the part of  beloved parents who were so lonely because they couldn’t trust one another, and they couldn’t trust us to love them enough so they had to love themselves just in case.  We could prove them wrong.  (Even if we’re not Christians and don’t believe in hell we could value love.)
1:48 pm
1:15 pm
Ten Most Remote But Inhabited Places in the World


“From Intellihub- fair use: We have heard of Brandon Raub. He is the Vet who returned from war and make statements about this and other wars we are involved with, his dis-approval, and posted those thoughts on facebook. Tell me their not watching us. The Military picked Brandon up at his home, arrested him, and jailed…then made him undergo mental evaluation. He got a lawyer and is now sueing the U.S. Government for violating his rights. Thing is- this is happening ALOT.”

Anxiety, Depression-Symptoms of Codependency-  “I-Am-Not-Enough Syndrome”

Code laid down when we were children by narcissistic parents can be uprooted and replaced.

( I’ve even recorded the process.)
 “Thank you, Jesus.  You-in-me and me-in-You makes me WAY BETTER than ‘enough’.  Thank you very much.  Please give my hurting parents love like you’ve given me.  Wait.  I know you have.  Remove the demons so they  can feel it please.  Thank you.  Amen.”
I was the most co-dependent person EVER!   I couldn’t even get MAD when my husband CHEATED on me with HANDICAPPED BOYS!
 (I wonder if my parents have handicapped my siblings as badly as that.)
Ten Most Remote But Inhabited Places in the World
9:35 am
Isaac said:  “I’m CDO.  It’s like OCD but the letters are in the right order.”
I cooked a really great dinner yesterday.  We had company, a father and son.  After they left I became very anxious.  I got that feeling in my chest that I haven’t had for a couple months now.  I was sore all over and I couldn’t settle down and I thought about going for a drive so the heated seat in the car could pamper my back which I fatigued by cooking and doing dishes for 11 hours before I ate too much.  But instead I decided to take a nap and just as I stood up to go sleep, Connie started barking violently and my dad materialized at the door.  BFD.  I went to bed anyway.  He sure doesn’t impress me anymore; that’s gotta be a bummer for him because I provided MUCH of his narcissist-supply, and I serviced my mom’s jones too.  I was like their dealer, their source of perversion.  I became the drama-queen they needed.  I can now see that washing Dad’s feet was received with a whole different set of values than it was offered.  I gave them just what was required to inflate their character-disorders…because I adored them.  They could abuse me or ignore me and I still adored them.  Whether they wanted fawning or rage, they could manipulate me perfectly.  I was the perfect scapegoat.
When my dad left, I could breathe!  Did I somehow know that he was coming?  I had a big smile on my face all day long and then five minutes before he came  I just fell apart.  Then he showed up.  Then he left, and I was happy again.  Isaac knocked on my door after his grandfather left.  He said, “Grandpa came to say thank you for the Sarah Bernhardts.”  That is truly an astonishing notion.  He didn’t thank me for the Sarah Bernhardts I made for his birthday, or the things I made for his birthdays and other non-celebratory-dates before that.  He hasn’t said ‘thank you’ or ‘I’m sorry’ for a bunch of long hard years.
He will want to speak to me much more than he finally, apparently, does.  He will CRY to speak to me, because I’m the ONLY PERSON who really knows him and loves him anyway.  But also, I do not respect him.  Not one creepy fake bit of him is worthy of respect.  I hope he has fun in California showing off.  I’m grateful he didn’t invite me.  He’d better be nice to my sons.  He will, because finally he’s seeing what awaits a malignant narcissist who sacrificed his own family just so he wouldn’t have to say ‘uncle’.  But he knows he lost our wager.  He knew it when he read my first book.  That’s when the gang-stalking and gaslighting REALLY took off.  He’s had much time to come visit me and perchance to pray.  How much more time is available to an aging psychopath already engaged in WWIII globally,  and also within his own artificial heart?  Guess we’ll find out.  Bon voyage, family of fakers and fools.  You have Gold in your midst.  Treat it wisely.
8:39 am

Why Do Law Enforcement Training Exercises Always Precede Mass Shootings?

Despite clouded information, you can be assured that the Intelligence Community does not salute the flag of the Republic. Their empire is based upon the need to confront foes, real or imaginary. It’s their task to convince you that their enemies are also yours; especially when there is no actual threat to you. If you dispute their program, you just might make their list of suspected dissenters. And, by now, you should know there is a very thin line between protest and being branded as a terrorist.

SARTRE – February 8, 2004

Who Do Intelligence Snoops Serve?

Record number of U.S. adults now dependent on Big Pharma prescriptions, and the most popular one causes brain damage

Top-used drugs: Brain-damaging statins

Government now arresting people for anti-Obama Facebook posts

In the four years since the start of Operation Vigilant Eagle, the government has steadily ramped up its campaign to “silence” dissidents, especially those with military backgrounds. Coupled with the DHS’ dual reports on right-wing and left-wing “Extremism,” which broadly define extremists as individuals and groups “that are mainly antigovernment, rejecting federal authority in favor of state or local authority, or rejecting government authority entirely,” these tactics have boded ill for anyone seen as opposing the government.

One particularly troubling mental health label being applied to veterans and others who challenge the status quo is “oppositional defiance disorder” (ODD). As journalist Anthony Martin explains, an ODD diagnosis:

“denotes that the person exhibits ‘symptoms’ such as the questioning of authority, the refusal to follow directions, stubbornness, the unwillingness to go along with the crowd, and the practice of disobeying or ignoring orders. Persons may also receive such a label if they are considered free thinkers,nonconformists, or individuals who are suspicious of large, centralized government… At one time the accepted protocol among mental health professionals was to reserve the diagnosis of oppositional defiance disorder for children or adolescents who exhibited uncontrollable defiance toward their parents and teachers.”

The case of 26-year-old decorated Marine Brandon Raub—who was targeted because of his Facebook posts, interrogated by government agents about his views on government corruption, arrested with no warning, labeled mentally ill for subscribing to so-called “conspiratorial” views about the government, detained against his will in a psych ward for standing by his views, and isolated from his family, friends and attorneys—is a prime example of the government’s war on veterans.

BREAKING: Ground Around Los Angeles Moving Sideways!

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new study presented to the Royal Society meeting on ancient DNA in London last week has revealed a dramatic finding – the genome of one of our ancient ancestors, the Denisovans, contains a segment of DNA that seems to have come from another species that is currently unknown to science. The discovery suggests that there was rampant interbreeding between ancient human species in Europe and Asia more than 30,000 years ago. But, far more significant was the finding that they also mated with a mystery species from Asia – one that is neither human nor Neanderthal.

Scientists launched into a flurry of discussion and debate upon hearing the study results and immediately began speculating about what this unknown species could be.  Some have suggested that a group may have branched off to Asia from the Homo heidelbernensis, who resided in Africa about half a million years ago. They are believed to be the ancestors of Europe’s Neanderthals.



Genesis 6:1-3

And it came to pass, when men began to multiply on the face of the earth, and daughters were born unto them,

That the sons of God saw the daughters of men that they were fair; and they took them wives of all which they chose.

And the Lord said, My spirit shall not always strive with man, for that he also is flesh: yet his days shall be an hundred and twenty years.

According to whistleblower info, CERN has had a major disaster of containment

w/videosAccording to whistleblower info, CERN has had a major disaster of containment, with water geysers jetting into the air and a 10 to 24 foot section of the main collider destroyed due to non-stop beam malfunction – no mainstream media has the slightest idea. This occurred back on Friday the 13th (!!!)

See at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/according-to-whistleblower-info-cern-has-had-a-major-disaster-of-containment/

Malware caught checking out credit cards in 54 luxury hotels

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3sK8S9p78

Flu shots and chemotherapy are ‘systemic health care frauds’ warns Mike Adams in Health Revolt interview

When it comes to flu shots, “You have incompetent people injecting ignorant people who make a drug for crazy people,” says Mike Adams, the Health Ranger, referring to the bizarre and tragically ironic case of the New Jersey nurse who injected 70 people with flu vaccine using the same syringe.

What makes this nearly unbelievable story so ironic is that the 70 people subjected to injection with the same dirty needle were all employees of a pharmaceutical company that manufactures injectable drugs used to treat schizophrenia.

It doesn’t get much weirder than that…

Govt Denies Hungry Families Thanksgiving Food Because a Pro-Cannabis Group Donated It

5:20 pm
All we did was do one thing together and this house is like fairyland.  Isaac cleaned the bathroom and vacuumed and George hung twinkly lights around the now-once-again dining room while Josh folded clothes and I made the air smell like a holiday.  This house was made for twinkly lights.  All the windows are beveled glass so for every light you get a whole lot of twinkle.  The men rearranged the furniture last night after Isaac ambushed me and I went to bed in tears.  He punched a hole in my hollow-core bedroom door which I covered this morning with a cheery yellow paper plate with a smiley face drawn with arched eyebrows.   It’s nice to see some passion but seriously, like father like son.  He has bandaids on his knuckles this morning.  At least Josh knows enough to use a sword.  All three of them, honestly.  I just beat Isaac at chess, that was amazing, I haven’t played for at least ten years.  Josh set up the fireplace room, with a game table centered right in the middle.  It’s very comfortable and I’m enjoying trying out the new spaces they created while I was feeling abused just because Isaac is having a hard time coming to grips with truth.  These are fine people.  “Thank you, Lord.”
11:58 am
Isaac, redux.
Here’s another good question:  What if Adam is really writing all this stuff for me?  I had visions you know, and writing is effortless.  When I used to write papers I was very methodical.  That was before cut-and-paste so I actually copied articles and cut them into pieces and stuck them to cards.  Then I would rearrange them and write text between them and piss and moan and finally decide it’s OK.  Not anymore.  I write perfect sentences all day and all night and they usually make sense and sometimes they’re pretty profound.  What about this hive-mind thing?  You know they’ve wanted it.  What if your mom got to be one of the first assimilated by the Borg? Don’t you want to investigate this and build me a website so we can get rich?  Something’s gotta give for both of us and for Josh. When you’re in California talk my dad into letting us camp out for a few months in the city.  We ALL NEED IT.  Thanks.  Love to you.  Amen.
11:40 am
Isaac, this is a good question.  Do you know your own mind well enough that you could identify artificial thoughts?  Has your meditation practice provided you a similar ability to what years of hours of Spirit-prayer gave me?  I’d love to discuss these things with you when you realize these false influences.  When we both realize how pervasive are the artificial thoughts I think we’ll be stunned by a couple things.  For one thing, I know I’ll be amazed, because I ALWAYS AM, at how perfectly has been the leading of Jesus, theChrist.  I am .  I stand amazed all the time.  We will hold hands and watch your dream-ship pull up the river …with tears of joy running down our cheeks.  Your mother and your father meant nothing but good for any person they ever met. Even one another.   They invested much time and money in helping others.  We got TARGETED and nobody helped us.  Except Adam.  Selah.  <3  Oh, yeah.  We’ll also be stunned because God kept us ‘in the world but not of the world’.  (The Bible is true.  You should read it.)
11:21 am
I made a cheesecake for our dinner tomorrow.  Yesterday I put sweet potatoes  together with apricots and orange juice cooked with butter and dark brown sugar.  The turkey is brining  in a kettle as it thaws, and I made cranberry relish to which I added grated apple AFTER the berries had been cooked with orange rind oil.  I made a dish of lime and cream cheese seafoam with crushed pears but that will probably be eaten today.  The men arranged the furniture and I’m very grateful.  George cleaned the carpeting last weekend and not only have I not suffered another flea bite, but the tahini-oil-stain in front of my spice closet is gone.  The carpeting’s been cleaned a couple times since that spill but the mess never came out before.  I don’t know if anybody’s coming to dinner.  We’ve invited a few people. But no matter, we will be here and we matter.
 I love these people a lot and it is a joy to cook nice dinners for them.  That’s why I do it all the time.  I love Truth more than I love my sons.  That’s just the way it is.  George bought some firewood for which I am also grateful.  I like to know there’s something to burn in case the lights go out.  I found two beers this morning that George apparently purchased for me after he withheld my legitimate pay because he had to pay for my haircut.  I wonder what he’d do if I got my teeth cleaned?  It seems that he’s more invested in CONTROLLING my income, than he is in depriving me of it.  No?  It doesn’t matter because he couldn’t even recognize if that were the case. He is guileless and unteachable.  I will do my best to see that he has a nice dinner with his sons tomorrow.  I do that all the time.
God can turn this all around, and He will.
Nothing surprises God, He knows what He has in mind for me and for my sons.  Everything that happens is to further that goal.
Dear Isaac,
If I understand rightly, you were angry with me because of 1) I don’t stand up for myself, and 2) because I do.  You accuse me of breaking some kind of trust with your father when what I did was exactly because I trusted him.  I told him everything that happened to me and I’d swear by it all today.  I said:  “I’m having these sexual pictures and they’re not coming from me.”  You should know a couple things.  How do you think I knew there was somebody in my head that started me on this 7 year truth-quest just a couple years ahead of Edward Snowden’s revelations and just in time for the first international Covert Harassment Conference?  It was exactly BECAUSE I did not think about having sex with Adam!  That’s what’s in the journals, trying to convince him.  They’re like, “Hey MORON, you and I both know this never happened and I’m not liking it in my head.”
 I DID NOT fantasize about him for a number of very good reasons. For one thing, I spent a lot of years disciplining my mind, particularly regarding sex.  I  was raped as a child and learned about sex from my dad’s smut and I was most fastidious.  But also,  the love I have for him was so instantaneous and all encompassing that sex seemed pretty puny.  I wanted to be PART of him.  (That’s why I encourage you not to settle.)  (Or sleep around.)  (It might happen to you sometime and you can’t pray it away.)  Also, I promised God in 2008 that I would ‘hold him’ at a ‘Gathering of the Eagles’ in Washington DC with Nita Johnson.  Plus, later on I agreed to carry his spirit up here from downstate.  PLUS, God said Adam is an angel and I should trust him.  I have no real evidence of an angelic de Angeli but God’s never lied before.  So.  GET OVER IT.  I love you.  Your father has NO REASON not to trust me…except my father’s slander.  I am wrongly accused and maligned and I’m getting pretty tired of it.
He docked my pay right?  Wanna see an experiment?  I’ll ask him to buy me a pack of cigarettes and he’ll do it without a comment.  No shit.  I kept track of lots of things I wouldn’t have believed unless I took notes.
Open your eyes.
Love from,
Your mother
I  made Sarah Bernhardts and took a plateful up to my dad’s house and left them in front of his door at 2:55 am with this letter:
Dear Dad,
Sometimes I don’t think I can stand another day being treated like I am.  Today was one of those days.  Then God reminds me that he has an amazing plan for me and my sons.  He reminds me that every bruise (I’m bloodied again.) is towards that purpose and he knows exactly what he’s doing.
Please apologize to my sons and George so I may have respect again.
George docked my pay because I got a haircut.  He was my husband, and we shared decisions and a bank account.  One sentence from you would fix our lives.  Thank you.  Enjoy.  L.  <3


5:54 am

Putin Long Dead Says Ex-Wife (Video)

Why does James Corbett stay in Japan?  Is Dawson there too?  Not Pillato but somebody.

Basic Primer for Detectives and Psychic Knowledge

“Objects retain energy from every electromagnetic field that has EVER touched them. So, a gun has the violent energy of not only the person that used it in the particular time/place, but every time he’s used it violently, anytime anyone else has used it violently.”
(That guy who worked with Moog says the same thing.  white hair.  SERIOUS CHristian.  I can’t think of his name.  Please help me.  out west    thank you
David Van Koevering)
“Trance Time is also financially costly.”
“The only variable from here is how talented are you and your psychic. Psychics are not equal, just as people are not equal in their talents. Most of the insights from above come from a psychic who has had significant documentation of talent, in several aspects of the psychic spectrum of skills, everything from future events to levitation. No spoon bending – didn’t ask, or poltergeisting – levitation with a push. Reference of abilities:http://www.victorzammit.com/articles/noreenneriercases.htm
(OMG, I almost really believed I was done with this UNDERAPPRECIATEDBLOG.   But here I am.  Every time I think I can just up-and-go-get my destiny, I see my parents are like hydras with their noses and bony-fingers into everything about me that I never even wanted in the first place.  I sent my dad and my witnesses a couple pertinent texts this morning, and I am duty-bound to record said communications.)

Fear not those who argue but those who dodge.

Wow, maybe nobody loves me after all.
Thanks.  I like that much better.
This morning I was thinking about all the great men and women that the Lord has used in extraordinary ministries. I was wondering why most of those who are called to be a voice for the Lord, or who have ministries of miracles, signs and wonders have been through so much adversity throughout their lives, but then I heard the Holy Spirit say, they are “The Lazarus generation”. These are men and women on the front lines whom I have loosed from a death sentence and have chosen as My end time warriors. Then I seen Jesus removing their grave clothes.

November 19, 2015
Here:   http://ft111.com/tavolacci.htm
(“You GO GOD.”) (“Amen.”)
I seen Jesus removing grave-clothes too.  And I also seen him locking up those who lied against the voice of the true prophetic.  I seen orange jumpsuits and zip-cord handcuffs which are fashionably presentable in court.  The accused faces the judge with nary a piece of his/her former life; re:   you may carry nothing of worldy value that you think might impress a judge.  Or a bailiff.  Or against a defendant-slash-plaintiff who has been entirely victorious against your fraudulent claims and nefarious efforts of destruction.  Or against any judge who I seen lying to take his/her seat.  (I really wasn’t going to post anymore posts, and I was going to finish the wood-fire mural on the kitchen wall that has not been touched for a year and the masking tape is still over the corners and I’d really like to be creative rather than destructive but destroying non-functional foundations is the first step of building something durable.  Amen.  Sigh.  I’m so very lonely.)  But, soon I will be released into service and I’m trying to imagine that imagining things is not unholy.  Were I truly free I could imagine all manner of goodness and pleasure.  I could imagine menus that would appease the conscience even as it subdued the palate to absolution of all tastes unwarranted, and all kills un-justified.  Eating can make us sane.  If we would allow it to do so.  But, soon eating will be a rare pleasure and we’ll watch others eat with lust in our hearts and violent intent.  Some of us.  Not me.  I don’t really have to eat.
You know what?  This is crazy.  I use ‘parentheses’ for my thoughts as I record my own life!!!!  Jesus died for me.  He did that for ME and my parents’ bullshit is yet so deeply embedded in my reality and my efforts, that I cannot EVEN SPEAK UP FOR MYSELF WITHOUT PARENTHESES AROUND MY WORDS!!!  I am not an after-thought.  I am not an ‘unwanted-pregnancy’ just because my parents were too selfish to actually want to serve another creature under even the tenderest circumstances.  I won so stinking bad that if my dad walked into this house today and shot me between the eyes I’d praIse Jesuse before the bullet took me to my real dad.  The same slug would take my worldly gamete-doner to hell.  I got nothin’ to say about any of it.  “Thank you, Jesus.  I love you.  I love my worldly father.  Please have mercy on him and draw him to you, to truth.  Amen.  I love you.  TTYL.  Linda.  Amen.”
(“ps.  Jesus.  I am a tiny bit concerned that my earthly ‘father’ might try to kill my ex-husband whom you love and for whom you plan great things.  If I am wrong about my earthly ‘father’s’ intentions, please give me peace.  You planned all of this before I was born.  I give you my life and the lives of all those I love and of all those to whom I am related.  I can’t wait to see your face and to feel your presence every single minute of every single day.  Do what you gotta do.  Just don’t let me miss my directions.  I’m so willing because you’re the only one who knows the future.  I am also so very prone to err.  Stop that about me please.  <3  L”)
I want to knit, or to sew, or to cook a feast or to paint or to play music.  I do not like this drudgery.  My life is not my own I know, but I’m guessing that JESUS doesn’t like this any more than I do.  Selah.
George doesn’t know it but he broke my heart.  Our sons don’t understand it either; and unless they do I don’t expect they’ll every be satisfied by a relationship with a devoted woman.  He stopped trusting me and he broke my heart and he lost his mind because I Ioved him and he turned his back on love because he chose to trust my dad who is a liar and a braggart and a silly small person.  George had the entire world, but he chose instead,  my hurting-father’s definition.  I had nothing to do with his demise.  I guess that’s pretty obvious.  Amen.  I am and have always been an all-or-nothing woman.  I am not gender-fluid and I am not apologetic for expecting things from a man when I am engaged in promoting our objectives’ feminine-counterpart.  BUT,  “God forgive me”…I CANNOT BE BOTH A MAN AND A WOMAN!!!  (Even Caitlyn and Chelsea know that.)  We choose our role, perhaps, and you’ll have to convince me but yet and still…we cannot choose beyond our ability to believe.   ‘Gender-fluid’ is mind-numbingly putrid,  and that  IS the end-goal of all of the most important people I’ve seen. They will submit and extend.  I am not fluid at all.  Nothing flows through this consciousness without standing to attention in the presence of the CREATOR AND REDEEMER OF ALL MANKIND… and wearing concrete-boots if need be.  I do not love my earthly life more than I love my perverted parents.  I DO NOT LOVE MY EARTHLY LIFE MORE THAN I LOVE MY PERVERTED PARENTS.  I DO NOT LOVE MY EARTHLY LIFE MORE THAN I LOVE MY PERVERTED PARENTS.  (HEY, Y’all.  If they do not speak to me after multi-universe protestations then they are seriously fucked up, right?  I mean, we’re keeping records right?  906-291-1376)  (ADAM KNOWS that George broke my heart.  My sons cannot even recognize the extent… of their father’s betrayal… of their mother; George doesn’t even know it himself.  God bless him.  But although I haven’t even seen him for MANY YEARS, Adam knows that George broke my heart.  Do I love that, or do I spit at the universe?)
I’m checking the headlines for Trish.  You never know.  I prayed for her for many years.
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Wow, there are a lot more Trish Morrises than there are Linda Goldthorpes.
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This is Trish Morris:
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I really miss the Patricia Morris I thought I knew.  I’ve got nothing invested in taking anybody down, not even my dad or Glenn Wilson.  I am totally invested in truth.

10:12 am

Geoengineering now becoming a global business, while mainstream media and government continue to deny the truth

Through the years, cloud seeding chemists have introduced new ways to manipulate the weather using planes and mass aerial dispersal of chemicals. Today, there are entire companies that specialize in controlling the weather; for instance, one European company charges wedding planners $150,000 to guarantee a rain-free wedding day. The National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration reports that 55 cloud seeding projects took place last year in the US alone.
“Extrapolation”- to thrust into a new area of experience and activity.  That’s what my sons and I really need.  Josh is tired all the time.  He’s too tired to do things he’d like to do.  His job sucks life out of him.  He belongs to God so he will have renewal soon.  I’m imagining a lot of good things for him.  He’s so responsible.  We all are.
It is without question that the remote-neural-monitors know about the existence of human spirit-bodies and souls and all that stuff.  They probably just pack up their notes every week and truck them over to the Vatican so they can be locked up with all the other good stuff that nobody else ever gets to see.  Many physical/mental responses happen according to spiritual experiences, and my government monitors these things.  They’ve got tons of evidence… and they’re scared to death of people like me.  They know that a certain body of people are influenced extra-terrestrially.  And they know that nothing they could ever code into the A-[capital]-I-whirl-i-gig will ever permit them to predict our behavior.  Therefore they cannot predict the results of any behavior we may randomly choose to undertake. That’s the truth of our situation on planet Earth.  They don’t even have to believe in God to know the fear of the Lord.  Scientists are most fearful.  As they should be.  If they deny the evidence they are failure-scientists as well as failure-humans.  They know the ramifications of all those things because they took Psych 101.  “Ooga-booga.”
Oh, wow, everything lately is about Isaiah 61.  This is Jesus’ reason for approaching this fallen planet.  This is also now our raison d’etre.  Nothing else matters, but the life of Jesus, which is our life.  Our only life.

Colorado Springs, CO


November 17, 2015

I am calling forth those who I have destined to be My soldiers. Come and advance My Kingdom, and invade earth with heaven. March forward and advance My Kingdom. Declare My truths, walk in My righteousness, walk in My authority and stand on My promises.

My Soldiers put on the full armor that I have provided. They hearken and obey My voice. I am the Commander and Chief, The King of Kings. My soldiers are so in love and committed to Me that they desire to execute and follow through on My plans no matter what the personal cost is to them.

For I am moving through My soldiers of light who will move forward throughout the world from sea to sea. They will share My Resurrection Life and destroy the darkness over this world. They will bring forth My healing and deliverance, and set the captives free. For who I set free will be free to move forward and follow after Me.

Isaiah 61 “The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek. He hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives and the opening of the prison doors to them that are bound.”

Our Commander and Chief God has called us to be His soldiers advancing His Kingdom, and to teach and train the saints for the work of the ministry. His desire is that none shall parish, but that all shall have eternal life. So arise His soldiers of Light and speak forth with authority and power. Destroy the darkness in this world by declaring his oracles, led by His Spirit.

Does anybody recognize what amazing focus I’ve demonstrated?  I’ve spent two and a half years on the same ten websites and I’ve compulsively recorded my life to no avail.  I’m seeking a friend for the end of the world and I still have no friends or allies.  I am obsessive-compulsive and otherwise neurotic…but I am also  demonstrably one of the few Goldthorpes who is not viscerally character-impaired.  Yet, “insanity is repeating the same thing over and over and over,  when it always, always, always turns out the same.”  Lights out.  Love you all.  906-291-1376.  906-586-4629.  Call ahead and I’ll cook to order.
Those women who lied about me and then died?   (They’re all in my first book.)
Mary was not yet sixty.
Kriste was maybe 40?  Maybe not.
Carole wasn’t sixty yet.
Margaret was maybe 57.
I’m checking the headlines for Trish.  You never know.  I prayed for her for many years.

White House Won’t Tell Governors Where Refugees Being Sent

Nov.19: Over a dozen governors from both parties joined the conference call, which was initiated by the White House after 27 governors vowed not to cooperate with further resettlement of Syrian refugees in their states.
TERROR ALERT–Giant catfish are so scary that life-long fishermen refuse to get into their boats anymore!

“Nothing is impossible, the word itself says ‘I’m possible’!” ~ Audrey Hepburn

“OH, yeah.  Narcissist-rage.  Thanks.”
5:42 am

Does ISIS Exist? Some Say No

Dr. Ron Paul




In Syria Christians have always been much safer than they have ever been in Israel.  In Iran Jews sit in government, and Christians are safer than those few who remain in Bethlehem.  American Christians have been deceived about Israel.  I don’t believe that a messy desk is the sign of a healthy mind, but a healthy mind sometimes MUST make a mess.

1 Chronicles 16:29-31

29 Give unto the Lord the glory due unto his name: bring an offering, and come before him: worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness.

30 Fear before him, all the earth: the world also shall be stable, that it be not moved.

31 Let the heavens be glad, and let the earth rejoice: and let men say among the nations, The Lord reigneth.

Thou shalt not plow with an ox and an ass together.
(This one just hit me like a hammer between the eyes.)
Dogfood ads always promote shininess and stamina.  If they’d formulate a nutritional supplement to kindliness, I might bite.
I’m looking for the scripture passage that says, in effect:  If you’ve got any activity happening it’s going to make a mess before it becomes profitable.  The Bible says something about a barn staying nice and clean as long as it doesn’t house any animals.  I can’t find the verses for the life of me.  Somebody’s playing a joke on me.  I usually find even things I’m not looking for!
7:22 am
One of my favorite stories about angels comes from Guatemala.  A Christian man, a medical doctor, was killed in a city-traffic accident.  Time stopped as he died, and angels came to the car and fixed his body.  Everybody all around was kind of suspended.  I remember that the angels closed his chest-cavity but refused to mend some small abrasion.  The doctor said, “Wait!  Where are you going?  You fixed 1, 2, 3…but you didn’t fix this?”  The angels replied (or one of the angels, I imagine…), “We have to leave something for the doctors to do.”  That’s the world I live in.  Anyway,  when the doctor regained (actually, when he LOST…) consciousness, his shirt was covered in blood and his chest was not injured.  Everybody who witnessed the accident were just beginning to react, stepping off the curb, recoiling in horror, etc.  This was years ago and we’ll soon witness regular incidents of amazing interventions from the spirit realm.  These interventions will be good for us and some will not be good for us.  We will not always be able to tell the difference, since both the good spirits and the bad spirits will do magic.  Think on these things.
When I say ‘He’ it was a person who I knew wasn’t of this world. It was a Heaven sent person in an angelic form. And at that point he just lifted me up and I went with him. He pulled me out and we started getting further away from the accident site. At that point I know I left my body. I know I did. He told me I could look back if I wanted to, but I didn’t want to. And the further we got away from the accident site the more peace I felt – such peace. And the love? The love can’t be explained; we’re too finite in our words. It can’t be explained in human terms. The love, like you are going home. 
(Angel-love is really hard to explain.)  (It’s pretty addicting.)

A dentist faces up to 10 years in prison for arranging to have sex with a 12-year-old girl in exchange for prescription painkillers and cash.

OMG!  This is a betrayal of trust on so many levels I don’t even have to comment.

This is interesting:   On the 13th November 2015 during the Paris attacks, 4.1 million people submitted their personal details to the Facebook Safety App, 360 million people received Facebook messages reassuring them of their friends and family’s safety. This information may well have been deposited into an Israeli intelligence bank.
3:51 am

Syrian President Bashar Assad considers Russia’s Vladimir Putin as the “only defender of Christian civilization one can trust.”

Read more: http://sputniknews.com/middleeast/20151118/1030307330/assad-putin-christianity.html#ixzz3rvUXXt1u

Do you ever look into a new person’s face and just know that you two will never connect about anything at all?  You don’t even try because you can tell from their eyes that it’s pointless.  Unless some major event occurs that supernaturally deposits you and your acquaintance on the same level of pertinent reality, superficiality will be your only life-raft through the murky encounter to the sheltered shoal of sane solitude.  Other times you see real shrewdness in eyes that adamantly refuse connection; like you know he’s on the same page but there’s no way he’ll ever let on because that would relinquish some adversarial advantage imagined by his wounded, petulant psyche.   That describes my mom, and then my dad.
I’d like a quicker path into real conversation than trivia, but that’s always how we begin.  I’d also like to think that psychopaths and malignant narcissists have a harder time manipulating smart people, but I don’t think that’s so.  They flatter really well because they know what they’d like people to say about them.  That’s one way you can tell you’re being manipulated, if you know them well:  they will praise things that you don’t personally give a rip about.  Their shallow values are on display, if you pay attention.  They don’t even TRY to empathize or consider the target’s personal values.  Or taste.  Or schedule.  Or budget.  Or commitments.  (The more I think about this stuff the more amazed I am that I was so-long deceived by psychopathic parenting.  I didn’t even know what love was!!!  And I BELIEVED I was a piece of shit like they always said!)  (Unrequited love makes you become a really hard worker though.)
America is being invaded, and Europe too.  We lost  WWIII, and we are being occupied.  America is under foreign occupation. America is dead.  We must save what can be saved.  We must care about people and not about systems.  We must share and quit lying.  We must lay down our lives for one another and we must dare to communicate.  We must spill our guts before somebody does it for us.  Being split asunder is fatal, whether the blow comes from a sword of metal or a sword of WORDS!  (Somebody in my family must have been paying attention in Sunday School.)
“Dear Lord, please give me better words to say if you want me to keep writing to my parents.  They’re so very hard!  HARD!  For seven years they have refused what your word VERY CLEARLY SAYS THEY MUST DO.  Your Word says they shouldn’t write a single check to the church until they have made things right with those who have something against them.  They’re FRAUDS and I want so badly to stop saying so!  I dislike this job!  Please could I cook and plan parties for people who are truthful?  Could I work at that nice gas station in West Virginia?  Could I be FINISHED with this project?  Would you release the restoration?  Would you fill us all with Love and Truth so that we can start over with untainted relationships?  May I please have my money so I can begin what you want me to do?”  (“I guess I have just as much as I need and I’m doing what you want.”  “Sorry.”)
“Also can my mom not be so stinking ANGRY ALL THE TIME?  They got mad at me because I was trying to OBEY YOU so I know you won’t let this stand.  Who do they think they are?  They INTERFERED with EVERY ASPECT OF MY LIFE…and they’re mad at me?  Please give them a brain or two, and please give me resolution.  Nevertheless, this is your project and I am your servant and my life is not my own.  I gave my life for others and the fact that nobody has chosen to receive it is a subject between you and them.  Please fill me with love and give me patience.  Please give my sons Truth and opportunity.  Please give us all a whole lot of love.  Amen.”
Isn’t that a patient dog?  God makes His ministers as ‘barking dogs.’  (Also flames of fire.)
From whence come wars and fightings among you? come they not hence, even of your lusts that war in your members?
4:15 pm

“Never explain, never complain.”  (Kate Moss)

Sweden Connects Israel To Paris Terror Attacks, Relates Treatment Of Palestinians To Violent Extremism

ISIS may now have a tactical nuke in San Francisco

(How long do we actually believe we may as individuals remain mentally-stable with this kind of senseless unpredictable violence may strike us dead at any moment?  We must have a relationship with God or we will eventually succumb.)

“There comes a time when mocking the messenger will no longer prevent the ramifications of the Truth.”

Steve Quayle: ISIS Attack Will Lead To Armageddon!


“This is not immigration.  We are under invasion.”
“We’re under attack.  We’re in a state of war.”
“When your freedom dies, you’re the next to die.”
We are utterly helpless.  Our world is poisoned and radioactive.  Other creatures force us to receive injections of unknown toxins and biological manipulants.  We would shop wisely and nourish ourselves,  but the available foodstuffs are fraudulently packaged and we can’t know what’s in the boxes.  The law says we are not permitted to know.  That law was passed by other creatures who make decisions for us.  We pay these thinkers, to do our thinking for us.  We also pay priests to seek after God in our stead.  When we need a miracle we go to these priests who post selfies with stethoscopes around their necks.  They have very trusty-smiles.  We permit them to pass judgment over our lives and our souls.  We confess to them and they prescribe penance.  We suck it up because we know we deserve what we’re getting, we deserve what we are.  They tell us, “You are cancer.”  Even worse, they sometimes tell us, “Your PRECIOUS CHILD is cancer.”  Then they tell us what we must do to appease the monsanto-cancer-gods.  They can’t ever  guarantee that the ritual will actually work, but hell, isn’t that the way it is with the supernatural?  And isn’t medicine supernatural to the suffering?  Who among us would not have kissed a sainted hippo-cratic ass in search of a painkiller on a particularly painful day?  But, we daren’t take a pill without sanction of the priests.  They judge us and they spy for the government and they sell us poisons so the manufacturers will provide kickbacks to the priest-doctors who frequently have a meltdown when somebody they love gets cancer.  Fake priests will suffer the most.  That’s a given.
I made a mincemeat pie and boiled chicken.  I made dough for spinach dumplings which I will simmer in the chicken broth, and tomorrow I’ll add vegetables and put the chicken back into the broth to serve over biscuits.  I used some chicken for a bowl of spicy sesame noodles with cilantro and peppers.  I’m watching the movie where Matt Damon becomes a cyborg because he got a full dose of radiation and he’ll die unless he goes to the breakaway civilization where he can be cured but he can’t get there unless he pulls one last crime.  I guess he was a famous crook.  This scenario is not strange.  Every day I reed details of each aspect of Damon’s problem and of his task.  This stuff is very real.  Except Jodie Foster.  I’ve never seen her more fake.  This show is like a cartoon or something.  Everything is way over-the-top.  What are we expected to see?  What should we observe instead?
4:16 pm
I can’t watch this movie.  I tried.


8:48 am
I made pancakes and ham for Josh, buttermilk kind.  His lunch has chicken souvlaki with tzatiziki, ripe olives and pickled banana peppers and kale ricotta spanikopita.   I gave him a few of the amaretti I bought to make Sarah Bernhardts for my dad because the pumpkin pie I made yesterday is all gone.  He asked why I make cookies for my dad.  I told him the Bible says I should feed those who persecute me and take care of backstabbers.  I think he kind of liked it.  I told him about the verse that says we should do good things for our enemies and thereby pour hot coals of fire on their heads.  He sees strategic wisdom in that.
Targeted Individuals are victims of Jade-Helm, a software program under covert Skynet butchering TIs to slow death, cooking innocents in America, on America soil.
 Rather than dissident round up or immediate martial law it appears to be preparing a control grid that is based on AI predictive programming to predict human movement and behavior during social unrest that we all know is coming and being created intentionally by the establishment. There are great references in here as well as documentation, and the person doing the video is very clear, calm, and concise. Jade Helm appears to be Skynet on steroids.
7:19 am

Why a Narcissistic Mother Needs a Scapegoat

The scapegoat is the truth-teller in the midst of this great pretender’s sticky web of lies, secrets and pretense.  This child can do no right in the eyes of the narcissistic mother and often can do no right in the eyes of the entire family.   The other children quickly learn it is OK for them to blame the scapegoat too.  As the narcissistic mother skillfully manipulates every member of the family she also will rewrite history, or twists reality beyond all recognition to be sure this child takes the blame. 
I grew up in the midst of abject mental illness.  I don’t think my dad was always entirely character-flawed, but his weakness worked into really psychopathic tendencies.  Our house was psychotic when I was a kid and the best place to hide mental illness is in the regurgitation of everybody else’s symptoms.  As I learn about the roles developed by the actors, I’m reminded of my mother’s many discussions about mental illness.  She defined the individual characters using OTHER PEOPLE’S FAMILIES.  She taught me about scapegoats!!  And I couldn’t ever see that I was one.  She taught me about a lot of pathology I already knew from experience.
My father would sometimes remain angry for an entire month.  No communication.  Rather than ask for the salt, he’d walk around the table to get it.  He was violently angry and extremely paranoid for a lot of my childhood.  His rage was so compressed that he kinda bounced when he walked.  Mom just bailed, and I don’t really blame her,  she was only a teenager.  She went to school all the time, sometimes she even had an apartment in another town.  Sick, sick family, and they wanted us to be perfect-looking and on parade all the time, manipulating our activities etc.  It’s a really sad life they’ve had and it’s nice to know that Jesus can redeem those years and restore what never was.
 He can pour so much love and forgiveness and acceptance and joy on my parents that they can stop pretending and finally look me in the eye and speak truthfully to my sons.  They could enjoy the apocalypse as much as I am.  Failing that, their hearts will stop for fear probably.  That’s what the Bible says.  Nobody gets out of here by the skin of his teeth, the options are far different. Our choice is not between eternal death and mere survival; those who survive will grow into mighty overcomers of Truth and Love! They will never permit a lie to sully their joy and they heal everybody they encounter.  I can hardly wait to raise the dead!
 “Dear Lord, thank you that I’m not vomiting anymore. I still don’t feel very well and I’d like to fast again if you’ll help me.  It was a hard night after dealing with my mother’s blame-shifting.  Thank you that she is finally communicating with me after all these years of stonewalling.  Give me divine love for her and allow me to see her through your gentle eyes of compassion and destiny.
“Lord, when I used to age, I learned to recognize the growing horror as one’s flesh-box shrinks-tighter and becomes less able and agile.  It’s TERRIBLY frightening when the world becomes progressively less accessible.  My mom is already half-titanium, and she’s certainly experienced more months physically incapacitated than most people.  Would you give her an amazing blessing?  How about an amazing physical blessing that would allow her to experience freedom of her body and abilities.  Give her a mind for possibilities rather than excuses and scape-goating.  Give her a purpose!  She seems utterly purposeless, and that’s gotta be hard.  Give her love for other beings sufficient that she might sacrifice on their behalf, and learn the joy of living like you.  Speak to her heart with ideas for connecting, really connecting.  Take away her need for doo-dads and glamour, let her love a child.  Fill her with your Spirit so that all worry is pushed right out of her as the wrinkles are smoothed from her forehead.  Love her actually Jesus, please?  Love her practically, in a way that she can recognize.  Please impress on her the lateness of the hour, in Earth terms as well as her own opportunity for a well-eternity.  Give her joy Lord.  Give her much Truth, but give her also much joy.  Thank you for my mom.  She taught me to cook a little.  Amen.”
6:24 pm
6:20 pm
MOM,  you sound so dumb!  Do not presume that actions of this household are due to my influence.  You and dad destroyed my influence as you intended.  You will deal with what you constructed.  I’ll get a really nice house somewhere.  
6:00 pm
Actually I didn’t send all that.  I did send other texts to my DADMOMDAVID.  It’s been a year since David sent me to the CONFERENCE ON COVERT HARASSMENT in Belgium and he has STILL REFUSED TO TALK TO ME ABOUT IT and I really pray that his daughters are not the next RAPE VICTIMS OF HIS TAX DOLLARS.  FOOLISH MAN.
My mom texted me grief about how Dad just bought us more propane and therefore I have no right to expect truth on any topic.  Apparently, she thought I should be grateful for a consideration that was unnecessary until he DESTROYED MY MARRIAGE AND MY REPUTATION.  I overheard George bragging to a guest how ‘he’ was ‘using propane’ this year.  And my MOTHER thinks I should be grateful that my life has been on hold for SEVEN YEARS BECAUSE SHE AND DAD LIED ABOUT ME?  “Dear Lord, please do not strike that stupid heartless woman dead in her tracks.  Thank you.  Amen.”
4:55 pm
Text to MOM:
Sweetie.  It’s all over.  My side won.  All of my compatriots believe that people like you should not be permitted to remain on this earth that we are taking into possession for Jesus, the Christ.  What do you think, Mom?  Should we permit you to remain on terra-sorta-firma?  Do you deserve to live here with those of us who have suffered at the hands of you and other behavior-modification-specialists?  Ooops.  Think real hard.  You have my number although that couldn’t be proven by the TELECOMMUNICATION-DATA  owned in the cloud.  Nobody calls me.  This is because of you and Dad.  I used to have friends and even family.   Mama.  Puny, stinky mama:
By Linda Goldthorpe, discarded protoplasm of Goldthorpe-dynasty-faker-plastic-money-tasteless-(you get the idea.)  I am Linda Goldthorpe and I do hereby swear and attest that my kin are going to HELL really soon unless they permit (and enable aka MONEY) my sons and me to inhabit a PUNY STINKING CONDO in Toronto whereby changing our lives from the CRAP  they (forementioned parties) provided and ENSURED that we live, and    ahem.   permit us to become what GOD ALMIGHTY INTENDS FOR US.  I am VERY SUBMISSIVE.  God wants me to be something VERY DIFFERENT that what is valued by my uneducated puny-ass father.  Please.  Dad.  Stand aside.  I’ll move on.  I’ll write home.  (Mom can read the letters to you.)  You’re a moron but I don’t have to tell you that.  You tell yourself the same thing every day!  My father blasts that reality into the mirror (I know this.  Journals. ) “Robert.  You are a moron.  You must pretend to be smart so people will believe you are smart] and then you will receive the benefits that accrue to people who are smart or else people whom  somebody else believes to be smart.  That sentence sorta fizzledout.   Dad.  Smart is not any big deal.  The stupidest people in history have been very smart. Approval by THE MASONIC ENTERPRISE does not mean that you are smart.  If you wanna be smart, you pray.  “I love you very much Dad but you’re so stupid I can hardly stand it.”   David is a mason, right?  Get him free.  Hell is forever.  JUST DO IT.
5:44 pm
2:35 pm
No response to texts so I sent the following:    DO YOU GUYS REMEMBER JOSH?  …the man for whom I BEGGED ALL OF YOU to provide sanctuary?  You chose to sacrifice him so you could continue gaslighting me.  That’s evil,   but you could do the right thing now, and maybe not burn in hell.  I RECORDED EVERY TIME YOU SENT ME AWAY WHEN I WAS BEGGING FOR HELP FOR HIM.   I’ll watch what happens.  Before you guys, he used to love Jesus.   You THREW JOSH UNDER THE BUSS.  You’ll toast.  Or you’ll give me MY KEY TO MY CONDO.  Or not.  Then Jesus will come and you can speak to him instead of me.
Actually I didn’t send all that.  I did send other texts to my DADMOMDAVID.  It’s been a year since David sent me to the CONFERENCE ON COVERT HARASSMENT in Belgium and he has STILL REFUSED TO TALK TO ME ABOUT IT and I really pray that his daughters are not the next RAPE VICTIMS OF HIS TAX DOLLARS.  FOOLISH MAN.
12:56 pm
Prisoners are given knives to carve Thanksgiving turkeys for poor folk.  They are not permitted to take the knife to their children’s domicile to carve meat for their own kin and loved ones and their own legitimate responsibility.  They’re only good enough to take care of poor-folk.  And, the poor folk must be grateful for all demonstrations of largesse, and they’re grateful for the felons who wait tables.  Our whole world is intent on destroying personal dignity and real responsibility.  We make me puke.

ISIS Calls Hackers ‘Idiots’ After Anonymous Declares ‘War’

(This ought to be good.)

U.S. Supreme Court Refuses to Hear Case of Marine Brandon Raub Who Was Arrested & Locked up in a Mental Hospital for Criticizing the Gov’t on Facebook

 In asking the Supreme Court to hear the case, Rutherford Institute attorneys were seeking to overturn lower court rulings dismissing the case, which characterized concerns over government suppression of dissident speech as “far-fetched.”In rejecting the appeal, the Supreme Court also refused to establish standards to guide and constrain mental health professionals when they seek to commit individuals and to prevent commitment on the basis of a person’s exercise of his right to free speech.

12:35 pm

LOOK! Channel On Staged Terror Events Was Created On the 12th, Then Removed

TEXT TO DAD, and amused witnesses:

“A Swedish language course begins in Toronto in January.  Let’s get Josh enrolled.  I can also begin a course leading to certification as an English teacher.  You must begin to do the right thing sometime.  Today is the first day of the rest of your life.”  (Dad ALWAYS says that…) I added:    “Unless you die.”

3:16 am


BREAKING: U.N. backs effort to replace U.S. dollar as choice of trade

The Paris Attacks: An Open Source Investigation

at The Corbett Report

French Government Knew The Terrorist Attack Would Happen In Paris!

Paris Attack Reported on WIKIPEDIA and TWITTER before it happened !!!


Newly released email shows top aide Huma Abedin warned colleagues Hillary was ‘often confused’ and needed hand-holding about calls with foreign leaders

Hillary Clinton needed hand-holding with her daily schedule and was ‘often confused’ while she was secertary of state, her former top aide and ‘body woman’ Huma Adebin wrote a colleague in a January 2013 email.

The message, to coworker Monica Hanley, followed a back-and-forth about Clinton’s schedule of calls with foreign leaders, including an 8:00 a.m. appointment to speak with Indian Prime Minister Manmohan Singh.

‘Have you been going over calls with her for tomorrow? So she knows singh [sic] ls at 8?’ Abedin asked Hanley just before 5:00 p.m. on a Saturday.

‘She was in bed for a nap by the time I heard that she had an 8am call,’ Hanley replied three minutes later. ‘Will go over with her.’

‘Very imp[ortant] to do that. She’s often confused,’ Abedin told her.

Read more: whatreallyhappened.com http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3rjk4Jbzq


I’m seeing a new word in a lot of things:  vindicated.  “Why would you want to think about something mediocre when you can think about something absolutely brilliant?”  “Think again.  That’s what repentance means.  Start partnering with the Holy Spirit in how Heaven thinks.”

 All Things Are Possible

Graham Cooke 
“A promise shows you an outcome.  The outcome is designed to increase your faith so you engage with the process.  So when God shows you who He wants you to be, everything between now and you becoming that, every situation and circumstance is designed to enable you to become that person.  So you overcome your problems because you have an outcome.  If you have an outcome it means you’re gonna survive the process.”
“Faith gives you imagination to overcome logic and rationale, by giving you a vision for what God is permitting.”
“You can’t grow in faith if you never have a problem.”
First of all, avatars don’t come out of religions, they establish them. There is a big difference between thinking you are fighting the good fight and justice will be on your side and coming into the room as a rep of the one who makes the rules.  (Les Visible)
Soon enough the mighty are going to fall. Many of them are being driven insane as I type these words. They are going mad. The rudder of stability within their hearts and minds is broken. The times in which they formerly prospered are fading away. The source from which they have drawn their power is being shut down and the power is being rerouted. These are not speculations on my part.  (Les Visible)


“As the French death metal fans were singing along with those lyrics, offering their love to Satan, the Devil responded as the Devil always does. With death and destruction. Now, you go ahead and spin that any way you like, any way that makes you feel comfortable. But as a Bible believer, I know exactly what happened Friday night at 9:40PM GMT in Paris, France. People asked for a manifestation of the Satan, and guess what? They got one.”

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Graham Cooke told a great story.  He was waiting for Jesus, but when He showed up he was stomping and dead-serious as he demanded:  “Give me back my stuff!”  He didn’t mean He wanted those gifts He had given, but the stuff he bled and died to free us from.  He paid for anxiety and worry and it belongs to him.  We are intended to ENJOY THE VICTORY He won for all humanity. We must become a new creature, but He has no desire to work on our old nature.  He died to redeem it because it wasn’t anything worth salvage.  SO, We should not be more sin-conscious than we are God-conscious.   God’s not working on the old man’s problems, He’s working on the new man’s possibilities,  and He’s never late.

“The lab is intentionally reporting nonexistent felonies,” said Frazier, “and the prosecutors are going after medical marijuana patients with these lab reports that are fraudulent.”

Activists believe that Michigan Attorney General Bill Schuette may be behind the pressure on the crime lab. In 2008 Schuette led the opposition to the successful initiative. “He’s been opposed to medical marijuana since the get-go and has used his office to circumvent the law,” said Charmie Gholson, a drug policy reform advocate based in Michigan.

Read more at:   https://theintercept.com/2015/11/14/michigan-prosecutors-lab-falsify-medical-marijuana-results/

Putin Takes The Gloves Off Against The U.S

How funny that I’m finally growing up just in time for WWIII.  Lots of scapegoat-children of malignant narcissists wake up at about my age, and when they realize the extent they have believed lies and suffered sabotage, their lives finally take off.    I’m trying to see only possibilities in every circumstance and I’m considering removing the leash and muzzle from my imagination.  Fancy that.  I’ve fought imagination for my entire Christian experience.  The Bible warns against “vain imaginations” so I guess that necessarily means that some imaginations are NOT IN VAIN.

Gearóid Ó Colmáin reporting for RT admitted a plethora of truth on air recently, including the fact that “ISIS is a creation of the United States,” citing “official sources.”

“There is no war on terror there is a war that is being waged using terrorist proxy groups,” Ó Colmáin said.

“There is no such thing as ISIS.”

‘The French Government just wants to get in on the game inside Syria.’

Is this ludicrous?  We close down an entire college because of one pissed off freshman?  I can’t wait until the feds get all those cells finished so we can all move into them so we’re safe.

Washington College in Chestertown, Maryland will close its campus for a second day after a missing student went home to Pennsylvania to get a gun.

The parents of a sophomore student at the college contacted officials to say he took a firearm from their home, and that they had not been able to reach him since. The college says Chestertown police currently consider the student a missing person.

Read more at:   <a href="https://wordpress.com/read/post/feed/335561/865846523[/embed]">https://wordpress.com/read/post/feed/335561/865846523

Trial for Baltimore Officer Accused of Killing Dog has Begun

(As of yesterday, one THOUSAND humans have been killed by police officers this year.)See at:   <a href="https://wordpress.com/read/post/feed/335561/865861075[/embed]">https://wordpress.com/read/post/feed/335561/865861075

Our lives are squished down to the level of the threat we assume by the most fucked-up of our species.  If ANYBODY can act so stupid, then we ALL MUST SUBMIT TO BEHAVIOR CONTROLS WE DO NOT REQUIRE AND OUR LIVES ARE CORRESPONDINGLY TAKEN.

The TRUTH will set you free:

Sheen said one of the reasons he disclosed the news about his health was to stop others from extorting him. He would not disclose how many people he was paying for their silence, but said the payments reached into the millions of dollars to people he once considered in his inner circle.

“What people forget is this is money, money they are taking from my children,” Sheen said, referring to his 5 kids and one grandchild.

“I thought they could be helpful. Instead, my trust turned into their treason,” Sheen said, adding he will no longer pay those people.

“I think I released myself from this prison today,” he said.

(Sheen became a ‘Christian’ some years ago.  Jesus doesn’t take that stuff lightly.)  (He’s also not afraid of AIDS or of a flawed reputation.)

Read more at:   <a href="http://www.theglobeandmail.com/arts/television/charlie-sheen-says-he-is-hiv-positive/article27291697/[/embed]">http://www.theglobeandmail.com/arts/television/charlie-sheen-says-he-is-hiv-positive/article27291697/

Underneath Gardiner Expressway Development

(Video about my new neighborhood!)

See it here:   http://www.theglobeandmail.com/news/news-video/video-is-torontos-new-frontier-under-the-gardiner-expressway/article27286323/

I’m telling you it makes sense even though I can’t see what ‘Black Lives Matter’ thinks is so terrible about white men.  But, I do have my own personal criticisms.  I don’t really give a shit about my race in any matter except the fictional safety of numbers.  I am not like-minded with anybody I know, not even white people.  All the white men I know (and that is ALL the men I know lately) are WIMPS.  Pussies, woosy, wimpy panty-waists with no conviction and less chutzpah.  So ashamed of the white men I know.  Very disappointing.


(Maybe my parents will listen now that a movie star says it’s so.)

Dartmouth Black Lives Matter protest: “F*** you, you filthy white f***s!”

The protesters were supposedly there to protest decisions made by the University that they disagreed with as well as to show support for the so-called uprising at the University of Missouri. Instead, the #BLM inspired students made complete asses of themselves while showing the world what they really stand for.

An article about the protests published in the conservative Dartmouth Review details what the Black Lives Matter protesters were actually chanting as well as the sick demands they hurled at random students who were simply at the library to study.

(When I was in school, they told me that if you wanted to change the world you shouldn’t interrupt people and scream at them.  We were told to run for elected office.  That takes a lot more time though.)

See more at:   <a href="https://www.intellihub.com/dartmouth-black-lives-matter-protest-f-you-you-filthy-white-fs/[/embed]">https://www.intellihub.com/dartmouth-black-lives-matter-protest-f-you-you-filthy-white-fs/

4:45 pm

Dad Tells Cops they Need a Warrant to Search Home, So they Kick in his Door & Kill Him

Text to Dad and witnesses:
My sons do not yet know how important I have been to their father’s cogent interaction with the world.  BUT, they DO know I was his only friend and he no longer trusts me.  He wouldn’t let me go to the grocery store alone today!  You better tell the truth old man.   I’m still serving the man I divorced three years ago and he doesn’t even know that’s weird. But you do.

WikiLeaks: Today (Monday) we release 30 hours of tapes related to a billion dollar corruption scandal with links to the White House.

Conspiracy theorists of the world, believers in the hidden hands of the Rothschilds and the Masons and the Illuminati, we skeptics owe you an apology.

You were right. The players may be a little different, but your basic premise is correct: The world is a rigged game. 

See more at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/conspiracy-theorists-of-the-world-believers-in-the-hidden-hands-of-the-rothschilds-and-the-masons-and-the-illuminati-we-skeptics-owe-you-an-apology/

Understanding Why The Narcissist Initiates & Maintains No Contact With A Target

“A narcissist is paranoid that the target will get revenge on him or her for what he or she has done to the target.”  (I sure know about this one.)

George won’t let me go to the grocery store alone.  We’ve been divorced for three years.  I have served him as well as I can for as long as I could.  He can’t trust me because he trusts my father.    I’m looking forward to Toronto.  It was nice for my dad to come see us last night, after all these years.  It will be nicer to see him when he comes with a checkbook and apology.  Soon.  It makes my cheeks burn that George doesn’t trust me.  
6:00 am
Fukushima’s Political Fallout Puts 
Anti-nuke Researcher On Trial
Durnford has an encyclopedic recall for identifying marine species that few marine biologists can equal. His estimate, four years after the Fukushima nuclear disaster, is that out of more than 2,000 coastal species only about 200 still survive. The absence of any other plausible cause prompted his conclusion that low-level radiation from Fukushima arriving in immense volumes is responsible for the greatest extermination event in human history. His field research shows that the ongoing ecocide of the Pacific is a man-made catastrophe and not a natural disaster, and the nuclear industry bears the entire culpability. For his tireless campaign of gathering a vast body of smoking-gun evidence, Durnford is being persecuted in a modern-day witch trial by the high priests of the nuclear industry.
What is interesting today about the Fukushima-related arrest of Durnford is the eagerness of the Canadian authorities to suppress its own citizens who criticize Japan’s nuclear industry. This is because Fukushima-perpetrator TEPCO is a shareholder in Canada’s largest untapped deposit of high-grade uranium, which began production in September 2015. If ever there was a deal with the devil, it is called, appropriately, Cigar Lake.
Jean Rostand says, in Thoughts of a Biologist: Kill one man, and you are a murderer. Kill millions of men, and you are a conqueror. Kill them all, and you are a god.
Beware of ads that use inaudible sound to link your phone, TV, tablet, and PC
“The ultrasonic pitches are embedded into TV commercials or are played when a user encounters an ad displayed in a computer browser. While the sound can’t be heard by the human ear, nearby tablets and smartphones can detect it. When they do, browser cookies can now pair a single user to multiple devices…”
Read more at:   http://arstechnica.com/tech-policy/2015/11/beware-of-ads-that-use-inaudible-sound-to-link-your-phone-tv-tablet-and-pc/

There’s so much talk about who’s a true Jew, who’s a Palestinian, who’s from the Merovingian bloodline, who’s related to whom, Sumerian roots permeating society – or any of the genetic or esoteric vibrational qualities passed down through generations of careful guardianship.  Perhaps we’re giving too much credence and hence deference to this blood and heritage game. Maybe it has an almost negligible influence on any real scale regarding the reality of our situation here and what we’re to do about it.

It’s just insider trading of power, and these fear based excuses in the mind’s eye of the subjugated are their currency, real or imaginary.

Royalty is the perfect example. Look how many stand in awe and adoration of this obscene pageantry of oppression, actually identifying with it as some sort of wondrous expression of their own personal glory for being subjects to such demeaning high arrogance. This is the definition of insanity if you ask me. Raped inmates adoring their captors, plunderers and abusers.

The emperor has no clothes to those who can see. That’s when the empowerment kicks in.

That’s when we bring them down – with a world theater filled with awakened onlookers laughing uproariously at their foolish, futile and increasingly desperate antics.

Enjoy the ride!

We’ve already won. Now stick it to them bold and unafraid.

The Devil, Bataclan Concert Hall & Friday the 13th Paris Events

France Terror HOAX Operation Gladio on Steroids

James Corbett’s fine research.  Abby straightened her hair.

France Terrorist Attack: Another Psychological Operation

I sure hope my dad lets me move into my condo in Toronto pretty soon.  Josh can sign up for Swedish language lessons that begin in January.  Also I could begin a TEFL course in January.


Prerequisite No prior knowledge of Swedish is required.

Course Objective This course puts emphasis on everyday Swedish and is designed with the absolute beginner in mind. The main objective of the course is to give an ability to use the Swedish language to communicate and exchange basic information. The course will start with the fundamentals such as the alphabet and numbers. You will continue to build vocabulary and incorporate some grammar to create sentences. There will be plenty of
opportunities to practice pronunciation.

After this course, you should be able to:

  • use greetings and farewells and introduce yourself;
  • pronounce in a way that people will understand you;
  • talk about yourself, family, leisure time, studies, work, weather, etc.;
  • use basic structures for communication, asking questions, shopping etc.;
  • use basic structures for making plans and arrangements;
  • understand basic, naturally-spoken Swedish and participate in simple conversations;
  • read basic texts;
  • understand simple written messages, e.g., on the street, in stores, cafés etc.; and
  • write simple messages, text messages, etc. in Swedish.

And finally, you will also be introduced to some Swedish traditions, culture and fun facts. Short video clips, games and team work will bring another lighter aspect to this course.


6:00 pm to 8:00 pm
January 11 – April 11, 2016
Note: No classes on Family Day February 15 and Easter Monday March 28.

$395 plus HST
for one 2-hour session per week for 12 weeks

$690 plus HST, a savings of $100
for both Swedish Level I &  Swedish Conversation Circle Level I


Information about classroom location will be sent 1-2 weeks prior to start of class. Any questions, please contact us at info@nordiclanguagesinitiative.com .

Very Strange Occurrence At Our Church This Morning

Posted on 11/15/2015, 7:24:56 PM by Vinylly

This morning as we entered our church we were met by armed security guards. We also noticed a security guard in the back door. They were dress in black uniforms with a white word ‘security’ on their backs. We don’t know how many were in the church. So I am wondering, is this a precaution to what had happened in Paris? We have several Persian Christian refugees that are members in our church and was wondering if these security officials were there for the Persian’s protection? I am wondering if any others on this website witnessed the same precaution this morning at your church. Our church is the First Presbyterian Church in Seattle.

See more at:   http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-chat/3360691/posts

5:48 am
 …an important question that affects every documentary photographer in at least one point in their career: “…can I continue working or should I stop and try to help solve the problem I am witness to?”
7:23 am

PROBLEM. REACTION, SOLUTION. Over and over again. And every time there is major “terrorist attack” events like this one, they coincide with DRILLS or EXERCISES that mirror the actual events. Nearly every single time. As was the case once again on Friday the 13th in Paris.

It‘s bigger than Zionists, it‘s bigger than the Jesuits.  It‘s multiple criminal organizations entwined and working together.  Like a board of directors they’re directing this planet into a one-world government.”

“We’re going to lose all our liberties if we don’t wake up our friends, our neighbors, our colleagues to what’s really going on.


See more at:   http://investmentwatchblog.com/deep-state-paris-massacre-exposed/


“You could light the sky on fire and most people wouldn’t know!  We have to wake up from the coma or we have no chance.”

More at:   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJqnW0Iem9Y


A stunning new report issued today by the Ministry of Defense (MoD) to the policy makers of the Security Council (SC) states that yesterdays attacks in Paris can be likened to a “ritual massacre” and was “orchestrated/directed” by a secretive “element/cabal” of Freemasons (Masonic/Masons) holding high positions of power within the United States Central Intelligence Agency (CIA), the French General Directorate for External Security (DGSE), the British Secret Intelligence Service (SIS/MI6), Israel’s Directorate of Military Intelligence (DMI) and the Vatican.[Note: words/phrases appearing in quotes “” in this report are English approximations for Russian words having no exact language counterpart.

Snow can be used as an excellent substitute for eggs in puddings, pancakes, etc. Two heaping tablespoons snow will take the place of 1 egg, and the recipe will turn out equally well. Use fresh-fallen snow or the under-layers of older snow. The ammonia in snow imparts to its rising properties, and the exposed surface of the snow loses ammonia by evaporation very soon after it has fallen.

dumple, verb

a. [nonce-formation from dumpling.] trans. To make or cook, as a dumpling. Obs.

b. [? < dumpy adj.2] To bend or compress into a dumpy shape.

It‘s impossible to lead people unless you’re going first.”  (Josh)
(I have been dumpled.)

Snowden Vindicated: Judge Slams “Unconstitutional, Orwellian” NSA Bulk Spying

Busted! MSM Caught Saying Geraldo’s Daughter Was at Both the Stadium and Concert Hall

“God crucified all the negatives in Christ Jesus.  So now when a negative shows up we look at it differently; we treat it differently.”  “So I’m not dealing with problems; I’m turning them into possibilities.”  

 All Things Are Possible

“Let’s try to see it as God sees it.  Jesus said, ‘All things are possible.  Only believe.'”
(Graham Cooke)
I am “Powerful, capable, strong and mighty.”  
This is one of my favorite verses lately:  I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME.   

I just love it when my dad shows up and nobody can make Connie shut up except me and she obeys me every time when my dad shows up.  My dad showed up. He knows very well why Connie obeys me.  I’m grateful for his visit;  I suppose I’ll make Sarah Bernhardts tomorrow.  He walked right into the house and managed to maintain civil (if characteristically inane…) conversation for half an hour, and he sampled the kale spanikopita with sausage and ricotta in phyllo, and the Indian pudding,  and the butter tarts with dried cranberries.  (I brought butter tarts to his house earlier but he said he didn’t get one of them.)  Isaac said, “How nice.  He’s reaching out.”  I said, It‘s about BLOODY WELL time.  His brain will soon turn to mush forever if he doesn’t exercise some truth.”   My father owes me a whole lot of money,  and I need some opportunities and my sons really need some opportunities that have been denied us.  And these years of psychopathic isolation and ostracism could be replaced by money.  Dad knows this and Dad will do the right thing pretty soon.  “Thank you, Lord.”
My Catholic friend who lied to me and about me is now dead.  That makes FOUR WOMEN who turned on me that are now dead.  I’m praying for the REST OF THE WOMEN WHO TURNED ON ME.  Especially my niece. Stony heart.
4:22 pm

Halifax police reactivate probe into alleged frat-house rape after Anonymous names accused attacker

A member of Halifax Nova Scotia Anonymous told the National Post they became involved at the request of the woman’s mother, who sent them a message online saying “Help me, please.” Her message has been seen by the Post.
And now, members of the Halifax-based cell of a global hacktivist group warn that police have until Monday to lay charges in the Halloween party incident or Dalhousie University may be taken offline in a cyberattack.

Transgender man reveals shock at learning he was 21 weeks pregnant, the joys of raising his new daughter and the difficulty of being forced to come out

  • Kayden Coleman had been transitioning for 10 years when he learned that he was 21 weeks pregnant
  • He had been off his hormones in preparation for his upcoming mastectomy on his doctor’s orders
  • Kayden and his boyfriend Elijah were married and gave birth to their daughter Azaelia soon after
  • Kayden was forced to come out as transgender to some people, including Elijah’s family, because of the pregnancy

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3316517/Transgender-man-reveals-shock-learning-21-weeks-pregnant-joys-raising-new-daughter-difficulty-forced-come-out.html#ixzz3rMK0oDoa
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“God is totally committed to your story, and your journey.  He’s not sin-conscious because He took care of that.  He focuses on our righteousness.”  (Cooke)

Emergency Alert: The Great Culling Has Begun – Retired US Army General Warns ‘It’s Already Started And It’s Only Going To Get Worse’

“…doctor-induced death…”

Laibow brings up a recent column done by Stubblebine in which he warns that white males are dying at ever increasing rates in America, “not just ordinary 40-55 mortality deaths but  something special, ominous and predictable and a prelude for something much, much worse if we do nothing.”

In his column, Stubblebine also warns that he predicts more drugs being added to our water and vaccinations ‘to protect us all’ while telling us they’ll be forced upon us without any semblance at all of ‘informed consent’. “You can frankly see (and smell) it coming miles away” the good General tells us.

Longevity for white men between the ages of 40 and 55 has been decreasing at ONE PERCENT A YEAR FOR FIFTEEN YEARS!
“…wise and brave and powerful and happy…He wants to give us a place in the earth.”  (Graham Cooke)
“If you have a revelation from Jesus Christ you can’t un-believe it.  It’s who you are.”  (Paul Keith Davis)
Graham Cooke spoke in Germany and after the last meeting they’d give him a top of the line Mercedes and twenty four hours.  He’d take off at midnight and drive Germany as fast as he could in a great big triangle.  That is an honorarium worth getting.
“Favor is a lifestyle, an expectation of goodness.”
“You will leave the Egypt of doubt and fear and mistrust forever, and you’ll really know what it is to live in a land of promise.”
“Persist in favor, and you will leave doubt and fear and mistrust forever.”

Graham Cooke – Favor As A Lifestyle

“There are unclaimed upgrades all over this room…because we lack the confidence to bring them down.”
Is it so that if we value ourselves more, others will value us more as well?   I am being treated very well lately.  I think I’d like to have a little restaurant.  That would probably require all kinds of payola in Toronto, but it would be great to have my own lunch counter, and Josh and Isaac could both have jobs when they wanted.  I hope my dad gets smart pretty soon.
5:07 am
This is the way all you guys remember the sky when you were a kid, right?
Image result for chemtrail pictures over fort worth
Hey, did they change reality again; is this another example of the ‘Mandela Effect’?  Who wrote “The Winter of our Discontent”?  I just started reading it a few months ago and I was pretty sure it was written by Hemingway. (That’s why I started reading it.)   This morning I found out that Steinbeck wrote it and I’m questioning reality.  I don’t do that as much as non-Jesus-people because I focus nearly full-time where I’m told, so I don’t really care about the rest.  Sure is a good thing that Jesus baptized me in Holy Ghost so I can always just ask him what to believe and which of the lies are unimportant.  Otherwise I’d be hopeless.  And without hope.
This has been the best fall of my adult life.  That means it’s been the best fall of my entire life.
up.  Disney is now part of our government.
I don’t think I realize how blessed this time is in this house.  George and I have been cooking together even.  I don’t think I remember what other families deal with or I would be very grateful for every minute I spend with these men.  They DO NOT argue about anything and as long as I don’t say anything about the garbage or the dishes or the baskets of clean clothes dumped all over the floor,  then everybody’s really peaceful and we enjoy one another.  You don’t take flack unless you’re over the target.

Have You Asked Your Doctor About Voting?

I’m thinking I’ll go dark.  It’s pointless.  I’ve been trying to inspire conversation over these issues for decades.  I have been diligent and consistent and apparently, pointless.  I do not have a single friend who can understand these things I see coming.  The Prophet cares about them, but he has his own different road.  It’s Thanksgiving again, and my own siblings have yet to speak to me.  They should care that they no longer have a scapegoat and that our parents’ narcissist supply has dried up.   906-291-1376.  I’ve got to be a better way to move this revolution along. God has a plan for me and I’d sure like to get there.
Scientists, Professors, Others Warn 
Not To Eat Pacific Seafood

The Deep State: The Unelected Shadow Government Is Here to Stay

As Arkin reports: “Countless billions have been spent on this endeavor over the years, a secret orgy of preparedness going on behind the scenes, one that ensures Washington can defend itself, take care of its own, and survive no matter what.”

To this end, the government has invested heavily in the “architecture of fear”: massive underground bunkers—the size of small cities—which are sprinkled throughout the country for the government elite to escape to “in case of an imminent nuclear strike so that they can set up a kind of Administration-in-exile, directing every order of business from retaliation to recovery.”

These bunkers, strategically located around the nation’s capital and in key states, represent a who’s who on the shadow government’s payroll, with every department and agency represented, from the Department of Education and the Trademark Office to the Small Business Administration and the National Archives.

See at:   https://www.rutherford.org/publications_resources/john_whiteheads_commentary/the_deep_state_the_unelected_shadow_government_is_here_to_stay


KAOS  (Killing As Organized Sport)

Narcissists Bewitch Entire Groups, Entire Communities, Entire Families

Galatians 3

“If you have been hand-picked by a narcissistic parent, you know exactly what I’m talking about:  the isolation.  When you get it, when you see that this mother or father, you see their wickedness, you see their evil, you see their malignancy, yet you stand alone seeing it; you find that there is noone else in your corner.  In the family, in some cases in the church or the community. Everyone around you thinks this malignant individual, who takes upon himself the title of parent, or mother or father… is a saint, is wonderful and you’re the one who needs to get over it.  I don’t know if there’s a depth of loneliness that you can compare to that feeling.”
I am SO VERY GRATEFUL that I don’t have to worry about the fire all the time!  I love propane!   I don’t smell like smoke and I don’t have to go outside in the rain to put wood in the stove!  I’m grateful for that junker car!  I go places all the time!  “Thank you Lord and bless my dad amen.”

10:03 am

LAX Missile Test Proof of Concept -Becomes Obvious That We Have A Very Dangerous Situation Brewing. Very Dangerous! +Video–Quayle Alert:


The bright light star looking type did not move either up or down or sideways, it just stood still for about 5 to 10 minutes with no sound what so ever. Then a blue mixed in with green color shot out of the bright like star or light and it eventually turned into a cloud as it slowly dissipated into the sky. There was also another strange object on the right side of the bright light which look like 3 stars going in an upward and downward position but it was staying still, it was unexplainable. This thing just came out of nowhere, it gave us all a big surprised. 

Desert UFO War -Whatever was Shot Down in the Desert was Being Sought After by the Military at Break Neck Speed–Quayle Alert:

Then a search beam was panning from within the blue area, to the circumference of the entire mass. He said it reminded him of youtube videos of hovering searchlights within a cloud formation. He also believed it may have been a UFO (ours) perhaps apart of the so-called test. Using binoculars, he could see silhouettes of helicopters outside the perimeter of the event. Some were flying, some hovering. The source of the beam of light within the blue seem to bounce 3 times at right angles then shot out of the mass. It appeared to be only miles away from his perspective, but it could have been further and just very huge

The next morning, he got on the highway to leave and there was a fast moving military convoy heading towards the general direction of the event. He estimated the speed of the vehicles at 85 mph plus.

Learn more at:   <a href="http://beforeitsnews.com/military/2015/11/quayle-alerts-desert-ufo-war-whatever-was-shot-down-in-the-desert-was-being-sought-after-by-the-military-at-break-neck-speed-2475528.html[/embed]">http://beforeitsnews.com/military/2015/11/quayle-alerts-desert-ufo-war-whatever-was-shot-down-in-the-desert-was-being-sought-after-by-the-military-at-break-neck-speed-2475528.html

It’s amazing.  I’m seeing a major synchronicity at a rate of about two per hour.  Lots of things I’ve heard or seen in the past are now being spoken by other prophetic people.  This is VERY cool.  LIke this, I just saw this out of nowhere when I just mentioned it this morning:   A Divine Revelation of Hell

Mary K. Baxter

After thirty nights of experiencing the depths of hell, Mary Baxter was shown the realms of heaven. Included are her descriptions of the order of heaven, what happens to children, and the throne of God. These breathtaking glimpses of heaven will turn your heart toward the beauty and joy that await every believer in Christ. 

Her official website is www.mbaxterdivinerevelation.org  Mary raises very little revenue from the book sales (2 cents per book),  please consider making a donation to Mary K. Baxter’s ministry by calling 405.799-1086 , (marybaxter @ live.com) W.Melbourne, FL.

From here:   http://www.heavenvisit.com/Mary_K_Baxter_Hell.php

9:05 am
I learned a new term:  Ground-based anti-satellite weapons.  That’s just great; when they shoot one of those things in the comic-strips,  doesn’t the recoil push Earth out of orbit and bump us into Nibiru causing nuclear winter?   I don’t actually remember the chain of events.  Even if the dark-side were not  already using technology to exterminate us, the mere existence of all these super-sonic-death-and-mind-control weapons makes it BEYOND QUESTION that we must know whose finger is on the trigger.  People being what they are, it is IMPERATIVE that we who do not wish to see our race exterminated… actually do something to stop the nasty people who we would prefer not to confront.  
We must pick up our swords and stand up for what remains of human volition and consciousness and conscience.
 We have no remaining choice.  In the most literal sense.
8:02 am

Graham Cooke – Favor As You Have Never Heard It

Destinies are on offer.  We can’t not be here.
4:46 pm
I went swimming today, in the lake.  November 10, 2015.  Well I didn’t exactly swim but I dove in and put my head under water.  It was a lot easier than I thought it would be but also I prayed first.  I dunked myself at 3:45 pm.  I got a haircut yesterday on a whim, and too late I realized it was a lot like Miley Cyrus’s.  I didn’t cook today, or bake anything.  George ate leftovers and Josh and Isaac went to town.  

President Obama Has 20 Aides Just to Manage His Twitter and Facebook Accounts

No, Obama didn’t Tweet that.

One of his 20 hip and trendy young aides who work in the Office of Digital Strategy did.

Read more: WHAT REALLY HAPPENED | The History The US Government HOPES You Never Learn! http://whatreallyhappened.com/#ixzz3r7zFAWsU

6:51 am
The Supreme Court of the United States has ruled that killer cops are immune from lawsuits unless it is “beyond debate” that they were unjustified when shooting a fleeing suspect.
“Beyond debate” is not a standard of proof.  It is an edict!!
You may prove a matter “beyond reasonable doubt” and “by clear and convincing evidence” because they are standards of proof.  They appeal to a consensus of rationality.  “Beyond Debate” presupposes the evidence before it’s examined!  Nutso words for a nutso world.

Every time this morning that I hear the word “figure” I hear it really loud.  Sheila Zilinsky says it like “figger”.  
Both people trying to sleep experienced leg movements, every twenty-five seconds.   They tracked it down with a radiation-detector and it was coming from their SMART METER, which was replaced with an old analog model.  (This particular involuntary leg-movement condition is so common it’s described perfectly on WebMD even down to the twenty-to-forty-second intervals between jolts.  And they advise you to take sedatives.)

Dr. Laura Pressley and Sheila Zilinsky- The Health Crisis of Our Time

What must I now think about the owners and operators of our utilities companies?  What do we think , now that we know Google has weekly meetings with Obama and Facebook cookies grab data from even non-customers? I heard years ago that a UP cable office had a specific room for FBI.  I heard lots of things that I’ll soon know the truth about.  Soon our circumstances will become clear,  as the dogs nip at our ankles, circling us ever nearer, my God to …  the people-chipper.   We will encounter much hatred.  Any person who knew about controlling the “human domain” and failed to warn the humans-under-dominion WILL BE TARGETED.  Every single pastor who muddied the waters will be sought out.  Remember that book about the woman who went to hell?  Even in hell people were looking for the lying preachers.  Pulling them straight up by their heads out of the burning ground, wanting to club the one who lied.   I think hell will be far more hellish for those who led astray their own species, and sold out, sold us all out.
Particle-board is made from bits of wood fiber all glued together into a smelly, ugly,  4 x 8 sheet.  That’s all we got anymore.  Scraps and adhesive.  Nothing natural.  I remember plywood, it smelled good and had wavy lines all over it.   I’m not sure if my sons have ever even seen a piece of real plywood, only chip-board.  I ate a NY Strip at one of my dad’s restaurants back before he stabbed me in the back and stopped communicating.  It was delicious and very juicy.  It was also a steak-shaped compression of muscle fiber strands that had nothing to do with a loin of meat.  I couldn’t finish it.
I grew up at a lumberyard and my dad sold all kinds of planks and plywood.  I don’t remember many glues around because we used to nail things. Not with a nail-gun but with a hammer; we’d hold the nails between our teeth if we wanted to go faster.   I loved the steel bins of nails, and the claw-tool we used to scoop them onto the balance-scale.  (I never got to scoop any nails for real.  I was a girl so I was just playing.)  
George just said plywood is veneer upon veneer upon veneer all glued together and I was wrong anyway.  He also doesn’t remember swirls in it.  I wonder why I remember it wrong?  It smelled better than chip-board, I’m sure I remember that part right.
Scientists are reverse-engineering the adhesive of the universe.  Then they can build man in their image.  Or rather, they’ll write up a really user-friendly operating-manual so when they die they can leave it for the rich guys.  On that great and glorious morning:  The Day After Science.  


I’m beginning to think that lots of targeted individuals have or have had some contact with paranormal manifestations.  We all wonder, “Why me”?  My answer was obvious, it was because of the weed.  Or it was because of Ron Paul.  Or was it because I called the governor a Nazi?  Anyway, everybody goes through those questions, and I think maybe I’m noticing a common denominator.  Maybe not.  My mind plays tricks on me.  I hear things that go bump in the night too.  
7:21 am (…or as nearly as I am permitted to post this.  I don’t strive for perfection anymore.)
“God is not consumed by sin…because he’s not an Evangelical.”  (Graham Cooke)
I was happy yesterday.  I smiled all day at nothing.   Radiation seeps ever closer to destroying everything I need to live, and there isn’t a single thing that a single human could do to stop it.  Not a single bless-ed thing.  It’s WWIII, and it looks like nukes have been used already.  (Google:  China explosions.)  Russia has maintained a decades-long plan to make the US bite it.  Golitsyn, Lunev and lots of the old Soviet guys told us about it.  The world is rooting for Russia because Russia makes sense and Russia does what it says, and we no longer have or deserve the trust of any state on Earth.  Russia is brutal.  Just like us.  Israel’s backed against the wall (pun) and they control the US Congress, pretty much.  We’ve already killed an awful lot of innocent people for Israel.  Will we continue as the attack dog for a threatened bully?  What if we don’t want to?  Well then, that’s why our local police organizations are being federalized, and they have grenade launchers and microwave weaponry and lists of who we are and where we live and what we think and whether we suffer any convictions or morality.  They’ve practiced what to do if a citizen gets uppity, and they’ve decided to serve the state rather than life,  and now there’s no turning back.  We’ve built our own gas chambers and they’re up and rolling.  The currency-roadshow is at the end of the line where everybody gets his money back because it was fake anyway.  It is truly a great time to be an American.
Things are heating up, but I don’t have a bug-out bag anymore, and I don’t expect the rapture to save me. And, for the first time in my life I’m happy.  I know the guy who can fix the world and He said He would.  That means it’s already fixed because time is an illusion.

Sons and Daughters of Narcissists-Codependents and Empaths- When Other People Don’t Like Us

Adult children of narcissistic abuse:
“We were disrespected as children, so we don’t understand that we have any right to our feelings, any right to our experiences, any right to defend ourselves.”  
“We need permission to be angry, we need permission to be happy.”
(She describes demons well:  “We’re energetic beings…we merge and mesh with rejection…”)

A number of private persons have made it their life-mission to destroy the Clintons.  They talk about crimes from years ago, and they publish everything they know.  That takes an awful lot of courage and I’m praying for all Truth-warriors.  You really have to admire some of these whistleblowers and journalists; they’re risking everything for Truth.  Isn’t it amazing that the phony Christians aren’t even interested?  They couldn’t care less about Truth.  But they call Him their god.  We’re watching the apocalypse of Jesus, the Christ.  This is gonna be good.

‘Million Cancer Deaths From Fukushima Expected In Japan,’ New Report Reveals

In a nutshell, it implies that the adverse health effects associated with nuclear fallout may be tens of thousands times worse than present radiation risk models used by the nuclear industry, medical establishment, and government presently project.

Hidden Cameras Manipulate Political Views Around the World

In the lobby of a Mexico City office building, people scurrying to and fro gazed briefly at the digital billboard backing a candidate for Congress in June.

They probably did not know that the sign was reading them, too.

Inside the ad, a camera captured their facial expressions and fed them through an algorithm, reading emotional reactions like happiness, surprise, anger, disgust, fear and sadness.

[…]According to campaign records, the campaigns of presidents and prime ministers on at least three continents have hired science consultants to scan voters’ brains, bodies and faces, all with the aim of heightening their emotional resonance with the electorate.

See more at:   <a href="http://www.zengardner.com/hidden-cameras-manipulate-political-views-around-world/[/embed]">http://www.zengardner.com/hidden-cameras-manipulate-political-views-around-world/

Axis Of Evil – Documentary Of Zionists, Israel, United States, Canada, Britain

North Korean discussion of  Western propaganda.

“Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well-preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming ‘Wow! What a Ride!’” Hunter S. Thompson.

How Corrupt Is Your State?

The Michigan state capitol building. Michigan scored dead last on a new ranking of state anti-corruption measures. 
 Michigan was at the bottom of the class. Its score was 51, an F, mostly because of issues with ethics and access to public information.
I think I’d like to read this book:

The Devil Beside Me: Gang Stalking, The Secret War and How to Win

The Devil Beside Me details the tactics being used in the worldwide phenomenon known as gang stalking, the reasons behind this campaign of harassment and how to get your life back should you be one of the unfortunate few subjected to this inexplicable problem.

Written over the course of four years, The Devil Beside Me is a groundbreaking work encompassing a breadth of topics, from the esoteric to the familiar, the quantum to the spiritual. The author, through painstaking research, her own experience and interviews with victims as well as insiders, has discovered not just the reasons behind these events, but a shocking secret that has been carefully guarded for hundreds of years. The Devil Beside Me provides some startling revelations and goes a step further, giving you the tools you need to verify the truth for yourself.

(I also think I’d like to sell my book now that I can say what it’s really about.)

Peter Gøtzsche: mammography screening should be stopped, as it is harmful

we got targeted individuals from all walks of life nobody is safe from this evil program we got policeman,fbi agents,lawyers,doctors, nurses,,truck drivers,news reporters,engineers,military,judges,teachers,preachers hollywood tv actress. it really hit me hard nobody was safe when they put a federal civil rights judge mary elizabeth bullock in this program.

(My friend Trish who threw me under the bus is now a federal magistrate.  Also, Michigan has been declared the MOST CORRUPT state in the country, and God told me in 2008 that if I loved the first district of Michigan enough he’d reveal the corruption, and when people were screaming that my first election had been stolen I was told by an activist out West that the most corrupt federal judicial district is in Michigan.  I have no idea what any of that means but I will know shortly.) 

Doesn’t it just look like that spontaneous hole just manifested right under those cars perfectly?  My kitchen deck did that two times right under my feet.  Weird times.
Mississippi Crack
9:43 am
I’m thinking about getting rich, it seems like a really convenient status.  I could maybe get ahold of some used spy-hardware and lease airtime on an obsolete satellite to set up the new entertainment trend:   Netflix for the mind.  You pick the time, and we turn it on, you can absorb that movie right into your very neurons and DNA.  I could be the next Rupert Murdoch.  Or, I could become the post-EMP pasta queen, who makes all kinds of classic dough products manually.  I would hand-fold tortellini and dry my egg noodles draped over a broomstick.  I’ll make soup-dumplings from China and won-tons and ravioli. I could plant Iboga but I don’t think anybody will need botanicals for spiritual experiences after the seven years it takes to mature.  Everybody remaining will be just naturally hooked-up.
I think I experience ‘intentional bias of God’.  Isn’t that right?  I mean, my propensity to find many four-leaf clovers isnt’ really what you’d call a miracle, right?
Linda’s ‘utterly complete vindication’ is well underway.  I am seeing peace with George, that’s a tremendous answer to prayer; I’m seeing peace inside of me.  Finally.  I have always been easily agitated, by noises or minor disturbances, and it‘s been fun over the years to watch my annoyance-threshold decrease.
He is showing me that even in my relationship with Him, I still lean on my own efforts for value.  He showed me that I am reluctant to break my fast, because I do not want our heightened communication to discontinue.  How can I possibly think I’m responsible for that?  He has a lot of things to burn out of me.  He said I may eat, and reminded me how my parents put me on diets as a child and would not serve potatoes and made me drink cyclamates, and saccharin and aspartame.  He said I am His child now, and I may eat.  (He also said that aspartame wasn’t available until I was a grown-up.  I didn’t look it up though.)  If we’re not changing every day, we’re not on the road to anyplace.  So I broke my fast with a huge plate of leftovers.  I had stir-fried pork and cabbage and roasted broccoli and cauliflower.  I ate really garlicky Alfredo sauce on this pasta Isaac likes that’s shaped like a twisted tube.  Cole slaw with turmeric, George’s favorite, and I finished with a bowl of warm homemade applesauce with cream poured around the edge of the bowl. Like my grandma used to do.  I feel very nourished.
The truth is that good guys get knocked around these days even more than bad guys and if you start including things like honor, integrity, a love of the truth and worse… a desire to express it, even though we know that absolute truth cannot be expressed because the truth is a light and our stage of expression is a world of appearances and truth is something beyond appearances, well… you could well turn into a pariah not grata. 
Sometimes you want to be something more than you are; something better or brighter or more complete and for that you need a role model and I come out of the school where you fake it until it becomes real. This is accomplished by going through all of your moments as if the ineffable were walking in your shoes and- truth be told- he.she/it is. 
“Any ‘yes’ to God must necessarily be followed by a ‘no’ to something else.”  (Graham Cooke)
8:56 am
“When God shows you your persona, he’s inviting you to the fast track.”
“Whining and complaining is the worship language of hell.”
4:32 am
I get so excited about what God is doing in my tiny life that I forget we’re engaged in WWIII.  I should pay attention probably.

Thermonuclear Missile Launch Near LA is Final Sign of World War III on the Precipice…US, China & Russia All Escalating Covert Attacks in Run Up to Global War +Videos


Apparently the media thinks the public is so incredibly stupid that they’ll believe the U.S. Navy has nowhere else to launch a test missile other than right next to Los Angeles. Somehow we’re supposed to believe the entire Pacific Ocean won’t work for such a test launch, so they have to launch it adjacent to the airport and thereby inconvenience commercial aviation traffic for an entire week.

Obviously, the official cover story is pure bunk. So what’s the real story behind this? It all has to do with China and the covert war that’s already underway between China, the US and Russia.


Red Alert: Putin Orders Russia to Stockpile Protective Equipment for Nuclear Threat (Video)

See more:   http://beforeitsnews.com/alternative/2015/11/red-alert-putin-orders-russia-to-stockpile-protective-equipment-for-nuclear-threat-video-3240300.html

Congress Has Been Told WW III Is Inevitable and the US Cannot Win

At least some in Congress have put set aside their insider trading ways long enough to contemplate how many different ways that the Chinese and the Russians are going to kick America’s rear end in the upcoming war.
Wow, WWIII.  I’ve been recording it’s onset for a long time but I still couldn’t tell you why it’s being fought.
Which would be deeper?  “infinite waters”?  OR “deeper waters”?


(Isn’t is surreal that we live in a world where we’re having bake-sales for victims of electronic weapons fired by psychopaths?)

Some things discussed in this short message are: DEW (Directed Energy Weapons) Energy Weapons, medical test proving the torture, proving the severity of the torture, Patty’s torture, Melissa’s burns, Magnus Olsson, Eucach, Derrick Robinson, Freedom from Covert Harassment and Surveillance, remote neural monitoring, mind control and mind torture.

Please pray against this torture and control and spread awareness. God Bless you guys!