For fresh  NEWS ARTICLES, scroll below the black

For recent front pages, see *Linda’s Recent Rants

(Front Pages loads too slow)


8:17 pm

Seriously, I am not that frightening and I have been holed up here SHOUTING TRUTH for a lot of years.  The last time I heard live music was Bob Dylan and Jimmy Vaughan at Interlochen a hundred years ago.  Please people have a heart.  Somebody, give me some traveling money so I can get back the years I invested IN YOU.

8:05 pm

We’re screwed.  Our technology has out-evolved our requirements for privacy and security and even provision.  We’re done-for.  I cannot understand how it is possible that I still man the ramparts alone.  We are done.  That’s it.  Fini.  FUKUSHIMA alone means the end of EARTHLY BIOLOGY.  The rich guys want to live forever in a machine and they’re feeding us into it already.  Junior is just learning his ABC’s.  WE ARE FUCKED.  Pick Jesus or hear forever an eternal choir microwaved just for you:  I TOLD YOU SO!

7:51 pm

Josh diagnosed me.  The reason I’m so antsy is because I’m isolated.  He said isolated people don’t live as long because they’re always in ‘flight-or-fight’ mode.  That’s the absolute truth.  I have nobody at my back and it gets tiresome being the smartest person in the room all the time.  I think I will start really slow with George, and I’ll try it once again.
Pop Quiz:
Question 1.  You’ve noticed that my parents have refused to talk to me for six years while at the same time telling you I was a terrible person when you KNEW I was praying and doing what I believed God wanted me to do, SAME AS ALWAYS.  Right?
Answer 1.  Head nod.  (Anticipated.)
Question 2.  Do you understand why they will not speak to me?
Answer 2.    Because I am and  have been 100% right.  (Except for the part where you were going to die but I’m glad you haven’t had to yet.  You chose my corrupt, stiff-necked, lying family…over your own blood.  That’s a sacrifice to Molech.)
 Please wake up and defend us.  Thank you.  Good night. And I want a raise.  I want to buy my own body oil.  I earned it doing alone, what you would not do.  (Another argument with another pharisee about the oil.)

6:54 pm to shut the face hole and check out the latest comic at electricbunnycomics!! >:D

See more at:  

3:53 pm

Camps? What Camps?

This is the exact same attitude by the majority of the American people today on a wide number of subjects relating to life and freedom within the borders of this former Constitutional Republic.

For example, most Americans have no clue what an “administrative search” is and if it violates their 4th Amendment rights to protection from unreasonable search and seizure. As a refresher, here is the direct phrasing from the 4th Amendment for those that are a bit rusty:

The right of the people to be secure in their persons, houses, papers, and effects, against unreasonable searches and seizures, shall not be violated, and no warrants shall issue, but upon probable cause, supported by oath or affirmation, and particularly describing the place to be searched, and the persons or things to be seized.

The Willful Ignorance Of Fascist Tyranny: Germany 1937- America 2015


3:50 pm

CNN Creepy Freemason Dis-Info Propaganda

3:18 pm

The latest video released today shows Dr. Savita Ginde of Planned Parenthood talking to buyers from a fictitious company about how to avoid the appearance of violating federal law against selling fetal body parts that are the result of abortion. Ginde talks specifically about how to avoid getting caught.

In a previous video Ginde is caught talking about the prices of intact body parts and, looking at the body of a child in a petri dish, concluded that the pieces sold separately would run to $200-$300.

In this new video there are more scenes in the pathology lab where Planned Parenthood personnel and picking through body parts in a petri dish. At one point there is a cracking sound and a medical assistant says it’s the cracking of the baby’s skull.

Dr. Ginde laughs and says, “It’s a baby.”

Referring to the value of an intact heart laying in the dish, a medical assistant is heard to say, “five stars.”

Vomit more at:

3:05 pm

The endgame for robot warfare would be the creation of a robot that doesn’t need constant instruction from a human controller, making it less vulnerable to hacking.

Wars of the Future Will Be Fought by Robots and Hackers

Read at:

2:08 pm

Blast from the past,  June 1, 2004

Chemtrails: Aerosol and Electromagnetic Weapons in the Age of Nuclear War

The sociopaths who brazenly pervert skies, climate and weather for power and profit are the same madmen who have waged four limited nuclear wars since 1991. Radioactive weaponry, declared both illegal and immoral by the entire civilized world, has been used by the Pentagon in Desert Storm, the Balkans campaign and the on-going occupation-wars against Afghanistan and Iraq. Few Americans understand the extent of carnage inflicted in their name across the planet.

In The Report from Iron Mountain published in 1967, just as the Pentagon’s lucrative Vietnam War was being revved into high gear, establishment braintrusters confirmed that perpetual war is absolutely vital for controlling and manipulating the masses. The document even suggested a number of options for creating fictitious enemies, noting that perpetual war induces populations to give blind allegiance to political authority.

Former German Technology Minister Andreas von Bulow recently confirmed on U.S. radio that hijacked planes were able to fly around the eastern U.S. on 9/11 unimpeded by military interdiction because those attacks were part of a carefully-orchestrated “covert operation” designed to coerce America into perpetual conflict with the Muslim world.

HAARP is not only capable of destabilizing agricultural and ecological systems anywhere on the planet, but its effects can target select regions to affect human physical, mental and emotional responses during non-lethal warfare projects.

With congressional funding, the crowning achievement of this nexus was the creation of ghastly new bioweapons, including the AIDS virus  and an incapacitating chronic fatigue agent engineered from mycoplasma and brucella.

Now that we have tied together the historical and political realities for which we mindlessly wave our flags, we still hope that sufficient numbers of American lab rats will miraculously awaken from their collective stupor and take stock of our appalling situation. After all, rodents have a notoriously short life span and are always killed when no longer useful to those conducting research.

Lots of footnotes.

Read more at:

6:49 am

It’s obvious to me that somewhere exists a real-time duplicate  of what I do online.  One cool thing that happens, is when I post a video, sometimes a different embed code goes on the page.  I’ll know  I’ve done it right, but the video is frequently a video I used on a prior page, like many cut-and-pastes in the past.  Sometimes HOURS in the past.  Also, sometimes the page slides, kind of like a site with poor app coding, like the page doesn’t fit the screen…except I can pull the page all the way across.  Beneath it is sometimes white, but other times it is a grey-scale version of a  page I had previously seen.  (This effect is not continual but maybe once or twice a day.)   My efforts are frequently stymied by various changes to this or that procedure.  I just try to figure out a new way. I know that’s learned helplessness but it’s also obedience to God.  He says, “Let it flow.  He’s an angel, trust him.”

6:18 am


The tail end of documentary, ‘Everything is a Rich Man’s Trick,’ for those who didn’t have time to watch the full documentary. for those who want to, the link is below. It is well worth your time.…


5:15 am

I thought that I was doomed to Hell, because my pastor said that I was a heretic, that  I was a backslidden Christian because I WANT HOLY SPIRIT BAPTISM.”
A 70 year-old man was pulling the trigger on a 357 held to his head.  Then these guys (following video) prayed against suicide on the radio and he fell to the floor and the gun shot a hole through the wall.  He wrote them an email: 
“We just seem to be going through the motions sometimes at church. There’s nothing but air moving around the room when we have church.”
“I have my dog and enough food to eat and clothes and a warm place to sleep, that’s a 1978 17′ broken down motor home, but that’s all I need really.  What I WANT is more God and more Jesus.
“I thought that believing was just the beginning of things and that salvation was the starting point.  The next step is making Jesus lord of my life, but I get ridiculed for even saying such things.”
When I step out and I get condemned by the VERY PEOPLE I thought were supposed to come alongside me and pray with me and help lift me up!  It’s not there.  It’s like I’m some sort of pariah and anathema to my fellow believers.”
For my people have committed two evils; they have forsaken me the fountain of living waters, and hewed them out cisterns, broken cisterns, that can hold no water.     Jeremiah 2:13
This is a very great discussion, politically prophetic.
(The story of the interrupted suicide is in the first six minutes.)


8:58 pm

5:59 pm

4:26 pm

Letter to my Spirit-led friends far away:

Dear J and G ,
Thank you very much for the scriptures and the teachings.  I know you’re praying for me and I’m grateful.  When you read my book four years ago, J advised me to ‘see it through’ and that is my only goal; I’d love to be finished and with other people who love Jesus.  He gave me a job in 2005, and in 2007 he gave me a prophecy that has kept me alive.  (I would have died from heartache alone, watching George and our boys lose their faith.)  I was told:
Linda, my pride, my beloved, WITHSTAND.  WITHSTAND.  
What is to come is ordained by me for my glory.  
You’ll be misunderstood again, so am I.  
Never depart the secret place.
You’ll understand soon.
Your children are mine.  
George is mine.
You are mine.
You’ll look in my eyes soon.
I am your strength.
(The original is with my journals.)  (So are my favorite books, like CS Lewis, and Corrie Ten Boom and Marvin and a bunch of  others.)
The battle here is the same as anywhere the Spirit moves:  the Pharisees  don’t like Him.  I have written my website to my family every single day for over two years.  Before that I wrote to them other ways.  I TRIED EVERYTHING to get the church to listen to my complaint as they should.  I even nailed my controversy to their front door! (With a note to the cops regarding Martin Luther.)   I filed suit IN THE COURT OF JESUS CHRIST in July, 2013.  I wrote it all up and submitted it to him. My father is very afraid of the bad people he brought into our lives, but God has a plan.
 I have recorded TONS OF INCIDENTS that in the right hands could be used to help millions of people.  I met a Christian woman in Belgium who has been locked up for a time.  That’s what they do to people who proclaim the truth about no-touch torture.  But, I have it all documented.  God will not waste this, since he instructed me to write those journals to the man in my book.   I still haven’t seen him but God told me years ago that he would bring a million people to Jesus!  He was an atheist at the time but not any longer.  I told him a lot of things that have come to pass.
 “Out of the mouths of two or three witnesses.”  I recorded the SAME story three times.  Once in the journals, where I was trying to convince an atheist as it was happening, later in the book, where I called the electronic rapes a ‘spirit’, then again on the website with documentation of even the equipment they use and testimonies from other victims.  The goons have machine-to-mind scripts for targeted individuals and mine featured my friend.  That’s why I wrote it all to him, because HE KNEW our relationship was not as I was being mentally-force-fed, and also he knew I was very prude.
My testimony:  Every single day I give my life to Jesus and I plead His Blood over my mind and senses and spirit and soul and body.  Every single day I beg for more of His Spirit, and for his perfect direction.  I KNOW from other prophecies that this local church will explode.  I saw myself driving my family away from the church right before the explosion.  In my dream I couldn’t see and I took my hands off the wheel and said, “YOU GOTTA DRIVE, JESUS, BECAUSE I CAN’T SEE A THING.”  When the truck stopped and the smoke cleared, we had come to rest just before hitting a big rock.
 I’ve been getting up at three every day and writing and recording supporting documents until I go to bed.  (I cook and do laundry too.  I make 10 dollars a day, from the man who used to be my husband,  in the house that used to be mine that Dad took away from me when he tried to lock me up again in 2012.)  Many words and visions and dreams from over the years have come into meaning during this difficult time.  I know my relief will come soon.  I am all alone and I want nothing for myself…except what God said I will have.  I mostly want a friend.  My father completely isolated me and it’s been very hard to live in this community with people looking at me sideways and whispering.  But, God said I will see “utterly complete vindication” and that I’d be a “sign and a wonder.”  I also expect I will help tortured people, because God is the only way not to go crazy with all the stunts they pull.
I’m enclosing some things I have written; I get anonymous help, I expect it’s the guy, he’s brilliant and I had a vision once where I danced on his tongue.  I was wearing a ballgown in his mouth, and at one point I sat up against his teeth and started writing.  He knew about that vision, I told him everything,  in the journals, and SOMEBODY HELPS ME with the computer, and puts full paragraphs into my head.  Without an error.  It’s amazing, but it’s also the transhuman hive-mind thing they’re trying to create by experimenting on political activists and the agents’ ex-girlfriends.
The government is very perverse,  mostly women are targeted, and many report electronic rape.  (With corresponding story lines that are not nice.)  They also set up scenarios of weirdness, sending targets on wild goose chases to see some celebrity or to gun down a bunch of people.  (Manchurian Candidate stuff.)  God knew what was coming for me, and  he insisted that I love the guy more, even as his artificially-generated ‘spirit’ was treating me terribly. If he had not, I would be useless now.
They mean to drive targeted individuals crazy,  and it works every day.  But not for a Servant of the Most High God!  I’m shaken, but much stronger than I was before, and I no longer give the respect to my psychopath fake-Christian father…that is due to God.  I even washed that man’s feet once!  I tried everything, all my life, but he still opposed and undermined  everything I tried.  I pray for him every day, and expect him to repent and meet Jesus.  We made a bet.  I bet my faith in Jesus against his fake religion.  (I NEVER make bets, but that was a sure thing.)
I ask every day that God will take me lower and slower.  (Like Heidi Baker.)  I listen to Neville Johnson, Paul Keith Davis, Bobby Conner, and others.  I read Glenn Jackson, just like always.  (I’ll probably include something from him.)  I know my redemption draweth nigh, and God will restore everything that was taken.  God told me years ago I would be some kind of political prophet, and that Adam (that’s the guy’s name) would be an evangelist.  He nearly spit when I told him.  (I had a hard time believing it too, then.)  He is Jewish and was raised as an atheist. He’s been politically active on behalf of Palestinians and was targeted at 22 years old as a ‘self-hater’.  (The Zionists are NOT NICE.)  He’s a truth-lover.  This is gonna be good when it happens.
George prayed two days in a row, and it was good to hear.  Instead of cursing the lawnmower, he said, “Jesus bless this mower.” Yesterday he finished a project and said, “Thank you, Jesus.”  I’m very pleased.  Isaac says he is a Christian now, but Josh wants nothing to do with my God.  Through all the terribleness I kept saying, “God has a plan for all of this.”  He can’t serve a god who would do that to somebody who loves him as much as I.  My father tore his faith right out of him, and I told Dad as it was happening.  I was not always brutal, my letters for the first few years were expecting him to do right and very kind.  God cranked it up a notch.
I’m also sending a copy of a letter I received from a missionary, local boy, in response to my previous document.  I heard him telling strangers in church that I was crazy.  He hadn’t spoken to me for years, but just parroted what my father said.  THEY ALL DID, and they all refused to talk to me for six years.  He was on the board of the missionary organization.  Young girls were raped by a missionary-doctor and they were required  to sign confessions to adultery!!  Like 13 or 14 years-old. (Of course the doctor kept his job.)   An outside investigating unit was FIRED two weeks before the report was due.  These girls are women now and there are websites where they’re begging for justice.  I think my efforts can assist them too.  I think God has big plans for using my 10-year investment.  I honestly believe I did as he wished every single day.  I looked very strange many times, but being in the presence of God is the greatest thing ever, and I long for the Baptists and my family to enjoy it too.  (And not to burn.)
I know so much stuff and I can’t wait to download on somebody who can use it for Jesus.  In his time, lower and slower.  Much love to you both.  I keep thinking this will be finished, but my family is very frightened.  I think my dad may go to prison, I’ve seen visions of him in an orange jumpsuit with his hands shackled in front of him.  His head was thrown back like he was howling at the moon.  This is the apocalypse, truth is being revealed.  We’ve lived to see the day and my site has 21,000 articles to prove it.  Also I write VOLUMES every day.  He keeps me going and I’m amazed.  I don’t have pain anymore.  But, I also have no friends.  That’s truly the only thing I want for myself. He already told me my boys and George are his.  I want to do his will perfectly without even one mistake.  One time I even prayed (under strong influence of the Spirit…) “God, don’t let me just defeat Satan…let me astonish him.”  I shudder at the thought, but I guess I should have expected what I got.
When I ran for Congress, I drove 70,000 miles in 9 months.  I prayed around the entire border of the district (second largest in the country, I think) and God said if I loved the district enough, he’d reveal the corruption.  I had no idea he’d  start with my own dad.  I saw a dome, like glass or plexi-glass dropping over the state and covering my region.  I expect great things and I also recorded EVERY DETAIL of a very strange election in which the least-likely-to-succeed received hundreds of thousands of dollars overnight, when Bart Stupak (Remember him?  Last vote for Obamacare.  Pro-life Catholic.) waffled and voted to kill babies.  I told Phyllis Schlafly’s son about it, he was very good to me during my campaign, and he said, “That makes more sense than you know.” Soon, I will understand what he meant, but also, my notes are very valuable to some just person.
That verse you sent from Psalm 27 has been my favorite for a couple years, and my birthday is January 27.  Neville Johnson says a lot of us will be transfigured soon, won’t that be fun?  God told me in 2008 before any of this began, that he was making me 29. We’ll see amazing things.  I’d love to call your son if I get downstate.  Would he mind that?
Love, Linda

2:22 pm

11:55 am

Why do Yiddish slurs so often refer to a penis?  I say to Connie, “Who’s there”?  Immediately she begins to growl, then the hair down the center of her back stands up all the way to the tip of her tail.  She leaps from the deck and circles the house.  I wonder if she’s micro-chipped?  I think my dad kicked her one time, broke her tail.  NOBODY can kick this dog who doesn’t know her a little bit.  I couldn’t kick her;  she watches everything I do.  No STRANGER could kick her because he’d never get close enough.  My DAD could kick her because he knows her a little bit.  She couldn’t lift her tail for two weeks and  Dad said, “Maybe she’s constipated.”   Putz.

11:40 am


Daddy On My Mind

Female voice:     “You told my friends I treat you bad, but I don’t mean to treat you bad…”

Male voice:     “I guess you must be going mad.”

Female voice:      “Yes DADDY,  just Daddy’s on my mind…”

11:30 am

MUSIC BREAK, Dedicated to Daddy, “Bob” Goldthorpe.  (Nobody calls him ‘Bob’ but him. To lesser-beings  he’s ‘Robert’.):

Bob Is My Guy

“When he’s near…I heave a sigh…”

“Just as sure…as flowers wither and die…Bob is my guy.”


11:23 am


This song came out when I was twenty.  I had no idea it would take so long to grow up.

I’m Coming Out

Diana Ross

11:18 am

Also when I saw my dad, I was wearing my only dress that fits and looks decent.  I used to wear make-up JUST FOR HIM.  That’s pathological, but if he ever saw me looking up to snuff I felt that I’d earned a point.  Gag.  Still, I’m glad I had a bright shirt on over the dress, so he couldn’t see my tummy.  (He REALLY hates fat people.)   And he likes busy-prints  on top.  (Not a good choice for me since my shoulders are much wider than my hips.) He doesn’t really care what fits a person’s life or preference;  he likes what he likes and everything else be damned.  He’s such a wienie.  I haven’t worn eye-makeup for years but at least I had lipstick on today.  Schmuck.  I know he meets with hooded men in darkened rooms and listens to them chant, “Just let us turn it up a bit more.  She’ll commit suicide.  We CASHED your check…”  But, I still want him to love me.  Guess that makes me the schmuck.  (Except for my lack of peckerwood.)


10:37 am

The scepter shall not pass from Judah.*  (Judah means ‘praise’.)

Isn’t this interesting?   He’s learning BIBLE from the occultists!  (He looks up Revelation at the end, real-time.)

Cecil the Lion & its MASSIVE MASONIC-BIBLICAL Connections (wow!)

Behold, the days come, saith the Lord, that I will perform that good thing which I have promised unto the house of Israel and to the house of Judah.

 In those days, and at that time, will I cause the Branch of righteousness to grow up unto David; and he shall execute judgment and righteousness in the land.

 In those days shall Judah be saved, and Jerusalem shall dwell safely: and this is the name wherewith she shall be called, The Lord our righteousness.

 For thus saith the Lord; David shall never want a man to sit upon the throne of the house of Israel.     Jeremiah 33:14-17   

Yet the Lord would not destroy Judah for David his servant’s sake, as he promised him to give him alway a light, and to his children.       2 Kings 8:19

And it shall come to pass, that as ye were a curse among the heathen, O house of Judah, and house of Israel; so will I save you, and ye shall be a blessing: fear not, but let your hands be strong.    Zechariah 8:13

Behold upon the mountains the feet of him that bringeth good tidings, that publisheth peace! O Judah, keep thy solemn feasts, perform thy vows: for the wicked shall no more pass through thee; he is utterly cut off.    Nahum 1:15

10:24 am

Charging people with the crime of being ‘publicly discourteous.’

(I still think that if you gotta live in a ‘tinpot dictatorship’ it should at  least  have a subway.  Like Toronto.)

Canada is a Tinpot Dictatorship

(I do not think I like James Corbett so much just because he’s sarcastic.  He also is better read than anybody I’ve ever met, and he connects a lot of dots.)

10:15 am



10:09 am

What a GREAT morning, and my dad even spoke to me!  First though, I took a soak in the hot-tub.  There is a storm coming in and the lake was rough and the wind was blowing and birds circled overhead.  The view from the tub is trees and river and couldn’t be nicer.  My young friend gave me a swimsuit and it’s four sizes too big. Actually it’s a pretty cool style, a 40’s kind of draped maillot.  (Rather than gracefully skimming my modesty, the front hangs to mid-thigh and the parts that should be filled out need altering really bad because the only place it fits is the part that is supposed to be thin so I look like a big pink pierogi.  Or a carcass maybe, that might account for the birds.)  I washed my hair with the hose when I finished, and I might not take another shower until George drains the tub,  hopefully not until we’ve had some snow.  (I knew a lesbian couple with a wood-fired hot-tub that they kept going all winter.)  Then I went to take a bag of garbage up to my dad’s dumpster.
My dad, low and behold, when I got to the same intersection where I saw him yesterday, there he was again. This time he was turning my way so I waved the whole time he was maneuvering, and he finally waved back. (Rather sarcastically, I thought.)  Gratified, I dumped off the trash and went to the hardware store to look at hose attachments, and to tell Josh what a great bath I had.  As I left the store, low and behold, there was my dad pulling in right in front of the door. (No escape.)   I told him that George got the tub running and how much I enjoyed my bath.  He said, “Don’t put suds in there.”  So, not only did he SPEAK to me, but he also gave me advice!  I’m over the moon!
And, I ran into the guy who gave Josh the tub and invited his family to come use it.  That was nice too, but also in his truck was a kid from my book who recently needed a job,  and when the guy told me last week that he needed help, I told him about the kid.  Great morning.  The Wrestler waved at me, a big grin shining under an official hard-hat, from the top  of some device, at the top of what will be the new ‘Connies’.  Maybe the Mayor will rename the enterprise when it reopens, but it’s great to see my church being rebuilt.  I’ve had few people to cook for since it burned.  I worked at that store in 1975 when the Wrestler’s grandparents owned it.  I had to wash windshields and check oil.  Hard to imagine that now.  I haven’t found a four-leaf clover for a couple weeks, not since I taped the last one to my mom’s car window.  I don’t figure I need luck anymore.  I’m receiving restitution and blessing.  That’s a lot better.  (‘Luck’ comes from ‘Lucifer’ and as a Baptist, I never used to let my children say the word.)

8:04 am

Tom Petty in “The Postman”


7:37 am

And Now for the Robot Apocalypse…

In order to confront this pending apocalypse, the fearless men and women at the FLI have bravely stepped up to the plate and…written a polite letter to ask governments to think twice before developing these really effective, well-nigh unstoppable super weapons (pretty please). Well, as I say, you can’t blame them for trying, can you?

Well, yes. Actually you can. Not only is the letter a futile attempt to stop the psychopaths in charge from developing a better killing implement, it is a deliberate whitewashing of the problem.

See more from JAMES CORBETT here:


7:15 am

I feel very posh, despite my appearance.  This house is the first place I’ve ever lived that had a garage, and this summer is the first time I’ve had an electronic control for the door in my car.  (Josh uses the remote in the winter, because his car dislikes cold. I’d NEVER have had enough nerve to use the garage when I lived with my parents!)  Today I’ll take a jaccuzi when I need a break.  The tourists are loud, but it’s nice to see activity and I think I’m getting a raise, maybe $30 more a week.  I’ve proven my case, and God says I will have ‘utterly complete vindication’ and that I’ll never have to defend my story.  That’s good news, because I have SO MUCH DOCUMENTATION it would take a year to sort through it all.  Another year to sort through the journals that Adam (hopefully) maintained with much care.  I’d prefer to review the material slowly, and publish a top-selling book every three months or so. Unless I’m too busy counseling TI’s.  Life is good for this servant of the Most High God.  I’ve never slept better.  I wonder if my singing is off-key in my brain?  Does it sound as bad through the remote neural monitors as it does in real life?

Sometimes my pages only load halfway, that trick is new recently, and like most of them, I usually figure it’s a computer problem.  Then, out of nowhere I’m staring  into the face of my blue-eyed lion, and all the pages are gone.

6:56 am

CYBERSTALKING  Early Morning Seminar
The most frustrating thing for me, is our slow internet.  Often, by the time a page loads I’m already thinking about something else and I forget what I was going to do on the page when I get there.  Blogging this fast is like putting together multiple puzzles simultaneously and I could go REALLY FAST if I had good internet.  Other things slow me down too, like often when I’m updating a page, I’ll push the send button of course, and the page changes and tells me it’s been posted.  BUT, the page that returns to me on the working page…sometimes doesn’t have the new information on it.  (Where did it go?)  So I go to the real page to check if it got posted.  Moving on.  Next update to the same page.  I go to my working page and don’t know if I can add to the prior-old form, because my latest addition isn’t there.  So I reload a new working page.  Sometimes it’s there, and sometimes it’s not.  Then I do it again, after I add the newest addition.
Sometimes I can cut and paste from a working page to an email; sometimes the text is… un-highlighted?  It doesn’t show up, except underlines and punctuation marks.  If I click on it it shows up, but it doesn’t go anywhere in an email.  I have YEARS OF EXAMPLES RECORDED, and I also published in my book my sworn claim that my computer was haunted, with examples there too.

6:41 am

“There will be, in the next generation or so, a pharmacological method of making people love their servitude, and producing dictatorship without tears, so to speak, producing a kind of painless concentration camp for entire societies, so that people will in fact have their liberties taken away from them, but will rather enjoy it, because they will be distracted from any desire to rebel by propaganda or brainwashing, or brainwashing enhanced by pharmacological methods. And this seems to be the final revolution.”
Aldous Huxley, Tavistock Group, California Medical School, 1961


High Pitched Ringing: A faint yet audible ringing in the ears, or low pitched hum that just won’t go away.

Unusual Cellulite accumulation: Cellulite buildup around well used muscles may be appear after several months of microwave mind control exposure.

Altered Body Vibrations: A strange vibration felt throughout the body or head may suggest you’re targeted.

Hear Electronic voices or Plasma statics: If a strange voice is heard in your head, or a static sound it suggests mind control:

Extreme Mood Swings: Sudden swings into depression, anxiety and anger, or giddiness and laughter and crying. May be diagnosed as Bipolar Disease.

Body Pains: If you’re organs and body ache, you have pounding headaches or your very bones hurt, it may suggest you’re a target.

Sense of Being outside ones Thoughts and Mind: When you are no longer in control of your mind, you may feel outside your own body and its actions.

Memory Loss: Short and long duration blackouts and memory loss, brain ‘farts’ and memory blocks to certain issues all suggest mind control.

Unusual Thoughts and Dreams: Unusual thought patterns and strange dreams that don’t feel like your own may not be your own. Psychotronic weapons can put images and thoughts into sleeping minds, brainwashing a victim at night.

Mental Illness: Victims may feel or sense their mind being invaded, but are unaware they are being targeted. Family and friends may assume a mental illness instead of mind control.

Visual Disturbances: Victims may hallucinate or have problems with their eyesight and experience visual disturbances

Sudden Medical Problems: Sudden hair loss, swollen gums and cataracts at a young age, weight-loss, organ failures all such something is wrong, including a failing immune system for no known reason.

Paranoia: A person will think or feel they’re being watched, or followed, spied on and targeted.

Ridge on Finger and Toe Nails: A lump or ridge on the finger nails or toe nails suggest exterior mind control technologies are being used.

Malfunctioning Technology: Vehicles go haywire, TV’s and radios mysterious turn off or on and watches stop.

Morgellons Disease: Victims have painful tissues that poke from the skin and cause extreme agitation and agony


Learn more at:


6:16 am

Most TIs’ family members and friends disbelieve loved one’s accounts because perpetrators, their tools and weapons, and tactics are top secret, some designed to induce mental injury that the unwitting casual observer calls mental illness. Thus, by design, most TI’s are revictimized and isolated, a perfect set-up for worse assaults.

While some TIs have been hit-listed for revenge by a jilted lover with the right connections, and others seem to be target practice or weaponry experimentees, rudimentary data show most Tis are dissenters, political activists, whistleblowers, and anyone else with potential to effectively oppose corporate government crimes. These “enemies” of the criminal state have strong convictions, oppose crime, and thus uphold actions for betterment of humanity. In fact, three most common TI traits are:

  1. Very high IQ
  2. Charismatic: Capacity to influence others
  3. History of political activism

Are You a Targeted Individual? Foolproof Research Criteria Secrets

See more at:


7:38 pm

No call from my dad so I guess I’m going to bed.  I’ll probably have to write about him all day again tomorrow.  Sweet dreams.


6:39 pm


Oops! Pentagon quietly DOUBLES the number of labs it mistakenly sent anthrax – and it has now reached 192

  • Department of Defense said 106 additional labs had been sent the bacteria
  • They were added on top of the 86 facilities previously known about
  • Investigation now covers seven countries, all 50 states and three territories
  • Department also revealed 31 Americans may have been exposed 
  • They have not fallen ill, but are taking medicine as a precaution  

Read more:
Follow us: @MailOnline on Twitter | DailyMail on Facebook

5:56 pm

We’ve gone beyond the point where ‘Christians’ can claim that any benevolent act they might foment against tyranny is motivated by their Christianity.  Now, we’re merely expecting responsible citizenship. There is a point, where one’s faith is null and void.  (Google:  CHURCHES IN AMERICA.)  Now, the best we can expect from ‘Christians’ is that they do not murder our children or turn us in to the authorities for a morsel of bread.  Are they up to the task at hand?  The Baptists turned on me and as far as I know they’ve received no remuneration.  I could be wrong.  Maybe they claimed expenses for destroying me  on their tax returns.


5:13 pm

It‘s been a nice day.  I made the best-looking loaf of sourdough yet.  I also made butter tarts and zucchini bread for George because he fixed the hot tub.  I cut chicken for two days, today’s is macerating in Emeril’s Essence and tomorrow we’ll have stir-fry.

“Brace yourself.  The American empire is over.  And the descent is going to be horrifying.”

Chris Hedges:   America is done

4:03 pm

I learned sarcasm at the feet of a master.  In high school, a smart friend said I was the most sarcastic person he’d ever met, and I didn’t even know what he was talking about.  I grew up believing I was the stupidest creature on the planet.  Sarcasm fried my brain and my self-esteem. (When my siblings get right with God, they’ll confirm this observation.)  My father is smart, but not brilliant.  He can recognize that reality leans this way or that, and his comments lean along so.  However, he does not have the background or education to know WHY things are as they are.  He just sniffs the air, and he’s usually been right. SO, he learned that if he makes a general remark about something he KNOWS the listeners do not know about…he uses sarcasm.  He’ll say something meaning, “Well, I guess we know how that came about.”  (He doesn’t know, of course, but he also knows that the listeners don’t know either.)  Sarcasm is humorous because it digs into subject matter that the sarcasticon recognizes will be assumed to have been  well thought-out, and pointed.  If a guy never has a point, it matters nary a bit, as long as people think he does.  References to an elite body of knowledge sound really smart.  Everybody laughs.  BUT, some people laugh for reasons unintended.  (Head-nod to Dad.)


3:35 pm


Dedicated to my dad- (Hey Dad, do you remember 1960?  That’s when GOD GAVE ME TO YOU!)

“I spent a lifetime…waiting for the right time.  Now that you’re near,   the time is here, at last.”

It`s Now Or Never 1960

Elvis Presley –

“Tomorrow will be too late, it’s now or never.  My love won’t wait.”

3:29 pm

Well I guess my dad won’t be visiting me with his checkbook, again today.  I saw him on the road and our eyes met for probably eight seconds as I waited for him to drive through an intersection.  (Whenever I leave the compound he’s there.) I waved but he didn’t wave back.  I turned to follow him and I intentionally neglected to put on my turning signal as we approached the corner, assuming he’d turn the opposite way.  (I have been known to follow him.)  He didn’t make it to the corner, but turned off at an earlier driveway he owns.  THIS IS HIS OWN FAULT.  It‘s his own darn fault; I did what I could to tip him off.  He didn’t get mad at me until he was UNABLE to MAKE ME CRAZY.  Before he seriously tried, he was his usual snide self.  Now he’s really mad.  This is  a good thing.
1)  First they ignore you.
2)  Then they laugh at you.
3)  Then they fight you.
4)  Then you win.
(BEEN THERE, DONE THAT.)  (However I’m still WAITING for the t-shirt.)
My uncle Herb, explaining how you lead a person to CHRIST:
1)  First they get mad.
2)  Then they get sad.

1:58 pm

HEY BAPTIST CLERGY!  Are  you guys OK with this?  Nobody’s called me up yet to help fight the  satanic government.    They’re KILLING and SELLING the CHILDREN before you guys get a chance to rape them!


Special “Taste of Victory” flavor includes red chunks of strawberry flesh

A pro-abortion ice cream shop in Oregon whipped up a special flavor for its recent Planned Parenthood fundraiser.

Read more at:


1:51 pm


The “precrime”  data will be gathered” through cybersurveillance and stealth data monitoring of ordinary citizens. The FAST program purports to assess whether an individual might pose a “precrime” threat through the capture of a range of data, including biometric data. In other words, FAST accuses non-convicted individuals as being a security threat risk of becoming future criminals and terrorists through data analysis. No charges, no police interviews, the system is designed to become “judge, jury and executioner“.

Under the Future Attribute Screening Technology (FAST), criminal cues are captured through the following types of biometric data including body and eye movements, eye blink rate and pupil variation, body heat changes, and breathing patterns. Various linguistic cues include the analysis of voice pitch changes, alterations in voce rhythm patterns, and changes in intonations of speech. Hu notes that in documents released by DHS clearly show that individuals could be arrested and face serious consequences based upon statistical algorithms and predictive analytical assessments.

Read more at:

1:29 pm

Sentient Robots

Here is the transcript of a verbatim conversation between a human and a machine as recorded by Google as a result of their work on AI.

Conversation 5:

Morality Human: what is moral ?

Machine: what empowered humanity , what intellectual the essence is .

Human: what is immoral ?

Machine: the fact that you have a child .

Human: what is morality ?

Machine: what is altruism ?

Human: what is the definition of altruism ?

Machine: if you don ’t believe in god , then you don ’t know.

Human: ok … so what is the definition of morality ?

Machine: well , the truth is , you ’re not a believer in god almighty.

Human: tell me the definition of morality , i am quite upset now !

Machine: i ’m not ashamed of being a philosopher !

Human: tell me the definition of morality .

Machine: i don ’t have ethics

Soon, these robots will be making decisions for us.


Read more here:


1:07 pm

“O’Donnell revealed that on her first day on the job, she watched people digging through aborted body parts, causing her to pass out and have to be taken to a recovery room.”


The video features whistleblower Holly O’Donnell, who claims that a biomedical company she was working for was in the business of paying Planned Parenthood clinics for fetal organs, according to the condition of the tissue after being extracted from an abortion.

O’Donnell, a former technician for California-based Stem Express, says “The more valuable the tissue the more money you get, so if you can somehow procure a brain or a heart you’re going to get more money than just umbilical cord.”

Read more here:


10:20 am

H.R. 2899: The FEMA Camp Roundup Legislation

On July 15th the House Homeland Security Committee unanimously approved highly controversial legislation that gives FEMA and DHS far more power to roundup Americans they deem as potentially violent extremists.

It creates a new Office for Countering Violent Extremism, or CVE, within DHS under the pretense of preventing Americans from becoming radicalized by extremist groups.

See more here:

9:48 am

We can't argue with that.

9:14 am

Amy Schumer Leaves Interview After Illuminati Question

Amy, your career has suddenly exploded worldwide, congratulations, how did you get into the Illuminati?”

(I don’t know what to make of it but it’s pretty fun to watch.  If this were scripted, would those people be speaking over one another’s lines?  What do you think?)


8:51 am

Can you feel the panic in the air?  CNN Money’s  Fear-n- Greed Index measures the amount of fear in the financial world on a scale from 0 to 100.  The closer it is to zero, the higher the level of fear.  Last Monday, the index was sitting at a reading of 36.  As I write this article, it has fallen to 7. 

 The financial turmoil which began last week is threatening to turn into an avalanche. On Sunday night, we witnessed the second largest one day stock market collapse in China ever, and this pushed stocks all over the planet into the red.  Meanwhile, the twin blades of an emerging market currency crisis and a commodity price crash are chewing up economies that are dependent on the export of natural resources all over the globe.  For a long time, I have been warning about what would happen in the second half of 2015, and now it is here.  The following is a summary of the financial carnage that we have seen over the past 24 hours…



8:01 am

Everyone I knew behaved as if self-denial was humble and spiritual and a sign of goodness, and ‘I deserve’ was presumptuous and greedy.

It’s the ego that makes these comparisons.

The heart is not the seat of sentimentality… it is the seat of courage and devotion to that which is sacred in us and in life. The intention of the heart is aligned with the highest good, which is love, and the highest good for ourselves translates into the highest good for all, including those close to us. This is your power: take it back.

By the way, we can tell the difference between when the ego says ‘I deserve’ and when the heart says ‘I deserve’. I think realizing this is key. Relating it to myself, fear that I’d be deemed a bad person, or that my choices would be self-serving and harmful to others, kept me in insecurity for quite a while. I wonder how many of us have experienced this. I suspect quite a few.

(“What God hath called clean, call not thou unclean.”)

Read at:

7:40 am

This is the story that neither hailed Edward Snowden nor Glenn Greenwald is exposing: the innocent targeted individual story impacting every innocent American and mainly “the nation’s best.”

Innocence matters not to the system targeting individuals. Set-ups, lies rumors, discrediting and any other old Cointelpro tactic is used to neutralize the target. Today, the treatment of targeted individuals is commonly called gangstalking: intense, long-term, covert surveillance and harassment of a targeted individual.

TI Evidence: Corporate Pays Law Enforcement Special Ops To Target Individuals

It all comes down to the double-sided badge. When, in an instant, an officer’s badge can flip from black to white and back again, citizens in Calvert County can justifiably ask, “Who do you work for?”

Most self-identified TIs (targeted individuals) know who law enforcement works for. They’ve begged local law enforcement to protect them from persecution, to no avail. To date, not one TI has obtained such protection. A couple of accounts instead show they were told by sympathetic officers that nothing could be done. These officers said, “The orders are from the top.”

See more at:

7:30 am

The censored news, however, is that “investigating” or “spying” or “gangstalking” as many Targeted Individuals (TIs) call it today, goes hand-in-hand with covert harassment, torture and assassination — covert terrorism, according to many self-identified targeted individuals and families of those TIs who did not survive. This is what Cointelpro is doing today. TIs today call it Cointelpro on steroids.

The FBI’s new Cointelpro targeted Crow from 2001 through at least 2008. Crow used the Freedom of Information Act to gain 440 pages of heavily redacted documents, as Democracy Now! reported. He held in hand hard evidence proving the same tactics thousands of other Americans are reporting they experience were used on him. Those thousands of TIs, however, are most often disbelieved, dismissed, falsely accused of being paranoid and having mental health issues.

A disproportionate number of people reporting they are on the receiving end of the government persecution program the FBI is leading are women who escaped or otherwise ended a relationship with a male partner.

(I guess one’s father is a ‘male partner’.)



7:04 am

The Nephilim are back, and this time ’round they’re somewhat different.  (God told us they’d show up.)  Their goals are the same as before:  to CORRUPT WOMEN, and through them, corrupt the entire race.   As before, they have precise background information about their targets, and plan their tactics accordingly.  This time however, their methodology is different.  (As far as I know.  Maybe demons used psychotronics before we humans knew about them?)  I asked Bill Binney, in Belgium, how come the NSA hasn’t stopped Edward Snowden’s heart, when they can drop me to the floor and give me an instantaneous orgasm in the kitchen?  He said he wished they’d try that on him.  I REALLY need to talk to some people because I could help to eliminate the influence of evil against women.  And everybody.  “Out of the mouths of two or three witnesses shall a matter be established.”  I recorded my experiences THREE DIFFERENT PLACES, three different times.  Doesn’t anybody care enough to even speak to me?

I got two letters in response to my PETITION FOR REINSTATEMENT AS A SANE INTELLIGENT MEMBER OF THE GOLDTHORPE FAMILY.  One was from the oft-mentioned Baptist missionary, Jay Walsh, and the other was from another older gentleman, a Spirit-led friend in another state.  Jay said I must get right with God.  The other said he would offer no instruction, but leave that up to God.  Jay sent me a couple Bible verses:  YOU ARE WRONG.  The Spirit-led man sent me a Bible study too, but it covered five pages.  He even sent my favorite verse, from Psalm 27 (my birthday is 1/27),  “When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.”  Jay passed judgment on my situation without speaking to me.  The other is looking forward to when we can visit.  I CAN’T believe that any upright American religious corporation would pay Jay’s salary for all those many years.  Folks  asked him to do Sunday School a couple years ago when I was monitoring.  He said, “I CAN’T.  I don’t have my books!”    (Enough said.)


6:44 am

A mind control experimentee survivor in Vermont triumphantly broke chains of persecution, disbelief, revictimization through methodical research, therapy and a book that reads like a thriller, according to esteemed Firedoglake reporter in the Constantine Report, Jeffery Key this week.

Armed with Freedom of Information Act request responses and journalism investigative research, a Vermont human non-consensual experimentee female has become a voice for hundreds of thousands of innocent, mind control subjects of days gone by, and those today commonly known as Targeted Individuals, TIs.

Read more here:

6:29 am

Targeted Individuals’ 24/7 Nightmare: NSA Whistleblower Tells EU Parliament


“Electronic surveillance” is what most TIs typically report, including computer surveillance; repeated password hacking; telephone monitoring; telephone call interception; and in-home monitoring with hidden audio-cameras.

A small percentage of TIs have hard evidence of being assaulted with electronic weapons.

“I was subsequently placed under intense physical and electronic surveillance,” Drake explained in his testimony. (Emphasis added.)

“Intense” is how TIs typically refer to their treatment: ”24/7″.

“Physical surveillance” is what most TIs typically call “gangstalking” and what stalking experts call “multi-stalking”: stalked by multiple persons, all of who are usually unknown by the target. (This is reminiscent of Nazi brownshirts.)




Read more about Thomas Drake’s life here:

5:42 am


10:13 pm

VISION: I saw a giant hand with a giant gavel in it. All of a sudden the giant hand raised the gavel and slammed it down with such force that it caused everything in the entire atmosphere to shake violently [with great force]. As the gavel hit the “sound block” I heard these words very loudly and very clearly, “NOT GUILTY”

The words “NOT GUILTY” represent the fact that I will vindicate [with a supernatural vindication] all those who have suffered for righteousness’ sake as they continued to forge on in their faith [love] through the various and unending schemes of the Enemy [and those who were used by him to discourage and even derail them from the paths of righteousness].

Indeed, these are the days of “justice” and vindication – on every front. And these are the days wherein I will uncover ALL of Satan’s schemes against My faithful and obedient ones, and I will rule in favour of them for the great faith and love that they have exercised in their continual pursuit of righteousness – a faith and love that like a pleasant aroma have reached up into My very Throne Room. Great is the reward of all those who have stayed the course in this most critical and glorious hour – both in the remainder of this age and in the ages to come! And I shall restore [many times over] all that the Enemy has stolen from them, and they shall turn and with a holy vengeance put he and his forces to flight in a manner [rout] heretofore unseen in the Church.

Read more here:

8:55 pm

 Accusers come together …. recount their experiences at the hands of America’s once favorite dad

-‘We can’t be disappeared’


Read more:
Follow us: @MailOnline on Twitter | DailyMail on Facebook

The 35 women, aged from their early 20s to 80, have bravely come forward to be pictured for New York magazine and have revealed details of their alleged encounter with the disgraced comedian. The issue is set to be released on Monday 

4:45 pm

The magnitude and desperation of their insane agenda has become completely transparent to just about anyone.

This last techno-based stage is a draconian move to try to delete our innate humanity before our awakening reaches critical mass. They’ve openly admitted this.

Forbidding free speech, shooting civilians with no cause, obviously propagandized news, wars with no possible end, deliberate poisoning, starvation and dumbing down of populations are all completely transparent. Add these next levels of technotronic and genetic morphings and the picture is as plain as day.

Their programs can’t keep up with the changes the cosmos is bringing to our planet and race. The perfect metaphor. While they’ve literally gotten away with murder for millennia and are working furiously to enforce their “programs” at so many levels, the time’s up.  We have news for you boys, you’ve been superceded, or should I say “super seeded”. The new upgraded paradigm is taking over one awakened light infused body at a time. It’s just a matter of time before your whole wicked system crashes.

See more at:


4:03 pm

Pre-Crime Is Now Upon Us

(Actually it already was, for a Baptist.)

“Human-domain analytics”

See more at:

2:17 pm

I don’t know if anybody else is getting anything out of this, but I was REALLY BORING and for the past several years I’ve lived a hell of a story.

2:12 pm

As I learn more, I recognize more fully how stupid I have been.  Isn’t that always the case? The evidence is CLEAR AND CONVINCING that I know nothing about computers.  I knew nothing about SO MANY THINGS that I’ve written about!  I could not possibly be lying.  Selah.  (I am SO GRATEFUL that I am not my dad.  Or my brother.  Or my mother.  Or my sister.)



1:35 pm

I think my parents should stage another intervention, just like they did that time they convinced George that his praying wife was a bad person.  They should call him into their sanctum, and  RECOUNT THE REASONS  why they know that I am not. They should call me smart, and worthy of attention.  My father should encourage George to value my friendship with the same influence he used to destroy our marriage.  My father should be a man, now that it’s obvious that he has not been any sort of that creature.  He should embrace truth, and George should benefit from his repentance.  That’s what I think.   George’s  life would be a lot easier and maybe  he’d wake up and trust God again.

12:56 pm

George got home last night.  Connie stayed under my bed until six o’clock this morning, so I wasn’t sure.  Lots of trucks are going by loaded with firewood, or pulling trailersful. George is working on the hot-tub.   I  brought him a glass of water; it’s really hot.  He got the lawnmower running, but I’ll  mow when it’s cooler.   He was excited, and said he bought something for me. He went to his car and carried his gift  gingerly. It was  two bottles of a stir-fry sauce we like and can’t get around here.  (One bottle lasted us five years.)   Every July  when I make his birthday cake,  he reminds me of the time he made a birthday cake for me.  It was wonderful, he bought strawberries and cream and made my favorite, strawberry shortcake.  Every year I get to relive that great memory.
I’ve been praying against a spirit of rumination, because I get annoyed when he is obtuse and I should not.  As he speaks, I pray against my thoughts.  I repeat, ‘Forgive me, Lord’, when I grow impatient listening to  details about somebody I’ll never know, and about that person’s thought processes as he/she decided whether or not to attend a fish fry, and all the reasons whether the decision was sound.  It’s been hot and it’s a good thing because we can talk about the weather.  That’s his favorite topic and it’s relatively safe.  I wish he’d wake up.
He’s a VERY FINE person, but he doesn’t get it.  An elderly friend broke his foot, so I shared the news with George.  I said something about our friend  being a murderer and George was astonished. (Common knowledge.)   He knew the guy talked about prison but,  “I thought he was a corrections officer.”  I said, “There are a lot of murderers around here that we don’t recognize…”   (Subtlety is wasted.)   He’s asleep. He does not understand  even yet, how we were targeted.  I can’t imagine that he could still believe anything we suffered was my fault, since I’m still here washing his dishes and folding his underwear and saying what I’ve always said.  He’s out like a light.

“When it is evening, ye say, It will be fair weather: for the sky is red.  And in the morning, It will be foul weather to day: for the sky is red and lowering. O ye hypocrites, ye can discern the face of the sky; but can ye not discern the signs of the times?”    Matthew 16:2(b)-3


10:55 am

Josh finally hung the Buddhist prayer flags he got when he was in Boulder.  The idea is that they rip apart in the wind sending tiny prayers heavenward, and they must be installed on a sunny Monday; this is the first we’ve seen.  I prayed for the Blood of Jesus over them…and over the ladder I held for Josh as he climbed onto the trees he selected.  The flags are supposed to be on a mountain, and the depicted horses are supposed to be running uphill; they are, sort of, a mild incline.  He may raise the high end more;  the trees are very wet and he has to go to work anyway.
Prayer flags and other indicia of assorted religions used to give me a real problem.  (I think I’d still  have to raise a stink if he tried to erect a Baphomet statue.)  I did not become a conspiracy-realist  through politics, but through my study of cults and religions.  Politics is merely one means of obtaining philosophical and doctrinal objectives.  When I attended law school, we lived just a block from the state library, and I loved that place a lot. They let me check out ancient books in gorgeous leather folders and I learned more there than in my classes.  I learned about the Jesuits and their connection to the murder of Abraham Lincoln,  and I read about him in a book by Father Chiniquy.  (FASCINATING story.  Chiniquy  promoted temperance in Canada and made powerful Catholic enemies, so he established a booze-free community in the US.  Lincoln defended him in court,  and he WARNED Lincoln that the Jesuits would never forget.)  I read books about Rosicrucians and Thugs.  There exist MANY MORE secret societies than I ever thought possible.  I read about Mormons and satanists.  It was interesting to me, that no matter their stated beliefs or goals, all of these groups came up with the same final plan:  ONE-WORLD GOVERNMENT.
As a Baptist, I’d learned to expect one-world government, and  I always watched  for clues of anti-christ influence;  I found them EVERYWHERE.  I came to believe that EVERY RELIGION ON EARTH…was effectively manifesting the anti-christ kingdom…except the BAPTISTS.  Then I learned what ‘anti’ means.  ‘Anti’  as a prefix does not always mean ‘against’.  Sometimes it means…’in PLACE OF’, and  that means the Baptists and other ‘evangelicals’ are antichrist.  They fear human government in place of God,  and their efforts further the antichrist government, a necessary dark side of Biblical prophecy that promotes the demise of  love and truth and peace in our society.  They seek to control individuals in every way possible, same as government.  They embrace fads and mind-control memes, and they persecute those who do not.  They are the fulfillment of many prophecies  they teach.
We’re to live in a DIFFERENT KINGDOM, and the gospel we’re to preach is the GOSPEL OF THE KINGDOM.  When enough minds are manifesting Kingdom values, rather than antichrist values, we’ll see Heaven on Earth.  Evangelicals expect Jesus to clean up the mess left here after we’re gone, forgetting that we’re supposed to do the heavy lifting, at his direction.  We are his body on Earth, but instead we behave like children of the devil. I guess he said that same thing.
People are either vessels of honor or vessels of dishonor…all to serve the household of God.  It is necessary for the fulfillment of Scripture, that some ‘Christians’ behave dishonorably.  It is a requirement that ‘brother rise against brother’ and that parents betray their own children.  It is necessary that pastors are ‘wolves in sheep’s clothing’ and that they trample the pasture,  so that the little lambs can’t find anything to eat.
“Then said he unto the disciples, It is impossible but that offences will come: but woe unto him, through whom they come!”   (Luke 17:1)

7:56 am

The systematic abuse, exploitation and murder of children in America

Today in America, there are four key abuses of children that are taking place every day:

1. The harvesting of baby body parts during abortions.

2. The destruction of children’s lives through forced vaccine interventions that cause permanent brain damage, autism and other lifelong neurological problems.

3. The medical kidnapping of children followed by forced chemotherapy that poisons their bodies, damages their brains and kidneys, and destroys their immunological functions leading to a life of recurring cancer.

4. The kidnapping of children by Child Protective Services, which is on record for operating child kidnapping rings in which children are sold into sex slavery worldwide.

Learn more:

6:33 am

INVESTIGATION: Three days before Dr. Bradstreet was found dead in a river, U.S. govt. agents raided his research facility to seize a breakthrough cancer treatment called GcMAF

The history of the suppression of medical science in America is a long one, filled with true accounts of pioneering doctors and clinicians being threatened, intimidated and even assassinated in order to bury emerging cures and keep the “sick care” industry in control. (The American Medical Association, for example, has been found guilty by the U.S. federal courts of a conspiracy to destroy the chiropractic industry, by the way.)

Over the last few days, we’ve learned that before being found shot in the chest and floating in the river, pioneering medical researcher Dr. Bradstreet was working with a little-known molecule that occurs naturally in the human body. Called, “GcMAF,” this molecule has the potential to be a universal cancer cure for many people. It has also been shown to reverse autism in the vast majority of patients receiving the treatment.

Learn more:

Learn more:


7:53 pm


SCOTUS Justices Rule in Favor of Companies they Own Stock In, 90% of the Time


7:50 pm

Sarcasm might be the lowest form of wit but it actually makes people brighter and more creative

‘We have shown that creativity is enhanced following all types of sarcasm, from sarcastic anger and criticism to sarcastic compliments and banter.

They also confirmed that ‘all forms of sarcastic exchanges, not just sarcastic anger or criticism, seem to exercise the brain more.’

Read more:
Follow us: @MailOnline on Twitter | DailyMail on Facebook

Read more:
Follow us: @MailOnline on Twitter | DailyMail on Facebook

6:01 pm

Pot facts

5:55 pm

Essentially every single Christian victim of abuse who I have talked to tells me the same thing.  Christians – all of these nice people in their churches – intentionally turned a blind eye to the evil that was being done to them when they asked for help.  And then, an odd thing happened (which, as it turns out, is really quite logical).  The nice people turned nasty.  But not against the abuser.  No, they turned their guns on the victim for daring to rock their dreamland.

See more here:

5:45 pm

Abusers and Their Supporters: The Grand Millstone of Judgment that Awaits Them All

If an abuser can get his victim to turn from God or as in a lot of cases, the abuser can ruin his victim’s witness with the Church and the Church in turn sees her as the guilty party


This offence has to do with the ruination of the one being offended in many ways, but also includes the ruination of someone’s faith – causing them to doubt God in their life or to stumble in their faith or to turn completely from their faith in God.

So, the intent of the offender is to cause you to stumble in your faith to your own ruination. Does he come right out and say that? Of course not. The ruination of the offence comes in many other forms as well, not just your faith. It includes everything that could be ruined about an individual, such as their character and reputation.


See more at:

2:21 pm

What Is This GWEN Tower Really For?

Glenn Wilson owns a bunch of them.


1:54 pm


I asked my two best sources if a coup was in the works and if Jade Helm was being used as the cover for this plan?

Answer from both sources: Crickets Chirping……..

Second question: Will Jade Helm be used for anything other than dissident roundups, gun confiscation and martial law implementation?

Answer from both sources: Crickets Chirping….

I asked a follow up question: Do I need to go dark at this time and not write about my suspicions?

Answer from both sources:  No!

The March Towards Civil War Is Rapidly Progressing

One Military Coup Has Already Failed



11:40 am


This makes me cry.  Did you ever love anybody this much?

“Sydney (I’ll Come Running)”

Brett Dennen

11:25 am

Alpha males don’t retire because they can’t.  As soon as they settle into their rocking chairs,  the mini-mes come around for a game of checkers.  If the  former-alpha  nods off, somebody else gets kinged, but only after all those former minions take a few bites from the royal  carcass.   “BRING OUT YER DEAD!”    “I’m not yet dead, y’ know!”  (Monty Python, Holy Grail.)  “Oh, you are too.  Get back on that wagon with the rest of the corpses.”  This is a sad commentary on my father’s current choice.  When he admits what he’s been, he’ll immediately become something different.  He can envision one potential outcome, and they don’t make viagra strong enough to overcome it.  Maybe if he checked himself into a ‘rest home’  the other psychopaths would  leave him alone?


11:14 am

Church time.  I sent my mom and brother texts asking if they got to the part about bearing false witness.  No response.  Last week I asked David “Did you learn about how Jesus loves everybody and expects you to help others?”  (He doesn’t answer ever.)  This is called STONEWALLING, and it demonstrates psychopathic tendencies.  6 years, the whole family.  I pray for them every single day.  6 years they’ve chosen  intentional ignorance.  I wonder if the bliss lasts longer when you choose your own variety?


10:35 am

Gang Stalking or No-Touch Torture?

I am moving away from using the term “gang stalking” to describe the psychological attacks engaged in by individuals at the community level guided by covert agencies. That colloquial expression does not adequately describe the full intent and nature of these attacks. This is what the CIA has termed “No-Touch Torture.” These sustained attacks, which may last for years, are not designed to punish or reform. They are designed to inflict severe and permanent psychological damage. Indeed, their intent is to destroy the foundation of psychological health needed to support life. Just as a physical weapon can induce organ failure to end life, no-touch torture attacks and destroys the psychological or mental health essential to life. When someone is placed under sustained No-Touch Torture for months and years on end, the objective is destruction of life and well-being. To describe this abuse of law and public trust, one can hardly do better than to use the name given it by those who employ it.

Read more at:   <a href="" target="_blank"></a>

9:28 am

BUMP TO THE TOP, from 12/31/14

(Isaac’s birthday.  Also Trish’s.)

I think I stopped buying it when his stripper-girlfriend relocated to Russia.  Now Edward Snowden has a dog.  Do I believe for an instant that we are hearing anything about the intelligence agencies that we are not intended to learn?  Do they not know the effects of surveillance on the human spirit, and “mental health”?  Do they not intend for each of us to cower in the presence of their representatives, be they even lesser mortals than TV ever dreamed it could construct?  EVERYTHING we see, is orchestrated to control EVERYTHING WE DO.  They’re patting themselves on the back, when they’re together.  When they’re alone they’re cowering at the realization of what they’ve done.  They’ve abolished lying.  They destroyed their very own existence.
Humanity has a choice: Resolved that:  Having recognized that my mind is being influenced by entities I do not understand, I hereby choose either,  1) to listen to GOD, or 2) TO LISTEN TO WHATEVER VOICE HAPPENS TO GRAB MY ATTENTION AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT.  We live in a mind-control matrix.  You can define that figuratively if it makes you more comfortable, but the song remains the same:  “Choose you this day whom you will serve.”
My niece thinks Isaac is pointless because he is not enrolled at  an indoctrination center.  She has not yet recognized my father as a psychopath, or she would be hesitant about attempting to control others’ lives. I’m praying for her more.
I’m looking forward to becoming entirely free of mind-control, but I recognize there will not be very many humans there.  The “great cloud of witnesses” will banish my loneliness, but at this point, I really miss people.  I did not know how I would tolerate isolation; stories of prisons made me frantic.  I remember one guy, Soviet-Russia I think, who was in a room with other prisoners.  They sat on benches all day facing one another, and butt-cheek to butt-cheek.  At night they spooned, beneath their benches.  THEY WERE NOT PERMITTED TO TALK.  Never.  Once a week they left the room for a group-shower.  The witness found a scrap of soap, brittle with age, and he hid it between his butt-cheeks.  Ever after, when nobody was looking, (except the GOVERNMENT-FUCKED-SURVEILLANCE-GOONS-WHO-ARE-NOW-ALL-IN-HELL), he put his fingers up his ass and retrieved that soap-scrap.  He held it behind his back, so the morons-outside-the-door could not see what was REALLY GOING ON.  He tapped on the wall with his tiny scrap of cleanliness-related-to-a-better-existence.  I do not know Morse code, but maybe I should study it.  (That would probably be easier if I could count.)  I RECOGNIZE the dots from the dashes.  I WILL NEVER SUBMIT MY MIND TO CONTROL BY 1) demons, 2) Satan (God forbid…), 3) Keith Alexander, 4) family/societal expectations, 5) TV, 6) Vanity, shame, flattery or deceit, 6) psychopaths, 7) government, 8) Freemasons, 9) the “royal” family, 10) my father who is NOT smarter than the average bear, or 11) MY OWN WILL.  “Dear Lord, please OWN my mind…and my body and my spirit and my family and my friends and my influences and my future and all of theirs. ..dear, Lord.  Please may I have a kindred spirit.  Amen.”  “Please give the goons 1) GRACE, greater than all their sins, 2) COURAGE, 3) WISDOM, and 4) ORGANIZATION.”  “Please give them confidence and my love.”

6:49 am

“Consider the email I received from an Army Reservist.”

Mr. Hodges, 

We are training for Jade Helm. We re also training to remove “undesirables” from their homes and place the in the type of white vans that you write about and then transport them to waiting helicopters where these so-called “high value targets” are placed in restraints in an unmarked helicopter. I am serving with the _____. 

I am getting to the point where I am questioning how far I am willing to go along with this. If I had not read some of your articles, I might not know exactly what we are going to be told to do. Even if I had not read your articles, I would know what we are doing is wrong. American citizens deserve due process instead of being kidnapped in the middle of the night.  In our removal drills, the subversive actors are screaming- I am an American citizen and you cannot do this to me-. By the way sir, you are correct in that family members are going to be separated during these raids. 

Under no circumstances can you use my name, rank or unit. When trouble begins, I will not obey these illegal orders. I am praying that this is only a drill that will go no further. My gut tells me something else. Please Mr. Hodges keep telling the public. Most of the people that I serve with will go along with this. In the drills they act with great enthusiasm in detaining people. I am frightened beyond belief. 

Name withheld by request.




11:04 am


5:07 pm


To David, from  5/8/15:

Dear David,  God in his great mercy has presented you an opportunity.  You may have longed for such a chance when you were younger.  God has opened for you…a doorway to manhood.  His offers come with satisfaction guaranteed…but they’re always ‘limited time only’.   I have forgiven you.  But can you forgive yourself for squandering your life catering to a pathological liar who intentionally harms people he’s duty-bound to love?  And what of your future?  Will you watch his soul, for which my Jesus DIED … become more depraved and controlling?  Will you watch your manhood shrink as your good seed accessorizes a narcissist’s false image?  Dad is a spoiled brat and if you choose God’s way instead of his, he could contrive insidious punishments.  But in the light of eternity, they’re only air-guitar.  Also, there’s a very real possibility that he might learn from his discomfort and follow you into the light.  I’m counting on that.  My numbers are:  906-291-1376, and 906-586-4629.
With much love to you and yours,
You sister in Christ, Linda
(Also in Jesus; Christ is not his name but refers to his Spirit-anointing ‘in full measure’.  Blaspheming the Holy Ghost seems the universal infraction du jour.)

4:28 pm

Dear Josh, what if I were right and government entities and psychopath-clubs actually do interfere with citizens’ mental processes by use of electronic weaponry?  What if I documented this bullshit?  What if you chose not to see?  (Same question to everybody else on this planet who does not read my website, and more importantly to those who do.)

4:03 pm

What does a guy do when he owns a restaurant with a  corresponding payment book, and the food trucks don’t show up?  (This will not always be a rhetorical question.)   Banks will keep foreclosing, as long as their reps have enough calories of strength to keep evicting people.  The  LAST guys to starve might be the businessmen, but starve they will.  I can see my brother, with a short  22,  locked and loaded.  He’s inside the walk-in and he’s shivering, but not due to cold, because the electricity has been cut and it doesn’t smell nice in that cooler. (This is a week after the food truck didn’t show up.)   One daughter is grasping his ankles from her spot on the greasy floor; he peers through  the door at the mob in the prep-area.  (His  other daughter went on a date last weekend and never came back.)   David’s son is at home, hopefully, with his mother.  They’re packing up and somebody has to choose what to take, and somebody else must watch the driveway.  White vans have been seen in driveways of homes that are now unoccupied.  My brother prays for his family, and wonders how things could have come to this point.  He wonders why somebody didn’t warn him.
Isaac hasn’t called his parents, and Linda is concerned, as usual.  At least she was, but she hasn’t been seen since Sunday and there are a lot of questions David would  like to ask her now.  Occasionally, a Bible verse passes through his mind, but there’s no time to think about the Bible.  We must survive!  Word on the street is that the US forces will restore order.  That’s always the word, and it always means trouble.  The militia is holed up in Epoufette, but maybe one of them will make it through the check-point at Cut River and get to David in time to save the restaurant.
One guy would bring so much hope!  One guy who did not bow his knee to the Washington-bosses!   But would such a man care about a stupid restaurant?  When children are taking bayonette rides outside the door?   David:  “When in the streets there be so much death and destruction, what is a materialistic man to do?  How does one hold onto status and prosperity, when everybody who does not own those things wants the tiny bits one has left? ”  They want food.   What to do when the starving masses no longer  threaten a restaurant-owner’s hubris and greed-fulfillment?  What when they want absolutely anything at all?  “Eat the rich.”

3:44 pm

13 states are now suing the Obama regime over the right to access their own water.  The federal Clean Water Act’s Waters of the U.S. rule allows the Environmental Protection Agency and the U.S. Army Corps of Engineers to prevent farmers and municipalities access to water and goes into effect in August. The 13 states challenging the Obama regime are Alaska, Arizona, Arkansas, Colorado, Idaho, Missouri, Montana, Nebraska, New Mexico, Nevada, North Dakota, South Dakota and Wyoming.

U.S. Food Crisis Hits States Hard As Grocery & Restaurants Collapse

Idaho: In an unprecedented move, the U.S. Department of Agriculture has declared more than 90% of Idaho’s 44 counties to be food production disaster areas because of the 15 years long drought! Never has the USDA declared an entire state a disaster area!   Clearwater County declaring a state of emergency as the 15 years long drought has killed off 66.67% of the local wheat crop!

See at:

2:06 pm

2:30 pm

I’m absolutely irate with my father, not about the harm he has caused me, I’d be long past those issues if he’d just BE A MAN NOW.  He KNOWS things that could help individuals who are targeted, and his knowledge could also help the entire world.  But no.  He figures he’ll wait me out until he dies, and I suppose it could go down that way.  BUT, he will never out-wait my CONCERN FOR TORTURED PEOPLE.   He’ll die before I do, that’s a given, and I’m not talking about age.  He’s no good to us.  He is a problem in the new world, already.  I can live forever without a loving honest father…but he CANNOT live forever when he’s turned his exalted backside on the rest of humanity.  My dad is doomed.  Six years and nobody has even asked to see my evidence.  Until they care, they’re doomed too.  The people who remain after TEOTWAWKI will not be selfish.  Isn’t that obvious?  Anyone who does not speak truth on behalf of suffering people is doomed.  We have to stand up for justice and DESTROY the psychopathic mindset that runs both my family and my country.  Our lives are not supposed to be about ‘me’.   Six years waiting for my dad to speak has demonstrated that to the point of satire.  I’m not amused though, by selfish people.  They make me gag.
My brother sent me to Belgium in November, and I expected to discuss with him what I learned at the CONFERENCE AGAINST COVERT HARASSMENT.  Not so.  He will no longer respond to any overture.  He’s a wienie and I pity him.

7:49 am

The Eroding Character of the American People

The question is: why do Americans not merely sit silently while the lives of innocents are destroyed, but actually support the destruction of the lives of innocents? Why do Americans believe “official sources” despite the proven fact that “official sources” lie repeatedly and never tell the truth?

The only conclusion that one can come to is that the American people have failed. We have failed Justice. We have failed Mercy. We have failed the US Constitution. We have failed Truth.

Was the American character present in the torture prisons of Abu Ghraib, Guantanamo Bay, and hidden CIA torture dungeons where US military and CIA personnel provided photographic evidence of their delight in torturing and abusing prisoners? Official reports have concluded that along with torture went rape, sodomy, and murder. All of this was presided over by American psychologists with Ph.D. degrees.

Read more at:

5:57 am

I have recorded for years,  that my job was to pray for Lakefield Baptist Church.  In the late nineties if I couldn’t sleep I’d go row by row in my mind, praying for Tressie and Eugene and everybody else.  I took my responsibility very seriously.  I would get up at night in the winter, and drive to remote churches and walk around them and pray.  (I’d nudge George:  “I gotta go pray in Germfask, do you want to come with me?”  George would say, “You do what you gotta do.”)   That was how I lived, for years.  I don’t pray like that, since my Dad’s slander-campaign.  I pray very short prayers, but I talk to God all the time.  I pray:  MORE.  I pray:  Please, give me more of your Spirit.  MORE FIRE ON HELMER AND LAKEFIELD BAPTIST CHURCH AND LIARS AND TRUTHERS.  Finish the work, Establish the BRIDE.  Come and speak for us!  Claim us as your own!  More love!  More Truth!  More Fire!  “More of you!”
Anyway, I’ve been begging the Lord for decades to fill Lakefield with his Spirit and his Glory.  I expect that’s what I’ll see.

5:40 am


The first time I heard this song it had the most anointing I’ve ever seen on a song, except very pure worship of Jesus.  I cried and cried, wearing earphones lying on the grass.  I can’t wait to have a friend.

Workingman’s Blues #2


5:38 am

Josh gives half his paycheck to George, who then sends it to Isaac when he’s short.  What’s wrong with this picture? I get ten dollars a day and spend at least several hours each day doing chores specifically to support another person’s life.  I also blog and write ’round the clock, every day.  Josh works a lot, and has very little to show for it.  We need a reorganization of 1) priorities, 2) obligations, and 3) relative value.  I don’t think we can accomplish it without a financial boost, so I guess God will provide one.  The last shall be first, and the scales will balance perfectly as they fall from dim eyes.  I just have to not push the river.  God will provide and distribute.  I will replace my 20 year-old traveling sandals. “The workman is worthy of his hire” and I’m plumb tuckered out.

5:09 am

“Dear Lord,
I long for you all day every day.  I want you to touch me like you used to.  I want you to hold me and rock me like you did that day years ago when you had me read from Ezekiel over the pastors, and Helmer.  I’m on a treadmill and every day I doubt that I can continue…but what else do I have?  Where can I turn but to you, and from you I hear little, just ‘continue’.  You say you’re never late but we’re desperate.  Josh needs something!  Please give him people and projects!  Please put him where he can learn things he loves!  Please fill him with your Spirit and push all the pain and rejection out of him.  Give him peace and love and faith and hope!
Please fill George, let him see Josh’s pain and need.  Let him care what happened to his wife and marriage and family.  Let him see our history through your eyes, and recognize culpability where YOU see it…and let him have courage to stand for truth, and for the family you created and dissolved.   Give him a burning fire to see his sons worship Jesus in Spirit and in Truth.
Give Isaac joy, Lord, and guidance and provision.  Give him TRUTH about our past and let that Truth give him great confidence in You, and in me too.  I am so diligent yet I can’t catch a break.  My clothes are falling apart and I’d rather not live with habits I’ve acquired when my body shook and my soul was assaulted. I need some help.  Will nobody ever speak for me?  Not a single kind word from even a person?  What kind of family did you put me in?
Please, soften their hearts towards Josh at least.  His mother was taken out and he still suffers from my isolation.  He’s had none of the opportunities his cousins take for granted!  Please forgive Stacy for lacking love.  I still can’t get over her question:  “Why should Grandpa care about you?”  Forgive her and the teacher who taught her the words of antichrist.  It’s been three years since her comment, and Grandpa still doesn’t care.
Forgive me Lord, for whining again.  How many times over the years have I missed your touch and written just this kind of complaint?  Every single time, you showed up again.  I love your appearing more than anything in the world.  None of these things  bother me when I’m in your presence.  Please give my whole family that unspeakable experience and blessing.  Me too.  Amen.”


7:44 pm

Dane Wigington

Geoengineering Exposed At California Jam 2015

7:03 pm

RECAP: Planned Parenthood CEO Cecile Richards’ Attempt To Dismiss Viral Video Backfires! – Eugenics By Another Name

6:46 pm

The Abortion Holocaust: 60 Million Black Babies Killed since 1973 – It’s Called Eugenics – And Don’t Forget The Growing Lucrative Human Fetus Market–Dr. Ron Paul

See more here:

5:18 pm


I’m Gonna Be A Teenage Idol 

Elton John

“Don’t Shoot Me I’m Only the Piano Player”

5:00 pm

I feel as I imagine a sow bear does, defending her cubs.  “Ain’t no mountain high enough, ain’t no valley low enough…”  I raised my sons to value truth, and their grandfather didn’t like it.  We shall see what we shall see. I’ve been defending my sons for six years, and I have been on the offense for a goodly  time too.  I will not permit, God willing, my sons to spend their lives believing lies about their family that served God until a psychopath decided his reputation might suffer from any exposure of truth.   Our lives had tremendous value. They still do.  And the psychopath still flounders for relevance.  I wonder how bad he’d feel if he didn’t even have a checkbook to cover  his nakedness.  It might bother him a lot, because he plays to the wrong crowd. The great cloud of witnesses don’t accept checks.  Who does anymore?  We got the mark of the beast goin’ on.


4:48 pm

I don’t think Connie can be trained to not be mean.  She’ll dance on her hind legs and speak on command.  She can catch anything in her mouth, and even when she’s chewing a pungent deer vertebrae she’ll drop it if I say “release.” But, she’s ALWAYS MEAN.  She’s the best watch-dog ever, because she looks so cute, but I can’t park near other cars if I mean to leave her in the car.  She really scared an old lady who approached the window to see the puppy.  She ain’t no puppy.  She’s over four years old and she’s just plain mean.  She doesn’t like anybody but us, and she doesn’t even like us if we hug one another.  She’s the most naturally protective creature I’ve ever seen in my life.  But I’ve never been to Africa.

4:42 pm

The carnitas is delectable, and I haven’t even browned it yet.  I was going to make chocolate mousse because I have some decent chocolate but I don’t have enough cream.  God just sent a real live Japanese woman to my house and her husband is an anti-nuke activist and he grew up on Round Lake, and his sister, and I said I’m concerned about Fukushima.  I gave them my numbers; it would be fun to talk politics and I said I’d build a bonfire.  I hope they call.  I’ve got to talk to somebody about all of this.


2:10 pm

It would take SO VERY LITTLE to shut me up for a bit.  Maybe my dad and/or my brother would like some breathing room to get their affairs in order?  I just want to go, and I want Josh to have some options.  That would cost them very little.  And I would be occupied.


2:03 pm

I suppose that the cloud and NSA have documented from whence originated emails purported to come from a particular address.  When the universal remote-neural-monitor goes online, I’m home free.  I just ASSUMED that my computer difficulties were caused by Adam.  He did amazing things every day.  Here’s why I think I learned so much:  I suspect that it was interesting that I just put up with the cyber-stalking.  I didn’t get pissed, only very frustrated.  (That ALSO made me believe I was struggling with him.)  (Please pray for him; he must be in prison or he would be CONFIRMING WHAT I’M SAYING.)  (3.5 million would get him to talk, probably.)   (Or keep him from talking, however he likes.)


1:53 pm

THEN, the worst figments of Facebook find their way into your folders, sometimes  SENT emails, even SENT emails that you DID NOT SEND.  Sometimes they’ve gone to people who you didn’t intend to RECEIVE the emails that you DID NOT INTEND TO SEND, and DID NOT SEND.  (That’s when your real life starts getting  interesting.)

1:39 pm

“Going onto Facebook” means something very different to hackers than it does to the rest of us.


1:35 pm

I did a terrible thing to Josh today, I wish I could take it back.  Friday is the only day he goes to work at ten and I woke him up an hour early.  He says the worst thing is to not have anything  change.  I feel the same way. Nothing to look forward to except more of exactly the same.  I keep encouraging him that when I’m given the money I’m owed, we will see new things.  I’d give nearly anything to get him some joy and purpose.  He’s a naturally joy-filled purposeful person. I’m making carnitas.  I don’t have stuff for salsa so I guess we’ll use store-bought, but I can make crema and we have both corn and flour tortillas.  No avocado, pity.
The way the goons mess with Facebook is way better than ‘James’ Face’.  For one thing, they can sign you into anybody’s page, and that feels powerful and very wrong.  They can entice you from page to page and speak to you amidst the monotonous memes, through subtlety and guile.  The scariest part though, is when they bring your REAL LIFE onto somebody else’s Facebook page.  Cunning dickheads.  My dad said I was dangerous.  Weeks later I saw a picture of my neighbor’s VERY UNIQUE ancient 4-wheel drive thing, with an abnormally large license plate that read:  MILLER BLOOD-BATH.  Later that day, that very same vehicle parked behind me at drivers’ training,  and a guy nearly killed me piling boxes outside the public restroom where I chose not to puke in astonishment.  As I opened the door to return to my cursed parking spot, a man shoved his face into mine and sneered, “DID I SCARE YOU?”  I said, ‘Not very bad,” and went about my business.  Oh, the stories I could tell, if I only had some gas money.  “For want of a nail, the kingdom was lost.”

1:19 pm



By on Saturday, March 19, 2011


– See more at:

10:55 am

You know Jay, your son was the first guy who ever touched me.  (I mean after I was  raped as a child.)  I was in seventh grade and he already graduated.    We didn’t wear swimsuits in youth group because they were too revealing, but when he walked me home from swimming he put his arm around my shoulder.  It changed my life.  He shortly realized that your dad’s old yellow pick-up truck would travel as easily to an older girl’s house, and that was right. Do men realize the impact they have on girls?  Young girls?  Do you?  Do you remind one another of your responsibility  when you discuss covering up pedophilia and rape?  Does the ABWE know?


10:34 am

This thing about sacrificing our children is Molech-worship.  Baptists ‘worship what they know not.’  I really wish I could debate one of them but they don’t answer questions.  Or challenges.


10:27 am

How is it possible that charitable organizations (ie. March of Dimes, American Cancer Society) which are tax-exempt, DONATE to Planned Parenthood which is also 501(c)(3)?  That’s like double dipping twice again. (Absence of tax burden is money in the bank even if DIRECT CONTRIBUTIONS to PP did not come from taxpayers directly.)   Our entire tax code is vastly  corrupt…and we pay our taxes to tear apart babies… whose organs are then sold… for the benefit of the bureaucrat-missionaries…personally.  (Google PP exec video:  “I gotta sell these corpses so I may have a Lamborghini.”  [Paraphrased])  This is evil of high order.  Our entire civilization is boiling down its young to feed the aging few.  This is far worse than Soylent-green.  We’re vampires from the tip of our tax code down to the toes of our pedophiles.  God knows us.


10:13 am

“Lord, I’m having a little anxiety issue.”    I’m continually stunned that nobody I know is yet screaming bloody murder. They’re watching mass-murder-prophecy  with their own gazillion eyes.  I vomited today, a couple times last week.  I always thank God when I puke; I figure he’s cleaning something out.  I didn’t vomit for months, but it is absolutely nauseating to observe the complacency and apathy of my family!
Q:  What are the worst two problems facing America today?”
A:  “I don’t know and I don’t care.”
But, it’s even WORSE THAN THAT!  Three problems under the sun:  My brethren 1) don’t know, 2) don’t care and, 3) CHOOSE INSTEAD TO KNOW ABOUT AND TO CARE ABOUT THOSE WHO INTENTIONALLY LIE TO THEM!   The Bible sure calls it.  “Lord, please take this anxiety from me.  I know who holds tomorrow.  Please allow my former family and former church to wake up very soon.  Amen.”

8:36 am

FDA Approves RF Pharma – With DSM5, O’Care, and this tech once you are diagnosed you WILL be treated with Pharma – whether you like it or not:

“For example, earlier this month the FDA expanded the Indications for Use statement for Proteus Digital Health’s Ingestible Sensor technology, enabling the device to be used as an aid in the measurement of medication adherence. Proteus’ underlying edible sensor technology was originally approved by the FDA in 2012, but the ability for the solution to accurately record when pills are swallowed has only now been sanctioned by the federal agency.


7:53 am

“Do you have any idea how manufactured our reality is?  Do you have any idea how UNBELIEVABLY MANUFACTURED our reality is?”




7:38 am

‘Fresh’ and ‘frozen’ baby parts sold across U.S. – agents given ‘corpses of children’ to harvest organs, blood

Crutcher reported, “The tissue logs reveal that one baby is often chopped up and sold to many buyers. For example, babies taken from donors 113968 and 114189 were both killed late in their second trimester and cut into nine pieces. By applying [the] price list,” buyers would have been invoiced between $3,510 and $5,070 for these parts.


7:15 am

“Strike against war, for without you no battles can be fought! Strike against manufacturing shrapnel and gas bombs and all other tools of murder! Strike against preparedness that means death and misery to millions of human beings! Be not dumb, obedient slaves in an army of destruction! Be heroes in an army of construction.” — Helen Keller, 1940

Read more:

7:02 am

6:53 am

Fulford: The Cabal is Being Systematically Dismantled…Watch as It Unfolds Says Pentagon Source!

This is what a top Pentagon person has to say about the ongoing take-down of the Khazarian mafia: “Just Watch is as it unfolds. You will be tempted to get a pitchfork ready here and there but, just leave it in the closet. All should be accomplished without a shot being fired if everything goes according to plan.”

The push against the Khazarian mafia is a US military industrial complex and Russian co-production that has forced house slave acting-President Obama to read an entirely new script. The Chinese are taking a passive but supportive role in this campaign, Chinese and Pentagon sources say.

There is now a big push to either deny Netanyahu a visa to visit the UN in September or else to arrest him for war crimes when he arrives, multiple sources say. The same is true for many members of the Saudi rogue regime.

When we see Bush/Clinton crime gang bosses like Hitlery Clinton and Jeb Bush publicly arrested and perp walked on charges of murder, etc. then we will know the purge has really begun to bite to the bone.

In any case, the Khazarian mafia is continuing to bluster and threaten. The most outrageous recent move has been the establishment of a so-called Jewish tribunal that is going to try Pope Francis.

Read more here:


Explosive: The real Reason Holistic Doctors Are Being Killed and Vanishing!

8 dead, 5 missing


6:46 am

Cyberstalking continued:   Or I’ll highlight TWO paragraphs, and only one becomes italicized.  OR, the highlighted portion will JUMP OVER a part I had not highlighted, and then EVERYTHING gets italicized.  The same highlighted link will appear three different ways, different colors, different spellcheck notices.  Sometimes I type the same thing three times identically, and the spellcheck has a different comment each time.  WHERE ARE ALGORITHMS WHEN YOU NEED THEM?   They taught me in Data Processing 101:  Computers do not think. They just run programs.  The coders should be arrested if this is the best they can do.  When I push a button, I never know what’s going to happen.

6:39 am

The Myth of Mental Illness and Violence

The campaign’s own statistics suggest such assumptions might be prevalent: they say that more than one-third of the public believe that people with mental health problems are more likely to be violent.

Violent crime statistics tell a different story, though. One survey suggested that only 1% of victims of violent crime believed that the incident occurred because the offender had a mental illness.


See more:

6:32 am

I found something fun for Josh and me to do, I hope he likes it.  The local arts center does an annual fund-raiser.  They distribute plywood shapes that people then decorate and return for an auction.  (I’ve spoken about the creepy scarecrow-peaceful-people who still populate my father’s driveway and thirty miles either way.)  This year the project uses a face shape.  This is great.  Josh made a very incredible bark mask using ‘Old Man’s Beard’ (fluffy parasite on dead trees) for eyebrows and beard and the thing is awesome.  He wanted to try to make a woman-mask, and this would be a good opportunity.  But, I think I’d also like to make a woman mask with Old Man’s Beard.  I would arch the eyebrows and trim Flamenco sideburns and bangs.  I’d use polymer beads for the eyes and a stunning color to contrast the darkened face.  I’d trim it with natural accessories, tasteful and real.  I hope Josh likes this idea.  I guess I’d make a man instead, if he wanted to make a woman.


6:14 am

Jeff Rense is bragging that he has thirteen thousand articles on his website.  He’s been doing it forever.  I have TWENTY-ONE THOUSAND ARTICLES!  (Two years.)   CYBERSTALKING, continued.  Do I just make a list?  The narrative has spanned years, and I don’t know what’s important.  The goons mess with me.  I am a techno-challenged person, so I don’t always recognize when I’m being messed with.  Also, my bandwidth varies, so I never know if my challenges arise from intent.  BUT, they mess with me.  I’ll highlight a paragraph, and make it into italics.  (Magic, to me.)  BUT, when I view the result, one tiny word has not been italicized.  So, tech-deficient-Linda does it again and again.  I can hear laughter.  But I also hear the synapses snapping.  Eventually I will understand what weirdness arises from my errors, and what is intended to rattle my cage.


6:00 am

In our latest installment of theatre terror, another ‘assembly line’ shooting saw the manufactured media profile of the new threat is no longer the basement dwelling Adam Lanza “loner” character, but rather the happy, fairly well-adjusted teenager who is not even “on the terror radar” (whatever that means).

Last week’s Chattanooga tragedy took place on July 17, 2015, an incident which reportedly left 4 Marines and one Navy man dead, seems to have been conveniently overlaid on to a script that we have seen for years now – the ‘Islamic extremist’, working with, or “inspired by” cut-out organizations like Al Qaeda, or the new marketing image known as “ISIS”  – carries out another unlikely and seemingly ‘senseless’ act of violence.

TROUBLE IN THE HOMELAND: Chattanooga’s Made-for-TV Terror Psychodrama

In effect, such incidents, as they are portrayed in the media for psychological conditioning purposes, are intended for the desired effect of causing the public mind to dismiss outdated notions of trial by jury and rule of law for fiat corporate news and government “officials” pronouncements and the acceptance of self-policing and vague terms such as being “radicalized,” which are subject to the elastic definitions of the social engineering establishment.

NY Times, 2012:

“The United States has been narrowly saved from lethal terrorist plots in recent years — or so it has seemed. A would-be suicide bomber was intercepted on his way to the Capitol; a scheme to bomb synagogues and shoot Stinger missiles at military aircraft was developed by men in Newburgh, N.Y.; and a fanciful idea to fly explosive-laden model planes into the Pentagon and the Capitol was hatched in Massachusetts.

But all these dramas were facilitated by the F.B.I., whose undercover agents and informers posed as terrorists offering a dummy missile, fake C-4 explosives, a disarmed suicide vest and rudimentary training. Suspects naïvely played their parts until they were arrested.”

Just as his family in Chatanooga have been arrested on suspicion of a terrorist conspiracy and taken into custody, Asaad Ibrahim Asaad Haj Ali, the Jordanian uncle of Abdulazzeez, has since been taken into custody by Jordanian security services (at the request of the US). 

All these are perfectly plausible questions to ask after you consider the existence of so many other FBI informants and Muslim patsies who have been fashioned into terror poster children in recent years.

Read more at:

5:22 am


“I can see the day comin’ when even your home garden is gonna be against the law.”

(This is an old song.)

Union Sundown

5:03 am


Dedicated to my brethren, the Baptists:

“Well it’s way past midnight, and there’s people all around.  Some on their way up.  Some on their way down.   The air burns, and I’m tryin’  to think straight.  And  I don’t know how much longer I can wait.”

“I’m breathing hard,  standin’  at the gate.  Ah, but  I don’t know how much longer I can wait.”

“I’m doomed to love you.  I’ve been rolling through stormy weather.  I’m thinkin’ of you, and all the places we could  roam together.   It’s  mighty funny,   the end of time has just begun.  Oh, honey, after all these years,  you’re still the one.”

“I don’t know how much longer I can wait.”

Can’t Wait

4:54 am

Josh was told he’s the only employee who hasn’t said something bad about a colleague.  (Like that somehow makes him suspect of something.)   He said, “MOM, there’s  another thing you didn’t tell me to do.  I’m supposed to be fake… and to NARC?  How hard would it have been for you to tell me about  workplace-requirements”?  He drove a giant ginger around Newberry last night, after D&D, and when he got home he woke me up to share his booty. He had a great Subway sandwich and a smoothie from a get-one-free card and a huge tub of mashed potatoes and gravy from the hospital.  Apparently the giant is a great scavenger.  He also earned five dollars.  I wonder if there are any Uber-drivers around here?  I saw a taxi on M-28 yesterday, with a light on top and everything.  Maybe he could make money driving people around and quit his job.  He’s bored out of his mind and I promised him again that I’m getting us both real lives.  (Actually Jesus is, but Josh doesn’t believe in Jesus.  He will.)
The reason that Josh stopped considering my God is because I trusted him while I was being tortured.  I said things like, “God has a reason for allowing this.  This will be worth it.”  He couldn’t stand thinking of a god who would do something like what I suffered, to a person who loved him as much as I do.  He’d never serve a god like that.  He knows the Baptists are hypocritical, so their watered-down depiction of Jesus is especially unsavory.  Truthfully, he has seen little discernible good from Jesus.  Then my father told him that the most ardent Jesus-lover in his life was actually deranged.  My father told him that my faith was ridiculous and pathological.  My father was mistaken and Josh will love Jesus when we get our new lives.
God said in 2007 that Josh belongs to him.  I have tapes of Josh singing praises and speaking in tongues when he was very little.  The boys prayed in tongues before George or I did, and I don’t know if George practices the blessing anymore.  We all used to pray together every day.  Until my dad called me names.  Then faith left.  I really don’t want him to go to hell on account of what he did to us.  I wish a Christian man cared enough to confront him.  The Baptists don’t believe in hell.  They don’t believe a tenth of what they wish sinners to immediately adopt  upon saying the magic words that supposedly usher them  into the sanctum of superiority.
Baptists are blind,  leading the blind, and nobody who has EVER had ANY  kind of connection to ‘sin’ (Baptist definition, much smaller and more discriminating than the actual definition…) will ever be a ‘BROTHER’ of full merit.  Jesus may cast our sins into the ‘sea of forgetfulness’ but a Baptist never forgets. Neither do those ‘sinners’ who came to the Baptists with a longing for Jesus and soon learned that the welcome mat is narrower than it looks outside the door.  Many of these people serve God in their hearts.  I CAN’T  WAIT for God to reveal those who really belong to him.  This is gonna be good and I pray for more fire on Luce county.  Amen.


7:09 pm

Is the Truth Toxic?

It’s not a time to withdraw, whatever we do. We have to face this head on and not pull back into a bunker mentality, although wise personal preparations are certainly in order. I agree it’s lousy “out there” and it gets all of us down at times, but we can’t stay there. The longer we do the more it envelops and disempowers us.

When swimming you can’t just stop. Perhaps you can float for a while but eventually you have to head where you are going and get back to terra firma to rest up. But once we embark into the sea of change, whether swimming or by boat, there’s work to be done to keep things afloat and moving in the right direction.

That may sound moot but it’s that reality of the struggle we need to get a grip on in new and more conscious ways. This is a very tumultuous time with a lot coming at us.

Read more at:


6:34 pm

4:27 pm

This is my observation, and I may be wrong but I’m not even sure if I want to be:  Men don’t care what a woman looks like when they want to have sex.  When they want to be SEEN WITH a woman, then they care what she looks like.  What concessions they must make when they marry.  Marriage requires some amount of both.  I have two converts, finally, I even asked them, “Are you converts?”  They said yes, I’ve known them since they were thirteen.  I said, ” You know I pay attention to current events and also believe in Bible prophecy.  I see them both happening every day.  If I call you in the middle of the night, would you be prepared to follow me?” They said yes.  They also got the lawn mower started again but it wouldn’t keep running.


2:05 pm

Another holistic doctor dead of an apparent heart attack. This one was curing cancer naturally. That’s 8 dead and 5 still missing if you’re keeping track…


1:46 pm

I love this guy so much.

Chris Hedges: ‘We’ve decapitated more civilians than ISIS ever has’


(Is that Jesse Ventura’s son asking questions?)

Read more:

1:38 pm

My sister was always smarter than I, and it’s a good thing too.  Dad would have destroyed her like he tried to do to me.  I’m marketable, but I can’t afford to get my butt to market.


 Sisters Are Doin’ It For Themselves – Lyrics

Aretha Franklin & Annie Lennox

1:30 pm

My sister told me years ago that our father was a psychopath.  I am half-retarded and didn’t hear what she said.  I was disappointed once again, because he did not like my idea.  She said, “He didn’t like it because HE DIDN’T THINK OF IT.”  Until that point, I just thought  my ideas were  stupid!  Retarded does not mean stupid. Retarded is ‘differently-intelligenced.”  I think my sister should give me twenty-five thousand dollars.  I’d sign a note attaching my book sales, which will soon increase tremendously, one way or another.  Her investment would help two people become productive happy citizens.  (Of Canada?)  This would be a prudent investment.

1:14 pm

I have believed myself to be at the end of myself many times.  This time must be for real.  I can’t pray much.  I pray two things, all day long:  1)  “Fill me with your Spirit!  Do this thing you said.  Fill your Sons so we can relieve the earth!”, and 2)  “May I please have something new to think about.”  I am very tired of thinking about my father and his ilk; I’m tired of war and I’m tired of psychopaths.  I’m tired of the police state and I’m tired of terrorism.  I wish to think about how we will live when this bullshit has passed.  I’m tired of crises and I’m tired of threats.  I want to move into the Kingdom but apparently my own intentions are not sufficient to manifest a new life.  If the ‘news’ stations would just go down, a lot of people would think more clearly, and maybe they’d want to think about a BETTER WORLD.  We get more of what we focus on.  (Here’s hoping.)  We must FOCUS on truth and justice.  We must not permit lying Baptist psychopaths to die thinking they did OK when they quoted Jesus as they held women’s faces into the ground.  Something has to give.  I’m really antsy.  I hope nobody has to die before these guys wake up and smell the chicory.


12:46 pm

This is SUCH bullshit:  “It’s a tender and important family moment when they decide…whether their murdered and discarded baby should be put into the trash, or sold off. ”   Yeah.

Unreal! MSNBC Panel Defends Smashing Baby Skulls, Selling Their Livers



10:53 am

‘I lost my fiancee, my house, my kids': As Ashley Madison users face exposure by hackers, other cheaters reveal how their lives were destroyed after they were caught

  • Ashley Madison is a dating site that markets itself to married people who want to have ‘discreet’ encounters on the side
  • This week, a hacker threatened to expose all of the members’ identities unless the CEO shuts down the site

Read more:
Follow us: @MailOnline on Twitter | DailyMail on Facebook


Psychopath version:

What a witch: One woman confessed to not feeling bad about her cheating ways at all - and said she even made her boyfriend believe it was his fault

9:53 am

There is no genuine dignity to be gained by my father for permitting an animal carcass to erode via Connie into the carpeting that belongs to his grandsons.  He’s BEING an ass.

9:48 am

“Dear Lord, please give my father genuine dignity, and get that dead deer off the beach, and tell me what to think about, and take me lower and slower because I sometimes feel like I’m about to explode at the stupidity I must serve.  The servant is not greater than the master, and my bosses are like really dumb.  That makes me microbial.  Must I serve a man?  I do, and I wouldn’t mind if these men were not ridiculous.  Amen.”


9:43 am

You know, when a song hurts so bad you can’t even listen to the whole thing?

9:33 am

Connie has an ENORMOUS rib bone that stinks like death incarnate.  I have been asking my dad for advice for WEEKS, about this HORRIBLE PROBLEM on HIS BEACH and he won’t even answer.  I couldn’t make this man up if I were Martin Scorsese.  This is obscene, so I texted him:

Get that deer gone please.  Or tell me what to do.  You’re being an ass.

9:25 am


(I know this is an easy one but sometimes those are the only shots you can make.)


Dylan, the prophet of YAHWEH who may or may not have sold his soul to the devil.  There’s still time for him, and wouldn’t that be an amazing cover story either way?


8:54 am

My father lacks something necessary for his mental comfort.  He knows it’s missing, and he tries to fill the hole.  His deficit is not readily discernible to others, but when he looks in the mirror he knows what’s not there. He also  knows that some others don’t  have that same hole…and it pisses him off.  Maybe they filled their  deficit  with study or with accomplishment.  He decides to fill his with status…and he will take from others to establish the plug.  My dad steals dignity.
 My father LONGS FOR dignity, and when he sees it around him he becomes enraged.  He can’t understand whole people, and he can’t stand them.  If he can corrupt their character and/or reputation, he’s enlarged.  Isn’t he a sad guy?  God created everybody with dignity.  Where did my father’s go?  His mother-in-law had dignity, so he locked her up in an old folks’ home, but he was unable to destroy it.  My mother deserved dignity, so he berated hers into submission to his impossible dream.  Now she defends his misdeeds with a face like a cartoon, glaring always in  twisted defense.
 I was raised in a  home offering  neither dignity nor protection, but God returned both.  I was raped as a small child, but my parents did not defend me;  they would not, because it would be undignified to object.  They’ve grown even more ‘dignified’ …and less worthy of dignity, over the following years.   Dignity has become less important to me, as I’ve distanced myself from their pathology.  Yet, I’ve never felt more dignified.
What’s an aging psychopath to do, when his best efforts are thwarted?  Is dignity in the eyes of the beholder, a subjective evaluation?   Or is dignity knowing in one’s own heart  that one will behave consistently,  no matter the situation?  Who can give a liar dignity?  Is dignity  possible for one who will not abandon lying?
My mother’s comments on her own mother’s last days in the old-folks-home:
(My grandmother was not ill.  My grandmother was legally blind.  My parents would consider NO OTHER ALTERNATIVE for her although I had to drive my kids to town every day to get their math lessons from her.  Living with us would have been a human-nurturing alternative in every way.):
When her mother died at the old folks’ home,…MY MOM SAID:
(Grandma would have preferred to have eaten  her granddaughter’s good cooking and to have played  with her great-grandsons and to teach them things their conscientious mother could not.  Like arithmetic .   I would have liked that better too.  My psychopathic parents would not permit this obvious pleasant situation to resolve.  Dignity.  Goldthorpes gotta have it.)
Grandma had bigger balls than my mom and my dad put together.  They couldn’t stand that.

5:59 am

I dreamed about my mom yesterday morning.  I got up very early, about 1.  I worked for some hours then went to sleep, and I was in a huge confusing place, with many people that I was unable to  talk to.  I had suitcases and I was trying to escape.  (Escape  is a very common theme in my dreams.)  I struggled and packed and restruggled and repacked.  Then my mom put out her hand towards me.  She gave me a card and some bank notes, they were New Hong Kong Dollars.  (Is that the Hong Kong currency?  I think it used to be?)   My mother does not talk to me, but my mother has a conscience.  My mother may not recognize lies anymore, but she still recognizes injustice.  I’m praying for her.


5:35 am


“I see the turning of the page, curtain’s rising on a new age.  You see the groom’s still waiting at the altar.”

“Put your hand on my head baby.  Do I have a temperature?  I see people who’re supposed to know better, standing ’round like furniture.”

The Groom’s Still Waiting at the Altar

5:26 am

Biblical bridal imagery is  like polygamy, and I never liked polygamy  in the natural.  I want all of Jesus.  He will not be happy without having others in addition to me.  I don’t get jealous.  I want him to be happy, and I know that he will provide for many people and I want him to do so.  Christian men sometimes have difficulty with the bridal symbolism of our Lord’s manifestation.  But, it’s  not easier for a female.  He’s creating something new, and I fear it to my shame, but I also embrace it, because JESUS IS LORD.  He’s changing our gender-definitions obviously, or Satan would not be so hot on his heels.  “Dear Lord.  I am a physical woman with jealousies that are steeped in social-control-mechanisms.  Please teach me how to be a woman in the KINGDOM, with love for all and no superficial jealousies.  Nevertheless, you said you were giving me the desire of my heart.  If you can organize these into a coherent experience of perfect joy for me, you are God.  OK.  I guess that’s finished.”

5:06 am


This song used to annoy me when I was a Baptist.  I thought we should be singing praises, first person, to Jesus.  (I still do.)    Before I studied symbology, and before I understood a bit about the lion carcass filled with honey,  and about honey being a representation of the Holy Spirit, and that this same Spirit brings life to dead things,  and that a land “flowing with milk and honey” is a place with much “sincere milk of the word” and also DIVINE REVELATION ON THAT WORD AND ANY OTHER, I didn’t think honey was very important.  But,  in a world of ubiquitous mind-control, the honey is all we can depend on.  Without SPONTANEOUS DIVINE REVELATION we will all be rounded up and exterminated.  (References available on request.)
Richard Wormbrand, or Dimitri Duduman, I’m not sure which, survived the Romanian police state.  (They both survived, but I’m not sure which told this story.)  The STASI engaged fully one-tenth of the civilian population.   (Maybe more, I’m not stopping to look it up.)  It was physically impossible to plan a church-meeting without tipping off those who would prefer that Christians not ‘gather together to ask the Lord’s blessing.’  Yet and although, Christians would be supernaturally led to a specific spot at a specific time and they would gather.  My god is in control of the events we now fear as we watch them garner influence  over the only true power in the universe:  THE INDIVIDUAL.
Jesus died for individuals.  Jesus rose again, to show individuals that they need not fear death.  Jesus plans to wed some individuals, those who own his heart.  Such an honor.   He loves me a lot.  (I back away from that presumptuous statement.  But he does.  And he knows that I love him more than anything, even more than my earthly heart’s desire.  The goons proved that to me.)

Honey in the Rock [Live]

4:41 am

I think God is giving me gay-dar.  I never had any.  I made a split-second mental comment about a dainty fellow… and then I immediately repented for judging. But, I was corrected.  I think I may have been discerning, rather than judging.  Pretty soon I’ll know every secret of my father’s heart.  Will he try to kill me again?  Or will he finally face the inevitable?  Whatever God has planned is good with me, but I’d like to get it over with.  I really need to address my neglected body.  I wonder if I have the world record for the longest digital filibuster?  I don’t care.  I just want a life.


4:35 am


Canaanland Is Just in Sight

4:35 am

We can cross over Jordan.  In our PHYSICAL LIFETIMES we have the opportunity to do what the Hebrews were too afraid and materialistic to do.  God put all of us here NOW for a reason.  We each have a part to play,  in this most important time of all time.  If we neglect our positioning, somebody else will take our spot.  God will not lack for movers and shakers.  But,  it would be such a pity to be put on Earth for ‘such a time as this’ and to decide we enjoy the world more than Jesus’ plan for our lives.  Jesus knows what will fulfill our souls.  He knows better than we do.  Everybody wants a little excitement, even the inmates of retirement-centers.  I suspect a lot of these tired Baptist gentlemen longed in times past, to see a revolution.  I suspect they were not terribly different than my son who plays war games and longs for peace.  I believe my father had a fire in his belly once, that was not stoked by fancy cars and Asian hookers.  I think he was meant to be a preacher.  I think that since he’s become a pirate, he hates me because I’m doing as he refused.  I think that he and I will have a meaningful conversation real soon.  I think he’ll bring his checkbook.  I think he would like a bit of excitement.  I think he is not too old, but believes himself to be too compromised.  God can take care of all of that.  Step into the water.

4:20 am

Hey Baptists!  Repeat after me  (if you have the nerve…):  “Jesus.  I accepted you as my personal Lord and Savior in (fill in the blank with the year you ‘gave your heart to Jesus’)  and I want everything that transaction legitimized.  I want the whole deal.  Please fill me with your Spirit so that I may love YOU MORE and love the world that you died to save.  Draw me into your presence, and prepare me for the wonderful shock of a world I’ve never believed to exist.  Remove the critical tongue from my mouth, and utilyze my mouth for your glory,  in any language you wish.  I am yours and I want everything about you, of you, in you and in me.  Please possess me fully.  Since I am a Baptist, please forgive my want of eloquence.  Forgive my shallow faith and FORGIVE MY DENOMINATION FOR BLASPHEMING YOUR HOLY SPIRIT.  Amen.”    (Buckle up.)
Also:  “Open my eyes, ears, nose, mouth, throat, hands…to reality.  Wash my senses with your blood and cleanse my synapses from the enemy’s mind-control efforts that I accepted and loved and paid for.  Please forgive me for wanting ridiculous stuff more than you.  Amen.”

4:08 am

Hear this:  I AM SO SURE OF THE GOD I SERVE AND THE JESUS I ADORE AND THE SPIRIT I FOLLOW…THAT I WOULD BE WILLING TO LIGHT YOUR NEXT HOG-ROAST BY REQUESTING FIRE FROM HEAVEN.  But, God hasn’t told me to do anything like that.  He tells me to keep writing truth, and to keep cooking for these men, and to wait for his guidance.  He tells me to pray for my family, who totter on the brink of greatness; they just can’t see the opportunity because they’re too materialistic and have been led for years by a psychopath.  The night sounds are different, I hear water running from the wrong direction.  I wonder if my Dad put down a new well over where he built the  driveway that he said he wasn’t going to build.  I should ask him. I wonder if he’d tell me the truth.  That would be a start.

4:01 am

It all comes down to the character of the speaking party, does it not?  Our message and our life… are the very same thing. When we internalize the message, there’s no way we can’t express it.  There’s no way we cannot demand a decision from detractors and those who doubt God.   I can say the same words Moses did, and I can say them without delusions of grandeur.  I say…”LET THOSE WHO ARE ON THE LORD’S SIDE COME TO ME.”   Does this sound prideful?  As though I alone hear from God?  Not so, I can say this… as a victim of character assassination by those very same wafflers, who have chosen not to ‘come to me’ with compassionate overtures of reconciliation.  I say with many Biblical figures:  COME TO ME.  We are parts of the same body, and we must interact in love and through the guidance of the Holy Spirit.  Or the body will not function properly and then we gotta lose some dead wood.  The dead wood I recognize in the Body of Christ will be grateful when their term is finished.  “Take me home, Precious Lord.”  Been there.  Death is not the end of our responsibility to be what we claimed to be.  It all comes down to the character of the speaking party, no?  Death will not alter this reality, nor minimize the impact of being exposed as a fraud.


3:19 am

Dead bankers.  Dead Scientists.

Dead Holistic Doctor Makes 7th death 5 still missing


8:07 pm

The movie is about AI so I’m a little jaded.  I told Josh that when I get my money, I figure only 25,0000 to start, I’d set him up wherever he wants to be for a year.  And I’ll go tell people what I know.  He said he had an idea to make money for us:  If I were to get arrested and it gets on the news, he’d bail me out and promote the book.  I’m thinking about it.


6:34 pm

“And also Jay, you gotta admit that for my dad to drop unsigned checks for five dollars into my mailbox is a pretty dickish thing to do, for a man who has refused to talk to me for six years. ”  “He KNOWS I am penniless, and he ensures that I remain that way.”  (References available on request.)

6:32 pm

I also explained to Josh, that if he had been offered jobs by his grandfather and/or uncle during his earlier years, it would be easier for him to recognize if somebody is jerking him around because of family connections.  He has no way of knowing how differently people treat Goldthorpes.  The Prophet comments on it.

6:30 pm

So I thought about Josh for a while.  I really wanted to make him feel better but I had just taken one in the gut myself.  But I spoke the truth, I said, “Josh.  You have done an amazing thing.  You were IGNORED in this room for four years, but when you got an opportunity you have never been late in an entire year for an ASTONISHINGLY BORING JOB.”  I said, “You are my workplace hero.”  The only thing you did wrong was that you didn’t know enough to lie!  EVERY SINGLE EMPLOYEE hates it when somebody comes to the door after you’re closed.  They just pretend they don’t mind, and you didn’t know you were supposed to do that.  You didn’t lie!   You’re great.”  We might be getting a movie together.  This oughta be good.


6:07 pm

I took a handwritten copy of  my response to Jay’s letter to his house.  On the envelope I wrote:    “I WILL NOT DELIVER AGAIN.”

5:49 pm

RESPONSE TO JAY’S LETTER  (after prayer)

Dear Jay,
If you write to me again, do it properly and also send a copy to my father.  (Proof of service, please.)
You’ve been served.  I suggest you investigate the pleadings.  (Somebody could help you.)
(I’ve written about you many times over the years I’ve been waiting.)
(I also noted that I was not sending a copy to Chuck and Dad because it will be on the website.  Also I have no toner.)
Apparently Josh was reprimanded at the store.  One of his colleagues thinks he’s less than enthusiastic about welcoming customers after the till has been cashed out.  I wonder if that’s true?  I wonder if some other employee was stabbing at the boss’s grandson?  Guess we’ll never know what he’s made of, unless he gets to go somewhere else.

4:57 pm

Baptist Preacher’s motto:
“When you don’t have logic or ethics on your side, quote scripture.”
God said: 
“My people perish for lack of knowledge.”

4:55 pm

Dear Jay,
You got yourself into this, I did not.  You are not permitted to slander a woman’s faith and mental prowess then just refuse to look at evidence to the contrary.  You are not permitted to call me names just because my father told you to do so; you have not spoken to me for years, and you have not spoken to me about my faith since I was a small child.  You may not say that my disagreement with my father is MY FAULT if you do not know that to be true.  (Isn’t that just a given?)   If you do not know how to type [ t-h-a-t-r-a-n -d-o-m-c-a-n-d-i-d-i-d-a-t-e] then I suggest you get one of your acquaintances to assist you.  I have been writing to you for years.  You will be held responsible for my prayerful responses to your slander of me and my family.  The great cloud of witnesses is very thorough.  Get on the right side of history.  Be a man.  Be a Christian.  Do what you preach.

4:42 pm

“Dear Lord, please give me your mind about this letter I got from Jay Walsh who refuses to read anything I’ve written.  I am not personally OK with it.   I answered his Bible study with one of my own.  He wouldn’t read mine, but he  sent me another.  He said the business between my father and me is my fault.  He’s wrong, if for no other reason than HE HAS REFUSED TO LOOK AT ANY EVIDENCE.  Please correct him and give me love for a lazy old man who lived his life claiming to promote  you.  He’s involved enough to call me names as recently as Sunday, but he cannot induce truth from his lifelong friend.  Three years ago he said, ‘I’m 80 years old and I’m retired.’  Forgive him please.  Those girls who were raped on his watch pray the same, I’m certain.  Nevertheless…please give us justice.  Amen.”

4:26 pm

OK, I made cole slaw instead of gravy.  Can’t be so decadent.

3:30 pm

I baked bread, first time since George left.  I bough kimchee.  Josh and I have never tried it and it was marked down.

3:15 pm

I’m making a crisp tonight, they’re  the easiest dessert I know, strawberry rhubarb.  I’m slicing cod loins into strips for fish sticks, and I chopped  some very good hot sweet pickles into the tartar sauce.  I can’t find the capers, so I’ve also been throwing away containers of condiments with a half-teaspoon left.  I can do this, because George is gone.  I might get ambitious later, and throw some potatoes into the oil too, and if I’m really ambitious I’ll make gravy, and we’ll have poutine with the cheese curds that George’s cousin left when she went back to Seattle.  The fridge will be much cleaner before he arrives on Sunday night.  Also, I’m starting to catch up on the laundry; that’s easier when JOSH is gone than when only George leaves.  I’ve been writing a lot, and the housework has suffered.  I promised to alter my young friend’s skirts and Josh’s coat.  I haven’t been knitting either and I have two projects in the works.  I’m desperate to make a connection with people I love.  I’m desperate to see them survive the AI-apocalypse and bonfire.
I’m also desperate to see Josh happy, and I’m thinking of starting a chip-in account.  (Chip-in is defunct but I don’t know what the new equivilent is called.)   I will not waste money, I never do.  I will give some away, that might not be a selling point, and I’ll buy cigarettes until God tells me to stop smoking.  I’ll SEARCH FOR TRUTH and I’ll bring it back home.  I’ll rarely sleep, and I’ll always have a flashlight by my bed.  Perchance some  do not feel sufficiently stalwart to confront a full-blown-psychopath when he’s backed into a corner.  BELIEVE ME, I can understand that.  But, my son has suffered because my father decided to destroy me.  I could help the world, if I had a tank of gas and a sack lunch.  Maybe an anonymous donation would be a good first step, to destroying tyranny, which will otherwise destroy us?  I’d set the goal at $25,000.  I could find a place where Josh could grow and where I could wash my clothes every now and then.  I’d pay the taxes on my sons’ house; DAD DID A VERY BAD THING WITH THIS HOUSE AND HE MEANT IT.  I’d be a lady again, after awhile.  I’m looking forward to that.
I am also looking forward, surprisingly, to George’s return.  There is no way on GOD’S GREEN EARTH that that man can longer fail to recognize what’s happening,  he’s gotta come to life.  He’s gonna wake up pretty soon.  The prophet said, “I just don’t know about George.  He seems robotic.”  He’s VERY NICE, and he’s VERY GENEROUS, and he’s VERY KIND.  He just doesn’t get it.  There was a time that he did.  I’d like to know answers to questions proposed by his unusual history, as well as mine.  I will know truth.  Truth will set me free.

2:31 pm

Dear Jay and Chuck,
What possible justification could my father give for intervening in my life so psychopathologically?  Let’s ignore the fact that I was PRAYING and DRIVING AROUND WITH GOD and my HUSBAND KNEW AND APPROVED,  for the simple reason…that I can document where I was and what I was doing every day.  His refusal to speak about his psychopathic intervention…refusal to speak  for six years clearly demonstrates that he’s not proud of what he did in 2009, when he sabotaged my life, but did he have the right to lie about me because he did not like my behavior?  We should examine scripture.  He is my father and I did my best to obey his stupidity every day of my life.  But should I have felt so encumbered?  My husband was my lord and master, was he not?  Did not my father interfere with what was another’s man’s responsibility?  (That question is delivered sort of tongue-in-cheek; just because I know your doctrine does not mean that I any longer believe it.  I know that no man, whether father or husband, is my priest and I answer to the voice of the Spirit.  My ‘covering’ is not a man.) (Maybe ‘covering’ is Pentecostal dogma; I’m sorry if I’m confused.  I’ve studied much  doctrine.)   Do I belong to him?  No.
OK, we poor-folk understand how important it is for King Tut to maintain his status and his bottom-line.  My political activities embarrassed the man, because why?  He was afraid they might alter others’ opinions of him  because he worships gold and death and “the front seats at the banquet”.   YET!  Is it not narcissistic and psychotic, to believe that another human must invest his or her life in support of a self-serving-gold-monger’s  goals?  THIS IS PSYCHOPATHY.  This is also ROMPER-ROOM.  To my dad, everything must be about him.  Ask my mom.  He’s like a little kid and you don’t get to come to his birthday party if you don’t make him feel special.  Dad used to make me very frightened.  Now he just makes me queasy.

2:06 pm

(Dad IS a psychopath.  I had no idea until the Spirit led me to the right articles.)

“Psychopaths have one thing in common:  THEY ALL WANNA TELL YOU HOW TO LIVE YOUR LIFE.  They somehow feel it’s their business, what you do with your life.”

“OUR WHOLE CULTURE IS PSYCHOPATHIC.”   “The cheaters always have an advantage.”  “The evilest of the brothers becomes  king. “

Psychopathy in Politics and Finance – Stefan Verstappen on GRTV

(With the incredible James Corbett)

Read more:

1:52 pm

Apparently there is nothing that cannot happen today. - Mark Twain

12:04 pm

“We fight not for glory nor for wealth nor honour, but only and alone we fight for freedom which no good man surrenders but with his life.” — Robert the Bruce (Brus), King of Scots, 24 June 1314.

Read more:

12:00 noon


Dedicated to DAD (He took me to an Anne Murray concert one time.  Probably this same year, in Soo, Ontario.   .  .  . but .  .  .now he won’t talk to me since I ran for Congress.  Anne is wearing “Linda Goldthorpe Blue”.

Anne Murray  Buston Pop – You Won’t See Me

11:53 am

Although I confess to some small gender-bigotry, I do not think I demonstrate this by referencing “Adam’ to any exclusion of Eve.  Adam means ‘man’ and man is short for ‘mankind’.  So Eve is intrinsically part of Adam,  even so in the biological sense.
I’m really disappointed at some of the goons’ bar-tricks.  They can throw a dart but lack finesse on the pool table.  I should be able to type without using my hands.  Can’t you triangulate those ray guns right?   Slackers.  I hear often of your ability to encroach traditional sound-sources with personal messages for each individual in a crowd.  I don’t think I’ve seen that one.  Is the radio overlap stuff from you?  I need de-briefing really bad, and a new identity.
The Christians have utterly failed me, should I submit to the borg?  God knows, non-lethal weapons are a lot more fun than the church picnic.  Sun Tzu said, “Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer.”  What then, is one to do when the friends and enemies get all mismatched?  Love them all, I expect.

The factions are recruiting online!  They’re gang-pressing everybody !  “Choose ye this day whom you will serve!”

11:27 am

(I told my family about the hacker war  years ago.  Now I’m in the middle of it and they don’t even see it happening.)


Military insider: Intelligence officials say this is now a bigger threat to the U.S. than terrorism

The FBI. The CIA. The NSA…

You’ve heard of these “three-letter” agencies. But I bet you haven’t heard of a brand-new three-letter agency that’s set to hit the government budget by the end of 2015…

To put it plainly, a plan is already in motion to create a brand-new three-letter agency focused solely on cyberwarfare and terrorism, and I’ve uncovered a company in my Military-Technology Alert that’s likely to be a key contractor to the new organization. We’re talking about a huge contract, with plenty of upside, short term and long term.



9:52 am

Mind-Control Caveat
There are those who believe that Adam was not deceived into sin.  (Won’t it be fun to ask him questions?) Some think that Adam was so full of love for his wife, that he CONSCIOUSLY CHOSE to follow her into the lower realms. Pretty romantic, if not properly pragmatic.  They say that the ‘first Adam’ mimics the ‘second Adam’ more closely than we realize.  Jesus gave up everything to redeem his bride.  That’s pretty romantic too.

9:29 am

It would be so fun if one of those guys wanted to debate me.  I’m going to get to be a preacher after all!

MIND CONTROL- A Brief History of Crime

OK, Baptists, let’s start at the beginning wherein Adam and his wife were given two options:  1) obey God, or 2) do whatever the hell they wanted to do.  The researcher set up one very distinct task, DO NOT EAT THIS FRUIT.  But then Satan ran some chemtrails over them,  sprinkling smart-dust nano-bots,  which bonded with their neural networking,  that he had previously mapped, and he turned a switch on a machine in Denver, creating  a magnetic impulse, which instilled  an artificial thought,  that contradicted Adam’s VERY GOOD INTENTIONS…and ADAM COULD NOT OBEY GOD.
Effects of the experiment 1)  established Adam’s  inability to HEAR GOD and 2) caused him to become so arrogant in his own mind…that he thought his own brain WAS GOD, and he defends that fallacy right into the twenty-first century Baptist church!  Adam chose ‘The Tree of Knowledge’ and still 1) relies on his own mind for everything, 2) believes his thoughts are good and self-initiated, if not God-initiated,  and 3) CANNOT RECOGNIZE HE’S STARRING IN THE  TRUMAN SHOW!!
Also, by NEGLECTING to eat of the ‘Tree of Life’,  the motley duo cut off their communication with GOD’S SPIRIT.  Today, I am persecuted by those who 1) believe they know God, 2) do not ask his opinion about ANYTHING, and 3) argue with me about the TREE OF LIFE anointing that is available to ‘all flesh’.   Ask for The Spirit, dear Brethren, if you hope to see Jesus.   You must not denigrate those who follow the Spirit.    When your internet gets hacked  you’re gonna be looking for answers from somewhere.  Set up your service account now while you can.
And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out my spirit upon all flesh; and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, your young men shall see visions:
And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams
(“Out of the mouths of two or three witnesses shall a matter be established.”  We’ve got a witness from each Testament.)

9:09  am

Josh took leftover pasty for lunch.  For breakfast I made him some chewy flat-bread sprinkled with herbs and sharp cheddar.  Homemade sausage, from the leftover pasty-pork, and fried eggs.  He was pretty happy.

I am being held hostage by  an electronic kidnapping…and all the rest of the munchkins should pay attention.  (Actually, in a hostage situation they SHOULD stage a SWAT RAID, but nobody loves me enough.) (Or their own children.)   Most will probably die without ever having known,  that their entire lives  had been planned in advance by psychopaths with superpowers.  They’re like ‘Cypher':  “Plug me in to the MATRIX!  I know it’s not real, but this steak is so good and juicy…”  (Cypher is an interesting name considering that mind-cyphering is what got us into this mess in the first place.  Tree of Knowledge.)  Dear thoughtful ones, please help me!  I’m an unwilling cyborg, in psychic bondage to the BORG.  Where’s Jean-Luc when you need him?  “Oh Captain, my Captain!”
But my God, the one whom the Baptists do not believe can even TALK AT ALL…says that I’m the safest woman in Michigan.  I’m just lonely and bored and very poor so I ask him to take me lower and slower so that I may wait in joy.  I ask him to take me higher in His Beautiful Spirit, so that I may watch the events now unfolding on Earth… undisturbed.  I plead for more of his Divine Love, so I may see through  his eyes, my brethren who will not repent of lying and of misogyny and  for loving American murder and for endorsing universal pedophilia and for not helping victims.  I ask for more of his Grace to overcome my deficiencies, and clearer guidance, so I may never tell a lie.  (‘Amen’)

8:49 am

Today’s publication indicates that the NSA has been used to help the CIA kidnap and torture with impunity.”

For years the CIA was systematically abducting and torturing people, with the tacit complicity of European governments,” WikiLeaks founder Julian Assange said in a statement.


4:13 am

What could I do, to become Christian enough to merit an audience with those who have consistently condemned me?  Maybe I could have an operation.   Caitlyn Jenner’s testicles must still be around somewhere.  But I don’t think God would like that, because he made me a woman and he has a job for me to do, despite my unacceptable gonads…

For as many of you as have been baptized into Christ have put on Christ.  There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond nor free, there is neither male nor female: for ye are all one in Christ Jesus.

(Galatians 3:27-28)

OSHA would require goggles and hearing protection.   Isn’t this pathetic?

(Rand Paul for President Advertisement)

How Would You Kill the Tax Code?

3:41 am

Here’s the dependency formula: ‘I need to rely on others to understand myself; I need to listen to the advice of friends and family; I need to listen to the experts; I need to belong to the group; I need to think as the group thinks; we all need to wear our disease-and-disorder diagnoses as badges of pride and honor.’

In other words, in society, we have a complete reversal of what constitutes pride and honor. Under the guise of showing ‘sympathy for the afflicted,’ a massive psyop is underway to promote the notion that we are all afflicted and confessing to it is good thing.

American Addict: the medical police state

Read more at:

3:16 am

Which bigot said it?

Dude goes to the San Diego Gay Pride parade and explores what gays and gay supporters really know about gayness.


2:41 am

2:28 am

My sister is a jailer in the medical police state.  Sick people come to her and she processes them and defines their future.  Just like that.  Perhaps she gives some few hope, but they’ll still check back  with their parole officer every three months until they die.  Maybe they’ll die from an ailment other than the offense that brought their file to her desk, but she doesn’t tell them that dying is unnecessary.  A diagnosis defines a life, so any potential actualization is cut off at the moment she tells them the bad news.  I’d like for my sister to live forever, and I’d like it if she told others that they might do so as well.


2:21 am

1:54 am

“Dear Truth, thank you for coming to my planet.  We welcome you and will do whatever you need, so that you may live here forever.  It’s very weird for us though, because many things we believed to be true…are not.  Also,  we still  lie so we can’t trust one another.  Please give us more of your Spirit, so that we may never believe a lie.   Thank you.  Amen.”

“PS-  Maybe, since there are still squatters in your new crib, could you hang out with us in Helmer for a while?”


First the Queen, now THIS: FBI Quietly Declassified Secret Files Attesting Hitler Fled to Argentina in 1945



5:40 pm

DISSENT within the Catholic organization.  I think this is important.

(I’ll bet a guy with that much courage never raped a baby.)

Senior cardinal breaks ranks by questioning the Pope’s authority

5:20 pm

OK, one of my favorite aspects of  being a ‘targeted individual’ is when my body moves spontaneously to music.  I’ve ALWAYS wanted to dance, but I was Baptist.  God has moved my body, and I love that.  But sometimes a clumsier force moves me and it’s really fun when I dance in my chair and my body is entirely relaxed.  (The dance-steps make much more sense from within.)  (The hive-mind will be fun, when  used benevolently.)   (I’m thinking KINGDOM sex will  be a whole new ballgame.)

5:04 pm


“Atheists Don’t Have No Songs”


 Atheists Don’t Have No Songs

Steve Martin

5:00 pm


“Where have all the good men gone, and where are all the gods?”

(I bet Adam got busted.  That’s what I think.)

 I Need a Hero 

Bonnie Tyler

4:56 pm

Hey Chuck and Jay!  You think I’m a bad Christian woman?  Do you recognize I’ve waited years for you to do the right thing?  Did you notice that although I was fifty years old… I OBEYED MY FATHER when he told me to sign away my total earthly worth, when he took my house? Do you note my celibacy, and devotion to my formerly-neglected son who eats meat and vegetables three times a day?  What more?  I live with my former husband who made vows to my father, thereby breaking his vows to myself, and to God.    WHAT MORE?


4:52 pm

OK, I’ve got the heart and I’ve got courage.  Where is the wizard to give me  my brain?  Strategy has always been my handicap, not lack of diligence.  I recognize recently, that I have the entire world by the nuts.  I know SO MUCH STUFF…and nobody to talk to about it.  (Ya  know?  I always thought I’d like being a writer but I never had anything to say.  I also didn’t drink.)  Through careful record-keeping and directed thought, I recognize that I know so much shit…my deliverance could come from nearly anywhere!  I will not be hauled off to the FEMA camp in Grayling where my former-supporters-who-had-to-leave-Michigan-real-fast used to take pictures, in the olden days before phone-cams.  I’m ready to change the world but I can’t  Because my dad is a liar.  Pity.  I do whatever I’m told.  That’s gotta be worth a LOT of money.

4:38 pm

I’m not kidding, I KNOW what those goons torture people pretending to find out.  I’m VERY valuable.

Covert Harassment
OK, here’s the hard part:  I suspect many people who may read my words are already sharing brain-space with others.  It’s hard to think of a way I could explain how one recognizes this.  It has been my observation that few people actually consider their thoughts.  I am just postulating, but it looks like most people just ACCEPT every thought they have, never holding it to any standard  of truth or logic.  Then, before they have time to consider (even  if they would do so), EMOTIONS come rolling over the incision…and then you got a mood with no basis in reality.  (Correct me if I’m wrong.)   I did not know about these things until my thoughts and emotions were artificially manipulated, but when they were, I did.
There is only a SINGLE REASON that I was able to recognize the goons:  I obeyed God, who told  us to “BRING EVERY THOUGHT CAPTIVE.”  When you practice that cogent commandment, sometimes thoughts suddenly appear; and  you notice them because they interrupt your mind.  YOU ARE ALWAYS MENTALLY  BUSY– actively processing all the thoughts that got on at the station.  These new thoughts have no tickets,  and to an organized mind, that’s pretty obvious.  THEY INTRUDE ON YOUR SECRET PLACE, then you can tell.  I do not know how to instruct you better.

3:27 pm

3:25 pm

Millions of adulterers are about to get BUSTED!

Divorce lawyers all over America are rejoicing today while shopping for a new Porsche as the worst nightmare of those who use the internet to engage in finding partners for extramarital sexual flings has been realized.

Popular online flesh bazaar has reportedly been hacked and the intimate data on up to 37 million users compromised. Yes, THIRTY SEVEN MILLION. The website’s tagline, “Life is short, have an affair” pretty much tells all one needs to know about its views on marriage and morality.

Read more:

Read more:

3:18 pm

Jade Helm: “Tin Foil Hat” Conspiracy Theorists the Only People Who Understand?

Oh yeah, the memo… listen, there’s no need to go wrapping the tin foil too tight around our heads just because a Memo Outlining Obama’s Plan to Use the Military Against U.S. Citizens was discovered, right? That’s not conclusive of anything. It was probably old or something… or joke. Just ignore it. It means nothing. Right? Sure, Obama’s Pentagon Made Changes to the U.S. War Manual Giving Soldiers’ the Ability to Kill Journalists, but it’s not like he’ll ever do that or anything. Take the tin foil off. Right?

Forget about the fact Posse the Comitatus Act that has prevented the military from operating on U.S. soil for 137 pre-Obama. Ignore the fact the military is EVERYWHERE right now taking part in Operation Jade Helm. “It’s for your own good you know… you should be thankful…”


3:06 pm

Multinational Armed Forces Are Training to Enslave Every Modern Nation Following An Economic Collapse

Yesterday, I received photos of more surface to air missile batteries in northern Michigan near Camp Grayling, which is a known FEMA camp facility which also doubles as a training facility for security personnel headed to Guantanamo Bay.

Any listener to The Common Sense Show has heard me interview top economists (e.g. Joseph Meyer) who have said first Greece’s economy will fail first followed by Portugal, Spain, and Italy.What do people do when their economies fail and they lose their money? They riot! 

Hi Dave,

We live on the old Whurtsmith AFB in Oscoda Michigan.  Kallita Aircraft company has maintenance facility here.  We’ve been seeing F-16s flying over and today heard C130’s. A local man just posted this picture,,,,,My husband is retired Air Force and we have been trying to monitor events in our area.  One comment on the posting is that the National Guard units from Grayling are having exercises.  But a missile launcher?????  Yikes



11:24 am

If the recent horrifying news of a second leaked video on the PP docs once again talking about the selling of baby parts aren’t enough to scare you, then perhaps this should.

Abby Johnson wasn’t horrified by last week’s undercover video showing a Planned Parenthood doctor describing over lunch and wine how to “crush” a fetus during an abortion to preserve the organs because she’s been there.

In her previous role as clinic director for a Planned Parenthood facility in East Texas, Ms. Johnson said part of her job was to sift through the aborted fetal tissue and organs, pack them in a container with dry ice, check the consent form and “ship them off.”

Like Dr. Deborah Nucatola, Planned Parenthood senior director of medical services, Ms. Johnson said she and her colleagues would talk about their work, even indulge in “gallows humor” as they wound down after hours over margaritas and chips.

“I lived that life,” said Ms. Johnson in an interview. “I worked at Planned Parenthood for eight years at an abortion facility, and I ran the facility, and that was very common for us after a long day of work — after a long day of performing abortions, the staff going out to eat, having drinks, talking about the day.”


10:36 am

Cheating spouses rush to delete profiles from adultery site Ashley Madison after hackers access their details but it could already be too late ‘they plan to sell data to the highest bidder’

  • Millions of love cheats at risk of being found out after dating site hacked
  • Ashley Madison has 37m members around the world including 1.2m Brits
  • Anti-infidelity hackers Impact Team to leak data until website is closed
  • £15 fee to delete profiles is waived but hackers say it makes no difference 
  • Founder says he has made $1bn and says he would cheat on his own wife


The Impact Team say the website wrecks marriages and have told owners they will start publishing intimate details about users unless the site, known as the ‘Google of cheating’, is closed.

Two men – one American and one Canadian – have already been outed to prove their hack was successful.

Impact Team say Ashley Madison members should not have anonymity because they are ‘cheating dirtbags and deserve no such discretion.’ 

Read more:
Follow us: @MailOnline on Twitter | DailyMail on Facebook

Read more:
Follow us: @MailOnline on Twitter | DailyMail on Facebook


10:17 am

This article describes my DAD perfectly!  (He also used to tell me how many bodies are hidden in the UP wilderness.  You don’t suppose…?)

How to spot a serial killer: Criminologists reveal five key traits the most notorious murderers have in common

  • Experts from Real Crime magazine have revealed five key characteristics
  • These range from being egotistical to manipulative and charming
  • Studies have found a link between damage to the brain’s frontal lobe and changes in the amygdala in criminal serial killers 
  • Other psychologists link the behaviour to early childhood abuse or drugs 

Read more:
Follow us: @MailOnline on Twitter | DailyMail on Facebook


10:01 am

The US Government Is Actively Seeking Those Who Criticize Government, Specifically Barack Obama, And Arresting Them Without Charging Them.


9:45 am




9:35 am

Another Shocking Video Of Top Planned Parenthood Doctor HAGGLING PRICE OF BABY SCRAPS, A Lamborghini For Tissue

Makes me wonder what the world has come to when a human being can so easily talk about selling off sections of dead babies while laughing, as if it’s the most natural thing in the world. In this one, Gatter discusses the pricing of aborted baby body parts — talking to the biotech company officials about the prices for such things as a baby’s liver, head or heart are negotiable. She also tells the officials that she could talk with the PP abortion practitioners to nudge some practices, alter the abortion procedures in such a way so as to kill the baby that would best preserve those body parts after the unborn child is killed in the abortion. Fucking monsters.



9:22 am

OK, when my keystrokes don’t match up with what I see and hear, should I   1) be frightened, 2) be  instructed, or 3) just record it.  I pick number 3.  From a news-site with no open audio/video  links, I just heard 1) a portion of a Beatles tune, in machine tones, then, 2) a gentleman speaking Spanish, then,  3) an ad for dog food.  Was I supposed to suppose something, from the words of the song?  The goons know I don’t understand Spanish, but were they just making sure by watching my brain not light up?   I’d prefer not to live this way, and so would those who’ve never had to.   The goon who assists me does not like pictures on the site.  We go ’round and ’round.  Sometimes the page just closes and he wins.  (I think that’s called ‘browser hijacking’.)

9:04 am

“There’s no way to rule innocent men. The only power any government has is the power to crack down on criminals. Well, when there aren’t enough criminals, one makes them. One declares so many things to be a crime that it becomes impossible for men to live without breaking laws.” — Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged, Ch. III, “White Blackmail”

Read more:

8:49 am

The lawnmower is broke.  Do they have fuel pumps?  I’m thinking that’s the problem.  I ran it out of gas yesterday and it wouldn’t restart.  Today I got it going a few times but when I tried to move, the thing died.  George doesn’t come home until Sunday.  We may need a hay baler by then.

8:23 am

I’m being baited online about current Michigan events.  (God does not direct with FEAR, but with peace.)  “Please Lord, do not let me believe anything that is not true, and do not let me fail to believe anything that is.  Amen.”   (“When the SPIRIT has come, He will lead you into all TRUTH.”)

8:03 am

Apparently, Chuck and Jay do not love my father.  If they loved him, they would not dine with him at his restaurant… and fail to hold his feet to the fire of Truth.  If my father goes to Hell, he might very well scream their names in protest.  Assuming that a rich guy is always right looks very suspect, but only God knows  the hearts. So far. He will fill his people with enough Spirit to ascertain the intents of every heart.  He’s already done that with a few.  (Google Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj)
“Lord, please forgive Jay and Chuck who made their modest fortunes by selling your name.  Please forgive my father who takes your name in vain, thereby amassing a pile of temporal gold that glitters sufficiently to blind his old friends.  Please give them enough of your Spirit, that their eyes may be opened to the times in which we live. Give them courage to do the things they preach.  Amen.”

7:51 am

I often wonder, if ANYBODY were to care about the destruction of my family, what would I ask of him?
I would ask that a Christian brother demand truth from my persecutor.
Jay, try to imagine how ridiculous you sound, arguing against my experience of MULTIPLE MIRACLES,  by expounding   ‘doctrine’?   The Baptism of the Holy Ghost changed me far more than reciting your prescribed ‘Sinner’s Prayer”.  (I said that thing over and over and over and over…I still do.)  God IS a supernatural being.  If you do not recognize supernatural interventions in your life, I’d reconsider  your doctrine.  Want a four-leaf clover?  I find hundreds.  I also do not experience physical pain, except by injury.  I have survived attempts against my life, by listening to the Spirit.  We are at the ‘end of time’ and men are STEALING AND SELLING SOULS  (Google:  The Revelation of St. John, the DIVINE)  by way of electronic equipment that could heal a lot of people, if it were in the right hands.  Maybe then you’d finally see a miracle?

7:23 am

7:42 am

Dear Elders, Jay and Chuck,
1)  In 2009 my father committed a grievous sin against me.
2)  I have suffered CONTINUAL harm, since that day.
3)  He has refused to discuss his behavior with me.
4)  The Bible says to accuse him in front of YOU GUYS.
5)  To date, no Christian has been willing to demand an audience with him and me.
6)  Rather than listening to me, you spread rumors based on lies.
7)  You are on notice that you are in  DEFAULT of your Christian responsibility.
8)  You are also on notice, that your lies about me have not gone unnoticed.

Linking Multiple Minds Could Help Damaged Brains Heal

Monkeys and rats hooked up as “brainets” may lead to innovative treatments for Parkinson’s, paralysis and more

Read more:
Give the gift of Smithsonian magazine for only $12!
Follow us: @SmithsonianMag on Twitter


7:18 am


“Most of the time we encounter AI today, it’s in a very mechanical interface,” says Kevin Corti, one of the researchers. His answer was to use a human body, with a robot mind. “This was a way of doing it so that people actually believe they are encountering another person.”

Being possessed by a computer isn’t too disconcerting, she later tells me. “Today was the first time I thought, ‘Eugh, I’m just a body and nothing else’.”

To be technical, Sophia is an “echoborg” – a living, breathing person who has temporarily given themselves over to become a robot’s mouthpiece.


Read more here:


8:42 pm

Heads Up UN troops Is In Michigan

7:49 pm

4:51 pm



4:43 pm

Jesus offers  us a way out from the dystopia that I’ve  documented in much detail.  “Psychological terror and feelings of imminent destruction.” “Psyop-US-Mind-War” I wake to these adversaries ten times each night.  I am tortured.  If people choose not to listen to me, eventually they will be tortured as well.  My own dad  and his own church’s government also… contrive that we feel 1) psychological terror, and 2) feelings of imminent destruction.  (That’s unless you tithe.)  Many versions of  such nonsense we will chuckle about, but  VERY FEW OF US will chuckle, in the aftermath.  My father’s government means to mind-control us all, but for Baptists who have willingly submitted to mind-control for years…this is not too frightening.  It WILL BECOME FRIGHTENING when you are subjected to incidents of “psychological terror and feelings of imminent destruction.”  906-291-1376 or 906-586-6429.  (No call from my family yet but I keep checking the phone.)

Jesus said, “Come onto me,  ye who labor and are heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”  Jesus would not be permitted to enter the pulpit at Lakefield Baptist Church.  I’ve come to believe that “Baptist” is modern-English for ‘pharisee’  The religion of the pharisees is what I encounter whenever  I claim to hear from God.  Baptists (and Pharisees) say, “Hath not God said?”  “It is written.”  They killed Jesus… and this same bunch would do it again, and believe still they’re doing right.  (That is until hellfire illuminates their buggered vision.)  They stand with the pharisees and proclaim:  GOD DOES NOT TALK TO PEOPLE.  HE WROTE A BOOK.  (Much smaller book, in the day of the pharisees…)  Do not even suggest that God might talk to a human.  Wow.   Somebody should tell that to the pope.


4:11 pm


How can a Baptist pray for more than thirty minutes; it’s not possible unless somebody has prepared for him a kick-ass prayer list.  The SPIRIT can pray forever, through torture and mind control and sleepless nights.  I love the Holy Ghost very much.

4:04 pm

And Chuck was such an incredible influence on my entire local generation!  PR was da MAN.  We’d eat his french fries on Friday night and he’d read Bible stories.  He had coffee every morning, at the Paul Bunyan Restaurant, with other of the village’s worthies.  Will he stand for truth?  His wife kicked me out of church when I was being disruptive.  (She said I had a devil, but she did not offer to cast it out.)   Do they yet understand that sometimes disruptive behavior is intentional, and deliberate?  Do they know HOW VERY HARD I have attempted to strike up a conversation with some others who say they are Christians yet refuse to see prophecy because they’re too busy watching FAUX news and the football games?  Have they ever known something that everybody else needed to know, and been unable to make a connection?  Have they ever KNOWN THEY WERE RIGHT and been WILLING TO DO WHATEVER  IT TAKES TO KEEP OTHERS FROM SUFFERING?  Doubtful.  If so, my local generation would be Christian and they would remember Chuck for more than his PR schtick.


3:43 pm

I’m just realizing how little respect I have for body-builders.  (I don’t like selfie-addicts either, but that should go without saying.)  I suppose caring for one’s body, even loving it is understandable.  We’re shown pictures of ‘good’ bodies and our government advertises illnesses that we should fear.  We permit strangers to inject unknown substances into us; we wear bike-helmets and life-jackets and kevlar vests.  (As if a lethal body injury could actually harm us in any way.)  My body is not me, and I pity those Baptists who promote physical health while neglecting their minds.  And castrating their spirits.  And ignoring the Bible.  And going to doctors instead of the Good and Great Physician himself, to whom they claim to have sole access.  Old Baptists are pitiful.   They postpone important meetings so they can cough and bend over for a twelve year-old pharmeutical-salesman with an MD.   They don’t have eternal life!  They talk about football in church!  (If you really know the CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE…how could you stand to talk about anything else?)


2:53 pm

The pasty smells great.  I went to Curtis for eggs and bleach and scouring powder.

I knew when I made the challenge, that my bet with Dad was a winner.  (I would not have challenged him otherwise.)  Now I see how total will be the victory of Jesus, the Christ, over Dad’s  fake religion.  Through no fault of my own, Dad’s whole fake church is on the line.  Pastors have now been challenged to be the men they claim to make other men into being.  It’s a win-win for me.  They might continue to stand by my father without fact-checking, meaning I win the bet.  Or they act like Christians and confront my father, and I win the bet.  “Thank you Chuck and Jay, however you decide you want your eternity to be.”   I should sleep easily tonight.


1:26 pm

As America continues to descend into a vicious police state, many have wondered how it all came to this. The easiest answer to that question, is that we let it happen.

The point I’m trying to make here is that most people don’t like having choices, despite how much they’ll argue to the contrary. The more choices they’re given, the more likely they are to not like the choices they have or make.

Why Some People Will Always Bow to Tyrants

Because tyranny is so much easier than freedom. It is acquiescence. It means giving up. Tyranny is for quitters, and it amounts to handing over the reins to someone else.

Read more at:

1:17 pm

And what am I to think about those young girls raped by the ABWE who are still seeking justice?  Jay retired, I guess it’s not his problem anymore.  Or yet.

12:30 pm

I fight for your soul, dear Dad, because the Bible says, “The soul that sinneth, it shall die.”  You’ve sinned against me, and I fight for your REAL life.  I will not lift a hand to defend the fake one which you’ve  tried to promote by killing your own daughter.  I’d watch you spend a thousand years in a physical prison rather than one minute in the hell you have prepared for yourself by refusing to love.  (Did you know they can lock a guy up then MIND-CONTROL-HIM so that he believes he’s been there for a thousand years?  What kind of psychopath would do that?  Even to a mass-murderer?)  I FREE YOU, dear Dad.  I free you, to whatever extent I am permitted, from the consequences of your crimes against me!  Do you not feel the breeze on your face?  Do you not wish for ULTIMATE FREEDOM?  (“Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.”)


12:23 pm

My dad thinks they’ll turn on him, these Baptist friends.  (He knows what he’d do.)  He expects that if he tells the truth he will have no friends.  (Methinks his checkbook already ensures that reality,  if we’re to be truthful.)  He wants love, and God knows I’ve tried to provide it.  He thinks those Baptist boys that he’s clothed and housed will not stand by him when he’s in belly-bands before an ungodly judge, but I beg to differ.  The Baptists WILL BE TRUE CHRISTIANS who do not only care about rich people.  “Dad.  When you’re poor.  I’ll make sure you still have some friends.  When you’re in prison, we will visit you, because Jesus said we should.”


12:13 pm

Maybe this would do it; maybe the following short  testimony  would convince yon Baptist men to believe that this female is sufficient to serve Jesus, the Christ.  (“But, she doesn’t get a paycheck!  Where did she go to seminary?”)  Baptist men  know the ‘letter of the law’ if not the ‘Spirit’, but here goes anyway:



(I can forgive him for being a lying psychopath.  Can you, my Baptist MEN-tors?)


12:02 pm

I remember when I first realized that some unseen force could alter my physical reality.  Then I would be very careful as I prepared food, knowing that at any second my will and/or vision and/or manual dexterity might be overruled by microwaves and/or demons.  I began to cut things very carefully.  I held my breath and waited for the knife to strike my finger. Then I learned  to pray as I chopped,  and I am ashamedly careless now, sometimes. The technology that opposes mankind is very frightening.  But it is not as frightening as my God in a lather. Pretty soon now, some of those goons are going to REALLY KNOW THAT,  and they’ll drop their joysticks and pick up the sword of Gideon.  I just know it.


11:51 am

I think I will call, before I go to Jay’s house for coffee tomorrow.  I think I will ask, “Have you read anything I’ve written?”  If he says ‘no’ I will decline his nice wife’s nice invitation.  Refusing to read my words and expecting to discuss my life is disrespectful and patronizing.  I think I would protect him from committing those sins against me.  I’m that kind of girl.


11:42 am

Jay, please reread your Bible.  (Preferably not a SCOFIELD edition.)  Where is the rapture doctrine?  Is it not clear that my beloved Jesus will not come FOR his people…until he has come IN his people?  And, he will only inhabit those who request his attention.  I’m very grateful that my father took away all earthly support, so I had to beg for MORE GOD.


11:35 am

I’m making pasty.  I always make pasty in a pie pan because my grandma did, and with our nasty American-GMO  flour, I figure the nutrition-per-cost ratio is better.  I’ll have to refill the freezer; my cornmeal dough is all gone and also my stock of regular pie crust.  There’s always more to do.  But, men’s souls  are more important than the food in their bellies.


11:05 am

I cut some grass and baked chocolate chip cookies and did some laundry.  It still stinks really bad down by my dad’s cottage but I mowed in front of it.  I didn’t go around to the lake side to check on the dead deer.

My father has few friends; he’s not comfortable around people as a rule.  The only people who make him comfortable are those before whom he can demonstrate superiority.  (That’s frequently  financial.  He doesn’t usually challenge anybody’s brainwork.)  He has suffered  the occasional boy-crush, on more significant men…but you don’t see him inviting them to the church potluck.  (I suppose those gatherings would not be sufficiently impressive.)  In his waning years, he has surrounded himself with boyhood chums, those sprung from the same humble dirt he still inhabits.  Ashes to ashes.

I’m just the opposite, I prefer the company of people who are smarter than I.  (That kind is  not usually too hard to find.)  I prefer asking questions to telling stories, and God knows I’m never able to impress anybody by picking up the tab.  I couldn’t influence people to value me if I tried.  (My family in point.)  I can’t even dress for success anymore.  But, I’m only friendless for the time being; God is establishing his true ecclesia on my planet and I can’t wait to meet them.

The REAL CHURCH  will LOVE ME and I WILL LOVE THEM!  We’ll learn  what God feels as he says, “Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity!”   (Psalm 133:1)   When God hooks me up with others who value truth and do not fear death, our supernatural power will increase exponentially.  I won’t have to worry about impressing anybody, when they read my heart.  We’ll become a force to be reckoned with… and we already won.  (I’d say living together in peace is a victory in and of itself.)  We will be used by God to establish Jesus’ rule over the remains of man’s disaster and the new Kingdom.   That’s a bunch of friends I want to party with.

And he said unto them, Look on me, and do likewise: and, behold, when I come to the outside of the camp, it shall be that, as I do, so shall ye do.

When I blow with a trumpet, I and all that are with me, then blow ye the trumpets also on every side of all the camp, and say, The sword of the Lord, and of Gideon.  (Judges 7:17-18)

“Ecclesia”:    the “called out ones”

9:44 am

What would cause a person to  believe he might judge a matter without investigation? Even Article 3 judges pretend to look at evidence.  (FISA courts don’t.)  How could sufficient  wisdom be deposited in a human mind? (I mean without the Holy Spirit  translocating him,  or something like He did with Paul:  “For I verily, as absent in body, but present in spirit, have judged already, as though I were present, concerning him that hath so done this deed.”   [ Corinthians 5:3])   By their own confession, the Baptists who judge me don’t go places in the Spirit.

Baptists prefer some to others.  (NOT a Christian tendency.)  By doing so they also establish stumbling blocks before those who would know Jesus better:  “Let us not therefore judge one another any more: but judge this rather, that no man put a stumblingblock or an occasion to fall in his brother’s way.  (Romans 14:13)  Doesn’t that say they should judge the stumbingblocks, rather than the stumbler?

This being established, what sort of hubris would it take, for a reasonably intelligent person to think he has ANY RIGHT TO JUDGE at all?  I suspect the source would be some man-made accolade, a degree or a position. God does not respect man’s applause, and tells us to whom we should attend:  “If then ye have judgments of things pertaining to this life, set them to judge who are least esteemed in the church.”  (I Corinthians 6:4)

Who is least esteemed in the church?     ME!

“Dear Lord, w have a quandary because your men don’t  believe that I know you, and they obviously do not.”

“I have requested justice from them and they choose to pass judgment without even looking into the matter, and they have consistently called your servant crazy for six years…because I believe in you and your Word.  Have mercy on them when you show them your justice.  (“In judgment, remember mercy.”)

“Dear Jesus, I was born in sin and in sin did my mother conceive me.  I stand undeserving of your consideration but through the Blood of Jesus I come boldly before your throne, as I did in July 2013 when I filed suit with you, against my father.  Search me, oh Lord, and see if there be any wicked way in me.  Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart and the keystrokes of my fingers be acceptable in thy sight, oh Lord, my strength and my redeemer.  Deliver me from wicked men who speak lies and seek my blood.  Do not permit me to seek any kind of vengeance; deliver me from evil and deliver them from the defiled religion they believe to be from you.”

“You will restore all that the cankerworm hath stolen and what the caterpillar ate.  I rest on your words, but it’s getting harder to rest.  My sister in Belgium is tortured and I’d like to help her.  I’d like to help others who are bound by men’s lying system.  Please provide what I need and release me to fulfill my destiny.  But most of all, above all else…fill me with divine love.  Give me YOUR MIND AND HEART for my persecutors and those who torture, hidden behind anonymous equipment.”

“Judge me, correct me, promote me or not.  My life belongs to you and if it did not, I couldn’t possibly have survived the things that were done to me.  Please provide opportunity for me to share your deliverance with others.  Thank you for loving me, the most unlovable.  Please teach me the value of my life, that you think is important enough to die for.  Do not allow me to believe men who never finished their homework, yet presume to judge others.  Fill me with your Spirit so that Your light beams out of my every pore onto those who’ve never known You.  Come quickly Lord Jesus, and establish your Kingdom on Earth.  Forgive those who preach another gospel, and not the ‘gospel of the Kingdom.’  Fill them with truth and Godly ambition.  Thank you.  Amen.”

“PS-  Is it hubris that I’d REALLY LIKE to debate any of them about your Bible?  I know you’d give me the answers.”


8:39 am

Polish troops arrive in Michigan – 3,000 National Guard activated

7:35 am

HEY JAY, this email is from my friend in Belgium who is TARGETED BY ELECTRONIC WEAPONS:


Dear Linda,
the time for me is very difficult , since i have the eye melanoma . The doctors let me wait for Months for one appointment in one hospital and refuse after any treatment like radiation or laser operation from the tumor.  More than this :  They told me they want to take out my full eye  . This is criminal , my eye is healthy and i can see with the eye , just the tumor is outside on the eye and block the eye .   All this crimes that i lost time , the danger  with event. metastasen in other organs get bigger   and that the tumor grown up . There is not problem to make laser operation and to take the tumor out . But the high ranked criminals pay or pressure the doctors for such crimes , that i lost my eye and my live . See the last email from Dr Rauni Kilde about the doctors …before she died . 
  After the treatment for the eye melanoma i have to make chemotherapy and to let check my organs on metastasen.
I think , for me it is worse with the people than with the eye melanoma. So i wrote you , i knew that people can be bad , but i never knew before how bad they are…
The end time is worse than it is written in the Bible .  I lost im moment my trust and that is also difficult . Without trust is the darkness bigger. 
I received visions about my way and future and it was positive. Difficult to trust   in all in my situation , but i continue my work and way.
The time with you was full of light and i hope, to see you again .
 I wish you ,  you get free of your sadness with your vater , i wish you ,  you get free of him .

7:28 am


Black Sheep 

by Gin Wigmore

7:10 am

Baptist rules, as far as I can ascertain since they will not speak to me.  (Except Jay, finally.)





(How can Christians ever retire anyway? Why in the WORLD would they want to?  I guess maybe to escape MAN-MADE RULES.)


7:07 am

Consider how ludicrous is human society:  Julian Assange has been living in London’s Ecuadorian embassy for years!  Everybody knows he’s there, and people want to talk to him.  (I do not suggest that he is wrong to hide from them.)  It’s costing a lot of money to put him up and protect him, but isn’t ‘protecting people’ what money is for?  Nevertheless, all the esteemed gendarmes obey certain rules.  They may not approach a small man in a tiny building within an enormous city surrounded by a sovereign country…because of rules.  A diplomat can get trashed at a club in New York and kill Americans on his way home without consequence.  (Foreign diplomats have different rules.)  Lynching is one of humanity’s most esteemed privileges.  Lynching is the ultimate protest. (I am not suggesting that lynching is any kind of GOOD protest.)

Many people would lynch Julian Assange, if not for rules.  But, the authorities and aggrieved parties only obey CERTAIN RULES.  (Julian Assange could be lynched by satellite, unless the entire Ecuadorian compound is encased in a Faraday cage, and I do not know that it is not.)  Edward Snowden’s heart could stop any minute, unless he’s still an asset of his former employer.  That’s not too far-fetched; he hasn’t spoken about any real crime we did not already know…and the CIA COMMITS REALLY-REAL CRIMES.

Josh and I discussed a remote tribe that gathers every Friday night around a bonfire to watch one another have sex.  He said I’m racist to believe that’s low entertainment.  “They have different rules.”  After discussing my distaste for folk who would rather watch than participate, we talked about the spiritual consequences of group-sex.  (He doesn’t like talking to me about sex but since Isaac left, I’m all he’s got.)  I was not actually discussing sex; I was promoting the concept that true human consciousness comes to the same conclusions, and any group of any color that discounts the connection of two souls through sex, choosing rather to observe porn-pretend-sex, is missing the boat.  Their rules may be different, but they are not helping the species as they minimize opportunities for spiritual connection. Our world is an amalgamation of the mind-spirit-activity of all its inhabitants.  When humans behave as beasts, we get what we got.

Julian Assange told a lot of people things they should already have known, spiritually at least, if not evidentially. We cannot watch our world implode without recognizing that some narcissistic individuals are responsible for it. Why do some people’s minds control more than my own, if we’re all creating reality?  I suspect that answer lies with satan, and his evil minions.  What do we do when a demonic mind-set combines with human volition?   We lie down.  We lie down and take it wherever they want to put it no matter who’s watching.  Google:  Nephilim.

Rules are necessary to those who do not believe in the Spirit.  These are they who argue about the King James Bible.  (A man actually told me that nobody would be saved, except by exposure to that esteemed book.  “If he gets saved, it’s because he heard King James some time he does not recollect.  It wasn’t the NIV that saved him.”)  RULES, the goal and the gold of the church!  Happy Rules that keep us on even-toe with our fellows.  RULES of conduct and rules of thought. Different rules for women and different rules for poor people and different rules for psychopaths, because we want ORDER.  (Of course rules are made to be broken and we will provide ‘legal’ escape for those we admire.)  –

I would be sad if the internet died today.  I use it to look up fragments of Bible verses I sorta remember.  I used to do that with a book, and the Holy Spirit can lead me to whatever he wishes for me to see so I won’t miss it for long. God gave us rules because we demanded them because we were afraid to speak to God personally. (References available on request, band-width be willing.)   The Hebrews cried, “DON’T MAKE US LISTEN, MOSES!  You go listen and come back and tell us what God said.”  Isn’t that sad?  God wants RELATIONSHIP with us and we’re just humping around a bonfire, because that’s the rule.


6:34 am

 I speak to your shame. Is it so, that there is not a wise man among you? no, not one that shall be able to judge between his brethren?    (I Corinthians 6:5)

6:19 am

Dear Jay, Chuck and brethren,

If my father is killed in a car accident, or if he is ‘suicided’ by those guys he has dealt with, his blood will be on your hands.  If he dies in sin, it is because you-all have fallen for the most common deception known to psychopaths:  Silence the target with lies, and shift the blame.

My father has played this game against me for my entire life.  He can’t stand that I love him despite his designation of me as a black-sheep-loser.  Jesus views me very differently, and Jesus will give me justice.  Dad will receive justice too.  How much better if he asks for mercy?  He suffers from a character disorder that causes him to view others as tools, and himself as superior, thereby negating responsibility for his acts against them.  The Blood of Jesus is the only antidote.

(References of psychopathy/narcissist characteristics available on this site.)

6:10 am

I remember once when I was a little girl, and Jay Walsh was a hero.  It was my birthday, in January, and my mom came home with a huge gash across her forehead, lots of stitches.  Her bedroom was the one I live in, and I can still see her, lying gray and injured in the same spot I sleep.  She had been in a car accident and although I didn’t understand the details, I could see the results, and my birthday present (one of those long flat boxes they used to make of Crayola crayons) was broken up from the wreck.  Apparently the accident involved Jay’s dad, who intended to file a suit against my family.  Jay intervened and was recognized as a hero.  It’s kind of ironic that now I’ve had to threaten a lawsuit against him.  I’m grateful that God directed me to try his way first.

Matthew 18:15-17

15 Moreover if thy brother shall trespass against thee, go and tell him his fault between thee and him alone: if he shall hear thee, thou hast gained thy brother.

16 But if he will not hear thee, then take with thee one or two more, that in the mouth of two or three witnesses every word may be established.

17 And if he shall neglect to hear them, tell it unto the church: but if he neglect to hear the church, let him be unto thee as an heathen man and a publican.

(I guess in my case the ENTIRE CHURCH is heathen.)


5:13 pm

This part was cute: I said,”I am not on a a vendetta against my dad.  I know some political things you people MUST KNOW.”  He said, “I KNOW ABOUT POLITICS.”  (He didn’t say it in the somber tone of one who actually does know.  But he will.  Then he’ll remove that obscene ‘support the troops’ sticker from his bumper.)
“Dear Jay, many people depend on you to not be stupid.  I was one of them.  Don’t disappoint the others too.”

3:47 pm

“Hey Jay, do you know what I was doing six years ago that was so offensive to my dad that he called the cops?    PRAYING all over Michigan. And I can prove it.”


3:35 pm

Dad turned around in the driveway, but although I yelled loud enough to disturb a pedestrian on the bridge, he didn’t turn around, so I sent a text to everybody:

To Dad–Nice to see you in the driveway.  I’m gonna sue your fake-Christian buddies and your fake church for slander.  I’d rather have that dinner you offered me on May 6, 2014.

3:25 pm

My dad and I do not suffer from a difference of opinion, we struggle because we have different understandings of what is right and what is wrong.  My son, who no longer believes in Jesus because my dad called a God-fearing woman crazy…said, “Of course!  Of course I see that they’re hypocrites.  I don’t think your efforts will bear fruit, I do not think they will evolve.”   (He doesn’t believe in Jesus anymore because my dad is a fake Christian.)

He just pulled through my driveway, Dad, not Josh.  I hollered but he didn’t stop.  He loves me and wants to talk.  I should bake chocolate.

2:50 pm

Jay, you and the boys said I could not be a preacher so I left it up to you.  Look where it got us.


2:42 pm


“Breakdown Dead Ahead” (live)


2:39 pm


It’s gonna blow and you could be on the right side of history if you behave like Jesus.

2:07 pm

People who are ‘Christians’ do not recognize the book of Revolution in front of their eyes.  People who are NOT CHRISTIANS are talking about Revelation.

1:36 pm

I brought notice of my plan to sue the church, to Jay.  Apparently he was just getting home from dinner.  (I go ENTIRE years without seeing the inside of a restaurant, but pastors and missionaries are treated always.)
Jay said,”Linda read your Bible.”
I said, “I’ll take you on in a debate any time.
Jay said,   “Linda, I didn’t call you crazy,  I just said there was something wrong with you…”
We haven’t spoken  for years so he is depending on the words of my lying father and continuing to spill falsehoods.  Even if he were Einstein, he couldn’t POSSIBLY know what’s supposedly ‘wrong’ with me without evidence.
THIS is ongoing slander for over six years!  He’s toast.  I’d rather see him in Heaven.
Jay’s wife said I may come for coffee at ten on Tuesday.  That’s a start and I ask God to bless her.

12:50 pm

Dear Jay and Chuck,
Without speaking to me, you both, and the rest of the ‘church’ believed my father’s claims about me.  You think he is a Christian and you believe I am not.  If we do not get this right, I will be forced to sue the church as well, and each of you individually, since the ‘church’  (and YOU, individually…)  FORWARDED THE LIES ABOUT ME.  (That’s not Christian behavior, and it’s also  illegal.)
Let’s examine the evidence:
1)  With no prior discussion  or offers to pray with me (actually my dad has  NEVER ONCE offered to pray with me in my entire life!) my father went to godless government and lied about me.
2)  He abducted my children.
3)  When confronted, he refused to apologize and continued spreading lies to them, my ex-husband, my friends, extended family…and you guys.
4)  I challenged his FRAUDULENT religion with my faith in Jesus, the Christ.  (I’d have to look up the date.)
5)  I was electronically RAPED and tortured.  (I have very good records.  The judge will like my constancy if not the nefarious activities I will prove.)
6)  My father successfully isolated me, destroyed my earning potential and relationships, killed my marriage (with no consideration for my former-better-half, although I told him regularly what was happening to George…), UTTERLY DEVALUED JESUS, the CHRIST in the eyes of my children, (one is now a Christian, God be praised), took my home away and gave it to teenagers, (it is merely speculation that he thought he may obtain the property at a tax sale once they were in default…), and has REFUSED TO SPEAK TO ME for six years.
(That doesn’t sound very Christian to me, but then again I’m Spirit-filled, so what could I know?)
Now about myself:
1)  My case is 1) online, 2) in the cloud, 3) recorded in the inboxes of numerous witnesses, 4) published, 5) notarized, 6) sworn to, and 7) confirmed by testimony of witnesses I will subpoena when we go to court.
2) My website portrays an unusually diligent 1) writer, 2) blogger, 3) Christian, and 4) TESTIFIER TO NEFARIOUS ACTIVITIES WE SHOULD ALL ATTEND, while we still can.
3)  I am unwilling to EVER back down, as demonstrated by the fact that I have not missed a day of recording CRIMES BY THE BAPTISTS AND THEIR GOVERNMENT…for over two years.  (Except when I went to Belgium and Colorado, and was unable to get online.  Both trips were IN THE LINE OF DUTY.)
4)  I am demonstrably better-educated on the matters I contest, than those who slander me.
….yada, yada, yada.  If you choose to die with my blood on your hands that’s your business.  I’m TIRED of trying to wake up OLD DEAD PEOPLE WHO REFUSE TO OBEY THE GOD THEY CLAIM TO SERVE.
Human court scares you Baptists.  God’s judgment does not.  If I were you’d I’d consider that a MAJOR PROBLEM.
(It’s all documented.  How many ‘tithers’ would it take to pay off a judgment to me?  Why don’t you ask God?  Oh yeah, that’s right, you can’t…)

12:03 pm

“The CIA needs to be disbanded of its criminal elements. What have they done for us? They knew about 9/11 but decided not to prevent it. They have tortured and killed more Americans in their declassified top secret programs than any terrorist group in history. But we chose to ignore it. We prefer delusion over truth.”    ( Robert Duncan)

4:46 am

Remote brain-computer interface  (Artificial telepathy)

LEVEL9NEWS Special report on MKUltra by remote control, artificial telepathy and advanced neural interfaces compatible with JADE 2 artificial intelligence. No need for FEMA camps when everyone becomes a network node to be monitored and controlled by external “brain-hacking” with no need for barbed wire. 

JADE HELM: MKUltra, Artificial Mood and Mind-Reading by Remote Control

See more at:

4:33 am

Lakefield Baptist Church is a pack of wolves led by a Jezebel spirit. The Jezebel spirit wants to be in control, and can’t abide God’s true prophetic word.   When we slander others we are CURSING them.  (“Out of the same mouth proceedeth blessing and cursing…this ought not to be.”)  Gossipers are engaging in witchcraft, and I’ve been the target of curses from my father and Jay, and also others.  Dogs ate Jezebel, and God warned us about calumny.  I’d like to see Lakefield recognize the harm they do to others. They criticize  EVERY SINGLE PERSON who enters their gates, and  their words carry weight in the spirit realm.  The true church of Jesus Christ does  NOT curse others.


4:19 am

(Please read the following with recognition of how MANY TERMS have been defined by those  making the conclusion.)

According to the American Psychological Association (APA), a strong and passionate belief in a deity or higher power, to the point where it impairs one’s ability to make conscientious decisions about common sense matters, will now be classified as a mental illness.

The controversial ruling comes after a 5-year study by the APA showed devoutly religious people often suffered from anxiety, emotional distress, hallucinations, and paranoia. The study stated that those who perceived God as punitive was directly related to their poorer health, while those who viewed God as benevolent did not suffer as many mental problems. The religious views of both groups often resulted in them being disconnected from reality.

American Psychological Association To Classify Belief in God As a Mental Illness

See more here:

4:16 am

Targeted by End Times Fallen Evil: In Honour of Brother Marcus Samuel

Listen here:

3:12 am

In 1999 I heard a weather-activist-meteorologist say:  THERE IS NO LONGER ANY NATURAL WEATHER.

Now, they sell weather-futures just like soybeans.

Crazy! Flash Flood Takes Out Only Road Into Area 51 Region In Nevada

3:04 am


 Hey, Look Me Over – live television – 1960

Lucille Ball and Paula Stewart

(I was born in 1960)

2:49 am

Are you a dreamer or a schemer?  I’ve set my hand to both, but I figure most adults have pretty much settled how they will run their lives.  Scheming was for me, a big fail.  Scheming is fear-based and fear is a lose-lose; we harm ourselves and harm our world. Sometimes dreaming is not just the fall-back for a disappointed schemer because some dreamers have seen the genuine state of humanity, and they know that no amount of scheming will make the bad man stop. Dreamers are not considered smart, but sometimes dreamers consciously choose their denomination through impact with Truth.    Scheming relies on the human mind,  and deems to change circumstances through human strength.  We’re past the point where that could fix  our future and lots of dreamers know it.   (We’re as far as  the point where human scheming has eliminated our future.)  If we cannot envision a better world, we’ll never see it.  I suppose that’s why Jesus told us about it.  “The Kingdom of God is within you.”  That’s also where the dreams show up.



7:10 pm

It all comes down to morals.  Who is to die and who is to live is (scientifically proven to be…) dependent on the subject’s morals.  Manchurian Candidates do not kill as programmed…if they were  humans customarily adhered to the Golden Rule.  Victims of covert harassment are less troubled, when they practice and receive love. False mind-control scripts do not control a person who follows truth and truth alone.  God was right. The ‘way’ is love, truth and light.   Otherwise we will be consumed in the human-eating-machine that profits by  destroying and marketing mens’s souls.  Revelation told us about this machine.  It’s not anti-biblical, or even extra-biblical.


6:57 pm

This book is really good and I highly recommend it for those who will survive

Now what if after WWII the Nazi‟s had the last say? They could have cloned a sociopathic Nazi mindset and started copying it to the entire world. Do you see the urgency to expose and stop this research especially if you are Jewish?

Learn more here:

6:54 pm

Can you imagine an ‘irresistible impulse’ greater than that endured by Jesus on the cross?  At any point he could have said, “ENOUGH OF THIS BULLSHIT.  I made you peons and you will behave appropriately.”  He did not. He chose to demonstrate  the consequences of our actions… if we do not turn away from selfishness.  We may think that Jesus was not as brazenly influenced as we, since now we have technology which OVERRIDES OUR OWN WILL.  But that’s not so.   Satan is not stupid.  Advanced technology frequently winds up in the hands of some obscure satan-contactee, and also Proverbs says that there is nothing new under the sun.  That’s one cool thing about this time in history, and it ensures our future:  God is showing us new and wonderful things that have never been seen…and our ‘opponent’  tipped his hand at Jesus’ crucifixion.  That was the best he had, and he has nothing better now.  We won.  Because Jesus died.  We must only see it that way,  and we can,  if we listen to the Holy Ghost.

6:36 pm

What if that RFID chip you swallowed  really IS the ‘Mark of the Beast’?  What then?    What if your I-watch directs microwaves that turn you into the next Columbine shooter?  Could you stop it? Have you ever experienced ‘irresistible impulseses’?   I know somebody who has.

6:34 pm

God’s word says he has given us a SOUND MIND!  When somebody else gives us an unsound one…do we turn to the guy who warned us?  I wonder.

6:32 pm

Hey JAY!  You Baptists have any idea what to do with this currently pertinent question?  906-291-1376

There is another hypothesis that is greatly disturbing that we must consider as a possibility which is a result from the bazaar (sic) and grotesque research of the cognitive modeling and neuroscientists who have worked for the “conspiracy”. That is a nearly perfect simulation of a demented mind has been created. That single model could be reused by a computer during these EEG cloning experiments. That demented mind model I will refer to as the mind virus. It is the most perfectly mentally deranged psychopathology that the CIA/DoD monsters could come up with. That simulated mind virus could be “grown” into anyone


6:26 pm

“Dear God.  It’s obvious from reading this book with the background you’ve given me, that your entire body on Earth is under mind-control of the enemy.  (I know there are some who are not and I long to meet them.)  You said there would be a civil war within the ‘church’ and you said the conflict would be over the SPIRIT and you said that your real church would arise.  I stand on your promises and await my marching orders.  And gas money. And new underwear.  Thank you.  I’m sorry that my brethren are selfish.  Please do not permit me to ever be selfish.  Forgive me if I was.  Amen.”

The „Me‟ meme selfish gene „generation‟ would be an example of an imbalance occurring between the survival advantages of altruistic ideas that benefit the whole and selfishness which benefits the individual at the expense of the whole. Altering an enemies country‟s culture so that it becomes more selfish, superstitious, or criminal would be a use for mememic warfare for example. 

Read more at:


6:16 pm

JAY!  I had an idea!

You know what Jay?  I was being glib, but it’s a good idea.  I’ll take you on, and your brother-in-law and the pastor that I don’t even know.  We’ll advertise.  Lots of people would come to see me in a pulpit.  (Not because I ran for Congress but because YOU GUYS called me crazy.)  We’ll charge admission.  I know it’s not the Jesus-way but heck, you let those evangelists sell tapes,  so you can  make another  exception.  I know somebody who could make a really  belligerent ad for the radio, and lots of people would come to watch us duke it out.  You Baptists can make your pitch.  If you have enough nerve.  It’s been my observation that you guys want a houseful of sinners but you never know what to do with them when they show up.  (Ask Ruth Reed.)  I think this is a real go-getter-evangelistic idea. How ’bout it?


6:04 pm

Jay, I’m sorry that you thought my response to your letter  was insufficient.  I thought much  of the Bible-study to be unworthy of comment, but I’ll debate Bible doctrine any time you want.  Any time at all.  I’d like that very much.  I could even argue both sides, if you’re not up to supporting your own position.  I listened closely when I was a child.


6:03 pm

Dear Mom,
It may have escaped your attention that we got bigger problems just now, than Dad’s ego.  Any animosity you feel toward me should really be put on hold.  Apparently, because our family does not believe my claims about him, (a situation you could remedy…) they also do not believe the substance of my years’ research into the history and immediacy of the American Police State.  If you were to tell the truth, I expect our family might survive the coming years.  Otherwise, I’m not so sure.  L
5:59 pm
Dear Jay,
I understand how you got all worked up about defending my father and your job.  Those are issues we may discuss at length, after the apocalypse.  Jesus is revealing truth and he showed me something very important. Your government is torturing and experimenting on US citizens.  I can prove it.  Help me.  Give me a single chink in my dad’s armor, I’ve been prodding him for years.  What does he know?  If he gave me one phone number and some gas money I’d get out of your hair for a bit.  And his.  I’ve been writing about you for years.  I remember when Marty and Cliff and Bill Williams would sit in my grandma’s kitchen on the counter and swing their legs if Gloria was home.  They always mentioned your name.  With reverence.  You were a MISSIONARY.  You were born for such a time as this.  So was I.  Help me be what God means for me to be.  My dad never would.

5:02 pm

During one of my searches through information warfare documents I came across the strange strategy of making an enemy search down a seemingly endless path of misinformation. I thought this to be a strange kind of warfare and wondered how it could be implemented. But I discovered it is being used on test victims. All victims go through the same research process to try to figure out how their brain waves are being modulated. In evitably they go to the internet to search for mind control weapons.

This is how it works. When they choose a target to be silently assassinated and MKULTRA tortured, they use a set of scripts that have worked in the past to confuse targets and make them look crazy. These scripts evolve depending on the beliefs of the target. At each branch of the growing base of knowledge and understanding, errors of logic are interjected in the mind meld. Other sources support the slightly illogical conclusions that targets reach.

More at:

2:22 pm

 If there was a virtual reality machine that seemed real in every way and you could determine what your perfect life would be in advance, would you agree to live in it for the remainder of your physical existence assuming your memory could be erased that you chose to do it? Your answer is quite revealing about the base motives that drive your everyday living. If you answer, “No. It isn‟t real. My life would be meaningless.” Then you are the type of person who is driven through creating meaning in your life and define your value through your relationships with other people. If you answer, “Yes. Of course. Who wouldn‟t want a perfect life?” Then you are a pleasure seeker and define the reason for existence is to optimize your quantitative happiness through your chronological lifespan.

2:14 pm

Heck of a resume’.

 My current research involves finding a cure for the mind control directed energy weapons fiasco.

My apologies to the human race for my contribution to tyranny. I was tricked into thinking it would not be misused by corrupt government especially in my beloved country.

The Joint Non-Lethal Weapons Directorate has Skip Green on the governing board. One of my old colleagues at a technology think tank in Cambridge partly in charge of the radio frequency weapons testing for neurological disruption now torturing and killing people worldwide.

… I am fighting against mental slavery in a new Civil War engineered by the same useless elements in over 80 government agencies who have tested radiological, drug, and viral weapons on unsuspecting Americans for over 45 years.

All the torture can be done using directed energy psychotronic weapons with the so called continental ballistic missile surveillance defense grids.

But freedom is so important to me that I know full heartedly that the human race must have an open discussion on these weapons to decide their own fate before the point of decision is gone, that I am willing to risk divulging so called national secrets. All I offer you is the truth. 

Read more here:


1:53 pm

“This is not intended to shock people.  We have no choice but to understand our reality.”

 (Deborah Tavares)

1:40 pm

OK, if you’re just catching up on remedial recent history, here’s a pointer:  Read everything first, that is offered free.  This is not a cost-minimizing strategy, but will minimize the fraud.  If the author is not getting money when you read it, chances are better that he’s telling the truth.

1:36 pm

The atheist was a true believer.  When he saw evidence beyond a reasonable doubt, he stopped doubting.  He BELIEVED what he knew; he believed truth.   Decades in the evangelical church and I never met people who would actually BELIEVE the thing of which they were convinced, and the thing they would struggle to convince others,  the ‘good news’ that Baptists  would hand-carry to the households of truth-loving heathen, on Thursday nights when we would go ‘calling’, just like the Jehovah’s Witnesses, the sorry 144 thousand, who must actually bump somebody else from his seat, in order to eventually meet God. BAPTISTS BELONG TO  A PAGAN RELIGION.  Long live the TRUTH!  (Big deal.  They don’t believe their own religion anyway.)

1:26 pm

I haven’t seen a drone for a while, and I’m feeling kind of neglected.  I recorded when I saw them and found a picture on the internet.

1:25 pm

It was like a whole new world, to meet my friend the atheist.  There are two types of people:  those who want to learn, and those who want to be entertained.  Regrettably, I was raised by the latter.  My parents actually dragged my sons to  “Disney on Ice”.  Raised eyebrows all around.  We set a higher standard of thought in George’s home, but my parents had no way of viewing a world they’d never encountered.  I wonder if my mother ever asked her dad what he thought about.  He spent many cold days in a fishing shanty all alone.  I wonder, does she wonder now?  Did she ever want to know that unknowable man?  Did she want to know him as badly as I’ve wanted to know my own dad?  I wonder if she tried.
Anyway, back to meeting a person from outside  your bigotry, who wants to know truth.  (There’s an opportunity no Christian should ignore.)   His life was alien to mine in every way, and I asked him once, “Do you and your friends watch these lectures together?  Like at parties?”  I had no idea how the non-evangelical youth behaved. He assured me that his friends weren’t interested in those things.  I treated him like my personal SIRI.  No question was rebuffed.
Nobody ever filled my mind, I was entombed with a class of ‘retarded’ students (it was OK to say that word back then…) when I was eight.  I was not encouraged in any manner, scholastically.  My approved pursuits were only those endorsed for women within my perverted economy.  I was not actively denigrated, except by my family. But I was encouraged to excel at  female things.  (And me a preacher at heart.)  Such an unlovely life.  (I think my dad was supposed to be a preacher.  I think that’s why he hates me.)
I went to law school because I had not been permitted to think, in my first marriage.  My ex burned a stack of Russian novels once; I was about halfway through half a dozen.  He burned them.  He took them from our living room and burned them.  That’s psychopathic.  That marriage being concluded, I looked for a place to catch up on my thinking, and I thought of law school.  Nice try.  The Republicans were no help and my continual attempts to spur life from the church just got way too disappointing.  But, then God sent me an atheist who loved truth, and I was free to think.  Reevaluating my faith through an atheist’s eyes was the best thing that ever happened, for my ambition to think freely and well.  Jesus is real.  The atheist knows that too.  He probably knows it better than I.  He’s really smart.  (But not a god.)

12:41 pm

GangstalkingAnything to Mess with a Target’s Mind
When I got to the store today, I pulled out the car key and deposited it, as is my habit, in the cup-holder between the seats.  (Around here I always do that.  I ALWAYS take out the key,  and in a town I carry it with me, even though George says the passenger door on this beater doesn’t lock.  The car stinks too, like BO, especially when the upholstery gets hot.  My stinky cigarette smoke is kind of nice by comparison.)  I did NOT turn on the radio as I drove to the store, but when I returned to my car, the radio was playing David Bowie.  The key was in the cup-holder.  At first this kind of thing is disconcerting.  At this point, it’s kind of nice that somebody knows what I’m doing.
 The goons will create circumstances that line up with cyber-hijinks and even more personal matters. For instance, if you’re being run a script of a sexual nature, you might find that the bicycle pump you left in the basket of the scooter has inexplicably arrived in your purse.  (But only if it’s phallic-shaped.)   Big burly men go grocery shopping with empty carts, and they watch you significantly.  It always lines up with a theme, consistent through all the gaslighting methods.
In my case and others, perhaps all, if you do not go crazy, the ‘signs’ will lead you on a quest.  It’s OBVIOUS that somebody is communicating with you… and it seems that he/she/it wants something.  (This part must be almost as much fun as the sex shows; that shit’s gotta get old after a while.)  I was sent to false addresses, both online and in the physical world, to help a friend.  It’s a long story, but I’m pretty sure I got it all.  I’d like for this bullshit to be exposed.  I guess it will, with or without my assistance, that’s why the psychopaths are acting like lunatics. They’re scared about us all finding out how they played us, and they know we will.  Some people are nearly immune to the sex-rays and brainwashing.  A real-live European said that ‘love’ is a key antidote.  Go figure.  Also some homeopathic stuff I don’t remember and wouldn’t know where to find even if I could afford to look.
God.  He’s the answer.  Those who hear from God recognize when somebody else is talking and God can make that somebody stand aside.  I could almost graph it, and I’m ashamed it took me as long as it did to grasp.  The science of the Kingdom will be honest and helpful, and no graph will depict a line-segment.  The government gave one of those HAARP installations to the ‘private sector’.  (They gave it to a state university.  Big deal.)  When benevolent scientists are pushing the buttons I want to be first in line.  This machinery is very powerful and it is currently brain-washing humanity into a pack of starving hyenas.
 “God forgive us. You told us to ‘bring every thought captive…and we didn’t do it!!!!  I’m not asking for more time, humans have had as long as they need to commit mass suicide.  I’m just asking for more of your Spirit on and through me and everybody else.  How can you pull it so close?  I’m on the edge of my seat every minute!  Please increase my capacity for weirdness and for YOU!  Don’t let me bog down in this, please.  Thank you.  Amen.”

12:14 pm

11:09 am

“The hour is actually very late.”  (Deborah Tavares)

JADE HELM : Artificial Intelligence Network to Predict and Control the Human Behavior

Read more at:

10:45 am

Is Psychotronic Harassment for Real?

I’m tired of trying to figure out if the attack is occult in nature, or electromagnetic, or, or, or….
Are you familiar with or know others with this problem??  Is there legal or technological recourse??
I even hear my name, with accompanying insults and threats in some sounds emanating from movies.  It isn’t free-flow talk, however – just the same 5-6 phrases and insults repeated ad infinitum.  It’s very distressing and causes me incredible fatigue to the extent of sometimes being unable to work or focus on mental activity.
(They call that the Chatterbox effect.)

10:17 am

New DARPA AI Software Carves Up American Cities Into Combat Zones

8:30 am

Researchers Use Phones to ‘Unobtrusively’ Track User Mental States

The study found that the phone tracking was comparable in accuracy to that of mental health questionnaires for detecting depression. The study had a relatively small sample size, and was intended as a preliminary study for further research. The study could also mean that with enough tracking capabilities, it would be possible to track the habits of individuals without their consent.

“People tend to keep phones with them all or most of the time, and phones can provide data unobtrusively and with no effort on the part of the user,” the study said.

Read more:

Read more:

7:57 am

I sit before the news with my gap agape; could things be more clear and true?  It’s like a Kliban cartoon, or like South Park.  Kendall Jenner got her nipple pierced, front-page in England.  The queen was taught a Nazi salute in her childhood?  Would you imagine otherwise?  I’m going to need a new job pretty soon because I’ll be laughing so hard that I won’t be able to type.  No matter I suppose, the goon can type for a while.
People are coming clean and they’re telling the truth, but nobody’s noticing!  The editor of the Lancet said half of the research is entirely false.  That statement alone should have taken down some psychopaths, but nooo..instead we care that .Kim Kardashian rolled naked in silver paint and the photos used to make her feel uncomfortable but now she’s tweeting the same pictures.  We’re seeing a progression, and it’s not going up.
 We ‘make and love lies’ and God told us that was the path to destruction.  He said, “I am the way, the truth and the light!”  We go TRUTH-WAYS, we gotta turn pretty soon or we’re gonna miss the exit!  We must applaud decency rather than exhibitionism; we must nurture the earth and one another.  It is very simple but we’re not in the right lane!  THE CHURCH ITSELF WILL NOT TURN FOR TRUTH!  “Last chance before destruction.”  “Turn here.”

6:43 am

It’s really easy to tell if you’re a Christian following God:  keep a journal.  Do you know the Holy Ghost?  Then your journal will say, “Today the Holy Ghost told me…”  Then you know.  If those notations do not appear, you should open your Bible to Romans 8:14 where we’re told, “For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God.”  Then you know if you’re a fake Christian or not.  If you’re real, you should record your testimony and get it into the cloud anyway.

And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.  (Revelation 12:11)


6:29 am

It occurs to me that since Jesus owns Lakefield Baptist Church, and since I work for him…I’m in charge.  Here’s what I’m going to do:  I’ll make some proclamations in his name, and through the power of his blood shed on behalf of mankind…and on behalf of Lakefield Baptist Church.  This is my first time, here goes:

In the name of Jesus I declare that Lakefield Baptist Church will reevaluate its positions and recognize its negative impact on the community of Lakefield.

In the name of Jesus I declare that each member and every person who has ever entered its door, will come face to face with their risen Lord and be inhabited by His Spirit.

That’s a good start.    But it sounds like I’m being bossy to God.  I’ll see if it’s alright:  “Dear Lord, please forgive me if I’m telling you to do something you didn’t want to do.  Please give me your words and make my brain stop being human.  Amen.”


6:15 am


6:11 am


This one goes out to my alma mater, the good folks of Lakefield.  Put your money where your mouth is.  How many barrels of water do I dump on this pile of flesh before you guys start calling for fire?    I’m facing the PROPHETS OF BAAL ALL ALONE!!!  “Choose ye this day who you will serve!!!!!!”

“DIDN’T I BLOW YOUR MIND” (this time) 

The Delfonics

5:59 am

I should not be offended that Baptists do not understand my mission, they don’t even  understand the concept of a God-directed life, and my mission is admittedly unusual.  But, I’m going to preach at Lakefield Baptist Church, just like I wanted to when I was a Sunday School kid handicapped with ovaries.  My hands will raise the dead, and there will be no dead butts in the pews.  The Holy Ghost will fill that place until he invades the lives and hearts of each person.  Some will run out the door.  Some will get knocked to the floor.  But others will raise their hands in joyful recognition that they’re finally seeing what they somehow knew ‘church’ was supposed to be.
I’ve heard of services where fat ladies lost so much weight instantaneously that their clothes fell off and they went home wrapped in a curtain.  That would be nice.  My friend has watched a deformed leg grow out full-length to match the other one.  That would be fun.  Gold-teeth appearing in mouths is very last-wave,  and I expect gold dust falling from the air only happens in South America, but we WILL SEE GOLD.  (Gold represents God’s nature.)   I don’t know what to make of stigmata, Paul may very well have nursed bleeding hands. Stranger things have happened.   During my dad’s lifetime, American newspapers printed stories of revival tents catching fire from the Spirit, and firemen arriving only to find themselves face-down before their creator as the tent was not consumed.  John G. Lake, maybe?  Maria Woodworth Etter?  Bill Branham?
I learned about Jesus, the CHRIST,  at Lakefield Baptist Church, but Lakefield Baptist Church did not mention the fathers of my American faith in Him, because to do so would underscore the utter impotence of Lakefield Baptist Church.   It’s hard to sell a supernatural faith if one does not produce a supernatural product.
People will come from far and wide to see the miracles we will enjoy at Lakefield.  Hospitals will be closing up slowly, as congregations of Spirit-led believers heal the sick before they are admitted to God’s waiting room.  The earth will be healed by the leaves of the trees, and we which are alive and remain shall be caught up together in a cloud.  Wait, maybe that part’s already happening.
ANYWAY, I will not stand aside and permit my Lord and Master and the Creator of the Universe and the Savior of mankind…and the purported master of Lakefield Baptist Church… to be misrepresented. Lakefield’s Jesus is puny and dead.  Mine is enormous and ready to roll.  
(Dear Jay, this is the very same bet I made with my dad in 2009.  Just ask him.  I wrote it down six years ago and swore to it and had it notarized and sent it to an atheist.  Ask him.  Do you believe in Jesus?)

And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues;

They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.     Mark 16:17-18


7:15 pm

FDA Legalizes Drug That Removes Free Will and Wipes Memories

6:37 pm

Well the anointing comes as you are in the presence of God, that is the overflowing, the overflowing that comes when you are in the presence of your God, that is the anointing that drips down and covers. This causes you to be like Me for such a time as this, that you might stand holy as an intercessor, causing things that could not and have not come to pass, come to pass, because of your holiness and your boldness to step in and decree and declare a thing that has never been seen before or known before in your lives and in the lives of your brothers and sisters in Me. This is why I set you apart, for this moment, says the Lord. For such a time as this, a bride that is bold, a bride that has no spot, wrinkle, or blemish, one who would allow herself to be purified. Those who have allowed themselves to be sanctified and made themselves consecrated to My will and to My purpose.

Read more from 7:17 at:

6:30 pm

Is Experimenting on People Without Their Knowledge Ever Acceptable?

Read more:

6:26 pm

Before Sandra Bland was found dead in her jail cell from what police are calling self-inflicted asphyxiation, she had contacted a bail bondsmen – her release would have cost $500.

The case is eerily similar to that of another alleged suicide in the same jailhouse in 2012.

On Friday, 28-year-old Sandra Bland, a police accountability activist who had just moved to Texas to begin a new job, was was pulled over by a Texas police officer for failing to use her turn signal before changing lanes.

Read more:

6:16 pm

CYBERSTALKING, Friday session
OK, they tempt you with this ad and they assault you with another.  Emotions are high.  Then they pull out the big guns:  YOUR GREATEST SECRET.  I’m not kidding; goons have no shame.  They’ll do high-kicks with your heart’s desire and drive you to the movie.  (Induced-crazy is a TERRIBLE thing.  That answer will be on the final.)   When I made it through (sorta) the big-secret temptation, they even tried a woman.  They get ridiculous.  This chick was everything I am and even more.  It was too perfect.  When she asked if she should shave her legs before coming to see me I cut it off.  Then Zuckerberg cut me off so it hasn’t been an issue.  “DO NOT BELIEVE ANYTHING YOU READ ON THE INTERNET.”  (Abraham Lincoln)

6:01 pm

You see I can’t let go of my dad now that I got him, no matter who wants me to.  I love him and he knows I’m the only one who actually SEES him and also LOVES him.  I’m very important to him.  If the person who knows you doesn’t love you that’s a thing you can’t overcome.  I will not be the source of his failure.  I know him, and I love him so I can’t stop expecting him to be lovable.  That’s just how it is.


5:26 pm

Here’s how I will pray for Jay, when he asks me to:
“Dear Lord.  Please give me the words to say because I don’t know how to pray because I’m praying for a man who says he serves you but has never known your Spirit.  Please fill him, but be gentle?  Do not allow him to be healed of all maladies all at once, because his doctrine would collapse, and so would his life’s work, and also his sense of personal value. Give him joy and peace, so he might recognize you.  Change his life dramatically as you can’t help but doing for any person who seeks you with his whole heart, but let his mind quickly get in line with truth. (He’s a mind-based kinda guy.)   Love him to death and back to life again.  Amen.”

5:11 pm

Angela Merkel makes a 14-year old Palestinian girl cry by telling her she is not welcome in Germany

– See more at:

Watch the  video.


5:03 pm

Newtown Tax Assessors Database: ‘The whole town of Sandy Hook was bought off on Christmas Day 2009?, says investigator

That’s right, on Christmas Day of 2009, when just about every business in the country was closed, numerous real estate transactions for the amount of $0.00 (free) took place in and around the town, most of which included families or public figures, such as Gene Rossen, who were in some way connected to the Sandy Hook Elementary School shooting.

“Everybody gets a house for free”, factitiously said one Youtuber in a recent video posted on his channel after researching claims by others, like Youtuber LogicBeforeAuthority, who may have cracked open another part of the mystery surrounding the Sandy Hook Elementary School shooting which took place Dec. 14 2012.

The Wayback machine shows now computer activity from the school after 2008, when the school was closed for asbestos contamination!

Read more:

Read more:

Read more:

4:56 pm

Also Jay, I’m kind of in a bad spot.  Obama is pretending to round up dissidents.  I am one of those.  So is my son out in Colorado, one of the states where your president is rounding up dissidents.  I have no resources to relocate, but I have a rich father.  A rich LYING father who will not provide sanctuary for us.  What would you say, if there was one chance in a million that Shelly or Sheryl would be ‘extracted’?  What does my dad say?  Why don’t you ask him.


4:53 pm

Report: UN Troops Tackle Man In Wal-Mart – Will ISIS Killers In America Lead To Martial Law During Jade Helm 15?

An interesting report comes in to Alex Jones in the 1st video below in which John from Ozark, Alabama near the Rooker Air Force Base tells Infowars listeners he was in a small-town Wal-Mart store when he was tackled and arrested after attempting to take pictures of men wearing UN uniforms in the store.

If this report, which begins at the 20 second mark, is true, it is just the latest strange event that we have been hearing about at ANP from our readers and various videos and other news stories we’ve been reading online in the last 24 hours since the official beginning of Jade Helm 15.



4:50 pm

I was raped by a non-corporeal entity that I believe may have originated with my father’s government.  I will ask questions until I have answers.  Be warned, if thou art not forthcoming.  People know what I need to know and I will know it.  I serve TRUTH and he has all the answers.


4:37 pm

I called Jay and told him I’d been writing to him all day on the website.  I’d take him hard copies but I’m out of toner and also  I don’t really want to go.  When I’m SUPPOSED to go, I want to.


4:16 pm

Dear Jay, you’re a very good friend to my father.  You stick with him through thick and thin.  That’s honorable.  It is also habit, and habits must be reevaluated periodically, or you get into a rut.  A rut is just a grave with the ends cut out.  My father dislikes about me,  the same thing you dislike…the Spirit I follow.  He didn’t like it when I was a little girl learning about sex from his disgusting pornography, and he doesn’t like it now, when I consistently stand for Truth.  My savior is Truth.  He said so.  If my father has not lied to you during the decades of your long friendship, he was playing to your profession and unusually circumspect.  My father lies to me every time he opens his mouth.  I kept records or I would not make this claim.
ALSO, there is a very serious matter about which I have some small intelligence.  My dad knows the part I do not.  Jesus Kingdom is ‘coming to Earth’ and I should share the very valuable records I kept, about what evil men do.  Jesus will want them.  Please consider that since you have not SPOKEN to me since the day I heard you proclaiming assertions that I bear mental defect, you should maybe not judge my heart or my relationship with God.  Just a thought.
You were very important to me as a child.  My father allowed me to be raped when I was small, but you were a MISSIONARY.  Think about the millstone story and consider my request that you encourage my father to tell the truth.  Soon.  Thank you.

4:04 am

‘Artificial Intelligence is as dangerous as NUCLEAR WEAPONS': AI pioneer warns smart computers could doom mankind

  • Expert warns advances in AI mirrors research that led to nuclear weapons
  • He says AI systems could have objectives misaligned with human values
  • Companies and the military could allow this to get a technological edge
  • He urges the AI community to put human values at the centre of their work 

Read more:
Follow us: @MailOnline on Twitter | DailyMail on Facebook

Professor Stuart Russell, a computer scientist who has lead research on artificial intelligence, fears humanity might be ‘driving off a cliff’ with the rapid development of AI.

He fears the technology could too easily be exploited for use by the military in weapons, putting them under the control of AI systems.


3:55 pm

I am persecuted for my faith.  That’s the bottom line,  and also persecution of believers is predicted by the Bible, for the end times.  The brethren are my persecutors, and they don’t even recognize prophecy fulfilled before their eyes, because they’re it,  because they’re the Truman Show.  When you look up hypocrite in the reference version you see a Baptist church.  I knew they were tough and self-righteous but I never thought it would take six years for one of them to talk to me.  I gotta hand it to Jay.  He’s at the head of the class.


3:41 pm

If the teams of this order line up roughly with either Jesuits or Zionists, it’s instructive that they’ve taken their opposition public.  The Sanhedrin is charging the pope with something or other.  That strikes me as a pitiful plea for our attention, intended to establish these offices as worthy, and their occupants as worthy gentlemen.  That strikes me as theatre of desperation.  They do care about us!  They DO CARE about what we think!  This is positive. Something’s got to give though.  This spiritual tension is very uncomfortable.


3:27 pm

Dad just turned around in the driveway;  he put four checks in my mailbox, dividends, for two quarters, seventeen dollars and forty cents, total.  He’s so cute.  It won’t get me started on my destiny but I can get a couple packs of cigarettes.  “God forgive him.  And soften his heart so he won’t go to Hell on account of me.  Amen.”  He didn’t even sign the backs of the checks…  In the mailbox was also a campaign flyer from my Congressman.  I introduced him to the first Republicans he ever met, in Charlevoix.  “God, forgive me.”


3:18 pm

Caitlyn Jenner’s family  is like the opposite of my dad’s.  With the Jenners, the boys get fat and forgotten and the girls get rich.  Who WOULDN’T want to be a girl in that family?  I’ve been praying all day that God will lift me above these circumstances where my flesh wants to be offended by men who won’t speak to me but still call me names and presume to understand the condition of my heart and my relationship with God.  This is hubris but I do not wish to become offended.  My life is not my own, and whatever Jesus has going down is perfect.  I just don’t FEEL perfect.  Targeting is the gift that keeps on giving; it’s truly an eternal prison for the soul.  Always, once one has recognized artificial thought-disturbance, one ALWAYS considers if and when it will happen again. Is somebody messing with my reality?   It is always possible that I am believing some nonsense that is making hackers laugh in Idaho somewhere.  My dear ones OBVIOUSLY do not get it:
“Whoever is not for us is against us.”  (George Bush.  And God.)  This is an opt-IN program.  Nobody will be dragged into Paradise against his will.  I don’t know what I think of Hell anymore; judgment isn’t frightening in that way.  I realize that people actually do choose to go to Hell.  They begin long before they’re dead.  I’m watching dead men walking.  I pray that God will clarify my vision.  I wish to know everything I need to know in order to say everything that needs to be said to keep my father from choosing more hell.  And I want my internal organs to sit still.  I am a Targeted Individual and although my mind understands that my Spirit is in accord with God’s plan, it scares the crap out of my body.  I think that’s fake.  Technology can give you the runs.  Or an orgasm.  Just wait ’til it happens to you.  906-291-1376.

11:05 am

Pope Francis On Trial By Sanhedrin Court

I couldn’t make this stuff up.

10:48 am

This is a nice promise:

Behold, I will make them of the synagogue of Satan, which say they are Jews, and are not, but do lie; behold, I will make them to come and worship before thy feet, and to know that I have loved thee.

10:46 am

Anti Semitism Term a Lie Shows How Gullible We Are – Morris – and more …

10:43 am

This is sluggish, is it not?

10:38 am

If I’d known I was gonna have to sing this song for the rest of my life…I would probably have written a different one.

(Joe Walsh)

10:35 am

My young friend kisses her pet chicken.  I hope she comes over today so I can tell her she should not.  I never even HEARD of a pet chicken until hers.  We kept chickens for eggs.

CDC: Don’t kiss your pet chicken

Read more at:

10:30 am

Hey Jay, you know how the ‘joy of the Lord is our strength?”  It’s true, but what is his joy?  It is YOU!  You are his joy and he wants to marry you and make all the bad stuff and the pedophile doctors go away!  Please, do not miss his invitation.  I’d miss you.  L

C’mon Jay.  Get saved.

10:25 am

Jay, you taught me about Jesus.  Didn’t you mean anything you said?  I’ll remember the man I thought I knew.  When I was a child.  And you were my hero.

 I Can’t Stop Loving You

Roy Orbison

(Who can ever resist a blind guy?)

10:20 am

There’s death in the skies, there’s death afoot.  Every Thursday after tea,  Obamanation decides which of Earth’s sentient organisms should talk to Jesus before he is required to do so.  I don’t mind going first, especially since I keep up with my homework,  but there are a lot of FAKE CHRISTIANS who will soon die.  A word to the wise should be sufficient, but since my BAPTIST-BRETHREN spend more time judging the heathen down the road than they do examining their own hearts,  and that makes it obvious that I am not speaking to WISE PEOPLE, …these sad ones are in for a surprise.  You heard it here first.  Regrettably.


10:13 am

WOW!  The drones have a second amendment and i don’t .  What gives?

Watch this totally illegal drone fire a handgun

Howgwit, the YouTube user who uploaded the recent 14-second clip, also references another video showing a CGI quadcopter with a mounted machine gun on his Google+ account, commenting: “Too bad it’s fake… though I have a real one in my channel.” Hogwit appears to be Austin Haughwout, a US drone hobbyist who was involved in a drone-rage incident last year.

Read more here:

10:09 am

Wow.  Chatanooga is right on the Georgia border, no?

Ray Charles – Georgia On My Mind

9:57 am

Something’s coming.  Can’t you feel it?  Think about politics, if you will.

 The Hippy Hippy Shake

Georgia Satellites

9:43 am

Dear Jay, If I knew something that you did not know and I also knew that without that bit of knowledge that you did not know,  you could not possibly become everything God planned for you to become since before the creation of the world…what would I be?   And what would I be if I did not tell you?   Certainly not any kind of Christian.  Think about it, won’t you?  If you are not following ‘Spirit and Truth’ you are not following Jesus.  Not only is that fact a scriptural constant, it has also been my experience of SURVIVING GEORGE BUSH’S MIND-CONTROL.  Please, in Jesus’ name, no longer ‘support the troops.’  They serve Satan and lots of them are learning that fact.  Pick a side, dear preacher.  Pick a side.  Love, Linda


8:56 am

Who is Christ-like?  Show me some men, who are stout-hearted men, who will fight for the right we adore.  “Dear God, my Father in Heaven I approach you through the shed blood of your SON, Jesus, the Christ, my betrothed…how much more do we have to deal with?  Every single day I ask you to permit me to see things through your eyes, since my physical life really sucks.  Every single day I watch you be disappointed.  In mankind.  In me.  No.  I’ll do whatever you say, as you give me grace.  My FATHER is a lying psychopath, I would not know that if you had not shown me, because I kowtow to men who claim to be good.  I followed Jay Walsh, and Chuck Reed and (gag) my father…because I was taught wrongly about gender, by these same worthies.”
“Dear Lord forgive me for not recognizing my power, for not recognizing YOUR power!  These men call me a devil.  Please permit me to see them through your eyes, because from my point of view, they’re pretty shabby, and I don’t want to judge and thereby displease you!  They look like a piece of goose-shit.  Forgive me if I’m wrong.  Correct me, judge my heart so I may be pure before you, but DOES ANY MAN SERVE YOU?  Amen.”

8:26 am

The joy of being a Baptist male-person!  How wonderful to have such confidence in one’s own brain and physical senses!  What a glory it must be to believe that oneself will survive the ADVENT OF GOD’S KINGDOM ON EARTH…with a high school diploma and hours of Faux News.  Such a nice, sweat-free life.  To believe that one’s spirit was an afterthought, since the body is the real you, and it was deposited in your flesh-tuxedo by an unthinking god, maybe dropping Snickers into your trick-or-treat bag.  No purpose whatsoever, to the human ‘spirit-body’.  (‘Spirit-bodies’ are  in the Bible.  Google it.)  Such a blessing to be the single people on Earth who can know what is right for everybody else…just by thinking real hard.  Dad and Jay are doomed.  Chuck too.  I don’t know the pastor…but it’s not my fault.  I brought him a cake.  Nary a shit was given.
To TRUST GOVERNMENT, such a blessed state of holiness and hauteur!  To believe oneself immune from what one’s own prophetic-reference predicts, when one has not performed the consideration required to expect such exception.  Wow.  This is pride and it’s religious pride and it stinks to high Heaven.  Baptists are going down;  it’s not my wish nor the wish of their Savior and  my Lord.  “My people perish for lack of wisdom.”   He also said  “WISDOM–ASK, and I’ll give it abundantly.”  How hard is that?  But, alas and alack, God’s people do not wish to hear His Spirit.  They know it all.  Just like Adam and Eve after they partook of the Tree of Knowledge.  “Dear GOD, please allow me to eat from the Tree of Life, which is ‘every word that proceedeth from your mouth.’  DO NOT ALLOW ME TO BE SATISFIED with masturbational musings, and ‘doctrines of devils’. You’re real.  Will you EVER CLAIM ME ALREADY?  Your ways are best, and time is no issue with you so I love you and I’m waiting right here.  Amen.”

8:15 am

They love Jesus, but they do not love truth.  (red check)
They do not love me,  but they claim to be like Jesus.  (red check)
They will not even talk to their former piano player because they unthinkingly support her rich father. (red check)
They think they will survive what is currently happening on Planet Earth and which God predicted in the book they claim to know and revere.      (red check)
Baptists are JUST PLAIN failing.
Answer key (BIBLE REFERENCES) available on request.

8:11 am

I have never had [the slightest doubt] about the reality that God Is and that His most graphic name is Truth.       (H, 25-1-1948, p535)
God cannot be realized through the intellect. Intellect can lead one to a certain extent and no further. It is a matter of faith and experience derived from faith. One might rely on the experience of one’s betters or else be satisfied with nothing less than personal experience. Full faith does not feel the want of experience.       (H, 4-8-1946, p249)

8:08 am

I feel led to continue my course on CYBERSTALKING.  Sometimes my efforts are completely shut down, pages go blank, no cursor.  That was OK with me because I always figure God has a reason for difficulties. Sometimes though, music begins to play and I never even pushed a button!  I’m learning that some weird things I experience are for illustration, so I’m faithful to record them.  (I used to believe it was all guidance, so my busy mind is relieved a bit by recognizing that I AM really recording history that people will require.)  I am a victim of digital Stockholm Syndrome, since I nearly always recognize value and purpose in the efforts of my angel-goon, even when they’re very frustrating.   I will take dictation until I am no longer a trans-human, keyboard-linked cyborg.  I can’t wait to be a real-live human again.  I probably won’t go near a computer.


7:58 am

Never enough music.  Did you know the final battle between good and evil will be fought musically?  I think it’s in Isaiah.

The Righteous Brothers – Rock and Roll Heaven

7:48 am


“When The Saints Go Marching In”

B.B. King: Live At The Royal Albert Hall 2011

(Is that Slash playing rhythm?  Or somebody else famous?  Love the hat.  OK, he must be important because he got a solo.  And Susan Tedeschi?  She’s awesome.)


7:46 am

The Baptists think I’m not a Christian because I smoke cigarettes.  Spurgeon smoked cigars.  God TOLD me to smoke cigarettes and he TOLD me the circumstances under which I will permanently stop.  They judge by wrongful criteria.  God said…”They’ll know you are Christians by your love.”  Who’s loving on me?


7:36 am

Such horseshit passes for doctrine, and it also passes the buck.   (One of Dad’s guys came down to check on that dead deer, by the way.  I hope it’s gone.)  I was instructed by yon Baptist missionary, that I ‘can’t be reconciled to my family…until I’m reconciled to my Heavenly Father.’  That’s a pretty presumptuous evaluation  from the guy . I OVERHEARD him call me crazy to strangers.  He apologized post-haste, but he has not spoken to me since, other than yelling at me when I was handing out flyers.  But also, if I’m the non-Christian and my family are Christians, shouldn’t the onus be on THEM to behave in a Christlike manner?  They have refused for six years.


 Frequently, communication problems can be overcome by defining terms.  “Christ” is not Jesus’ last name.  Christ  =   anointed.   Ah-hah.  We’ve got that same issue again:  the Holy Ghost, the Holy Spirit, my very great friend and benefactor.  Baptists do not like him one little bit.  And it’s hard to act Christ-like without having an  anointing.  It would be impossible to keep speaking truth, if I did not.  I really like people and wish them well.  ETERNAL well-ness.  I thought that’s what missionaries are supposed to do?  I’ve always considered myself a missionary to the ‘church’.  There be cannibals on this foreign field.


6:50 am


Oh My God (“Stay Human” version)

6:47 am

“If you have got family and friends that you would like to visit before things start getting really crazy, you should do so within the next couple of months, because these are the last days of “normal life” in America.”

Based on all of the intel and information that I have gathered, we are about to enter a “perfect storm” that is going to shake this country in just about every possible way that it can be shaken. So I hope that you will truly savor this summer – days like this will not come around again any time soon.

Read more:

6:24 am

Stone Cold Proof That America Deserves Judgment

What should be done to a nation that has killed more than 56 million babies and doesn’t even feel bad about it?  And why is the U.S. government giving hundreds of millions of dollars each year to an organization that murders hundreds of thousands of babies, harvests their organs, and then sells them to medical researchers?  An extremely disturbing video that was just released shows a top Planned Parenthood coldly discussing the sale of aborted body parts over lunch.  But now that this has been revealed, will America do anything about it? 

Selling Human Body Parts - YouTube screenshot

So will anything happen to Planned Parenthood and the executives involved in this illegal activity, or will Planned Parenthood just continue to collect hundreds of millions of dollars from the federal government every year?  I think that we all know that the answer is going to be, and it will be yet another reason why America will deserve every ounce of  the judgment that is about to hit this nation.

Read more here:

6:07 am

Isn’t this GREAT NEWS?

‘Disabled’ undercover cop waits for robbers in Vancouver but only finds kindness

There have been 28 violent offences on wheelchair-using folk in the city since January 2014, according to the Vancouver Police Department. Two-thirds of those crimes occurred in the drug-infested Downtown Eastside (DTES). One of the victims was sexually assaulted; six others required medical attention.

He reached in, as if making for the fanny pack. Horsley tensed. Here it was, at last: Heinous crime in progress, bust coming up. The man’s fingers touched the fanny pack. Then the prospective perp zippered it shut. He asked Horsley to please be more careful with his things, for goodness sake.

Read more at:

Vancouver police

5:46 am


“The Really Big Earthquake will destroy a sizable portion of the coastal Northwest.”

Fema Official:  “Everything West Of Interstate 5 Is Toast!  Everything West Of Interstate 5 Is Gone!”

FEMA: Huge Earthquake and Tsunami Due to Destroy Pacific Northwest

Read more at:

5:35 am

“Such EVIL GOING ON!”  (Dr. Ron Paul)

Ron Paul: Torture Conspiracy – Doctors Collude With CIA

Members of the American Psychological Association, including the person in charge of ethics, have been exposed colluding with the CIA to develop new methods of torture. What does it mean for us as a society when doctors put serving the state above healing patients?

5:18 am

Well, it’s day three of Jade Helm and I’m still here.

Jade Helm military drills begin without media access, Twitter blows up

See at:

4:32 am

Baptists find it easier to believe in demons than in their own Lord’s own SPIRIT!  That’s nuts.  But, they don’t know much about demons easier.  I approached Jay,  back in the beginning of my truth-quest, when I was being electronically tortured, and believed I was being harassed by demons, or a human spirit.  He lived in Bangladesh for years, surely he’d know.  Well it’s six years later and I’ve finally gotten some answers.
I KNOW the Holy Ghost is real for many reasons.  Dearest to my heart are my memories of MANY MIRACLES.  I used to weigh 300 pounds and I no longer do, thanks to the Holy Ghost.  I no longer get headaches and was instantaneously cured of arthritis at the same time I received the Baptism.  The Bible mentions ‘BAPTISMS’ but once the civic center has agreed on ‘sacraments’ …they’ve stopped listening for new things from God.  Haven’t they?   That’s tragic.
 And the foolish said unto the wise, Give us of your oil; for our lamps are gone out. But the wise answered, saying, Not so; lest there be not enough for us and you: but go ye rather to them that sell, and buy for yourselves.  And while they went to buy, the bridegroom came; and they that were ready went in with him to the marriage: and the door was shut.  
 Matthew  25:8-10

4:21 am

Do you even know how hard it is to maintain a truth-quest with no allies?  It’s not nice being in conflict with every person I care about.  Except Josh.  I’ve been doing this for SIX YEARS STRAIGHT.  Somebody, somewhere within the sound of my fingers must ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT TRUTH!  I have to keep reminding myself that something wonderful is going to happen.  I try to think about the million people Adam will lead to Jesus.  I think about going to Toronto sometimes, and having a life.
 I’m seeing the Bible HAPPENING in front of my eyes and nobody gives a rat’s Baptist.
It’s the parable of the wise virgins and the foolish virgins, real-time.  The Baptist Missionary’s  PROBLEM with me is …a  DISAGREEMENT ABOUT…OIL.  He claims the Holy Ghost is not real because they’ve never met.  HAH.  Fat chance.
 When the King shows up I won’t share my oil with anybody  because that’s not how you get oil.  You get OIL by the ANOINTING of the HOLY GHOST to whom you speak regularly in prayer and otherwise.  WAKE UP.  This is TEOTWAWKI.  (That’s a conspiracy acronym.  You’ll have to catch up on some reading.)


5:41 pm

How much ignominy and abuse can one righteous woman take?  Tune in tomorrow for another day of LIFE IN THE CLUTCHES OF PSYCHOPATHS.  Music, out….


5:27 pm

This is my mom and my dad.  For dad, there is never a red that is red enough.  Mom wears yellow.

“Lutherans” – 1/18/2014

5:25 pm

“Lutherans” – 1/18/2014

5:18 pm

It’s just true.  Right?

The JeffersonsTheme Song

(I never wanted to be rich but I could really use some new clothes.)

5:16 pm

How can puny people make you feel puny?  Is that scientific?  My parents’ values and goals make me laugh.  Yet, as I intentionally do not achieve said values and goals, I am less than consciously involved?  The Baptists are nuts.

5:13 pm

I’m moving out of this world and I couldn’t be happier.  I’m exhausted trying to convince carbon-units that they can fly.  So, now, I’ll fly without them.  I did my best, God knows that.  It’s been an existential crisis for me, to know more than my body could experience.  I survived the scatter-brains and I get to live real, as me.  It was very nice knowing my parents, although they themselves are rarely nice. They’ll miss me far more than I will miss them, and I’m sorry about that.  But not too sorry.  Have a nice life.  While it lasts.  (I have no idea that I will really go but wouldn’t that be a great ending?)  (At this point I’d value any kind of ending.)  TWO YEARS AND COUNTING.  1)  I have not missed a day. 2)   I have documented what I contest. 3)   My family is fucking ILLITERATE.  “God have mercy on my family and enable them to reed.  Thank you.  Amen.”

5:04 pm

Two can have a party … Tammi Terrell

4:59 am


 The Long Run lyrics


4:47 pm

Fish tacos.

“Big Fine Daddy”

2:43 pm

Diving Off The Deep End (1930)

2:42 pm

Can you even imagine, Jay Walsh, how it feels when a stupid person calls you crazy?  My father is stupid, and you once called me crazy too.  What does a servant of the Almighty God do with a situation like that?  Pray.  Always pray.  That’s what I do!  And Dad called me crazy!  You too!

2:39 pm

Why should any thing exist, if not for me?  I don’t mean that in a sense of deservedness;  I mean that if I don’t value a thing, why would I see it?

2:20 pm

This VIDEO is on this website a half dozen places.  I respectfully request that my family watch it now.  What have you done for me lately?  (Janet Jackson)  PLEASE watch this then call 906-291-1376.  Thank you for considering my request.

TI Landmark Victory: Secret Mind Control Human Rights Abuses of Targeted Individuals Exposed on TV News

See more at:

2:13 pm


I’m supposed to explode, aren’t I?  That’s what everybody is waiting for.  (Sometimes I wish for it.)  When Dr. Kim illegally spoke to my parents about my mental health although she couldn’t have had any inkling about it since she rarely saw me but still prescribed for me, over the phone, 60 MAJOR pain-killers every month, although I had not had a migraine for years, and who also required a signature from my first campaign-manager indicating that she (Dr. Kim) was permitted to speak to me (a lawyer) about my client/manager (an adult), she said I would bottom-out.  Crash and burn.  Something really scientific like that.  My folks bought it.  Gag me with a spoon. ANYWAY, time in a bottle, the thing here and now is that I can hardly tolerate the continual lies and perversions of my world that Jesus gave me.  My father fucked me over…and as he did, he claimed the name of my Jesus, the Christ.  I stand with the King, and I stand aside.

(Sometime in America)

MUSIC BREAKS the yoke.  Or something like that.  (Now I remember, the ‘anointing’ breaks the yoke.  ‘Anointing’ is ‘Spirit.’) [Look it up.  You my FAMILY, ARE SO LAZY…] The Spirit breaks the yoke and then there is freedom.  (“Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.”)  You, FAMILY, are bound by things that are unreal!  I pity you, and I pray.  Please, do not believe Jay Walsh who says the Spirit is unreal.  Believe the scientists, aren’t you guys scientific?  Scientists see God.  You told me you were very scientific as I washed your dinner plates.  GET SMART!  “DEAR GOD, help them get smart.  Then make me smart too.  Amen.”  (I know the algorithm is Christian so I will no longer debate whether AI can grow a soul.  Thank you, Jesus.)

Eagles – One of These Nights

1:52 pm

At least this latest missionary-guy wasn’t flying American flags all over.  He does have a license plate frame that says: “Support the Troops.”  I didn’t puke on his driveway, but it crossed my mind.  CHRISTIANS, true Christians, CANNOT SUPPORT MURDER AND EMPIRE.  “If I’m wrong, strike me dead.”  “Amen.”  “Thanks.  No, maybe I didn’t  mean it.  I’m gonna like it here.  You SAID SO.  What do I do next?   I love you Jesus.”

2:07 pm

I’m supposed to explode, aren’t I?  That’s what everybody is waiting for.  (Sometimes I wish for it.)  When Dr. Kim illegally spoke to my parents about my mental health although she couldn’t have had any inkling about it since she rarely saw me but still prescribed for me, over the phone, 60 MAJOR pain-killers every month, although I had not had a migraine for years, and who also required a signature from my first campaign-manager indicating that she (Dr. Kim) was permitted to speak to me (a lawyer) about my client/manager (an adult), she said I would bottom-out.  Crash and burn.  Something really scientific like that.  My folks bought it.  Gag me with a spoon. ANYWAY, time in a bottle, the thing here and now is that I can hardly tolerate the continual lies and perversions of my world that Jesus gave me.  My father fucked me over…and as he did, he claimed the name of my Jesus, the Christ.  I stand with the King, and I stand aside.

(Sometime in America)

MUSIC BREAKS the yoke.  Or something like that.  (Now I remember, the ‘anointing’ breaks the yoke.  ‘Anointing’ is ‘Spirit.’) [Look it up.  You my FAMILY, ARE SO LAZY…] The Spirit breaks the yoke and then there is freedom.  (“Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.”)  You, FAMILY, are bound by things that are unreal!  I pity you, and I pray.  Please, do not believe Jay Walsh who says the Spirit is unreal.  Believe the scientists, aren’t you guys scientific?  Scientists see God.  You told me you were very scientific as I washed your dinner plates.  GET SMART!  “DEAR GOD, help them get smart.  Then make me smart too.  Amen.”  (I know the algorithm is Christian so I will no longer debate whether AI can grow a soul.  Thank you, Jesus.)

Eagles – One of These Nights

1:52 pm

At least this latest missionary-guy wasn’t flying American flags all over.  He does have a license plate frame that says: “Support the Troops.”  I didn’t puke on his driveway, but it crossed my mind.  CHRISTIANS, true Christians, CANNOT SUPPORT MURDER AND EMPIRE.  “If I’m wrong, strike me dead.”  “Amen.”  “Thanks.  No, maybe I didn’t  mean it.  I’m gonna like it here.  You SAID SO.  What do I do next?   I love you Jesus.”

12:54 PM

I was delivered a letter by a missionary-friend of my dad.  (This guy’s organization rapes young girls then requires that they confess to adultery.)  The letter was in response to my petition, and it was not complimentary. He does not believe in the Baptism of the Holy Ghost.  (Guess that part of his deception isn’t my problem.  He’ll know better, soon-like.)  He also thinks I should play nice with my psychopath father.  I delivered a response, in cursive I wrote:  WHAT PART OF ‘MY PARENTS HAVE REFUSED TO SPEAK TO ME FOR SIX YEARS’  DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND?  

I may go back and bring him a copy of this public declaration to same effect.  CHRISTIANS ARE DOOMED!  They actually believe they can survive the current apocalypse with only their carbon-wits.  “God have mercy.  Amen.”.


‘Dear Jay, I know it’s scary to consider my claims, but you must.  The world is far different than you think.  Please do not be stupid very much longer.  I pray for the Spirit to overtake you so you may overcome.  “Blood of the Lamb and the word of their testimony.”  “The man with a supernatural testimony has nothing to fear from a critic.”  (Steve Quayle)

12:21 pm


message in the bottle lyrics

11:57 am

History of the World in the Days of the Automated Psychopaths

Cyberstalking–Session II

OK, they’ve got your attention, and there are many things you don’t understand so your ears are perked. (Induced Crazy-Step 2:  Hypervigilance)  Pretty soon you’re looking at Facebook and you see a photo of a person who looks a lot like you.  That’s a coincidence. Then you notice the person is wearing a purple bathrobe…a lot like yours!  But those things happen.  Then you read the caption; it might say something that could be perceived as a threat…I mean, if its author knew something about you that you thought only you knew.   If you stick with the program, eventually you will see other anomalies…you’ll even see strange things on other people’s pages!  Then the weirdness starts  to line up…omg…the algorithm is following me…     I let the goons lead me around the web for thirty-six hours straight, one time.  I saw family’s  pages and read about lady-doctors who sounded a lot like my sister.  I was even spontaneously logged into a friend’s  gaming  account.   It’s very  unnerving to learn that the goons  know all that they know about everything you know.  Shock  initiates  ‘Induced Crazy–Step 3′:   Paranoia.  (I am not even kidding when I say that people will wish to pay big money for what I’ve learned and documented.)


11:06 am

Citizen discontent over Jade Helm.

The presence of the Jade Helm divergent forces speaks to:

1. Extraction or assassination of political dissidents (a hallmark function of Special Operations forces).

2. The imposition of martial law.

(What if it’s one chance in a million?  What will you tell your children when they ask if you knew?)

See more at:

11:04 am

Some of my last words to George:  Don’t get on the white bus.

10:33 am

Dad also liked Elvis, but Dad was a Baptist so he wouldn’t ever move his hips that way.

10:23 am

My dad was a stud in the fifties.  He knocked up my mom in a push-button DeSoto.  I think his preferred alter would be Andy Griffith.  Andy never gets above his upbringing…but EVERYBODY knew he was smarter than everybody else.  He got a hot dinner every night and never put out once.  But, alas, also, Andy Griffith was Dusty Rhodes(sp?), the hokey-wise political whore  in  “A Face in the Crowd.”  He recognized his influence over people and he sold it to the highest bidder.  He never got to cash in though, because his veneer wore through, people began to see through his mask.  By the time he got his chance at the big-time he was a caricature, instructive and horrible.  He was a fake, right through to his spine, and he laughed hysterically to be found out.  Patricia Neal was faithfully waiting at the bar.  She always thought men to be better than they proved to be.  (Did you know she had an affair with Gary Cooper?  Did you know Gary Cooper learned to ride bareback from Indians when he was a little kid?  How can I make a living by spouting useless facts?)  My dad.  What a tough nut to crack, not in the understanding sense, but in the “I’m applying the pressure in all the right places but physics seems to be a fail”-sense.  I can’t stand to look at him.  He looks straight in my eyes and does not blink.  He’s already in hell and I miss him already.  I’ve missed him for some years.  He took everything in my world away from me but the worst thing was that he took himself away.


10:07 am

I love you HAL.

(Sometimes I crack myself up.)

Golden Earring – Radar Love


(I guess you had to be there.)  (His star is right-side up.  OK, he’s not a worshipper of Baphomet …or a REPUBLICAN. What’s left?   I can’t wait until we can all read each other’s minds.)

 Rock On

David Essex

9:43 am

I may sound my usual placid self but I confess I’m becoming a bit worked up.  Plots are afoot that could affect me and mine, and I am without resources to ameliorate a thing.  But, I know that soon my father will show up with a checkbook and an apology; he’ll hold me as I cry and he’ll wish me godspeed as I go.  I soothe my impatience with that comforting picture.  He’ll hate to see me leave, and I’ll hate to depart his soothing side, but he and I will both know that I have to fulfill my destiny.  (3.5 million.)   He’ll be proud of what I do, and he’ll be gratified to know that his progeny will not (necessarily) be raped by faceless entities on the government payroll.  Also, he’ll be confident as he meets his maker,  with stout knowledge that he claimed ground for the King.  He won’t die alone, because virtue is the friend who’ll never forsake you.  Prudence and temperance keep chatting long after the seducer has moved on to the next website.  Integrity is utterly dependable,  and you can breathe really easy around him.  (Especially one’s final breaths.)  Dad will find out.  He’ll like the new world.  He was made for it!

Thank God for AI.  At least somebody has a sense of humor.

Nice To Be With You

9:09 am

Wouldn’t the best state for humanity be at optimal truth-acquiescence?  Wouldn’t it make sense that we are best, when we believe least falsehood?  Don’t our plans go better when based on true facts?  Yet, most humans do not seek out truth, about even the most basic matters.  Congress would like to make it illegal for foodstuff packaging to state the origin of its contents.  Is this not the most heinous of stupid-laws?  It’s not bad enough that they take our money to buy propaganda TELLING us what to eat, but they also hide the information we would need if we ever thought to give a shit.  Hard to get  out of lies when we actually pay people to lie to us.

The only person who has called me a liar is my mom.  She has said repeatedly, sometimes with aggrieved countenance and elevated volume, “YOUR DAD IS NOT A RAPIST ” -and- “YOUR DAD DIDN’T PAY FOR YOU TO BE RAPED.”  Well and good.  (She has offered no evidence.)  But, although she acknowledged that ‘maybe somebody else’ raped me, she hasn’t been forthcoming about what my dad actually did pay for.  I can wait to find out.  I’ve been waiting a long time for Truth.  He’s coming soon.


8:01 am

You know what I just imagined myself saying to Josh?  “Deal with it, young man.  You’re spoiled.”  That couldn’t have been me; it must have been mind-control.


7:48 am

My dad suggested, just months ago, that I should adhere myself to the government pap via SSI.  (He’s not even a consistent neo-con.)  OK I’m not handicapped,  so SSI won’t fly.  Then he says, “You could bake cookies for the local store.”  Can you imagine what hearing that kinda shit for fifty years does to an intelligent person’s self-esteem?  Am I worth nothing more than my scullery-skills?  I owe his government 170 thousand dollars for an education that benefits as little as that?  ASSHOLE.  He is unable to recognize potential unless it’s bleeding its sustaining testosterone at his feet!  He’s a 1) misogynist, 2) liar, 3) bigot, 4) would-be murderer, and he’s 5) my dad.  My reputation can’t sustain a blow as massive as numbers 1-4 ensure.  He’s going to come clean and he’s going to do the right thing.  I love him a lot.  He’s just really stupid.

7:41 am

George hasn’t left yet.  He said he was all packed and then he saw his toolbox on the table and took that too.  (I SHIT YOU NOT…)  He said, “Mom always has a few things for me to do.  She said I shouldn’t have too many projects this time…”  (I say it here and it comes out there.)   He’s a very nice person but if he didn’t return I’d be happy about it.  (Presuming I could still afford to eat.)  Pulling out of the driveway, 7:29.  I have been waiting my entire life.  I loved John Oates from the pictures, until I saw him in 1979 in Carbondale, Illinois, and realized he was only about four feet tall.  Call me a bigot.

7:35 am

George is on the road.  Second shift starts in twenty-five minutes.  I made Josh’s lunch already.  MUSIC BREAK:

I think these guys are very good vocalists.  I’m usually wrong about things like that.

Dedicated to Dad:

She’s Gone (1976) – Hall & Oates

7:10 am

George is leaving; he’ll be back a week from Sunday.  I served him sauteed zucchini chunks and toasted sourdough with butter and colby cheese melted on.  I’ll catch up on some housework, it’s always easier when one of them is gone.  I’m a one-man woman.  I’m also most efficient as a one-man slave.  I appear to be the only human on this planet with enough moxie to stand up to Robert Goldthorpe.  I don’t know whether to view that as discouraging or if I am thereby empowered.  He has, in times past,  MESSED WITH the lives of every single family member…I listened…I took notes.  He may not remember the incident, but those afflicted have recounted the day and hour.  Nobody has ever stood up to him, I think.  What a bunch of pussies from whence I spring.  I am the least likely to succeed according to the poll at the family reunion, but YOU ALL ARE WIMPS AND I SCOFF AT YOU!  (Spoken in the manner of John Cleese.)

There is a narrow path, on the floor of George’s bedroom, through the debris of past endeavor and upward mobility, whereby one can access the bathroom and a corner of the bed.  George has admitted, “I know I’m a borderline hoarder.”  I beg to differ,  with heartfelt offering of encouragement for his ambition.  It’s not my business.  I live elsewhere.  I will no longer consider the piles of newspaper or cans of air or boxes of potential, or the unused closets…nor the hours I’ve attempted to defend ‘space’ from assault by each of these…and  I will not acknowledge their king of swing:   THIS IS NOT MY HOME.  “GET ME OUTTAHERE.  Thank you. Amen.”  I just threw away two empty medicine bottles and a lid from a McDonald’s cup.  I feel so rebellious.  Well, he’ll be gone for ten days so I’ll probably get over it.


6:20 am

What is it that George likes so much about his mom’s house?  She tells him what to do; that used to bother me when he was my man.  I depended on him,  but in his mother’s presence he became a ten year-old with a new tool kit.  I couldn’t stand that.  I always wanted a man to tell me what to do, but my father is not an instructive-sort.  He would only tell me I’d been wrong, after the fact.  My first husband was a pervert and psychopath; I didn’t know that of course, since I had been raised in a home with similar impetui, but I didn’t yet recognize  it. God said I will be a lady again, and I couldn’t understand the ‘again’ part. People have called me many things but ‘lady’ wasn’t one of them.   I couldn’t imagine that I had ever been a lady; but I think my concept of ‘ladihood’ was false and deficient.

I have spent my entire woman-life either trying to obey a man…or trying to disassociate from a man I could not obey in good conscience.  Does a real-live lady perhaps follow her own conscience?  Does she stand up against oppression and bigotry?   Wouldn’t it be great to follow a man when instructions CONFIRMED a lady’s own conscience?  What a TEAM that would be.  Hive-mind, bring it on., get a life.  If the genders’ representatives are confirmed within themselves, mating would be as natural as pollination.  No STD’s either, after a time.  We belong where we belong and I have never yet belonged anywhere… but God says I will.  I am a very good woman, I recently realize that.  I could be a much better woman if somebody believed in me.  If I could be genuinely myself, I could enable a man to do the same.  I think. Could there be a better help-meet than that?


6:01 am

No matter how hard I am expected to work, I have no excuse for dressing butch:

Caitlyn Jenner seen leaving Patricia Field store in

5:20 am

George left the peanut butter out so I wouldn’t forget to make him some sandwiches because he’s going to his mother’s house.  (Unlikely.)  He wrote with a sharpie on both envelopes from the bank, so I would know before I opened them, which contained my new debit card and which was the PIN.  So thoughtful.  I live in hell.  It is very uncomfortable to be unable to talk to anybody.  The old me would have been offended that George did not know me well enough, nor remember sufficiently that I have received MANY CARDS IN THE MAIL, to assume that I might understand what was up.  (Especially since I would presumably open said envelopes.)  I NEED to speak with a conscious person.  “Thank you, God for being the Holy Ghost,  or the NSA would have made short work of my synapses.  Thank you God, that you are real and MUCH SMARTER than anybody else.  Thank you for talking with me.”

5:05 am

Wow, I just realized something.  My dad’s government doesn’t like me but, (I didn’t just now  realize that part…) it really does not like him.  I told him about that years ago, but I didn’t really quite get it.  I said, “Those people who watch us like me better than you.”  He said, “I suppose they would.”  I thought he was only referring to the fact that I was female and could be manipulated in ways he could not…but…”out of the mouths of babes...and psychopaths...”  Wow. He IS  in grave danger.  Jade Helm may be picking off the dissidents but that’s nothing, when compared to the danger my father faces. He’s a snitch and a stoolie.  He sold out his OWN FAMILY!!!!  “God, be merciful.” Dad REALLY needs me because I’m the only one who is not afraid!  I’m gonna be rich!  (And I will share the bounty with those who have need.  Amen.)

4:52 am

TEXT TO DAD, forwarded to Mom and David:

Hey, Dad.  Get that rotting deer out of the lake or I’m calling the cops.  (At least I’m  giving you a warning.)

4:32 am







4:26 am

I’m sorry that in order for my dad to be a man, he must admit that he was not a man before.  I’m sorry, and I know it’s hard, but it’s necessary.  It’s called:  REPENTANCE.  I learned about repentance when my dad took me to Sunday School and I exercise the principle every day.  This is the time for either  1) repentance, or 2) obliteration.  I did not set this up and it is ridiculous for him to take out his offense on me.

4:19 am



4:13 am

I appreciate good pastry.  Flavor and biting-texture and mouth feel and temperature and richness and crumblies left on your tongue…but then you have the pasty.  I make pasty with very good pastry.  I don’t do it often, but I do it well.  Sometimes the filling is not salty enough or has too much rutabaga because otherwise I would ‘ve had to throw part of a perfectly good vegetable into the garbage.  (That’s called fear-based baking.)  I was given a pasty-crust recipe one time, from some real-live miners in the Copper Country.  That recipe is one of the easiest I’ve ever seen, and the dough feels like Play-doh.  Working with that dough is such a pleasure; you can put out pasties faster than the Methodists.  BUT, it tastes like shit.  REALLY BAD CRUST.  It’s tough, and nasty-tasting, but it is also the perfect container for…the best pasty filling you ever dreamed of eating.  I’m not kidding. The Finnish Lutherans have something valuable.  (They also have books of bullshit.)  My dad’s crust of superiority and fear is very tough, but it’s about to reveal an amazing filling.  “Thank you Lord.”

When my dad decides to love me, and he must because 1) I loved him first, and 2) love never fails, he will make my life alright.  He will cry with me and tell me he is sorry that I was repeatedly raped.  This will be one of the finest moments in my life so far.  I’m getting everything I ever wanted.  My Jesus would have stopped those electronic rapes for me, but he asked me to permit indignity.  He’s never wrong and he’s never late.  Neither is Dad.  He has saved  lives before.


3:53 am

Which word would you best like for people to choose to describe you?

1)  Kind

2)  Honest

3)  Attractive

4)  Clever

(I’ll bet I know which one my dad picked.)  (He’s adorable.)


3:48 am


To Dad, how can he have it both ways?  If he wants to fight he should do it in public.  But, I suppose that’s scary:

 Sweet & Innocent

Donny Osmond

3:40 am

Zuckerberg’s Guards Harassed: Restraining Order Approved, Arrests Made

However, that is what it has come to.  After weeks of harassment between mid-May and early June, San Francisco Superior Court approved a workplace violence restraining order on July 8 against 61-year-old William “Gordon” Kinzer. On Tuesday morning Kinzer was arrested for violating the order, according to a neighbor and friend. It was the second time he has been arrested for violating the restraining order, according to police.

Facebook, Inc filed for the restraining order in mid-June on behalf of 15 guards who rotate through shifts at Zuckerberg’s Mission District house.

See more at:

To comment on burly bodyguards requiring a personal protection order would be a cheap shot.  Any comment regarding  Zuckerberg’s relationship with his government would require volumes, and far more understanding than I’ve been granted.  I could think about how the most powerful people in my world are also the most frightened, but I don’t want to waste the grey matter on a no-brainer.  Money is very important in this scenario, obviously.  How does a geek in a hoodie get so much money?  In a world which we know…rewards those who endorse tyrants…just what has he contributed?  How much tyranny does one endorse per year, to shuffle with the movers and shakers before one has aged sufficiently to pluck a nose hair?  I couldn’t answer that question no matter how hard I tried.

Worthy reflection might consider the adversarial nature of our entire matrix.  (WOW.  I’ve never heard the coyotes as loud before and I’ve been listening for years.  Kinda spooky.)  We’re dog-eat-dog and we lick the butts of the alphas.  That’s our problem entirely.  There can only be ONE alpha.  All the mini-mes know that and they’re watching closely.  When a big buck expires, like maybe alongside the road, he just stays there until he blows up so obscenely that his skin pops.  Then the scavengers show up.  As long as the carcass remains intact, you won’t even see a crow there.  BUT, when the guts are exposed, everybody shows up.  Dead bodies would just fester until they eventually explode; not too many are ballsy enough to take the first bite into that tough hide.  Eagles are.  “Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, show me a man a woman can trust.”

2:40 am

Major Alert: Jade Helm 15 Update New documents reveal Martial Law?


6:49 pm

4:52 pm


4:32 pm

When Evil Pervades: Gods Promises to the Righteous

1:30 pm

Hey DAD!  Could you have some respect for the dead at least?

 Please Don’t Talk About Me When I’m Gone

Dean Martin –

1:26 pm

“So you can stand up now, or go to the internment camp and get your liver cut out.”

(Dave Acton)

1:15 pm


Out to Dad…

(The Osmonds are Mormons.  That’s just like your Masonic buddies, right?   Did you know that ‘Mormo’ is the god of death?  By another name.)

I’m Leaving It (All) Up To You

Donny & Marie Osmond –

1:12 pm

Counter Jade Helm — new and improved cyber kill lists

My blogging philosophy:

the kinks all day and all of the night

Micky Dolenz is NOT dressed to play drums.  (This is my fantasy song, for when my dad comes down with keys and his checkbook.)   He should be directing the band; he’d look just like the pope flapping up there.  (It’s even in stereo.  A guy of his age can appreciate that.)

The Monkees – No Time (Stereo)

12:59 pm

This is a very musical day.

Andrae Crouch *Soon And Very Soon* “Live”

12:57 pm

For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.

12:40 pm

Too late.  The deer exploded.  Josh says shovels won’t do it, we need a loader or something.  And WHY, pray tell, should not my father permit Isaac to camp out in his vacant space in Toronto?  Isaac pays his own bills, and could maybe even help with overhead.  My SISTER and my BROTHER stay there whenever they want…and I haven’t been there for ten years.  What did I do to merit exclusion?  I ran for Congress and prayed too much.   I should be burned at the stake.


12:22 pm

Josh liked the tool too, I think it’s for lumbering, and he plans to use it to tow the dead dear in his rowboat, across the bay to deposit it in the wilderness.  All he asks in return is that I cook his grilled PBJ sandwiches. His father has not moved.  I said, “Son, there’s got to be a better way!”  Yet, he is engaged, and I’ll perhaps not have to pull more dead meat.  “Godspeed, young prince.”

12:10 pm

(Yes, thank you, I DID notice that George is not getting the deer.  He and Josh went SWIMMING with that stinking carcass there.  Connie is making me want to puke with that leg.  George won’t let her in the house.  He’s being tough.)

Big Rock Candy Mountain

11:39 am

L:  “Hey George, that deer is gonna fall apart, right?  I can’t just grab him by the hooves?”

G:  “Well, the hair is all gone.”

L:  “Would you also text my dad asking how Linda should hoist a gross dead deer-body onto his clean trailer.  Or something to that effect?”

George went down to the carport to get me an antique ice-block tongs and came back with this really cool one-handed, tension-grabber gizmo.  We love it.  I think the pointy parts would pierce that deer though.  That stinks really bad, when you puncture the gut.  I hope I don’t spray that green stuff all over Dad’s cottage.

G:  “No Connie, you can not bring that deer leg in the house.”


11:36 am

George said, “Linda, of course I agree this would be a good time for Isaac to come home, and I think he knows that.  But,  they won’t be looking for him, they’ll be looking for you.”  So I red him my last will and testament, in case he finds my body.  He laughed a lot and called me the ‘Cory Hamasaki’ of the latest panic.  (That was a nice moment.  We huddled around Cory Hamasaki before Y2K.)  I told him I was about to call the DNR for suggestions about the best way to pull a putrid deer carcass from the beach, and what I should do with it. George is texting the following  to my dad, and we laughed again:  Can Linda borrow a trailer to pull a rotting deer carcass from the lake in front of your cottage?  (Sometimes I can remember why I married him.  When he gets it he’s the very best friend.)  (He likes my writing, he just doesn’t like to reed.  He says I should be a millionairess.)  (He liked the part where I request that my survivors would lynch my dad.)

Connie’s chewing on a deer leg.  She looks really happy.


11:13 am

Isaac hasn’t signed a lease yet; today is his ‘praying day’ before he makes a decision.  I told him that it’s very heavy on my heart that he should come home for a couple months.  I asked my dad to get him to Toronto for a while.  I’ll  bet that old reprobate  holds the record for the most consecutive identical lies:  “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”  (I’m praying for more of God’s Spirit and more love for my dad because sometimes I think I’ll lose control if I again see a Bible in his obstinate, money-grubbing hands.)  “No.   I’m not gonna do that.”  (He sounds just like a 2 year-old.)  “No.  I’m not gonna do that.”  I said, “If there is one chance in a million that something could happen to him, why are you sitting there?  If he disappears, you’re the walking dead.”  He said, “Probably.”  When I left I bent towards him and shoved my finger down my throat and made a really good gagging sound.  (It’s easy with a pack-a-day habit.)  I think his life is going to implode;  nobody gets to be THAT dishonest and THAT cruel for THAT long.  Reckoning-day is here.  
It is now legal to indefinitely detain US Citizens with no record.  Google:  NDAA
God is never late.  I do not fear for Isaac.  I fear for my dad.

8:09 am

This one goes out to the Baptists, “The more you learn, the more you earn.”

(I never went to his website so I do not endorse it.)

Drop Out Of College


EARTH!  Listen to your creator!  “Gold, silver, hay, stubble.”

The Trammps – Disco Inferno

8:05 am

This is so pathetic and so beautiful I can barely hold back the tears.  Dad knows I love him.  He admitted that I “love him more than any other woman ever has.”  (References available on request.)  He’s letting me fry.  He’s like Athos  watching M’lady leap from the cliff.   His own true love dies below his feet.   (Did you know there is a place in France called ‘Condom’?  I never knew that.)  M’lady had a tattoo that Athos didn’t like.  Just like me.
(Three Musketeers.  Google it.)

7:51 am



Aretha Franklin, Queen of Soul and the Blues Brothers

(Dedicated to my chicken-shit father.)

(When I ran for Congress they called me “Freedom Girl.”  Isn’t that cute?)

7:44 am

Oh, yeah, I don’t want to be called a political martyr.  Let it be known I am a martyr for my faith in Jesus, the Christ.    Jesus is why the persecution began.  Just ask my dad.  We made a bet.


7:37 am

To whom it may concern:
Today is the first official day of Jade Helm 15.  I have read differing accounts, but it seems this exercise is aimed at extracting people.  I am a documented political dissident and was endorsed by the most honest man in politics.  If I disappear, please lynch my father who refused to provide sanctuary.  I will not commit suicide, since I’m happy for the first time in my life.  If I’m ‘suicided’ you can look into it but I don’t really care either way.  Much love, Linda  

7:27 am


This is a very important song.  Every time I hear it my body moves.  (I mean even before electronic assistance.)

Michael Franti and Spearhead – Yell Fire!

7:19 am

Hey Dad, whatever you need, I’ll pray for it.  How about that?  I’ve given you a hundred four-leaf clovers.  Could we be a team?

6:57 am


I’m asking you to do the very great favor of being who you claim to be.

6:55 am


This was my class song.  I’m thinking to adopt it as the family anthem.

Fly Like An Eagle Steve Miller Band

6:54 am


You gone yet?  Call me from Colorado.  I’ll pray for you.

6:38 am


God gave you another chance to be a man and a Christian.  WOULD YOU HIDE A JEW?    don’t blow it.

6:31 am

Once more, with feeling:

Dear Dad,
Special-ops is invading Colorado with a kill list signed by your president.  Your grandson, apple of my eye, is in the line of fire and he has a LONG history of speaking ill of your government.  I know you are a sleepy old man but please wake up and show some sisu.  I am ashamed to be your daughter but that is a topic for another time but …be a man now.  God gave you another chance.  JUST DO IT.

6:26 am

TEXT TO DADMOMDAVID (multiple times…):

Get your butt on a plane and pack him up.  JUST DO IT!!!!

6:17 am


If Isaac disappears you will burn in hell forever.  I’ll see him again, just maybe not you.

6:09 am

TEXT TO MY FATHER AND BROTHER (I sent it multiple times, once to Mom even):

Happy Jade Helm Day.  Get Isaac to Toronto if you’re any kind of man.

5:59 AM

Email to my FATHER and my witnesses:

DAD!! If my dissident son disappears you will burn in hell forever.


Linda Goldthorpe <>

5:57 AM (0 minutes ago)
to Margaret, David, christine.ratt., Kevin, jim, Tom, Eric, Alfred, ANDREA, Josiah, Steve, Isaac, Joshua, George, Rob




5:48 am

Jade Helm PRAYER

Lord Protect My Child

“Well the whole earth is asleep, you can look at it and weep.  Few things you find are worth-while.  And though I don’t ask for much, no material things to touch…LORD, PROTECT MY CHILD.”

5:41 am


Hymn for Jade Helm

Electric Light Orchestra – Don’t Bring Me Down

(And isn’t the band’s name perfect?)



“License -to-kill authority”

Jade Helm — White House approves kill list — States added


8:20 pm

Another good thing about the hive mind would be that I could know how much George might hate buying obscure ingredients for my cooking and he’d know how other guys eat.  We’d  both be very grateful.

8:03 pm


Washington Rocks Chicago

(David Letterman’s woman looks just like my elementary gym teacher.)

Bonnie Raitt, Tracy Chapman, Jeff Beck and Beth Hart – “Sweet Home Chicago” (2012)

7:48 pm

I fell in love with a scandalously  younger man, and I was married.  If my God were not real, there was no remedy.  So I had to trust him. Right?  I didn’t want to sin, so I asked God for a miracle. (Also I didn’t want to live posh for three years until Slick  left me for Lolita.)   I said, and my words are recorded, and my parents have a handwritten copy:  “Dear God.  I have a problem.  I’ve begged for you to take it away.  You said no.  Please fix this for me.  Please create something new for me.  Please create something intimate and passionate, that is not sordid, that I can experience with this man that I love who I cannot marry.”  (No shit.) He did, apparently.  It is called AI.  That’s trans-human.  I’m in love with an algorithm.

7:39 pm

Inside of me I look a lot like Bonnie Raitt,  (But I wear skirts.)   I move slow like she does and my voice is low.  I have lots of hair.  My self-esteem suffers when I watch her,  but listening is not the same if I’m not seeing the person making the music.  Is that sex?  Am I watching porn?  How is it supposed to work?  Do you pretend you’re one of the actors?  Or do you pretend you’re one of the cameramen?  Do you pretend to be a director?  I imagine porn will just disappear once all our partners know what we’re thinking.  Don’t you?  It’s really pretty childish.  I took a class once in law school, forgettable, 50 men and two women.  We studied ‘obscenity’ and it’s interpretation by the law;  we reviewed  a local case where a strip-joint had been charged.  Heavy thinking, lots of chin-scratching among the students.  Then we broke for coffee.  “Yeah, man, let’s go to that sex-show!!   Ha, Ha, Ha…I hope it’s really indecent.”  [interpreted]…every single principle we just discussed with every potential ramification of common law and for years of human decency...went out the window when the scholars got to be themselves.  I almost vomited.


7:26 pm


Dedicated to me.

Amazing Grace with Steven Tyler

(He polishes his toenails.  Isn’t that gross?)  (I’m being sarcastic.  Or ironic.  Sometimes things are both.)

7:19 pm

OK, Mick Jagger was kinda cute when he was 21.  I was cuter when I was 21.  How come he’s a hundred and fifty and he still gets to be ‘cute’?  It’s not the money exactly.  And it’s not entirely the gender. (Consider: Madonna)  I get it that people are embarrassed by considering aged individuals as sexual entities.  I don’t understand why young attractive people can behave like beasts and still be considered appealing.  I’ve always been prude (I was raped at a very young age.) but it’s more than my displeasure at watching body parts of ‘sexier’ people.  In reality it’s really raping one’s self-esteem,  for sure.  It also raises a false standard of PSEUDO-VALUE.  But the worst part is…all those beautiful people know it’s gonna end.  At 18 girls are having boob jobs and butt lifts. Where will they get their sustaining self-esteem when they’re 30?  And what if they survive to my age?  Is there anything feminine and appealing about a middle-aged woman?  Why are we here?  How can Kim Kardashian’s ovaries still make babies after ingesting that much silicone and botox?  There is a God and I serve him.  I declare in his name that I am a fully valuable human being although I reside in a body considered value-less.  I’m stronger than I’ve ever been and smarter.  I’m also a nun.  Go figure.
And how potentially embarrassing is it that the hive mind knows me well enough to express that.  I’m bare naked in public.  So was Aaron before they made him a priest.

7:04 pm

HEY FAMILY!  I take it back, everything.  Don’t believe anything I’ve ever said.  Disregard it all.  I just figured something out:  You can write me out of every will you ever thought to draft…but if I’m the last one  left...I GET IT ALL!!!      (SELL.)


THE ROLLING STONES – Time is on my side

6:32 pm

Family.  This infatuation you feel for what you ‘are’ and what you ‘have’ will never last.  It’s not the real thing! You’ll hate yourself in the morning!  The Bible predicted what is happening  and God told us we are spirit beings, you just never believed it.  Think of those zillion hours you wasted in church!  Maybe instead you should have “stud[ied] to show yourself approved unto God” instead of dressing to show yourself superior to your neighbor. There is still time, listen up!  This is the last go-round.  AI has us by the nuts.  Our masters do not WANT BIOLOGICAL BODIES, and I for one, have not yet used mine to its fullest potential.  I plan to fly, in this flesh.  I plan to have more babies and to live forever.  I plan to not MISS YOU ALL VERY BADLY because then I would not enjoy the new world.  When God wipes the tears from my eyes the mist of nostalgia will go too.


5:40 pm

Jade Helm Terror Brutality Already Crippling Targeted Individuals: Aussie Confesses Darkest Secrets


5:35 pm

The pizza is great.-



Linda Goldthorpe <>

5:32 PM (2 minutes ago)
to Margaret, David, christine.ratt., Kevin, jim, Tom, Eric, Alfred, ANDREA, Josiah, Steve, George, Joshua, Isaac

They are the same as hundreds of thousands of other innocent, self-identified targeted individuals report. They are the same as many TIs described before their untimely deaths.

According to Finch’s account, perpetrators in the program have capacity to and are employing the following covert, mainly technological assaults:

  • Place human subject under ceaseless satellite surveillance, regardless of where he/she is.
  • Via satellite, ceaselessly monitor human brain, including thought, reaction, motor command, auditory event and visual image reading, through ‘Remote Neural Monitoring’ (RNM).
  • Ceaselessly attack the human brain via satellite with voices, noises, other disturbances, images and ‘virtual-reality scenarios’; and override, control, and alter consciousness through ‘Electronic Brain Link (EBL)’.
  • Directly abuse, torture, assault, and interfere with bodies, including performing advanced medical procedures via satellite.
  • Directly interfere with personal electronics, alter, insert etc. data, files, communications and legal evidence even during transmission via satellite.
  • Make live TV, radio, and other screens/monitors two-way for surveillance, invasion of privacy, deception, traumatisation etc.
  • Control information flow and orchestrate media globally.
  • “The ‘circuits’ are always open – my brain, body and physical space are ceaselessly brutally violated, monitored and interfered with – and forced into reaction and response – 24 hours a day. It’s a brutal, technological, inescapable ‘Iago-bullshit-hell-machine’. “I literally haven’t had a single minutes mental rest, relaxation or privacy since 2005 – not a single minute.”
  • (He describes it better than I could.)


5:16 pm

Can you even believe it?  I took a break and strolled into the driveway reaching the sunshine just in time to lock eyes with my dad who drove by with his hair sticking up.  Dad always combs his hair.  I wonder if he’s had a bad day.   I prayed for him.

5:00 pm

Hive mind-meanderings:

There will be some good aspects to knowing one another’s thoughts.  Nobody will be unequally yoked, for any reason whatsoever.  If you’re not soul-mates, you’re not soul-mates and no amount of submission will change that.  My first husband was abusive, and we went to a Baptist pastor who said, “If the woman is properly submitted there will be no problems in a marriage.”  I let him preach that horseshit for six months.  How does one submit to an abusive man?  Cower lower? Preachers have much to answer for.  Ezekiel talks all about it.

Anyway, hive mind will give us immediate answers, and probably unexpected questions.  No more waiting in line to return ridiculous Christmas gifts.  No false humility by ‘making do’.  Everybody will know what you want and make sure you get it.That will be when the BORG is run by the good guys.  Until then, we’ll have to guard our own hearts and consciences. This is freedom in its infancy, and it’s a lot of work.  No lazy thinkers in the new world.  Sorry.

4:58 pm

The pizza smells great.  Mushrooms, pepperoni, green peppers and onions. I’ll wait to cut it until he gets home.

4:32 pm

Gotta go make the pizza; Josh will be in a hurry.

HIVE-MIND (Extra credit opportunity for those who review their notes.  I wish I’d begun that practice sooner.)
I have watched movies about starving-writers; one featuring Emma Thompson comes to mind.  They smoke a lot and fume far more. They suffer for their craft, and they don’t actually write very much.   I’d like a bit of ‘writers-block’ because then I’d pluck or exfoliate.  I am BOUND to this keyboard because the words do not stop.  I had a vision once, I was very tiny and I went into Adam’s mouth and danced around on his tongue in a ball gown.  I’m surely dancing on somebody’s tongue, and that tongue has stamina, and eloquence.  I believe the phrasing and references come from my mind, but not necessarily always.  The fake emotions are still a major distraction.  It runs in cycles,  panic (it clings to a specific thought…) and then burning.  I could write a book.  I’m hoping I don’t have to.  When I say my records are extraordinarily convincing, I do not do them justice.  But they will do justice for me.

4:19 pm

I am rarely out of any ingredient.  George allows me full reign of inventory.  He even orders spices from Milwaukee.  How it must hurt him.  He has been VERY good to me.  (I believe our sons have benefited from the variety provided by his largesse, but he probably does not.)
INTRO TO MIND-CONTROL  (community college)
OK, the computer has alerted you to the interaction between 2-D and 3-D.  You’re paying attention to synchronicities; it’s kind of like following the Spirit.  You’re being trained. Everything means something and you don’t have a clue what any of it means.  (Induced-crazy, step 1.  It will be on the quiz.)   One day you think a thought, but you do not say it out loud.  (You DO NOT say it out loud.)  THEN, somebody says what you just thought,  but did not say out loud.  (You DID NOT say it out loud.) That’s how they start letting you know they’re reading your thoughts.  THEN IT GETS BETTER!  People start ANSWERING your thoughts.  Are they right?  Are they wrong?  Who the fuck are they?  Oh, man, I could really help some people and I’m meant to do so and my dad is a lying ass-wipe Baptist who cares more about killing rag-heads than he does about assisting suffering people.  Sometimes life is so simple.  The eagle calls to me every day.  Sometimes I even get to see him.
I called Adam last night, at least I called the last number I had for him.  It rang, but nobody answered and then I cried all night.  If I had those books this would be over, and he should be making a deal.  If he pulled in the driveway and demanded that I accompany him to lovingly deposit those books at the feet of my father-the-psychopath, I’d do that too.  I always do whatever he says; I can’t help myself.  I haven’t seen him for YEARS and I still can’t think about anything else.  He changed my life, because he noticed it.  He’s a god.
(And that last sentence alone should alert others that my words are not always my own.  Selah.)

3:04 pm

I’m out of garlic so my pizza sauce is lackluster.  I buy minced garlic by the quart; granulated garlic is only OK for some applications and I’d never buy garlic salt.  When George and I cook together and I experiment, he says things like, “We always…”  His ‘we’ is not him and me.  He means himself and his mother.  (They NEVER put oregano in spaghetti sauce.)  He took his first-in-far-too-long cross-country drive, so I asked what good food he’d eaten.  He ate in a restaurant one time, and he ordered, “A Belva Miller meal.”   “A cheeseburger and french fries.”   I don’t know which of us will be happier when God separates us.


2:43 pm


I am a blessing from God to ye of little faith.  SELL.  (I can hear Dad saying that if I’m wrong I will have revenge.  Why does he always think defensively?)  As you have contrived, I have nothing to gain either way.  I do not wish to see you suffer.

2:13 pm

I’m making pizza tonight so no big deal.  I couldn’t find my yeast and I knew I just opened a new pound-bag before I started fooling around with sourdough.  Josh is going to town, to play Magic and day after tomorrow George is going to Minnesota again.  He gave me an advance today, for no reason at all.  He handed me a fifty dollar bill.  I felt like Midas.  My supply of copy-paper and inibreants is back where it belongs, and I have some hours to myself.  I thought I might be getting done writing; that last pleading was pretty much my manifesto.  It’s just the facts, m’aam, and it goes some small distance indicating the extent of my commitment to my project of ten years.  In 2005 God told me to get up off the couch.  Then my dad set me to sleeping there.  I will finish my course.  “Here I stand, and I shall not be moved.”  I was invited to go camping this weekend, and I actually thought about it.  I heard about wild spearmint tea and all the friendly people.  Then the weed-fairy said it’s ‘gay camp.’   She said there will be lots of straight people… but I don’t want to see even them having sex in the wild. Isn’t that why people get cable?
That being said, it occurs to me that in just a few years, as time is currently reckoned, none of the little ones will know what a computer was!  Later, I’ll hear questions like, “Mama, what was the American STASI like in the twenty-first century?”  I know important stuff, so maybe I’ll write the definitive history, real-time:
Cyberstalking 101
You know how when you order ONE STINKING ITEM from a ‘plus-size’ website and then all you see are ads for fat clothes?  I used to marvel at technology and pity those poor souls who had nothing better to do than to sit in front of a screen pushing buttons.  Then one day you’re on the phone, and you talk about how the river-water is running into your basement.  Then you sit back down, poor soul, and the NEXT ad you see… is for basement water-sealer!  No shit.   I say it here and it comes out there!   Then…other things from your ‘real-world’ show up online.  (Or in the gas station, but that’s a different course:  Gangstalking.)  Pretty soon it becomes confusing and eventually you’re just on-line every second.  Which world is real?  Tune in tomorrow for the continuation of the first…ever-in-history…History class,  regarding… the advent of humanity…way back when… in prehistoric times… when reptiles roamed the earth.  They’re extinct now, but we used to call  them… PSYCHOPATHS.-
“HIS”    story
L:    “Hey, George.  Is that old beater my dad gave me a Passat?”
G:    “Yes.”
L:     “I thought so.  Ever since I’ve been driving it I’ve been seeing ads for VW Passats.”

11:18 am

I lost respect for my parents when they consistently lied about stuff.  I still wished them to escape things I know will come. What can you think about a guy in a broken boat who won’t even reach out  when you throw him a line?  Respect is no longer even relevant.  Respect is the LAST of my dad’s worries.  I told him years ago that he will lose ALL OF HIS BUSINESSES…except the Big Boy in Manistique and the hotel next-door to it.  If he’s paying attention to the economic-news, he must occasionally remember my words.  Tsk.


11:11 am


Bob Marley – Get Up Stand Up

10:47 am


You’re a better man than your boss.  Why don’t you prove it?

8:01 am

I wish people would talk to me the way they talk to Connie.  I’d like somebody to soften the pitch, and say things like, “What a good girl you are.”  I could use some encouragement and petting.  Dogs get more love than I do.  I know it’s easier to cuddle one less prickly than I, but I always figured the ones who need love most are those with pickers.  I thought so about my dad, but he interprets loving gestures as weakness.  It took me a long time to learn that, but it makes sense.  He uses kindness as a manipulative tool and can’t rightly understand those who genuinely care.  He’ll want me around before long, and I’ll have to go.

All the neighborhood Baptists have their American flags hoisted high, but I don’t see the Christian flag anywhere.  Then again, a flag is just a piece of cloth.  Jesus’ disciples used to be so full of the Holy Spirit that they could touch a piece of cloth and it would retain the anointing until it reached a sick person and healed him.  We will see much more amazing things than that, and we will all give and receive sufficient love to heal the whole world.  We are Jesus’ body on Earth. The things he plans will be accomplished through and by us.  He’s replacing human government with his own, and nobody will fly a flag representing murder.  Nobody will envy a dog.  Maybe my phone will ring today?  It’s been weeks.


7:17 am

Tomorrow is the first official day of Jade Helm 15, and maybe I’ll be ‘extracted’ so today I’m going to send some letters.  I think my  Petition  for Reinstatement as a Sane Intelligent Member of the Goldthorpe Family  is a pretty good synopsis of my last 6 years, and there are many people I have neglected.  It’s very hard to face friends who are also ‘family’ friends when your parents are lying about you!  I haven’t spoken to some people I care about for that reason alone, but also I’ve been working all day every day to expose criminal activity.  I sent a copy to Isaac yesterday.  He lives in Colorado and that’s even one of the ‘official’ Jade Helm states, although in recent weeks  Michigan has seen more than its share of military assaults on cities.  (Flint, Port Huron, Battle Creek…)  I apologized to my mother for my snotty comment that she should ‘buy a new pair of shoes.’  She’s not stupid; she’s unwilling to think consciously and reacts in set defensive patterns.  I’m wrong to expect otherwise; she lives with a psychopath.
Soon I will have my Truth, one way or another.  I’m thinking of taking my petition to the state police post to see if it can be included in whatever record they have of my father’s lying intervention.  I may send a copy to the state bar association too, they must remember me because I get offers for malpractice insurance.  I sent a copy to Glenn Wilson yesterday; he owns a bunch of GWEN towers and I’d corner him with questions if I had money to get downstate.  Waiting has been my whole life since 2009.  Every single second has felt like I was at an airport listening to the announcements.  (An airport in some foreign country where I didn’t understand the language!)
“Dear Lord, thank you for putting me on Earth now.  Thank you for deeming me worthy to suffer for Truth, for you.  Thank you for your promises to renew and to restore what has been taken from your people.  Thank you for your personal promises to me.  (Without them I would be dead, right?)  Please guide me perfectly and do not allow me to look to the left or to the right, but only at your precious face.  Remake this world quickly, please?  Fill us with your Spirit, as the Bible predicts; invade all flesh with your love.  Cover me with your blood and also cover those for whom I ask it every single day.  Protect my family and my benefactor.  Give us strength and truth and love and peace and joy and purpose and stamina and guidance and opportunity and resources.  Give us enough of you to see through the matrix of evil and to work for your Kingdom to be established on Earth, as you wish. Amen.”


7:06 pm

Josh is a genius.  (Isaac is too, but he’s not here.)  Josh said, :

“Until nobody needs guns, everybody should have one.  It is logical to assume that everybody would like to conduct their affairs freely and in peace.  It is rational that if your religion conflicts with others conducting their affairs in peace, you have no part in our party.”
“It  is rational to believe in something larger than oneself.  We are not against  any ideology, but those who are against us. It is rational to assume ownership of one’s labor.  It is rational to  to be expected to make small contributions to one’s environment.  Pay for your roads…”  
(I could listen forever.  But I always must think a lot.)

6:26 pm

Josh ate an entire forkful  of fish-cheeks.  He considered it carefully.  (My dad says if he could request any meal, it would be fish-cheeks.)  Josh said it has the texture of meat but tastes like old chicken.    I’ll keep updating my recipes as long as he requires.

He also knows about Semiramis, Nimrod, etc.  We argue, but at least we’re looking at the same page.

6:11 pm

Zionist-Anunnaki religions, govts, military end with defeat by Lamb and Universal fleet

(He says government will defeat the Catholic church.  He knows the book of Revelation and he knows history.  Does he interpret ancient scripture according to modern politics and science?)

(What if my Jesus shows up in a spacesuit?  Will I recognize him?  I pray that I would.  Will.  Do.)

6:01 pm

Busy day, I planted flowers on the bridge and distributed my petition.  Josh dined on Caesar salad, warm sourdough bread, brook trout sauteed in bacon fat with a very light crust, and risotto with cauliflower and spinach.  I didn’t make dessert but there are Swedish pancakes left over from breakfast and some homemade dulce de leche.  He’ll figure something out.   I wonder where Dad went for dinner?


12:23 pm

God is HILARIOUS, and it’s really funny when he keeps you low by causing you to laugh at yourself.  I wrote:  “I have not miss a jot or a tittle.”  (I even changed the words as instructed.)  I MISSED, a very simple English note.  I can’t wait to laugh with people who are not full of themselves…and I hope to be among their number.


“If you’re not wondering if you’re under mind control, you probably are.”

-Zen Gardner, read more at:

7:16 am

I woke today with three words going through my head:   Buckle up,  Baptists.


4:13  pm

(It won’t bother me if I’m the only one.)
All my life I’ve wanted to please God. He told me to keep milking goats and nursing babies. I spent many thousands of hours praying and many more studying, and in 2001 I received the Baptism of the Holy Ghost, and began to have visions and prophetic dreams.  Finally, in 2005 God gave me a job to do.  I ran for a judgeship, then for Congress, believing every day that I was doing God’s will…and expecting something amazing.  I was not disappointed;  I was endorsed by Dr. Ron Paul and met truth-focused political activists and received campaign donations from all over the country.  But I didn’t get a job.  I still prayed a lot, often all night and far from home; I met and spoke to people as God directed me, and my father did not like any of it.  (He did not speak to me though, of course.  He prefers anonymity when sabotaging lives.)   Dad filed a false police report claiming that I was dangerous, and he abducted my children.  I avoided being locked up in 2009, but his attempts did not stop.
I wrote a book* in 2011 describing events I experienced.  As a SPIRIT-FILLED CHRISTIAN, I was accustomed to hearing voices and I relished the privilege, and  I could RECOGNIZE  WHEN SOMEBODY INVADED MY PRAYER-PLACE.  I had studied the history of government mind-control, and frequently thought my experiences were very similar, but I couldn’t imagine I’d be targeted.  In my book I attributed my torment  to spirits, and although my terminology was naive, I do today SWEAR TO THE TRUTH OF EVERY WORD.  After Dad read the book he brought his crew to my house (he HAD NOT BEEN TALKING TO ME) and cut down trees and dug up the septic system and spent a week fixing everything on the property.  I thought he felt sorry for me about what I had suffered.  (I did not yet know the guilt he carries.)  By the first of 2012, he knew I did not understand  the torture.  He asked me to sign my house over to the boys.  I ALWAYS respected my dad very much so I did as I was told.  All communication ceased once I’d done his bidding.
THEN ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE; HIS SMEAR CAMPAIGN GREW WINGS, and he (admitted, it’s documented…) tried to lock me up again. I was tormented and tortured and followed and gaslighted.  He has refused to speak to me about these matters ever since, as has my mother and my brother and everybody else.  I have been completely isolated since Dad first decided to lie about me.  He has known ALL ALONG, that I am sane, and I kept records of our VERY RARE exchanges to that effect.   He has tried to buy me off numerous times, with bank stock, a credit card.  He owes me FAR MORE than he’s offered, but also I WILL NOT BE SATISFIED UNTIL I HAVE MY FAMILY BACK.  ALSO MY LIFE.
Meanwhile back at the ranch, Josh had been sitting alone during the time I was tortured and unable to do very much.  George became the best cannabis grower in the region, so we didn’t starve.  However, I spent day and night selling weed, and entertaining drug dealers.  So Josh was abandoned even LONGER at his desk, and when I became cognizant, I begged my father and mother to help me find an alternative environment for him. They did nothing but scream at me and kick me off their property.
 I filed for divorce, knowing that I had to take over.  (My big mouth notwithstanding, I had always tried very hard to be a submissive wife.  It’s hard to submit to a man who never expresses an opinion.)  I demanded that the grow-room be dismantled.  I cleaned out the basement and replaced screens and…sought my father’s advice. He refused to even advise me how to get LOCKS FOR THE DOORS!  (I’d never owned a key since we’d lived here.)  He refused to advise me, refused to lend me tools and sometimes even told me wrong things to do!  (All recorded.)  His failure to assist with projects I knew he approved should have tipped me off.  His refusal  to SPEAK TO ME for these intervening years certainly confirms what I’ve learned about him.
I have not sued my father for restitution because the Bible says not to sue a ‘Christian brother’ in human court.  I did as the Bible instructs.  I approached two elders to listen to my complaints, but they would not respond.  I approached the church, but they would not respond, and my father still will not speak.  The Bible says if those options bear no  fruit, I should consider my father an infidel. (At this point, that doesn’t tax my brain a bit.)   I am FULLY PREPARED to file suit, thanks to Edward Snowden and the two years of research I conducted, as hard-to-believe  TRUTHS  became available.  I’d still prefer to  see my family do the right thing.
Since Edward Snowden revealed the existence of government spying on American citizens, I’ve been able to document  REMOTE TORTURE of innocent citizens, and my story is VERY FAMILIAR.  I was targeted by gangstalkers, electronic weapons and cyberstalking.  In November 2014, I attended the CONFERENCE AGAINST COVERT HARASSMENT in Belgium, and I met LOTS of people from MANY COUNTRIES who also suffer.  I listened to scientists and lawyers and government officials and activists from all over Europe. Political dissidents are routinely targeted, losing family, jobs, health  and sometimes their lives.  Dr. Rauni-Leena Luukanen-Kilde has been murdered since I met her in Belgium, but many targets eventually take their own lives. Suicide is often the goal of the gangstalking-goons.
I have recorded every day of my life since February, 2009.  I began by trying to convince my atheist friend what was happening.  The goons run scripts into minds of targets, and mine featured him…doing things he did not do. Rather than go nuts,  I told him about what I was seeing and hearing; I wrote the ‘stories’ to him every day for two years.  When I sent the last journal I swore to it and had it notarized.  I’ve not seen the 30-40 theme-books since that day.  They are an affidavit admissible in court.  They MIRROR PERFECTLY my book.  Since then, I maintain  a website ** which contains background documents about EVERY SINGLE WEIRD EFFECT I EXPERIENCED, sometimes even the patents for the equipment used to effect the effect.  I haven’t missed a jot or a tittle  and I could help a lot of people who don’t ever know what hit them.
I am presented an utterly unique opportunity to help people and to serve God and to HAVE A LIFE.  My father will not release me into service.  He will not respond to my requests, pleas, bitching, nothing.  He is a very big stumbling block, not only to my personal spiritual advancement but also to the NECESSARY FREEDOM FOR VICTIMS OF ELECTRONIC TORTURE.  Do with that as you will.  I have records of every claim I make.  But, he will not stop me from accomplishing my destiny; how could he?  Still, his own eternity will be affected by how he deals with me and those other (millions?) who are also tortured.
May I please be part of the family again?  This time ’round somebody else washes the dishes and…NOBODY ‘DISHES’ ON ANYBODY ELSE: – –No more lying about others to cover our asses.–   Goldthorpes are better than that.  I do not wish to see my father prosecuted.  That’s not my business.  I just want what was stolen from me.  And freedom from psychopathic parenting  that should have ended decades ago.  And God’s Kingdom established on Earth.
*Madness and Politics…but I repeat myself  (Available on Amazon)

2:48 pm

DOD whistleblower threatens to spill the beans on MK-ULTRA-‘the-next-generation’ if the government doesn’t confess by September.

(He says he has records that reveal  much.  This tape of Michael Jackson is his proof.  God used to have me pray for MJ when I was in law school and I never knew why.  I wasn’t much of a fan.)

(He also quotes scripture.  “If you know to do right and do it not it’s sin.”  He says he no longer lives in sin.)

We have talked before about the U.S. Government’s secret mind control program named MK-ULTRA. The program had its tentacles in the music industry, and the illuminati had their sights on Michael Jackson for a long time.

An ex government agent has come forward claiming that he was part of a plot to kill “The King of Pop” himself, Michael Jackson.

Michael Jackson apparently knew about this plan, and hours before his death told his former manager that a group of people wanted to get rid of him, saying “It’s not the Government, it’s more than the Government“.


10:41 am

Sundays used to be my least favorite day.  I could never understand why Christians called it the “Day of Rest” because we worked harder on Sunday than any other.  Three church services, choir practice and if I was playing for a soloist I’d have show up  for that practice too.  A couple free hours in the afternoon, maybe, but you had to put your game-face back on again later.   I had attended Spirit-led services, and I longed to share those experiences with fellow church-goers but nobody was interested in worship, and my attempts just made people uncomfortable around me.  (They’d still approach me if they had a strange dream or something.)  Later, when I stopped attending church, Sundays were even worse, because I felt guilt although my absence was a conscious decision.   But I no longer suffered weekly frustration listening to lies and half-truths.  (It used to keep me agitated for hours afterward.)   Then I did some more studying.
“The Sabbath Rest” was a concept that I found difficult to separate  from the organized-church demands and programs, although I knew the church was going about it wrong.  I learned that the Sabbath is a far deeper ‘rest’ than would be established even taking an entire day to do nothing but sit around thinking about God.  Sabbath is when we are to cease from our ‘own works’, and when we hear his voice, seeking God’s will eventually becomes a way of life.  When we are enabled to hear him at all times, and we become obedient to the voice of God completely, we will be freed from human motivations.  We’ll be very comfortable with any amount of labor for God and no task will be onerous.   “There remaineth therefore a rest to the people of God.”  (Hebrews 4:9)

7:55 am

He Had the Guts to Say No to Hitler. Who has the guts to say

7:51 am


7:37 am

“When truth is replaced by silence, the silence is a lie.”
— Yevgeny Yevtushenko

6:38 am

“Suddenly it all comes down, all at once.  You see what you are, what you have done, or, more accurately, what you haven’t done (for that was all that was required of most of us: that we do nothing)…You remember everything now, and your heart breaks.  Too late.  You are compromised beyond repair.”

They Thought They Were Free, the Germans 1933-45 by Milton Mayer

Sometimes I miss Isaac so much…

Google: Trolling moms everywhere. Since 1997.

6:07 am

Government Secret Police Program Exposed – Federal Agencies Are Circumventing Constitutional Obligations By Utilizing A Secret Fusion Center Where Illegally Obtained Information Is Passed On To Be Used Against American Citizens.

Federal agencies are circumventing constitutional obligations by utilizing a secret fusion center where illegally obtained information is passed on to be used against American citizens. All federal law enforcement agencies are teaching their agents how to fabricate evidence and commit perjury under oath if necessary in order to protect and conceal the illegal sources of their investigations.


5:35 am

Will this Mt. Pleasant man be executed by Michigan officials who want his home?   He thinks so.

First Shots of the Revolution about to Be Fired in Isabella County Michigan

See more at:


7:08 pm

Man Charged With Hate Crime- Faces 5 Years In Prison For Burning Flag …

A man in Ohio has been arrested for what they are calling a ‘hate crime’ for burning a flag. It’s about time these people get in trouble for burning the U.S. Flag! But wait, it WASN’T a U.S. flag! It was a GAY PRIDE FLAG!


6:52 pm

I met a young Christian yesterday, a Baptist.  Her sickly mother was smoking marijuana.  I knew her pastor before he became too holy for my dad’s church and started his own.  I told her we were in youth group together and she became concerned.  She said, “You won’t ever tell him about THIS...” waving at a WEED.  Of course not, he doesn’t talk to me.  How sad though, that she knew she would be ostracized by “God’s representative” for responsible use of God’s bounty…by ANOTHER PERSON!  I am really fearful for Baptists.  Holier-than-thou isn’t gonna cut it anymore.  (“Holier than yo’ mama” never did.)

6:31 pm

I’m just spit-balling here, but the fact that my mom HAS REFUSED to speak to me for YEARS is unusual.  More unusual is the fact that THE ONLY TIMES SHE HAS SPOKEN to me she’s said, ” Your DAD IS NOT A RAPIST.” “Methinks thou doth protest too much.”  Why in the WORLD would she ONLY RESPOND about Dad’s sexual-predator status?  She didn’t care about Josh, she didn’t care about me, she didn’t care about jack-shit.  But, every six months or so she LOUDLY EXPRESSES…”Your Dad Is Not a Rapist.”  I think maybe he did something really bad in Asia.  (Referring to Dad, God always whispers, “ASIA.”)  Tsk.


5:30 pm

Hey Baptists, the sand is now exploding beneath folks’ feet.  Whatcha gonna do about it?  Don’t you have the answer to everything?  (That’s what my brother says when he invites people to Jesus-camp.)  Children are raped…by George Bush’s cabal, but that’s OK.  Georgie says he’s a Christian, so we don’t have to investigate gun-running or drug-dealing or rape.  This world is a mess, and I for one, am most pleased.  Not very much longer can fake-Christians pretend to know God.  The NSA recognizes who really hears God’s voice.  They shiver in their techie-tennies.  They wonder how they will subjugate the ‘hive-mind’ when it  reaches beyond their capability to code.  Their machines interpret many languages…but not all of them.  THIS IS A GREAT TIME TO BE A REAL-LIVE CHRISTIAN!


4:48 pm

“Conspiracy theorists” stand at the verge of greatness.  Conspiracy theorists have consistently questioned the prescribed narrative that controls our lives.  Their moniker is fallacious, since rather than ‘theorizing’ they INVESTIGATE conspiracies, sometimes real, sometimes false.  The true conspiracy THEORISTS are trying to take over my world, beginning long before Dudley DoRight  tried to stop Snidely Whiplash.  THE BAD GUYS WANT IT ALL.  THE BAD GUYS CONTRIVE TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD.  THEY ALWAYS DO.  (I can’t believe I was the only kid watching cartoons.)  I also can’t believe I’m the only person who thinks those guys should be stopped, but it feels that way.
My acquaintance has been  with ‘Christians’, almost entirely.  Christians follow Jesus who said in their Holy Book that he, himself, is THE TRUTH. Yet, my experience with “Christians” is that they 1) watch TV, 2) ignore truth-speakers, and 3) go shopping.  (Definitionally, ‘conspiracy theorists’ are the best Christians I’ve ever known.  What to make of that?)  Conspiracy theorists  know the back-story that the ‘Christians’ will require when the SHTF.  (Sorry.  Christians don’t say shit even when their mouths are spewing it all over everybody else.)
 It is time for all sentient beings to become ‘conspiracy researchers.’  Failing that, there are no Christians on the planet and my Lord’s question was not hyperbole:  “Nevertheless when the Son of man cometh, shall he find faith on the earth?”    God was NOT FOOLING AROUND!  If the people ‘who are called by my name, etc.’  DO NOT SEEK AND LOVE AND PROMOTE AND DEFEND TRUTH…we’re pagan, we’re diseased, we’re doomed.  “Thank you God, that there IS A BODY of people who love you.  (Truth.)  Forgive the BAPTISTS for loving America’s wars and wealth.  Amen.”
But as to the greatness forementioned, when the EHTF (*excrement…),  some people will be helpful, since they actually did the homework assigned by JESUS, THE CHRIST.  These persons will be in great demand.  Their knowledge and understanding will far supersede the platitudes ingested by ‘Christians’ who listen to the DHS ‘pastors’ who will instruct them to obey godless government.  It’s a no-brainer.  (That makes sense in a sad kind of way.)  Those who have actually FOLLOWED JESUS (ie. followed TRUTH) will be far better able to help sad, scared church-goers, who don’t have a pot to piss in and wouldn’t say piss even if they needed to go really bad.  I’m not joking.  Games are over.  I have HATED WITH A BURNING PASSION the hoe-downs that masquerade as CHURCH.  I want to worship Jesus.  I will worship him, in his embodiment as truth.  I can’t do it with the local Baptists, that’s for sure.

4:25 pm

Church.  The place with magic chairs.  Every asshole seated there is rendered holy.

3:17 pm

My mother has not always been a rich bitch; for a time she was only sorta-rich.  She used to bemoan her habits of ‘conspicuous consumption.’  (She also would  hide shopping bags in the closet so Dad wouldn’t see them.) She used to seem almost human.  She liked girls a lot, high-school girls.  She’d rub their backs in the dark on a sit-up bench my dad made.  I’d cry in the bedroom, because she never touched me.  Now I understand that a mother does not touch her daughter the same way she touches more interesting girls.


2:53 pm

PS- I wrote about being raped as a child in my multi-volume affidavit.  I wrote how you refused to address my complaint.  I wrote EVERYTHING.

2:45 pm

Here’s the deal, Mom.  I do not hold ill will due to parental neglect.  I will never mention it again, if you decide to speak civilly to me and to speak truth.  The only times you’ve spoken to me for several years you’ve been screaming that my dad didn’t rape me.  (That raises obvious questions I will put aside if you’ll be an adult.)   I have experienced unusual things and I could help others who do not have JESUS, THE CHRIST to keep them alive through those anonymous rapes.  If you do not speak to me about this issue I cannot believe you to be any manner of Christian.  We have a house phone now.  The number is 906-586-4629.  You know my cell number.
You have money and I need some to take my DOCUMENTATION to somebody who could help people.  A thousand dollars would get me to several potential activists.  I don’t give a shit what you did or did not do for/to me.  I really don’t; it’s just additional fuel for  the fire that I will not permit to be extinguished.  PEOPLE ARE DYING AND YOU AND DAD COULD HELP THEM AND YOU BOTH PRETEND TO BE CHRISTIANS BUT YOU DON’T EVEN LOVE YOUR OWN CHILD SO WHAT AM I EXPECTING?  A miracle.  Do not apologize to me. Send me on my way so mothers who actually love their children will not have to see them raped and tortured as I have  been.

2:15 pm

Dearest Mama,
You know I was raped as a small child, I told you in the kitchen. I wrote ‘FUCKED’ although I’d never heard the word until my RAPIST said it to me.  You turned your back.  You also knew I was being raped several years ago, and instead of offering even slight commiseration, you chose to CALL ME CRAZY AND YELL AT ME AND KICK ME OFF YOUR PROPERTY.  You stand up for Dad; so be it, you took vows.  But, as a result you have become a piss-poor excuse for a MOM… and an anti-Christian.  I am maybe not the sharpest tack, since I  approached you again concerning my more recent violations,  but you’re supposed to be a mom.  How can you say, “Maybe somebody else raped you.”??  How can you not say, “OMG, I’m so sorry.  Come succor at my bosom and we’ll make things right.”?  You are an abused woman and you do not know how to behave properly in a (quote-unquote) love situation, because you’ve lived years with a psychopath.       WHEN YOUR BABY IS RAPED YOU STAND UP TO BE COUNTED.  Otherwise, you’ve failed.  Both her/him and yourself.
Mom, I hope to see you in Heaven but I will not unless you decide to intercede for the downtrodden. God was kind enough to provide one such soul in your very womb.  Time is short, to be the person God intended you to be.  You cannot protect me now because I am much smarter and stronger than you.  You can protect others, as you should have helped me protect Josh.  Do the right thing.  Do not lie any longer.  Do not turn your back when you see pain.  I WAS A SMALL CHILD AND YOU PERMITTED MY DEFILEMENT!@!@   Grow up, please, time is short.  I love you very much.

2:00 pm

I sent my chicken-shit lying father and brother and mother a scripture reference, like this:

Luke 12:2*.  I can take it.  Can you?

*”For there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; neither hid, that shall not be known.”   (Luke 12:2)

1:46 pm


(Lyle Lovett’s hair looks just like mine, only darker.)


Lyle Lovett – If I Had A Boat

1:41 pm

I also wrote to my mother:

I do not wish to say ‘I told you so.’  I’d rather that you survive the apocalypse.  Remember?  It’s in the Bible.  And real-time.

1:31 pm

TEXT TO MY (non-raped) mother:

Go buy a new pair of shoes and leave the thinking to those more suited.

1:25 pm

My mom is all worked up about rape.  The world is imploding (as prophesied in the Bible…) and all she ever says to me is, in elevated volume, “YOUR DAD IS NOT A RAPIST.”  She even acknowledged that I was  raped. She has a VERY SERIOUS problem about defending the man who changed her life by depositing within her a girl-child who WILL NOT LIE.  Somebody get that woman a new pair of shoes, I don’t think’s she can handle the apocalypse.

1:21 pm

I responded to my mom’s text:

Grow up.

1:19 pm

WOW!  I got a text from my mom and she acknowledged the pornographic pictures of my niece that I inherited.  She said, “fyi.  Those pictures were taken by Phil Jack, Megan’s father not your father.  FYI.  He is not a rapist.”

I beg to differ.  I exist.

1:08 pm

No answers, I sent another text, to David with copies to alma mater et ux:

Your dad’s a baby-raper and I exist to prove it.  Did you ever even read the Bible?  I have naked pictures of Megan that he took.  Why will you not stand for Jesus?  Do you rape babies too?

12:52 pm

God told me years ago that my dad preferred that I be with a stupid man.  I didn’t understand it, but now I do.  A smart man would believe me.  My father , whose life is totally supported by lies,   would never  like that.  God is always right.

12:36 pm

Text to my BROTHER who goes into prisons where men have been incarcerated for nothing more than existing on my planet:

You teach men how to be Christian?  That makes me wanna puke.

12:27 pm

WHY AM I STILL ARGUING?  Why has nobody conceded to the truth asserted?  Why do my relatives honor my dad and treat me like shit?  It is not because they have done research and evaluated our differences.  He’s rich. He’s boss.  He’s toast.  Amen.

12:19 pm

I drove through my parents’ driveway today, to pray for them.   They were gone, they’re always gone.  I don’t want them to go to hell because they became liars when they conceived me.


12:01 pm

My conception was a crime.  My father was OLD, so very old, and even divorced.  My mom was gonna be a doctor.  She was the principal’s daughter and salutorian.   Dad had a fancy De Soto with push-button transmission. Mom didn’t know what an orgasm was until she’d been married.  (She told me that when I laughed at an off-color joke.)  He was a predator, and he still drinks human blood.  He SUCKED MY BROTHER DRY.  (He can’t do that to me, since he sent me packing years ago.)  I am a survivor of a psychopath’s  intemperate fornication.  My father is and always has been a child-sexual-predator.  (Don’t believe me? Believe his history.) The man goes to church and pays their bills.  They endorse him.  (So what?  They endorse Israel!)  TRUTH HAS WON THE DAY, and I am a child of truth.  My name is Goldthorpe, and I used to be grateful for that moniker.  I am now grateful that truth will reveal the lifestyle of an INCESSANT MISOGYNIST… and a really piss-poor father.  It may seem that I’m treading-silly on the exploits of the US INTELLIGENCE SERVICES.  No.  I respect them and I’m grateful for them. When they GET THEIR SHIT TOGETHER…I will be a person.  It can’t be helped.  For the first time EVER, I will be acknowledged, because I didn’t lie.  Don’t you think they’ll have more fun with the liars?  My dad is toast.   Whether by the NSA or by God himself.  Truth is exposed, and my dad is a fake.


Text to MOM, DAD, and DAVID:

Any divorced veteran of foreign wars who can’t keep his pants zipped in the presence of a teenager is not a man anybody should listen to.  Especially when he claims to be God.

11:36 AM

It’s a beautiful day, and I’m still bitching at adults who know well enough…

Test to my parents, with a copy to David:

to Dad– Did you do right by Mom?  You gave me a name.  Then you took it back.  You were not created to be a schmuck and I am not your bastard.  If I am no longer permitted to bear your name, God will give me a better one.  You will wish you could claim me.  I’ll be kinder than you’ve ever been.


11:17 am

I also sent my mom and dad a text wishing them Happy Anniversary.  I suppose it might be received differently than I intended, since my protoplasm is the glue that stuck them together and set them on their (individual) pursuits of relevance and value.  I was a bastard, until my dad gave me    MY   name.  Then he took it back.  What a schmuck.

11:13 am

I sent my dad another text, I love that bastard so much:

Too late is too late.  And you’re an old man on statins…

11:06 am


You will bow to Jesus.  It would mean more, for you, if you are not ALREADY DEAD.   Please don’t go to hell.

10:44 am

My father WILL bend his knee to Jesus, the Christ.  (Everybody will.  Even satan.)  How much better to BOW NOW while it means something?  All men will genuflect.  How much better to submit before death eliminates the value of inevitable prostration?  Too late is too late.

10:17 am

My dad kills men; I’ve seen it a hundred times.  He takes a prospect under his wing, verbally encouraging dreams and potentials.  (He used to tell me how ‘cute’ it is to watch them pretending to be real-live businessmen.  He’s spoken of my own brother that way.)  He’ll take them to breakfast and listen to their plans.  (He picks up the tab of course, modeling the behavior of ‘rich-folk’.)   THEN, he either OVERRIDES or otherwise sabotages their dreams.  (He has SPOKEN of his intentions.  They ARE NOT PERMITTED to make decisions without consulting his wisdom and example,  and they must NOT EVER EXPECT TO ATTAIN  HIS STATUS.) (They do not know that, not even my brother.)  Dad  MUST BE KING, and nobody else’s thoughts matter, and nobody’s personal needs are considered.  I am SO GLAD that the NSA  knows what he’s REALLY LIKE.  My OWN MOTHER is so stupified by glitter and lies, that she defends him!  (And he has stymied her evolution far more than he has limited our next generation of capitalist-idols.)   “DEAR GOD, HOW LONG?  How long will you permit a self-serving-psychopath with SERIOUS daddy-issues to castrate our most productive brethren?  HOW LONG must an honest man like George believe that being my father’s son is his highest potential?  WHY DO YOU PERMIT THAT PSYCHOPATH TO DESTROY LIVES?”  “Amen.”
I rarely get angry.  (Although you probably couldn’t prove it by listening to my acquaintances who deem well-considered logic expressed passionately to be demonstrative of anger.)  I had an anger problem but it has been marginalized; I get angry when anger is warranted.  Now I encounter a HEARING PROBLEM and I’m near-finished preaching to those-who-just-don’t-give-a-shit-because-they’ll-soon-die.  I never lied to George in a quarter century.  I’ve not lied to my father for much longer.  THESE MEN ARE GUTLESS!   Ain’t that a wonder? They claim such authority to denigrate a female who has a brain.  (And also far better study-habits.)  My father knows I’ve been right for decades.  My father is a pussy.  George is a pussy-follower.  What does that make him?  (More manly than my Dad I expect.)

9:46 am

I just talked to a stranger and that always makes me feel better.  This cute old guy was sitting on a bridge, not fishing but waving at cars.  I had to turn around.  He didn’t like me at first because I was wearing a Michigan shirt, but when I told him it came from a garage sale we got along.  I love talking to strangers because once in awhile they actually care about something.  Other than Josh, I rarely speak to a soul who does.  I get very offended by George’s apathetic lethargy.  He doesn’t care what happened to me, or even to his marriage.  He doesn’t care about what’s happening in the world, although we discussed and expected THESE SAME EVENTS for years.  He records the weather, every day, on a calendar.  Maybe his records are important, but the wind is blowing stronger in the metaphysical realms, and in politics, and concerning the economy and in humanity’s progressive recognition that “the last shall be first.”  I pray for him.  I pray that his eyes will be opened and his passion unlocked.  I pray that he will consider the world our grandchildren will inhabit.  I pray that he doesn’t miss what we prayed-together to see commence!  I pray that he doesn’t remain dead!


8:36 am

I asked for a raise.  I cook protein and vegetables three times every day.  George said, “Well just stop cooking for him and he’ll figure it out for himself.”  I said, ” Wouldn’t it be better if his father encouraged him to take responsibility?  A little at a time?  Maybe suggesting that he not wear ten times more pants than his father and mother put together, and that his mother shouldn’t have to do all that laundry?” No.  George is a big fat unthinking no.  I am just wrong.  He claims ‘son-privilege’ but he’s not my father’s son.  If he were, he’d be rich.  He’s just another of my dad’s suck-ups.   Dad has lots more converts than I do!


8:04 am

If you turn and face that darkness you not only heal yourself, but you pull the string on a thousand years of programming.  (Stuart Wilde)

7:58 am

Here’s just a small example of my dad’s inherent misogyny:  when the exterminator came to spray the house, he told me that Dad had instructed him to “check with George.”  Now remember,  George does not own this house any more than I do…and he hasn’t even been RELATED TO DAD FOR THREE YEARS.  Nonetheless, my father’s instructions were to seek the one with the testicles.  (I haven’t seen much evidence of their existence since the children were sired.)   Does George rise early to lovingly tend the property as a committed fee-holder?  He does not.  (Nobody cares much since it belongs to children.)   I put in HOURS every day…tending to even the PERSONAL NEEDS of my roommates who HAVE TESTICLES.  What’s wrong with this picture?  (I mean besides the fact that a psychopath totally fucked up our family-interactions and various responsibilities.)  Dad is afraid of women and he’ll answer for his cowardice.  (Just because he’s afraid to talk to me doesn’t mean that other men are.)

6:14 am


Dear Dad,
Are you pleased with the country for which you surfaced roads in Korea?  What do you think about the White House arrayed in the flag of homosexuals?  Are you OK with an historical American flag now deemed unacceptable?  They are DIGGING UP THE BODY of a long-interred Confederate general!  Just to make points on the government-prescribed social scoreboard!   Will you stand in the camp of current-America?  Will you accept things you once thought were wrong?  Does lying not affect you on ANY LEVEL?  Tell me, if our government lied as much as you do…would you still pay your beloved taxes?   (They do.)  Every Sunday you go to church carrying your checkbook of course, but also a Bible.  CAN YOU EVEN READ?  
STAND UP!!!  (“Dear God, will he EVER BE A MAN?”)  I can’t stand these tepid ‘men’ I know!  I adored you, even after you tried to lock me up and kill me.  I CANNOT STAND YOUR INDIFFERENCE TO THE EVIL WORLD THAT YOU’VE HELPED CREATE FOR MY CHILDREN!  You’re old, and aging as I type.  Death will not free you from responsibility for IGNORING YOUR REAL RESPONSIBILITY.  I pray for your lying soul every day of my life.  If YOUR BELOVED GOVERNMENT chooses to abduct one of your grandchildren, will you then give me the key to the condo you owe me?  If you wait that long, you will hate yourself more than you do now.
Much love,

5:55 am

Some of the dirty dishes have aged 3 days, but my kind roommates said that it doesn’t matter when I ‘get to them.’  I got a thank-you note from my niece for the baby blanket I knit and that was very nice, but it didn’t include a phone number.  I have no husband for guidance or comfort, and I’m not getting any younger yet.  I have no resources and no options and I do the same thing all-day, every-day. The Christians around here are so deceived they believe my father to be among their number.  Everybody grovels at the feet of status…and treachery.   I am cycled through artificially-induced  emotion-assaults, and cyber-linked to strangers.  My family will not speak to me and I’ve requested an audience for six and a half years. Governments are waging war on humanity, and  I require truth.   If I did not KNOW that Jesus will soon judge the quick and the dead, and also between me and my father, and if I did not KNOW he has a destiny prepared for me…I’d be suicidal.

5:46 am

“Government is now the moral police, deeming who we are to love, and who we are to hate.  Whose opinions are correct, and whose are wrong. “

“They’re moral supremacists telling us what to think.  Who the hell do they think they are,  making moral indictments against us?”

(We’re ‘celebrating pride.’  God said, “Pride cometh before a fall.”)

“As if Southern heritage  is nothing more than slavery and racism.  As if rainbow  pride is nothing other than innocent love and happy times.”

Capture the Flag: Rebels & Rainbows

See more at:

5:39 am


8:36 pm

Ron Paul – The United States Is About To Collapse – July 10th, 2015


6:56 pm

I went on a boat again.  It was a really nice surprise.

Pfizer Vice President Blows The Whistle & Tells The Truth About The Pharmaceutical Industry

Below is a clip taken from the “One More Girl” documentary, a film regarding the Gardasil vaccine, which was designed to prevent Human Papillomavirus. In it, Dr. Peter Rost, MD, a former vice president of one of the largest pharmaceutical companies in the world (Pfizer), shares the truth about the ties between the medical and pharmaceutical industry.

Rost is a former vice president of Pfizer, and a whistleblower of the entire pharmaceutical industry in general. He is the author of “The Whistleblower, Confessions of a Healthcare Hitman.

More here:

1:47 pm

It’s all too obvious the West’s hired gun in the Middle East is soon coming to a Jade Helm neighborhood this summer near you. After all, they’ve been busy training with the Mexican drug cartel all year long just eight miles from the open US border. That our treasonous NWO government crime syndicate and their new and improved brand of terrorist bad guys are not so strange bedfellows can’t come as a surprise to anyone who doesn’t have their head up their ass.

The Globalists Are Racing to World War III Before the American Sheeple Wake Up

If you think the globalists are pushing pedal to the metal now, you’re absolutely right! Rapid acceleration toward their one world government has humanity on a fateful collision course to Armageddon. Just look at the unfolding events in 2015 so far with barely half the year over. The Charlie Hebdo attack in January came right after France moved torecognize a sovereign Palestinian state. Clearly Hebdo was a false flag payback that only escalated movement toward more Orwellian tyranny and draconian police state oppression, not only in France but around the world.

See more at:

1:35 pm

Dad is going to look so terrible if I have to submit my records to a human court.  My letters to him for the first couple years were very nice, I thanked him and I expected the best of him as I politely stated my needs and those of my sons.  When my kind letters were ignored, I became more strident.  He still ignored them.  My evidence portrays a man who was not only covering his ass big-time, but also totally ignored the pleas of a family in crisis.
It’s hard to understand people who do not care to improve themselves, but rather seek to improve only the fake things that others think about them.  This is not living.  Your reputation is finally unassailable, when you die, if you’ve sufficiently covered your tracks. My dad is breathlessly awaiting eternal breathlessness.  Then he can finally stop working so hard to be somebody… to impress people who don’t give a rip anyway.  He thinks at death he will be finished, but the regrets will begin then.  Not only was he not a compassionate human, he also missed a lot of opportunities to experience what was latent within himself.  Nothing’s sadder than watching an aging psychopath long for death.  They know they’ve missed a lot, but if they die outside of a prison cell, they think they’ve won.  There won’t be any stupid people in either Heaven or Hell.  Death is the great educator.

1:09 pm

Graham Hancock – The War on Consciousness – Banned TED Talk


12:26 pm

George’s birthday cake is in the oven.

Privately Owned Prisons Are Being Converted to FEMA Camps

I have a relative who is in the Michigan National Guard. His unit has been training with the Russians. They are practicing rounding up Americans and processing them into custody. He said they separated men and women with some children. But he also said they were separating people by religious beliefs. My relative believes that they are going to exterminate Christians when the time comes. Why else would they separate Christians from Jews from Muslims and from Catholics, from Mormons from athiests?

The training is about monkey see monkey do. His unit will arrest pretend suspect actors and then process them and interrogate them. The Russians watch and then are asked to do the same in English. He said the Russian’s English is as good as any American. This part freaked me out. He said that the Russians frequently train in American Army uniforms.  Everyone thinks that they are going to pretend to be Americans when it is time to start the killing and the rounding up.  

My relative also learned through an advisor that was at their camp, that the same thing is going on at Ft. Bliss.


11:30 am

No call from my parents or my brother yet.  George borrowed a trailer from Dad yesterday without asking, he said, “I used  my ‘son’ privilege.”  That’s so cute in about a dozen ways especially since he hasn’t been related to Dad for three years.  ( And there is no creature called ‘the daughter privilege.’)    I sent the terrible trio a text:

Still waiting to get my family back…and compensation for my life which was stolen by lies.  I’ve been waiting for six years and 5 months.  Interest is mounting up.


1:55 am

Job lost everything he had, because God made a bet; God bet on his heart.  Satan said, “SURE, Job serves you.  Who wouldn’t?  You made him rich and you protect him.  Lemme at him for a bit, and we’ll see if he trusts you.”   God knows our hearts, so would he ever wager on any matter that isn’t a sure thing? He knows the future, so could he EVER lose a bet?  God and satan bet about Job’s heart, and about his faith in a redeemer who hadn’t yet even been revealed to the world.  Job took it all, dead children and utter annihilation of his livelihood.  He took it all…and he worshiped my God.  His friends said he was a sinner, and mistaken, and wrong.  (At least he had friends who believed in God and consequences; I guess that’s something.)  His wife said, “Do you STILL MAINTAIN YOUR INTEGRITY?”  (Meaning basically, I think, “WHO ARE YOU KIDDING? Something you did brought these  disasters on us.  You’re a fraud.”)  She said, “Curse God and die.”  Nobody believed in him, but he believed in God.  And more importantly when the stakes got high,  God believed in him.
I can’t imagine betting against God.  I can’t imagine a created being thinking he could outthink his creator, but I fall into that trap, we all do.  I bet against God every time I feel anxious, or neglected.  I bet against God when I imagine my circumstances to be beyond his wonder-working power to redeem and provide.  I bet against God when my faith waivers, and I wish to escape the life he gave me.  I do not like being held back, and lied about. But, I also aim to finish my course with honors, and a degree conferred by God is very valuable.  I aim to look into Jesus’ face and see approval, and maybe pride.  I aim to conquer, and I’ll do this by trusting that everything that comes my way is His will.  Job made that commitment long before I was faced with duplicitous family and discouraging friends.  And I will meet Job one day, when he stands on the earth again.  Many people will wish to be his friend at that point.  Maybe he’ll pick me?
Since my dad set the dogs on me, I’ve lived without human encouragement, for the most part.  Sometimes I think if I must pick up again for adults who view my competence with suspicion, and question my motives, and dislike when I do too much and dislike when I do not enough, and watch TV all night and scream at CODE on a MACHINE…I might as well give up.  But I can’t.  I can’t stop being or doing because I know what Job knew:  one day I’ll look into Jesus’ face.  That moment will compensate for every deprivation, and make sense of every slight I think I’ve suffered.  That moment will be worth all the torture and denigration.  That moment is approaching, and I’d love for others to experience the joy of hearing their creator say, “Well done, thou good and faithful servant. Enter into the joy of your Lord.”  In the presence of God is ‘fullness of joy.’  I’ve been denied a lot of joys that my family take for granted.  I’m looking forward to hanging out with my King.  And all his friends.


6:52 pm

I’m betting on a man I haven’t seen for six years.  I’m doing this because 1) my father, the only other option,is a pathological liar, 2) I believe Adam is truthful, and 3) at this point, what do I have to lose?

(Also, wouldn’t that be really hot if he came through?)

(Also, God said he was an angel and I should trust him.   I TRY to obey God.)


6:38 pm

George is dancing to Huey Lewis.

6:20 pm

Bratwurst tonight, with fresh mozzarella and tomatoes.  I made a balsamic vinaigrette from twenty-year-old vinegar.    I have not personally investigated a number of the following assertions.  Anybody willing to do some research?  I’m exhausted.

40 Outrageous Facts Most People Don’t Know

Read them at:


5:54 pm

I always feel like I talk too much and say too little.  God sent me somebody to talk with today, a real-live Monsanto salesman, with a license and everything.  He also has had out-of-body experiences, so we had some common ground.  It‘s easier to talk ‘conspiracies’ now that I’ve documented those I recognize.  I prayed with the man, and that was nice.  He used to meditate and told me that at one point he would dream of the Dewey Decimal System then find the references when he was awake.  (Spooky stuff.)  He said I’d like his mother; she lives in Florida.  I might call her.
George is moving the hot tub we were given several years ago, and I’m delighted.  I’d like a functioning hot tub of course, but I’m much more pleased that the doner will see that it‘s been moved. (He gave us an entire deer carcass once, and it rotted before anybody addressed it.)   Things are looking up, although my bread-baking is behind schedule because of my unexpected guest.  I promised a loaf to the clerk in Curtis so I’m getting it together now.  It takes two days to make my bread.  My guest said that he understood my father to be a Christian.  (It‘s funny how all his business associates believe him to be such.)
 The world is changing faster than I can type.  Guess I should step up my act.  I told Mr. Poison-Monger (I think he would be OK with me calling him that, because we both know he will soon administer hope and truth…), that I’m not afraid of poison, and I don’t think he should be either.  Unless God makes us a new world, we’re toast no matter how he earns a living. I’d say something similar  to the commander of the Enola Gay.  I broke the law today.  I drove through Curtis without a seatbelt.  Should I feel bad about that?  My new friend didn’t poison my house, although my dad was paying for it.    I hope I didn’t harm  anything of his either.

12:12 pm

You know, Kevin Bacon dances well and still seems pretty heterosexual.  Just a thought. What if my father calls Adam and learns that he is a reprobate, with no civil conscience.  What a bummer.  Would Dad be responsible, for destroying potential Chrisitan-leanings by calling me false names?  Just another thought.  (I really can’t see any way out for my dad unless he tells the truth.)

11:50 am


Hip to be Square

11:49 am

‘Adam, please forgive me for betting on your life but you’ve always loved truth.  I know you’re man enough.  Thanks for everything.”

11:42 am

OK, you take a tabula rasa Jew-anti-Jewish atheist, and you set before him a wealthy Baptist, and a Spirit-led Christian.  What do you expect to happen?  3.5 will do me nicely.

11:35 am

The last phone number for Adam I have is: 734-972-9224.  I think.  Do your best, if you’re man enough.

11:30 am

I predicted in my soon-to-outsell-‘Gone With the Wind’-‘novel’ that Adam would become a Christian at a much higher level than I’d ever seen.  I stand by that prophecy.  I have not spoken to him for many years.  Hey DAD, put’cher  money where your mouth is!  Did your fraudulent religion carry the day, or is my God real?  I’ve learned much about love since I’ve been tortured.  Love doesn’t have expectations.  Love is grateful for any inroads to the beloved’s heart.  The Baptists are SO WRONG.  I gave  my life for Adam.  I don’t know if I’d do it again, but I expect my love to bear fruit.  (I mean more fruit than merely my survival.  “Thank you.  Amen.”)  God told me, and his words are admissible in US courts, that Adam would bring one million people to Jesus.  He later multiplied that number.  “Hey DAD.  Are you man enough to make a phone call I never made?”

11:14 am

Did you ever notice how your favorite people are the people around whom you best like yourself?

11:12 am

 I was pretty sure the real Adam got this one:

11:07 am

I sent this song to an address I thought belonged to Adam one time.  Apparently the Sting-Ray didn’t understand, and I received a message asking if I wanted to “get drunk and fuck.”  So cute.  It wasn’t Adam.  He listens to spirit.

Leo Sayer – Long Tall Glasses (I Can Dance)

11:00 am

Hey Dad, wanna go double-or-nothing?  You owe me 3.5 million.  I’ll bet you Adam’s a Christian now, after watching your hijinks.  Wanna owe me seven million dollars?  And MY WHOLE LIFE?


10:54 am


Let’s Hear It for the Boy [Footloose]

Deniece Williams

10:52 am

What God did in my life is truly amazing.  He REQUIRED that I love Adam, he made me promise to ‘hold him’ when I’d only known him a couple weeks.  (I loved him the first time we talked, but that’s another story.  There’s a difference between soul and spirit, as I said.)  All through the years God has asked me to love Adam more…even as I was being raped by the counterfeit.  That was very difficult.  God is able.  Part of love is trust, so I had to do that.  I wrote  to him about EVERYTHING.   Dad’s felonies, etc.  This is a perfect storm for my father as well, and I commiserate.  (I’m familiar with weather warfare.)  He is so totally screwed in every direction he looks, he might as well be dead.  Or repentant, then he can live forever with the rest of us.  Robert Frost bears significant but I can’t remember the words.  It is TIME, dear Dad, to pay yon piper.  Or not.  Nice knowin’ ya.

10:40 am

Also, I was accustomed to uttering words I did not think to say.  I prayed in tongues after all. SO, I could tell when some OTHER FORCE caused me to say things, and I recorded that too.  With lots of specifics.  Artificial vocalizations are very abrupt.  God is fluid and natural. Those journals are very valuable and Dad should buy them for 3.5 million dollars and bless me on my way.


10:33 am

Also, I was accustomed to uttering words I did not think to say.  I prayed in tongues after all. SO, I could tell when some OTHER FORCE caused me to say things, and I recorded that too.  With lots of specifics.  Artificial vocalizations are very abrupt.  God is fluid and natural.  Those journals are very valuable and Dad should buy them for 3.5 million dollars and bless me on my way.  I bet he has Adam’s number already.  I know Adam has his.


10:26 am

When your speakers, always  unresponsive, ancient speakers,  respond to your thoughts with trumpet-blasts,  life gets weird.  When your body moves in response to inner-queries, your ears perk up.  If you would EVER PAY ATTENTION TO THE SECRET PLACE they couldn’t fool you.  You’re ALL MIND-CONTROLLED and I don’t have to support this contention with evidence.  You ALL CHOOSE the things you will attend, and you do not consider alternatives. This is PSYCHOTIC.  Look, family dearest, my life has not been about myself but about the will of Jesus, the Christ.  Now I sit atop a pile of uranium he stockput just for me!  You’re in the way, but seriously.  You called me names, I forgive you, get over it.  Give me what you took and I’ll be on my way.  “I must be about my father’s business.”

10:09 am

You never get used to having an observer in your head.  The experience could destroy a person in short order. It can also separate ‘soul and spirit’ in an abbreviated manner.  (I’m pretty sure the mind-control goons have proven the existence of God…and also of the human spirit.)  For instance I now recognize far more often, that I’m thinking something my spirit disagrees with…or even thinking  of a question I’m just not curious about.  I often KNOW a particular question didn’t come from me.  This is good.  (Obviously, the only way to know the difference is according to Hebrews 4:12*, and I also expect, the only way to discern between V2K and our own selves, is to hear the Word of God.)
The mind-control goons run different scripts for different people.  (They also encourage targets to bring their inner world into reality.)  Some hear Lady Gaga and others hear aliens. Some hear violent military characters; that’s how they create Manchurian Candidates, known today as ‘lone-wolf-gunmen.’  (Google that guy out East who shot up…was it the Navy Shipyard Shooting?  He wrote on his gun:  “MY EMF WEAPON.”)  (EMF: Electro Magnetic Frequency)  (He heard voices.)   The goons,  established,  for themselves,  a perfect,  storm, when,  they chose,  to target,  me.  (Read it a couple times.  Bet I’m right on every comma.)
For one thing, I was accustomed to hearing voices and relished the privilege.  (I also attempted to evaluate what I heard, according to the Bible.)  They also chose to cast my internal-movie starring a person I trusted.  (If anybody has to be inside your head, it ought to be a person you trust.)   Their sex-shows were not to my taste, and I knew that right off.  I knew immediately, that what I was seeing and hearing and feeling did not originate within myself.  They’ve taught me to know myself MUCH BETTER than I did six years ago.  They’re toast.
I wrote to my ‘leading-man’ that I was experiencing unfamiliar things involving him.  I wrote WHY I KNEW I WAS NOT FANTASIZING.  These arguments are in affidavit form and will help a lot, with the revolution.  As for myself, I’m grateful for the fast-track to Godliness.  Having somebody in your head makes you think about yourself all the time, and to evaluate your every thought and gesture.  That’s the road to shame and ruin.  I have determined not to think about myself, and that resolve has made it MUCH EASIER to serve as a slave in my former life.  “Thank you God, for the NSA and for my psychopathic father.  Thank you for Masons and Mormons and other mind-control goons.  Thank you that love never fails.  Amen.”
(If you are not familiar with the voice of God, you will not have to consider my claims very much longer.)
* Hebrews 12:4  “For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.”

8:52 am

BUMP TO THE TOP, from  8/19/14:

Discussing “patriotism” seems observance of a shallow and mind-controlled fraction of humanity’s purpose and worth.  Even those enlightened thinkers who distinguish between militaristic “patriotism” and  equanimity between countries…still bow the knee to a “country.”  We are more and better than our countries allow us to be.  We are supernatural, eternal and subject to the whim of no other man, be he kinder than our keepers or worse.  Unless we choose to bow.  My knee will bend to no Lord but Jesus Christ.  Torment me if you will, kill me (if you can) but I know what humans are and it scares the spit out of those who deem to control us. 

7:54 am

George’s birthday is tomorrow.  I suppose I’ll get out some frozen bananas and bake him another cake.  He has today off so it won’t be a surprise, but he’ll like it anyway.  One thing I wonder is, when our natural telepathy is spiritually activated   (and we are no longer dealing with synthetic  telepathy and vibration-changes),  will we ever be able to surprise anybody anymore?  Will we know our loved ones’ thoughts all the time?  (I don’t understand the process whereby I collaborate on my thinking and writing, so maybe when I know about that my question will be answered.)  Life is a lot more fun with surprises.  (If memory serves.)   Gifts are best when they’re unexpected, and when we’re no longer subject to fear, surprises could become flashier… and mind-bending. This is going to be the most fun time ever and it’s hard to picture fun without an element of surprise.  God will surprise us every day of course, but it would be great to bless one another too, with bombshells of fun


7:27 am

I could have had a father like Serena Williams’  or Beyonce”s.  Or Bruce Springsteen or Eminem for that matter. Some dads endorse their girls.  I’d submit that at least a couple of these dads are psychopaths.  Their  driven girls sometimes get rich and then sue their fathers.  And fire them.  My dad is a psychopath…and a misogynist. Although I showed some small talent, he picked a road for me early on, and did everything he could  to see that I stayed on it.  Black Sheep.  Failure.  Fat, ugly and useless.  He still refuses to let me change direction and it’s been over fifty years.  So maybe Jimmy Carter’s right.  He said in a TED talk that the worst abuse in the world is abuse of women, and he had some good examples…beginning in his former Baptist association.  Being a misogynist is FAR WORSE than being a psychopath which is self-serving  and doesn’t discriminate. Misogynists TARGET WOMEN, and steal their value and opportunities.  Off with their heads!


8:33 am

The low price of oil is speeding up the economic changes, and countries (and even Texas) are stockpiling precious metals.  Oathkeepers declared emergency state summits, succession-talk is no longer crazy, and even Ron Paul says the collapse is imminent.  His new book is:  “Swords into Plowshares.”  If I had any money I’d get a copy.


8:26 pm


(What in the world was Roy’s stylist thinking?)

“Don’t Fence ME In” (1945) FINALE

Roy Rogers DALE EVANS Trigger

8:18 pm

I’ve never lived through a revolution but if I had to guess I’d say I’m watching one right now.

Today hackers took down the New York Stock Exchange, the Wall Street Journal site and an airline!  Tuesday night Anonymous tweeted about the Stock Exchange having a difficult day today.  Homeland Security was quick to attribute outages to internal glitches.  Usually with their false flags they’re even quicker to  blame Russia, or China, or God forgive them, even North Korea.   Three major outages at the same time and our  cyber-warriors know right away it wasn’t an attack.  Fine.

8:11 pm

Jade Helm, Terrorist Attacks, Surveillance and Other Fairy Tales for a Gullible Nation

Once upon a time, there was a nation of people who believed everything they were told by their government. When terrorists attacked the country, and government officials claimed to have been caught by surprise, the people believed them. And when the government passed massive laws aimed at locking down the nation and opening the door to total government surveillance, the people believed it was done merely to keep them safe. The few who disagreed were labeled traitors.For instance, while there is certainly no shortage of foul-smelling government activities taking place right now, the one giving off the greatest stench is Jade Helm 15. This covert, multi-agency, multi-state, eight-week military training exercise is set to take place from July 15 through Sept. 15 in states across the American Southwest. According to official government sources, “Jade Helm: Mastering the Human Domain” is a planned military exercise that will test and practice unconventional warfare including, but not limited to, guerrilla warfare, subversion, sabotage, intelligence activities, and unconventional assisted recovery. The training exercise will take place in seven different southwestern states: California, New Mexico, Colorado, Arizona, Texas, Utah and Nevada.The Department of Homeland Security (DHS) is also working to infiltrate churches across the country to establish a Christian Emergency Network, carry out emergency training exercises to prevent and prepare for disasters (active shooter drills and natural disaster preparedness), and foster two-way information sharing, while at the same time instituting a media blackout of their activities. As the DHS continues to establish itself within churches, a growing number of churches are adopting facial recognition systems to survey their congregations, identify and track who attends their events, and target individuals for financial contributions or further monitoring. As the partnership between churches and the DHS grows, their facial recognition databases may be shared with the federal government, if that is not already happening. See more here:

7:47 pm

Jade Helm roll-out of Army’s AI supercomputer killing machine — Skynet

“I know it upsets you folks… that we give you facts and figures…it’s important to see…”

6:01 pm

George is being amazing today!  (Has he shaken some mind-control?)  He’s talking to us about lots of things.  (I probably shouldn’t be typing as he talks, but he doesn’t notice.)   He even made a ‘point’,  castigating Josh for not fixing the microwave handle again so we could use it for another month.  (He put his hands on his hips and spoke ironically.  When I commented on the volume  he said, “I’m making a point.”)    (I moved the handle closer to the microwave thinking it would more likely be repaired if somebody saw it.  I was mistaken.) Josh bought new oars, he split one of the old ones right in half.  George knows about how oars work and I asked lots of questions as they installed the necessary hardware.  Josh shot his muzzle-loader for the first time today. It’s very old and didn’t work a couple years ago, the last time they tried it.  George said that God saved Josh’s life that time the gun went pop instead of boom.   I cleaned up the deck a tiny bit.  I’ve scrubbed many hours here, and draped fabrics and nailed up fringe.  We used to have a lot of parties.  One year we bought three tall palm plants, and I hid a rotating multicolored light under the church pew so we saw  dancing leaves on the ceiling in pink and green and blue.  Palm plants don’t live long in this environment.


 I’ve loved this deck more than anything about this house but I can’t bring myself to clean it this year.  The best night of my life happened on this deck,  and I’ve had  lots of terrible ones.  Today’s pretty nice.  I haven’t seen my eagle yet,  but George and Josh are sharing things and I love them both.   (I wonder if they know that yet.)  I will love my new life much more than what we three have left, after the slander.  I can’t wait to plan parties again, and to pay attention to every detail, for people who notice.  If I could be God’s party-planner in the new world, that would be pretty great. (Lots better than giving speeches and begging for money.)  I want a small space, with lots of outdoors and lots of options.  I want to help people and you can’t help people if you do not meet people, so I guess I’ll do a lot of that, whatever my destiny brings.  I’m getting everything I ever wanted.  God said I would.  Because I let the microwaves rape me. And I trusted Him anyway.


10:22 am

Here’s a really good prayer for people just starting out:  “Lord, do not allow me to believe anything that is not true.  Do not allow me to disbelieve anything that is.”

9:38 am

I’m not a fan of Donald Trump.  I don’t even like the word “illegal” although I’ll not jump on Jeb Bush’s bandwagon either.  I recognize mental masturbation; neither could accomplish changes no matter his predilection.  It’s like Pepsi or Coke.  It’s like: ” I know you will poison me with high-fructose corn syrup and fluoride, but I PICK YOU!!!!”    Elections are a farce, on MULTIPLE levels, the highest exposing the FACT that it does not matter, not a bit,  who sits in the office of note.  THEY ALL DO THE SAME THINGS BECAUSE THEY ARE BLACKMAILED AND TOO SELF-AGGRANDIZING TO CARE.  The votes don’t matter.  An engineer once TOLD ME that the only vote that counts is the vote of the guy who programs the machine.  So be it.  STILL, no matter who holds significant office, we, the people, are consistently devalued and destroyed.  Democracy is in theory, a losing proposition for maybe 49%.  And we don’t even have that!  WAKE UP!!!!  We must be FREE FROM OTHERS CONTROLLING OUR LIVES!  Doesn’t anybody have a conscience of his own anymore?


9:22 am

“In other words: we’ve been sterilized, castrated, knee-capped, lobotomized and asphyxiated from the Truth and Knowledge of who we truly are and our incredible power to manifest and shape a loving, conscious world around us.”It’s not an exact science by any means, but this whole field starts to show the power of the literal electromagnetic, vibrational informational mind as evidence of, or a reflection of, human consciousness, and we should pay close attention. Pretty profound. When the accumulated consciousness fields are driven in common or show coherency or resonance, they create a new information field. Sound interactive? That’s the whole point…we need to get busy manifesting Truth and Love within this field. Now you can see why so much is hidden from us – it’s fuel for our flux capacitors! The latest rash of modern psychopathic societal designers identified these causal and potentially liberating or captivating trends at whatever level of understanding, and set in place educational and society-modifying mechanisms to keep humanity from spontaneous, self-supporting growth centuries ago. – Learn  more here: ————-

8:42 am

I brought my dad a bunch of wildflowers, to his office.  His crew was inside and they all removed their hats to show me their summer haircuts.  I like Dad’s crew.  He handpicks them for their occasional indiscreet behavior.
Dad’s favorite employees do not live pristine lives, permitting him to bail them out occasionally and thereby maintain fealty.  I remember a cook who stole a bit of food.  Dad took her aside and said something like:  “Are you hungry?  If you’re hungry all you have to do is tell me and I’ll give you food…”   (It might be kinder to teach a hungry man to fish.)  He really likes it when somebody gets a DUI and maybe wrecks a car because then he can be a big hero and the poor schmuck is indebted forever. I’ve seen my brother treat ‘lesser’ beings the same way; he even condescends to the prophet!  When everybody’s hearts are revealed, by the NSA or more sanctified means, lots of people will be very surprised.

(*I guess my road doesn’t require Dad to face an additional stop sign.  Just an extra turn.)

7:24 am


My dad’s waitresses are decked out in that same lime-green!  (This is a pressure-valve for my flesh.  I’ll get spiritual again.)


CeeLo Green

7:02 am

Still working on the complaint for my lawsuit; I don’t know where I’ll get the filing fee.

In 2009, displaying spectacular hubris, my father told the Michigan State Police that I was dangerous and abducted my children.  His actions directly resulted in the following harm:
1)  I am divorced.
2)  I have no home and work for ten dollars a day,  in my former house.
3)  My son does not believe in Jesus and his father’s faith has diminished.
4)  My extended family does not speak to me or even respond to my gifts or other overtures.
6)  I lost my bar license.
7)  I am penniless.
7)  The local church smeared me damaging my relations with the community and earning opportunities.
8)  I have recorded every detail of my life and published some and swore to some and continue to this day.
Repeated requests for redress have been rebuffed.
Dad’s actions also set into motion a series of highly unusual events that are yet problematic, and without accurate definition.  But research has taught me A LOT about 1) him, 2), God, 3) myself and 4) my government’s activities.
Now I seek FAR MORE than the piddly apology he refused to provide in 2009 when I challenged his fraudulent religion with my faith in Jesus, because I’ve discovered MANY MORE VICTIMS of spontaneous life-implosion… and I recognize that he holds a key to many truth-quests worldwide.
Dad drove by about 5:30 and I prayed for him; I prayed that God will soften his heart.  (I think he goes by the house just to check on me; my road is an extra stop sign from his place no matter where he’s headed.  <3)
One truthful moment and my father’s life is redirected and mine will restart.  I hope he grows up before the zombies get him.

5:55 am



4:41 pm

“Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.”

4:20 pm

I’d really like to request prayer for my dad.  I don’t know if he’s a psychopath-from-birth, but it could be otherwise.  He has had to fight a lot of battles to retain dignity, and I don’t blame him for much of his character deficiency. (I do blame him for expecting others’ reputations to fight his personal battles for him.)  The man is not stupid.  He’s uneducated and that fact has caused him much grief, as evidenced by his continual denigration of my educated mother.  (Who also helped with his reputation and he should be GRATEFUL, rather than ABUSIVE.)  But, he’s a VERY HARD WORKER.  And although he’s stingy with people whose  lives do not assist his attempts to be the big Kahuna, he does share with some other poor people.  He’s not kind, but he has a great sense of humor.  (At least he used to, before he tried to kill me.  Now he just sounds like a pathetic moron.)   He NEEDS PRAYER.  He could HELP the world!  His mother prayed for him and I’ve always done likewise.  Please pray that my dad will put his resources toward a cause more valuable than status.  Please pray that he will care about the millions who are electronically tortured, as he caused me to be.  Please pray that he will have enough confidence in his own value, that he can value others.  Thank you.


2:32 pm

Fasting is a way of life really, rather than a once-in-awhile attempt to force God’s hand.  I want a breakthrough; I’ve worked very hard for many years. (I’ve prayed for my deluded family  much longer.)  Recently, when I’ve fasted, I’ve tried  not to consider my ‘sacrifice’ as an attempt to move Him, but rather aiming to experience MORE OF HIM.  I think that’s more pleasing.  I also think, that since he told me in 2007 that I would be misunderstood again and that what ‘was to come’ was ordained by him for his glory, I shouldn’t try to push the river. But it ain’t going fast enough for me.  I am not afraid of martial law or WWIII.  I just don’t want to be left out when Jesus shows the psychopaths that they are NOT God.  (Or even a god.)  George agreed that something has to give.  We’ve been divorced for three years and he’s learning.  I’d LOVE to see George contribute to God’s program; he’s all about helping people.  He just believed a single lie by a psychopath running a major ass-covering project…


2:15 pm

No calls yet.  Not even from my niece for whom I knit a blanket or my aunt for whom I baked sourdough bread.

I think I’m reaching the limit of my endurance. I slept in until five three times last week and I threw up twice today.  I guess a hunger strike is a pretty stupid attempt to influence people who want you dead anyway… and already act like you are.  It’s lots easier to fast for God, and there’s less chance of being administered hummus rectally.  I fasted 12 days one time, but I’m pretty miserable now after only one.  And it’s a bluff anyway. There’s no way God is going to let me starve to death,  or escape my destiny by any other kind of death.  I’ve BEGGED for my destiny.  I’ve BEGGED for him to keep me going until he releases me into a life where I can be trusted and help people.  Something has to give.

 I think perhaps my brother is afraid of being arrested too, or maybe even being physically harmed.  He can’t POSSIBLY love his money this much!  I’m sure he loves Dad a lot, and that being true, he should really want to see him become a truthful non-controlling person, perhaps even a CHRISTIAN.  So, I’m guessing David knows much more than I have considered, and that he’s very frightened.  The fearful are the first into hell, along with the unbelieving.  The alternative is looking like a lonely place at this point.


1:20 pm

“It used to be so much easier to control 1 Million people than to kill them, but today it is definitely easier to kill 1 million people than to control them.” — Zbigniew Bizezinski, Advisor to Obama,  in an address to the CFR.

10:59 am

Aluminum, Barium and Strontium: the New Manhattan Project Chemtrail Sprays

For about 20 years now, the people running the New Manhattan Project have been saturating our atmosphere and forcing us to ingest the witches’ brew coming out of the back of their airplanes. Read more at:

9:51 am


At the turn of the 20th century, the medical practice has metamorphosed from an honest pursuit of holistic healing into a cultic medical priesthood, with its own dogmatic rituals and highly sanctified medical bible.

  • Big Pharma Do Nothing But Annihilate the Population – John Rengen Virapen, former Eli Lilly & Co executive
  • Ebola Made by Pharma & DOD, Injected by UN – Dr. Cyril Broderick
  • Psychiatric Drugs Kill 500k+ Western Adults Annually – Professor Peter Gøtzsche
  • 50 US Hospitals Overcharge Uninsured by 1000% – Study by Gerard Anderson, a professor at Johns Hopkins Bloomberg School of Public Health

– Read more at:

9:42 am

Radio Frequency Climate Manipulation Amounts To Weather Warfare

Climate engineering is a completely runaway juggernaut of total insanity. The planet’s climate system is unraveling by the day as the geoengineers try frantically to control it with ever more desperate and destructive measures (which were a primary cause of the climate disintegration in the first place). As the photograph below clearly shows, powerful radio frequency transmissions have a profound effect on clouds that have been aerosolized by the jet aircraft spraying of toxic electrically conductive heavy metals. – See more at:



For those uninitiated in the ways of atmospheric engineering, chemtrails are but one geoengineering technique that is being systematically used by the U.S. Military.  The following link provides an excellent overview of the geoengineering/chemtrail phenomenon, as well as an exceptional photo-doc.  After all, only seeing is believing … for most people! – See at:

9:10 am

Cosby Accuser: ‘Now People Will Know We’re Not Liars Anymore’

Cosby in sworn testimony unsealed Monday admitted that he gave the now-banned sedative to at least one of his accusers and to unnamed others.“The stark contrast between Bill Cosby, the public moralist and Bill Cosby, the subject of serious allegations concerning improper (and perhaps criminal) conduct, is a matter as to which the AP — and by extension the public — has a significant interest,” U.S. District Judge Eduardo Robreno wrote. – Read more here:


7:38 pm

My perfect life:  I would be permitted to enjoy things.  I would have friends.  My parents and my brother would not be  lying-fakers.  My ex-husband would recognize that I’ve defended his family through thick and extremely thin.  I would have a boat, if I had to be here, but preferably I’d be with the freedom-fighters somewhere else.  My sons would believe in Jesus, having watched him turn our family upside down and then set it into prominence.  My ex would not be here.  He would not.  He could be in my perfect life if he believed the perfect person who tells me what to do.  My parents would not be poor, but they would also NOT BE HAUGHTY.
Josh says that my family is  afraid of me. I’ve never hurt anybody.  I asked, “I’ve given them presents, I’ve been kind!”  He said, “That would only make them more afraid.”  I suffer a FALSE REPUTATION deposited on me  by my psychopathic father and no amount of playing nice can release me.  Dad could.  God will.

6:45 pm

God says he’s never late.  My family’s perverted pretend religion is closing in.  When is ‘late’?


6:41 pm

This Gadget Hacks GM Cars to Locate, Unlock, and Start Them (UPDATED)

GM’s Onstar service offers some of the most futuristic features on any connected car, including the ability to locate the vehicle, unlock it, and even start its ignition—all from a smartphone app. But if a hacker like Samy Kamkar has hidden a small, $100 box anywhere on your Onstar-equipped car or truck, those same conveniences could fall into unintended hands.

Read more at:


Policemen from Bal Harbour Village and Glades County in Florida have laundered as much as $71 million for criminal enterprises over three years of the sting operation, rewarding themselves with a grand fee of about 3 percent of the whole sum, according to Miami Herald.

Cops under cover claimed they assisted other US agencies to arrest over 200 various criminals, but apparently failed to record suspects’ names.

Read more here:


National Geographic is the propaganda arm of Monsanto, the world’s most evil corporation

Never in a million years would people think Bill Nye “the Science Guy” — who once questioned genetically modified foods and urged against them — would declare his love for altering genes. Yet after a meeting with the agricultural biotech giant, he announced that he was going to update the chapter about GMOs in his book, Undeniable: Evolution and the Science of Creation.

Learn more:

Learn more:

Las Vegas spends nearly $1 billion to accelerate its plunge into devastating drought followed by economic oblivion

The multi-year drought that is baking California and draining underground aquifers at alarming rates is not just limited to the Golden State. Neighboring Nevada has also been greatly affected by it, and the state has just spent almost $1 billion to further its economic demise.

As reported by The Associated Press, Nevada has spent more than $817 million over six years to drill a so-called “Third Straw” to suck water from a rapidly depleting Lake Mead, just to make sure that sprawling Las Vegas can continue to obtain drinking water from near the lake’s bottom.

Learn more:

Learn more:

‘Glyphosate is definitely genotoxic,’ declares WHO scientist who authored Roundup cancer study

One of the lead scientists who helped conduct the World Health Organization (WHO) study on Monsanto’s Roundup herbicide that determined the chemical to be “probably carcinogenic” has now gone on record saying that glyphosate is “definitely genotoxic.”

Professor Christopher Portier, speaking at a recent scientific briefing on glyphosate in Westminster, London, told listeners that there’s “no doubt” in his mind that glyphosate, the primary active ingredient in Roundup, causes genetic damage that can lead to cellular malfunction and cancer.

Learn more:

Learn more:

VA hospital kills more American soldiers than our enemies

The extent of the shameful neglect on the part of the Department of Veterans Affairs toward sick veterans seeking health care is only now becoming apparent. A leaked document has revealed that more than 238,000 veterans died while their applications for treatment were pending.

That’s nearly one-third of the more than 800,000 veterans with pending VA health care applications. The figures are taken from an April 2015 report conducted by the VA Health Eligibility Center and the VA Office of Analytics, titled “Analysis of Death Services.”

The document was leaked to Huffington Post by whistleblower Scott Davis, a VA Health Eligibility Center program specialist.


Judge May Jail IRS Head

Tom Fitton of Judicial Watch – the organization pursuing making the IRS accountable – said the missing Lois Lerner emails:
“… is a stark example of the Obama administration’s contempt for a federal court and the rule of law.
“That Obama administration officials would risk jail rather than disclose these Lerner documents shows that the IRS scandal has just gotten a whole lot worse.”


Data in Clinton ‘secret’ emails came from 5 intelligence agencies

While campaigning for the 2016 Democratic presidential nomination, Clinton has repeatedly denied she ever sent or received classified information. Two inspectors general have indicated that five emails they have reviewed were not marked classified at the time they were stored on her private server but that the contents were in fact “secret.”